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Just thinking of amazing Ashley and thought I'd come by here and leave a note. I think of her often.

Karin (caringbridge: visit canadakarin)

Karin
Vancouver, - Wednesday, August 24, 2011 0:20 AM CDT
I thought of you again today,
as I often do.
Wishing I could have one more day,
To tell you "I love you".

Today was a day of reflection for me Ashley. Your brillant blues eyes and your beautiful smile. Your grace, your elegance and your humour. The way you looked at Brian and the way he looked at you. The time we spent together making bottles, feeding and nurturing the orphaned kittens. The joy you had in picking out your own kitten and naming her "Grace"
Every night when I go to bed and Grace hops up on my chest for a cuddle, we talk about you. She purrs her loudest when I tell her how much we all miss you. I think she is trying to provide some comfort in her own "little cat way"
Every year when we decorate our tree your star is the first decortion to adorn it's branches.
In just a few short hours it would have been your 27th birthday. I wonder what kind of celebration we would be having. I am thinking something big....you liked BIG!
Until we meet again,
Forever in our hearts
Donna

Donna walker
Port Coquitlam, - Sunday, December 12, 2010 1:39 AM CST
The moment that you died,
Our hearts split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
We often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon our cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
We do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
We hold you tightly within our hearts,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same

Missing you always

Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, April 21, 2010 11:35 PM CDT
Thinking of you today and everyday and missing you more than ever. Who ever said "time heals" could not have been more wrong.
Loving you
Donna

Donna walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Saturday, March 20, 2010 4:49 PM CDT
Never met Ashley but have recently met her father whose love for his daughter makes you feel as she is standing
among us. I would loved to have been blessed to have met her.

Paul Cody <pcody@telus.net>
Burnaby, BC, - Friday, October 9, 2009 7:06 AM CDT
Looking for my son named Hoodikoff Brandon.
Miss you and want to get into contact with you.Please, any person who knows the where abouts of this lovely child please inform him of a dad looking and surfering internally.
I love you Brandon!
Last place of habitation - kamloops

Edward Sevume <edsev@hotmail.com>
Nyköping, D Sweden - Wednesday, October 7, 2009 4:35 AM CDT
i never met ashley but after reading her online journal, it's obvious how amazing she is and how blessed her family and friends are to have had her in their lives.

many many blessings to andrew and the brear family. you guys are pretty amazing too. xo

erin <enewbery@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, June 23, 2009 1:48 PM CDT
Thinking of Ashley, and the entire Brear family.. especially today. I keep remembering wonderful "Ashley" moments.. like how she built me that stem cell bouquet and had left me gifts to decorate my room during my transplant. How she showed up during my chemos just to bring a smile and share her never-ending joy. We all miss her.

Karin


Karin's Caringbridge Site
- Wednesday, April 22, 2009 2:36 PM CDT
Dear Ashley,
"Too often we underestimate the power of a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia

Ashley, you have the ability to touch so many lives in so many ways, you are sadly missed. Be free little Angel to dance away in heaven.

Aunt Sally <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON - Wednesday, April 22, 2009 10:31 AM CDT
Ash.......Nothing is the same without you. Each day is a day of missing you. The only comfort is knowing you are at peace.
Missing you
Donna














Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, April 22, 2009 9:11 AM CDT
Hi Ashley.

Mamie had been in Heaven one year and one day when you joined her. We rejoice that we can all be together again, forever, where there is no pain, fear, or sadness.

www.caringbridge.org/al/mamieadams

Mamie's Daddy <george.f.adams@us.army.mil>
Huntsville, AL USA - Tuesday, April 21, 2009 9:23 PM CDT
My Dear Sweet Angel Ashley,
Another year with your star shinning brightly on my tree, and the memories of our first and last Christmas with you forever etched in my heart of memories.
We miss you so much.
Until we meet again Little One you are forever in my heart.
Love
Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, December 25, 2008 11:15 PM CST
Dear Ashley, we miss you so much, you are as important today in our lives, as any day we were together. Love you, Diana
Diana Hicks
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Friday, December 12, 2008 10:26 AM CST
My Dearest Angel Ashley.........I miss you so much.
I think of you always but today I think of you celebrating your 25th birthday surrounded by all your Angel friends.
You are forever in my heart.
Love Donna

Donna walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Friday, December 12, 2008 9:25 AM CST
Happy birthday Ashley!

This will be your third birthday in Heaven. I'll bet each one is more spectacular than the one before. I'm not sure what big girls like to do on their birthdays, but I know a little girl who will probably have the archangels busy all night blowing up balloons for your party.

www.caringbridge.org/al/mamieadams

Mamie's Daddy <george.f.adams@us.army.mil>
Huntsville, AL USA - Thursday, December 11, 2008 11:10 PM CST
Last Friday I was anxiously waiting for test results in the waiting room at the BC Cancer Agency .. I went to put my paper cup down on a side table & who's smiling face do I see -- Ashley's!! Right next to where I put my cup was a postcard for the BC Cancer Foundation with Ashley's bright, smiling, glowing face standing right out!! I took that postcard in with me into the doctor's office.

I don't think it's a coincidence that I came upon that postcard in that moment.
Thanks for being there with me, Ashley :)

- Karin

www.caringbridge.org/canada/karin
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, November 16, 2008 11:22 PM CST
Dearest Brear Family,
I used to be in Banting Middle school, and was there for when Ashley made her speach at the Terry Fox run. The entire gym, was in tears, or almost in tears. Myself, I was on the brim of crying, as when I was too young to understand cancer, my grandmother had breat cancer. Luckly she is still with us today. Being a girl, I always look up to Ashley, with a huge heart, and awe for her bravery, courage, and fundraising. She is the best role model I could ever think of having.
To all the Brear family,I am terribly sorry for your loss, but know that you have many, many, people behind you.
<3 <3 <3 RIP Ashley Brear, you were an amasing person, and I consider it an honor to have seen you in person.<3 <3 <3
Cheryl F. aged 14 soon 15

Cheryl <sweet_cherry_211@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, August 10, 2008 8:21 PM CDT
Ashley, god bless you!! you are the absolute best,and it was so breathtaking,sad and inspiring at the same time! you were and awesome person, and Ms.Raven told me all about you and your family.(Ms.Raven is the daughter of ashley's mom's friend.) everytime i think about your story i cry of sadness but also of all the wonderful things you've done. i would've really loved to meet you,but unfortunately you had passed away before i even knew about you.If only you knew what a difference you've made in sooo many people's lives.Cancer is a very deadly thing,and if i ever get it, i will for sure follow in your footsteps to be positive about it.I feel really sorry for youbecause you had to go through it 3 times,yet through all of those times yuo stayed positive. Now this is what you call a swimmer that never gives up. i will never ever forget about you and your story.Ashley girl,KEEP ON SWIMMING!!!!!!!!!
alisa <alisa-savina@hotmail.com>
vaughan, ontario, canada - Tuesday, June 10, 2008 8:35 PM CDT
Wow. That was all I could say when our Character Education teacher Ms. Raven told us about Ashley. She had leadership and was beautiful from the outside in.

Keep On Swimming!

Niral <chatter_box_72@hotmail.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Monday, June 9, 2008 8:52 PM CDT
This entry is to the Brear family.

Ashley is an amazing women, aswell as a role model because she herself fought through cancer with pain and still raised alot of money. Ms. Raven told us about Ashley and I cried when I heard her story.

P.S: I am Danielle's friend-the person who signed before me
love Yasmeen

Yasmeen <yasmeen_zamanian@hotmail.com>
Toronto, - Monday, June 9, 2008 5:39 PM CDT
Dear Brear family. Im 11 years old and our teacher MS. Raven just told us about you and everything
Keep on swimmming

xoxo Pleasnt School , danielle

danielle
toronto, canada - Monday, June 9, 2008 3:35 PM CDT
My Dearest Ashley,
Remembering you today and always, with love, for having had you in our lives and with deep sorrow for not having had you longer.
I know the Heavens are celebrating your comming home as the Sun is shinning brightly....just as it was 2 years ago today.
We miss you.
Love Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, April 22, 2008 8:51 AM CDT
Just wanted to let you know that your calls for donors are heard, appreciated and not forgotton; I have been donating blood every three months for awhile now in Ashley's name... Thinking of her as the cherry blossoms reappear.

Meghan Enga
Burnaby, BC Canada - Monday, March 31, 2008 0:40 AM CDT
It's Christmas evening, and my mind is with Ashley and you, her loving family. I know, as you said Heidi, that these times must be especially hard. I hope it can bring some comfort that Ashley is very present in the minds and hearts of soooo many. We all miss her and wish she could be here. I am still so amazed at the love and joy she shared so generously with so many of us! what a blessing.
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Wednesday, December 26, 2007 0:22 AM CST
Happy Birthday Ashley!

I come to your site so often. I read your entries and it brings back the memories of the days you wrote them. It reminds me of all the good things that have been inspired in people because of you.
I look out the window and I see people out enjoying a walk, they never knew you so they do not know the pain of loosing you. I feel sorry for them. Sure, they do not feel the pain of such a profound loss, but they also never got to feel the joy of having their lives enriched just by the flash of your smile, by the gleam in your eye, and especially by the love in your heart.
I hope when they go to sleep at night that they get to dream of dancing Angels because I got the real joy of knowing one.
Loving & missing you
Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, December 12, 2007 10:20 AM CST
COUNT ME IN!
Finally, ate enough spinach for my blood to be donateable! Signed the donation book in Courtenay on Thursday the 22nd. We miss you every day Ashley, Love, Diana

Diana B. Hicks
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, November 27, 2007 0:17 AM CST
MAKING YOUR LIST AND CHECKING IT TWICE?

As we approach December, please remember that there are many people living with terminal illnesses who need our gift of our blood.
Our goal for "Ashley Brear - In loving Memory" is 250 units for 2007 and so far we are at 183 - amazing!
Thank you to all those who continue to donate faithfully, your gift of life is not going unnoticed. In fact your gift may be giving some patients another Christmas with their families. There are only 5 weeks left before Ashley's birthday and 7 weeks left before Christmas, would you consider making a commitment to donate before one of these special dates?
Just call 1-888-2 DONATE to make an appointment for yourself and a family member or friend.
Please remember to sign Ashley's page.
Questions? Please e-mail me.
God Bless!
Pauline


Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, November 7, 2007 1:16 AM CST
Thinking of the most beautiful "Alice in Wonderland" today and always......you are forever in my heart.

Missing you
Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Tuesday, October 30, 2007 8:54 AM CDT
Ashley's loving memories and her beautiful spirit will always live in the heart of those who had the chance to meet her and in the heart of those who she'd touched and will continue to touch. I feel so blessed to have met her and to have met her beautiful family. I'm so proud of all of you and want you to know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

With love & hugs,

Shirin

Shirin Abadi <sabadi3@gmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, September 23, 2007 0:15 AM CDT
My dear family
Even though I was not 100% in health I enjoyed the Gala tremendously and the money raised was fantastic
lets hope good things come from it and a cure is found or at least better treatment to prolong life. Love to all
Grandma

Clara Eileen Brear
Chomedey, Qué Canada - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 11:34 AM CDT
Count Me In! I did it. For the first time in many years I gave blood! I thought I was not permitted to do so because of having Hepatitis at 21 but I had blood tests and Hep A is not an issue as it doesn't stay in your blood. It was so good to be able to contribute. Remember to give in Ashley's name. It is such a gift to those who need it.
Judy Brear <jbrear@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, September 9, 2007 12:20 AM CDT
The gala was such a success!! I am so honored to have been there, and to have Ashley's wish of directing some of the funds to rhabdomyosarcoma research - in my honor - is so touching. The gala was incredible. Thank you for making it a reality. It was sooo great to see Heidi again, and Judy & Dave. You are all so AWESOME. Judy & Dave your speeches were so great, you did wonderful. I believe Ashley's spirit was very present. As for the beautiful slideshow of Ashley.. I couldn't take my eyes off of it. Thank you also for all your support & prayers; I have good news, the oncologist thinks I am still fine. She is quite confident that what I thought to be "lumps" near my original area of tumor is just tissue with underlying bone. Yeah!
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Thursday, August 30, 2007 3:01 AM CDT
To the Brear family,

I know that Friday was another success in Ashley's legacy. I would have loved to be there, but I currently reside in Ottawa. She is truly a woman of distinction and a role model. Ashley was a classmate of mine at Argyle, in my Law class to be precise. She was quiet yet so smart and creative. I will always remember her and after finding out about all the wonderful things she has done, she has motivated me in many ways. Wow. Thank you for sharing everything with everyone.

Always remembering,

Parisa K

Parisa Kasaei <parisa.kasaei@gmail.com>
Ottawa, ON - Sunday, August 26, 2007 12:51 AM CDT
You're still swimming strong, Ashley! Your memory not only lives on in this world, but your impact is growing.

www.caringbridge.org/al/mamieadams

Mamie's Daddy <george.f.adams@us.army.mil>
Huntsville, AL USA - Tuesday, July 17, 2007 10:23 PM CDT
I did not have the honor of knowing Ashley personally, but have come to know about her through Donna, who was to be her future mother in-law. My deepest sympathy to Ashley's family and friends. She was truly an angel in her short time here on earth, she impacted so many people. Now she is one of Heaven's most beautiful angels! She will never be forgotten!
Donna-Corey's Mom
Deltona, Fl USA - Thursday, July 5, 2007 11:11 PM CDT
COUNT ME IN!
I gave blood today and signed the book under Ashley's name. This is my first time to donate since 2001 and before that, I had only been about 8 times. It was so easy and painless for me that I now intend to go on some sort of regular basis. Thanks for inspiring me to give! :)

~ Janet (I'm a teacher friend of Judy's)

Janet Campbell
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, June 3, 2007 8:03 PM CDT
BLOOD DONOR BLITZ

In celebration of Ashley's Spirit, you are invited to a
"Blood Donor Blitz" on Sunday, June 3 from 1.30 p.m. to 3 p.m. @ Canadian Blood Services, 4750 Oak St. Vancouver.

First time donors welcomed and bring a friend or two.

Please come join Ashley's family and friends wearing lilac or bring your favourite chocolate bar to trade.

Just call Jennifer @ 604-707-3510 or e-mail her @
jennifer.gerves-keen@bloodservices.ca to book your appointment.

Give the Gift of Life in loving memory of our Angel Ashley!
Check out Ashley's website @ www.keeponswimming.org

Looking forward to seeing you there!
Pauline


Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Thursday, May 24, 2007 0:47 AM CDT
Hi Everyone,

Just a reminder if you or anyone you know is interested in joining our 2007 Relay for Life team Ashley's Army... the deadline for registering is today!

Please go to our team website to join us:

https://www.kintera.org/faf/search/searchTeamPart.asp?ievent=211269&lis=1&kntae211269=2E2434FD447C41ED81BA52730EB8DD94&supId=0&team=1783652&cj=Y

or give me a shout ASAP!

If you want to be with us for the day or any part of it but not officially be a team member you can do that too. If that's your plan please also let me know so i have some idea of numbers.

Thanks everyone! U r awesome.

All My Love,
Leah xox
leahcallen@shaw.ca
Ashley's Army

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, May 4, 2007 2:51 PM CDT
Dear Heidi
Thank you for the recent update. I opened up the web today just by chance, it must be ESP. It is great to have another child named Ashley, she will be proud to carry on this name for a long and happy life especially with you as her godmother, good luck to you and the new Ashley, my prayers are always with you, lots of love Grandma xoxoxox

Eileen Brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Friday, April 27, 2007 11:16 AM CDT
Dearest Dave, Judy, Heidi and Andrew,

God Bless you all... you are in our prayers while Ashley will remain in our hearts forever...

xoxoxoxo Anita, Randy, Chayce and Chloe

Anita and Randy Kurney <kidkurney@hotmail.com>
NV, BC Canada - Sunday, April 22, 2007 8:40 PM CDT
Dearest Ashley,

I have come to your guest book several times today to leave a message, and each time I find myself at a loss for words. Imagine ME at a loss for words! I miss you so much. Not a day goes by where my thoughts are not with you or about you. I remember the times we had and I dream of the times we should have had. I plan bridal showers and baby showers. You are forever in my heart.
Love Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Sunday, April 22, 2007 8:35 PM CDT
Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,

A year has gone by so quickly. I was thinking about you all the other day as I noticed the blossoms on so many trees that have been quiet for months. Sunshine is starting to become the norm as opposed to the subject of surprised conversation. Spring always brings me feelings of hope and happiness, of love and dreams and of beauty. It's fitting it now also makes me think of Ashley.

I'm thinking of you all and wishing you a Sunday of sunshine and love.

With love,
Erin

Erin Barrett <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Sunday, April 22, 2007 6:49 AM CDT
Dear Judy and Dave,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you this weekend. Ashley continues to be a wondrous energy in so many lives. She is a blessing.
Jane

Jane Callen <jcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, April 21, 2007 11:07 PM CDT
Dear Judy and family,
My thoughts are with you on this anniversary weekend of Ashley's passing.
Take care of and comfort from each other,

Sarah Sabbagha <ssabbagha@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, April 21, 2007 2:35 PM CDT
BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE.
Our 2nd Annual Lenten Challenge In honour of our Angel Ashley!

Today, Ash Wednesday, marks the beginning of Lent.
Last year, Ashley was touched by our Lenten Challenge to donate 100 units of blood in her name. She knew the value of this great gift because she had received blood many times herself.
In keeping our promise to Ashley, there were 124 units donated and many lives saved in 2006.
In addition, Dale Shea started up a new "Partners for Life", School District # 43 and 54 students gave in memory of our Ashley. This brought the total to 178 units. It is known that less than 3% of our population gives blood and we are determined to drive this percent upwards while honouring Ashley.

For 2007, would you join Ashley's family and friends in helping us reach a new goal of 250?
There are invitation cards that you can use to invite someone to donate, ask Judy or David or e-mail me and I will send you a few.
If everyone who donated in 2006, continues to give and recruited 1 new donor, we will reach this goal.
We will also give others the opportunity to feel what it is like to do something so priceless for a perfect stranger. Great Lenten Gift at no monetary cost!
A true Lenten Sacrifice!
We have no doubt that Ashley's spirit lives on in us and she is proud of all of us who helped to accomplish this worthwhile and life saving goal.
God Bless! Pauline Blachford

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Thursday, February 22, 2007 0:09 AM CST
I was thinking of you (The Brear's) all today and found this site of Ashely's. I still can't believe she is gone, but she is still in our hearts. What an amazing girl Ashely was and still is. Her spirit is still with all of us. She is still making changes in our world, who else could do that???

I hope all goes well for the Keep On Swimming Gala. I wished I could be there yet again for another gala of Ashley's. I know you will do amazing.
My thoughts will be with you during the gala.

Love Paula Labelle (Gagne)

Paula Labelle <p.label@telus.net>
Grimshaw, lberta Canada - Tuesday, February 6, 2007 4:20 PM CST
Calling all recruits!

The 2007 Coquitlam Relay for Life team, Ashley's Army, is now up and running... and we are looking for team mates!

The Relay is on June 2 in Coquitlam. It is a twelve hour event but you would be totally free to come and go as you please. Come for the victory lap or the luminary lap or anything in between. It will be very relaxed and fun.

If you want to raise lots of money that's great! But we welcome everyone... and you don't have to raise any money at all. Just come and be part of our team for the day.

Check out our team website:

https://www.kintera.org:443/faf/search/searchTeamPart.asp?ievent=211269&lis=1&kntae211269=0DC8206A1C5142F48041B24661054CAB&supId=0&team=1783652&cj=Y

Click on Join our Team to sign up if you wish or feel free to email me with your questions: leahcallen@shaw.ca

My personal site is here:

https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=211269&lis=1&kntae211269=5D3DFCC840E1456CA7A230DD8E79E380&supId=128052927

Hope to see lots of you there! We will be walking in Ashley's footsteps. It will be amazing.

Let's make cancer history, folks!! Let's do it for Ashley.

Take care.

Leah xox

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 11:43 PM CST
Hey~~ This is Arlene, tell Mr Brear that I [and her friends emily kate and lauren] said hi, we miss you. Hopefully he'll come back soon to visit us. Keep on Swimming. X3
Arlene H <rabbits_galore@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 8:32 PM CST
Great job on the website!

www.caringbridge.org/al/mamieadams

Mamie's Daddy <george.f.adams@us.army.mil>
Huntsville, AL USA - Tuesday, January 30, 2007 10:35 PM CST
Heidi and Brian,
What an amazing job on the Web Site. It is FANTASTIC!! It is exciting at the thought of another Gala Event. Ashley looks down on all of us all of the time. She would be so proud of everyone for carrying on her dream. Bravo!! Love & hugs.

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, January 20, 2007 10:08 PM CST
WOW!!! Great Job on the new website....it is so "ASHLEY" I am still feeling the sensations throughout my body after viewing it. The tingles and the tickles, the smiles and the tears.....my dearest Angel Ashley.....I love and miss you so much.
Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Friday, January 19, 2007 7:21 PM CST
Hi Dearest Heidi and Brian
Have checked out the new web site and its very colorful if I am ok would very much like to attend the Gala this year.I hope the money being collected will benefit many people.
Good luck and love Grandma xxxxx

eileen brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Friday, January 19, 2007 11:43 AM CST
COUNT ME IN!!!!!
It was nice to see over 40 entries on the page for Ashley at the blood donor clinic I attended January 11.

Sandra <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Friday, January 12, 2007 12:30 AM CST
The article in the Province (December 24th, 2006) touched me deeply. What an amazing young lady Ashley was and how everyone was blessed to have known her. In reading her daily entries it made me realize how strong and brave she was.
Chantal Tracy <chantalv@telus.net>
Aldergrove, BC Canada - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 7:18 PM CST
Dearest Heidi
The article in the Province by Donna was truly wonderful. Ashley made a great impression on her which will last a life time, I know for sure that Ashley's life here on earth was not wasted ,however short ,and she will live forever in our minds.
Love to all my dear family Grandma

Eileen Brear
Laval , Qué Canada - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 11:19 AM CST
Thank you so much for sharing the article. I just read it - and it is SO touching and so true to miss Amazing Ashley. Donna, thank you for sharing those personal memories and for bringing awareness to Ashley's incredible spirit and life for those who did not have the pleasure of knowing her.
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Monday, January 1, 2007 9:11 PM CST
Donna, your letter was beautiful, thank you for sharing.
Dave, Judy, Heidi and Andrew, New Years is drawing close, and I'm filled with such a mixture of feelings, a year ago, we were sitting in a hospital room. A year ago, come January I spent alot of time on the ski hill, alone, the lift just seemed like a good place to talk to God. (It wasn't a great place to start crying, tho, I found out, too cold, something I think would make Ashley laugh) And laughing, smiling, that's a feeling that comes over me, from memories of New Years past, decorating for the 2000 year. Andrew, Ashley and I shooting off the dollar store "Party Popper" gun, outside the mall. (cuz if it didn't work, I wanted my $1.00 back!) Eating lots of chocolate when the dessert table would come out! We have lots of great pictures from those evenings, I am so thankful for them, they help combine with the memories, and bring back the feelings of those happy times. Love, Diana

Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Saturday, December 30, 2006 2:41 AM CST
I read Donna's article and was so touched i cut it out and kept it.... such a beautiful story.... I had the honor of having an "ashley" in my life, and as much as you saying goodbye, you feel so much better for having the time you did with them.....

I wish I had a chance to know your Ashley, from what I have read and heard she truly was an angel on earth and for that all of you are blessed and i am glad you know that :)

I have worked closely with many cancer patients, especially my Uncle Mike, as I am a nurse, and it has been the most rewarding by far.....

I give you my best and if I can do anything please let me know! I would love to help where ever possible!

Shannon <little_devil_horns@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 9:37 PM CST
Oops,
I forgot to say that last Wednesday I gave Blood in Ashley's name in North Vancouver. I signed a card in Memory of Ashley.
I am going to get 3 of my sons to do this in the near future.

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, December 27, 2006 7:28 PM CST
It has been far too long since I have made an entry. Merry Christmas to everyone and Health and Happiness in 2007!
I was privileged to be apart of the CD Launch on Ashley's birthday. Wow, what an amazing CD. The whole evening would have had Ashley beaming from ear to ear. We miss you so much Angel Ashley!!!!! All of the Brear's are such amazing people and we love them so very much. I am so grateful for the time I have with my family and friends and I think
Ashley's journey helped me to realize that and whole lot more about life.
Love and hugs,
Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin & Daren

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 7:24 PM CST
To the Wonderful Brear Family:

Just a little note to let you know that I think of dear Ashley so often and sense her great spirit around!

I wish all of you a very merry Christmas and all the best for 2007!

Your beautiful Ashley lives on and is remembered in so many wonderful ways!

Take care & all the best,

Shirin

Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, December 23, 2006 2:16 PM CST
COUNT ME IN! Gave blood today, in Courtenay, and signed the "visitor" page in the book there, "in memory of Ashley Brear". Took Iain with me to show him "and this is what you do when you turn 17."
Love, Diana

Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 21, 2006 8:33 PM CST
Hi Heidi
Do hope that I havent missed any of your messages, I try to read them all and print them out to keep.When I receive the CDs will do my best to sell them not being much of a salesperson! I remembered Ashley's birthday by placing flowers on the altar at Northlea Church and felt very sad but she did accomplish a great deal of good in her short life and we will remember her forever, God rest our angel 'til we see her again. Lots of love Grandma xoxoxox

Eileen Brear
Laval, Que Canada - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 11:49 AM CST
Count Me In!
I donated blood in Ashley's name today. Thank you to all the other people who give "The Gift of Life", love

Dave ( miss you Ash so much )

David Brear <dbrear@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, December 16, 2006 6:19 PM CST
The Brears,

Thank you so much for sharing such a beautiful evening with all of us on Ashley's birthday. I think it moved everyone there. The Cd was beautiful, and the insert a perfect collection of memories for anyone who knew Ashley from close or afar. I encourage anyone who couldn't make it last night to contact the Brears and order a CD. All the proceeds will go to Callanish, and it sounds like a wonderful place.

Teresa and Sean <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 11:29 AM CST
To beautiful Ashley... Happy Birthday xoxoxoxo Judy, it was a blessing seeing you last week... can we order the CD online ? Love you all, Anita Kurney
Anita Kurney <kidkurney@hotmail.com>
NV, - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 8:08 PM CST
We all miss you Ashley and are thinking of you today on your birthday. Looking forward to the part tonight and to finally hearing the CD, sure you would love to be there but I know you will be watching us all.
Thinking of you every day -- happy birthday Ash

Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 2:57 PM CST
Dear all,

I am honoured to announce that 123 whole blood and platelet donations have been made in Ashley's name as of today, her birthday. Thank you all for your continuing support of BC and Canada's hospital patients; we couldn't do it without the generous spirit of people such as yourselves. We are currently running our holiday "star" campaign (until January 2nd) where you can write a name on a star when you donate and it gets put up on the wall at our permanent clinic sites (Oak St, Surrey & downtown)...it would be great to see some up there for Ashley. Thanks again for your support and donations.
Jennifer Gerves-Keen, Community Dev Coordinator,
Canadian Blood Services

Jennifer Gerves-Keen <jennifer.gerves-keen@bloodservices.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 2:22 PM CST
I'm glad for the nudges that awakened me to this day - as Ashley is now part of my calendar of Saints - and her memory is a moment of both joy and loss - God bless you all who remember - and who turn memory into a good work in her name.
Paula
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 1:55 PM CST
Draga princeska!
VSE NAJBOLJSE ZA 23. ROJSTNI DAN!
Objemcke do nebes!

Rada te imam,
Katja

Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 1:23 PM CST
Happy Birthday Ashley...we miss you.


Teresa and Sean <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 11:20 AM CST
My Dearest Ashley......you are in my heart everyday and with each passing day I miss you more. I am so honored to have had you im my life...
Thinking of you and all whom you loved on this day...your birthday.
Love Always
Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 10:14 AM CST
My thoughts and prayers are with you Ashley, and your family. We think of you often and remember your: determination,courage, laughter, sense of humor and kindness. You are our angel and are missed dearly. Whenever I meet a young pt. diagnosed with cancer, I first send them to your website to give them the hope, courage and determination to deal with their dreadful disease. Everyone at work remembers your special Xmas tree decoration on your IV pole. I loved it when you brought in your Xmas baking, made by you.

Special thoughts and wishes to David, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian as they celebrate your birthday. As I am unable to attend the launching of your healing CD, I will contact David & Judy to obtain the CD.
Karima
I

Karima Walji <alkarimwalji@yahoo.com>
Delta, BC Canada - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 8:09 AM CST
Dearest Ashley,

Tomorrow is your birthday so this song is for you. Thank you for all your love and friendship. Your life and your example continue to guide me - you taught me to always follow my heart and my faith and to never stop loving others. You're in my heart always and I luv ya!

***

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun

I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me

I am that warm voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

Remember me...

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me

Remember me
Remember... me...

***

I remember you, Ashley. Thank you for everything.

Luv always,
Your cancer buddy
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 0:03 AM CST
I have never met ashley,and live in a total different continent to her. And yet reading this page has touched me so much. Thank you to Ashely for making me realise how precious life is and to enjoy my friends and family as one day they might not be around anymore. Ashley sounds like such a brave young girl and i bet everyone who knew her was so proud of the battle she fought for such a long time. May she now be in a place far better than we live in now.

R.xxx

Rach
- Friday, December 8, 2006 3:02 PM CST
Hi There - I only had an opportunity to meet Ashley once - but it only took that one meeting to remember her for a lifetime.
Algrette LaBranche <algrette@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Monday, December 4, 2006 2:14 PM CST
Count Me In!
I donated blood again in Ashley's name. I think of you Brears often from way over here in Toronto.
Cathy Payne

Cathy Payne <cpayne@healthprocanada.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Monday, November 20, 2006 12:55 AM CST
COUNT US IN (again)
The Walkers:
Al
Donna
Krista
Matthew
all donated in Ashleys name on November 13th.
One of the things I look forward to the most is giving blood every 56 days.
There was nothing I would not do for our sweet Ashley...so as I honered her in life.....I will continue to honor her in death......she is my inspiration, my strength and most certainly....MY HERO. I miss her SO very much.

Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Friday, November 17, 2006 7:38 PM CST
BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE!

Last March, we started a Lental Challenge to donate 100 units in Ashley's name, we are presently at 66.
After Ashley left us for her duties as Heaven's Angel, we contined to donate under
"Ashley Brear, in Loving Memory". Thanks to all of you who have donated and who continue to donate and sign her page. It is getting harder to keep track as there are many signing in under school districts, Capilano College and UBC - all inspired by our Ashley. It doesn't really matter under what banner we donate this precious gift, what does matter is that we are continuing to extend and save lives as we remember our Ashley. As we approach Ashley's birthday and Christmas, the season of giving, can we try to inspire someone new to donate??? There are many patients fighting cancer and our gift of blood, gives them strength and hope.
Holidays are the times we travel to see our family and friends and therefore there are many more car accidents. Please help Canadian Blood Services save lives and keep giving! If you are unable to give personally, please invite and accompany a new donor.
Some of you give as a couple or family, what a great idea!
Please watch for Canadian Blood Services' article, in the days to follow, on how we can celebrate Ashley's birthday and her inspiring life. If you have any questions, please e-mail me and I will be happy to clarify.
Thanks and God Bless Ashley.
Pauline

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Friday, November 17, 2006 3:10 PM CST
Hi Heidi
Was nice to hear from you again. As I am not able to attend your events being so far away, the only thing I can do is contribute thru your dad to the Lymphona Society, will ask your dad to send me a button or two if you have any left. As for the Gala have told your mum if at all possible I would like to attend health permitting I do have lots of thoughts of Ashley every day and know that for sure she is an angel, good luck with all your projects and lots of love to you Grandma

Eileen Brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Friday, October 27, 2006 10:13 AM CDT
To Ashley's Family:
Ashley is ever on my mind and I still find myself checking the site often. I hope that with the passage of time your pain will ease. Ashley was such a beautiful girl with such faith and spirit.
Terri
Mom of Casey, diagnosed 3/17/05 and soon to be one year cancer free

Terri Colclough <tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 7:14 PM CDT
Thank you, Ashley. With all my heart. God bless you.
Luv,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, October 15, 2006 11:46 PM CDT
Dear Ashley,
I love you.

Devon Nicol
Vancouver, Canada - Friday, September 29, 2006 9:17 PM CDT
COUNT ME IN!
Gave today in Courtenay, and entered it in "the book" there.
Dear sweet Ashley, I miss you so much, Diana

Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Friday, September 29, 2006 0:00 AM CDT
Dear Heidi
It was really great to hear from you again on the website. I had checked in several times I'm sure that Ashley would be pleased to know that you are keeping up her good work. Yours and Andrews blood donations will be very much appreciated and its a great idea to get onto to the bone marrow registry, there are many people in the world that will benefit from this as research develops. I also doubt that kayaking is the thing for either your mum or dad!. I have made a great picture from the dried sweet peas that your dad sent me being Ashley's last planting of their seeds, it will last a long time in her memory, my thoughts are with her every day, love as always Grandma xoxoxoxo

Eileen Brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Monday, September 25, 2006 11:59 AM CDT
Dearest Judy,Dave,Heidi,Andrew,& Brian

Every moment of every day I am missing our most precious Angel Ashley. Her amazing strength continues to inspire me, the memory of her georgeous eyes and her beautiful smile enlighten my day and her spirit and her love will live in my heart forever.
Missing her more than words can say.......Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Friday, September 22, 2006 1:47 PM CDT
Count me in
September 21, 2006
Donated in the memory of one beautiful courageous young lady. I just want to say I mentioned Ashley's name at the clinic and some knew of her and said her name comes up often.
My thoughts and wishes continue to be with the Brears and maybe you all still keep on swimming!
Thank you Heidi for the update.

Sandra Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Port Coquitlam, BC - Thursday, September 21, 2006 5:23 PM CDT
I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR OF YOUR LOSS. I LOST MY HUSBAND TO HODGKINS ON AUG 1ST 2005. MY 2 LITTLE GIRLS AND I SPENT A WEEK IN SANIBEL ISLAND FLORIDA. I AM SO GLAD YOU AND YOUR FAMILY WERE ABLE TO GET AWAY AND REST. MY PRAYERS ARE WITH EACH OF YOU. MY HUSBAND, CHRIS, FOUGHT HIS BATTLE FOR 8 YEARS. WE WENT THROUGH TWO BONE MARROW TRANPLANTS AND MANY WEEKS AND MONTHS OF CHEMO AND RADIATION. IT SOUNDS LIKE BOTH ASHLEY AND CHRIS WERE VERY STRONG AND COURAGIOUS. WE WILL MISS THEM SO VERY MUCH. WITH LOVE..LESLIE, KELSEY AND MADISON TILLERY
Leslie Tillery <TILL17@AOL.COM>
Odessa, Tx U.S..A. - Thursday, September 21, 2006 11:19 AM CDT
Hi, Heidi, thank you for the update. Iain's class has been doing projects on Terry Fox and Hero's, Iain wrote "Ashley Brear is my hero, she taught me compassion".
We look forward to being a part of the Gala, Love, Diana

Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, September 20, 2006 10:17 PM CDT
Hi.

Is there anyone out there who would like to do the Light The Night walk to honour Ashley?

It's an evening walk in the Stanley Park area on October 14. It's about 45 minutes long, I think. It raises money for the Lymphoma and Leukemia Society. A very good cause.

If you are interested in joining other people who love Ashley and want to fundraise this way... or just to have an evening of friendship as we complete the walk in her honour... please let me know.

Many people gave lots of money to the Relay for Life earlier this year. So the goal for me isn't really to raise lots of money. It's more for the experience.

Ashley, my friend (and Ashley's!) Teresa, and I ... and many of Ashley's other cancer survivor buddies all fought blood cancers. So this particular cause is special to us. We take it personally!

Ashley taught me the importance and enjoyment of fundraising! Her Keep on Swimming Gala is the top priority but she also participated in Light the Night and many other fundraising events as you know. She was and is totally inspiring!!! Forever Amazing.

We need 4 people to start a team for Light the Night. I have potentially 2 or 3 so far. It would be a very casual and relaxed walk. No worries, no stress. You can raise just $5 if you like! It's the heart that counts... not the amount!!

For more details please see: http://www.lightthenight.org/site/c.itJZJ7MOIwE/b.1994747/k.BCDE/Teams.htm

or just www.lightthenight.org

Or maybe you just want to do it on your own. That's cool too.

Please let me know if you are interested in walking together. It will be a very powerful evening I'm sure.

Hope this is okay to post here. I love the things that people write here still. I love the dreams people have of Ashley! I believe they are true. I believe she is very happy and at peace. And she has long hair again for sure!! :)

Thanks and God bless.

Luv,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, September 8, 2006 7:02 PM CDT
Leah and I visited the Memorial Garden at St Agnes. It is a very peaceful place with a resident squirrel who welcomes and watches. Ashley, as much as it is a place to remember you, I do not think you are there...you are in the skies and the world and with everyone who loved you and whom you loved. Leah and I miss you so very much. Mostly we are so grateful that you showed us how to love and live.


Jane Callen
North Vancouver, BC - Saturday, September 2, 2006 10:51 PM CDT
Dober dan, princeska!

Sla sem v Taize, zase in zate in za tvojo druzino. Veliko sem molila za nas, da bomo lahko veselo in polno ziveli brez tebe. Ampak bodi z nami, ok? Obiskala sem vsa mesta, kjer sva se slikali in kjer sva se pogovarjali in ustvarjali najino prijateljstvo - na teh mestih sem se poslavljala od tebe. Najine poljske pesmi nismo peli, ampak to je znak, da gre zivljenje naprej. Tudi moje in se prav lepo je. Ampak drugacno, ker te ni...ampak zapam, da bo slo. Ker zaradi tebe zivnim bolj zavestno, polno, hvalezne in ljubece. Hvala ti, draga moja Ashley. Vedno, vedno te bom imela rada!

Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Monday, August 14, 2006 4:49 AM CDT
COUNT US IN!!!!
Donna walker
Krista Walker
Leah Montgomery
all donated in Port Coquitlam on August 4th!
Ashley's spirit continues to inspire me!

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Sunday, August 6, 2006 9:02 PM CDT
Count us in! Last week my boyfriend and I each donated a unit of blood in Ashley's name. She inspired us to roll up our sleeves and hopefully make a difference in someone's life.
Katie Donohue <kate_donohue@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, July 15, 2006 1:36 AM CDT
COUNT ME IN! BLOOD IT IS IN YOU TO GIVE.
One unit donated yesterday in Ashley's name.

David Clutton
Burnaby, BC Canada - Friday, July 14, 2006 5:18 PM CDT
I just had to add to Cindy's entry.. I got shivers reading it! hmmm!!
Angel Ashley continues to inspire me.. I just look down at my blue bracelet and can hear her incredibly encouraging voice "Keep on swimming!!"

Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc Canada - Thursday, July 13, 2006 2:08 AM CDT
I dream of Ashley lots, and in my dreams, she looks so happy and sooo healthy. Her long hair is back, and she's in jeans and t-shirts! I love seeing her like that. I see her photos and ever so slowly I'm starting to realize that she hasn't just re-located. It's so hard, and I miss her so much. But when I miss her, I always get the shivers, and I like to think that it's her telling me, "it's all good up here!"

I was thinking lots about Andrew on his birthday...(as much as the 19th b-day sucked with that horrible bouncer!!!) I know they had a great experience together (she was amazing on my 19th birthday too!)

So much love to you guys Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew. I love you guys so much

Cindy <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 12, 2006 7:20 PM CDT
Dearest Heidi, Judy, Dave, & Andrew:

There isn't a day that goes by when I don't think of Ashley! I have her picture on the bulletin-board at work, and cherish her and talk about her and her unlimited qualities every chance I get. I know she is making a difference in so many people's lives and will continue to do so by her spirit and her lively soul! You are all an amazing family, and very special! Just wanted you to know that you are also in my thoughts and prayers.

With much love & lots of warm hugs,

Shirin

Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Wednesday, July 5, 2006 9:24 PM CDT
Dear Heidi, great to have a message from you again, grandad and I had a very good time staying with you, the internment of Ashley was very moving and I'm afraid I didnt see other people who were there thru my tears.It was a great pleasure also to be at your final ordination into the Anglican Church, the ceremony was great and I sure wish you all the best in your calling, you are bound to succeed as you are very enthusiastic. Good luck also with your Gala for the next year, all events will keep Ashley alive forever as well as in our hearts, God bless Grandma xoxoxox
Eileen Brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Friday, June 30, 2006 1:30 PM CDT
A note to say I am thinking of all you, and especially following the internment of Ashley's Ashes in the memorial garden at St. Agnes. As I sit here in Mill Bay, looking out the window to the sea, I am able to see a small area in the garden where my family interred the ashes of both our parents, first my mother in April of 2001, and then my father in April of 2004. It seems like forever, and it seems like just yesterday, since they were sitting with me in this very spot. They did not formally observe any practice of faith, and nor do my sister and brother, but it is so special to all of us to have a designated resting place where we can always come to reflect on the blessing that they were, and still are, to all of us left journeying through this life. They each have their own stepping stone in the garden and a new rhododendron planted just for them. Missing never stops, and as time goes on it seems they just become more and more a part of who I am. Ashley is always going to be with you all as you walk your journeys through this life. I miss seeing you all at church, and wish that I could have been at church with you this last Sunday but I am heavily involved in a rather large renovation of my parent's home here in Mill Bay. We (my siblings & I) want to keep this precious property (our heritage)for a while yet, and the only way we can do that is to get some renters in to the main house, build an 'in-law-type suite for ourselves' and upgrade the little cottage for my brother to live in long term. It is a huge undertaking and I have the job of being the "uber" contractor, as my sister is not able to get away from her small business to oversee things, and my brother is not capable of the demands of organizing something on this scale, especially when it involves handling money (or in our case "non-money"!) Fortunately I have been able to take a leave of absence from my job, but will need to wrap things up here soon, and get back to work, probably by August. I am excited to hear about the plans for Gala 2007! I was hoping this would become an event. I so much enjoyed helping with the last one, and would very much like to be part of the planning committee for the next. I won't be able to make the meeting on Thurs. but you can count me in. I can be very creative and have some good PR/marketing and public speaking skills that I would be happy to contribute. Love, love, love to you all, Kim
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
Mill Bay, BC - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 9:54 PM CDT
I just wanted to say "hi" to Brian, Dave, Judi, Heidi and Andrew. I know you are all still going through alot. We talk of Ashley daily! Brian, I just wanted to say that you are quite a guy! You met Ashley when she was already sick. You are an Angel. I hope each day gets a little bit easier for you all! With all the fundraising that is going to go on for years to come in Ashley's name, she will never really be gone! Just because we can't see her, she is always here with us! I have used Dave's own advice when I am feeling a little sad. "Ashley would just go out and do this, she wouldn't sit home and feel sorry or sad!" She inspired so many of us! I am going to volunteer at the Cancer Agency to help others get through treatment. She was a major component in my positivity! Stay strong!

Love Teresa

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, June 25, 2006 0:10 AM CDT
Dober dan princeska!
It's been two looooooong months and there's so many more to come. I MISS YOU! A LOT!

Rada te imam!

Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Friday, June 23, 2006 7:20 AM CDT
To Ashley's loved ones,
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping that you are continuing to gain comfort in knowing how many lives Ashley has touched. I can't seem to stop checking the site daily. Would you consider posting additional pics of Ashley in a tribute to her?
Terri
Mom of Casey, who completed chemo and radiation for Hodgkin's Lymphoma in November 2005

Terri Colclough
Prairieville, LA USA - Wednesday, June 14, 2006 10:27 PM CDT
Ashley is forever in my thoughts and prayers. I pray for peace for you family as well.
Roxanne

Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
Tarpon Springs, FL USA - Sunday, June 11, 2006 5:56 PM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASHLEY!! BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE
ANGEL ASHLEY,
I gave platelets at Oak Street yesterday and picked up some more flyers so we can continue to inspire others to join our challenge to donate 100 units of blood in 2006.
We have donated over 50 units so far and hope to meet and exceed our goal soon. Dale Shea is continuing to challenge those Grade 12 students to give and compete against the other schools in his district.
If you haven't made that appointment to donate yet, it is never too late to start saving lives. Our precious Ashley's life was extended because of total strangers who gave. It takes over 8 donors a week to support a cancer patient. Would you please join this worthwhile mission in Ashley's name? You can be sure she is dancing for joy and pride as she looks down on our efforts.
Ashley, we continue to pray for your grieving family, boyfriend and friends as they come to grips with your loss. At the same time, we are continuing to follow your example of trying to make a difference each day wherever we may be. Call 1-888-2-donate and remember to sign under "Ashley Brear, In loving Memory"
With our love, from the Blachfords Six

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Sunday, June 11, 2006 0:26 AM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASHLEY!

I am happy to contribute 2 units of blood so far for the 2006 year and run in the 2006 Childrun in support of the oncology unit at B.C. Children's Hospital in honor of Ashley. Although we all miss her, it is pretty incredible that she still continues to inspire positivity and good-will in this world. :)

Haley Tsui <haley_tsui@yahoo.ca>
Burnaby, BC Canada - Thursday, June 8, 2006 8:18 PM CDT
*Special Announcement*

Hi Dearest, Ashley. Hi everyone.

We were privileged to be at the Coquitlam Relay for Life last weekend. It was so great to see your dad there, Ashley. Now we know where you get your energetic dancing from!

You walked that track last year... so we felt honoured to walk it this year. It was a blessing. Even though it was one of the hardest things we've ever done.

Well... we made a pact that day. Next year we are starting our own Relay team:

Ashley's Army!

We're fighting the war on cancer... and we're taking recruits any time in the next year!

We will be militantly marching and fundraising for cancer research and cancer survivors... but we will also wear stylish pink or purple camouflage as we do this. We feel you, Ashley, would want this. ;)

No word yet on whether men have to wear the pink or purple too. lol

It will be so much fun... we'll laugh and and we'll cry. It is so powerful doing the Relay for so many reasons. So please everyone out there consider joining our team.

It will be no stress... just lots of love and support. You can walk as much or as little as you wish. Raise as much or as little money as you wish. No pressure. You can leave any time.

You don't have to know us... we welcome all of Ashley's buddies! We welcome everyone.

We'll be remembering all our fallen comrades. We'll be celebrating their lives. Ashley's life. And for everyone who is still fighting... we've got your back!

Anyone up for the challenge? Don't worry. You've got a year.

Feel free to write us if you are already interested.

Hey, Andria and Chris! Aren't you both marines? Would you join us?! We need someone skilled to lead us in our marching laps!! :)

Of course the Keep on Swimming Gala is the most important fundraiser. This is Ash's dream and it will keep on going. We just want to keep the flame of hope and love alive... Ashley's love alive... in any way we can.

So this is our idea.

Hope you don't mind us putting this in the guestbook.

We love you Ashley. We miss you. We wish you peace. We know you are everywhere. Thank you for everything. Keep on swimming, Ash.

Lots of Luv,
Leah Callen & Teresa Diamond
Ashley's Cancer Survivor Buddies xoxo

Leah & Teresa <leahcallen@shaw.ca & teresadawn@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, June 7, 2006 11:32 PM CDT
Dear Heidi,
I have just read through Ashley's journal and the guest book. All I can say I wish I had had the privilige of knowing her. There is a little bit of her still shining in you. Love Ray.

Ray Smith <raytelford@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. CAnada - Tuesday, June 6, 2006 2:15 PM CDT
We're doing something in Tricity secondary schools that others could start elsewhere.We've started a contest to see which graduating class in District 43 will donate the most blood in each school year.We hope to have a hundred donations by the end of June. We'll start again in Sept with the new grad classes. At present Port Moody Secondary leads all Tricities secondary schools. Dr Charles Best is second followed by Pinetree. In my opinion, grade 12's WANT to give back to the community. They WANT to be remembered in a positive light (and they love to beat the other secondary schools!) Canadian Blood Services has been very supportive. Ashley is the inspiration for our initiative.
Dale Shea <dshea@sd43.bc.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Monday, June 5, 2006 2:43 PM CDT
Dear Ashley,

I'm sure you were watching us all yesterday at the Relay For Life. I'm also sure you saw your Dad there. He said someone had told him that if he was feeling sad, he should go out and do something you would do. He said you would have been there, and that is why he came. It was very touching. He also had us all dancing and clapping and laughing! That's exactly what you would have done! I see where you got it from! We all had a good cry for you. We still miss you so much! It was very emotional to light a luminary for you, as you lit one for me last year. It was a beautiful night. We think of you every day!

Love Teresa and Sean

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Monday, June 5, 2006 1:29 AM CDT
Just checking in to let you know we're thinking of you. I'm sure that the concert tonight was a big hit, and that Ashley was right there with you.
Keeping you in our prayers,

Marcia and the gang, Trinity Tweens, http://trinitytweens.tripod.com <marciat@sympatico.ca>
Bradford, ON - Sunday, June 4, 2006 11:09 PM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASH!

I went to donate blood with 2 friends on Thursday in Ashley's name at the Oak Street clinic. Unfortunately this'll be my last donation for a while since I'm going to be doing some travelling and then I'm moving to New Brunswick, but once I'm settled in, it'll back to the blood clinic!

Robin Hussen <volacious.r@gmail.com>
Surrey, BC Canada - Sunday, June 4, 2006 0:11 AM CDT
Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,

Just to let you know that we are thinking of all of you and Ashley each and every day. Still have to come to this website daily . . . I don't know, it brings a little comfort I guess. Keeping you in our thoughts.

Debbie, Travis and Taylor

Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, May 31, 2006 11:49 PM CDT
Hi Dave, Judy, Heidi and Andrew,
Still thinking about our dancing angel up there in heaven. Seems so unreal. I check in here regularly and enjoy that so many still have things to say.
I saw you this morning Dave.........always a nice surprise!!!

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, May 30, 2006 10:39 AM CDT
ASHLEY.........COUNT US IN!!!

Well we all had a appointment for blood donation tonight.....Krista, Brian, Matt ,Al and myself....then Krista came down with the stomach flu yesterday and was still feeling under the weather today so that put her out. Then we get there and poor Brian waits along time to find out that he to can not give tonight as he is recovering from a stress fracture in his foot. It all made perfect sense when they explained it.....actually it made such good sense I can't believe we didn't think of it before! Anyway, he was disappointed but he should be able to donate in 56 days when we all go again!!
We miss you so much!!!!
Love always
Donna

Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, BC - Monday, May 29, 2006 10:43 PM CDT
I found out about this site, because my sister Lori is friends with Lennie.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I will pray for peace and comfort for all of you.

Love,
Kathy, mom of daughter Erin, age 23, brain tumour survivor/fighter
Diagnosed Oct. 7, 2003 - large, diffuse, inoperable brain tumour - left
frontal lobe
Biopsy done on Oct. 21, 2003 - oligodendroglioma grade 2
Second opinion Nov. 19, 2003 by Dr. R. Del Maestro - Montreal Neurological
Institute
Total Gross Resection of tumour Dec. 18, 2003, Dr. R. Del Maestro, MNI
Final pathology results - oligodendroglioma grade 2, with 1p and 19q
deletion
On Tegretol 200 mg three times daily
Seizure-free since craniotomy
First post-op MRI Feb. 20, 2004 - stable
MRI June 2004 - clear scan
MRI September 2004 - another clear scan
MRI January 7, 2005 - clear scan
fMRI March 14, 2005 - clear scan
MRI July 25, 2005 - clear scan
MRI January 23, 2006 - 8.1 mm recurrence
fMRI March 14, 2006 - unchanged
MRI May 25, 2006 - finding out the results on June 2
On temozolomide and Zofran

Read about Erin's journey at:
http://www2.caringbridge.org/canada/erin/

Kathy Colledge
kdcolledge@rogers.com
brynnsmommy@rogers.com

Kathy <kdcolledge@rogers.com>
London, ON Canada - Sunday, May 28, 2006 4:45 PM CDT
Thank you Pauline!! From someone who is alive to this day because of blood donors, I thank you for what you are doing! I wish I could give! People just don't understand the need. I am actually taking my dog in to give blood, because there isn't enough donations there. Sorry, not the same thing, but I had never really thought of this before either! Also, my cousin receives cornea transplants, so we should all donate all that we can! When I die, all that they can salvage from this wreck is up for grabs! LOL!!

Love Teresa

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, May 28, 2006 2:13 AM CDT
I wanted to extend my gratitude towards Ashley. I never met Ashley myself, but she emailed me one day telling me about her success story about Keep on Swimming. It blew my mind away, how any person could be so compassionate, loving, caring and spirited. Two years ago, Ashley and I emailed each other to discuss the possibility of her contributing her story to a "Chicken Soup for the Soul" for UBC students, but we didn't get enough submissions. But she is and will always be one of my heroes.
Vincent Ng <vincentkcng@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, May 27, 2006 4:13 AM CDT
Dear Heidi
I do check in to the web site nearly every day to read any latest developments. I would like to say that although I was unable to attend the "Celebration of Life" service, your grandad and I attended our own church (Northlea United) to have a private service simultaneously with yours in Vancouver, we sat quietly and read Psalm 23 and John 3-16, and thought about Ashley's life and ended with the Lord's Prayer, it was very moving. Love to you all, Grandma

Eileen Brear
Laval, Qué Canada - Friday, May 26, 2006 11:34 AM CDT
BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE!
"ASHLEY BREAR" In loving memory
Thank you to all who have donated blood in memory of our Angel Ashley! When you sign this guestbook or e-mail me, I am able to ensure that your name is being recorded and tracked. Our challenge, to collect 100 units in 2006 in Ashley's name, started on March 5 and so far 33 units have been donated. When you have given, please make a note in this guestbook starting off your entry with "COUNT ME IN ASHLEY"! If you donated in the past couple of months and haven't made this entry, please still do so. We need your entries to remind and encourage others that this is one of the greatest gifts you can ever give a stranger. The stranger needing this precious gift of life one day might be you or me. The feeling you receive as the giver is rewarding in itself. Don't forget to sign the Partners for Life binder on Ashley's page at Oak St or Surrey or on the visitor's page (making sure to mention "Ashley Brear - In loving Memory") if you donate in other locations.
Do it today - call 1-888-2-donate and make an appointment for you and a family or friend to donate. Make it a party, Ashley made everything fun even when she was receiving chemo. Believe me - you will feel her spirit as you donate! She will, of course, be dancing with her brilliant smile!! God Bless! Pauline Blachford

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Friday, May 26, 2006 9:26 AM CDT
My thoughts and prayers go out to your family at this time, Ashley. I very much appreciated meeting you during the chemo sessions. We met again when you were @ VGH for day surgery,inserting a lickman-pik and I a portacath. You invited me to a fund-raiser, however I couldn't make.

I'm so very saddened to hear of your passing, and it was just today that I heard.

I'd like you to know that I was in the audience when you were awarded the Youth, Women of Distinction Award and I applauded from within the depth of my heart. I was thrilled with your strength, grace and sense of humor. I salute you and in warm admiration for the inspiration you continue to leave in my life. As it was the next day after the awards ceremony that I began chemo treatment. You have
touched my life and you have left a gift of your life that will be with me throughout. Thank you does not seem to be enough to express the gratitude I feel for having shared in person - your spirit and your joy for life.

thank you my dear sister,
Roberta Stewart

Roberta Stewart
Burnaby, BC Canada - Friday, May 26, 2006 3:12 AM CDT
Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,

We think about you all the time. I hope each day gets a little easier for you. We miss Ashley so much!

We have her stem cell boquet out, and of course everyone who comes over asks us about it. It's nice to be able to talk about her so often! Everyone is amazed with her, and I always give them her website to read for themselves!

I hope you have a good weekend,
Love Teresa and Sean

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, May 25, 2006 10:31 AM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASHLEY
I gave blood for the 2nd time and have made an appointment for the next and will continue to do so in your memory.
Dave, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian;
I was so blessed to be able to attend the celebration of Ashley's life. It was a day I will never forget...so beautiful, like Ashley.
Thinking of you all,
Love Cathy Payne

Cathy Payne <cpayne@healthprocanada.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, May 25, 2006 7:03 AM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASHLEY! I gave blood in your name,thanks to one of your biggest cheerleaders Pauline Blachford. I know you are at peace in Gods arms. He is our refuge and strength.Psalms 46:1 Trish
Trish Waller <pat@waller.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 3:57 PM CDT
Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,

For a while, I've struggled with what to write. I didn't want to sound too this or too that - the all too common worry someone has when faced with grief. I wanted my words to feel like a hug, an embrace from someone who cares so deeply but cannot find the words to say with honesty and love "I am so sorry." I was lucky to come and hug you all and those days have been replaying in my mind. I think of you all every day and send you all the love and support I can. I know it's so little in the face of the journey ahead, but please know how sincere my feelings of love and sympathy are.

I'm home again in the summer (68 sleeps - but who's counting?) and can't wait to see you all again. I think lots of coffees and seawalls are in order.

Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us all. It's brave and inspiring, which is what each of you are to me. I find myself thinking of all the moments I shared with Ashley growing up and each thought always circles back to one, the sugar plum fairy. A perfect description if ever there was one.

All my love,
Erin

Erin Barrett <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 1:32 PM CDT
Although i have never had the opertunity to meet Ashley i came across a poster promoting blood donations in the Gym i just recently started working at and was captivated by the message. I just wanted to say that we are put on this earth with a purpose and Ashley definitly has acheived an unquestionably meaningful life! She truely is one of Gods many angels! Thank you so much! Love and kindness surely does exist!
Robyn <skipper18_@hotmail.com>
White Rock, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 10:24 AM CDT
Thank you, Heidi. Think of you all every day. Yes, I too, am here every day, missing Ashley.....Love, Diana
diana <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 11:44 PM CDT
Dear Heidi,
Thank you so much for updating! I still check the site daily.
I too find it hard to wrap my head around the thought of Ashley truly being gone. In my mind, I picture her so healthy and full of joy, her eyes twinkling; spreading love and happiness to others as she did so often.
I still have a voicemail message from Ashley on my cell phone. I keep saving it as I can't bring myself to delete it.

Much love,
Karin

Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 3:42 PM CDT
Dober dan princeska!
It's been a month now since you joined the angels in Heaven...i miss you sooooooooooo much!
Love you to the stars and back again! RADA TE IMAM!

Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 1:25 PM CDT
I know that you don't know me but i read that site and omg i am soo sorry that is not gonna help i know but i just wanted you to know that i did read it and if u ever need anything i can do my best to do it! even just to talk !
Bobbie
BB, Ont Canada - Saturday, May 20, 2006 9:39 PM CDT
I check the site regularly as well, wondering how the Brear's are doing. It also serves as a warm reminder that there are caring people in this world and beautiful angels smiling down at us.
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, May 18, 2006 11:52 AM CDT
I come here too frequently just to remind me that there is still beauty and kindness in this world.
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, May 18, 2006 10:27 AM CDT
Sara, I too click on this site every day! I hope to see the guestbook entries continue. I have sent many people to this site, and hope that they will post messages here. Ashley is still here in our hearts, and there is no reason we need to stop signing her guestbook. I'm sure she is still checking it!
:):) Teresa

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, May 18, 2006 0:01 AM CDT
Dearest Ashley,
I miss you! Every day I log on to your website and I keep asking myself, “Sara, why are you doing that?” But there is something in the back of my mind that hopes and hopes that you have updated your site. It’s like my mind doesn’t want to accept that you are really gone, it’s too hard. You were such a life force, such an inspiration, such an amazing beautiful girl and you did so much more in your life than most ever will. I am so incredibly thankful to you for changing my life and for teaching me more than you will ever know about strength, grace, compassion, love and dignity. Your sense of humour and you’re your willingness to share your journey with all you met along the way has been truly a gift. I love you sweet girl and I hope that you are dancing and singing and laughing and enjoying the beautiful sun because I have a feeling that it will ALWAYS be shining on YOU!! Goodbye Sweet angel!!!
XOXO

Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, May 17, 2006 6:27 PM CDT
Just wanted to let you know that Ashely will forever be in my thoughts and prayers. She will never be forgotten.
I will contiue to pray for your family as well.

Roxanne

Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
Tapon Springs, FL USA - Wednesday, May 17, 2006 3:43 PM CDT
COUNT ME IN ASHLEY!!
Angel Ashley,
As I was registering to donate platelets this morning at Oak Street, your beautiful face was smiling up at me.
A poster of you is taped to the desk where we sign in, in the platelet section. During the couple of hours I was there, I thought of you with such pride and told the receptionist your story. We are continuing to carry this torch in your name to help other cancer patients to keep on swimming. I know heaven is in full bloom with flowers, balloons and of course, you are teaching everyone to dance. Love, Pauline

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Friday, May 12, 2006 4:18 PM CDT
My first opportunity to get into this website. I am happy to at last have an insite into Ashley's trials as she saw them and the ways she so valiently braved them.
Peggy McMillan <mcmillanpeggy@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver , B.C. Canada - Thursday, May 11, 2006 1:27 PM CDT
Ashley was an extraodinary young woman. I feel very honored to have known her.
Carole Anderson <carole@andersonclan.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, May 6, 2006 7:35 PM CDT
How we ended up after the service at the Fairview Pub of all places, I'm not sure - but Ashley was there too as a handful of over-dressed patrons danced and danced. I think it was Brown Eyed Girl that took me right back to Fircom dances. The tears were abundant and the looks from the regulars were interesting. I needed last night so badly. Thank you to all the amazing people that help me remember Ashley and thank you to the Brears for creating and fostering such a beautiful soul.
Dan Mangan <info@danmanganmusic.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 4:31 PM CDT
Dearest Ashley,

What a beautiful service for a beautiful woman. The church was so packed for you that people were standing at the back because there was no more room. You truly touched so many people, and it was very evident yesterday. I also loved the funny stories that your friends and cousin shared, that with leave us all with smiles on our faces when we think of you. Rest in peace my dear, until we meet again.

Love Teresa and Sean

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, B.C. Canada - Saturday, May 6, 2006 11:57 AM CDT
Dave, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,
Wow, what a Celebration of Ashley's Life! Many tears with so much love, hope and laughter.
I beleive it was exactly what Ashley wanted, I also agree that she was watching all of us and wishing she could have given out some dancing lessons in the aisles. The words spoken by Christine, Lauren, Melanie and Kathleen gave all of us there such vivid memories of Ashley to keep with us forever in our hearts. What a beautiful tribute. There was so much love present in the Church you could feel it. I want you to know that will be here for all of you always.
Love from all the "Johannesen's"

Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin and Daren <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 10:41 AM CDT
What a wonderful celebration of Ashley's life! The Service was truely a tribute to her and reflective of Ashley's bright and generous nature. My mum and i loved the dancing in the aisles at the end. what a fantasic way to end this celebration....and thank you for mentioning Jake and Margot at the service. that meant a lot to Karin and to all the YACN members (as Jake was a member).
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, May 6, 2006 4:12 AM CDT
Angel Ashley, you got your way again!! Tell us honestly, were you looking down on us all dancing and thinking
"do they ever need some dance lessons from me"?
What a celebration! There were over 800 of us who came to remember a beautiful young lady who touched us all in a unique and special way. Your family and friends poured alot of love into creating the video and "memory lane" display and love was the theme of the celebration. From the lovely picture of you that graced the front of our program, to the lilac balloons, Brian's beautiful yellow roses, the music, sharing from your friends and cousin, to the dancing and reception, all showed how much you were loved, admired and respected. You have taught us how to keep on swimming by your great example and you have showed us how to live life to the fullest! We will never forget you, dear Ashley. We will continue to give blood in your name so other cancer patients can keep on swimming too.
We love you and your wonderful family and promise to continue to stand by them in the days, weeks and years to come. Love from Jack, Pauline, Tyler, Jay, Dean & Sabrina

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Saturday, May 6, 2006 1:23 AM CDT
Well, we danced today. We cried today too. During the celebration of Ashley's life at Christ Church Cathedral, Randy and I decided today that we will go back to church and we will go together as a family with our two daughters and we will work on our faith together as a family. You see, Ashley is still changing the world... everybody that she touched knows that she always will. God bless you Ashley. God bless you Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew, Brian and extended families... the world was touched by an angel and she will continue to move us forever more.

Love, Anita, Randy, Chayce and Chloe Kurney

Anita Kurney <kidkurney@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 5, 2006 9:36 PM CDT
Well, we danced today. We cried today too. Randy and I decided today that we will go back to church and we will go together as a family with our two daughters and we will work on our faith together as a family. You see, Ashley is still changing the world... everybody that she touched knows that she always will. God bless you Ashley. God bless you Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew, Brian and extended families... the world was touched by an angel and she will continue to move us forever more.

Love, Anita, Randy, Chayce and Chloe Kurney

Anita Kurney <lidkurney@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 5, 2006 9:31 PM CDT
On behalf of everyone at the YWCA, our heart goes out to the Brear family, Brian, and all of the other friends, acquaintances, and strangers Ashley touched during her brief but well-lived life. It is so special for us to have Ashley represent us as a Young Woman of Distinction, and we look forward to presenting this year's Award in her honour.

All the best, Trina

Trina Isakson <tisakson@ywcavan.org>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 5, 2006 1:38 PM CDT
To the Brear Family, and Brian,

Our prayers are with you all today as you celebrate Ashley's life. May God give you peace and understanding, and reasons for joy as you think of her life, how she glorified God in sooo many ways, and the fact that, having salvation through your faith in Christ, you will see her again. In the bigger picture, our parting is very temporary, but we cannot fathom that, not being God, and not seeing into the future with His sight. For today, we pray for strength and peace for each of you, and that your faith in Jesus Christ as your Saviour be made stronger through the trial of Ashley's passing.

With much love, in Christ,

David, Shelley, Riad and Taylor Hess

Hess family <hess-family@telus.net>
North Saanich, B.C. Canada - Friday, May 5, 2006 11:23 AM CDT
Dear Heidi and family and Brian,
You have been in our thoughts and prayers daily and we hope you are finding your way through. We are not able to come to the service tomorrow, but will be with you in spirit, both in the sadness and the celebration of Ashley's life.
In peace,

Margaret Anne, Kelly, and Lucas <maenders@hotmail.com>
Williams Lake, - Friday, May 5, 2006 0:24 AM CDT
My prayers are with Ashley's family and friends. I, too, have been battling HD.
I am a lot older - 53 years. Ashley and other young people with HD are true
heroes with their upbeat and encouraging attitudes. I know everyone on the HD
website is so very sorry for your loss. God bless you. In Christ, Doree Hoit

Doree Hoit <hoit1@comcast.net>
Manteca, CA United States - Thursday, May 4, 2006 10:57 PM CDT
Dear: The Brear Family (Brian)
My name is Genevieve Duford and I had the pleasure of meeting your daughter at the hospital in the past few years while undergoing my own treatment. I have been keeping tabs on Ashley through my friend Sindi Hawkins. I wanted to first and foremost extent my deepest condolences to not only the family, but to Ashley’s friends and most important Brian. Brian you were a pillar of strength for Ashley and that is how us two girls met. We were bragging at how wonderful our boyfriends were and how we could not believe that we had found the two best men in the world. I know there are no words that anyone can say that will ease the pain, but one thing I know is that when you are faced with this disease you are forced to live everyday like it was your last. Ashley not only did this but she made life easier for everyone around her, to me that is what a true survivor is. Although she is gone she will forever be remembered as the girl that won her battle with Cancer and her memories will last forever in every single one of us.
May God Bless
Genevieve Duford

Genevieve Duford <genevieveduford@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC Canada - Thursday, May 4, 2006 6:14 PM CDT
I first heard about Ashley's passing in my Prayer and sharing service at my church. Her name didnt really connect with anyone i knew...later i saw her picture and story in the paper and realized that I went to elementary and highschool with her. being 2 years younger i never really had the opportunity to get to know her, until this morning when i read her journal. I am at a loss for words. Ashley's journal alone has sparked something within me. I am participating in the Relay for Life at Mahon park and her story, her courage, her joy for life down to the minutes will be what motivates me. Thank you Ashley.

God Bless you Brear family (and Brian)

Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Take peace and an comfort in God's promise.

Leigh Ann Nuttall <leighannnuttall@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Thursday, May 4, 2006 2:14 PM CDT
Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew and Brian,

You are all in my thoughts today as you prepare for the service tomorrow. I will also think of you tomorrow evening Toronto time while the service is happening. I am sure it will be very sad but also very rich and wonderful to join with family and friends and community to celebrate Ashley, the wonderful person she was and all that she accomplished in her short but amazing life. So know that there are loving hands and hearts holding you up as you go through this.

Peace, love and strength to you all.

Liz

Liz Schumann <schu58vp@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, - Thursday, May 4, 2006 6:41 AM CDT
I would like to send my thoughts and prayers to your family...I never knew Ashley,, but I just read her journal and I feel like I have known her...She seemed so amazing and strong....Im 26 yrs old....battling this disease....And reading her battle just makes me stronger....God Bless YOU
Viveca Garza <vivfoxi79@yahoo.com>
Corpus Chrisit , TX US - Wednesday, May 3, 2006 4:19 PM CDT
I love you, Ashley.

I am so grateful to God for you. I miss you so much... but I wish peace and joy for you with all my heart and soul. You are an angel now... but then, you always were!
All my love and prayers to the Brear family. Thank you for giving us Ashley. She was and always will be so precious.

God bless you.

Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, May 2, 2006 9:48 PM CDT
To the Brear Family,
I met Ashley on the trip to Taize(2003). Ashley was an extraordinary person with an incredible amount of joy. God's light shone through Ashley in an amazing way. I will always remember Ashley and her amazaing strength and faith.
Please know that my thoughts and prayers will continue to be with your family.

Sarah Brown <slbrown@dccnet.com>
Delta, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 1:55 PM CDT
Dear Bear family,
I just signed on to the Hodgkin's site after a long absence from the site and saw the post on your daughter. I am saddened to hear the news. I had hd ten years ago with recurrance five years ago. Over the past year, I did not follow your daughter's journal, did not know of her fight but,having taken a little bit of time to read her thoughts. I know about her now. What a gutsy and positive girl. You have so much to be proud of. She did more in her wonderful life than a lot of us will ever do in our own. I just wanted to tell you that she has helped me a lot, just in the reading of her journal. Thank you for letting me share my thoughts with you. She is one special girl and will always be so. Sincerely and with much admiration and thanks, Liz

Liz Flock
Grimsby, Ont Canada - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 1:49 PM CDT
Dear Brear Family,
I was devestated to hear of the loss of Ashley. I only met her a couple of times when I was in Vancouver, but she has made such an impact on my life. She was so inspirational to me. What an absolutely wonderful person to have known. My school is holding a Relay for Life next week and as a teacher and cancer survivor I will be making a speech to the hundreds of students and members of the community that are participating. The theme of my speech will be Keep on Swimming and it will be dedicated to Ashley. My donation will also be made in memory of your wonderful, wonderful daughter and sister. I will be thinking about you and praying for you all this week and always.

Beth Dewhirst Ferkranus <b_ferkranus@hotmail.com>
Newmarket, ON Canada - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 7:31 AM CDT
I am very Sorry to hear of Ashley's death. I don't remember her well but have fond memories of times spend with Heidi at Moorecroft and other CGIT events. Condlences to the family.
Doreen Patterson <bob-doreen@shaw.ca>
Qualicum Beach, BC Canada - Monday, May 1, 2006 11:24 PM CDT
Mr. & Mrs Brear,

This is a immeasurable catastrophic loss to you both and I want to express my heartfelt condolences. You are both in the prayers of our family, please know that Ashley's life touched thousands of people and her memory will never be forgotten.

Paul Coco
www.alesecoco.org

Paul Coco <Paul.coco@honeywell.com>
Redondo Beach , CA USA - Monday, May 1, 2006 0:12 AM CDT
to Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew, what can we say to you except that our hearts are full of tears for you, we think and pray for you constantly. Having known Ashley for so many years we know how wonderful she was not just in the last three years but always. She will not leave a space, she will be with us all for the rest of our lives
Margaret and Peter Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC Canada - Sunday, April 30, 2006 10:30 PM CDT
Dear Ashley,
Unfortunately, I never had the chance to meet you, but I have heard about you and all the lives you touched. You were, and still are such a beautiful soul, one who endured too much, and still managed to laugh, to write about the others you loved and how happy you were for them. You put love into action. thank you for this amazing, inspiring life, far too short, and for this small window I had a chance to look into. I was so moved by your love for the world and for God, and I continue to be, as we all do, as the dance goes on, in a world that amasses time and space, and you are in the center of it all.
I send tears, love, and my blessings to all your family and those who are feeling this emptiness even more than I
am. We are all connected, whether we know it or not.
The world has lost an amazing friend, one who is hugging us all right now and telling us that she's okay.
Thank you Ashley!
Emma Prestwich

Emma Prestwich <shining_sunlight_@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, April 30, 2006 6:10 PM CDT
Dear David, Judy, Heidi and Andrew

I am so sorry for your loss. Ashley was a beautiful girl who touched the lives of so many people in such a positive way. My mother gave me a locket on my last birthday that I had the fortune to share with her before she died with this Celtic Blessing:

May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
The rain fall softly upon your fields
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the hollow of his hand

Your faith, family and friends will help you through this difficult time. It is only time that will help heal the hole her passing has left in your heart, but she will live on in the memories that you hold dear.

My heartfelt condolences,
Karin Kendall

Karin Kendall <kkendall@sd43.bc.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Saturday, April 29, 2006 4:59 PM CDT
Dear Heidi and family,
I just heard the news about Ashley passing way and wanted you to know that you and your family are in my heart and prayers.

Whenever I think of Ashley, I remember this moment from May Retreat at Camp Fircom. She was with Christine Boyle at the bottom of the stairs to going up to Jubilee Hall and they were laughing hysterically and had their arms thrown around each other's shoulders. Ashley's big hoop earrings kept catching in the sun and blinding those of us around. It was a moment of pure joy... infectious joy... and this has stayed with me for a long time.

As I'm living on the other side of the Pacific ocean, I can't attend the funeral, but know I am there in my thoughts.
I'm truly sorry for your loss, for our loss.

many blessings,
Zoe Bake-Paterson

Zoe Bake-Paterson <equat@hotmail.com>
Rarotonga, Cook Islands - Saturday, April 29, 2006 4:50 PM CDT
Dear Heidi and family,
I just heard the news about Ashley passing way and wanted you to know that you and your family are in my heart and prayers.

Whenever I think of Ashley, I remember this moment from May Retreat at Camp Fircom. She was with Christine Boyle at the bottom of the stairs to going up to Jubilee Hall and they were laughing hysterically and had their arms thrown around each other's shoulders. Ashley's big hoop earrings kept catching in the sun and blinding those of us around. It was a moment of pure joy... infectious joy... and this has stayed with me for a long time.

As I'm living on the other side of the Pacific ocean, I won't be able to attend the funeral, but that know I am there in my thoughts. I'm truly sorry for your loss, for our loss.

many blessings,
Zoe Bake-Paterson

Zoe Bake-Paterson <equat@hotmail.com>
Rarotonga, Cook Islands - Saturday, April 29, 2006 4:46 PM CDT
Dear Judy Lynn, I send you my deepest sympathy and condolences. I cannot imagine how grief stricken you must be since losing Ashley.

Ruth (Edwards)Waddy emailed me your notification of Ashley's death, with the links for the this web site in it. I know I am related to you, but I'm not quite sure of exactly how. I remember meeting you in Fleurant, as a kid. My parents Bob and Edie Edwards, are both gone now. Dad in 1986 and Mom in 2002 at the age of 92. Mae & Wesley Edwards were my Dad's Aunt & Uncle. As well, Willie Court was my grandmother's brother. I travelled to Fleurant with my parents somewhere in the neighbourhood of 10 times from 1950 to 1967. Unfortunately I've not been back since, although, I do keep in touch with Ruth and also Jean (Court) in Campbellton.

I gather that you live in BC these days. I lived in Kelowna area for 12 years between 1990 and 2002. Prior to that, I lived in Calgary for 15 years, Hinton for 1 year, Edmonton for 5 years, Camrose for 2 years, and my home town of Wetaskiwin for 18 years. While in Kelowna, I met my present husband, and we moved back to Calgary together in April 2002. Please send me your name and address details, so that we may connect again in our adult years. I would love to meet you again, and hear more about your life and you darling Ahsley. I don't have to time to read the whole web site at this moment, but I have bookmarked it for future reading.

Again, my deepest condolences to you and your family.

Donna Edwards <alandonna@telus.net>
Calgary, AB Canada - Saturday, April 29, 2006 7:24 AM CDT

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