I am so afraid and I feel so alone. I hesitate to voice my fears one more time on Facebook. Everybody has their own fears ,problems, hardships and lives. I don't want to burden my family or my friends.
I am at this scary, scary, place where I can't help but wonder if my test was a mistake. I wonder if the progestrone and the incredible bleeding somehow removed the cancer cells from my body. I second guess myself wondering if I should request a second biopsy. I keep reading the outcome of hysterectomy and just like I suspected all along YES hysterectomy changes you sexually. I feel angry with my doctor insulting my intelligence. He told me your clitoris will still be in place. Yeah but you feel orgasams with your whole body including the uterus and cervix. I have yet to have shed one tear but this is the topic that might drive me too it.
Haven't I given up enough already? I can't even begin to list the losses I have grieved. I have to stay far from that list or I will start to cry and I am actually afraid I may have no way back from it.