I am giving it my best. But my best is just not good enough.

My bad days out weigh my good days. Actually I haven't had any good days. I mask my pain the best I can when I am out in public but I have become a recluse at home so I don't have to go through the trouble. Everyone says it will get better. WHEN? There is a saying to "Take what life gives you." NO! This is not the life I want. My life isn't fun and worthwhile. I wish this upon no one.

I have bad days and then I have really bad days and obviously today is one of them really bad days. My pain is real no matter how strong I may look to you. As I said, I am trying my best but I just don't think at times my best is good enough- but I will keep plugging away. So, I will watch my favorite movie, Star Wars-A New Hope. Hope is all I have.

#cancersucks