It’s 3:00 am.   The morning of yet another screening to see if my “friend” has returned.   I never sleep much the night before.   This week we reach a milestone.   The 29th marks one year since my last treatment.   Last year at this time was the hardest and darkest time of my treatments.  I’m still seeing the effects of the chemo and radiation to my body.   I don’t want to ever go through such pain and suffering again.   I know the Lord has blessed me on this journey and many suffered much more to even to their deaths.   I’m grateful for my outcome so far.   I’m also realistic and know that things could change and with every visit and update that change could be revealed.   I cannot help but be anxious for what today might bring.  Prayers are welcome for peace and calm.