So I went to the Mayo Clinic this past weekend for my after surgery MRI. I was supposed to meet with my surgeon after the scan but he is a transplant surgeon and subject to emergency surgery at any time. I was blessed he was able to operate on me. Anyway, not being able to have him sit and go over my results was dissappointing and a bt scary. I waited and waited the next day for his promised call but it never came. I had to head home for chemo today so I couldn't reschedule. Well, he finally called today and told me my scans are clear! No evidence of disease. There is no more cancer in my liver. Wow.
It is a weird feeling. Hard to explain. I have been in fighting mode for so long. Cancer has forever changed me. Not having cancer will be weird....not bad weird, I don't want it back but wow...just wow. I will stop chemo the last week of March and just go to close monitoring. Not having chemo anymore is awesome and scary. I have been actively fighting. I have had chemo to pummel the disease. Without it, I am being passive. I am waiting. I am hoping and praying.
There will never be a time I am not worried.
But for today....today I am NED.
I will sit with that. I will rejoice in that.
I will exhale.
