So I’ve been noticing that I have not been myself on these medications. I have been on more medications since this accident and I have been in my whole life combined with my family. We just don’t take medications so it’s been a lot. I also feel like I am than Moutier and quicker to get frustrated or anger. This is not me and I hate the way that my mood is and I can’t seem to stop it. Until afterwards and I feel bad for overreacting. I’m also retaining so much fluid I feel like a Michelin man. It’s so uncomfortable and I cried hard I n front of Dillon last night which to be honest I don’t like him seeing me cry as I feel very insecure. I feel like he has enough going on and worrying so much about me that these new changes are just another thing on top of it to deal with. And I don’t wanna put that on him.  Nobody feels good Ir feels they looks their best when they cry. I think just so many things have changed I was just very overwhelmed I still have people sending support and small gifts it’s been so amazing. Some come for the kids which is really cool to see them light up when they get something fun in the mail. So thank you to all of you that brighten their days and mine. 

have been on mobile lately though I may be pushing it some days. I so badly want to get back to doing the things that I did before and more independent. So I push myself unknowingly how far I can go. I do realize afterwards though and my feet just throb and ache along with the swelling. It’s weird because you would think that the injury would hurt because the injuries were so deep I don’t really have a whole lot of nerve feeling along injury sites so my entire calves, especially on my right. So my feet are the worst part they ate so bad and throbbed and then I have that neuropathy in my right foot. Especially my heel. We are trying to decrease my oxycodone and other meds like Vistaril and Robaxin but dang my feet hurt and I want to be on them because they do take the pain away. However I know long-term it’s not good for your brain to be on a narcotic.

August 16.

we went to the surgeon for a check up yesterday and it was about as I expected my open spots look about the same. So the surgeon says the quickest way to heal would be to do a re-graft. He does say that it will be a quicker surgery about an hour. We will get that completed on Monday and I’ll have to go under complete anesthesia again if I don’t do the graft those open spots will heal on their own but take about five months is what he thought. Of course I want to heal faster so that is what we’re gonna do even though I am nervous again to have another surgery. At least from what he saying it should be a day and not an overnight stay. So that is amazing. I will be back in the boot on the right side for about two weeks but as far as the surgeon knows you will not have to go back in the wheelchair as long as I continue to elevate. The first five days are the most critical. So in the short term will be a setback but should propel my healing process forward overall. I will definitely keep you posted on my progress.  Please continue your prayers for a quick recovery as I continue through this journey.