Kinda hard to keep my faith my faith from slipping at this time.  It's got me wore down. My bladder is thinking about stopping working on me. We're trying trying to retrain it now. Kidneys r involved too. Could be tumor. I'm hoping fr tumor. A lifetime bag doesn't excite me. Since I'm homebound a lot of time to think. Fighting off infections too. But trying to stay positive. I'm on 2 antibiotics,  which don't mix..going to Dakota dunes on mon.still 2 surgeries to get ready for.damn, reading that, I feel sorry fr myself lol. Rite now I want my mama and daddy.