I tried to go to work today - got dressed, I was in the truck - I can do this, I told myself - backed out of the garage and just lost it - I can’t stop crying. This is 4 weeks he’s been gone. I miss him so much.  He isn’t coming back.  I’m not ready for this new normal. How will I ever be used to him not being here.  I just can’t imagine how  - he was my everything.