It will have been seven years since I’ve posted about Courtney’s Journey .  As a parent of a deceased child, you never forget or take one breathe that doesn’t include the reflection of the lost child. I will never forget nor will my family. However, what needs to happen is to stop blaming ourselves for decisions in the past and the ability to be gentle with ourselves.

You will always feel that unimaginable pain in your heart, the loss of a child. Its not your fault, you did your best, you researched, listened to doctors that you trusted.  So, lets just stop and try to forgive ourselves for the “only and best decision we could make at the time”.

Please be gentle to yourselves as life has dealt you a hard blow that is something that you will never be able to understand but at the same and that is ok. It is. The new norm, which is so difficult.  Please know that there wasn’t one thing you could have said or done to change the outcome. 

I love all of you and will now start speaking again as there are many levels of grief, death, dealing, living and raising the hurting siblings that get left behind. 

Kind and warm regards, 

Sherry