I want to thank all the well wishes and help from family and friends . As for updates ... no news is good news . Last doctor appt in January cardiologist was very pleased . With an EF of 50-55% ( basically heart is squeezing normally)  . Now to take those numbers in and just think from where he came  from .( 100% blocked , only bi passed three because he just was not strong enough for the other two, life vest , no heart transplant or no Inplantable devices needed .  Mind blowing . Dr Burks in the ICU told me ... I promise by the end of the Summer he can shoot some baskets with your son . He said when he met Dave On May 2nd and talking with him he would push past all of this . He said you got him here . He will do the rest . Man, he has .  November he was told he could start working .  No shift work, no over nights and have to watch the temperature 80-40 rule and watch stress .    He is doing great and exercising . We kid and joke about how he holds his arms out and joke that he won’t be able to scratch his own back . 
💪🏼“The beach is that way” I hope we can continue to kid and joke and get back into those goofy belly laughs . As my laugh this past year is rare . Im more serious than sarcastic and definitely more analytical .  I heard and I’m sorry I cannot quote where I heard this from . But if you do not love life ... it will not love you back .  I do not agree more with this statement . This year changed us all . Dave was the obvious change . He lived it. Him and Maddie were just talking about it . I couldn’t even though they tried to include me ...just did not want to stir things up . As Maddie says I’m still bitter I guess .   Me ... my hippy in me wth is the universe saying what the hell am I suppose to learn from this ? 

I was reading a book about mindfulness ( again my hippy self ) while Dave was in surgery . I got to a chapter and it says if your going through a stressful time ... now is not the time to practice mindfulness .Closed book throws it in purse . Dave came home tried it again a couple times but put it away . Well when the going gets tough I usually grab the bull by the horns and will also give a good 🖕🏼To anyone that doesn’t like it .  I think maybe why I did so well in L/D and ER ... when the 💩 hits the fan you just do. I think I even said that to a co worker this past week . I will just “ do” not even a thought . We are in a routine . And a new normal life and I think I becoming really good at modifying recipes with lower salt and gluten free . Not going to lie ... had some failures lol .  I think I need to be better writing them down lol . ( sorry mom) 

May the 4 th be with you ... we joked and hugged before him going into open heart . He seriously was his typical smart ass self . Im sitting there and could not understand how ? How ??? I whispered in his ear and joked ... you know how I am terrible at answering my phone . I said ... I’m not going to answer my phone . Please call me and leave me a voicemail .  I would listen to it every once in a while .  That voicemail was deleted by accident on an update recently . I cried . Why ? That’s stupid right? Why hold onto a voicemail . I would like to turn the cruise control off . None of us know what tomorrow holds . I think maybe just wake up each day try to do better than the day before . Think this year is all about healing . And maybe I will pick up that book again 

Hopefully will continue as no news is good news from here on out 🤘🏻💪🏼❤️