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Hi All~ As I reflect on Craig's and my life and the love we shared, I wanted to include you in some of my thoughts.
A piece of my heart has left with Craig but I know he's left a piece of his heart with me, so I can carry on and always know he's with me. The tears come daily and it's going to take a long time before they stop.
When we were first married, Craig always said and continued to say throughout our entire marriage, "Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy." That's a great lesson by which to live. Having respect for the ones you love has been the key for our lasting love and devotion. I shared the same thought and whatever made Craig happy, like golfing, made me happy. I was delighted that he enjoyed golfing almost daily. It made him very happy to be with his golf buddies that shared the same passion. After golfing he would come home and be so happy, except of course for that one shot that would haunt him!
Craig did so much more for me than I did for him. He gave me strength and courage and taught me to have patience. Patience is still a work in progress for me. As a New Jersey girl, patience wasn't in my vocabulary. He supported me through all my athletic endeavors and was always present at all my races whether it was running, biking, doing triathlons, and finally rowing. I only wanted to make him proud of me; and to see his huge smile as I came across the finish line. Craig made my hard work worth every single minute.
With his passing, he still needs to see my smile, the smile that he recognizes from happier days, the smile that made him fall in love with me. I know he understands my pain and my tears; I'm sure of that. He knows he was always loved and cherished; I know I was always loved and cherished by him. I will cling to that until we are together again. I promised him I will let my smile shine even with my tears.
Thank you for sharing my special thoughts, for it is through you, my family and friends, and of course Kiwi, that I'm able to get myself out of bed. Although I still think every morning, "It's another day without Craig, how will I get through this day", I know you are there for me, and I can count on you for love, support, and comfort as I struggle through this very sad and emotional time.
Thank you for following our journey; it means a lot to me.
With love and a smile,
Stephanie
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