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Thanks for visiting our guestbook!(This is an open guestbook. Please feel free to add an entry to the guestbook for others to read.)IF YOU DON'T SEE YOUR ENTRY AFTER ADDING -- PLEASE CLICK ON RELOAD/REFRESH Click here to sign the guestbook. Click here to return to the current guestbook. Click here to go back to the main page. hi judy i just had my first day back to work today.. and it went ok. the people there were amazing.im not back full time but hopefully it will help me get back into the swing of things.take care «♥Mitchell♥» abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca> tru, ns can - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 1:07 PM CDT Oh I wish I lived closer so I could be a member of the U-suck CLub! :) My absolute favorite restaurant is Red Lobster!!! I REALLY do wish I could have been there! :) I am so glad that you have such strong support from your friends and family. What a blessing! You have so many more friends out here that are praying for you too! I am glad you had a special weekend! I wish you many more. Love, Yvonne, Leilani's mom Leilani's Page Fernandez Family Mount Airy, NC - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 1:02 PM CDT Judy, Isn't it a shame that when people are hurting most some people take it upon themselves to try to make you hurt more. Too bad that person does'nt know you they would have found that their effort to hurt was pointless, you are much to strong to let that happen and anyone that knows you at all knows the love you have for Jules. Anyone can cry but it has to be real to mean something. This weekend was a very good time I am glad you had a pretty good time. I love being part of the "U Suck club" when is the next meeting?! Special prayers for Jarrod. Jules loved having you visit and stop to play on Saturday. Love to you darling. Much love, Hugs, and Prayers. A & D & Z Amy - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 11:58 AM CDT Hi Judy, I must commend you for the way you handled that WACKO's entry. That is truly a SICK HUMAN BEING!!! Glad to hear you enjoyed your outing at the Red Lobster. Your sister is a very special person. And the U-SUCK Club is histerically funny!! Keep your head up. Special prayers for your husband.. Kathy - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 11:37 AM CDT Wish I was there to be part of the U Suck Club - but know I was there in spirit!! Keep walking your path Judy - because it is the right one for you!! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 10:13 AM CDT Hi Judy I'm so glad that those who care for you came to show their Love & Support. I'm glad the kids had a good weekend too. You all deserve it. I had an interesting experience yesterday I wanted to share it with you. While in the park with my daughter and doggie, I saw a beautiful big monarch butterfly fly by. I remembered all the Julia-Butterfly sightings thinking (and a little disappointed) it must not be Julia because it rushed by so fast and in the other stories "she" lingered near the person she was visiting. Well to my surprise, I looked in the direction to where the butterfly was hurrying off to, and it was across from the park to the hospital. Why is this significant?.... The building was dedicated to someone named "Julia" which was in huge white letters on the building. The butterfly went directly in front of the name Julia. I had never paid much attention to the words on the building before. I thought it must have been a sign from G-D and I prayed for her and You all and thanked G-D and Julia for the Blessing. Know that you are thought of Lovingly by family, friends, and strangers ;) alike. G-D BE WITH YOU ALL!!! Paloma <mechica20@yahoo.com> ny - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 9:44 AM CDT Good for the U-Suck Club and especially the President! That really sounded like a very special gathering. I'm sure they all care about you and love you alot. I'm glad that you "enjoyed" (if that is the right word) it. I am still thinking about you and your family. God Bless! Terri <terrig@altamaha.net> Helena, Ga - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 8:01 AM CDT Hi Judy, I know how hard it is to go out again after your loss. We still have trouble going out to Elijah's favorite places. I know this is little comfort, but what helps us is knowing we will see him again, as you will see Julia. Getting back to work was difficult for me as well. My coworkers were so supportive of me, that it made things much easier. I am glad you had a good weekend, and I pray you have a wonderful week, full of friends and family. We are going to send you that book, once we are moved in to the house. We are praying for you. If you need anything, just let us know. By the way, there is a way to remove that person's guestbook entry. That was horrible, and I hope you just ignore what that person said. This is your page to remember your daughter and to vent your frustrations, and tell us all what a wonderful child Julia was, and still is. I hope that person never has to go through the pain that you have, or they would know how hurtful that truly is. I will say an extra prayer for your husband. Craig Levine daddy to Elijah <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Pawnee , IL - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 7:41 AM CDT Hi Judy, Its sounds like a wonderful weekend, what a sweet thing for your sister and friends and family to do for you!!!! ya know as I was reading the update, I couldn't help but think of Jarrod, and how wonderful it would be if guys could just release thier sadness and fears and anger like woman do,, I think maybe Jarrod needs a U Suck Club for men, I love my hubby but sometimes it would be really nice for him to have a support system like I have with my girl friends, I think we are sooo lucky to be woman, I love my friends and the fact that we can cry together over a soap opera or a Johnson and johnson commercial, or a mushy card, or Oprah,, hahahahahaha, I,m glad that we can have U SUCK CLUBS!!!!! Lucky YOU!!!!!! I hope today is good for you!!! I think about you all the time, I'm wishing that your heart gets a little less heavy everyday,,, so that the hurt will take a back seat to Beautiful Butterfly Kissed moments!!! Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury, Ct - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 7:15 AM CDT Judy, I have silently followed your journey for some time. I must say I am impressed with you as a loving mother, not only to Julia. She was very fortunate to have you by her side thru all she endured. How fortunate for the both of you to have had each other. My heart hurts for you during this time of loss, I will continue praying for you and hope for better days ahead. With much admiration......... jennifer Bainbridge Island, wa - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 1:20 AM CDT I can't decide if freak show Paula just stopped by to cause controversy or what?! It amazes me how ANY good hearted person could write such things on anyones caringbridge website, or anything at all for that matter... I do not know how you got into this website.. but you are OBVIOUSLY not welcome here!!! Families here are so brave to open themselves up... how dare anyone pass any kind of judgement on another in their position! These people deserve our thoughts and prayers, not criticism! I know darn well that these families give ME STRENGTH!! It sure makes the silly things in my life look insignificant... especially if you know any of these families. Anyone who knows even a TINY bit about you, Judy, knows the truth! People like Paula can jump off of a bridge into some deep water! I know that I can look at this site to see what incredible people are here to support you, so I need not say how awesome you are again... do I?? ;) You rock Judy! Jodi -- fabulous job orchestrating such an event that your sister more than deserved! My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and your family! Jarrod - I am sending extra prayers your way, too! Carla <carlaj@zoominternet.net> Butler, PA - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 1:08 AM CDT Dear Mrs. Levy, I am so glad you had a good day! That was really sweet of your sister to have that party for you. I hope you have a great day tomorrow. PS. Red Lobster is one of my favorite places to eat! Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 10:57 PM CDT Could that "Paula" person be the same one who was "Angie" on baby Noah's guestbook? She used a fake identity there, too, and Judy asked her to stay away from Julia's page....maybe this is her retaliation. Judy, I am so proud of you for that very calm response! She is only here to stir up trouble and you are keeping your cool. I think the best way to deal with freaks like that is to totally ignore their retarded comments. Much love & prayers to the Levy family!!! I'm so glad you had a good weekend! :-) Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Monday, October 13, 2003 10:17 PM CDT Judy, I am so sorry that these people are posting ont hese websites. You know i just found out that someone has been doing this on many many caring bridge sites and its been reported. On noahs site Noahs mom journals and explains the mess going on. Some on goes on they think all the same person and says mean hurtful things and signes someone elses name and email address to it. Or just a fake name. I just wanted to tell you because its not just you that its happening to. I do not know why someone would find it funny or wahtever to post rude ignorant things on sites of people with sick children or families that have lost a child but that is the targeted group they say. So dont take it personal. Someone is trying to get even with some girl they say. I hope this helps you. and you can read more on naos website about it. * i will say a special prayer for jarrod . and the U suck club sounds just awesome!! Kim Dale Kyle Andrew Ryan IN - Monday, October 13, 2003 10:17 PM CDT Judy --- don't let "Paula" rattle your cages... you are a fantastic mother and wife and sister and friend - and don't ever forget that. I can't believe the nerve of some people to say the things they do to people that are going thru much more in life then any of us should ever have to experience. My G-d bless you Judy - and keep you. Best Wishes and Blessings for a peaceful New Year. Jan R. Los Angeles, CA USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 9:42 PM CDT Hi Jude!! I am so sorry that I was not there yesterday. I heard that it was a wonderful time. You deserve that and a whole lot more. Even though I wasn't there, can I be in the U-Suck- Club?!? I "suck" because I wasn't there. I want to make it up to you, just let me know when. I hope to talk to you real soon. Take care and love ya!! Judy <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 9:39 PM CDT I also want you to know that I have no idea who Judy is and this is the second time I have been to this site to post something and I have emailed whoever Judy is and apolize for that post... I am so so sick to my stomach that someone used my name to post that.. YOU can ask anyone that knows me i would never post that... I hope if you do find out who wrote that you let me know.. Oh LOrd i am so so sorry.. the post at 1.30 in the afternoon i swear to you all i did not write that.. .. that is sick to me who ever did this is not me.. Judy i am going to apolize here as well.. I do a prayer chain online.. and i WOULD NEVER POST SOMETHING LIKE THIS ON SOMETHING LIKE THIS some one posted that using my email and my name they didnt get the name of the city right its spelled Stanton not Stranton,, and i never use my last night usually Paula <SweetPaula4u@aol.com> Stanton, CA USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 8:34 PM CDT I want you to know i never wrote that post i am not anything like that... I have never been to this site until now to see what you are talking about.. I am sorry but i did not write that.. that i an awful thing... someone put my name and my email address there and if you look the name of my city is spelled wrong... I am a christian woman i have no idea who wrote that but i swear on my lord and savior i did not write that... if i do find out who it was i am reporting them to aol.. again i am terrible sorry.. that is not me Paula Chudley <SweetPaula4u@aol.com> Stanton, Calif USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 8:05 PM CDT Yes Judy, It is a shame. I am glad you had a nice time yesterday. Glad you had a nice weekend. Jordan did so awesome at soccer - the blue team is glad to have him. Our thoughts are withyou all, and especially Jarrod. Love ya! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Monday, October 13, 2003 7:51 PM CDT Everyone, I didn't want to waste my journal space so I decided to write here. Jennifer wrote:Judy - I know you are plenty strong enough to let this woman's comments just roll off your back. If she thinks she's going to hurt you with her words, she is sadly mistaken. You are one of the strongest women I've seen, and I admire you so much. Thanks Jennifer. You're right. I'm not at all hurt by this "persons" words. She obviously doesn't know me and I am just so sad that there are such "people" in this world that are so ignorant and uncompassionate. I really feel sorry for her. But I thank all of you who are full of compassion. Comments like that obviously come from beings that have nothing better to do with their life. Isn't that a shame? Judy - Proud Mom of Angel Julia - Monday, October 13, 2003 7:34 PM CDT Dear Judy, "Livid" is the feeling that came to mind when I read "Paula's" entry. I had to come to your defense. Part of me wanted to write this woman a note, tell her how incredibly wrong she is, and how wonderful you are!...She doesn't have one idea, and for myself, I make it a point not to deal with individuals who don't value other human beings enough to show compassion, love and understanding, but I thought, NO!!..I'm not going to waste my time writing this woman, my time on the here will be spent in support of the Levy family..not on her!..I'm sure it would fall on deaf ears anyway. Did you see her email address? Sweet Paula??...Now, who came up with that one?..Surely no one who knows her!! Well, Paula...I will pray for God to give you some compassion and understanding. Judy, you are a wonderful Mom!...You did everything in your power for Julia, and continue to do the same with your family...be strong and supportive...do what you feel is best for your children and husband. Mom's like you just don't come along...You are one in a million!!!` Just be you....greiving in personal, and I'm so glad you had the strength and courage to open up on caringbridge. I've found in my travels that people are insensative, mindless and just plain thoughtless...They have no idea what is loving, caring and meaningful...things that you have...God Blessed you with that...!! My prayers are with you and your family.. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 7:13 PM CDT I echo Sabrina's sentiments about not wanting to do anything to mar beautiful Julia's page, but Paula, if that is actually your name (which I doubt) you must be out of your mind to write something like this to a grieving family -- OR ANY FAMILY. Rest assured, Paula, what goes around comes around. You will have to live with your vicious words for the rest of your life. Everytime you remember this incident, remember that. Go away and NEVER come back to this site, ever. Your kind, Paula, is not wanted here. Or anywhere. "anna" somewhere, USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 6:28 PM CDT Hi, I hate to taint sweet Julia's page with hateful words but I am HORRIFED ad FURIOUS at Paula's comments! There is alot of this going on Caringbridge sites and it sickens me. Paula, you need to keep your STUPID and PSYCHOTIC comments to yourself. You, my dear, are sick! As someone who lost a loved one to childhood cancer, I am disgusted at these words. HOW DARE YOU speak to this family in that way? You dont know the 1st thing about losing a sweet innocent child and you certainly dont know what LOVE is....losing a child is no laughing matter and judging a grieving mom's actions is down right repulsive. You have NO business on this page so do NOT come back. This family has their own pain to deal with and they do not need you to add to it. Little Julia, and all cancer kids, have more courage, love, integrity, and worth than you ever will sooooo find another hobby becuase tormenting families in their darkest hour is enough to have you committed ! I am furious!!!!!!! Judy, Dont let some idiot (I am keeping my language clean or I would have a few other names for her) get to you in any way..she is ignorant does not KNOW what this is like. You grieve as YOU see fit because you are a good mother who does not need this bs. sabrina <miss_sabby@hotmail.com> - Monday, October 13, 2003 6:21 PM CDT Judy, RE the remarks from Paula. I have made an inquiry to Caring Bridge (Issue No. 20031013-9). I thought they had some type of filter to check for the appropriateness of the content of entries in the guestbook. These comments were made by a very sick individual and total nonsense and not worthy of any more of our time. Still praying every day for you and Jerry. Love ya, Clare Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 5:28 PM CDT Judy- I have rarely felt hatred jump off of a page, but the words that Paula eeked out of her wicked fingers gave me the pit in my stomach feeling that comes upon me on those rare, truly and utterly unpleasant moments of unfounded judgment. Those words weren't for you Judy, because those of us who make the choice to come to Julia's site to visit, do so because of the love we have for Julia and your family and the admiration we have for you as a mother. The words were for a jaded woman bitter heart to unload onto the world. We make the choice to take this journey with you...and facing a very similar circumstance, I come to learn... You are a heroine, Judy, and your grief process is your own, it is private, it is personal, and you are brave enough to share it with us... My niece Maddie's entry of poems stirred a much greater emotion...Love!!! I was able to see Maddie's heart exposed, so I thank you too for that opportunity. You are an amazing mother and greatly respected by many, many people!!! Sara Mpls, MN - Monday, October 13, 2003 3:42 PM CDT Paula-how dare you???? Judy has poured her heart and soul out, and shared her most private thoughts and feelings, not to mention her beautiful daughter, with all of us. The reason she does that is because 99% of us who check Caringbridge sites are concerned for these children and their families. We are here to support them. What joy could you possibly derive from antagonizing someone who already has been through the absolute worst thing any parent can go through? Judy - I know you are plenty strong enough to let this woman's comments just roll off your back. If she thinks she's going to hurt you with her words, she is sadly mistaken. You are one of the strongest women I've seen, and I admire you so much. I've never had to face the heartbreak you have, so I can't say I know how you feel. I can't even imagine. But, please know that you are in my thoughts and I wish you everything good in the future. Jennifer Gilbert Coweta, OK USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 3:21 PM CDT I am completely right now so angry right now I can hardly type this comment. Paula HOW DARE YOU!!!! I'm sure I'm not alone in that comment.. Who are you? What do you know about grief and it's process. You have no right to judge anyone least of all a person who has just lost a child. No one should have to bury a child before them. It's just not the way it was to be. Who died and made you judege and jury???? When did you become the death expert..... All I can say is I hope that you are never in the postion that all these people and families are in. Everyday I THANK GOD that I'm one of those many people as the number keep growing... All I can say is keep your STUPID comments to yourself Karen Viteritti <kviteritti@yahoo.com> Florham Park, NJ USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 3:14 PM CDT Paula, For starters ,who are you? The nerve of you to judge a grieving mother or better yet to tell her how to release her feelings. You ought to be ashamed of yourself and be glad your not in her position. Judy, As for you ,continue to do what your doing, I feel sorry for people who write things like this woman did. She obviously isn't very intelligent. Plain old stupid!!My thoughts and prayers are with you! A friend - Monday, October 13, 2003 1:50 PM CDT You are a horrible Mother. How could not even cry over your own child who had your blood flowing though her. You should be the one six feet under in a box. Not your child. All you say is that you miss who yeah Right!!! Paula Chudley <sweetpaula4u@aol.com> Stranton, Calif Usa - Monday, October 13, 2003 1:30 PM CDT Hi Judy, I have not been able to write lately because our old computer would kick us off all the time, but i was able to read your updates. (happily have a new computer now!). I think of you all the time and how hard you have it without your julia. i know from what my sister, lorraine, how hard it is. it is hard for us aunts, yes, but impossible for the mommies (& daddies). along with others, i love the poem lorraine found and sent to you. man does that hit home. i'll tell you now, i am fighting these words that ppl say to me as well - my husband has a rare and inoperable liver cancer and i want to punch ppl who say insensitive things to me ... like all will be okay, meant to be, etc ... Of course, we have not given up hope either, we are involved with a clinical trial from UCLA. Judy, just know my heart goes out to you and your husband and your kids everyday. All my love, Tess ('Angel' Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <bakerbakerdt@aol.com> Fresno, CA - Monday, October 13, 2003 11:36 AM CDT Im very sorry for your loss and wanted to tell you your daughter is beautiful..God Bless!!  Carla Sellers <minx1975@comcast.net> Arlington, Tx. U.S.A. - Sunday, October 12, 2003 10:47 PM CDT Judy...Thank you for sharing the pictures of your beautiful angel with all of us. May God, your family & friends continue to comfort you and give you strength. God bless... Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com> Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, October 12, 2003 7:19 PM CDT (((Judy))) Julia really does look like she is at peace. As if she were just sleeping. So peaceful. Love to all! trace - Sunday, October 12, 2003 3:19 PM CDT A BUTTERFLY LIGHTS BESIDE US. "A butterfly lights beside us, like a sunbeam... and for a brief moment it's glory and beauty belong to our world... but then it flies on again, and although we wish it could have stayed, we are so thankful to have seen it at all." Author Unknown. Butterfly Child When I first saw you Standing in the morning dew Butterflies were dancing in your hair. Holding you seemed As impossible as a dream As I reached out to touch you, you were no longer there. How could I know That I'd ever let you go? The butterflies and you were much too rare. You fluttered away And I couldn't make you stay The call of the wild was much too strong to bear. Butterfly child You're running wild Up in the air, lovely and rare Gentle and mild. His Butterflies Too many heartaches to fathom And roads too rocky to tell But God reaches out to be our friend and bids us rest a spell He sends us a butterfly A kiss from Him A message from the sky We know not when this road will end There may yet be another bend But when we cry He sends us a butterfly He sees our every struggle And tears fill up His eyes You're not alone, you're almost Home My arms are open wide He sends us a Butterfly A kiss from Him A message from the sky We know not when this road will end There may yet be another bend But when we cry He sends us a Butterfly. Judy, these were the poems I read Julia when I saw her. I was thinking about it and I thought it may help to think about Julia's death this way: Butterflies fly away in the winter, but you are going to see them again someday. Julia flew away, but you are sure to see her again someday. Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Sunday, October 12, 2003 1:01 PM CDT Hello everyone, I just was keeping up on all the entries since I last wrote and Lorraine's poem is unbelievable. I think that author really knew something there. The other poem was wonderful also. I also thought one month, can it really be? Still seems like we will all wake up. As always all the love, prayers, and hugs we can give. Loved being with everyone on Saturday and that Jules came to play. Take care of yourself my friend and let us help. Love, Hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Sunday, October 12, 2003 8:34 AM CDT Dear Judy, My sister teaches 6th grade and lost one of her students to Lymphoma (sp). His Mom has a site on caringbridge also, and I check in now and then. She noted in her journal that there is a petition for a "Childhood Cancer Awareness Stamp" and you can sign the petition on the site. The funds used when it goes thru is to help raise money for research for childhood cancers. I thought it was a great idea, and they need signatures!...So please, anyone who reads this, please visit and sign!..Anything to help the children.. The address is http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/928701473 God Bless Judy, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, October 12, 2003 8:18 AM CDT Hi Judy Haven't written for awhile, things are just there as you know. Just want to let you know that your not forgotten. I can't forget my TW Kid. Hard to find something to write that's not being said, except lots of love, prayers and butterflies are coming across the river to Levy's. Keep up your strength that comes for God. He will not forsake you. Remember the sandprints--when there were only one set, he was carrying you to help you keep going on your journey. He will never forget you or your family, or little Julia. He has speical plans for her. She is just on light that keeps on shining and touching others lifes, through you and her web site. Have a good and restful sleep, you have to refresh your body to be strong for the rest especially Jerry. He needs you now too. Love and hugs Andrea <andreazober@msn.com> - Saturday, October 11, 2003 11:04 PM CDT We don't know each other, but I just wanted to tell you how very astonishingly beautiful Julia IS...not WAS, but IS. She is now more beautiful than ever, and someday you will be able to see her in that way again. I couldn't help but notice all her butterflies in her picture...was she a butterfly lover? My son, Ty, left me when he was 3 1/2 months old. He now sends me butterflies...I know it sounds crazy, but trust me. I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw Julia's butterflies. Open yourself to her, and she, too, will let you know she's here, if she hasn't already. She is here with you, knowing your love for her. God bless you, and be patient with your mother. I truly think God takes care of us parents first, and helps us find our peace. He'll help her, too, and so will Julia. I am so glad you are finding yourself at peace as best as you can right now. I know the days seem fuzzy sometimes and you catch yourself feeling as though you don't know which way is up sometimes, but you are doing great! Jennifer Naeger <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com> MO - Saturday, October 11, 2003 11:41 AM CDT hi judy somedays it will feel like time stands still and other times where did the time go. mitchell has been gone for 5 months and feels like forever.i talk about mitch 24/7 and i love it. when i come to your site i love reading about julia. you take care and try to get some sleep.till then god bless you abbie www.caringbridge.org/mi/mitchell abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca> canada - Saturday, October 11, 2003 10:49 AM CDT Dear Judy, Just checking on you...praying for you and your family. Not only do I check Julia's site everyday, but also other children's. Life is precious, and we don't know how much time we'll have here on this earth. It has made me slow down and smell the roses, so to speak. Judy, I don't know how painful this all is. I can't say, "I know its hard" because I don't know. You have a great family and ton's of support, which is awesome. I do know though that it can't fill the void and emptiness of not having little Julia. Lean on family when you need to, and take time for you. You need it, and deserve it. You're always in my thoughts.. God Bless, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, October 11, 2003 9:32 AM CDT Hi Mrs. Levy, I stopped by to see how you are doing. I'm sorry that things are so hard right now. I know that it has to hurt an awful lot. I don't know what to say really, but just know that I care about you and your family. I am praying for you guys. Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK - Saturday, October 11, 2003 2:30 AM CDT Noah's website www.caringbridge.org/hi/noah Levy family, You've been thru an incredibly tough month and it will take a while for the dust to settle. I pray for your peace and comfort to just get through this. Please know there are people who visit and pray for you even though we may not always sign in. Judy, keep working thru this like you have been. There may be books written on grief, but I think everyone has their own journey. May God be with you on yours. My heart goes out to you all. Ann Franklin, PA - Friday, October 10, 2003 9:55 PM CDT Hi Judy ,Just wanted to say i was thinking of you all and I hope lorraines poem helped a little. I think she should put it on all the questbook sites that she keep up with. Especially little Noahs site. Hey everyone 12 1/2 month old Noah passed away the other day and the parents really need Prayers and support. I dont know the direct link as i access it through cheyenns site. So if anyone has it could you post it.If you think the Christian Friend comment was hurtful its nothing compared to what was posted on there. I am amazed at how rude people can be. Anyway they need all the help they can get I just wanted to pass it on since i know soooo many loving people visit julias site. So in a way Julia can help Noahs family tonight! All the families are in our Prayers always. Kim IN - Friday, October 10, 2003 9:34 PM CDT Judy, Thought about you all day also. the poems everyone sent were awesome. Made me cry - ALOT! Love you! See you tomorrow. Love, Mary - Friday, October 10, 2003 9:32 PM CDT Wow! That poem is AWESOME! Thanks Lorraine, some up everything for what Judy is feeling. Judy, I have thought of you all day and called a few times but you were out and that is okay, I will talk to you soon. Just wanted to say Hello, so there it is. Love always, Prayers for You, Jerry and the kids. Hi my lil' honey bunches, missing you more than words can say. Joshua was attacked by another Lady Bug today, YOU? I bet it was. Julia, we love you so very much and hope you are having a wonderful time up in Heaven with Pap!! Honey please keep a watch over Mommy and Daddy, they need you right now. Hugs and Kisses Baby Girl!! Joshua is sitting here with me and would like to say he has a heart sent to Julia, and I will hold Harold and think of Julia everyday, and that is all. Harold is the stuffed angel that Judy and Jules sent to Nathaniel in the hospital (Thank You) that joshua decided to adopt because it has wings. Love you. Cathy - Friday, October 10, 2003 7:34 PM CDT Just a note to tell you that I am thinking of you and your family and especially of your Julia. Lorraine's poem has blown me away...so I can just imagine how it affected you. I will continue to pray for you. Terri Terri Carter Manchester, Ct - Friday, October 10, 2003 2:53 PM CDT Judy, I was think of you today when some sent me a poem for Tiffanie's Birthday but as I was reading your guestbook the one from Lorraine is outstanding.... MY AFTERMATH" Once upon a time a lovely daughter was born unto me, She brought so much joy and love till her death at the early age of five. My heart remains so heavy since that day when she died, I know it's weighted with more tears that I have yet to cry. Outwardly, I'm moving along; you say, 'that's good to see'. But you don't know about the quiet times when I'm alone with me. I think about her passing, how I'll never be the same - Sorrow is a part of my life, it enters daily as I whisper her name. Oh, yes, I smile, I laugh, and I look good each day As I carry on with my life in a facade kind of way. For behind my outward appearance, way down deep inside my soul Is the pain that's with me always, for the child I long to hold. One day passes another, the years have continued on I've had days of joy and laughter, but in my silence it's her I reflect on. I'm not the 'me' that I once knew, I changed one month ago, When life showed me the suffering and pain no one should ever know. Yes, once upon a time, a lovely daughter was born unto me, And I thought I'd live happily every after, but I can't... For what I want most can never, ever be. Author Unknown Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Friday, October 10, 2003 1:41 PM CDT Dear Judy I've been following your entry's and thought it was about time i made my entry.To let you know that you and your family is always in our heart. We've never been close but we're family and always that.My prayers go out for you ' jerry, and kids.Just as i pray for my own. As the sun comes up you see her smile as the wind blows feel her arms around you when the warmth of the sun is felt on your face feel her lips gently pressed to your cheek The day will come when rain will fall it's not missery nor is it pain,after all rain and tears they help us grow so don't be sad just smile and enjoy the show The leaves will twist and fly through the wind and the butterflies will withstadnd the wind and when the calm finally come by you all will be standing side by side and you'll relize nothing really dies . It's just sent through time by mothernatures some time surprising ride. Raeann Jones <demonseed2001@yahoo.com> MckeesRocks, Pa Allegheny - Friday, October 10, 2003 7:30 AM CDT Wow That was an awesome poem from My friend lorraine! I am Praying for you Judy and family I kept thinking of you all day today. Wondering how you are? How jarrod is doing? The kids. That poem just said it all. I hope you and lorraine can find comfort in each other. SInce your both going through the same thing at the same time. Kim IN - Thursday, October 9, 2003 8:07 PM CDT Wow, what a great poem by one of your friends... the please don't ask one. I'll bet somedays, you just want to wear that one on your shirt. My sister-in-law lost a baby and she answers the how many question,"three and one angel baby in heaven." Hope that helps. It was nice to talk with you on the phone, many many prayers for Jarr and your family. With so much going on, one more thing seems too much to bear. We'll all help as much as possible, but how much easier for you if both of you were grieving together in a similar way. Shellie - Thursday, October 9, 2003 7:24 PM CDT Hi Judy, I think you are such an outstanding woman! In the midst of your own sorrow, you are always reaching out to encourage and comfort others. I found a poem that I thought you could relate to...I sure could! Please, don't ask me Author: Rita Moran Please, don't ask me if I'm over it yet I'll never be over it Please, don't tell me she's in a better place She isn't with me Please, don't say at least she isn't suffering I haven't come to terms with why she had to suffer at all Please, don't tell me you know how I feel Unless you have lost a child Please, don't ask me if I feel better Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up Please, don't tell me at least you had her for so many years What year would you choose for your child to die? Please, don't tell me God never gives us more than we can bear Please, just tell me you are sorry Please, just say you remember my child, if you do Please, just let me talk about my child Please, mention my child's name Please, just let me cry. Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Thursday, October 9, 2003 6:29 PM CDT Judy and Crew, Been kinda out of the loop, yes you will forever have 4 children! Justine, like all have said before me, in time will understand that. Thinking of you alwyays, Michelle Michelle St Paul, VA - Thursday, October 9, 2003 12:05 AM CDT Judy, I am constanly thinking about Julia. I could sense a little angel nearby when Caitlin was in the hospital. I have a strong feeling it was Julia. Never forget that you are in my thoughts always. www.caringbridge.org/ny/caitlintaylorgunn Aleta - Thursday, October 9, 2003 10:56 AM CDT Dear Judy, It does my heart good to see that you have such an awesome support system!..Everyone trying to help in their own way...its a great thing..Most importantly, Its helping you! I love all the great ideas for the family portrait. I think it would be nice too to have someone draw a picture of Julia with Angels and Butterflies..that would be so beautiful and special. Little Julia is there with you..just not physically..portrait or no portrait. Justine will come to understand someday that you will always have four children. Like one entry said, at her age its probably black and white. You gave birth to her, so she will always be your child, even though not in body, but in spirit...she is a part of you, and always with you and your family..permanently in your heart, your baby..forever.. God Bless you Judy and your family. You have touched my heart so deeply. My prayers are with you.. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, October 9, 2003 5:46 AM CDT Thinking of you. Your in my prayers... Kasey Gunde <kasey.gunde@delta.com> Mount Holly, NC US - Thursday, October 9, 2003 1:01 AM CDT Judy, As always my prayers go out to you.I had a thought to add on to the pictures topic. WHat about going to a studio and asking if they have a background with butterflies?? That way it could look like Julia watching over you?? Evette (Mary's friend at H&F) <skyian@comcast.net> westland, MI USA - Thursday, October 9, 2003 0:31 AM CDT Dear Judy, YOU are awesome, and I am SO glad YOU are in MY life! Love you my friend! Julia, Thanks for the visits to Hannah! We miss you, and we love you! Love, Mary Pgh, - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 11:40 PM CDT Dear Judy, Just as you will always have four children, Justine will always have one sister and Jacob and Jordan will always have two. And as Justine grows she will understand that the lack of Julia's physical presence does not remove their family bond. I guess at 7 it is all just either black or white. And I think that Julia's photo in your family photo is also a wonderful idea!!!! My husband is a graphic artist and if you have any photos of Julia that you would like to add a butterfly to, you can email them to me. I wish you much peace. And will say extra prayers for Jarrod. Cindy <cschiefer@earthlink.net> Port St. Lucie, Fl St. Lucie - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 9:12 PM CDT Judy, Julia will always be in any picture you or anyone takes of someone who Julia has touched their lives. Maybe not in physical form, but strain a little, she'll be there. Christina <Hlpotter3@aol.com> - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 8:35 PM CDT Hey Sis, So many people out there giving such good advice. I like the idea of a family portrait with you holding a picture of Julia. An added touch with the butterflies sounds great too. I see you everyday and just wish somehow, someway I can take all of your pain away and make your heart smile again. I think I don't do such a bad job making you smile, your heart is just a little harder to get to. :) I wish there was so much more I could do for all of you! I know, cause I hear it from so many people that me being here is helping beyond belief, but I don't really see that cause for me, and only for me, there really wasn't any other choice but to move to Pgh. I have no regrets!! I love you with all of my heart, all of you. I pray for a blanket of calmness and comfort to behold you and Jordan, Justine and Jacob, especially Jarrod. Jules, darlin' we miss you so much honey!! Think about you every single day. We love you peanuthead. Jodi, Kyra and Cullen Jodi - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 8:35 PM CDT Dear Judy, What a traumatic day for you! I can't even imagine your pain. It's hard to believe 4 weeks have gone by and the nightmare is still so alive in your heart. My prayers continue for all of you. It has to be comforting knowing Julia, your Dad and Grandparents are taking good care of each other. She is probably telling your Dad and Grandparents what a great job you did loving her always and caring for her during her illness. Take it easy on yourself, time will heal but losing a child is the worst that could ever happen. I feel so sad for your husband too. My prayers are with you!! Kathy - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 7:48 PM CDT Judy, I can't and won't even try to imagine what pain you and your family are feeling. I won't try to give advice but just say that it's amazing you are strong enough to even journal your feelings. It's incredibly touching and you are in my prayers. You are most definately the mother of four beautiful children and there will always be four! In my thoughts, Sherry Sherry Wheeler (friend of the Fiveash family) <frogbear@worldnet.att.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 7:15 PM CDT Hello Judy and everyone. I dont know what to say to help ease your pain and heartache. You have 4 children and always will. I am sorry you have so many of these questions and things that come up that you have to deal with. It is so unfair that any parent should lose a child no matter when it is. My heart felt sympathies go out to all. I wish there was more I could do for you, I am always here. Julia visited me again today the one and only butterfly I have seen flew up to me on the back porch and fluttered around for awhile. We love you all and pray for peace for you all. Extra for Jarrod now. Love, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 3:35 PM CDT Hi Judy first of all, HUGS TO YOU!!!! maybe you can tell Justine that once you had 4 babies in your belly and now you have 4 children in your heart and thats where they will always be?? our children will always be a part of our bodies in one way or another( just a suggestion) but you definetly have 4 children. Also, I aggree with Terri ( another entry) she said that holding a piture of your precious Julia or some butterflies would be a great way to have a family portrait someday, I understand your hesitance though, I'm not sure what I would do either, just do whatever makes you feel better. Please know you are in my thoughts and heart, you and your family. with love from the Schmartz family Linda, John Austyn and Rachel Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury , Ct - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 2:30 PM CDT Hello Judy, Just stopping by to see how you're doing and to let you know that I'm thinking of you!! Liz Aranda-NM <laranda@technetmedical.com > - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 2:15 PM CDT OH Judy!! What a day, what a month...no what a LIFE you have!! 4 kids...in time Justine will understand! Still and always will be in my thoughts... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 2:12 PM CDT Your journal entries are so touching. Just stopping by to let you know I was thinking of you. You most definitely are the mother of four! Michele Winona, MN - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 1:26 PM CDT Hi Judy, You absolutely have 4 children and always will. Just because Julia is no longer here on earth doesn't make her any less your child. You will always be her mother. I pray for you and your family. I hope everyday that your sadness and emptiness can be replaced with peacefullness but I can honestly say that I don't know how. Thinking of you always Terri P.S. Maybe, when you are ready, when you feel the time is right to have a family picture taken, you can include Julia by holding her photo or wearing butterflies. You will know what to do when you are comfortable with it. Just suggestions, definetly not pushing you or telling you what to do. Terri Ct - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 1:11 PM CDT You are absolutely right that you have 4 children. It will take Justine some time to understand but she will. I don't know if you know this, but I was trained to talk to and try to help grieving people. You know my door is always open. I would be more than happy to help in any way. I haven't seen you for awhile but you know I have been thinking about you. It sucks when the weather gets cold because everybody goes into hybernation. Love you Jude!! Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 12:32 AM CDT Julia, Here is how I also answer that question since my only Tiffanie passed away. "I have one daughter in heaven". I also understand the angry feelings. My daughter's birthday is tomorrow and she would of been 18. She will have been gone two years and the angerness still returns.... Continue to take things one day at a time. Prayers Deneen www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 11:24 AM CDT Judy, Hi, it's Julie, Maddie's mom. I want you to know that we think of you and your family and pray for you all daily. Maddie has so many friends that she has made throughout this, and she really does count you and Julia and your sister among them. The fact that you continue to reach out and post messages of encouragement to so many, including my daughter, is amazing. Your journal entries are so powerful- so heartfelt- thank you for your willingness to share this journey with us. Our continued love and prayers, Julie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie Julie Dornisch Mpls., MN - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 11:01 AM CDT Judy, I have been answering the 'how many kids' question like this: I have four children. 3 here on earth, and one in heaven. Julia IS alive!! Her body isn't, but her SOUL is. And that's what makes her Julia! I want to hold my Nolan again so much that somedays I can hardly stand it. But knowing that he is waiting for me, and that one day we will be together again for all eternity, helps me get through these painful days. lots of love & prayers to you from Lorraine, mom of 4 <loralof@yahoo.com> - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 10:26 AM CDT Hi Judy, Just wanted to let you know I have been thinking of/praying for you, your husband, and kids, as always. love & hugs from "angel" Nolan's mom Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 11:20 PM CDT Hannah told me she was playing with Julia last night. I asked her if Julia was chasing her, and she said "'NO!' (like 'DUH, Ma!) We were playing in the sand box, like we do when she comes over! It was so much fun! I hope she comes over again tonight!" It really made me smile. I love that Hannah talks to Julia, and thinks of her so often. I love that Julia is finding so many ways to let us know she is okay. Love you Levys! Mary Pittsburgh, - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 9:04 PM CDT I hope your feeling a little better now, I don't blame you for feeling like it's just too much to handle. I would feel the same way... Take care and God Bless Paula (Mitch's mom) <www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy> Vancouver, Wa - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 5:15 PM CDT I don't want to pretend like I know what you are going through, because I don't. Just know that we are all out here praying for you and your family and keeping the faith that Julia will send you signs often that she is healed!! LBK Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 1:52 PM CDT Judy, I've been reading your journal entries for some time and sorry, I haven't signed before but felt the need today for whatever reason. I just want to say, It's ok. Scream if you feel like it, cry if it helps, throw something across the yard, you are entitled to all of the emotions you are feeling and the sooner you allow them to escape, the sooner you will begin the road to brighter days. Life will never be the same and you will never be same. It's all about change and it's not a change for the better. You don't have to feel good, you don't have to feel happy. Time is your enemy and your best friend right now. It's takes so long to get there but time will ease the pain though it will never take away your love for beautiful Julia. Know that you and your entire family are in the thoughts and prayers of many and God will pull you through even though it may seem as though he's turned his back on you for now. Let it out, whatever you are feeling, say it, write it, whatever you need to do, just let it go, your chest will feel much lighter if nothing else. All those emotions just keep building up and they need to escape. If you are afraid to say what you feel to someone close, email someone you don't know, (me if you would like), just get it all out. Once it's all out on the table, you can pick what you want to keep and leave the rest. You are human and we sometimes feel things that may not seem right, but they are feelings none the less and we must deal with them to overcome them. If Jerrod is reading this, I hope you too, will find a way to let it all out to begin your process of getting better. The two of you have so many beautiful memories and many brighter days ahead. It just takes time. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, God Bless You All! Trish <trishrbarnett@aol.com> Florence, AL USA - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 11:36 AM CDT Good morning Levy family, I hope the sun is shining in Pittsburgh and you feel it's warmth. When you do - know it is the thoughts of many people, including Julia, who wish for happiness and peace. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 7:38 AM CDT Judy, I was just sitting here, thinking about all of you. Decided to look at the photo album. I have to say, I still don't understand 'WHY'. I never will. I just always ask Julia to take care of you, like you took care of her. Like it or not, you are an inspiration to so many of us. I could not believe the dedication I heard on the radio today. It constantly amazes me, the ways in which Julia makes me aware she is watching over you all. I also have to tell you how wonderful your kids are. The hugs and the welcome I get from all of you are wonderful. (Jodi - this goes for you too - Kyra and Cullen greet me as if they have known me for years!) It really makes my heart sing, and was just what I needed today. It is a continuing testament of the power of your love for your family. I hope my kids can do the same for you - SOON! I continue to say extra prayers for Jarrod. Hope tomorrow will bring you a couple more smiles than yesterday. Love, Mary - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 1:11 AM CDT Judy, just a big hug and my love to you and your husband. ~Tess (angel Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker - Monday, October 6, 2003 10:28 PM CDT Dear Mrs. Levi, I am sorry you had a bad day yesterday. I hope today was better. I don't have anything really profound to say, but you and your family are in my prayers. Btw, your kids are just adorable! They look just like you! Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah (Go NSU redmen!), Oklahoma USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 10:27 PM CDT Hi Judy There is just one last thing before I hit the power button. this is from my favorite book, "The Prophet" remember the one about children? This one is about pain. We all know you are in a lot of pain now and the things in this book have always seemed to help me feel at least a little better. Good night. On Pain And a woman spoke, saying, "Tell us of Pain." And he said: Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain. And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy; And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields. And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief. Much of your pain is self-chosen. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquillity: For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen, And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has moistened with His own sacred tears. Kahlil Gibran Dean Jorgenson <deanj@cmamn.com> Annandale, MN USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 9:12 PM CDT Judy, I am sorry your hurting! it really isnt Fair it sucks and Julia should be with you. Im sorry there is such an empty void. Try to give yourslef some time. Hey maybe if you have a YMCA by you? You can swim ( good for your back) relax in the sauna and they have free child care for up to 2 hrs. You dont have to go with a friend you could have alone time and help your back all at the same time. Just a suggestion. If you need Money to join We will all help you Wont we ladies?? With this many people it would be a snap! Just let us help if you have a need. (gosh i hope i dont sound bossy) Just hoping to find a way to help you feel better. Your always in our prayers . Kim IN - Monday, October 6, 2003 8:34 PM CDT Judy, I recently saw Julia's link on another page, so I came to see...I am so sorry for your loss--she is such a beautiful little girl! i know i do not know you, but remember, Julia would want you to be happy...i know that you need time to grieve, and that is natural...i cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. remember also, even though you probably think about the fact that you want her here and healthy with you, Julia is no longer in pain, she is free. only time will heal and you all will be in my prayers. somebody once told me that the things that happen to you in life help you to be able to help somebody else who will need someone when they go through the same thing one day. GB you. kimber (http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/kimber) Kimberly Cohen <DreamNBelieve1@aol.com> Palm beach gardens, fl USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 2:47 PM CDT Judy, I recently saw Julia's link on another page, so I came to see...I am so sorry for your loss--i know i do not know you, but remember, Julia would want you to be happy...i know that you need time to grieve, and that is natural...i cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. remember also, even though you probably think about the fact that you want her here and healthy with you, Julia is no longer in pain, she is free. only time will heal and you all will be in my prayers. somebody once told me that the things that happen to you in life help you to be able to help somebody else who will need someone when they go through the same thing one day. GB you. kimber (http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/kimber) Kimberly Cohen <DreamNBelieve1@aol.com> Palm beach gardens, fl USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 2:44 PM CDT Judy, I'm so sorry that you are hurting so much right now. I wish I could take all your pain away and bring you better days again. Julia, continue to watch over Mommy and Daddy. They love and miss you so much! Michele Winona, MN - Monday, October 6, 2003 12:44 AM CDT Thankyou for sharing you beautiful daughter. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Lisa <www.caringbridge.org/va/lindsey> Va beach, VA - Monday, October 6, 2003 9:42 AM CDT Judy...girlfriend please try to find some time for you!! I know your main concern is your kids. And then add the guilt (I am guessing here), for WANTING time to yourself. I imagine that some thoughts in your head are 'how can I want time for me when this family has lost our sweet Julia?'. It's important Judy to take care of you too because the rest of the family seems to gather it's strength from you!! If you keep giving to them, chances are you will fall apart and they will be lost!! An hour or even 20 minutes to just sit outside and BE can get you started!! My thoughts go to you and your husband!! Lean on one another but respect each others need to grieve alone and in your own way!! This sure isn't easy for either of you -- or anyone in your family!! ~~thoughts of sernity and safety to let go~~~ HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, October 6, 2003 8:02 AM CDT Good Morning Judy, I did my usual morning stop by,, to see how you are, and I have to agree with you on something, sometimes you JUST can't or don't want to deal with things, but to add a little more to that, when I feel like that I just wish for it to be a year or two later, when things get sucky I think to myself ,,, how nice would it be if I could just go to sleep and wake up in a couple of years, maybe everything that was shitty would finally be easier?? I know there are much more things that you would miss if that happened, I am just saying sometimes it would be nice to fast forward through the tough times!!!! anyway, I am sending you hugs and strength, I hope you can just get through a few hours, and maybe that will help you!!!! With Love from the Schmartz Family Linda, John, Austyn and Rachel Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury , CT - Monday, October 6, 2003 6:54 AM CDT Judy, I know nothing I will say will take away the pain you are feeling. I still wish I could find the words though. I know nothing I can do will make you feel better, but I still search for something to try to help. Please, just don't forget, that I am here for you when you need me. Always. Love, Mary Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Sunday, October 5, 2003 1:22 PM CDT Hi Judy and Family, I was just checking on all of you , I wanted to say hello, and send you BIG warm HUGS!!! I think about Julia and your family everyday. Love the Schmartz Family in Ct Linda, John, Austyn and Rachel Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury , CT - Sunday, October 5, 2003 9:59 AM CDT God Bless all of you. I hope and pray you find peace. I cannot imagine your pain or feeling of being lost in this world. Just know that we all care for you even if some of us have never met you. You have become a part of my heart and although I know it doesn't help, I care. Terri <TLC2866@sbcglobal.net> Manchester, CT - Sunday, October 5, 2003 9:14 AM CDT Dear Judy, I loved your last journal entry!!..You may have thought you were "rambling", but so!!..You're getting things "out", and typing whatever you feel...and that is a good. Who cares if it goes from here to there, from this to that. Its for you, your family, your Julia..and that is all that matters!!..Go with it..whatever your thoughts.. I will continue as always to lift you and your family up in prayer. Your husband Jerry seems to be having a hard time now. I'll say an additional prayer for him. God Bless, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, October 5, 2003 8:05 AM CDT Judy - what more can I tell you that others haven't already said. You are truly an amazing woman. I am sure when you read that you think, why am I so amazing for doing what has to be done? Well sweetie, many can't do what you have done and continue to do. Somewhere deep inside you is the strength that you keep drawing on to see your choices and to go with the healthy choices. Sadly there are people who decide to fall victim to the tragedy in their lives and fail to see how their loved one would want so much more for them than tears and grief. I know that Julia is there with you, trying to wipe away tears and ease your pain. I know how much love she was given and how much she felt for you and her dad. She came from good stock so why would I think any different!! Do what you know is good for you and the rest will take care of itself. You continue to be in my thoughts... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Saturday, October 4, 2003 11:52 PM CDT I wish I knew a way to make the hurt and all those feelings go away. I pray for your family every day. It makes a person feel so helpless to know that there is nothing they can do, except to share the grief and pray for healing. I do know, and I am sure you do also, that little Julia would not want us to suffer, but to be happy until you meet again. I know this does not help much right now, but again, you are in my prayers and thoughts every single day. God Bless all of you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, tx - Saturday, October 4, 2003 10:26 PM CDT Judy, I wish so much I could make your hurt go away as well as all the other parents and sibilings etc out there that are hurting just as much. I know it is not possible but I still wish I could. Just know that we are here and love you all and pray for you all daily. Sending extra prayers for Jarrod. Julia sweetie, thinking of you daily also. Keep an eye on your daddy darling he needs some signs from you. Always here for you all. Much love, hugs and kisses. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Saturday, October 4, 2003 8:42 PM CDT Judy, I've watched you every day since sweet Julia passed. I've watched how you are handling things, the kids, life, everyone around you. You do things the way you feel comfortable. You don't want to wear makeup or put on your jewelry, fine. Those are material things anyway. They don't mean that life is fine because you look glamorous. "You can't judge a book by its cover." Even if you wore those things, it's what's going on inside that counts. I love when I see you smile especially laugh. It's heartwarming. How can you expect to have too much time to yourself when you have my kids to watch after school? You just say the word, and I'll make other arrangements for them, you know that!! Continue to listen to your heart and your Angel Julia, and take it one second at a time. I love you!!!! JulieBolieGuacamole (Peanuthead) I miss you so much darlin'. You are thought of everyday and you come up in conversation on a daily basis with Kyra and Cullen. We love you and miss you terribly. Keep watching over Mommy, Daddy, Jordan, Justine and Jacob!! Jodi <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA - Saturday, October 4, 2003 8:36 PM CDT Judy , I would honestly give up everthing my home, my cars whatever earthly possesion if i could bring julia back to you. No one should have to endure this! I would give up anything but my own kids for any of these families that have lost or are preparing ( if you ever can) to loose a child, My heart breaks ,I loose sleep. Everyone lets pray a special prayer for julias daddy right now, He seems to need some special prayers. Kim IN - Saturday, October 4, 2003 8:11 PM CDT http://www.songsoflove.org/index2.html Here is the website I told you about. It's really cool! I never thought anyone would come up with this! Bryanne Jolene Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK 74464 - Saturday, October 4, 2003 4:15 PM CDT Hello Mrs. Levy and family, This is Bryanne here, just stopping by to see how you are doing. I found this really cool website that I think you need to check out. It's called songs of love. The song writers create songs for terminally/chronically ill children and young adults. Well, I'll come back later and give you the link. I hope you guys are doing ok. That's awesome about the butterfly bush....wait...what exactly is a butterfly bush? Bryanne Jolene Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK 74464 - Saturday, October 4, 2003 4:08 PM CDT Yes your kid Julia is beautiful may she play with all other child angels sometimes life is HARD to understand take care just a dutch father of 2 young boy`s Frank <gerboer@dolfijn.nl> HOLLAND, - Saturday, October 4, 2003 3:08 PM CDT Dear Levy's I apologize for getting my holidays mixed up!...I wished you a good Yom Kippur when it should have been Rosh Hashanah!..I looked at my calendar the other day, and thought.."good going`"!..Either way Judy, its gotta be hard without your little "jiggy"... Judy, I think about you and your family so often. I don't know quite what to pray for, so I pray for peace for you and your family. I know in my heart that God has a plan for us all, but why this plan? I've read so many stories of families in so much pain because their child is suffering from horid diseases and it just breaks my heart. My question is why God??? Why?...So many kids, their parents and siblings are going thru so much agony..it isn't right...Its times like these that you struggle with your faith.. I'm glad you're looking into therapy for your kids. Sometimes they need to express things inside them, but they don't know how. You're incredible Judy...thinking of your children and how to help them. Take care of yourself too Judy...Express yourself..however you need to. I wish I had those "great words of wisdom" for you Judy. I read my entries, and somehow they don't quite convey exactly what I want to say. Know though that I am praying for you and your family. You are in my thoughts.. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.,com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, October 4, 2003 7:06 AM CDT Hi Judy, I couldn't sleep, and I kept thinking about you guys. I haven't written in a while, but you are always on my mind. L'Shana Tova! My prayers for you are for a Happy and a Healthy one! I hope you still know I am always here...24/7... I made a promise to you that I was going to stop by and pick up my order, and I intend on keeping that promise! We've just run into some obstacles here and I can't get away at the moment. But I am with you in heart and mind. I love you guys and can't wait to see y'all again. Miss you Jodi.... All my love, to you, Jer, and the kids, Angel Julia, you are always on my mind, and in my prayers. I hope you are happy and at peace sweetheart. Ami - Saturday, October 4, 2003 2:48 AM CDT Hello Judy and family, I linked to your page from Leilani's guestbook. I read through some of your entries and my heart just broke all over again (if that's possible). My precious daughter, Adrienne, left us for Heaven on Jan. 15th of this year. The cause was a tumor that we were only aware of for three days. My oldest surviving daughter went to two bereavement camps this summer. One was sponsored by our local Hospice organization. I hope you can find the help they need. Maybe there's a Compassionate Friends in your area too. It's difficult carrying not only my grief but my children's as well. You are in my prayers. Adrienne's mom, Nichelle: http://www.caringbridge.org/tx/adrienne <rejoice_first_lady@yahoo.com> Cedar Park, TX USA - Friday, October 3, 2003 10:27 PM CDT Hi Judy and the J crew, Hope all is going well for you today, just thinking about you as usual. Nathaniel wants his Judy that is so funny, he is really attached to you. It is wonderful!! Your a great person, and he knows that the other 2 also do, but you know them they are kids to themselves HA HA...Well just wanted to say Hello to you and see how you were doing. You know I am here, not going anywere!! Love Ya.. Hi Angel Girl, sending lots of xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo We love you too. Cathy - Friday, October 3, 2003 9:22 PM CDT Hi Judy, Thinking about you and praying every day for you, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine and Jacob. Love, healing, peace and blessings, Clare Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, October 3, 2003 5:02 PM CDT Dear Judy, I do not know you and your family but have followed your journey after being led to your site from Maddie's. I haven't signed your guest book in awhile and I think Julia is telling me I should be leaving messages for you when I'm here. She's been very persistent. It's too cold here in Minneapolis for butterflies to visit flower gardens this week, but Julia visits anyway. Last Saturday I took my son Adam to the zoo and we saw the most beautiful blue butterflies in one of the gift stores. Then on Tuesday night, I had to run to the hardware store to pick up a hinge and there in the midst of all the nuts and bolts was a beautiful bright blue butterfly garden stake. Finally, yesterday after work, Adam and I were at Target browsing through the Halloween costumes and at the very end of the row of costumes was a beautiful pair of blue butterfly wings! I like to think Julia sends the butterflies to remind me to stop and see the beauty in all little things, especially children, and also to remind me that although she no longer needs my prayers her family does. And so every time I see one of her little butterfly reminders I say a prayer for God to continue to hold your family close to His heart and to send the strength and courage you need to go on together. I also pray for the emptiness in your hearts to someday be filled with only the happiest memories of your beautiful daughter. Lori Licht, Minneapolis, MN - Friday, October 3, 2003 8:48 AM CDT Hello Judy and Crew.... just dropping by to see how you are fairing. Still praying for you and your family... As always, Michelle Michelle Phillips - Friday, October 3, 2003 7:54 AM CDT Judy, Hey there! How are you doing? I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you and your family this morning. Sending my prayers and thoughts to you and your family. God Bless. Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com> Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, October 3, 2003 7:09 AM CDT Hi Judy, I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and praying for you....it hurts like crazy, I know. with love from 'angel' Nolan's mom Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Friday, October 3, 2003 1:27 AM CDT Tears streaming down my face after reading todays journal. Judy Your amazing to me, especially that your so kind to share julia with everyone. And share your feleings with us.so many people who have never met you feel like they know you and sweet julia, She is absolutely so beautiful She actually looks like an angel. Your whole family actually is so good looking. If julia has a twin out there i saw her today at a flea market. i was in such shock at how much this little girl looked like julia. It made me smile and sad all at the same time. I pray for you all the time. How is your husband and the kids doing? Kim In - Thursday, October 2, 2003 10:32 PM CDT Judy, Just stopping by to say hello and that we are thinking of you all. Always in our hearts and prayers. We are here for you all. Can't wait to see the butterfly bush. Julia, just remember you must still visit in my yard too sweetie. Much love, hugs,and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Thursday, October 2, 2003 9:37 PM CDT Judy, just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. You and your family are always in my prayers. I know that Julia is one of the most beautifulest angel in Heaven. Darla Castle <sweetsayings@yahoo.com> Dallas, TX - Thursday, October 2, 2003 7:01 PM CDT Judy and family, Thinking of you as usual. How sweet of your friend to plant a butterfly bush. I'm sure Julia is flying around your home everyday . I'll bet she is the prettiest butterfly too. Glad to hear your looking into counseling, it will be great for all of you. I had alot of success with the Caring Place when we lost our loved ones. You are truly amazing!! G-d bless all of you! Kathy - Thursday, October 2, 2003 6:20 PM CDT Judy, It's going to be so wonderful to see Julia and all her Angel friends come and visit you. I know that there is a sweet Angel named Zach up there with her, he's such a cutie, he passed on Sept 14 if you would like to visit his site it's www.caringbridge.org/nm/zach, I feel like Misti (his mom) and you can give each other support that some of us can't. Just know that I think of you and your family, and even though I don't know you, you've made a deep impact in my life and I appreciate you sharing Angel Julia with so many of us. Praying for you!! Liz Aranda-NM <laranda@technetmedical.com > - Thursday, October 2, 2003 4:15 PM CDT A butterfly bush, what a beautiful idea! I bet Julia has been to see it with all of her friends many times already. Still thinking about you all everyday. Michele <mash128@hotmail.com> Winona, MN - Thursday, October 2, 2003 10:58 AM CDT Still thinking about you!!! Prayers and Hugs Deneen.... Mom to Tiffanie Salvadia Forever in God's Arms www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Thursday, October 2, 2003 9:04 AM CDT Judy - awfully glad you are still journalling here and letting us do whatever we can to help. They may be words but if we could each send hugs and kisses -- you would want to escape from them!! Therapy will be helpful for the kids -- may not hurt mom and dad either! My feeling has been that it can't make it worse so it can do nothing or it can become better!! You have many ears and hearts willing to listen... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, October 2, 2003 7:17 AM CDT To the "J"'s and their extended family, too... I will admit that I do not know what to say nor do I know exactly how you feel. What I do know is that my thoughts a prayers go out to you daily! I feel so very blessed to have known Julia and Judy and Nan, even though it was in the hospital. The strength shown by all of you is very inspirational for me and I feel so lucky to have known you all. Daily I would ask Julia if she missed me - and daily (wearing her Blues Clues hat) she would smile her incredible smile and shake her head NO!! Well, dear angel - I still think about you often, and I do miss you!! Carla Jacobs <carlaj@zoominternet.net> Butler, Pa US - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 11:15 PM CDT Judy, Glad we were able to get the butterfly bush planted today. Hope you start to see lots of butterflies on it soon. Julia, Not a day goes by that Hannah does not talk to you, and, of you. We miss you bunches little Angel. Mary & Hannah Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 10:08 PM CDT Dearest Judy, Just stopped in to send my love to you and the family. You are always in my thoughts. Love you sweetheart. Peg Peg Smith - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 8:58 PM CDT Dearest Judy, I only followed Julia's page shortly but I am glad I came by here to "meet" your beautiful daughter. I read through her history at the time and a lot of the guestbook. Julia was very courageous and BEAUTIFUL! I too use Katia's page as a type of therapy for my feelings. I am not really a phone type of person so I update for everyone on Katia's page but at the same time it is a journal for me to look back on and a way for me to express myself. There have been times that people have come by and left messages that just didn't do anything but make me feel bad but like your guestbook, most entries are so encouraging. I think that is great that the person came back and apologized. That is very sweet. I really pray I never have to face what you are feeling but from hearing others speak of their losses, I can't imagine how hard this all must be for you. Just know that you are in our prayers and Julia will live on forever in a lot of peoples' hearts. Love, Tracy ~~Katia's Site (Leukemia AML-Relapsed 8-26-03) Fighting to win!!!~~ Tracy and Katia - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 5:49 PM CDT Dear Judy, I, too, journal on my daughters page as "therapy." It really does help to be able to sit down and focus your thoughts and feelings and make sense of what we are feeling. Sometimes I feel that there are so many thoughts and emotions swirling around in my head that I can't think straight....journaling helps up to understand what we are feeling better. I can't tell you how many times I had "revelations" of my own feelings as I was putting it into writing. It also helps sometimes to see that other mothers are going through the same feelings as we are...and we are not crazy after all! :0) It really helps me to be able to share with other moms that know exactly what I am feeling. You really CAN'T know what it feels like unless it has happened to you. As mothers, we can imagine what it would be like to lose one of our babie's....yet the pain of missing our sweet babies is completely indescribable. The only thing that comes to mind for me is "NO GREATER PAIN"...for there really is NO GREATER PAIN. You know that. Please know that you have alot of "e-friends" that care about you. You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. I pray that He fill you with peace and heal your broken heart. With much Love in Him, Yvonne Fernandez, mom to Leilani (7/9/93-7/25/02 also to BSG)Leilani's Website The Fernandez Family <yvonnengzs@rjia.net> Mount Airy, nc - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 2:09 PM CDT Afternoon Judy and crew, I started to say, hope all is well, I know that it isn't. I know that ya'll are still trying to heal just know that I am thinking of you, praying for you and wanting you and your family to NOT HURT anymore. Take care sweetie.... Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 1:35 PM CDT I have read your journal and want to send only prayers and wishes for healing and peace. I lost my mother to Leukemia and still miss her every day but can remember and smile.I hope your memories of beautiful Julia come to bring you a little happiness daily. I always tell my daughter "We are always in each others hearts". Julia will always be in yours. You seem like amazing people and I just want to say I admire you all for your strength. Lisa - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 11:07 PM CDT Hello I have not signed in a little while because I have talked to you almost everyday. But I am thinking about you and our lil' angel above right now and got on to see her beautiful smile. I am so glad you are still writing because it is great therapy for you, I can see that!! Hope to see you tomorrow, and little jakey MAN!! Anytime I told you that a thousand times..actually more. SMILE..I truely believe Julia came into my life for a reason. She brought us close together again and I am so thankful for it everyday. I dont every want to lose touch for any reason every again...Thank you Angel Baby. Julia, Honey Bunches we all miss you more than words can say. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you or look at my mantle to see your beatiful Smile. Joshua misses you so much, He talks to you every night before bed, gives me butterfly kisses for you and prays for your and your Mommy and Daddy. He is an awesome little guy and please watch over him for me. We both know how much trouble he can get into. You are always in my thoughts Good Night Angel! Love, Hugs and Butterfly Kisses sent to you above.... Cathy - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 10:29 PM CDT obviously it's slowly but SURELY, not shortly....oops Jodi - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 9:39 PM CDT Ok everyone, let the "Christian friend" be. The damage has been done, the apology has been said and my sister has accepted it. 'NOUGH SAID!! Judy, you're just being you. No martyr, not someone that's incredibly strong and can handle anything/everything in the world....you're just you. I am very proud to call you my sister, my twin (even though I am the cuter one) :). I am even prouder to call you my bestfriend and I can't tell you how much it means to me and obviously to you, that I am back home for you! Just keep taking one day at a time sweetie, and you'll get to where you need to be. Slowly, but shortly! I love you!! Jodi - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 9:11 PM CDT Judy, I like how you're signing your entries as the Mom of Angel Julia. Just wanted you to know that you're doing a great job throughout this as the mom of Jordan, Tine and Jacob, too. Shellie - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 7:27 PM CDT Dear Judy, If reading your journal entries and crying with you can in any way help, please know that I'm doing both, earnestly! My heart aches for you and your family. Julia was precious, and I'm thankful for your beautiful pictures on this website so I can picture her and you in my thoughts! Hang in there, and keep writing whatever you are feeling!!!!! Lori Clanton, who believes in the healing power of mint chocolate chip ice cream! <gotchaej@yahoo.com> Fresno, CA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:56 PM CDT Judy, I can't even imagine what you are feeling or going through. If I even try I get so upset and sick feeling that I have to stop. Feel what you need to and please remember we are here for whatever you need. Thinking of you daily and hoping for some calm and peace in your life. Love, Hugs, and Prayers!! A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:36 PM CDT Dear Judy- I enter this fray over the words from “Christian Friend” in hesitancy. I do think they meant well but did not choose the best words or expression. I can tell you honestly that I love God and take Scripture very seriously. I can also tell you that when my daughter died…I turned to God in a furious rage. But God is so gracious. It is now 16 months after her death and while my heart still aches, God has drawn me near and I am no longer angry. In pain yes, but angry, no. In fact, God has given me new dreams, new purposes, and new reasons to live. But I clearly remember that raw pain. Anger and rage is a sign that we have been deeply, deeply wounded. And I’m sorry, but the death of a child is perhaps the deepest wound known to mankind. Also, God is in complete control. God giveth…God taketh. So that guest book signer was not correct. Cancer killed Julia’s and Gabbie’s earthly bodies; but God took them. Yes, God took our children for reasons we may never know in this life. But I now trust that the reason Gabbie left too early is all for good. God takes the deaths of His saints with utmost seriousness. So He would never leave the timing of that death to anyone else. God bless, The Paquette’s: Monica, John, Aubrey, Saint Gabbie, and Noah Gabriel (www.caringbridge.org/mn/gabrielles.prayers) Monica Paquette <mj.paquette@worldnet.att.net> Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:29 PM CDT Just so you don't have to scroll down here is Sue's very sweet apology letter... Judy, Family & Friends of the Levy Family, I just need to say I am so sorry that my guestbook entry caused so much pain. I Promise i didnt mean to ever do that I was Honestly trying to give some Helpful Advise. After re reading it I see that it could be taken so insensitive And even Cruel. How Dare I Cause you any more Pain It really was not intended. I am Deeply sorry. I hope in time you can forgive me. Feel however you need to feel. I personally feel just awful about it.Judy I am so very sorry.Enough said i dont want to ruin julias questbook anymore. Sue - Monday, September 29, 2003 3:09 PM CDT Danielle Los Angeles, CA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:24 PM CDT Hi Judy, I visit Julia's site every day. I start to write and I stop and cry. I awaken at night thinking of you and Julia. I want so to take your pain away. You know everyone who writes in the Guestbook wants to take your pain away. We love you. I'm angry too. I've started to go to other children's sites. There's so much pain among all these children and their families! I looked for answers in spiritual books. Why did this happen? Why does it continue to happen to others? I think we all know -- there are no answers to these questions. Oh, I found some philosophical remarks, but I didn't feel comforted so I didn't think you would feel comforted either. I loved that you said you had mint chocolate chip ice cream in Julia's Dora dish. I think you are on to something here -- healing takes many forms. Judy, I know you are smart, strong and courageous. I respect your ability to regain your spirit; that is, to resolve your crisis in your own way, on your own time schedule and on your own terms. Meanwhile, you are in my prayers always. Yeah, I'm having a little problem with G-D myself right now, but I've tried it alone without Him before and it didn't work so good, so . . . I will continue to pray for you. Love, peace and blessings to you and Jarrod Clare Stawson <m60cs@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:21 PM CDT Levy family, As Christians, Jews, whatever we forgive...Sue has apologized for her "Chrisian Friend" entry and I think it's only appropriate that everyone move on. She regrets it and was courageous enough to own up to it. I didn't agree with her entry either, but I have alot of respect for her because she apologized. Thanks Sue and Levy's...you are in my thoughts and prayers. Julia was and still is absolutely beautiful and so couragous Danielle Los Angeles, CA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:21 PM CDT I just wanted to stop by and see how you are doing. It seems like you are doing pretty well under the circumstances. I have the upmost respect for you and what you are going through. It is my worst nightmare to lose my son who also has a brain tumor. Paula (Mitch's mom) <www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy> Vancouver, Wa - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:18 PM CDT Judy, I know that there is nothign we can say or do, to help you cope with the loss of your beautiful Julia. I cant imagine the pain you are going through. Take all the time in the world sweetie. She was/is your BABY, and no one coudl ever take that away from you. I am frustrated that some comments were to move on...Its only been 3 weeks. I am very good friends with a mommy who lost herlittle girl 3 years ago. And while the pain sometimes subsides, it is forever a hole in your heart. Please do not give up hope. And know that so many of us out there are supporting you. Love Nancy Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com> - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 3:37 PM CDT My thoughts and best wishes are with you and your family. My daughter was diagnosed with cancer 2 years ago. I am still angry with God and resent hearing all the cliches about not being given more that you can handle and about God's overall plan. Childhood sicknesses, suffering and death make no sense and cannot be explained away. I am so sorry for your loss. Kathy <Klenc@aol.com> Clarkston, MI USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 1:18 PM CDT Judy: As a mom I can't imagine what you are going though but I do hug my baby a little tighter when I think of you and Julia. I too struggle with why God takes the babies, it makes no sense to me either. I copied the following from Marissa's Caring Bridge page, I know you know she got her wings the week after Julia. This helped me a little and if you haven't seen it I hope it helps you too. Little Angels When God calls little children to dwell with Him above, We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of His love. Perhaps god tires of calling the aged to His fold, so He picks a rosebud before it can grow old. God knows how much we need them, so He takes but a few To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view. Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try, the saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye". So when a little child departs, we who are left behind must realize God loves children, Angels are hard to find. Debbie Ca US - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 12:42 AM CDT Dear Judy, You have been in my prayers, but I haven't written since Julia got her wings. I just haven't known what to say. As a Christian I believe that God is all knowing, all powerful, and all loving. No, he didn't take Julia from you, but it happened anyway and that just doesn't make any sense. I don't pretend to understand why this happened, but I believe you have every right to be angry, hurt, bitter, frustrated, confused, and about a million other things. I also believe that in time this will pass, but right now I'm sure it doesn't feel like it. So in the mean time, grieve in whatever way YOU need to. I know you must feel like God let you down, and I think God understands your anger - he knows what it's like to lose a child. I don't know why this happened, but I know God loves you and your whole family. He's probably chasing butterflies with Julia right now. Teresa Stawson <T76539@aol.com> Suffolk, VA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 11:37 AM CDT Judy, Thinking and praying for you and your family. I am sending you cyber hugs to tell you what you are feeling is normal. My Tiffanie passed away two years ago and although the pain, anger and other emotions are still there these horrible moments do get further apart. The pain never goes away but it does ease. Continue to take one moment at a time or one second at a time when the pain gets almost unbearable. Love Deneen Mom to Tiffanie Forever in Heaven www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 11:09 AM CDT Good Morning Judy, Just making my rounds on "my kids" I've gotten so attached to so many kids and their families, I feel like I know you. Butterflies have never been so significant in my life, I think of Julia always. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Liz Aranda <laranda@technetmedical.com> Artesia, NM - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 9:34 AM CDT Judy, Just checking in on you today. I think of you and the other families that have lost a precious child often. As to the controversial guestbook signing, I was trying to not say anything but it keeps coming up. I agreed with much of it but the way it was said maybe didnt come across right. I feel that the person was only trying in there own way to help. I do not think anyone would purposly cause you any more pain. And ive noticed the Christian friend has apologized deeply. This site is for The Levy family and Julia. People Move on from the Christian friend entry Judy needs Not to be reminded of it in every entry. Just an observation i have made. We are Praying for you and your family always! Kim - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 8:59 AM CDT Continue on as you have done! Nothing anyone says can make the pain go away - but words sure can hurt. Unfortunately, posts don't always come across the way they should an 'a christrian friend' no realizes how she affected you and feels bad for it. You have always travelled the high road... Judy - missed you lately. Minor emergencies going on at my house. My son was stung by 11 bees on the weekend. Ahhh..scary but he is fine and I am grateful. You are in my thoughts still and know that everyone loves you and supports you. Everyone is trying to do their part to help, sometimes we do the wrong thing, say the wrong thing and just mis-step...but the love is there!! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 8:41 AM CDT Hi Judy and family, I was just as floored by the "christian friend" entry as everyone else. I've been taught that God is omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent. I'm pretty sure He can handle anger. In fact, I'm pretty sure that LOTS of the Old Testement is filled with folks crying out to God "WHY???" He made you...He can handle your feelings. He knows about them anyway so there's no point in trying to act like they're not there just to pacify someone else. With that said, I'm so happy that journaling is an outlet. You certainly need one. Your journal has brought a wonderful little girl named Julia into my life and for that I thank you. God Bless you and your wonderful family! You are in my prayers. Suz Susan King <suznk_01@yahoo.com> All over in an RV, USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 1:10 AM CDT Hello Mrs. Levi, This is Bryanne, just decided to write in your guestbook and say hello. I hope your day went well. I am also a Christian, and even though I agree with some of what the "Christian friend" said, I don't think it was right of them to post that in your guestbook. This is a difficult time for you and people need to have respect for that. People should show compassion for you and your family. I wondered why you addressed God as G-d, and I know why. I think that's kind of neat. Never thought of it that way before. So does your family celebrate all of the Jewish holidays like Hannukah (sp?), Rosh Hashanah (sp?) and Yom Kippur? That's neat. We had this thing at my school last Tuesday for Rosh Hashanah at the Wesley Foundation (which is the methodist organization, funny enough). I didn't get to go because of homework constraints, but I heard they had lots of good food there! I was wondering, could I put a memorial page to Julia on my website? I started one, but then I realized I had better have your permission first. I like to make memorial pages for people; I have a small one for a girl named Ashley O'Rear and then another one for my grandmother. But if you don't think that's a good idea, then that's fine. Well, it's late and I have to get going. I hope your day went well. You and your family are in my prayers. Bryanne Weaver (Go Redmen!) <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK USA - Monday, September 29, 2003 11:55 PM CDT Hi Judy - I know what you mean about being angry with G-d. I have been there many times - and it has gone away for the most part. I remain frustrated at times but accept reality for what it is, as you seem to have done. Still, anger exists and it comes up every now and then. Only mothers who have seen their children suffer like that and have faced the mortality of their own flesh and blood could understand. Who prays more or harder???? Of course we call on G-d! Our lives were thrown upside down the day that our babies were diagnosed with a brain tumor. To add more pain, even doctors have no cause or cure. (((HUGS))) Tami (Celeste's mom) (Celeste's site) <blessingsbyceleste@hotmail.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Monday, September 29, 2003 11:21 PM CDT dear judy dont ever let any one tell you are you are feeling or what your doing is wrong. i made mitch`s site after he had passed and its a great healing for me.i take comfort in writting about mitch.judy you go at your apce no one grieves the same . just like me im not even back to work its so hard being around people some days.im proud of you speaking up. abbie www.caringbrige.org/mi/mitchell abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca> truro, ns canada - Monday, September 29, 2003 10:15 PM CDT Thinking of you all, always! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Monday, September 29, 2003 8:27 PM CDT Dear Judy.. I was floored when I read the "christen friends" entry. That is not what this guestbook is about. Its therapy for you, its supportive people, its caring and love...things that God are about. I've said this before, everyone grieves differently, and you are entitled to to grieve in anyway you feel. Enough said, this is about your family and Julia. I love reading your journals Judy and I'm glad you are continuing with it and that it is a good release for you. There are so many people who support and love you and your family; it is so awesome to see it!...I still believe there is good in everyone, deep down...and I've witnessed that reading your guestbook. You have such a support system, not only on here, but your friends. I'm glad they got you out of the house for dinner the other night. Its good to just get away sometimes...clear your head a little. I'll continue to pray for peace for you and your family. You are a true inspiration to all Mom's Judy!!!....God Bless.. Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, September 29, 2003 5:49 PM CDT Hi Judy, Don't let anyone tell you how to grieve or who to aim your anger at. I just pray for your family to find peace someday. I have no idea of how much you hurt and how you feel, I can only imagine and then I know I fall short. You are an amazing person and an amazing Mom. I truly wish there were magic words to make everything better but I know that I can't help...I can only be here to listen. Someday when you think of your beautiful baby girl maybe you will be able to smile through your tears. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Just remember that we mean well even if some try to lecture you instead of supporting you. Terri Manchester, CT USA - Monday, September 29, 2003 3:11 PM CDT Judy, Family & Friends of the Levy Family, I just need to say I am so sorry that my guestbook entry caused so much pain. I Promise i didnt mean to ever do that I was Honestly trying to give some Helpful Advise. After re reading it I see that it could be taken so insensitive And even Cruel. How Dare I Cause you any more Pain It really was not intended. I am Deeply sorry. I hope in time you can forgive me. Feel however you need to feel. I personally feel just awful about it.Judy I am so very sorry.Enough said i dont want to ruin julias questbook anymore. Sue - Monday, September 29, 2003 3:09 PM CDT  I was thinking of Julia today and remembering that sweet, beautiful smile... Many prayers from a Catholic friend who thinks your family is awesome!! Thank you so much for allowing us into your lives and letting all all know and get to love Angel Julia.... Kim ~KODYS STORY~ - Monday, September 29, 2003 2:13 PM CDT Still thinking and praying for your family. You take all the time in the world and do what you need for yourself and your family. Don't listen to anyone else! :-) Michele Winona, MN - Monday, September 29, 2003 2:01 PM CDT Hi Judy, So sorry you ran across a person being stupid on this site. You and your family are so precious. You have our support and everyone else on here. Please know you are all very loved. I keep seeing more and more butterflies. Thank you for sharing your family with us. Julia is still so very loved and I know she can still feel your love. :-) G-d bless you all and my prayers are still with you. Love, Jenni Jenni McClung <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO 64068 - Monday, September 29, 2003 1:15 PM CDT Well I am a Christian and a Mother. I have no idea how I would even begin to handle the death of my child. I don't know how I would feel towards other people or towards God. How can any of us give any kind of advice unless we've been there???? I believe that you have to grieve in your own way, and I believe that God will give you the strength to make it. I pray that God will give you the peace and comfort that you and your family need desperately. With sincere sympathy- Terri Helena, GA - Monday, September 29, 2003 12:47 AM CDT Judy, I hope all is well with you and the family. Julia is always in my thoughts. I will check in later. Aleta and Caitlin www.caringbridge.org/ny/caitlintaylorgunn - Monday, September 29, 2003 12:25 AM CDT I just found your site today and I am so sorry for your lost. Your daughter is beautiful. I read your guestbook entries and it breaks my heart to see a entry like that. I really don't think that is what CaringBridge is all about. So I also wanted to let you know just in case you did not know you can delete that negative entry and put it in the trash where it belongs. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. mary gross <marytaggart2000@yahoo.com> clarksville, in - Monday, September 29, 2003 12:24 AM CDT Mornin Judy and crew, Just wanted you to know I am still praying for strength and a clamness to be with you. I think of you everyday, Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips St. Paul, VA USA - Monday, September 29, 2003 11:42 AM CDT Good Morning, I hope you had a good weekend. I just read "the guestbook entry" and how dare anyone critize you in your time of loss. I'm wondering if this person has ever lost a child, I could never imagine and don't even want to. I hope that you continue to journal, I look forward to it everyday. Thinking and praying for you and your family!! Liz Aranda <laranda@technetmedical.com> Artesia, NM USA - Monday, September 29, 2003 10:07 AM CDT Hi Judy and Family Happy New year! My son is doing a butterfly experiment at school. They have watched them crysalis sp??? and now they are tagging them and seeing where they go I think they are headed your way Kim IN - Monday, September 29, 2003 8:40 AM CDT Hi Judy and Family HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! to you and all your family!!! I hope this New Year will bring you peace. I just want to thank you for sharing your most personal thoughts with all of us, as a mother, I feel your pain and anguish, I have lost a brother and a mother and grandparents, never a child, so I know the pain, and hurt and anger and emptiness is not to the same degree, but I feel for you in my heart, and it hurts for you, I come to Julia's site every morning to see how you are, I have to say that I think that you journalling will help you out, it lets us talk to you and hopefully help you heal. Being angry at G-D is ok, in fact you have every right to be angry at him, it pisses me off to no end that people who kill other people, and molesste little children, and do other really bad things are aloud to walk this earth and they get to live and be healthy, and beautiful, preacous children get taken away from us with horrible, painful deseases, they say that G-D has a devine plan for all of us, but how is that devine? children who have barely started their life get taken away from their mommies and daddy's and bad people get to live and torture and kill people? I don't understand, and I know I never will, and I also know I am right there with you when you are wondering why Julia? why would G-D do something like this?? that is something only you will ever be able to be at peace with, in your own way. But you have all the right in the world to feel like this. I wish I could take your pain away and make things better for you!!!! Love to you and your family The Schmartz family in CT Linda, John, Austyn and Rachel Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> CT - Monday, September 29, 2003 7:51 AM CDT As a Christian myself I can completely understand how Judy is feeling. I dont know one person, Christian, Catholic, Jewish, Hindu or whatever religion, that hasnt at some point in their life been angry with GOD (or G-D) when something horrific happens in their life. And what can be more horrific than losing a child??? As Christians we are taught to understand and comfort others, not judge others. GOD himself doesnt judge, he forgives and understands! Anita Pgh, PA - Monday, September 29, 2003 6:37 AM CDT Hi Judy, I just wanted to thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with all of us...and I'm so sorry that you have been criticized at this most difficult of times. I hope that you won't let that influence what you write in your journal. I know it's been a great place for you to vent, which will help you to heal...and it's also been a comfort to those of us who are in the same situation as you. When we read your words we can relate to so much of what you say, regardless of which 'religion' we follow. The anguish we face is universal, even if we express it differently. You do such a great job of writing that we can literally FEEL your words. Julia touched so many lives, and I know there are hundreds of people who are grieving with you. Being able to read your journal entries and read how you and your family are doing touches all of us deeply! Many hugs and prayers to you from "angel" Nolan's mom. Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Monday, September 29, 2003 0:10 AM CDT As Julia's aunt, I can understand to a certain degree the feeling of how my sister is handling things especially related to G-d. Tova, I thank you...I couldn't have said it better myself. Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Sunday, September 28, 2003 9:23 PM CDT Thinking of you and your family as always!! Hoping the New Year will help heal your broken hearts. Your little Angel is with you all the time. Keep your eyes open for signs. My prayers are with you! Kathy - Sunday, September 28, 2003 8:08 PM CDT Judy, Another butterfly story. We were at the nursery picking out a butterfly bush for you (hope to bring it by tomorrow). There were so many to choose from - I could not decide. I was looking at them all, and a beautiful Monarch butterfly came over and flew over all of them about 3 times, and settled on one of them. It stayed for a few minutes or so, then flew over to me, and circled around me and flew away. I guess you know which one I got! LOL!!! Glad Jordan had a good party. Hope you enjoyed your evening. Mary - Sunday, September 28, 2003 5:23 PM CDT oopss.. Sorry. I meant a Good New Year! (not York). Tova Fort Lauderdale , - Sunday, September 28, 2003 3:37 PM CDT To Julia's family, I have been reading your journal and am so sorry for the loss of your beloved baby girl, Julia! Although it is probably anything but happy, I wish you a good New York. Shana Tova. G'mar Hatima Tova. On a P.S. note; to the "christian friend", as Jews we do not invoke the name G-D while using the middle letter. It is not at all disrespectful; quite the opposite. You really should not be telling this family, or any family for that matter, how to grieve or how not to grieve. That is a very personal issue and only for them to decide. If they have anger directed towards G-D, that is their prerogative and not for you to comment on. Tova Admor Fort Lauderdale , FL USA - Sunday, September 28, 2003 3:35 PM CDT Judy, Reading all the guestbook entries today just confirms the beautiful ways Julia is among us, as a butterfly, an angel, or what not. Sometimes when I'm all alone, I feel as though I am not. You know that feeling? I know she is here with me, with us. I can almost sense her, angel wings and all, watching over me, watching over all of us. I know it must be terrible to not be able to hold her, to see her, but I believe she is holding you at this time, and she is watching you too. Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Sunday, September 28, 2003 2:44 PM CDT Hi, I Have been reading for weeks and must say Im so sorry you lost your baby girl.I am suprised you would even celebrate a new year I give you alot of credit. You have every right to be angry But not at GOD . GOD did not take julia. An awful brain tumor took julia. God allowed her into heaven to keep her safe for you. Without God there would be no heaven for Julia. I have Noticed you cant even say Gods name in your journals, Its always G-d As a Chirstian I have to tell you that you need to Not only be able to say GOD but Forgive him and Thank him for taking care of your precious baby for you. Only then can you start to Heal. God loves you And God didnt take Julia from you. Much love and Prayers go out to your precious family during this time. A Christian Friend - Sunday, September 28, 2003 2:32 PM CDT Happy New Year to you all. Just wanted to stop by and say Hi and that we are thinking of you always. It just amazes me how I really never paid that much attention to butterflies and now I notice every one. I always smile when I see one, it's like Julia is saying hello, it always makes me feel better. She is one little darling that will never be forgotten. See you soon. Love, Hugs and prayers for you all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Sunday, September 28, 2003 8:14 AM CDT Dear Judy, I'm sure past Yom Kippur's have been more enjoyable for you and your family. It has to be difficult, going thru the daily routine too. Just remember, little "Julia" is with you..not only in mind, but in spirit also. At the birthday party today, when all the kids are playing, remember Julia is there..playing too. A beautiful little angel, free of hurt and pain. Praying for you... Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, September 28, 2003 8:05 AM CDT Just as quickly as they come they go. Julia's life will be lived through her parents, brothers, and sisters eyes. Her memories will never be forgotten. Julia so beautiful, peaceful and loved. Julia we all hope you are keeping a close eye on us. Because we are thinking of you! To your strong family, I pray for your pain to be lifted. We are watching over Jordan and Justine at school and checking on them every day. Calie Rafferty <lilraff@yahoo.com> Greenfield, Pittsburgh, PA Allegheny - Sunday, September 28, 2003 1:01 AM CDT Jud, I love you!! Jod - Saturday, September 27, 2003 9:45 PM CDT Julia came to a Girl Scout Picnic in Texas tonight, too. There were about 10 people sitting at a table eating hamburgers when a pretty little butterfly came and sat at the table for about 5 minutes. Our girls are second graders. Thanks for stopping by to visit, Julia! I have been reading your site for about 6 weeks, but this is the first time I have signed the guestbook! What a beautiful angel you have watching over you now!! May God wrap His capable arms around you in the coming days, weeks, months and years. Mim, Greg, Elissa and Kyle Knoch <mim@advantexmail.net> Wylie, TX USA - Saturday, September 27, 2003 9:21 PM CDT Julia came to see me today. Thanks, Julia! A beautiful orange butterfly landed on our porch. I said "Are you Julia" and it clapped its wings together about 10 times. Lorrie Columbia, SC USA - Saturday, September 27, 2003 8:34 PM CDT Judy, Just wanted to say Hi. I think of you often. Love, Hugs, and Kisses Tell Justine I said Hi, It makes me feel good she finally remembers who I am (ha ha) Love you baby Peg Peg Smith Duq, Pa USA - Saturday, September 27, 2003 8:27 PM CDT Hi Judy, Well it is very late and I am just thinking about you as always..Happy New Year!!! Like Judy said you deserve it. I just wanted to drop a quick note and check in on you. I read Rae's signing and wanted to tell you that the song Streets of Heaven is very beautiful, I have heard it often..and think of our lil' angel all the time. I will see you on Tuesday, maybe breakfast..sounds good to me. p.s. it is okay that you shared what Joshua said he is a great kid that misses Jules very much..talks about her everyday..Love you. Cathy - Friday, September 26, 2003 11:39 PM CDT Just wanted to stop by and wish you a very HAPPY and HEALTHY New Year. YOu sure deserve it!! Love, The Rogalsky's Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Friday, September 26, 2003 9:36 PM CDT Judy, Just letting you know we are here for you all. Seeing beautiful butterflies almost daily. Thinking of you all and wishing we could take away the horrible pain. See you soon. Love, Hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Friday, September 26, 2003 6:39 PM CDT hi ant judy, wanted to tell you that i love you. i was on the porch today and a beautiful blue and yellow butterfly landed on my arm at first i shook it off (i got kinda scared) but it came right back to my arm and just sat there. so i said hi julie girl and it flew around me a couple times and followed me to the car. it made me cry. i heard a song that if you haven't heard it relates to your situation very well. it is called the streets of heaven by sherrie austin.i gotta go love you bunches. love always Rae jerica levy <babywalker04@yahoo.com> - Friday, September 26, 2003 4:53 PM CDT Hi Judy, I could really relate to the bittersweet feelings of seeing Julia's friends.... Nolan's buddy and classmate lives next door to us. They always went to each other's birthday parties....yesterday he came over to play basketball with Kevin (Nolan's older brother) and it was just so heartwrenching to feel the absence of my boy! I think this grieving process is just going to be part of our lives for a very long time....we do have duties and obligations that fill our hours, but that underlying feeling of MISSING our kids is always there. many hugs and prayers to you.... Lorraine, "angel" Nolan's mom <loralof@yahoo.com> - Friday, September 26, 2003 10:44 AM CDT God Bless You and help you find some peace. Julia has found peace and I am sure will rest even more when her family is able too. You are a tremendous person and one of the strongest that I will ever have the chance to "know". Please know that we all think and pray for you constantly. Even though I never knew Julia personally and only had the chance to get to know who she was in her final stage of battle, I, too, feel like the earth has lost a precious gift. The heavens are so lucky to have a beautiful little angel name JULIA. God bless you. A "new friend" who really cares - Friday, September 26, 2003 9:27 AM CDT Dear Judy, Throughout this site and in your journals, there has been alot of reference to butterflies, and you're little butterfly, Julia. I have been thinking all along that I have not seen one butterfly all summer, not one!..That has to be a first!..I've been outside often, been in places where there should be butterflies, but have yet to get a glimpse of one.. Yesterday, when I was going back to work from my lunch hour, a beautiful Monarch butterfly landed on the windshield of my car, and sat on my wiper blade!..I was at a stop sign, and I sat there for a second admiring it. This butterfly was absolutely georgeous!...It had bright orange and velvet black specks all thru it...I've never seen a butterfly so vivid in color!...Once I hit the gas and went thru the stop sign, it flew away. I have never seen a butterfly land on a windshield wiper blade!..My head went straight to Julia. She just stopped in to say a quick hello!...Even though she never knew me, she now knows that I have prayed for her, and think of her and your family often. I just had to share that with you Judy. Julia is fluttering all over, watching over you and your family. She is with you. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, September 26, 2003 4:52 AM CDT My friend is Loni, the sister of Codi who passed away 9/23/03. Julia is so beautiful! And I'm not just saying that. I truly think that Julia's fanily are very blest to have such a beautiful family member. God Bless you Julia. Brittany Salem, OR United States - Thursday, September 25, 2003 7:24 PM CDT Dear Levy family, I am sooooooooooooo sorry about your loss of Julia. She is in our hearts forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is still putting smiles on our faces. Kim Pittsburgh, PA U.S.A - Thursday, September 25, 2003 6:27 PM CDT May God hold you tightly as you mourn the loss of your beautiful daughter. No words of wisdom, just prayers that the ache will ease with each day although I know your memories won't. God bless each of you.... Christy WI - Thursday, September 25, 2003 1:23 PM CDT You are never far from my mind.... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, September 25, 2003 12:33 AM CDT with sweet memories (Blue's Clues visuals) of Julia Janet Bell Pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 11:29 AM CDT Just a little note to say "We Love You." Also, when you see Justin please ask him what he did for Jules. We're here for you. The Rogalsky's Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 8:38 AM CDT Levy family, Sending my condolancs and prayers for you at this sorrowful time in your lives. May God send his comforter to comfort you and give you rest. Smile Quilts is saddened to be so late in learning that Julia has become an Angel. Our love and prayers to you.  Angel Sprite from Smile Quilts <sprite@tds.net> Eckert, Colorado USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 5:48 AM CDT Dear Judy, I wish I had all the right words to say. One's that would lessen your pain..however, like everything else in life, it is a process. Everyone deals with things differently. In your case, the loss of your child. I can't even begin to fathom what you are going thru, being that I am not a Mother myself. I do know this Judy. You are a great Mom, and the love and devotion you gave to Julia speaks volumes about you, the person. We never know what is planned for us. Only God knows, and he had a different plan for your little Angel Julia...a path that you never expected...no one expected. Go ahead and go with whatever you feel Judy, let it out..you're entitled to release any emotion that is within you. Its OK to be pissed off, bitter, angry..and every other verb that applies. Look to God for comfort Judy. When you feel you can't go another step, he is carrying you. That fact you can lean on. As always, if there is anything I can do for your family, please don't hesitate to ask. I would be happy to help in any way I can. All the Levy's are in my prayers... Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 3:55 AM CDT Judy and family, We've never met, but I came across the link to your page on another CaringBridge site. Julia..what a beautiful child. I am so sorry for your loss. Trust your instincts when it comes to dealing with your grief. Your journey will be individual and no one can tell you how it should go. Again, trust yourselves and when you can't trust yourselves, continue to trust God. I don't understand all the heartache and pain that so many parents face, but I know that God is faithful. I hold onto that when there is nothing else to hold. My prayers are with you all. Take care, Susan King Susan King <suznk_01@yahoo.com> All over the US in an RV, USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 2:03 AM CDT Just wanted to tell you how much I wish I could take away all your pain. Love you and miss you terribly, Ami - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 11:52 PM CDT Judy and jarrod, I just feel so bad your family is going through this. Actually all the families recently. Reading your journaling makes total strangers feel like they actually know you. I almost cant even bare to read How painful it is. Let alone Know How God expects parents to get through this. All i know is Your stronger than I am. Im sorry your back is hurting you again too. I just want you to know i Pray God will unite both of you as a team through this And you can be a source of Strength for each other. If i could bring your angel back i would She is beautiful . I cant believe it has been 2 weeks. Mint choclate chip! (breyers) What a great choice Kim - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 11:03 PM CDT Judy, Jarrod, Jordam Justine, Julia, and Jacob! XXXXXOOOOOOXXXXXXOOOOOO from the bottom of our hearts! Julia, we miss you so. Love, Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 9:52 PM CDT Judy, I'm glad you're finally crying, it is so necessary. Julia is still spreading joy; when I'm out for my walks there are butterflies fluttering everywhere. They make me smile. I'm sure that it's Julia's way of saying hi. You guys are in my thoughts often. Hugs. trace ;^) - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 9:48 PM CDT I am so glad you got to let out some of that pent up emotion. I hope it helped. Anytime you need to let some out just call. Daily thoughts and prayers continue for you all. Much love, hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 6:25 PM CDT Judy and Jarrod, I have been thinking about the both of you and your family and praying that somehow the pain begins to fade. It's very hard to understand (not that we ever do) why life just stings us really hard sometimes. The pain that you have I believe is the ultimate. One of my favorite pieces of art work is Michael Angelo's "Piata", where the Blessed Virgin holds Jesus in her arms. When I think that I'm suffering in pain I always look at her (I have a replica of it in my home)and know that she suffered the greatest pain. I pray to her that she gives you some of her strength. If there was anything anyone could do to take away your pain there would be an army of people to do it. There are so many people who are praying for you and remembering Julia. I have her picture on my desk, everyday I look at it and when I think of how courageous Julia was it inspires me. She certainly touched many lives. I feel truly honored to have held her in my arms. I was so touched at the services for Julia, it was wonderful to see how the love of one very special little girl brought so many people together, religion had no boundries in that funeral home that day, it was simply about love. That was a gift Julia brought to all of us. My thoughts and prayers continue for all of you. Thank you for Julia. Her candle burned out long before her legend ever will. Love and Prayers, Joanne (Annie) Wall Joanne (Annie) Wall - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 9:10 AM CDT Dear Judy, She is a beautiful angel. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God has taken Julia's pain away and He will take yours away too. Of course you will never forget, but with His help the sweet memories will be stronger. May God continue to bless you all Donna (Chey's mom) caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 <rfiveash@wcc.net> - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 8:44 AM CDT She is beautiful...God bless you. St. Louis - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 8:11 AM CDT Cry, Judy, cry!! Cry together as a family, it's a good thing to feel your sorrow together, have the tears wash over you together. You have ALL been so strong and crying doesn't mean you are NOT strong - it means you are a family that has lost an important person that you all loved! I love you Judy and would do anything I could to make this easier for you and your family. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 7:40 AM CDT Julia - you are alive forever in our memories! You are a perfect angel, and I know you are busy watching over everyone. I know you are traveling so much so your Mom and Dad know you are really ok! Thanks for all the signs youhave givenus to help us through. We love you! Mary & Hannah Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 0:40 AM CDT Judy, just a quick note here (getting late in california) to tell you that you are so not alone here. You have many people loving and caring for you. Somehow you and your husband will find peace again. I am sorry for your hurt, and I understand. Tess ('angel' Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <itbi2@att.net> Fresno, CA - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 0:00 AM CDT Hi again, I just had to tell you...I honestly don't normally think about butterflies when someone passes. But today I was killing some time between my two college classes. It was a beautiful sunny day here in SC and as I walked on the pathway a butterfly flew around me. I immediately thought of Julia : ) and smiled of course : ) Erin <http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/> Columbia, SC - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 11:34 PM CDT Judy, I've been visiting your blog each night to see if you update. I just want you to know you & Jerry & children are in my prayers daily. You & Jerry cling to each other and to God. He will see you two and family through this heartbreaking & difficult time. Please know all your emotions are natural. Talk to God about them, ask him to heal your hearts. That is my prayer for you. Hang in there and know that so many people care about you, love you, and are praying for you. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 11:14 PM CDT Judy: It was good to see you today, hope that you did not mind me dropping over. I hope that the book will help with the kids. I enjoyed the way the writing was done. It seems like a butterfly in flight. Keep pluging away. If at anytime your family needs you, it is now. You were able to keep it all together in the past, and God will give you the strength to keep going. There is a saying "you should have patience with others, but most of all have patience with yourself" As in anything the hurt will take a long time to heal, but the memories of the past will help make it better. Jules suffered and was in a pain that only she knew but did not understand, but now she is in peace and without any suffering. That thought has got to keep you going. As always you are in my thoughts and prayers. Call when you want to talk Love Andrea <andreazober@msn.com> - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 11:03 PM CDT Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine, and Jacob, We love you all very much and are so glad we moved back to Pgh. to be closer to all of you!!! All our love, Jodi, Kyra, and Cullen Jodi - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 11:03 PM CDT to judy and jerry i wish there was something i could say or do to ease your pain but i cant so im not going to pretend i know how you feel but i want you to know i loved GHOULIA with all my heart just as much as i love teenie , jord, and jake and MOST of all i love you two and i know i dont tell u but i do- love you lots davina <daprettiestkitty@yahoo.com> duquesne, pa usa - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 10:29 PM CDT Hello to everyone, Reading all the butterfly stories is amazing. You already know mine. That sweet darling is taking care of us all. Remember we are always here day or night. We do not want to bug you but at the same time we want you to know that we are not going anywhere and we will always be here for you all. Any emotion you are having you just go and have. I have heard that anger is a big one. We have a punching bag if it will help. Just know how much you all are loved and thought about daily. Will see you soon. Sooner if you need us. Love, Hugs, and Prayers. A & D & Z Amy drahusz - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 8:51 PM CDT Dear Judy, You have every right to all the emotions that you are feeling!!! Do just what you are doing, deal with them as they come up and let yourself experience them as you need to. Grieving is a long process that everyone must do in their own way. Yours will be different from your husbands, your children and other members of your family. Take your time in getting back to your routines. Your soul needs rest now too to find peace again. I wish you all the best since you have already had all the worst. Cindy <cschiefer@earthlink.net> Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 6:18 PM CDT hi ant judy; Today it hit me looking at your site that julia is really gone. i haven't stopped crying in hours. i'm trying to stop but then i remember whatching cartoons with julia and us joking around about how she could kick my but like the guy on the show and it hurts to know there won't be another time.seeing the pictures of her in her casket hurt really bad too. i was in school last week and someone told me that if i would've never got pregnant then maybe julia would be alive. that's why i feel i can't call or talk to you right now. she told me god only takes one life to give another.which doesn't make me very happy about the baby right now.i keep trying to block everything she said out but i can't. i'm glad that you were able to take the kids to school. i remember taking julia to the flower show this summer and how much she loved the butterfly garden. i'll never forget the look on her face it was like she knew that she would fly with them soon. i'm glad the she went in peace and looks so peaceful. i'll try and call you soon but i have too calm myself down first before i can even do anything. i love you and hope that you continue to grow in the healing process. love always and forever rae jerica levy <babywalker04@yahoo.com> waynesville, ga usa - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 5:20 PM CDT Judy and family, I again had the pleasure of entertaining a Monarch Butterfly today.....I had just gotten home from school feeling rather happy about the first day of fall and out of no where there was this huge wonderful Monarch to welcome me home. I smiled and simply said *hello angel baby* It danced around for a moment and was gone as quick as it appeared........ You will forever be a part of my life, thank you for sharing yours.... Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 4:44 PM CDT I've been trying for a week to leave a message and everything I write seems so meaningless. I can't imagine your pain, I understand your anger and I pray for you and your family and friends to gradually feel less pain and loneliness. You are an amazing mom and your whole family has lived though what no family should have to deal with. I pray for your baby and for your family. Debbie - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 4:32 PM CDT Hey there aunt/cousin Judy Im just writing you to let you know that I feel bad about the way i was with the family the last week or so with the loss of my cousin and the fact that i actually had people that were trying to depend on me for things it was kind of overwelming with everything else ive gotten myself involved in but i just wanted to let you know that if you need any help with anything im out at my dads now and im sure hes more than willing to drive me to the city for you guys anyway i will see you all soon and tell the kids i said hi well i gotta go Love TJ TJ <epkproductions412@hotmail.com> freedom, pa - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 1:35 PM CDT Deepest sympathy to all of you. Bonnie Imhoff - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 12:17 AM CDT judy, your strength is amazing. and your anger shows you are still human. don't be too hard on yourself. judging from the photos, your beautiful daughter is finally at peace. with sympathy and love, "angel" nolan's cousin april <vankalen@comcast.net> lambertville, nj usa - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 12:05 AM CDT Don't for a minute feel bad about being angry or confused. Just know that Julia is now free. She will keep you all strong and watch over you endlessly. Judy, you are a wonderful mother and very brave. You do things for yourself and your family. Take each day one step at a time. Michele <mash128@hotmail.com> Winona, MN - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 10:54 AM CDT Hugs to you Judy. I love the photos - Julia is beautiful and at peace. I love your writing ... you write from your heart and I thank you for being so open with us. Judy, I think of you and your family every day. I know of what you are going through and my heart aches with you. All my love, Tess (Angel Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> SF/Fresno, CA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 9:50 AM CDT Hi Judy, I just stopped by to see how you are doing,I want to give you a big hug ((((Judy)))). I feel your pain, I am a mother and its just not fair that your baby was taken away from you, its hard for me to see that there is a "greater purpose" for Julia, and thats why she was taken , thats just nonsense, there can't be a better place for a baby or child than with their mommy and daddy and family, you have the right to be very pissed off, angry, bitter, and mad at the world, you need to go with whatever emotion over takes you at that moment, thats how we all heal, and don't let anyone tell you that you have to be at peace with what happened, it SUCKS!!!!plain and simple!!!!! I hope you have good moments, since right now most of them are bad,and I hope that the good ones will over take the bad ones, Julia was a very lucky little girl to have you for a mommy, you are a very loving and brave person. Love,Linda Schmartz Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> South Glastonbury, CT - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 7:55 AM CDT When you are used to operating at warp speed b/c you have so much to do, operating at normal human speed seems soooo very slow! That's what has happened with you Judy - you were used to doing EVERYTHING that needed to be done for Julia and looking after your family on top of that. When my husband died I wrote letters to him, to my kids sharing with them how I felt. I have the letters still to share with Vicki and Wesley when they get older. Letters that tell stories of their dad and them that they will never remember becasue they were too young, letters that have tear stains with my pain and sorrow and letters that show my anger at the situation. It seemed to help me. Maybe you can write letters to Julia, for the kids when they are older. You want to always remember her and you want the kids to always remember her, but you want them to come away stronger, like you, to live lives that Julia will be proud of!! Keep venting and journalling...and thank you for sharing it with us. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 7:32 AM CDT Dear Judy, There is no right or wrong way to deal with the grief of losing someone you love especially a child. You have to process it as your body and mind feel that you are capable of doing. It has to happen in stages or you wouldn't be able to figure out how to move on. You are so incredibly brave. I fell in love with Julia only about 8 weeks ago. I pray for her and your family to find peace. I hope that it starts getting better for you although I know that it will never be the same. You are an incredible Mom and it certainty sounds like you children have benefited from your strength,love and wisdom in handling the past 10 months of hell that you have all had to endure. I just wanted you to know that I will continue to check on you for as long as you continue to update. You have my prayers. God Bless all of you Terri <TLC2866@sbcglobal.net> Manchester, Ct USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 5:33 AM CDT Dear Judy...I'm so glad you're continuing to journal to this site. Its good to "let it out", whatever you feel. As far as you being exhausted, I can only imagine. You've been in high gear with Julia since her diagnosis. Like you said, you're her Mom, and didn't think twice about it. I'm praying for peace for all you J's. Take Care... Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 4:40 AM CDT Hey Judy - The pictures are beautiful. Thank you for sharing Julia's light. I understand what you mean about being on the brink of tears. Celeste is with me and I can't stand the sight of her toys that are most often unplayed with because of her illness. I hope that Julia's star is as bright as ever tomorrow night. Celeste wanted to see a movie tonight and how can I deny that request? I truely need to see you and it's driving me crazy that everything's so busy... the little ones are usually having screaming contests and it's hard to get out very often. It sounds like your body is letting you know how bad you hurt - inside and out. Your family is in my prayers constantly. Tami (Celeste's mom) <blessingsbyceleste@hotmail.com> Pgh, PA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 0:51 AM CDT Judy, I kind of understand what you mean about the need to be alone, but the need to have people around. I want to be there to help you, but I also want to be give you the space you need. What a balancing act. I have missed seeing you, but glad we have talked, and that I have been able to help in some small ways. Thank you for letting me help, and for not creaming me when I am a goober! Julia, Hannah and I talk about you every day. We laugh at the memories - I just wish we had more of them. However I am forever greatful for the ones we have from the last 9 months. We miss you, and we will NEVER forget you. You are such a part of our lives still. Jordan, you are right - we will see your beloved sister again. Thanks for reminding us. You are wise beyond your years. Justine, Always remember your sister is watching you! And yes - she really does have an in with Santa and the Easter Bunny! LOL! Jacob, I know you miss your sister. We all do. Just try to remember she is always in your heart! You are such a special boy! I love you! Jarrod, Hang in there! I know the pain you are feeling is horrible. John and I can only imagine. The fishing trip offer is still on the table. Remember - we are here for you. Love you all.... Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 0:27 AM CDT I'm in aw of those beautiful new pictures. Julia is truly beautiful, no doubt about it. I love the photos of her and all of those kisses, her brothers and her sisters obviously love her dearly, as do you and your husband. The news of Marissa passing away is hard. But I know that Julia and Marissa are holding hands and laughing as they run and skip on heavens golden streets! I can just see them together, sisters in Christ, hugging each other. Many thoughts go back and forth, one minute happy that in heaven there is no longer pain, the next minute wishing they were here. I'm praying for you, that God will comfort you. You are a wonderful mother, and it shines in that beautiful picture on the homepage. Julia was blessed to have you, as you were blessed to have her. Erin http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/ <ccbubbless17@yahoo.com> Columbia, SC USA - Monday, September 22, 2003 9:34 PM CDT Judy, i read todays journal and I so understand you being pissed! i would be so angry too. And it is all part of the greiving process. You need to give yourself time. You have just been through the worst emotional Pain there is. I think your amazing. Im so amazed at all the entries from all over the country. So many many people praying and caring for you and the family! I hope your Husband finds a way to vent as well. We think of you all the time And ask God to hold you up each day! Kim - Monday, September 22, 2003 9:28 PM CDT Judy, thank you for sharing those pictures with us. She truly is beautiful. I will pray for you and your family that He will give you strength each day. God Bless you and your family much. Stay strong =) www.caringbridge.com/md/courtie Courtie <cuteori@aol.com> Joppa, MD US of A - Monday, September 22, 2003 7:24 PM CDT Wow Judy. I must say that when I read today's entry, my heart almost stopped. As you know, me and my mother were in PA this week. We were staying at my grandparent's house, and I got bored. I wandered out into the yard (it is quite large) and walked around for awhile until I came across a monarch butterfly. The butterfly's wing was damaged it seemed, and it just sat there moving it's wings, and not going anywhere. It climbed unto my finger without taking off, and stayed with me all the way back to the house. My mom asked what I had found, and I told her I found "Julia". Looking at me, she asked,"Oh, did you name her after me?" and I responded, "No. This IS Julia." I explained to my mom. Minutes passed, maybe 30, and Julia still had not left. We had given her sugar water, a nice place in the sun, and a flower to perch on. None of these things appealed to her, only sitting on my hand. I ran into the house, got an angel I had made for Julia before she had passed that had a special prayer on it, and read it the the butterfly. Seconds after I ended it with "Amen", Julia took off. On she flew, like she had others to visit, new faces to meet. And I truly believe that she is among us, whether she is the butterfly we speak of, or not. She is finally getting to do everything that she was not able to do! Julia, whereever you fly, you are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers honey! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Monday, September 22, 2003 5:02 PM CDT Blessings to you all from San Angelo, Texas. We are friends of Cheyenne Fiveash. Please accept our prayers of comfort and courage. Whenever I see a butterfly I will have to think of your Julia. Your photos are heartwarming and it is so wonderful you could share them. Be strong and hold fast to your family and to the Love of Jesus. sherry Sherry Wheeler <frogbear@worldnet.att.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Monday, September 22, 2003 4:41 PM CDT Judy, The updated pictures are neat to look at. How I miss her. Your other kids seem to be doing so well. You guided them through Julia's sickness and death, to them, looking for Julia's star each night is so natural. It helps to keep her memory alive in such a positive way. It allows them to know that talking about Jules and thinking about Jules and yes, crying about her is natural and helps with the healing process. How was school today, Judy? You though that you maigh take them, I was wondering how it went. People will ask, sometimes without thinking, How are you? You wonder if they want the real answer, or the practiced one. People truly care and will accept you any way you answer. Talk to you soon. Shellie - Monday, September 22, 2003 4:01 PM CDT Thank you for sharing the pictures with us. She truly is an angel. She definitely is at peace, and oh how beautiful too. I think of you all and check on you daily. She is watching over you. Michele <mash128@hotmail.com> Winona, MN - Monday, September 22, 2003 12:50 AM CDT Good Morning, I just wanted to stop by and say hello, I looked at the new pictures and I have to say that Julia really does look like an >>ANGEL<< she has a very calming look about her. she is pain free and she is making sure you are all taken care of. I will keep checking on you all, thank you for sharing your beautiful pictures of Julia, she is very beautiful!!!!!! With Love from Linda, John and girls The Schmartz family Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury, CT - Monday, September 22, 2003 7:21 AM CDT Judy, The pictures are beautiful! Thank you for sharing them with all of us. We have seen so many betterflies over the weekend here in the Minneapolis! My 27 month old son Joseph, calls every one Julia! Please take care of yourself, and give our regards to all of your family, we are still praying for all of you during this time of healing. Mary Therese Luedke Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 10:58 PM CDT Hi Judy and family, I am finally back on line and this was the first website I pulled up. I have read about Julia everyday, my heart just breaks for all of you. I don't know the pain you are going through I can only say I will be there for you in any way I can. No family should ever have to go through this hell. Life can be so unfair but as we can all see the tremendous support that you all have and that we will all be there for you. The hardest part is I wish we can just take away all the pain as well as everyone else wishes. You are all in my thoughts and prayers and I know Julia your little beautiful blue eyed angel is watching over all of you. Take care everyone Love, Jo Joanne Adragna Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 10:01 PM CDT Julia may be gone physically, but she is forever around you and the people she touched. Take care of yourself Judy, love your husband and you kids -- life will take care of itself. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Sunday, September 21, 2003 8:04 PM CDT As you all have read in Judy's journal...I went to a butterfly show yesterday and found out there's a butterfly named "Julia". It was an awesome experience. There were so many of that kind as soon as we walked thru the door. Jules was there greeting us everywhere we turned. I held my hand out in front of one and it climbed on my hand for a few seconds before it flew away. I needed my butterfly fix and I got way more than I bargained for! I love you Julia!!! Love, Aunt Jodi Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 12:42 AM CDT GOD BLESS JULIA AND HER FAMILY. SHANNON AND DESTINY <SHANNONTOMSA@COX.NET> PROVIDENCE, RI - Sunday, September 21, 2003 12:31 AM CDT Judy, I had a visit from Julia today...a beautiful Monarch Butterfly flew past me, dancing around I knew right away it was her......... Love to you and yours! Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 11:47 AM CDT WOW! Over 25000 visitors! SO many lives have been touched by Julia! May you find some comfort in that support. Love you all, always. Love Mary Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Sunday, September 21, 2003 11:10 AM CDT Hello Levy family, Seeing Julia looking so peaceful and well happy was the only thing that got us through. We continue to pray for you and love you all. Love, A & D & Z Amy drahusz - Sunday, September 21, 2003 10:29 AM CDT Dear Judy...You are so right about Julia looking so beautiful and peaceful!...I cried when I looked at the pictures, but once I got a grip, I thought of your little butterfly, dancing in heaven, with no pain!.. My prayers continue for you and your family...God Bless.. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, September 21, 2003 2:27 AM CDT Our hearts ache for you and your family. The pictures are hauntingly beautiful. (would it be too much to ask you to change the font color of your journal as it is now very hard for this older person to read? Thanks!) Tova Ryckkman Toronto, Canada - Saturday, September 20, 2003 10:37 PM CDT Hello from NSU! WOw! I just saw the new pictures and your little girl looked so beautiful and at peace! Even in the pictures you had of her with her siblings she looked better than most brain tumor patients I have seen. I am so sorry about the loss of Julia, she was indeed a special girl. I hope your family finds peace with her passing. Love, Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK 74464 - Saturday, September 20, 2003 10:11 PM CDT I started not to look at the second picture, but am so glad I did! She looks so peaceful and beautiful, and with a spiritual beauty that is not of this earth. No wonder you felt that inner peace when you saw her! I pray each day God gives you peace and strength to go on, knowing that your little angel is touching lives everywhere. Janet (Just for Today) <jperrirn@adelphia.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, September 20, 2003 8:28 PM CDT She's gorgeous, Judy. You're so lucky that she didn't have to be on decadron! My Nolan got all bloated and puffy and didn't even look like himself for the last 7 months....in fact, I almost felt like I "lost" him twice. Julia is a precious, precious little girl! And your other children are precious and beautiful, too. God bless you! Lorraine, "angel" Nolan's mom <loralof@yahoo.com> - Saturday, September 20, 2003 8:17 PM CDT She is the Perfect Princess, and now the Perfect Angel. She is always in our hearts, and you all are too. Thinking of you always! Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Saturday, September 20, 2003 6:59 PM CDT Oh Judy -- what an angel she is!! My tears have started anew. I can't imagine your pain and sorrow! Your strength continues to show through in all the you do. I especially love that picture of you and Jules on the front page. You couldn't ask for a better picture of a mother's love. I pray for the day when the pain of Julia's loss doesn't overhwelm the happiness of your time with her. All my love to you and your entire family, HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Saturday, September 20, 2003 5:52 PM CDT Dear Judy, You couldn't be more right about how beautiful and peaceful she looks! As if she is sleeping on the couch. May you always know in your heart that your angel is watching you everyday! I wish you peace... Cindy Schiefer <cschiefer@earthlink.net> Port St. Lucie, Fl USA - Saturday, September 20, 2003 4:33 PM CDT hi ant judy, i really can't imagine the pain that you feel right now. i keep asking god why your baby got taken away and i got blessed with one i just do think it is fair. i think of her everyday. especially now that i have the tatoo for her on my leg. i don't think it has really sunk in that she is gone. a how it was with my dad to. it is just like me being here not seeing her for awhile. i hope things get a little easier for you soon. i love you with all my heart and hope that yours will start to heal soon. send my love to the rest of the family. hugs and kisses Rae(and the soon to be jaylin dashawn):P jerica levy <babywalker04@yahoo.com> waynesville, ga usa - Saturday, September 20, 2003 11:15 AM CDT I just wanted you to know I went back and read every journal entry. What a journey you have had. You seem like a very strong person, I pray you get through this, not to mention your other kids, and your husband. I will pray for you. Paula (Mitch's mom) <www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy> Vancouver, Wa - Friday, September 19, 2003 6:55 PM CDT Hi, I found your site through Nolan's site. I am just so sorry for your loss. I have a 9 year old with a bain tumor "not a dpg." And I pray everyday for his complete healing. I know that sometimes it just doesn't happen, it is just so unfair. My prayers are with you. Paula (Mitch's mom) <www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy> Vancouver, Wa - Friday, September 19, 2003 4:59 PM CDT I never got to meet Julia, but Sheri used to keep us updated on her at work. When I heard what happened, I was heartbroken. It is a terrible thing when this happens to someone so young. This is a poem that my mom gave to my cousin when her son, Justin, passed away three years ago, and it was in turn, given to me when my mom passed away from cancer last year. Reading it has helped me through a lot of rough days, and I hope it wlil help you too. You should visit Justin's website. It may make you feel a little better to know that things will get easier as time passes. www.caringbridge.com/page/justinspage I know there are no words to help ease your pain, but I want you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. ------------------------------------------------------- "When Tomorrow Starts Without Me" When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today, while thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, and each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand, that an Angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready, in heaven far above, and that I'd have to leave behind, all those I dearly love. But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne, He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you". Today for life on earth is past, but here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last, and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past. So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart, for every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart. Margo Dominicis <nytestar33@yahoo.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 1:55 PM CDT You have never met me, I found your page through a friend of mine. I am praying for your family and I am sorry. Dear Lord, Please let this family feel your love and grace. I pray that they will look to you for strength for each day. -Amen Amy <pacandarc@yahoo.com> Rural Hall, NC USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 1:44 PM CDT Judy almost 24,500 people, you have so much support and prayers still headed your way. I remember when you said can you believe 14,000 and we were stunned. This site is so wonderful for everyone. Thank you for having lunch with us today, and sorry about my little "zack" He was in the car and did not want to leave he kept screaming NO NO so I dont know if he wanted to stay with you and jake or if he really wanted the FISH...I will be sure to do a wally world trip this weekend. Hugs and kisses.....talk to you soon. cathy - Friday, September 19, 2003 1:30 PM CDT Our prayers are with you all. I wish there was more we could say or do to make this better.......but there really isn't. Every butterfly now....I think of your baby Julia!!! She will never be forgotten. She will always be loved; here on earth and up in heaven! Love, Jenni Love, Jenni Jenni McClung <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 12:28 AM CDT Dear Judy and Levy family, With tears in my eyes I send my love, and hugs, and words of sympathy. I've followed Julia's story since she was linked to my nephew Nolan's page. I've prayed so much for her, and for all of you, that I feel I know you, and am missing sweet little Julia. May you feel the loving embrace of our Lord God, and the love of all who have been touched by this precious little angel. With hugs, and prayers, Peggy, Nolan's aunt and Lorraine's sister. Peggy Allsman <pegepeg77@yahoo.com> - Friday, September 19, 2003 12:18 AM CDT Judy and Jarrod, Just letting you know that we are here for all of you. Take care of each other, prayers to you all. Love, A & D & Z amy drahusz - Friday, September 19, 2003 12:15 AM CDT Judy, Hope you are getting the rest you need. You have been through so much and now your body needs to recover. Give those kids a hug and just feel the love. Hoping that you are able to do what you need to do, and stop when you want to. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, September 19, 2003 7:23 AM CDT Judy, Sending you warm & comforting thoughts. Hugs, trace ;^) - Friday, September 19, 2003 1:09 AM CDT Hello, Just checking in on you Hope you are getting all of the rest that you need, I agree with everyone else listen to your body!! Nathaniel is sitting here with me and says I Love You Dudy... with a GREAT BIG SMILE, what a great kid. They all are. If you need anything, you know what to do. I will see you for lunch tomorrow, looking forward to it. I may have the children with me but they will play nice with Jacob, they were great the other day, anytime!!! As alway, Love ya & I am praying for you. Sweet little Julia, Missing you more than words can say!! I see more butterflies than ever before and I know you are watching over all of us. Love you HONEY BUNCHES!!!! Joshua prays to you everynight and I know you are listening to him, I need for you to watch over my little guy and be his SPECAIL ANGEL, HUGS AND KISSES BABY GIRL. Cathy & Joshua - Thursday, September 18, 2003 7:55 PM CDT Still holding you close to my heart! Praying everyday for comfort and peace to be with you! Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips St. Paul, VA USA - Thursday, September 18, 2003 11:28 AM CDT A young girl in our small town was killed in a tragic car accident a few years ago. I was asked by family and friends to write a poem to be read at her service. I was very humbled by this request and spent much time asking myself what could I write that would get through. I was told after the service that the last verse of my poem was very comforting to many and I am going to share it with you. DO NOT TELL HER GOOD-BYE SAY 'SEE YA LATER' INSTEAD FOR SHE'S NOT GONE FROM YOU FOREVER SHE'S JUST GONE ON AHEAD MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY JULIE HYATT <juliehyatt55@hotmail.com> SAN ANGELO, TX USA - Thursday, September 18, 2003 10:27 AM CDT Judy - you continue to be in my thoughts. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, September 18, 2003 7:54 AM CDT Hi, I just wanted to say hello to you and your family, I think about you everyday, and I still check on the site to see how everyone is, my heart is with you all, I hope your pain will lessen soon, I know its easier said than done, I just wish for you all to heal. with Love from the Schmartz family in Ct Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> South Glastonbury , CT - Thursday, September 18, 2003 7:44 AM CDT My dearest Judy, listen to what your body is telling you, you need the rest. I am so sorry I was away and could not be home for you, Cathy told me you were upset when I stopped at the house and you were sleeping. Sweetie don't be upset, I'll be back and you sleeping was more important than seeing me. Jodi is such a wonder hold on to her because together you two can beat anything. I pray your mother will also find peace, my heart broke when I talked tp her. It's strange I heard all the talk about the butterflies and never relized I had not noticed any until I was outside work today at lunch and a beautiful butterfly, flew freely past. I love you my little one, and I will come see you soon. Love always Peg Peg Smith - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 9:10 PM CDT hi Judy & Jarrod I have been so touched by your jurnal i am keeping you in my prayers. I am Audri Gilbert's grandma.Tina told her of your loss of dear sweet Julia.She cried a while. today is the first she said anything. Her words were "i realy miss julia but i am happy cause i know she is in my heart" i only know the pain has to be more then you can bare. Just think Julia is in your future not your past she is watching over you & your family. God be with you all now and forever. In Jesus Cookie Cookie Dotterrer <cookie118@westpa.net> Marienville, PA USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 9:09 PM CDT To Judy and family, I found your daughter's website through Kody's story. Please accept my sincerest condolences on the physical loss of your dear little girl. She passed on my granddaughter's seventh birthday. I feel your pain, dear people, but know that she has been reborn with God. Shalom. Hugs from Karen, "Gramma L", MakeAChildSmile, Pray4Kids Karen LaMountain <AngelGrammaL@netscape.net> Selkirk, NY USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 8:41 PM CDT Butterflies are in Forest Hills too -- more than I have ever seen before. Yesterday, I was sitting under our tree with my neighbors telling them about Julia and showing them her picture. While we were talking about her, a butterfly appeared and hovered over the fuchsia impatience (sp?) flowers. We all said "Hi, Julia." The butterfly was there all day. Today I joined the group sitting there and they told me Julia was back. Indeed she was -- the same butterfly. One neighbor told us the butterfly means resurrection or eternal life. Jullia is OK, and she's out there doing God's work -- strengthening our faith. We're all praying for you Judy and Jarrod. Love, peace and blessings Clare Stawson <m60cs@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 7:30 PM CDT Dateline...Greenfield. Breaking News...Butterflies are invading. More butterflies have been spotted in this area in the past week than ever before...What could this mean?... Judy, our pain is still so strong at this time, reminders of Julia still make tears come to our eyes. But someday... when we see a butterfly, we'll think of your beautiful angel and a smile will come upon us. We'll keep asking when you're ready to go out, but you'll know when that time comes. Hugs and tears and time help to try to mend a broken heart. We're all here when you need us. We'll keep asking, and look forward to when the answer is yes. You deserve whatever time you need. You were always so truthful, and yes,.. strong during Julia's illness. It's okay to take time for yourself. Your kids are always welcome here (although I found out last night that Justine can beat me at one of my favorite dice games, so I may have to whisk her away to Atlantic City) Love to the Levy's Here is something that was given to me when my mom passed away. A WORD OF CONSOLATION If a tiny baby could think out loud, it would be afraid of birth. To leave the only world it has known would seem a kind of death. But immediately after birth the child would fing itself in loving arms, showered with affection and cared for at every moment. Surely the baby would say, "I was foolish to doubt God's plan for me. This is a beautiful life." Passing through death is really a birth into a new and better world. Those who are left behind should not grieve as if there were no hope. Life is changed, not taken away. Our dear one lives on, in a world beautiful beyond anything we can imagine. They await the day when they will welcome us with joy. "Do not grieve too much," they say. "We are living and are still with you." Hope this helps a little... Meanwhile, I'll be out spotting butterflies... (Mikey came in before dinner and said," I just saw Julia! There was a black and blue butterfly outside." Through the eyes and mouths of babes... Shellie - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 6:32 PM CDT Wow, already a week has gone by since my Princess Peanuthead has passed. I miss you dearly! I can't put into words how I feel, the anger, the hurt, the fluttering of emotions going on......right now most of all I am concerned for you Judy. Take care of yourself, do what you are doing...listening to your body! Please, please let me in if you fall and need someone to cushion your fall or just to pull someone down with you. I am here for you EVERY step of the way. Besides, I'm over your house so much...I'm watching you girlfriend! If you fall, I'm there right next to you whether you like it or not! :) I love you Judy and I am so incredibly sorry that Julia is gone. G-d, how my heart aches......... Jodi - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 3:32 PM CDT Dear friends, We are just sending love and continued prayers for you all. I have always loved butterflies, but it seems like I now see Julia butterflies all the time. I am so glad you all came into our lives and we became good friends. We are here for all of you anytime day or night. Julia is a wonderful girl and we will miss her greatly. We love you all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 1:31 PM CDT You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. May the Lord shine light upon you during these troubled times. With Deepest Sympathy Jennifer Petrini <jenniferp@philippelusi.com> Pittsburgh, PA US - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 12:49 AM CDT Judy and Jarrod, Just wanted to let you know how much you all are our thoughts. I'm glad we got to talk the other day ( I can't believe a week has passed either!) But I want to tell you that I felt some what of a sense of peace in your voice, and that is what helped carry me through these last few days. I have so wanted to be in Pittsburgh with you. Physically I couldn't, but mentally, in thoughts, and prayers, and tears, I was there. Julia remains on the minds of all of us. Andrew and Jace have been talking non stop about our visit there, and want to return, almost as desperately as I do. Judy, you and Jodi have always been my little sisters, and I will always love you all so very much. I am soooo sorry for your loss, but the memories will always be in my heart, just like everyone who knows you and had the pleasure and priviledge of knowing and loving Julia too. I can't help but to agree with some others, that Butterflies are free, and now Julia is too. Jordan, Justine, and Jakey are the luckiest kids in the world to have parents like you two, and relatives and friends like the ones who are surrounding you. May you continue to have serenity, courage, and wisdom. Big Hugs, a whole lot of Love, and a mess of Kisses Ami and the gang from SugarLand, Tx - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 11:12 AM CDT Still thinking of you each day. Hoping the days will eventually get a little easier. Know that Julia is watching over you all. Hugs! Michele Winona, MN - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 10:54 AM CDT Dear Judy, I could relate so much with a lot of what you wrote. The days are going by so fast, yet it almost seems that time should be standing still, at least for a while! Like you, I'm so glad our babies are no longer imprisoned in their bodies; that their tumors can no longer hurt them. They are healed, and alive, and well, running around in heaven! Laughing, and playing, and being their own sweet little selves. But oh, how we MISS them!! It just doesn't seem like it can be true. When I look at pictures of Nolan from a year ago, before his diagnosis, I think, "that little boy just CAN'T be gone!" But he is...at least from this earth. Thankfully he is in a much better place. I loved the nicknames you have for Julia. I called my son, "Roly Poly Nolie" or "my nolie-polie boy" all the time. I am so glad you are getting the support you need and that when you are ready you will be able to get out again. It's good that you are being gentle with yourself, you NEED to be! God bless, with lots of love and prayers Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 10:40 AM CDT Judy and Jerry, Keeping holding onto each other, the both of you need each other more now than ever before. Judy, I am just sitting here thinking about you as usual, and not believing that it has already been a week, Joshua gave special butterfly kisses again, and prayed to Jules last night for you. I enjoyed having Jacob yesterday and if you need to call me and I will be more than happy to take him/all of them again. The littlest things matter the most and you need your rest, so do not hesitate to pick up that telephone. The lady bug at the park yesterday really through me for a loop, I believe Julia touches us in more ways than one, that lady bug would not leave us alone and We just held onto it and thoughts of Julia ran threw my head. Julia, angel we are thinking of you always and missing you more and more....Kisses and Hugs sent up to you!!!! Cathy - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 9:57 AM CDT Darling Judy and Family. Just big hugs and love to you all. Tess ('Angel' Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> SF/Fresno, CA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 9:24 AM CDT Dear Sweet Judy, Just thinking of you with love this morning..remembering you in prayer, holding you close in spirit. Pass along a big hug to all in the house. You all are loved and remembered.. and cared for. I wish we could stop the pain.. we can't. But we face it with you.. and stay with you in friendship. Love and hugs, Lynn ''''''''''''''''' A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement www.legacyofhope.org Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org> Panama City, FL USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 8:27 AM CDT Time is not reality now...intervals are measured more by the pain you are feeling...I am not sure if an hour ever goes back to meaning the same thing, because an hour seems longer somehow without Julia... It is amazing that you are able to share your very personal continued journey with all of us...each entry brings new meaning to the word "LOVE". Sara - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 8:20 AM CDT Judy, You are right. It isn't fair. I know I will never understand any of it. Thanks for letting us help you when we can. I am keeping all of you in my prayers. Love you my friend. Love Mary Mary - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 7:35 AM CDT Judy Keep listening to your body. Don't push yourself just yet because you have so much to deal with. Keep doin' what your doin' and you will get through it. I can't say when or how, but I know you will find a new 'normal' in your life. It will have constant memories of your angel but it will be good. Angel Julia, thank you for making a difference in my life. Thank you for showing up at the soccer game on Saturday, flitting around the field before Hannah and Danny started playing - it was great to see you there looking after all your friends. Keep an eye on your family sweetie (like I need to tell you!)...they will need you always! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 7:34 AM CDT It is hard to believe a week has gone by. Julia, you are missed more than words can say. We have all seen so many butterflies! Thank you for all the small things you have done to make us aware that you are ok, and especially that you are watching over your family (and lending a hand to the rest of us also). Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine, and Jacob - we are love you all very much. I know things are strange right now. WE are here for you all - whenever you need us. Love, Mary, John, and Hannah, and Zack, Dan & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 11:23 PM CDT Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine and Jacob, I love you all dearly!! Everyone keeps telling me how it's so great that I moved back to Pgh. to be here for you. How could I not??? I couldn't imagine missing these last 7 or so wks. since I've been here. Julia, darlin, we miss you more than words can say. Daddy, take care of Julia. As much as I miss you, I'm glad you two are together. Baba and Zada are seeing Angel Julia as well. Missing my Heavenly family so......... Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 9:06 PM CDT Judy Thank you for keeping the journal it meant a lot to me and many others Im sure to be able to see how you and Julia were doing being so far away. I hope that you can keep it up. I hope that soon things will become a little easier for you day by day. I cried when I read that the kids go out at night and find the brightest star and say good nite to Jules. She's at peace now and I hope soon you can find some also. Butterflies have ALWAYS been special to me, ask Jodi and I will ALWAYS think of Jules when I see one. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Karen <kbear51@bellsooth.net> Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 8:55 PM CDT Judy & family, Judy I am so sorry! Lynne just told me about your baby I am so sorry I didnot know what you and your family have been going through. Please know I am crying my eye out for you. I have know you for so many years and have seen you with all your children over the years. I don't even know what to say but that I am so so so sorry for your entire family my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Lorrie R. Goldstein - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 6:52 PM CDT I AM SO VERY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I HOPE YOU KNOW YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS. WHEN MY SISTER PASSED WE FOUND A WONDERFUL SUPPORT GROUP CALLED COMPASSIONATE FRIENDS. THE GROUP IS FOR PARENTS AND SIBLINGS. IT IS A WIONDERFUL GROUP OF PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND THE FEELING OF LOSS, AND IT REALLY HELPED US TO TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT IT. THEY UNDERSTAND AND CAN RELATE TO HOW YOU ARE FEELING. BUT WHAT MAKES ME TELL YOU ABOUT THEM IS THAT THEIR SYMBOL IS A BUTTERFLY. MY HOUSE IS NOW FILLED WITH BUTTERFLIES, AND IT IS VERY COMFORTING KNOWING SHE IS WITH ME ALL THE TIME THE SAME AS YOUR JULIA IS WITH YOU. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER AND MAKE SURE TO LISTEN TO ONE ANOTHER, THIS WILL TRULY BE A TEST OF YOUR STRENGTH AND FAITH, JUST REMEMBER THAT GOD IS ALWAYS WITH YOU AND WHEN IT GETS TO BE TOO MUCH HAND IT OVER AND LET HIM DEAL WITH IT FOR AWHILE. YOU CANT CARRY IOT ALL ON YOUR OWN. THNAK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING US GET TO KNOW YOUR ANGEL AND FOR BEING SUCH WONDERFUL PARENTS AND SUPPORT FOR EACH OTHER. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. I WILL CONTINUE YOUR FAMILY IN MY PRAYERS AS WILL MY CHURCH. HEATHER STEADMAN <hsteadma@nvrinc.com> MC DONALD, PA USA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 1:09 PM CDT Levy Family. Wow - what a day for you and what a weekend. I continue to pray for you all and your continued strength and maybe one day soon it will get a little easier. I remember about a week after Nolan died, I asked my sister how she was ... she said it felt like a hole was in her stomach ... something was missing. I understand this, and I can imagine this is similar to all parents. Love you all, Tess ('Angel' Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> Fresno/SF, CA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 11:04 AM CDT Judy and Levy family, Keep going people. Julia is watching you, floating by when you least expect it and only wanting you to be happy and smile. It sure won't be easy and it won't happen overnight..but you are lucky enough to have some INCREDIBLE friends and family that love you. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 10:48 AM CDT I agree butterflies are FREE and beautiful...just like Jules. Joshua wanted me to tell you that he gave her butterfly kisses before bed last night. Thinking of you always. Remember anything you need!!! I too will find the brightest star, Joshua will love that. Talk to you soon hugs and kisses to all the children.. Cath - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 9:14 AM CDT Butterflies are free! anonymous - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 6:55 AM CDT Judy, My heart aches for you and your family...Julia is with God now...she is truly your Angel baby...no more pain and suffering. I know exactly how you feel having gone through the loss of a child myself many years ago...my prayers are with all of you at this difficult time. God Bless. Jan Weis Bridgeville, PA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 6:27 AM CDT Judy, Thanks for letting me help a little today. It feels good to be useful! I know you know that I will do anything I can to help you out, but I had to say it anyway! Julia Angel Princess, Hannah misses you so. She wants you to chase her like you used too. She talks about you all the time. She can't wait to play Brat dolls with your Mom. I can imagine all the fun you have been having, running and playing with your Grandpa. Butterfky kisses to you Angel. Mary & Hannah <zackysmom@city-net.com> - Monday, September 15, 2003 9:04 PM CDT hi my name is Sheila, I was surfing the cancer site to learn more about wilms tumor and i read your whole story, and i just wanted to say IM sooooo sorry about the loss, your angel passed away on my birthday sep-10th :( my youngest son Cody Daniel was born on 1/20/02,and on 6/12/03 i took him to see a neurologist because early intervention and i suspected autism,(i knew sense he was 6-months) from his atypical behaviors the nero-told me cody `s left side is bigger than his right, which i knew from 2-months of age and i mentioned it to his pediatrician, he said nothing so nothing came of it, so i thought it was a freak of nature thing, which IM use to that already, (my middle son Nathan David was born on 7/01/1996, and was found out at 3-days old he has congenital heart defect, he had to have surgery at 10-days old, the cardiologist said its a freak of nature thing, that during preg-the 2 heart mussels fussed together his fussed together allright but backwards! his arterial lines were connected backwards, the arterial lines that were supposed to go to the lung was going to his body, and the ones going from his body was going to his lung, then he had a hole and a blockage, they said he needed a total surgery performed an arterial switch, not a partial surgery here than wait then another surgery, he said Nathan would die and we had to do all the surgery at once) so i thought Cody's left side being bigger than his right was a freak of nature thing, but not harmful, the nero-doctor said it is associated with wilms tumor, in July he had ultrasound on his kidneys they were fine no tumor, blood count fine, now they want a mri of his brain, then on 8/04/03 he was diagnosed as having autism (at18-months old), he doesn't talk, he cant walk, but he can laugh and giggle when he `s tickled, though most of the time he `s in his own world, and we don't exist to him, and hugs from us he seems to want to do without, at times he does rub his forehead on us, we all know he loves us and is showing it the only way he knows how, he has therapy, ot,pt,speech, 4x a week, soon they want to put him in a teach program therapy, or aba (applied behavior annuluses) and use pecs on him (picture exchange communication system) to 40-hrs a week total therapy, my Mom was diagnosed on 7/29/03 with brain tumor inoperable, her last checkup they said her spinal cord in the neck area is flattening, i cant see her she lives in fl, with stuff going on with Cody's appointments, therapies, lack of funds, i cant go to fl to see her, my life right now is a living hell! i know your going threw your worst days also and have been for along time, i want to say my prayers are with you and your family, again i am soooo sorry over the lost of your baby, no child should have to go threw this torture, take care of yourselves may god give you the strength to keep going sheila Sheila <Kisaten39@aol.com> toledo, ohio us - Monday, September 15, 2003 8:47 PM CDT Judy, I want to extend my very deepest sympathies to your and your entire family. Having a child who was fortunate enough to survive childhood cancer, I can relate only a tiny bit. God bless you, and I know that Julia is with Him now. Maggie <MDefazio60@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Monday, September 15, 2003 8:24 PM CDT What a wonderful tribute to your beautiful daughter. She was lucky to have you as a family, just as you were lucky to have her in your lives. Our hearts go out to all of you. Joel and Vicki Cunningham - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:51 PM CDT I'm so sorry for your loss and i hope you start feeling better. Vincent De Fazio <Daboss207@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:19 PM CDT Judy I wish I could have seen you one more time to hug you. I know you are getting alot of them lately but..they don't hurt anything do they! Whenever we see a bright star I will think of Julia, just as my kids and I have always thought of their dad. I did the same thing with them when their dad died. I would kiss them good night and we would look for the brightest star, say good night and I love you and blow a kiss! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, September 15, 2003 5:25 PM CDT Judy and Jarrod: I will never, ever see a butterfly again without remembering your beautiful....... RoliePolieOlieJulieRavioliStromboliCappicoliGuacamole. That is a long one but I like it!! Thinking of you guys all the time. With Love, Susan and Jakey Bear Griffin Jake's Journey - Monday, September 15, 2003 4:57 PM CDT I have been following Julia's website for a while now, but have not signed the guestbook until now. Just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss of such a beautiful and spirited little girl. My prayers are with the family at this difficult time. The Newest Angel A new flock of angels have taken their flight, The gates have now opened, they're pearly and white, Our Julia's healed and has walked through the door, And Heaven is brighter than ever before. Her stay here was short, though she touched all she knew Her fight was heroic, her bravery true, Her heart was enormous, her body so small, What Heaven has gained is a loss to us all. Though many may wonder why God called her home, When she was so wanted and loved here at home, Perhaps she was needed for some special task, And one day He'll answer the questions we ask. So watch for a rainbow to brighten the sky, A feeling of angels, a bright butterfly Perhaps an aroma of mint-chocolate-chip A faint little giggle to make your heart skip. And though we will miss her, she's not really gone, She's pink skies at sunset, and sunrise at dawn, She lives in the memories that we hold so dear, For though we can't see her, she's still very near. C. Allen Claudia Allen <pollyesther123@yahoo.com> Ann Arbor, MI USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 4:04 PM CDT Before sitting Shiva yesterday I went to see some friends who were playing a club in the South Side. (Tony Janflone band) Tony had written a beautiful instrumental song in memory of his Grandparents called "Wish you didnt have to go". Last night he dedicated the song to Julia. I'm glad I was on the bike...the wind helps dry my eyes... Jeff Freedom, PA - Monday, September 15, 2003 2:56 PM CDT What a beautiful girl!!!I too lost my son Kyle to cancer three months ago. I don't know why cancer attacks the best of kids....may God give us both the strength to go on... mark and aileen lee <www.kylelee28.com> rancho cucamonga, ca usa - Monday, September 15, 2003 2:24 PM CDT It has taken me days to be able to go to your web site. I offer my deepest sympathies and my heart goes out to you. You remain in my prayers (as well as the people in my church.) I do not have your address. so will communicate through Shellie that I will make a donation in Julia's memory. God Bless you and keep you in His care. Ken & Shellie's Aunt Bunny - Monday, September 15, 2003 1:43 PM CDT Hello everyone, Just checking in. Hope this finds you as well as can be expected. We love you all and our continued prayers for you come daily. Just know that we are here for you and are thinking about you all. Love, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, September 15, 2003 11:40 AM CDT i'm very sorry for yr great loss. my thoughts are with all of you. lisa cunningham pittsburgh, pa - Monday, September 15, 2003 10:59 AM CDT Your words are truly touching. I can't believe how strong you all are. I feel as though we should be telling you everything you're telling us. We should be comforting you and keeping you strong, yet you are offering words of strength and love to complete strangers. You inspire me and are definitely a wonderful person. Please know that I am thinking of your family and of Angel Julia. God Bless You All! Michele Winona, MN - Monday, September 15, 2003 10:49 AM CDT Judy, I just wanted to tell you that you and your family are still in my thoughts and prayers each day. I will keep visiting here to check on you. Keep writing in your journal. I know it is good for you, it is also good for others. Not only did Julia touch my heart in a special way, but you as well. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 10:34 AM CDT Judy: Butterflies and the Energizer Bunny-- What a pair. The butterflies were always special to me, but now we think of Julia. And you--well you keep going like the Energizer Bunny. You have the strength of the strongest battery and keep going, going and going. Hope that this brings a smile to your face. We will talk soon. Hugs, Kisses and Love to all Andrea <andrea@msn.com> - Monday, September 15, 2003 10:28 AM CDT Judy, Hey there! I am so sorry for you loss. In time I pray that God will heal your pain. God Bless. You and your family are in my prayers. Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com> Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 9:17 AM CDT Judy, Just dropping a note to let you know that there is not a second of my day that does not go by without a thought of you and Julia, I truely believe that Jules is in a much better place than we are, playing, laughing, and reading stories with her grandfather, just being well taken care of. That is what made Joshua very happy, he told me last night that he is not sad anymore because Julia is all better and that she is safe with her pap pap. I am always hear for you, my door is wide open, my phone is never shut off. You just remember she is always with you and knowing she is in a better place and happy will get you through these tough times. I am glad I got to spend that hour and half with you and your family yesterday, many kind words were spoken about Julia. Thank you. Everytime I see a butterfly I think of Julia, as a matter of fact I have never seen so many butterflies in a weeks time, SHE IS WITH US, we had a big one on the porch yesterday after noon and Joshua just looked at me and smiled. Julia, Little Angel in Heaven we miss you more than words can say. Joshua has his little stone and carries it with him all the time, if he is not carrying it he has a safe place and when he thinks of you and misses you I told him to just hold that stone and think of Julia. He also gives me Butterfly kisses before bed just for our little "Jules" We love you very much, our Hearts are aching missing you so much, one day we will see you again. Until than...... Cathy & the crazy boys!!!! - Monday, September 15, 2003 9:07 AM CDT Judy, Whenever I see butterflies I will think of Julia, just as I think of Seth when I see trains. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family now and always. I wish you peace and strength forever. Marissa(friend of Mary Kitchen's) Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Monday, September 15, 2003 8:01 AM CDT Hi Judy, I hope you don't mind this story I am going to tell you, but I think its important, and it just makes ya feel good,, I was reading about how you said that you kept seeing butterflies around you at the time of the funeral, well one of my dearest friend's dad passed away 2 months ago, I had known him from birth so it was very hard, sorta like a 2nd dad. Well on the day of his funeral, we were at the cemetary and a good friend looked down and saw a golf ball by her feet and she gave it to my friend, which gave all of us a wierd feeling, it made us all smile though, we let it go. We went to our luncheon at a resturant after, and I was talking to a friend when something out of the corner of my eye hit me, I looked down at the floor and there was a golf tee, I handed that to my girlfriend and we all just sat there and smiled, her dad was a huge golfer, and we just decided that he was letting us know that he is playing on the most beautiful golf course he has ever played on, and enjoying himself. Finally about a month ago, my friend and her family were on vacation, one of her daughters had tried for years to water ski, to no avail, well this year, she tried again, and wouldn't you know it, she got up and skiied like a pro, her sister had been able to ski fine but always wanted to drop one ski, but never was able to stay up after she did it, well,,,, she did this year, and did it with grace, and again, my friends dad could water ski beautifully, we all believe that he was on the back of those water ski's with his grandchildren holding thier butts up!! hahahaha, there is no other explanation, they had tried for years to do it, and now all of a sudden they both did it!!! I believe that our loved ones pass through this life and go to a place where they can finish out all they set out to do when they were on earth, I think they safe guard us and bring peace to us, even though we might cry when we think about them because we just want the physicality of it all, the warmth and laughter, but I think its them who heals us also, they give us strength to endure things we might not have been able to before, I take that as comfort, because its just really nice knowing that if our passed loved ones can do that for us, then when we pass through this life, we will be able to do that for someone we love too!!!! Thank you for letting us be apart of your life with Julia, its puts life into perspective, it makes you realize just how precious and short life really is, and that we all have to make it the best we can while we have the chance!!! I will keep checking in on you and your wonderful family, I hope you all get a chance to laugh and smile each and every day, Julia would want that for all of you too!! Love Linda Schmartz and family Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> South Glastonbury, CT - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:55 AM CDT Judy -- I read your account of Julia's passing and my heart broke. Whenever I see butterflies, I will always be reminded of Julia. Your family is in my prayers. Bonnie Ward Exeter, NH USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:45 AM CDT Judy, Still praying for you.....and your family! Forever in my thoughts! Love, Michelle Michelle <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 7:17 AM CDT Judy, Thank you for allowing me into your heart and your home. It was wonderful to meet you and give you the hug I have always wanted to. Hold onto your deep sense of peace when you miss your angel and ache to hold her. Hold onto your love and your faith. Know that I am the lucky one for getting to know you...thank you! Thinking of you. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, September 15, 2003 6:02 AM CDT Dear Judy & Jerry We were so sorry to hear of your loss. Everything that I want to say seems so inadaquite. There seem to be no words that will ease your pain. Julia touched many lives, more than anyone will ever know. She was truly blessed to have such a strong and wonderful and loving mother. The strength you showed during this terrible time is remarkable. Her beautiful smile and laughter will be missed by everyone who was fortunate enough to have known her. Her spirit will live on thru you and your children. You, my dear friend Judy and your Angel Julia give the words courage and hero a face. I do not have to tell you to be strong, you already are. May the inner peace that you have continue to be with you forever. I love you. Betsy Sibbet <BetsyAlex@mail.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 1:32 AM CDT Judy, Your journal entry reminds me so much of our last night with Elijah. We were surrounded by people we loved and our Pastor stayed with us to the end. When Elijah took his last breath, I turned to our pastor and said, "this isn't right, no one should have to watch there child die" He reminded me that that was exactly what our Heavenly Father did, and it is through that, that we have the promise of seeing our babies again. I am sure Elijah and Julia are playing and just looking forward to seeing us again in Glory! I know that I can't wait to hear that trumpet sound! We will pray for your continued peace. Julie <wakbyfaith@yahoo.com> - Monday, September 15, 2003 0:18 AM CDT This chapter of your life has ended, but a new and fresh one has begun. I send you my deepest regards. Ron Borland <borland2@access995.com> Fayette City, Pa U.S.A. - Monday, September 15, 2003 0:01 AM CDT I am so sorry for your loss. May G-d comfort you and keep you, may you feel His arms around you. Jeanine Odom <jeaninehyde@cox.net> Tempe, Az USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:50 PM CDT I found your site quite by accident and was extremely moved by your story. I was also quite taken with the photos of your beautiful baby daughter! As I feel someone in the family is Jewish, I am enclosing these words of comfort which we traditionally say: HaMakom yenachem et'chem b'toch shar avay'lay Tzion vee'Yerushalayim. Yael Yael Adler Boca Raton , FL USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:22 PM CDT Thank you for your beautiful words, Judy. Thank you for taking us through the last hours Julia had with you. I am so glad so many people were there with you. You have my heart, you really do. I am thinking of you and Jarrod and your precious children all the time. I know of some of what you are going through. This is soooo hard on us, but she is an angel along with Nolan and so many others. Love you all, Tess ('Angel' Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <itbi2@att.net> Fresno/SF, CA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:05 PM CDT Judy, I am sorry it took me so long to write an entry. It hurts so much and I could grasp the proper words. We KNOW, that little Julia is watching over all of us now, and you will see her again. As bad as it hurts, she is much better than we. God Bless you and your family. You are one terrific mom. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:04 PM CDT Judy & Family- What a beautiful and precious angel we on earth have looking over us! Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for you and your family! I cannot fathom the journey you've had, but know I will pray everyday for you you and your family and pray for God to give you the strength to survive! Thanks for showing us your strength, courage, character, hope, but most of all the love you have for your baby angel, Julia! Heaven is smiling! D. Atkinson <carterbean@adelphia.net> Plum, PA USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 9:55 PM CDT Judy, Just want you to know I am thinking of you. Love, Mary Mary Kitchen <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Sunday, September 14, 2003 9:47 PM CDT So sorry to hear of your loss. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless. Linda A. <U_S_N_2004@yahoo.com> USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 5:34 PM CDT Judy and Jarrod, Just thinking about you all and wanted to let you know we are. Julia was lucky to have such wonderful parents and she is smiling on you both. Every night I say goodnight to the sweetest angel in heaven. Take care of each other and let us help if we can. Love, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Sunday, September 14, 2003 2:19 PM CDT Judy & Family, We are so sorry for your loss. You guys are in our prayers! Elonna McKibben <McKibbenClan@aol.com> Burghill, OH Trumbull - Sunday, September 14, 2003 1:46 PM CDT For Julia God's Garden: God looked around His garden And found an empty place. He then looked down upon the earth, And saw your tired face. He put His arms around you And lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering He knew you were in pain He knew that you would never Get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough, And the hills were hard to climb. So He closed your weary eyelids, And whispered "Peace be thine." It broke our hearts to lose you But you didn't go alone For part of us went with you The day God called you home Chantelle Bridgeville, PA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 1:09 PM CDT When your dear child is suddenly gone Leaving you here to live and carry on To grieve in silence or scream out loud To say harsh words or to just be proud Of her own courageous battle to the end Knowing that you were her dearest friend Much more than Mommy to this little girl You did everything to brighten her world Then finally she had to let go of your hand to start her journey to the Heavenly land Tears may flow in a river down your cheek Sobbing in grief is not considered being weak It helps with coping for the young and old A healing balm for the still grieving soul Judy and Family, I'm a good friend of Jeff Harris and have been following your journal on this website about Julia since day one. Words cannot express how sorry and saddened I am for your loss. Please know that all of you are in my thought and prayers and may you find comfort in knowing that even though a lot of us did not know Julia, she became a part of our lives by giving us inspiration and courage to concur the toughest challenges that may lay ahead of us all. Deepest Sympathy Chantelle Chantelle <vivid.sky@verizon.net> Bridgeville, PA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 1:02 PM CDT Judy & Family, You do not know me but I just read your journal entry sobbing for you all. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I pray for G-d to give you peace that surpasses all understanding. G-d Bless, Karen Rubenstein Alexandria, La USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 11:58 AM CDT TO MY NOW LITTLE ANGEL JULIA (YUM_YUM) I KNOW I CAN"T HOLD YOU AS BEFORE,OR KISS THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILEY FACE,BUT I DO KNOW I WILL ALWAYS FEEL YOUR HUGGING ARMS AROUND ME AND ALWAYS HEAR YOUR WHISPER WORDS "I LOVE YOU TOO,PAPA.... I MISS YOU A WHOLE BUNCH YUMYUM... BUT YOU ARE IN FRONT OF ME EVERY DAY, AND IF YOU HAPPEN TO LOOK DOWN AT ME & SEE A TEAR, YOU KNOW THAT MEANS I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH... AND YOU CAN TELL YOUR GRANDPA, THAT PAPA LOVES YOUR GRANDMA VERY MUCH, BUT I THINK HE KNOWS THAT. LOVE YA YUMYUM...PAPA PAPA <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Saturday, September 13, 2003 10:47 PM CDT Dear Judy, thank you for writing the whole story for us...even though the tears were streaming down my face as I read, it was such a moving tribute to your most precious Julia. I'm so glad you had peace in the midst of the pain and sadness! God is very good, He gave me that same peace when Nolan passed. Although it hurts so much not to have our babies here on earth, at least we know they are healed and happy and we will see them again by and by! Nolan's Mom <loralof@yahoo.com> - Saturday, September 13, 2003 10:15 PM CDT I continue my prayers. Julia no longer needs them for she is with the Lord. But I know your family needs them now more than ever. Your journal entries are a beautiful tribute to your love and dedication to your family. You have been blessed and I am sure the Lord will grant peace to you and your family Ann Berliant (Mary's friend from H&F) <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Saturday, September 13, 2003 9:52 PM CDT I was in eighth grade last year at greenfield school and just want to say i am so sorry about julia and hope you are all ok Dan <easternbmxer88@aol.com> Pittsburgh , Pa. United States - Saturday, September 13, 2003 9:47 PM CDT After reading your latest entry I am sobbing and wishing I could take your pain away. Throughout this ordeal, you gave your little girl all the love, care and peace that was possible and for that you will be blessed. Your beautiful angel, will always hold a special place in my heart, and I will never forget her beautiful face, that must have brought so much joy to all who were fortunate to know her. I offer you a multitude of prayers and my sincere words of sympathy. Much love and admiration, Anne Marie <Taft8@aol.com> Tampa, Fl USA - Saturday, September 13, 2003 9:14 PM CDT Judy, I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am that I could not be there. Please know that you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Brian Sokolsky Carlisle, PA USA - Saturday, September 13, 2003 6:56 PM CDT Judy, I wish I could be there to hug you in person, but, since I can't I am sending you the biggest, most hearfelt cyber hug that I can. I am burning a candle for you and your family in the hopes that it will help somehow. I sent you an e-mail about some of my thoughts and feelings; I hope you find some comfort in them. (((((((The Levy Family))))))) trace ;^) - Saturday, September 13, 2003 5:45 PM CDT ^i^ ^i^ ^i^ Precious Angel Julia's Family ^i^ ^i^ ^i^ My condolences on the loss of your beautiful daughter. I can't begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling right now. Just try to imagine Julia running through the beautiful meadows in Heaven, laughing and having fun, cancer-free and in NO pain. You have so many people who love you and care for you. Lean on God, and lean on you loved ones for the support you are going to need now. It's so very hard to even try to understand these things, maybe someday we all will. Take gentle care..... Love, hugs and prayers, Rhonda Hunley, Connor's Mommy Connor's web page **Hugs and Hope** <rshunley@comcast.net> Hendersonville, TN **God Bless the USA!** - Saturday, September 13, 2003 3:15 PM CDT (((((Judy))))) What an amazing woman you are! I am grateful that THIS prayer was answered. I am very grateful the Julia wasn't in pain and that she was surrounded by love! That love lifted her and carried her to where she is now.... You are always in my thoughts - as is Julia. You have touched me from the first moment I learned about you and will do so for the rest of my life!! All my love... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Saturday, September 13, 2003 1:14 PM CDT My heart broke reading today's entry. You must remember Judy, that Julia is up in heaven, happy and cancer-free, suffering no more. She was so lucky to have the family that she had. You, the amazing mom you are, were there for her every second of the way. She deserved the best and that's what she got. I know the loss that you must be feeling is hell, and I am so sorry. But I 95% sure she is looking down at you, wishing for you to be happy, because she is happy. Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Saturday, September 13, 2003 12:13 AM CDT You are truly an amazing mom, I just read the newest update about how Julia died in your arms so peacefully,, I hear all your love through your update, and I am so saddened for you, I wish I could just sit and hold you myself, as I read this to myself, my two youngest daughters, 8 and 5 were playing near me, and I just cried uncontrollably, I can't imagine them going through all the suffereing that your precious little girl went through, but as a mommy, I certainly feel that if it were one of thier times to pass through this world, that it would make me smile all over the place when I knew that they weren't suffereing anymore, watching your child be in pain is one of the worst feelings in the world, and to watch them finally be rid of that would be a very bitter sweet moment, I guess as a mom, I would like to give you a final thought, when my children were born, the nurse handed me my baby, I looked in the face of a miracle, I got to kiss her, and tell her how much I loved her, and she wasn't even minutes old yet, what an honor it was to behold something so beautiful, and I couldn't believe it was happening to me, I hope that my children out live me, but if they don't, I will consider it an honor of the highest kind to have been able to be there to hold her and see her take her first breath, and then to hold her and watch her take her last, and to know in my heart that I gave her life, bue she made my life the best!!! My heart goes out to all of you now and forever, I will always remember your little girl!! and someday maybe I will get the honor of meeting her myself. with love to you all Linda Schmartz and Family Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> South Glastonbury, CT - Saturday, September 13, 2003 10:41 AM CDT Hello everyone, Just wanting to let you know we are here for you all. Words can't describe how we feel for you all. I do not know what else to say except we love all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Saturday, September 13, 2003 10:12 AM CDT To Judy and Jarrod, Julia was so very lucky to have you as parents. I am so sorry for your loss. Julia will continue to live in your hearts. She changed my life forever and I will never forget her, NEVER!! I know that Julia is proud of you both. May God bless you and your family at this difficult time. Aleta NY - Saturday, September 13, 2003 9:15 AM CDT Dearest Levy's.. Please accept our most sincere condolences on the passing of your Sweet Julia. We have been following your journey through you entries for a some time now and we are so saddened to learn of this heartbreaking news. You will all continue to be in our prayers as you go forth through this difficult time... Sweet Dreams Angel Julia... Kim and Kody  ~KODYS STORY~ - Saturday, September 13, 2003 8:41 AM CDT Dear Levy's Your family continues to be in our prayers. God Bless you all. Donna (Chey's mom) <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx - Saturday, September 13, 2003 6:35 AM CDT Dear Levy Family, I'm sending lots of prayers up for you. Little Julia is now up in Heaven watching over your family and dancing cancer free. www.theraokgroup.com  Amanda <mrlynr1110@aol.com> - Friday, September 12, 2003 11:17 PM CDT Judy and Family, What an emotionally draining, yet uplifting day today was. The service was so touching, filled with many warm thoughts of sweet Jules. Lisa's voice surely reached the heavens...I'm so proud and filled with admiration of her. She sang with strength and mercy for your beautiful daughter. The stories that Pastor Dwayne shared were tear-jerking. And the Rabbi so wonderfully explained many beautiful traditions of the Jewish faith. Being one of the last cars in the procession was incredible..so many friends and family joined in a long, long line, filled with love. And the butterflies!!! Can you believe there was a butterfly at the end of the service? Thanks Julia for making your presence known. But we know that you'll always be with us. You're just playing peek-a-boo in a different way. You'll peek in and out of our thoughts each day. Judy, your journaling kept all of us informed of what was going on with Jules.But it also let us into your heart. Please know that you and your family are forever in all of our hearts. We love you! Shellie - Friday, September 12, 2003 9:10 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, My deepest and heartfelt sympathys to you all. Your strength and courage have been an inspiration. I now know that your beautiful Julia is free to fly with all the butterflies. Lisa Gold Rudick <duds.suds@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:31 PM CDT Today was the last day to look at Julia's beautiful face as her casket was closed and she was buried. She is very peaceful looking and no doubt happy as she has her favorite stuffed animals, pictures, gifts from loved ones in her casket with her. On top of her casket was her Dora the Explorer blanket. Sweet, sweet Julia is literally an Angel now. I am comforted knowing she is with her Grandfather now as they are buried next to eachother. She's not alone. I imagined she and my dad up in Heaven and my dad telling her how he remembered some of the people who came to see her today, 25 yrs. ago when they came to see him. Telling how they used to look, etc. She's in great company. Julia darlin, I miss you more than I can ever express and I love you bunches. I'm so happy you're peaceful and laughing and playing. Love always and forever, Aunt Jodi Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Friday, September 12, 2003 7:59 PM CDT My heart and prayers are with you over the loss of your precious angel daughter. My heart breaks for all of you. She was simply beauitful. Nancy - Friday, September 12, 2003 7:51 PM CDT She's a very pretty little lady. I'm sorry to hear the news. We've had you and Julia on our pray list at church. She'll always be near. as long <mtj@hhs.net> fairchance, pa usa - Friday, September 12, 2003 7:15 PM CDT I am so sorry to here of your family's lose.On the internet, you can go to "promise of God" in there you can read without me it will help. you are in our prayers. I am Audri Gilbert's grandma. in Jesus name Cookie Cookie Dotterrer <cookie118@westpa.net> Marienville, PA USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 4:45 PM CDT Our thoughts and prayers are with you on the loss of your beloved child. Our Ryan left this earth on December 10, 2002, and I have asked him to look in on Julia. God bless you all. Paula Pennington, NJ - Friday, September 12, 2003 3:24 PM CDT May you find peace in this time of loss, Laura www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer - Friday, September 12, 2003 3:14 PM CDT Dear Levy family~ My coworker passed me the website and I've been praying with my prayer group ever since. I would like to send my condolences to your family. You may feel the loss but the Heaven's gained one more angel and God will give her a healthy body as He promised. May you find peace, comfort, and strength in His hand. With love, Mia <mtjondro@aol.com> College Station, TX USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 2:07 PM CDT Dear Levy family~ At times like these, may you be at peace with the comfort, love and strength of your family. Thank you for opening up your lives to us through this difficult journey. Through trials and struggle, loss and pain, you had an angel at your fingertips all along. She's with you, your family, and touched many people. Pay attention and you'll see her and feel her all around you daily. I found you're site through an email which I honestly would usually delete. I was hooked from the second I saw and read about your daughter! This has also been a journey for myself reading your daily entries, and I just send out a big hug to each of you! With sympathy and love! Kelly <lexicaldo@yahoo.com> College Station, TX USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 1:44 PM CDT It always saddens me to hear about the loss of a child. My heart is with you. May God comfort your hearts, and may you find inner peace in knowing that Julia is forever in His arms. Kenny Ray <webmaster@cancerkids.org> FORT LAUDERDALE, FL USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 11:46 AM CDT Levy family, I am so sorry to hear that Julia lost her fight. God Bless. My prayers and thoughts are with you. Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com> Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 11:10 AM CDT i am so sorry to hear about your loss you and you family will be in my thoughts and prays. hugs and hope group kim young <lynnyn2@aol.com> ofallon, mo usa - Friday, September 12, 2003 10:24 AM CDT My deepest sympathy to all.You are in my thoughts and prayers. Rhonda Mason <RHON_MASO@msn> Pittsburgh, pa - Friday, September 12, 2003 9:56 AM CDT Dear Levy family, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beautiful daughter... she fought the good fight and was surrounded by a loving family to the end. May God carry you now in your time of grief and give you the peace and strength that can only come from Him. My prayers are with you.... Christy S. Milwaukee, WI - Friday, September 12, 2003 9:40 AM CDT promise of God without me The Gilbert's Ray,Tina & Audri, Sammi <triplettt@cuisp.com> Pitt, PA USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 9:04 AM CDT God gave you a beautiful young lady to have,love, hold and enjoy. It is sad that you didn't have her very long. God must have felt you were all very special to care for her for Him. He wanted her to have a family and friends and learn about Jesus so she could be a Saint in Heaven with Him. Many prayers for you all and may God protect you in the days ahead. The hurt and heartache won't go away but each new day will be better than the last. Grandmother of Marissa Faith Connie Newton, KS USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:58 AM CDT There are only two ways of spreading light- to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it. My deepest sympathy to those that reflected Julia's light. Debbie New Brighton, PA USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:55 AM CDT JUDY & JERRY I AM SOOO SORRY FOR THE LOSS OF YOUR LITTLE ANGEL SHE HAS TOUCHED ALOT OF HEARTS ITS SO NICE TO SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE REALLY CARE LOVE AND PRAYERS TO YOUR FAMILY KELL RYAN <KELI1028@AOL.COM> PGH, PA USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:51 AM CDT I learned about Julia through Maddie's site. I am very sorry to hear about your losing your precious baby. I praise God that you gave her permission to stop fighting. Be assured that Jesus was also giving her permission to come be with him. She is now healthier than we can ever be and experiencing more joy than we can imagine. May God continue to bless, protect, and comfort your family. With Christ's Love, Ann <henryannt@verizon.net> - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:36 AM CDT i found your site thru nolan's hope. so sad to hear little julia has finally gotten her wings. your loss is heaven's gain. i know nolan was waiting for another perfect playmate. he'll watch over julia. may you find strength to endure the loss of your beautiful daughter. with sypathy, april, tom and kalen "angel" nolan's cousins april <vankalen@comcast.net> lambertville, nj usa - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:00 AM CDT I just want to say i'am soooo sorry ! Cheryl Distelrath - Friday, September 12, 2003 1:42 AM CDT My thoughts and prays are with you in your time of loss. Kathy (a friend of Jeff Harris) Mill Run, PA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:49 PM CDT I ran across your site last Friday and have been keeping Julia in my prayers since then. I was so saddened to see that she gained her wings yesterday. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and I hope you can find some comfort in knowing she is safe back home. Bridget <bridget@mortgagesunlimted.net> Minneapolis, MN USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:12 PM CDT my thoughts and prayers are with you and all of your family, Julia was a sweet little girl, she touched everyone who knew her she was very brave. I dont like the word cancer my husband passed away 4 months ago of pancreatic cancer and i have 4 little ones so please just keep your chin up and be brave and keep fighting and together with everyone fighting and praying one day we will have a cure so know one else has to go through what we are going through Bragette Parker <classypittsburgh@hotmail.com> Pittsburgh, Pa U.S.A - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:48 PM CDT My deepest sympathy to all . Julie looks like a sweet angel. She will be dearly missed. My heart is so heavy with saddness for all of you. Knowing she is at peace is the only solace one can feel. I chose to believe her grandpa was waiting with open arms to meet her. Love and peace , Debs Hoffman ( friend of Jodi's) Debs Hoffman Orange, CT USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:22 PM CDT Julia, you will be missed so much down here on earth, but we know you are in a much better place. And free from that terrible Cancer! You have touched so many lives of people that never had the pleasure of knowing you personally. I feel like I do and your family from the updates. Judy & family, My heart is breaking for you, Shes a Very Special Angel in Heaven with our sweet Lord and Savior and is free from the suffering on earth. God be with you and your family at this time and I will be praying so hard for you all tomorrow as that will be the hardest day. watch for butterflies- she is letting you know she is ok and wants you to be ok too! Shes praying for you too but she wouldnt want to come back and suffer anymore- SHE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN IN HEAVEN. God Bless you and your family. Please keep us updated on how you are . Donna Reynoldsburg, OH - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:01 PM CDT YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. JULIA WAS A BEAUTIFUL GIRL, WITH A STRONG SOUL. I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, BUT KNOW SHE IS IN A WONDERFUL PLACE. FRIENDS OF JODI'S. TINA, MATT, JESICA <TEENABUG069@AOL.COM> FT PIERCE, FL ST LUCIE - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:49 PM CDT May God fill you with peacethat Julia is now with Him. Julia is in a much better place enjoying forever with no pain. Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:29 PM CDT Thinking of beautiful dear Julia and the fight she has accomplished in many ways. I know she fought soo hard, but went with peace and knows her family loves her deeply. I am crushed about her passing, but know now that she is in no struggle. Thinking of the Levy family always. Love, Dannie Dannie (Maddie's friend) <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com> Mpls, Mn USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 5:58 PM CDT I am so sorry to read about your loss. I pray that God gives you the peace and comfort to get you through this loss. Anita mother of Holly Moore www.caringbridge.org/mo/hollyemoore Sikeston, MO - Thursday, September 11, 2003 4:53 PM CDT With thoughts of our angel, Julia -- I am the "dear departed" and I speak to you who mourn Don't be so downhearted, and don't be so forlorn Tis I who should weep for you, for the torments you endure My anguish and my pain are through The world I knew obscure It may be you don't realize, my death was my rebirth For here in Eden beauty lies without struggle as on earth I sip of wine, I sup of bliss, such pleasure no mortal knows The Lord was good to will me this The contentment in me grows But, if you must have memories, I beseech they be my choice Think of all the happy days, and the laughter in my voice The holidays with their festive mood, the excitement still it rings Time is wasted to sit and brood, so for you I've chosen these things I beg you, let my soul find peace, your happiness is the price Accept my parting as just a release from mere existence to paradise So now I start my life anew, with nothing more to say Except a fond "I love you" and may God bless you every day (By Robert O. Silverman) Our sincere sympathy, love, peace and blessings to all the Levys and Haffners Clare and Carl Stawson and Family <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 4:30 PM CDT our hearts are with you and our prayers sue gasper <gaspersg@aol.com> pittsburgh, pa usa - Thursday, September 11, 2003 3:29 PM CDT Love and Prayers to you and your family. Your daughter is now dancing in heaven with mine and they both finally won there battle against this horrible monster..... Hugs to You Deneen Mom to Tiffanie Forever in Heaven www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 3:11 PM CDT I live in Christoval Texas (home of Cheyenne Fiveash) and was brought to your website through theirs. My heart is breaking for you and family. As a mom, I can't imagine your pain. Julia was so beautiful and I just wanted you to know that you are in the prayers of people you don't even know. LaRae Fulton <larae.fulton@netxv.net> Christoval, TX USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 2:51 PM CDT I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers. Angela Moss <sinjen1@hotmail.com> San Antonio, TX - Thursday, September 11, 2003 2:24 PM CDT Her little body was unable to fight any longer but her soul is indestructable. Fly free little Julia. My love and prayers go out to your family and all who knew her personally. Lynn M St Paul, MN - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:46 PM CDT I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I just found your web site through Katia and I read all your entrys. May your faith and strength continue to get you through this. Your daughter is dancing with God in the sky with many other beautiful caring bridge kids that I have watch over the past year. God Bless Angel Taylor Johnson, Britney ziptner, Priyanka, and Julia Levy. May these girls be dancing together in the gates of heaven. They will be in our hearts forever and always..... Jennifer Hines Coon Rapids, MN - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:28 PM CDT Judy & Jerry, I am so sorry about Julia. I can't imagine what you are feeling now. I do know that God will give you strength and comfort that I'm sure you need desperately. Julia was a blessing to me in just reading about her, so I'm sure she was to everyone who knew her. My prayers are with you during the extremely difficult time! Terri Gay <terrig@altamaha.net> Helena, Ga - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:11 PM CDT Judy and family, Thank you so very much for sharing Julia with me. She touched my life, my very soul in a way that I will never forget. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers for a life time....... Love, Michelle Michelle <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 12:57 AM CDT I'm so very sorry and I will pray for those she left behind...... Deirdre Antalek <deirdre@rochester.rr.com> Livonia, NY - Thursday, September 11, 2003 12:04 AM CDT My heart goes out to you and your family in this most devastating time. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Jeanna (Taylor's great aunt) <www.taylorwatts.org> McCalla, AL USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 11:36 AM CDT It is with a heavy heart that I offer my condolences to you and yours for the loss of your precious little AngelFace. That smile - - that sweet, sweet smile - will live on forever. You have endured what no parent should have to endure but with God's assistance, you will persevere and Julia will remain with you in spirit. If you ever question that, just think of that smile. My prayers will continue for you, your family and the rest of the children suffering this devastating illness. Julie Hyatt <juliehyatt55@hotmail.com> San Angelo, TX - Thursday, September 11, 2003 11:18 AM CDT My deepest sympathies both as a parent and the father of a child with a brain tumor. The loss of a child is a very tramatic experience. Try to be strong not only for yourself, but for your family. I know it's easier said then done. God bless you and your family. Frank father of Pam (www.caringbridge.org/ny/pamostrowski) <frmurato@nyct.com> SYOSSET, NY USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 11:09 AM CDT Thinking of you...and what you are going through as we have walked a path similar to yours. Our daughter, Delaney, became an angel in January 2002. It feels like it was yesterday when we held her in our arms. From this website, I can see that Julia is a beautiful, delightful girl. She and Delaney are now friends in heaven. Losing a child is a loss like no other. Please email me if I can help you in any way. Delaney's site: www.caringbridge.com/ca/delaney Amy, Mom of Angel Delaney and Kevin, age 11 <Wright_Amy@hotmail.com> San Diego, CA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:49 AM CDT May you find peace in knowing that Julia is now in God's hands. She no longer is suffering and is watching over her wonderful family. GOD BLESS YOU ALL! Michele Winona, MN - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:41 AM CDT Oh my little Peanuthead, What can I say? You are truly an angel. This is so very difficult to write. You touched every single person's life that knew you or knew of you. Such a wonderful gift. I'm sorry but I don't understand, and probably am not supposed to, but encompassing such a gift should be kept here on earth and not in heaven where Julia should be able to keep touching lives. It's not fair that she is gone. She was just a baby, her life was so very full for being 5 1/2 and yet so very cheated by dying at 5 1/2. Aunt Cashew misses you so incredibly my little Princess!! After we let the heart balloons go up in the sky and everyone yelled. "We love you, Julia", I saw a beautiful butterfly fly by. I know it was you sweetie. Everytime we see butterflies, we'll know you're there. You are terribly missed and loved so very very much. Forever in my aching heart.... Aunt Jodi xoxoxo P.S. Kyra and Cullen love you and miss you terribly!! Aunt Cashew - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:36 AM CDT I learned of Julia through Katia's site. I just wanted to say that I am sorry for your loss. As a mother, I just can't even begin to imagine how you feel and what you are going through. At least, Julia did not suffer and she is now free (not that that make's it easier on you). I hope that you find all the strength you need to see you through the days ahead. Cheryl P. Fair Lawn, NJ - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:35 AM CDT To the family of Julia, I cannot even begin to imagine your pain. I can't say I understand because I have never experienced the loss of a child or a sibling. I can say, however, that you are in my thoughts and prayers. May you feel the peace of Christ as you enter into some incredibly dark days. Linnae <lbosma@usfamily.net> Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:09 AM CDT I am so sorry to hear about your loss. At least she is now free. Cathy Rusyniak <Garbmike@optonline.net> Rockaway, nj - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:58 AM CDT So very sorry about the loss of your precious daughter. Peace be with you. Amy Whitaker <HRWsMom@earthlink.net> Lutz, FL USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:56 AM CDT Dear Levy Family, I learned of this site from Cheyenne's page. I am so sorry for your loss and you and your family will continue to be in my prayers. With Sympathy, Tina Green Green Christoval, Tx - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:55 AM CDT You are in my thoughts and prayers. Melissa - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:52 AM CDT Please accept my deepest sympathy on the passing of your precious daughter. May God give you the strength you need in the days ahead. A friend Somerset, MA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:48 AM CDT God Bless all of you today and everyday. Friends across the world Everywhere, All All - Thursday, September 11, 2003 9:27 AM CDT Levy Family, I was lead to your site through following Marissa Faith. Marissa is from the same orphanage in China as my adopted daughter. I am so sorry for your loss and you will be in my prayers. Gary Schaider - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:54 AM CDT Dear Judy, Your beautiful Julia is now an angel....safe in God's arms, but I know that doesn't take away the pain and heartache you are feeling. You will continue to be in my prayers. Love, Andrea and family www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:49 AM CDT Judy: Wrote yesterday, but got lost so we will try again. My dear friend and family, you have our deepest sympathy on the loss of Julia She was a special child from day one. What more can we say that has not been written in this guest book. Words can never express the loss that you have. We have only our faith to keep us going on. Remember she has gone to a place where there is no pain, no greif, no seigh, but happiness, light and life everlasting. My her memory be eternal. Love & God Bless to all, Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:36 AM CDT In all the years I have known Julia, how could I have ever known the strength, courage and bravery that she possessed. I remember two weeks before her dx,giving her a haircut and when I was done and had combed her hair, Judy and I just looked at each other, as Moms will, because she was so beautiful and then she ran off to play. I will never forget how she looked that day. Isabella now has a special angel to watch over her. Judy,Jerrod, Jordan, Justine, Jacob and all, I hope we can give you the love you will need to bear the loss of Jules,as you all gave Julia the love she needed when she was sick. Love from all of us. Lisa, Alexandra, Isabella,& Stevie Pgh, PA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 8:28 AM CDT Dearest Levy family and friends, I am sooo very sorry the loss of this wonderful girl. You are in my thoughts as you now deal with this. Stop being strong today, turn to your faith and lean on your friends. Continually in my thoughts, HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:59 AM CDT Dearest Levy family, May the peace that surpasses all understanding surround you and keep you all together in Christ Jesus. My heart breaks as you grieve for your angel. Hold tight to one another and to the Truth. God bless you and all your friends and family. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Sherry Sherry Wheeler <frogbear@worldnet.att.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:57 AM CDT Dear Uncle Jeff and family, My best wishes to all of you. I think I can sympathize, but how is that possible? This journal and guestbook is a wonderful thing. Your strong family and friends will always be there to help with this loss. Rick Mauro Wilkins Township, PA USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:11 AM CDT My prayers are with you. Dee Dee (Lombardo) Brumn <dbrumn@gtmtravel.com> Pittsburgh, Pa 15208 - Thursday, September 11, 2003 7:04 AM CDT Dear Angel Julia and Family, I have only been reading your site for a few days now, but I am filled with such emotion at this moment, my heart aches for all of you, but at the same time my heart is filled with joy for Julia, she is not suffering anymore, she is pain and cancer free forever!!! you all suffered so much, and for the survivors, it will really never be over, just take peace in the fact that for a time, you were honored to be in such a special little girls life!!!I know she will be your guardian angel, and be watching over all of you until you meet again. With my heart felt sympathies to your entire family and all you friends. Love Linda and John Schmartz and girls Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> South Glastonbury, CT - Thursday, September 11, 2003 6:42 AM CDT judy our prayers are wuth you, god bless you and your family. dom and carol dom and carol marasco <marasco412@aol.com> pittsburgh, pa usa - Thursday, September 11, 2003 6:26 AM CDT Dear Julia, I am so very sorry for what you had to go through in your young life... I am so deeply hurting for your Mum and Dad, brother and sister. My heart was bleeding yesterday at learning of your condition and is shattered today at the news of you earning your wings. I know that you are now fully healed, in a pain free world, experiencing the Lord's embrace, comfort, purest love. You have certainly been truly missed in Heaven and you will be terribly missed down here on this earth. I know that you will always watch over your precious family from above. My heart goes to your family and to their immense loss. I will pray the Lord to keep them in His Light and Comfort until you are all reunited again for Eternity. I am so sorry I could not pray longer for you for I only met you yesterday. But, I will pray for your family, I promise you. Good journey, brave, tough, courageous, georgeous Angel. God looked around his Garden and found an empty place. He then looked down upon his earth and saw your loving face. He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest. His Garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain. And knew that you would never get well on earth again. He saw your path was difficult, he closed you tired eyes, He whispered to you "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly. When we saw you sleeping so calm and free of pain, We would not wish you back to earth to suffer once again. You've left us precious memories, your love will be our guide, You live on through your family, you're always by our side. It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone. For part of us went with you on the day God called you home. sabrina <morini@agriflex.it> forlě, FC Italy - Thursday, September 11, 2003 4:09 AM CDT Julia- The light in your eyes tells a story about you...High spirited, loving, strong-willed, caring, gentle, happy, courageous are the words that come immediately to mind when I think of your picture and the words your mommy wrote... But those eyes twinkled like you knew a secret that not many people know, and I think you have shared it with all of us through your journey to healing. Love, Faith, hope, dignity, courage, family and friends are not achieved in years of life, but are things that are realized when your heart is pure... You will sparkle in the hearts and minds of many people forever... Peace and comfort to all of the Levys. Sara mpls, mn - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:12 AM CDT Judy, thank you for being Marys friend - she love you with all her heart. Julia, we all love you, but not like Hannah does - your not gone, you just can't argue with her when you two talk. I can't lie - Hannah's missing you. I didn't know Julia's middle name is caitlin- I hope you can share some of your love with our new Kaitlyn. Whatever we can do to be of help to you, Jerid and the kids, a crutch or just a friend -say the words we're there. Stay strong, you guys have alot of friends to lean on, don't be afraid or embarrassed to let all of us help you through what all of us can only imagine your family is going through. John - Thursday, September 11, 2003 1:09 AM CDT We're saddened to learn about your Julia. We will pray for Julia and for your family. We're a childhood cancer family (www.codibug.com) also and wanted to let you know we care. Loni & Codi <salemdualsport@aol.com> Salem, OR USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 0:50 AM CDT  I just found your beautiful baby's link yesterday and added it to my daughters page. I am so sorry. "I Cry" I Cry not for you, but I Cry for me. I Cry not because you are gone from me, But because you left me behind. I Cry because, I don't know the beauty and love that you feel and see. I Cry not because I think your sad, but because I am sad. I Cry not because the love is gone, but I Cry because my love for you is so strong. I Cry for me because I wasn't quite ready to give you up. I Cry not because your not here with me, but because I'm not there with you. I Cry not that your soul was lifted up to heaven. I Cry because you left us here on this earth so full of emptiness without you. I Cry for me every time I think of you. I Cry for your Dad and your Brother. I Cry for all of those who loved you so dearly. I Cry not for you, for where you are. I Cry for us, for where we are, and that we are not with you. Every tear drop that falls from my eyes, are tears of joy and of gladness that you were such a wonderful part of my life. I Cry not to be with you, to experience the beauty, the splendor, and the abundance of things wonderful. To know what it's like for everything to be simply perfect..................... by: Nancie L.White Walkinbeauty There is an interenet place I visit. One of the lovely ladies who lost her grandson said that this was posted in his guest-book. I thought it was beautiful. I wanted to share it with you. I have no other words that I can say that could ever help you with your pain of your deep loss. I am truely sorry. Cheryl <carpathienblue@yahoo.com> - Thursday, September 11, 2003 0:17 AM CDT COUSINS, MAY THE MEMORIES HELD DEEP WITHIN YOUR HEART HELP TO SOOTHE YOUR SPIRIT AT THIS DIFFICULT TIME OUR LOVE ROBBIE AND CREW <ITSGOODTOHEARFROM_U@EARTHLINK.NET> Margate, FL USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 0:11 AM CDT Dear Judy, Jerry, Family and Friends, Words cannot express the sadness in my heart tonight. You are all in my prayers. Thank you to all who've left caring messages on this site. Jeff <Phishplugger@comcast.net> Freedom, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 11:12 PM CDT May God be with you. You are all in my heart and prayers. Sandy England <ozarkdrm@yournet.com> Compton , AR United States - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:59 PM CDT Judy, As I sit here and really dont know what to write. Julia really touched my life in more ways than one. I just wanted to let you know that I enjoyed everyday taking that little peanut to pre school, hearing Joshua always tell everyone about his GIRLFRIEND Julia, her making the babies laugh when they were crying so hard because they no longer wanted to sit in their carseats and wait, Julia would sneak around the corner in the back of the van and always look right at them and say PEEK A BOO and those two would just laugh at her, playing with that hair and her asking me to fix that ponytail before she walked into school. Julia really touched Andy to, he loved those big beautiful BLUE eyes and that shy smile, when ever he would take them he would have to laugh because she always looked down but had that smile. I am sorry I could not be there as often as I would of liked, but you always new I was here for you and still am please do not forget that. I thought of Julia every waking hour and I truely believed she was going to beat this, but GOD needed her for reasons we will never know till we too meet her again. I think of her as my own little girl that I never had, and feel your pain as a mother. You have taught me alot with your journals, the strength that a mother really does have inside of her. You did a wonderful JOB and without you she would never of made it this far. Julia is now at peace, no more pain, no more doctors, no more medicine, no more sorrow. She is our ANGEL above an is watching over each one of us. As tears roll down my face, I must end by saying I LOVE YOU!! and thank you for letting me be there with you today big CUZ Cathy - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:58 PM CDT God Bless all of you. Julia will be watching over you now as you have done for her. And She will have Jesus and Our Father to watch over her until you will be together again. I will continue to pray for your family. Christine Barnett The Barnett's <barnett95@yahoo.com> BRUSH CREEK, TN USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:55 PM CDT Dear Judy and all the Levy's, Our deepest sympathy on the loss of your precious daughter Julia.Judy I know this must be an extremely difficult time for you but I am hoping you will find rest and consolation in these words that Jesus spoke to all who come to Him"Let not your heart be troubled:ye believe in God,believe also in Me.In my Fathers house are many mansions:if it were not so,I would have told you.I go to prepare a place for you.And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again,and recieve you unto myself;that where I am,there ye may be also."(John14:1-3)I have a son and two babies in heaven myself,who,I'm sure,are greatly enjoying the presence of Julia.She truly is everyones loss but heavens gain.Some day ,the bible tells us that God will wipe away every tear.May the Lord mercifully hasten the day. Mary Jean Tudi,Tony,Gina,Nicole and Anthony Tudi <maryjeantudi@msn.com> Pittsburgh, Pa - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:54 PM CDT my heart aches for you! I'm so sorry that you and your family have to go through this! God Bless You Love Cheryl Cheryl Distelrath Upland, ca sb - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:51 PM CDT Dear Levy family, I am so very sorry to see that Julia has left this earth, but ever so grateful to know that she went peacefully and is now in heaven. May the days ahead be filled with support from family and friends and may you feel God's presence as He gives you peace, comfort and strength. In Him, Debbie Nagy St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:47 PM CDT Jarrod and Judy and Family, I am so sorry that you did not see Julia's miracle this side of heaven. I know she has never felt so free and loved as she does up there. We just had some friends of ours go to heaven less than 2 weeks ago. The mom Melissa,33; Makenah,8; Zachary,5; Nicholas,3; Alenah,1. A flash flood took their vehicle off the road. Anyway....I couldn't help think how much fun Julia is having with her new friends. Our prayers are with you now and will continue to be until God tells me to stop. Love, Jenni Jenni <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:44 PM CDT Judy i am a friend of cathys. She let me know this morning that Julia past away. My deepest simpathy to you and your family. I met Julia at Jushuas birthday party last year, she was such a beautiful girl. I pray that God and your friends and family will help you through the times ahead, to hold your head up and know that your time of caring for Julia has been passed on to the Lord above and is finally free to be a child again that shines as bright as the sun. always in my prayer you and your family will be. Kathy Cocuzzi Clairton, PA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:21 PM CDT  Dana Sanford <pooh_n_tigger2002@yahoo.com> Jackson, Mi - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:18 PM CDT I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter Julia. May God, your family and friends comfort you and give you strength during this most difficult of times. You're all in my thoughts and prayers... Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com> Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:10 PM CDT I have a heavy heart for Julia's family and friends. My little great-niece Katia Solomon is having her struggles and I am familiar with the ups and downs of this disease. I know that Julia is with God and resting in His arms. I cannot imagine what grief you are experiencing by not having her resting in your arms. May God give you what you need to continue on as you support others in this battle. Julia has been healed. Praise God! In Christian love, Marilyn Long Marilyn Long <mclong@tampabay.rr.com> Tampa, Fl Hillsborough - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 10:08 PM CDT My heart goes out to you and your family. Today, one of the most beautiful angels entered the gates of heaven pain free. As a parent, I cannot even begin to imagine what Julia and your family has had to endure. No parent or child should endure this, but God has His reasons. Each and every day will bring you closer to being with your beautiful Julia. Julia will always live in your hearts forever and ever and she has touched so many lives. May God comfort you and lift you as your journey continues. God Bless you. Diane <thevezz@aol.com> San Francisco, CA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:54 PM CDT your in our prayers - The Kirkham' s christoval, tx - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:51 PM CDT My heart goes out to you...I can't imagine what you are feeling right now and the emotions that are running through you and your family...my heart aches for you and I send my support and prayers your way...I hope that you find peace in knowing that she is with OUR FATHER and that she IS your angelbaby...she shines from above and those who know her and even those who don't will see that...she is at peace now and I know thats all you ever really wanted for her anyway... my love and support The Allison Family Angela Allison <shortie@triad.rr.com> Winston Salem, NC - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:43 PM CDT Our deepest condolences to your family on the loss of your beautiful daughter Julia. She is in heavan with God and is at peace. We will always remember Julia, her beautiful smile, her amazing eyes, and her sweetness. Your journals have really touched us. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Desiree Deasy <deasyfam4@aol.com> pgh, pa 15217 - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:38 PM CDT Dear Judy, There will never be enough words that that I can say that will bring the comfort you are seeking. Know that you will feel Julia forever..in a song that you hear, a story you share, etc. etc... memories are wonderous and so very helpful. I know the real pain you are feeling...and yet, I can tell you...it will ease. G-d knows it takes a LONG time! Take your time with it... do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself.Although you are not aware of it, I shared the journey that you have traveled, pulling for Julia every step of the way. My prayers at this very difficult time are with you and your family. Es Cohen (Herm's daughter) <es755@aol.com> Apopka, FL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:36 PM CDT Our hearts are destroyed. We will miss Angel Julia more than words can ever express. Hannah said Julia had to be in Heaven, because she was toooo good to be here - truer words were never spoken. Julia, we will love you always, and miss you terribly, but we know you are with God, and healed, and watching over all of us, but your family most of all. Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine, and Jacob - you have the most special angel watching over you. You continue to be blessed. Remember- Julia is watching over you always. We have been so blessed to have you all in our lives, and cherish the friendship that continues to grow. Julia has touched THOUSANDS of lives, in a short time, and continues to do so. I hope you can find some peace in that. I truly believed she would beat the odds, even last night when I was sitting with you all, but I guess God needed her more. I know he created her, but I feel he is very lucky to have her with him tonight. Whenever I see a Monarch Butterfly, or a rainbow, or the sunshine, or the rain, or the snow, I will know Julia is with us. Whenever I see Green nail polish, I will know Julia is with us. Whenever I see you, Judy, and Jarrod, and Jordan, Justine, and Jacob, I will know Julia is with us. Thank you Judy for letting us all walk this journey, and know your precious baby. You have touched thousands as well, proving your strength and character, and how special and wonderful you are. I pray for you all to find the peace you need to get through this. Trace sent me this poem yesterday, and I wanted to share it: "When the Angels Call" "I'll lend you, for a little while, a child of mine," He said. For you to love while he lives, and mourn when he is dead. It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two, or three, But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for me? He'll bring his charms to gladden you, And shall his stay be brief, You'll have his lovely memories as solace for your grief. I cannot promise he will stay, as all from earth return, But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn. I've looked the wide world over in my search for teachers true, And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you. Now will you give her all your love - Not think the labor vain, Nor hate me when I come to call to take her back again. I fancied that I heard them say, "Dear Lord, thy will be done." For all the joy this child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run. We'll shower her with tenderness And love her while we may, And for the happiness we've known, Forever grateful stay. And should the angels call for her much sooner than we planned. We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, And try to understand. Edgar A. Guest, 1881-1959 Love, Mary, John, and Hannah, and Zack, Dan & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:22 PM CDT Judy and family, Just a note to say you are in our prayers. Tonight, when Cheyenne discovered the Julia had become an angel, she just matter of factly told us that we shouldn't be sad. She pointed out that none of us know how long we have here before going to Heaven, and she was ready whenever God wanted her. She stated that she would miss us, but would see us later in Heaven. Tears are in my eyes for Julia and for my Cheyenne, however, truer words can't be spoken. Julia is in a better place than we, and we will see her again. God Bless you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:06 PM CDT So, So, So sorry.. Lorrie Columbia, SC USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:05 PM CDT Judy & family, My deepest sympathy to you in the loss of sweet Julia. Please know I will continue to pray for you ,Judy, and your family. It is a bittersweet time. Visiting Julia's page each night and reading your entries, Judy, has put you in a special place in my heart. I will still visit here to see how you are doing. May God comfort you. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:57 PM CDT You are in my prayers for the days ahead.Loosing a child is so unfair.I know exactly what you are going through.I lost my son last September to a brain stem tumor and I miss him very much.But I just tell myself that he has no more pain and he can be a little boy once again.And that cancer will never find him again.I am here if you ever need a listeing ear.God will give you strength for the days ahead.In my thoughts,a caring friend...Laura & AngelBrian Laura Vermilyer <Lvermilyer@wi.rr.com> bristol, wi USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:51 PM CDT We are so sorry for your loss. Each day will bring you a step closer to the day when you will all be reunited, in Heaven. We will always remember Julia and keep your family in our prayers. Peace, Tracey, Steve, Quinn and Callum Ager xoxo <traceyhewison@shaw.ca> Calgary,Ab,Canada, - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:48 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, I am so sorry to hear of Julia's passing, and I am sorry for the hurt you are feeling. One thing we all know for sure, Julia is enjoying all of the comforts that God has been waiting to give to her. Your family will always be in my prayers Mary Therese Luedke Minneapolis , MN - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:19 PM CDT I am so sorry to hear of your loss. May the Angels carry Julia up to our Father Frannie Grove City, OH - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:18 PM CDT Julia, I hope while you're in heaven, you're chasing butterflies, petting doggies, smelling flowers, and smiling down on all who love you. Judy and family, we're so sorry about Julia's passing, but so glad that we got a chance to meet such a brave soldier. She was an angel here on earth, so she'll quickly adjust to her role in heaven. Justine, Mikey saw Julia's cloud, too today. We hope that throughout our lives, many clouds and butterflies (and fairy wings) will help bring to mind our very special angel. With much love...Shellie, Mikey, Matt and Kenny (and Bettis too) Shellie and Mikey - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:16 PM CDT There are absolutely no words that can make this any easier for you but I do want you to know that you are loved and prayed for. I will continue to check on you. Blessings in this most difficult time. Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org> Lexington, NC - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:04 PM CDT Hello Levy Family and their families. We are just so sorry for your loss. She is a beautiful angel and one we will never ever forget. If we can do anything please let us know. In the deepest of sympathies. Amy, David, Zack and our entire families Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:47 PM CDT Sending you tons of love, hugs, and prayers. I know the bittersweet emotions you must be feeling...relief that she is finally healed, happy in heaven; yet so very heartbroken to let her go. Sweet Julia will always be with you, and one day you will be reunited with her for all eternity. Lorraine ("Angel" Nolan's mom) <loralof@yahoo.com> - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:19 PM CDT Dearest Judy and family. My deepest sympathy to all of you. Julia is certainly in a much better place than we are. She has been in God's hands for a long time, and I am so glad she went peacefully. It is never easy for those left behind, but please know we are all keeping you in our prayers. She was very blessed to have the family she did, and we have all been blessed to have been a small part of her life. Please take care of yourself. Bev Gorr <bgorr@helicon.net; bgorr@wishworld.org> N. Huntingdon, PA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:41 PM CDT GOD BE WITH YOU ALL AT THIS SAD TIME. JAN OH - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:38 PM CDT Judy and family, Thank you so very much for sharing Julia with me. She touched my life, my very soul in a way that I will never forget. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers for a life time....... Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:35 PM CDT Dear Judy & Family, I am so sorry to hear about Julia. We may not keep in touch with one another...but my heart & prayers went out every day for her. I was never really one for believing in faith until recently for own personal reasons....and I really believed that Julia was going to beat the odds....but sometimes things just happen for a reason. Everyone who knew Julia was certainly blessed for knowing her...what a sweet girl! She IS your angel now....she is ALWAYS there for you when you need her!! :) I am really glad that I got to see her when I was in at March for my dad's b-day.....I will hold on to that sweet smile of hers!! Every one is going to tell you the same thing....there are no words that can help you thru this....only Time will help! My thoughts are with you, Jerry & the kids. Bonnie <Bonbon413@webtv.net> Orlando, Fl USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:32 PM CDT Judy: You have my deepest sympathy. There are no words left to say. The Lord has taken her into his arms. To a place where there is no pain, no greif or seigh, but happiness, light and everlasting life. May her memory be eternal. God Bless Andrea Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:27 PM CDT Dear Levy Family, I saw your website on Katia's site. This is one of those times when there seem to be no words...but I will share with you what my oldest daughter (who is now 21) said when she was 5....at the news of her beloved grandmothers passing....it carried me through that time, and although it wasn't my child passing, I felt that it may help some....there is definitely truth in "from the mouths of babes...." My children were VERY close to their grandma, and I just didn't know how I was going to handle telling them...but when I did, my daughter jumped up..with SO much excitement in her voice....and said.."WOW!! You mean God loved Grandma SO MUCH that He wanted her to come LIVE WITH HIM???" I could only smile and agree with her 100%. God loved Julia SO MUCH....He wanted her to come live with Him. I hope you find some comfort in those words, along with the knowledge that you will all be rejoined as a part of The Family some day. Know that my family and I will be praying for you all, to help you through the difficult times ahead. In His Love... Pam (code_blue_hoosier_momma) <sundman@lightbound.com or code_blue_family@yahoo.com> Shelbyville, IN - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:22 PM CDT We are so sorry for your loss. Know that you and your family are in our prayers. Much Peace and Prayers Ruthie and from heaven Seth (www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains) <Rbunkmann@msn.com> North Palm Beach, Fl - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:21 PM CDT Dear Levy family, You don't know me but I still want to pass along my condolences. This is the hardest trial that can be given to us. Julia is and was beautiful. She is now a saint in heaven and is in the Lord's presence. This is one of the Scripture verses of promise: "...I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me." ~ II Samuel 12:23 This is speaking of King David's baby, who died. So hold tightly to the promise that those who belong to Christ shall be reunited with their children some day. But I do know that your pain is unimaginable and will be praying for you. God bless, The Paquette's: Monica, John, Aubrey, Saint Gabbie, and baby Noah Gabriel (http://www.caringbridge.com/mn/gabrielles.prayers) Monica Paquette <mj.paquette@worldnet.att.net> Minneapolis, - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:21 PM CDT I am so sorry for your loss. Words probably can't describe how you must feel. I heard of your darling Julia through Katias mom Tracy and my heart just fell in love with her beautiful picture. I prayed for her and your family and at times I didn't have the right words but I know that the Holy Spirit interceded for me in those times to minister to all of you. I am also trusting that God will comfort all of you since I again am so sorrowful that I don't have the words that you probably need to hear. Julia was very blessed to have such a wonderfully strong family. I will continue to prayer for you. Love, Dottie Tisdale <dottie_42_2001@yahoo.com> Jasper, AL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:20 PM CDT Jud, Words can't convey the feelings that I share with everyone about how sorry I am for your loss. My heart aches as every second goes by. But not just with pain. It aches with Love for you, Jer, the kids, Jodi, David, Alan, your mom, Nan and their families too. I am so proud to be your friend and sister. You are truly God's Blessing. Julia will always be in our hearts. We are here for you every moment of the day. Prayers for all from Rocky, Michael, Matt, Andrew, Jace, David, my mom, Kristy, Lavern, Sylvia, Rhetha, Robbi, John, Charles, Dr. Gmoser, and so many more in SugarLand. I know God has wrapped your sweet angel in His arms and will continue to hold on to her and Love her as much as you do. Hold on to those close to you and let them help you through the next few moments, as God is helping Jules find her way Home. She's a beautiful angel to all of us, as she has been in all of our lives. Call me when you need to. Always with Love, warm thoughts and bountiful prayers, Ami We are with you all, Ami, Rocky, Michael, Matt, Andrew, and Jace <Ami@houston.rr.com> SugarLand, Tx - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:11 PM CDT Levy family, I'm so sorry for your loss. She is making such a beautiful angel up there in Heaven. I really thought that she would survive, your strength combined with hers left no doubt in my mind. I was shocked to read your entry today. I will keep your entire family and all your wonderful friends in my prayers as you face the difficult days ahead. Danielle Santa Clarita, CA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:10 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, My heart goes out to all of you. I know that there aren't any words that anyone could say right now to make any of you feel better. You will all be in our thoughts and prayers. I'm so glad to hear that she didn't suffer. She is now one of Gods beautiful little angels who will be watching over each and everyone of you. Love and prayers and may God Bless all of you. Lisa Couto <PLC5906@aol.com> Ft Pierce, FL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:06 PM CDT Levy Family, I am so sorry for your loss, the pain of losing a child is unimaginable. I had visited before and didn't sign and am sorry that this is my first time. I found her site from Katia's and have a new awareness of this monster that I never had before. Julia is truly an Angel. Please know that you're in my and many other's prayers. Liz <laranda@technetmedical.com > Artesia, NM USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:58 PM CDT To the Levy family. We are so very very sorry about the passing of Julia. We loved her as one of our own. Our prayers are with you all. God has brought you and your family to us at Jefferson Ave. UM church for a reason. I don't know what that is yet but I'm sure we will find out. See you tomorrow. Love, Anita & Dave Dave & Anita Dulaney <dadulaney@yahoo.com> Claysville, Pa. USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:53 PM CDT Levy's...My deepest sympathy goes out to you for the loss of your little Angel, Julia. No more medicine, Doctors...just peace for little Julia, and pain free. You have brought such inspiration to me Judy with your journaling and honesty regarding the condition of your child. What a testimony to you and the love you have for your family. Your beautiful little Julia is at rest now, with God. You are all in my prayers.. Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:51 PM CDT 9/10/03 - THE DAY YOUR ANGEL WENT HOME TO HER CREATOR. JULIA WAS NEVER ALONE. THE ANGELS WERE THERE TO RECEIVE HER AND TAKE HER HOME. GOD BLESS YOU, JUDY AND YOUR FAMILY. NOW WE CAN WATCH GOD TURN WHAT SATAN MEANT FOR EVIL INTO BLESSING ON THIS EARTH AS HE PROMISES IN HIS WORD. YOU ARE AN AWESOME MOM!! AND GOD WILL CATCH ALL OF YOUR TEARS.... COULDN'T HELP BUT BECOME ATTACHED, LOVE, AMI'S FRIEND, KRISTY MILES...HOUSTON KRISTY MILES <KD_MILES@YAHOO.COM> HOUSTON, TX USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:46 PM CDT Judy, The next few days will be very difficult for you and your family, but, I think the hardest part is over. Letting go is never easy, especially when it's your child. May you finally find some peace in this time of sorrow. My love and thoughts are with you, always. Blessed be. trace - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:35 PM CDT Hi Levy Family, I'm so sorry to hear of Julia's passing. Since you had signed Kaylyn's page the first time, we're always looking for updates. Jesus is has been holding Julia close along the way. She put up a good fight and she showed she could outlive what was expected. Little Julia is healed in heaven and I bet Jesus is giving her a big, big hug right now! You will continue to be in my prayers, I believe people need continued prayers no matter what, and I'll be praying that God will help you to stay strong. http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/ Erin Columbia, SC USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:34 PM CDT I have just learned of Julia's passing and I want to send you my sympathies. I read that she did not suffer and I know that you were praying that. No child should have to deal with this but I am glad to hear she had peace. She had a beautiful face and I am sure a beautiful little soul. Right now, I am sure she is flying around somewhere as one of the most beautiful butterflies ever, feeling no pain and no more doctor visits. I cannot imagine how you feel right now. I am praying for God to give you peace and strength and that your friends and loved ones will give all the needed support. I have updated Katia's site about Julia passing. May God be with you and your family and friends as I am sure Julia touched so many lives. Love, Tracy ~~Katia's Site~~ Tracy and Katia - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:24 PM CDT I am so sorry...You are in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. God Bless!! Shauna Rucker and Family www.caringbridge.org/tx/davinrucker <r.rucker@comcast.net> Garland, TX USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:23 PM CDT thinking of your. Heaven has a brand new princes a very very prety one. Just know your family is in my thoughts Laura Laura <queenlillycat@aol.com> ma - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:21 PM CDT Dear Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine, and Jacob, I am so sorry about your loss of Julia. This is the hardest thing a parent lives through. Know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing Julia's journey with the world. She has touched so many lives. Lives that I hope will be forever changed for the better. She isn't alone. There are many-too many-other children including my grandson Zack who were there to show her around. God Bless you and give you strength. http://www.caringbridge.org/il/zack.hostad/ Beth Boyer-grandma to Angel Zack and Little Jake <Bethcountry54@aol.com> Joliet, IL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:19 PM CDT Thinking of you and your family... Kellie Beresh - Jacob's mom - www.caringbridge.org/ne/jakieboy Omaha, Nebraska - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:11 PM CDT Gosh, I am so sorry. Words cannot express what I am feeling right now. I am relieved to know that Julia is now healed and is in a new healthy body, free of any pain. Last night I asked God to please heal Julia...and He has. I also asked Him to give you all strength and courage and to help you all thru this difficult time. ~JULIA~ What a beautiful little angel you must be! Isnt fun to fly thru clouds and look down on all the people that you love?! Sweetheart, you handled everything with such beauty and grace...a true inspiration is what you are!! I will never forget you or your story. Be sure to check in on your parents from time to time and let them feel your presence... **Fly High Butterlfy..all our love will fly to you each night on angel's wings, godspeed, sweet dreams*** Leah Wilson <Fairy128@aol.com> NC - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:06 PM CDT Heaven has a new beautiful angel. God's peace to you. The McAleers Nelson, BC Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:02 PM CDT Judy, there are no words that could possibly convey how sorry I am for your loss, but I will continue to pray for peace for you and your family, and I'll always remember Julia's beautiful, peaceful smile that warmed my heart. Janet <jperrirn@adelphia.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:56 PM CDT Dear Judy and family, Words cannot express what I want to convey to you all. I am so sorry for the pain you must be feeling. Julia has become part of our everyday, as we check in on this website. We care very deeply for her and for all of you. Your love for each other has been such an inspiration, and it is that love, your love for God and the love of countless people who have come to know you during this fight that will sustain you during this excruciatingly difficult time. Julia will dance on in our hearts, and we will keep you all in our prayers. Our love, Julie, Maddie and our entire family www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie Julie Dornisch mpls, mn - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:55 PM CDT HI, MY NAME IS ROBIN DEVER AND I AM A FRIEND OF ANITA DULANEY, I AM SO SORRY FOR YOU LOSS. BUT I KNOW YOUR COURAGE AND FAITH IN GOD IS SO STRONG. I DON'T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY, BUT I GREW TO LOVE JULIA THROUGH ANITA. AND I WILL PRAY FOR YOUR CONTINUED STRENGH ANG COURAGE. I SEE YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY TO HOLD ON TO. I CAN'T EXPRESS ENOUGH HOW I KNOW YOUR BEAUTIFUL LITTLE JULIA IS WITH GOD IN A BEAUTIFUL PLACE, LAUGHING AND PLAYING AND NEEDING YOU TO BE HAPPY AND STRONG HER BEAUTIFUL SMILE WILL SHINE EVERYDAY IN ALL OF OURS HEARTS MOST ESPECIALLY YOURS AND YOUR FAMILIES. AGIAN I WILL PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY FOR STRENGH. SINCERELY; ROBIN DEVER ROBIN DEVER <bubbles1115@yahoo.com> WASHINGTON, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:54 PM CDT I'm so very sorry for your loss, as well as my loss, and the loss of thousands others. I have always believed, since the first day I learned about Julia that she was a fighter and a winner. A winner is exactly what she is. She had the support and love of her wonderful family and friends, the courage of a warrior, and the attitide of the wonderful girl she was. She faught long and hard, and I will never stop believing that she won her fight. With all of her grace, she showed us all what it means to live. She will never be forgotten in my thoughts, Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:47 PM CDT TO the Levy family. Thank you for sharing your lives with us.For letting us know beautiful Julia. Know that Julia is laughing and dancing where she is right now. She will always be young,healthy and beautiful. I pray that someday soon,when thoughts of julia come that they will be happy thoughts of your angel instead of sadness.God bless. Evette (Mary's friend at H&F) <skyian@comcast.net> Westland, MI USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:37 PM CDT Judy and family, Words arent enough i know! my heart breaks for you! Julia is at peace and doesnt have to be sick anymore., she can run play and fingerpaint in heaven. You have been great with her through this whole ordeal! And such an inspiration to so many! THis is the worst thing that could ever happen to a family! my prayers are with you. Kim Kim IN - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:37 PM CDT May God comfort you all now. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. Sandy Smith St. Pete, FL - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:34 PM CDT I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby. Julia was, and always will be, a very special little girl. Pat <patricia.manning@comcast.net> antioch, ca usa - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:26 PM CDT I just recently became aware of Julia's site, and her struggle with cancer. I am so sorry for your loss. May God be with you during this horrible time, and the difficult times that will follow. I hope you will continue to share your memories of Julia with us. Justine Madison, WI - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:24 PM CDT Judy and Jerry, We have heard Julia is at peace in heaven now -- your very own angel. Our hearts are aching. May God grant you and your whole family all the strength you need to get through this. Love, peace and blessings . . . Carl and Clare Stawson and Family <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:20 PM CDT Dear Julia and Jerry, I am so very sorry to hear that your beautiful daughter Julia has passed away. I have been following your journal and kept Julia and your family in my thoughts each day. Julia is at peace now, and I hope that your pain will subside everyday as Julia is now resting peacefully in Heaven. Barbara, Jessica and Bryan Adams (Herman Smith's neice / Sylvia's daughter) Barbara Adams <badams1050@aol.com> Macon, GA Bibb - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:05 PM CDT I am praying for you to give you strength through this difficult time. Jennifer Hines Coon Rapids, MN - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:01 PM CDT Judy and family, I know my wife wrote earlier, but I wanted to add my condolences. Julia was a fighter, and now she can rest, safe in the arms of Jesus. I know Elijah is there showing her all the cool things to do in Heaven. She is happy, and playing and eating ice cream and doing all the things she couldn't do here. I know your heart is broken, and there is so much pain, try to cling to the fact that this separation is only temporary, and some day you will see her smiling face again, only this time she will be in her perfect body, and you will never be separated again. That is what I cling to. If you need to talk to anyone, or just to vent, our phone number is (217)287-2247. I prayed that you wouldn't have to go through this as we did, but you and your family cared for her better than anyone else could. Take comfort in each other. Cling to each other and your friends. Don't hesitate to accept anyone's offers of help. It makes things a little better. The angels are rejoicing now as another beautiful angel has made it's way home. Craig Levine <wakbyfaith@yahoo.com> Taylorville, IL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:55 PM CDT I am sorry to hear of Julia's devastating illness .... our family will be in my constant pryers that God helps you deal with the pain of losing your precious beautiful daughter ... I am so glad that my friend Evette told me about Julia ... God Bless You and Your Family Renee Marie Caldarelli <FatBlastinRenee@aol.com> Plaquemine, LA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:47 PM CDT I am so sorry to hear that Julia has passed away. I cannot imagine your pain and sorrow but please know that you are being thought of and prayed for. I wish I had the magic words to help you heal. God Bless all of you. Spread your wings Angel Julia and be free. Our sincere and deepest sympathy The Carter's <TLC2866@sbcglobal.net> Manchester, Ct USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:36 PM CDT As I read your latest entry tears are rolling down my face and my heart is breaking for you. Please know that thoughts and prayers are with you from my family now and always. I wish you strength and peace. Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:31 PM CDT Judy and family, based on what I am reading from guestbook entries, Julia is now in heaven, with God. I am aching for you all. I know what you are going through, and this is just not fair. We should not be feeling this, our kids should not be sick like this in the first place. Judy, all I can say right now is that you all have my love, and my prayers and will not stop. Tess (Nolan's Aunt / Lorraine's Sister) Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> San Francisco, CA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:23 PM CDT Our prayers are with you . Julia is in God's care. I know He will give you the strength to bear this Love Marian & Ron. Marian & Ron Leach Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:16 PM CDT Oh Judy and Jarrod I am so sorry. I wish I could say something to make it better...I know I can not. I am just so sorry. Thank you so much for letting us get to know your beautiful daughter through your postings. Your love for her is so evident. She is finally free of that horrible tumor. I pray God gives you the strength and peace you need to get through this time. With Love, Susan and Jake Griffin www.caringbridge.org/page/jakegriffin - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 2:25 PM CDT Even with all that Tracy and Katia are going through, she posted your site and asked people to send kind words. I don't know your baby's story but I do know that she needs a miracle. I pray for you and want you to know, I'm thinking about you and am so very sorry for your pain and suffering....thank God she's in no pain poor thing. Deirdre Antalek <deirdre@rochester.rr.com> Livonia, NY USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 2:13 PM CDT Sweet beautiful Julia...thank you for your presence here, for touching my life and the lives of so many others. Only now will you know how you have touched many of us around the world. Your compassion, strength and sweet smile is forever burned into my soul. With a heavy heart... HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:58 PM CDT So very sorry to hear of Julia's passing away. I will continue to pray for your family and friends. Peggy <scoobybaby35@aol.com> Deltona, FL - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:55 PM CDT Judy, My heart is breaking for you. I really don't know what to write. I know the pain you are going through, but I also know there is nothing anyone can say to lessen that pain. We will continue to pray for you and your family to find strength and peace. Julie and Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:50 PM CDT Dearest Julia, I know you are having a rough time right now, just know that 20 Northeastern State University students prayed for you today at our BCM Weekly prayer breakfast! My heart goes out to you and your family. I hope that you are at peace soon. Remember, by HIS stripes we are healed! Sleep tight angel, you are not alone, for his angels are all around you. Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu> Tahlequah, OK 74464 - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:42 PM CDT I don't know you (followed a link from Katia Solomon's site), but my heart is breaking for you. We're praying for your family. May God comfort you now. Trust in him. Sandy, Chip & Eli FL - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:37 PM CDT May you find peace and comfort in the days that lie ahead. I will safely tuck Julia in my thoughts and prayers during this Friday's Light the Night walk here in St. Louis. Much love at this difficult time. You are truly beautiful people. Wishing you peace.... Tera Cowee <tc@ndsstl.com> St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:30 PM CDT Judy, Jerry...our deepest sympathies to you both. May your beautiful Julia be at peace. It's her turn now to watch over all of you. What a beautiful baby--what a sweet daughter. Our prayers are with you. You were both magnificent--no one could have cared for her better. G-d bless. Dee Dee and Bob Calkins (Herman's neice) Gloria Liebling-Calkins, Robert Calkins <BobandGloria@comcast.net> Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 12:54 AM CDT Sending love, support, comfort and peace! On my mind, HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 12:52 AM CDT I am so, so sorry that you have to go through this. I can't even imagine how hard it must be for all of you. I will do all that I know to do for you which is pray. It seems very little but I know prayer is the biggest thing you need at this time. Blessings to you and lots of love. I will continue to check on you. Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org> Lexington, NC - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 12:01 AM CDT I will add Julia and your family to my prayer list. My step daughter had brain cancer approx 5 yrs ago (before I came into their lives) at age 9. they had a very rough time of it and almost lost her twice but I'm very happy to say that she's now 14 yrs old and doing wonderful! she went from 42 lbs during treatment to now weighing 120 lbs with a boyfriend and a wonderful cancerfree future ahead of her. I just wanted you to know that God is wonderful, He does perform miracles and Cynthia is proof! She now has a huge heart for others with cancer and I will be sure to share with her about Julia and Celeste and she will be praying for them too I'm sure. I'm not sure if Julia has the same kind of brain cancer Cynthia had but hers was about the worst you can get and she survived it and Julia can too. Keep the faith and be sure to take care of yourselves too. She needs you strong and smiling as much as you want to see that in her too. Hang in there and I pray you continue to feel the love going out to all of you. Lori Wilbur <ljwilbur@comcast.net> Albany, OR USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 11:44 AM CDT On mind...hoping for peace for everyone! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 11:17 AM CDT Came here from Katia's website....am so sorry for the pain your family is enduring right now. Am praying for God's peace and His healing powers for your beautiful daughter. Stay strong and know that many prayers are flooding the throne of heaven right now. A friend WI - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:56 AM CDT Prayers to your family from ours. Marilynn <marilynn@carepro.com> Sterling, CO USa - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:52 AM CDT I pray that God gives you the strength that you need to make it through these hard days. Take it one minute at a time and believe that a miracle can happen at any time. Julia~~ Stay strong sweetie. Everyone is praying for you. God Bless, Jeanette (Angel Jalen's Mommy) www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <tru2200@aol.com> Fl - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:33 AM CDT Levy Family, I am so sorry to hear that Julia isn't doing well. I will say an extra prayer for your family this evening. God Bless. I truly hope she beats this horrible disease. Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com> Belcamp, MD USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 9:12 AM CDT May God continue to give you and your family strength, hope, and courage. We are friends of Marissa and now pray for all the children we have learned about. We continue to pray each day for a cure to be found for this horrible disease. Kelly Sabatini <sabatmom@yahoo.com> Topeka, KS USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:57 AM CDT Judy: What can I say, that has not been said. You all are in my prayers. God does work miricles in his own way and in his own time. You all have been very strong don't give up hope. If it is His will for this to happen, it will happen for a reason. Julia's life has touched so many people. More than you can possibly imagine. May God give you the peace, the strength and the love that you need during this, the most troubled time of your life. Remember, I'm a phone call away. Love to all the "J's Andrea <andreazober@msn.com> - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:46 AM CDT My heart is breaking for you. Julia is so blessed to have you as her family. Jen K Silver Spring, MD 20906 - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:45 AM CDT Julia & family, I just wanted to let my know our prayers are with you and I am still asking for that miracle to happen. Cheyenne's Coach Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:33 AM CDT I came to your website through Katia's. I am so sorry very sorry for you and your family. I cannot imagine what you must be going throughwatching this terrible monster invade your daughter. I only hope that somehow, someway you can find peace and know that Julia will be so very happy and healthy in Heaven. You and your family stay strong and I will keep praying for a miracle. They happen every day. May God Bless. Lisa Coody <lisa_coody@hotmail.com> Hawkinsville, GA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 8:10 AM CDT I too have a daughter called Giulia (Julia) and a little boy Jordan. My other daughter,Gemma, was diagnosed with leukemia almost 2 years ago. She is in Remission and doing well. Terrible that a parent must go thru all this. I'm so sorry. Sandra <luigitumminelli@virgilio.it> Sicily, Italy - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:47 AM CDT Judy, I teach at the school that Cheyenne goes to and read your journal often through her site. Julia is a beautiful child. There is no greater pain than loosing your child. My heart and prayers go out to you. May God bless you and your family as he takes Julia into his arms. Life doesn't seem fair does it? (I lost my only child when she was 4.) Julie Luce Christoval , - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:35 AM CDT I just want you to know that Judy you have been an very strong individual for excepting the reality of it all. I have been reading how Julia is doing but I have never signed the guest book. I just want you to know that I am sending my love and support to you and your whole family. Carrie Russo <acrusso@look.ca> Barrie, Ont. Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:30 AM CDT Julia, I learned about your site through Cheyenne's site. I just wanted to let you know that you are loved all over the world and have many people and families praying for you. Be strong and brave and let jesus hold your hand. Julia, you have been a brave little girl through all your sickness and continue to be brave. Mom and Dad, stay strong and remember that the Lord is always with you. Things in the world may not happen the way that we think they should but the Lord knows what is best for Julia and the family. If you need anything fill free to e-mail me. Love in Christ Kelli Froman <lilk_21@yahoo.com > louisville , KY US - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 7:06 AM CDT Judy, In the past 3 years that you have been next to us, not a day goes by without thinking or talking about one of you. I know I can't understand how difficult this has been, but from the way you have handled it from the start, there is no way to describe you and the rest of your family as remarkable. If there is anything that you need,anything,let us know. Rogie - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:46 AM CDT I just wanted you all to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. God Bless each of you. Lisa Couto <PLC5906@aol.com> Ft Pierce, FL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 6:20 AM CDT Thinking and praying for you all........ Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 5:45 AM CDT WEDNESDAY..4AM JUDY, READ YOUR EMAIL AT COMCAST.NET KRISTY MILES <KD_MILES@YAHOO.COM> HOUSTON, TX USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:22 AM CDT Dear Julia, I have the honour of "meeting" you through Katia's site. I feel priviledged of meeting such a very tough fighter. You really inspire me and reading your guest book you inspire lots and lots of people in so many different places, who are praying very hard for you. My heart is with you, too, precious Julia. Be strong, Pet. I send you the tightest and the most special Italian hug. One special one to Mum and Dad and to your brothers and sister. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS sabrina <morini@agriflex.it> forlě, FC Italy - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 3:17 AM CDT Hi, i heard about your site from Katia's and just wanted to say that i'll be praying for your family.  Dana Sanford <pooh_n_tigger2002@yahoo.com> Jackson, Mi - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 2:37 AM CDT Dear Judy and family, My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I found Julia's site through Tracy Solomon(Katia's mom). My family has been down this road. It is the most difficult time of your lives. God Bless!! Beth Boyer, grandma to Angel Zack and Little Jake <Bethcountry54@aol.com> Joliet, IL USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 2:06 AM CDT judy, please let me know if there is anything i can do. Jesica asks about julia and justine. i know that she wishes that they were in the same class. please know that our prayers are with all of you. cindy dawson <rdawsod@aol.com> pittsburgh, pa - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 1:36 AM CDT You have TOUCHED MY HEART GOD be with you all "Centered in Your presence, dear GOD, I let go of every concern and my soul awakens to new blessings of Your Love and Grace" "Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to GOD"-Philippians 4:6 Paloma - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 0:31 AM CDT Oh, Judy. I just wanted you to know that we're very concerned for Julia. Actually, we think of the Levy crew all day. I know that nothing I could say or do would help anything right now but I still feel that I need to just be here for you. Celeste looooves the purse that you gave her. She really, really cares a lot about you too. For her to be so comfortable with you at this point in her life is absolutely amazing. She had fun playing at your house today. I feel like it's getting harder for both of us. I had a hard time walking to the van when we left. I wanted to just stay but felt like there wasn't much that I could offer. I don't think that the stress will go away any time soon for either of us. Our lives will never be the same regardless of what happens. Unfortunately, neither will the lives of our husbands or children. I try to focus on the blessings in life. ((((HUGS))))) 'xoxoxoxoxo' from Celeste Tami Celeste's site <blessingsbyceleste@hotmail.com> Pgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 0:13 AM CDT As a parent, I cannot imagine the pain and/or thought of losing a child. Your heart is literally being torn from your body, I understand. However, God does have his own plans and I was always taught and really believe to just "put it in Gods hands and let his will be done". He does work in amazing ways and we just have to let go, trust and believe in him with all our faith, no matter how difficult, overbearing, or impossible. Please put Julia in his hands,take a step back, and let God know that you trust he will do what's best for all. I know it is easier said than done, but nothing is impossible for our precious God. "Let thy will be done". May you be surrounded with all the love and support needed during such a difficult time in your lives and may God grant you the strength you will need as you endure this tremendous pain and console you with all his love. Please take the time to hear a song by Sherrie Austin, 'Streets of Heaven'. I think of all the parents in caringbridge when I hear it. My prayers will be with you tonight. God Bless You r.garcia del rio, tx usa - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:42 PM CDT THERE IS NO WAY TO MAKE THIS EASIER FOR YOU..JUST PLEASE KNOW THAT MY HEART BREAKS FOR YOU AS A MOTHER...JOJY S. JOJY <CONFIREWOMAN@AOL.COM> ANTIOCH, CA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:04 PM CDT Your entry was raw and beautiful and so from the heart. Our hearts ache here for you and wish so that no one had to endure this kind of pain. God will see you through this and will put the people in your life to get you through. Kellie Beresh - Jacob's mom - www.caringbridge.org/ne/jakieboy Omaha, Nebraska - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:37 PM CDT Julia and family- I'm deeply saddend in what you have gone through with, I'm praying for a miracle and that your family has lots of strength. I also can tell that Julia is a very very speical girl and that she will one day be rid of cancer. Stay strong and remember you are not alone. Love from one of Maddie Paguyo's friends, Liz mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:34 PM CDT My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight. You have brought me to tears. Julia is so beautiful. Cheyenne told me to visit so did Maddie. Theresa TRoncoso <scorpiomaa@wcc.net> Christoval, TX - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:32 PM CDT Julia sweetie - I love you and thank you for being part of my life. You don't know how you have touched me, touched my family and every person I tell your story to - but you have touched me. Judy, Jarrod, Justine, Jacob and Jordan - if I could bear some of your pain, I would gladly take it. Remember Julia with a smile, hanging out with dad, swimming, bugging you...but being the Julia you played with. She will never leave you - leave any of us. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:30 PM CDT Dear Judy, Jarrod, Jordan, Justine, Julia and Jacob, You are in our thoughts and prayers. We send you all our love. Phil & Tracy Thompson <thompsonsgr@comcast.net> Pgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:20 PM CDT I learned about Julia from my friend Tracy, Katia's mommy. My heart goes out to Julia and your family. May God give you strength and may it comfort you knowing that we all care. I wish there was something we all could do to ease your pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Diane <thevezz@aol.com> San Francisco, CA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:12 PM CDT Julia- Maddie is asking all of her friends and family to stop by, as your struggle has become too much for one little girl and her family to bear all by yourselves. There are so many people praying for your comfort and complete healing and for extra strength and faith for your beautiful family... You are not in this alone and you are much loved! Sara - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:08 PM CDT Dear Julia, and Family...My heart breaks for what you, your family and your beautiful daughter are going through. Please know that you're all in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless... Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com> Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:57 PM CDT I was brought to your web page through Katia's. Your journal entry today broke my heart and made me feel so much emotion for you and your family. It must be so hard to feel helpless. I am so sorry that you and your family are dealing with this. You are in my thoughts. (www.caringbridge.org/va/maxie/) Christy Young <IMAQT430@aol.com> Amelia, VA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:47 PM CDT Julia's picture took my breath away- she is so lovely. I don't know what to say other than I feel very deeply for your family. My son is also part of the caringbridge "family"- a place I never knew before. You all are in a place none of us should ever be, but from your entries you are enduring it with strength and grace. My thoughts are with you. If you'd like, please meet Jeremy at www.caringbridge.org/id/jtrowe. Pam Harris <rayandpamharris@msn.com> Twin Falls, ID USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:40 PM CDT Hi Judy, Jarrod, Julia and family, I just want you to know that I am praying for all of you especially sweet Julia. I am so sorry that you have to endure this terrible heartache. I have 2 sons, 14 and 4 and can't even imagine your pain. I pray for a miracle. She is absolutely beautiful and if God chooses will make a beautiful angel. I hope that today is not the day though. I will pray for that every day, just not today. God Bless all of you and I hope that you can find some peace. A friend of Katia's - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:28 PM CDT Dear Levy Family, My heart breaks for what you and your daughter need to endure to achieve eternal healing. May G-d bring you strength on the difficult days ahead. Courage, Dana Dana Doctor Zachary's page NJ - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:24 PM CDT Judy, You know our prayers are with Julia, you, and your family constantly. We should never have to go through this. People say that it makes us stronger, but when you heart is being torn out, it is hard to understand. Maybe someday I will understand, but right now I am hurting very bad for you. We have to remain strong in faith and not waiver. I try daily, but the emotions still get me quite often. God Bless you all. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, tx - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:15 PM CDT ~*~Thinking of you~*~ Leah Wilson <Fairy128@aol.com> NC - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:07 PM CDT Please know we are keeping you in our thoughts and in our prayers. Many hugs are sent your way, Lynn <candlys@aol.com> Hazleton, PA www.caringbridge.com/pa/jessiespage - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:56 PM CDT Julia and my son Joey went to preschool together this past year. Your family is our thoughts and prayers. Michele Ambrogio <goofy1824@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:50 PM CDT Hi Julia and family, how heart breaking to read your entry, My heart & prayers go out to you and your family. Hang on tight to the love and memories you have- hang on to your faith in God! He will get you through this. Remember the long hard battle this angel has fought and she will win in the end in Heaven where there is no more suffering and you will reunite again! I am McKenzies cousin so I do know how hard it is to see the suffering. But I pray that the cure will come soon and there will be no more Cancer esp this horrible kind. Tell her how much you love her and will be with her again, Hang on tight to your other children they need you desperately. cry together remember together. I will keep you in my prayers and check on Julia later. Gob Bless you and your family. Your family has touched so many lifes. You will never imagine how many. Donna OH - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:25 PM CDT Hello, As I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes trying to come up with some words of ecouragement all I can think of is "God Please Bless and watch over this family they need you more now than ever." You will all be in my prayers. God Bless You and keep you! Christy Barnett The Barnett's <barnett95@yahoo.com> BRUSH CREEK, TN USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:20 PM CDT Hi Julia, and Family I was just checking in on Katia, and they had your site posted, I just read your update and I have to tell you, my heart is breaking for all of you, I have 3 daughters and so I know the love you have for your children, I wish there was something, anything I could do to make things all better for all of you, but I know thats not possible,my heart aches for you right now, its not fair that these beautiful children have to have such awful things happen to them, I wish I could understand why? people say there is a reason for everything, but I think they are wrong about these cases, children should NEVER have to suffer what Julia is going through, and neither should your other children, you or your family, I will keep your baby forever in my heart and thoughts and your family too, I wish you all to be strong and later on, to find the happiness and love that you will hold forever in your hearts and mind for Julia. its hard to type through my tears, I just wanted to let you know that we are going to wish for the best for Julia. I know you don't know me, but I wish I could hug you all so tightly right now. I will check on her again tomorrow Linda and family, new friends in CT Linda Schmartz <Katausrac3@aol.com> So Glastonbury, CT - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:00 PM CDT Found your site on Katia's site. Just wanted to let you know that Julia and her family will be in my prayers. Kathy <kmayo42@aol.com> Whitehall, OH - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:35 PM CDT Dear Judy and Levy's, As I read your last entry, my heart broke. I know Judy, you were devastated at the last Dr. visit and how the Dr. told you to tell Julia it was "ok" to let go..I would have been too...However, telling Julia it "ok", was the Lord leading you to the right words, and time. You may not feel that Judy, but God is right there with you...holding you and your family when you feel you can't physically or emotionally go another step...I wish I had the right words to comfort you and your family, but there are "no words" Judy. I am praying for you; hoping with all my heart that there is a miracle in store for Julia.... God Bless, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:30 PM CDT I have been reading Cheyenne Fiveash's webpage and clicked on your site. I work for the same agency as Cheyenne's Mom and Dad -- that's how I became acquainted with the site. Eventhough you do not know me, please be aware of my thoughts and prayers. Sounds like you are great parents to wonderful children. I was touched by Julia's beautiful picture and it is hard to imagine the difficulty she is going through. May God give each of you the strength to carry on. Julia has touched so many lives in a positive way. Your love and tender care is evident. Again, you are in the prayers of my family. Melanie Phillips <rphillips148@comcast.net> Savannah, GA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:13 PM CDT WOW, JUDY. WHAT CAN I SAY TO MAKE MY ENTRY STAND OUT AMONGST SO MANY? THIS IS KRISTY. AMI CHAPMAN'S FRIEND IN HOUSTON. I PRAYED WITH YOU ABOUT A MONTH AGO VIA TELEPHONE. JUDY, I HAVE 3 BABIES OF MY OWN. ROMI 4, LAITEN 2.5, AND OSCAR 9 MONTHS. THEY ALL WERE PUT HERE TO SERVE AND BRING GLORY TO OUR LORD. JUST LIKE JULIA. SATAN IS A LIAR THE BIBLE SAYS. HE WILL WORK THROUGH ANYONE HE CAN TO GET YOU TO DOUBT. A MAN WHO WAVERS IS DOUBLE MINDED AND SHOULD NOT EXPECT ANYTHING OF THE LORD. THAT IS WHY SATAN WANTS YOU TO DOUBT, BE UNSURE, AND WAVER. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT YOU ARE ENDURING!! YOU HAVE TO BE MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED 100 TIMES OVER. JUDY, SATAN KNOWS THIS AND HE WILL TRY TO WEAR YOU DOWN. I HOPE THIS IS COMING ACROSS AS ENCOURAGEMENT. BOTTOM LINE IS I KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN ATTENDING FAITH HEALING SERVICES AND HANDS ON HEALING ETC. JUDY, WOULD YOU CALL THURMAN SCRIVNER IN DALLAS? WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY HAVE TO LOSE? ON OCT 13 2001, HIS WIFE AND DAUGHTER WERE KILLED IN A HEAD ON AND HIS 3 YR OLD GRANDDAUGHTER WAS MESSED UP SOOO BAD. SHE WAS SO EXPECTED TO DIE THAT DOCTORS DID NOT EVEN TAKE HER TO SURGERY. HER BRAIN STEM WAS SEVERED! GOD RE-CONNECTED IT. JUDY, WOULD YOU JUST CALL HIM AND TELL HIM I HAD YOU CALL? EVEN IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT HE COULD DO THAT OTHERS HAVEN'T. JUDY, FROM MY HEART, AS A MOM, I WANT YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY TO BE HEALED AND WITH YOU IN THE FLESH FOR ALL OF YOUR EARTHLY YEARS. YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO GO FIRST! MY NUMBER IS 713-996-8549. MR. SCRIVNER'S NUMBER IS 940-242-2106. JUDY, HE HAS HELPED MANY IN YOUR EXACT DESPERATE SITUATION!! AND MAY GOD RECEIVE ALLLL THE GLORY!! LOVE IN CHRIST, KRISTY MILES PS - CALL HIM JUDY EVEN IF YOU DONT KNOW WHY KRISTY MILES <KD_MILES@YAHOO.COM> HOUSTON, TX USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:02 PM CDT Julia, When you need them I'll have the fairy wings ready for a peaceful flight!! this is so hard to wrote as the tears pour down my face . You have taught us what the good fight is, and perhaps, there's another chapter or MANY MORE to be written. Know that love is with you and your family every step of the way. Judy, there are no words... only hope, love, prayers. Shellie - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:58 PM CDT Judy, After reading your last several entries, I have not had the words to write. I've been crying so much. What you, Jerry, the kids and your parents are going through is horrible. It is not fair. Why, why does God confound us so -- with His plans for our lives? I'm glad you can share your thoughts and feelings -- you enrich us all by sharing like this. You have brought us a special grace. Keep your faith and your spirit. Jesus has said, "Be not afraid, I am with you always." Peace, love and blessings . . . Clare Stawson <m60cs@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:44 PM CDT My thoughts are with Julia and family. Keep all of your amazing strength and spirits and keep the beautiful Julia close to your heart. Love and prayers to all, A friend of Maddie's. Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com> Mpls, MN USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:36 PM CDT Just found your site and Julia is absolutely beautiful! What a darling little girl. I cannot imagine what you are feeling right now, but keep hugging Julia, and telling her you love her. Love is a powerful thing and miracles do happen! I'll be praying for you and your family! ~Lara - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:25 PM CDT As I read your entry from this morning I cried. I cried for you and your family but not for Julia for she is going to a better place. We don't know why horrible things like this happen but if you trust in God you and your family will get through it. I pray for you all often. I am very glad to hear that your beautiful Julia is not in pain. That is a blessing from God. I can not even begin to imagine your pain, but I do pray that God gives you the strength and peace you all need at this difficult time. Ann Berliant (Mary's friend from H&F) <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:20 PM CDT Hi i am Laura i just found your link from Katia web sight please know you in my prays. i could not imange what you are going though. you be in my prays and thoughs Laura Laura <queenlillycat@aol.com> Ma - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:55 PM CDT It's not fair that horrible things happen to the best people, but they do happen for a reason. God challenges the greatest people. He brings the best up to Heaven. Death is not the end. Death is the beginning of a new life, a better life, a life where cancer and pain do not exist. As my prayers are with Julia and your family, I pray that the Lord can do what he has planned, and one way or the other, Julia will stop suffering. Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:52 PM CDT It's not fair that horrible things happen to the best people, but they do happen for a reason. God challenges the greatest people. He brings the best up to Heaven. Death is not the end. Death is the beginning of a new life, a better life, a life where cancer and pain do not exist. As my prayers are with Julia and your family, I pray that the Lord can do what he has planned, and one way or the other, Julia will stop suffering. Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:52 PM CDT dear judy, reading your journal entry has brought back many painful memories for me. i also am the mother of a child with a brain tumor. the unbearable mental anguish seems like it is too much to survive. but because of our other children we must be strong and keep our families together with our strength. i don't know where that strength comes from but i think God is there. your beautiful little girl is in His hands now and He will give all of you the strength to bear the unbearable. We were lucky our son survived and now is an adult. but it wasn't easy. countles surgeries, radiation, chemotherapy, shunt revisions.every day is a blessing. and every day with Julia is a blessing for you.i wish i could say something to lighten your burden. but ther are no words to do that. just know that the prayers of this mother are with you and your family. marion patterson <mtjpat@aol.com> medford, nj usa - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:49 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, I just found Julia's link on Katia's page. I read your journal history, and it is so heartbreaking. No one should ever have to go through what your family is experiencing. I'm sending many prayers up for Julia's miracle of healing and for your strength. I read in many entries that you said God is able, and I completely agree with you. Miracles happen all the time. Julia is an adorable little girl, and even though I don't know your family, I can tell from the journals that she is very brave. You are all strong because from what I read, you have a lot of faith in God. I will keep checking the site and praying for your sweet little Julia. Angels are watching over you! www.theraokgroup.com  Amanda <mrlynr1110@aol.com> - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:32 PM CDT Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. I know that this is the hardest time of your life. My advice...love on her and hug her and kiss her as much as you can! I too, have always said that I am so blessed.....my daughter had a bsg and at least there was no pain. We truly are blessed. I know it may not feel that way right now....but what a blessing to be little Julia's parents. I know I am so grateful to have had 9 years with Leilani. Please know that we are praying for you all.... for strength to get through the next few days....weeks.....months....and for a MIRACLE if it be His will! As you already know...He is able. With Much Love in Him, Yvonne, Leilani's mom www.caringbridge.org/nc/leilani The Fernandez Family <yvonnengzs@rjia.net> Mt Airy, NC US - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:12 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, I just found Julia's link on Katia's page. I read your journal history, and it is so heartbreaking. No one should ever have to go through what your family is experiencing. I'm sending many prayers up for Julia's miracle of healing and for your strength. I read in many entries that you said God is able, and I completely agree with you. Miracles happen all the time. Julia is an adorable little girl, and even though I don't know your family, I can tell from the journals that she is very brave. You are all strong because from what I read, you have a lot of faith in God. I will keep checking the site and praying for your sweet little Julia. Angels are watching over you! www.theraokgroup.com Amanda <mrlynr1110@aol.com> - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 4:02 PM CDT You are so strong and so brave...You are in our thoughts and prayers... God Bless!! Davin's Site Shauna Rucker and Family <r.rucker@comcast.net> Garland, TX USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 3:46 PM CDT That was the hardest entry I have ever read in my life. I fight the tears as I write this. My heart goes out to your family. You are strong people fighting the bravest of fights. You are in my prayers. Michele Winona, MN - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 3:34 PM CDT Hi, I got your link from Katias page & wanted to tell you your family will be in my prayers tonight. Sara Visit Sams Page Dearest Judy and family - please know that eventhough this entry is so very late, there hasn't been a day that has gone by since I met you and your beautiful children that I haven't prayed for Julia. She has been in our hearts and always will be. May God grant you and your baby girl the peace that you seek - today, tomorrow, and always. Jan Yaremko <j.yarmko@att.net> Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 3:10 PM CDT I just wanted to come by and offer you my prayers. I am Katia's Mommy and have added your link to her site. Please know my heart is with your dear family. Love, Tracy ~~Katia's Site~~ Tracy and Katia - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:50 PM CDT Dear Levy Family, You don't know me personally but I came across Julia's website from Katia's. What a heartbreaking story. Julia's picture is just precious. I recently experienced the loss of a dear friends 7 year old daughter to cancer. What a horrible thing to go through. I pray for peace, strength and courage as you all fight this battle (your family and Julia). I do not know what you are going through personally (I hope I never have to), but please know that I will be thinking about you and praying for you. Hold tight to Julia, your family and your friends right now. They will bring you incredible strength and peace. Always in my thoughts and prayers. Laura Kondo The Kondo's. Laura, Curt, Grace and Colt. <lkondo@usffcu.org> Tampa, FL USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:47 PM CDT Still checking in and sending lots of others here to offer their prayers and encouragement. No one wants to see this happen, no one wants this kind of thing to happen to a child as sweet and beautiful as Julia. To a family that has sooo much love and faith. But we don't hold all the answers. What we can do is hold one another and offer each other the love we need to get through this. You and Jarrod are AMAZING parents. All of the kids are very lucky to have your honesty, strength and faith to lean on now. Keeping you in my thoughts, hoping still for a miracle! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:32 PM CDT Dear Judy and family, I also got your website thru Katia's. Please know that I am also praying for your little Julia. She is so beautiful! I can't begin to imagine the pain and hurt you are feeling right now. May the Lord truly bless you and your family and give you strength, comfort, and peace! Terri Helena, Ga - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:22 PM CDT  I am so heartbroken. I wish I knew what else to say. I am praying for you. Never give up on a miracle. All of our prayers, hugs and love from us to you. Cheryl <carpathienblue@yahoo.com> - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:19 PM CDT Levy family still here still praying for the reasurrance tat you are needing right now. What a big BIG heart you have telling Julia that it is *OK* to let go....I love you all...... Michelle Michelle Phillips <jums4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:17 PM CDT I just found this site thru Katia's. I am so sorry that this is happening. But I do want you to know that hope dies last...I have had a experience very similar to yours and Julia's a year ago...and let me tell you Prayers do work. I am pleading with God right now to give all of you strength and courage and love. Julia~My!!You are the most beautiful thing I think I have ever laid eyes on!! You look so angelic and innocent and pure!! God Bless you sweetheart.. Leah Wilson NC - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:12 PM CDT Wishes of peace and strength to all of the very special people in your family, Judy. My thoughts and hopes have been often with you and yours and will continue to be. Cheryl Martin Calgary, AB Canada - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 2:00 PM CDT You are in my thoughts and prayers. Dayna Ruemke <druemke@psebrenham.com> Brenham, Tx - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 1:45 PM CDT I check on you all every day. I am still praying for you and loving you all. Jenni <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 1:23 PM CDT You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Lori (www.caringbridge.org/in/teresa) <Bunnyb1205@aol.com> Plainfield, IN - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 1:11 PM CDT I just wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Sharon Posey <poseyparts@yahoo.com> Jasper, Al. - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 1:03 PM CDT what a beautiful little girl...it is no wonder god has decided to call her home. who would not want her to be with them. remember..she will visit everytime you see a butterfly go by ^i^ - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:46 AM CDT My heart is breaking to read the moment of telling your precious children that Julia may have to be healed in Heaven, instead of here, where we would all prefer:( I agree, you are doing a trememdous job of keeping your family together, you are an amazing mom. It is a huge blessing that Julia is having no pain, thank you god for that. Hang on to your faith, and we will continue to pray so hard for Julia to get her miracle. Hold on to each other! Hugs, love and prayers, Tracey and family xoxo Calgary, Ab,Canada, - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:46 AM CDT Judy, I'm so sorry for what you are going through. It is a miracle that Julia has been so peaceful through this all. I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I will continue to pray for Julia and for you and your family to be comforted by knowing God is there with you through this. You are a strong, loving family. What a blessing to me to have come upon Julia's site, to pray for her and for you, Judy. Please know I pray for Julia and you each day and I will continue. In Christ's Love, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:44 AM CDT we found your family through katias site....so sorry for all your going through. i wish there was more i could do to help. know that when the time comes she will forever live in your hearts and memories and in all who knew and loved her. please accept our prayers and thoughts for you all. karen and sammi www.caringbridge.org/ny/sammip - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:44 AM CDT Your family is in my prayers. May God grant you all peace. sheri <shim563@stargate.net> brownsville, pa usa - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:26 AM CDT Dear Judy and family, I came to your site from Katia's site, her mother Tracy, requested that we pray for Julia and give support to your family during this difficult time. I am so saddened by reading the journal entry and will pray for your precious Julia to continue to be pain free. I also believe in miracles, and will pray that she receive that miracle here on earth, if that not be God's will, I know that He will welcome her into heaven with His loving arms. I will keep all of you in prayer and ask that God provide you with all of the peace, comfort and strength that you need. In Him, Debbie Nagy St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:43 AM CDT Judy, My love and prayers are still continuing to come to you and your family. May God continue to bless your beautiful daughter and may her journey continue to be pain free.... Love Deneen www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:26 AM CDT I have been keeping up with Julia's journal entries for quite some time and have been waiting for the right time for me to write. Now seems right. You are some kind of a woman and I admire your candid journal entries. I am so sorry for you and what you are going through. I have prayed for Julia and for the remainder of your family. She is a beautiful child and has faught the good fight. My prayers remain with you and yours. Julie Hyatt <juliehyatt55@hotmail.com> San Angelo, TX - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 11:23 AM CDT My heart goes out to you...a little over two weeks ago, I was in your shoes, and I know how much it hurts. My prayers and love are with you all. Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:49 AM CDT Levy Family - Please feel the many prayers and loving thoughts coming your way. Bev (Make-A-Wish) <bgorr@wishworld.org; bgorr@helicon.net> N. Huntingdon, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:46 AM CDT Judy and family, I am very sad after reading your journal this morning. I can't even imagine your pain, no parent should have to endure such hardship. My thoughts and prayers are with you! Julia is a beautiful angel! Kathy <Ulicnykku@aol.com> North Huntingdon, PA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:42 AM CDT Dear Levy's We continue to pray that God will bless Julia with a miracle to the glory of His holy name. All things are possible through Him. And we cry for your pain. Someday we will all understand His plan, but today it sure hurts. God Bless you all, your a wonderful family, Donna (Chey's mom) caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 <rfiveash@sbcglobal.net or rfiveash@wcc.net > San Angelo, Tx - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:31 AM CDT Dear Judy, I just finished reading your latest update, and I have tears in my eyes. You are an amazing mom and you have a beautiful family. I will continue to pray for you all. I know you are going through these days in a bit of a fog. My sister, Lorraine, just went through this a few weeks ago (and of course it's not over). Judy, I don't know you or your family at all, but you have captured my heart and believe me when I say, I love you all very much. Nolan's Aunt, Tess Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> San Francisco, CA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:14 AM CDT Judy and Jarrod: I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to make it all go away. This tumor is such a horrible beast...the way it gets into our childrens beautiful head. It is so unbelievable and so unnecessary! Why? I ask myself that every day...when I stop by your site and read your journal. Your sweet girl is so beautiful and I am so glad to have gotten to know her through you. I close my eyes and I imagine her running and playing and laughing like she should be. You are in my thoughts now more than ever. You are such a wonderful, loving mother. With Love, Susan and Jake Griffin gmf169@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 10:08 AM CDT You daughter is so lucky to have such a fantastic mom. I will keep praying for you and Julia. Keep the faith. Stacey <stacilee24@cs.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 9:48 AM CDT Dear Judy and family, I don't even know you and how I got to your page is because my daughter, who is seven, was adopted from an orphanage in China called Maoming when she was a few months old that is right next to the orphanage Marissa Burghart was adopted from in Dianbai. My daughter Arabella was so moved by Marissa's story that she has been writing to her and sending her drawings. Whatever I can say to you is totally inadequate. I'm a stranger and I cannot begin to really understand what you are going through. \. But what I can say is that you sound like the most wonderful mother in the world that Julia and all of your children were so lucky in the great lottery of life to have found you. Please accept my families thoughts, wishes and prayers for yours. With love from Amanda Uhry and Arabella Uhry (Mao Yue) Amanda Uhry Ridgefield, CT USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 9:38 AM CDT (((((Judy&family))))) Words are not enough, but that is all I have to give. Continue to be there for each other and for little Julia. She may be losing this battle, but, her light will forever shine in the hearts of many. ;^) trace - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 9:31 AM CDT Judy and Jarrod, Christians believe that when we leave this world, the Lord comes to take us to our eternal home, heaven. When I think about that and imagine what is will be like to see the face of God, who's love for us is far beyond what we know on this earth it is overwhelming. I can't even try to comprehend the pain you must be feeling, you're right Judy, we are not supposed to have to let go of our children. My mom lost two of her daughters, one 18 months old and one 52 years old, when she spoke about it she said that she comforted herself in knowing they were with God and although she did not understand why they were taken from her, she believed that one day she would also go to that place of greater understanding and love. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you, you are very special people and Julia is truly a very special little girl. For all who know her and love her are very blessed. God Bless and keep you all very near to him. Joanne (Annie) Wall - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 9:11 AM CDT Always on my Mind, you are always on my mind....I will continue to pray for peace, strength, and a calmness for you Jarrod, and all of your sweet angels! Kiss Julia for me, She IS an angel! Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:56 AM CDT My thoughts and prayers are with you & your family at such a hard time.But I wont give up hope.Dont you either! Thank you for letting us all in on your beautiful little girl's life.SHe is precious!! Evette (Mary's friend at H&F) <skyian@comcast.net> Westland, MI USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:40 AM CDT Judy, With tears in my eyes I read your latest journal entry. All who have deeply loved a child share a measure of your pain. Your journal entries reflect the incredible depth of your love for Julia and your family. I am praying that God will wrap his loving arms around your little angel and hold her and your family very close to his heart. Lori (Minneapolis, MN) - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:31 AM CDT Stepping up prayer requests here, for strength and endurance. You all are doing such tremendous works Frannie Grove City, OH - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 8:14 AM CDT Judy, I have just read your lastest entry and wanted you to know that you are a very strong woman who I admire. I am truly sorry that you, Julia and all of your family have gone thru all of the pain that you have. I have you all in my thoughts and prayers today and everyday! Peggy (Mary's friend H & F) <scoobybaby35@aol.com> Deltona, FL - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:33 AM CDT May God be with you all during this most difficult time. I am praying for all of you and i will continue to pray for Julia intensly. Kathy (kt) <mamarice@yahoo.com> Sunfield, MI USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:24 AM CDT Oh my goodness Judy...I don't know what to say. I am sitting here at work crying for the pain you feel as a mother and the frustration that such a sweet soul, a sweet child like Julia is facing. My love is with you today like no other. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:13 AM CDT My heart is with you and your family, wishing peace and strengh. KLM - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 7:06 AM CDT Dear Judy, My heart and my prayers are with Julia and with you all. I will keep you in my prayers all day today. Remember, nothing is impossisble with God. Teresa Stawson <T76539@aol.com> Suffolk, VA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:51 AM CDT Jude, I am praying for all of you. Praying for strength for everyone and still for a miracle for Julia. I'll call you later this morning. Love ya Anita Pgh, PA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:18 AM CDT Also praying for peace for you all and especially Julia. Love you ALL Mary - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 6:05 AM CDT I'm praying for peace for the Levy's. Love you guys. Cindy <Cindy.Toth@vai-inc.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, September 9, 2003 5:21 AM CDT Hi Judy - I absolutely cannot wait to see you guys tomorrow! Julia is -always- in our thoughts and prayers. I told Celeste that Julia's in bed and not able to be up and around. She is so understanding of this - she said to me 'maybe she needs a kiss'... I asked her, 'will you give her one?' and she says 'sure!'... Please tell Julia that Celeste really wants to see her tomorrow - she's been talking about it all day... I am so glad to hear that she's eating and that her eyes are brighter!! That's so wonderful!! Hey, I take each little step up for all it's worth... The food has to be giving her some much-needed strength. I have to admit that Celeste was really, really pale back in June after the wish trip. She was grayish. It was absolutely the scariest thing ever. We will never be able to predict what these evil tumors will try to do next... it's such a moment to moment change so you never know... Keep the strength and faith up! ((((HUGS)))) see you soon! Tami Celeste's site PGH, PA USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 11:34 PM CDT Hello Levy's, Just checking in with all my friends. Here's to many many more bright eyed days. Continuing with tons of prayers and good thoughts going your way. We love you all tons. See you all soon. Love, Hugs, and Prayers. A & D &Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:32 PM CDT Jodi is right - keep the prayers coming! Julia, we love you, and we are praying non-stop for your miracle. Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:18 PM CDT Hey Jude!! Just reminding you that we love you guys and are praying for Jules!! Judy, Rogie, Justin and Ally girl Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:17 PM CDT I know everyone is praying often for Julia. Please pray extra hard from now on!!! Make G-d's ears burn with prayers!!! Do it for so long and so hard that He has no choice but to grant us this miracle! Please! Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:00 PM CDT HI!!!!! I know it's been awhile, but I just had to tell you about this dream I had. You called me and told me you wanted to tell me something, but then you didn't say anything to me. Before I knew it, Julia was on the phone, talking to me telling me how good she was doing, and that she's still munchin' down on the mint choc. chip ice cream! She promised me she wasn't turning green though, and that she was having so much fun playing with her friends!!!! It was the coolest thing and it was so wonderful hearing her talk to me again! I just know she's going to get through this! Please give each other a Texas size Ami hug for us! Rocky, Ami, Michael, Matt, Andrew, and Jace!!!!! Always Positive Thoughts and Prayers for everyone! Ami <ami@houston.rr.com> SugarLand, Tx - Monday, September 8, 2003 4:44 PM CDT Judy....I can not imagine what you go thru on a daily basis, all I can do for you and Julia is pray everyday for the strength and calmness you need to fight know that there are strangers interceding on your behalf praying for your family and loving you for what you do, one second at a time..... With thoughts, prayers, and love...... Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 4:33 PM CDT I continue to keep Julia in my daily prayers and am forever grateful that I had a chance to meet her. May God give you all strength and peace. My thoughts are with all of you daily. God Bless you all, especially my dear little friend Julia. Joanne (Annie) Wall <joanne.wall@highmark.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 2:07 PM CDT WOW.. I have been following Julia's stories, along with my cousin, for over 3 weeks now. I am amazed as to how strong Julia is, but honestly, even more amazed at what an amazing Mom she has! Complete faith is very hard especially in these situations, and its normal to doubt yourself, God, and just about everything. BUT, you've gotten this far and that in itself is a miracle. Always remember, where G-d closes a door, he always opens a window! You've really changed a lot in my life as well as my cousin. She just had a baby and prays for all these kids like myself. I even started donating blood and plasma just incase someone out there needs it. Please keep strong not only for you and your daughter but the millions of people you are helping along the way and don't even know about! You are both in inspiration to all... Kelly <lexicaldo@yahoo.com> College Station, TX USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 12:11 AM CDT Judy, Praying for Julia and you today. Hang in there, and know you are not alone. I'm praying for more bright-eyed days. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:12 AM CDT (((Judy))) You remind us every day how truly precious life is. Give Julia a big hug for me, would ya? xoxo trace - Monday, September 8, 2003 9:09 AM CDT Prayers and Peace, Sara Mpls, MN - Monday, September 8, 2003 7:30 AM CDT Glad that you got a chance to get out. Also glad Julia perked up for you today. I will do my best to get you those pics tomorrow. Love you and praying for you! Love, Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Sunday, September 7, 2003 10:37 PM CDT Judy, This roller coaster ride has to be a horrible time. But when little Julia is on the upswing, there are incredibly happy moments. Julia is in our constant thoughts and prayers. She is such an adorable little girl. Stay tough and with God's help, Julia and Cheyenne will get through this. God Bless you Julia and family Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx - Sunday, September 7, 2003 10:36 PM CDT My husband was given a 2 percent chance of surviving cancer at age 17. He just turned 50. Lorrie Columbia, SC USA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 9:58 PM CDT Judy - I was glad to read that you had a chance to get out, breath and connect with others. You need to do that in order to hold onto your strength. Having moments of emotional overload doesn't make you weak - just human! Glad to read that Julia had some food and her eyes are brighter. She is coming around and we are all continuing to keep her and the rest of the Levy family in our thoughts. I couldn't imagine the rollercoaster you have lived on. However, I am thankful that we have been here for the ride with you. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Sunday, September 7, 2003 9:18 PM CDT Hey Sis, I'm sitting here thinking of sooooo much to say, but I think I'll just say this: I LOVE YOU!!! Jodi Jodi Pittsburgh, PA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 8:00 PM CDT Just checking in tonight Judy. Continued prayers for Julia, and the rest of your family. It is wonderful to see people I have talked to about Julia's site signing in. So many people keeping your family in their prayers. Bev (Make-A-Wish) <bgorr@wishworld.org; bgorr @helicon.net> N. Huntingdon, PA USA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 7:08 PM CDT Hello Levy Family, Just checking in to let you all know we are all thinking of you. I hope yesterday was a bit of a break for you Judy so you could recharge. It was great having you around even if you were buried with papers on the floor. I bet you had nightmare on that. I still smile when I think of beep beep, it's moving. Did you tell everyone that one. Give kisses and hugs to everyone, double for you and Jules. Take care. Love, Hugs, and Prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Sunday, September 7, 2003 2:22 PM CDT Dear Judy and Julia, I have been moving to another state this past week and have missed being able to come here. I have thought of you both though, and prayed for you. I see my little Sweet Pea is tired.. and Mom is emotionally exhausted too. : ( I pray that God will give you strength and will show tender mercy in your lives. May He bless and comfort your hearts, with the love and caring of so many. Loving you in Jesus.. Lynn Campbell <lynn@legacyofhope.org> Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, September 7, 2003 2:01 AM CDT Dearest Judy, We are praying very hard for all of you. Been their, know what you are going thru. Hang tough, and do only what your heart tells you to do! Pray to our almighty GOD for guidance, for his word is final. GOD BLESS. Sending lots of love from above - ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE AND CREW. jack - colby's daddy forever and ever www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby, UNIONTOWN PA - Saturday, September 6, 2003 10:22 PM CDT Dear Julia, What a beautiful child you are! How much joy you have brought your family and all who know you, and what a teacher you have been, even to those of us who have never had the honor of meeting you face to face, but have known you through this incredible journey. What strength you have given your mother! I am Maddie's Auntie Paula, and I check in on you most every day! May God Bless you, and your family, and whatever path your journey takes, may it be peaceful and beautiful, just like you! Our thoughts and prayers remain with you and your family! Bless you, Paula, Cameron, Brennan and Kyrie Killen the Killens Omaha, NE - Saturday, September 6, 2003 7:37 PM CDT Dear Judy, I know the Doctors are trying to do their jobs, BUT, they don't know everything!!! It is in God's hands, not theirs. I'll admit, I was a little upset when I read the last entry. I can only imagine your reaction. I don't have kids of my own Judy, so I can't relate to your pain, but the words the Doctor said were not necessary!...Never, EVER tell Julia its "ok" to stop fighting!!...With your love and the love she has for you, she will continue to battle this evil tumor!!...God is the way, and he will continue to hold you and your family through this trying time.. Judy, you amaze me. I don't know how you're holding it all together!..Remember, take care of you, so you can take care of your little angel... God Bless you and your family...I'm praying for you always... Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, September 6, 2003 7:11 AM CDT Julia - good morning sunshine! I surely hope those eyes are smiling today. You be you sweetie - that's all anyone wants. A Julia that is happy, smiling and ready to take on the world. You are a lucky and beautiful girl with a great family and MANY wonderful friends from all over. Judy - all my love is with you and what you are living through. You can do this and come out with a daughter ready to show that doctor wrong. The many prayers in the guestbook is surely being noticed....we will never give up! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canda - Saturday, September 6, 2003 6:56 AM CDT Hi Sweet Julia, Just wanted to let you know you are in our thoughts and prayers for your complete healing...hang in there baby, and keep fighting! Wishing you all the best, Tracey,Steve, Quinn and Callum Ager, xoxo Calgary,Ab,Canada, - Saturday, September 6, 2003 2:36 AM CDT Dear Judy, I have to believe that any mother who read that last journal entry was just burning with indignation over those doctors' comments.As you know, I have been a nurse on the med/surg unit of a local hospital for 27 years, and as a christian, I have prayed with and witnessed first-hand Gods' healing power on those who were given a death sentence! I just have to believe that MD must have seen some things herself because they are unavoidable in our profession and I am completely dissapointed that she didn't offer any hope.I realize that they are committed to "reality" but I praise God that they NEVER have the last say.Rest in the Lord Judy,put it in His hands as you say you have been."Now faith is the substance of things HOPED for, the evidence of things NOT seen."(Hebrews 11:1)We are continuing to pray daily for you and your family.Someone in our church also asked if they could put her caringbridge address in our Sunday flyer so more people could know and pray for Julia. I didn't think you would mind.Blessings to you and your lovely family. Mary Jean Tudi <maryjeantudi@msn.com> Pittsburgh, Pa Allegheny - Saturday, September 6, 2003 1:22 AM CDT Dear Judy, I have to believe that any mother who read that last journal entry was just burning with indignation over those doctors' comments.As you know, I have been a nurse on the med/surg unit of a local hospital for 27 years, and as a christian, I have prayed with and witnessed first-hand Gods' healing power on those who were given a death sentence! I just have to believe that MD must have seen some things herself because they are unavoidable in our profession and I am completely dissapointed that she didn't offer any hope.I realize that they are committed to "reality" but I praise God that they NEVER have the last say.Rest in the Lord Judy,put it in His hands as you say you have been."Now faith is the substance of things HOPED for, the evidence of things NOT seen."(Hebrews 11:1)We are continuing to pray daily for you and your family.Someone in our church also asked if they could put her caringbridge address in our Sunday flyer so more people could know and pray for Julia. I didn't think you would mind.Blessings to you and your lovely family. Mary Jean Tudi <maryjeantudi@msn.com> Pittsburgh, Pa Allegheny - Saturday, September 6, 2003 1:15 AM CDT Oh, Judy! I am speechless about your visit again... it took me back a bit and I had to gather my thoughts before I posted... You are right - you cannot let go of Julia! Never ever ever! She knows that you love her and that you need her with you. She will always return that love because she is your baby... every single thing that she does reflects your love for her. That is more powerful than anything that the dr can say or possibly understand. I think of you all day - every day and pray. When Celeste was hard to awaken and we were given 2-3 weeks with her, I was so broken down that it was hard to find the strength to pray. She also barely ate or even took water at that time. This helped me to find some focus - I got a picture of her and lit candles all around it and prayed and prayed and prayed... while she lay there in bed. I really need to talk to you and would like to see you & Julia, if that's okay. Perhaps we may pray together? I know that it's so hard sometimes. I will call tomorrow. ((((HUGS))))) To hold her in my arms against the twilight and be her comrade for ever - this was all I wanted so long as my life should last.... And this, I told myself with a kind of wonder, this was what love was: this consecration, this curious uplifting, this sudden inexplicable joy, and this intolerable pain. -author unknown (i do not know what it is about you that closes and opens;only something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses) -e.e. cummings Tami Celeste's journal <jeremytamiyoung@earthlink.net> Pgh, PA - Friday, September 5, 2003 11:21 PM CDT Hi Judy, Thanks for the wonderful pictures of the kids. The butterfly on Julia was so precious! Meredith commented not only on how much the kids have grown, but also on how beautiful and angelic Julia is. It was great seeing you guys, yet so emotional. Thank you for your strength, your courage and your inspiration - it's helping me to deal with this. We love you all, Allan Allan Haffner <ahaffner@comcast.net> Exeter, NH - Friday, September 5, 2003 11:04 PM CDT To the Levy family, We are praying for you. Keep the faith God is doing great things through julia and your family. I watch for updates daily and Pray for her complete healing! Take a deep breath Pray and KEEP FIGHTING! Kim IN - Friday, September 5, 2003 8:16 PM CDT We don't know you, but my daughter whose name is Arabella is the same age (7 1/2) and adopted from a nearby Chinese orphanage to that of Marissa Burghart and has sent Marissa lots of letters and cards during her illness. You sould like a wonderful family and we are sending our love and good wishes for Julia. With love from Amanda+Arabella Ridgefield CT and New York City, NY, NY - Friday, September 5, 2003 8:10 PM CDT I don't know you guys, but i just want you all to know that I am saying prayers for Julia and your family. Mel Pittsburgh, - Friday, September 5, 2003 7:55 PM CDT Yeah, yeah, yeah. So the doctors say one thing. Do doctors measure love? No. Do doctors look at prayers? No. Do doctors count the endless support you are given? NO! Doctors look at the facts, what is likely. Little do they realize, facts have nothing to do with Julia's recovery! NOTHING at all! It's the love, the belief, the support, the prayers, the one and only Julia that have to do with it. And if facts do matter so much, they forgot to consider a few. There are thousands of people that believe in Julia's FULL recovery, and that is a fact! Guess what doctor, its thousands against you! GOO JULIA!! Maddie www.caringbride.org/mn/maddie - Friday, September 5, 2003 5:06 PM CDT OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY THROUGH THIS TROUBLING TIME IN YOUR LIFE. GOD IS WILLING AND ABLE. AND HE IS ALWAYS WITH YOU. MAY GOD BLESS YOU!!!! HEATHER STEADMAN <hsteadma@nvrinc.com> MC DONALD, PA USA - Friday, September 5, 2003 1:48 PM CDT Oh Judy........I didn't know that you were going to the DR's with Julia...I would have posted sooner or something! I am sorry....Sounds like it wasn't the greatest visit...I do think of you everyday pray for strength, hope and a calmness to blanket you and Julia...If you ever need a fresh ear I am here for you. Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St Paul, VA - Friday, September 5, 2003 12:58 AM CDT Judy - I was thinking of you and your family all night. My heart goes out to you as I can only read between the lines as to exactly how hard that appointment was for you. Julia is too young to NOT fight. She will live her life of happiness, you will see her dreams come true and in 5 years we will all shake our head at the amazing miracle that she is. Please give her a hug for me, tell her that she is in my thoughts and in my dreams. In my dreams she is laughing, playing and talking with Hannah - they are admiring butterflies. It will come true... Please know that if you need a 'stranger' to talk to -- I am only an email away!! Love you all and I truly appreciate the gift you have given me. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, September 5, 2003 7:16 AM CDT Hi - I have been reading about Julia for days. I learned about her through Cheyenne's site. I am a Pedi RN in San Angelo. I didn't get to meet Cheyenne, but my coworkers did and I have read her daily updates. Now I read Julia's. My heart goes out to you and your family and beautiful Julia. I have a 3 year old son that looks a little bit like her. He has the same eyes and little nose, and blonde curls. Julia is so beautiful. You are all in my prayers. Tessa Joy Tessa Joy <tjoy67@aol.com> Sonora, TX USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 11:06 PM CDT Hi Judy and Jules Just checking in to see how everything went today. I loved the butterfly pictures Aunt Jodi sent to me. You are one lil cutie!!!! Judy, stay focused and positive rememeber these doctors only say what they were taught!! They are not like the rest of us, sometimes I dont believe they think before they speak. Julia is our little fighter and she will continue, praying morning, noon & night. Love ya Jules see you soon Honey. Joshua says have a good night, nite nite. Cathy & Joshua - Thursday, September 4, 2003 10:55 PM CDT Dear Julia, Peace be with you and your family, we continue to pray for a miracle for you this evening. We pray God will move a mountain for you tonight. All things are possible through God. Donna (Chey's mom) caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 <rfiveash@sbcglobal.net or rfiveash@wcc.net > San Angelo, - Thursday, September 4, 2003 10:48 PM CDT Hello everyone, Judy hold on to your faith and to each other. I am so sorry your doctor's appt wasn't positive but you have enough positivity all on your own. I wish there was more I could say to you all. Just know we think about you daily and are praying hard. Love, Hugs, and extra prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Thursday, September 4, 2003 9:53 PM CDT Judy, Checking in on Julia and you tonight. Please know Julia and you are in my prayers daily. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 9:38 PM CDT Hello, I just wanted to let you know that prayers have been said for all of you. Cheyenne's Coach Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 9:22 PM CDT I guess the doctor is trying to help you - but I wish she would stick to objective things. As you said, you are her Mother - you know your baby is a fighter, and she will fight no matter what you say. I, too, am focusing on the day Julia walks into that office. I wish the doc could have seen her when she was responding to everything today. I know you have had a long day - try to get some rest. Praying for you extra hard tonight. Love you all! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Thursday, September 4, 2003 9:16 PM CDT Judy thinking and praying for you and Julia.... Please continue to stay strong and take one second at a time.... Love and Prayers Deneen www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 2:10 PM CDT I'm happy to see that my mothers invovlment has brought joy to your daughters life> sara cade <aunt_cherry@yahoo.ca> Brantford, ON Canada - Thursday, September 4, 2003 12:41 AM CDT Hi Judy and Julia, I found your site from RachelJoys and had to come say hello and let you know my prayers are with you for strength and healing at this time.G-d bless you for your inspiration. Love and Light, Melanie Davila Lighting Children's Lives-Founder Melanie Davila <http://www.sharingpositivestories.com> Vallejo, CA USA - Thursday, September 4, 2003 8:38 AM CDT You have touched me and my family just as if you lived next door. Each day they ask for an update of how Julia is doing because they know I am always checking in. Touching someone's life can be as simple as a smile on a bad day, or a daily phone call. In this case it is your spirit, your strength and love for Julia and your faith. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for good news at the doctors. But remember - the doctors only make educated guesses - they don't really know the power of love, faith and compassion. Those things you have in abundance my friend!! ~~sending calming, reassuring thoughts to surround you and act as a buffer to the chaos around you and Julia~~ HUGS and lots of love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, September 4, 2003 7:27 AM CDT Julia, Celeste sends you hugs and kisses... She talks about you very lovingly all of the time. She understands it as your 'mommies are friends together'. We are praying for a smooth visit at the dr's office tomorrow! Judy, I will be praying for you all morning tomorrow. It's so hard to confront the odds that are against you but they're not stronger than God's will. When the room starts to spin, just think of me and I'll be praying for you. Let God wrap his love around you guys and keep you calm and hopeful for Julia's recovery. Don't let anything that you are told let you lose hope!! We have to hang on to our faith here and trust that our girls will be okay. We're still praying for Julia's total healing and recovery. Please give me a call after your visit - we'll be back home around 1:00... Let me emphasize that I'm still here for you, even if you need to just vent. ((((HUGS))))) Celeste's site Tami Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 11:58 PM CDT Stay strong, Judy. Hugs. trace - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 10:47 PM CDT Praying for a complete healing for our children!! My 4 year old son was diagnosed with a brain tumor in Jan. Always look to the LORD for your strength!! In His Grip, Amanda Amanda DeAndrea <www.caringbridge.org/fl/luke.d> Tampa, FL - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 10:36 PM CDT Julia and Judy, We will be praying our hearts out for you tomorrow morning, for God to give you the strength to get through the appointment. I was glad Hannah, Katie and I were able to come visit for awhile yesterday. I always feel good after seeing Julia's beautiful face. She really looked so pretty. Her cheeks were nice and rosey. We can't wait until she can come play on the swingset in our back yard. We love you all, and I will talk to you tomorrow. Love, Mary, John, and Hannah, and Zack, Dan & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, P - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 9:39 PM CDT God Bless you and your family. And little Julia you hang in there, you have friends in California praying for you baby girl. Minnette Gilmour <gilmoursx4@worldnet.att.net> Modesto, Ca USA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 9:05 PM CDT Dear Judy, Hi! My name is Yvonne. I just found your website and have spent the last hour+ catching up on your journal entries. I lost my daughter, Leilani, to a brain stem glioma last July. Please know that you have already touched my life! I will now include Julia and your family in my prayers continually! I, too, was shocked by the Dr. that told you to start planning her funeral....NO WAY! You can never give up hope! We too, are believers, and we were prepared to submit our daughter to God's will. I too, prayed, Lord, whether it is your will to heal her or take her...please DO something, because it hurt sooooo much to see her suffering like that. Leilani too, was not in pain, yet she suffered. Though we knew that He could heal her at any moment, or take her at any moment, we never stopped HOPING for that Miracle...until the very end. If any one had told me that while she was still here I would have exploded! No, we will have a LIFETIME to grieve. What we need to do now is spend every waking moment with our baby and enjoy her presence! Never stop hoping for that miracle. Reading your entries really brought back so many memories. I truly understand all of your comments... I have been there. You are obviously very wise...you are doing your best and doing all we CAN do....trust in the Lord for His perfect will. Looking back now, I see that God had given us so many confirmations that it was His will for her to go home....but still, we had to cling on to that hope until the very end. Now we have peace, that it was His will and He blessed us throughout it all. Never stop hoping! Yes, we submit ourselves to His will....but if it is His will to heal her...then HE WILL! Please know that you are in my prayers. May the Lord bless and be with you all....especially little Julia! With Much Love in Him, Yvonne Fernandez, Mom to Leilani Leilani's Website Fernandez Family <yvonnengzs@rjia.net> Mt. Airy, NC US - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 9:03 PM CDT Judy -- for sure you and Julia have touched waaaay more than 2 lives. I don't write every day, but you can be certain I pray for Julia and you all every day and you are in my thoughts constantly. Please God, bring your healing power to Julia and continue to rid her little body of all that is harmful. Love, peace and blessings to you all Clare Stawson Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 7:21 PM CDT Julia... You have touched 8 more lives in our house!! Love, Kim, Karl, Kody and crew  ~KODYS STORY~ - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 7:08 PM CDT Judy, You have touched way more lives than 2 - I don't think you'll ever know how many people you (and Julia) have affected. Keeping you in my prayers - for God's miraculous healing and peace. In Him, Michele Michele Gilmore <offtochina@aol.com> Chesapeake, VA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 5:15 PM CDT hijudy i found your website its amazing how caring brigde feels like its own support group.my thought and prayers are with you and your famiy. god speed abbie mitch`s site abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca> truro, ns canada - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 2:08 PM CDT Judy, I think 'holding her own' is a good sign. It's encouraging. I believe that sometimes dreams can be prophetic, so let's hope these 'walking dreams' are just that. Hugs! trace - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 1:59 PM CDT I hope all of her dreams come true. Our prayers are with you. Heath <heath.fisher@ceridian.com> Houston, Tx - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 12:31 AM CDT Yay so very glad to hear that Juila is shining from the inside out! I do feel that she is on her way! How could she not be with all of the healing thoughts and prayers coming her way. Judy, I continue to pray that you will be filled with strength and hope for your sweet baby girl! Much love, Michelle Michelle <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 12:19 AM CDT My little sweetie, I agree with you mom ... I can't wait till you show all the 'doctors' that you are going to walk away from this and have an awesome life. I continue to pray for you and think wonderful healthy thoughts for you. ~Nolan's Aunt~ Tess Baker San Francisco, CA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 10:00 AM CDT Julia- Bright eyes are a sign to me that you are feeling well from the inside out! Your heart and your soul are shining!!! I think we all find out when we are on this journey that it really is the little things!!! I am praying for another good day!!! Maddie's Aunt (www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie) Sara Mpls, MN - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 7:49 AM CDT Appetite returning - well that's gotta be a good sign! You go Julia and you enjoy it all! There are so many wonderful things for you to do and things to smile about sweetie...keep thinking of those things and keep those eyes smiling!! Judy - it's so great to hear that Julia is feeling better. How could she not? She is a fighter and will fight all the bad things that are in her. She is powered by the love of her family and the thoughtfulness of strangers. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 7:36 AM CDT Hi Judy - I hope that Justine & Jordan had a great first day back to school... As for Julia, tell her that Celeste isn't going to school (preschool) this year either. She wants to but only if mommy can be there... we're still trying to work that one out. Celeste wants to look at your photo album and the home page picture on this site every time she is near the computer. She has sparked a greater interest in Julia lately and talks about her often - about how pretty she is... about her brothers and sisters... about her mommy and how she is friends with 'my' mommy.... See you soon - ((((HUGS))))) Tami <http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/celeste> Pgh, PA USA - Wednesday, September 3, 2003 0:56 AM CDT Hi Little Julia, I am so glad you are feeling better, even if it is little by little. I am praying everyday for you complete recovery and healing. I know that it is possible. God Bless you Julia Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 10:29 PM CDT Hello everyone, Hope all Jordon and Justin had a great first day of school. I am soo happy that Jules had a great day today. Here is to many many more of them. hope to see you soon. Love, Hugs, and Prayers. A&D&Z Amy Drahusz - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 8:47 PM CDT Judy, So glad to hear Julia has that sparkle in her eyes. That means so much. Just wanted you to know I'm checking in on Julia and you. I will pray each day for Julia. Judy, you and Julia are probably touching many more lives you don't even know about, including mine. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 8:05 PM CDT Julia, It was so nice to see you yesterday. Your eyes looked much more vibrant, and your hands felt so soft after that bath Mommy gave you. We won't mention how there were still a few bubbles left in your hair! Love you lots! I see my Aunt Bunny has her friends praying for you.. excellent! Shellie Pgh, - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 7:26 PM CDT Wonderful story about the butterfly. Can't wait to hear more of them. We so enjoyed seeing all of you yesterday hope to see you again very soon. It was a great day and seeing her smile in her eyes was great. Love, Hugs, and Prayers A & D & Z amy drahusz - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 3:25 PM CDT Julia: Can't wait to hear about the party. I hope you all had a great time. What a wonderful story about little butterfly Julia. I will think of her every time I ever see another butterfly. With Love, Susan and Jake Griffin Jake's Journey griffin jupiter, fl usa - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 12:09 AM CDT I found this today on line...thought you might enjoy it! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dream Dream what you want to dream. Go where you want to go, be who you want to be... But remember to enjoy every step of life's journey. It's easy to become so focused on a goal that the rest of life passes unnoticed... even unappreciated. It's important to remember that the essence of each day is unique and fleeting. Minutes are grains of sand that slip all too quickly through our fingers, leaving only memories. So follow your dream-- wherever it may lead you and remember to enjoy each and every step along the way. ~ Renee Duvall ~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Keep dreaming because I believe that a dream is the first step in hope and miracles. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 12:06 AM CDT I loved your Julia~butterfly story. Amazing! Julia, sweet girl, I continue to pray for you and pray for a complete healing and yes ... those grandchildren one day in the far future. I think of you all the time and send you many good thoughts. Love, Tess (Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker San Francisco, CA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 11:34 AM CDT Still praying and thinking of you! The Levy's are always in my thoughts! Much love, Michelle Michelle <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 11:33 AM CDT Julia - keep smiling sweetheart! I hope to see that smile of yours in person some day soon. And maybe get to hear you giggle!! Always, always in my thoughts, HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 10:24 AM CDT Judy keep the faith...GOD IS ABLE! Give a big hug to Julia for me please. Jan Weis Bridgeville, PA - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 9:44 AM CDT Hi Judy - just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and your family... I finally started to journal on Celeste's page... I have wanted to call and see how things are going but have found it really, really great to come here - it's hard getting to the phone at times... nevermind, you understand :) we keep praying for Julia's complete healing... can't wait to see you on Wednesday! ((((HUGS)))) Tami <http://home.earthlink.net/~jeremytamiyoung> - Tuesday, September 2, 2003 1:57 AM CDT Dear Judy, The Lords'mercies are new every morning-great is His faithfulness!While my family and I are praying for you daily,today I added an exta request that He would bless all the Levys with a refreshing much needed rest.Each day is a new gift from Him,every morning the hope of yet another answered prayer!!!You truly can"cast all your cares on Him,for He careth for you" -it really is a promise from Gods' word.Be comforted in this Judy and may the peace of God guide your heart and mind thru Christ Jesus.Blessings to all especially precious Julia! Mary Jean Tudi and family - Monday, September 1, 2003 11:11 PM CDT Butterflies are so amazing! They are beautiful and each one is different and unique - just like your Julia. Her eyes tell her story! Everytime I come to this site to check in I FEEL her strength, love and compassion. She is an amazing girl!! I hope you all had fun at the party because you all need to remember the good things in life and CELEBRATE!!! I continually keep you all in my thoughts.. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, September 1, 2003 6:54 PM CDT Hi Julia. Shellie has told me about you and I just want you to know that not only am I praying for you, but I've entered your name on the prayer chain at our church. A lot of people are praying for you and love you. Get better quick! Love, Aunt Bunny Bunny Morrison <morris1164@aol.com> North Huntingdon, PA USA - Monday, September 1, 2003 3:42 PM CDT Hi Jules, I was at a party yesterday and I wore my special fairy wings...I was the star. Judy, I got some delicious leftover food from this party and was going to bring it up. Also, could I have an Avon book? I'd like to take it to school and see what I could do for you there. As always, lots of love and prayers are with you. Remember to read The Kissing Hand to all of your school goers tonight. It's a tradition at our house. If you see Mikey tomorrow, could you give him an extra hug and tell him it's from Ummy? Shellie PGH, - Monday, September 1, 2003 10:04 AM CDT Judy; Thanks for sharing the story of the butterfly. Once again it's one of God's miricales. They Do Happen!!! Have the faith. God does work in mysterious ways. When one door closes there is another one that opens. As always, love and God Bless... Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Sunday, August 31, 2003 10:55 PM CDT Hope you have fun at the party Julia! Also hope we get to see you on Tuesday. I am so glad you are all enjoying the butterflies. They really are amazing, aren't they? Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Sunday, August 31, 2003 10:19 PM CDT Darling Julia, I am sooo happy you are feeling a little better. I have not been online in about a week and I missed checking in with you, but I never stopped thinking or praying for you, sweetie. As I sit here I hope and pray for more better days and soon you will be playing with you sister and brothers and cousins again. All my love, Tess. (Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker - Sunday, August 31, 2003 11:43 AM CDT Judy, Checking on Julia and you tonight and praying for you two. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Sunday, August 31, 2003 1:30 AM CDT Our thoughts and prayers are with you every day. Brian, Tonya, Kirstyn, Jillian,and Paige Carlisle, PA USA - Saturday, August 30, 2003 9:45 PM CDT Dear Julia and family We are so glad to hear that you are getting stronger every day. We think of you everyday and are praying for a full recovery. Never let them take away your Faith and Hope and remember always that Jesus Loves you so much sweetheart. By HIS GRACE we will all get through this, you are not alone. Love, Kim, Steve, Marissa Faith, Justinl, Alex, Grace & Jade www.caringbridge.org/ks/marissa The Burgharts <hiskids@sbcglobal.net> Newton, Ks USA - Saturday, August 30, 2003 9:31 PM CDT  Hi Julia.... My name is Kody..my Mom is Kim and she is helping me write this. My mom showed me your picture and told me how brave and strong you are. I think she is definetly right. You are very pretty too. :0) I have a girlfriend, her name is Ashley. All of us have the same thing. All of us are survivors too! I hope you have a nice weekend. Love, Kody ~KODYS STORY~ - Saturday, August 30, 2003 6:20 PM CDT Hi there Julia. So glad to hear your eyes were so bright and shiny today. It makes me happy to see the bright and shiny eyes of my kids too. I pray that you will be feeling much better very soon. For your family, our family is keeping you in our prayers every day. We will never underestimate the power of prayer! May the Father bless and keep you all. Focus on the Son!! Sherry Sherry Wheeler (friend of the Fiveash family) <frogbear@worldnet.att.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Saturday, August 30, 2003 5:04 PM CDT Julia, Yeah! I'm so glad you are looking and feeling more like that beautiful darling that you are! My doctor says, "If the eyes look good, most everything looks good too!" Stay strong and keep smiling! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Saturday, August 30, 2003 2:28 PM CDT Julia, Yeah! I'm so glad you are looking and feeling more like that beautiful darling that you are! My doctor says, "If the eyes look good, most everything looks good too!" Stay strong and keep smiling! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Saturday, August 30, 2003 2:28 PM CDT Julia, Yeah! I'm so glad you are looking and feeling more like that beautiful darling that you are! My doctor says, "If the eyes look good, most everything looks good too!" Stay strong and keep smiling! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Saturday, August 30, 2003 2:28 PM CDT Judy: It is all in their eyes isn't it? You can tell so much by looking at those beautiful eyes. I was gone for almost 3 weeks and I get back and I had the computer virus so I could not get on-line often but you were thought of and prayed for often. With Love, Susan and Jake Griffin Jake's Journey griffin - Saturday, August 30, 2003 8:16 AM CDT Judy, I am praying that today is another good day for Julia! God bless, Andrea and family www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Saturday, August 30, 2003 7:30 AM CDT Julia, thanks so much for the fairy wings...now I don't have to borrow yours all of the time. You're as precious as a magical fairy, always flitting in my thoughts and prayers each day. Judy, I would pray this with my mom each day after she was diagnosed with lung cancer. She especially enjoyed it when Mikey and Matt would read it with her: Heavenly Father I call on you right now in a special way. It is through your power that Julia was created. Every breath she takes, every morning she wakes, every moment of every hour, she lives under Your power. Father, I ask You now to touch Julia with that same power. For if You created her from nothing, You can certainly recreate her. Fill her with the healing power of Your spirit. Cast out anything that should not be in her. Mend what is broken. Root out any unproductive cells. Open any blocked arteries or veins and rebuild damaged areas. Remove all inflammation and cleanse any infection. Let the warmth of Your healing love pass through her body to make new any unhealthy areas so that her body will function the way You created it to function. And Father, restore Julia to full health in mind and body so that she may serve You the rest of her life. I ask this through Jesus Christ, Amen I pray this each day for her and others, and I invite all who wish to use this prayer for Julia and others who may benefit from it. Shellie Pgh, - Saturday, August 30, 2003 7:21 AM CDT Dear Judy...Glad Julia had a good day...Thinking and praying for you and your family... God is Able!! Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, August 30, 2003 2:18 AM CDT God is Awesome. We are thinking of you and praying for you many times a day. Reading your journal brought tears to my eyes, because I know the feeling you have being around Julia when her eyes are bright and she is happy. Today was one of those days here as well, I just spent the day enjoying Cheyenne and watching her be happy. God Bless you guys, and Julia, just like Cheyenne, is a miracle in progress. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 C Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx usa - Saturday, August 30, 2003 0:22 AM CDT I feel it in my heart - good times are ahead! We ALL will keep the faith, and be talking of Julia's miracle. Love you Levy's! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Friday, August 29, 2003 11:01 PM CDT Hey Jud, Feel I must continue to write a little something even though I see you daily. I don't want to feel left out of this site. :) Julia's Grandma...Nan..rigged together a swing for Julia and put it on their swingset. Now Jules can swing with the other kids. Nan said that has been one of her favorite things to do in the past!! Sis, I love you dearly!! Even though I'm working now and you feel lost without me there all the time, I feel it too. I feel that I should be at your house instead of working!! Wanna pay my bills so I don't have to work?? :) I love you! I love you too Peanuthead!!! Hugs and kisses Jod <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, August 29, 2003 9:58 PM CDT Hi everyone, It was just wonderful to read todays news. Looks like a miracle is in progress. I can't wait to see those shinning eyes in person. I can't wait to give her her presents and see even shinner eyes. You hang in there Judy, all of your family and friends are here to help you balance whenever you need it, you are not alone. See you all soon!!!! Love, Hugs, and Prayers!!! A & D & Z Praying for miracles for all the children and their parents. Amy Drahusz - Friday, August 29, 2003 9:15 PM CDT Hi, Just wanted to check in and see how everyone is doing.Keep up the smiles and let those beautiful eyes shine brighter everyday our little angel. Talk to you soon Judy. Love and kisses to all of you. Peg Peg Smith <bobnpeg8@cs.com> Duquesne, Pa USA - Friday, August 29, 2003 8:00 PM CDT Judy, This is wonderful news. And from reading the journal entry sounds like Julia had a nice visit with family. Julia and you will be in my prayers tonight. Take care. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Friday, August 29, 2003 7:57 PM CDT Judy - you balance with the best of them dear gal!! You continue to be in my thoughts. Last night I even dreamt of Julia - I think you were there too but it was a good dream because I woke up smiling! HUGS and love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, August 29, 2003 8:28 AM CDT Dear Judy, Hang in there and keep up the balancing act!!!! Thoughts and prayers are with you from Florida!!!!!!!!!! Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Friday, August 29, 2003 7:51 AM CDT Dear Judy, Sounds like some good things are happening from what you're saying in todays journal!!! Isn't God awesome!!!! We are continuing to lift up you and your family in our prayers and you are definitely in our hearts each and every day.I pray that the Lord continues to bless you and keep you with His perfect peace that passes all understanding. Please feel free to call if we can do anything to help. Mary Jean Tudi and family <maryjeantudi@msn.com> Pittsburgh, Pa. USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 11:30 PM CDT DEAR JULIA( YUM YUM) I NEEDED TO LET YOU KNOW, THAT I KNOW YOU ARE LISTENING TO WHAT I SAY TO YOU. YOU WERE LAYING ON THE COUCH TONITE, WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED, WHEN I WHISPERED TO YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.I ASKED YOU TO LIFT YOUR EYES UP IF YOU HEARD ME, AND YOU DID!! YOU MADE ME SWELL UP INSIDE. I WAS THERE TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, AND HERE IT WAS YOU, THAT MADE ME FEEL GOOD!! WHAT PAPA COULD ASK FOR MORE THAN THAT!! THIS PAPA CAN...I ASK & PRAY FOR A MIRACLE, AND W/ ALL OF THE PRAYERS FOR JULIA, FROM ALL OVER THE COUNTRY,FROM FAMILY,FRIENDS, &ND FROM JUST GOOD PLAIN PEOPLE,& STRANGERS,KEEPING THE FAITH IS A MUST! MY WIFE & I THANK YOU ALL, ALSO PAPA HERM & GRANDMA MARLENE..LOVE YA JULIA...XXOOOOOOOOXXXXXXX PAPA & GRANDMA <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 10:31 PM CDT Hi - just wanted to let you know that we're thinking and praying about you... Give Julia a hug for us... Celeste's site is still in the works but it's up - http://home.earthlink.net/~jeremytamiyoung ((((HUGS)))) Tami Pgh, PA USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 10:07 PM CDT Judy, Jarrod, Julia, Justine, Jordon, Jacob, We just want you all to know how much we think about you all everyday. We are only a call, email or yell away. Let us help if we can, you are all amazing during the most difficult time in your lives. Take care of each other and we will continue doing what we can do like praying and thinking of you all. Can't wait to see you all on Monday. We love you all. Hugs, Love, and Prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Thursday, August 28, 2003 8:49 PM CDT Judy, Just checking in on Julia and praying for her and you tonight. It is good to see that Julia and you are doing better. Enjoy time with your family visiting. I will check on you all tomorrow. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 5:50 PM CDT Levy Crew.....Thinking and praying for you all! Every moment of every day................always, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 3:38 PM CDT Just wanted to remind you that we are here for you. Lots of love and prayers. The Rogalsky's Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, pa USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 12:04 AM CDT GOD Knew That Everyone Needs Companionship And Cheer, He Knew That People Need Someone Whose Thoughts Are Always Near. He Knew They Need Someone Kind To Lend A Helping Hand. Someone To Gladly Take The Time To Care And Understand. GOD Knew That We All Need Someone To Share Each Happy Day, To Be A Source Of Courage When Troubles Come Our Way. Someone To Be True To Us, Whether Near Or Far Apart. Someone Whose Love We'll Always Hold And Treasure In Our Hearts. That's Why God Gave Us Friends ~unknown Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, August 28, 2003 11:28 AM CDT OK...so what's the scoop? And no not chocolate mint chip either!! LOL You are never alone, even when you think you are. Pick up a phone, type out a message and there are doznes of us ready to listen and offer our thoughts and strength!! HUGS and love to a special girl and an incredible family! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, August 28, 2003 10:11 AM CDT Hi there. I have been to your site before because I remember your beautiful little girl's face. I think this is the first time I've signed in though. And, this morning I took time to read your entire history so I would know how to pray for you more specifically. I'm so sorry for all the pain you are having to endure. Please know that even though I don't know you personally, I love and care about you and your family as children of God and will definitely lift you up in my prayers to our Lord. Blessings and I will continue to check on you here. Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org> Lexington, NC, - Thursday, August 28, 2003 9:17 AM CDT Judy and Jerry, Love yourselves as much as you can. No matter what is happening outside, find the space within your own self in which a light shines and love rests. Rest there. Ralph <rlewis@bowlinginc.com> Milwaukee, WI - Thursday, August 28, 2003 8:24 AM CDT Judy and Jerry..know my thoughts and prayers are with you daily. Stay strong. Dee Dee Dee Calkins <BobandGloria@comcast.net> Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 7:45 AM CDT Dear Judy...So many prayers are being said for little Julia and your family!! My prayers and thoughts are with you always. Even though you don't know me personally, if there is anything I can do for you, just say the word!!.. The power of prayer is so incredibly strong, and my email message to friends has reached not only them, but many others!! I noticed a good friend of mine visited the site and signed the questbook!...There are literally thousands praying all over the US and Canada for Julia and your family!!...Aweseome!!.. I was happy to hear that family was coming in to be with you and Julia. Enjoy the time with them.. Remember Judy...God is with you and your family...When you feel weak, he is carrying you...Rest in him...he is the WAY... Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, August 28, 2003 4:46 AM CDT Just want you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers always. Love, Karen, Jessica and Michael - Thursday, August 28, 2003 4:07 AM CDT Love you guys! Praying for Julia's complete healing! Hope every day is better than the day before! Enjoy the butterflies! Mary & Hannah Kitchen <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Thursday, August 28, 2003 0:21 AM CDT I'm praying for you and Julia!! I want so much to see her restored to health. God *IS* able!!! Lorraine (Nolan's mom) <loralof@yahoo.com> - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 10:53 PM CDT Judy, I'm here again tonight to lift Julia's name to the Lord and your's as well, Judy. In Christ's Love, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 10:50 PM CDT Dear Judy, A friend forwarded your site to me. We cannot know what you are going through. But know that there are so many people praying for you, your family and Julia. Remember this on the days that you just can't pray. The power of prayer is an awesome thing. Know that Julia is in our loving Savior's hands. I will pray also that you know His peace through this trying time. Elizabeth Fattore <effattore@comcast.net> Aliquippa, Pa USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 9:16 PM CDT Julia and Family, Just wanted to again drop by and let you know that you are not alone. My family and everyone that I know is praying for you day and night. Be strong Judy, Through God All Things are Possible. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 9:03 PM CDT I was directed to your site by someone, and cant believe the torment your family is enduring. Hugs & prayers to all of you, Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~ - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 8:21 PM CDT Reading your journal of course touched mu heart and stung my eyes. I wish you all the love and emotional support you need. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Prayer is a strong force and I believe is heard, I know you will be heard. Heres to many love filled days with Julia. Robin S. ON Canada - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 6:26 PM CDT Reading through your journal entries has touched my heart. As I was reading through the entries I saw a group of about four people sitting with Julia having a pretend tea party with daisy rings on their heads. The joy felt while this was going on was undescribable. I will send love for you and your family. I will send this story on to as many people as I can as I truly believe in the power of prayer. Tracy Ward Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 5:35 PM CDT Dear Judy, Sending you lots of love and prayers. Hoping JH can help you. Andrea www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 1:07 PM CDT Thinking of you all every day and saying LOTS of prayers. Your strength and courage are awesome. Give Jules a hug for me. Luv ya Shirley G. - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 10:43 AM CDT Lord Jesus, I pray right now for Julia and Judy, please wrap your loving arms around them give them the strength to continue this battle and to face what tomorrow holds. Amen Hey Levy crew...thinking of you always....... Much love and many prayers, Michelle Phillips Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 10:39 AM CDT Judy, Thinking and praying for you daily.... At times like this are primary ally is hope. We can't change what is, we don't have answers and we feel scared and alone. Without hope the picture is bleak. See James 5:15. "And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the lord will raise him up." When our loved one is sick, we keep hope alive by praying and believing the best for our child. God makes the final determination regarding healing, of course, but in the meantime hope gives us courage. Lord, grant Judy courage to face the unknown with hope rather than despair... Amen..... Love and Cyperhugs Deneen www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 8:57 AM CDT Dear Judy, My name is Lynn and I have a cancer support website on the net. One of my sweet Prayer Warriors, Karol put me onto this website. I had visited a time or two before, but she reminded me of you all this past week, and I have been keeping up with you ever since. I'm in the midst of a move this week, but I just wanted you all to know that more friends have joined the journey with you and sweet Julia... we hold you in our hearts, in love and in prayer. I know you are are weary, dear one. I'm praying for your comfort today.. and for a renewing of your strength, your faith, your hope! Loving you in Jesus - I'll be back soon! Lynn Lynn Campbell <lynn@legacyofhope.org> Troy (soon to be Panama City, FL), AL USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 8:25 AM CDT Judy - you continue to be in my thoughts, as does Julia. Don't question if you are strong enough for this because you are. Don't feel bad for feeling upset or depressed or even mad - feel it, express it, get it out and look at it. Then move on to what is good. My love and support are with you always. My thoughts are for happier, less stressful days. My hope is to see you and Julia smile!! HUGS and love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 7:38 AM CDT Hello Julia and family, I just wanted to let you know that prayers are being said for you. Keep the faith. Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 10:15 PM CDT Judy, Hi my name is Karol. I am part of wonderful group called the Prayer Warriors at LegacyofHope.org I have been sharing about Julia and asking everyone to pray for her and you, and your family. I check this journal every night to see how Julia is doing and to see how you are doing and to lift prayers to the Lord for you. Your daughter is so beautiful and just visiting this journal has put her in a special place in my heart. I will be right here following this journey with you & Julia, praying for you, caring. Love in Christ, Karol Karol <pwkarol@aol.com> Albany, GA USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 10:08 PM CDT Hello everyone, Just stopping by in my daily trip to the site and hope you are all doing ok. Judy I am worried about you, please if there is anything we can do. Give Jules and everyone hugs and kisses from all of us. Praying for the Miracle and sending loving thoughts your way. Love, Hugs, and Prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 8:51 PM CDT Julia, Hi honey bunny, just thinking about you as I do every min. of everyday. Hope you had a good day today, and hope to see you really soon again, maybe Thursday. Joshua wanted to say hello and sends big hugs, smiles, and kisses. That is what I was just instructed to write. We all love you very much, and are praying very hard for you honey. Judy, once again take care of yourself to, and try although I understand how hard it is get yourself some rest you need it to. I suggest a nice long BUBBLE BATH for just you. I am always here for you just pick up that phone, Love ya... the twins say Nite Nite Julia and Da Da.... Cathy, Josh, Zach and Nathaniel - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 8:11 PM CDT Judy, When I saw Shellie's post about her dream, I had to share the dream I had two nights ago. I was visiting, and Julia was sleeping. I left, but had to run back in because I forgot my shoes (LOL). When I cam back in, Julia came RUNNING down the stairs laughing, and gave everyone a hug! I too, hope this is a sign. Always praying for all of you... Love, Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 4:03 PM CDT Judy Keep up the faith. It is in God's hands what happens to Jules, just like the rest of us. the dream I had about Julia gave me chills when I woke up. She smiled, then talked then got up to get a bath. I believe in signs, and hope that this is one of them. Shellie - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 2:50 PM CDT Dear Judy, You don't know me but I'm Eric Stawson's brother Brian's wife. (Whew!) I've been keeping Julia in my prayers since Brian's Mom sent a link to this site. This week I had Julia added to our prayer list at church. Your strength and courage never cease to amaze me. You are truly a wonderful person and Mom. When my daughter had surgery on her arm at about Julia's age, I told her God sent special tiny angels and put them inside her arm and when it hurt, it was because they were in there banging around and working to fix everything. It seemed to make her feel better. I'm praying God sends those angels to Julia. Teresa Stawson <T76539@aol.com> Suffolk, VA USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 2:23 PM CDT Update to my previous entry - the trial that was successful in adults was successful for glioblastoma multiforme - not meduloblastoma - I was tired and weary when I wrote that... see you wednesday! ((((hugs))))) and hugs & kisses to Julia from us! Tami Young - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 12:08 AM CDT Dear Judy, I think of you and your sweet little angel everyday, I utter a prayer up for healing and strength knowing that you are giving your all to Julia. I wish so much that I could be there to hug you both. You amaze me, I now stop and think before I complain or groan about something. I now know that whatever I may be going through is such a trivial part of life when I think of the fight Julia has right now..... Know that I am praying for you all and that I love you without ever meeting you.......... Love and prayers Michelle P/S please kiss and hug Julia for me..... Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 11:03 AM CDT Dear Judy, I know how emotionally exhausting it is to see your child go through this. I am praying for God to strenghten you and for His healing upon Julia. Do not give up hope. Remember, with God, all things are possible. God bless, Andrea Passarella www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 7:47 AM CDT Reading the entries in the guestbook amazes me. I can feel the support we have for you and reading it helps me look at the things I complain about. You are not alone, none of us are alone. We all face our own trials and the test of our character is how we handle it. Well Judy my dear, your character has spoken VOLUMES to me so many times. The character of your family is obviously something you all share. Cry, yell, scream and vent Judy but know you always have an ear to turn to, a shoulder to lean and a hug whenever you need it. Please give Julia a hug for me. HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, August 26, 2003 7:37 AM CDT Hi Judy - I am beyond words at how beautiful Julia is and how beautiful your entire family is. I know that God is with you all in your time of trial and that you will get through this. I have been praying and praying for our girls to receive a CURE and MIRACLE. Just look at Julia and Celeste - they are absolute miracles each and every day and will continue to be. I wish that there was more that I could do for you - when I said that I would do anything... I guess that I meant if you ever needed to unload anything emotionally - I am here on the roller coaster ride with you. It's a horrible place to be and there are times when I can't stop crying or I just want to scream when I see Celeste struggling with the every day things that many people take for granted. I am up at all hours of the night and am also emotionally exhausted. So, that said - I'm here anytime! Don't ever hesitate to reach me. I cannot stress how beautiful your family is - their priorities are centered around Julia's healing - it's amazing... I've found peace with God and trust that he is working to help our babies live here with us on earth for a long, long time! I also know that Julia and Celeste are surrounded by Angels that are doing all in their power to get rid of those evil tumors... Another note, a friend of ours that we've met since Celeste's diagnosis is undergoing a trial that had an 8% total CURE rate for meduloblastomas in adults! They're now trying it in pediatric trials for pontine glioma... Anyone reading this please pray for Drew to receive a miracle - he's one of 3 undergoing the treatment as far as I know... We pray each day that a total cure is coming. Our girls are going to get through this - what about us??? I trust that we will too but it's soooo hard sometimes. If I don't hear from you by then, I'll see you Wednesday. (((((HUGS)))))) Tami PGH, PA USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 11:58 PM CDT I've been reading Julias journal and your entries Mom and you are a precious brave mother..Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you that the Lord will hold you up during this difficult time..and hugs to the sweet darling girl Julia..If you have time, won't you visit Quilts of Love and let us create a virtual online quilt for Julia..I think you'll find lots of support from Quilts of Love ..Hugs Carolyn  Carolyn <carolynj@ilovejesus.net> Oklahoma - Monday, August 25, 2003 11:34 PM CDT Blessings to you, I am a stranger, who is praying for your beautiful little girl, along with my family and soon, my friends. Please take heart in the knowledge that there are many many people who are keeping all of you in their hearts and prayers. When a dear one was fighting a losing battle, and I was in such pain that I did not think I could stand it, my Mother told me to go out in the backyard and stand quietly. I did, and on a hot night in August when the wind had not stirred all day, suddenly I felt a breeze. My mother took my hand, and said, "That breeze is the many prayers that are being offered for her, they stopped by on their way to Heaven." I felt cooler and strangely refreshed in the middle of the heat wave, and days later, as I stood at the side of her coffin, I felt the breeze again in the middle of the crowded funeral home. May He hold you in the palm of His hand as you face your troubles, and whisper His love for you and your precious gift in every breeze. SJ Glover <Sherigeoff@msn.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 6:06 PM CDT Be strong little ones for your Father in Heaven holds you all very dear to Him. My heart breaks for your emotional termoil. I have a 2 1/2 year old baby girl of my own and cannot even imagine. Hold tightly to the Word and be on your knees together. Love one another with all your hearts. We will be praying for you. Be strong and have faith. The Wheeler Family Sherry Wheeler <frogbear@worldnet.att.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 4:10 PM CDT Judy and Jarrod -- Please remember we are praying for Julia and you all. If you haven't already done so, you might want to get a copy of Rabbi Harold Kushner's book, "When Bad Things Happen to Good People." The rabbi's experiences were very similar to yours. Please take comfort in knowing how many people have been touched by little angel Julia. It's like she is bringing light to us all, teaching us all what's important in life and how to live our lives. There is so much to be learned from her courage and yours. Love, peace and blessings -- Clare Stawson <m60cs@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 2:37 PM CDT You do not know me but I have been praying for Julia and your family through knowing of you from Cheyenne's web page. My heart breaks for all of you - Julia looks so much like my little three year old granddaughter and it allows me to put myself somewhat closer. Having lost a child myself several years ago, there is still little I can say to ease your pain, yet I know, without a doubt, that trusting in God is THE only real source of comfort. I can promise you that He will be with you every step of the way when you trust him. Please know that I care deeply and that my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Charlotte Kolls <ccharkolls@aol.com> San Angelo, TX - Monday, August 25, 2003 2:27 PM CDT Judy, I so much wish I was there to help with your burden. I am praying so very hard for you and Julia, along with the rest of the Levy crew! Many thoughts, prayers, and love coming your way! Love, Michelle Michelle Phillip <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St Paul, VA USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 12:12 AM CDT Judy, We DO love you all and miss you very very much. Please give Jules and the other J's hugs and kisses... There is a prayer chain going around Texas, with nothing but positive thoughts and prayers for all of you. Keep remembering He is Able, and with complete belief He will Prevail and heal Julia and all of His other children. Love you bunches...XOXOXOXO Ami <ami@houston.rr.com> SugarLand, Tx - Monday, August 25, 2003 9:40 AM CDT Hi! Julia....we miss you and love you very much.Can't wait to see you again! XOXOXOXOXO Jace Chapman Love from all...Rocky, Ami, Michael, Matt, Andrew, & Jace Chapman <ami@houston.rr.com> SugarLand, Tx - Monday, August 25, 2003 9:34 AM CDT Judy, Have faith, and please know that you can't always be strong. Yeah it hurts to feel the way you do and you are not giving up for feeling this way. Remember a while ago you said your hubby was having a hard time to cope - well now it's your turn. It's not easy, we all see that and you need to feel what needs to be felt! Julia refuses to give up, she's in there using her energy to fight right now. Just love her - that's all she needs from you. Thinking of you...wishing I could help in some way! HUGS and love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, August 25, 2003 9:08 AM CDT Dear Julia and family, We continue to pray that God will Bless you with complete healing. Jesus loves the little children! He is with you. Donna Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net or rfiveash@sbcglobal.com> San Angelo, TX - Monday, August 25, 2003 8:32 AM CDT Hi Judy, I know it is hard to see Julia go through this. Don't give up hope. You never know when God might just touch Julia, and she will get up and act as if none of this ever happened. We don't know his plans. Julia is strong, all of these kids are so strong. Show her your strength, and she will feed off of it. We will keep your family in our praryers. Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL - Monday, August 25, 2003 7:12 AM CDT Hi Judy: Just checking in. Sermon in church today was about the boy whose demons the apostles could not cast out. Only when Jesus prayed did they leave. Thought about Jules, The Dr's can only do so much, we have to rely on God to help us. With all the prayers that are being said, I am sure that he is listening. But God works in his own time. Give a big hug to all the little & big "J"s. Are they starting school this week? If you need someone, you can call anytime. Love to all Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> - Sunday, August 24, 2003 9:52 PM CDT (((Judy))) ;^) trace - Sunday, August 24, 2003 9:50 PM CDT Hello everyone, We just got back and can't wait to come and visit you all. Julia I have a present for you. We wish with all of our hearts there was more we could do or say for you all. Just know that anything in our power that we can do for you is yours. My phone is behind my head also and I am a light sleeper if you need to talk anytime call me I will be glad to listen. Prayers of all we know are for the miracle for Julia and for the rest of you all. Take care my dear friends and we will see you soon. Much love, hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Prayers for all the precious children and their families around the world. Amy Drahusz - Sunday, August 24, 2003 9:24 PM CDT Hi Julia, Judy, Today was an emotional day for me as well. With little Nolan going to heaven today, and so many of the kids that I have become to know not doing so well, the quiet time got to me when my thoughts got the best of me. We have to be strong, and move forward for our children. I know that Julia and Cheyenne can and will get over this. You and sweet Julia are in our constant prayers. God Bless you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, tx usa - Sunday, August 24, 2003 8:44 PM CDT Hello Judy & Family, Thoughts and prayers are sent out to you and your family. Steve and I lit another candle for Julia after mass today. Love, Steve,Theresa,Jeanine,Nunny,Liz,John & Pap Sotak. Theresa Thomas Irwin, Pa. - Sunday, August 24, 2003 7:10 PM CDT HI everyone just checking in to let you know even if I can't come down as much as I would like I always read the journals. Judy I am so happy Jodi is home with you, both of you always were good together and together your fight can only get stronger. Tell Jules I said hi and I'll be back to see her. Don't forget I'm only a call away. As always my prayers go out to you and the family. Love and kisses to all Peg Peg Smith <bobnpeg8cs.com> Duquesne, Pa USA - Sunday, August 24, 2003 6:55 PM CDT Dear Judy, just a note to say we are all praying for you and Jules every night. Today at church we put her on the prayer chain(it's very powerful-many prayers have been answered from it) I also feel that the Lord put this scripture on my heart for you it is from Psalm 20: " The Lord hear thee in the day of trouble;the name of the God of Jacob defend thee; send thee help from the sanctuary,and strengthen thee out of Zion;remember all thy offerings and accept thy burnt sacrifice;Selah. Grant thee according to thine own heart,and fulfill all thy counsel.We will rejoice in thy salvation,and in the name of our God we will set up our banners:the Lord fulfil all thy petitions. Now know I that the Lord saveth his anointed;he will hear him from his holy heaven with the saving strength of his right hand. Some trust in chariots,and some in horses:but we will remember the name of the Lord our God. They are brought down and fallen:but we are risen,and stand upright.Save Lord:let the King hear us when we call".Rich blessings to all in the precious name of Jesus Christ whose name by interpretation means God saves Tony, Mary Jean,Gina ,Nicole and Anthony Tudi <maryjeantudi@msn.com> Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Sunday, August 24, 2003 6:35 PM CDT Julia- Prayers are following you throughout every minute of everyday, from new and far, from friends and family, from complete strangers! I think that in and of itself is a miracle, and I am praying that this miracle manifests itslef into a more tangible one in your life; recovery! Peace to you now and always, Sara - Sunday, August 24, 2003 12:36 AM CDT Julia, I have a little girl I call her my little champ her name is Cheyenne I pray for her every morning before I GO TO WORK AND EVERY EVENING BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP. I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU AS WELL.I also talk to God on a one on one basis throughout the day.GOD is very powerful person I know he is with us every hour , minute every second. GOD BLESS YOU jOE hOLGUIN Joe Holguin <lcmcchico61@aol> San Angelo, TX. US - Sunday, August 24, 2003 10:31 AM CDT Judy I dont know where you get your strength from but your are truely amazing. Keep the faith even on those tough days. Just know that Jules, you and the entire family are in my thoughts and prays constantly. Love Karen Karen Sylvia <kbear51@bellsouth.net> Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Sunday, August 24, 2003 8:46 AM CDT judy--justed signed in to say hello, im a good friend of cheyennes and was reading some of your journals. you really appear to have a lot of strength. i wish you all the peace in the world, both in your mind and in your heart. what your going thru right now must be the hardest thing in the world, i cant even imagine. my husband and i have 6 children and 5 grandchildren of our own and have been truly blessed. but please take care of yourself also. from watching mr and mrs fiveash and reading some of the other journals, it seems to consume your whole world, which is only natural, but please remember to take care of you also, so that you can be mentally and physically able to face whatever life brings your way. your daughter sounds like an angel my prayers are with you tami holguin <alexcruz8@aol.com> san angelo, tx - Saturday, August 23, 2003 11:16 PM CDT Good evening all of you J's, Just checking in on our lil' jules before we all go to say our nightly prayers for Julia and go to bed. Judy, it was so nice to visit last night. I feel so much better everytime I get to see Julia, although she went to sleep that is okay she needs her strength. Judy after our conversation today on the telephone I just dont know what to say except you are doing a wonderful job, and cry anytime you need to. My mother always said it is better to get it out than hold it in, Let it all out!!!!!!! You call me day or night I dont care, that phone is always next to my bed. Hugs and Kisses to all, our prayers are getting stronger everyday, We love you Julia... Andy, Cathy, Josh, Zach, and Nathaniel..... - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:52 PM CDT Hi Judy, Don't give up the faith. I know that yours is strong but there are times when we are all weak. God is good and he does hear our prayers, and answers them in his own time. To everything there is a reason and a season. The reason now is to have the faith and not give up. Give Jules a big hug from Mitch & Me. Your always in our thoughts and prayers. God Bless Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:48 PM CDT Julia and family, As always, you are in our prayers and thoughts throughout the entire day and night. We are with you and God is with you. It is so hard to be strong, but we can do it together. God Bless you sweet Julia, God Bless you Judy. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, tx usa - Saturday, August 23, 2003 9:56 PM CDT Dear Julia, We stopped by yesterday to bring your family some macaroni and cheese(hope it was yummy), but you were sleeping. I didn't get to look into your beautiful blue eyes or try to make you smile. I'll try again soon. Justine, nice earrings!!! They'll look great for your first day of school. (I just said the 'S' word)Jordan, you'll be 10 years old, what a grownup boy! You are such a good thinker and good listener, too. Jacob, you were sleeping too when I came, so I missed seeing you too. Judy and Jarrod, what a super family you have. while your extended family is here, count each moment as a special blessing. Love surrounds you as the prayers continue. Shellie and Mikey Shellie and Mikey <khen608178@aol.com> Pgh, Pa - Saturday, August 23, 2003 8:53 PM CDT I will say a prayer for your beautiful daughter. I have two children and feel your pain. Your daughter was put on this earth for a reason, just like all of us. We do not control when we will be born or when we will die. God does. We need to appreciate each day and each other until the day when the Lord calls us back home. My prayer for all of you is that God will give you the strength you need to accept His will. Regina Sauer <reginasauer@yahoo.com> Orange, CT - Saturday, August 23, 2003 7:41 PM CDT hi may name is charles i usally go to Cheynne's web page they asked everyone to pray for you. you will be in may prayers tonight along with Cheynne. charles hawkins <chawk12354@aol.com> san angelo, tx usa - Saturday, August 23, 2003 5:45 PM CDT All our prayers to you and your family! Hang in there - God will see you through this! Kellie Beresh - Jacob's mom - www.caringbridge.org/ne/jakieboy <scbkab@cox.net> Omaha, Nebraska - Saturday, August 23, 2003 11:45 AM CDT My Heart and prayers are with Julia and your family in this very stressful time. Heart breaking time. Keep the faith. I have kept her in my prayers and thoughts along with the many other children as my cousin also has this dreadful horrific illness.God still performs miracles and that is what I am praying for with all these beautiful children, that should not have to endure such times, only God knows why and he is the only one with the answers. Stay strong and Keep praying for Gods will to be done. I will continue to read the upates and keep the prayer lines going with everyone I know. There are alot of prayers going on for Julia, your family and the other families. She may not be able to smile right now but she will smile again! Donna Simpson Reynoldsburg, OH - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:28 AM CDT Dear Judy, Never, NEVER give up hope. I haven't. I light a candle for Julia everyday. It's my way of praying. Hugs. trace - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:18 AM CDT Judy and Julia, I'm a friend of the Fiveash family and was told you need a lot of prayers. Well, you don't have to worry about that. I read all the journal entries and guestbook entries every day of everyone's site that is listed on Cheyenne's. I also pray for everyone everyday. This has really made me wake up and appreciate my family even more. You all are very inspirational and in so being, have made a lot of people better people. Thank you for your strength and courage. As always, prayers are headed your way. Mary Valva <texclam@cox.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Saturday, August 23, 2003 6:05 AM CDT Dear Judy...God is able!!...Never forget that!...Try to stay positive, and pray to the Lord for peace and comfort for sweet little Julia, you and your family. The Doctors maybe well trained, but they DON'T know everything!..They don't know the human spirit and the power of our Lord!!..I continually pray for your family and little Julia. I pray, with the help of God, that Julia will defy all the odds.. God is with you and your family...You are such an incredible woman and Mom!!...What an inspiration to us all!! My continued prayers will go out to you and your family Judy...As you say, "GOD IS ABLE"...and HE is!!!...Don't forget that...Much Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, August 23, 2003 4:41 AM CDT I do understand what you're going through as it's been 8 months since Nolan's diagnosis of brainstem tumor, too...and he is definitely having a difficult time right now. But, like you, I am remaining confident in our Lord who I know will heal our children! Our prayers for Julia are ongoing. Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Friday, August 22, 2003 11:12 PM CDT Dear Judy and Family, I pray with you tonight for peace and comfort, and also cry tears as I can only imagine the pain you are feeling at this time. May God give you precious and lasting memories with your family close by. I read your journal entries and I am overcome with emotion, know that you and Julia have touched many lives. I cherish each day with my girls more than I did the last because of you. God bless you, and Julia and the time you have together. Godspeed, MBC Marla Cummings <marla_b_c@yahoo.com> San Angelo, Tx - Friday, August 22, 2003 10:03 PM CDT Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your sweet little Julia...God is powerful and miracles do happen Butler Family Battle Creek, MI USA - Friday, August 22, 2003 9:35 PM CDT Hi... I got your web site from Cheyenne's...I'm so glad I stopped by! Julia..you are so sweet and so beautiful!! Mom..you are right..the dr's do not know everything, if that was true then I wouldn't have my little boy, Kody today. Kody also has an inoperable brainstem tumor...this month he celebrated his 19 month "Survivor" anniversary..a day nobody ever predicted would happen...except for his Dad and me that is!! :0) Julia...you are in our prayers everyday and always.... Your friend, Kim PS. We would be honored to create Julia her own "virtual" quilt if you would like, just click on the little image below and it will take you to the Quilts of Love homepage.  ~KODYS STORY~ - Friday, August 22, 2003 9:28 PM CDT My prayers and thoughts are with you daily. Julia is so pretty. May god wrap his comforting arms around your whole family. Theresa Troncoso <scorpiomaa@wcc.net> Christoval, TX - Friday, August 22, 2003 9:10 PM CDT This is an extremely painful time, but we know, that through God, all things are possible. We, along with thousands of other people are praying for little Julia to be healed. During those quiet times when your thoughts wander and get the best of you (I know it happens to me), just remember how loved you are and of all the people that are praying for a miracle. This really gives me peace. God Bless you Julia, Judy, and family Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, Tx USA - Friday, August 22, 2003 8:04 PM CDT I'm still praying for you sweetheart!! Keep smiling, it's beautiful and you're beautiful! http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/ With much love <3 ~Erin <ccbubbless17@yahoo.com> Columbia, SC USA - Friday, August 22, 2003 7:46 PM CDT Judy and Julia, I am so sorry you and the family are struggling. My heart goes out to both of you at this difficult time. My prayers and many of my friends prayers are with you. Just remember to stay positive, smile when you can, and believe..never stop! Through God all things are possible! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Friday, August 22, 2003 7:13 PM CDT Hi "J's" Just a short note to say I love you all. I just read the entry about the dr. appt yesterday. My heart is breaking for Julie and the rest of the family. I keep praying and praying and I won't stop believeing God will answer our prayers. Please hug each other for me. I miss you all so very much. God continues to smile on Julie and that is all she needs right now. XXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Sandi Sandi Jorgenson annandale, mn - Friday, August 22, 2003 1:24 PM CDT Wow! You sure are beautiful! Wish I could hug you! ;) Stay strong sweetgirl. Shannon (referred by Mary) PA - Friday, August 22, 2003 1:21 PM CDT Bless your precious daughter and your family... I walked in your shoes just 1.5 years ago. Please remember to take one minute at a time, one second when you have too. Hug your baby, tell her how much you love her, touch her, enjoy the good days with her and give her every thing she wants and needs. Enjoy every minute like it is her last..... God Bless you and you are all in my prayers. Cyper Hugs to you..... Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us> Enola, PA USA - Friday, August 22, 2003 1:09 PM CDT God Bless all of you... Judy, keep your spirits up...you are such a wonderful mother. I've been reading your journal entries for more than a month now...I feel as if I know you and your precious family. My prayers are with you and Julia...God will take care of all of you HE is truly a wonderful God. Keep your positive attitude...God will do the rest. Jan Weis Bridgeville, PA - Friday, August 22, 2003 9:49 AM CDT Judy - the biggest hug is coming your way right now b/c I feel that you have need of it. It's gotta be tough for you to look at your baby and see her this way, but she IS a fighter and there is NO WAY that she will give up. I am sure that she can feel the love that surrounds her, you and the whole family. Try to keep in mind that you have gotten closer as family throughout this, that you KNOW who your friends are and that doctors are only making educated guesses.(but remember it is only a guess) I hope you feel my hug, my arms around your shoulders offering you comfort and strength! Julia - surrounded by family, probably waiting on you hand and foot, you being the princess that you are!! Enjoy your visit sweetheart and know that your place would be full to the rim if we all showed up to spend some time with you. Take a deep breath dear girl and count your blessings as you see and feel the love of your family!! Wishing I could be there to 'introduce' myself and hear your giggles! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, August 22, 2003 7:43 AM CDT To all the "J" ewels Glad the visit went well today. As we keep saying...God does create miricles. And Julia is a miricle waiting to happen. Hope your visit with your brother goes well Love, Hugs & kisses to all Andrea <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 11:17 PM CDT I have sat here reading entries both you have written and that others have written sobbing the entire time- but why? Don't listen to the time Dr's give you- I have a friend who was diagnosed with terminal cancer and given 2 months and she was with us 1 1/2 years. Enjoy every moment and I pray they will have a cure very soon!!!! What a beautiful little girl- she's a fighter. She will beat it!!! You are in my prayers!!!! He never deals us anything we can not handle!!!! Adrian <txprincess99@aol.com> Midland, TX - Thursday, August 21, 2003 11:17 PM CDT Hey Peanuthead!! I loooooved taking you swimming today!! There's nothing more precious than holding you and seeing those gorgeous blue eyes stare up at me! See you tomorrow sweetie! Hugs and kisses! Aunt Jodi <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 9:54 PM CDT Hello everyone, I hope the appt. went well this time. I hope the doctor is amazed by Jules. Can't wait to see you all soon. Hopefully before Zack's party or at the party. Hope you are getting lots of smiles and giggles. Love, Hugs and prayers to you all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Thursday, August 21, 2003 9:54 PM CDT Hi Guys, just dropping by to say Hello and hope everything went well at the doctors today, Judy and Jerry just keep your chins up, Doctors are all full of you know what I have been there enough to realize that, they only go by what they have learned and look no further, but we know differently. Judy, you just have to keep believing in yourself and that lil' angel of yours. God will answer all of our prayers, I truely believe that. Julia definately has made me believe it more than every she is a fighter!! one of the strongest. I hope to come and visit really soon, I wish I could be there more often to help out. Give Julia a great big hug and kiss, we love you all. Cathy - Thursday, August 21, 2003 8:30 PM CDT I hope the doctor behaved today!!! I am ceratin that you, along with the commitment of your family amazes all of the doctors!!! I pray that today brought more smiles and giggles! Sara (Maddie's Aunt) - Thursday, August 21, 2003 7:16 PM CDT Hope all went well at the Doctor today. I hope you did not have to kick her in the butt! Hatched 3 more butterflies! You all need to come see them as soon as you can! We all miss all of you! Hope you are having a good family visit! Mary & Hannah Kitchen <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Thursday, August 21, 2003 6:50 PM CDT Dear Julia and Family, Maddie Paguyo directed me to your site, and what a BEAUTIFUL girl you are, Julia. My family and I wish you all the best of everything. You remain in our thoughts and prayers on a daily basis. Maddie's Auntie Paula Paula Killen <omahakillens@aol.com> Omaha, NE - Thursday, August 21, 2003 6:03 PM CDT Thinking of you every day and keeping you in my prayers. You're absolutely right in keeping the medical appointments medical. Hang in there! Talk to you soon, Luv ya Shirley G. - Thursday, August 21, 2003 3:08 PM CDT Hello Julia!! What a pretty girl you are! I have not visited your site before now, but believe me, I will be praying very hard for you. Mom and dad: You are so courageous...more so than you think; and so strong. I will pray for both of you to have the strength you need to get through this time of healing your lovely daughter! lori <nevlor_2000@yahoo.com> baldwin park, ca usa - Thursday, August 21, 2003 11:25 AM CDT Judy, I was upset to read about your "incident" with your doctor. I pray your appt. today is not stressful...that your doctor treats Julia with care and compassion and is a support to you. God bless, Andrea, Matthew and family www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Thursday, August 21, 2003 8:02 AM CDT Hi all just wanted to let you all know that you all are in my prayers especially Julia. Love Uncle Eric. Eric Stawson (aka uncle Eric) <eric.j.stawson@delta.com> Waco, Ga usa - Thursday, August 21, 2003 5:03 AM CDT Hi sweetheart. I just wanted to stop back in and let you know that I am still thinking of you and praying for you. You are a very special little girl. God Bless you and your family. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@sbcglobal.net or rfiveash@wcc.net > San Angelo, Tx USA - Thursday, August 21, 2003 1:47 AM CDT Hello to everyone, so glad to hear that you all had a nice walk outside. You all keep believing in each other and you will get that miracle. Jules, I have a suprise for you. Can't wait to come and deliver it and get hugs and smiles. I will wait until after your much awaited visit by your uncle and cousin. We are going away for a few days so I wont be able to send little notes. You will all be in our prayers and thoughts daily. We love you all. See you all soon. Love, Hugs and prayers. A & D & Z Ps. Happy to hear about Celeste's MRI. A & D & Z - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 7:00 PM CDT Prayers to you now and always... Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 5:06 PM CDT Judy, I used to work with Jodi at Stuart Cardiology Group in Florida and met you one time during your visit there. I just wanted you to know that we are all thinking of you and your little angel every day. She is often the subject of our lunchtime conversations. We will keep praying for her!!! Cindy Schiefer <cschiefer@earthlink.net> Port St. Lucie, Fl USA - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 4:47 PM CDT Julia - hope you enjoyed the fresh air and sunshine. I am sure it felt great to get out for a walk. Keep working at it girl because I know that you will be running around with Hannah in no time! Judy - I am happy that you are finding comfort in the words we offer to you. What's that saying, 'Strangers are only friends we haven't met yet.'...so very true! HUGS and love to all my friends, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 12:32 AM CDT Hello, my pretty little Julia. I love that you smile and crack up with you mom and aunt and laugh at your cousin! That is so precious. I don't get to see my nephew, Nolan, everyday, but the other day I heard him cracking up over the phone and it made both my day and know it made my sister's day. I don't know you, sweetie, but you already have my heart. I pray for you and Nolan and others that God will give you that miracle healing and you can once again run with your siblings and cousins and friends. Love, Tess (Nolan's Aunt) Tess Baker <tess.maucier@citigroup.com> San Francisco, CA USA - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 12:19 AM CDT Julia, Our first butterfly 'hatched' today. It was a big one - and beautiful! You will have to come by in the next couple of days to see them - I'm sure two more of them will hatch in the next 2 or 3 days. Hope you are having a great day today. Still eating your Mint Choc Chip ice cream? Hannah says 'Hi and that she loves you'. Are you tired of hearing that from her yet? LOL! Judy, Hope you are having a good day. I thought of you and Jodi as I set the butterfly loose. We woke up this am and there it was! Praying for all of you always! Love you all. Love, Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 11:01 AM CDT Dear Levy Family, Glad things are going so well! I will be out for awhile...the next three days at least....going to the race track Bristol race ya know.......hugs to my sweet Julia! Love to you all.... Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 10:39 AM CDT Dear Friends, We all love Julia very much. Here are all our best prayers. The Ha-Duong familly Minh, Rose-Anne, Ulysse and Paul St Marcel, France - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 4:18 AM CDT Julia, Glad to hear you got out for awhile tonight. Maybe you can come visit us soon! The butterflies should be ready to break out of their Chrysalis's soon. I would love for you to see them. Hannah had a dream that you were all better - she came to tell me at 2 am the other night! It was a wonderful one to hear about! Judy and Jodi, Glad you stopped by today. YOu both should feel free to come by anytime! It is always good to see you! Hope you have a great visit with your brother over the next few days! Talk to you soon! Love, Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 11:22 PM CDT Judy I check in daily to see how you and Julia are doing. Your little angel never ceased to amaze me. Someone tells you that she will never do this again and.........she does it. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers as are the rest of your family. Keep the faith. Love and prayers Karen PSL Florida Karen Sylvia <kbear51@bellsouth.net> Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 8:39 PM CDT The human spirit is amazing and NO ONE can predict it's strength and resolve....Julia smiled!! And on the days she can't smile with her lips, she can still be smiling with her eyes:) A smile comes from the heart. Keep fighting, princess Julia, let the Protocel work it's magic on you. We are praying so hard for you, you just need time to heal and some help from above. Love you have in abundance! Big hugs for you today and always, Tracey, Steve, Quinn and Callum xoxoo Calgary, Ab, Canada, - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 3:19 PM CDT Hey Julia! Keep on giving your Mom those beautiful smiles! Hugs to you! trace - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 2:23 PM CDT Hi-I read about Julia in Maddie's site. Julia is beautiful. Smiles are truely gifts that we share with each other and it sounds like you just got a Christmas present from Julia! My prayers are with you. Lynn St Paul, MN - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 2:19 PM CDT Hi Julia! Keep smiling those precious smiles for your mama! You are very loved. Lorraine (Nolan's mom) <loralof@yahoo.com> - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 1:37 PM CDT Hi all. I am the mom of Maddie's friend, Krista, and I read about your little Julia on Maddie's website. I've just read many of your journal entries and been moved beyond words. What a beautiful little girl you have; I'm so happy that she has been sharing her smile with you again these past few days!! Julia and your family will be in my family's thoughts and prayers and we'll check in with you frequently. Take Care and Stay Strong!! -- Lisa. Lisa Quam <Lisa.Quam@MinnesotaMutual.com> Minneapolis, MN 55418 - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 1:11 PM CDT I was referred over to your site by Maddie. I wish you and your family continued strength and faith in the program that has been so successful for so many. You and your family and darling Julia are on my list for prayers. Sharon Larson Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 1:04 PM CDT Julia- You go girl!!! Proving all of the doctors, nurses and doubters wrong... I tell Maddie that she has to listen to her body to know what is going on, and what a MRI or a doctor says is only a reference point... Keep smiling, laughing, burping...whatever makes Julia, Julia!!!! Sara , Maddie's Aunt ( www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie) - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 11:24 AM CDT No one, not one single person can be 100% sure what a body will and will not do! Listen to what you are told Judy, if it serves you and helps, keep it...if not then let it slide back out. Jules - so glad that you are showing your mom that you are one unpredictable gal. Hey, who wants to be predictable - that's the easy way. Keep being you because you are far more memorable that way!! Surrounding you all with love, compassion, faith and strength to deal with whatever the 'experts' may tell you!! HUGS and love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 7:35 AM CDT Just a note to all the readers as far as Julia not smiling. Not only did she smile at her mom, but my 9 yr. old daughter, Kyra, pretended to trip as she was walking and Julia was laughing!!!! For some reason she loves to laugh when people hurt themselves. I think I'll have my daughter fall everyday! :) Love to all Jodi <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 9:30 PM CDT Just dropping by to say hello to everyone. You just keep believing in your daughter and the rest will fall in to place. You are all amazing. That is all of your family too. So much love and caring how can she not get better. Hope to see you all soon, Love, Hugs, Prayers, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:40 PM CDT Hi Julia, You and Cheyenne should have a burper contest. I can't believe those sounds come from my little girl. It makes her laugh though, that's what counts. I agree with mom on the doctor thing, everytime we see one, they attempt to shatter what hope has built since their last visit, then they are always proven wrong. I recently used the phrase, Cheyenne is our miracle in progress. I am praying that you are also that miracle in progress. I pray that each day is better than the one before. Someday, you and Cheyenne will get together as the Miracle Girls. OK. I'll drop by later if it's ok. Praying and thinking of you everyday. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Chey Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, tx USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:37 PM CDT Hi Julia. You keep showing those doctors they don't know what they are talking about. You are in my prayers. Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:20 PM CDT Hi Levys, Just dropping in to say you are all still in my prayers each day. I hope you don't mind, but I have added your name to the prayer chain at my church. Lots and lots of hugs and prayers are coming your way. Sounds like a neat chair you just got. Stay strong sweetie and keep the faith. Thinking of all of you. Continuing prayers for Celeste also. Bev - Make-A-Wish <bgorr@wishworld.org> N. Huntingdon, PA USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:17 PM CDT What a precious little girl! I just wanted to leave a note to say that I hope there are many, many more smiles to come : ) Geneva <jaredandbree@Sbcglobal.net> Salida, Ca US - Monday, August 18, 2003 7:31 PM CDT Hi Judy and Julia and family. I'm a friend of Jodi's from Florida. I have been reading your journal and guest book entries, and I am quite amazed by all of the support and warmth in every entry. You are very special Julia, and enjoy the mint chocolate chip ice cream. Judy you are so strong. Stay positive and enjoy and love one another. You all are in our thoughts and prayers. Lisa Couto <PLC5906@aol.com> Ft Pierce, Fl USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 6:45 PM CDT Jules...you are sounding stronger everyday! Judy and crew, keep your strength up! WE are praying! Kisses to the angel... Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 4:41 PM CDT Julia- Hey there, I found your site on maddie P.'s site and am just stopping by to wish you well and keep getting better! Love always liz mpls, mn usa - Monday, August 18, 2003 1:22 PM CDT Hi guys! Miss all you J's (including Jodi! and the kids) :) Keep the Faith and banish ALL evil. Love you all With Loving thoughts and Healing Prayers Ami Sugar Land, Tx - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:21 AM CDT Hey JulieBulieGuacamolie, I almost feel silly for writing since I am fortunate enough to have the opportunity to see you daily, but I want Mommy to know that she is doing an awesome job with you! You require so much right now and Mommy does it all with a smile, sometimes her eyes might be closed from lack of sleep, but she's still smiling. I love the times that you let me in and hold you and watch you fall asleep in my arms, feed you, swing with you, but most of all I love when you give me your precious smiles. Even if I do have to do a happy dance to get one. :) Judy...hang in there, you're doing an incredible job. Jarrod is too. Stay strong and keep smiling. I love you more than life itself! Jodi <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:05 AM CDT Wow - so much has happened so I was last able to check in! (the big blackout of 2003 got me!!) Very, very happy to hear that things are moving in the right direction for Julia. Glad you got the chance to get in the pool Julia - I love the water! Much releived to here that hubby is at a better place with the everything going on as well and that you are feeling the support and love you need and deserve from one another. This love will help heal you all - I have NO doubt!! Keep the faith Levy family. Many of us continue to think of you and send our love and strength to surround you. You WILL get better Julia, you WILL be back to school in no time with all your friends! Love and HUGS to you all, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, August 18, 2003 7:37 AM CDT Hi there Julia- my name is mayumi and i am a friend of maddie paguyos..i got ur website from hers and i understand that u have just started protocel..i wish u luck on the medication and idolize ur strength and all that uv been goin through! hang in there im sure u are doing great best wishes and lots of love and prayers mayumi <asianchik03@netscape.com> - Monday, August 18, 2003 2:27 AM CDT Hi Guys, Just wanted to check in after a long weekend of finishing budgets and reports that I had to do to clear my desk in preparation for the trip to the 'burgh. I can't wait to see all of you. It seems as though it's been a lifetime ago that I was there! I think about you and pray for you every day, and I can hardly wait to see everyone - 3 more days and counting. I'm bringing along alot of faith and and hugs with me - and Wes too! Love you all, Allan Allan Haffner <ahaffner@comcast.net> Exeter, NH USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 2:03 AM CDT Hi Julia! I'm glad you are doing better this weekend and able to enjoy the summer. There are lots of prayers being said for you! God bless Nolan's mom (http://nolans_hope.tripod.com) <loralof@yahoo.com> - Monday, August 18, 2003 0:27 AM CDT Hello Julia, Sorry it's been a day or so since I said hi. We have been real busy here. I am so glad you are feeling a little better, and I am praying that every day you get a little better. I will check in on you a little later. I am thinking of you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net> San Angelo, tx usa - Sunday, August 17, 2003 10:36 PM CDT Hello all you J's. Just stopping by to drop you a line. We can't wait to come and visit again. I am just waiting for the suprise for Jules. I am glad you are out in the sunshine sweetie, sunshine always helps. Thinking of you all daily. Love, Hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Sunday, August 17, 2003 7:05 PM CDT Jules.....bubble baths and swiming, just what an angel needs! Enjoy them! Still praying...... teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses!! Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Sunday, August 17, 2003 6:04 PM CDT Hey Julia~ I'm Dannie, a friend of Maddie's and I wanted to tell you that, first, you are a very pretty girl and I love your blonde hair! I want you to stay strong and keep being brave! You go gurrrl! My thoughts are with you! Love, Dannie Dannie Mpls, MN USA - Sunday, August 17, 2003 12:15 AM CDT HI Family: Judy keep giving those doctors hell, THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT they are talking about. You all remain in our prayers constantly. I'm jealous that Mamie and Allan get to come home and I can't. I need J hugs. Jules my whole church is praying for you and we know God is taking care of you. We don't need no stinking doctors telling us poop. God is taking care of you everyday. T.J. goober is also praying for you and he's gonna come over and eat up all your icecream so you better be ready to kick his butt. We miss you all. Jer, I love you so much. I pray extra hard for you. I need you in my life and that means you need to take care of yourself. We are here for you day or night. If you need anything, anything at all, your big (old, you know I am 40 now) sister is here for you. Judy, that goes for you too. If you need me there just to have someone else to help out YOU CALL!!!!! I will be there within a day. Jordy, Tine and Jakeyman I'm sending you a big huge aunt sandipandicandi Hug and Squeeze I love you. You are in our prayers always Aunt Sandi, Dean and T.j. sandi annandale , mn - Sunday, August 17, 2003 12:11 AM CDT Although you have never met me, or even heard of me, please know that Julia, as well as the rest of the family is in my prayers every day. Kriss M Kriss <mcl@pro-ns.net> minneapolis, - Sunday, August 17, 2003 7:49 AM CDT Judy, Julia, and family, I just finished catching up on your entire journal, what a lot you have all been through. Your faith is amazing, but no more than your spirit and positive outlook....hang in there! I have heard that with Protocel, it is one step forward, two steps back. What could look like a scary MRI with tumor growing could in fact be the tumor breaking up, hence giving the 'impression' that it is getting larger, when in fact, it is just being destroyed and now it needs to find a way out! I have also heard that it can cause the edema to worsen, some people back off the Protocel for a few days, try to find that delicate balance that works for Julia? I am praying, praying, praying SO HARD that one day soon, you will be walking in that office with Julia and that bottle of Protocel, to show your doc her miracle....wouldn't that be the most glorious day of all???? Oh, to be a fly on the wall:) Chocolate chip mint ice cream....yummy!! Keep fighting Julia, you are the bravest little trooper....so many people love you and we will continue to keep you in our prayers for you complete healing sweetie, you show them!! Big hugs, Tracey and family xoxo <traceyhewison@shaw.ca> Calgary, Ab,Canada, - Sunday, August 17, 2003 2:18 AM CDT Julia, I'm Maddie, a 13-year old Protocel user. Your mommy signed my guestbook, and I decided to stop by and learn more about you. You are a very beautiful girl. It sounds like the pool was a nice vacation for you. You and your family remain in my thoughts and prayers all the time. Stay strong sweetie! Keep that marevelous smile on your face! Maddie www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Sunday, August 17, 2003 0:33 AM CDT Julia--Bubble baths and swimming pools. Now that sounds just what a 5 year old should do. Keep enjoying. PS Mint chocolate chip works good too. Judy--Keep the faith, I keep passing the word to all that will hear. More and more prayers coming your way. Love to all. Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Sunday, August 17, 2003 0:10 AM CDT Julia, Hannah and I were so glad to get to come see you today. Hope you liked the Katie kisses. We hope to come see you again soon! We love you tons! Judy, Thanks for letting us come see Princess Julia today. It did our hearts tons of good to see her. You both look wonderful. We were glad to see Aunt Jodi and her kids, and Jordan, Justine, and Jacob also! Hopefully we will see you Monday or Tuesday! Love, Mary, Hannah, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 11:34 PM CDT Hi to all the Levys. You are on my mind constantly and I find myself praying constantly for Julia and all of you. Trust in God. Love, Clare Stawson <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 8:13 PM CDT Hi Levy's..always checking on Julia's progress as well as the rest of the family!...It sounds to me like you have alot of support out there, and many prayers all over the country!!...You Judy, and your family are continually in my thoughts and prayers...God Bless little Julia!! Love, Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 9:42 AM CDT Good Morning Angel! Hope that your Saturday is going to be wonderful! Thinking of you always....... Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 9:33 AM CDT Good Morning Sunshine! How's your Saturday morning going? Just wanted to say hello...we are thinking about you....and sending many healing prayers your way.... Love and kisses, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Saturday, August 16, 2003 8:30 AM CDT Judy, Put your trust not in man, but in God. Keep believing in Julia's healing. Love, Andrea www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Friday, August 15, 2003 10:41 PM CDT Hi Julia. You do not know me. I learned of you through another tough little girl, Cheyenne Fiveash. I have a little girl that just turned two. She is also very strong-willed. Keep your faith in God and you will be healed. Jeanie Slate <jpaulin972@aol.com> San Angelo, TX USA - Friday, August 15, 2003 10:24 PM CDT Thanks for sharing the message about Julia improving each day. It shows us that prayers and good thoughts relly do work. We continue to pray every night for Julia...triple prayers! Justine...call me next week and we;ll play. Mikey Hensler <Khensler608178@aol.com> Pgh, PA - Friday, August 15, 2003 5:40 PM CDT I just found your site and have been reading everyday. I am praying for you little girl's recovery and I admire your faith. Some books that have helped me greatly in all this are "Nothing To Fear" and "When Bad Things Happen to Good People". The latter one has really helped me with the whole thought that if God is so good, why does this terrible stuff happen? It was written by a man who lost his 14 year old son to a rare disease. It's a great book and can really help with questions of faith in such adversity. We will keep checking on Julia and praying for her recovery and your strength as a family. One day at a time is all we can do! Kellie Beresh - Jacob's mom - www.caringbridge.org/ne/jakieboy Omaha, Nebraska - Friday, August 15, 2003 3:56 PM CDT Glad to hear that Daddy's is better and 5 pounds? That is just amazing! She grows a little stronger with each passing day and I know it is the power of prayer! My sweet angel...continue to fight..... teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses! Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Friday, August 15, 2003 3:40 PM CDT Glad to hear Daddy is doing better. It is hard. Dale really withdrew from Josslyn when she was sick and then resented that she only wanted me for comfort. He finally got the picture after a lengthly "talk". :-) I am sorry that the doctor was so heartless. She obviously doesn't realize that God is bigger than medicine. We are praying for you all daily. Much love and prayers, Jenni Jenni McClung` <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO 64068 - Friday, August 15, 2003 1:02 PM CDT HI Everyone: Guess the Mint chololate chip did the trick. Glad to hear that she has gained some weight back and that the dr's visit went better. They do seem to put a glummy atmosphire on the subject. Hugs & Kisses to all the "J's". Till the next time Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA 15120 - Friday, August 15, 2003 12:54 AM CDT Hello to all the J's. So very excited to hear about the Dr's visit and how well Jules is doing. Keep the faith her miracle is coming. We all believe in it. Cant wait to see you all soon. I need more kisses. I am so glad for Jarrod-keep believing Jarrod. Hugs and kisses and Prayers for you all. Lots of prayers for all the other families out their for them and their precious children. Love, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Friday, August 15, 2003 12:17 AM CDT Hey Julie Bulie Guacamole I finally have my computer up and running and just caught myself up on all the journal and guestbook entries.....WOW!!! First of all, how great it is to be here and go over to your house everyday and kiss you and see your beautimiss face!! It's also awesome to have met some of mommy's friends and be able to put a face to the names. You people are wonderful friends as is everyone else that has sent your love and prayers to Julia. My heart, love, and prayers go out to all the sweet children in the caringbridge family and those beyond that need extra prayers. I love you all and will be over at some point today since I can't go that long without seeing you!!!! All our love, Aunt Jodi, Kyra and Cullen <sckycujo@verizon.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, August 15, 2003 11:06 AM CDT Dear Levy Family Your faith and strength is amazing. It's not easy to stand up to Drs. and say she WILL be well again. I pray the protocel does it's work for you.! Frannie Grove CIty, OH - Friday, August 15, 2003 7:30 AM CDT I'm so glad you and Julia's dad are able to disregard what the doctors are saying!! We have been getting the same deal with Nolan. The only reason I agreed to hospice is because of the medical neccessities they supply to keep Nolan comfortable while he is disabled. But the day is coming when he will be signed out, and the day is coming when you and Julia walk into that doctor's office hand in hand. She's such a precious little girl, her picture radiates sweetness! My prayers for her continue daily. God bless you all! Lorraine <loralof@yahoo.com> - Thursday, August 14, 2003 10:32 PM CDT Hi Julia and Judy, I stopped by to say hello and check to see how my newest little caringbridge sweetheart was doing. You are one sweet looking young lady. Miracles do happen everyday. I am praying everyday for a miracle so this little girl can live a long and prosperous life. God bless you Julia and your whole family. I will check in every now and then just to let you know I am still thinking of you and praying for you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, tx USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 10:10 PM CDT Hi Jules and Judy! Hope that today was a good day for you both! Thinking of you always! Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:17 PM CDT Julia, I read your website today and want to tell you that I will be praying for you and your family. I know you do not know me but I want you to remember to keep your head high and be strong. God is with you wherever you go. Kelli Froman <lilk_21@yahoo.com> Louisville, KY US - Thursday, August 14, 2003 12:55 AM CDT Hey Jules, I needed to borrow your fairy wings again... do you think you'd let me? It was wonderful holding you the other night. Remember to use your enchanted fairy dust each day as we pray for Swiper to Swipe out that tumor. We envision it just dissolving away...and look forward to you running around with your brothers and sister. Shellie <khen608178@aol.com> Pgh, pa - Thursday, August 14, 2003 9:39 AM CDT Dear Judy and Family, Our 9 year old Josslyn was given 4-6 months to live. After many prayers, and 20 months later - she is totally healed!! Miracles really do still happen today! I am praying for this same miracle for YOU!! Love, Jenni Jenni McClung <jenmcclung@juno.com> Kansas City, MO USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 8:50 AM CDT 3 weeks - ALREADY!!! The doctors do the best they can with the knowledge they have. I am sure that Julia's doctors would love nothing more than to tell you of her complete and total return to health - but they also don't want to give false hope when their 'knowledge and training' tell them something else. This doesn't mean they are right or that what they believe will come true - look at Julia, look at what she is doing and enjoying! Love and faith are the MOST powerful medicine around, and we all need a good dose everyday. I am so glad to hear that you and your hubby got your dose too! Always in my thoughts for a speedy recovery, love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:34 AM CDT Hi Judy, Just remember, the doctors only tell you what they know from experience. Elijah's doctor told us he didn't know what to think when he saw Elijah's last MRI. They just took the path they are used to. Elijah didn't pass because of the tumor, but because of a blood infection that wasn't treated when we took him to the hospital the week before. Don't give up hope. We know the Protocel was working. Keep your trust in Him, believe without doubt, and you will see your beautiful little girl be a miracle, and touch many,many lives. We will continue to pray for Julia and your family. Be Blessed. Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL - Thursday, August 14, 2003 7:16 AM CDT Judy==Just checking in. Glad you and Jerry has some time alone. As you say, God is good. He does work miracles. His blessings shine forth in many different ways. May you always be in his care. As always you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs & kisses to the all the "J's" especially Jules. Andrea <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:55 PM CDT Hello Julia and family I want you to know that I will lift you up in prayer daily. I'm sorry you are going through these days, but have faith in the Lord. He has a plan for you, although it is not known yet. You must stay strong in your faith, and rely on God to carry you through this. He IS able. Stay strong in our wonderful God, and keep your spirits up. You are loved~ Your sister in Christ~ "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God." Ephesians 2:8 Jodi Fiveash <fireplay5@wcc.net> San Angelo, Texas USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:49 PM CDT Judy, I think and pray for Julia throughout the day. Keep the faith. We have all been thrust into these almost unbearable times. All of these children are so precious, and we have to be strong for all of them. I also, become so angry with our oncologist everytime we see him. The majority of doctors are so negative. God bless you Julia, Judy and family. We are praying for you. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, tx USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:17 PM CDT I found your page from a link on Cheyenne's page. My 9-year-old son also has a brainstem glioma and is really struggling right now, so I can absolutely relate. I just want you to know that I am praying for Julia. In His name, Lorraine http://nolans_hope.tripod.com Lorraine (Nolan's mom) <loralof@yahoo.com> - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 9:34 PM CDT Judy-Thank you for signing Matthew's guestbook. We are true believers in the power of prayer and in divine healing and will add Julia to our prayer list. Julia-You are such a beautiful young lady! Mint chocolate chip is Matthew's favorite, too :) Love and prayers, Andrea Passarella and family www.matthewsmiles.org Andrea Passarella <andrea@passarella.com> NJ - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 9:28 PM CDT Julia- What we say around around here, is listen to your body and your heart. You understand how you are doing better than any doctor or MRI. The daily improvements are moving you closer to the miracle you are working so hard for; recovery. You will be in my thoughts and prayers! Sara(Maddie's aunt; www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 8:23 PM CDT WooHoo! 3 weeks from the last MRI? You are right Judy, GOD is able! We Will keep praying! Kisses to my sweet angel Julia....... Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> saint paul, VA USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 7:36 PM CDT Hello everyone, I am so excited to hear about Julia's improvements. I am also so glad that you and Jarrod got some time together I hope there will be more of that. Thinking of you all daily and praying. Much Love, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 6:13 PM CDT I am praying for you everyday, Julia. I love you and God loves you. Judy, keep up the faith. God is in control. Letty San Diego, CA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 4:59 PM CDT Hi Sweetpea! Hope that all is well....just thinking of you today! Prayers for you all! bear hugs and butterfly kisses! Michelle Michelle Phillips St. Paul , VA USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 12:19 AM CDT Judy, glad you had some time to relax and laugh. It's so important. Julia, I sure hope I get the chance to come and see you. I'm sure we'd become great friends. Keep smilin' sweetie! ;^) trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 11:55 AM CDT Hi Judy and sweet Julia, So glad you had a night out, Judy...keep the faith, and know that we continue to pray daily for all of you. And what a blessing that Julia has more good days than bad! And to see her sweet smile and hear her giggles, you know that God is able! Janet <jperrirn@adelphia.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 8:16 AM CDT Dear Julia and Judy and family! Hope you are all doing well. keep up the faith. our prayers and hopes are with you all Jon Marilyn Davey and Gracie. Jonathan Han <hanfitz@yahoo.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 10:12 PM CDT Hey Julia, My name is Roy, but lately I have become known as Cheyenne's dad. My little girl is also fighting this beast of a tumor. If it is ok, I would like to add you to the link of my daughters website. We are praying for you down here in Texas. Mom, Dad, Julia, keep and stay strong. Cheyenne's dad www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5 Roy Roy Fiveash <rfiveash.wcc.net> San Angelo, TX USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 9:50 PM CDT Hi again! I'll be sure to pray for sweet Julia! I'm very sorry at the news of her tumor returning but I'm happy to know that you haven't given up hope :) also happy to know she is enjoying all that ice cream!! I was reading back on Journal history and the day Julia was diagnosed was the day Kaylyn started her first round of chemotherapy. Sometimes it feels like we're the only ones who are going through this, but we're all going through it together and here to support each other. I hope and pray Julia will be fully healed from this!! She's a beauty! http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/ Erin <ccbubbless17@yahoo.com> SC - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 7:39 PM CDT HI JULIA I LOVE YOU HANNAH <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 4:44 PM CDT I will keep Craig and Julie in my thoughts as well as they face some hard times! Very happy to hear you enjoyed yourself Judy - I hope hubby is making some headway with his stress levels. Sure would love to hear those sweet giggles!! Well I will continue to imagine they are as sweet as Julia's smile! HUGS for you all, including those that are there to help on a day to day basis!! Love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 2:22 PM CDT Hi little Angel! Hope all is well...many prayers coming your way,,,, Teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses!! Love Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 1:46 PM CDT Just checking in to say hi and let you all know we are thinking about you all. Continued prayers and love. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 11:34 AM CDT Hi! I was talking to Mary K last night and I asked how Julia was doing. She gave me a quick update and told me about your website. I was very excited to learn about it because it gives me a chance to keep it touch! Eat that ice cream Julia. You and your family are in our prayers every night. Take care and I will keep in touch. Mary Jo Horgan <horganmj@wpsbc.org> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 10:10 AM CDT Good morning! Hope you are having a wonderful day! Julia, I hope you liked the pictures Hannah sent you. I guess you can tell she really loves you! :) Hope you are still enjoying your mint chocolate chip ice cream! Are you green yet? :) Love you all! Mary & Hannah Kitchen <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 9:26 AM CDT Good morning Levy family, I hope you wake up with a smile on your face, aware of the true blessings you have in your life and that you are a blessing to many others. Always in my thoughts, Love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 7:27 AM CDT Hi Julia, Hope you're still enjoying ice cream. I love it too. Hope mom and dad had a good time out. Take care. You're in our prayers. Susan Omslaer Pittsburgh, PA - Monday, August 11, 2003 10:02 PM CDT Hi Julia - Glad to hear that you are feeling hungry. Mint Chocolate Chip is also my favorite ice. I hope mom and dad enjoyed their night out on the town. Stay strong Julia and keep the faith. There are many prayers out there from people everywhere, including me. Feel the love and hugs surrounding you and your entire family. PS - The next time you see Celeste, give her a hug from me also. Bev (Make-A-Wish) <bgorr@wishworld.org; bgorr@helicon.net> N. Huntingdon, PA USA - Monday, August 11, 2003 9:54 PM CDT Hey Jules!!! I was wondering if I could share your ice cream with you. I love MCC. Hope you're still having good days. We love you and pray for you. Love, Judy, Rogie, Justin and Ally Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, pa usa - Monday, August 11, 2003 9:39 PM CDT Judy...how was the night out? Great I hope!! Julia...butterfly kisses and teddy bear hugs!! Many prayers coming your way!!! Love always Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Monday, August 11, 2003 6:18 PM CDT Hello everyone, Hope everyone is doing well. Did Julia eat Pittsburgh dry of choc chip mint ice cream? ha ha. Hope mommy and daddy had fun on their night out. Talk to you all soon. Kisses and Hugs. Love and prayers, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, August 11, 2003 2:21 PM CDT Hey y'all! Hope you had a fantastic time Saturday night! You were in my thoughts all day! Sorry to have missed you when I called, but was happy to learn you had gone out for the evening! Hope Ruth is feeling better too! Everyone says Hello! Happy thoughts and Healing Prayers! LOVE you bunches! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Ami Sugar Land, Texas - Monday, August 11, 2003 12:52 AM CDT Judy, How was the night out? I hope you enjoyed yourselves! Julia - are you green yet from eating that Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream yet? LOL Keeping your and yours in my thoughts! HUGS Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, August 11, 2003 7:46 AM CDT Dear Judy and Julia and family, your family is beautiful and we have each of you in our prayers every day. God bless, and keep the faith. His grace and mercy are everlasting. Jon Marilyn David and Grace Jonathan Han <hanfitz@yahoo.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 9:10 PM CDT Hey Guys, Glad to hear you are having good days with smiles! I'm counting the days 'til I will be seeing all of you (11 to be exact!) You guys are always in our thoughts, our prayers, and our hearts. Tell Julia the Big Burper's coming to Pittsburgh!!! Allan Haffner <ahaffner@comcast.net> Exeter, NH USA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 3:42 PM CDT Good Afternoon, Wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and sharing your story with my own kids. Vicki is 11 and Wesley is 9. We all hope for only the best!! Love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Sunday, August 10, 2003 12:33 AM CDT Judy & Jerry -- Hope y'all had a good night out. Hope Julia is having fun with her cousins and continues to have good, good, good days. Love to all. Clare Stawson <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 11:15 AM CDT Judy: We are leaving for disney today and I wanted to stop by and check on Julia before we left and say a special prayer for her miracle. I am glad to hear you are handling this whole thing with calmness and peace in your heart. Where there is hope there can not be fear. We will be thinking of you guys...none of my friends can understand it. They are always telling me to "just forget about cancer" and have a good time etc. I could never get all of these children out of my mind if I tried. So I don't even try anymore. With Love, Susan and Big Jake Griffin www.caringbridge.com/page/jakegriffin - Sunday, August 10, 2003 7:42 AM CDT Good morning! Just popped by to say hello! Still praying for you little one! Teddy Bear Hugs and Butterfly kisses, Julia!! Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 5:36 AM CDT Hello everyone, I am soooo glad Julia had another good day. It seems like maybe a pattern, here's to many many more good days. Extra support and prayers for Jarrod. I hope he can get to the same place you are. I am so glad you are getting a night out hope all went well. See you soon. Love and prayers, A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Saturday, August 9, 2003 10:26 PM CDT I hope Julia's tumor will get better.I pray for her every night. I have fun playing with her and her family. Mikey Michael Hensler <khen608178@aol.com> Pgh, Pa - Saturday, August 9, 2003 6:00 PM CDT Julia, I am praying for you and your family as you go through this very hard time for all of you - especially for you since you are the one who is so sick. My wife Cyndi and I have two little girls. They are Hannah and Miriam - 8 and 6 years old. I will ask them to pray for you, as well. We ask that you would feel God's love for you even during the hardest days that you are having. God bless you, Julia. In Jesus' name. Pastor Scott Jakel (Sandy's Pastor from Minnesota) Pastor Scott Jakel <sjakel@stjohns-annandale-org> Annandale, MN USA - Saturday, August 9, 2003 4:36 PM CDT Judy - great news that Julia had a good day. It is great to hear that you and your husband are getting the opportunity to get out of the house and relax. We ALL need that whether we face what the two of you are facing or not! Extra comforting thoughts coming your hubby's way to help him deal with the stress and find his own way of living with this. Julia - give the Heavenly Hash a try - YUMMY!! Keeping you in my thoughts, sending healing, positive and fun vibes to surround you! Love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Saturday, August 9, 2003 10:10 AM CDT Teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses for Julia! Many prayers coming your way! Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Saturday, August 9, 2003 9:57 AM CDT Dear Levy's...checked out the pictures...what a beautiful family you are!!..:)...I continue to pray for sweet little Julia and your family. I'm so happy she has been having good days....What a blessing!!...Keep the faith; God is good and is taking care of all of you!...Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, August 9, 2003 7:43 AM CDT Judy -- Glad Julia had a good day. Hope you and Jerry have a great night out. Clare Stawson <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, August 8, 2003 9:41 PM CDT Judy, Glad Julia had such a good day today. Praying for a million zillion more. I am so bummed we can't go tomorrow night. However, I am not giving up yet. I will continue to try to make it there! I know you guys will have a GREAT time! Talk to you tomorrow! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Friday, August 8, 2003 9:11 PM CDT Thinking of you! Hope that today was a good day! Hugs and butterfly kisses to Julia!.......prayers and positive thoughts coming your way! Much love and Many hugs, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Friday, August 8, 2003 6:01 PM CDT JUDY & FAMILY, AUNT PHIL & I ENJOYED OUR VISIT YESTERDAY. OUR THOUGHTS, PRAYERS & LOVE WE SEND TO YOU AND JULIA. LOVE, STEVE & THERESA STEVE&THERESA THOMAS IRWIN, PA. 15642 - Friday, August 8, 2003 5:54 PM CDT Here's to the princess!!!! Beautiful pictures!!! Keep the faith. Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Friday, August 8, 2003 5:39 PM CDT My prayers are with you. I will also keep the faith, God works in many ways. I am a friend of Aunt Connie's sister Theresa. Diane Slosky <dianeslosky@hotmail.com> Brackenridge, PA USA - Friday, August 8, 2003 5:14 PM CDT What a wonderful visit we all had Thursday night. Jules was a hoot. It is so wonderful to hear her giggle and outright laugh. The smile is just like her mother's big and BEAUTIFUL. I can't wait to come and play again very soon. It was wonderful seeing everyone again much to long a time, wont happen again. The new pictures are adorable. Can't wait for the zoo. What wonderful families you have Jules can't help but get better. As always our love and prayers. Love, A & D & Z Amy drahusz - Friday, August 8, 2003 8:58 AM CDT What beautiful pictures --- but, of course, it's a beautiful family. God has given you so many blessings. Continuing prayers. Much love to you all. Cindy and Andy T. <Cindy.Toth@vai-inc.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, August 8, 2003 8:35 AM CDT What a great looking family! Gosh you can see the love in the photos!! It's so great to see pics of you all because it will make it easier to visualize you all enjoying what the future has in store for you. When ya get tired of Mint Chocolate Chip - give Heavenly Hash a try...mmm...marshmallow, some nuts and chocolate! It's my fave!! All of you stand together and do a big group hug...and I will be there with you in spirit! Continuing to think positive thoughts and sending them out to the universe! Love Samantha <sletoile@mns.com> Barrie , ON Canada - Friday, August 8, 2003 7:32 AM CDT Hi Everyone! Great photos! Good to hear Mame is there! Tell her Hi too! I have some more pics to add to the collection from my trip to the Burg. I miss y'all like crazy! Especially playing Squishy Tushy! Hugs, Love, and Kisses...XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Always with positives thoughts and zabillon prayers Ami SugarLand, Tx - Friday, August 8, 2003 7:18 AM CDT Judy: The pictures are great. Thanks for the memories. They will be treasured and up on the fridge with Julia's picture Love Andrea & Mitch - Thursday, August 7, 2003 11:07 PM CDT I love the pictures that Mary sent me...they are great! Glad that things are going better...yay for chocolate chip mint! I LOVE the stuff!....Prayers coming your way!! Much love to Julia!!! Michelle f Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 10:32 PM CDT Prayers are on the way as usual. Have faith in God's power to work miracles even in today's world. The mint chocolate chip ice cream is a great choice. It is my favorite too!! Enjoy it while you can because when you are all grown up and a beautiful young lady you won't want to eat it and destroy your beautiful figure Ann Mary's friend from H&F <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 7:41 PM CDT Julia, Julia, you are going to turn into a big ice cream cone and than we are going to eat you up!!! ummmmm, that ice cream is the best. Glad to hear you had a good day today honey keep up the great work. Our thoughts and prayers are with you daily, never off of my mind. I love your new pictures they are BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! We will see you soon. Love you and BIG XOXOXOXOXOXOXO's!!!!!! Nathaniel says HI Dudey Dudey, silly boy.. Cathy - Thursday, August 7, 2003 7:11 PM CDT Great to hear today was a better day. Praying for more and more... Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Thursday, August 7, 2003 6:16 PM CDT Dear Levy's...My daily prayers include your family. That is wonderful that Julia is eating all that icecream..and giggles too!! What a treat for her, and Mom...Take Care and God bless...Carol Carol A. Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 5:59 PM CDT Did you know that Mint Chocolate Chip is definately the way to go! It has tremendous healing powers! So Julie Stombolie is on the right path.... just add Mint Chocolate Chipollie to her name! and she'll be walking ( NO running!) into that Dr.'s office with you! (even if she is a little mint green around the edges!) :) :) :) Love you... Always with positives thoughs and prayers! Ami - Thursday, August 7, 2003 11:55 AM CDT Judy, your faith and determination are amazing! Glad you got to have some time to yourself. Give that little cutie-patootie a big hug for me, and have her hug YOU for me, as well! trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford, - Thursday, August 7, 2003 11:30 AM CDT Judy, Mom has been keeping me informed on Julia. Please give her a great, big hug for me. Every day is special. Hang in there. I hope to get to Pittsburgh soon. I'll call when I get in. Rick - Thursday, August 7, 2003 10:12 AM CDT So happy to hear Jules is enjoying her ice cream. Your strength and faith are awe inspiring. Keeping all of you in my prayers. Give Julia a hug for me. Shirley G. - Thursday, August 7, 2003 10:06 AM CDT Hi Judy, I saw Julia's picture on the web site for the first time today. To me, her eyes say a great deal about her soul's intent to communicate with many people, and that's obviously happening. I applaud her and you in your courage, faith and strength. Healing happens in so many different, unknown ways. I wish you peace and love, and the ability to radiate that peace and love, as Julia apparently has, to all those who reach out and touch you -- from Jerry, your other children, your mother, and the world. Love and Blessings, Ralph. Ralph Lewis <rlewis@bowlinginc.com> Milwaukee, WI - Thursday, August 7, 2003 9:34 AM CDT Dear Lord, Please heal Julia and Celeste and keep them around for a long, long time to touch even more people's lives. Amen. Yes a resounding AMEN........ So good to see that she is giggling! That is just awesome! The power of prayer is an awesome thing. We think of the J crew everyday! Much love and many prayers!! Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Thursday, August 7, 2003 9:33 AM CDT Yes, the prayers continue because Julia is teaching and touching so many of us. So are you and your couarge to share. Can you add sound to this site - would LOVE to hear her giggle!! Hoping and praying to see more positive reports!! Love Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, August 7, 2003 9:10 AM CDT Judy, I am so glad tonight was a good night. I am praying for millions more. Hannah said special prayers for Julia tonight - she prayed that Julia would be able to come and play soon. God will hear us all! Hope tomorrow is even better for all of you! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Thursday, August 7, 2003 0:07 AM CDT To All the J's Glad today was better. We hope that Jule's has lots and lots of mint chocolate chip ice cream. If that is what will make her well. As always, loves, hugs and prayers to all Andrea & Mitch <Andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 11:08 PM CDT Judy, I have just finished reading your journal entries and I am passing the website on to my friends and family who have been praying for little Julia since the beginning. Through your journals, I have come to know you as a very special, strong and loving person, and please know that our prayers have intensified. Miracles happen as the result of prayer and love. One thing I know -- there is an abundance of love and healing prayer flowing to Julia and to you and Jerry and all the little J's. I also pray for your Mom and Herm and Jerry's parents too. I know this heartbreak touches them all. Did Kyra tell you we lit candles for Julia in church? I looked over at her as we knelt there and her eyes were tightly shut; she was praying so hard. Little Julia (our angel) has reminded us all how important it is to to love and to pray. Love, Clare Stawson Clare Stawson <M60CS@AOL.COM> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 6:51 PM CDT Judy, Thank you for sharing with us and updating us on how sweet Julia is doing. I also think it's great that you are taking some time for yourself. There is nothing wrong with that because you know that Julia is well taken care of when you are not there. Taking an hour for you will help you both. Big hugs to all the Levy family coming from Canada!! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 2:11 PM CDT So glad to read the update, glad things are smoother for ya'll, stay on the positive side. We continue to pray for your entire family ..... Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 2:04 PM CDT Hello all the J's. We are continuing to think and pray daily for you all. Cant wait to visit. I miss seeing that huge smile of yours Judy. Tell Julia that is my favorite kind of ice cream also. See you soon. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 1:34 PM CDT Positive thoughts and a bazillon prayers.... Keep your Faith and know that we are all here to help you stay strong. Love from the bottom all the way to the top of my heart! Ami Sugar Land, Tx - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 10:03 AM CDT Judy, Julia, and the rest of the J crew..... still praying for comfort and healing...I pray that there has been some relief the last 2 days and things are more calm. Thinking of you always..... much love and many prayers, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> saint paul, Va USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 10:02 AM CDT Judy, Julia and the rest of this amazing family, I hope that the last couple of days has been better, more calming and less stressful in some way. Stay together, stay strong and hold onto your faith and each other. You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! All my love, Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 8:00 AM CDT Judy, I know things are hard now, but just keep your faith strong and continue to believe in Julia's healing. God is a worker of miracles, and I pray that Julia will get that touch that defies all understanding. Be Blessed Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 7:44 AM CDT Judy, I just had to add one more entry. I really haven't been reading the entries in the journal because I find it so difficult. I want to let you know that I am so much in awe of your faith and your strength. I am very, very proud of you. You are an inspiration to me every day. Stay strong! Love, Allan Allan Haffner <ahaffner@comcast.net> Exeter , N.H. USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 5:54 AM CDT Guys, I'm very dissapointed that I won't be able to come to Pittsburgh for another 2 weeks. You guys are in my thoughts, my prayers, and my heart all of the time. Stay positive and strong for Julia and yourselves. Tell little burper that I said hi, and that I look forward to seeing her 2 weeks from today! All our love, Allan Allan Haffner <ahaffner@comcast.net> Exeter, NH USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 5:47 AM CDT  Julia, I found your link on another childs page and I wanted to pay you a visit. I am so glad that I did. You are very beautiful and I pray that god will lay his healing hands on you and make you all better. And Judy, never give up. VISIT JACKSON'S PAGE Kristal Dickson <kdickson39@aol.com> Wilmer, Al USA - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 11:35 PM CDT Julia, it was so nice to see that beautiful smile of yours today, Honey stay strong we love you and can not wait to see you again really soon. Always in our prayers we love you Cathy and the Crew - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 9:35 PM CDT Been praying so hard for you all. Keeping positive. Sorry yesterday was a bad one. Hoping tomorrow is better. Love and kisses and strength to beautiful Julia and all her family. Clare and Carl Stawson <m60cs@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA Allegheny - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 7:20 PM CDT Praying for your beautiful Julia and that tomorrow is a better day!!! Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 5:41 PM CDT Jerrod and Judy - Love and positive prayers for y'all every minute of the day. Jace sends kisses and a Happy face to Jules. Andrew can't wait to come back to see you... neither can we! Love you ! Ami, Rocky and the kids - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 11:35 AM CDT Still praying and thinking of you.... Much love and many prayers Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> saint paul, Va USA - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 8:12 AM CDT Julia - be strong my new friend! Feel the love of the people who continue to think about you, feel it surround you and keep you warm. Imagine that we are all butterflies surrounding you, touching you with our wings like little kisses - you are not alone. You have some amazing parents, family and friends - and then you have those of us who continue to think of you and send you our support, our faith and our strength. Big hugs to you all! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, August 5, 2003 8:05 AM CDT To all the J's Praying that all is well, a few people at the meeting asked how you are doing and they send their prayers. We are all pulling for you Andrea & Mitch <Andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, - Monday, August 4, 2003 11:12 PM CDT DEAR JULIA(YUMYUM)>..PAPA & GRANDMA WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW GOOD IT WAS SITTING WITH YOU UPSTAIRS & WATCHING THE MOST PRETTIEST SMILE ON SUGARPLUMS FACE & EVEN W/OUT TALKING, YOUR EYES SPOKE LOUD & CLEAR> AND REME#MBER WHAT PAPA TOLD YOU, SOME DAY , WHEN YOU ARE FEELING STRONGER, WE ARE GOING TO THE PARK, & PAPA IS GOING TO CATCH YOU,CAUSE PAPA CAN RUN FAST.SO YOU TELL THOSE ARMS & LEGS TO GET STRONG, & THEY WILL LISTEN TO YOU.GRANDMA SAYS SHE LOVES YOU AND I SHOULD TELL YOU THAT. AND YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU TOO..WE WILL SEE YOU TUESDAY NITE.HUGS & KISSESXXXXXOOOOO TAKE CARE JUDY...PAPA & GRANDMA PAPA & GRANDMA SMITH <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEG. - Monday, August 4, 2003 10:44 PM CDT Judy, Here's praying that tomorrow is a better day. Sorry Julia had a rough day today. I will try to get ahold of you in the morning to see what I can do to help, and to see if Julia is up for some Katie kisses. Remember - our door is always open to you all - for anything. Continuing to pray - never stopping. Love you all. Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Monday, August 4, 2003 10:44 PM CDT Judy, just stopping by, always thinking about all of you. I am so sorry to hear you had a bad day, things will brighten up tomorrow!!! LOADS of prayers coming your way. A prayer chain was started in Penn Hills at St Bart's Church for our lil'jules the more prayers the better. Give that sweetie a kiss, and Joshua said he can not wait to see her he missed her tonight. Love ya all xoxoxoxoxo Cathy and Josh!!!!!!!! - Monday, August 4, 2003 10:27 PM CDT Here is to a better tomorrow, smiles and laughter. Hugs and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, August 4, 2003 9:46 PM CDT Hello everyone. I am glad to read the latest. She is strong all will be well. Keep up the faith. Love and prayers as always. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, August 4, 2003 5:55 PM CDT Judy& Jerry, As always you and your family are in our prayers and thoughts. I just got an e-mail from Sandi. Craig's sister Sherri has Julia in her prayer chain at church. Take care Craig and Sari Sari Castiglione <mssari@hotmail.com> Pittsburgh, PA Allegh. - Monday, August 4, 2003 5:13 PM CDT Checking in Jud! Positive thoughts and prayers are spreading all over Texas for Julia's complete recovery! Love you guys bunches! Ami - Monday, August 4, 2003 1:44 PM CDT I always inquire about your daughter to Bonnie. I will continue to keep Julia in my prayers!! Take one day at a time!! My thoughts are with you. Kathy Ulicny (Bonnie Smith's friend) Kathy Ulicny <Ulicnykku@aol.com> North Huntingdon, PA - Monday, August 4, 2003 5:42 AM CDT Just droping by...still praying! Ever so hard! Love and Prayers, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Sunday, August 3, 2003 6:20 PM CDT Glad to see your post. Hope you had a good day today. Hopefully we will get to see you all this week! Keeping you in our prayers always. Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pa - Sunday, August 3, 2003 5:39 PM CDT Judy, I wanted you to know that Julia, you and your family are in our thoughts and prays. God bless all of you. Nicholas Dad / www.caringbridge.org/nc/nicholascastillo <choch@nc.rr.com> Cary, NC - Sunday, August 3, 2003 1:45 PM CDT Judy, Just a quick not to let you know that we love y'all, and that you, Jerr, and the kids are in our thoughts and prayers. Hope your Sunday is a Blessed one! Stay TRUE to yourself and He WILL be there for you! Ami - Sunday, August 3, 2003 1:08 PM CDT Judy: It was good to read your update. Pray that things keep going positive. I know that you are strong, and that God only gives you what you can handle. Through this your light has been shining through like a great beacon. Keep the faith and God will be good. He does create miracles. Love to all Andrea & Mitch. <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Sunday, August 3, 2003 1:29 AM CDT Glad u finally updated and glad all is still ok...lets pray that what they saw IS post radiation swelling and once that goes down the symptoms will subside and u will see that the protocel is working...I am also glad to know that u are taking time for yourself..again u are a strong and amazing person and mom and i am proud to call u my friend. I'll be in touch, take care Love to Jerry and the kids Anita Pittsburgh, Pa - Saturday, August 2, 2003 11:41 PM CDT Hey y'all! Good to hear from you. The RAMMAJ crowd is thinking about you guys every moment of the day. We just know God is listening to all these positive thoughts and prayers from all over the world and that they are doin' their job!!! We Love you and can't wait for your visit to Texas!!!! :) and remember the walk of Faith may not be seen, but may be carried by God and His strength and helped along by all the love and support of everyone around you! Love you sis... Rocky, Ami, Michael, Matt, Andrew, and Jace!!! Sugar Land, Tx - Saturday, August 2, 2003 3:01 PM CDT Judy, So good to read this entry. Glad that things seem to be going ok. Julia weighs heavy on my heart and I pray for her constantly as I do for the rest of your family. Love and Prayers Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Saturday, August 2, 2003 12:47 AM CDT Thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless!!! Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Saturday, August 2, 2003 12:35 AM CDT God bless you, dear Julia and feel the love you generate with your beautiful smile to others. Kathryn Duvall <NanakateWest@comcast.net> Auburn, WA USA - Saturday, August 2, 2003 11:29 AM CDT God bless you all as you journey through this trying time. Keep your faith and hold tight to one another! God bless!! kt Sunfield, MI USA - Saturday, August 2, 2003 9:12 AM CDT Levy Family...very much in our thoughts and prayers now and always. Praying for Julia!! Much love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, Va USA - Friday, August 1, 2003 11:39 PM CDT Hey there everyone, just stopping by to let you know we are thinking of you and that we are continuing with our daily prayers. Can't wait to see you all. Love, Hugs, and prayers. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Friday, August 1, 2003 6:02 PM CDT Hi all you "J's" Just thought I'd drop a line to let you know everyone in Minnnesota is praying for Julia. We keep spreading the word for others to pray and eventually I hope someone in each state will be praying for Julia. We have the Mid-West started and Auntie Mame has the Southeast covered, you guys have the Northeast. I'm sure Auntie Jodi got the West Coast going and Uncle Alan the New England states. I know there are people through out the country praying. Please pass this page on to your friends, and to anyone who will pray with us. We can have the whole country praying for Julia in no time at all. God does hear our prays and he will provide for Julia. My love is neverending HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL THE J"s Aunt Sandi Sandi Jorgenson <faithful42day@hotmail.com> Annandale, MN - Friday, August 1, 2003 2:45 PM CDT Hey everyone!! Just wanted to let you know we're thinking about you. I also wanted to tell you that I wrote to Delilah on 99.7 (She does a show at night from 7-12). The reason I did that was because I was listening the other night and she asked if anybody had a story about someone who was very special and needed some extra prayers. I immediately thought of Jules. I gave her the website address so she can get updates too. I thought the show goes all of the country and the more prayers the better. So those of you around the country, find Delilah and set your radio dials. I'll let you know if I hear from her. As we know the Levy's are very special people and we want everybody we can to pray for Jules (and the rest of the family) so she'll soon walk into the doctors office. We Love you all!! Judy, Rogie, TIn and ALly girl judy rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> pg, pa usa - Friday, August 1, 2003 1:07 PM CDT Judy: Just stopping by to check on you guys. With Love, Susan and Big Jake Griffin www.caringbridge.com/page/jakegriffin jupiter, fl usa - Friday, August 1, 2003 10:25 AM CDT Judy, without faith and hope, where would we be? Blessings. trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> - Friday, August 1, 2003 9:58 AM CDT Keeping you in my thoughts and keeping the faith right with you. Hoping to see an update soon that Julia is having some fun and blessing you all with her smile! Take care of yourself and your husband, the strength and love you have for each other is what all the 'J's' will draw their strength from! HUGS Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, August 1, 2003 8:46 AM CDT Hey Judy just wanted to drop a little note just to say we are thinking of you day and night. Thinking of Julia always and hoping to see her soon. Hope everything went well today. I love this prayer and wanted to share it with you. Judy G-d is right by your side and he will get you through this, I truely believe that he does not give you more than you can handle. We love you. Foot Prints One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. 'Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all of the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me. The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your time of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you." Cathy - Thursday, July 31, 2003 10:00 PM CDT If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it. Lord, I love You and I need You, come into my heart today. For without You I can do nothing. Lord, Help Julia today. Please be with her and heal her. By Your Grace and Glory Amen A SL, Tx - Thursday, July 31, 2003 7:53 PM CDT Judy--It was good to spend a little time with you and the kids. Sorry tha Jules was not up to it. You know we're in your corner and our prayers and thoughts are with you always Give a big hug to all the "J" Love Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA - Thursday, July 31, 2003 3:19 PM CDT Jud, Thank you for opening your home to me. The time we spent together was huge. Being able to hug you and hug and play with the kids was incredible. Playing squishy tushy with Jules, braiding Teen's hair, being scared by Spiderman, coloring with Jord, and cooking steak (even though ruined by forgetting the mushrooms!)is something I will always hold dear in my heart. You are right in not giving up. I know that there is no room for disbelievers in your home OR your heart. My heart is heavy because I am so far away. It is filled with HOPE and LOVE for you, Jer, Julia, and the kids and for those who continue to pray for your Angel's complete recovery. I saw the life in Julia's eyes, and laughed with her. I know she's not giving up and neither should anyone else. Nothing but positive thoughts and prayers. The Protocel IS doing it's job, and you and Julia will walk across the threshold of every doctor and show them there is a bright light in this world that is shining brighter every day! Coming home with Jodi was an experience I wouldn't trade for the world! Sleeping in Julie Polie's Strombolie Guacamole's bed was unbelievable (especially since everyone LET me sleep... :) ... shopping, swimming, etc. but most of all spending time with my lil sisters was the most rewarding of all. You are in my thoughts and Prayers every momment of every day. I love you guys.... KEEP THE FAITH Ami <rammaj_ami@hotmail.com> SugarLand, Tx USA - Thursday, July 31, 2003 12:50 AM CDT Nothing wrong with having faith dear Judy!! Whatever happens is not in your hands...but your love and your faith will definitely help determine the outcome. Julia continue to be in my thoughts and that of my families. Keep the faith dear Judy - keep the faith!! HUGS Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Thursday, July 31, 2003 10:49 AM CDT Can you fault me for having faith??......No Judy, We can't fault you for having faith! Who could? Julia is a sweet little gift from God a true blessing. We would have never known about her if it weren't for Mary. Still praying for Julia her family! Love and Peace, Michael,Michelle,Matthew and Malachi Michael and Michelle Phillips St. Paul, VA USA - Thursday, July 31, 2003 10:18 AM CDT Judy, You and Julia are in my prayers. Julia is soooo lucky to have you for a mom. Stay positive and keep the faith. God is with you and Julia. Aleta, Caitlin's Mom - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 9:30 PM CDT God be with you and all of Julia's family. What a beautiful picture of Julia on the website. Geneva Jorgenson Buffalo, MN USA - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 9:03 PM CDT My prayers are with Julia and her family...God Bless Jan Weis Bridgeville, PA - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 9:30 AM CDT Judy, you are one awesome MOM, not that anyone needs to tell you that, but alot of people just dont have the strength that you have and that is just GREAT!!!! Judy I have known you all of my life, and I have so much respect for you, You are so full of faith, hope, determination and strength like no other person I have ever know and that is what our little jules needs. Judy, you think I have to much here on my hands right now also, but please pick up that phone anytime for any reason and tell me what you need and I will be there in a heart beat even if it is just a cup of coffee and to BS for awhile. Please do not hesitate. You were so wonderful and caring with Nathaniel and I am so grateful for that. Thank you. Our prayers will be heard!! and I also can not wait until she walks into that room right next to your side and those doctors wonder how? Julie is a fighter just like her mother and she will win this battle, after our phone conversion today I know that she will do her hardest to beat this beast. I love all of you and will continue praying. Give Julia a big hug and kiss for us. See you soon. Cathy - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 10:25 PM CDT You go girl. That's the way!!!!!POSITIVE thinking is half the battle. You are amazing. With you as Julia's mom she can't help but win. After reading today's entry I firmly believe she will walk into the Dr's with you too. You made me very positive too. Here's to more of it!!! We love you all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 5:35 PM CDT Just keep the faith - God is still on the throne - He will help you and encourage you and others through Julia's life. She is a fighter - don't give up the faith. She is so special - what a joy it is to know her and believe that God is still able to deliver her. God bless you Judy and Jarrod - Keep the faith. Rev. Duane E. Brown <ccog2@pghmail.com> Pittsburgh, Pa United States - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 4:49 PM CDT Hey Julie Bulie Guacamole, I miss you darlin' and your brothers and sister. Yep mom and dad too. :) Hope you're feeling better and remember I want you to run to me when I come home on Saturday! :) I love you all! Aunt Jodi Jodi Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 4:11 PM CDT My prayers and thoughts are with all of you. Faith is powerful. Stay strong. Sue Geller <SGeller@county.allegheny.pa.us> Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 2:23 PM CDT Dear Julia, You always bring us happiness when we see your beautiful face. Please know that we pray for you and think about you daily. I don't understand why things like this happen to such super people, but know that you are so very much loved by all of us. We are looking forward to your being well soon. We love you, very much. Dr. B.,Jessica, Vicki, Stacy, and Stacy!!!!!!!!! Staff at Chestnut Hills and Dr. Bonsteel - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 1:39 PM CDT Talked with Ruth today and got an update. I am in awe of your strength and faith. You are just amazing! I'm praying for all of you every day. Remember the story about the little girl angel in the hospital. Miracles can happen. Give Julia a hug for me. My prayers and love are with you. Shirley G. - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 12:32 AM CDT Having faith is never a fault! I saw the fighter in Julia this morning! We are blessed to be able to visit her, and we also can't wait to see her back on her feet and playing - especially Hannah! We continue to pray for her all the time! Love you all! Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 11:53 AM CDT WE WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENDS GOD WILL WATCH OVER HER. KEEP UP YOUR FAITH, GOD WILL WATCH OVER YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. DOM&CAROL MARASCO <MARASCO412@AOL.COM> PITTSBURGH, PA 15206 - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 9:57 AM CDT Me again - just read your latest update! What faith you have - I commend you on that b/c that will help keep your strong to all the possibilities!! Thank you for sharing your hardships like this b/c we all learn to be grateful for all the moments in our lives. Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 9:08 AM CDT Good to see that you have a plan of attack and that you feel positive about it. I am sure Julia will feel better just spending some time with her dad. Take care of yourself too Judy because Julia draws her amazing strength from her amazing mom! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 7:38 AM CDT So glad that Julia doesn't need the shunt. That must ease your mind just a little. Continued prayers rushing your way..... Love, Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 6:52 AM CDT Hello to all the Levy's, I am so glad you are at peace with your decision. We will all pray for the protocel to continue working. Know that you all are in our prayers and thought about daily. We love you all. A & D & Z Amy Drahusz - Monday, July 28, 2003 9:58 PM CDT I wish there something more I could do for you, Julia and the rest of your family. I lit a candle for you all today and on Friday. I believe in the power of positive thinking and will continue to light candles for you. Bright Blessings. trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Monday, July 28, 2003 9:10 PM CDT Hi Jerry, Judes, Jordan, Tine, Julie and Jake: I want to say something uplifting and hopeful but my heart is just breaking. I am praying night and day for all of you, and I will not lose faith. Dean and I both check the sight daily to keep up with the latest. I talked to Nan on Thursday and Friday and spent the weekend with all of our friends praying for Julie and the rest of you. I am not going to tell you guys how strong you are, you already know that. And I am not going to tell you to stay faithful because you already will. I will tell you that God hears all our prays and He will answer them in His time , not ours. I wish was home with you guys , if you need me please let me know, I can be there in one day. Nothing is more important to me than my family. I can drop everything and come just let me know. JERRY,THAT MEANS YOU TOO!!!!!!! I miss you so much my heart is aching. Love Aunt Sandi and Dean Sandi Jorgenson <faithful42day@hotmail.com> Annandale, MN - Monday, July 28, 2003 12:02 AM CDT my prayers are with her marian m marecic west mifflin, pa usa - Monday, July 28, 2003 11:30 AM CDT Giving up is NOT an option! We continue to pray for Julia and for your family. Julia's journey has touched my heart in more ways then you will ever know. And I thank you for letting ME draw strenght from that sweet little angel! She is a fighter! And a winner she will be! Take care! Love, hugs, and prayers... Michelle Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA USA - Monday, July 28, 2003 10:23 AM CDT Giving up is not what any of else will do! Julia will be in my thoughts, as well as you and your family. Draw strength from each other and the love that many people are sending you! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Monday, July 28, 2003 8:37 AM CDT Judy, we are praying for Julia and your family. Have faith. Ana & Sofia Ramalho FL - Sunday, July 27, 2003 7:04 PM CDT My prayers are with you and your family... Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Sunday, July 27, 2003 3:25 PM CDT Dear Levy's..my heart and Joey C's are broken right now with the devastating news of the MRI..BUT, GOD works miracles..absolute miracles!!...Don't give up hope Judy.., pray to the Lord for guidance and help in which way to turn.."The Lord will guide you always; You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail" (Isa 58:11). I continually pray for beautiful Julia and your family; also for the Doctors to have the knowlege in how to treat your precious Angel. The Lord is by your side, especially now, and holding little Julia in the palm of his hand. Have faith Levy's because "Faith, at the very least, asks us to believe this: The path to heaven runs through suffering. Through the sorrow of the world, through that certain fog of doubt and pain, we have faith: sure of what we hope for, certain of what we do not see. God is love. GOD IS IN CONTROL. God will wipe away every tear and replace it with a river of joy. Judy, if there is anything, anything I can personally do for you and/or your family, please do not hesitate to contact me. I will continue to lift Julia and your family up in prayer...Keep your hope and faith....God Bless, Carol Carol Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, July 27, 2003 9:15 AM CDT Judy. Don't give up. GOD IS ABLE!!! HE made the blind see with mud, he made the lame walk, he cured the leapers by having them wash in the river. MIRACLES DO happen!! Keep believing! We are praying for you daily. Julia is such a beautiful child! Take care Sherry Mills <caringbridge,org/pa/samspage> Reinholds, PA - Sunday, July 27, 2003 7:47 AM CDT Judy, Dont't give up hope. My heart broke when i heard the news about the MRI, I prayed as hard as I could that night for all of you. I will come down again to see you guys. Now everyone says the power of prayer is the strongest of all. If everyone who reads this could stop for one moment on Sunday at noon, and we all say a prayer, maybe it will be strong enough to help in some way, it's worth a try. Ilove you Judy and remember when you were a baby and I helped take care of you and your sister and brothers. Please know I am there for you and beautiful Julie now. Love you Peg Peg Smith Duquesne, Pa USA - Saturday, July 26, 2003 11:47 PM CDT Judy & Jarrod, I am praying that the protocel is working and that is the reason for the mixed MRI results. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now but please know that you and all of your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Pam Nehnevajsa MAW Volunteer <pmsnehne@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, July 26, 2003 4:56 PM CDT You are right to not throw in the towel. Do not give up hope. I'm glad we got to see you for a few minutes today - I wish it could have been longer. If you are all up for it, we will try to see you again in a day or two. I never get tired of seeing Julia's beautiful smile! You have a world of people that are not giving up either - we are praying all the time. Katie wants to give Julia another big 'ole sloppy kiss!!!!! Love you Levy's! Mary, John, Zack, Hannah, Dan, & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Saturday, July 26, 2003 4:48 PM CDT What are sisters for but to butt in their noses where they don't belong! :) Stubbornness runs strong in our family, so I am asking, maybe even begging her friends to please help out in any way, shape, or form. I have read ALL the entries and see the out pour of help, don't get me wrong. What I am asking is that you please just do it! Don't wait for the time that Judy says ok, just do it. Take the other kids, just visit, do whatever is possible to give Judy and Jerry time to breathe, esp. Judy since Julia wants her by her side all the time. I worry about my sister and brother-in-law and they need help. Mind you all, I will get hell for writing this, but I honestly don't care! :) I'm in FL right now for a wk. (sooner if Judy needs me home..this was a trip planned some time ago). Please don't see me as selfish for being here and not there, but I need this for myself for other reasons. If I'm not there to help out, I need to be reassured my sister is in good hands and is allowing people to help. Thank you in advance! You are all very dear to me for being so wonderful to Judy and her family! G-d bless. Jodi Jodi Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Saturday, July 26, 2003 11:39 AM CDT I have been checking on Julia for a few weeks now, she is a beautiful girl and so strong and brave, I pray for hte miracle of complete healing every day! I am truly so sorry that the MRI is not good. I will say an extra prayer for Julia and you all. Nicole Wanke <nicole54660@msn.com> Tomah, WI - Saturday, July 26, 2003 2:40 AM CDT Judy,I called today but you weren't home. I sensed something wasn't right. I'll call another day if you feel up to it. I am so sorry. I cannot even imagine what you are feeling right now. Please know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care, Love, Shirley Shirley G. - Friday, July 25, 2003 11:32 PM CDT Thinking about you all. Praying for you all. Miracles happen. We love you. Call us. A & D & Z A & D & Z - Friday, July 25, 2003 7:55 PM CDT You don't know me, but I check Julia's site every day and ALWAYS hope for a miracle. Today I was going to leave an entry inquiring about the MRI results. Unfortunately I read a couple of the entries before mine and the results don't sound too good. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Miracles do happen. I've seen it before on these Caringbridge sites and I'm rooting for one to happen to your beautiful child. Danielle Saugus, CA USA - Friday, July 25, 2003 6:00 PM CDT Hey baby girl, CHIN UP!! Keep doing a great job, keep your spirits high. You are in our daily thoughts and prayers. Judy stay strong and keep your faith, God works in wonderous ways I truely believe this. You have a very stong little lady there and we will get her through this. I love all of you and give kisses to Jules for me See you soon. PS I am on the hunt for the Dora Blanket..... Cathy <copalko@aol.com> Pittsburgh , pa usa - Friday, July 25, 2003 11:34 AM CDT As you know, Mary has been keeping us up to date about little Julia. She told us about the MRI results. Nothing I can say will help, but Know that you have many, many people keeping you all in their thoughts and prayers. Take comfort in the bosom of your family and enjoy the time you have with that sweet little jewel of yours. Hugs. ;^) trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Friday, July 25, 2003 9:29 AM CDT HI.. I heard about Juila mri yesterday from Mary.A dear online friend. I want you to know I wont give up praying for that sweet little angel.This must be so hard for you and your family you are ALL in my prayers. With God all thing are possible!!!!!!!!!!!! Love & hugs.. Evette evette m. mass <skyian@comcast.net> westland, MI United States - Friday, July 25, 2003 9:24 AM CDT We will continue to keep you in our daily thoughts and prayers! Special uplifting prayers for Julia......and prayers of strength and comfort for her family..... Lord Jesus, I pray that you will wrap your loving arms around this family, comfort them and give them strength in their time of need. Lord Jesus, Calm their spirits and let them enjoy each day that they have. Lord Jesus, We love you we praise your Holy Name and lift You on high....In Jesus Name, Amen.......... Michelle Phillips <jusm4us@cablenet-va.com> St. Paul, VA - Friday, July 25, 2003 8:56 AM CDT My thoughts continue to be with you and your beautiful daughter. Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ON Canada - Friday, July 25, 2003 8:51 AM CDT good luck for you and the family ....The Altieri-weidman gang glenda altieri <glendagoodwitch3@aOL.COM> pittsburgh pa , pa - Thursday, July 24, 2003 5:20 PM CDT Praying for the BEST news possible today. I'm thinking about Julia, you, and your entire family many times every day. This little girl has so much love and so many prayers coming her way--- something good HAS to happen. Take care, Love, Shirley Shirley Goulette - Thursday, July 24, 2003 10:10 AM CDT my fingers are crossed so hard they hurt from lack of circulation. Thinking of you and praying for Julia to feel better and for a postive MRI. With Love, Susan and Big Jake Griffin www.caringbridge.com/page/jakegriffin jupiter, fl usa - Thursday, July 24, 2003 9:24 AM CDT Judy, Jarrod, Julia,& Jordan, Tine, and Jakey Just want to wish you the best tomorrow. I hope you get awesome news. Please let us know as soon as you can how it goes! We love you guys! Hannah says: "Julia, I can't wait to come see you again and give you a big hug and I can see you smile". Love, Mary, John, and Hannah, and Zack, Dan & Katie <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 10:44 PM CDT We're thinking about you. Please share the good news with us when you get home from the doctor. Ally girl will be watching for you so you won't be able to escape. Keep your head high!! We Love You Judy, Rogie, Tin and Ally girl <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, pa usa - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 10:04 PM CDT I will be praying. Thinking of you. cathy speicher <hollywoodcts@newyork.com> pgh, pa usa - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 9:01 PM CDT Judy and Family I've been waiting until I could think of the most perfect thing to say to you to let you know that Im always thinking of you and your family, but I just cant come up with PERFECT. So here goes.......... Im Karen from Florida, Jodi's side kick when she lived down here, Im hoping you will remember our heart walk that we did. I check the website almost nightly to see how Julia is doing and just as important how you are. Judy you are an amazingly strong woman and I pray that you are able to keep up your strength. My thoughts and prayers and with you and your family every day. Dont know if Jodi told you but I went through similar incident with my "little sister" back a couple of months ago, she wasnt as young as your little one but still young. You have to try and keep the faith and know that you have a lot of people who are praying for you and yours and that love you all. I wish that I could do something to help, but know that Jodi being there is helping. I will be thinking about you tomorrow and awaiting some good news. Love to you and yours Karen from Florida Karen Sylvia <kbear51@bellsouth.net> Port St. Lucie, FT USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:51 PM CDT To all the Levy's, extra prayers and thoughts for Thursday. We will be thinking of you all. God Bless you all. Love, A & D & Z A & D & Z - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 7:32 PM CDT Sending extra good wishes for a great day tomorrow! We'll be thinking of you guys. Isabella sends some special love to Julia and can't wait to see her soon! Love Lisa Alex Isa and Stevie Lisa Forsthoffer Pgh, PA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 5:14 PM CDT My prayers are for Julia and her family. As a grandmother of 2 beautiful children, I am deeply saddened that any child should have to go through something like this. Hope all goes well. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Madeline Toporcer <maddie.toporcer@vai-inc.com> Washington, Pa Washington - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 12:39 AM CDT Judy, I read your entries almost every day, and I pray for Julia and your family daily. Cindy keeps me posted too. Hang on, keep the faith, and know that God is able. May He wrap His loving arms around your entire family and comfort you as no human being could. Janet Perri <jperrirn@adelphia.net> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 11:13 AM CDT Judy, When I held Julia in my arms yesterday, I know that I gave you a break in more thatn one way...Your back must be hurting tremendously with not only the weight of Jules, but the weight of the MRI also. I'm so glad that I was able to give you a different perspective of Julia. You were able to SEE her face, hear her giggles as we spoke of fairy wings and getting her strength back to "beat up her sister"! Hey Pittsburgh family, if you get the chance to help take the load off Judy, if only for a few minutes, take Jules from her. It's like holding an angel! Also Judy, I was thinking that perhaps your answer might be a jogging stroller to help you get around with Julia. These have larger wheels and may put her in a better position to see the view than an umbrella stroller would. It's just a thought.. Prayers are with all of you today, the MRI day and everyday. Lay down on the massager and relax, it's in Gods' able hands. Shellie <khen608178@aol.com> PGH, PA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 9:08 AM CDT We just found out from Cindy T. about the web site. You know our prayers are continuing for Julia and your family. Marian & Ron Marian & Ron Leach Pittsburgh, Pa USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:57 AM CDT It is amazing to me how God has used Julia to help so many of his faithful form a more perfect bond with Him! Look at all the people praying and falling to their knees before their Creator, loving Him, imploring Him for His help and compassion. Julia is so young but has already achieved so much by being a reminder to so many that we need God, for EVERYTHING. I will pray too that God will reward her for all the pain, suffering and heartache she has endured while serving him so faithfully. The most wonderful reward would be for Him to offer her total healing so that she can spend a long fruitful lifetime praising Him and sharing His love with even more people. I'm a Tupperware consultant in Andrea's unit and I will continue to pray for your wonderful daughter. You are so blest to have her! What a special strong little girl. Becca Nelson <tupperwarestuff@hotmail.com> Monroeville, PA USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 8:45 AM CDT Prayers are with all of you for Thursday. May all of God's angels watch over you and bring you sunlight in the gray cloud above. Talk to you soon Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA Alleg - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 3:49 AM CDT Sending lots of prayers to Julia and your entire family. I truly have faith in the Protocel, and that you will have a great MRI. Staying calm is easier said than done, and even easier for someone (like myself!) who really can't have any idea what you are going through...so please just know that we will keep your little girl in our prayers for her complete healing and that there are so many people, even strangers such as ourselves, who are touched by your daughter's story and courage and wish her only the very best....hang in there!!! hugs, Tracey, Steve, Quinn (8) and Callum (4) /Hugs and Hope Club xoxoxo <traceyhewison@shaw.ca> Calgary, Ab, Canada, - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 0:47 AM CDT Stay strong, call on all of us your friends to help you through. Don't give up. We are praying extra extra hard for you all. Praying for thursday to be the start of many many many more beautiful years ahead with the whole family. Tons of prays, thoughts, love, and hugs. A & D & Z A & D & Z - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 10:39 PM CDT DEAR JULIE(YUM YUM).. PAPA & GRANDMA WILL SEE YOU THURSDAY SO WE CAN SEE THAT BIG SMILE OF YOURS, AFTER YOUR DR'S VISIT WE WANT TO SEE MOMMY & DADDY"S SMILE TOO!!!WE HOPE & PRAY EVERYONE WILL BE SMILING. YOU SEE.... WHEN YOU SMILE, EVERYBODY SMILES.:)AND.. DON'T FORGET, WHEN YOU SMILE YOU GET A HUG TOO!!OK.OK. WELL,TILL I OR WE SEE YOU... HERE'S A BIG SMILE :).. NOW, YOU OWE ME & GRANDMA A BIG HUG... LOVE YOU.XXXOOO..PAPA & GR.MA PAPA & GRANDMA SMITH <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 10:15 PM CDT I am sending lots of prayers to Julia and her family. I pray that everything comes back good ! Peggy (Mary's H & F friend) <scoobybaby35@aol.com> Deltona, FL Volusia` - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 4:46 PM CDT Jude, I am still praying for all of you, and know i will pray extra hard as Julia has her MRI...i am so happy that Jodi is home. i know that makes things easier for you to have her around. I'll be talking to you soon. Take care and stay strong. I'll be praying! Anita Pgh, PA - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 3:07 PM CDT Prayers for Julia and for your family! Julia has such a sweet smile! I love the picture that you have on the main page. Love and Peace to you.... Michelle Phillips St. Paul, VA - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 2:10 PM CDT I will be lighting a candle for Julia on Thursday. Stay strong! Hugs. trace cade <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 1:28 PM CDT May God bless little Julia and her family. As each person reads this prayer may it be another plea to the Lord to bless and heal this family and wrap them in His peace and love. Amen Ann Berliant Mary's friend from H&F <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 1:22 PM CDT I pray, hope, believe....that Friday you will recieve a scan that greatly puts your mind at ease. Remember when Protocel begins to work swelling increases for a time then it goes back down. Numbers go up before they come down. Markers spike and go up before they come down. Thinking of you guys and praying for some calming of nerves for you guys and of course a good scan!!!! With Love, Susan and Big Jake Griffin www.caringbridge.com/page/jakegriffin - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 10:07 AM CDT Hi there... I just wanted to stop by and tell you that your in my prayers. You are a beautiful little lady. Tony Preston <apreston @ comcast.net> Medford, NJ USA - Tuesday, July 22, 2003 5:58 AM CDT I am here, finally. What a wonderful thing it is to be able to see Julia, as well as my other niece and nephews on a daily basis. Not to mention my sister!! It's great to be here to help out and hopefully to alleviate some of the stress she and Jarrod are under. We'll just take things one day at a time. Jodi <sneaking this on Judy's computer> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, July 19, 2003 6:29 PM CDT IT WAS MY PRIVILEDGE TO MEET YOU AND PRAY WITH YOU TODAY, JUDY. WE BELIEVE GOD IS ABLE. BUT DO WE BELIEVE HE IS WILLING? YES HE IS WILLING. HE HAS PURPOSE FOR JULIA'S LIFE AND WE ARE ABOUT TO SEE THE GLORY OF GOD!!james 5:16. SO IF WE BELIEVE HIM, AND GOD'S WORD SAYS THAT WITHOUT FAITH IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PLEASE HIM hebrews 11:6, WE MUST NOW THANK HIM AND PRAISE HIM FOR JULIA'S COMPLETE HEALING! FAITH IS BELIEVING BEFORE WE SEE IT!!! GOD'S WORD ALSO SAYS LIFE AND DEATH ARE IN THE POWER OF THE TONGUE proverbs 18:21. SO ONLY SPEAK WHAT YOU WANT. SHE IS GOING TO LIVE. SHE IS GOING TO HAVE A COMPLETE RECOVERY. SHE WILL HAVE A LIFE OF ABUNDANCE.john 10:10 A SISTER IN THE LORD AND ONE OF AMI CHAPMAN'S CLOSEST! KRISTY MILES PS- WE ARE DESTROYED FOR LACK OF KNOWLEDGE. SEEK GOD THRU HIS WORD,THEY ARE ONE. ALSO, I AM STRENGTHENED BY JAMES 1:6-7...READ IT AND MAY YOU HAVE SUPERNATURAL STRENGTH, PEACE AND JOY you can use blueletterbible.org to look these up quickly :-) KRISTY MILES <KD_MILES@YAHOO.COM> HOUSTON, TX USA - Saturday, July 19, 2003 6:27 PM CDT Hello all you J's, We think about you daily and pray for you daily. Take care of each other and call on your friends if we can help, we are here for you all. Glad the flowers cheered you for however small the amount of time. Keep the faith. You have made us believe much more in ours. Love, A & D & Z A & D & Z - Friday, July 18, 2003 5:08 PM CDT Judy, Keep your chin up in those bad days! I hope I wasn't responsible! Hearing about Judy's illness brought sadness to all of us, and I think we all hugged our kids a little tighter that night. Hope everything keeps going well...we'll pray that it does. Anything we can do to help, let us know. Phil States and family Pittsburgh, PA USA - Friday, July 18, 2003 2:08 PM CDT Judy and Julia and family, Hi - my name is Michele. I came to your web page after reading Marissa's web page. I will keep you in my prayers for a complete healing and for peace and energy when you need it. Michele Gilmore <offtochina@aol.com> Chesapeake, VA USA - Friday, July 18, 2003 1:28 PM CDT To Judy and all the Levy's Yes God is Good and He does take care of his children. Things will get better. He will be with you every step of this long rocky road. Give my love to all the "J's" You all are in my thougts and prayers Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA USA - Friday, July 18, 2003 0:19 AM CDT Julia, we wanted you and your family to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. God Bless you and your family. The Clymer family New Port Richey, FL USA - Thursday, July 17, 2003 5:12 PM CDT Hi Judy: Have trust and patience with God;our little girls developed symptoms very quickly and therefore those same symptoms can vanish just as quickly - I pray continually for Julia and your family. Vanessa Rothbard <vanessarothbard@worldnet.att.net> Saratoga, C USA - Thursday, July 17, 2003 10:12 AM CDT Just wanted you to know that I said a prayer for you today. Have faith. God is watching over Julia. There are many people out there with their arms outstretched to give the Levy family one giant hug. Take care and God Bless your family. Bev at MAW <bgorr@wishworld.org> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, July 16, 2003 7:54 PM CDT Little Julia is a beautiful little girl!! I just came across the page, looking at someone else's page. We have a friend who is 7 years old also going through the same thing. She was diagnosed with a Brain Stem Glioma and is having a hard time moving, swallowing, walking, talking and breathing. We're praying for a miracle, I'll be sure to pray for little Julia as well! Also my little sister Kaylyn Mei is 3 and has had a rare brain tumor called 'Supratentorial Primitive Neuroectodermal' or PNET. She just had 6 rounds of chemo and a Stem Cell transplant. Here's the address to her caringbridge page: http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/kaylynmei/ Take care, and hang in there little one!! Erin (17) <ccbubbless17@yahoo.com> Columbia, SC USA - Tuesday, July 15, 2003 8:59 PM CDT Hi Judy, Hang in there. Remember the beginning is the hardest on the Protocel. Keep your eyes heavenward. God is in control. Praying for you. Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Tuesday, July 15, 2003 9:28 AM CDT Have a safe trip tomorrow. I will be praying for great news! Love you guys! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Monday, July 14, 2003 10:01 PM CDT Good thoughts and good things for tomorrow. Safe trip. As always our prayers and love. A & D & Z A & D & Z - Monday, July 14, 2003 9:59 PM CDT Good Luck tomorrow in York!! We're sure it will be a worth while trip. We Love Ya, Judy, Rogie, Justin and Ally Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA USA - Monday, July 14, 2003 9:09 PM CDT Judy, No sayings, no verses, no talks. You know you guys are in my daily thoughts. I love you Peg Peg Smith Duquesne, Pa USA - Monday, July 14, 2003 9:03 PM CDT Judy, Your sister will be such a wonderful addition to our Greenfield family. Our prayers are never ending for your family. Shellie Pgh, PA USA - Monday, July 14, 2003 9:09 AM CDT DEAR JULIE(YUM-YUM) WE FEEL BAD TODAY BECAUSE WE HEARD YOU DID NOT FEEL GOOD TODAY.BUT YOUKNOW WHAT....I BET YOU WILL HAVE A SMILEY FACE WHEN YOU GET BACK FROM YOUR TRIP W/ MOMMY & DADDY AND SEE THE SURPRISES PAPA & GRANDMA HAVE FOR YOU:):) WE CANT WAIT TO SEE YOUR SMILING FACE & TO GIVE YOU OUR SUPER HUGS & KISSES. TELL JORDAN,JUSTINE,JACOB,MOMMY & DADDY AND U THAT WE LOVE YA ALL, & ARE PRAYING FOR ALL GOOD THINGS FOR YOU....LOVE YAXXXXOOO PAPA,& GRANDMA PAPA& GRANDMA SMITH <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Sunday, July 13, 2003 10:10 PM CDT Hi Levy's...My prayers are with you!...Judy, I don't know how you're holding it together, but faith is an amazing thing..how incredible you are!!..Joey C and I were looking at this site the other night, and he was saying how cute little Julia is, and I of course agree!...What a little doll!!...God has her in the palm of his hand and is taking care of his little Angel!...I continue to lift you and you're family up in prayer..God Bless all of you...stay strong...you are doing well, even though you may not think so!!...Take Care....Carol Carol Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, July 12, 2003 9:11 AM CDT Hello all, Much relieved to read the latest entries. Very happy for you all that Jodi will be here soon. Talk to you soon. Prayers, A & D & Z A & D & Z - Friday, July 11, 2003 10:07 PM CDT Judy, Glad to hear Julia was better yesterday... Ami will be coming in with Jodi... Andrew, Jace and I will be there on July 20 or so... see you then... Rocky <rammaj_rocky@hotmail.com> Sugar Land, TX - Friday, July 11, 2003 3:29 PM CDT The more I read your journals, the more I am convinced that having Jarrod at home is the right thing! The next time you get an entry from me, it will be from Pgh, PA. I wish I had a fraction of the people giving you prayers, helping me pack. :) I'd be done in a flash. Much work to be done! See you all next week. My prayers go to all. I love you Judy, Jarrod, Jordaboo, Tine, Peanuthead and Jakey!!! Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Friday, July 11, 2003 9:20 AM CDT Hi Judy, I am glad to hear things are going so well with Julia. Trust God. He is in control. Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Friday, July 11, 2003 7:18 AM CDT Hi Judy: You are all in my prayers everyday. Praying that things will stable for Julia and you. It will be a blessing when your sister is here. Give Julia a big hug and kiss from Mitch and me. Love & God Bless, Andrea Zober <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA 15120 - Thursday, July 10, 2003 8:22 PM CDT Hi Gang, Ditto on what Shelli said. Help is here in any form. We love you all. Prayers, Prayers. A & D & Z A & D & Z - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 5:29 PM CDT our prayers to you 00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 mumu <mugu@rocketmail.com> - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 3:06 PM CDT My prayers are with Julia, her family, and friends. I am Carol, a friend of Mary Kitchen's from the Health & Friendship board. Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you. Mary keeps us updated, so that we can add our prayers to the many that you are getting. What a beautiful young lady!! Carol Kiser Hedgesville, WV - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 11:51 AM CDT Judy, I just read the journels and I am so sorry for all that has been going on with Julia, Andy and I just want to let you know that we are here for you in anyway possible. Please feel free to pick up that phone day or night I will be there to help you. I am almost positive that these are good signs not bad and Julia is a tough little cookie and is going to beat this. Joshua said his prayers for her last night and said that she will be aloud to pick up that bowling ball because he is going to help her!!! We all love you very much, I will keep her in our prayers as always hugs and kisses to all.... Cathy <copalko@aol.com> Pittsburgh , Pa usa - Wednesday, July 9, 2003 11:02 AM CDT After reading your last journal entry, I immediately got on the phone and called Jarrod and after much deliberation, phonecalls, guilt and relief, I told Jarrod to cancel his plane ticket. He needs to be home. 'Nough said. We have it all taken care of on this end. Things will be fine. My heart can't handle more stress of having him away from Julia. No hard feelings. No regrets. See you in Pittsburgh!!! I love you all. Jodi Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 11:39 PM CDT Judy, What a beautiful website!! You are allowing us into your innermost thoughts and feelings and enabling us to see this experience through your eyes. We pray for your family: Tine, Jakey and Jordan are growing beautifully throughout this ordeal. You give such love, and support to all of them! How wonderful for your sister to be coming soon to share all with you. While I know that the week that Jarrod will be gone in going to get her will be difficult for you, please know that I am here... to do a load of laundry, to cook a dinner for your family, to play lifeguard, to go shopping, or babysit so that you may have those few precious moments to your self. You have many supportive friends around that will do the same. Please if we ask, take us up on the offer. You need your strength because that's where your kids draw theirs' from. Double prayers for you and Jules. Love, Shellie Shellie Hensler <KHen608178@aol.com> Pgh, PA USA - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 10:55 AM CDT Judy: Isnt tony bell the best. He was the man who kept our spirits up so much whenever we worried about Jake. He is just so positive. God Bless, Susan and Jakey Bear Griffin www.caringbridge.com/page/jakegriffin - Monday, July 7, 2003 7:22 PM CDT That is wonderful news. A ray of sunshine. Keep believing. Love and Prayers, A & D & Z A & D & Z - Monday, July 7, 2003 4:56 PM CDT Dear Levy family. I just got your site from, Pam, Julia's MAW volunteer. What beautiful pictures. It's great to finally be able to see what Julia looks like. Pam was right when she told us how gorgeous she is. Just wanted you to know that you are in our prayers daily. Keep the faith and know that there are many people out there surrounding your family with love and prayers. Bev Gorr - Make-A-Wish <bgorr@wishworld.org> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, July 7, 2003 4:45 PM CDT I DEH HERE O OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD SITE mumu AKABO <mumu@oshodi.com> - Monday, July 7, 2003 2:49 PM CDT Judy and Jarrod - that is wonderful to hear! Glad you called him. Hope it helped you get some rest last night! Keeping the prayers coming your way! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> - Monday, July 7, 2003 8:54 AM CDT Hi Judy, I think the two steps forward, one step back, is the thing we like least about the Protocel. In Elijah's case, it seems more like one step forward two steps back. Hang in there. It is working, and soon, Julia will be back to laughing and playing again. Be Blessed Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Monday, July 7, 2003 7:55 AM CDT i deh here 0 ooooooooo umu nne commot here mugu <mumu@eudramail.com> - Monday, July 7, 2003 7:14 AM CDT Wow!! What beautiful words I just read! I'm not exactly sure who Tony Bell is, but if it makes you that happy. I'm ecstatic too!!! Love to you all! Jodi Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Sunday, July 6, 2003 10:11 PM CDT Judy & Jarrod, Words cannot express how beautiful your family is, we are blessed and fortunate for the experience of meeting you. Please know that I pray for you every day, for Julia's health, that she may be healed by God's grace, for you as her parents, that you continue to receive the strength that you need on a daily basis, from the caring thoughts of so many others. If you need me, I am here. Pam from MAW Pam Nehnevajsa Pittsburgh, PA USA - Sunday, July 6, 2003 8:28 PM CDT Asking God everyday for your miracle. We are here for you. Just letting you know we are thinking of you all. A & D & Z A & D & Z - Sunday, July 6, 2003 9:48 AM CDT Just want you guys to know I am thinking of you all the time. Hope you are having some fun this weekend! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Sunday, July 6, 2003 9:34 AM CDT Hi J,J,J,J,and J. I justed finished reading all the journal entries. This is awesome, people around the world are joined in pray for all of you. I miss you all like crazy. I wish I could get home soon but it looks like it won't be until the holidays. A day does not go by that we don't pray ernestly for Julia and the rest of the J's I'm worried about you Jude's. I don't know how you keep going, but I know it through the strenght of God. I'm glad you are going to uncle Ted's, Nan told me about it and I wish I could be there too. Jer, You are strong and able to manage. When you don't believe this you need to P.U.S.H.!!!! PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS!!!!!!!! Jordan, Tine, Jules and JakeyMan. I MISS YOU!!!!!! I'm glad you all got to spend the 4th together. I miss the family times at your house. Nothing replaces you all in my world. Well enough for now. Word can not explain how bad I miss you all and how deeply I pray for you. Stay strong and believe in the power of our lord to heal the sick and mend the broken. love you tons and tons Aunt Sandi, Dean and T.J. sandi jorgenson <faithful42day@hotmail.com> annandale, mn - Saturday, July 5, 2003 11:33 AM CDT Dear Judy, I just logged on to this site. Julia is beautiful!!!! I will picture her every time we pray for her. Your new friends - Jenni and Josslyn McClung Jennifer McClung <jenmcclung@juno.com> Liberty, MO USA - Saturday, July 5, 2003 0:30 AM CDT Judy, Listen to your sister - she is brilliant! Praying for you always! Love you my friend! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, - Friday, July 4, 2003 6:17 PM CDT Jude.... Remember our walk and talk.... Hang in there and don't give up. YOu have friends, family and G-d that are here for you and don't ever forget that. You are strong and you need to stay that way. I am always here for you. Love ya!! judy rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> pgh, pa usa - Thursday, July 3, 2003 11:43 PM CDT Judy, Of course you don't see your inner strength because you are the one standing in it. Others, outsiders, can see it and believe me they are correct in pointing out your strength. If the situation were reversed, you would say the same for them. You are strong and showing your strength because you are not willing to give up the fight for your little angel. Your strength lets you go from one day to the next and I sincerely believe you are blessed beyond belief with all the prayers these wonderful people are giving to you and your family. Don't be, or consider yourself a martyr. You are a mom who is going thru a terrible ordeal that those of us not experiencing it first hand can only begin to imagine what it's like. Always remember when you don't want to talk to anyone, don't want to open your eyes and face another day of uncertainty....that's when you pick up the phone and call me!!!!!! Soon enough, when those days are existing, I will be able to see it and hug you!! I love you! Hugs and kisses to ALL of you!! Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Thursday, July 3, 2003 10:25 PM CDT Still thinkin' 'bout you guys. Hugs to all! trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Thursday, July 3, 2003 12:35 AM CDT HI JULIE(YUM YUM)>... DO YOU KNOW WHY I CALL YOU YUM YUM?.. WELL I WILL TELL YOU. every time u give me a hug, PAPA SAYS IT FEELS SO YUMMY. SO I CALL YOU YUM YUM.NOW YOU NOW. YOU KNOW WHAT?....I COULD USE ONE OF THOSE HUGS AGAIN, PRETTY SOON,OK. AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE...... GRANDMA IS WAITING RIGHT BEHIND ME FOR HER'S .DO YOU THINK THURSDAY WOULD BE A GOOD DAY FOR HUGS. MAYBE MOMMY CAN LET US KNOW...... LOVE YOU(more than pizza & chocolate) SEE YOU SOONXXXXXXOOOOOO.PAPA & GR.MA PAPA & GRANDMA...(HERM & MARLENE) <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 10:39 PM CDT Hi Judy, This can not be easy waiting for the day of the MRI, but remember everyone is with you, if not in person, then in thoughts. I wish I could help you with your pain but I know I can't, but I love you and pray for you and Julia. God bless you both Love, Peg Peg Smith Duquesne, Pa USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 9:50 PM CDT Hi Judy...Look to God always for comfort and strength and remember, he has his hand on this precious little girl. I continue to pray daily for your family, and I'm going to have Julia put on a prayer chain thru my sisters bible study. Prayer is a very powerful thing. Keep the faith Levy's...I will keep checking this site to watch Julia's progress...God Bless.....Carol Carol Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 6:02 PM CDT Hello to all, Thinking of you all daily, hourly. What amazing strength you all have. A lesson to us all. I have everyone I know praying and asking God for Julia's miracle. Just wanted to let you know we are here. Love, hugs, prayers!!!! A & D & Z A & D & Z - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 2:59 PM CDT Hi guys. Just stopped to pray this afternoon and check in on all of you. Stay strong. We are all with you. You are Not Alone. :) Cindy <Cindy.Toth@vai-inc.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 1:20 PM CDT Hi Judy, Hang in there. We are on a long road, and sometimes we look at what we see and go into full scale panic mode. We do the same thing with Elijah. Every time something happens, we think the worst, then remember that faith is believing in what we can't see. I see my son walking,running, laughing and playing. I see the same for Julia. Read Joshua 1:9. It is a comforting scripture. Unfortunately, Julia is still in the phase where things don't look the greatest, but soon, they will turn around. My family continues to pray for Julia. Be Blessed Craig Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 7:27 AM CDT God Bless DJ DJW <dwrightjr@aol.com> Pgh, PA USA - Wednesday, July 2, 2003 6:10 AM CDT Jude, you are the strongest person i know and an inspiration to many, you are AWESOME! Please know that I am praying and praying and praying, especially for Julia but for all of u too. God gives us strength we never knew we had and he will give her the strength to fight this. She WILL be a miracle. Anita Pgh, PA US - Sunday, June 29, 2003 6:03 PM CDT Julia and Family, You and your family are always in our thoughts and prayers. May the angels be watching over you always and keeping you safe. Love and Light Vicki(Antoinette's Mum-Protocel Group) <lenny.vicki@bigpond.comm.au> QLD Australia - Sunday, June 29, 2003 7:41 AM CDT Your family is in my prayers, and I will be certain to pass this email on to everyone I have in my address book. Miricles come in small packages, which I will be praying for one, as will everyone else I know. Ron Borland <borland2@access995.com> Fayette City, Pa USA - Saturday, June 28, 2003 10:51 PM CDT As Julia's Aunt and Judy's twin sister, I would just like to thank everyone for all your support for my niece, my sister and her entire family. How wonderful to have so many people, family, friends and strangers giving their support, prayers and love to them. It means so incredibly much to all of us!! Thank you again and my prayers go out to all in need! Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Saturday, June 28, 2003 11:34 AM CDT Dear Judy and Levy's...My prayers and thoughts are with you all..I lift Precious little Julia up in prayer everyday and let God take it from there. Judy, I've read everyone of your journal entries, and what an amazing person and Mom you are! I know you're nerves are shot, and I am lifting you in prayer also for continued strength for Julia and your family. How lucky this child is to have such a caring Mother as you. God Bless you are your family and this sweet beautiful child....Carol Carol Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, pa USA - Saturday, June 28, 2003 8:23 AM CDT Hello Julia, I just stopped by to check on you. My thoughts are with you . Lots of love Ana Ramalho <ascigana@aol.com> - Saturday, June 28, 2003 6:26 AM CDT I had fun going to the store with you all yesterday! Thanks for keeping an eye on me this week, while my kids were gone! I love you guys! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pa - Friday, June 27, 2003 1:30 PM CDT there are no words for the feelings that can almost overwhelm us at times like these. i'm thinking of you all and praying in my own non-organizational way Love, MB mb salama <mbsalama@wpahs.org> pittsburgh, pa usa - Thursday, June 26, 2003 11:21 AM CDT I know waiting is hard, but, there will be lots of prayers for extra patience while you wait for the MRI. I think you guys are doing a wonderful job! Hugs to you and an extra one for hubby! trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Wednesday, June 25, 2003 11:08 PM CDT Jerry, You can do it. Lots of extra thoughts and prayers for you too. Believe in yourself your family does. Looking forward to getting together soon. love and prayers for all. Amy, David, Zack Amy Drahusz - Wednesday, June 25, 2003 8:58 AM CDT Hi Jules, Just want to say I'm happy to see you in a couple of months with my brother and my mom too. I'm glad that we're moving there to see you guys. Love, Kyra Kyra <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UTAH USA - Monday, June 23, 2003 9:35 PM CDT Hey everyone, Julia's picture is just wonderful. I really liked the three girls. I miss you all and we must get together soon, you are always in my thoughts and prayers. If ever anything just call. Love, hugs, kisses and prayers, prayers, prayers. Amy, David, Zack Amy Drahusz - Monday, June 23, 2003 8:06 PM CDT May God be with you and your family. Julia will always be in my prayers. Just go one day at a time and don't lose faith in God. Take care. Hung Nguyen - Monday, June 23, 2003 11:07 AM CDT Thinking of you often Michael Buebel (friend of Judy's) - Monday, June 23, 2003 10:33 AM CDT Hey Jules.... come on over and play some more basketball with the kids. You know you (and your family) can come whenever they want. Keep up the good work!! We Love you!! Judy Rogalsky <jrogalsky1@pghboe.net> Pgh, PA usa - Monday, June 23, 2003 8:46 AM CDT I like reading about Julia's day and how she's doing. Judy, you and your family are in my thoughts often. I hope I have as much courage as you if I find my self in similar circumstances. Hugs! trace cade <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Sunday, June 22, 2003 10:50 PM CDT Julia is beautiful!!! What great pictures- on the opening page and in the album. It is always amazing to me to see the smiles on children's faces!! And you cannot help but smile yourself. I wish you more and more smiles!!! Marissa [friend of Mary's :)] Marissa Barrera <missy407@hotmail.com> Boca Raton, Fl - Sunday, June 22, 2003 11:46 AM CDT Wow! What a beautiful little angel Julia is! Thank you for providing a picture of her. I just wanted to say that I am praying for Julia and hope the gelcaps help with the swiper juice! Laura's MRI is next Wednesday. Sometimes I feel nervous but I also know that I MUST be patient, it took a long time for her tumor to develop so I cannot expect it to immediately dissapear (although how great would that be!) With love, Vanessa and Laura (princess to her dad!) Vanessa Rothbard <vanessarothbard@worldnet.att.net> Saratoga, CA USA - Sunday, June 22, 2003 10:28 AM CDT Keeping Julia in our thoughts and prayers. Much Peace Prayers and HOPE for a cure for all childhood cancers Ruthie (Seth's mommy) www.caringbridge/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com> North Palm Beach, Fl - Sunday, June 22, 2003 6:53 AM CDT I am so glad that you can enjoy your beautiful daughters smile again, What a beautiful brave girl you are sweetie. I will pray that you continue to get better and have only good days from now on. Take care and keep giving out your beautiful smiles they touch my heart and make me smile to!! Nicole Wanke <nicole54660@msn.com> Tomah, WI - Saturday, June 21, 2003 11:20 PM CDT Hi to all the J's== Just checked the web site and read all the entry's. Great Pictures. Hope all is two steps forward by the time you read this. You know that you are always in our prayers & thoughts. Love to all... Andrea & Mitch <andreazober@msn.com> Munhall, PA USA - Saturday, June 21, 2003 10:52 PM CDT Hi Judy and Julia, I love the picture,everyone is right you look like a little angel, but that's not a surprise because I believe you are, and you have one of your own watching over you. Judy you know where I am anytime. Love you guys, Peg Peg Smith <bobnpeg8@cs.com> Duquesne, Pa USA - Saturday, June 21, 2003 7:28 PM CDT Judy, Glad you finally heard from the doctor's office. Let me know what they say on Monday! Hope you get rid of that cold quick! Sorry I had to change tonight's plans. Hi Julia, Glad to hear you had a better day today! Thinking of you always! I will see you tomorrow! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pa - Saturday, June 21, 2003 6:32 PM CDT Hi Julia, Greetings from the other side of the big ocean. You are very, very cute and I am sure you are strong enough to beat that monster in your head with the "Swiper Juice" and God´s help. I will pray for you. Andrea Kröv, Germany - Friday, June 20, 2003 2:46 PM CDT Hi Judy, Julia is a beautiful little girl. If you have been looking at the support group, many of the kids are experiencing what Julia is, including my son Elijah. Hang in there. God is going to work a miracle in Julia, and so many of these other children. Protocel has been a scary ride for us, but this is the path God chose for us, and we will ride it through. I hope that God quickens his work on Julia, and she is back to playing and having a great time with her family, as all these kids should. You are in our prayers. Be Blessed Craig and Julie Levine <www.caringbridge.org/il/elijah> Taylorville, IL USA - Friday, June 20, 2003 11:25 AM CDT Hey Julia, your site is the coolest!!! I can't wait to show Isabella her friend's pic on the computer! We'll see you soon! Lot's of love! Lisa Lisa <lforsthoffer@hotmail.com> Pgh, PA USA - Friday, June 20, 2003 10:22 AM CDT Hello Judy and Family, I found a link to your site from Seth's page and have been sitting here reading about Julia. What a beautiful little girl and I'm praying she is going to beat this awful cancer monster. If you think Julia would enjoy a virtual online quilt made just for her, please come visit our site and put in a request for one. We are a group of volunteers who make these beautiful online quilts for special children who could use some extra smiles. We'd be honored to make Julia one. You can just click on the card I'm leaving and it will take you to our site so you can see what we do. :) I will be back to visit and in the meantime, am keeping you all in my prayers. Jean Ilderton Quilts of Love  Jean - Quilts of Love <jean@quiltsoflove.com> Tucson, AZ - Friday, June 20, 2003 2:49 AM CDT You are always in our prayers. We hope that everything will be okay. Roberta States <bobbiem23@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA United States - Thursday, June 19, 2003 9:04 PM CDT Hi Levy Family...You have all been in my thoughts and prayers since Joey C. told me Julia was ill. What a beautiful child! She seems to be doing better; thank God!! I am so glad you sent me the link to this site Judy, now I can keep updated on Julia's wonderful progress!! I will continue to keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers..God Bless...Carol Carol Finley <cafin@msn.com> pittsburgh, PA USA - Thursday, June 19, 2003 6:54 PM CDT Hi Julia! and Julia's beautiful family. You are an inspiration and truly a light to the nations! My thoughts and my prayers are with you and i ask for yours in return. I look at your picture and i see little angel blessing her family and blessing all of us that have the privilege to see you and read about you thru the internet. I am a friend of a friend and i am very thankful to him for pointing me in your direction. God Bless all of you. "Expect the Lord; do what is right: and let thy heart take courage; and wait thou for the Lord." Roy Ramirez <lhorn4life@yahoo.com> Dallas, TX USA - Thursday, June 19, 2003 2:50 PM CDT Hey Almond, I love you!! That's a gorgeous picture of a peanut on the front page. :) Keep your spirits up sweetie, we're all praying for you to get better real quick!! We love you very much! Aunt Walnut <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley , UT USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 11:53 PM CDT Judy, I think about you guys everyday. Today I was talking to one of my daughters about Julia and this site you created. Now you all are in her thoughts, too. Sending you some strenthening vibes! Hugs, trace trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario Canada - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 11:25 PM CDT Your daughter Julia is just beautiful. I've been to your site a few times now and have wondered what she looked like. I wish you the best with everything and will keep you and your family in my thought. Danielle Santa Clarita, CA USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 5:50 PM CDT Hi Julia and Judy! i'm so glad you made this site so it will be easier to "visit" in cyberspace! Hugs and kisses to Julia. Hang in there Judy Luv, MB mb <mbsalama@wpahs.org> pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 3:14 PM CDT Judy, Julia is in my prayers as well as you and your family. She is such a brave little young lady. My thoughts are with you. Gina Sacco Pittsburgh, paa USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 11:11 AM CDT Julia, the definition of bravery is: having or showing courage under difficult or dangerous conditions. You are the bravest little girl Julia! David Chetlin <davie@ev1.net> Plano, TX USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 8:28 AM CDT Julia, you are in my prayers. May God be at your side and look after you and keep you in his love. Mark Sherer <MarkSherer@webtv.net> Redlands , Ca. USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 10:51 PM CDT My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I've been hearing about you from Mary. Many hugs to you all. Tiffany Roddy AL - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 9:18 PM CDT Hi Julia! You are such a beautiful girl! I have a daughter named Hayley and she is 5 too. I am an online friend of Mary's and wanted you to know that you have me and my family pulling for you too! Hayley says hi Julia! Cheryl, Brian, Caitlin and Hayley Martin <bcmartin70@hotmail.com> Calgary , Alberta Canada - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 8:45 PM CDT LOVE the picture on the front page. Beautiful little girl. I will tell you kids remember everything. I was reading your page and remembering things like that with Seth. You may think they are not paying attention or will remember BUT they take it all in. Keeping your sweet little Julia in our prayers Much Peace Prayers and HOPE for a cure for all childhood cancers Ruthie (Seth's mommy) www.caringbridge/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com> North Palm Beach, Fl - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 8:44 PM CDT HI! Just wanted to say hi and tell you that my prayers are with Julia, she is prettier than a girl should be! TOM WILSON <TOM.WILSON@TWCMAINE.COM> ME USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 8:19 PM CDT Julia and family.I heard of you through a online"friend" Mary. Julia is just beautiful .My heart and prayers go out to you.I have a 5 year old too.I can't imagine how this feels. I pray miss Julia lives a long and fulfilled life! Evette Mass <skyelar01@msn.com> Westland, MICHIGAN USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 6:21 PM CDT Without faith, it is IMPOSSIBLE to please Him. Faith is believing The Word and not the evidence. My prayer is that a living vessel will deliver the truth which Satan has kept hidden. GOD wants you well. You are His special creation with a special purpose and destiny. The love of our Lord Jesus, One of His A friend of a friend Houston, TX USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 6:07 PM CDT Hello Julia you are so beautiful. I am very happy to read your update. You keep making progress sweet girl. You are in my prayers and thoughts... lots of love... Ana ramalho - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 5:38 PM CDT She is an absolute little angel!! I pray for her and your whole family always. I can only imagine how hard this is for you all. May the Lord bless you with His peace and healing. Ann Mary's friend from H&F <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 5:35 PM CDT Hi Julia! You don't know me but I know someone that your mom knows. Amy Chapman. Your mom might know my mom. Her name is Reesa Rosenthal (Trachtenberg). I just wanted to say that your a beautiful girl and that I'm praying for you. :)... Love, Laura Laura Rosenthal <swirlykidusa@hotmail.com> Pittsburgh, PA United States - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 5:30 PM CDT Judy, that smile could charm the rattles off a rattlesnake! What a little trooper she is. Kids are like that, though, aren't they, sometimes stronger than us. Hugs to you. trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford,, Ontario, Canada - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 3:59 PM CDT Oh Mary is right, she is a beautie! kt Sunfield, MI USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 2:45 PM CDT What a cutie!! Awesome picture and great news that she is remembering these things. Mary keeps us updated on your daughter and you are all in our thoughts! Samantha <sletoile@msn.com> Barrie, ONT Canada - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 2:37 PM CDT God bless you sweetie!! Our prayers are with you. Dr. Bill Schaffer North Huntingdon, pa - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 2:27 PM CDT That is amazing that she remembered about the toy! Good for her! The picture looks awesome! Can't wait to see more pictures! Julia, Hannah had alot of fun with you today - hope you had fun also! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, Pa - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 2:25 PM CDT You are in my thoughts and prayers. Chantelle McManus Pa USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 11:08 AM CDT May God be with you and your family. Mike Smail Ford City, PA Armstrong - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 9:56 AM CDT I'm Julia's uncle - the big burpah! Allan Haffner <ahaffner@attbi.com> Exeter, NH USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 1:04 AM CDT Hey Juliebuliestromboliequacamoliea, We'll see you soon sweetie. Keep up the good work and give mommy and daddy a big kiss and hug for all their good work! We miss you and will be with you soon. Hugs and kisses to all of you from all of us! xoxoxo Aunt Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 11:13 PM CDT We'll place her on our prayer list at church. Hope things go well for you and your family Amber Long Fairchance, PA USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 7:30 PM CDT We're so glad to hear that my little cousin is doing so well. The whole family has been through some very bad times and you need something good to happen. With prayer and G-d's help, it will. I wish you only good things. Helene & Marty Helene & Marty Harris <queenheleneh@aol.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 7:03 PM CDT Dear Judy, I heard about you from my friend Mary Kitchen. I was Zack's nanny when he was a baby. I guess I still would be if we hadn't had to move! We lost our son to neuroblastoma in 1990. He would have been 20 on May 25th. I know how hard it is to have a child with a life threatening diagnosis, and dealing with chemo and radiation. I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you and your precious Julia. And the rest of your family as well.I believe in the power of prayer. I will check in on your page again to see how you are. Karen Starbuck <KRStarbuck@gowebway.com> St. Charles, Mo USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 6:18 PM CDT GREAT NEWS!!!...she's definitely in our prayers! Mark Matesich <mmatesich@lg.com> Bethel Park, PA USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 3:08 PM CDT Keeping Julia and your family in the thoughts of me and mine. Dean - Monday, June 16, 2003 12:43 AM CDT My family will keep you in our prayers. Scott Robinson Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 11:24 AM CDT Thank you for the link to "Caringbridge". Your all in my daily prayers. I'll stop by your house next time I'm in the neighborhood! Love ya! Jeff (TJ's Dad) <Phishplugger@comcast.net> Freedom, PA USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 9:41 AM CDT This very dear friend (thanks) is so grateful for the baby shower. It was such a special evening. Judy, you are a wonderful, special person. Thank you Julia for the hugs, and sitting and talking with me. I really enjoyed our little chat. You always make me smile. You have to come play with Hannah soon - she misses you! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA - Sunday, June 15, 2003 6:52 PM CDT Julia is a very brave little girl and our prayers are with her and her family everyday. David, Amy and Zachary Drahusz - Thursday, June 12, 2003 2:04 PM CDT Hello Judy and Julia I just linked on to your site through another caringbridge site. just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you and sending positive thoughts your way. Judy, you may want to check out my brothers friends site. www.paulcuddy.org There is a link to one of the top brain tumor doctors in NY. Worth reading the story. Best wishes and lots of love Ana Ramalho <ascigana@aol.com> Lake Worth , FL - Wednesday, June 11, 2003 7:56 PM CDT HI SUGARPLUM!!....ENJOYED LUNCH W/U TODAY & DON'T FORGET TOMORROW'S LUNCH. LOVE YA..GRANDMA (PASTA) HI YUM YUM.. WAS GLAD TO SEE YOU & JACOB THIS MORNING.. & LATER TODAY.. I ALWAYS FEEL BETTER WHEN I HAVE YOUR HUGS..HOPE U HAVE FUN WITH GRANDMA(PASTA) TOMORROW.... LOVE YOU..XXXOOOXXX.PAPA(PIZZA) PAPA & GRANDMA <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Wednesday, June 11, 2003 5:17 PM CDT Judy, Thanks for sharing your journey with all of us. I know it is not easy to go through it over and over. It is awesome to see how many people all over the WORLD are praying for Julia! Truly Awesome. ((HUGS))) to you all. Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Wednesday, June 11, 2003 12:09 AM CDT Hi Judy: My name is Vanessa and my daughter's name is Laura. Laura is 7 and was diagnosed Nov. 02 with a brain stem tumor. She only had 6 weeks of radiation which ended January 3rd. She began Protocel March 15th. I just wanted you to know since we do not have a web-site. Laura is doing fantastic - her tumor was 4cm at the time of diagnosis and is now 1cm. She has no symptoms whatsoever; you would never know anything is wrong with her. I have no doubt at all that God will heal her with Protocel's help. I also wanted to make sure you knew about "Gelcaps". Laura would vomit taking just 1/8th teaspoon of Protocel in a full glass of juice. We fixed this by putting the Protocel in a Gel-cap that she easily swallows (you can buy these at any health food store). If you want to say hi please do so, I'd love to hear from you. Your friend, Vanessa Rothbard Vanessa Rothbard <vanessarothbard@worldnet.att.net> Saratoga, CA USA - Tuesday, June 10, 2003 11:49 PM CDT hello to all the Levy family. it is good to know that julia is doing well. we always include Julia in our prayers. we hope everyone is doing well . love to all. s & a margolis <aemshm@aol.com> presto, pa usa - Tuesday, June 10, 2003 9:01 PM CDT We love you guys. Will keep praying. It works. Andy and Cindy Toth <Cindy.Toth@vai-inc.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Tuesday, June 10, 2003 5:59 AM CDT Hey Cashew!!! Keep letting Swiper do the job and do it real well!!! Keep smiling darlin' and we'll see you soon. We love you!! Aunt Jodi, Scott, Kyra and Cullen Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Monday, June 9, 2003 10:49 PM CDT GO SWIPER, GO SWIPER! GO JULIA! GO JULIA! I can;t wait to hear how great a job the swiper juice is doing! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, June 9, 2003 5:22 PM CDT GREAT NEWS, GOD IS GOOD DOM AND CAROL MARASCO <MARASCO412@AOL.COM> PITTSBURGH, PA USA - Monday, June 9, 2003 11:08 AM CDT Dear Levy family, We are so fortunate to have the pleasure of seeing all of you almost everyday. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about Julia and pray for her. It is wonderful to see how great Julia looks and to see her improve everyday. SHe has come a long way!!! Keep up the good work Jules. We love you! The Rogalsky's Judy Rogalsky pgh, pa usa - Monday, June 9, 2003 8:30 AM CDT Hi Julia, and Levy Family, I am so glad to hear you are doing well and that you spent the day with your dad. This web site is great. We can now keep up with your progress all the time. Our prayers are always with you. Keep up the great work sweetie, Love, Joanne, Mark, Nicholas and Brandon Joanne Adragna <Joanne. Adragna@abreon.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Monday, June 9, 2003 6:45 AM CDT Hi Julia:) We have just found your site....we will be PUSHing for you and will come to visit from time to time. I think you will find it a wonderful experience to be part of both the Caringbridge family and the Protocel family...you are now our second 'girl' that we will be following, the other is Pam (33 yr old mommy), and nine little guys; Zman, Jake, Josh, Nicholas, Luke, Jeffrey, Sam, Elijah and Dylan...unfortunately, precious little darling Jalen lost his battle with AML this past week, he had recently started Protocel. He will be so missed:( but forever loved. We look forward to hearing your news from Mommy and seeing what kind of antics you and your siblings are getting up too!! Sooo happy to hear you were able to spend some quality time with Daddy!! Daddy's are GREAT! (Mommys too, of course!) Big hugs, Tracey, Steve, Quinn (8) and Callum (4) xoxoxo Hugs and Hope Club <traceyhewison@shaw.ca> Calgary, AB, Canada, - Sunday, June 8, 2003 11:32 PM CDT Julia, Our little angel, we love you very much. Andy, Cathy, Joshua, Nathaniel, and Zachary Cathy Opalko <copalko@aol.com> Pittsburgh, Pa usa - Sunday, June 8, 2003 9:37 PM CDT Hi. I just found your site. I'll join you in praying for that miracle. God bless you. Laura Grand Rapids, MI - Sunday, June 8, 2003 9:18 PM CDT Hi Julia, It's great to hear you are doing better,you will always be in my prayers. Peg Smith <bobnpeg8@cs.com> Duquesne, Pa - Sunday, June 8, 2003 8:04 PM CDT As with some of the other entries, My husband and I are also friends with Mary. We will add Julia to our prayers as well as to the prayer basket at our church. God Bless. Tricia & Rob Yurasits <rtra1221@yahoo.com> S. Setauket,, NY USA - Sunday, June 8, 2003 8:03 PM CDT My thoughts and prayers are with Julia and family Ken Margolis <kenmargolis@yahoo.com> Detroit, MI USA - Sunday, June 8, 2003 2:41 PM CDT Hi Judy, I am a friend of Marissa's who also signed your guestbook. We lost our son Seth to Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. We will add Julia to our prayer list. Welcome to the Caringbrdge Community! It is huge and it is awesome!! I can give you numersous other sites of kids with brain tumors who are trying diffirent options. www.caringbridge.org/fl/jeffery www.caringbridge.org/fl/zachowland There are more. Just ask me or the moms at the above site and we will connect you with whom ever you want. You find this community very supportive. Please visit Seth's site. Check out our pictures. Hope you can add some to yours as everyone loves to put faces with names. If you believe in prayer this is another awesome place to be. Seth was diagnosed June 7th 2002 and died November 30th 2002 from the most treatable curable cancer. So hold on to HOPE because you never know Julia could be the child to prove them wrong when it comes to diag. My father was diag with lung cancer June of 2002 as well and died May 25th 2003. We have a bad year to say the least. Much Peace Prayers and HOPE for a cure for all childhood cancers. I will add Julia to my "please visit list" next time I update. Seth's mommy forever Ruthie (Seth's mommy) www.caringbridge/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com> North Palm Beach, Fl - Sunday, June 8, 2003 12:27 AM CDT Hey Julia, We love you and miss you so much. We are so glad you and daddy got to spend the day together. We keep praying for you and can't wait to see you. Here are tons of kisses from me and dean and T.J. Love you little princess. Aunt sandi, Dean and TJ sandi jorgenson <faithful42day@hotmail.com> Annandale, MN USA - Sunday, June 8, 2003 10:41 AM CDT I am also a freind of Mary's. I too have been praying for Julia and your family for awhile now. I will contiue to pray and send warm wishes. So glad you did the web page. Marissa Barrera <msbarrera@adelphia.net> Boca Raton, Fl - Sunday, June 8, 2003 10:26 AM CDT I am another friend of Mary's from the H & F board. I have been praying for Julia and your whole family since we heard. I continue to pray for God's healing grace to touch Julia and for His peace to touch your family's hearts through this difficult time. Ann <mom910@hotmail.com> Freeport, NY USA - Sunday, June 8, 2003 9:07 AM CDT WHO LOVES JULIA MORE THAN PIZZA? WHO LOVES JULIA MORE THAN CHOCOLATE? JULIA KNOWS... PAPA(PIZZA) & GRANDMA(CHOCLATE) <HERMUNIFORM@WEBTV.NET> PITTSBURGH, PA ALLEGHENY - Saturday, June 7, 2003 11:18 PM CDT Hey Peanuthead!! It's sooooo wonderful to hear that you are doing well. Keep up the good work!! We look forward to being with you next month!! So glad to hear you spent quality time with Daddy! I know that made mom and dad very happy. Hugs and kisses to you all. Love, Aunt Peanuthead Jodi <sckycujo@allwest.net> Oakley, UT USA - Saturday, June 7, 2003 10:59 PM CDT Mary has so graciously been keeping us at Health & Friendships up to date on Julia. Just wanted you to know that there are many of us, praying in our own ways, for Julia. Trace <smikeandsmike@sympatico.ca> Brantford, Ontario, Canada - Saturday, June 7, 2003 10:35 PM CDT WooHoo! So happy to see this page! So glad Julia had a fun day with her Dad! So thrilled she is continuing to do so well! Love you all! Mary <zackysmom@city-net.com> Pittsburgh, PA USA - Saturday, June 7, 2003 7:55 PM CDT Click here to sign the guestbook. |
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