I really wanted tacos today(I mean being Cinco De  Mayo and all), but alas, was unable to satisfy my longing.  However, I did get a nice loaf of a take and bake garlic French bread and a glass of dark red wine for dinner - and all of the sudden, everything is "Gunna be alright.."

It's good to get centered. To come back to center. To re-evaluate what one is doing, what one's goals are, and what one needs to do to accomplish those goals.  One could say wine helps, but for me, this centering actually happened last night; so wine was no where in the equation. 

What do I want?: God's will be done

My petition last night embraced David's complete recovery, on Earth; And that his recovery would minister to many and even lead to salvation for others.

I also asked that if it wasn't God's will, then  that David's death would minister to many and even lead others to salvation in Christ Alone. 

My final request was something a counselor taught me while I was going through my divorce in 2010. "Gin" she said, now that you are going through a legal divorce, your job is to "Honor God" in how you go through that process.  Admittedly, there were things I did honor God in, but there were also other "Things" that I definitely didn't honor God. However, I do remember the counsel, and so my prayer reflected my desire and that counsel. 

"LORD, help me[and David] honor You" in the way we live out this life circumstance/trial. 

As some can imagine, and in-fact some are currently living out, seeing the health of a loved one decline is depressing. I'm not a person to "Keep my chin up". I try to  assess the situation and take an "honest look" at what I have and what I need to do.  Last night was my time to do just that. OK, this is what I see and now what do I need to do...

Where else can I go for real answers? God is the Creator, He made us. If anyone knows how to heal, it's God. So there I laid, prostrate before God asking all the questions(As stated above). 

I prayed for complete healing; I prayed for God's will be done and I prayed that God would give us the grace to walk though this "trial" in a manner that honors Him and His love for us. As I prayed that, a verse popped into my head,  "Endure trials[hardships] as discipline from he Lord...He is treating you as sons" - Hebrews 12:7. Some may not understand this, but I was actually encouraged by that verse. I've always ever wanted an intimate relationship with God. We all know that God LOVED his Son. I(We) get to take part in His plan. 

Yesterday, David was  showing signs of physical and cognitive decline. My heart almost couldn't take it.

Some at our church, Westgate Church in Plymouth, MN, gather at 0700 Sunday mornings to pray for the service. This morning they asked me for an update regarding David. I quickly explained what I had seen yesterday. We prayed. 

When I got to the hospital, about an hour or so later, OT and the MDs were already at David's bedside discussing his care and his progress. To my joy, David was actually sitting up; yesterday David was unable to hold his torso up  for long, and kept leaning to the left.  As I listened to the discussion already in progress, I was encouraged to hear that he had a peaceful night and seemed to be improving. 

I asked about the work PT and OT were doing and explained that I was doing my own therapy...PT(prayer therapy). I went on to say that I take a "Wholistic" approach to David's healing and that I believe that God uses these sciences to help in healing and that God also heals.

David walked farther in his walker today and was able to climb a couple of stairs and come back down - with help. He has lost his ability to tie his shoe again, but he gave it a solid try. I think with practice, he may be able to get that back. He also has lost considerable use of his left hand and his left leg has some spasms; PT is looking into an immobilizer to help ensure David's leg doesn't get contracted. It's a little early for a true contracture to set in, but it's a lot of work to get the leg strengthened out. 

The second day after we arrived at the rehab unit, they brought out a wheelchair and said that David needed TWO people to help him transfer. In my soul I said, "Oh NO! We are NOT going back to a wc!" Right after I heard my inner-self say that, I backed off and instead said, "OK Gin, wc are a helpful tool - don't throw the baby out with the bathwater." It was good for me to see David walk  a little more today. 

All day I've been trying to figure out an acronym that depicts the spiritual God Therapy. I came up with God-T.(GT).

Please join us in prayer for complete healing for David, God's will be done and Grace to go through this trial.