Does life sometimes not feel real? Or you feel numb to it all? But yet sometimes feel so emotional or painful? The Bible says that our lives are only vapors, so it’s understandable. Right now these are my feelings. 

So many uncomfortable days this summer, heartache with the news and reality of the tumor this September, so many painful first few days and weeks post surgery (many I hope to never feel or remember again). Still so many uncomfortable days after meals and yet so many times of feeling like it’s all a blur (and not because of pain meds, since I’ve been off them for awhile, ha). But the other day I felt really normal and it kind of felt weird. It also felt like the past 5 months had never even happened. 

Sometimes I feel like I made a big deal out of this and it’s nothing. I feel bad I even worried anyone about this, but then I remember, no, our God answered our prayers with a miracle that I’m cancer free!! The pain, the reality, the sickness was all real but so is our God! He has heard and answered many prayers and is still in the business of miracles and showing up for His children.

So while I look at my 6” scar and wonder when I can eat my desired food of raw veggies again or what I can eat (without getting sick), I know that He is still writing my story just like He is writing your story. Remember He is with us in the valleys AND the mountain tops. He is holding our hands along the journey and just a whisper or shout away!! We are all loved by Him!

I will always remember the love, encouragement, support and generosity that my family and I have received from so many, near and far, even those unexpected! 

So while we go into this season of thanksgiving, I pray you know that I’m especially thankful for each of you, your prayers, your love, that we have never felt alone in this season, and especially to be CANCER FREE!! 

Life is short and I’m trying to feel more present and more thankful than ever before. 

Happy Thanksgiving! 

Love Always,

Ashley