- Romans 8:26 MSG

Chemo Eve Lucky #13

Sometimes I don’t know what to pray for except for the cancer to be completely gone. I’m so tired of these Sunday’s before Monday treatments. They are always anxious days for me. But I am more tired of the treatments on every other Monday. If I had an end plan in sight it would be different but for now this just feels indefinite.😩 We will go back to MD Anderson after treatment #14 - maybe we’ll come up with a new plan then. I need to remember that they’re working though.

Here’s another good prayer posted in my special book:

Father, how grateful I am that my life with You does not depend on my performance. Thank You for pouring out Your mercy and grace on me and for giving me peace that is beyond understanding. I am in awe of You when I consider that in my weakness and inability, Your Spirit is my knight in shining armor, my hero, coming to my rescue, talking to You on my behalf. Thank You for letting me lean hard on You during these tough times. In fact, thank You for these times that teach me to trust You.

You are my reservoir of strength and power. When my river runs dry, You wait patiently to fill me up with Yourself. Glory to You, Father! 

Today is my sweetheart’s birthday! He’s not on social media so I’m going to use Caring Bridge to wish him a happy birthday. We haven’t gotten to do the things we wanted to to celebrate since we haven’t felt comfortable leaving Linus. I am beyond blessed to have Jay as my husband and best friend. He is such a strong partner for me and I am not sure how I would walk this path without him to lean on. As he and I always say - “First Jesus.” But Jay has chosen to show me Jesus’ love every day in how he cares for me. He is with me every step of the way and when I discuss my treatment I term it “our treatment” because I know he is with me in it. He would do anything (and has) to make this easier on me. I’ve had to abdicate most of the responsibilities around the house to him because I just don’t have the energy. He also works more than a full-time job. He’s taken on so much with zero complaint. I don’t lose site of the burden this has put on him too. Which is another reason I am so appreciative to all our friends who have taken their turns staying with me and helping out to take some of the load off of him. Thank you everyone!

Happy birthday baby! I love you so much!💜