Journal entry by Barb Rose —
In case you missed it, this is what happened last week.. 1/13/19
When it comes to fear there is often a fight or flight reaction. I hate to admit but my response is a classic flight. Tonight I challenged that. My hair has been coming out in handfuls. I thought when I got here I would be ready to rise up and take control. Instead I was paralyzed by fear and indecision and I could hardly breathe. Finally, after struggling all weekend, through tears I whispered, “ Let’s do it.” Why? Because of the support of family and warrior women who held me up. Because I wanted to have Natalie, Alex, Keitley, and Emily’s presence to give me strength. Because I realized the decision would not be any easier tomorrow or the next day. Because I knew Jim would be by my side. In the end I closed my eyes, I cried a little. But when it was over, I felt an overpowering sense of relief and calm. It is what it is. Tonight I didn’t run. I stayed to fight. I will be okay because I am lifted up by the strength given to me by my powerful family.
And I am okay!!
When it comes to fear there is often a fight or flight reaction. I hate to admit but my response is a classic flight. Tonight I challenged that. My hair has been coming out in handfuls. I thought when I got here I would be ready to rise up and take control. Instead I was paralyzed by fear and indecision and I could hardly breathe. Finally, after struggling all weekend, through tears I whispered, “ Let’s do it.” Why? Because of the support of family and warrior women who held me up. Because I wanted to have Natalie, Alex, Keitley, and Emily’s presence to give me strength. Because I realized the decision would not be any easier tomorrow or the next day. Because I knew Jim would be by my side. In the end I closed my eyes, I cried a little. But when it was over, I felt an overpowering sense of relief and calm. It is what it is. Tonight I didn’t run. I stayed to fight. I will be okay because I am lifted up by the strength given to me by my powerful family.
And I am okay!!
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