Hi!!  Happy almost Spring.   It’s been beautiful out the past two days where I live. 

Im feeling a lot of emotions as this time of year is approaching.   I can’t believe that next month is a year ago already I was diagnosed with breast cancer.   What a past year this has been filled with which, anger, grief, sadness then gratitude, thankful and at times still just can’t believe it’ll and fear that never really goes away.     A year of transformation and growth.     I have incorporated some healthier life style changes although I was pretty healthy to begin with.  

Tomorrow is my 6 month routine appt with oncology.  Weird, never really thought I’d have one of those….no one wants one of those.   I have several questions.   I’ve read about a blood test that can detect floating cancer cells in the blood.   I am not taking the recommended tamoxifin prescribed for 5 years due to my hormone positive cancer.   The side effects were impacting any quality of life for me  so a decision was made to stop it.   However, this could increase my risk of recurrence.   My ovaries are still producing estrogen… is that a concern?   I’ve got my list ready.

Then.  next month is SCANXIETY.   My first scan on left side since my lumpectomy last June and a follow up on right side from a lump I found in December.   At this point they think a gland maybe but they are monitoring it.  I’ll hopefully get used to these scans as every 6 months for 5 years.   Boy the anxiety of what they could find.   With that, I am working on my positive mindset and being optimistic, however they are checking to see if cancer came back so yes, fear and anxiety.     I am leaning toward having great scans that will be normal.    I’ll worry about an alternative outcome if one presents itself.  

I ask for prayers and good vibes over next couple months.   Hopefully no biopsies needed.  A positive for me also is some friends I have met  along my journey that we’re going through there’s the same time and friends reaching out to me for comfort, advice, express there fears that have recently had their own abnormalities in their mamos.   I am here for all of them!!!❤️❤️

I have a wonderful support system and hope to be that for someone else.     

that is all for now!   I will keep you posted over next couple months.  

I do want to share on super exciting news coming up and the timing is perfect to distract me from upcoming appointments.    My household of 6 (Kailyn too) and my parents are going on a Royal Carribbean 8 night cruise April4 to the Bahamas.   There is a special agency that works with specific families called Autism on The Seas.    This affords us the opportunity to bring Justin on the cruise.   He has a 1:1 for many hours by staff as well as respite time.    I am so excited and hopefully can distract myself from upcoming scans.    I’m sure I’ll be partying up on the ship💃👙🐦🐋🍷🚢⛱️🏝️