Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:16 PM CDT

Hello--

Please say prayers for the Grosclaude family as they begin the awful, awful journey of life after the loss of their Jordan. Jordan passed today around noon. As we all know, there isn't much that can be said to comfort someone at this time, but they may find some knowing that so many out there are sending strength and prayers their way.


http://www2.caringbridge.org/ia/jordangrosclaude/

Thanks everyone!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004 10:27 AM CDT

7 years.

On August 15th, we will celebrate the amazing life of Zachary. I will muster up the strength to smile, but in my heart I will be aching. For a child that was so amazing to be called to heaven when he was only four, was just too soon. I know there is a greater plan, I just wish that our plan would have trumped God's plan. I have no words of wisdom, no incredible tidbits of strength, just a few words of how much we miss our boy, and how much we praise his life. I would love to have known Zachary as he got older. I am sure he would have kept us busy, had us in stitches with his silly way, and had us loving him (if possible) more and more each day.

I know that if he had gotten the chance to enjoy many birthdays on earth, he sure would have made a difference. Altho, he already has.

Our lives will forever be better because we were his parents. So many people get the chance to be parents, I sure hope they know how lucky they really are.

So, Happy Birthday our cutest boy. I hope you know everyday how much we love you and how much we will miss you everyday of our lives.

Celebrate with your friends in heaven like you've never celebrated before.

We love you honey!!

Friday, July 30, 2004 12:40 AM CDT

Today I want to encourage everyone who visits Zach's page to take a moment and visit another page of a little boy and his family who could use a whole bunch of prayers. His name is Jordan, and altho we have never met him or his family, I have grown to know them through their webpage. He has been battling for 3 years now, and needs some extra special love and prayers sent his way.

http://www.caringbridge.org/ia/jordangrosclaude/

It' so unfair for children to have to go this beast we call cancer. It's also unfair for those mommies and daddies, grammas and grampas, brothers, sister, aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends to have to bear the heavy heart of losing a child they love so deeply. Our lives will never be the same. We have been so blessed with a wonderful family and great friends to help us through our days.

We found out this past week that my sister and her husband are expecting their first child in March. My reaction was not what I expected. My mind was so very happy for them, but my heart ached for my child. My emotions rose to the surface and I couldn't contain my tears. I asked my mom what was wrong with me---why am I not happy as heck right now for Becky and Trent? I felt I was being awfully selfish. She said "Honey, we will always have that reaction. It's because Zach is not here. We just have to have our ten minutes of feeling bad and then we carry on." It was the best tidbit I had heard. I was not jealous of Becky and Trent. I was just envious because I know how much joy and love that little boy brought into our lives--and how much we miss it. They will be great parents. We can't wait to meet our new niece or nephew.

Anyway, please if you can spare a couple minutes, stop by Jordan's webpage. They could use the support.

Love to everyone.

Scott and Amy

Wednesday, July 14, 2004 12:47 AM CDT

Hello Everyone!!!

Well summer has finally arrived!! We have been blessed with warm weather and sunshine for a few days in a row!! Wow!! It's about time. We hope you are all enjoying your summer and able to spend time with those you care about.

We have made a few trips to Bemidji this summer. We are lucky that our families and friends have been able to visit us here too.

We are starting to get out "new home" projects finally underway. The deck and fence are being constructed as I type. Finally!!! We will sure enjoy having a deck to sit on and enjoy the weather. (Now watch, it will rain non-stop until winter).

Scott and my dad are out enjoying the day by playing a round of golf. Unfortunately I have to be inside on such a nice day!!

Anyway, as always, we sure miss Zach. Not a day goes by that we don't think about the activities he would be in and the friends he would have made. We would have loved it all.

Take care everyone. Tell each other how much you care.

Scott & Amy

Monday, June 21, 2004 3:04 PM CDT

Father's Day...........

My sadness is doubled on days like these. I grieve for the loss I have endured in Zach's death, but especially today, I am so saddened for Scott's loss. He was such a wonderful father to Zachary. No matter what I did, it paled to what Zach's daddy could do. In Zach's eyes, Scott hung the moon. In Scott's eyes, Zach did the same. It was such a special bond. One that a mother could almost be envious of. I found such joy in watching Scott and Zach interact. They thoroughly enjoyed each other's company. It was so comfortable. One of Zach's favorite things was to sit with Scott and watch him play his computer game. Zach would just sit there, motionless, in Scott's lap, totally engulfed in the game. I know how much Scott enjoyed that time with Zach, and how desperately he misses that.

Scott has never been the outward, emotional guy. But with Zach, all those things were different. He wasn't afraid to put his heart out there at any given moment to make sure Zach knew how much he loved him. It was automatic and no thought was needed for Scott to express his love for his boy. Zachary felt the same. I know how much we miss him, and I know Zach's misses us. We certainly have a wonderful reunion waiting for us in heaven. We can't wait.

Take care everyone. Tell your loved ones how important they are.

Scott & Amy

Monday, May 24, 2004 4:23 PM CDT

"I wish I was a different boy!"

We were finally out of the hospital after the initial diagnosis and surgery and spending some sleepless nights in the hotel room. Zach would periodically have zips of pain through his abdomen and they would especially hit him during the night. He would wake up and be so shaken by them that it would take us all a bit to get back to sleep. Finally after one particulary long night, Zach woke up and cried "I wish I was a different boy!" I was so shocked I didn't respond right away. I looked at Scott and tears filled my eyes. I think about that little phrase alot. I think about the what ifs......what if I got pregnant one hour later than I did, maybe my child would still be here. What if I named him something different, maybe my child would still be here. What if I stayed home and didn't work, maybe my child would still be here. BUT, if all those things would have changed something, then I would not have had my Zach and even though he left us much earlier than we ever expected, I would not change a thing. It was meant to be. For whatever reason, it was meant to happen the way it did. He was our greatest joy and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

Always, Always, appreciate what you have. Even if things don't go the way you want or expect, appreciate what you have.

We love you all!!! Scott and Amy

Friday, May 7, 2004 12:16 AM CDT

Mother's Day. A day that I celebrated everyday Zach was alive. I was so honored to be Zach's mommy.

Now I'm not kidding myself or anyone else. There were days I was less than thrilled to be dragging the screaming, tantrum-throwing, arm-crossing little critter out of the store, but those moments were so few that really all I can do is giggle about them now. He had a way about him. It's hard to explain, but those who knew him, well, they get what I'm talking about. The kid didn't have a thousand action figures for nothing. I believe most call it "wrapped around your finger" syndrome. Most parents experience it. I think we are the poster parents for it!

Mother's Day is such a mixed pot of emotions for me. Foremost is my feeling of sad. Altho, that is everyday without him, but of course Mother's Day is to celebrate being a mom. It's hard to celebrate when the reason you are a mom isn't here. What I wouldn't give to get the homemade card they made in art class. And yes, I know that I will always be a mom, but not being able to physically share that with Zach will forever be hard. I try to remind myself how lucky I am and how blessed I was to have been a parent. As I have said before, so many wish to be parents and never get that chance. There is nothing nor will there be anything like that again in my life.

Loving your child is so different than any other love you will know. It's consuming. That love is just so deeply rooted, that those feelings and thoughts just don't go away. With time it has gotten less bitter, but not less sad.

Anyway, I want to celebrate that I was lucky to have been Zach's mom. I want to celebrate that my mom is wonderful. And celebrate that Scott's mom is great. We all raised great kids.

Take care everyone. Celebrate everyday like it's mother's day.

Love Always, Scott and Amy

Monday, March 29, 2004 4:31 PM CST

** Note***

April 1, 2004

Please say a special prayer for the family that I work for. They have suffered another devastating blow. Karen, by bosses sister, passed away from complications with cancer. This family just lost their brother Wayne to a stroke just a couple months ago. Life is just so harsh sometimes. Our thoughts are with them.


Hello Everyone!! I hope this entry finds you all happy and healthy. We are doing well at the Ness household. Our new puppy, Maggie, is growing like a weed and becoming quite the girl. She and Jake (our yellow lab) have become best buddies and it's a bit like a circus at our house!!!

I want to mention a sweet girl named Savannah who lost her battle to Wilms Tumor this past weekend. This angel fought a tough battle for over 3 years! I just can't believe how wonderful her family and friends have been. I have followed their story for a while now, and it's just amazing. I know Zach and Andrew and Tucker and AJ, so many of our wonderful angels met her with open arms. They will take care of her until she sees her family again.

I wrote a note to a friend who is struggling. I thought I would share a bit of what I wrote because it ended up making even more sense than I thought it would.

"The loss of your child is like having a piece of a puzzle missing. Everytime you look at the puzzle, all you notice is the missing piece. You get mad that that piece is missing. You frantically try to find it. You just know that if you could get that piece fitted into the puzzle, everything would be perfect. As we all know, that particular piece will never be there. So, we must look at the puzzle differently. Try to appreciate the pieces that are there and let those pieces-- your family, friends, children, pets, maybe even your favorite latte gal, help ease the pain of that missing piece. Trust me, it will help. You will never not miss that missing piece, but you will learn to see and appreciate the supporting pieces even more."

Anyway, enough of my "deep thoughts" for today!! :)

Take care everyone. We love you!!

Scott and Amy

Wednesday, March 10, 2004 2:03 PM CST

Lonely, lonely, lonely.......that is how we feel without our boy here. It's such a strange feeling. Just a hollowness that stays with you. You go through the motions of everyday life. You get up, go to work, chat with your friends & family, check your e-mail, you go home, have supper, play with the dogs, go to bed....it's like a machine. It's just such a weird feeling. A sad, sad feeling. It's been over two years and the sorrow is still so prominent. Altho, we are able to smile and laugh alot more than cry and be bitter. It's just time. For everyone the time factor is different. We just had so much fun being Zach's parents that it's hard to think about not enjoying that further into our lives.

Well, as spring is nearing, we are anxioux to get outside and enjoy the sunshine. I can't wait to plant trees and flowers in our yard.

We are excited to head to Minneapolis for a few days for the college hockey tournaments. The guys will hit the games, and I will enjoy a few days with my wonderful friend Machelle. It will be a great time. We can't wait!

We are also excited that my dad will be moving up here in April. He finally decided to take the plunge. We look forward to more family coming here soon.

Take care everyone. Tell those you love how wonderful they are. Hold them close.

Love, Scott and Amy

Thursday, February 12, 2004 8:45 AM CST

**Ok, so I tried to upload the new photo and it isn't working, I will try again later. Sorry!!

Hello everyone! I hope all is well with you and your families. We haven't been terribly active. During the winter we literally turn in to couch potatoes. It's sad when I have a show I must watch on every night of the week. I can blame the weather, or the fact that it gets dark so soon in the evening that it's hard to do anything, or numerous other excuses, but the simple fact - LAZY!!! It's just the pathetic truth!!

We are ready for spring. Although we love to snowmobile, we are ready for nicer weather. We have added a new member to the Ness Humane Society. We are the proud "parents" to Maggie, our Great Dane puppy. Yes, she will be the size of a pony when she gets bigger, but we are just thrilled to have her. She is black with white markings. Her brother Jake (our yellow lab) just loves her and is thrilled to have a big dog to romp and play with. Our cat Levi seems to like her too. He lets her maul him daily so I think they have bonded!

I have added one new picture to the photo album. It is a picture of Melanie riding Peti. Peti was my mare when Scott and I lived in Rapid City. When we got orders to Grand Forks, Melanie's mom, MaryAnn (one of my dearest friends) was gracious enough to keep Peti. Mel and Pet have rocked the barrel racing world and she won a purple ribbon at the 4H State Fair last year. I am so proud of Mel and excited that Pet is getting to do what she loves best. Run!

Well, we are excited to attend my sister's wedding this weekend. She and her fiance Trent are getting married on Valentine's Day. I know it will be a beautiful wedding and I hope they have a wonderful life together.

Anyway, that is about all I know today. I've been having a couple hard days of missing Zachers. I know he is with me and telling me not to worry, he is OK. We just wish he was here in person, laughing, joking, being his crazy, charming self. We miss that little punkin so.....

Take care everyone! Remember to tell those that are close to you how much you care!!!

Love, Scott and Amy

Friday, January 30, 2004 2:44 PM CST

Frozen greetings from Minnesota!!! It is so cold here, my eyes freeze when I walk outside. It was 40 degrees below zero this morning. Yes, I said below zero. Broke the record. What a thing to be remembered for.

We have some sad news from our family. Scott's grandma passed away today. She had been suffering from Alzheimer's the past couple years and she fell ill this week and just couldn't recover. We are so sad that she passed, but are very comforted knowing that her welcome to heaven was something special. Not only was grandpa Charlie waiting for her, but the cutest boy was there too. I'm sure Zach will give great-grandma a run for her money!!! Scott is hoping to head to Arizona to be with his dad and family for the services.

With this weather we sure haven't been doing much. Even our poor dog, Jake, doesn't want to be out for more than a minute. We are definitely looking forward to spring. With this cold, I wonder why we stay here? Well, must be something in the water to keep us here!!! It's a northern thing!!!

Take care everyone!! We love you.

Scott and Amy

Monday, January 26, 2004 4:44 PM CST

Well did we ever get some snow!!! 15 inches!!! Of course, we had the snowmobiles out over the weekend. Zach loved to go snowmobiling. The very first time we were going to take him out, he wouldn't put on his helmet. "No way!" were his words of choice. Then Scott told me to take off with him as soon as he scrunched his helmet on his head. I did, and Zach was hooked from then on. It was a great thing we could do together as a family. We miss that so....

The new year has started off pretty typical as any other, work, pay bills, work, pay bills, it's just a never-ending cycle. Oh well. We wouldn't know what to do if we didn't have to pay bills!!!

We are looking forward to spring (even though we love the snow) so we can start landscaping our yard. We are anxious to plant some trees, get our deck put on, and meet some of our neighbors. It is just so cold that no one is outside or wanting to do anything.

We have enjoyed weekends with friends and family. Our friends from Bemidji were over recently with their son, Riley and we had a great time. My dad was just here this past weekend and we enjoyed watching the Sioux hockey team play the Minnesota Gophers. Big rivalry!!! Especially since my dad is a Gophers fan and we are Sioux fans. Makes for an interesting time watching the games!!! We are looking forward to more family weekends soon.

Anyway, that about caps off our past couple weeks. Sadly, not alot of excitement. We hope things are well with you and yours.

Take care. Love those kids like crazy. Make sure you tell those that are important to you how much you care.

Love, Scott and Amy

Saturday, January 10, 2004 9:00 PM CST

Greetings friends and family!!

Well, we are finally getting some snow here (and it is staying). Scott is loving it because he can go snowmobiling. There are a bunch of trails around our house so it makes it easy to go for a ride.

We haven't been up to much. Our lives are relatively boring. It would have been fun, if Zach was still here, to run him to all the fun activities I am sure he would have been involved with.

We have a few folks we'd like you all to keep in your thoughts and prayers. The wonderful people that I work for are going through a tough time right now. One of the brothers suffered a severe stroke last week and is in Rochester. The prognosis doesn't look very positive and extra prayers definetely are appreciated. Also, there is a little girl, Savannah, that is struggling with Wilm's Tumor. Things are progressing rather fast and they are starting a new chemo very soon. As we have all been there, we know how devastating it is and hope for the miracle they deserve.

We would also like to keep those that have lost loved ones in our hearts. No matter how long it has been, or how recent it has been, the pain is still ever present. The joy that our children brought to our lives was so big, that it is hard to think that will ever be filled. I know that we must move forward and that Zach would hate to have us feeling so sad. He always loved to laugh (especially when he stole Grampa's Pepsi) and got very concerned when we were sad. It is my daily mission to follow through and be OK. At times it is very hard, but usually a little blip of his giggle will flit through my thoughts, and
**poof** a smile to my lips. We miss him so.

Don't ever hold back your feelings of sadness or your feelings of joy. It's all part of the "process". With each other, we will get throught his.

Take care everyone. We love you.

Scott and Amy

Saturday, December 27, 2003 9:32 PM CST

Hello All! Well it was sure a nice holiday! We had family over to our house this year! Yes, I actually cooked, and if you can believe it (those that know me well won't) I even baked cookies!! It was an amazing event!!! We talked of Zachary often during Christmas. He loved the hustle and bustle and would have enjoyed playing Santa's little elf in handing out gifts. It is hard not being able to enjoy it with him here.

We hope you all enjoyed your holidays too! As the new year is approaching, we are doing our yearly resolutions. Of course mine is (as always) to use that exercise equipment for what it is intended, not to hang clothes on!!

Work is keeping Scott and I busy. We have enjoyed having a few days off.

We are getting excited for what the new year will bring.

Anyway, as always, make sure your loved ones know they are loved. Take care. Scott and Amy

Monday, December 1, 2003 8:38 PM CST

Happy Holidays!

Well, 2 years. December 5, 2001 was a life changing event. Our life as we knew it would never be the same. We lost the most precious thing in our lives. How would we ever make it? Thank God for an unbelievable circle of support from friends and family. We were given a great gift when Zach was born. I didn't know for sure how we would adapt to parenthood, but Zach steered us in the right direction and we brought an unbelievable child in to the world. We were fortunate to have been blessed with such an easy child. His smile, that infectious giggle, and that sweet easy-going attitude touched so, so many. We would give anything to see that face again. I know that he is with all of us, guiding us through our days.

As we are nearing Christmas, I have found that it is hard to be in a store and not pick up something for his stocking, or think he would love that I'm going to get and try to wait until Christmas to give it to him. He had us so wrapped around his little finger it was crazy!

There was so much that we had hoped Zachary would have been able to experience. School, hockey, dances, graduation, weddings, kids....you can ask yourself over and over why our boy? There is just no answer that will ever satisfy that question. The only thing that we can do is trust God's plan and thank him for allowing us and trusting us enough to be Zach's family. Nobody could have loved him more.

We hope you all have a wonderful holiday. Hold your loved ones close. Make sure they know how much you love them and how important they are to you.

Blessings, Scott and Amy

Tuesday, October 28, 2003 7:03 PM CST

Ok. So this is the third time I have tried writing a new page. I think someone is playing a little trick or treat on me! Anyway, I thought it was time to put up some new pictures of the cutest boy. I hope you enjoy them.

The cold weather has arrived! The snow flakes (a few anyway) have fallen, and we are ready to go snowmobiling! Ok, I know we will have to wait for a bit, but we are ready! Zach loved the snow. He would get all bundled up and go play on the snowbanks. He loved to roll down the hills and make snow angels. How appropriate.

We are getting ready for the holidays. I think that we will be celebrating in our new house. Yeah! Amy gets to cook. My favorite thing! (NOT!) Thank goodness Scott likes to cook or we would be living on cereal and toast. Julia Childs I am not!!

It's hard to believe that we are nearing the 2nd year Zach has been gone. I don't refer to it as an anniversary, those are for celebrating, but rather a milestone. We have traveled many miles, and God willing, we will travel many more. We just wish our boy was here riding shotgun. Our friends, the Price's, are reaching that milestone too. Their Batman died just a couple of weeks before Zach did. I know we were meant to find each other and I know our fellas had something to do with it. We have made some wonderful friends through Caringbridge. I hope to be able to meet them someday.

As you enjoy the trick or treats, think of our little Batman flying with the kids and helping them on their way.

Hold tight to those you love. Take Care.

Love Always, Scott and Amy

Friday, October 10, 2003 7:58 PM CDT

Hello everyone! Well we made it in to our new house! Wow! What a busy day we had! Thank you to all who helped. We could not have done it without you. We are enjoying getting settled in. We are going to start working on finishing the basement so Scott can have his "guy room".

We know Zach would have loved moving in to a new house and having a new bedroom. He would have filled it with Batman, Spiderman, and whatever else he could hook us into buying for him! We were pretty weak when it came to him. So were his grandpa's and grandma's! He had this charm about him! You could tell him "Ok, we will go to Target, but we are just looking today, not buying." And sure enough, he would walk out with a toy. It was just crazy!! :)

We have heard of a few little ones that have bravely fought a losing battle with cancer. Please send up a prayer for the families that are asking the questions that we did. "What just happened to our perfect, storybook life?" and "Why us?"

As winter approaches, we are getting excited to ride our snowmobiles. It is one thing that we all could do as a family. Zach LOVED to ride. He would get all dressed in his snow gear, put on his helmet, and ride forever. Great, great memories. I know Scott enjoys riding with me, but I guarantee you he is anxious to ride with his best friend Matt, and my dad.

Well, as the holidays near, remember to thank God for what we have. I will always wonder why our boy, but I know the plan for Zach was bigger than we can imagine. He was here for a purpose, and I guess we were all quick studies and he was able to return to heaven alot sooner than planned.

Love your family and friends. Tell them everyday how important they are. A hug, a smooch, or a squeeze of the hand, it all is so very, very important.

Take care!! Love Always.

Scott and Amy

Wednesday, September 3, 2003 4:22 PM CDT

Happy Fall! Autumn is my absolute favorite time of the year. I just love the crisp weather, and the beautiful colors. Since my dad was razzing me about new pictures, I thought well at least I better put up a new journal entry, pictures will come later.

Our summer has been busy. We enjoyed a long weekend in Minneapolis with our friends Todd and Machelle and my dad. We went to the MN State Fair and to Valley Fair. We had a really nice time. I think that we have outgrown Valley Fair!! We remebered how much fun Zach had on the rides. I know that if he was still with us, we would be making a yearly trip to Valley Fair and enduring the rides like good parents!!

We are getting ready to move in to our first home. We are very excited! A little anxious but excited! We have always lived on military bases so we are very ready to have our own space. Zach loved it when we moved to a different house. I know he would be very excited to have a new room.

Scott and I celebrated our 12th Anniversary in August. It's amazing how fast time does go and how you can love someone more than you did the day you married them.

We hope the upcoming holidays are easy on those that have lost their loved ones and that their wonderful memories guide you through. Please pray for those that are still fighting the dreaded cancer that has turned so many lives upside down.

Always remember, enjoy today. You just never know what tomorrow might bring. Hug your friends and family and tell them how much they mean to you.

God Bless!

Scott and Amy

Monday, August 11, 2003 9:23 PM CDT

Hello our sunshine boy! Well, in just a few days you would be turning 6!! Wow! What we wouldn't give to be planning a super birthday party for you this weekend. We just miss you so much. Your wonderful smile, that incredible, infectious laugh, we miss it all, every bit. I just hope that you are with us and helping us through this weekend.

It is a bitter sweet one. I know that with you in heaven, you are enjoying a sweet life. One with no cancer, no medicines, and no pain. You are showering your love on all of us every single day. Making the days easier to handle without you here. A bitter one for us that you are not here on earth for us to love, kiss, hug and, laugh with.

I often wonder what kind of student you might be. Would you be getting ready to play hockey this winter like your daddy did? Or would you be a wonderful art student, or love to read books? Whatever you would have chose to do, you would have been fabulous at it.

We all miss you so much Zach. Your mommy, daddy, grandpa's and grandma's, aunts and uncles, cousins, and friends. There will always be a void in our lives until we see you again.

You are always in our thoughts and prayers sweetheart, and forever in our hearts.

Happy Birthday Honey. We love you.

Friday, July 18, 2003 11:34 PM CDT

Angel Wings
By: Tekla Steuart Taylor

Come to take me home
This sunny day
As I am borne up to
The heavens and the light
But don't despair, for
You and I will see each
Other again some sunny day
And love will guide us there

ŠTekla Steuart Taylor


We found this poem on a children's poem website. It is amazing what young ones say. How honest and pure it is. I know we will see Zach again on a sunny day. Until then, we will rememer the things he taught us and the love he gave us and we gave to him. There are nights that I cry for him and my heart just aches like never before. I know that every person that has lost someone special in their life thinks that it will never get better. Somedays it is, others it isn't. That's just the way it will be. We love you all! Take care, Scott and Amy

Thursday, June 26, 2003 9:12 PM CDT

A Child Loaned

"I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine," He said,
"For you to love the while he lives,
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back,
Take care of him for Me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you,
And should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories
As solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over,
In my search for teachers true.
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love,
Not think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take him back again?"

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for him,
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
And try to understand."

--Author Unknown--


We love you so Zach!
We miss every little thing about you. I know you are doing BIG things in heaven and taking care of all your "kids".
We will live every day BIG because that is what you taught us to do.
We love you...

Tuesday, June 3, 2003 12:10 AM CDT

Hello to all friends and family that visit this page to say "hi" to Zach. Friday, June 5, marks 18 months that Zach has been gone. It is hard to believe that it has been that long. I still remember the night that he was diagnosed with cancer. I was crying and he looked at me and told "Mom, it's gonna be okay." Even though it is not the OK that we wanted, I know he is fine. He is up there enjoying a life we look forward to living. He shines down on us and reminds that everyday is a gift and we should live it to the fullest.

I see the children playing on the swingsets by our house and I think of how much Zach enjoyed doing that. He would love to be out there playing with those kids and making so many new friends. I know he has made some super friends where he is and I know he is having a blast!

We are thankful for the wonderful people that we have met through Heavenly Lights. We found another Batman out there. Andrew Price loved being the caped crusader just like Zachary did. I have so much enjoyed getting to know Andrew's mom. Valerie. I have also visited with Harri, a mommy who lost her lovely little girl, Lowri to Wilm's Tumor too. It's just such a horrible thing to lose your child, but having others to visit with who have experienced the same thing helps.

Scott and I are looking forward to a summer filled with family and friends. We plan to be back home at the end of June and over the 4th of July. We will be having a family gathering over the 4th so it will be wonderful to see everyone. Scott's family also has a family reunion at the end of July so we are looking forward to that also.

I hope everyone enjoys their summer.

Anyway, we love you all! Take care. Amy

Wednesday, May 7, 2003 8:40 PM CDT

This is a page to celebrate the life of Zachary Ness. Zach was an incredible little boy. He loved to laugh and make other people smile. I wanted to write a little page so people could read about how great he was. He lived his precious 4 years with utmost enthusiasm. He loved to be Batman. He lived as Batman. He would fly around the house in his Batman cape and Batman underwear! Zach fought a brave battle with cancer and was unable to beat it. He lost his life on earth on December 5, 2001. It seems like just yesterday, yet somedays it seems like forever ago. We miss him terribly. We hope that he is enjoying Heaven. I am sure he is making wonderful friends and they are all flying around playing super heroes.

We have moved onto a different sort of normal life. One without Zach. It is very hard and very strange. At times I expect to look in my rearview mirror and see him sitting there smiling at me. I know he is around us. There are signs. I just want him to know that we love him and think of him every day.

I hope anyone who has lost a child in their families will find a place in their lives to be able to live without their loved one. It will never stop hurting. It just becomes bearable until we see them again. Take care. Amy

Wednesday, May 7, 2003 8:25 PM CDT

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