Thank you all for your heartfelt messages and well wishes within the past nine months. It’s still hard for me to believe Brad is gone. He was the love of my life and losing him has been devastating. I don’t know what I would have done without all the love and support of family and friends.
Some of you don’t know our story so I thought I would share a little. I met Brad at a holistic health class in Fairbanks 2010. We quickly discovered we were both raised in the same region South of Boston. We grew up going to the same mall/movie cinema and often wondered if we were at the same place at the same time. We also shared coming to Alaska at the age of 18 because of our love for nature and the wilderness. The first time I visited his home I was surprised to see we both had the same Thoreau quote on our fridge that inspired us: “I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived”. I couldn’t help but smile when I then noticed Brad had a large stone next to his couch from the Alaska Range, while at my cabin I had a large rock next to my couch from the Brooks Range. Then when he told me he was making apple pies for his neighbors my mouth dropped as I had just done the same thing in my neighborhood. I was attracted to his healthy contagious energy, sense of humor, kindness, sparking eyes, and his sexy deep voice😊. So when he proposed to me at Copley Square in Boston December 2013 I happily said yes.
Brad was a wonderful husband. He encouraged me to follow my dreams. He taught me how to love myself and that I was worthy of being treated with love and respect. He believed in me. I will forever be grateful for the time we spent together.
As you can imagine it’s been a rough 28 days. The sadness and grief hits me in waves, especially when I am home alone in a house full of memories. I have tried to stay healthy with frequent walks up Moose Mountain and most recently have incorporated breath work into my weekly routine. Our “inner circle” of friends have been hovering over me with all the love and support a person could imagine. Patrick Endres, Janice Chen, and Jeffrey Gordon, I will forever be grateful for your gift of friendship. From day one you were there, through the many medical appointments, trips to Seattle for treatments, and until Brad’s last breath. Your dedication has been truly incredible.
Patrick, your work on this site and filtering us from all the communications is so deeply appreciated.
Dealing with an unexpected illness is shocking and extremely stressful. Some days, although our intent was good, Brad and I were overwhelmed by people trying to contact us. I am grateful we had this platform as a means of communication and highly recommend it if anyone is faced with similar challenges and especially if you’re lucky enough to have a “Patrick” in your life.
I still need to thank many of you. Please know, at this time, when I attempt to sit down and write my appreciation I break down. It’s all still raw and fresh. With time and as my emotions permit it’s on my to-do list. I hope you all understand.
Going forward our hope is to have a memorial for Brad here in Fairbanks Memorial Day weekend 2021. This will be dependent on a vaccine becoming readily available since many will be traveling from distant lands. In the meantime the “inner circle” and I have been remembering Brad through our many conversations and by spreading his ashes in some of his favorite places in the beautiful wilderness of Alaska.
I wish you all a safe summer and happy healthy life. Please cherish each day and shower the ones you love with love.
Thank you again for joining us through this difficult journey.