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it's not your style to be sad - but all us here just don't know what to do with ourselves. you gave us so much to miss and so much to remember. for always. an angel.
Dan Mangan <info@danmanganmusic.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, April 28, 2006 9:22 PM CDT

We met your daughter thro' Leah Callen who is a good friend. The last time we went to the Temple on 18th of April, we put Ashley Brear and all her circle of friends with cancer. Our Heavenly Father knows who they are. I guess he figured it was time to take Ashley home so she would be in heaven and without pain andcontinue her good work there. It is hardest on you, those loved ones she left behind. May the Lord bless you and keep you safe and know that your wonderful daughter is safe in his comforting arms, and you will see her again some day. Of this we are confident. In love and compassion from
Cecil and Joan Bund <cnjbund@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, bc Canada - Friday, April 28, 2006 3:36 PM CDT

ashley and her family will be in my thoughts and prayers today even though i won't be at her service, i'll be thinking of the pretty girl with the amazing spirit that i never got to meet
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Friday, April 28, 2006 5:01 AM CDT

Dear Dave, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian; It is with great sadness that I read tonight of Ashley's journey last Saturday. I am so thankful that all of you were with her and that her passing was peaceful and centred in your love. I have been on Vancouver Island for almost 2 weeks now cleaning out my parents house to ready it for sale, and I have been steeped in memories, and a sense of loss and grieving for both my parents. I cannot imagine the greater grief of losing a child. I only pray that your pain will be lessened because it is shared by Ashley's many, many friends. I count myself privileged to have called Ashley my friend. I will never, never forget how she came through for Paul and I at our wedding with such energy, enthusiasm, professionalism, and joy. Dearest Brear family may you all be held tightly in God's arms.
Love, Kim.
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
Mill Bay (North Vanc) , BC - Friday, April 28, 2006 2:44 AM CDT

Hi I didn't know Ashley I just came accross this I would like to say from what I have read about her in the blogs shes written that she was a wonderfull person.
My prayers go out to her and her family and her bf.
Shine on Ashley..
Jaci <sheba_vpg@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, Bc Canada - Friday, April 28, 2006 0:19 AM CDT

"ASHLEY BREAR - In loving memory"

Thank you so much to the following readers who gave the precious gift of blood, in the name of our Awesome and Amazing Ashley! Ashley was thrilled that we would pledge 100 units in 2006. So far you have donated 23 units.
If you don't see your name below and have donated, please contact me by e-mail and I will ensure you are recorded with Canadian Blood Services at Oak Street.
Cathy & Blaine Feniuk
Alma McDonald
Kelsy Smither & Sean Conner
Brian Calder
Greg Bell
Alison Atkinson
Corinne & Wayne McComb
Donna & Krista Walker
Robin & Mari Anne Hussen
Marianne Nolte
Mike Vass
Doug Skinner
Emma Fenwick
Sandra Boleak
Dale Shea
Shahina Khan
Jacqueline Henderson
Diana Hicks
Thanks again for giving this priceless gift.
To make your appointment, please call: 1-888-2-donate
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C Canada - Thursday, April 27, 2006 11:47 PM CDT

Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew, and Brian,

I was very saddened to hear of Ashleys passing and only wish that I could shoulder some of the burden of your grief. My heart and prayers go out you. I hope the knowledge that she was loved by so many will help lighten your hearts. Ashley will always remain alive in the hearts of everyone who ever knew her and we will all remember the truely awe inspiring young women that she is.
Cindy Walker <marwalk@telus.net>
Surrey, Canada - Thursday, April 27, 2006 7:05 PM CDT

My HEART goes out to the Brear Family....
In the past year and a bit that i have had the pleasure in getting to know Ashley, she has found an everlasting place in my heart, and she will be greatly missed. I know that in the past 3 years she has gone through so much... more than anyone should ever have to go through in their lives.... and to be able to see how strong of a person she is and was, will always be a reminder that there is hope.... and she was such a strong believer.... and she had the best personality, laugh, smile, hair, looks. She was such a beautiful person inside and out... and it hurts so much to know that she is no longer with us.... i have never meet such a wonderful person. And i hope someday that i will be able to see her and soar with her and the angels up there. May she be looking out over everyone who had the prilivage of meeting her, and that she keeps an eye on her family!

"Awakened By The Touch Of A Tear"
i close my eyes. i see your face. the image of you i can't erase. i lay myself down and try to unmind. It's to hard to do cuase you're there. i fall into deep sleep, and dark as night, there is color, but black and white. i see a table, candles and wine. i see your face, but you can't see mine. i dont know who you're with. i cant tell how you feel. i tell myself it cant be real. i cant bare to watch. i cant stay here. i am suddenly awakened by the touch of a tear. i wake up crying. yet i dont know why. All i can remember is the day you said "GOOD-BYE"! (a.c)
In Ever Loving Memory of Ashley Brear. 12/12/83 to 04/22/06

Jestina Campbell <jag_39@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, April 27, 2006 1:42 PM CDT

I heard today that you passed Ashley. I know we haven't exchanged many words with one another as the time has passed but your absense is felt. I may not know you as you well as others may, but what I do know is that you are a kind soul. One that should take flight and soar over the pain that you went through undergoing your treatment. Every time I saw you, you had a smile on your face. A smile that was of pure joy and happiness. I hope that still have that smile on your face as you look down on the world to watch over us. You will truley be missed Ashley. By many, I hope you feel as loved now as you were when you were with us in a physical presence. Though heads may bow in tear, it is in this release that releases you. You struggled, you were strong, but it overcame you. You were taken from this world too early, but at least now you get to circle the globe and travel and see all the things that you wished you could. We'll miss you Ashley, but don't let that stop you from having fun up there.

Much Love,

Jessica

Jessica Fekete
North Vancouver, - Thursday, April 27, 2006 0:26 AM CDT

What a precious angel we all have watching over us! I only knew Ashley through her very dear friend Leah and her website. She was part of our Highlands United Church extended family. She has touched the hearts of many with her courage and legacy she leaves behind. My prayers are with her and her family and Brian. Her very strong spirit is still watching over all of you! Memories of her smile even during her very hard times will be in all our hearts!
Blessings!
Jacqueline Scott
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 11:58 PM CDT

Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,
Sending you my sympathy and best wishes for healing and peace. Now Ashley is free of pain, and her spirit of courage and helping others will live on.
Love Pam
Pam Harris <pam_harris@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 9:45 PM CDT

Dear Brear Family,
I had the absolute pleasure of working closely with Ashley at the Rec Centre for two summers. She was a joy, and inspiration, and so much fun. She taught me how to read stories to children. I wish we could have kept more in touch. She will be missed so much by so many. My thoughts are with you and her during this time. Now she is free of pain.
Jodi <jodia@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 7:55 PM CDT

Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian, I have just spent some time reading the entries that have been added since Ashley's spirit was set free to dance. I was reminded of her request some time ago that we visualize her dancing, with long hair flowing round her head. I don't know about the long hair, but I am convinced she is dancing to the most wonderful music imaginable, with a wide smile on her face, no pain, no problem with energy, no struggle, no worries... pure joy... for she has found the answers to all the questions about God, and what we are born into when this life must end, and what she has found is wonder-filled! Ashley has inspired so many, including me. I am so grateful for the gift and privilege of having known her. This message comes filled with my love and a reminder that in the times when we are most prone to doubt, God's love soaks in and comforts us in our most broken and bruised parts, simply holding us, inviting us to somehow find peace and renewal. Rest in God's love which is being wrapped around you by so many people, both nearby in personal visits, and from far away in messages through this website. Love and blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 7:36 PM CDT

Dear Brear Family, Brian & family
Your beautiful Ashley touched all 3 of my children's lives... each speaks of her with fondness, wonderful memories and disbelief at how one young woman could be such an amazing inspiration to so many! You are in our thoughts and prayers.
With heartfelt sympathy,
Cathy, Scott, Ryan, Michael & Allyson Corbett
Cathy Corbett <corbettcathy@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 7:04 PM CDT

Dearest Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,
We all know that Ashley was born with her very own angel wings. She didn't need them while she was doing all of the greatness that only Ashley could do here on earth. We know now that those same wings are now helping her soar to greatness with God. I will never forget Christmas eve at St. Agnes when Chloe was 3 months old and Ashley was 'Mary' and held the baby 'Jesus', our Chloe. With just a towel over her beautiful head, 'Mary' had never been portrayed more beautifully. We will never forget you Ashley. When we look up to the heavens we will know that you will be shining above us... lucky us xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Anita, Randy, Chayce and Chloe Kurney <kidkurney@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 3:51 PM CDT

I met Ashley late in my own battle with hodgkins and early in hers. The idea was that I would be able to help her with her pending struggle. I doubt very much that I could possibly have helped her one tenth as much as she inspired and helped me. Everytime we talked I was blown away by her courage and undying positivity. Even under the most daunting circumstances she bravely smiled. I never thought I would see someone battle cancer as courageously and selflessly as my stepfather,I was wrong. I keep saying to myself and friends how unfair this is, how if anyone deserved to make it Ashley did. I am truly at a loss. To the Brear family, and of course Brian, please know that I humbly grieve with all of you.
Matthew Flynn <ugod111@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 3:12 PM CDT

Dance Ashley with the Angles. Dance with the joy and love you brought to us in life. Dance in the wonderment of God our Creator, and be at peace in the loving eternal embrace of the one who called you to dance in his creation. Your 22 yrs was far to brief, you leave behind large shoes, that will never be filled or forgotten. To me you are a living saint, someone who, although brief, changed my life forever. I am blest to have known you, and shattered to know you are gone. Rejoice heavenly powers, sing choirs of angles, Ashley is at peace, may Gods light always dance in her heart, as she dances in ours.
Alex Wilson - Saint Pauls Anglican/ Diocesan council <Pilgrame@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 1:39 PM CDT

Dear Brear Family, and Brian
I had the amazing opportunity of working with Ashley at the Rec Center a few years ago. She made every playground adventure and puppet show more exciting. Reading about everything she has gone through in the past couple of years, and the grace and courage she fought her battle with is truly inspirational. I am sure her story has made many people want to live their lives in a different way. I know she will be missed dearly, But,I am sure she is in a better and more peaceful place now, and is now looking down on all of us.
Luv
Amitis
Amitis Khorsandi <amitisk@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 1:23 PM CDT

Ashley�s smile illuminated her face; she had the ability to always see the positive in everything and was such a good listener to others. She amazed us with her incredible vitality as she accomplished things that would have never been expected from anyone, let alone someone undergoing the harsh treatment she was getting at the time! Ashley accomplished more in her way too short life than many who die from old age! Ashley we are proud to have known you and we will never forget you. Our most sincere sympathy goes out to Ashley�s family and to Brian.
Lauren and Patrick DuBois (Karin's parents)
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 6:34 PM CDT

To the Brear family and Brian,
I knew Ashley slightly personally. However I did know her through my kids and their involvement with youth council and young adult services and the Keep on Swimming Ball. Her vibrant smile always was the first thing I noticed because it was so contagious. My kids would keep on giving me "Ashley" sightings which was such a thrill, especially when she was not getting out much. She was such an inspiration in the way she lived life, I hope I can be half the woman she was. We will all miss her but we know that she is swimming with all the angels in heaven now and sending her vibrant love down to us.
Kathy & Jim Andrews and Iain, Heather & Kelly <krandrews2003@yahoo.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 6:29 PM CDT

Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew, and Brian - The depth of our sadness knows no bounds. Ashley was a very special young woman, with an incredible spirit that touched so many people's hearts and souls. We will miss her always, and we take comfort, indeed, in the thought of her twirling and dancing with God and all the other angels! Our thoughts and love are with you.
Victoria & Bill Alcock <victoriaa53@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 5:01 PM CDT

Ashley. What an inspiration! A true angel that has exuded more love in her short life than most in their long life. A caring, beautiful angel.
Wenda Jobling
Port Coquitlam, BC Canada - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 3:51 PM CDT

I think that anyone who had ever met Ashley knew that there was something special about her. Her forever possitive attitude, endless smiles and beautiful caring nature. I can honestly say that Ashley has become a hero to so many of us including myself. I have never met someone with so much strenght and will to carry on. TO Ashley know that you are an inspiration you have made me start to disragard the trivial things in life. I have so much respect for you and your family. To the Brears I am so sorry for your loss we have all lost an angel. May Ashley forever look down on all of us and smile. She will be greatly missed.
Kelsey Basford <majormilk@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, bc Canada - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 1:44 PM CDT

To the Brear Family
Our thoughts are with you - Ashley and my daughter were friends at high school where I had the pleasure of meeting her through projects and functions they shared. We were also fortunate to have her join our team at the Delbrook Recreation Centre for summer child care. Ashley made a very positive contribution to our facility and the young lives she touch. Thank you Ashley for being such a special person.

Donna Mathieson-Robertson/Chelsea Ward <mathied@northvanrec.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 10:16 AM CDT

I am so sorry for your loss. you will be in my thoughts & prayers.Fly free Ashley...
Michele(nurse in NY)
- Tuesday, April 25, 2006 9:28 AM CDT

Ashley-

You were the best Affirmation Poker partner I ever had, by far.
You were why I stayed with Youth Council, why I made friends that first weekend.
You made me laugh because of simply who you are, just bubbling joy that surrounds you.
It was for you, that I would light the candle in the chapels.
It is for you, that I want to live everyday, live every moment, in complete gratitude for all I have so easily.
The growing feeling of elation as summer returns; the unmarred love and happiness that is so rare to find so freely given; steadfast determination and hope� she was all of this and more.

I cannot compare words with the poetry and expression written before me, nor truly comprehend the loss The Brear family is going through. I feel like I knew her so fleetingly, for just a moment I caught sight of her before she was gone. Caught sight of an angel in the corner of my eye and it breaks my heart to know that was all I get to see of her.
Met her over a poker game years ago at T-town Jesus House, and I know I saw an angel.
She is dancing with them, and hopefully running the table with a full-house, too.
All my love,
Thomas

Thomas Clay-Smith <tclaysmith@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, April 25, 2006 2:16 AM CDT

Dear Brear Family,

I'm so sorry for your loss. I only knew Ashley throught this site. It was breathtaking to see her beautiful spirit shine through it. All of you will continue to be in my thoughts.
Enya
Philadelphia, PA - Monday, April 24, 2006 10:31 PM CDT

Dear Brian, Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,
I am so grateful to have met Ashley and connect with her through the YACN group. I will never forget her smile. My heart and my prayers are with you.
Love Allison
Allison Prinsen <allisonprinsen@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 10:04 PM CDT

Dear Andrew, Heidi, Judy, Dave & Brian:
Our hearts ache for your loss. Please take strength from our love during this difficult time.
Annie, William, Kevin & Stephanie Lam
Annie Lam <alam1@my.bcit.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 9:48 PM CDT

Ashley

May Your Strength Give Us Strength
May Your Faith Gives Us Faith
May Your Hope Give Us Hope
May Your Love Bring Us Love

Bruce Walkinshaw <Bruce_walkinshaw@hotmail.com>
- Monday, April 24, 2006 8:51 PM CDT

Dave, Judy, Heidi, Andrew, Brian, everyone graced by her presence,
I think we all feel that we lost a most amazing, inspirational, beautiful person, but meanwhile the angels above are rejoicing about the dear one who has now joined them. Ashley was so amazing, and I have soo many memories that involve her, from being just one of Andrew's 'older sis', to introducing me to everyone at Camp Fircom at good ol' May Retreat, to the joy on everyone's faces at the Keep On Swimming Fundraiser ball as Ashley danced around in her fairy wings with that contagious smile, she is living proof that there are angels here on earth. Such proof, in fact, that God could not bear to be parted from her for any longer. God's hand is in every transition between chapters. My prayers go out to all those who feel her loss, and we all know that she will hold a precious space in all of our hearts forever. Ashley, you are an inspiration to us all, and may you laugh and dance and swim above us in the sky as the most beautiful angel that has ever passed through the gates of Heaven.
Much love,
Chelsea Woit
Chelsea Woit <chwoit@uvic.ca>
Victoria/North Van, - Monday, April 24, 2006 8:47 PM CDT

To Ashley,
You are wonderful, the life that you lead was one of inspiration and amazement, and those who knew or met you were very, very lucky.

You will be greatly missed, and fondly remembered.

To the Brears,
You are all in the thoughts and minds of so many saddened people, who remember and miss Ashley, and all wish your family as much peace as possible in this time of grief and need.

Ryan Corbett <corbett117@yahoo.com>
North Vancouver, BC - Monday, April 24, 2006 8:11 PM CDT

such a beautiful life, far too short, but such a powerful and beautiful life. I'm praying for all who loved ashley for courage in this grief. Ashley, i imagine you knowing all the answers now and continuing to shed so much light on us all and on the world and that makes me glad.

Doris Kizinna <dkizinna@bc.united-church.ca>
- Monday, April 24, 2006 8:07 PM CDT

Dear Brear Family and Brian,

I only knew Ashley through this web site, but she never failed to inspire me. What a wonderful young woman. My deepest sympathy to all of you. The pain of losing someone you love is hard to endure. May your memories in time bring you peace. To live in the hearts of those left behind is to live forever.
Marni Haley <mhaley@jbhaley.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 8:01 PM CDT

Dearest Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,

We cannot begin to tell you how sad we are to hearing of Ashley's passing. From the moment we met her on that first day of preschool, we knew she was someone special. We also came to know how wonderful and caring her family was too. We would like to lift away some of the pain for you, but we know that we can't do that. But we can let you know that you are cared about, and we hope that this, in itself, will offer you comfort. Pain is so personal and it is never easy to stand by and watch people so kind and so good as you all are, hurt and suffer. I know that you know there will be smiles and laughter again, as difficult as that is to imagine right now. But we can't think of Ashley without a smile coming instantly to our faces. She brought so much joy, laughter and an unmistakable impishness like no other we have known. We thank you for sharing your precious daughter with all of us. And we thank God for loaning us one of His angels, although it was not nearly long enough.
We send you all our love and healing thoughts.
Cathy & Ian Hauen, Amy and Kevin Corstorphine <Hauenc@yahoo.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 6:47 PM CDT

To the Brear Family, I went to high school with Ashley and hadn't kept in touch ever since. I didn't know she had cancer until now. I am very sorry for your loss, Ashely was one of the nicest, cutest and funniest girls and she will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
Aliya Hassam <aliya.hassam@gmail.com>
Calgary, AB Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 6:02 PM CDT

To Ashley's Family and Loved Ones,

Words cannot describe the sadness that is felt...Ashley was a truly amazing soul, and the world is much richer for the time that Ashley was able to spend with us. I will miss seeing her smile on our random encounters, but I carry her warm spirit in my heart forever.

Love Sean and Liz Harris
Sean Harris <s_harris22@shaw.ca>
Abbotsford, BC - Monday, April 24, 2006 5:16 PM CDT

The Caringbridge Guestbook is filled with love for a beautiful person taken too soon. But how her short life brought together so many people. Thank you to the Brear Family for sharing your difficult journey with us. It has enriched so many lives. Ashley was blessed to have you as a family. She touched more people in her short lifetime than most people would ever meet. She was no ordinary person--she really was an angel. Now she can rest.
Marilyn Hurl <dennisandmarilyn@shaw.ca>
Qualicum Beach, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 2:55 PM CDT

To the entire Brear family and Brian,
Ashley's beautiful life and spirit have touched so many people. She has taught us all lessons in life, love and hope. Ashley has left her mark upon our world in a wonderful way, and has a place in my heart forever. My love to you all now and in the days to come.
Jacqueline Henderson <jac_henderson@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 2:14 PM CDT

Our Love and condolences go to Ashley's family and her close friends. When ashley comes to mind I cant help but think of how much even when she was in dire straits she was the biggest fighter. Three years is a long time to have such a burden on a hurting heart. Ashley's passing brings a new side out in the people she touched. Heather told me yesterday about the last MSN conversation her and Ashley had. Ashley's words to Heather have great meaning now. She thanked heather for all the support, prayers, friendship, and love heather had shown to her. I think those words can be said to all of the people who showed her the kind of support she had and still has now even though she is in heaven. The greatest angel in the world is the one you know is looking down on you and Ashley is sure looking down on us right now. Thank you Ashley for being the friend of all friends to Heather. I bet ya right now Dorey (from finding nemo) and Ashley are hanging out in Disney heaven swimming around with nemo and all his friends. Keep on swimming Ashley we will always love you for what you did and who you are.

Love,

Scott and Heather

Once again love and condolences
Scott Schaffer and Heather Andrews <Cleanandcontrol@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 1:32 PM CDT

Words could never do justice to Ashley's spirit, to the life she lived, and to the beautiful, inspiring, and Amazing person she was.

I only knew Ashley over a few years, but I think anyone who shared any amount of time with her is bound to have been changed. Ashley was so full of love for others. She openly shared her joy and spirit and loved without question or judgement. She encouraged me so much during my treatments, always sending me a caring email or leaving me thoughtful messages.

One day, as I was having chemo, Ashley came to visit with her big, contagious smile. She had cards for me, created by kids she was babysitting. Ashley was full of surprises, each one demonstrating her vivacious spirit.

As I entered the transplant ward for my stem cell transplant, I was surprisingly greeted by a paper bouquet - it was a stem cell plant created for me, by Ashley! She had written little, encouraging notes on each paper stem cell. It was so sweet.

Ashley never gave up on life, and through her journey has taught us how to live. Thank you Ashley! We love you and will carry you in our hearts. My thoughts & prayers go out to Ashley's friends and family and her boyfriend Brian.

Love,
Karin

Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 12:42 AM CDT

Dear all those who love Ashley,
There truely are no words to describe the sorrow we all feel, and yet there are so many beautiful and moving words expressed in this guestbook. As the memories come flooding back of moments shared, we all smile into this sunshine with gratitude and hope. Ashley, your courage, honesty, openness and integrity have brought together a remarkable world-wide community of faith, love and healing. It's humbling and amazing to read how much you inspire and touch people, those of us lucky enough to call you friend, and all those people who have never met you. It has profoundly deepened my faith in the miracle of Easter and the power of the Holy One to bring new life out of darkness. Your beauty, grace, wisdom, and laughter will live on in the minds and hearts of many as we continue to tell the stories. Go gently, dear one, as your dancing, swimming, loving spirit soars over us all. With much love, prayers, and deep sadness, Tracy, Greg and Joshua
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Monday, April 24, 2006 12:41 AM CDT

We send a sad farewell to your physical presence among us, dearest Ashley. Forever your name will touch our lips, we will speak of you as we recall each precious memory, and remain steadfast in our belief that you have now reached that glorious higher ground where you will find beauty and peace and forever be free from pain. Your Keep On Swimming Fundraiser will always be a powerful testament to your work here on earth, to your selfless commitment to making life so much better for so many and to your ability to bring joy, inspiration and motivation to all who's lives you touched.

To Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian - be brave; you WILL find moments of peace within your sorrow, you will feel Ahsley's presence each and every day and you will be comforted by remembrances of the beauty that was Ashley.

Be assured of our support in all the days ahead.
Much love,
Helen and Nis xx
Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
NORTH VANCOUVER, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 12:18 AM CDT

Brears I am so sorry to read of Ashley's death.I hope you can find some comfort knowing that Ashley has touched so many lives. She lived very very well. She lives on in so many different ways. Kindest regards Dale and family
Dale Shea <dshea@sd43.bc.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 12:06 AM CDT

To the Brears, Brian, the huge circle of friends and family that surrounds Ashley: My heart goes out to you all, as I feel so immensely sad at Ashley's passing and I only knew her for a few years and not nearly closely enough!! I will miss her, for the divine inspiration, the positive force of Life that she beamed everywhere and that incredible smile. I loved her dearly and so am glad that she is no longer in pain, and as you said in your message "She is healed." Ashley remains a cancer survivor in my heart and its with happiness that I feel her still very much alive in my life.
Love, Suzette
Suzette Meyers/Peter Curtain <suzettem@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 10:40 AM CDT

Dear Dave, Judy, Heidi & Andrew,
It was with great sadness that we learned of Ashley's passing. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.
Barry, Denise, Ally & Claire Fergusson
Denise Fergusson <denisefergusson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 10:16 AM CDT

To the entire Brear Family and Brian,
I am writing to express my sincere sympathy to each and every one of you. Ashley was such a special girl and as you can tell from the outpouring of emails, she touched many people near and far.
I followed her journal which she candidly shared with everyone and admired her for being such a brave, articulate, funny and most of all - inspiring young lady. She will be missed.
Thinking of you all at this time,
Joan Boyle <jbcb@videotron.ca>
Montreal, Quebec Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 8:39 AM CDT

I'm very sorry for your loss. Ashley was a very brave and courageous young woman, and certainly an inspiration to us all. All the best during this difficul time.
Robin Brunet <robinb@neptune.on.ca>
Bradford, ontario Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 7:47 AM CDT

Dear Lovely Brears,
I'm so sad for your loss. She is a light and so beautiful. She used her life well, better than many. I'm so sad for our loss.
Thank you for sharing your daughter with us. She will be missed.
Laura*
Laura Allardyce <girl_allardyce@hotmail.com>
Ottawa, ON Canada - Monday, April 24, 2006 7:36 AM CDT

Dear Heidi, Dave, Judy, Andrew and all those who love Ashley...
My name is Amy and although I didn't ever get a chance to meet Ashley I have been touched by her life in many ways. Two of her very best friends happen to be two of the most important people in my life and the way that they loved Ashley made me feel as if I knew her too. Ashley's smile, captured on film, lit up all the corners of Lauren's room here in Kingston and I am humbled at what an inspirational, beautiful life she lead, even with all the pain she faced. I know that her passing will leave a physical emptiness in your world but I hope you are constantly reminded that her spirit has, and will continue to, bring full-ness to so many worlds and reaches out to places you cannot even imagine.
with all my condolences, thoughts, prayers and love,
Amy.
Amy Thomasson <amyinscotland@hotmail.com>
Kingston, ON - Monday, April 24, 2006 2:27 AM CDT

There is so much i feel i could say but not enough words to explain how i feel. You were and inspiration of Life and you have done so much to move and touch so many people's lives. ~ A few days ago I had thought of something i had wanted to send to ashley. I never got the chance but i'm sending it to her wherever she is and I thought i'd share it.I see it as a meditation.
I invite you to enter for a moment into Sacred Time and Space, into a way of seeing that is broad and spacious. See this Day, from the time you arose this morning until you sleep this evening, as one Ceremony, divided into small and familiar rituals, your Heart as the Altar. You, part of the Cycles of Light and Darkness.
Now begin to see your Life, from the moment of your Conception until the time of your Death as one long, comtinuous Ceremony, filled with many rituals, some familiar, some unknown and challenging. Your Home and all Your Relations, the Altar. You, part of many Seasons and Cycles.
Now see this Ceremony as your Life as part of a much larger Ceremony that extends Seven Generations into the Past and Seven Generations into the Future, made up of many Births and Deaths. This beautiful spinning Earth the Altar. You, part of the great Ebb and Flow.
Now, if You will, imagine this larger Ceremony to be but one part of a Ceremony so grand, so magnificent as to be hardly comprehensible, a great, vast Ceremonial Circle, rich and vibrant with millions upon millions of swirling Circles of Dancing Light, and You, one of those Dancing Circles, a Dancer on the Altar that is the Universe, where Time is Eternal.
May You Dance In Beauty.
Ashley you are a Dancing Circle of Light that has touched so many people's lives. Thank-you for being who you are to so many of us. Bless your family for being a part of who you were and always will be in our hearts.
my condolences to you Heidi, Dave, Judy and Andrew.
May you dance in Beauty dearest Ashley.
Ana-Luz <ana_luz_mc@hotmail.com>
Van. , B.C. - Monday, April 24, 2006 0:47 AM CDT

Dearest brother David, Judy, Heidi and Andrew,
As I read all the wonderful messages from so many special friends and loved ones, the tears are flowing and my heart is breaking for your loss. Feel proud of your darling Ashley, she was a shining, dancing, brilliant star.The world is a much darker place without her.
Love you.
Sally <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:48 PM CDT

We are so sorry to hear of Ashley's passing. She was a shining light. She is now at peace and happy in the arms of the angels. Our love to all.

Gillian, Stuart and Emily Knapp
Gillian, Stuart and Emily Knapp <mtamas@telus.net>
Kamloops, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:36 PM CDT

Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew,
I'm so sorry for your loss. What a treasure Ashley has been. She has deeply touched so many of us. I think of you all so often and hope Ashley continues to brighten the lives of all she is to encounter now that she is free from her pain and on to the next chapter. Love Koreen, Rod, Makenna and Jacob
Koreen Carl <rkcarl@telus.net>
Maple Ridge, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:14 PM CDT

I know my words cannot ease your pain. Please just know that we feel for you, our hearts ache with you and we miss her too. Ashley was so strong, she was a darling on earth and is now an angel in heaven.

Ashley helped so many people and so did you by sharing your journey. The world is a greater place having known Ashley.

love,
Kimberly
Kimberly Anderson
- Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:21 PM CDT

Hello Brear Family,
We have been following Ashley's brave battle, hoping and praying for the best. We're so sorry for your and everyone's loss of Ashley.
Doug, Trish & Helena Mills <dmills@telusplanet.net>
Edmonton, - Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:00 PM CDT

Ashley....My last post was to your family. This one is to you. Thank you for changing the face of cancer, and not making it seem scary. Thank you for your smile and your perky attitude! Thank you for helping me and so many others with the struggle of cancer. Thank you for being you. Thank god you were born!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 9:50 PM CDT

To the Brear family,

My thoughts are with you during this sad time.

With sympathy,
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 9:37 PM CDT

my beloved friend, comrade and sister ashley, you have always been an angel....thank you for teaching us all to wish on stars, laugh out loud, believe in our dreams, dance like crazy, shine, sparkle, and love. i love you deeply. my heart, prayers, thoughts, love and wishes are with u judy, dave, heidi, andrew and brian.

butterfly kisses xoxoxo
god bless,
melanie

Melanie McDonald <mgmcdnl@mta.ca>
- Sunday, April 23, 2006 9:26 PM CDT

Firstly, I want to pass on my sincere regrets for the loss of Ashley, I am the caregiver of a former patient of T15 at the same time when your daughter was also on the floor. I had a nice visit with your other daughter in the quiet room, what an outstanding person, please pass on my thoughts to her, I am sure this is a very difficult time for her. We talked about how Ashley was a fighter etc. and although we were convinced that the journey would be long, no one could ever suggest that she did not give it her all. As you are aware, the BMT T15 program is a special place and I am convinced that they gave it there all to enable Ashley to continue. The news hits very hard for our family and we feel for you in your time of sorrow. From everything that we have been told, Ashley was a very special person and you should be very proud of her...From our family to yours, stay stong and remember the good times. Take care.
ps Not to down play other cancers, I wish there would be more awareness for blood cancers and the need for the public to be blood and/or bone marrow donor.
Robert Sarson <jerrilynnsarson@shaw.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 8:49 PM CDT

BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE.
As you may know, we launched a campaign on March 5th to donate 100 units of blood in 2006 in Ashley's name. If you look back under "journal history", you will see Ashley's last entry, dated March 6th, where she expressed delight in this pledge. Ashley had personally experienced the importance of having blood available for her to "keep on swimming" and for this she was grateful. I am asking for your support now to continue to donate and to encourage others to give to her "Partners for Life - In loving memory of Ashley Brear". I am asking you to help continue Ashley's legacy by ensuring there will always be blood available to assist other cancer patients in living their best lives. We will not only reach and exceed this goal in 2006 but for many years to come. God Bless! Pauline
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 7:56 PM CDT

Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi & Andrew,
Our family mourns with you in the loss of your precious Ashley. We feel so thankful to have you as our friends. We have many fond memories of our times together and feel blessed to have known Ashley. She was so beautiful, inside and out, so much fun and so positive! What a fighter! She has truly inspired us to go after our dreams and to strive to make our world a healthier place. We know Ashley is our newest Angel in heaven, looking down on us and wondering how she could lighten the load of our grief and aching hearts. We are thankful that God brought Brian and Ashley together almost a year ago. We know they were a wonderful gift to each other and to their families.
You have given so much of yourselves to help Ashley reach her goal to "keep on swimming" and to live her life to the fullest even when she was so ill. We love you and will continue to pray for healing of your broken hearts.
Love, Jack, Pauline, Jay, Dean, Tyler & Sabrina
pauline-ann@shaw.ca <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 7:28 PM CDT

I am so sorry to hear of Ashley's passing. You will all be in my thoughts and prayers. She is an amazing person.
Lori Pierce <hayden01@tds.net>
mt Juliet, Tn USA - Sunday, April 23, 2006 6:46 PM CDT

Please accept our condolences for your loss. We would like to thank you for your generosity in allowing people you don't know to travel this road with you. We will continue to hold you in our prayers.
Gwen, Bob, John and Sue Valliere <valliere_family@rogers.com>
- Sunday, April 23, 2006 6:29 PM CDT

Dear David, Judy, Andrew, Heidi, and Brian
I went down to the beach yesterday and today, the one where Ashley, Andrew, Iain, my mom, and I went to fly kites at. Ashley really liked that beach, and when I went down there, I couldn't see a signle cloud in the sky. I just had this beautiful feeling that she was watching over me. I think she is watching over everyone who needs her strength right now. I was lucky to know her as long as I did, and so was everyone else who knew her.
Every Bit Of Love
Paige
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 3:42 PM CDT

David and family:
My deepest sympathy and condolences. The courage, strength, determination and faith of Ashley, and you and your family is such a powerful example of love and dignity and caring for each other and for all others facing similar challenges. May God be with you and comfort you and your family at this most difficult time. Brian
Brian Wesley <brian@myccn.net>
Victoria, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 12:30 AM CDT

To Davie and Family:
I'm truly sorry to hear of Ashley's passing. The more I heard of her incredible spirit and determination the more I was amazed of her strength in the face of such a challenge. I can see that part of that strength came from the love of so many people that she affected in her life. Thank you for sharing her story and life with all of us.
John
John Houck
Vancouver, - Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:50 AM CDT

Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew and Brian

We are so saddened with the news of Ashley's passing. She was an amazing girl. She helped me see a more positive outlook while going through my illness. I remember her bringing me the stem cell bouqet while i was in the hospital. Her perky attitude and smile just made me feel so much better. She has done more in her life than most will ever do. We're all here to make our mark in the world, and she made a HUGE dent!! Her legacy will carry on through her fundraisers which I hope will continue. I offer my services for any help with that. Because of all of her efforts, I know a cure for Cancer will be found one day. Her wish of just taking a pill to cure it will be a reality. She is no longer in pain and is smiling down on us all. We will miss her terribly.

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 11:43 AM CDT

We are truly sorry for your loss. Miss Ashley was our daughter's very first ballet teacher at W.A.D. Tiana admires and adores Miss Ashley. She often asks, "When will Miss Ashley come back to teach me again?" We will tell Tiana that when she dances, Miss Ashley is now dancing with her for always...
Elisa Jung <ejung@sd43.bc.ca>
Port Moody, B.C. Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:54 AM CDT

Ashley, may the God's wings lift you higher & higher.
Dave, Judy, Andrew, Heidi & Brian, we have been following your long & difficult journey with Ashley. Chelsea has an awesome photo of Ashley at the Keep on Swimming fundraiser with butterfly wings, that radiates her beauty, courage, hope & faith. This image will always be with us. Our prayers are with you all.
Bernadette, Blaine, Chelsea & Colby Woit
Bernadette Woit <bwoit@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, , BC - Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:37 AM CDT

Dear Brear family,
I am sorry to read of your terrible loss. May the sympathies and condolences you receive from all of us who have been touched by Ashley comfort you during your sadness. Thank you for bringing such a special daughter into the world. She has touched so many people in ways far too profound to put into words. I will hold Ashley close in my heart and remember her words of inspiration forever.

Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:27 AM CDT

Dave, Judy, Heidi and Andrew ( our son # 5),
Beautiful Sweet Ashley is now healed! May she rest in peace and thankfully no longer be in pain. Our hearts go out to all of you as you go through the healing process, know that we are here for you always. What a privilege it was to know Ashley and be lifted by her sense of humor (that cute laugh that she had) and touched by her special spirit. It is heartwarming to know the infinite number of lives that she touched. I think she did this even prior to the diagnosis of cancer came into her life. She is soaring now. We love you all.

Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin and Daren <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, April 23, 2006 10:23 AM CDT

I am very sorry. My thoughts and prayers for Ashely, her family and all loved ones.

Roxanne
Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
TS, FL - Sunday, April 23, 2006 9:53 AM CDT

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss of your beautiful Ashley. I will share this sad news with the Trinity Tweens tomorrow. We have her picture hanging on our bulletin board, and they always ask about her.
Sending gentle hugs,

Marcia , Stephen, Nicole, Meghan, Kayla, Chrissy, Emily and our angels Sonja and Tanner, http://fivegoofs.tripod.com . http://trinitytweens.tripod.com <marciat@sympatico.ca>
Bradford, ON - Sunday, April 23, 2006 8:38 AM CDT

Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi, Andrew, Brian: Please accept our deepest sympathy on the loss of your beloved Ashley. Her stay here on earth was short. She now sings with God's Angels and watches over each of you.
God bless you all.
Charlene and Gerry Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Ontario, Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 8:25 AM CDT

i'm so sad to hear of ashley's passing. i will miss her courageous attitude and awesome spirit. i never met her and i don't even know how i found her page but once i found her, i was hooked. what an amazing person this world has lost. heaven has gained an angel!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Sunday, April 23, 2006 8:14 AM CDT

Dear Judy, David, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,
mom told me early this morning over the phone that Ashley had passed on. I am so sorry and deeply saddened to hear this news. Later his morning, whilst waiting outside the Catholic church where my nephew was to be baptised, I heard the congregation singing, "They'll know we are Christians by our love." This was a song that we used to sing often at CGIT camp at Camp Moorecroft. I couldn't help thinking of course, of Ashley and Heidi and the wonderful times we'd had there together, and also of the times we'd had over the years not just in CGIT, but youth group, youth council and friendship outside these settings. It also seemed fitting that this song brought Ashley to mind, because she was a person who was filled with such love, and who really showed God's love in all she was and all that she did. What a wonderful human being - I am so glad I could know her. You will all be in my prayers and the prayers of my community here in Australia as you grieve.

God bless you all.

Love,

Lauren Fee
Lauren Fee
Sydney, NSW Australia - Sunday, April 23, 2006 7:59 AM CDT

dearest heidi, dave, judy, andrew and brian
when i last saw ashley, it was at a YACN meeting, and she came despite not feeling too well. i remember she was lying down on a couch and looked so relaxed. i remembered stroking her head, as i was so happy to see her! she was such a special person and i feel so honoured to have known her. she has inspired me many times when i felt nervous and scared at my presentations. she gave me strength and i would often think "if she can do it, so can i". she will continue to inspire me and many others....my deepest condolences to everyone who knew her.
Christina Loch <pokerteddy@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 3:21 AM CDT

Dearest Heidi, Dave, Judy, Andrew, & Brian:

Please accept my heartfelt condolences for the passing away of beautiful Ashley! Ashley's amazing, courageous, caring, & heroic personality will be remembered in the hearts and minds of many for years & years to come! Even though her physical being is no longer with us, her vibrant spirit will stay with us for ever! May her beautiful soul rest comfortably in peace and may her wonderful memories stay with us for ever. It's been truly a privilege for me to have met Ashley and each one of you, and I want you to know that I will always be there for you.

With lots of love and heartfelt sympathy,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Sunday, April 23, 2006 2:29 AM CDT

Ashley's constant positive outlook and warm smile will be continue to touch the many of us that had the honour of knowing your amazing daughter and sister. Your beautiful Ashley taught us how generous and kind of spirit we all should be.

...She Touches Us Again as She Leaves
Well Before We are Ready to Say Goodbye.

Judy, Dave, Heidi and Andrew, we will hold you in our prayers.
Linda Hodgson <lindahodg@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 2:18 AM CDT

Ashley,
you were a true inspiration to so many. Even in your worse times you did so much for other. You are now at peace dancing in heaven above us looking down and smiling, happy and comfortable. You will never be forgotten.

Kelly Andrews <teen_dream_88@hotmail.com>
N.VAn, B.C - Sunday, April 23, 2006 2:11 AM CDT

Ashley,
You are now a beautiful angel in heaven watching down over everyone.You will never be forgotten. You are forever in my heart. I love you.
ally
Allison Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
Richmond, BC, - Sunday, April 23, 2006 1:52 AM CDT

I hoped and prayed this day would be a long, long way away. I don't really know what to say, except that Ashley was truly God's gift to the entire world, to everyone she met and everyone who heard her story.

My internship supervisor shared this illustration with me once: we humans are like swans. On land, in this life, we are often awkward and floundering, but the minute we step into the water, into God's eternal embrace, we swim gracefully away just as we are meant to do. Ashley must be the most graceful swan of all.

Holding you all in prayer, and thanks be to God for the gift of Ashley.
Katie Yahns
Everett, WA - Sunday, April 23, 2006 0:42 AM CDT

Bless you, dear Ashley. We know the world has been changed by your presence. Our church community has been praying for you for many, many months. We worship on Saturdays, and today we today we gave thanks for your life with tears and joy. We will not forget you -- you will always make me smile. Our hearts go out to your family in this hard, hard time.
Louise Mangan <lmangan@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 0:40 AM CDT

Dear Andrew, Judy, Dave, and Heidi,

It's a very rare thing in this world to meet someone as incredible as Ashley. She inspired us all with her love and courage, and showed us how much one person can accomplish. Ashley's spirit and passion have brought light and hope to so many people, and I know she watches over all of us now. Ashley will remain in our thoughts and prayers now and forever.

Travis
Travis Gibson <tgibson@interchange.ubc.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, April 23, 2006 0:35 AM CDT

Our heartfelt thoughts go out to the Brear and Walker families; we are deeply sorry for your loss. Ashley is such a bright light and amazing person. What a huge difference she has made to so many all over the world. Thank you to all of you for sharing this journey; your emails and Ashley's website have been so inspirational and courageous. The last time I saw Ashley, she was full of smiles and twirling about, doing a little dance. I'm sure she's doing that again now....with the angels. Please take comfort in all the love that is being sent your way. May God bless you all and guide you through this time. Ashley truly is AMAZING...and so is her family. Love to all of you,
Lori & Wayne Henderson
Lori Henderson <whenders@telus.net>
Ladner, BC - Sunday, April 23, 2006 0:09 AM CDT

Funny how reading this on line guest book can help you get to know someone who you've never met. Today at work Pauline told me that Ashley had gone to be with the Lord. I felt such a sadness for you all - it took me back to when my own sister passed away from cancer at the age of 29. I understand and I know too that your faith will get you through as you anticipate an amazing reunion one day! Life is so short - so TEMPORARY - may your wonderful memories sustain you until you meet again and are together for eternity. With love and sympathy, Dawn Scott
Dawn Scott <scottland@dccnet.com>
Ladner, BC Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 11:05 PM CDT

My dearest Ashley,
It's been a long battle and finally came to an end. I know you have been fighting hard and now you are in a better place. I found out when Kelsey called me... I will always remember the good times we had together at May Retreats and all Youth and Young Adult events we were at.

My deepest sympathy for Amazing Ashley's family. She was a great woman and I will never forgot you Ash.

Please keep me informed of Ashley's service details.

Love Always,
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:54 PM CDT

My condolences to family and friends of Ashley. I have been following Ashley's couragous battle for quite some time now. Tears are flowing down my face as I type this, but I do know that she is now pain-free and dancing with the angels! My thoughts are with you as you go through this difficult time.
Amy <Jelmeland@cox.net>
Ladera Ranch, CA USA - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:49 PM CDT

All of us are saddened by Ashley's passing. Our hearts go out to all of you as you come to terms with this. She was truly a courageous and inspirational young woman. This is a tribute to all who loved her. I am only sorry we didn't get to know her better. Know she is now at peace. Hugggggssssss
The Jackson family <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:41 PM CDT

could you please let me know when everything is going on with ashley and her services
thank you chris
chris cosh <chriscosh@Hotmai.com>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:35 PM CDT

ash this is insane
I am moving to hawaii you would be proud
I cannot believe this you were always an inspiration to me ashley when we met a few years ago you helped me through so many things in my life we had tonnes of talks lond distance across country you will be forever missed by me and when i hit the beaches of hawaii I will pay tribute to you and I still I cannot wait to meet you still like i will someday as we always planned god bless
from the best person on the otherside of the country
Chris Cosh
my heart and soul is with you and your family

Chris Cosh <chriscosh@Hotmail.com>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:28 PM CDT

sitting here with my good drinking buddy, brady who's too choked up right now, it hits too hard. it's crazy because my dad's good friend died last week on Easter Monday from working with stained glass windows with lead all his life to the glory of God at our church. he lived a grand life; returning to homeland of england to visit one last time.

it hadn't hit me until doubled by brady's wonderful friend who've i've never met, yet heard graceful things about. i hope she found all the grandness of life and beauty of this world.

anyways enough pre-amble... felt this poem spill out sitting here looking at ashley's portrait in the cherry bloosoms. felt like sharing it as the emotions just hit.... hope it's appropiate.

Cheery Cherry Kiss

Sparkling quiet smiles
Immortal spring for all the miles
Sitting in the cherry blossoms
Look of utter ease and thoughts on
blowing a zen-like kiss to the breeze
Letting go, eyes closed
emotions flow
memories made surely more
then we'll ever know

of endurance
courage and faith

God bless and bring peace with you all at this time. Here's to the good memories.
phil r <philstrom25@gmail.com>
victoria, bc canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:25 PM CDT

Ashley's life touched my heart. I'm praying for each of you.
Stephanie and RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:23 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
It is with a heavy heart that I post tonight. I know that your family and friends are in great pain now but I also know that you are soaring in a much better place. I hope it gives your loved ones a small measure of comfort to know that you are no longer hurting. I never knew you personally, but I followed your progress through the website. Your great courage astounded and inspired me.

To Ashley's loved ones,
Many years ago, my father-in-law suffered a massive heart attack and was brought back to life in the ER. He saw a pure white light, felt his soul lifting, and experienced a wonderful euphoric feeling of happiness and peace as he looked down on those in the ER who were trying so hard to save him. He said it was beyond what mere words could describe. When his heart was shocked back to life, the crushing pain returned. Afterward, he always said he wasn't afraid of death.

Dear Ashley, may you rest in peace.
Terri
Mom of Casey, Diagnosed with Hodgkin's on 3/17/05
Currently in remission
Daddy of Twin Girls Born on 5/19/05
Terri Colclough <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA USA - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:18 PM CDT

I am so saddened to read of Ashley's death. I have followed her courageous journey fighting lymphoma since Feb. '05. My husband died of lymphoma way back in 1971; he lived only 4 months after diagnosis. I keep hoping that medical science will find a cure. Ashley accomplished so much towards a cure in her short life. She fought with great energy and hope! She helped raise greatly needed funds for research. I admire her so much, and pray she rests comfortably and peacefully with our Lord.
nancy <nschuetze@sbcglobal.net>
saint louis, mo usa - Saturday, April 22, 2006 9:32 PM CDT

I was so sad to hear about Ashley this afternoon, but I think the sadness we all feel is a testament to what a spectacularly wonderful person she is and how much we will all miss her. I'm sending all my love your way and I just want you to know how grateful I am to have known her.
Erin Dewhirst <e_dewhirst@hotmail.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 9:11 PM CDT

Ashley,
Hey you gorgeous, gorgeous girl. I know you're looking down on all of us right now, and that we shouldn't worry because you're finally home. You've taught me so much and I'll never ever forget you.

May you go with God,

Christina
Christina Lane
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 9:09 PM CDT

Dear Dave, Judy, Heidi and Andrew,

We are so sorry for your loss, but our spirits remain high because we know Ashley is in a better place. God obviously has other things planned for her. We have never known a more courageous person in our lives and her strength and faith will forever humble us.

Love Andria, Chris & Grace
Andria, Chris and Grace Haines <hainesy@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Saturday, April 22, 2006 8:21 PM CDT

My very dear family

Sadness is in my heart today but am glad that I was able to have a few words with Ashley on Tuesday, her bravery and courage will live with me forever, she is safe now and free from pain resting with God and His angels. Love to you all Mum and Grandma
Eileen Brear
Laval, Qu� Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 7:13 PM CDT

Dear Dave, Judy, Heidi,Andrew & Brian.
I don't know how to express the sadness I felt this morning when Dave called. I do know that God must have really wanted another beautifull Angel this morning. We will all miss her so much, and pray that the pain you are all feeling right now will lessen over time. God bless you all, and may He suround you with His Love and Peace. Love and hugggs. Nora.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver , B.C. Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 7:11 PM CDT

Dear Heidi, Dave, Judy, Andrew, and Brian,
From the beginning of this battle, Ashley's courage, passion, and determination to help not just herself, but everyone else struggling with cancer has been a true inspiration to me. I know Ashley smiles as she looks down on us all from heaven, and I smile back at her, and say "Thanks Ashley".
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC - Saturday, April 22, 2006 7:07 PM CDT

I'm SO very sorry! I was just outside watching the hugest thunderstorm roll over our house and out came a HUGE rainbow and for some reason, it made me stop and pray for Ashley. I've been praying for her for some time now but my computer is slow and I rarely sign in. (Sorry!) But, I thought, I'm going to check on how she's doing. I looked at the time and it was 3:11. I know that sounds weird but I think God was nudging me to get on my knees and pray for each of you, which I will continue to do. What a beautiful life. I'm so thankful that Ashley shared herself so freely with all of us on Caringbridge. I'm better for having "met" her.
Shelly VanB <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, NV - Saturday, April 22, 2006 5:20 PM CDT

Dear Dave, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian,

Our hearts and prayers go out to each of you, as well as Ashley's extended family as you all go through this greatest of trials.

We pray that the Lord will give you a peace that surpasses all understanding, as you look to Him and draw strength from Him and the truths he shares with us in His Word.

Our prayers continue with you all, and we give thanks to God that Ashley is even now in His glorious presence, free forever from pain and trials.

May God bless you, and keep you, and comfort you always, till you be reunited with your precious, precious Ashley.

With our love, in Christ,

David, Shelley, Riad and Taylor Hess
Hess family <hess-family@telus.net>
North Saanich, B.C. Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 4:28 PM CDT

Dave, Judy, Heidi, and Andrew,
My deepest apologies go out to you and your family. I am very lucky and fortunate to have been touched by Ashley's caring attitude and amazing outlook on life. My prayers are out to you and Ashley will never be forgotten by the many people she has touched.

-Mark
Mark Dekanich <mdekanich@mail.colgate.edu>
Hamilton, NY USA - Saturday, April 22, 2006 4:27 PM CDT

Dear Judy, Dave, Heidi & Andrew:
Our sincere sympathy, thoughts and prayers are with you now. Your strength and courage in supporting dearest Ashley have been so special, we will never forget your exceptional, brilliant daughter, Ashley.
Nancy, Ron, Mark & Scott Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, April 22, 2006 4:13 PM CDT

Dearest Angel Ashley:
You have been an inspiration to so many; your strength and courage will live on forever. May you rest in peace. Lots of Love
The Dekanichs
Nancy, Ron, Mark and Scott Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, April 22, 2006 4:08 PM CDT

Dear Ashley,
You touched our hearts and went through lots of pain, now, soar up to heaven and wait for us to join you. When I go up, I will look for you. I should have told you something that I did, in school we had to write about our idol, I wrote about you. Your strength, creativity, humor, courage, love, and confidence was more then I have seen in any other person. You once said that your dream was to tell your grandchildren about how you had cancer, and they would say that they had cancer last week, but they took some pills and now they are fine. You might not be able to say that, but I know that one day, maybe soon, maybe later, there will be many people telling their grandchildren about the most caring person they ever knew, the person who helped make it possible that cancer be as curable as the flu, they will talk about you. I love you and I will miss you, but I will see you again someday. I will be looking for you.
With all the love I can love.
Paige
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 1:08 PM CDT

Leah and I were blessed to know Ashley and your wonderful family. The light of her life will continue to shine in all those she has touched ( and there are so very many). Ashley is with her God. We pray for peace for all who love her.

Jane
Jane Callen <jcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Saturday, April 22, 2006 12:55 AM CDT

To the Brear and Walker family
Thank you for sharing your angel with all of us. She has touched the hearts and souls of all she came in contact with. She has taught us all some very wonderful lessons and shared many beautiful gifts with all of us.
sandra boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 12:32 AM CDT

To The Brear Family,
Words are not adequate to describe our sorrow, for the loss of your beautiful daughter, Ashley. Her courage, her strength, and her beautiful light touched so many around the world. It's amazing what one person can accomplish. I believe that God has a very special plan and a special road ahead for Ashley to travel. I suppose her help was needed sooner than later. I hope you find comfort in knowing that Ashley is at peace and free of pain. I'm sure your angel will be watching over all of you.

Love, Debbie, Travis, Taylor.
Debbie Gibson <gibsond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, April 22, 2006 12:12 AM CDT

"Her candle burned at both ends, it did not last the night; but oh her (cancer) foe, and oh her friends, it gave a wonderous light"!!!
We will miss you Ashley with all our hearts, you fought a couragious battle with dignity and strength. Your suffering is over now and your spirit is free at last.
Our love and our tears are with you dearest David, Judy, Heidi, Andrew and Brian.
Aunt Sally & Uncle Cliff , cousinsTiffany and baby Cohen, Brent, Rhiannon and Clifford <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 11:52 AM CDT

Brear Family: You are in my thoughts and prayers during this sad and difficult time. Ashley was and will always be a gift to all who knew her. The light and inspiration she brought to life will continue to live on in all our hearts. Be gentle with yourselves and know that God goes with you offering comfort and support.
Tricia Gerhard <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, SK - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:36 AM CDT

Heidi, Judy, David, Andrew & Brian,

Our prayers are with you all. Ashley is now in peace and we hope you all can be at peace with this soon too. We love you all and are thinking of you.

Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:34 AM CDT

My Dearest Angel Ashely,
Soar high my little one, you will forever be in my heart. I thank you for the love you gave my son and I thank your family for sharing you with us! I look forward to the day we meet again on the "otherside" til then my sweet angel....may God be with you and yours.
Loving you with all my heart & soul
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:30 AM CDT

Dear Heidi, Judy, David and Andrew

God bless you all in this trying time. you all did your very best and dear Ashley is now with the angels, my love and prayers are with you Love again Grandma
Eileen Brear
Laval, Qu� Canada - Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:18 AM CDT

Thinking about you bubba and your whole family! I pray that you feel comfortable soon!!! Take care dear one!

love, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 0:47 AM CDT

Ashley may the warmth and love of all your 'fishy' friends all over the world give you some comfort this weekend from your pain. Keep on swimming and when you're feeling too much pain or too tired we're all swimming for you!
sandra boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, - Friday, April 21, 2006 10:17 PM CDT

Hi My Sweet Angel
I am so sorry to hear of your pain yesterday. I wish that I could carry your discomfort for you. You have enriched our lives and the lives of those around you in so many ways that it pains me not to be able to ease you of your discomfort now. You are forever in my thoughts, my prayers, and most of all my heart.
Love you
Donna
xoxox
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Friday, April 21, 2006 9:40 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, Sorry I haven't signed in lately, but I have been getting your updates through your Mom and Leah. I'm so sorry about your fall and that you have to be all doped up! I am happy that you enjoyed your Easter, and got to see Heidi at work. I hope you are feeling no pain today, and get to enjoy the sunny weekend we're going to have! Take Care, we love you lots!!

Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, April 20, 2006 8:01 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I checked in today for an update. You must know that you are in my prayers everyday. Shae and I were in Kelowna last week for her 12 month checkup -- the doc says the MRI showed everything is OK! We are so thankful for the love and support of others. I just want you to know that I add my voice in your support.
Love, David
David Horsley <dhorsley@gw.sd74.bc.ca>
Ashcroft, BC - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 10:51 PM CDT

Good Evening, Dearest Ashley, on hard days, I like to think of Happy Things, it is a collection of pictures and moments in my head. Here are just a few. Your face when you held Iain for the first time, you and I climbing in Whistler, the Kite Day...I hope they help you feel better today, we love you, Diana
Diana <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 19, 2006 8:54 PM CDT

Heya Ash!
Been really thinking about you a ton lately! I've been staying up on all the info via your mommy and of course Heidi's recent updates. You're such a trooper, it truly blows me away. I'm glad to hear you were feeling a bit better over the Easter weekend, seeing Heidi at work must have been great! I'm sorry I haven't been exactly in touch lately, I figure you must have all the people you can handle already (a real blessing I'm sure).

Keep on fighting little George Foreman! Miss ya lots!

Your Pal,

Matthew Flynn <ugod111@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 7:51 PM CDT

hey darlin,
i was about to call, but heard that you're a little doopy from some morphine today... so instead decided to internet-draw you a picture of a squiggly fish...

________xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx________xxxxx
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_____xx________________xx___xx__xx
________xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx________xxxxx

i'm glad to hear you're feeling happier! i miss you.
xo chris
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 7:05 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

We sure haven't forgotten about you but your Mom has been keeping us to date with her daily e-mails. I was so happy to hear that you went to church on Easter Sunday. It must have been so uplifting to get out of the house and go somewhere other than B4. I'm glad that it was such a special day for all of you. We hope that you continue to draw strength from all of those around you, and from all of those that aren't but keep you in their prayers and thoughts. Sunshine and springtime are right around the corner and I hope this will help to lift your spirits. Keep strong.
Lots of love,
Debbie, Travis and Taylor
Debbie Gibson <dgibson@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 4:59 PM CDT

Hi Ashley.

So glad you made it to Christ Church on Easter morning. That is wonderful. Many people at many churches definitely prayed for you on Easter. You are popular!!!

I love you and I hope to see you soon. I miss you. When you need strength... lean on all your guardian angels... the divine ones and the human ones! Both are good support.

I'm sending you lots of good energy and light and love. Thank you for being YOU.

Lots of Love,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:36 PM CDT

Ashley,

Your in my thoughts and prayers. I am glad your feeling alittle better!
Blessings to you, Roxanne

Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
Tarpon Springs, FL - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 2:32 PM CDT

I am coming to your site via Karin. You are a wonderful person. Please know that your family and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Lori
Lori Pierce <hayden01@tds.net>
Mt Juliet, TN - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 12:39 AM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
Glad to hear that you were well enough to attend church on Easter - Great news indeed! We missed you at St. Agnes, but are thrilled that you saw Heidi at work. (Thank you Heidi for the updates!)
Lots of Love,
Chris, Andria & Gracie

Andria <andria-grace@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 17, 2006 11:56 PM CDT

Dear Heidi, Thanks so much for the update. We all appreciate hearing little tidbits. We are happy that Ashley is feeling a little better and was able to get out on Easter. Six baptisms, what a wonderful sight.

The Hussen Family <mhussen@telus.net>
Surrey , BC Canada - Monday, April 17, 2006 11:26 PM CDT

Paige and Iain were here last week over the spring break.Paige went through this with us and some other kids it is amazing and you are an amazing woman.One thing you have done is made me personally reflect on what is really important in our own day to day lives and i sincerly have learned from spending some time reading your journal and your thoughts.You are a role model for everyone and wish you peace and a great outlook as you fight.
thank you for allowing me/us to learn from you.Also talking to some friends to have them realize the importance of giving back and some of your attitudes and sacrifices will be important for people of all ages to be able to learn to improve there own awareness.
Have a restful night
Your truly are amazing

lotsa prayers
alex
alex fraser <fraseralex@shaw.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Monday, April 17, 2006 7:49 PM CDT

Happy special Day Ashley.....I know Brian wishes he could be there to celebrate the 17th with you.....hopefully tomorrow, but I remembered!!
I love you so much....keep on swimming!
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Monday, April 17, 2006 6:58 PM CDT

THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH for the update! i check every day sometimes morning and night and think no news must be good news but i worry. please let ashley know (if she's not checking this herself) that she's thought about daily and prayed for as well.
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Monday, April 17, 2006 6:47 PM CDT

Thank you so much for updating! I do check almost everyday to see how Ashley is doing and to say a quick pray. I am glad she is feeling less depressed and hope Brian feels better soon because I am sure that doesn't help...continued prayers for happiness and complete healing on earth.
Monica <rulonm@hotmail.com>
nj - Monday, April 17, 2006 3:13 PM CDT

HAPPY EASTER ASHLEY. Missing the waffle brunch and easter egg hunts this year!! Praying for you and your family all the time.
Love you
Cindy <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
Brasilito, Costa Rica - Monday, April 17, 2006 2:47 PM CDT

Dear Heidi & Ashley
It is great to have a message from Ashley again thru
you Heidi, to have a sister like you must help Ashley a great deal as she is a very brave and courageous girl and the visit to your Church must have been a godsend for the whole family. a truly happy Easter for you all. God bless you all and my prayers are with you at all times. Love Grandma oxoxoxox
Eileen Brear
Laval, Qu� Canada - Monday, April 17, 2006 12:57 AM CDT

WOW!!!
I am so glad to hear that you were all able to get out of the house and do something together as a family! How special!!! I'm so glad to hear that the depression might be staring to lift. I know how hard it is to be depressed and I wish, for you dear Ashley, all the strength and peace in the world as you push forward through this difficult journey!! Just remember that you are not alone... So many people love you and are pulling for you!!! Keep on Swimming beautiful girl!!! Happy easter to all !!!
Love,
sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Monday, April 17, 2006 2:01 AM CDT

HAPPY EASTER "Miss Amazing Ashley" and her MOST amazing family!!
I hope the Easter Bunny brought you a day of strength to enjoy all of your favorite traditions.
Love to all
Donna xox
Doona Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, April 16, 2006 2:01 PM CDT

Happy Easter Ashley and family. Thinking of you often. You are on prayer lists all across Canada. We pray for high platelets and strength.
Hugs The Jackson family
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Sunday, April 16, 2006 1:34 PM CDT

Happy Easter Ashley! Thinking of you and your family as always and hoping that you can have the kind of day that you wish for.
Love and hugs,
The Johannesen's
Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin & Daren <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, April 16, 2006 10:18 AM CDT

just stopping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. i check every day for an update but i don't sign each time i check. i hope that you are able to enjoy today with your loved ones.
lisa <schnegs@Pro-ns.net>
mn - Sunday, April 16, 2006 7:54 AM CDT

Hi Ashley! I hope the Easter Bunny hides lots of chocolates for you!I know you are having tough times right now, but I hope you know we're all still here rooting for you the whole time!

I registered for the Relay For Life Survivors Victory Lap. I want to do the whole relay, but that was a start. It reminded me of you, and how you lit a candle in my honour last year. I will be there for you this year, and I hope you will be there too, if you're feeling ok.

We love you Ashley, and miss you so much!!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, April 16, 2006 1:13 AM CDT

Diana <Diana893@gmail.com>
Dallas, TX - Saturday, April 15, 2006 7:09 PM CDT

Ashley, your courage has been an inspiration to us all. Know that you are loved by all; your family, friends, and most especially the Lord. My prayers are with you, and heck, I even found out that my favourite plant back home in Victoria is called a "prayer plant!" now how crazy is that? so I've even got my little greens prayin for ya...we love you!
-Chelsea
Chelsea Woit <chwoit@uvic.ca>
Victoria/North Van, BC - Saturday, April 15, 2006 6:59 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley:

Even though I've been away for the last month, you've continued to be in my thoughts & prayers. I sincerely hope and pray for your speedy recovery, good health, & happiness.

Take good care sweet Ashley and feel better soon.

With lots of love & best wishes for a very happy Easter,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Saturday, April 15, 2006 5:36 PM CDT

Ashley, wishing you, your family, Brian and his family a wonderful Easter. May you have all the Easter traditions you are hoping for along with sunshine in your heart and a smile on your face. You will be in our minds, hearts and prayers as we celebrate Easter this year.
Sandra Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Poco, - Saturday, April 15, 2006 5:05 PM CDT

Ashley,
Whenever I have the oppurtunity to read your guest book I am always soooo impressed with the wonderful comments people leave. Knowing you have such a wonderful support system must make your heart sing. It says alot about the type of person you must be.
I find it difficult to know what to say to you. Having never gone through anything like you and your family have for the past few years, I don't want my words to be inappropriate.
I continue to pray for you and think of you often. You will be one of the driving forces when I am out collecting pledges for Relay For Life!
Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, B.C. Canada - Friday, April 14, 2006 5:09 PM CDT

I'm hoping and praying today is indeed a Good Friday for you and that you are feeling some better and that all the medication you are on is finally kicking in. You are the most courageous person I know and I am with you in spirit each and every day. Love you so much.
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Friday, April 14, 2006 12:52 AM CDT

COUNT ME IN, ASH! Good Morning, Ashley. Yesterday I gave blood in Courtenay. I was able to sign "the book" under the visitor page. So my platelets are in Vancouver now! Maybe you should ask for them? I wonder if they're like wine, "yes, may I have the gently aged 1960 platelets nouvouex?" hmmm.
Love you, Diana
Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, B.C. Canada - Friday, April 14, 2006 10:45 AM CDT

Ashley, we were at Christ Church this evening and had a chance to talk with Heidi before the service. It was a lovely service and we prayed for you. I imagined all the places far and wide where prayers are being said for you and your wonderful family. May you have a peaceful Easter.
Love, Jane
Jane Callen <jcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, April 14, 2006 0:58 AM CDT

COUNT US IN ASHLEY!! BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE!!!
Dear Ashley,
At the beginning of this Season of Lent and for the year 2006, we, your friends, pledged to donate 100 units of blood in your name.
In March, 10 units were donated and as of today, 10 units have been donated for April. Still over 2 weeks left in this month for each of us to call 1-888-2-DONATE and give this priceless gift of life. I am taking Ted, a 21 year old young man, to give for the first time next week Friday.
In the morning of that same day, I will be donating platelets at Oak St.
I am challenging all your readers, wherever they live, to donate (if their health permits) and to take a friend as well. THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE DONE JUST THIS.
Ashley, we want you to feel the support of our thoughts, love, prayers and gift of our blood donations. Many of us will be attending church services this Easter Sunday and hope you feel the overwhelming warmth of our prayers.
God's blessings on you, your Mum, Dad, Heidi, Andrew and Brian. We love you! The Blachford Six
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C Canada - Friday, April 14, 2006 0:10 AM CDT

COUNT ME IN ASH!
Today I went to donate blood with two friends, Victoria and Kat. Unfortunately they weren't able to donate (they were so disappointed!) but will be donating as soon as they can! I had a wonderful opportunity today to tell them about you and what an important person you are in the lives of so many people..like me! My love to you, your family and Brian.
Jacqueline Henderson <jac_henderson@hotmail.com>
Halifax, NS Canada - Thursday, April 13, 2006 8:15 PM CDT

Hi Heidi
Did write a message before but I dont think it connected
so am trying again so maybe you will get 2 answers, it was very nice to hear from you again after at least 2 weeks, have logged in every day & I think about you and Ashley all the time and know that things will work out in the long run. Love to you and Ashley, Grandma
Eileen Brear
Laval, Qu� Canada - Thursday, April 13, 2006 6:06 PM CDT

Ashley,
I was thinking back to the first time we met at my 2nd y.c. weekend in Tswasseen. I remember you and I having a really long conversation about sushi..haha..but I don't remember why..haha..That was the first time we started to become friends and I've never forgotten that weekend.You continue to amaze me with your unbelieveable courage and strength. You have inspired so many people with what you have accomplished including me. Take care of yourself. God loves you and so do I!(you once said that to me:D). love always ally xoxo
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
Richmond, BC, - Thursday, April 13, 2006 11:47 AM CDT

Ashley, I remember you in my daily prayers. You are such a brave, strong person and it breaks my heart to hear of your constant struggles! My prayers for healing and strenght will continue for both you and your family!
Jill
Buffalo, NY USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 8:17 AM CDT

Ashley & Heidi,

Sending you lots of love, prayers and hugs through email! I am so thankful to hear that Jen and others have been by to visit you and to bring you good food. I hope you've been able to feel the warmth of the sun as it shines each day...as your spirit shines through us. lots of love, Kerry
Kerry Child <kerrychild@shaw.ca>
Richmond, - Thursday, April 13, 2006 0:32 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I hope you're having a good day. As always, I am sending positive energy your way! Although I have never met you, I want you to know that you have been such an inspiration to me. You have such a beautiful spirit and it is a complete joy to see that shine through your site. I can only imagine what you're like in person!! :)

Letting the sunshine in,
Enya
Philadelphia, PA - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 9:55 PM CDT

i heard a rumor that kissing boys helps nose-bleeds. so let's hope that brian feels better soon :) i don't know if it's true, i'm no expert, but i'd say it's probably worth a try! (probably not while it's bleeding, perhaps as a preventative measure.)

(also, Terri, Ash is not in the hospital. she is at home with her incredible family, and goes into the hospital every other day for platlets and nutrients and such. not fun, but better than living there!)

christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 8:48 PM CDT

Hello Again Sweet Ashley,
Just think of all the people who love you and are praying for you when you get one of those nuisance nose bleeds and maybe the power of our prayers will stop them.
Sitting here thinking of you, praying for you, and loving you........Donna xoxox
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, April 12, 2006 8:42 PM CDT

Ashley,
Thinking of you as you bravely face the challenges brought about by your illness. Stay strong and gain support from all those whose lives you have touched. I check the site daily for news. Would someone in Ashley's family update us? Is she hospitalized? Is she home?
Sending love her way,
Terri
Mom of Casey, Currently in remission from Hodgkin's
Daddy of 10 month old twin girls
Terri Colclough <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA USA - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 6:49 PM CDT

Good morning bubba! It was wonderful to spend time with you yesterday. As Elle would say "I love you around the world and back again." It was a gift to be with you and do some remembering . . . of Youth council weekends, of story time in the Soul Food Cafe, of cherished moments together. You are a bright light my love! I hope Brian gets over his cold real soon! love and prayers, now and always, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Tuesday, April 11, 2006 11:06 AM CDT

Dear Ashley, You are such an incredible, inspirational and brave young woman.I hope that you are comfortable at home with your family, and know just how much you are loved, cared about,thought of, and admired.And just how many lives you have touched through your battle. Keep on swimming! You have many fans out here pulling for you!Prayers to you and your family, aunt of Erin Lovell http://:www.caringbridge.org/canada/erin/
Lori Lucas <lucasdoula@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, April 10, 2006 11:54 PM CDT

Ashley,
As always you are in my thoughts!! I'm hoping that you have found a comfortable mattress that suits your needs. Let's hope today is a quality day for you, mom, dad, Andrew and Heidi!!!
In my thoughts and prayers constantly.
A bunch of Hugs!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, April 10, 2006 3:56 PM CDT

Ashley,
Thinking about you and praying for you! Missing you in dance class at DBA... your smile would light up the room! Keep strong and positive!!!
Sarah Lilley <wildpinky@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, April 9, 2006 11:11 PM CDT

Loving thoughts and warm wishes being sent to you and your family. Also get well wishes to Brian, that he is healthy again soon and able to spend time with you. It must be difficult for the two of you to be apart when he isn't feeling well. He is always in our thoughts as well.
Sandra boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Poco, - Sunday, April 9, 2006 4:37 PM CDT

i got an email back that said...

"i think so too."

i imagine you're probably still at the hospital, but wanted to let you know right away!
i think i will write back tomorrow. you know, play it cool, pretend i'm not jumping around my apartment grinning.

xo me
chris <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, April 8, 2006 3:49 PM CDT

Dear Ashley,

I had a dream about you last night - it's a bit fuzzy, but we were at a picnic on a hill (I think part of some YAYA event), and you were dancing and laughing and having a lovely time. It was great to wake up to! The sun is shining here in Regina, and I wanted you to know that folks are thinking of you on the prairies, too. Take care, dear one. I'm sending all that dancing and laughing energy your way. See you when we get home.
With much love and prayers, Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Regina, Sk - Saturday, April 8, 2006 11:52 AM CDT

Hey Ashley, Pauline has been busy, she first got me to donate for St. Marks and now....well...I donated this morning in your support. God bless.
Mari Anne Hussen <mhussen@telus.net>
Surrey, BC Canada - Friday, April 7, 2006 2:32 PM CDT

Hi Ashley Pauline Blachford wants me to let you know that I saw your name 3 times yesterday at the blood donor clinic in Coquitlam.We're working to make SD43 teachers more frequent donors. We're also working to get grade 12's to give as their legacy to the school. You are the stone that has created an ever widening ripple in the world. Ripple on!
Dale <dshea@sd43.bc.ca>
Port Moody , BC Canada - Friday, April 7, 2006 2:16 PM CDT

good morning ashly love iain
That's my fav guy of many words! Love, Diana
Diana and Iain <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, BC Canada - Friday, April 7, 2006 9:54 AM CDT

Hello, Sweet Ashley, you are always in my heart and prayers, Love You. Diana
Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, BC Canada - Friday, April 7, 2006 0:40 AM CDT

hey ashley its marnie from your dads school. hope your doing well.but g2g pack for vacation bye.

get well soon
marnie
marnie
coquitlam, BC Canada - Thursday, April 6, 2006 10:00 PM CDT

hi ashley, i'm just checking in hopes to see an update from you. i think about you often although we've never met.
lisa <schnegs@Pro-ns.net>
mn - Thursday, April 6, 2006 6:32 PM CDT

COUNT ME IN ASHLEY!!!! Thank you too for inspiring me to give blood again. I had my appointment today and I wore my keep on swimming bracelet and told everybody the reason I was giving again after 20 years was because of you! (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
Sandra Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Poco, - Thursday, April 6, 2006 5:42 PM CDT

Ashley,

It was soooo great to see you last week. I've missed you soooo much. Hope to see you again soon.

Sending you a great big virtual *HUG*!

Keep on Swimming, my brave friend. I love you.

Still praying without ceasing! As are a multitude of other people all over the world - all for Miss Ashley Brear. God's got so many prayers flooding into Heaven on your behalf... He/She's got extra special angels working on your case I'm sure!! :)

You are not alone. You are loved. We all love you and want what's best for YOU!

Feel better, Ashley. We are all rooting for you.

With Lots of Light and Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, April 6, 2006 3:28 PM CDT

Hi dear Ashley, I am sending you all my love and my prayers!
Love you sweetie!
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Thursday, April 6, 2006 1:28 PM CDT

I found your web site via others that I have followed...
I check on you and pray for you daily...It is amazing how much you can feel for someone you have never met. You are an amazing girl who has inspired me in ways you can not imagine! God Bless you!
Nancy <nmatanes@comcast.net>
Ma USA - Thursday, April 6, 2006 10:47 AM CDT

Good Morning My Dear Ashley,
I am missing you sooooooo much!
Forever in my heart,
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, April 6, 2006 10:09 AM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
We hope the manicure is holding up! It was so lovely to spend some time with you last weekend. You are never far from our prayers and we think of you daily.
Much Love,
Chris, Andria and Gracie
Andria <andria-grace@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, April 6, 2006 0:18 AM CDT

Ashley, just wanted you to know that you're always in my thoughts. My mom is in Australia right now, and she asks how you're doing when she calls. We all love you and are holding you and your family close to our hearts. xxoo
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, April 5, 2006 11:29 PM CDT

I'm giving blood tomorrow. Your site has moved me very much.I'll pray for you. Kindest regards Dale, a stranger no more
Dale Shea <dshea@sd43.bc.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 3:27 PM CDT

Dear Ashley: We have been away on holidays for the last month. My friend Judy Jackson has kept me informed on how you are doing. You have been in my prayers each day and I am sending you only good wishes for much better days ahead. God bless and keep you.
Charlene Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Ontario, Canada - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 1:36 PM CDT

Good Morning Sunshine!
Just a quick one to let you know you are in my heart!
Love Donna
XOXOX
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, April 5, 2006 9:53 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,
You may not remember me, but we did daycamps together one summer at Delbrook. You are an awesome girl, who has gone through an incredibly challenging journey. Reading about all of your amazing accomplishment in the past few years amazes me. You are absolutely phenomenal. I always remember how much fun the delbrook playground was with you and jodi in it! You are in my prayers, and I hope that we will once again have a chance to work together in the future! Keep on staying positive:)
Luv
Amitis
Amitis Khorsandi <amitisk@hotmail.com>
north vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 6:15 PM CDT

COUNT ME IN ASH!

I wanted to let you know that I went and donated blood in your name on Saturday with 3 friends from UBC, 2 of whom were first time donors! Yay! I have another couple friends in Vancouver who said they'll be going in soon and a friend in Scotland who donated for the first time in years after reading your blog!

Keeping you in thoughts and prayer. :)

Robin Hussen <volacious.r@gmail.com>
Surrey, BC Canada - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 4:47 PM CDT

love you bubba!
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Tuesday, April 4, 2006 10:13 AM CDT

Thinking of you in Minnesota Ashley! Take Care!
Deb Battah <djbattah1@mmm.com>
Lake Elmo, MN USA - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 6:05 AM CDT

Dear Ash,
I was riding the bus into work today and I was thinking of you. As I turned the corner on what is normally an ugly, polluted, traffic-ridden road in North London I was taken aback by what I saw. In front of me was the most beautiful cherry tree - an explosion of pink blooms. I never gave this tiny street corner credit that it could be beautiful. It reminded me of you because it showed me how you never know what beauty and inspiration can bloom over night and what lovely surprises the next day may hold. I know how hard it is to feel down, so I'm hoping your tomorrow (my today) starts off with a cherry tree of your own to make you smile.
This has always been a favourite poem of mine and it seemed very fitting on this beautiful spring day. Enjoy.
Thinking of you always,
Erin

I WANDERED lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 3:46 AM CDT

Hello Miss Amazing Ashley!
Well I did it & so did Krista! We gave blood tonight in your name and guess what? We even booked our appointment for the end of May to also include Al...he could not go today as he has a bit of a cold. I was never able to donate before because I was always anemic so this was my first time....it was an awesome experince...everyone there was so nice!
I can't wait to see you when you are feeling up to it...till then you are always in my thoughts, my prayers and of course.....my heart!
Love you lots
Donna
XOXOX
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Monday, April 3, 2006 10:21 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!!

I'm thinking of you and I hope you're having a good day.

Much love,
Enya
Philadelphia, PA - Monday, April 3, 2006 7:52 PM CDT

Ashley,
Thinking of you and sending lots of love!
Jacqueline Henderson <jac_henderson@hotmail.com>
Halifax, NS Canada - Monday, April 3, 2006 3:01 PM CDT

Count me in, Ash!
I had a blood giving adventure last week - it's been too long and it's great I went. I signed a book but I don't know if I was on the right page. My thoughts are with you on this day of sunshine and light - the flowers are blooming for you! lots of love,
Alison
Alison Atkinson <alison.atkinson@gmail.com>
vancouver, bc Canada - Monday, April 3, 2006 0:44 AM CDT

Hi Ashley! I hope you're out on this lovely Sunday. Just wanted to know you are in our thoughts today and everyday!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, April 2, 2006 1:52 PM CDT

Ashley,
Your in my prayers! God Bless you.

Roxanne
Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
Tarpon Springs, FL USA - Saturday, April 1, 2006 4:49 PM CST

Thinking of you, your family and Brian everyday Ashley. I have booked an appointment to give blood this week after almost 20 years of not giving!!!! I'll be sure to sign the guestbook in your name and immediately after i'll post here with the title marked appropriately (except I don't know how to change the title but I'm sure I'll figure it out).
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, - Saturday, April 1, 2006 12:33 AM CST

Thinking of you Ashley, and of your family. As always you are constantly with me in thought, heart and prayer.
love, Sheila
Sheila Raven
Toronto, Ontario Canada - Saturday, April 1, 2006 11:07 AM CST

Dear Heavenly Father: I pray right now for this beautiful child of yours who is enduring so much. May Ashley know Your peace and love as she travels through this valley. I pray for strength for her Mom and Dad and Heidi and Brian. I also pray they will all feel the prayers of so many people around the world who are taking them to Your throne of Grace where Your promises are true and SO comforting. You promise to never leave us - may the entire Brear family know this in a deep and miraculous way. Hold them in Your arms - lift them up. In Jesus' name, Amen
Dawn Scott <scottland@dccnet.com>
Ladner, BC Canada - Saturday, April 1, 2006 1:23 AM CST

i love you SOO much! really.

(that's quite a lot.)

christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
(kingston), bc canada - Saturday, April 1, 2006 1:01 AM CST

Dearest Ashley
today, i did my presentation about YACN at the ubc cancer conference. i was very nervous in the car on the way there, but then you popped into my head and i remembered the wonderful speeches you made at the gala and at ambleside park. and i thot, if you can do it, so can i! you are very inspirational. i just wanted to let you know. wrapping my arms around you in a squeeze!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, April 1, 2006 0:40 AM CST

COUNT US IN ASH!!
Dear Ashley,
This is the last day of the month and I wanted to recap for you the people who have given blood before and during this month "In support of Ashley Brear"-Partners for Life program through Canadian Blood Services. I so appreciate people letting you know, through this guest book, when they have donated. For those of you who have mentioned not signing the CBS book under the "A"s for Ashley, I do read these entries and have your names recorded at the location where you gave. Thanks to all of you who have taken the time to show your support for Ashley and her family by giving this precious gift of life. As you know, Ashley and many other cancer patients, regularly need blood in order to fight this disease. If you have donated and not notified Ashley, it is never too late. Please let us know by starting your entry "COUNT ME IN ASH"!
Your entry will serve as a reminder to all our readers to call 1-888-2-DONATE and book your appointment to donate.
BLOOD! IT'S IN YOU TO GIVE!! OUR GOAL IS 100 UNITS IN 2006!

Thanks again to our 10 donors:
Cathy & Blaine Feniuk (North Vancouver)
Alma McDonald (Vancouver)
Corinne & Wayne McComb (Ontario)
Brian Calder (Langley)
Trish Waller (Langley)
Changes for Women - Kelsey & Friend (White Rock)
Greg Bell (Vancouver)
Ashley, we are continuing to uphold you in our daily thoughts and prayers sending you all our HOPE & LOVE!
Paulne, Jack, Jay, Dean, Tyler & Sabrina

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Friday, March 31, 2006 11:33 PM CST

Dearest Ashley,
My prayers and love are with you, and you are never far from my thoughts. You have accomplished so much more in your life, than most people ever do, and should be so proud of yourself! Your spirit has become a part of all of us who have crossed your path and we will carry the torch for you until you are ready to take it back.
Much love, Sharon(Teresa's Mom)
Sharon Diamond <sharondiamond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, March 30, 2006 9:30 PM CST

Hello Beautiful Girl,
It was so good to see you the other day. You are such an amazing, awe inspiring, and courageous woman. Your beauty shines through so stongly and so radiantly despite everything you are going through!! I hope you are continuing to feel a little better, take care of your precious self and know that my thoughts and love are with you always!!!
Big hugs,
XOXO
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Thursday, March 30, 2006 11:16 AM CST

Hello Sweet Ashley!
I was overjoyed at hearing your voice the other day. Your voice is all I need to put a smile on my face. I continue to walk along side you as everyone who loves you does and I pray that you can feel our presence with you. I am so happy you have been able to enjoy some of that sunshine we have been having. I think of you everyday....with all my love.....Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, March 29, 2006 11:26 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I check your site everyday. Darlin, there is great love out here in the cyberworld for you! You are very special! Praying for God's comfort for you.
nancy <nls622003@yahoo.com>
saint louis, mo usa - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 9:58 PM CST

((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) and prayers that you will feel God holding you in his arms and blanketing you in His love.
Lynne Blackwell <rulesroom58@yahoo.com>
shorter, AL US - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 11:36 AM CST

So glad that you are able to put together a few days in row that you are feeling better. Let the sun shine in!!!!! You deseve it as does the family. Love and prayers are always with you!!!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, March 29, 2006 10:59 AM CST

Dear Ashley; I think of you often as I go about my work day. Your beautiful spirit and courage in the face of your journey helps me to help the people that I see in the community, many of whom live daily with disability and altered health, and often with very little in the way of supports. Your spirit is continually enriching and inspiring so many everyday lives, not the least of which is mine, and I in turn pass this spirit on to others. Thank you for who you are. When I was going through a really tough time in my life I had a little prose verse that I repeated to myself. It goes like this... "When you come to the edge of all that you know, and step off into the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly." As I would reflect on this I would meditate on how our God freely offers us both these options, i.e. something solid to stand on: the gospel of our Lord, and the power of flight: the Holy Spirit in us. May God Bless you richly this week as you share your journey with your family, and your close friends. My prayers, and Paul's prayers are always with you. Love Kim.
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 8:23 PM CST

hi there, i am thinking of you and hoping for an update. hoping that ashley is having a good week..
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 6:31 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
Please know that you are in our thoughts every day, especially little Grace who asks God to help you every night in her prayers. As always, your strength and spirit are an amazing inspiration to us.

Much love,
Andria, Chris & Grace Haines

Andria, Chris & Grace Haines <hainesy@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 5:50 PM CST

Dear Asley,
I took an online class from your dad a few years ago and he told me about your fundraiser so I have been checking in on you every so often. I have never signed in before but have always been amazed at your courage and caring for everyone you meet. You are a truly amazing person and I feel privelaged to have met you even if it is only through your website. Your courage and loving spirit has gotten you this far and I am sure they will continue to keep you strong. My prayers are with you and hopefully my positive thoughts will help build your strength as well.
Cindy Walker <marwalk@telus.net>
Surrey, BC Canada - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 0:39 AM CST

Dearest Ash:
We hope tonight is peaceful for you and that tomorrow you wake to feel stonger. Keep on Swimming. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Nancy, Ron, Mark and Scott Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Monday, March 27, 2006 10:33 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers each day. I have really appreciated the way all of you have welcomed me whenever I have seen you. I guess you know the power of faithfulness. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and praying God's presence will be a comfort to you and a healing presence.
Martin Brokenleg
Martin Brokenleg <brokenleg@vst.edu>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, March 27, 2006 4:05 PM CST

hello love,
you were in my thoughts all weekend at 'walking the talk', both because we've had so much fun at it together in our young-er years... and because you are such an incredible example of truely walking the talk each and every day, in your courage and honesty, and in the support and inspiration you have provided for so many others!
xo chris
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Monday, March 27, 2006 1:48 PM CST

Dear Ashley,You don't know me but I am a cousin of Christine Boyle's father. Christine told me about your journey last year when my daughter, Emily, was diagnosed with Hodgkins and I have followed your website since then. As the mother of a child your age who has also fought Hodgkins I pray daily for you and your family. Your strength and courage have been a guiding light to Emily and me this past year. Thank you for your wonderful journal, it has touched so many lives in such a positive way.
Catherine Boyle Tombs <rtombs@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. - Monday, March 27, 2006 12:31 AM CST

What a fabulous way to start the morning -- reading the
e-mail from your mom and dad with the news that you are feeling a bit better. I am so glad!!! :-) I hope the healing continues. You are always in my heart & thoughts.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Monday, March 27, 2006 10:29 AM CST

dearest ashley
its amazing to read all the entries in your guestbook. i really enjoy looking at them. you are truely an inspiration to not only me, but to so many others. letting you know that i hold you, your family and brian in my heart and mind everyday. you are a gift to so many people in so many different ways. much teddy love and hugs!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, March 26, 2006 7:18 AM CST

Hey Ashley! Kelsey told me today about your condition and I just want you to know that you are in our constant prayers. When you get well enough for visitors, let me know and I'll fly over to Van to see you. God bless you and your family, keep on fighting!!! Much love,
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Sunday, March 26, 2006 1:07 AM CST

You're an amazing young woman. Keep on Swimming.

Much love to you and your family
fran
hollywood hills, CA - Saturday, March 25, 2006 10:42 PM CST

Hi Ahsley,
You don't know me, but I'm Christine Boyle's Cousin. She introduced me to your site. I fought Hodgekin's this year and I cannot even begin to tell you what an inspiration I think you are. You are truly an amazing and courageous woman. My family and I will keep you in our prayers.
Emily Tombs <emily_tombs@hotmail.com>
Kingston, On Canada - Saturday, March 25, 2006 10:41 PM CST

You're an amazing young woman. Keep on Swimming.

Much love to you and your family
fran <weinmanlaw@aol.com>
hollywood hill, CA - Saturday, March 25, 2006 10:40 PM CST

I think of you often throughout my day...I have been following your journey for quite sometime. I don't often sign the guestbook but wanted you to know that I am still praying for you. Carp Diem and Livestrong!
Monica
Flanders, NJ - Saturday, March 25, 2006 6:26 PM CST

Ashley it always amazes me how many hearts you have touched across the world and there are I am certain many more who have never expressed their thoughts to you in your guestbook but follow your progress and pray for you in silence. You and your family and Brian have made such a profound difference in my life over the last year. I hope you are finding some comfort this weekend. I am always in awe of your wonderful thoughtfulness to others and your drive and determination and beauty both inside and out!!!!!!!!
S. Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Poco, - Saturday, March 25, 2006 6:17 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I have been reading your website for quite sometime but have never signed the guest book. Your amazing attitude and zest for life amazes me. I am so sorry that you are not well but I am praying for you that you can beat this.

Leah Sheck
Yellowknife, NT Canada - Saturday, March 25, 2006 5:42 PM CST

Dear Ashley, I send you all my positive thoughts and strength, as well as all my love. You are in my heart, keep on swimming darling!
Love your
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Saturday, March 25, 2006 2:56 PM CST

Ash, I know that this is a tough time for you and your whole family. Know that you continue to be held in my prayers and in my heart. No matter what happens, know that you are embraced by the love of so many people and that God cradles you when you need it most. You are a bright light, Ashley, for so many people! Keep shining, and be gentle with your self. Lots of love to you!
Tricia Gerhard <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, Sk - Saturday, March 25, 2006 11:49 AM CST

Sweet, sweet Ashley,
Loving thoughts of you and your family. Here's hoping that tonight is a good night and tomorrow a sunny day in your heart. Prayers along with love sent to you!

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, March 24, 2006 8:51 PM CST

Ashley
You don't know me but I am a friend of Erin Dewhirst (and her sisters). You have inspired me with your website and you are in my prayers. May God continue to give you strength to enjoy all that is beautiful and special memories for you all. God bless. xx
Vikki <vikkineldner@hotmail.com>
Barossa Valley, South Australia, Australia - Friday, March 24, 2006 8:45 PM CST

My thoughts and prayers are constantly with you dear Ashley. Hope this day is a good one. My love to you and your family.
love, Sheila
Sheila Raven
Toronto, Ontario Canada - Friday, March 24, 2006 5:53 PM CST

Ashley, dear
I'm sending lots of prayers everyday, asking our loving Lord to give you comfort and restfulness. God bless you,. Ashley..........
nancy <nls622003@yahoo.com>
saint louis, mo usa - Friday, March 24, 2006 5:51 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I want you to know that I've been thinking about you and am praying everyday that it will be a good one for you.
Enya
Philadelphia, PA - Friday, March 24, 2006 2:15 PM CST

Ashley,
Good Morning blessed sister in Christ, you are so full of life and courage. May God circle you with complete overflowing love, keeping comfort near and discouragement afar, keeping peace within and turmoil out. Amen
Kathy Hoodikoff <kathyhoo@telus.net>
Vancouver, - Friday, March 24, 2006 1:21 PM CST

Hi there Bubba!

I woke up this morning remembering dancing with you at your Gala - you were boppin' and hoppin' and twirlin'and swirlin' your smile illuminated everyone in that beautiful ballroom. I love it when wonderful, happy memories grace my day. What an amazing night that was and what an amazing person you are! The place was packed with so much joy, energy and commitment - thanks to your generous spirit and awesome vision. I can't even begin to imagine how many people you inspired that night and how many people you continue to inspire today. You and your family continue to be in our prayers. May the love and prayers fill you, sustain you and lift you up. love you lots, Jen
Jen and Ian Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Friday, March 24, 2006 12:23 AM CST

Ashley!
I gave blood at the Oak Street CBS spot. I couldn't describe the guestbook properly to them so wasn't able to sign...but I wanted you to know that it had happened.

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

May the peace of the Creator fill your entire being.

Greg Bell
Greg Bell
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, March 24, 2006 12:13 AM CST

Goodmorning sweet girl,
I hope today is a good day. I'm sending clouds of love over the water to give you a BIG hug!! I love you so much,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Friday, March 24, 2006 11:39 AM CST

Good Morning my sweet Ashley....feel my love around you.....you are in my thoughts every second of the day...I love you so much!
Donna
XOXOXOX
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Friday, March 24, 2006 11:03 AM CST

Praying for you all. Ashley, you are such a brave and beautiful girl.
With love,
Lori Pierce
Lori P <hayden01@tds.net>
Mt Juliet, TN - Friday, March 24, 2006 10:34 AM CST

Good Morning Ashley! We love you! Diana, Paige and Iain
Diana B. Hicks
Black Creek, BC Canada - Friday, March 24, 2006 10:03 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
Just to let you know that John, Nicole and I have you in our prayers as always. You are SOOOOOOOO precious to us. I was glad to hear that Brian is getting you to become a Star Trek addict. That sounds like lots of fun. Believe it or not I have never watched those movies and I think I should put them on my list. John wants me to get addicted to The Sopranos" so I think you have a better deal. Ha!Ha!
Please give my love to your mom and dad and to Heidi, Andrew and Brian too.
Lots of love, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce <jmnbruce@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Friday, March 24, 2006 0:07 AM CST

I send my thought & prayers to you Ashley & your family. God Bless
Cindi <lucindak@juno.com>
Albany, NY USA - Thursday, March 23, 2006 5:57 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
My thoughts are with you and my heart reaches out to yours. May the strength, determintation and courage you have shared with so many help to guide you through the days ahead. Keep on swimmin', think positive thoughts and allow the love being sent to you to warm you like a big 'ol blanket. You, your family and Brian are in my prayers.
With love, Beth
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Thursday, March 23, 2006 1:02 PM CST

Dear Ashley and Family;
I gave blood in Toronto last week after over 15 years thanks to you! I feel great and will continue to give as often as possible. The Mills' and their families send their love to you all.
Colin, Meta, Doug, Cathy, Brian and Allyn
Cathy Payne <cpayne@healthprocanada.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, March 23, 2006 9:47 AM CST

Ashley,
Just wanted you to know that you have many good thoughts and lots of prayers headed your way from the Sunshine State.
Roxanne
Roxanne Smith <ms.roxanne@verizon.net>
Tarpon Springs, FL USA - Thursday, March 23, 2006 7:26 AM CST

Ashley,
We just wanted to let you know how amazing and inspirational we think you are and let you know that our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Ashley Burke and Andrew Cobb <aburkey05@hotmail.com>
North Van, - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 11:43 PM CST

Ashley,
Me, Scott and my whole family are praying for you. You are such an inspiration and I know you will continue to fight this. Just keep on swimming, you are a very strong-willed woman. My thoughts, love and prayers are with you, Brian and your family.
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 11:14 PM CST

Ashley--I check your journal every day and my heart is with you and everyone who loves you. God has blessed and is blessing SO MANY people through you. We are all swimming with you and for you!
Katie (Heidi's friend from VST)
Everett, WA U.S. - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 10:01 PM CST

ashley you are never far from my thoughts and prayers.
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 9:32 PM CST

Dear Ashley and family,
We pray for your strength during this very difficult time. Our hearts are wide open for all of you, and know that you continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.
Debbie, Travis and Taylor Gibson
Debbie Gibson
NOrth Vancouver, - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 8:52 PM CST

My Dear Ashley
The whole world is swimming for you and with you and will continue to do so as we pray for your healing.
You have impacted my life in a huge way and I love you so much. My son is the luckiest man in the world to have found you.
Are you really getting addicted to Star Trek?
Love you
Donna
XOXOXOXOX
Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, March 22, 2006 8:49 PM CST

Ashley & family (including Brian!)... my heart is hurting for you as you walk this incredibly difficult path. Today I went with school to Richmond on a multifaith tour of a Mosque, a Sikh Temple, and a Buddhist Temple. And in each of these beautiful & sacred places, Ashley, I thought of you and wished for peace and healing for you and all those who love you. Hugs.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, March 22, 2006 5:47 PM CST

Ashley, you and your family continue to be in my prayers. May God bless you all and continue to grant you courage and strength.
Sheila Morris
- Wednesday, March 22, 2006 5:38 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

I came to your site from my friend, Karin's site. You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you face the difficult days ahead. God is good and HIS miracles abound.

God bless you.

{{{Angel Hugs}}}
Angel Sharon
ChemoAngels
Sharon <SShar16@aol.com>
Tampa, FL USA - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 4:34 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
You are a beautiful, amazing and courageous young lady. Keep on Swimming honey, God will protect you.
Love, Auntie Sally
Sally Lloyd <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 4:23 PM CST

Ashley,
You are special, you are strong, you are beautiful, you are amazing, and you are loved! You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Much love, jacqueline
Jacqueline Henderson <jac_henderson@hotmail.com>
Halifax, NS Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 3:57 PM CST

Hi Asley,

I've learned about your courageous story from my friend Pauline Blachford. You are an amazing individual, and you've touched many lives. My prayers are with you, and please let me know if there is anything that I might be able to assist with. God Bless, and keep the power!!
Gary Dhillon - Community Development Coordinator <gary.dhillon@bloodservices.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 3:05 PM CST

Ashley,
You continue to amaze and inspire me with your unbelieveable strength and courage. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Take care girl and keep on swimming.
love always ally xoxo
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
Richmond, B.C., - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 3:04 PM CST

Dear Ashley, I send you all my prayers and my love!!!! I hope to read soon GOOD NEWS coming from yourself, news of your victory over the disease, if someone can do it, it's YOU!!!
Lots of love
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 1:13 PM CST

Dear Heidi & Ashley
What a joy to hear from you both today. Ashley is a real trooper and is not going to give in, there is sure to be a miracle soon and with the start of Spring and new hope and new life we can look forward to the same for Ashley. Love and prayers Grandma xoxoxoxox

Eileen Brear
Laval, Que Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 11:09 AM CST

Ashley,
I came to your site through Karin's, and want to add to all the other prayers that are coming your way. I can tell by your postings that you are an amazing person. I will be thinking about you.
Kathy Wilson <kathywilson@optonline.net>
Thornwood, NY USA - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 10:56 AM CST

Ashley, Brian, Judy, Dave and Heidi,

We are sending our prayers to you at this difficult time. We are wearing your bracelets everyday, and continue to tell people about you and how strong you are Ashley. I hope you are comfortable today and are not at B4 too long. We love you!

Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 10:42 AM CST

Ashley,

There is no limit to the depth of love and support that continues to flow toward you and your family. You are all in our thoughts and prayers, trusting that you all feel wrapped in God's strength, courage, hope and peace. Do let us know if there is anything we can do. Keep on swimming, dear one.
Blessings and oh so much love,
Tracy, Greg and Joshua
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 9:32 AM CST

My heartfelt thoughts are with you, your family, friends and Brian during this difficult time. I have signed from time-to-time and have followed your couragous fight for quite some time now. You amaze me with your wonderful spirit that comes through in your journaling. I hope you are able to stay comfortable at home and keep fighting!
Amy <Jelmeland@cox.net>
Ladera Ranch, CA USA - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 8:54 AM CST

Ashley. From Durban, South Africa, Roger and I (Maureen's brother and sister-in-law)send you lots of love. You are an amazing person and you and your family are very much in our thoughts and prayers.
Jenny Finlayson <rogerfin@iafrica.com>
Durban, South Africa - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 8:45 AM CST

My thoughts and prayers are with you Ashley.
Robin Brunet <robinb@neptune.on.ca>
Bradford, Ontario Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 7:45 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
You don't know me but I found your site through Karin. Just want you to know so many (even strangers) are praying for your strength and peace.
Jean Johnson (rhabdokids list)
Jeffersonville, IN - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 6:58 AM CST

Dear Ashley and family, please know that my love and prayers are continiung strong for all of you, and you are always on my mind. My heart goes out to you, Ashley, and family, and Brian, for all the struggles you are facing. Ashley, you continue to Amaze and inspire me! You are such a light in my life and so many others. I love you!

- Karin
Karin's caringbridge site
- Wednesday, March 22, 2006 3:59 AM CST

Ashley, please know that you and your family (and Brian) are always in my prayers. Be strong, be faithful, and keep on swimming!
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 1:33 AM CST

Hi Ashley, Heidi & Family,
I want to remind you that you are all in my prayers and in the prayers of so many in the church community whom I have contact with and am able to ask to pray for you. I pray that God brings some comfort to you in the coming days.
Alison Wainwright <alie35@hotmail.com>
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 1:28 AM CST

Hey Beautiful,
I'm sending big HUGS and lots of love!!
You are in my thoughts and prayers all day every day!!
Love to Mom, Dad, Heidi, Andrew and Brian too!!

Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 1:12 AM CST

Hi Ashley!

I was looking for you on B4 yesterday and today, but our paths did not cross.

I've been thinking of you and your family a great deal; you are all in my prayers and thoughts at this trying time. May God's arms tightly enfold you, your family and loved ones.

Thought I'd let you know I'm planning on returning to nursing; an opportunity may be opening up for me to work as an oncology nurse at the BCCA in their ambulatory care unit!! -- so I'm considering this possibility. From nurse to patient and now back to nurse -- quite the change that will be. Will see how God leads -- not quite sure what He has in store for me. I marvel at how God uses our pain and suffering for His purposes.

Do say 'hi! to your sister and parents. God bless and keep each one of you!

Love, Madeleine Oostindie
Madeleine Oostindie <moostindie@idmail.com>
Rossland, BC - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 0:45 AM CST

Ashley,
One of the teens in my youth group was in your small group at Children at Conference in North Vancouver a few years ago. She also remembers you from May Retreat last year. Yesterday we were walking in Steveston and she randomly remember you and your awesome presense. Lauren sends her love and so do I! Thanks Heidi for keeping us posted. Sending you my prayers and love.
Kerry Child <kerrychild@telus.net>
Richmond, - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 0:24 AM CST

Hi Ashley!
I'm Shae Horsley's sister-in-law and got your website from her dad, David. We have all been concerned and aware of your journey, especially recently. Just wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you often and you can count on our prayers added to your amazing prayer bank. You're beautiful in so many ways - thank you for the hope and courage you've given my family. God Bless.
With LOVE and HOPE,
Loni Horsley <dough_horse@telus.net>
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 0:05 AM CST

I already posted once this week but want to add that if Brian is reading these messages he is in our thoughts as well and of course your entire family. Keep swimming!
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, March 21, 2006 7:09 PM CST

Hello my love,
I know you know this, but just wanted to remind you that I am thinking of you always... You inspire me beyond belief. Keep on swimming, sweetie.
xo, Lauren
Lauren <lhodgson@telus.net>
Kingston, ON Canada - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 10:43 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
You are being thought of and prayed for so much. This comes with great hope and care for you, Brian and your family.
Love
Helen
Helen Kinghorn <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 10:19 AM CST

Hey You,
Just a little hello and a hug for you and your family. I wish I could do more than tell you how often I think of you all, but please know my thoughts and support are always there.
All my love,
Erin
xx
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 2:42 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I know your still fighting hard, keep it up. Times are scary but you still inspire me!!! God will take care of you, you are in my constant prayers. I miss you like crazy, keep your spirits up!

Love Always,
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 11:35 PM CST

Hey Ashley,
I was just thinking of you, so I thought I'd drop a quick line to say hi. Stay well and in high spirits! Take care,
Christina
Christina Vasak <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 9:43 PM CST

Dearest Ashley,
We love you and we are praying for you. Although we cannot be there physically with you on this journey, our hearts are with you always.
Auntie Sally & family <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, On Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 9:27 PM CST

Ashley,

For every person who signs your guestbook, there are tons more cheering you on behind the scenes.

We're all pulling for you!

Love,
Shannon M.
Victoria, BC - Monday, March 20, 2006 8:18 PM CST

Happy Spring Ashley !
This beautiful, sunny day reminded me of you! I hope that you are able to look outside and enjoy it and realize how very much you are loved and how many of us are out here praying for you and sending you all of our love and strength. Keep on swimmin' darling !
Our love always,
Sherry and Chelsea
(I will be donating this week - Chels is pretty bummed out that she is not old enough but will as soon as she qualifies.)
Sherry and Chelsea <greatopenings@shaw.ca>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 3:47 PM CST

Ashley...Sean and I are praying for you today and always. We have been getting the updates from your Mom and Leah, and I was so sad to hear today that you are in the hospital. We are praying for your strength to be regained so you can be back home with your family. You are the strongest person I have ever met, and I have no doubt that you can do it! You are loved by soooo many, and just know that we are all here, and not a moment goes by that we aren't thinking and praying for you. Take care my dear Ashley.

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 12:18 AM CST

My Dearesr Ashley.....you light up the life of so many people around the world....I pray that you can feel our strength in your time of need. I love you dear girl and think of you always. I can't wait to see you.
Love Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Monday, March 20, 2006 9:49 AM CST

hi ashley!
just a short note to say that i always think of you when i need that extra bit of courage! you are such an inspiration for me. i think of you everyday. your heart is as big as your smile!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, March 20, 2006 6:17 AM CST

We love you, Ashley. We are praying for you and sending you endless light and love.

Luv,
Leah, Jane, Tom, Krista and Sullivan Callen xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, March 20, 2006 1:31 AM CST

Just a short note to let you and your family know that I am thinking of you all and wishing you all well, from a cold and sunny Toronto this Sunday. I am glad the healing touch is there for you and is so helpful.
Liz Schumann
Toronto, ON - Sunday, March 19, 2006 7:15 PM CST

Keep up the courage Ashley! and keep in mind that you are an inspiration to us all, I miss you guys, and pray for you as often as I can! and hopefully as I type this you are able to enjoy the wonderful weather outside that God has blessed us with! Keep up the hope, and just keep swimming!
lots of love,
-Chelsea
Chelsea <chwoit@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC - Sunday, March 19, 2006 5:59 PM CST

Count us in Ashley!! My Husband Brian and I are friends of the Blachfords. We both gave blood this past Friday and at Church on Sunday Pauline told me of your story. Our prayers and thoughts are with you! Keep the faith. Love Debbie
Debbie Maxwell <debmax@attglobal.net>
South Surrey, B.C. Canada - Sunday, March 19, 2006 5:37 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Keeping you in my prayers everyday. When I don't see an update for a bit, I know you must be resting and gaining strength, as the fight goes on. You are a strong woman and you can do it, I know! I will keep sending prayers to help in your fight!
nancy <nschuetze@sbcglobal.net>
saint louis, mo - Sunday, March 19, 2006 4:44 PM CST

Diana <Diana893@gmail.com>
Dallas, TX - Sunday, March 19, 2006 1:50 PM CST

Ashley, just wanted to let you know that our family continues to check on your progress regularly. I want to tell you that we don't always expect to see an update from you as we understand you're not always feeling well enough to do so and all we want to know is that you're resting and taking care of yourself because that is the most important thing. When there are no updates we read your guestbook and continue to pray just to be 'closer' to you. We've heard that you are finding it difficult not communicating as much with your friends etc and we are sure they all understand because everyone knows that once Ashley gets her energy back this gal is gonna rock our worlds once more and we all look forward to hearing and seeing from you then, until that time we'll pray and think of you continuously.
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
port coquitlam, - Saturday, March 18, 2006 10:38 PM CST

hi ashley
just a note to say hello and to send you positive and healing thoughts! i miss you lots!! my mom and dad pray for you everyday.
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, March 18, 2006 10:04 PM CST

COUNT US IN ASHLEY!!!
Corinne & Wayne McComb both donated in Owen Sound, Ontario
and know of you, Ashley, through us. Corinne is Jack's sister and home from Egypt to see their new grandson, Andersen.
What a beautiful day it is today and we are praying you are feeling the warmth of the sunshine and the warmth from all of us who love you. Please know we are on this journey with you, constantly praying that those cancer cells "get the message" and declare defeat. Several people have told me that they have booked an appointment to donate in the next few days & weeks so please keep watching for those units being donated in support of you. "The Blachford 6" all send their love from across the country. Hugs, Pauline

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Saturday, March 18, 2006 2:42 PM CST

Hi you, most special one, thinking of you, and us (todays special memory is camping..the "where's Iain's shoes?"time) That's a smile memory :) Love you, Diana
Diana Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, BC Canada - Saturday, March 18, 2006 0:39 AM CST

heyy Ash! I haven't signed here recently, but I still check in every single day and pray for you every night. I miss you! I hate that you are struggling and pray that you feel better. I know you are surrounded by soo much love. (((HUGS)))

Oh, I wanted to also mention that the Canadian Blood Services recently removed the upper age limit for donating blood. :)
Karin's caringbridge site
- Friday, March 17, 2006 9:07 PM CST

Hi Ash,
Sorry to hear that you aren't feeling well these days! I hope that you start to feel better really soon!! You are such an inspiration to so many people, not a day goes by that I don't think of you and think how lucky I am that I know you. You've touched my heart in a way that few ever have and probably few ever will!! I love you,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Friday, March 17, 2006 7:50 PM CST

Hi Ash
I wish I could donate blood but there is an age limit:-( But thats ok! I love you very much! Have a good day! I hope you can cut down on the Prednisone!
Love you lots
Paige
Paige <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, ?? Canada - Friday, March 17, 2006 3:29 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

Just wanted to let you know that you're often in my thoughts & prayers. I hope you're feeling better and that your body is starting to feel stronger every day! I'll be away for the next month and may not have access to a computer, but I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

You're one amazingly beautiful, strong, & inspiring young lady. Keep up the great work & attitude! :-) :-) :-)

With lots of love & a huge hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Friday, March 17, 2006 2:43 PM CST

Thinking of you...xox
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Friday, March 17, 2006 12:00 AM CST

Hey,

I just wanted to leave a message of support here to say how absolutely amazing I have found reading your journal; it shines through that you are a really special person.
You dont know me at all, but I was pointed to here by a friend of mine, Robin Hussen, as part of her major "persuade loads of people to donate blood" drive. Anyway, although I'm not in Canada and therefore couldnt link in with the programme, reading your journal encouraged me to make the 'brave' step of finally getting around to going along to a Scottish blood session again. I was shocked to discover it was almost 2 years since the last time I went...and I vow never to leave it that long again. Thank you for giving me encouragement to go again, even though you never knew you did.

Best wishes, and caring thoughts
Emma
Emma Fenwick <emmalouisefenwick@gmail.com>
Aberdeen, Scotland - Friday, March 17, 2006 4:17 AM CST

Ashley hope you're feeling stronger every day.
Sandra <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Poco, - Thursday, March 16, 2006 9:11 PM CST

COUNT ME IN, ASHLEY. Just gave blood (on Tuesday) and thought of you and many thanks to Pauline and Jay Blachford for passing the message along. Wishing you much positive energy and strength to carry on. You're one terrific gal.
Alma McDonald <amcdonald@bc.cancer.ca>
Richmond, BC Canada - Thursday, March 16, 2006 11:54 AM CST

Thinking of you always, Ashley, with love and prayers!
Lois <jhashimoto@sympatico.ca>
Laval, QC - Tuesday, March 14, 2006 9:28 PM CST

just checking to see if you'd updated. i'm hoping this past week was a great one for you!
lisa <schnegs@Pro-ns.net>
mn - Tuesday, March 14, 2006 6:52 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
I've been getting updates from your mom lately on how you're doing. I hope that steroid you had kicked in and made you feel better! I am thinking about you and the wonderful strength you possess and all the good work that can do along with the wisdom of your doctors and the healing support of your loved ones.
Love,
Alex
Alex <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
North Van, - Tuesday, March 14, 2006 1:56 AM CST

Hi Ashley.. it was so nice to see you the other day ...we've so missed you at callanish.....I'm thinking about you and praying for you.. and hoping your tummy feels better soon!
Allison Prinsen <allisonprinsen@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Monday, March 13, 2006 1:08 PM CST

Always thinking of you and sending you love Ashley. You were also in all of our thoughts at Callanish last week -- there were candles burning for you. I miss you being there. Love...
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, March 12, 2006 10:42 PM CST

Hi Ashley, you are always in our thoughts. Hoping your counts go up real soon. our family is looking in to giving blood in your name. Keep on swimming, girl. Huggggggggggggssssssssss to you and your family.
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Sunday, March 12, 2006 7:49 PM CST

You are such an inspiration to so many people in so many ways Ashley!! I wish and pray for complete health and happiness to be shone upon your way.
Terry-Lynn & Brian Calder
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Sunday, March 12, 2006 2:56 PM CST

I love you, Ashley. Sending you a great big virtual ***HUG*** right now.

I believe in you. God believes in you. Sending you lots of Love and Faith and Hope.

You are our shining star. We are so grateful to God and the universe for YOU!! Feel better.

Luv,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, March 12, 2006 1:16 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
I've been thinking very hard and decided that I have to behave very well in order to make my prayers as effective as possible. The prayers that come from people with truly good heart and good behaviour must have more power than the ones from naughty ones!! So I'm going to cut back on my consumption of almond croissant and chocolates!! Maybe you don't want to see me ending up in a institution , so I'll say, one croissant every two weeks and 50 grams de chocolat every week. That's pretty realistic, don't you think?? And when you get your appetite back and your strength back, which will happen very soon, I shall bring you the best almond croissant in the world and T.H. (shhhhh, don't tell anyone) chocolate, of course! and we can work out together, too! I will think of other things to improve my "weak" side, Ashley. Seriously, I wish I could do more for you, and it's been a frustrating road trip on a bumpy, winding gravel road with many pot holes!!But we are with you all the way along and we will come to a smoother road soon! All the prayers you receive will hopefully open up a new, more comfortable road ahead!! And we all will take a great big breath of fresh spring air together! So hang in there, Ash!
Love, Manako
Manako Roberts <carmaria101@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, March 11, 2006 8:11 PM CST

hey chica,
i wanted to pass along my love, as well as my empathy for your dislike of imodium. my heart is with you. as are so many others. which really just reflects how a-w-e-s-o-m-e you are!
with love, chris
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, - Friday, March 10, 2006 10:19 PM CST

Hi Ash,
Checking in from Brazil this time. I�ve always been inspired by my dad to give blood, and it�s stories like yours that make it worth while. My dad�s very quiet about it, but he�s been giving blood since he was 18 and platlets for as long as I can remember!! I always wanted to be able to reach that same goal. I give in the UK and I promise to next give in your name. It�s also really easy for people to sign up to the bone marrow registry when they�re giving blood; it�s just one more little portion for testing. Easy peasy!!!
Please know that wherever I am my thoughts are always with you. My first question whenever I call home is ��how�s ash?��
Sending you lots of love from around the world,
Erin
xx
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
Pertolina, Brazil - Thursday, March 9, 2006 3:26 PM CST

Sweet Ashley,
Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you every day!! I hope the snow isn't getting you down!!
There is so much love in my heart for you, can you feel it??I hope you are having a pain and fever free day! Lots of Love,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , B.C. Canada - Thursday, March 9, 2006 12:43 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
Just to let you know John and I are thinking of you and hoping that today was a good day and that you were able to do some fun things. You are always in our thoughts and prayers. I would SOOOOOOO love to give blood in your name, but I had Hep A as a university student. They found a food handler at one of the cafeterias was a carrier and 3 of us in my class went down with it. Definitely NOT fun. I'm so glad food handlers have to wear gloves these days !!!!! Before that I was a blood donor and found it very easy to do - and they used to give us juice and cookies afterwards - a definite incentive for students!! I wonder if they still do that?? Anyway, I am saying prayers for you as always. With lots of love, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, March 8, 2006 11:30 PM CST

Ashley,
Just wanted to check in and let you know that I am thinking about you in the most positive way. Hoping that today is a great day. How can it be snowing in March? It is pretty though, just like you.
Love and hugs,
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, March 8, 2006 1:07 PM CST

I know what your going through, never give up hope. Cancer can be beat. Stay positive...
Gary <gtels1@shaw.ca>
Surrey, BC Canada - Wednesday, March 8, 2006 9:50 AM CST

Checking in on you and thought I'd drop a quick line to remind you you're still in our thoughts and prayers everyday!
s boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 9:29 PM CST

Ashley you are amazing! You just keep fighting back! I have to echo what your friend Valerie said, but unfortunately as you know, I can not donate blood either. I am passing this on to everyone I know though! Sorry it's so wet today, but hopefully you can get up to something fun!

Talk to you soon!
Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 12:08 AM CST

Hello Ashley,
I'm sorry but they won't take my blood anymore as I had cancer 5 years ago. All better now but I know the fight you are going through. I will keep you in my prayers and wish you the recovery with which I have been blessed.

Valerie Jenkinson <valerie@novaquality.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 10:04 AM CST

Ashley! We haven't spoken in quite a while but I check up on your website here all the time - you are always in my thoughts.. I'm going to look in to giving blood - I'm always amazed at your charitable ambitions.. you are a true gift to everyone you know.
Dan Mangan <info@danmanganmusic.com>
Vancouver, - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 8:40 AM CST

ashley, thanks for the update! i hope that your counts increase this week and that you have a super week. always thinking of you!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 4:57 AM CST

Dear Ashley
We wanted to let you know we have been thinking about you.WE know you are fighting a hard battle and its been tough ,but know that you are a very strong and amazing peron and in the end you will win. Stay strong girl..all our prayers are with you. Love the Robinson's :)

Jennifer ,Brad ,Irene and Doug Robinson <Ladylonglegs_8@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Monday, March 6, 2006 9:58 PM CST

Dear Ashley
I would like to report that the Chapel at the Manoir (my residence) is to be open every afternoon for special prayers asking for a miracle to happen for you and hope you receive lots of blood donations and still hope to see you in Montreal this summer as mentioned before. All my love Grandpa
Eric Brear
Laval, Qu� Canada - Monday, March 6, 2006 6:37 PM CST

Dear Ashley
It was so great to have a little chat with you this morning. You sounded to be in very good spirits and hope this continues, lets hope you can persuade lots of people to give blood in your name. it is a life saving commodity. You are a very brave girl and deserve to make good progress with summer approaching you will be able to get out and have some fresh air walks.Keep up your spirits and will try and talk to you again soon. My love and prayers as always Grandma xoxoxoxo
Eileen Brear
Chomedey,Laval, Qu� Canada - Monday, March 6, 2006 6:21 PM CST

Dober dan, princeska!

I was away for the weekend with my cub scouts and so much has happened there in Canada...WOW! Well, i can't give my blood her for your thing....but i donated my blood for the bone marrow transplant register...so, that's something too, i guess.

Ok, i'll email more tomorrow...

Rada te imam!
Katja
Katja Tavcar <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Monday, March 6, 2006 4:32 PM CST

(((((((HUGS))))))) from Alabama. You are amazing and beautiful!!!!Keep strong and keep your faith. We are praying for you!!!!!
Lynne Blackwell <rulesroom58@yahoo.com>
Shorter, AL USA - Monday, March 6, 2006 3:11 PM CST

URGENT!!
Only those with blood need read on!

As we journey through lent, many of us look to give up small indulgences or bad habits.
This Lent, I am asking Ashley Brear's friends and admirers to give the gift of life, a donation of your blood!

Canadian Blood Services has registered "In support of Ashley Brear" as a "Partner for Life" member, at their
Oak Street Branch, as well as their Surrey Branch.
When donating whole blood or platelets, please ensure that you sign Ashley's page found under the "A"s.
If you are giving at another location across Canada, please sign in under the Visitor's page noting "In support of Ashley Brear - Oak St., Vancouver" (underlining the A in Ashley)
All entries will be transferred at the end of every month. If by chance, there is no binder for you to sign in, please let me know.

When you have made a donation, please inform Ashley, and her family, through this CaringBridge - Guest book. Start off your note with "COUNT ME IN ASH" and I will monitor and keep track of the units given in Ashley's name.
If for some reason you are unable to donate personally, please introduce someone, 17 years or over, to this concept of giving blood.
Our goal is to donate 100 units this year for our courageous and beautiful Ashley.
Please extend this invitation to everyone you know.

Let's walk this journey together with the Brears.
We can all participate - "In support of Ashley Brear"!!
Call 1-888-2-donate. Blood - it's in you to give!

Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Sunday, March 5, 2006 11:21 PM CST

Hi Ashley, I am in Halifax after having sung 2 concerts. Bill and I are getting the sound healing CD you and I talked about organized. There will be 7 of us to do it. We have 2 bowls already, and a drone and Peter (another singer in the choir) can do harmonic overtone singing really well. So we are going to proceed in the next few months. You were the inspiration for it! Hope you are coping ok with the prednisone withdrawal. I'm thinking of you each day. Love you.
Laverne
laverne gfroerer <bgfr@direct.ca>
north vancouver, bc canada - Sunday, March 5, 2006 9:31 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
I'm sorry that you have been having such a rough time lately. I'm praying and sending positive thoughts for a reprieve from the fevers and upset tummy. I'm sending every positive vib I can muster for you to have some time to feel GREAT!!! Let the time begin NOW.
Debbie Gibson

Debbie Gibson <gibsond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, March 4, 2006 7:37 PM CST

Hello Ashley,
I wrote you an e-mail a week or so ago and your dad said it did not get to you. I'll try writing in your guestbook. I just wanted you to know that people as far away as Ohio in the USA are praying and hoping for you and keeping you in our thoughts. I met your dad a number of years ago at a technology conference in Minnesota and have continued to correspond with him about technology, especially about Lego Robotics, as I teach that as well. I know you have been on a long difficult journey and your courage and strength are amazing. I know your dad mentioned to you that I have done healing touch and had a very spiritual, miraculous experience after a very bad accident. If you do the healing touch again, or even if you don't, just keep concentrating on bringing that healing white light into your body. I was glad to hear from your dad today. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.
Cheers,
Felicity Steele
Columbus, Ohio
Felicity Steele
Columbus, Oh USA - Saturday, March 4, 2006 3:54 PM CST

That was great to be able to read you ! Thoughts and prayers coming your way ! HUG
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Saturday, March 4, 2006 1:18 PM CST

WOW! So good to see an update, I too wish I could give blood, unfortunitly I contacted Heb B at work one day so I can no longer give blood, but I can still pray for you. Good to see you back again, you are an inspiration too all of us.
Eileen O'Connell/Northlea United <emoconnell@3wen.net>
Laval, Que Canada - Saturday, March 4, 2006 11:21 AM CST

Love and *Hugs*

From us to wonderful you. Keep on swimming, Ashley.

We love you. God bless you.

Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, March 4, 2006 0:19 AM CST

Dear Ashley
Keep on swimming - never give up. I love you, if I could give blood, I would, and am praying continually for you, hope to see you soon in Montreal, love again, Grandpa
xxxxxx
Eric Brear
Laval, Que Canada - Friday, March 3, 2006 7:46 PM CST

Hi Ashley
Glad to have your message today, its a good sign to hear from you again, as I am an older lady beyond the age limit for giving blood, I really w ish I could, I can only pray for you constantly and give you all my thoughts. God bless you and love always Grandma xxxxxxx

Eileen Brear
Laval, Que Canada - Friday, March 3, 2006 7:24 PM CST

Hey Ash,
Sorry to hear you are having a rough week. Hoping and praying that things get easier and that you can at least have a peaceful fever-free weekend. My thoughts are always with you.
Love
Heath
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, March 3, 2006 6:18 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

I pray with all my being for your fevers to go away, for your bowels to return to normal, and for your Hodgkin's to be beaten real good and real hard by your admirable personality, strength, wisdom beyond your years, by your wonderfully strong & healthy cells, by GVH, by Heidi's amazing cells, by everyone's prayers & much more ... :o)

Love you sweetie with all my heart,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, March 3, 2006 6:16 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

Your spirit never ceases to amaze me! Keep it up!
Christina Loch <pokerteddy@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, March 3, 2006 6:01 PM CST

hi ashley, sorry to hear you've had a bumpy week. hoping that this weekend is better for you and that you feel better soon!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Friday, March 3, 2006 3:53 PM CST

Dear Ash
Just praying all is well with you during this tough time....
lynn <nls622003@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 2, 2006 8:05 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

Pauline Blachford encouraged me to visit your site when she was at the Canadian Blood Services� Partners for Life event on Wednesday night. Everything she said about you is true: you are a beautiful young woman both inside and out.

It is so inspiring to see your strength and positive attitude; it gives real power to the work we do with blood donors. I have asked our staff to put a page in our sign-in binder under �A� (for Ashley, of course. And Awesome. And Amazing.) along with your web address. I hope that everyone who comes in to donate blood will visit your page and see what a wonderful site of hope you have created.

Our wishes and thoughts are with you, now and always.

Jennifer <jennifer.gillies@bloodservices.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Thursday, March 2, 2006 6:35 PM CST

Hiya,

You don't know me, but I'm a friend of the Blachfords through St Mark's church. I'm 22 as well and I just graduated from UBC so Pauline thought it would be neat for me to represent you last night at the LifeLink/Partners for Life dinner since you couldn't be there. I'm already a blood donor, but I'm working hard on my friends at UBC to get them out and donate in support of you. From Pauline's stories and your journal I can tell that you are a very special person and that there are a lot of people who love you and who are praying for you.

My next donation appointment is on April 1 (they can't pull April Fools jokes on us while taking blood can they?!). Keep on swimming! :)
Robin Hussen <volacious.r@gmail.com>
Surrey, BC Canada - Thursday, March 2, 2006 11:17 AM CST

Hi little Nemo,

Went to an Ash Wednesday service tonight... where we all got to put crosses made of palm ashes, oil and holy water from the baptismal font on our foreheads (incidentally, I had lots of fun at Starbucks later with all the funny looks I got - the two barristas thought it was 'cool'!!).

The blesssing that was said as we did this was something like: 'Remember that you are part of God's holy earth, that you are one with God, broken and blessed.'

The ashes represented the human, earthly part of our existance... the water and oil the divine, spiritual part. Also like a healing annointing.

Well, I asked in my heart that the blessing also be for you, Ashley. Hope you don't mind. I thought: after all this is technically your day: 'Ash' Wednesday!! We do all call you Ash! lol

I think Shrove/Pancake Tuesday is my day. I'm always craving pancakes!!!!!! Can't get enough for some reason.

Glad to hear you are having some relief. That medicine and hope and prayers (and your own healing power) are working. Hope you have a good, peaceful night's sleep tonight. With inspiring and healing dreams.

Loving you and thinking of you always. Wishing you a miracle. Wishing you HEALTH!

Hang in there. We're rooting for you!

Lots of Luv,
Your pal,
Dory (I do kinda have short term memory!!) :) xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, March 2, 2006 1:35 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
Although you may not recognize the name, we did meet many years ago when you were a young girl and my husband and I stopped by your house to visit with your Mom and Dad while on a visit to Van. Your Mom and I taught together in Montreal and I have asked her to add my name to those who want to follow and support your journey. You are an amazing girl! I check your journal entries regularly and hold you in my thoughts every day. You gave the rest of us strength with the way that you are meeting adversity. Stay strong, girl. There are so many of us pulling for you.

Judy Dickie
Judy <jadickie@shaw.ca>
Calgary, AB - Wednesday, March 1, 2006 9:16 PM CST

Ashley, just checking up on you again, you inspire me here in my office to live in the spirit of hope. your hope is contagious and i love you for bringing me that today. thank you. Your space on the naramata youth conference leadership team is waiting for you! say hi to heidi for me. much love and much light sent your way! Doris
Doris Kizinna <dkizinna@bc.united-church.ca>
- Wednesday, March 1, 2006 3:35 PM CST

Ashley,
You are in my thoughts everyday. You are so courageous. An inspiration to so many. You certainly are to me. All I have to do is think of you and anything that might be going on that is upsetting, just seems to be okay. You are a special person and deserve all of the love and prayers that are coming through to you. Hope that tomorrow is a better day for you.
Love and hugs!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, February 28, 2006 8:36 PM CST

today i keep thinking about that night we went to see the fireworks in english bay last summer, and brought a classy picnic and your cozy blanket, and how they seemed so much more beautiful that night than any other time i've seen them. and i keep thinking, 'that girl's got something pretty cool in her to make everything seem better when she's around'.
much love,
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Tuesday, February 28, 2006 6:22 PM CST

Ashley thinking of you everyday.
sandra boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, - Monday, February 27, 2006 11:51 PM CST

Ashley, we love you and are thinking of you daily!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Monday, February 27, 2006 6:14 PM CST

PS: I was in Starbucks the other day... and I heard some parents ask their little boys what was their favourite movie of all time.

They yelled enthusiastically: Finding Nemo!!!!

Made me laugh and think of you. Apparently you picked the MOST popular kids flick!! You definitely know children.

Don't forget you have LOTS of little kids who love you soooo much right now. You make such an impact and bring so much love and friendship and guidance to their lives. What a gift! They are blessed to know you! :)

We all are.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, February 27, 2006 0:46 AM CST

***HUGE HUG!!!***

Hey Ashley! Did you see Avril sing at the closing ceremonies? It was cool. She always reminds me of you! There are definitely similarities... like the spunky, starbright personality... and keen fashion sense!!

Remember when you put on your long blonde wig... and that little girl at your house thought you looked like her! I can totally see it. Tho I personally think you're a wee bit more Sarah Michelle Gellar. lol ;)

Hang in there, my friend. Hope your fevers cool down and you feel better soon. Hope your spleen feels better too. Hope ALL of you feels better ASAP!!

I'm just hanging out at home looking after my sick puppy. Hopefully I'll get out to see you soon. When he feels better (and I get some sleep!). I miss you for sure!

Thinking of you and praying for you. I love you, Miss Ashley. Take good, loving care of yourself. You know what you need better than anyone else.

Give Cosette and Grace a kiss for me.

LOTS of Luv,
One of your cancer buddies (there's MANY of us cheering u on!!:),
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, February 27, 2006 0:41 AM CST

You are in my mind! Leaving a BIG hug for you!!
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Sunday, February 26, 2006 9:27 PM CST

I MISS YOU.........

SO MUCH!!!!!!

XOXOXOXOX
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, February 26, 2006 8:05 PM CST

hi ashley, just checking on you to see if you've updated. my husband walked by and saw your picture and said "wow, what a beautiful girl"....and he hasn't even read so he doesn't truly know how beautiful you are on the inside too. we're strangers but you've caught our attention that's for sure. thinking of you and hoping that you're enjoying your weekend.
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Saturday, February 25, 2006 7:54 AM CST

I Love you!!!

SO MUCH!!!
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Saturday, February 25, 2006 4:30 AM CST

Hi Ashly,
Your Dad has kept me up to date on recent events but I want to add my voice in encouragement where you can read it. You have been on my mind throughout the week and I was so pleased to read that you are feeling better. Leah and I go to visit Shae tomorrow realizing how precious every meeting is. Last year taught us to not take such opportunities for granted. My prayers are for you and the love that continues to uphold you.
David Horsley <dhorsley@gw.sd74.bc.ca>
Ashcroft, BC - Friday, February 24, 2006 6:51 PM CST

hey ashley get well soon!!!!!!!
marnie <www.babyrockonala@hotmail.com>
coquitlam, bc canada - Friday, February 24, 2006 10:39 AM CST

Hola chica
MANY hugs and kisses from Costa Rica. I miss you lots and thinking of you ALL the time. Thank god for your moms updates. Get those platlets. Can they ship from Costa Rica...you can have mine ANYTIME. Love you
Cindy (and Kristi) <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
Brasalito, Guanacaste Costa Rica - Thursday, February 23, 2006 1:07 PM CST

Hi Ashley!
Your Mom's updates are the highlight of my day! I love reading how the counts are going up and the fevers are going down! You continue to be an inspiration to us all!
Love you
Donna
Donna <Donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 23, 2006 9:17 AM CST

May you continue lighting up the lives of the visitors to your web site and inspiring us with your shining example of a life being well-lived. Godde's blessings to you and those whose lives touch yours.
Carole Cotton <carole@mountaincable.net>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Thursday, February 23, 2006 5:22 AM CST

Praying, praying, praying Ashley. I am glad that you don't have to go to the hospital daily; it's nice to have a day to lounge around. Your counts are climbing and that is great. Stay positive and draw strength from everyone around you. Always on our minds and in our hearts.
Debbie Gibson
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Thursday, February 23, 2006 0:18 AM CST

Ashley, hope you dont mind an entry from a total stranger - I want to tell you how beautiful you are and what a sweet spirit you have - keep that faith which has brought you this far. I know how it is to have pain and sickness and you just have to put one foot in front of the other and PUSH. Trust that your doctors will do their best for you and faith will take care of the rest. So many people are praying for you and you know what the Bible says, "wherever two or more of you are gathered in My name..." HUGS TO YOU!
Lynne Blackwell <rulesroom58@yaoo.com>
Shorter,, AL US - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 5:19 PM CST

Ashley you can find so much **JOY** in a place where many people would find very little. That's pretty amazing. Hoping for counts going UP and fevers going DOWN. Check this out for a laugh (and maybe an idea??)...
http://www.planetcancer.org/forum/viewtopic.php?p=8254#8254
LOVE YOU.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, February 22, 2006 11:42 AM CST

We read your Mum's emails regularly and have been so pleased to know there has been some improvement this week. We are glad you have such a good appetite and pray that the fevers will go soon. We look forward to seeing you back in St Agnes very soon. Much love John and Sylvia Forrest.
Sylvia Forrest <jatforrest@telus.net>
Surrey, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 11:05 AM CST

Hi Ashley, Just checking in to see how you are doing, glad to see you are doing much better. Will keep praying for those nasty fevers go away real soon. BON APPETTIE.
Eileen
Eileen O'Connell / Northlea United <emoconnell@3web.net>
Laval/Que, Canada - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 9:37 AM CST

Fevers be gone...fevers be gone...fevers be gone...we'll keep up the chant...Keep eating all that awesome food! We love you!
Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 7:37 AM CST

'Be assured that good health is your Divine Right.
Every cell in your body is intelligent and knows
how to heal itself'
- from 101 Ways to Health & Healing!

So trust what your body tells you. It is filled with wisdom... it knows what it needs and wants. Listen to your heart! There's healing in it for sure. A heart like yours that is blessed with so much love for others... must be a powerful healer, capable of loving and healing you too. ;)

I love you, Ashley. Stay strong and keep that candle burning. Hope, hope and more HOPE coming your way. Endless prayers. A river of prayers, healing energy, light and love... are constantly flowing to you from everyone (and from me)!

Things are kinda hectic around here right now. Life sure keeps throwing curve balls. As soon as things settle down I'll head over and give ya some reiki. I'll send you some from home until I can get to you in person.

No matter what... you are always, always in my prayers and heart and thoughts.

You are a Miracle!!! I love ya.

Luv,
Your cancer buddy,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, February 22, 2006 2:50 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
It was so wonderful seeing you this weekend, I had a very special time. It was a gift meeting Lauren in such a unique way, she is truly an awesome spirit and loves you very much. Finally meeting Brian was great!!!!! You are both blessed to have such a special realtionship. Spending time with your dad was really neat, although my visit was way too short!! Take care of your precious self and remember your promise! I love you very much. :)
Auntie Sally <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 11:13 PM CST

Hi Ash
We just read that your web page has been visited 56922 times. Isn't that rather wonderful. When we were your age, this just would not have been possible. Calgary is definitely pulling for your platelets even over those mountains. Great to read about Sally's visit. I like your comment about seeing Dave and Sally together. Now about how they behaved together when they were teenagers..................

Keep on trucking and we hope to see you all around the end of March. That wasn't possible our last visit, but we feel confident it will be OK next time we are there.

We keep Craig and Laura updated thanks to Judy's daily news.

All our love and regards

Dave & Sue

Dave & Sue Day <dlday@telus.net>
Calgary, - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 10:26 PM CST

Hi Ash
I am so pleased you have so many great people in your life, and boy do you and your family deserve it - you are all so wonderful! We will be hoping for those platelets to increase - the boys want to see you soon! Love Toni
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 9:57 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
It is always good to get your updates. I'm SO glad you had such a great visit with Sally and that Lauren is here this week. What a gift! I'm so glad Brian's job is going so well and that he loves his car. I am praying for no more fevers and a good day at B4 tomorrow.
With love, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce <jmnbruce@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 9:34 PM CST

Hi, Ashley, so you know you are always in our prayers, always, always. But to help me in my positive visualization...what kind of car did Brian get???? I need to complete my head picture of you cruising up to Hope, got the sun, your smile, the tunes are playing, Brians behind the wheel.....what's he driving?? Love you muchly, Diana

Diana Hicks
- Tuesday, February 21, 2006 9:07 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

I pray with all my power for you to continue feeling well, for your fevers to go away, and for your counts to come up and stay up for ever! Keep up the amazing attitude and your wonderful smiles!! You are one very beautiful person on the inside and outside!!! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

With lots of love & a huge hug,

Shirin

Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 8:30 PM CST

Dear Ashley
Nice to have you on the journal again, lets hope the fevers subside, takes a bit longer for you to get rid of the flu or whatever it is causing the temperatures, I wish I could have been there with Sally but it will take a while longer for me to be able to travel. Will try and see you in the summer time so keep up the good work you are doing very well and look forward to your next message. All my love Grandma xoxoxoxox

Eileen Brear
Laval, Que Canada - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 2:54 PM CST

Thinking of you and hope you continue to get better. You're awesome!!
Matt <matthewboth@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, February 21, 2006 1:21 PM CST

Ashley I am praying for your counts to go up. It is good that they are maintaining though! We are going to try and pop in this weekend if you are up to it. We will call and see. I'm glad you are eating so well. It will help you fight! Stay strong!!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 12:46 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
Just checking in to say "Hello".....I hope you feel strong enough to come visit on the weekend....we miss you!
Love you
Donna
Donna <Donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Monday, February 20, 2006 7:47 PM CST

Hey There!
Just a quick note - the connection here is so bad!!! I managed to log on to check in on you. All sounds fantastic! What great news, I couldn't be more happy.
In in Addis Ababa (so fun to say) in Ethiopia right now. I've just come from Muputo in Mozambique. I've seen some amazing things and have thought about you all the way. Even though we're right on the other side of the world from each other I wanted you to know you're always in my thoughts.
Keep getting better!!!!!
All my love,
Erin
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
Addis Ababa, Ethiopia - Monday, February 20, 2006 9:23 AM CST

Hope things continue to go well for you Ashley, you remain in our thoughts and prayers. Keep on swimming!
s boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, - Saturday, February 18, 2006 1:55 PM CST

hi ashley!
it's shae, you are so beautiful, and amazing! i know some days you just must think you are an excellent actress, making people beleive you are strong and always positive, smiling. but don't doubt it, you ARE strong! it is so unfair, but the fact is were the strong ones who take the burden of this horrible disease from those who would not be able to get through it themselves. We tell ourselves there is a reason for this, but it is so hard to find the justice in it. i just want you to know that i am thinking of you, and praying so hard that you will kick this for good. keep that beautiful smile love,
shae horsley <shaehorsley13@hotmail.com>
vernon, bc canada - Friday, February 17, 2006 8:06 PM CST

Hi Ashley...I'm so glad things are finally looking up, and you're feeling better. Let us know when we can come visit!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Friday, February 17, 2006 12:34 AM CST

Dober dan from Slovenija! =)

RADA TE IMAM, princeska!

Lupcke! xoxoxoxox
Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija, EU - Thursday, February 16, 2006 3:44 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

FANTASTIC!!!!! Looks like all of the prayers and positive thinking are finally at work. Continue with your strength and determination and know that we are all thinking of your numbers going higher. Hope you enjoy your day in the sunshine.
Debbie, Travis and Taylor
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Thursday, February 16, 2006 10:28 AM CST

Hello Ashley...from Brazil!

Lauren Fee and I are here for a few weeks attending the World Council of Churches Assembly. We are praying for you...and sending you are love... spreading prayers and sending you hope from hot, hot South.

Kerry Child
Kerry Child <kerrychild@telus.net>
Porto Alegre, Brazil - Thursday, February 16, 2006 8:57 AM CST

Hello Ashley your news is fantastic, keep on swimming darling our prayers and thoughts are constantly with you and your Mum and Dad and Brian and Heidi and Andrew, you are never far from my mind love from Peter too Sleep tight Margaret
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC Canada - Thursday, February 16, 2006 1:09 AM CST

Hi Ashley!
Just wanted to let you know again how much it meant to me to have you as a guest in our home. I was so surprised when Brian told me on the phone that you were here.
You look amazing!!! Your eyes are like stars....always twinkleing, and your smile is so infectious. As always my thoughts, my prayers, amd my love surrounds you.
Love Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, February 15, 2006 10:04 PM CST

Hi Ashley!
You probably remember me -- we were both on the bcca 6th floor having our auto transplants in Nov 04. And we bumped into each other on B4 last Sept (I have m.m.) My in-laws live in N. Vanc. It was great seeing you and your Mom then,and hearing your news.

Well today I stumbled upon your website address, and thought it was high time to check it and see how you're making out. I'm grieved to hear what you've been going through these last few months. An incredible fierce battle, a battle I know so little of. I'm so grateful that God has given you a strong, hopeful and courageous spirit --He is indeed sustaining you in the midst of this very real battle -- and you're an awesome warrior! Your life shines of God's love -- indeed your life is bringing Him so much glory!! Keep shining! May God continue to uplift you, and fill you with His hope, love, peace and joy!

I will be back in Vanc shortly - and on B4 on March 21st -- I'll look for you then. I am doing well, studying towards a return to dialysis nursing, can cross country ski once again - an incredible gift!, and am getting involved in cancer survivor support issues / groups... I'll be attending the sruvivorship conference at the Bayshore in late March.

Oh, you are right on re. the importance of HOPE -- it can't be understated! It is a must for all of us living with cancer. Thrilled that your doctor has been so supportive; thanks to you I will be making a request to have him as my primary hematologist, as my current doctor doesn't understand my need for hope and encouragment! We need doctors who are skilled cheer leaders, as well as awesome medical practitioners!!

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! I'll now check in to your website on a regular basis so that I can support you through prayer.

Do say 'Hi!' to your parents and sister.

God bless and keep you!
Sending you a big germ-free hug,
Madeleine
Madeleine Oostindie <moostindie@ieee.org>
Rossland, bc canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 11:54 PM CST

Happy Valentines Day Sweetie!!
I hope you had an awesome day and that you and Brian got to celebrate!!! I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling stronger every day, I'll continue to send healing thoughts and prayers!!! As always, lots of love, Big hugs!!!
I'm thinking of you!!!
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 11:35 PM CST

Hey Ashley,

My name is Gina, I know you through Christine, and I was also at the YMCA thing. I just wanted to say hello and good luck with your continuing treatment course.

Warm regards

Gina Eom <gina.eom@gmail.com>
Vancouver, - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:46 PM CST

Hi Ashley....I'm still checkin' up on you every day! So glad that your platelet numbers are going up. Sounds like you have had a busy and fun week. That's great to hear. Sending lots of love your way on this Valentines Day to you and all your family. I can't believe Heidi had that big birthday....she was LESS than one year old when I first met your mum and dad!!!! Yikes. Please tell your mum that I sent her an e-mail to her VSB address awhile ago...but maybe she doesn't get that one anymore. Keep getting stronger and stronger...you have an amazing wave of supporters from all over the planet!! Hugs to your whole family.
Lori Henderson <whenders@telus.net>
Ladner, BC - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 8:03 PM CST

Ashley,
Happy Valentines Day to you and your sweetie! It was so good to see you and the love you share with such a wonderful guy! We think the world of you both and are still cheering all your counts on! Keep up the positive spirit. We believe in you!!!!! xoxox

kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 5:56 PM CST

Diana <Diana893@gmail.com>
Dallas, TX - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 1:14 PM CST

Ashley.....I don't know you, but I do! Jack and Pauline have been friends of mine for over 30 years and through Pauline I have learned of your most difficult journey. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and friends. Today is not only another beautiful sunny day, it is also Valentine's Day and I wish you happiness today. Peace be with you.
Kathryn Adams <kathadams@dccnet.com>
Ladner, BC Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 1:08 PM CST

Deat Ashley: Wonderful news, just wanted to let you know that we have a prayer army on your side here in Ottawa. Keep getting stronger day by day. Hugs and more Hugs going your way on this Valentine's Day.
Charlene Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Ontario, Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 12:57 AM CST

Dear Ashley
Keep up the good news,things seem to be better and better, your positive attitude will work every time, I look forward to your next blog and keep on swimming, prayers are the way to go for you and the doctors who take care of you, my love as always Grandma xoxoxoxox
Eileen Brear
Laval , Que Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:38 AM CST

YIPPEE!!!! Up to 9! That's AWESOME!!! We just know you're going to beat this thing..you're getting stronger and stronger everyday!
Blaine and I donated platelets last night at the Red Cross and thought of you throughout the process. Visualizing that spleen getting smaller and smaller and your platelet count growing and growing!
We continue send hugs and prayers your way, for you, Brian and your family. What a great way to start my (and your!) Valentines Day to hear your wonderful news!
Cathy, Blaine, Dillon and Carole xo
Cathy <Drtymama@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:20 AM CST

Hi Ashley!
Great news! I am thrilled to hear that you are feeling better! Maybe the guardian angel pin as working it's magic on you as it did for my Mom?! Keep that positive mindset (you are amazing)!! With love and prayers from across the miles.
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 8:53 AM CST

Ashley it is such wonderful news to hear about your platelets!!! Hooray, hooray, hooray. For the month of Feb I am doing a 30 day challenge at my Yoga Studio, and each day I dedicate my practice to you, and to your platelets. The classes are 90 minutes long, and very challenging. Each time I am in a difficult posture and about to lose my balance I bring my focus back by growing your platelets. :)
Happy Valentine's day tomorrow. I hope you have a lovely day with Brian. My daughter Heather comes home from U.of T. for reading break in a week. It will be so nice to see her and give her a big hug. But I have to share her with her boyfriend Dylan, just like your mum and dad have to share you with Brian. I phoned both Dan and Heather tonight to wish them Happy V day, and Paul has given me some lovely flowers. I am sending you all kinds of wonderful valentine prayers and virtual flowers... a big beautiful valentine for each and every new big beautiful platelet that you grow, and flowers for the sunshine in your heart. God Bless You Ashley, Love Kim. PS: Paul sends his love too.
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
North Vancouver , BC Canada - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 0:16 AM CST

Just read today's note on your website and am glad to hear that you are feeling much better! We will pray for you (each prayer equals 1,00 platelets!). Through your website we are able to keep track of our daughter Christine who tells you that she is on her way to San Fran. We hope she drives carefully, stays out of trouble and phones us occassionally (hint,hint!!) Glad you are feeling muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch better. Thinking of you!!Love Christine's parents
Nancy and Jim Boyle <nboyle1@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, February 13, 2006 10:02 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
What great news I just read tonight!
We just got home from "The Pink Panther". Went with friends whom we had been in Paris with a few years ago and enjoyed the scenery as well as lots of laughs.
Tomorrow is Stu's birthday - we had a party here yesterday afternoon. Unfortunately Camryn couldn't come as she has been sick with a cold so a lot of the folk were disappointed as they were hoping to see her, considering that the invitations had gone out as if from her.
Stu has had bronchitis and isn't over it yet but is improving.
We were so glad to hear that Kathleen and Shirley got to visit you last week-end.
Keep those platelets up....
Fondly,
Hughena

Hughena Baker <shbaker@nb.sympatico.ca>
Rothesay, NB Canada - Monday, February 13, 2006 9:39 PM CST

HOORAY, HOORAY, HOORAY!! I am so glad that you are feeling better. I bet that you can just feel all of the love and prayers that are out there for you. This is a great day and KEEP ON SWIMMING Ashley!!!!
Mom, dad, Heidi, Andrew and of course you, deserve all of this good news.
Love and Hugs,

Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, February 13, 2006 9:29 PM CST

hi ashley, i've been worried about you and very happy to see the update today!! i'm glad you are "off" from the hospital for two days. this is great news! now lets kick the cancer butt and get you back to 100%!!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Monday, February 13, 2006 6:56 PM CST

Hi Ashley, I was soooo happy to read your last entry in your log. What wonderful news.!!!!! Keep it up. Get strong and kick butt!!!!! Attitude is everything. Keep smiling. HUGGGSSSSSSSSSSSS to all of you
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, February 13, 2006 6:35 PM CST

I have got the hugest smile on my face and in my heart from reading your latest update Ashley! It is so wonderful to hear how things are progressing in the right direction, tiny step by tiny step, and that you've been able to get out and celebrate all the Love and Joy in your life that is Family and Brian and a night (well, dinner) at the Pub. GOOD FOR YOU! Keep it up, I'll always keep my prayers up too! Tressa :)
Tressa <vanyaya@telus.net>
- Monday, February 13, 2006 6:13 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

It's so wonderful to receive your good news!!! :-) :-) :-) I'm delighted to hear you're feeling better and your platelets are coming up! That's great news!!! :-) :-) :-) I will keep on praying for you along with everyone else, while you keep on swimming to kick Hodgkin's butt! TOGETHER WE WILL DO IT!!! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Take care sweet Ashley, and keep up the great work and spirit!

Love you lots, with all my heart,

Shirin :-)

P.S., Happy Valentine's Day to you and Brian for tomorrow! :-)
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Monday, February 13, 2006 5:33 PM CST

thinking of you in portland, and on the road. today we went to the local food-coop, and later are going to explore the tunnels under the city, and visit the biggest independant bookstore in the us of a. i feel quite inspired and rejuvinated by the earthy-ness of this city. tomorrow we are driving to san fran.

with love and such,
chris
christine boyle <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
- Monday, February 13, 2006 2:58 PM CST

Praying for you. Keep on swimming.
Shelly <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Monday, February 13, 2006 2:32 PM CST

hey girlie,
the lovely christine sent me over here - it's a great website and i'm glad i'm getting to read along through your journey. all along, i've been so amazed by the strength and grace you've shown throughout...it's truly inspiring.
xo,
alison
Alison Atkinson
vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, February 13, 2006 11:19 AM CST

Always thinking of you Ashley. Always believing in, and hoping for, miracles. With love...
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Monday, February 13, 2006 0:39 AM CST

Ashely, It is so good to read your journal and know that your faith is strong and that healing touch is helping. I will say a prayer for you too and wish you well on this difficult part of your journey!
Carol Pettigrew
Burnaby, B.C. Canada - Sunday, February 12, 2006 7:56 PM CST

Hi Ashley!

We are sending prayers your way. I hope you are enjoying the day pain free! We left a message at your house, so give us a call if you're feeling up to having a quick visit. We will be in North Van most of the day. We love and miss you!

Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Sunday, February 12, 2006 2:12 PM CST

Keep a good grip on that hope, Ashley, for that is truly gift. We are more that pleased to hear that your platelet count is up and that your spleen is shrinking. You are right, it is amazing what our bodies can do! Keep smiling and enjoying each day! We hold you, your family and Brian in our prayers!
Tricia (and David) <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, Sk S0G 5H0 - Saturday, February 11, 2006 9:59 PM CST

Dearest Ashley,

I am so glad to hear that your spleen has shrunk and the platelet count has gone up. The words terminal and palliative are scary words but like you said, we have 'HOPE'. You are an inspiration to me in the way you have dealt with everything with so much strength, determination and grace. Just wanted to let you know my family, church family and I continue to pray for your body to heal.

Sending you all my love,
Kat :)
Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, February 11, 2006 5:01 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
We were so excited to read that you were out walking on this beautiful day. Your home is full of excitement as you celebrate Heidi's birthday and host your aunt's and cousin's visit. Like you, we your friends are continuing to PRAY and HOPE that God will give you whatever it takes to continue your fight. Our focus is the vision of a smaller spleen and higher platelets. You and your family are very special to all of us. Please feel that we are your army, fighting this battle alongside you, our beautiful Ashley.
Love from The Blachford Six
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Saturday, February 11, 2006 0:54 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
So good to hear that your spleen is shrinking and that you were well enough to go for a walk in this marvelous sunshine. We pray for you constantly and are so pleased to hear you are getting some respite. Hang in there Sweetie knowing that you are surrounded by thoughts and prayer from all over the world. Enjoy Heidi's party. We love you very much. Ken, Lizz and family
Lizz Lindsay <lizzlindsay@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, February 11, 2006 0:03 AM CST

Hi Ashley.Keep on swimming love we are visualising and praying here at All Saints. I have a new visualisationwhich came to me in the night. You know the painting "Creation" where God is giving life to Adam through His forefinger, I am asking Him touch your body in that way and heal it and I am sure He is hearing ! You know you have our love and constant prayers. Give Heidi our birthday wishes, from Margaret and Peter in Vernon
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 8:40 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
So pleased to hear you are feeling better. Hope you have a good visit with Shirley and Kathleen (your mom told us they are visiting) and a fun time on Heidi's birthday.
Love as always,
Stu and Hughena
Hughena <shbaker@nb.sympatico.ca>
Rothesay, NB Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 8:24 PM CST

Dearest Ashley, I am so happy to read an update written by you! I am so thankful that your spleen has gotten SMALLER (yey!) AND that you no longer feel pain there (DOUBLE yey!) AND that your platelets are coming up (Triple yey!!) I am soo behind you, along with everyone else, cheering you on. The words palliative and terminal are very scary and so hard to hear, but as you say you troop on with hope and faith. I bet those docs are amazed with your shrinking spleen and your strength. It's so wonderful that you are able to spend less time in the hospital, more time at home, and are even able to go out and walk in the beautiful sunshine. Continued prayers for you dear!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 4:08 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

I'm so proud of you! Keep up the great spirit, the wonderful attitude, and WINNING THIS FIGHT YOU SHALL!!! :-) The Hodgkin's cells don't know what they're up against!!! You are an AMAZING FIGHTER and YOU WILL BEAT THIS DISEASE!!! YOU ARE TRULY A HERO in every sense of the word and we're all right behind you, looking forward to celebrate YOUR VICTORY!!! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

With lots of love, and heartfelt prayers for your health and happiness,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 3:29 PM CST

Ashley,
I am one of your Cyber Friends and want to tell you that you are amazing and I wish only the best for you! Keep on keeping on!!!
Sarah <tamura@alltel.net>
wadesboro, NC 28170 - Friday, February 10, 2006 3:05 PM CST

Ashley,
You continue to be an inspiration to me and everyone you meet. You are the most amazing and strongest woman I have ever met. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and enjoy the sunshine!
love always Ally xoxo
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
- Friday, February 10, 2006 2:51 PM CST

Dear Ashley
This is much better news, its what I have been waiting to hear for a few days now. Prayers seem to help and there are lots going upwards to heaven right now. Keep up your positive attitude and you will beat this phase that you are having to handle and look forward to the summer coming up soon. All my love Grandma xoxoxox
Eileen Brear <cebrear@videotron.ca>
Laval, Que Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 11:28 AM CST

Hey Ashley!

Hello from cold, cold (yet sunny, knock on wood!) Scotland! I just have to tell you that during the past couple of weeks I have been having these overwhelming feelings that you WILL walk away from this, that you ARE going to win this battle, and the EVERYTHING is going to be alright. Of course I knew all of this all along but when things got kind of rough and scary there for a while these feelings and images of your good health and happiness just totally took over me in huge, HUGE waves!

I've said it before and I'll say it again: you are the most amazing person I have ever met!

Love Sarah
Sarah O'Hagan
Galsgow, Scotland - Friday, February 10, 2006 11:27 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
Thank you for your update! You are indeed a graceful fighter. You are never far from our thoughts and prayers. We are continually inspired by you.
Much Love,
Chris, Andria & Grace
Andria <andria-grace@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Friday, February 10, 2006 11:10 AM CST

Ash,
It is so great to hear you're feeling better. My prayers and the prayers of my friends and family are with you. If you are feeling strong enough give me a call and we should go for coffee. You are definately the strongest person I have ever met and I know that strength rubs off on the people around you. I will keep praying for your platelets to go up and your spleen to go down.
Keep on Swimming girl, you will beat this!
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 11:09 AM CST

Bubba, we are praying for you, we are praying for your family and for Brian. As you do, we believe in the power of prayer, and know of the sustaining power of it - we hope that you are feeling buoyed up, strengthened, embraced and filled up with love and hope. You are amazing, God is amazing!!! I am so delighted to hear about your walk yesterday, the weather and creation sparkled as you do! We love you and hope to come by this weekend. . . . . Jen and Ian
Jen and Ian Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Friday, February 10, 2006 10:43 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I've been thinking of you constantly and you've been in my prayers every night and morning. You continue to amaze me how no matter how scary things get, you just get more hope in you. I will always be with you in my prayers and who knows, I might suprise you again when I'm in Van next. Keep on fighting, I know you can beat this. I am glad that you are getting more time with nature, I know how much you hate being in the hospital. Keep fighting, you and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers. Brady
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 10:10 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

The words palliative and terminal are no match for the words hope and faith. You are strong, brave and have an incredible spirit. You are such an inspiration to so many. I am praying for you daily that you get the miracle you deserve!

Jill
Buffalo, NY USA - Friday, February 10, 2006 9:31 AM CST

In french we say: Il y a toujours le calme apr�s la temp�te.-- and it is what i wish for you. (Calm after the storm.) You're going through a rough time and like so many people signing your guestbook, i also say :you are allways in my thought. big hug dear Ashley !
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 9:14 AM CST

Hey Sweetie,
It's funny, I went on a beautiful walk today in the sun and I was thinking about you, thinking how lucky I was to be able to enjoy the sun, thinking about how much you would appreciate it if you were able to go out and enjoy it's healing power. And unbeknownst to me you were out there walking enjoying the beautiful day too, you have no idea how happy that makes me. You continue to be such an inspiration to me, your hope, your love, your faith is absolutely amazing. I am so honoured to have you as a part of my life!! I love you!! Hope to see you soon,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 1:44 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
This is the first time that I've signed your guestbook, but I've wanted to for a long time. I check your site every day, as soon as I get to work - You are the MOST AMAZING and WONDERFUL young woman that I've ever had the privilege to know! Ashley, you are inspirational! You are in my thoughts always. When you cry, I cry. When you rejoice and laugh with happiness - so do I! Ashley, you are in our prayers every day. Bill and I miss you at St. Agnes and look forward to your return. Stay strong, and keep on swimming. (Sometimes, though, it's okay to float for a little while!) Love you lots, Victoria & Bill xox
Victoria Alcock <victoriaa53@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, February 10, 2006 0:46 AM CST

Ashley! You continue to touch lives all over this world... you spread light and hope just by being you! Sending love and prayers in your direction!
Love, Jacqueline
Jacqueline Henderson
Halifax, NS - Thursday, February 9, 2006 11:37 PM CST

Dear Ashley,What a humbling and inspirational blessing it is to witness you faith and hope. It is so good to hear that your spleen is smaller and not painfull. The power of prayer evidently should NEVER be underestimated. May both your spleen and your platelet changes continue in the same direction that they are going in.
This comes with great care and continued prayers
Helen

Helen <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Thursday, February 9, 2006 10:37 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Thanks so much for updating your website. You are the bravest person I know and, as I said before, you have an amazing way of expressing yourself. I am praying every day that miracles and healing can happen and am so grateful to hear that your spleen has shrunk and that the discomfort has gone away. Going for a ride on that firetruck yesterday must have been SO much fun. I hope it's sunny for another lovely walk tomorrow.
Lots of love, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Thursday, February 9, 2006 10:29 PM CST

hi pretty girl!!! i'm so happy to see your update tonight. i am not taking terminal for an answer here. you're young, pretty, smart and amazing and you've got a lot to do here. you are a fighter and not a quitter, and i know that you can do this!!! keep up that amazing attitude and spirit. you are wonderful!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Thursday, February 9, 2006 8:06 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
You are so amazing! I know you can beat this thing. Kevin McKendy and I were talking about getting everyone together for a Mame reunion and what would a Mame reunion be without our Gloria? I'll let you know when its going to be. You're in my prayers every night. Stay strong,
Esther Clark <eclark@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Thursday, February 9, 2006 7:50 PM CST

Shrunken spleen! Shrunken spleen! 2 to 4! 2 to 4! Woo hoo! You continue to pull out all the stops to beat this Ashley! My prayers and visualisations are with you, offering strength and healing, and a little cheerleading. Goooooo Ashley!
Tressa <vanyaya@telus.net>
Vancouver, - Thursday, February 9, 2006 6:34 PM CST

Yay, that is great news!! You will be the one that shocks the doctors! I'm so glad you are not in pain anymore! Keep doing whatever you're doing!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, February 9, 2006 6:05 PM CST

Ashley....what GREAT news!!! Up is up no mater if it is by 1 or 2, that has to mean all our prayers are working for you. I am so glad to hear your spleen as shrunk as well. Let's all chant...."GVT,GVT do your stuff, let's kick this cancer in the butt".....
love you lots
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 9, 2006 5:06 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

Ever since I met you at Chris and Andria's for Andrias's birthday last year I have been following your progress. You never cease to amaze with your TREMENDOUS courage and AMAZING grace. Never give up, there is always,always hope.My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Love, Kathy
Kathy Rigney <kathy@kathyrigney.com>
West Vancouver, - Thursday, February 9, 2006 4:58 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
Hooray! Your platelets are up and your spleen is down. Fabulous news and to top it off the sun is shining. It must have been so draining to have to travel to the hospital each day so I'm sure you are enjoying your day off in the sunshine! We will all continue to send positive energy to you and as always will remain in prayers.
Always in our hearts Ashley.
Debbie, Travis, Taylor

Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Thursday, February 9, 2006 4:18 PM CST

I'm so glad to see you journal. I think we all wait for your words as they are always full of such hope and love. Isn't it beautiful outside, so glad that you have been able to enjoy it. Andrew, Jordy, Justin and Daren are up Grouse enjoying this amazing weather. Take care, keep strong and full of hope.
Love and hugs,
Val
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 9, 2006 4:00 PM CST

It is Maureen's friend from Toronto again. Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and your family a lot and wishing you stength and peace. You are touching the lives and hearts of so many people who I am sure all also wishing you these things. We would all like to carry you in our arms, and are certainly doing so in our hearts. Take care.
Liz Schumann <schu58vp@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, On Cda - Thursday, February 9, 2006 1:41 PM CST

Ashley, you are amazing. Our family thinks of you all the time. My sister is so lucky to have you as such as close friend. You have inspired so many people, both close friends and complete strangers. I think that is amazing. With much love, Jaclyn Boyle.
Jaclyn Boyle <jax_87@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, February 9, 2006 1:26 PM CST

HI Ashley, I have been thinking about you so much latley. You are such an amazing and inspirational girl, I love you very much. My sister is so lucky to have you as a best friend. All my thoughts and prayers are with you. Love always Ali
Ali Boyle <ali_boyle@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, February 9, 2006 11:15 AM CST

My Sweetest Ashley....I can't thank you enough for the visit last night. Your strength,your humor,your beautiful smile.....what more can I say. We are all swiming with you, ummm I wonder if Grace likes water........
Love you
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Thursday, February 9, 2006 9:04 AM CST

Ashley I hope you are sleeping peacefully tonight! I am going to call you to see if we can visit. Sean and I are missing your smiling face! He was just saying how happy he was running into you and your Mom in the parking lot that day a while back. He said just being around you made him feel good. Keep on Swimmin'!! You'll be out of the rough waters soon!!

We Love You!
Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, February 9, 2006 1:46 AM CST

I'm so glad that you had a peaceful sleep last night. Good for you. I think that is a sign of healing. Loving thoughts and prayers are with you every moment in time. Jordy and Andrew are out tonight enjoying themselves. Sweet dreams.
Much love to you!!!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 9, 2006 0:55 AM CST

Ashley, Leah says you're sick and well, don't really know what to say but gosh, I care about you. Jeannie got her first "negative" in three years for ultrasound, mammogram, blood work and xray! Prayer works so we are sending "new heaven/new earth" cells your way.
Ross White <jandrwhite@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 11:24 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

Dropping by to say hi. I hope that GVT is kicking the Hodgkins. More importantly, I hope you are feeling better! I continue to send energy your way. You can do this!!
Enya <freyja2180@aol.com>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 9:45 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Hi! You don't know me but I am a girl around your age and have stage2B Hodgkin's and went thru a BMT in 6West last November. In fact, I stayed at the room where you stayed (676). I was introduced to your website from the nurses.. they told me what a great, brave girl you are. I came and read almost every entry of yours. You truly inspired me. I know what you are going thru right now may not be very pleasant, but please keep your faith and keep on fighting. If you would like to talk you can email me. STAY STRONG ASHLEY! You will be in my prayers.
G <thatmissy@gmail.com>
Richmond, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 8:27 PM CST

Ashley~ We are praying for you every day sending you lots of love and positive energy to heal. You are an inspiration to so many and my personal hero!
Praying for peace and warmth for you and your family, now, and strength to begin another day.
Hugs and warm thoughts~
Cathy, Blaine, Dillon and Carole xo
Cathy Feniuk <Drtymama@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 8:19 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Just want to let you know that the Harrises are thinking about you and your family and sending positive thoughts your way, too. You've always been special to me for being a friend to Scott at Boundary and Argyle. Now you're special to so many people whose lives you've touched. Danielle sends lots of good wishes from Queen Charlotte City. Her internet is down right now, but she's been keeping track of you. We're so proud of you!

Love Pam
Pam Harris <pam_harris@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 12:07 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
Prayers and loving thoughts are reaching far and wide for you. You and your family and Brian continue to be held up for healing and peace. I also join in these prayers for you.
May God Bless you
Helen
Helen <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 11:02 AM CST

Ashley, I wish you a miracle of love and healing. A hug from all of me.

Deanne Mandell <deannemandell@yahoo.com>
North Van, - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 9:37 AM CST

Beautiful Ashley, we are all one. Leah Callen and her mother Jane are wonderful family friends of mine, and Leah sent me a prayer request for you - which I am lovingly sending to you now. Feel the gentle warmth of love all around you, as the universe supports your spirit with gentleness, and we are all with you, in every way. Feel our strength, believe only in life. You are life.
Gayla Larsen Doucet <gayla-az@cox.net>
- Wednesday, February 8, 2006 9:33 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
You may not remember who I am...I am a friend of Leah's.I just want you to know I'm praying for you.Sending you as much love and energy as I can.Even as somebody that I have never met I know you are a very special lady.You hang in there,hold on and take all the love that we are all sending you and fight.

A candle in my home is lit for you,
May a butterfly bring you it's light,
May God bless you,
And may all our love,hopes and prayers
get you through your fight.

God Bless!
Heidi
Heidi <sparkeemom@hotmail.com>
North Van., BC - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 1:47 AM CST

Dearest Ashley!
i am back from Jamaica, Mon! All went well, and i thought a lot about you down there. i was yacking about you to a lot of people at the conference! one conference member from vancouver had heard about you! you're famous!
i wish i could bring the sunshine to you and heal you and make you feel better. giving you a big bear *sweeeeeeeze*! oooof, can you feel it? thinking about you everyday.
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 0:15 AM CST

Ashley, we are holding you in our thoughts and prayers and sending you so much light and love from Bowen Island. We're here for a retreat for youth leaders and we were checking up on you on your website. We hope you feel surrounded by love, from friends and family and the deep and beautiful love of God. Love, Doris Kizinna, Eric Hamlyn, Alison Wainwright, Jen Richmond, Wade Lifton. We love you!
Doris Kizinna <dkizinna@bc.united-church.ca>
- Tuesday, February 7, 2006 8:27 PM CST

just checking for updates...i hope that you are feeling better this week!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 7:15 PM CST

Ash, you are a gift to this world. I pray that you are comfy and surrounded by those people you love the most. Know that God has you cradled in her arms, keeping you warm and supported. Know that you are held up in prayer here in Wolseley and all over. And no matter what, remember that your light fills the lives of those of us who know you. Hugs and love to you, Ash. Be gentle with yourself.
Tricia (and David) <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Woseley, Sk - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 3:00 PM CST

Dear Ashley Just a note to say that I am always praying for you and the family.I check for messages from your mom and Dad each day to see how you are doing.Your faith and strength are an inspiration to us all. I hope you don't mind that I have given your name to some friends in England and also to the dear friends I met in Honduras who are now back in the U.S. God Bless you. Love from Anne Campbell, Kathy, Andrew and their families
Anne Campbell <annemmcampbell@hotmail.com>
N. Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 1:52 PM CST

Dear Ashley, know that you are thought of a lot.
Bigggggggg hug!
Nicole
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 1:07 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
You continue to be an inspiration to all and you will always be in m prayers. A candle is lit for you, be strong, hold you head up and keep on swimming
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouer, - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 11:24 AM CST

Hi Ash,
I wanted you to know I'm thinking about you all the time. I'm sending you all the positive, powerful thoughts possible!!! I have no doubt that you're going to beat this!! If you want a celebraory round the world trip when you're done, there's always a bed in London for you!
All my love,
Erin
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 3:24 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I hold you and your family in my constant prayers. May you continue to be strong, full of hope, and full of faith. You continue to amaze and inspire me!
Kelsey
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 0:45 AM CST

Dear Ashley, Just wanted you to know you are never far from my thoughts. Fight girl,!!!!!!!! Kick this beast in the --s. :-) All of Team Razzmatazz ( remember the relay last June?) sends positive thoughts your way. Big hugggggsssss to you and your family.
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, February 6, 2006 8:00 PM CST

Hello love,

You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. May you have nothing but healing love and energy surrounding you and your family.

Whenever you need a healing thought to escape to, just think of Ashley Island! Remember?!? It's that magical place that my mind has been wandering to a lot lately... funny how those childhood imagination adventures can still remain part of our adult realities!

Thinking of you always,
xoxo, Lauren
Lauren <lhodgson@telus.net>
- Monday, February 6, 2006 1:22 PM CST

Hey Beautiful,
I can't stop thinking about you....Big hugs!! I hope you have a good day today and are able to rest peacefully. I am sending all the healing love I have over the water to you this morning as i do every morning. I love you,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Monday, February 6, 2006 9:56 AM CST

Dear Ashley, thinking of you, U -> KOS, I -> PUSH, Love you muchly, Diana
Diana B. Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 6, 2006 8:41 AM CST

Hey Ash! I know you can get through this. Keep on fighting, god is with you and you are in my prayers every night. I think about you lots and made an executive decision last week that 50% of the proceeds the documentary series I'm producing makes will go towards cancer research. Keep your spirits up, i'll be thinking about you. Love always, Brady
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Monday, February 6, 2006 0:20 AM CST

can't stop thinking about you! as seems to be the same for many others.

it's more than you lighting up our lives. it's how you've taught us to light up our own lives, and to teach others the same.

it's awesome. as are you.

sweet dreams.
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Monday, February 6, 2006 0:02 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
We are all rallying around you with our thoughts and prayers. We are praying especially for your spleen, that the swelling goes down and the pain goes away. We are praying that your temperature stays at normal. We are visualizing those cancer cells getting weaker and weaker and your body getting stronger and stronger. We wish we could all take turns taking a sick day from you. With all those people around the world on your side, this might leave you only one sick day a year if that! How cool would this be? Then we could all feel like we were sharing your load with you. You inspire us with your will to fight and we want you to remember that you are always on our minds and in our prayers. Jay in Toronto and Dean in Montreal have both given blood several times in the last year and signed your Life Link page "In Support of Ashley Brear" What a wonderful opportunity for your friends to give this precious gift of life while thinking of you. We love you Ashley. Pauline
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Sunday, February 5, 2006 11:56 PM CST

Ash,

My heart is filled with love and healing for you and your family. I pray for gentle peace and rest, courage and strength, openness and hope. You are wrapped in God's warm embrace, my friend, and in the arms of so many who are thinking of you right now. We'll come to see you very soon.

Blessings and much love,
Tracy, Joshua and Greg
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, - Sunday, February 5, 2006 11:44 PM CST

Hey Ash, we prayed for you and your family tonight at the YA worship - you are surrounded by many prayers for healing and peace! Hang in there, sweatpants are the new pink. ;) Much love and rest to you this night, tressa
Tressa <vanyaya@telus.net>
- Sunday, February 5, 2006 11:22 PM CST

Hi cutie! The guys are missing you and want to see you asap. I wish this could be easier for you - know that you are always in our thoughts. reading all your messages, you have amazing friends and support. Keep swimming and we can't wait to see you again. Much love toni, james, alex and tyler xxxoooxxxxooo
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, February 5, 2006 10:39 PM CST

Ashley,
Thinking of you and praying for a positive outcome to all that you are going through. I wish that I could take some of the burden off of you for awhile.
Love and hugs to you and the family!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, February 5, 2006 9:38 PM CST

Thinking about you and wishing you the best from North Carolina!
Sarah <tamura@alltel.net>
Wadesboro, NC 28170 - Sunday, February 5, 2006 6:53 PM CST

Miss Amazing Ashley!
I am always thinking about you, as are soooo many people!! At church today, Margaret's aunt spoke in front of us all and asked for prayers for you. I know SooOOooOO much love and prayers and constantly surrounding you. ***HUGS*** You are AMAZING!

Love,
Karin
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Sunday, February 5, 2006 5:02 PM CST

Dear Ashley;
I am so sorry for your constant challenges and the need for you to continue to fight off this wretched disease. If there were a way for each of us who care for you so much to each take away a piece of your pain allowing you to be whole again you know we would do it in a heartbeat! I have watched you grow from the cutest little munchkin in a smocked dress into one of the most courageous people I know....never thinking of yourself but only how you could prevent what is happening to you from happening to anyone else. As many of us have done for sometime I continue to pray for the hand of God to reach out and touch you freeing you from this unfair burden you have had to bear. I know you are tired but reach inside yourself yet again and fight.....I love you like one of my own daughters and wish you deep healing and pain free peace.
Remember, I still owe you a waffle feast!
Love and hugs
Jim
Jim Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Sunday, February 5, 2006 4:08 PM CST

Hi Ash,
I've sure been thinking about you and wishing that I could be there to hang out with you and your family. I love you so much. You are so courageous and loving. I am so proud of you and everywhere I go, I tell everyone about my amazing God sister, Ashley, and how she has done so much and gone through so much. Continue being strong. I am praying like crazy that your platelets go up and your spleen starts shrinking. I am sending so much love from LA. I can�t wait to see you soon. xoxoxox Love, Coll
PS � Chris sends his love too. :)

Colleen <cnicholson2000@aol.com>
Los Angeles, CA USA - Sunday, February 5, 2006 3:06 PM CST

Stay strong Ashley and know you are loved. You are such a blessing to so many people. Your strength and courage have carried numerous people through their own personal hardships. May all those people who are praying for you now, carry you through this struggle. We are with you in spirit. Keep on fighting!!
Love Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Sunday, February 5, 2006 12:48 AM CST

C'mon platelets, c'mon platelets!!! Thinking of you from across the miles and praying you will soon regain your health. Keep on swimming you amazing, inspirational woman. With love and best wishes.
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Sunday, February 5, 2006 10:55 AM CST

"Now is the time for guts and God!"

Guess who said this. Elizabeth Taylor!! When she was really ill. Just saw this on TV.

I know, I know... you're thinking: Elizabeth Taylor?!

But it's true. Now is the time for guts and God. Time to rally the Divine within you and lean on the Divine without/around you. You know it better than anyone.

We're all backing you up with lots of prayers, Ash. Hold the line.

I wish for you a painfree and deep, healing sleep tonight. That you may wake up tomorrow feeling so much better and healthier with great relief.

May you have sweet dreams tonight of rainbows and angels and kittens and Brian and shiny diamonds... and all the things you love! ;)

Feel better, Ashley. We all love you and are rooting for you.

May you have hope in your heart. May all the love surrounding you, heal you.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, February 5, 2006 1:57 AM CST

Hi, Ashley, our hugs, love and thoughts are all with you. Iain and I where just talking about how fun and special it was when you and Andrew came up for Iains birthday party. Love you, Diana

"Ashley, I love you" from Iain
Diana B. Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 4, 2006 11:42 PM CST

Dear Ashley
Yes I know I am double-posting but i forgot to add that its not just me who loves you, everyone loves you Ash. So please dont forget that :-)
Love you lots!
xoxoxo
Paige P.S. Woody (the kitten) is growing. But he keeps acting like a big baby. (he has taken to thinking that i am his mom) Love you!
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, Canada - Saturday, February 4, 2006 11:28 PM CST

Hi Ashley!
Paige right here. Today I got a facial and it felt So good, and i told the facialist about you and your party! I love you!
xoxoxo
Paige
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, Canada - Saturday, February 4, 2006 11:24 PM CST

Lots and Lots and Lots and Lots and LOTS
of LOVE!!!

This is what I'm sending your way. That and a great big virtual *HUG*.

Hope you feel better soon, Ashley.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, February 4, 2006 10:52 PM CST

Hi My Dearest Sweetest Ashley,
I miss having you here so much! Even Grace wonders where you are. When I put on my housecoat that is the same as yours, she comes right away and jumps up and purrs. Together we sit and she purrs as I talk about you, I know she is sending you all the healing a kitten can give.
Know that we are constantly thinking of you. You are the most remakable person I know!
Love you lots
hugs and kisses.......Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, February 4, 2006 7:59 PM CST

Hi Ashley, I pray that you are able to feel God's love holding you and filling you and tenderly protecting you and touching you with healing and peace. Love, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, February 4, 2006 7:48 PM CST

Hi Ashely.. just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you along with my church and family. We miss you at art therapy!!. we are all thinking about you so much.. i hope you got the candle we made for you...if not you will soon...
love allison
Allison Prinsen <allisonprinsen@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Saturday, February 4, 2006 5:58 PM CST

Ashley - hope you're feeling better and that you're getting a good night's sleep in. xo Take care,
Christina
Christina Vasak <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, February 4, 2006 6:27 AM CST

Hi Ash!
Paige here to talk a bit. Well actually here are some pictures that i wanted to share with you. They are from Disneyland and i hope you like them!
O the pictures aren't working so i will send them to you
I Love you!
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Campbell River, BC Canada - Friday, February 3, 2006 6:22 PM CST

Dear Ashley....a bigggggggggg hug coming your way!
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Friday, February 3, 2006 10:45 AM CST

Hello Ashley Never mind the large pants you will be able to frame them when you are better and hang them on the wall.Lots of prayers and love from all at Vernon. Margaret and Peter and Emily
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, B C Canada - Friday, February 3, 2006 0:47 AM CST

Hey Ash, Hang in there. Hope your enjoyed nana's chicken soup..... made with special healing powers. you will see.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Nancy Dekanich & family <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Thursday, February 2, 2006 11:22 PM CST

Dear Ashley. I only know you through your Dad. We are on the CFS Board together. Ashley, my heart aches for you and your family. I do not know why you are suffering. I do know that you are not alone. That you are loved by many. You are lifted up in prayer by many. I pray that you will be comforted and feel God's loving arms wrapped around you. Have a good night's rest tonight.
Lorene <lorene.vernon@telus.net>
Delta, BC Canada - Thursday, February 2, 2006 10:14 PM CST

Hello Ashley...Just wanted to let you know we are thinking about you always. Hurry up and feel better sweetie! I just know Heidi's cells are doing their thing, and you're gonna be feeling better soon! Hang in there!!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, February 2, 2006 9:28 PM CST

hi pretty girl, i check on you every day but don't sign each day..i need to get better at that. you are in my thoughts and prayers and i hope that you feel better soon. i know you're going through a difficult time right now and i wish i could make it go away.
with much love from minnesota,
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Thursday, February 2, 2006 8:14 PM CST

Ashley - you are always in our thoughts! Stay strong!
Sarah Lauman, Allen Hanson (Zeke and Min too!)
Vernon, BC Canada - Thursday, February 2, 2006 7:55 PM CST

PPS... it's also St. Brigid's feast day. Brigid is the Celtic Goddess of fire and healing. The priestesses kept a sacred fire lit in her temple in Kildare.

All in all it's a pretty cool day for praying and lighting candles!! :)

L. xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 3:49 PM CST

PS... since it's Candlemas... it's the perfect time to light up a candle for you! I'm totally on it - as are so many other people!

We love you, Ash.

Take care of yourself. Love that body of yours. It sure houses one special heart and soul! :)

Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 3:38 PM CST

"Hope is the companion of power, and the mother of success; for who so hopes has within her the gift of miracles."

-- Samuel Smiles

Hi Ashley,

Today is Candlemas... the feast day for Mother Mary. So I'll say a special prayer for you tonight to Mary. After all... she is the Queen of Heaven, Mother of God, and the Queen of Miracles!

Tomorrow is my birthday and I will miss seeing you. Too bad we can't have volcano cake together!! lol

I'll be thinking about you and sending you my love. I can't tell you what my birthday wish will be (or it won't come true!)... but rest assured you will be in it!

I love you. Be the miracle, missy. You already are in my books. ;)

Luv,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 3:35 PM CST

We're constantly praying for strength for you. We're with you each and every day in spirit. Stay strong! Who cares about pant size....just be comfy! We love you!

kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
brampton, On - Thursday, February 2, 2006 3:05 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

I was at B4 yesterday, Feb. 1?06. I looked through the window of your Isolation room and it looked like you were having a good sleep. There was someone else in the room with you, watching over you, but I couldn't tell who it might of been. Try not to worry, I know it is difficult, I myself have had many ups and downs with my AML. They say I could feel this way for 2 years after my transplant. It's just these darn meds. We just have to be strong enough to endure!!! You have your youth on your side! Keep fighting,

Jerri Lynn Sarson <jerriLynnSarson@shaw.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Thursday, February 2, 2006 2:45 PM CST

Sweetie,
I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so tired and crappy. I wish so much that there was something I could do for you. There is hardly an hour that goes by that I don't think about you. You and your family are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I love you sweet girl!! Big hugs!!
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Thursday, February 2, 2006 1:10 PM CST

Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you.
xx Erin
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Thursday, February 2, 2006 11:24 AM CST

Ashley,
Just wanted to say Hi!!! Hang in there, I know that you are so tired. I am thinking of you and your family constantly.
Love and hugs,
Val
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 11:08 AM CST

Ashley--I just said a prayer for you and I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Please know that you are loved by people you don't even know.
Take care,
Lori
Lori Pierce <Hayden01@tds.net>
Mt Juliet, TN USA - Thursday, February 2, 2006 9:34 AM CST

*HUGE HUG*

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 2:25 AM CST

Ashley, my family checks your website every day. We admire your ability to speak so frankly about your experience and we admire your courage. Our thoughts are with you.
Meghan, Brian, and Diane Radomske
North Vancouver, BC - Thursday, February 2, 2006 2:06 AM CST

Ashely!
I know it has been since forever since I've seen you, but I just wanted to you to know that my thoughts are with you and I hope things get better soon!
Lots of Love
- Steph
Stephanie Fairweather
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:57 PM CST

Dear Ashley, I hope and pray with all my being that your fever disappears, your flu is gone, your platelets sky rocket and you return to normal life soon. Hugggggggggggggs to all of you. Not a day goes by that you are not thought of. Energy to you
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:16 PM CST

Dear Ashley, I am praying for all you want, and I hope to see your smiling face again soon! I bumped into Michael on Lonsdale, in his motor chair, the other day, and he looks good. Keep on swimming girl, we are all here for you!
Luv Sharon (Teresa's Mom)
Sharon Diamond
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 8:58 PM CST

Hi there Ashley - We start our day thinking about you and we end our day praying for you and your family and in between we wish that you're having a good day, that you spend more time at home instead of at the hospital, that your platelets are good, that your fevers have disappeared and that every good cell in your body is fighting with all its might against the evil invaders!
Bless you, dear Ashley, for all the goodness you've brought to so many lives, and may God's blessings give strength to all of your family each and every day.
Much love, Helen and Nis Jorgensen
Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
NORTH VANCOUVER, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 6:36 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

Just wanted you to know that you are being thought of and I hope and pray that today is a better day for you.
Debbie.

Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 2:33 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

I hope and pray from the bottom of my heart for your fevers and flu to go away, for your strength to come back, for your platelets to rise, for your tummy to go back to its normal size, and most of all for the Hodgkin's disease to be gone for ever, and for you to have a long, happy, & healthy life ahead of you. You have a very special place in my heart. I send you a huge bundle of positive, healing energy! :-)

With lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin
SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 2:02 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
The impact of your strength, faith and extraordinary attitude is infinite. I continue to hold you in prayers and thoughts. I pray for healing and a shining light of peace for you.
Love and Blessings
Helen
Helen Kinghorn <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 12:37 AM CST

My dear Ashley
So sorry to hear about your hardtime, it is very difficult for me to express in words what I am feeling, you are my blood and I feel for you very intensely having a swollen stomach myself from last years surgery, keep on going and things will be much brighter in a week or two. Your mum is taking good care of you and your dad is the anchor at home. God bless and keep your faith with all my love Grandma xooxoxoxoxoxo
Eileen Brear
Laval, PQ Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 12:30 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

So sad to hear your feeling weak and tired. Many, many, many prayers coming your way everyday for strength and healing and for your loved ones who offer so much support and are going through this with you!

I hope you are feeling better very soon!

Jill
Buffalo, NY USA - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:36 AM CST

Ashley, know that I think of you day and night, night and day. I am sending you warm sunny thoughts, healing prayers, and the strength of the mountains. I am so honored to have you in our lives, I could not have hand picked a better girlfriend for my son than you.....and here he found you all on his own!! Be strong sweetie...we love you
Donna XOXOX
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:33 AM CST

I'm thinking of you often, and surely hope you'll see the sun shining more and more...hug, Nicole
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:19 AM CST

Hi Ashley, You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Your courage, strength, and compassion for others continues to be a wonderful inspiration to myself and countless others who know you. I am praying for your continued strength & courage during your road to recovery and, above all, peace of mind knowing that you are sooooooooooo loved and cared about. God has you in His tender loving hands and will continue to carry you till your body is ready to do it on its own. Bless you and your wonderful family, dear Ashley. Hugs and much love,
Laurel Jones
Peterborough, ON Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 8:39 AM CST

Hang in their. You are obviously a very tough and brave young woman. All the best. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Robin Brunet <robinb@neptune.on.ca>
Bradford, Ontario Canada - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 7:44 AM CST

Wishing you total health and happiness SOON! Like your fans throughout the world, I am praying for your rapid and complete recovery.
Willie
Louisville, KY USA - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 0:31 AM CST

Hey there Bubba, thinking about you and praying for health and strength to return . . . I am visualizing you free of pain and full of energy, laughing and bopping about . . . helping me chaperone one of my youth dances :) You are an amazing child of God - full of grace, full of love, and full of hope! I love you! Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Tuesday, January 31, 2006 11:56 PM CST

Once again, dear Ashley, you're being tested and, no, it isn't fair, it isn't right, it isn't bearable... and yet you do bear it in such a graceful way, as always. You can see from the entries in this guestbook that there are so many people who love you... friends and family and acquaintances, even strangers... all of whom would so gladly bear a part of your suffering to give you respite and good health. But we're all aware, too, that so much of what you endure is a lonely road. I hope we help... we want to so very badly. So, here you go, rising to the occasion once more... and like before, we know you'll wrestle it down. And like before, we'll all be there cheering. Beat this thing, Ash... kick its ass. (And tell your Dad I'd love to buy him a coffee sometime.)
Bernie (Alex's Dad) and Kim and Heather <bpmotut@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 11:43 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I just want to let you know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and sending all the positive energy your way that I can! You're an amazing woman and I know you can get through this setback. I pray that your spleen goes back to its normal size, the fevers disappear, and you are feeling better very soon!
Enya <freyja2180@aol.com>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 10:45 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I am so sorry to hear of all the pain you've been going through. As always, know that you are loved and supported from across the world and that we and our all praying for you here in Australia. I am part of a community of 50 or so young adults in the Uniting Church and they all know your story and are rooting for you. We'll pray for you again all together this Sunday night. I hope you start feeling better soon.

love
Lauren
Lauren Fee <lauren_k_fee@yahoo.ca>
Sydney, NSW Australia - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 6:02 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I am so sorry that you have been going through such a difficult time. You aren't missing much outside, it's just dark and gloomy. So take this quiet time to build your strength and know that there are thousands of people sending you their love, prayers and support. Be well Ashley.
Debbie, Travis and Taylor

Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 5:26 PM CST

Hi Ash;

Sorry to hear about your swollen tummy, but on a positve note, you get some new clothes.

Keep on beleiving in angels, miracles and prayers answered by means far beyond our understanding.

When you need a giggle, go to this site:http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/numa.php

Hugs and Reiki love,
The Olde Girl

Ann Mayo <annmayo@telus.net>
- Tuesday, January 31, 2006 4:49 PM CST

Hi Ashley. I saw your Mom yesterday at B4. I had an appt. with Dr. B at 8am. Sorry I couldn't come to see you, but you weren't feeling too well at that time. I prayed for your fever to go down. I'm so happy you are able to go home at night, I know how good that feels when you're in the hospital all day. You have a wondeful family and Brian of course. I can't wait to hear that you're home for good! Keep On Swimming! I wear my bracelet every day for you!

Love Teresa and Sean...and Kasper too!
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 11:49 AM CST

Not a day passes that you are not in my thoughts. Even when you no longer need my thoughts and prayers and are free of this awful disease you will remain in my thoughts because you have moved me and motivated me and added so much to my life......
Sandra B <mommamea4@shaw.ca>
Poco, - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 10:22 AM CST

mags and i got a beautiful green-ish-blue plate and pot, and have a candle constantly burning for you in our home.
and i'm visualizing trees growing tall, and raiding the kitchen at may retreat, and driving around bc in the summer, and picnics with fireworks, and indoor rock-climbing, and painted toe nails, and cheesy-diapers, and getting to go to school together again. and, largely, you being comfortable and free of pain and worry.
and i know i'm not the only one.
all the love in the world to you.
christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc canada - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 2:14 AM CST

Hey Ashley, Paul and I both send you our love and prayers. Paul worked the weekend on a new feature film, and I had a lazy day at home in my jammies, so we didn't get to church. Consequently we don't know how you are doing and you haven't posted any entries since Tuesday. I think of you so often and I send up my little arrow prayers throughout the day each time that you and your family come into my thoughts. Your Dad showed me the really neat room that he made for you in the downstairs of your house, and he told me what fun you had there with your friends at your Spa party. I am going to pray tonight that you are well enough to have another Spa party really soon!! I pray God is holding you in tender arms tonight and every night. Love, Kim.
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 0:59 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I read your site everyday, Dear Girl. God bless you and bring relief from the suffering you feel. You are so strong, your heart is true gold. Please continue to fight hard against this disease and "keep on swimming"!
lynn <nls622003@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 30, 2006 11:59 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I was sorry to hear via your mom's email that you had a bad fever today. I pray that it has gone down by this evening and that the chemo nausea will soon start to ease off. I'm just so glad you can come home from B4 each evening to your own cosy bed and your darling family and Brian. It's great news that Brian's new job is going so well and that he's working with such lovely people. He is one of your special angels in this world and he so deserves to be in friendly workplace. Your mom, dad, Heidi and Andrew are your special caring angels too. They are amazing. I am praying that a cool glow of healing will surround you so that the fevers and nausea will go away and so that you can eat and feel stronger.
Love and hugs (germ-free !!!), Maureen.

Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Monday, January 30, 2006 11:18 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I've been checking in daily to see how you are doing but there haven't been any updates. I hope this means that you are busy having fun!!! Thinking of you and your family many times each day.
Debbie.
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Monday, January 30, 2006 8:56 PM CST

You are my hero. There is not a day goes by that I don't hold you and your family in my heart. I am going to see Luke this week, and I will give him a special hug for you.
I love you.
Laverne
Laverne <bgfr@direct.ca>
North Van, - Sunday, January 29, 2006 4:00 PM CST

Hey Ashley,
I know I don't sign this nearly as often as I should, but I'm always checkin' in, and you're always in my thoughts and prayers. This fight is yours to win, Ash, so fight strong and hard!
xo
Christina
Christina Vasak <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, January 28, 2006 10:19 PM CST

Ashley,
You are in our hearts always. I think of you everyday (many times infact), praying for you to be strong through this latest test. You are a beautiful person. Sweet dreams and sleep well when you can.
Love and hugs,
Val
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, January 28, 2006 7:30 PM CST

Dearest, sweetest Ashley!

I believe in you and I love you.

Trust in God and the angels. Feel better. Have a deep healing sleep tonight filled with sweet dream medicine!

Know that you are loved. You are a miracle.

Thank u God, for Miss Ashley Anne Brear! ;)

We will all Keep On Praying! You just Keep on Swimming.

Luv,
Your Cancer Buddy,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, January 28, 2006 1:37 AM CST

Hey Ashley,
Keep strong, I know you can beat this. I know god is with you and you will always be in my prayers. Never stop fighting Ashley!
Brady Hanna <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC - Friday, January 27, 2006 8:50 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
I want to echo the words of "Alex" from Montreal. I don't know who he is, but his poetic words echo the sentiment in my heart. Ashley, you are indeed an inspiration. As you said, "There is always good news... and sunshine". The way you handle life and illness is a witness to your faith that wows us all. Trust is never easy... TRUST means that we have unanswered questions. You illustrate that trust and faith can be the calming balm in a storm. Through your journey, we can understand what God's peace is all about. Thank you for sharing your journey for in so doing, you reach out to us all. May God continue to bless you with strength, trust and faith... and always may you experience His peace! Blessings
Wendy Wright <wen518@hotmail.com>
Laval, - Friday, January 27, 2006 7:36 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
I hope this entry finds you doing better and well. I am Lennie (Margaret Tse's) older sister. My sister Kat had asked us to pray for you and I wanted you to know that is exactly what we have been doing. I can relate along with your family how hard it is to have a member of your family go through so much with their health at such a young age. I want you to know that last night our church had a prayer meeting and we lifted up our requests to God (who is the great physcian) to put his healing hand upon your body and comfort your spirit. We also asked that he be there for your family too. Hang in there. If you need anything, please don't hestitate to contact my family. You were a good friend of Margaret's and so that means you are a good friend of ours too. Take Care and Be Strong,

Lennie Tse <lennietse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, January 26, 2006 3:01 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I am thinking of you as you go through the GVHD and I'm saying prayers for you all the time. I'm just so glad that you're home and that you could go to Brian's belated birthday party with his family last night. I hope his first day at the new job went well. I am saying prayers for Lothar and Bettina (they are such wonderful and special people) and I hope Lothar's sore back will ease up soon. I haven't met Jeremy, but I will pray for him too.
Lots of love, Maureen.

Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, January 26, 2006 0:02 AM CST

Hi, Ashley (and Brian?) Ashley, I hope tomorrow is a good day, (remember I was raised in a twelve step program family, we are always ready to go for the one day at a time approach)You are in our hearts and prayers, always,love, Diana Hope you enjoy the new job, Brian, good luck.
Diana B. Hicks
- Wednesday, January 25, 2006 10:36 PM CST

ashley, thanks for updating. i've been checking but haven't signed. i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 7:39 PM CST

You amaze me with all the sunshine you spread each and every day! So some nasty doctors or nurses did not see that sunny side?!?! They deserve to be reminded about compassion. Keep teaching/inspiring all those who know you and we're praying for the army of good cells to destroy the bad. Hang in. We love you!

Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 2:38 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

Despite everything that's been going on, you remain to be the delightful princess in charge! :-) I'm truly proud of you!! :-) You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. May your GVT beat the Hodgkin's disease for ever and may your GVHD be kind to your healthy and strong cells!

I'll keep your friends in my prayers, too.

Keep on swimming & smiling, sweet Ashley. I hope and pray that this challenging phase will soon be over and that our hero will rise to the top once again! :-)

Love you lots, with all my heart,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 12:52 AM CST

Hi Ashley! Although I know it's not fun, I'm glad you have the GVHD! Now you can kick the hodgkins butt! I hope it is not too hard you. Thanks for updating us, and I'm glad you're feeling better! Happy birthday to Brian! Congratulate him on his new job for us! I hope you and your family are enjoying the recent sunshine. I think it helps lift the spirits!

We Love You!
Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 11:25 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
You are continually an inspiration and a reminder that choosing to have the right attitude and response to life is what actually makes the difference. I continue to pray and think of you.

Helen <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 10:53 AM CST

You can do it Ashley! I hope you're sister's cells are kicking cancer in the teeth.
Jessie
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 10:16 AM CST

Ashley, I am soooooo glad you were up to joining us for dinner last night. I know the last few weeks have not been easy on you and yet you still make us smile and chuckle with your amazing sense of humor! You have enriched our lives in so many ways! Brian is a very lucky man to have you! Keep on swimming!!!
Love Donna
Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 9:11 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
I was just thinking about you, and about everything you've been through in the past few years, and about how well you communicate about the hardest and most inexplicably profound interpersonal and spiritual events and feelings, and that you seem blessed with the profoundest insight into life, which has enriched mine so completely, as if when you're talking a veil has been lifted aside for the listener to see what maybe the angels already know, and knew all along, and somehow you were gifted with this precious understanding about people, and about love, and about life, that the rest of us stumble through our lives trying to discover piece by piece, and still we never have the whole vision. And for most of us, or for me, is maybe what I'm saying, because our understanding is so cloudy, some of the profoundest experiences of life remain somewhat shrouded in mystery--love, for example, faith, for another example--and when I think of you I think of someone who experiences things like love to the nth degree: so intensely and brightly that it reminds me of being a kid and looking at the sun pouring sparkling through raindrops in the summer under the sprinkler, and when I was a kid I thought this was some beautiful mystery I could experience someday. I think you have experienced that kind of brightness: that you have stood at the centre and been the light, and felt what it felt like to be the light, and not just wondered, like so many of us, what it would feel like if we could be at the centre of that light. I feel sometimes like you know what is at the centre of that mystery, and it shines out from you and everyone else can feel it too, and watching you discover it and live it is beautiful. And inspiring.

Alex
Alexandra <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Montreal, - Tuesday, January 24, 2006 8:23 PM CST

I came to your website via Karin. You are a beautifl girl. I am praying for you. Just remember you are not alone.

Lori P. <hayden01@tds.net>
Mt Juliet, Tn USA - Monday, January 23, 2006 11:30 AM CST

Praying for you, Ashley. May your days of sleeping and laying around be restful, not frustrating. You have so many who are pulling for you!
Shelly <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Monday, January 23, 2006 0:02 AM CST

Sending you good energy and my prayers. May those little cells do the powerful work of healing for you. I think of you often and wish I were there to see you. Know that you are loved by many, and that God continues to shine in your being! Lots of love to you.
Tricia <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, Sk Canada - Sunday, January 22, 2006 9:15 PM CST

Sending love & light (as always!). There is a Ben & Jerry's ice cream inside the freezer in your garage :-D Hugs.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, January 22, 2006 9:04 PM CST

just checking in to see if there's a weekend update. you're in my thoughts and prayers!
lisa <schnegs@Pro-ns.net>
mn - Sunday, January 22, 2006 8:01 AM CST

Dear Ashley - I work with Pauline Blachford and have two daughters in their early twenties so have been deeply touched by your story. Last week I took my mom into the VGH Cell Separator Unit (blood clinic) for an appointment with her hematologist and as I was sitting in the waiting area, I noticed a beautiful face on the bulletin board that I recognized. It was YOU! They had posted a newspaper story about your fundraising efforts and once again it was good to be reminded to pray for this very amazing girl who is going through difficult times. Pauline (I call her Mother Theresa) gives us regular reminders of your progress and has printed your story and photo for all of us at White Rock Optometry to see. God bless you sweet girl as you embrace life, endure treatment, and seek to find purpose in this trial. Dawn Scott
Dawn Scott <scottland@dccnet.com>
Ladner, BC Canada - Sunday, January 22, 2006 1:50 AM CST

Hey ashley,
I hope you are doing better. I hope that everything turns out great!!!

love, vista
vista namdarian <run_it_1122@hotmail.com>
port moody, canada - Sunday, January 22, 2006 0:35 AM CST

Ashley my love. We were thinking about you and wanted to say hi. I know you read your journal so wanted you to know you are in our thoughts constantly. You came to me at my toughest time, and gave me a ray of sunshine. You gave me hope when I had none, I will never forget your kindness. You think of others before yourself. I have never met someone so full of compassion for others.. You have done more on this earth than I can ever hope to do. You are my IDOL!!!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Saturday, January 21, 2006 11:51 PM CST

"You got a smile so bright
You know you could have been a candle!"
- lyrics to The Way you Do the Things you Do

Hi Ashley.

Heard this song today and that line reminded me of you!!

Hope tonight finds you healing and resting comfortably. Do whatever you need to do to feel better. Trust your inner wisdom.

I love u and am continuing to pray for u every day. As are soooo many others.

Keep on Swimming, Ash. God bless u for being u!

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, January 21, 2006 11:45 PM CST

Hi Ashley
Passing on our well wishes and prayers from Manitoba.I hear so many great things about you and look forward to meeting this strong wonderful young lady, We are thinking of you and Brian everyday. Brian's Uncle Tim, Aunt Kari, Nicholas & Mitchel 000000
Tim Prawdzik <timkari@mts.net>
Dauphin ; MB, Mb Canada - Saturday, January 21, 2006 7:50 PM CST

Dear Ashley: You are an amazing young woman. Your courage and strength is an inspiration to so many who have expressed themselves in this journal over the past months, and for the hundreds of others who have eagerly followed your journey but not yet written anything (like myself). Good luck Ashley in this new fight. With the love of your friends and family, and the thousands who are praying for you around the world, I KNOW you'll beat this once and for all.
Susan Robinson <bandsrobinson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, January 21, 2006 4:30 PM CST

Ashley,
We believe in your cure. We are praying for healing and for the fevers to go away.Listen to your body and rest and allow the good bone marrow to do the fighting. We so admire your strength and have so many people praying for you right now. Stay strong and continue to believe. We love you!
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Saturday, January 21, 2006 4:20 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I am not usually a person lost for words but at times like these, it is hard for me to express the feelings I experience everyday as I pray for you. How do I make sense of all this? I met your Mum, and my dear friend Judy, when Heidi was only one year old. I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. You were so beautiful and such a joy to watch grow up. I remember you at our childrens' birthday parties and have wonderful pictures of these special events. You were always fun. You are an inspiration that I continually share with all of our family and friends. We have become prayer warriors and you are mentioned every Sunday at St Mark's Ocean Park. You remind me of the "little train that could".

YES YOU CAN
No matter what the task may be,
How hard the course you face;
Believe that you have what it takes
To run life's toughest race.
All God's blessings to you, your family and Brian.
Love from "The Blachford Six"
Pauline Blachford <pauline-ann@shaw.ca>
Surrey, B.C. Canada - Saturday, January 21, 2006 3:51 PM CST

Hi Ashley, I'm a friend of Diana Fraser's and I meet you many years ago at a b'day party for Paige - it was a princess party and you taught the girl's how to do a "spice girl's" dance. I admired you then for taking the time out of a busy "teenager's life" to spend time with these young girl's but it is nothing compared to the respect and admiration I feel for you after reading your website. Please know I've prayed for you and your family and am so thankful you have so many wonderful people in your life - Brian sounds like a man every young women would be blessed to have in their life. Keep up the faith and my very best wishes to you and your family.
Sandra Lindsay <gslin@shaw.ca>
Surrey, British Columba, Canada - Saturday, January 21, 2006 2:01 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
You have been on my mind all day. My prayer for you is that somehow in the middle of this storm, you will find the "eye" and be able to perch there, feeling a sense of peace and strength! Much love, Ariel
Ariel Creighton
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 11:38 PM CST

Hi Ashley - I'm thinking a lot about you as I go about my work days, and I send you little arrow prayers whenever my mind rests with you. My little arrows carry strength and love, and there is one for every one of Heidi's stem cells, to help them with their mission. Rest Easy, Love Kim
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Friday, January 20, 2006 10:28 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Please know that our thoughts are with you. We know that if anyone in this world has the strength and spirit to fight this, it is you. Little Gracie prays for you every single night and is always asking if you are feeling better.

Love Andria, Chris & Grace Haines

Andria, Chris & Grace Haines <hainesy@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 9:40 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
Keep fighting and one day you will beat cancer. I was so sorry to hear about the rediagnosis but you are so amazingly strong that I know you can do this! I've been keeping you in my prayers,

Jessie
north vancouver, - Friday, January 20, 2006 5:12 PM CST

Ashley,
I was so sorry to hear about your new diagnosis of cancer in your spleen. You are such an amazing person and the strongest person I know. You are going to get through this just like you've gotten through everything else. There are so many people on your side pulling for you. Never give up. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs* love always ally xoxo
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
- Friday, January 20, 2006 4:11 PM CST

hi ashley, i'm a stranger and have no idea how i stumbled upon your site but you are amongst those that i watch and pray for that have CB sites. i am hoping that you feel better soon and that 2006 brings great things for you!
lisa <schnegs@pro-ns.net>
mn - Friday, January 20, 2006 3:20 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Your faith, attitude, and strength continue to be an inspiration to so many. You have prayers and warm thoughts coming your way from Williams Lake.

Margaret Anne Enders <maenders@hotmail.com>
- Friday, January 20, 2006 1:40 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
My name is Seok-Leng Khor. I had the opportunity of working with your marvelous sister, Heidi for the last three years. I met you once in the office. You're a strong person, a good fighter physically and spiritually. You have a wonderful family to support you. Keep the faith and I'm thinking and praying for you daily.
Seok-Leng Khor <seokleng50@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 12:48 AM CST

Hey Ashley,

I think about you, Heidi's cells, and your family ALL THE TIME!!! Yesterday, as always, I dedicated my yoga practice and meditation to you in hopes of sending all my postive and healing energy your way. I know you're going to stay strong and giggly like you always do 1. because you are the most AMAZING woman in the world...some might even call you SUPER WOMAN!!! and 2. because you have tons and tons of people thinking of and praying for you all the time!

Love Sarah
Sarah O'Hagan <wotsthabastad@hotmail.com>
Galsgow, Scotland - Friday, January 20, 2006 12:29 AM CST

Dear Ashley
Keep up your spirits, we are all rooting for you, heaven is overloaded with prayers so they cant be ignored..I'm quite sure that your doctors are doing all they can to help you over this bad spot. Keep the faith and rest all you can there is light ahead. All my love Grandma
Eileen Brear
Laval, P.Q Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 11:38 AM CST

Ashley, we have a special candle lit for you. We are praying for Heidi's cells to kick butt! You're not missing anything outside right now, let me tell you! I am soaked and frozen by the end of my day dogwalking. You save your energy to fight. We know you will! We love you!

Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 10:44 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

Holding you close to our hearts and praying you'll feel better soon.
Debbie, Travis, Taylor

Debbie Gibson <gibsond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Friday, January 20, 2006 10:38 AM CST

Thinking of you...at this difficult time in your life !
sending positive energy...big hug, Nicole
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 10:17 AM CST

You are in our hearts and prayers, always, Ashley.
Lois and John Hashimoto <jhashimoto@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 6:21 AM CST

PS... Hope candles are lighting everywhere for you. What a warm glow they must be making in all this rain and darkness! :)

L. xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, January 20, 2006 3:09 AM CST

When the dark wood fell before me
And all the paths were overgrown
When the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the sorrows of stone

I did not believe because I could not see
Though you came to me in the night
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your love in the light of the stars

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Then the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the ice and fire

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Though we share this humble path, alone
How fragile is the heart
Oh give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the face of the stars

Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal veil of fear
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll rise above these earthly cares

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Please remember me

- Dante's Prayer by Loreena McKennitt

I like to think this is what God is saying to you right now, Ashley... and to all of us when we suffer...

'When the dark night seems endless...please remember Me.'

God is with you, Ashley. And so are we. May you feel the Love and prayers around and within you. May you feel the angels cradling you to sleep tonight.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, January 20, 2006 3:04 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
thanks for taking the time and energy to update us all!! Again, you are Amazing (yes, with a capital 'A'). I only wish you were feeling better. My heart is heavy knowing the suffering you are enduring. Fevers: G o A W A Y !!!

Come on Heidi's cells, we're cheering you on!
Praying praying praying! ****HUGS****
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 2:30 AM CST

Dear Sweet Ashley:

You're in my daily thoughts & prayers. May Heidi's cells win over the Hodgkin's cells and may you return to good health in the very near future.

Sending you lots of positive, healing energy, with much love,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Friday, January 20, 2006 1:55 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so rotten!! I know that if any cells can beat this Hodgkins it is Heidi's cells and I too am praying that they get rid of it once and for all so that you can have some relief and peace!! I love you sweet girl and am thinking of you all the time!!! Rest, heal, and feel the love,
Let me know when you can handle visitors and I'll be over in a flash!!
Lots of love to you and your family,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 0:58 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
What a privilege to be a part of the many folk who hold you in their prayers. How you manage to keep up with your journal entries I can hardly imagine. I am sure though that you can feel the caring and love and support as a tangible spirit surrounding you.Blessings on this journey, and may it lead you to health once more. Love, Eleanor
Eleanor O'Neill <keoneill@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 20, 2006 0:01 AM CST

I'm amazed at your strength and grace through this difficult time. I have been following your journey for many months and check in on you often. Your positive spirit is inspirational to me! My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and friends at this challenging time.
Amy Jelmeland <Jelmeland@cox.net>
Ladera Ranch, CA USA - Thursday, January 19, 2006 11:24 PM CST

Ashley...take the plankton!!! See emails.

Yes... I am becoming repetitive and annoying!! :)

Please forgive me - I just care soooo much about you. As we all do.

Love you, Nemo. Keep on swimming, sweetheart.

Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, January 19, 2006 10:05 PM CST

Ashley,
So glad to see you back online. I can only imagine what a blow the sad news was. HANG IN THERE. At times we do not understand God's plan for us. Keep the faith. I hope you feel better soon.
Terri Colclough
Mom of Casey, Diagnosed Stage IIIB, 3/17/05
Daddy of Twin Girls, 5/19/05
Terri Colclough <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA 70769 - Thursday, January 19, 2006 9:41 PM CST

Ashley, you are an amazing person. Your enthusiastm and joy of life have impressed me. They say you are only given the life challenges that you can handle. You are strong! You have shown a lot of people around you what the priority were. You make it loud and clear: enjoy life, make the most of it EVERY SECOND, love your family, your friends, everyone. You are loved. Big hugs, Kati at BCCA. Also best regards to Brian and your family.

Kati
Port Moody, BC Canada - Thursday, January 19, 2006 9:18 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

We met a couple of times at B4 while strolling the halls. I myself have AML and had an unrelated stem cell transplant on August 4/05. The treatment was long and lousy, but was glad for the second chance after a relapse from my first Chemo treatment in 2003. They say there are so many new treatments for the patients with blood related cancers. We have a great Clinic and Hospital in Vancouver and the nurses and Doctor's are the best. I was taken care of by Dr. Barnett many times in hospital and he was very caring and hopeful. I know you will be taken well care of!!

My visits to Vancouver are every month right now unless there is a change. I'll be seeing Dr. Nevill on Feb. 1.

You seem to have a great attitude! All the best!

Jerri Lynn Sarson <jerrilynnsarson@shaw.ca>
Victoria, Canada - Thursday, January 19, 2006 7:22 PM CST

Ashley;
The Mills family of Alberta, Ontario, and Paris, France read your journal weekly and think and your wonderful family often. We are keeping you in our hearts...stay strong,
Cathy, Brian, Doug, Allyn, Colin and Meta

Cathy (Mills) Payne <cpayne@healthprocanada.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, January 19, 2006 4:39 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

I continue to think of you and have you in my prayers.
Helen <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Thursday, January 19, 2006 3:24 PM CST

Dearest Ashley

i am sending you digital HOPE, LOVE and HUGS. i think of you every day!!!!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, January 19, 2006 2:26 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I hope your fever has gone down and you are resting comfortably at home. Sending you my love. :)
Kat

Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, January 19, 2006 1:44 AM CST

hey Ashley, you don't konw me... im am one of your dad's computer students!I really hope you get better.Your dad seems to really really care about you. Every class he gives us a update on how you have been doing.

Hope you get better, love vista***
Vista Namdarian <run_it_1122@hotmail.com>
port moody, canada - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 11:21 PM CST

Sending love Ashley. Always thinking of you. xo
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, January 18, 2006 10:02 PM CST

Dearest Ashley....Hi there...Tiffany & I are together, we are so glad to hear you are home!We wish we could be there to give you a great big hug. It is sooooo hard being so far away from you. We are all praying HARD for you. We love you very much!!!!!
Sally Lloyd <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, On Canada - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 9:31 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I was so glad to here that you've been discharged from the hospital and that you're HOME. Yeah!!! - more time with your beloved family and Brian, a quiet place for relaxation and healing, the kitchen close by for your favourite snacks, time to snuggle under a blanket and watch a DVD and I'm sure Cosette is happy to have you home too !! It is great that Dr Barnett says Heidi's cells have done such a good job on the lymph nodes in your neck. So now we will concentrate on praying that they will start working on your spleen and your bone marrow and I am singing my little chant "GO, STEMCELLS, GO!! GO, STEMCELLS GO!!"
Love and hugs, Maureen.

Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 7:07 PM CST

Ashley, we think about and pray for you daily. I hope your fevers have gone. Please let us know when we can visit. Are you home or still back and forth to the hospital. We love you!

Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 11:48 AM CST

"The light of every soul burns upward;
but we are all candles in a wind,
and due allowance must be made for atmospheric disturbances!"
- a quote my Grama saved away that we found recently

The winds may be blowing but... the candle here is lit for you along with all the others out there!

I love you, Ashley. Your candle sure burns brightly(like a star)... despite the atmospheric disturbances around you! You are one amazing chick. ;)

Sleep well tonight.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, January 18, 2006 2:34 AM CST

Dear ashley,I am so sorry to hear the sad news.I am in one of your dads classes at school.I am in his class right after lunch.Everyday he tells us about you or what is going on in your life.oh ya a don't forget to keep on swimming ashley!!!!!

Carly
Carly Anderson <carly_A_103@hotmail.com>
coquitlam, bc canada - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 7:31 PM CST

Dear Ashley, We are so sorry to hear about your sad news. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Your friends at the BC Cancer Foundation
Jennifer Harper <jharper@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 4:57 PM CST

Ashley,
I can't believe that yet another curve ball has been thrown your way. Remember when Jordy and Andrew were playing softball and Daren was a baby and you carried him around the park (during the whole game), well my wish would be that we could just hit that curve ball right out of the ball park. Never to be seen again. I think of all of you constantly. Keep on Swimming honey.
Love and hugs,
Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin and Daren
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, January 17, 2006 3:59 PM CST

Ashley,
No words are enough to express my hope and admiration for you!! Your strength in your words even during this most trying time is an inspiration to all. You and yours are in our thoughts and prayers. When I read your latest journal entry the poem " Footprints" came to mind. It is during those most trying times that there is only one set of foot prints in the sand.........it is then that god carried you!!!!
Keep on believing, Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 3:33 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

It's Shelley Hess here. I'm a friend of Karin's and have gotten to 'know' you and have been praying for you over the last several months, as you've shared with us here.

My heart truly weeps with you as you deal with this latest news. I can only guess at the range of emotions you must feel.

However, I gather through your sharing that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. This knowledge gives me encouragement as I think of you, because I am able to share with you that faith and hope that overcomes all obstacles.

I just want to encourage you with God's promise that He works all things together for good for those that love Him and are called according to His purpose. You can trust this promise for you, through this current fiery trial.

I'm also reminded that His ways are often different than our ways, and often beyond our comprehension. It's at those times, isn't it, that He wants us to simply lay our heads in His lap, as children of our Heavenly Father, and trust Him that He has the perfect plan for our lives.

He encourages us to cast our cares upon Him. In the flesh that is so hard to do, but having received Salvation, each of us has the Holy Spirit living within, constantly there for us and with us, enabling us to do what is not possible in our flesh.

Our prayer for you, as you walk this rocky path, is that your eyes remain steadfastly fixed upon Him, who cares infinitely for you and loves you, His precious child, infinitely more than we can ever conceive. We pray that you will see and feel His love for you, poured out to you in infinite ways, and that you will know His peace which surpasses all human understanding, keeping your eyes set on the eternal reward that is yours, no matter what your presence testing.

We love you Ashley, and continue to pray for you, and with you, through this trial. Lets remember, the victory is already won!

With sooo much love, in Christ,

Shelley Hess, for our family
Shelley Hess <hessfamily@pacificcoast.net>
North Saanich, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 2:29 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

YOU WILL BEAT THIS AGAIN!!!!!
It seems that you are going into another over time!!
The desease is so sneaky and somehow tied it again, but remember, you still do (and always will) have a huge advantage of love and support from so many people who have been touched by you. You just keep shooting at the net and you will score BBBIIIGGG someday soon!
Much love, OOXX
Manako, Andrew, Sarah, Kimberly & Austin
Manako Roberts <carmaria101@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver , BC Canada - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 12:02 AM CST

Ashley,

I was so sad to see the results weren't what was hoped for. Now you know what your up against and can make a plan to fight it. I continue to rembember you in my daily prayers and ask that God gives you and your family continued strength and hope.

Jill
Buffalo, NY USA - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 10:25 AM CST

I love you, Ashley. Sleep well tonight, sweetheart. You are surrounded by loving prayers. You are safe in the arms of the angels. I pray that you feel the love all around you.

Thank you for being our angel here on earth. May God bless you.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, January 17, 2006 1:07 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
You have another battle to fight and I can only say thatI wish this was not so. You have and amazing spirit and an inner strength that is an inspiration to me and to so many people. I believe so strongly that every life has a purpose(once a CGITer, always a CGITer!!!!)and one of your purposes has been to remind us that one person can make a difference and not just a small difference, but a HUGE difference. You are a true example of someone who takes every opportunity to do something good whenever you can. You have taken on the huge goals of the Ball and Beach Party and said "It can happen" You have a dream of a future when cancer will be as easy to treat as the common cold and the money you have raised for cancer research will help to one day make that possible. You have truly made a difference and continue to make a difference not only to those of us that know you well and love you, but also to future cancer patients who will benefit from the research and to all those who read your website and are inspired by your bravery. So, as you fight this next battle you know that you will be surrounded by love and prayers and thoughts of healing every minute of the day. Love and hugs, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce <jmnbruce@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 0:23 AM CST

Aloha Ashley! Just returned from Maui...I have been thinking of you often and you are in my prayers ALWAYS. You are a bright, strong, positive,and tough force to be reckoned with! This disease tests our mettle, to be sure. I always kept a quote from Maya Angelou in my heart when I was going through my bone marrow transplant (it was given to me by a dear friend who had his BMT four months before I was diagnosed). Maya Angelou wrote, "I can be changed by what happens to me. I refuse to be reduced by it". Ashley, YOU epitomize those words. Stay strong. Keep looking forward. You have so many family and friends that are praying for you and pulling for you. Draw your energy from knowing that. Another thing I kept saying to myself when I was in hospital was "today may be a mountain, but I was born to climb!". Keep climbing, Ash. Keep fighting. You have the right attitude. I never give up hope and the love of my family helps to sustain me. I see that in you as well. You are in my prayers...always. Love, Sindi
Sindi <s.hawkins@leg.bc.ca>
Kelowna, BC - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 0:23 AM CST

Ash - you are such a fighter and I know you can make it over yet another hurdle in your battle. This rollercoaster sure is a long one but it will come to an end with you smiling and climbing off ready to get on another ride and we'll all be there cheering for you. I'm here for you and willing to do anything I can to help, just let me know. My prayers and thoughts and love are with you always. Keep on swimming and you will overcome this.
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Monday, January 16, 2006 2:17 PM CST

Hi Ashley, I was shocked, to say the least, to hear your latest news. I thought you had beaten it already. We know you have a great team of Doctors and the support of a cajillion people praying for you, so, I don't see how the eventual outcome can be bad. Look at it this way, at least it is rather dreary weather, and hopefully you will be better by the Summer. You know how much you are loved by us all at St. Agnes', so just keep on swimming(even if it seems you are swimming up stream all the time) and keep your eye on the Gold Medal when you finally pull yourself out of the water at the end of the race. Love, hugggggs and best wishes "Sweetpea". Nora.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shawcable.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Monday, January 16, 2006 12:10 AM CST

We've been praying and hoping and praying and hoping and we will continue to do so. You just keep swimming bubba and know that we are behind you cheering you on - you are strong and courageous, you are faithful and inspiring! May you feel wrapped in love now and always. God's blessings of hope and peace and persistence be yours! love, Jen and Ian
Jen and Ian Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 11:54 AM CST

Hey Ash,
A quick note from Jaipur, India. I wanted you to know I was thinking about you and your family. I'm so glad I got to see you, even for the short time I did, at Christmas. I'm really upset to hear your news but I have nothing but faith that this is just another small detour in your road to recovery. Keep your chin up and I'm sure everyhting will be acha acha (that means "good good", but to get it really right you have to do this sideways head wobble thing that looks so cool but I haven't mastered. Acha - wobble - acha - wobble). Please give my love to your family. I really enjoyed chatting with Heidi and your mom. I hope that fireplace arrives soon!! Knowing the birdge club barganing skills your mom will get it for a tenner in the end!!! It wasn't clearly signed you know... ;-)Can't wait until we can start our own generation 2 bridge club...one small hurdle would be learning bridge. All in good time eh? Keep well.
xx Erin
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
Jaipur, India - Monday, January 16, 2006 8:05 AM CST

Ashley, I have been receiving your mom's emails and following your progress closely and I know you are disheartened with your recent news. I really wanted to say something meaningful that would make you feel better and hopeful. I don't know what that is, but you must know I just counted the messages you have received since the 1st of January and there are over 100!!! That is in two weeks alone. You have so many people who think you are worthy of taking the time in our very preoccupied lives to reach out and tell you how much you mean to us. You truly are worthy and exceptional; having touched and influenced 100's of peoples lives, in it self is a blessing. Now in return our prayers are going to bring you some good news this year, and you will continue to inspire and influence us all throughout the years to follow. It sucks to keep working so hard and everyone deserves a break now and then; God just wants you to be the example of what hard work can achieve and give us all something to keep striving for. Your break WILL come and you WILL get the news you pray to hear.

Keep the smiles and the fight going,
Love Koreen, Rod, Makenna and Jacob
Koreen Carl <rkcarl@telus.net>
Maple Ridge, BC Canada - Monday, January 16, 2006 1:10 AM CST

hey ash, lets bump into each other again on granville sometime soon..

peter
p.choi <ae35unit@hotmail.com>
vancouver, bc canada - Monday, January 16, 2006 1:03 AM CST

Ashley, keep up the fight! you are the most courageous person ive ever met, and know that you are always in my heart and in my prayers! now lets beat this once and for all...
Chelsea Woit <kissmytooshie@hotmail.com/chwoit@uvic.ca>
Victoria, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 7:33 PM CST

Ashley, we are thinking of you and your family all of the time. It must have been so difficult waiting for the results. I am sorry it is not the outcome we were all wanting, but the doctors sound positive and, as you say, there is now a plan of action. Please let me know if there is anything we can do.
Love Toni, James, Alex and Tyler xxxx
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, January 15, 2006 5:55 PM CST

Ashley,
I am sorry about your news,But you are a fighter and will fight this,Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers,
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Sunday, January 15, 2006 5:36 PM CST

HUGGGGGGSSSSSSS ASHLEY. There is not a day goes by we don't think of you and your family. "Keep on swimming" girl. This is a battle you can win!!!! We are all cheering for you.
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 5:26 PM CST

Ash,
Yet another curve ball thrown your way. Remember when Daren was a baby at Andrew and Jordy's baseball, you carried him around with you the whole game. It is now our turn to carry you around until you hit that curve ball right out of the park. We will be in the bleachers cheering you on. Daily thoughts of you, mom, dad, Heidi and Andrew are with me. Take care!
Love,
Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin and Daren.
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, January 15, 2006 3:55 PM CST

Ashley,
I know you have it in you to fight this again. I know you will be able to conjur up the strength, determination, and hope required to have GVHD and GVT again. Know that my prayers are with you.
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
vancouver, bc canada - Sunday, January 15, 2006 12:42 AM CST

Hi Again Ashely,
You know I was just sitting here thinking. The other day I was at Children's Hospital and just happened to be next door to the oncology unit. All down the halls are pictures of children who have experienced all kinds of cancer and their success stories were written below the pictures. Some were incredibly moving BUT the point is, they are all success stories just as you will be!
Debbie Gibson
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 11:31 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

I came over from Karin's site. I'm sorry that you got such bad news. I'll pray for you often as you attack yet again the Hodgkins. Hold on to hope!
Shelly <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 11:07 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I had to take some time before writing to absorb your latest news. Not what we were hoping for and it seems that you have another climb on that roller coaster ride, how unfair. Even in light of this news your entry was full of its usual grace, confidence and uplifting attitude. It is those qualities that will help you to win this battle. We are always thinking of you and sending you our positive thoughts and prayers.
Debbie, Travis, Taylor
Debbie Gibson <gibsond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 10:44 AM CST

Hi Ashley:

Kim and I send our love and prayers for comfort and success in your latest challenge. We know you to be so brave, cheerful and strong. Please find added strength knowing that everyone at St. Agnes and so many others, want you forever free of this trauma. Those pictures of you are chocked full of amazing beauty. Although we don't see your day to day successes, we celebrate them with you in spirit. We ache with you in your suffering and disappointments, wondering at God's plan. Strange as it may seem, your fight has brought many people closer together. It is your determination and courage that inspires all who know and hear of you. Kim and I were very pleased to see you at the "X_MEN lll" wrap party. I'm still trying to lose all the fat I gained on that show. If you need any fat, I'll be happy to donate mine. Kim says it's too bad I can't donate my head, as it becomes rather fat occasionally. I am off for several weeks until the film business picks up again for 2006, so Kim is going to work some overtime and I am busy getting errands done, being a bit of a house husband, and catching up on my sleep. As I am off I would like to help out a bit if I can. I will give your Dad a call this week and let him know that I'd be happy to assist in any way. Our best prayers and love to you and yours.

With love from Paul oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Paul Chorney <psgchorney@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada eh - Sunday, January 15, 2006 4:27 AM CST

Hi Ashley, I am so sorry you have to face the fight that is ahead for you! I'm praying for courage and strength and confidence in God's love for you and your family and Brian, and for wisdom for your doctors, and for healing! And I also pray that you will find times when you can really laugh, because I believe laughter released healing energy. Love and blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Sunday, January 15, 2006 0:49 AM CST

Sending heartfelt wishes from North Carolina. Sorry to hear of the news but so thankful that you have so many loving people around you and a doctor who cares!
Sarah <tamura@alltel.net>
Wadesboro, NC USA - Saturday, January 14, 2006 4:59 PM CST

Hi Ashley!
I am sending positive healing thoughts your way today. I am sorry that you are having to deal with this terrible news but you are a strong, courageous young woman and I believe, like many, that you will beat this thing once and for all! You are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Shelby
Shelby Fluckiger <tino@apexoffice.ca>
White Rock, BC Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 4:29 PM CST

Ash:Now you know which fork to take in the road. You are an inspiration to us all. Saw this quote and it reminds me of you: "There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it." And you are both. Hang in there.

Nancy Dekanich and Family <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, January 14, 2006 2:55 PM CST

O.K. So the swim has a few more miles to go. Just remember we're in the boat beside you cheering you on. You will make it! We're sure of that!! Just keep on swimming and remembering we are all with you with every wave you hit. Hang tough Ashley. We love you and know God is still with you. We're praying for the plan and the cure! xoxo
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 12:56 AM CST

My Dear Ashley
There are no words to express my feelings for you at this hard time. We will have to put our faith in the doctors and God and pray sincerely for a solution. Love as always Grandma xoxoxoxox
Eileen Brear
Laval, P.Q. Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 12:35 AM CST

Dear Ash,

I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry. As we've walked with you this week, waiting for news, know we will continue to walk with you on this next phase of your journey. You are amazing, dear one, and together with all of your community, we can fight this. Do let us know if there is anything we can do. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Sending you stength, courage, grace, and peace as you prepare for yet another battle.
With much love, Tracy, Greg and Joshua
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, January 14, 2006 11:38 AM CST

Oh Ashley I am so sorry! I was so sad to read your post this morning. I know that you will beat this though! I wish God didn't trust you so much too!! I know you won't give up, and we're all here cheering you on!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 10:38 AM CST

For someone so young you show such grace and wisdom. You inspire & challenge us all. Keep on swimming, girl!
Hugs & prayers, Wendy (Northlea United Church)
Wendy Wright
Laval, QC - Saturday, January 14, 2006 10:06 AM CST

Dear Ashley
i am just beside myself after i read your entry. you must be beside yourself too! it was sooooo good to see you the other night. i know you are a fighter! everytime i think of you, i think, thats the girl that can fight! she has the spirit! i want to give you the biggest bear hug ever! please know that i am thinking of brian, and your family too.
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 4:23 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
I don't know what to say!! I am so sorry that you didn't get better news but please just keep on holding on and fighting!! We are going to get our miracle and something has got to work soon!! I love you and I am so mad that this is happening to you, my sweet precious Ashley!!

Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , BC Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 3:55 AM CST

Dear Ash,
I am soo soooo sorry that you didn't receive better news! Of course my heart sank when I read the news. I am angry that you are yet again facing this GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! flkjads;lkjf;lkjasdfasdj;kl

Thank God for Dr. Barnett. I am so glad he seems to have a plan in place, or at least knows what steps to take right now. You said he has HOPE, and so do we. I know you are in good hands there.

*****HUGS HUGS HUGS******
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 3:27 AM CST

Dear Sweet Ashley:

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, as you get through this difficult time. You have my full support for anything I can help you with. You've got the best doctors, family, & friends on your side. You are truly an amazing individual and your inner strength, courage, and determination will carry you through this challenging phase, as it has in the past. Keep on swimming and keep on believing dearest Ashley! We're all praying for you and your family with all our power, and with the full determination of getting our prayers answered.

Love you lots, with all my heart,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Saturday, January 14, 2006 1:36 AM CST

May the healing light of Christ fill you and heal all of your wounds. My prayers are with you:)
Alison Wainwright
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 1:29 AM CST

Your dad long ago sent me an email and told me you had written on your white board in the hospital "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much." For some reason that has stuck with me throughout your journey and if anybody can handle this I believe it is you. Thinking of you and praying for you.
sandra boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
poco, bc - Saturday, January 14, 2006 0:56 AM CST

Ashley,
I'm thinking of you and praying that your doctors will select a chemo treatment that will rid you of the cancer once and for all. Keep your chin up!

Terri Colclough <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA USA - Saturday, January 14, 2006 0:50 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
You face this heavy news with such courage that you are an example to everyone who knows you. Our prayers are with you and Brian and all the family and all the medical wisdom and caring that we know surrounds you.And we look forward with hope to better news very soon. May God bless you on this journey, with love, Eleanor and John
Eleanor O'Neill <keoneill@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, January 14, 2006 0:02 AM CST

Enjoy your dinner together. We love you, Ashley. See you this weekend.

All my Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, January 13, 2006 10:11 PM CST

Another battle...but you'll do fabulously, and kick it for good! Always in my prayers, I love you tonnes. Love to your amazing family. You guys definatly don't deserve this...no one does...but definatly not you guys.
kisses
Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 13, 2006 8:21 PM CST

Draga moja princeska!

RADA TE IMAM!!! ZELO ZELO!
Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija - Friday, January 13, 2006 5:33 PM CST

My precious, precious girl,
I'm thinking about you and sending you all the strength and hope I have so that you can get through the next few days!!! I, like so many other people I'm sure, am praying for negative results from the bone marrow biopsy!!

I love you sweetie,
Sara
Sara <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Friday, January 13, 2006 12:08 AM CST

My Dear Ashley
When times are tough the tough get going! You must have heard this many times as you certainly know how to do it. Keep up your spirits and know my love and thoughts are with you always Love Grandma xoxoxox
Eileen Brear
Laval, P.Q Canada - Friday, January 13, 2006 11:21 AM CST

Dear Ashley,

You don't know me but I feel fortunate to feel like I know you. I found your caring page through another person's and I want you to know that I'm always checking on you. You seem to handle things so courageously and with humor and grace. Your life is touching so many others- all the way to Texas! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lisa Korinek <lkorinek@austin.rr.com>
Austin, TX - Friday, January 13, 2006 3:18 AM CST

Dearest Ashley:

You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope and pray for negative bone marrow biopsy results, a rapid recovery, and a huge celebration for your return to a happy and healthy life. Amen! :-)

With lots of love & hugs,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Thursday, January 12, 2006 7:49 PM CST

Ashley,
We are thinking of you and praying for the best. You are truly an inspiration to anyone. We only met once, however, your smile and strength made a lasting impression. Your journal is a powerful message.
Take care
Loreen & Gary Bosse
Laval & Boston, ma United States - Thursday, January 12, 2006 1:54 PM CST

It was sooooo good to see you tonight, Ashley. What a gift.

We need more group hugs!!

I love you. Sleep well.

Be well.

Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, January 12, 2006 3:18 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
holding you up in prayer, especially today as you endure another horrific bone marrow biopsy. :(

I assume you won't be able to make the YACN meeting tonight, but I know you will be included in the circle and we will all be sending you warm thoughts!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 6:31 PM CST

Ashley,

Prayers to you from Richmond-land. This is a difficult time but many of us are with you in spirit. I pray that you will find some answers soon. I pray for your family as they wait with you and support you along the way. Love, Kerry
Kerry Child <kerrychild@telus.net>
Richmond, Canada - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 2:59 PM CST

Hi Ashley...We are praying that this is just an infection! I will be thinking about you all week! Why does it take so long for results?! Just try and keep occupied. I'm sure Brian and your wonderful family are good at keeping your spirits up. You guys will get through this, keep beleiving!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 11:23 AM CST

The uncertainty is awful. Keep up the courage. We're with you in spirit and prayers!
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 11:05 AM CST

Thinking of you and your family today and wishing all of you stength and courage and peace as you go through this very difficult time of waiting for answers. Loving wishes to you all
Liz Schumann <schu58vp@sympatico.ca>
toronto, On Cda - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 7:13 AM CST

Ashley,

I'm lighting a rosequartz candle for you right now. Calling all angels for you. May they cover you with their healing wings and keep you safe and protected.

In light and love and healing,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, January 11, 2006 2:11 AM CST

Ashley,
Scott and my prayers are totally with you as well as the prayers from my family and my church. I pray that you get some answers but keep up your positive attitude no matter what happens. I love you and I'm thinking of you always.
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 9:57 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
We'll be thinking of you today at your Doctor's appointment and we're sending you positive, positive, vibes. Keep strong Ashley.
Debbbie Gibson
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 9:23 AM CST

Ashley,

We are all thinking of you at ballet! I was playing cranium on new year's eve and I had to act "Riverdance". I was thinking of our good old days in Irish class!! Congratulations to your sister; what an amazing accomplishment. You must be so proud! You remain in my prayers always.
Ingrid
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 0:31 AM CST

I love you, Ashley!! (enormous hug)

Alex
Alex <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Montreal, - Monday, January 9, 2006 11:43 PM CST

Dear Ash,
I am saying prayers for the wisdom and expertise of the doctors on the Lymphoma Team tomorrow and for you, your mom and dad, Heidi, Andrew and Brian as you wait for their assessment and advice tomorrow afternoon. I was thinking about the "Footprints" poem this evening. I'm sure that this is one of the very difficult times in your life where there would be just one set of footprints on the beach because you are being carried in God's arms and loving care. I am praying that these fevers will subside and that your body will recover its strength and that there'll soon be two sets of footprints on the beach again and that you'll be back to your hilarious self and making us all laugh again. By the way, your writing and the way you express yourself is really fantastic. I think one of your goals is to become a teacher and also a make-up artist extraordinare (excuse spelling!!!), but I think you should consider writing as part of your future goals too. You have a gift for it.
Love and hugs, Maureen.

Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Monday, January 9, 2006 10:31 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
All the girls that I work with at school LOVED your pecan squares that you made for them and they asked me to tell you. I loved them too, they make a great breakfast!! Tobi tells me that she misses you and Brian...woof,woof
All my love, Daphne
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
- Monday, January 9, 2006 6:34 PM CST

Dear Ashley
My prayers are with you constantly and my thoughts too.You must keep up the good fight and look to the future as you have many years ahead of you. All my love Grandma xoxoxoxox

EileenBrear
Laval, PQ Canada - Monday, January 9, 2006 1:29 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
So glad to hear you could go home for the night!! You will always feel better at home than you do in a hospital. Taking care of your psychie is SO important. Focus on the next pass for home and we will continue to focus on praying for no fever!! We're with you in spirit Ashley!

kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Monday, January 9, 2006 11:55 AM CST

Hi Ashley, Thanks for keeping us updated. This must be so hard for you and your family. We are sending prayers your way and you are always in our thoughts. Hang in there!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Monday, January 9, 2006 10:50 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
You have the prayerful support of your brothers and sisters at Northlea United Church in Laval, Quebec. We love you and ask God to bless you and your family with strength & courage.
Wendy Wright MacKenzie <wen518@hotmail.coom>
Laval, QC Canada - Monday, January 9, 2006 7:10 AM CST

my dear,
i can't wait until this crazy start to the year is just a long-ago story that we tell to our grandkids, and that they think is such a wild exageration... like when my father says that he used to walk up hill 10 miles to school each day in the snow.
i'm thinking about you all the time, and praying to God with every name people use to refer to the sacred. and though i know you know, it's always nice to have a reminder... that you are so loved. and your journey is one that i and we are honored to be part of.
and though feeling terrified sucks, maybe it's better than not feeling anything at all? you get to enjoy the highs and lows of life in such vivid colors.
i'm rambling. but i love you. and will talk to you soon.
chris
Christine Boyle <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, January 9, 2006 1:27 AM CST

Hang in there, Ash. Prayers, prayers and more prayers. Sending ya love across town! :)

Sleep well and be well. You are a miracle to me. I am humbled by your strength and faith and honesty.

Hang in there for art therapy! We need ya.

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, January 9, 2006 1:21 AM CST

Ashley, we are standing with you in this latest battle you're facing... we send you strength and hope and determination... and our love.
The Motuts <bpmotut@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Monday, January 9, 2006 1:19 AM CST

Hugs and prayers across the miles....
Hughena Baker <shbaker@nb.sympatico.ca>
Rothesay, NB - Monday, January 9, 2006 0:30 AM CST

Thinking and praying for you ! big hug for you ! xoxo
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Sunday, January 8, 2006 2:51 PM CST

Ashley,
I have a son who finished treatment for Hodgkin's in October. It's a long, hard road. You have made it through many tough times and you'll make it through this. Try not to let your fear of the unknown affect your positive attitude. You are an inspiration to us all. I am praying for you! Keep your chin up.
Terri Colclough <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA 70769 - Sunday, January 8, 2006 9:01 AM CST

I'm thinking about you and sending so much love and healing thoughts your way every minute of every day!!!
Love ya sweetie,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Saturday, January 7, 2006 6:36 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
It has been a long time since I have viewed your site. I am so terribly sorry to hear of Margarets passing but am thankful that she is now with the angels and at peace.
May your strength and grace carry you through your latest challenge. I say a prayer for you each night and hope that the guardian angel my sister and I gave you at the chemo party does all for you that it did for my Mom (who by the way is doing REALLY REALLY well!!!!)
With warm thoughts and good wishes from Ontario.
Beth (Ann Forwards daughter)

Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Saturday, January 7, 2006 4:50 PM CST

Stay strong and positive Ashley!
christina <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC - Saturday, January 7, 2006 2:59 PM CST

i love you ash...as always, you're in my prayers.
many germ free kisses!
Cindy
Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
north vancouver, bc canada - Saturday, January 7, 2006 11:08 AM CST

Dear Ashley, I pray you can feel God's love wrapping you in warmth and light, hugging you and giving you courage and strength. God does not give us things like this, but when they happen God is with us every step of the way. I'm sure you know that, but sometimes it is helpful to be reminded of that truth. I read through the messages sent to you in the past day. It is wonderful to read because I can hear God's love being poured out to you through so many people. Rest in that love and grow strong and well. You and Brian and your family are all in my prayers. Love, Sharon.
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, January 7, 2006 1:01 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
Another rough time...but God must know that you are going to make through this one, too. I don't know why He keeps challenging you and your family again and again and I must be honest, I'm angry!! But I believe in your inner strength and all the love and support you are surrounded by will keep you afloat and swim through these rough waves!
With lots of hugs and love,
Manako, Andrew, Sarah, Kimberly and Austin <carmaria101@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:31 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I am keeping you in my thoughts. I'll send you some positive energy. :) You're an amazing woman.
Enya <freyja2180@aol.com>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:23 PM CST

Hi Ashley
Another tough period to work through. We're pulling awful hard for here in Calgary. All our love, prayers and best wishes.

Dave & Sue <dlday@telus.net>
Calgary, - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:05 PM CST

Hi Ashley, you are in our thought and prayers as you bravely struggle with this yoke.
Dennis and Suzanne Pavlich <pavlich@telus.net>
Vancouver, - Friday, January 6, 2006 10:43 PM CST

Our Dear Ashley,

Trust that you are always in our thoughts and prayers. You have to believe that this is just another bump in the road. That is what we will believe and we'll keep praying.
Lots of hugs and kisses for you and let us know if there is anything that you need or anything that we can do.
Debbie, Travis, Taylor
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Friday, January 6, 2006 10:21 PM CST

Hi, Ashley. Prayers and hugs. Love, Diana
Diana Hicks
Black Creek, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 9:11 PM CST

Ashley you are in my prayers :)
Alison Wainwright <alie35@hotmail.com>
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 7:43 PM CST

Ashley,
You are constantly in our prayers. Close your eyes and feel the positive energy from all those who love you and believe in your cure. You are so loved and even though your're feeling anxious and scared...know that so many people, including ourselves, are praying for you each and every day. God is listening. Hang tough! We love you, Ashley!
xoxo
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 7:08 PM CST

Ashley,

You are in our thoughts and prayers!
Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 6:09 PM CST

Ashley and Brian,
Praying that God's Peace will bring you rest in this "waiting" time... that God's Hope will continue to sustain you... and that God's Healing Love will comfort and strengthen you. Praying that the Love you have for each other, and the Love and Prayers shared in this place, will continue to bless you both through all of this.
With great appreciation Ashley for the open way in which you share your journey with us.
Peace and Blessings...
Rob
Rob Pollock <robpamp@telus.net>
Vancouver's West End, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 6:00 PM CST

Hi Ashley! i just got an email today from Leah telling us what has happened.. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and have started up a prayer chain... prayer has definately helped me in some difficult times... I pray this is just an infection that will clear up soon.. and you will continue your healing journey.
Allison Prinsen <allisonprinsen@hotmail.com>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 5:21 PM CST

Ashley, hang in there and know that our thoughts are with you always. You are the best.
Much love Toni, James, Alex and Tyler xxxxx
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 3:29 PM CST

Our prayers, as always, are with you! We pray for your awesome strength to prevail! Our prayer also go out to your family and close friends! Lots of love, Erica
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 2:19 PM CST

Dear Ashley - You most certainly have been in our thoughts and prayers every day. We were so thrilled to enjoy Boxing Day with you and your family at Nicole's birthday. Ever since you were born we've been together then, and its such a special part of the Christmas Season. We know you were not feeling so good that day, but we want you to know how beautiful you were in our eyes - a beautiful person inside and out. So, dear Ashley, be strong and brave and feel the power of all who pray for you.

Much love to you and all your family, including Brian.
Helen and Nis xxx
Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
NORTH VANCOUVER, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 12:47 AM CST

Dear Ashley,

Our prayers for you, Brian and your family continue...and if possible are even being ramped up. We pray that you will continue to be able to call on the incredible strength within you to overcome yet another hurdle in your healing journey.

May God comfort and sustain all of you through these difficult day.

In Jesus love, Ken and Lizz
Lizz Lindsay
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 12:23 AM CST

Bubba, you are in my prayers, always, as is your family. Keep believing, hold onto that amazing positive spirit you have, let yourself rest in the love and support of God and others, as you rest and heal. You are strong and we believe in you!! And . . . . plan something wild and crazy "Ashley style" to focus your energy on hope! love you, Jen
Jen and Ian Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 12:03 AM CST

Ashley,
Please keep up your daunting courage and resilience.
I pray that with the help of G-d and the wonderful medical people,your loving family and enourmous support network that you will get through this difficult time too. Good luck. love, Sheila
Sheila Raven
Toronto, Ont Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:53 AM CST

Ashley,

I have been checking in on you for sometime now. You are such a strong, positive person and always an inspiration to me. Sending many, many, many prayers your way for only good news!

Jill
Buffalo, NY USA - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:41 AM CST

Ashley,
My prayers and many good thoughts are with you and your family at this time. Your dad has kept me up to date on your ups and downs for the past few years. Each and every time he gives me the updates, I am so amazed at the courage, strength, and positive attitude that you have demonstrated. I wish you continued courage and strength and hope that you continue to shine throughout this ordeal.
Thinking of you, Catherine Black
Catherine Black
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 11:03 AM CST

Ash and Family:
Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. This is not cancer; this is not cancer; this is not cancer. Thinking of you.

Nancy Dekanich and Family <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 9:35 AM CST

Sweet Ashley,

I have been thinking about you everyday and I just wanted to let you know that I'm sending my love and healing vibes to you all the time . Please let your mum, dad, Heidi, Andrew and Brian (who I've still yet to meet!) know that I'm thinking of them too. You are all strong and amazing people.

Love Sarah
Sarah O'Hagan
Glasgow , Scotland - Friday, January 6, 2006 7:55 AM CST

Dearest Ashley
been thinking and looking at your caringbridge journal everyday checking on your status...i am so sorry you have to go thru this horrible wait and ordeal...my heart and mind (as well as my mum's and dad's)are with you, your family and brian...all of you are so amazing.
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 6:00 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
Being in limbo, waiting for news, can be one of the hardest and most challenging times faced in life. As usual you are doing it with so much love and compassion, thinking about your family and Brian all the while!!! There is SO much that I admire about you and learn from you every day, it just blows me away. YOu, your family, and Brian are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that you get good news tomorrow!! Keep Swimming dear girl and feel the warmth of all the love being sent to you from across the country!!
I love you!!
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 2:08 AM CST

We are stunned to read this today, and keep you in our prayers, picturing you surrounded by a halo of light and God's love. With love, Eleanor and John
Eleanor O'Neill <keoneill@shaw.ca>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 1:41 AM CST

My thoughts and hopes for it not to be the cancer again are very much with you and your family.All my very best--thinking of you,
Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra , BC Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 1:10 AM CST

Dear Sweet Ashley:

I hope and pray that you get good news soon and that all your worries will be replaced with joy and happiness. I'm sending you and your family lots of positive healing energy. Remember you're in good care and surrounded by so many people's love and prayers.

Hang in there sweetie and keep thinking positive.

With lots of love and a huge hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Friday, January 6, 2006 0:35 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,

You and your whole family are in my prayers right now, sending courage, strength, and peace your way.

Blessings and much love, Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 0:18 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
John, Nicole and I are all saying prayers for you tonight. It must be so hard waiting for answers for so long. We pray that the doctors will have some happy answers tomorrow. Please give our love to your mom and dad and to Heidi, Andrew and Brian. They are all in our prayers too. We love you all so much.
Love and hugs, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Friday, January 6, 2006 0:10 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

Sean and I are praying for you right now. I just know it will be because of the treatment. I hope you get some good news right away tomorrow! Please keep us posted if you can. We will be thinking of you all day! I hope Brian is doing ok. You're so lucky to have him! He's wonderful! Hang in there.

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Thursday, January 5, 2006 11:50 PM CST

�Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops � at all�
- Emily Dickinson

Dear, dear Ashley

I will not give up hope for you. I want so much for you to be healthy and clear. I am praying day and night as are so many others!! I�ve been lighting candles and trying to send you healing energy. Anything that might help spiritually!

You are such a lovely and beautiful person and a precious friend and I luv ya soooooo much. We all love you!!! I still believe there is a miracle out there for you. Let�s try and reel it in!

That verse of poetry is on display at Trims in the village. The lady who owns the store has a sister who is fighting cancer. So she put this in the window for her and for everyone who is fighting the good fight. I saw it at Christmas and thought of you.

Ashley. Please hold on and hold the line. Just like Buffy (who I still say is your twin!!:) � be strong and kick back the night with your powerful light. I know you have it in you.

Miss Ashelina Ballerina. I can�t wait to see you dance... so you better get better so you can put on the pointes again and do grand jetes all over the place in celebration!! ;)

I'll see if I can visit you this weekend. I still have a birthday present to give you! I just wanna hug you and tell you how special you are and how much you are loved. There is so much divine healing love surrounding you... and within you. I hope you can feel it. You are not alone.

Your whole family and Brian are in my prayers.

May God bless you, Ashley Anne Brear.

Luv,
Your pal,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, January 5, 2006 11:23 PM CST

Hang in there Ash. You are in my prayers, and your family is too. Stormy weather comes often in winter, but soon spring will be here, and you will have new energy and sunshine everyday!
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Thursday, January 5, 2006 11:10 PM CST

Dear Ashley, Today is my birthday and my wish is for you to be well. I wore your "Keep on Swimming" tee shirt to the gym tonight. People often ask me about it and what it stands for. So the word keeps spreading... You are in our prayers. Keep safe. We love you.

Jane ( Leah's Mom)
Jane Callen <jcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Thursday, January 5, 2006 10:37 PM CST

Dear Ashley, I have been thinking about you lots! I am very sorry to hear how scary everything is right now. I know how hard the waiting is. I am keeping you, Brian, and family in my prayers and holding my breath with you.
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Thursday, January 5, 2006 9:47 PM CST

You honour us, Ashley, by sharing as you always have what you are going through and asking for our support. I think of you so often, and I do pray for you and for everyone who cares so much for you. God be with you - IS with you. God's presence in you and around you is so apparent. Praying for good news very soon.
Love
Wendie
Wendie Reinhardt <reinhardtw@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, January 5, 2006 9:44 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
It is so horrible that you have to wait so long but tomorrow will bring good news!! You are so sweet to think of your family and Brian. They are wonderful people just like you!! I love you! Lots of love, Daphne
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, January 5, 2006 8:48 PM CST

Ashley,
I will be thinking and praying for you. Everything is going to be alright.
God Bless
Helen
Helen <kinghornh@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Thursday, January 5, 2006 8:20 PM CST

Ashley, all of my prayers & love are going out to you tonight. I hope the waiting time goes quickly and any news you receive is good news. xxoo
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, January 5, 2006 7:27 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I'm so sorry to hear about the infection and hoping the antibiotics will kick some major butt!! I just wanted to send you lots of positive thoughts and energy. Wanting to let you know that you are always in my prayers and thoughts. :)

It's a new year and I know you will accomplish all your new year's resolutions since you are such an amazing, strong and courageous woman!! :)

Lots of love,
Kat
Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, January 4, 2006 10:38 AM CST

Ashley,

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I received an email today asking me to pray for you, you have a lot of people that love you and care for you. The power of prayer is a wonderful blessing.
Mirtha <mirtha12@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 8:36 PM CST

Oh Ashley, I'm so sorry!! I hope the antibiotics are doing their thing! Let me know if you can have visitors. We're praying for you!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 10:52 AM CST

Dear Ashley,
I join hundreds of others in holding you in my thoughts and prayers as this day dawns. We have not met but through Leah and Jane plus many others at Highlands I have learned of you and your amazing, loving family.
With love,
Phyllis

Phyllis Ferguson Bottomer <phyl_ferg@yahoo.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 6:06 AM CST

Ashley, thinking and praying for your infection to heal soon. Many of us are with you in spirit!
Kerry Child <klchild@shaw.ca>
- Monday, January 2, 2006 2:21 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

Hang in there, sweetie! Before you know it, your 7 days of IV antibiotics will be over and you'll be heading home, IV-free! :-) Keep thinking positive; you've been through so much already, this is small in comparison! But I hear you, it's not easy to be in the hospital. I'm sending you a huge bundle of positive healing energy and hope that the next few days will fly by quickly and that you will be completely infection-free and feeling great and strong very soon! Just remember, YOU WILL clear this infection, YOU WILL get out of the hospital, YOU WILL get cured, and YOU WILL definitely be as fit and as beautiful as ever! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) ... oh and of course YOU WILL write a book about it to inspire and motivate everyone! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Dear Sweet Ashley, I completely believe in you and I know that YOU CAN DO IT!!!

With lots of love & best wishes for a happy and healthy 2006 and beyond,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Monday, January 2, 2006 2:55 AM CST

OH crap. I was hoping you were just in for day treatments and I see that's not the case. awwwwwwwww! bahhh! & i hate having to put the IV bags through sleeves to get changed.. there need to be PJ tops with button sleeves. Wouldn't that make everything easier?
If you are up for any visits, let me know.. I'd love to come by (and I have your present). If you're up for it, please let me know where you're staying (VGH or BCCA?) and what floor...
hope those antibiotics are kicking butt by now!! Love you!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Monday, January 2, 2006 2:17 AM CST

I'm one of your "cyber-stalker friends" wishing you well. I hope that 2006 will bring you good health and continued happiness!
Sarah <Tamura@alltel.net>
NC USA - Sunday, January 1, 2006 10:29 AM CST

Hey Ashley I'm sure you'll meet all your 2006 goals plus many more because you are amazing. So sorry that you are in the hospital but I hope you just relax and rest and let the antibiotics do their thing because you have many many more days of celebration ahead of you. Thinking of you and praying with you.
The Boleaks <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, December 31, 2005 2:43 PM CST

Hi Ashley! It was so great to see you guys the other night! You look great! I'm so sorry you had to see that endocrinologist! He is aweful!! Terrible bedside manner! Don't let him get you down, I think he's just a negative guy, and doesn't like to give people hope! If you find a good one let me know! I hope you're feeling better today! I'm sorry you have to be back at the hospital again. You've been through alot! And still you keep smiling! You're quite a lady!!

I hope you had a great Christmas, and wish all the best of health to you and your family for the new year! 2006 will be our year!!!!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Saturday, December 31, 2005 1:31 PM CST

Hope the infection clears quickly so you can go home!
Diana <Diana893@gmail.com>
Dallas, TX - Saturday, December 31, 2005 11:25 AM CST

Hi Ashley, Sorry to hear you are not well at present. Hopefully all very temporary and you will be ringing in the New Year "Ashley style" I wish good health for you.
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Thursday, December 29, 2005 10:21 PM CST

hey sunshine,
i'm sorry to hear that you're feeling crappy. soon it will be next year, and you can make sure doctor barnett's new-years resolution is for you to not feel crappy anymore.
i am leaving town tomorrow mornin' for a couple days. but will be back for the young adult worship on the 1st, at ryerson. so if i don't talk to you before i go, hopefully i will see you there?!
i love you a lot, and will spend my travel-time visualizing you being healthy and getting facials, and dancing to country music at the roxy.
xoxo chris
christine
vancouver, - Thursday, December 29, 2005 5:17 PM CST

NOT E.COLI!!! Awww! I know the pain you're in, and it's NOT fun :(. Get better soon sweets! I know you're bummed about being in the hospital...but soon you'll be better! love you!
Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC CANADA - Thursday, December 29, 2005 4:27 PM CST

Praying for you bubba! May you feel God's arms embracing you and may love and healing overflow.

love, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Thursday, December 29, 2005 2:33 PM CST

Sorry to hear about your infection Ashley! Remember the line your doctor said about you being miserable and him happy. Hopefully this is just the GVH still working to kick the tumours butt!! Hang in there. We're still saying daily prayers for you. We believe in your cure!
Love you! xoxo
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Thursday, December 29, 2005 7:57 AM CST

oh ashley
i am sorry to hear that you have an infection, and have to have IV antibiotics (we both know how much your veins like getting poked!). hope you will feel well again fast! thinking of you and wishing you all good things for the new year!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, December 29, 2005 6:53 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
Sorry to hear you're not feeling too well, but we know you will kick this infection's butt with all of your strength and faith. Little Grace sends her love and wants you to know she says "God Bless Ashley" in her prayers every night.

Love Andria, Chris & Grace
The Haines Family <hainesy@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, December 29, 2005 1:09 AM CST

oh NO i'm sorry to hear you were summoned to the hospital, yuck is right... poor girl, I hope you get out soon, I hate those IV antibiotics too!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Wednesday, December 28, 2005 10:52 PM CST

I'm sorry that you are feeling crappy!!!! Know that there are so many people thinking about you and hoping that you feel better really soon!!! Hang in there sweetie!!!
I'm here for you if you need anything at all!!!
Love you,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, December 28, 2005 7:55 PM CST

Ashley,

Hang in there, amiga. Prayers of love and healing and strength coming your way always, and especially as you cope with what's happening today.
Love Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Wednesday, December 28, 2005 6:52 PM CST

Dear Ashley, Just dropping in to wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas. My wish for you for 2006 is a HEALTHY one. Sounds like everything is on the right road for you right now. Keep it up. Best wishes
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, December 26, 2005 5:38 PM CST

Merry Christmas Ashley to you and your family!!!
I said a prayer for you last night at church and I am truly hoping that this Christmas finds you feeling well and brings you lots of happiness!!
I'm sending so much love your way!!! Big hugs!!!
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Sunday, December 25, 2005 11:27 AM CST

Merry Christmas Eve Ashley! You are surely in our thoughts today and we're hoping you are feeling great over the next couple of days to enjoy the celebrations! A moody endocrinologist...go figure!!! Put him in his place and move on! We love you so much...enjoy all your company! xoxo
kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Saturday, December 24, 2005 7:44 AM CST

Dearest Ashley:

Just a little note to wish you and your family a merry Christmas and a very happy and prosperous new year. May 2006 bring you much joy, good health, and everything that your beautiful heart desires. Take good care & keep up the great work.

With lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin :-)
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, December 23, 2005 5:05 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

We will keep you in our prayers. Remember, it doesn't matter whether your face is puffy or whether you are having mood swings, to all that know and love you, you are still the same beautiful Ashley. All the best and have a wonderful Christmas!.
Debbie, Travis and Taylor
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Thursday, December 22, 2005 11:06 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
Stu was so pleased to speak with you the other evening...will get in touch with your mom later on.
Yesterday was his final day of work at JDI - he is now retired. Today they had a lovely party for him and a lot of people in his office building were there, as well as Daphne, Camryn and I. Paul works in the same building anyway. It is great to hear that things are going so well for you these days.
Hope you and all have a wonderful Christmas!

Hughena Baker <shbaker@nb.sympatico.ca>
Rothesay, NB Canada - Thursday, December 22, 2005 8:23 PM CST

Thinking of you Bubba and giving God thanks for the day you were born! Hoping to connect with you for tea over the holidays! May this holy season be full of hope, peace, joy and love for you and your family!

love and blessings, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
- Wednesday, December 21, 2005 11:34 PM CST

Hello Ashley,
Still keeping up with your progress through the website. Hang in there and keep up the positive attitude! You are a real inspiration.
Terri, Mom of Casey, diagnosed with Hodgkin's on 3/17/05 and two months post-chemo and radiation <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA USA - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 10:14 PM CST

Happy 22nd birthday Ashley. It is wonderful to hear how Healing Touch has helped you. I have had some healing touch over the past few years but need to get back to it. I was also in Spirit Singers and have been away from them far tooo long. Take care and keep shining.
Thora Rogers <thora.mike@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Monday, December 19, 2005 11:07 PM CST

Hi Ashley! Happy Belated Birthday!! I'm so sorry I'm late! My dog passed away and I've been in a bit of a rut. I'm so glad you're doing so well! I've read the updates on you from Leah. I hope we can get together soon! Send me an e-mail, maybe we can do it this week!

Take Care!
Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Sunday, December 18, 2005 7:04 PM CST

Diana <Diana893@gmail.com>
Dallas, TX - Sunday, December 18, 2005 0:47 AM CST

Happy Belated Birthday Ashley!!!

Its wonderful to hear you sounding so good!! Birthdays and Christmas's are big milestones! Enloy all of the Christmas fun and movies.

Birthday Blessings...
Rob Pollock <robpamp@telus.net>
Vancouver's West End, BC Canada - Friday, December 16, 2005 6:37 PM CST

Ashley,
happy bday! i'm a stranger that came upon your site and now am hooked! you are so adorable and full of life. my bday is december 18th and its also my 4 year anniversary of my breast cancer diagnosis.( i was 31).
i know its such a big difference being diagnosed at your age. i still felt SO young though.
your a strong, cute, funny girl..i don't even know you. it all comes thru on your writing..
hang in there girl!
kristi

Kristi Collins <yellowvlkswgn@hotmail.com>
Margate, NJ - Friday, December 16, 2005 5:06 PM CST

Happy Birthday Ashley,
You look great,Im glad you had such a wonderful day.
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Thursday, December 15, 2005 5:12 PM CST

Happy birthday, Ashley! You made it!

From a snowy cold Toronto!
Liz Schumann <schu58vp@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, Ontario, Canada - Thursday, December 15, 2005 6:52 AM CST

Happy Belated Birthday...I hope you had a wonderful day (it looks like you did)! Keep strong!
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 15, 2005 1:48 AM CST

Hey Birthday Girl :-)

Belated Happy Birthday! :-) Sounds like you had a super time. Here's wishing you many many many many many many many more happy, healthy years ahead! Take good care dear Ashely and keep up the great work and the wonderful spirit. YOU ROCK!!! :-)

With lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin :-)
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, December 14, 2005 2:46 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!!!!

Your birthday celebration sounded wonderful. You actually share your birthday with my Mom and naturally her twin. So glad to hear that you are happy, enjoying life and getting stronger everyday. Soon that mountain you are climbing won't seem so high! Wishing you and your family a wonderful Christmas Ashley and may the New Year be everything you wish for.

Debbie, Travis, Taylor Gibson
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, December 14, 2005 11:57 AM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO YOU!!
YOU SMELL LIKE SHAMPOO!!
YOUR LIP GLOSS IS FUNKY!
AND YOUR HAIR LOOKS GOOD TOO!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!! 22!! Thats a big number! So what was the address of the so good "best in the town"? Will it beat my standards?? Find out next on THE CHOCOHOLIC: THE GOOD TASTING PROBLEM!!! I love what you chose to drink at Tims Iced Capp! Very nice choice! My school is having an Anti-Racism contest where we can make a movie about fighting against racism and if you win you get a prize! The best in the school will go to the national contest! The catch is that to have one that can get into the nationals it must be only 60-90 seconds long! For just a school one they can be 90-120 seconds, and me and my friend Jordan entered with a movie which is 64 seconds long! We might go to the nationals!!! I am SO excited!! If I can I will send you a copy! I miss you so much!! I cant wait until Saturday It Is Going To Be A Happy Day!! I am sorry about Gill he was a good fish. I had a fishh who left me at the age of 3 because of Ick which is a fish disease that starts in the tank. I will pray for Lothar and I hope he gets better soon!
I love you lots! xoxo
Paige
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Black Creek, Canada - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 9:56 PM CST

Happy 22nd birthday Ashley!!!
You look amazing and what a great catch in Brian. You look so cute together and in love. Wonderful!
Keep on Swimming....I think that you are getting stronger and stronger and what a blessing that is!
Love & Hugs,
The Johannesen's
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 10:53 AM CST

Happy Birthday Ashley!
I am so glad that you were able to have a day off from the hospital. Enjoy your day! Enjoy your dougnuts!
Kelsey
Kelsey Hanna
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 1:59 AM CST

Happy Birthday Ashley. You have fought long and hard for this day. May the sun shine on you. May the future hold many, many bright days in which you can live out your dreams.
You are in our prayers. God Bless you.
Jane Callen <jcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 0:50 AM CST

to all that are concern i say i have found a helping way to see you thru cemo it works and that is all that matters
robert davis angel ann who you helped thru her first cemo ashley
kitimat bc., - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 0:34 AM CST

PS:

What I really was trying to say is... it's your perseverence, your courage and your faith that made this birthday happen (along with some help from the doctors and angels!). Your birthday is not just a day of celebration. It truly is an accomplishment. A success.

So congratulations on making this day happen! I truly believe you co-created this miracle with God.

Most people don't appreciate their birthdays. It almost seems a negative in this day and age to get a year older.

But you are a shining example to everyone how special being alive is... how we should all thank God for everyday that we and all our loved ones are alive.

So thank you for this gift. It is a precious lesson - you teach us how valuable our own lives are (and all life is) everytime we see you or hear about you. How we shouldn't waste it.

Now hopefully that makes sense. If it doesn't... I blame the painkillers...!! :)

Be happy. Be healthy. Be well.

Most of all... know that you are loved by sooo many people and most of all by God!

Thank you Judy and David for giving us Miss Ashley! We all love her!

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, December 12, 2005 9:29 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SUPERGIRL!!!

You did it! You turned 22! Have a FA-BU-LOUS birthday!!! You've earned every second of it with blood, sweat and tears... most people just get a freebie. They don't know what a gift the birth-day is. We could all learn a lot from you!!

Ash, you truly are a blessing in my life and in all our lives. I luv ya, Donut Eating Girl!

So what time are ya flying off to Vegas tonight to marry Brian??! Hehehehe. ;)

May all your birthday wishes come true, dearest Ashley. You are the Best!!!

HiP hIp HiP HuRrAy! It'S aShLeY aNnE bReAr'S BIRTHDAY!

WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :-]

Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, December 12, 2005 8:56 PM CST

Happy Birthday Ashley!! Have an amazing day! You deserve it! Hopefully see you soon!
love always ally xoxox
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
- Monday, December 12, 2005 7:28 PM CST

Happy Birthday Ashley!
I only recently discovered your journal but have already very much enjoyed sharing your enthusiam and joie de vie. It's contagious! Hugs from Alberta!

Wishing you much peace and happiness
(and donuts if that's part of the recipe!!),
Trish (and Doug, Helena, McKenzie, Dylan) Mills

PS. Congratulations to Heidi!
PSS. Hugs to the rest of the Brears!

Trish <trish.mills@ab.telus.net>
Edmonton, - Monday, December 12, 2005 7:27 PM CST

You did it!!! HAPPY 22nd ASHLEY! I'm so excited for you! I love those pix of you & Brian. I hope the blessings of this day continue on!! see you on Wed :)
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 4:12 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

I've been reading and praying for you for ages (friend of precious Karin's) but had to stop in today to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! Birthdays are always a blessing from the Lord, because we're here, and He's given us another day to glorify Him!

Your positive spirit is unsurpassed, and I sooo enjoy reading your 'journal'.

God bless,

Shelley Hess
Shelley Hess <hessfamily@pacificcoast.net >
North Saanich, B.C. Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 10:32 AM CST

Happy Birthday to YOU, Happy Birthday to YOU, Happy Birthday sweet Ashley....Happy Birthday to YOU!!! (Trust me, you will be so grateful you did not have to actually listen to me sing!)Ask Brian!! On second thoughts...don't ask him!!
I hope your day continues to be the best ever!! We hope to see you later for cake!
Thinking of you always
Love Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Monday, December 12, 2005 10:09 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

I have been checking in on you periodically (you are truly an inspiration!). I just want to wish you a very happy, healthy birthday and many more to come!!!
Jill <jilloxley@netzero.com>
Buffalo, NY USA - Monday, December 12, 2005 9:46 AM CST

Happy Happy birthday Ashley!! We are thinking about you today and are planning on going to Tims and having donuts in your honour! It's a tough sacrifice, but we'll do it just for you! Enjoy your special day!!
kjathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 5:39 AM CST

Happy Birthday Sweet Sweet girl!!!
Big hugs and so much love is being sent across the water to you!!! I hope you have an amazing day!!!
Lots and Lots of Love,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , B.C. Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 3:29 AM CST

oooohhh who's the birthday gurl??? YOU ARE!!!! Happy Birthday!! See you on Wednesday!
huggles!

Christina L
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 2:49 AM CST

Hi Ashley - I know you through Leah, and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Happy B-Day!
Mary Anne Lloyd <greatauntma@yahoo.ca>
N. Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, December 12, 2005 1:35 AM CST

Dear Ashley,

what an amazing kitten photographer you are! Did you ever think of sharing your gold fish in the blog?

I'm a virtual friend of your daddy's - we're in a weekend class together and he is proudly promoting your blog.I've spent some time reading about your courageous healing process and I wish you all the best.
Although stressed by pain and fearing the powerful treatments , you're ready to share with us first of all bright sides of life - this makes it more bearable, also for your loved ones. So many pleasures, friends and huge smiles you manage to fill into your busy life!

yours, Sus

from Denmark
(who was once in Vancouver, and visited the UBC MERlin multimedia lab, went whaling in Tofino and stayed at the Sylvia's hotel at the English Bay! Where they sold a wonderful children's book about a cat who used to live in the hotel, the renowned Mr. Gottogo!)
Sus Nyrop <s.nyrop@os.dk>
Farum, Denmark - Saturday, December 10, 2005 6:12 PM CST

beauty beauty beauty.
lookin gorgeous...
cant wait to see u....and for your birthday.!!!

love u like christmas.
love mel
Melanie.... <mgmcdnl@mta.ca>
- Thursday, December 8, 2005 3:20 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

We are so happy that you are feeling so great. It's definately your turn. Keep up the great attitude and all of your hard work and soon you will have this beat! Always thinking of you.

Debbie, Travis and Taylor
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, December 7, 2005 7:16 PM CST

Do you babysitt doggies?! We may need your services! LOL! I'm not in North Van though! I've passed your name along! Charge big for New Years!! Have a New Years Camp For Kids! I know you could make it fun! I miss you sweetie! When can we see ya!? We love you!!!!

Teresa and Sean

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 2:12 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
I have never signed your guestbook but I have been keeping up with you for the last 6 mos. or so. I decided it was time to do that! You are such an inspiration and a beautiful person, both inside and out. Glad to read that you are feeling well and you are keeping busy. I will check back with you soon. Hope you are having a great week!
Michele
www.caringbridge.org/or/michele
Michele Bowers
Salem, Oregon USA - Monday, December 5, 2005 11:55 PM CST

Alex and the big bad wolf are going to HUFF . . . and PUFF . . . . and BLOW you a kiss!

Love, MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <attnymb@aol.com>
- Sunday, December 4, 2005 7:56 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

You look absolutely gorgeous in the pictures! :-) I'm delighted to hear you're doing well and taking such great control of managing prednisone's side effects. I bet you the drug is now so afraid of you, it'll do exactly as it's told! :-) Way to go Ashley, & keep up the great work!! :-)

Lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Sunday, December 4, 2005 10:28 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
You look just beautiful,And very happy,I just want you to know I think of you often and you are in my thoughts and prayers,
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Friday, December 2, 2005 7:47 PM CST

Ashley: What a beautiful couple. I just bet that you two turned a few heads at the party. Glad to hear that you are doing much better. Keep up the good work. The kittens are adorable but then I'm a cat person. You can keep the snow in Vancouver, but I know that we will be getting plenty before the end of the month. Take care and God Bless. Charlene Nixon
Charlene Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Canada - Thursday, December 1, 2005 9:52 AM CST

Hi Ashley! You look like such a handsome couple! I'm glad you had fun! I hope you're still feeling a bit better each day. Let us know when you're out this way again and feeling better!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 11:48 AM CST

hi Ashley dear,
You are so gorgeous in that dress! Keep up with the good work girl!!!!
Love
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 9:24 AM CST

you look totally hot in your scandalous ball dress!

we should start trying to find more fancy occations to get dressed up, so that you can wear it more!
christine
- Tuesday, November 29, 2005 1:41 PM CST

Wow!!!! You look amazing!!!!!!! Fabulous news about Heidi, she is the best and it's about time others start to see it too!! Love your dress and Brian's hair looks so funky! Keep lifing those weights, it will energise you.
Love you!

kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Monday, November 28, 2005 1:40 PM CST

hi ashley! i know you don't know me but i really look up to you and your doing such a great job!
jennifer
coquitlam, canada - Monday, November 28, 2005 12:13 AM CST

You are such a beautiful person inside and out and our thoughts and prayers are with Heidi as well.
The Boleaks <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
Port Coquitlam, BC - Sunday, November 27, 2005 10:11 PM CST

OmIGosh!!! You are so especially gorgeous in that photo with Brian from the ball! I looove your dress!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Sunday, November 27, 2005 9:27 PM CST

Don't worry about the mood swings...it just makes you even more interesting!!! I'm so glad your mom went with you to the sound therapy...what a wonderful thing! I have always believed in the healing power of music. Keep going!! We're willing to send you PJ for some pet therapy as well. You can keep him as long as you want...honest:)Have a ball at the ball tomorrow. You will look like Cinderella! Dance unitl you lose your glass sliper. Enjoy your night out! We're always cheering you on in spirit!
Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 26, 2005 4:21 PM CST

Hey Ashley,

Just popped by to say hi and I'm glad to hear that they have decreased the prednisone. :) Sending you lots and lots positive thoughts! Stay strong and keep on swimming girl. :)

You're in my thoughts and prayers daily. Hope you have a wonderful time at Brian's Christmas party!! :) I'm sure you'll look and feel like a princess tonight.

Lots of love,
Kat
Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC canada - Saturday, November 26, 2005 4:16 PM CST

Hey Ashley!

Just saw Finding Nemo for the first time on tv! Totally made me cry thinking of you!!! :)

I'm sorry you are having such a rough time with the prednisone. It is a harsh drug to take, I've heard. I hope the pain gets less soon. And it stops making you crazy! Crazy is never good... take it from me!! I totally feel for ya.

Try and keep your focus on the goal. Being well and clear. I know you are. You are amazing. A total miracle.

You just keep on swimming, missy. We're all cheering you on with good healing energy, love energy and prayer energy.

I'm still having a bad reaction to my flu shot. Can't wait til I'm better so I can see ya! Have fun tomorrow at Callanish. It sounds like it's gonna be awesome.

Your kitten is adorable. I want one. Hehehe.

Hang in there, Ash! We all love you!! You are our little Nemo! We just want you all safe and healthy again. :)

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Friday, November 25, 2005 1:16 AM CST

Ash, I just found this fabulous site. It is about rainbows and hope. I thought of you immediately when I saw it. www.inspiringthots.net/movie/g-rainbow.php.
Kathy Andrews <krandrews2003@yahoo.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, November 24, 2005 10:17 AM CST

Hi Ashley,
Just want to drop a note say thank you, my daughter margaret have a good friend like you, you are in our prayer
everyday ,we send you all the Love and strength, keep strong and keep on swimming.

Margaret's Dad
Jack Tse <jacktse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, canada - Thursday, November 24, 2005 3:52 AM CST

sounds like you should come to wellness college with me!

so... i signed you up to recieve an emailed information package. if you don't get it, you might want to check your junk-mail folder :)

i'll call you when i get home!

love love love, chris
christine boyle <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 9:05 PM CST

Hi Ashley!!!!
Paige right here!! I hope you feel better soon. It makes me sad knowing that I am fine and you are on the EVIL DRUGS!!!!! :_( I really hope you feel better soon! How are the kittens! I hope they are ok! Keep fighting girl!!
Paige
Paigey <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Campbell River, Canada - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 8:58 PM CST

Hi Ashley! You and the kitties look so cute! I hope every day gets a bit easier with the Prednisone withdrawl. I remember the eating part!! And I remember the constant cleaning! I was on and off it though, so I wasn't really addicted. It's gotta be tough, but if anyone can make it through this it's you!! Keep pushing through each day, there is a light at the end of the tunnel!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 8:18 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
I don't often write but I think of you so much. It is hard to imagine cancer enriching anyone's life but when I read your story and see how many people are involved in some way, it is quite phenomenal. Your friends and family are a powerful force in your recovery but you are an inspiration to us all. You are always in my prayers and I wish you the very best in this holiday season ahead. Keep on swimming!
Marilyn Hurl <mhurl@cogeco.ca>
Oakville, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 4:16 PM CST

Hey You,
Mom and I have been having a great time together in London (much shopping...too much shopping!!) but I wanted you to know how often we are thinking and talking about you. It seems you're never far from our thoughts. Unless, of course, we're shopping and there's a sale and someone is reaching for that fab skirt that's on sale for only �2 that I just know would fit me perfectly...then our thoughts are on other things, but I'm sure you understand. ;-)
All our love,
Erin + Linda.
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 2:19 AM CST

We're glad that you're cutting down on the prednisone. We are so happy that everything is going so well. We hope the hunger will stop after awhile. We think you're beautiful no matter how many dinners you have! We sure love you!!

david and kathleen <Kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 8:37 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

Hang it there, sweetie! You have every right to be annoyed with prednisone's side effects, but know that you will get through this period and will move on! Keep smiling and keep thinking positive thoughts. Please let me know, if I can help you in any way.

Lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin :-)
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 2:12 PM CST

Ash,
Good luck with the decrease in prednisone. If you don't get rid of the hunger issue at least you will be able to eat tons and tons of christmas dinner and christmas treats, lol. Keep in touch and hang in there, you can battle through this
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 12:36 AM CST

Dear Ashley, I have been following your progress since I met you at the Women of Distinction Awards. I met you again at your fundraiser a number of months ago. Your Dad knows me and we have spoken on a number of occassions. My second daughter Maris has been growing her beautiful long thick red hair for some time and it is now at her waist. It has been her plan to cut it so that the hair can be used for a wig for someone who has had cancer. Your Dad suggested that a fundraiser may be in order. Whadyathink?
Maureen McKeon Holmes
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 12:14 AM CST

Ashley, your journey is a humbling one for me. It is humbling because you have such a spirit of love and courage and faith through it all. I read your journal tonight for the first time since your friend Randy passed away, and I am so sorry for the pain that you have been having, especially the physical pain caused by the prednisone. I'm glad you have had the kitties to help you through (the drugs help too, don't they? :) I had a cat once that had two litters of kitties and watching them grow was a privilege for me. I know how hard it must be for your mum & dad too - whenever Dan & Heather are hurting for some reason it just cuts me up. You can be sure that when I see your Dad next time at church I will give him an extra special hug when we pass the peace. And tonight I am going to say an extra special prayer for your mother's dear dear spirit. I understand how the vision of your own baby was so empowering to you the other night when things were so tough. Being a mother or father is certainly one of the best gifts in the world. I am also going to pray for your baby - the one that isn't born yet, but is going to be!
May God Bless you sweetie, and keep you close to His Heart, every minute of every day. No, every SECOND of every minute of every day! Ashley Brear, you are some amazing lady and I count myself blessed to know you.
Love Kim
Kim Hughes <k.hughes@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:18 AM CST

Ashley,
Your positive attitude is really inspiring. I read about your website through a post by your friend on the Hodgkin's listserve. My son is fighting Hodgkin's, too. Chemo and radiation are terribly HARD. I can only imagine how difficult it is to remain so upbeat when feeling so lousy. Just hang in there and hopefully this will all soon be a distant memory. I'm praying for your full recovery.

Terri <Tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA USA - Monday, November 21, 2005 9:09 PM CST

Hello Ashley, I am always so pleased when I get your Mum's e-mail and hear you are having a good day. You are an inspiration to us all. Love, J'Anne
J'Anne Greenwood <janneg@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Monday, November 21, 2005 11:44 AM CST

hey ashley!
KICK BUTT, GURL!!! YA!!!!!! been thinking about you lately!
thot i would just drop a line!!

Christina L
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, November 21, 2005 0:55 AM CST

I'm glad you're feeling so good! You be careful with that morphine chickie! lol!! Let me know when we can hook up!! I'm so glad Heidi's cells are doing such a good job! You'll be cancer free in no time!! I look forward to your daily updates! Keep us posted!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Monday, November 21, 2005 0:14 AM CST

Hi Ashley!
Just wanted to send you love and support from Hamilton! We read your updates every day and our prayers go out to you HUGE!! It was great seeing your dad and spending a little R&R with him. I am busily selling your wristbands. WE LOVE YOU, hang in there!!!
Aunt Sally <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Sunday, November 20, 2005 9:44 PM CST

Yes, Ash, kick it's butt! Hang in there and the boys look forward to seeing you again!Brave girl!
Much love Toni, James, Alex and Tyler
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, November 20, 2005 5:23 PM CST

Dober dan, princeska!

I just got home from scouting weekend. We had so much fun and kids were great. Oh, and it even snowed for a moment! w00t!
So, it's so nice to hear you're doing well. Of course the kittens are adorable - but are they cooler then my wolf cubs? lol
Ok, i hope your check up tomorrow'll be ok.

RADA TE IMAM!
Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.com>
Slovenija - Sunday, November 20, 2005 4:52 PM CST

Hi Ashley
Paige here Mom just gave woody his first bath and it was...interesting. - laugh - I hope you have a good time with the sushi and the kitties!! That one that looks like woody, is he growing?? Okay got to go
Love you Lots!!
Paigey
Paigey <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Campbell River, Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 7:49 PM CST

Alex is riding by to say Hello and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <attnymb@aol.com>
- Saturday, November 19, 2005 7:35 PM CST

Hi Ashley, So happy to hear you are doing better today. Hang in there Sweetpea. Love Nora.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 7:27 PM CST

"Big" Ash, we have been thinking about you and praying for a speedy recovery. Continue your brave fight. Please give our love to you mom, dad, Andrew and Heidi. A big hug from us to you. Koreen, Makenna and Jacob
Koreen Carl <rkcarl@telus.net>
Maple Ridge, BC Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 5:29 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
I just read through some of the history you've recorded. You have come such a long way, and you are surrounded by so many wonderful friends. I am reminded of your thanksgiving every month at YA worship, always your thanks for the children. I've posted the picture of you holding that precious wee babe on our bulletin board at LVUC, as a preview for the day when you will be snuggling your own baby, "in the fullness of time." Hang on to that vision. I pray that the prednisone withdrawal can be managed so such pain is not necessary again. I know others at the church are also praying for you. Rest and grow strong in the world-wide blanket of love that surrounds you. And when you can, kick up your heels and have fun! God loves you!
Love and blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 2:06 PM CST

Let the morphine work for you and we are praying the pain goes away soon. Picture yourself covered with a warm blanket of love from all those who are with you in spirit right now. Keep on swimming, Ashley....gather strength from you family and friends. We all love you and believe in you!!!
kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 9:53 AM CST

Dear Ash,
so sorry to hear that you were in that much pain, I can't imagine what it must be like for you and your family. I am very glad to read though that you are clearly recovering. You are such a strong woman and a real inspiration. Keep it up. Lots of love and prayers from Aus.
ps that is wonderful news about Colleen!
Lauren Fee
Sydney, NSW Australia - Saturday, November 19, 2005 1:53 AM CST

Ashley, you WILL be an amazing mom!! Hold onto that thought! I'm so sorry you were in so much pain! I'm glad they gave you morphine. Sit back and watch some trashy TV shows and put your feet up. I know you're winning the battle!
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Saturday, November 19, 2005 1:06 AM CST

You looked so great today enen after such a hard night. You are so loving to worry about your family when you are going through so much pain. Once again you prove that you can do it!!! Love you, Daphne
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, November 18, 2005 10:43 PM CST

Ash, hang in there. Know that your doctors are amazing and they will help you get past this pain. Thinking of you and waiting to hear that everything is ok and that the pain goes away.
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Friday, November 18, 2005 1:03 PM CST

Ash,

Hang in there through the pain. Sending extra thoughts of peace and light, and prayers of love and healing your way today. Know you are being held by many.
Losta love, Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, - Friday, November 18, 2005 11:11 AM CST

Ash,

Hang in there through the pain. Sending extra thoughts of peace and light, and prayers of God's love and healing your way today. Know you are being held by many.
Losta love, Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC - Friday, November 18, 2005 11:11 AM CST

I am so happy for your happiness and sudden burst of energy!!! Enjoy every second of it. Congratulations to you and Brian for 6 wonderful months of being together even though it's been quite rough! Love the pictures. We're so excited for Colleen!! Keep the good news coming! Love you!!

Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Friday, November 18, 2005 7:15 AM CST

YAY!! The liver counts are still going down...More good news!!!!! See I can post twice in one day too!!!
Big hugs
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Thursday, November 17, 2005 3:34 PM CST

Hey Ash...you looked very good yesterday out of your sweatpants hehe. Hopefully the energy stays with you...we've got a wedding to plan!!
Love you, hope you're doing FANTASTIC today :)
Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, November 17, 2005 1:32 PM CST

It brings so much joy to my heart to hear that you are having a good day!!! You deserve oh so many more!! Congratulations on the six month mark!!! I am so glad that you have Brian and so many other people to love you, it makes all the difference!!! Enjoy the energy today and know you are in my thoughts and heart!! I love you!!
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Thursday, November 17, 2005 11:18 AM CST

Ashley I love your wig! The last picture of you looks like me!! We will be long and blonde again one day!LOL!! I am so glad you're feeling better. I'm glad you're posting more often too, cause I worry about you when I don't hear. It's a gorgeous blue sky day today! I hope you can get out and enjoy it! I can't wait til you're feeling well enough to come and walk doggies with me! Have a great day!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, British Columbia Canada - Thursday, November 17, 2005 10:40 AM CST

Hi Ashley, I hope that day 102 has been a good day... Sunshine, kittens, beautiful roses, lots of love just oozing into all the cracks and corners of your place and filling you up, coming from all over the world, filling you with strength, healing, energy and peace... and pain getting less and less till there is no more pain!!! My prayers are for things to happen as they should to bring you back to full and lasting health. Love and blessings, Sharon.
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, November 17, 2005 0:05 AM CST

Hi Ashley - I've been checking your site for quite while now, I don't even remember how I found it. I'm not sure if I've ever signed the guestbook but wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS on DAY #100!! You are in my thoughts and I pray that things continue to get better for you!
Tammy (www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove) <tammy@allen-graham.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 3:11 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
Yippee for Day 100 but we're officially now on Day 102. :p Glad to hear you had a little celebration to mark such a special day. :) The pics of Grace are so sweet and I love those kitties. Pets have that special sixth sense of knowing when to cuddle. :) Hoping the pain is managable. T3's caused me to be a little loopy but they were enjoyable.:) I'm also relieved to hear your counts were down.

Just wanted to let you know I think about you daily and am praying for the pain to go away.

Lots of love,
Kat
Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 4:10 AM CST

Congratulations for Day 100!!!
I wish you lots of good health and of happiness.
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Tuesday, November 15, 2005 6:03 AM CST

DAY 100!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Congratulations, Supergirl! What an accomplishment.

Hallelujah! :)

Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Monday, November 14, 2005 11:24 PM CST

Hello Sweet Ashley:

Happy Day 101!!! Yeah, you're going strong, and are already on your way to being tapered off prednisone! That's pretty good, I say. Here's to no pain, lots of strength, and great healing on its way! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Love you and sending you lots of sunshine,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Monday, November 14, 2005 10:58 PM CST

That's totally awesome! Day 100!! We are all thinking of you and sending you strength!
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC - Monday, November 14, 2005 8:29 PM CST

Hi Ashley,

Happy 100!! What a milestone, it's amazing how fast time zips by. Glad your feeling a little better and hope you feel 100% soon. Always thinking of ya.

Debbie, Travis, Taylor
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Monday, November 14, 2005 8:07 PM CST

Hey Ash,
It's so great to hear you're doing better. It's wonderful that you hit day 100 and were feeling well enough to celebrate the day, its a big mark! All my love to you and from my family as well, we're all thinking of you.
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Van, Canada - Monday, November 14, 2005 7:53 PM CST

yeah!!! day 100!!!!! wooooooooohooooo!!!
i see you are getting plenty of snuggle bunnies (or i should say snuggle kitties!!!) it is very healing! so i'll send you more snugglies your way!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, November 14, 2005 7:06 AM CST

Just think, Day 100 has come and gone. Next thing is that the cancer will be gone!! I hope the pain will subside and you will start feeling better. Lots of love, Daphne
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, November 13, 2005 11:23 PM CST

Great news Ashley, I guess this is the road your body needs to take to heal. I saw your mom today at Safeway, she is an amazing woman and friend. You have so many of her qualities. Don't you just love "MOMS". Thinking of you all of the time knowing that the e-mail we have all been waiting for from your Mom is just around the corner, with geat news!!!!!!
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Sunday, November 13, 2005 8:06 PM CST

Hey Ashley! I just wanted to let you know that I am constantly thinking of you and sending you my love all the way across the Atlantic Ocean, over the rocky East coast, through the Great Lakes, across the Prairies, up, up and over the Rocky Mountains, and back down to the West coast, just for you! I've said it before and I'll say it again: you are a true fighter and an inspiration to many. It's hard to read that you are in so much pain but I know you're going to send this cancer running...running far far away!
Sarah O'Hagan
Glasgow, Scotland, - Sunday, November 13, 2005 3:06 PM CST

Oh geez.. poor Ashley! That is horrible that you are in so much pain!!!! I am amazed that you were able to get online and update for all of us. Come on pain, go away!
I love those pix of Grace, they are very nice. She looks like she is a real snugglebug. Pets are amazing at tapping into emotions and know just what to do, somehow.
I know how you feel about T3's - they make me real foggy too. You've probably tried just about everything, but just wanted to mention an electric heating pad.. you can just plug it in and lie on it or place it where the pain is and don't have to worry about it cooling down until you shut it off. I used it quite a bit for the GCSF bone pain.

Will pray that the pain subsides soon and that something, somehow will bring you some relief in the meantime.
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Sunday, November 13, 2005 1:29 PM CST

Hi Ashley, Wonderfull news that you are in this winning battle, hang in there sweetie we are all praying for you. Hope the pain goes away perminently and you are feeling on top of the world soon. Lots of Love, Nora.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, November 12, 2005 9:59 PM CST

Hi Ash:
Glad to hear your news yesterday was positive. Hopefully you are getting relief from the pain. You are so amazingly positive - an inspiration for us all! Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Nancy, Ron, Mark & Scott Dekanich
Nancy Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, November 12, 2005 9:56 AM CST

Hey Ash,

I'll be at a healing hands course all weekend... and I'll be thinking about you the whole time - holding you in light, love, healing and in my heart! One of the ladies who is leading the group had a t-shirt with a blue butterfly on it! ;)
You have to be feeling better for art therapy on Tuesday!!
I'm so glad your liver results are getting better. A definite answer to prayers. My mum says prednisone itself could cause an ulcer for sure. So once they sort that out you will probably be feeling a lot better.
Here's hoping you have a better night. Try and sleep and have deep, healing dreams (about kittens and diamonds and Brian... lol)!
Lots of Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Saturday, November 12, 2005 1:16 AM CST

Dearest Ashley,
It SUX that you have been in such pain but it is SO great that the drugs are working well. The kitties are so cute - maybe your kitty and my kitty should have tea sometime! At 4 in the morning I visualize your liver and your mouth healing and all the spots clearing up.
Love Sheila
Sheila Fee <scriptura@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Friday, November 11, 2005 11:21 PM CST

Hi Ashley,
We were so glad to hear that the Prednisone is working and that the liver count is down. We are praying that the pain eases off and that you are able to continue getting out to enjoy the outdoors. We hope and pray that each day is a better day for you.
Love, Deb, Ross, Colin, Ian and Anthea
PS Your kittens are adorable!
Debbie Hardin <d_jillings_hardin@shaw.ca>
- Friday, November 11, 2005 6:57 PM CST

Hey, hey, princeska!

It's like 1am and i'm still working on that school paper. And you're not online and i really miss you! But i'm so happy to hear that your bmt is going as planned. w00t!!!
So, I'm going away with scouts this weekend, so i'll talk to you Sunday evening again (so, that's Vancouver morning, right!).
RADA TE IMAM!!!
Katja <katja.tavcar@gmail.som>
Slovenija - Friday, November 11, 2005 5:59 PM CST

Dearest Ashley:

I'm relieved to hear your liver enzymes are going down and that the GVHD is under control. I hope and pray that the pain goes away soon and that you get the best graft versus lymphoma effect possible! Keep up the great work; you've come so far with such style, dignity, and passion, I'm confident you can go all the way!!! :-) :-) :-)

With lots of love & prayers,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Friday, November 11, 2005 3:32 PM CST

Hi Ash
It's been a while! Your mom has been keeping me updated. I've lived with pain in my body and I know it's not easy!You're up against far more than I was but it helped me to try to remember that I wasn't the sum total of the amount of pain I was feeling at any given time!(If that makes sense!)
It's so hard but try to find a way to get to the parts of you that aren't in pain.
If the gym makes you nervous--you know you can always come do barre!! Or maybe yoga? That might help! I wish I lived closer--I'd bring Tessa over for you to babysit lots!!
We'll come for a visit soon.
Love you sweetie--hang in there.
Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra , BC Canada - Friday, November 11, 2005 1:54 AM CST

Hi Ashley, this may be a repeat message as I just lost one in the ether somewhere. But I figure 2 is better than none. You are in my thoughts and prayers so often during the days. I pray that everything is working just as it is meant to, and that the pain is bearable and reducing all the time. The kittens are really, really cute and cuddly looking and must give you energy and joy! Soak up all the healing and renewal they have to offer. You are surrounded with lots of love, as you know. Love and blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Friday, November 11, 2005 1:18 AM CST

Hi Ashley,

FABULOUS NEWS!!!!!! We're thrilled - the count is going down, down, down! That has to be a good pain - you are healing. Keep up your incredibly positive attitude and know that we are all thinking those same positive thoughts. Thinking of you always,
Debbie, Travis and Taylor.
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, - Thursday, November 10, 2005 11:32 PM CST

Hi again Ashley, great to hear that you continue doing well and that you're handling the pain and anguish so well. We're with you always and enjoy the updates from your mom and dad. All our love and wishes for more good news.
Dave & Sue <dlday@telus.net>
- Thursday, November 10, 2005 11:06 PM CST

Ashley I love you and I know you are being brave. You have more courage in your little liver than anyone else has in their whole body & soul! I am sending every possible ounce of love your way...
Alex
Alexandra <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Montreal, - Thursday, November 10, 2005 10:46 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
Ours thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. You are a wonderful young lady and deserve nothing but the very best.
Love,
Danys and Gary
Danys Alfredson <dalfredson@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 10:32 PM CST

Of course it is working!!!! All those people who believe in you are surrounding you in spirit like a lovely warm blanket on a cold rainy day. You're winning the fight!! Wear those gloves with pride. We're so happy for you and are praying for your strength. Feel our warmth. We're with you always!!!! xoxo
kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont - Thursday, November 10, 2005 7:34 PM CST

Yay!!! I'm so happy they've gone down! You're gonna beat this!! I hope Brian is taking extra special care of you!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 6:39 PM CST

Ashley,
I am so happy to hear that your counts are down,Now to get rid of the pain,I love the kitten on you page how sweet,My thoughts and prayers are with you
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Thursday, November 10, 2005 5:40 PM CST

Hi Ashley, Glad to hear the counts are down. Loving hands reach out to drain the pain from your liver. I will be on retreat in Nanaimo next week. Would you like to be on the prayer list there?
Sharon Yetman <sharon.yetman@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 4:21 PM CST

I am so grateful that you are so thoughtful to provide updates to everyone Ashley. I check on you at least five times a day! I am very relieved at this moment to hear that things are going the way they are supposed to be!
S Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
BC - Thursday, November 10, 2005 2:40 PM CST

Wonderful news Ashley. I have been following along with your updates. You are always in my prayers. Keep up the good work. Lets hope that this will soon be a distant memoryin your life. Keep on swimming. Also great shots of the kittens.
Charlene Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Ont., - Thursday, November 10, 2005 2:18 PM CST

YES!! *phew** very relieved to hear the liver counts are coming DOWN!!! Now, still praying for the pain to ease. Hope today is a much better day for you!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 1:51 PM CST

Miss Ashley,
I am so sorry to hear that you are in so much pain!! I'll keep praying that your liver counts go down!! Know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers!!
I love you,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. - Thursday, November 10, 2005 1:07 PM CST

Ashley!

I read your entries yesterday night right before I went to bed... and heavy, heavy praying ensued!!!
I am glad that your numbers are better today. I'll keep the prayers going... and lots of other people are praying for you at many different churches.
Hang in there, tough girl!
Luv,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, November 10, 2005 12:39 AM CST

Those kitties are *so* cute! Blessings in tiny packages. I am thankful and happy to read that the counts are down. Woo woo! I've got you in my prayers and am visualising you in healing light, soothing the pain your liver! Soothing, soooothing, soooooooothing. ;) Have fun with those kittens! I think I'm going to check out Cypress too - I've never been there!
Tressa
Vancouver, BC - Thursday, November 10, 2005 12:39 AM CST

Ash, glad things are going in the right direction. You and your family are in our constant prayers. Remember the light is shining especially for your good health.
Kathy Andrews <krandrews2003@yahoo.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 12:27 AM CST

Hey Ash,
I'm so pleased with your news. I can't imagine the sigh of relief you must have heaved out when you got the great news. Please know that I'm always thinking of you and always sending you lots of positive thoughts. Please pass along my love to your family. The Brears are an amazing bunch.
All my love,
Erin
Erin Barrett <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Thursday, November 10, 2005 12:00 AM CST

Hey Ash, I'm so sorry that things are so rough right now. I really wish it would be easy to make things better (Like Dr. Barnett's wand). We held a specific prayer for you over the Native drum tonight at the Yacn meeting. Hoping it will work miracles in healing your liver and easing your suffering --
love,
Karin
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 3:25 AM CST

Hey, I've been reading your web page for the last couple months and i just felt compelled to tell you how inspirational you are. The work you do is amazing and i wish you all the best.
Andrew Cobb <cobbie50@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, November 10, 2005 2:16 AM CST

hi ashley!

you are such a bright and wonderful person! everytime you enter a room, you light it up with your strong, vibrant, radiant energy! i miss seeing you this week at callanish, even tho i know you weren't feeling well.....damn this cold!!! anyways, i am sending you digital liver-healing hugs! (i think i just invented something new!?)
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, November 10, 2005 1:55 AM CST

Hi Ashley!

I'm sending prayers your way! I'm so sorry you are in pain. I hope the numbers go down tomorrow. I'm sure this is all part of the process. I've heard it is tough. You poor thing! I know we were planning to get together, but I'll leave it up to you to let me know when you're up to it. Let me know, and I'll be there! Hang in there! I bet you'll get through this like you have everything else!! We're here for you! Let us know if there's ANYTHING we can do for you!! ANYTHING!!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 9, 2005 11:44 PM CST

Ash! Damn I miss you girl! I feel like a real fairweather friend, and I'm ashamed. I read up on the site every few days and every few days I'm blown away again. You're so strong it almost (and you'll only hear this once) makes me cry. You really remind me of David, so stoic in your fight and positive throughout.

I'm so happy the treatments are going as planned. I'm sure it's no fun (understatement) but hey, stay the course! In a few months it'll all be gravy and one heck of a story to tell your kids. Errr, that is when you have kids. I'm pretty sure you don't have any right now, right? ;)

Gimme a call when you have the time kiddo!
Matt
Matt Flynn <ugod111@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 9, 2005 11:26 PM CST

Hi, Ashley - Haven't written in a while, but that's not to say you haven't been in our thoughts every single day, and we're following your journey closely and joining in with the many other voices saying prayers for you. Even on the most difficult days you find joy in the gifts that God offers to all of us, gifts that can so easily be overlooked. Your journal entries find their way into the very heart and soul of all who know you and your story, and our lives become blessed with new meaning and great hope.
Thank you, dear Ashley. Enjoy the kittens - they are darlings!
love, The Jorgensens

Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 4:34 PM CST

Oh Ashley you have to stop posting the adorable pictures of the sweet little kittens. My girls want a kitten sooooo bad and the last time we popped in to say hi to Donna at work there were kittens there and boy the girls still want those kittens! I am afraid to show them the pictures you have posted because even I want one of these kittens and we just can't take one! Anyways we are thinking of you and praying for you all the time. You are amazing!
sboleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Monday, November 7, 2005 11:35 PM CST

Dear Ashley,
I have completed 5 of my 7 chemo treatments, they seem to be doing there thing as my cancer count has gone from 350 to 2.2.
My youngest daugter Karen, that you met at my first chemo got married in Quebec, on Oct, 8th.it was a wonderful time and I count my blessings that I able to be there.My prayers and thoughts are with you ,your family and friends.

Always on my mind,
your friend in chemo, Ann.
Ann Forward <buddaisy61@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, B.C. Canada - Monday, November 7, 2005 7:40 PM CST

Hang in there, Lady Arwen! Maybe sometime this week we can meet for coffee/tea and have a good long chat. We're all rooting and praying for ya (and working with magical crystals... hehehehe).

Just hang in there.

Luv,
Galadriel
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, November 6, 2005 1:02 AM CST

Dear Ashley, Just read your entry for Nov. 4th.I also was debating whether or not to go to fitness yesterday around one-thirty.I went because 175 pounds of motivational fat spurred me on! Brian and I love reading your entries and were delighted to see the kitties.I've always felt that cats are wise and healing creatures and such fun and good company. Deirdre (middle daughter) has three (Asia,Patience and Littl' Al) and they sit in a row on the bath ledge watching her have a bath.If she attempts to shave her leg by lifting it out of the water,they actually try to scramble (unsuccessfully}onto her leg. Occasional scratches occur as well as unwanted feline baptism.Cats are good companions when you sit and read or just hang out( or sleep).Their sheer exuberance is catching even when you are low and/or lack energy. Our whole family admires you so much and are rooting for you everyday.You are an inspiration to us all. love and admiration, Diane Radomske and fam.
Diane Radomske <dradomske@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, November 5, 2005 4:19 PM CST

Ashley,
Mummy and me haven't signed your page for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooong time, mummy is so lazy she checks on you but never signs! You can babysit me and my sister anytime you like..! We will have to come out and visit you, I love kitties alot too, I have a kitty named Timone, he is half prairie dog half kitty I think!!

Anyways hugs and kisses and we are praying for you to get better.

Keep on Swimming!!!!

www.caringbridge.org/visit/emmawoods
Emma and Mummy <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON k9j6x8 - Friday, November 4, 2005 6:46 PM CST

Alex and his friends are stopping by to say hope you have a great week!

MaryBeth & Alex

Prayer Bears

MaryBeth <attnymb@aol.com>
- Friday, November 4, 2005 6:31 PM CST

Hey Ash, I just checked the North Vancouver District Library catalogue and there is a book that is in called "low-salt cookbook". It is put out by the American Heart Association. It says it is In at Capilano branch. Might be worth checking out! The call # for the book is: 641.5632 AME
Karin's caringbridge site
Vancouver, Canada - Friday, November 4, 2005 2:31 PM CST

Ashley, I am thinking about you all the time & about how strong and incredibly brave and how one-in-a-gazillion you are, and how nobody could handle this stuff like you do. I will talk to you soon. Love, Alex.
Alexandra <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Montreal, - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 10:15 PM CST

Ashley! Tomorrow night is bowling - Jesus definately wants you to lace up for his team and roll some strikes. Get the turkey on the screen! tee hee hee. I'm praying for you - visualising you surrounded, protected, sustained and healed by divine light - and touched by your courage and strength. You glow girl!
Tressa <tbrotsky@yahoo.ca>
Vancouver, - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 6:52 PM CST

I recently read that home-made crispy-creme donuts and veesies (vegan cheesies) are both extremely high in magnesium, and are also highly effective at making sure your GVHD remains moderate.

Additionally, they will both make you even smarter and more beautiful. and will probably sharpen your wit, making you able to tell even better jokes. all profoundly important qualities at this frightening time.

I thought it important to inform you of these recent developments in scientific research... incase Dr Barnett forgot to.

If you require assistance in consuming such products, do not hesitate to contact me.

Best of luck, my darling.
Dr C Boyle. MD <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 5:11 PM CST

Dear Ashley:
I was sad to hear from your Dad about the new worries that have come up for you, but when I went to your journal, I could see that you will STILL BEAT THIS THING! You are such a brave and beautiful young lady! I have sent your journal URL off to many friends and know that they will be inspired by you too!
Wishing on that star for you!
Nora
Nora Boekhout
Belcarra, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 9:21 AM CST

Ashley,
I'm bringing pictures of you to my small group tonight. I want them to know you and be able to picture you as they include you in their daily prayers. I know you're scared. Picture yourself surrounded by our love as the medicine starts to do it's job and kill those cells. This is your biggest fight and we are with you!! Love you.
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton , Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 6:05 PM CST

Dear Ashley,

This is All Saints' Day, as you know. And today, I celebrate you, as one who has held strong to her faith in the midst of many challenges and tests. I admire the way you have grown and changed in strength and courage throughout this journey. I cherish the openness and grace with which you continue to share your story, one of hope and inspiration to any who hear it. I give God great thanks for all you bring to this world, and I pray for patience and healing as your body and spirit continue to fight this disease.
With much love, Tracy
Tracy <tmurton@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 4:30 PM CST

We certainly understand, Ashley, why you're scared over this most recent development; it's such an important stage in your journey to good health... and one that will challenge you physically, yet again. But you have such amazing reserves of strength and hope and perseverance... you'll come through this with the same courage that you've always shown. Not a day goes by in our home that we don't think about you and keep you in our hearts. Hugs from all of us.
The Motuts <bpmotut@shaw.ca>
North Van, - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 2:41 AM CST

Hello Sweet Ashley:

Wow, what an eventful day ... and despite it all you managed to put things into perspective, as you always do! I continue to be amazed by you and pray for you. Keep up the great attitude and everything else that makes you the wonderful person that you are. If I can help you in any way, please let me know!

Love you lots, & sending you happy, healing thoughts, :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 0:08 AM CST

Love you Ashley. My prayers are with you -- and with the hands & hearts of your doctors as they administer the drugs that will keep the GVHD under control and doing it's job -- kicking Hodgkin's ass.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Monday, October 31, 2005 11:03 PM CST

Ashley,
Know that you are in my prayers. Moderate GVHD is what you need? Thats what Ill pray for. And, despite the stress in your life, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Kelsey <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Monday, October 31, 2005 10:04 PM CST

Ashley, you are in my prayers. Don't forget that God holds you in strong hands that touch you with love and healing and strength. Graft versus Host is where the work happens, so keep your eye on the goal and tread water... keep on swimmin' especially now! Have a great All Hallow's Eve! God's love holds you. Blessings and love, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Monday, October 31, 2005 7:51 PM CST

Ash, I am definately praying for you to have moderate GVHD as is everyone I know. I hope things go well and remember that you are strong and you are a fighter and we are all here to help you get through this. Thinking of you and hoping you have a great halloween:D
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, October 31, 2005 6:32 PM CST

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Sunday, October 30, 2005 4:31 PM CST

Ashley! You are an amazing woman... Keep strong and never stop fighting. I think about you often and hope that you are getting better. God's with you and so are your friends and family. Get well!

Brady
Brady <brady@override.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 9:16 PM CDT

You are an amazing woman Ashley, when I read your entries I feel that anything is possible. You give everyone around you HOPE! I am thinking of you always, good health to you,
Love,
Val
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, October 25, 2005 3:25 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I'm sorry to hear about Randy and please give my condolences to his family. Cancer sucks and hurts me to know that others will be missing a father, brother, son like I have a sister. I'm so glad to hear that you got out to Hope for the weekend. The sun was shining and I'm sure Margie and Randy were smiling down on you this weekend. Take care of yourself and so happy to hear things are on track medically. :)

Lots of love,
Kat
ps. I'm sorry we didn't get a chance to greet you at Margaret's memorial but I heard you guys were there. Thank you for being such an inspiration to my sis. She proudly spoke about you and informed me about all the fundraising you did for cancer research. :)

Kathleen Tse <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, October 25, 2005 1:35 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,
You made it through another storm of your own and passed with flying colours...colours of a rainbow no less!! Grief is real and God does love you with all his heart and is always there by your side. Great news at the doctor! Keep on swimming!
David, Allie, & Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Monday, October 24, 2005 8:01 PM CDT

Ashley,

Just a short note to say thank you so much for continuing to share your journey in this on-line journal. I found your reflection on the rainbow and walking the trails (trials!!) very powerful and healing.
Blessings to you as you remember your friends.

We are not alone... God is with us... Thanks be to God!!

Rob...
Rob Pollock <robpamp@telus.net>
- Monday, October 24, 2005 7:25 PM CDT

((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) thinking of you always Ashley
Sandra Boleak <mommamea4@hotmail.com>
- Monday, October 24, 2005 9:55 AM CDT

Alex and his scary mummy pumpkin are stopping by to wish you a bootiful week!

So sorry to hear about your friends passing. We are praying for you.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Saturday, October 22, 2005 9:03 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley:

Please accept my sincere condolences on the passing away of two of your strong, inspiring friends: Margaret & Randy. Their beautiful memories and strengths will always be with you, and will help you achieve your ultimate goal of being cured and helping fight cancer for others. You continue to be a champion on this challenging journey. Keep up the great work, attitude, and spirit! :-)

Love you always,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Saturday, October 22, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

we are visualizing the cells attacking the Hodgkins. You are strong for this. The CURE is just around the corner. Tell your dad Melissa saw him this week smiling and waving his sign on her way to school. :-) Hugs to all of you
Judy Jackson and family <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Thursday, October 20, 2005 9:35 PM CDT

Ash, Its so good to hear that everything is going as planned. I'm keeping you in my prayers and know that you are ready for this next stage and you will be fine. I think its awesome that you're being Alice in Wonderland for Halloween, I'm sure you'll have a blast.
Heather <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, October 20, 2005 2:30 AM CDT

I Love you and I am thinking about you all the time!!
Big Hugs!!!!

Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria , B.C. Canada - Thursday, October 20, 2005 2:14 AM CDT

Hi Ashley
We are forever thinking about you. Yesterday we were driving bhind this really slow driver, and from the back Alex says "maybe it is Ashley, she is still learning to drive". The boys are crazy about you, and so are we! May the host transition be smooth and quick. Take care, sweetie. Love Toni
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, October 20, 2005 0:47 AM CDT

Hi, Ashley. Hugs. You are in my prayers, Diana
Diana B. Hicks <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 19, 2005 5:17 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, you know I loved Margaret very much too and it is so sad, but now she is our angel and she is watching us from above... I send you lots of love, keep on being so strong and amazing, and keep in touch!
Lola <lola_cohen@hotmail.com>
Haifa, Israel - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 4:34 AM CDT

Hi Ashley:

Just know that our prayers and POSITIVE!!!!! thoughts are always with you. You will beat this . . . believe Ashley.

Debbie, Travis and Taylor Gibson
Debbie Gibson <dgibson@cnv.org>
North Vancouver , - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 11:44 PM CDT

Oh Ashley, I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your friend Margaret. It hurts to lose someone you care for. Be strong and keep going for her. Hope you are doing well in spite of your loss. Hugs to you and yours

Judy Jackson and family <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, October 17, 2005 6:43 PM CDT

I am sorry to hear of the loss of your good friend Margaret.
"Tenderly...may God's love heal your sorrow.
Gently...may the prayers of friends ease your hurting.
Softly...may God's peace replace your heartache with warm and loving memories."
I hope you are doing well yourself. My prayers continue to be with you.
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC - Sunday, October 16, 2005 2:33 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend Margaret. I know she is in a better place. I hope you are doing ok. I will call you soon, as I'm doing much better and want to come and vist. Take Care!

Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Friday, October 14, 2005 10:34 AM CDT

For Ashley:

She remembers when she first got her wings
And how she opened up that day
she learned to sing
Then the colors came, erased the
black and white
And her whole world changed
when she realized

She's a butterfly, pretty as the crimson sky
Nothing's ever gonna bring her down
And everywhere she goes
Everybody knows she's so glad to be alive
She's a butterfly

Like the purest light in a darkened world
So much hope inside such a lovely girl
You should see her fly, it's almost magical
It makes you wanna cry, she's so beautiful

God bless the butterfly,
give her the strength to fly
Never let her wings touch the ground
God bless the butterfly,
give her strength to fly
Never let her wings touch the ground

God bless the butterfly,
give her the strength to fly
Never let her wings touch the ground
God bless the butterfly,
give her the strenght to fly
Never let her wings touch the ground

-Lyrics to She's a Butterfly by Martina McBride (I got it from Alese Coco's site!). :)

Sorry I couldn't be at the YACN meeting the other night. I was busy defending my faith at a church meeting...!! (long story). I lit a candle for Margaret at home... so I was with you all in spirit.

Take care and God bless.

Luv,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Friday, October 14, 2005 1:41 AM CDT

hey Ash
my condolences on your friend Margaret. My prayers go out to those saddened by her loss, but she is now an angel to watch over us all. Once again you have always been and always be an inspiration to me! With insane studies and all, the thoughts of how strong you have been is just so amazing. Keep up with it all, i love you!!
Hopefully LV is treating you find, let me know if you're ever out in the Victoria vicinity, it's always good to see a friendly face from home all the way out here (lol even though it really isnt all that far), but dorm life is soo much fun, and the people here are so friendly and laid-back, it's definitely a great place.
much love, many prayers
-Chels

Chelsea Woit <chwoit@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC - Friday, October 14, 2005 1:22 AM CDT

Hi Ashley. So sorry to hear of your friend Margaret passing. I am sure she is at peace and in the arms of the Angels. Love Nora .
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 10:50 PM CDT

Hey Ashley, I am in Chicago so unable to make tonight's meeting, but wanted to tell you that I am here with you and for you nonetheless. I know it will be a difficult meeting, but at the same time I wish I could share in it. Big hugs! If you can, light an extra candle tonight at the meeting for me... love you!
Karin's site
Vancouver, - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 12:36 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,
What a true inspiration your friend Margaret was to so many people. She was a gift and you will continue to grow because of her gifts. It is always terrible to lose someone with such strenth and determination, but let her spirit continue to be your strength and hope. Nothing would make her prouder! We love you. Hang in there.

kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, ont canada - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 11:36 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I just wanted you to know that my thoughts (although they are always with you) are especially with you now as you greive the loss of your friend Margaret.
I know she impacted many lives in many ways and she will live in the hearts of the many people she gave strength, courage, and inspiration to.
I hope you can find some comfort in knowing she is the "brightest" star in the sky at night and the Angel with the softest wings on the puffiest (is that a word?) cloud by day.
Love you
Donna
Donna
Port Coquitlam, BC - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 9:49 AM CDT

Alex is just dropping by to say hello and to check up on you!

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Sunday, October 9, 2005 6:53 PM CDT

Go Ashley, go Ashley! It's great to read that you are back to the gym. Hope it goes well.
Stephanie and RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Sunday, October 9, 2005 5:58 PM CDT

Hey There Sweet Ashley:

It's wonderful to read your great news. Keep up the super work & workout! :-)

Have a very happy Thanks-Giving!

With love & a big hug,

Shirin :-)
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Friday, October 7, 2005 7:52 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I am so glad to hear that you are feeling well enough for a work out. You're awesome. The Light up the Night sounds very moving. It would have been an incredible expereience. Thinking of you EVERY day
Judy Jackson and family <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Thursday, October 6, 2005 9:21 PM CDT

Zivjo, bejba!

Kako si? Dobro, eh?
I was so glad to read you're doing great! That walk around Stanley Park must have been amazing! Yeah, Dr Barnet is 1337!
Ok, but Pat Sunday...wooohoo..that's sooo Canadian! Like what if someone's pat is a ponny? AAAaaaaAAA! :))

Ok, have fun at the gym (but NO back flips yet)! And enjoy the sun for me, bacuse we've been having a pretty rainy fall here in Slovenija.

RADA TE IMAM,
Katja
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Kranj, Slovenija - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 3:31 PM CDT

Alex is walking by to say hello!

Love MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 4, 2005 7:20 PM CDT

Ashley,
Glad to hear you are doing so well,Good for you for going to the gym,Just take it slow,
Your in my prayers,
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 5:54 PM CDT

Ash I'll see you Saturday at Light the Night!! Love you.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 29, 2005 3:41 PM CDT

Heyy girl! First I have to say how thankful I am that you are under Dr. Barnett's care. & I owe it all to you for him taking me as a patient - I wouldn't have known I had the option if it wasn't for you!! That was life-saving for me!!

Our dad's birthdays are very close together - my dad's birthday was yesterday :)

I'm so happy that you are doing SO well and you are always in my prayers and close to my heart.

P.S. I want to hear about Green Day!!
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 4:15 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! Great poem Leah!! Describes her to a T! Ashley I'm so glad to hear you're doing so well! Our appt's haven't matched up, so sorry I haven't been able to see you, but hopefully soon! I'll bet you're 100% Heidi's cells by now! Keep us posted, can't wait to hear!

Love Teresa and Sean
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 5:34 PM CDT

Ash, It's so great to hear you're doing well. I know you'll soon have Heidi's cells at full strength and the battle against the cancer will resume (with you on the winning side). You are always in my prayers. Remember to stay strong and remember that God and all your friends are praying for you and keeping you close:)
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 2:25 PM CDT

Great to hear your doing ok...you had Thomas and me worried because it's been so long since the last entry but as my hun told me no news is good news! You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Lisa Lindsay <chickenscantdance@hotmail.com>
- Monday, September 26, 2005 8:15 PM CDT

Miss Ashley Anne Brear is:

Absolutely adored by everyone!
Superhuman strength and courage
Hero with a HUGE heart
Loving-kindness incarnate
Exceptional Faith in God
unYielding Spirit of bravery

Awesomely inspiring public speaker
Natural born fundraiser - born to succeed!
Never, never, ever gives up!!
Effervescent, bubbly, sparkling with Joy!

Ballet mistress extraordinaire
Rays of sunlight in her eyes, a rainbow in her smile!
Electric energy!!!
Always, always, in our hearts and thoughts and prayers
Ready to WIN!

Keep on Swimming, Ashley!
We love you!!!

So glad to hear all your good news. I loved your speech.

Your cancer buddy,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, September 26, 2005 7:06 PM CDT

Ashley,
I have been following your guest book,but never really new your story,Well Now I know it,That's a great speech you gave for the kids and your are so inspiring,Great Job on raising so much money,You are in my thoughts and prayers for more great news and to be cured,
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Monday, September 26, 2005 10:30 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,
You never cease to amaze! Running in the Terry Fox run? Wow. I pray that your treatment is going well. Keep on swimming, and keep on running!
Kelsey Hanna
Vancouver, BC Canadq - Monday, September 26, 2005 9:44 AM CDT

Alex and Carolee are JUMPING by to say hello!

Praying for just the right amount of GVDH!

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Sunday, September 25, 2005 6:33 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, it's Mrs. Sigurdsson (Katherine now for you!). I was so sorry to hear that the cancer had come back, but it sounds like you will soon be able to fight it with new energy (with your donor cells). I am so proud of you and your hard work to raise awareness of cancer and encourage people to donate money. I know you won an amazing award in the spring. You are an inspiration to everyone who knows you. You've come such a long way from the little girl I first met 12 or so years ago. I hope you are feeling 100% soon. Please say hi to your parents for me. Love Katherine
Katherine Sigurdsson
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 10:13 PM CDT

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
That's how happy I am to hear that your cells are 94% Heidi's!!! HA-LLE-LU-JAH!!!
That is such GREAT news, Ashley. Made my week.
Congrats on running the race and making so much money in such a short time. You embody Terry Fox's hopeful spirit. You are truly awesome.
Keep the faith.
Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 7:46 PM CDT

What an incredible gift you and your father gave those children in middle school! As a former teacher, I know the courage it took to meet with and speak to those adolescents. I know also that this gift of yourself was a most powerful teaching/learning strategy.

I follow your progress through our best friends, Stu and Hughena Baker, and keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Penny McConaghy
Rothesay, NB. Canada - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 6:32 PM CDT

Hi Ashley. Just wanted you to know that I check out your web site often to see how you are doing. Still praying for you. We hear about you at Northlea every Sunday. You are an inspiration to us all. This is coming from Loreen's Mom and Gary's mother-in law (soldier from Iraq)
Eileen O'Connell <emoconnell@3web.net>
Laval Que, Canada - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 3:24 PM CDT

Ashley,
I have been checking in on you for the past few months or so and I have never left a message until tonight. I just had to tell you what a WONDERFUL outlook you have on life. It is really inspiring to go what you've gone through and to look back in awe. I too have had quite the road this past year and it's people like you who encourage me to keep goin'! Thanks for your sweet spirit.
Michele
www.caringbridge.org/or/michele
Michele
Salem, OR USA - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 0:31 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, I'm so glad to know that Heidi's cells are just dancing to get started on their mission to destroy the cancer and take over the whole project with the healthy cells!!! I've watched so much Terry Fox stuff in the past few days, and all of it made me think of you and how strong you are and how awesome! Your speach to the school students was inspirational! Great job! Love and prayers are coming your way. Blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Monday, September 19, 2005 9:17 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I can't believe you participated in the Terry Fox Run. You have more energy and drive than 10 people put together! We are so happy that your news was good and you are right, the healing has begun, and the cancer will be GONE! Always in our daily thoughts (actually many times a day) and our prayers. Stay strong.

Debbie, Travis and Taylor Gibson
Debbie Gibson
North Vancouver, BC - Monday, September 19, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

Hey Ashley! I got your message today. I didn't make it out to the run b/c I wasn't feeling well yesterday and couldn't sleep a wink last night (lovely menopausal symptoms kept me up). I was so mad to miss it, but very glad to hear that YOU WENT! I can't wait to hear your thoughts on the run! Maybe we'll see each other on the 26th? I still have the relaxation CD for you :)
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Monday, September 19, 2005 1:38 AM CDT

Alex is waving HELLO and hopes you have a great day!

WOW! I am so glad that you are feeling well enough to run! You have a great spirit.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
Williamstown, VT - Friday, September 16, 2005 12:31 AM CDT

Ashley,

Thinking of you and sending lots of healing energy and prayers your way. It's so great that you are planning to run in Poco - what a gift you are. Joshua and I are travelling for the next 2 weeks, and when we return, we would love to meet you for tea and cookies. Take care, courageous amazing one. See you soon. Love 'n' blessings, Tracy
Tracy <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Thursday, September 15, 2005 5:53 PM CDT

Hey Ash, It's so great to hear you are feeling well enough to run. I've always thought Terry Fox was an amazing man and you remind me a lot of him (with all your fundraising and helping others with cancer). Good luck on your run on Sunday, I'll be thinking of you and when I get some time off work (October) we must get together for lunch or tea and cookies (mmm cookies, lol). Hope you and Heidi are well and keep fighting:)
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, September 15, 2005 11:14 AM CDT

Ash!! I'm so happy to see your post on Terry Fox! I was always touched by Terry Fox's story - since I was little. Maybe it was because every year, starting in elementary school, we watched videos that told his story. It's amazing to think that he was also treated at BCCA.. and the fact that he had a sarcoma similar to mine. The treatment I had probably came through as a result of his mission and fundraising. Anyways, I will be at the hometown run in Poco tooo!! I am going to try to walk the 2.5 KM, but we'll see - my ankles and feet hurt when I walk but I'd like to attempt it. I should be there for the official start. I know it's going to be a BIG event! Call my cell if you get the chance so we can meet up!

See you tonight at YACN :)
Karin's caringbridge site
vancouver, bc, Canada - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 6:57 PM CDT

Hey Ash,
Just wanted you to know that your readership spreads far and wide!! I'm keeping up with you via your site and my mom (via the bridge club grapevine. Mighty powerful thing that grapevine...). I hope Matt isn't driving you mad and that you're not cursing the day I introduced you!!! He can be a handful, but sometimes he makes you laugh...Okay, kidding!! He's a gem and I'm so pleased to hear you're both still in touch. Sending you lots of good thoughts. The English would recomend a good cuppa as it appears, over here at least, that tea is the cure for everything...
With lots of love,
Erin (your fellow Bridge Club Kid)
xx
Erin <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:33 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Just wanted to let you know that you, your family and friends remain in our prayers. Just because we have moved from North Van does not mean we have forgotten you. You remain one of the most incredible young women I have ever met! It is wonderful to be able to hear how you are doing through this website.

Blessings and love,
from your Lutheran sisters and brothers in Christ,

Lorraine Boros (Pastor Steve, Caitlin and Andrea too!) <liboros@sympatico.ca>
Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 10:37 AM CDT

Hey gal! How are you? I hope you are not too bored without Brian and Katja to keep you company - I will have to pop around! BEWARE!!
We miss seeing you, and you are always in our thoughts. We think you are amazing. Just awesome....
Love Toni, James, Alex and Tyler
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Ca - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 0:28 AM CDT

Hi Ashley!

I didn't catch you yesterday when I phoned. Hope you and Brian were having a nice afternoon! I'm busy with my stage manager organizing auditions for the week of the 20th, and still unpacking! I miss you! It seems like ages & eons since I got to Montreal even though it's only been a few weeks... I will talk to you soon!

luv Alex

Alex <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Mtl, QC Canada - Sunday, September 11, 2005 11:29 AM CDT

Dober dan, princeska!

So, i'm home now! I'm getting ready for my scout camp and i'm listening to our canadian music! I'm so glad i got to talk to you and Brian today.
And i miss you soooooooooooooooooooooo much! Wow, i just can't believe 5 weeks went by so fast! But we had the best time!!! THANKS!!! And it was so nice to meet your family from Toronto and to see your friends!

Think of me this week, ok? I need lots of energy. And i need to get over this stupid jet lag! lol

RADA TE IMAM!
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Thursday, September 8, 2005 4:27 AM CDT

Heya Ash! I've been thinking about you alot lately, I'm so sorry I've been out of touch. It's mostly because I have No internet in my little apartment. If you have the energy and the time maybe drop me a line? I'd call, but I don;t want to disturb ya. Anyways, hang in there champ! You're beating it every day! You've got my thoughts and best wishes anytime you need em!
Matt Flynn <ugod111@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 7:40 PM CDT

Hi Ashley(:
We have followed your journey through your dad. We send you our strength and love and pray that Heidi's warrior cells will fight very hard! We know how proud your family is of you and how much you are loved. You are surrounded.
Please say hello to Mr. Brear and let him know we miss him at our new high school! Challenge will never be the same.
We love your smile Ashley!
Lots of love,
Chelsea, Laurel, Karl, Tim, Patrick, Caitlin, Lauren,
Andrea and Tiffany.
Chelsea and Banting graduates <greatopenings@shaw.ca>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 2:01 PM CDT

Oh my goodness Ash...I can't believe I haven't signed this yet! Silly me! Well here I am in Glasgow studying away and counting the days until I am back in the classroom with my wee grade 3 class! I love them! Well, I should let you, and everyone, know that on Friday September 2nd I bowled at the Zoe McNicol Memorial Lawn Bowling Tournament and I won the Zoe McNicol Trophy!!! We raised over $1000 for the local hospice where Zoe was cared for. It was great to see so many people out bowling for Zoe and for cancer! It totally made me think of you and how strong you are and how much you do for cancer...Zoe would be really proud! I think of you everyday...you have become my inspiration. Thank you.
Sarah
- Monday, September 5, 2005 11:26 AM CDT

Dearest Ashley,

Just to let you know I'm thinking about you and how much I admire your strength. You'll get through this and will be all the stronger for it. Much love!
Rebecca Simms <hot_headed_redhead@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, Canada - Monday, September 5, 2005 0:22 AM CDT

Hey Cuz! I'm so glad to hear you're still managing to have loads of fun with Katja and Brian. We're saying big prayers this week for all your tests. Hang in there. We're with you in spirit! Keep those facials coming. You're one beautiful chick!!!!
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
brampton, On Canada - Sunday, September 4, 2005 7:09 AM CDT

It's been a week since I saw you and I MISS you and your smile SOOOO much!!!
Know that I am thinking of you all the time and sending so much love and positive thoughts. If you need anything at all, know that I am here for you!! Keep swimming sweetie!!
I LOVE YOU!!!
Sara Healng <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Saturday, September 3, 2005 9:56 PM CDT

ooops...I forgot...Hope you have a blast at the PNE today!!!mmm..yummy mini donuts..:)

Kathleen <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, September 3, 2005 1:34 PM CDT

Hey Amazing Ashley,

I'm Margie's sister and had a chance to attend your Shorn on the Shore event. We had a blast and you were inspiration to all of us. Margie had a good time getting out. Just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I'm sorry to hear about the lump but stay strong babe!! :)

Sending you lots of love,
Kat
Kathleen <kattse@hotmail.com>
Vancvouer, BC Canada - Saturday, September 3, 2005 1:33 PM CDT

Ashley,
Sorry to hear about the new lumps you have discovered. Although I am thankful that it has helped you and your doctors decide how quickly to proceed with your stem cell transplant! One less difficult decision you'll have to make.

Your strength and courage brings tears to my eyes. I have never had the pleasure of communicating with such a positive person!!!! You teach me a lifes lesson everytime I read your journal. I will continue to send many positive vibes your way and to pray for you at night when I talk to god about my mom.

It is nice to hear that you try to live life to it's fullest everyday. I imagine at times that could be difficult! I hope you enjoy your day at the P.N.E. (take a ride on the roller coaster for me).

Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Saturday, September 3, 2005 12:25 AM CDT

Carolee and Alex are just riding by to say hello! Alex is sending you a great big healing hug (((((((ashley)))))). We are praying for you!

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Thursday, September 1, 2005 10:11 PM CDT

Ashley, I haven't been in touch with your dad for quite some time but there isn't a day goes by we don't think of you and send positive thoughts your way. I'm sorry you found a new lump but I'm sure Heidi's cells will destroy it. give them time. Hugs to all of you
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Thursday, September 1, 2005 8:45 PM CDT

Hey there Bubba! Prayers continue to be sent in your direction. I hope you feel embraced by the prayers and love of so many people who care so deeply about you! You are one courageous woman and a bright light for soooo many! Hang in there lovey!

love you, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
Cloverdale, BC - Thursday, September 1, 2005 6:56 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, Hang in there, and just rest and be renewed in the blanket of prayers that surrounds you from all over the continent and probably beyond. (I've been reading some of the comments here...) And think about the fun you'll be having when Heidi's cells get going full tilt! It'll just get better and better! Lots of prayers are pouring out for you from folk at LVUC. Love and blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, September 1, 2005 0:43 AM CDT

My Dear Ashley:

YOU CAN DO IT!!! Thinking of you and sending you lots and lots and lots of positive, healing energy. You're always in my thoughts and in my heart.

With lots of love & smiles :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Thursday, September 1, 2005 0:07 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I check your site every day and am so sorry to hear that you have found another lump. You are such a strong lady and an inspiration to so many. If your strength is any indication, your sister must also be strong, which means her cells must be strong too and will soon march in and KICK SOME SERIOUS BUTT!! I am sending you every bit of positive energy that I can.
My Mom (Ann from the chemo party) just got more blood tests back. Prior to chemo her cancer count was 350, after her first chemo is dropped to 170, and now is at 15. We are very happy and hope that you too will receive good news about your treatment.
In the meantime, hang in there, keep smiling, and know that there are many of us that pray for you and wish you well.
xo

Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 11:12 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Just wanted to make sure myself that Brian has been saying "Hi" to you for me and giving you all my love.
I am sorry that you have not been feeling well this last week....I miss seeing those beautiful eyes and that "light up my life smile" of yours. I feel energized just being around you!
I hope all the well wishes you have been recieving have you feeling better soon so you can come and see us.
Take care sweetie! I think of you always.
Hugs & kisses
Donna
Donna <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, BC - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:14 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, Just wanted to let you know that here in the states you are also being sent warm wishes and good energy. We've never met, I am friends with Karin and Margaret, their site led me to yours and what an amazing person you are. I have been checking in from time to time and wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you. I'm sorry your battling such a hard disease right now. I some what understand. I am a 2 plus year cancer survivor of Hodgkin's Lymphoma...I was diagnosed in May of 03'. Keep smiling that beautiful smile, if you need anything, please let me know.

Hugs and kisses-
Jo (mama)
Wilmington, Delaware USA
Jo Wardell <jofromde@Yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 10:20 PM CDT

Hey ashley just writing to see how your doing and to tell you that your a wicked bad person and you been through so much with me and mean alot to me even though we never met in person. Someday we will
from the best thing on the other side of canada
Chris
dont forget me now lol

Chris Cosh <chriscosh@hotmail.com>
Trenton , NS canada - Monday, August 29, 2005 10:39 PM CDT

just dropping a line to say hi. hope you're doing well and feeling great - keep at 'er ash!

christina vasak <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
north vancouver, - Monday, August 29, 2005 8:56 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! I hope you're feeling ok!? I'm so glad you have such a wonderful family and boyfriend around you right now! We think and talk about you often! We'd like some more KOS bracelets, so when you're into having visitors, let me know. Please take good care of yourself!

Love you lots!
Teresa and Sean & Kasper and Mac!
Teresa Diamond <Teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Monday, August 29, 2005 1:35 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,
You are a rock! Strong, cool, and bald! Keep on rocking Ashley.
Kelsey Hanna <kelsey_h@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Saturday, August 27, 2005 3:47 PM CDT

Ashley
You've got to hang in there. It's so tough! I am praying for so much strength to come to you. You are such a strong, fighting girl----I just know you can do this! Many prayers coming at you.

Nancy <nschuetze@sbcglobal.net>
StLouis, Mo - Saturday, August 27, 2005 2:20 AM CDT

So glad that you are doing well! We continue to pray for you! By the way, you look totally gorgeous in that last picture and the one above it! ;)

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
Williamstown, VT - Friday, August 26, 2005 7:08 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I found your site from Karin's You are such a beatiful girl cancer or not,The pictures are wonderful,I was reading back in your journal but could not find what kind of cancer you have,A friend of mines daughter about your age 21 died l year ago July from rhabdomyosarcoma,That is how I have found so many new sites,You all have so much strenth and courage,I just want you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you,
Sunnye
Sunnye Franklin <Sunnye79@aol.com>
Tonawanda, NY United States - Friday, August 26, 2005 5:38 PM CDT

Hey Amazing Ashley, I haven't talked to you for awhile but I hope you continue to do well. I am off in the morn. to the East coast but will keep you in my prayers during my trip! Love you!
Karin's caringbridge site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Friday, August 26, 2005 0:07 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
So glad to hear things are going well.
Looking at the pictures I feel badly that we were not a part of last week's 'party'. It just wasn't the right time for us to go, but hopefully we will be able to see you before too long.
Stu & Hughena <shbaker@nb.sympatico.ca>
Rothesay, NB Canada - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

Hello again Ashley!! Great to see you at Earl's tonight looking happy and healthy!! Love you.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 2:42 AM CDT

Hello Sweet Ashley:

You look beautiful in the pictures! :-) I'm very glad to hear you're doing well. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Congratulations for the amazing fundraising event - well done! :-)

Take care & keep smiling :-) :-) :-) Let me know, if I can help you in any way.

With lots of love & a huge hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC CANADA - Monday, August 22, 2005 6:22 PM CDT

Hi there! We had an awesome time at Shorn on the Shore - what a wonderful evening!!!! We have been thinking about you and praying lots!!! Good to hear you are feeling better - the pictures are great!! Take care dear one and remember . . .

You are amazing!!
You are filled with power!!
and God loves YOU!!
like craaazzzzzy!!!!!!!

love you, Jen
Jen and Ian Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
Cloverdale, BC - Monday, August 22, 2005 5:09 PM CDT

Miss Amazing Ashley!! (Got that from Karin!!)
Congrats on the incredibly successful fundraiser. Was sad I missed it but so pleased (and not surprised at all) to hear how fabulous it was!! :-) YOU ROCK!
Love you lots beautiful girl.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC - Monday, August 22, 2005 1:15 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, So glad your Fund Raiser went so well and very happy that you are feel better. $20,000.00 wow but I have a feeling that it will go much higher than that. Best wishes for those levels to rise steadly. Love Nora.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver , B.C. Canada - Friday, August 19, 2005 1:58 PM CDT

Just biking by to say hello!

Holy Smoke! That was quite the fundraiser! I am happy that you are feeling better and pray for continued improvement. The new pictures are wonderful.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Thursday, August 18, 2005 9:18 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Emma here, just stopping by to say Hello. I am so happy to hear that your fundraiser went so well, thats such a blessing. We are praying for you!

God Bless
www.caringbridge.org/visit/emmawoods
Emma Irene the Beauty Queen <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 3:25 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley, I heard about your story from a dear friend of mine who was at your fundraiser this past weekend. His thoughts are with you. He also became good friends with your father. Heino told me about your story and I have had the opportunity to see your website. I love your determination and absolute courage. May GOD bless you in your battle. I'm in great admiration of you.
John Cooper <jclcjc@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 2:52 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

So glad to hear that you are feeling GREAT! Must be all those positive vibs coming your way. By the way you looked awesome at the fundraiser. Another $20,000, WOW indeed!!! You should be mega proud! As always, thinking of you. Take good care of yourself.
Debbie, Travis, Taylor.
Debbie Gibson <gibsond@telus.net>
North Vancouver, - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 11:03 AM CDT

Hey Ash,
I was checking your website today and the slide show didn't work. I don't know if it's just for me or if the error will be for everyone. Glad to hear you're doing so well and I'm disappointed I missed you at the Foam Party (I was going to go but went to the Royal instead). Hope you continue to grow stronger and continue to have fun:)
Heather <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Van, BC Country - Tuesday, August 16, 2005 7:33 PM CDT

Hey Ash,
The fundraiser on Friday night was amazing. You looked so vibrant and it was so great to see that. I know you will continue to fight and you will beat this thing. You are such an inspiration to everyone around you. Whenever I'm feeling down I look at your bracelet and think of you and it cheers me up. I will continue to keep you in my prayers and remember you are such an amazing woman:)
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, August 16, 2005 1:09 PM CDT

hi ashley/ never met but you met ann and daughters. i am bob anns husband. i believe if given a chance i can help there are things i learned that has helped ann and can help you if you would like to know talk to ann i have found a way to make it work not only for you but others it is worth trying i believe in myself i also believe in you so get in touch because you were a angel for ann
bob davis <buddaisy@telus.net>
kitimat bc., canada - Tuesday, August 16, 2005 3:01 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,
Great to hear that the fundraiser was a success!
Just a quick note to say "stay strong" and "stay healthy".WITH YOUR POSITIVE OUTLOOK ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!!
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Monday, August 15, 2005 7:28 PM CDT

Hey Ashley! Miss Bright Shining Star!

It is sooo hot outside!! Don't get too burnt if you're outside!

Your fundraiser was AWESOME on Friday and I totally enjoyed it. The band Sick Days was rad (and totally cute). They played all the good songs!! I was so touched by all the people shaving their heads... and I never thought I'd ever be watching MP Don Bell shaving his legs... but I was!!! You have a way of getting people to do the most unbelievable things for a good cause! :)

It was also so good to see everyone from YACN (hello guys... keep fighting and stay strong!)... and to finally meet Teresa face to face. That was so special. You have a way of bringing people together, Ash, and it is so wonderful.

I LOVE your Keep on Swimming t-shirts and bracelets! You're the only chick i know who would make a fundraising t-shirt fashionable!! I may have to buy more. I definitely need another KOS bracelet in adult size if you can save me one.

I'm glad you're feeling so vibrant and strong. Let that new army of cells do it's thing. They're marching in on the cancer as we speak. I saw a show on CNN last night called Taming the Beast: Fighting the war on cancer. It was great. See it if you get a chance.

Well, I love ya. Keep on swimming and keep on living! Keep on doing what you're doing. When you said raising money to end cancer is your mission here on earth... it really made me cry. I am so proud of you, Ashley. I'm crying right now as I write this! Not everybody knows in this life what their purpose is. Even after years and years. I support you in your mission. It is magic and I truly witnessed that on Friday.

I also agree it is a miracle how all those people came to support you from far and wide. Even from Slovenia! That is so miraculous. But then... you are a miraculous lady. How could we not love ya?

Be well. Be healthy. Be strong. Win this war. Be the Miracle. You already are!

Love,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, Canada, - Monday, August 15, 2005 3:41 PM CDT

WOW you were SO energetic and bubbly and wonderful and amazing on Friday!!! How did you manage that on Day 7 post transplant??? AH! Too great. Once again, an amazingly successful evening. I loved being surrounded by all those newly shaved heads, I fit right in ;) & to have so many people out there, all working together to kill cancer... just awesome. Congratulations Ash! Love you!
Karin's caringbridge site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Monday, August 15, 2005 2:22 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I am a good friend of Sara's (who was your leader at camp years ago). She shared your story with me tonight and I have spent the evening reading your website. I was very inspired by your positive attitude and spirit :) You have contributed to this earth in a way that most people could never dream of. Keep on trecking.... you should be very proud!

Hugs,
Jocelyn xoxo
Jocelyn <jocey_7@hotmail.com>
White Rock, BC Canada - Sunday, August 14, 2005 11:42 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
just writing from down under to say that we have all been praying for you here, Geoff and I, our church community and everyone I work with. I am so glad the gala was a success last night, I wish we could have been there for it. You are one incredible woman! Know that there is plenty more love and prayer coming to you from across the world!

Love Lauren, Geoff and aussie crew
Lauren Fee
Sydney, NSW Australia - Sunday, August 14, 2005 5:29 AM CDT

Ashley, your fundraiser last night touched so many people. You are a brave warrior woman, fighting cancer - and winning!

Leah's Mom
- Sunday, August 14, 2005 0:50 AM CDT

Hey Ash:
Just wanted to say that you are such an inspiration. Watching you last evening, so strong, so positive and with so much love and support........ you are just AMAZING! Keep on Swimming!!
The Dekanichs <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Saturday, August 13, 2005 11:33 PM CDT

Ash, congratulations! Sounds like the fundraiser was a complete success. I wish I were there, but know that I am supporting you from afar. I check the journal often and you are never far from my thoughts and prayers. You are an inspiration to me and to all who know you. Keep it up, girl. You WILL Beat this cancer. What stories you will have to share. Keep on keeping on and know that God is with you! Love you lots.
Tricia Gerhard <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, SK Canada - Saturday, August 13, 2005 1:59 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! We had a great time at the party last night! You looked so great! You have so much support!! After we started walking back to the car, we ended up turning around to go back and buy more bracelets! After I saw your arms, I decided I needed more! LOL!! I hope you have a good day today, and maybe we'll see you Monday!

Love Teresa

Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Saturday, August 13, 2005 10:38 AM CDT

So good to be able to be there tonight, Ash!

For a cancer patient, you are one sexy woman. Infact, regardless of the cancer you are hot hot hot! And I am so proud of you, for so many reasons.

I can't wait to sit in a rocking chair and tell your grandkids stories of what other adventures you got up to while you were sick :)

With love love, joyous love,
Chris
Christine Boyle <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
Gambier Island?, BC Canada - Saturday, August 13, 2005 0:11 AM CDT

Best wishes from North Carolina!!!! Hope that you enjoy your party. Have a great time!

Sarah <tamura@alltel.net>
NC USA - Friday, August 12, 2005 5:36 PM CDT

I hope you have an awesome time tonight. Wish I could be there!! I will be there in spirit!!! Keep on Keeping on you sweet thing!!!
Lots of Love and BIg Hugs,
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C Canada - Friday, August 12, 2005 4:01 PM CDT

Hi there! We are back from our trip in the east and I just got caught up on your journal entries. Your strength, courage and spirit is inspiring! You can do this Bubba!! Ian and I, were often asked, on our trip - what the yellow band was that we were wearing - and we told them it was for our friend Ashley and our hope that cancer will soon be a memory for everyone. We are looking forward to the beach party tonight! See you soon! love and blessings, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
Cloverdale, - Friday, August 12, 2005 11:44 AM CDT

Hello Ashley - this is my first guestbook entry but I've been coming to check on you for quite some time. I don't even remember how I came to your website, but here I am!! You are in my thoughts and prayers daily! God Bless You!
Tammy (Lacie's Mom) www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove <tammy@allengrahaminc.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Friday, August 12, 2005 10:51 AM CDT

Ashley, I met your dad years ago at a Tech conference and have continued to correspond with him over the years by e-mail. I live in Columbus, Ohio USA and wanted you to know that I am sending lots of positive energy your way and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your spirit is an inspiration to us all. Cheers, Felicity
Felicity Steele <fsteele@columbusschoolforgirls.org>
Columbus, OH USA - Friday, August 12, 2005 9:35 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. Even though we haven't met you, you mean a lot to us and we all want to see you get well again:) We are all praying for you Ashley. Take care of yourself sweetheart and remember that you can beat this:)
2005-2006 Pharmacy Residents <shakirajunior@yahoo.ca>
- Thursday, August 11, 2005 6:54 PM CDT

Alex, Carolee, JoJo and Goliath are sending hugs to you. We have been checking on you everyday and are praying that all is well.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
- Wednesday, August 10, 2005 9:54 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!

I hear you are still having a very hard time with a stomach bug. Hope you are feeling better soon. Hang in there, Ash! Lots of praying and lighting of candles going on in this house for you! ;)

I'm glad you got the transplant and everything went as smoothly as possible - I love that your priest blessed the cells before you got them! That is awesome! You and Heidi are both so awesome!

Laverne will be bringing by that Hawthorn berry herb next time she sees you. I thought you would get it more quickly that way. It says on the bottle to take 10-20 drops in water (best if spring water)... but if you want to try a smaller dose first that's good too. I took only 5 drops diluted in water to begin with (about 15 minutes before eating). Then see how that helps soothe your heart. Hawthorn is really nourishing and healing for the heart in so many ways. There should be no side effects.

Take care, sweet heart! We love you all so much!! We were all talking about ya at healing hands last night. Sending you loving, healing energy and blessings. Don't worry about wearing make-up! You are going through so much... your health is the ONLY thing that matters... and you are always beautiful!

See you soon!
Lots and lots and lots of Light and Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Tuesday, August 9, 2005 11:06 PM CDT

Ash,

Sending thoughts of love and prayers of healing your way as you move through this courageous phase of your journey. It's a gift to walk it with you. Go gently, trusting God's spirit is always with you. Love Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Monday, August 8, 2005 10:25 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley:

I'm sending you a huge bundle of positive, healing energy. Thanks for the beautiful Beach Party invitation. I'll be heading to California for about a week around that time, but I'll be there celebrating with you in spirit! :-) I'm giving my lecture to the students this Thursday. Thanks so much for all your help and for being such a great role model.

Love you lots, :-)

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, August 8, 2005 5:49 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! I have been checking your website for updates, but didn't realize you were in the hospital. I hope you're feeling better, and that the stem cell infusion went smoothly! I just know this is going to work for you! Sean and I are sending love and prayers your way! Keep on Swimming!!
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Monday, August 8, 2005 10:31 AM CDT

Hi Ashley
Hang in there sweetie! I'm always thinking of you!
Love, Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra , BC Canada - Monday, August 8, 2005 0:07 AM CDT

If you think you can doing anything in this world, you can. Bestest regards.

Wally Amante <wally@peakpotentials.com>
North Van, Canada - Sunday, August 7, 2005 9:02 PM CDT

We are hoping you are doing well and you remain in our thoughts and prayers.
The Boleak Family <mommamea4@shaw.ca>
Poco, - Saturday, August 6, 2005 8:22 PM CDT

Hey Ashley! It's aLLiE! All my thoughts and prayer are with you. I hope that the transplant goes well. I'm so excited to be seeing you next week. Love yah!
aLLiE <miss_dramatic_airhead@hotmail.com>
Brampton, ON L6W 2E5 - Saturday, August 6, 2005 2:17 PM CDT

Ashley,
The prayers of me and my family are with you now in this hardest time! You are a fighter!! God be with you and give you the strength you need.
Love, Erica XOXO
"And though we meet resistance, we more so will meet great souls who will hail us, love us and guide us, and we will know them when they appear." -- Clarissa Pinkola Estes
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC Canada - Saturday, August 6, 2005 2:20 AM CDT

We sent you positive thoughts and prayers ALL day today. Hope its working. Today is your day and by now you are resting comfortably letting it do its work. Hugs to all your family and a big special hug to you girl. You are and always will be an inspriation to me. (Helped me over more rough spots than I care to mention). Get well for the beach party
Love Judy
Judy Jackson and family <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Friday, August 5, 2005 10:51 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!

Today is your day! I beleive in you! You are constantly in my thoughts and in my prayers.....and well come to think of it...a big part of my heart belongs to you. I miss your infectious smile and can't wait to see you feeling better.
Love you
Donna
P.S. Someone else here wants to say "Hi"......."Meow...meow,meow,meow...mew, mew"......xoxox
Donna Walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, B,C - Friday, August 5, 2005 9:28 PM CDT

Ashley,
I understand that today is the big day! May today be the beginning of a new and healthy life for you. I am praying for you and sending out as many positive vibes as possible.

You are an inspiration to us all!!!!!!!
Barb Forward <bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Friday, August 5, 2005 1:31 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
As you receive Heidi's stem cells today, deeply know that they are filled with healing light and that they will do all that you want them to do! We have you constantly in our prayers. Much love, Ariel and Hugh
Ariel Creighton <arielcreighton@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. - Friday, August 5, 2005 10:00 AM CDT

Hi Ashley. I haven't visited your site before but I have regular contact with your family. I work at the pharmacy where they pick up meds for you and for themselves. I just wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers. I have put healing thoughts into all the medications your family picks up for you. I really liked your suggestion that everyone praying for you also visualizes your tumor shrinking and your cancer being BEATEN!! Today is the day you're having your sister's stem cells transplanted. I hope it is not too unpleasant an experience for you. You are courageous and strong - a fighter and you have a great attitude. All these qualities are good weapons for the battle you're fighting. Take care. You (and your family) are in my thoughts and prayers.
Joanne
Burnaby, BC Canada - Friday, August 5, 2005 9:11 AM CDT

We are back from Florida and are just popping in to say Hi!

Alex thought that you would like a picture of the Princesses that we met at Disney.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
Williamstown, VT - Friday, August 5, 2005 6:31 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,We don't know each other,but Leah has kept me up to date on you.I want to let you know that my prayers and positive energy have been sent to you all along and will continue to be.You are a very stellar lady and deserve to beat this disease!My thoughts and prayers will be with both you and Heidi all of this week and the weeks to come as I know that healing from either operation is not easy.Let your sister's cells breathe their energy into you so you come out on top!Good luck to you both.luv Heidi
Heidi Sheard/Kennedy
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, August 4, 2005 3:57 PM CDT

Dear Ashley, I have been following your journey and I am amazed by your courage and strength. You and Heidi are in my prayers as you both face the bone marrow procedures. I pray that this is the ticket to your return to complete health. Keep up your smiling spirit.
Marni Haley <mhaley@jbhaley.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, August 4, 2005 12:30 AM CDT

Dear Ashley, As I read about you, your loving energy gives me the courage to face the events in my life that need facing. I pray for your continuing strength and joy. You are surrounded by the love and light of your family and friends.
Deanne Mandell <deannemandell@yahoo.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, August 4, 2005 11:23 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,
God is with you as you travel this road toward health and wholeness. May the prayers of all who know and love you be answered in the skill of the doctors and nurses caring for you during your next few weeks in hospital. May God continue to hold you in the palm of his hand. From another Healing Pathways Vessel.
Judi Rhodes <phantom1@uniserve.com>
Squamish, BC Canada - Thursday, August 4, 2005 1:15 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,
There is not a day goes by that I do not think of you and pray
for you.You are my hero as I go through my treatments.

Love, Ann
Ann Forward <buddaisy@telus.net>
Kitimat, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, August 3, 2005 9:56 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!

I hear you are in the hospital with a fever. Not so great (altho it is great that they are taking good care of u!).

Hang in there Tough Chick! Before you know it Heidi's new and improved cells will be clobbering the cancer... and your internal Immune Army will have some healthy new recruits joining up... some powerful allies to aid you in the war! Your sister has your back!

So just hold on. Hold the line, Brave Girl. You can do this thing. I know you can. You are a lovely, sweet and kind young woman... but inside you are made of stone and steel! Your soul is fierce! :) You've proven that! You are a Warrior of Light!

So keep on being STRONG.

We luv you SOOOOOOOOOOO much and are praying for you SOOOOOOOOOOO much!!! So many people on this planet have your back covered prayerwise! The angels are with you for sure. They're pretty fierce too! Good to have on your side. ;)

Take a good look at the shiny new diamonds on your finger every once in a while. That is also good. Diamond Therapy always helps!!

Get better, dearest Ash. Take some deep breaths and breathe in that miracle!

God is with you and you are LOVED. Take comfort in the fact that you are protected and surrounded and filled by Divine Energy/Love/The Holy Spirit at all times and you are never, ever alone.

Luv and Healing Energy,
Leah xoxo

Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, August 3, 2005 7:56 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Keep swimming Ashley! We believe in you and know Heidi's cells will make all the difference. They are your saving grace from God. Feel their strength. Glad to hear Brian is treating you well!! You deserve the best. Can't wait to see you on the 9th. Hang in there!

Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway @peelsb.com>
Brampton , Ont Canada - Wednesday, August 3, 2005 6:32 AM CDT

Dear Ashley...i'm sending you thoughts and prayers...thinking of you often. big hug.

Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Tuesday, August 2, 2005 6:37 AM CDT

Hi Ash:
Just want you to know that we are all thinking of you and wishing you all the strength and courage you need. You are awesome and we will see you on the 12th!
Nancy, Ron, Mark & Scott Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
- Monday, August 1, 2005 10:28 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!!!
It's Paige! Sounds like youre doing really well!:) Mom told me what a line is so next time I see you (hopefully soon) I wont have to ask. How are the plans for the ball going? I was at the Filberg Festival and found a woman who makes these bead miracles! Anyway, she made one tassle that reminded me so much of ocean foam that I looked at the price tag ,one word., yikes, 116$! I got her card and plan to take lessons from her (i hope) and if I can I'll try to get some tassles if you would like some for parties! I reallly hope too see you soon!
luv u lots
Paige:)
P.S. Done HP6 on the 18th!
Paige Fraser <dianabhicks@yahoo.com>
Courtenay, Canada - Sunday, July 31, 2005 4:22 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I'm reading your journal from way up in Revelstoke. Your positive energy is incredible, I can feel it coming right through the computer and I am doing my best to send it back at you, picturing your cancer getting smaller and going completely. You are amazing!
Take care in this next phase of your battle,
Jessie
Jessie Anderson <joocyjessica@hotmail.com>
Revelstoke, BC - Sunday, July 31, 2005 1:47 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
We just want you to know that you are in our hearts and in our daily thoughts as you start this journey. We wish you strength and know that you will come through this with flying colours - stronger than ever! Be well Ashley and we'll see you on the 12th!
Love Debbie, Travis, Taylor

Debbie Gibson
- Sunday, July 31, 2005 0:41 AM CDT

Ashley,
You are one of the most amazing and strongest people I have ever met. You are going to make it through is. I keep you in my prayers often. Take Care. I'm hoping to come to your BBQ on the 12th since I couldn't make it to your ball last summer.
Ally Picard <soccerstar12@telus.net>
Richmond, B.C., - Sunday, July 31, 2005 0:02 AM CDT

Ash,
Just a note to let you know that you are in our thoughts always but front and centre now as you start this next journey. You are amazing and we love you. Jordy and I will keep Andrew (son #5 to me) under our wings for you. YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS, that is what I believe!!!
Love,
Val and family
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, July 30, 2005 5:32 PM CDT

Hi Ash,
You are in my prayers as you start the chemo tomorrow. I hope the Hickman is settling in O.K. and that it's not too uncomfortable. As you said, it is the pathway for Heidi's healing stemcells and I am going to be visualizing them doing amazing and cancer curing work in your body when you receive them next week. Thinking of you all the time.
Love and hugs, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, July 30, 2005 2:46 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Good thoughts and good wishes to you as you begin this new phase of your journey. I hope you realize how many of us hold you in our thoughts each day. My Mom (Ann) just had her second chemo yesterday. She had it in Prince Rupert and says it wasn't near as much fun as the day we were all together at the chemo party in Vancouver! I know we only met that one day but we miss your infectious smile and positive outlook. The impact you made on our lives was tremendous. Stay strong chickie and carry your guardian angel with you. We are rooting for you!!!!!! Love, Beth
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Friday, July 29, 2005 7:49 PM CDT

Dober dan, princeska!

I just got home from scouts summer camp! Kids were amazing and we had so much fun! But i'm really tired now!
So, see you on Monday! I'm coming to Canada really soon! :))) I can't wait to see you again!

RADA TE IMAM!

Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Friday, July 29, 2005 4:44 PM CDT

Hey Miss Amazing,
We missed each other yesterday at B4. I saw your name in the charts but didn't see you around :( . I know everything is starting up very soon, and I *SO* wish you didn't have to feel any more suffering. I've been thinking of you a lot, and I know you are in the hearts of soooo many people, cheering you on!! I'm so thankful Healing Hands has been there for you, helping you heal! You have such a fighter's spirit, I see that willpower in you. I'm so blessed to know you!! You are in my prayers.
Karin's caringbridge site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Thursday, July 28, 2005 9:14 PM CDT

hey ashley,

don't eat too much soy. your future son (and his future girlfriends) may never forgive you :)

keep on keeping on. i'm so proud to be part of your journey.
love, me
vancouver, bc canada - Thursday, July 28, 2005 6:59 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! I can't remember if I've signed in before, but I've been reading your page for awhile now and I'm amazed by your courage and never-ending strength. You are such an inspiration to the rest of us! I'll be thinking of you often and checking in as well during the next few weeks as you undergo the transplant. All my best wishes, and keep on smiling!
<dianasinger06@yahoo.com>
Dallas, TX - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 11:02 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley:

Hang in there, my friend! Your strength, determination, positive attitude, great support system, and expert physicians will play a big part in the success of your transplant. Keep smiling and think positive. It's been a challenging road that you've had to travel, but one that you've climbed with certainty, control, and determination. I'm extremely proud of you and your abilities to deal with difficult situations. Keep on swimming and know that you have my full support. Please let me know, if there is any way that I can make your journey easier.

With love and a huge hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 5:59 PM CDT

Hi again dear Ashley - Just took a look at your recent entries and some of the fantastic photos from The Shore fundraiser. You must surely feel blessed by all the love and support from so many, many caring friends and family members.

Well, this week and next are huge for you! We wish you comfort, strength, determination and all of God's blessings to help nurture you and bring you through to that cancer-free fabulous life you're going to have. Our thoughts and prayers will be with you, your family and all the doctors and hospital caregivers on your team.

Much love, dear Ashley
Helen and Nis Jorgensen
Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 12:09 AM CDT

Ashley just to let you know you're still in our thoughts everyday. You are such an amazing young lady who touches the hearts of everyone who's path you cross! Say hello to your daddy for me and tell him I'm thinking of him too!
Sandi B
- Tuesday, July 26, 2005 10:20 AM CDT

Ashley, you're going to do great, I just know it!! I'm glad they're keeping you busy, and you'll be done and on your way to recovery before you know it! Take good care of yourself!!
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 10:06 AM CDT

Ashley, your story is amazing.. You make everyone around you a better person.
Dan Mangan <dan@danmanganmusic.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 3:37 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I will be praying for your transplant to go well.
Stephanie & RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Monday, July 25, 2005 11:24 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I haven't written for awhile but have kept informed by clicking into your web page. So good to hear that your fundraiser at the Shore was a huge success. I loved the pictures. Glad to hear the transplant is coming quick. You are in our thoughts in the Jackson family every day. This is a long road for you but not insurmountable (sp) (not sure that's a word). You are an inspiration to me and you must keep on swimming.
Judy jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Sunday, July 24, 2005 10:05 PM CDT

Stay positive Ashley!! You're amazingly strong, and you're gonna get rid of this cancer one way or another. Never doubt that!!!!!! I'm gonna picture you healthy, happy, and full of energy while you do this transplant. Keep fightin' girl!
Christina Vasak <christina_laura@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Sunday, July 24, 2005 9:02 PM CDT

Ashley,
Sorry to hear that your chemo therapy isn't working like it should. I know it is easy for me to say this having never been through an experience like you...........but keep your head up, hopes high and above all, your faith. I will be praying for you during your transplant and recovery period. I admire your determination I'm sure that had to be a difficult decision to make.

My mom is doing well. She has her good and bad days. She is waiting for blood results to determine whether she can go through with her next treatment on the 28th. She has asked me to say hello and to let you kinow she thinks of you often.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!!!!!
Stay strong!!!!!
Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Sunday, July 24, 2005 4:11 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

Glad your fundraiser at the Shore was so much fun. Travis wanted to be there but couldn't as he isn't 19 yet. Soon! We follow your journey daily and we are in awe of your tremendous strength and incredible attitude. I'm sure that you are an inspiration to many. Our positive thoughts are with you Ashley. Bless you.

Debbie, Travis, Taylor
Debbie Gibson
- Saturday, July 23, 2005 2:09 PM CDT

Ashley, here in the Motut household you are never far from our thoughts. As you keep on swimming remember we're there beside you, ahead of you, behind you, every day, sending all the love, support, and encouragement our hearts can muster. You WILL be well again. And please give our very best to Heidi... she has our greatest respect and admiration. With a sister team like that, who can lose?

Bernie, Kim, Heather, and Alex Motut <bpmotut@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Saturday, July 23, 2005 11:35 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Kimberly here, Carole's daughter.
I just want to let you know that I am following your journey with admiration and commiseration.
Just one more person who is thinking about you and praying for you. Good luck with the transplant and keep on swimming!!
Kimberly Anderson <kimberly@andersonclan.com>
Toronto, - Saturday, July 23, 2005 10:07 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Great to hear your fundraiser was such a success!! The pictures are wonderful. You go girl!! You inspire us all. Love and best wishes
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON - Thursday, July 21, 2005 6:10 PM CDT

Hello there! Thank you for signing Alex's guestbook. We love to make new friends! Sorry it took me so long to sign yours. Final exams are over so I should be better about signing in, at least until school starts again in August!

I am really glad that your fundraiser went well! I was checking out the pictures and they are GREAT! We will keep you in our prayers.

We leave for vacation to Disney World on Thursday, so watch your email for "postcard" from Alex.

MaryBeth & Alex

MaryBeth <marybethlefevre@aol.com>
WIlliamstown, VT - Tuesday, July 19, 2005 4:11 PM CDT

Ashley, I'm so glad your fundraiser was such a success!! I really wish I could have been there! The bartenders shaving their heads really touched me! So many people love you and want to put an end to this terrible disease!!

I'm going to buy a bunch of your t-shirts and give them to friends. Send me an e-mail and let me know how much and how.

You looked great! I can't believe you just had chemo that day! I'm glad you had a good time. I'm so happy to hear your tumor hadn't grown! It's giving up! It knows it can't beat you!! You continue to amaze me! Thanks for being such an inspiration to me!!

Love
Teresa
Teresa Diamond <teresadawn@shaw.ca>
Port Moody, - Monday, July 18, 2005 0:17 AM CDT

Ashley!
I'm so glad your Shore fundraiser was such a success! Yay! It's no surprise tho... I knew it would be. Everything you touch turns to gold (is that why you take the aurum??!)! Sorry I couldn't be there.
It is so cool that you got the bartenders to shave their heads. Awesome! Just between you and me... I think they look better with their heads shaved! Hehehe.

Congrats on all your success. I'm so glad your counts are up and you got through the chemo. I'm tellin' ya... when you're all through this a little acupuncture will help fix that neuropathy in your hands for sure. Keep it in mind.

It was my friend, Victoria's, 31st birthday today... and she has been in remission from a harsh version of laryngeal cancer for over 2 1/2 years now! Beating the odds! So you can too! Someday we'll be celebrating your 31st birthday!!!

Stay strong and keep the faith!
Luv ya LOTS!
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, July 17, 2005 11:13 PM CDT

Ashley you are so amazing. I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your fundraiser I was working Harry Potter night. I would love to get one of your t-shirts tho. If you could let me know how to get them that would be awesome. You are such an inspiration to everyone. I know you can beat this.
All my love,
Esther AKA Young Pat
Esther Clark <drama_queen160@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, - Sunday, July 17, 2005 10:54 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, It looks like your day and night were both very eventful and a blast!!! I'm visualizing healing and and the cancer cells being blasted out. It's amazing to hear how effective the visualization is! I won't be back in touch for a while, but that doesn't mean I will not be thinking of you and visualizing you well and strong. Love and blessings, Sharon.
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver , B.C. Canada - Sunday, July 17, 2005 8:49 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I haven't seen you seen high school math class! I wanted to say that you are amazingly strong and you are definitely going to kick cancer's ass. Your story is so inspirational. My aunt was just diagnosed with colon cancer and I have been so worried for her, but hearing how strong you have been has given me so much hope that even though it will be tough, she will be okay. Thank you, and you are in my prayers.
Katie Donohue <kate_donohue@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, July 17, 2005 0:42 AM CDT

Dearest Ashley:

It was great seeing you and your family just now. You look absolutely amazing, healthy, and strong! I'm very proud of you!!!

Have a wonderful time at the party tonight & keep up the great work. :-)

With lots of love & a big hug,

Shirin
Shirin Abadi <SAbadi@bccancer.bc.ca>
Vancouver , BC Canada - Friday, July 15, 2005 5:22 PM CDT

Dear Ashley,
My name is Helene,I am your mother's cousin from Toronto. My husband, Gary and myself were over at Shirley's home for lunch last Saturday July 9,05 and she told us about your ilness; we were both very sad to hear about it. We just wanted to tell you that you are in our prayers. We both hope and pray that you will be fully cured in the near future.
Love, Helene & Gary.
Helene & Gary Neal <tiatoko@sprint.ca>
Bramalea, Ont Canada - Friday, July 15, 2005 9:40 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

You are such an inspiration to me girly. I am so excited about tomorrow night and am determind to come! Today wasn't such a good day for me, but I know tomorrow will be better. I continue to pray for us:)

Love Margaret
Margaret's Caringbridge Site <mltse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, July 14, 2005 11:28 PM CDT

Hi Ash,
I'll be thinking of you having chemo tomorrow. I am saying prayers that you will feel well enough to be at The Shore tomorrow night. I am visualising you there in a sparkly top!! You have got to be there to see their faces when so many of us oldies walk in. We promise to NOT attempt to appear cool!! Ho! Ho! As if we could!! You are an amazing role model for all of us and we love you SOOOOOOOO much.
Love and hugs, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Thursday, July 14, 2005 10:39 PM CDT

PS: Crying is okay too though. Never feel bad about crying. It clears out your system and can be very healing! :)

Take care and God bless, dearest Ashley. We all luv ya.

Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Thursday, July 14, 2005 9:25 PM CDT

Succulent?! Hey, who wrote that??! I hope you are behaving yourself, Miss Ashley! :)

Are your platelets down again? Time for more praying and visualizing... let's get to work, people!

You will get through this Ashley. Keep on believing! In your head see yourself clear of cancer and totally well... and imagine Sarah Michelle Gellar starring in your life story on the big screen (with a VERY happy ending!!:)

Who will play her (your) love interest on silver screen - Orlando? Keanu? The lead guy from the Killers or Maroon 5?? Maybe Freddie Prinze Jr. After all, he's married to Sarah I think. That would be believable chemistry.

Picture yourself in a lovely flowing Versace gown (or maybe that's Valentino) on the red carpet when they give Sarah an Oscar for portraying your mindblowing life story! Oh... and you'll have long flowing dark brown hair too! Ms. Gellar will bring you on stage with her and everyone will cry and cheer for you... and then Sarah will be so overcome she'll give you her Oscar to keep forever! Your picture will be on every magazine and paper in the western hemisphere!!! Woo Hoo!

Okay, okay. Maybe I'm overdoing it here. Visualization therapy. Hey, whatever works! It could seriously happen! You've already done so many amazing things. People all over the world have already cried and cheered and applauded you time and time again. You've already won a spectacular award and taken it home. You know people in high places!

You are already a brilliant shining Star in the hearts of sooo many people!! I hope you know this in your heart. Let it be your medicine. How loved you are.

With God ALL things are possible. You know that. Imagine what lengths He/She is willing to go to for you... His/Her beloved daughter!

Hope this silly note made you laugh a little. Sometimes all we can do is either cry or laugh. I wish for you lots of laughter and giggling. We all need to see that beautiful smile of yours light up.

Good luck with the Shore tomorra!
Luv ya LOTS!!!
Leah xoxo
Leah 'Blue Morpho' Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, July 14, 2005 9:20 PM CDT

you are a wild, succulent woman. truely and deeply. and it is an incredible inspiration.

thanks.
love love love, me.
vancouver, bc canada - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 11:54 PM CDT

Ashley,
I am so glad to hear the transplant is a go! I think of you everyday and am busy telling people about this most amazing person, whom I haven't been fortunate enough to meet. My mom is doing well and sends you her best wishes. Have a great summer!

Your in my thoughts and prayers, Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, Canada - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 4:53 PM CDT

hey Ashley, just thought i'd say hello, and....i'm thinking of ya!!
Steve-o-roni, and Simon <mpozi@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, bc canada - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 0:18 AM CDT

Hi Ashley!!
Glad to hear things are going good for you. I have been sending you lots of thoughts since we left,every single day,several times a day. Thank you so much for all the good care you have been giving Brian......I could not have done it without you!! You are an inspriation to us all.
Love you!
Donna
Donna walker <donna_walker@shaw.ca>
Port Coquitlam, - Tuesday, July 12, 2005 12:22 AM CDT

Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!! EXCELLENT news that they will be proceeding with the transplant!!!!!!!!!!! My fingers, toes, eyeballs, legs and anything else that can be crossed are crossed for you. Keep praying, stay strong and believe!! Lots of love and good wishes, Beth
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON CANADA - Tuesday, July 12, 2005 12:13 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
So pleased to hear that your platelet count is up!! That is absolutely wonderful news. More proof that a positive mindset overcomes many obstacles. It is such a pleasure to read your journal entries. Thank you for being so open and up front about your experiences. My Mom (Ann) has picked out her wig. My sister (Barb) who lives in the same town as my Mom is on standby ready to shave Mom's head when the time comes. We had a good giggle the other day. The day of our chemo party the nurse gave my Mom a pill to take (the Dr. also prescribed some to her). I don't know if you remember but that afternoon my Mom got quite hungry and my sister Karen and I went out to get her some food - all of which she ate. Pretty impressive considering her appetite had been pretty off beforehand. Turns out that part of what the pill contained was medicinal marijuana. We have taken great glee in teasing my Mom that she had 'the munchies' that day! Gotta take humour where we can!! Anyhow, as always you are in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to your next journal entry. Love and good wishes. Beth :)
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Monday, July 11, 2005 2:27 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Thoughts and prayers from Williams Lake. I'm a friend of Heidi's from VST and we met a couple of times back then. Anyway, she sent me your website. It's great! You have a zest for life that is truly infectious (see, there are some good infections!). Be strong and take strength from others to keep you boosted!
Blessings, Margaret Anne
Margaret Anne Enders <maenders@hotmail.com>
Williams Lake, - Monday, July 11, 2005 12:39 AM CDT

Hi Ashley! You and your positive attitude are simply beautiful! I've never met you, but I will pray for your health. Best of luck to you...
Shelly Hilbert <hilbert@canada.com>
Vancouver, - Monday, July 11, 2005 11:26 AM CDT

Hi, Ashley. We are thinking of you and praying for you. Sent you lots of positive energy from the Comox Valley Music Festival this weekend. much love, always, Diana
Diana Hicks
- Sunday, July 10, 2005 11:44 PM CDT

Dear Ashley,
Thinking about you and praying for you lots. I don't think I'll make it on Friday night to the Shore, but really hope to be there in August (with baby Joshua!). I'm so glad to hear the visualization and prayers are working, and it sounds like you are managing to have some fun, too. So great. You are such an inspiration, my friend, caring for everyone else while working on your own healing - such a gift to the world. Stay strong. Love to you and your family, Tracy
Tracy Murton <tmurton@shaw.ca>
- Sunday, July 10, 2005 3:21 PM CDT

Hi there bubba!
Thinking of you and visualizing the tumor shrinking and disappearing!!! Sending you hugs! Ian and I are holding you in prayer, prayers for healing and peace. Looking forward to next Friday!

love you, Jen
Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
Cloverdale, BC - Saturday, July 9, 2005 1:40 PM CDT

Hey Ashley,
Well I am off to Moorecroft tomorrow morning for a week!! I will be thinking of you and sending all the magic that the beauty of Moorecroft inspires. I am visualizing you with tons of WBC and no cancer!! Good luck this week!! Lots of Love,
Sara
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C. Canada - Saturday, July 9, 2005 3:46 AM CDT

Dober dan, bejba!

I'm leaving for Taize today. It's so weid that you and Andrew won't be there too...I'LL MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! But i'll think of you all the time and i'll sing our Polish song! And i'll visualize you all healty, praying and singing in Taize...because we'll have to go there again!!! After Paris, of course! :))

Wow..you've had some pretty crazy days...I hope everything will be ok soon! Just keep on swimmng!
Well, have fun at The Shore on 15th..i know it will be super fun and i really hope you'll make it there ater chemo!

RADA TE IMAM!!!
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Saturday, July 9, 2005 2:18 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, visualization vibes are positively pouring your way! I hope it doesn't matter that I don't know what it all is, I'm just visualizing you strong and well, and using that language that is pretty foreign to me, but is obviously familiar to many others in this group. Be stronger and stronger, and have fun when you can!!! I'm tempted to join the head-shaving crowd, but I think it might just be a bit over the top, and the thing is, I won't be in town then. O well... I hope it all goes really well, and is both productive and fun!

Love and blessings,
Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, July 8, 2005 7:50 PM CDT

hehe it looks like we're all seeing Dr. Barnett on Monday! I see him in the morn. I think. WOW your platelets really got the message and got going! yesss! it worked! Next up, WBC - let's get those moving and re-producing. I really hope you'll be good to go on the 15th for chemo - and the amazing celebration later that night. I'm excited! I hope Brian & Mel feel better soon!! Love you!
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Friday, July 8, 2005 3:57 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! I'm so glad your platelets are up!! I'm sure by next week you'll be ready to get your chemo! I see Dr. Barnett Monday too, so maybe I'll see you there! You're in my thoughts and prayers always!

Teresa Diamond
Port Moody, - Friday, July 8, 2005 2:06 PM CDT

Hello Ashley, This visualising certainley takes over I see you in my sleep! God Bless you and all your wonderful family, with love, prayers [ and pictures in my head!!]from Margaret Danby
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC canada - Friday, July 8, 2005 12:35 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
This is Beth - one of Ann's daughters from the chemo party. You are in my thoughts everyday, your smile, your courage and your strength are amazing. It is nice to read that you are feeling better! I wish I could be there to join your head shaving party. Take good care and stay strong. You are such an inspiration to us all! Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for making my Mom laugh so much.
Beth Forward <travelwench@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, July 7, 2005 2:52 PM CDT

Ashley,
Did you sign my mummy up...I will raise the money and shave her while she sleeps!!!! ;)
Hugs and Kisses

Emma <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 6, 2005 9:19 PM CDT

I love you so so so so so much! Can't wait to see you "in action" at The Shore! No pole dancing this time? hehe
Love you!!

Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
North Van, - Tuesday, July 5, 2005 10:03 PM CDT

This message is for Ashley Brear. Hello, Lois Hashimoto from church has kept me abreast of your treatments. I'm a cancer survivor myself having had Hodgkin's Disease at 24 years of age (15 years ago). I also took Vinblastine, Etobiside and Adriamycine. I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you and sending you positive vibes. I'm now 39 and awaiting the birth of my first baby. The pregnancy is a bit trickier due to my past illness but I just wanted to you to know that there are many survivors and that I will say a special prayer for you.

Take care!

Johanne
Johanne Duhaime <johanne_duhaime@videotron.ca>
Montreal, Canada - Tuesday, July 5, 2005 4:16 PM CDT

Dear Ashley: I am a friend of Judy Jackson's. I met your parents at Judy's celebration party in June. I feel like I know you although we have never met.So sorry to hear about your cancer, but what Judy tells me of your spirit and positive attitude that you are an amazing person. I hope with lots of prayers and good vibes you can beat this terrible disease. Hang in there and I hope the allo transplant will work for you. Prayers and Hugs going your way.
Charlene Nixon <nixongate@rogers.com>
Ottawa, Ont, Canada - Tuesday, July 5, 2005 3:02 PM CDT

HI Ahsley,
Just wanted to let you know that as usual I am thinking of you everyday and sending all the healing energy I have to you!! YOu are so special and are touching so many lives...be proud!! I love you!!
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C Canada - Tuesday, July 5, 2005 12:23 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
My name is Barb and I am Anne's other daughter. Unfortunately I was unable to be with my mom during her first chemo treatment. My sisters and my mom have told me about this most amazing person they met at the cancer clinic. They have told me about your courage and positive additude. The difference you made that day for my mom and my sisters means the world to me. You managed to make a very scary day bright!!! I have never met you but I will appretiate you and think of you daily for a long time to come. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb Forward <Bforward70@hotmail.com>
Kitimat, B.C. Canada - Monday, July 4, 2005 12:25 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,
I would like to volunteer my mummy to get her head shaved :)!! We might have to do it while she is sleeping...but hey I can tiptoe really quietly!!! And I know where Daddy's hairsnippers are....hehe!
God Bless
Hugs and kisses
www.caringbridge.org/visit/emmawoods
Emma <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON Canada - Sunday, July 3, 2005 9:04 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, Conversing with your dad via e mail and reading your journal - life has certainly been hectic for you. Glad to hear you are out and about after your scare last week. Whenever I used to feel really 'ruff' after chemo I chalked it up to the drugs working. That's what is happening to you. That chemo is kicking cancer's
--s!!!!!!!! Thoughts and prayers are with you from us. Big hugsssssss Judy and fam
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Saturday, July 2, 2005 2:36 PM CDT

Ash,

I had a dream last night that you had zillions of platelets, and they made you look sort of like the michelin tire guy (in a good way!). it was crazy. c-r-a-z-y.

love.
Chris <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, BC CANADA - Saturday, July 2, 2005 1:00 PM CDT

HI Ashley!

My name is Karen and my sister, mother, and I met you yesterday at my mom's first chemo treatment. I just wanted to thank-you for making such a scary and nerve racking day so much easier for all of us. Your positive attitude and contagious sense of humor really put my mom at ease.
You are an inspiration to my family.

Take care and I look forward to reading more of your journal entries.

Love and Best Wishes,
Karen Forward

Karen Forward <karfo74@hotmail.com>
Yellowknife, NT Canada - Saturday, July 2, 2005 0:41 AM CDT

Dear Ashley:

Just a little note to say that you're in my thoughts today and I'm sending you lots of positive energy.

With love & a big hug,
Shirin Abadi
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, June 30, 2005 6:36 PM CDT

Hey Ashley,
I am truly touched about what you said about our little Emma in your journal....it means more to us then I could ever express into words. She really is a precious gift and she has an amazing outlook on life, I definately feel that God gave her that gift and it has nothing to do with Al and I! As much as she is an inspiration to you, you are an ispiration to us...thanks so much, you are definately in our thoughts and prayers!
God Bless

www.caringbridge.org/visit/emmawoods
Pam (mummy to Emma) <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON Canada - Thursday, June 30, 2005 3:19 PM CDT

Hey Ash, I'm sorry to hear that things are tough right now but I'm glad they found an alternative and I know you'll hang in there. You can and will be this...you have so many people praying for you. Call me if you ever need anything:)
Love and prayers, Heather
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Van, BC Canada - Thursday, June 30, 2005 11:47 AM CDT

I am one of the "lurkers." I just wanted to drop you a note to tell you how brave I think you are. I can just tell by reading your journal that you are a beautiful person on the inside, not just on the outside. Positive thoughts are coming your way!
Amy Jelmeland <Jelmeland@cox.net>
Ladera Ranch, CA USA - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 11:24 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,

Thank you for dropping by to visit me today. I was so incredibly tired, but your smile and cute little story made me feel a little better. You better believe it when people tell you you really light up a room! I know what it's like to hear not so good news, you are so in my continual thoughts and prayers. I'm lucky to know a girl like you:)

Keep on swimming... swim swim swim!! :)

Margaret
Margaret's Caringbridge Site <mltse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 11:10 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, you probably don't remember me, but I am a friend of Koreen Carl (old St.Agnes group!)-I was the one that used to steal the Brear family pew! I've visited this website before, my brother Grant has a webpage. Koreen forwards all the emails she gets from your mum. I have to tell you how much you've been on my mind, in my thoughts and definitely in my prayers. It's weird, but hearing your story has made me so incredibly grateful for everything - my children, my husband, my friends and family, for health and love and joy........all the things that are easily taken for granted. Thank you for sharing your struggles. I know that you don't always feel positive and "up", but you really have a wonderful way of looking at the world, and I admire that. Everything has a purpose, and your struggle and your willingness to share it with all of us, gives me strength and gratitude. So, I just wanted to share that with you - what a beautiful girl you are - inside and out. Thanks and I'm continually praying for you and your family! Sincerely, Heidi
Heidi <heidibartlett@telus.net>
Coquitlam, bc canada - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 8:41 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!
I was worried when you didn't write in your journal for a few days. Had a feeling things were going roughly for you. Hang in there, Superstar! It was sooo good seeing you on Monday. Hope things get better soon. Wear the butterfly when things get you down. A symbol of hope! You're in my heart and prayers as always!
Lots of Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 8:14 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I met you at the Relay for Life. I'm a friend of Judy Jackson and Healing Touch practitioner. Judy was telling me about your set back and I wanted you to know that you are on my church's prayer list. We see you restored to wholeness and with God's loving arms enfolding you and protecting you. Hugs & Blessings Cheryl Blake
Cheryl Blake <jcblake@intergate.ca>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Tuesday, June 28, 2005 8:48 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Glad you are making wonderful use of every good day! We are all picturing you clean as a whistle and dancing on stage. You are absolutely beautiful and all those nasty cells are gone! Feel our thoughts and hugs:)
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
brampton, ont canada - Monday, June 27, 2005 2:42 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Thanks so much for signing my guestbook. I truly love Mummy reading me all the nice messages. You know me and my sister watched Finding Nemo today!!! How cool is that!! Hannah always says Just keep swimming, its her favourite line....she is so silly!!!
I'll be back to check on you
God Bless
www.caringbridge.org/visit/emmawoods
Emma <woodsfamily@nexicom.net>
Peterborough, ON Canada - Sunday, June 26, 2005 5:46 PM CDT

Thinking of you, praying for you and wishing you well, as always, dear Ashley, with love to you and all the family,

Robert, June and Holly
Robert Sandwell, June Brickwood-Sandwell and Holly
- Sunday, June 26, 2005 10:01 AM CDT

Hi Ash
Well--such a trip you have been on lately! Awards and ups and downs with your treatment.Must be such a roller coaster for you.I can tell from your journal that you are surrounded by the love and devotion of your friends and family--which is so great.I think of you often--hang in there and know that there will ALWAYS be a spot at the barre for you whenever you would like!
Love you lots
Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra , BC Canada - Sunday, June 26, 2005 0:53 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, I also read the article in the Sun today about the young woman with leukemia who graduated with a one day attendance record. Awesome! I thought of you while I read, and how you are strong in the same way. You will beat this beast!!! You're on a bumpy road just now, but you have so many friends and family who love you with such a strong love, and we are all bumping along with you. And God is bumping along with you also, holding you when you need holding, giving you strength when you feel like you need more than you can muster yourself. I can see you clearly... your long brown curls blowing in the wind, and you are well and strong!!! Blessings and love, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, June 25, 2005 11:05 PM CDT

Dear Ashley, you are in my thoughts....and there i see you with beautiful loooooooooooooooooooong brown hair ! But in reality i see you as a young courageous lady who will win the battle ! *big hug*
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Saturday, June 25, 2005 3:43 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, Sorry to hear about your set back. Be strong. Its a test. You can do it. I picture you with no cancer, long dark hair and twins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs Judy Jackson :-)
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Saturday, June 25, 2005 2:01 PM CDT

Hi Ashley! I found your site through Karin's and I just wanted to stop by to say hi and tell you that I'm thinking of you! Enjoy this week! Good Luck with everything and I'll check back soon!
Diana's Page <dianasinger06@yahoo.com>
Dallas, TX - Friday, June 24, 2005 12:58 AM CDT

Ashley,
I'm picturing you running along a beautiful beach wearing an itty, bitty, polkadot bikini-----one HEALTHY girl!!---with long brown wavy hair! Promise I will keep the picture going as long as you need me too! God Bless.
Nancy <nls622003@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 24, 2005 12:52 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I've been reading your guestbook and thinking of you. I will most definitely be picturing you well and cancer free, it is the only way I can picture you. I admire your strenght and your courage. I'll send you all my spare energy!

Jessie <joocyjessica@hotmail.com>
Revelstoke, BC Canada - Friday, June 24, 2005 9:52 AM CDT

Ashley,
Love your site...your words are inspirational!
I envy your courage, determination, and strength...and you ability to shave you head and look absolutely gorgeous!
Don't hesitate to call me if you are ever at the Agency...I am there lots...we'll go for coffee or lunch!
604-274-5726 Keep on Swimmin'!!
Love,
Erica:)
Erica Heslop <erica_sunflower@hotmail.com>
Richmond, BC - Thursday, June 23, 2005 10:57 PM CDT

Ashley,

You're one amazing girly. You inspire me everytime I read your updates! We will survive:)

Take Care,

Margaret

PS: you should give me some Shore tickets so I can sell them! I don't mind driving out to N.Van one day!
Margaret's Caringbridge Site <mltse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, June 20, 2005 12:38 AM CDT

Hey Ashley!
You are so blessed with the best friends in the entire world!!! They help make every event, no matter how difficult it may be, a real positive celebration! Angels in disguise!! I loved your pictures. You'd be gorgeous in a paper bag! Get your strength back. We love you!

Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton , Ont Canada - Monday, June 20, 2005 5:42 AM CDT

Hey, bejba!

I wanted to tell you i really like your new hair style, but you shaved your hair...so...but it doesn't matter..i like it...bald is great! So, i told my mum and she almost made me promise i won't shave my head too. lol
Well, it's so nice to read you had fun...and i was especially happy to see your friends on the photos...and Andrew. I can't wait to see you all in August! :)))

Rada te imam!
Katja
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Sunday, June 19, 2005 4:30 PM CDT

Hi Ash, I just read the guestbook and now I know the story about Val and the earings so you don't have to tell me!!! I am sooo proud of you and sooo proud you are my goddaughter. Remember n- k------! I love you!!!
Love, Daphne
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, June 19, 2005 1:22 PM CDT

You have some very amazing friends Ashley. They are inspired by your energy, truly. I just read your journal entry for Saturday and cried. The pictures were great and YES bald is beautiful. The badge of honour we earn for fighting the BEAST. You go girl.!!!!!!!! hugs Judy Jackson
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Saturday, June 18, 2005 11:18 PM CDT

I love you, Ashley! You make bald beautiful!! Keep on swimming, mi amigo!! :) We talked about you today at the healing touch course. You are in the hearts and prayers of soooo many people! You are a beloved daughter of God... and you are a much beloved sister to all of us mere mortals! Never forget how much you are loved. Never, never, never give up! Keep the Faith and the Hope and the Love alive in your heart. ;-)
Your cancer buddy,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, June 18, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

Ashley,
I have never met you but my friend Maureen Bruce mentioned you to me and gave me the address of this site. I believe you met my son Fredrick when he visited the Bruces last summer. I checked your old web site then and now this new one. Just wanted to say that your story is very inspirational and special. I was so moved to read about your chemo parties - only a special person would have the spirit to invite her friends to chemo parties and to make them an occasion. Since then you have gone on fighting and raising money for cancer research .....wow! What a gal! On the bad days remember all the people like me who haven't even met you but whose lives you have touched with your courage and your amazing spirit. I found this little saying and wanted to share it with you:

Good friends are like stars
You don't always see them,
but you know they are always there.

I don't think you know how many people whom you have not even met, are with you in spirit through all of this.

Good luck with the allo transplant too. You go girl!
Liz Schumann <schu58vp@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, - Saturday, June 18, 2005 7:51 PM CDT

Ash,
I am so honored to be part of your story, to be part of your life.
Love love love, Chris.
Christine <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, June 18, 2005 7:49 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I loved looking through your site and hearing your voice through the words on the screen. thank you, you inspired my day. Please know that so many people are praying for you everyday and holding your heart close, all your old united church pals included!
i'll keep checking in on your site. love, Doris Kizinna
Doris Kizinna <dkizinna@bc.united-church.ca>
Naramata, BC - Saturday, June 18, 2005 5:52 PM CDT

Ashley, Your amazing in all the things you do. You show shuch strenght in the the face uncertainties. Also your drive to fundraise for such important cause. I am backing you Ashley 110%. Thank you for inspiring us all to be more aware and do more to help everyone. Thank you:)
Rob Newton <toyotaboyz420@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, June 18, 2005 4:15 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I haven't heard or seen anything about your day today, so I am hoping that silence is a good thing and you are coming up again. Depression can feel so lonely, but you are definitely not alone. You are surrounded by a huge company of folk who are doing the back stroke with you and floating with you when there is no energy to move. Just breathe deeply and close your eyes and rest in the support of all the love being poured out to you. And remember, the One who seperated the waters of creation and brought order out of the chaos continues to touch the world with healing, renewal, and love. Rest and be strengthened, Ashley, you are so loved! Blessings, Sharon
Sharon Copeman <copepersons@telus.net>
Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Saturday, June 18, 2005 0:45 AM CDT

Hi Ashley...me again. I just can't get this computer to send out e-mails here in the hospital, so just wanted to let you know my transplant went well today! I'm starving from the steroids! I hope you're eating again! Update us when you're feeling better. Thinking about you lots! Thank you so much for lending me that book! Love Teresa
teresa diamond
port moody , - Saturday, June 18, 2005 0:00 AM CDT

Hi Ashley
I hear from your Mum and now your website that you've had a rough week. I'm just home from surgery to have my gall bladder out so I'm feeling older than my years today, but was cheered to read your latest update and your determination to move to higher and higher ground again - and the hair coming out again - you are one tough and brave lady. You know you have our love and support. See you next week.
Dave Day <dlday@telus.net>
Calgary, - Friday, June 17, 2005 6:31 PM CDT

Hi Ashley...I've been having trouble sending out e-mails in here for some reason. I'm so sorry to hear you're not feeling well. You need to have a good cry though, and know you can lean on us! You can't always be the rock! You have been an inspiration to me and many others! Hang in there, you're gonna come out on top!! Love Teresa
Teresa Diamond
Port Moody, - Friday, June 17, 2005 4:15 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I am sorry you have had such a ruff week. Eat and rest and come back strong. YOU are my inspiration. Big huggggssss Judy Jackson and Fam
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Friday, June 17, 2005 10:10 AM CDT

Dearest Ashley: As Kim & I approach our first wedding anniversary (June 26, 2004), we fondly & gratefully remember your invaluable contribution to our most special of days. It simply could not have happened without you. The pictures of the 3 of us after the flurry of the reception, are 2 of our favourites. No words can express our gratitude and you are in our prayers for strength , full recovery and no depression allowed. You have our deepest admiration for your courage and beauty of spirit. We would be happy to attending your upcoming fundraisers. The beach party is on Kim's birthday!! See you then...Paul will shave his head at The Shore on July 15th and he will get as many sponsors as he is able! He is trying to convince Kim to shave her head too!! She would be a "Shoe-in" for some future Star Trek episode!!! May God bless you every moment.
Paul Chorney & Kim Hughes <usanapk@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, June 17, 2005 0:11 AM CDT

Hey Ash...

I don't really get to see you much anymore so I thought I'd check out your site. It's great-enjoyed reading your journal.
I'm glad you seem to be doing okay despite the drug-induced craziness.
Anyway keep up the good fight pal.

jordan
Jordan
- Thursday, June 16, 2005 12:59 AM CDT

Hi Ashley
I follow you and Karin everyday (had to confess my lurkerness--is that a word??---to Karin), so now just want to send prayers and love your way too. Guess my Lurker-Days are over! So sorry you've been feeling depressed. Hang in there; you're very strong so you will overcome. God bless!

Nancy <nls622003@yahoo.com>
stlouis, mo US - Thursday, June 16, 2005 12:29 AM CDT

Dear Ashley,
So sorry to hear that you've had really rough time recently. I'm praying for the blue sky because no matter how heavy those grey clouds are and how continuous and seemingly endless the rainy days are, one day the sunshine will come through and lift our spirit up, way up!!!
Hang in there, Ashley! So many people love you and care about you. One of the good things out of this terrible battle is that you are affecting and helping all these people who know you become better human being; more appreciative, less selfish, more caring, more giving, more understanding in many ways, through their prayers for you. Your battle continues, but you have accomplished so much and you have given so much to the people around you. And we all thank YOU!! So let's look UP and we all will be excited to find the crack in the grey sky very soon. Let us all watch the bright blue sky spread out and feel our hearts filled with sunshine and love. We love you so much, Ashley!

Manako and family <carmaria101@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, June 16, 2005 2:20 AM CDT

Hi Ashley gal! Just to let you know that we are thinking of you always, and that the boys really miss seeing you! Luckily they have articles about their famous babysitter pinned to their wall to remind them just how gorgeous you are!
Much love Toni, James, Alex and Tyler xxxx
Toni Crickmore-Thompson <jimbones@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, June 15, 2005 12:00 AM CDT

Hey Ashley,

You hang on!!! The good days will come again, I know they will, because I know you!!! We all love you so much & we are with you every minute of the day... even every second you are gloomy and depressed, we love you just as much as we always do and always have and always will. The good days WILL come again... you just hang in there. I love you & I will talk to you soon!

Alex
Alex <alexmotut@hotmail.com>
Montreal, Canada - Wednesday, June 15, 2005 11:30 AM CDT

Hey Ahsley,
So glad you're having fun. Vancouver is a beautiful city and even more beautiful when you have someone special to share it with. I'm so happy you are happy right now. David is impressed by the buffness of Brian. Enjoy your break and take care of yourself. Can't wait to see you!

Kahtleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Sunday, June 12, 2005 8:41 AM CDT

I'm SO happy you had such a great day yesterday!! Vancouver IS gorgeous. So great that you have the energy to get out of bed and enjoy it. Sending more positive energy your way!
Love you!
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Saturday, June 11, 2005 8:15 PM CDT

Hey there, Miss Ashley! Glad the magical juice is working out for you (it does taste pretty good!)... and that you are having so much fun with Brian! Enjoy the next two weeks off. Have lots of fun AND rest (is that possible - to rest and have fun at the same time??). Be the Miracle! We all luv ya!!!
Lots of Love,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, June 11, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!
This is Rudi, Katjas' father. I read parts of your diary. I think you're an amazing girl. I am so glad that my daughter has such an extraordinary friend.
I belive that you'll come ot of this part of your life stronger and with even more optimism than you have now. I wish that you'll get well and that we'll se you next year in Slovenia.
Rudi Tavcar <rudi.tavcar@amis.net>
Kranj, Slovenia - Saturday, June 11, 2005 2:58 PM CDT

Hi AShley,
The first thing I do every morning when I get up is check your webpage, YOU are amazing!! I am so glad you made it through the 14 days of chemo and I sure hope you are able to really savour and enjoy the next few weeks. Party, have fun, and know that you are in my thoughts every day!! I love you sweet girl!!
Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, BC Canada - Friday, June 10, 2005 3:23 AM CDT

Hi Ash, I'm so glad the 14 days of chemo is over. Yahoo!!!
I wish you could be coming to Camp Moorecroft this weekend with Nicole, Heidi and me. I have this memory of you there being the teacher in the "teacher skit". I laughed until the tears ran down my cheeks and I said to myself "Wow, our quiet little Ashley has suddenly grown up into this fun, hilarious and amazing young person." Anyway, we will miss having you there, but I hope the energy returns so that you can PARTY!! I will say a quiet prayer at Vesper Point that your healing will continue to go well. Have a REALLY FUN weekend. Love, Maureen.
Maureen Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C Canada. - Friday, June 10, 2005 0:21 AM CDT

Hey Ashley miss AMAZING! Congratulations on making it through 14 entire days of chemo, that is not easy! You have earned yourself those Sarah McLaughlin tix and 2 wonderful weeks off. You know I wish the best for you!!

- Karin

P.S. That stem cell bouquet of yours really worked! My WBC hit 8 today, isn't that crazy?!?
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Thursday, June 9, 2005 6:58 PM CDT

hi ashley!

we were talking about you at the YACN meeting tonight....we were all saying that you are such an inspirational person and how remarkable and influencial you are! J and G at Callanish are thinking of you!
hugs!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, June 9, 2005 3:02 AM CDT

Dear Ashley:

I'm so proud of you for your courage, determination, positive attitude, and your beautiful personality. These are the qualities that will continue to help you overcome the most difficult challenges that come your way. Congratulations on your YWOD Award. Well done & well deserved! :-) You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care & have a blast during the next two weeks!!! :-)

Lots of Love & Hugs,
Shirin Abadi
Vancouver, - Wednesday, June 8, 2005 5:06 PM CDT

Hey Ash!!!
Congrats on your award! Glad your chemo's going well but we're gonna miss you at the year end show!
Hope to see you soon :)
Emily
Emily Cheung <em_cheung@hotmail.com>
Burnaby, BC Canada - Wednesday, June 8, 2005 2:58 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, I was really glad you were able to attend the candle light ceremony @ the Relay on Saturday. Sorry if I seemed to treat you like a bit of a celebrity but most of my friends there are following your progress on your web page and I thought they should get to meet the REAL person. We think of you constantly and send positive vibes to you on those days when you need the strength the most. Hugggsssssss Judy Jackson and family
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, June 6, 2005 10:49 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
My thoughts and prayers are with you as you walk this chemo path. I have been so inspired by your faith and your incredible strong spirit. We have never met but a friend of your family has introduced me to your web site and I so appreciate your daily notes. Nora Boekhout and I taught together for years and it was her that told me of your fight against cancer. I was so proud of you as you took those steps across the stage in 'distinction'. How awesome and how deserving you are of that award. We have a great God and my prayer is that you will be cancer free one day soon. Hang on to Jesus and His promises for your life. Our Bible study group has been praying for you as well.

Doreen Raabe <raabe@shaw.ca>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Sunday, June 5, 2005 11:18 PM CDT

Hi Ash:
Just want you know that we are following your daily progress. You are such an inspiration - so positive, so active and man, you are one busy lady! All the best to you and your family. Ron is on standby with his cheque book and clippers when you're ready for the head shaving fundraiser! Our thoughts and prayers are with you......
Nancy, Ron, Mark & Scott Dekanich
Nancy Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, - Sunday, June 5, 2005 9:23 PM CDT

Congratulations on your "Women of Distinction Award!" You are such an inspiration Ashley; we are honoured to know you.You are in our daily thoughts and always in our hearts. God bless you!
Debbie, Travis and Taylor Gibson
Debbie Gibson <dgibson@cnv.org>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, June 5, 2005 2:49 PM CDT

Congrats on winning your YWCA award Ashley. Fantastic!! Your pictures look awesome!!!

We've been praying the Scriptures for you and your family and several come to mind that might bring you inspiration.

Mark 11:25: Jesus speaking says, "I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

John 15:7: Jesus speaking says, "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you."

Psalm 50:15: God says, "Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me."

1 John 5:14-15: The disciple John says, "This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us--whatever we ask--we know that we have what we asked of him."

Isaiah 41:10-11, The Prophet says, "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteousness."

John 14:14 Jesus speaking, "You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."

The Living Bible paraphrases Psalm 42:11 rather nicely saying, "O my soul, don't be discouraged. Don't be upset. Expect God to act! For I know that I shall again have plenty of reason to praise him for all that he will do. He is my help! He is my God!"

With Abundant Blessings,

Gordo and Nicholas

Nicholas <n_watkins@hotmail.com>
Bowen Island, BC - Saturday, June 4, 2005 11:25 AM CDT

Still thinking of you Ash!
We will miss you at the show--but there are lots of those to come.Glad to see the chemo is working already! You seem to have so many positive people in your life!!That is so great! Congratulations on your award.Tessa watches Nemo almost everyday--and I think of you everytime.Stay in touch!
Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra Bc, BC Canada - Friday, June 3, 2005 2:46 AM CDT

Hey, princeska!
Your chemo starts in 1 hour...and it's time for me to go to sleep (almost midnight here!)...so, have fun at this chemo party and i hope everything will go well!
BIG hugs to you and to Andrew, Heidi, your Mum & Dad!

Rada te imam!
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Thursday, June 2, 2005 4:22 PM CDT

Hey Ash,
Just wanted to let you know that I'm keeping up with your story from this side of the ocean and sending you and your wonderful family as much love as possible. Congrats on your award - you are very deserving of it.
With lots of love,
Erin
Erin Barrett <erin.barrett@gmail.com>
London, UK - Thursday, June 2, 2005 11:45 AM CDT

Dear Ashley, We hardly dare to say it but how wonderful that your first chemo has had such great results Thank God! He knows a special child when He sees one. A large part of Vernon is praying for you and Hiedi and Andrew and Judy and Dave
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC Canada - Monday, May 30, 2005 8:41 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, congrads on the Woman of distinction award. Quite an honour!!!!! And well deserved. We are participating in the Relay for Life on Saturday @ Town Centre in Coquitlam and I will light a luminary in your honour. Thinking of you and glad to hear the chemo is working. Hugsssssssssssssss Judy Jackson and family
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Monday, May 30, 2005 5:44 PM CDT

Hey Ashley!
Congrats on winning your award. We are truly proud of you and all of your amazing accomplishments. What you have acheived in these past fews years is more then most people will acheive in their lifetime. I am thinking of you always and admire your strength and determination!!
All my love,
Tiffany
Tiffany Herron <herront@hotmail.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Monday, May 30, 2005 5:09 PM CDT

Hi Bubba!

Got home from the island tonight and was delighted to hear that you are feeling peaceful and the tumor is shrinking. Praise God!!! And praise your spirit and courage!!! Ian and I continue to hold you in our prayers. You are an inspiration! Looking forward to connecting with you this week.

I love you lots!

Jen

Jen Cunnings <jcunnings@infoserve.net>
Cloverdale, - Sunday, May 29, 2005 11:12 PM CDT

Hi Cuz,
So glad to hear you are rockin with the chemo. You are quite the awesome chemo chick. Only you could be glowing with it!! Keep it up and hang tough. You're winning the next round with no competition:)
Love you!

Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Sunday, May 29, 2005 8:18 PM CDT

Woo Hoo! Good news about the chemo shrinking the cancer, Ashley! That's awesome! I'm glad you're tolerating this so far. May it continue. Neverending blessings to you, my friend... a Young Woman of Distinction!
Be healed! Be the Miracle!
I've got a bottle of XanGo here with your name on it (www.xango.net)... so give me a shout if you want it! :)
In Love and Light and Healing,
Your Cancer Buddy,
Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Sunday, May 29, 2005 5:28 PM CDT

It is a wonderful idea to have that journal it keeps us all inform of your health...i visit often. You are in my thoughts. BIG HUG
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Sunday, May 29, 2005 9:10 AM CDT

Hey Ashley, Erin forwarded your site and since I've been waiting for an update on you I was really happy to see what you've been writing! We had a small group pray last night for healing for you....I hope you know that you have massive support all over the place.

Kick butt and take names kiddo!

Kit Woods (Triplet #1) <markandkit@sympatico.ca>
Bradford, ON Canada - Friday, May 27, 2005 7:25 PM CDT

Hi Ash,
I just wanted you to know that I've got practically all of southern Ontario praying for you - various prayer chains, groups and individuals. We've got you covered on this end!! I wish I was closer, so I could support you and your family in a more tangible way...but know that I miss you and my thoughts are always with you all! The Dewhirsts send their collective love to you.
Love Erin
Erin Dewhirst <curate@stjamescathedral.on.ca>
Toronto, ON Canada - Friday, May 27, 2005 10:10 AM CDT

Hey Ash,

You have an amazing support circle and the same determination and strong will as frodo! hehe. Your gonna get through this. To quote Marisa "Keep on swimming!"

;)
Jen Vickers <jvickers_1@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 11:34 PM CDT

Hey Ashley! Your Mom & Dad gave us the link to your page -- I'm so glad they did! You are a very special person, and your whole family is pretty awesome too! We feel very blessed to know you all!!! Brears Rock!

You are in our prayers EVERY DAY. Cancer can (and will) be beaten!!!!!!
Love, Gordo & Nicholas
Gordon Bone
Bowen Island, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 10:27 PM CDT

Hi Ash!
Just wanted to drop you a note about the Gala. If you want my sister says she can hold a make up booth there if you'd like. Maybe she can talk to you about it. Think about you often sweetie.
margaret
Margaret's Caringbridge Site <mltse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 6:27 PM CDT

Hi Ash, just got back from out of town and heard about your latest battle--know that I'm praying along with hundreds (maybe thousands?) of others for your full recovery!! You're a huge inspiration, and I'm so glad you won the YWOD award--its a major honour and you really deserve all the accolades! But, hey I'd love to come see you, so email or call me on my cell 617-0004--we can talk about the Gala and make some plans for possible publicity. Big hugs, Suzette
p.s. great shoes/dress on the award night!!
Suzette Meyers/Peter Curtain
- Wednesday, May 25, 2005 6:01 PM CDT

Im so happy to hear you had a great time at camp and were able to enjoy Lynn Canyon as well. "Super Heroes" is very fitting for you Ashley!! That's YOU! So Thursday at 3:15 PM is your appointment.. that is when I am getting my stem cells back. Isn't that crazy!?? I wonder if I will be hearing some hoopla during your chemo parties from up here in 6 West! ;)
You rock Ashley. Love you!
Karin My caringbridge site
Vancouver, BC, canada - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 12:53 AM CDT

Hello dear Ashley - Congratulations on your award - there is no one more perfect for that honour than you!! We are so very touched and inspired by all that you are and all that you have taught us during these challenging years since first diagnosed. Keep on Swimming, dear Ashley and always know our hearts and souls and our prayers are with you on this journey.

God Bless you and all your family,
Much love,
Helen and Nis
Helen Jorgensen <hjorgensen@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 11:52 AM CDT

Ashley, Congrads on your award!!! You are awesome. We continue to send good thoughts your way and hope this next road you are taking is short. We wish for you a speedy chemo treatment and a return to your 'normal' life. Although nothing about you is normal. You are extra-ordinary. Hugs the Jackson Fam
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 8:19 PM CDT

Ashley,
You are a true woman of distinction who continues to inspire me on a daily basis!!! What a wonderful day for you and your family. We are so very proud of you!! And as for that baby in 10 years...go for twins...double the pleasure:) You are a true star! Stay focused on all the love you are receiving from coast to coast. Hugs Always! xo
kathleen holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 12:38 AM CDT

Ashley,
I am not sure if you will remember me but I sure remember you. You were an absolutely amazing, loving, caring and compassionate young girl and WOW have you ever taken that to another level as a young woman!! You are such an inspiration to me now, thanks for touching my life! Congratulations on your award!! You SO deserve it! YOu are always in my prayers and thoughts! Keep on fighting!
Love,
Sara Healing

Sara Healing <shealing@uvic.ca>
Victoria, B.C Canada - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 12:04 AM CDT

Ashley are prayers are with you.

carolyn & Andrew
vancouver, b.c. canada - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 11:15 AM CDT

Hi Ashley!
Congrats on your award, that's amazing! :)
You look beautiful, and I LOVE your coat! (the white and black floral print from the ceremony pics - sooooo nice!)
All my best!
Love L*
Laura Allardyce <LAllardyce@gmail.com>
Ottawa, ON Canada - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 8:30 AM CDT

Congratulations Dear Ashley - "Young Lady of Distinction"
May God shine his blessing, love,and healing
on his "Sparkling Star"
"Unforgettable - that's what you are !!!
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Ashley,
Love, Marion
Marion Edwards <merry_on @hotmail.com>
- Monday, May 23, 2005 3:47 PM CDT

Congratulations!! You are truly a remarkable young woman. I hope you can feel the love coming your way....
Grace Wood <gwood21@shaw.ca>
Noeth Vancouver, B.C. - Monday, May 23, 2005 2:58 PM CDT

We are always with you in thought and prayer.God Bless you and give you his comfort and healing Our love as always, Emily Margaret and Peter
Margaret Danby <mjdanby@shaw.ca>
Vernon, BC Canada - Sunday, May 22, 2005 6:25 PM CDT

Hey Ashley girl. Congrats on the award. I'm so proud of you. Sounds like the banquet was an amazing night. Hope you can keep all of the positivity and inspiration and energy from the evening with you, and use it to find strength in the tough times that may be coming!! Above all, you ARE a fighter, and you KNOW that about yourself. Keep on visualizing yourself healthy and happy 10 years, 20 years, 50 years down the road!!! Many many people know you can do it!! Love ya.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, May 22, 2005 1:19 PM CDT

Hey Ashley,

I have just spent a year in Thailand with your dear friend Melanie, and two before at Mount Allison. I heard you story for the first time last year. It is nothing short of truly inspirational. Melanie tells it from the bottom of her heart, filled with so much love, with so much positivity in her voice that we are all aware of your unrelenting determination.

Your journey has been such a tough one, but you are an inspiration to us all. In lighting up Mel's life you have light up mine. You are constantly in my prayers....you are in all of our prayers.

I wish you a giant Congratualtions for you big win...what an incredible honour!

Sending you all the strength and positive energy, love and warmth, hope and kindness....

you are a true star....

All my love,

Trish
Trish Barrett <mpbrrtt@mta.ca>
Toronto, Ontario Canada - Sunday, May 22, 2005 2:37 AM CDT

Hello baby,

CONGRATULLLLLLLLLLATIONSSSSSSS!!!! you are a superstar...inside and out. your makeup looks stunning in the pic..........i cant wait to start our "plan". no matter how sick you are this summer, we will fight thru it together and make any sort of adjustments to learn the art. i love u so much........you are always with me in my thoughts, dreams, sunsets, moonsets and prayers of course. i cant wait for belly laughs

love from my ocean to yours. xoxoxoxoox mwah! mel
melanie <melaniegmcdonald@hotmail.com >
- Sunday, May 22, 2005 2:15 AM CDT

Dear Ashley...Congratulations...we had no doubt you would be the winner of such a wonderful award!

"Great minds have purposes, others have wishes."
Washington Irving

You are the best, you offer such inspiration, warmth and love.
We love you, our prayers are with you always!
Aunt Sally, Cliff, Tiffany, Brent, Rhiannon & Clifford xoxo
Sally Lloyd <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Saturday, May 21, 2005 7:22 PM CDT

Ashley,
CONGRATULATIONS!!!! We are all SO proud of you. Yahoo!
"Woman of Distinction" - you deserve the award so very much. We loved the picture in the paper. We saw it at work at lunchtime and all my colleagues send congratulations too. You will be in our prayers as you start chemo again next week. Love and hugs, Maureen, John and Nicole.
Maureen and John Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada. - Saturday, May 21, 2005 6:48 PM CDT

Congratulations Ashley! You truly are a woman of distinction. I'm sooooo happy for you and I know that the power and energy in your heart and soul will help you defeat the cancer once and for all. I am really really looking forward to your gala and I am ready to do anything I can to help.
Vikram
Vancouver, BC - Saturday, May 21, 2005 1:48 PM CDT

My dear Ashley,

Congratulations for winning the award. I am so proud of you. Your story is moving and inspirational. You are in my heart, thoughts and prayers. I do have a natural fruit juice that can really help you if you believe that it can. If you want to talk more about it, please let me know.

The months ahead are not going to be easy, I know. However you are brave and have a strong will to beat this thing.
Ashley I am sure you have much to share with all that you have gone through with your illness and many of us who have not experienced what you have perhaps don't understand. But I am sure that you have had much personal growth and have done much bonding with family and friends.

If you are able to read, there are some great books that might make things a little easier for you.

The Path to Transformation, by Shakti Gaiwan
Loving What Is, By Byron Katie
The Seven Spiritual Laws by Deepak Chopra
One Day My Soul Opened Up by Iyanla Vanzant
When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
The Power Of Now by Ekhart Tolle

Ashley, please look after yourself and keep on fighting, you can beat this. Just pray, and talk to your body, thanking it for everything it has brought to you, for everything you have learnt from this illness and tell it that you now release it. You are now healed and well again.
Do as many positive affirmations as you can.

You are in my heart, thoughts and prayers

Much Love

Ruby
Ruby Rayani <ruby@shawbiz.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Saturday, May 21, 2005 1:15 PM CDT

Ashley
you are a phenomenal person...no words can express how special you are and how we are so privileged to have you in our YACN group to have grown to know you better.....i send you all the extra strength cancer fight i have left in me!
Christina Loch
Vancouver, Canada - Saturday, May 21, 2005 3:00 AM CDT

Congratulations Ashley,Woman of Distinction
I was sure you would win,with all you have been through and with such a positive out look.Love and Prayers are with you always.We are so proud of you Ashley.Aunt Shirley
Shirley Peace <shirley.peace@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, Ont - Friday, May 20, 2005 8:38 PM CDT

Congratulations, Ashley!
Your mom has been keeping us updated on things, and we are so pleased to hear of this award...but really had no doubt but that you would be chosen!
We are a long way away but do think of you so often, and still will, as you face this next hurdle.
Love and hugs across the miles....
Stu and Hughena

Stuart and Hughena
Rothesay, NB Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 7:21 PM CDT

Congratulations! What an honour. We are so proud of you and all that you have done. Jacquie Moon and Jen Eastwood let me know that you had been nominated for the award. And you know what? I wasn't too surprised to see your beaming face in the newspaper this morning. Awesome! You keep smiling and being positive. Lots of love to you! We'll keep in touch.

Tricia Gerhard
Wolseley, Sk Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 6:12 PM CDT

Wow ashley!!! I can't believe your strength... you are truely a role model for not just people who are also ill but for all young people in BC... Canada... the world!!! I just wanted to jot down a note for you and tell you that I am thinking about you, and whenever you want to go dancing just let me know... I am sooooo down!!! specially to country!!! hahaha. Keep up the fight!!! I know you will be successful in whatever you do. :)and CONGRATS on your award, even though we already knew that that's what you are!!!!
Anne <annemacario@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, bc Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 6:09 PM CDT

Yahooo!! Woman of Distinction!! And the picture is gorgeous, I can't believe you think it's bad!! And come on now, Josef has a good eye for these things. If he says you look pretty then it's definately a good picture! I had to finally put the paper away because I wanna save the picture and Matteo kept picking it up with his grubby little hands to show me 'Ashee' all morning. Anyway, way to go babe! Just let me know a good date for the Shore fundraiser and we'll start makin some more money to kick cancer's ass!!!
Marisa
Kits? North Van?, BC CANADA - Friday, May 20, 2005 5:43 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
It is so awesome to see your beautiful smiling face in the newspaper today. Congratulations!! There was no doubt in our minds - we knew you would do it. You are truly a woman of distinction in every way! With your focus and determination and with so much love and prayer surrounding you - well that cancer doesn't stand a chance - you will win this one too - fer sher baby!
Love the Fees
Sheila and Rob Fee <scriptura@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 4:46 PM CDT

Way to go Ashley! You deserve to be in the company of Vancouver's best women, and no one better represents youth, commitment , hope and energy than you!
It must have been an awesome night for the whole family, and one for all of you to remember always,
Congrats to a true winner,
love & best wishes, Sandi
Sandi Johnston
North Vancouver, BC canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 4:23 PM CDT

Ashley,
Congratulations, my dear! You deserve this award so much (but really, we all know how amazing you are and there was no question you would win!!). You are truly the most inspirational woman that I know.... wise beyond your years and full of grace and joy.
Thank you for sharing your story with so many people and encouraging others to share their stories as well. You're going to kick the cancer this third time... I just know it!
I love you so so so much.
Lauren <laurenhodgson@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 2:55 PM CDT

Ash! Wow! Congratulations! I knew you would win, just like I know you're gonna beat ol'hodg! Keep it up kiddo.
Matt <ugod111@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC - Friday, May 20, 2005 12:50 AM CDT

Congratulations Ashley!!!!! I never had any doubts that you would win. Now get out there and beat the hell (pardon the language) out of this disease and show up with that baby 10 years from now. Love Nora Haaland.
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 12:42 AM CDT

Congratulations, Ashley, on your Women of Distinction award! You are an inspiration to us all..... I've got August 12 on my calendar. Keep on Swimming and we'll see you there!
Nancy <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
- Friday, May 20, 2005 11:28 AM CDT

Ashley, congrats on your Woman of Distinction Award. You are the perfect candidate and a role model for us all. You deserve it so much, really. I have been reading all of your updates and looking everyday for a new one. Keep on swimming, even if sometimes the current is quite strong. You are touching many lives, and there are other fish following your path. You rock!

Have a great week end at the retreat. Love and hugs, Kati
Kati
Port Moody, BC Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 10:28 AM CDT

Ashley,Wow!!!!!!! A Woman of Distinction! We all knew that before but now so do many others. Congratulations! We are very proud of you. Ispirational, that is what you are. Keep on Swimming, I think you must have the biggest "school" swimming along with you now.
Love,
Val
Val Johannesen <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 10:24 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,

I was on Karin's website this morning and she indicated that I should visit yours. I am very glad I did. You sound like a remarkable young lady that has been through an awful lot. Sorry to hear about your most recent setback. All the best to you on your transplant and I will be checking in regularly to find out how you are progressing. Good Luck and I will be saying a lot of prayers for you and Karin.
Karen Tuffin
London, ON Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 9:55 AM CDT

Hey Ashley!!!! It's your nurse friend from 6west!! Long time no see and I've thought of you so often. I'm very sorry to hear about your latest news! I hope that these Docs take good care of you and help cure you through this difficult time! I'm cheering for you to have a good recovery! You keep smiling and being your lovely self and fight to get through this!! Keep all your good friends and family around and take all the support you get and turn it to good fortune for you!! I wish you all the best. Hope to see you soon!! Love Zanka
Zanka Sacilotto <Zankab@hotmail.com>
Burnaby , Canada - Friday, May 20, 2005 3:20 AM CDT

Ashley!! You are SO amazing! the stem cell bouquet is so awesome! & the lights - we put them up already. and get this - I am staying in YOUR ROOM!! Nurse Karima told me I put up the lights in the exact same place you did - around the whiteboard (good taste we have!!). You have definately left your mark there. They all love you!
I am actually at home tonight - I bargained with them and they let me go home for the night but I will be back early tomorrow morn. to start high-dose chemo. Hopefully I'll see you tomorrow :) love you!
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Thursday, May 19, 2005 8:00 PM CDT

Hi Ashley!
Tino and Shelby here. We have been following your journey through Sue and Ed. I know you speak to Shelby every once and awhile, however, I have not had a chance to comment on how special and strong I think you are! You see, my mom had kidney cancer and it was very scary for everyone. I can just imagine what you are going through even at the best of times. This is the most terrible and despicable disease! I am glad that your great attitude, family and youth help you cope. Anyways, hang in there. We think about you all the time and wonder how things are going. Now I know all we have to do is visit your website from now on!

Kindest Regards and best wishes from Tino and Shelby Fluckiger.
Tino Fluckiger <tino@apexoffice.ca>
White Rock, BC Canada - Thursday, May 19, 2005 2:27 PM CDT

Ash, just wanting to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers! Know that I send love and healing from Sask. I wish I were closer. I have heard all the great things that you have done. I know that you have the strength to beat this. You are an inspiration to all. Be gentle with yourself and know you don't journey alone. Lots of love.
Tricia Gerhard <t.gerhard@sasktel.net>
Wolseley, Sk Canada - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 5:25 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, I want you to know that you have our vote for you tomorrow night at the Women of Distinction awards evening. Tomorrow night is YOUR NIGHT, enjoy the evening and enjoy the honour of being nominated!! You go girl!!!
Lots of love, Daphne, Jim, Colleen, Tim & Cindy Nicholson
Daphne Nicholson <j_nicholson@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, bc Canada - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 10:42 AM CDT

Hey Ash,
I wish i could be home with you now :( I'm thinking about you all the time, and praying for you. Third time is techincally lucky :)
Love you lots
Cindy
Cindy Nicholson <cindynicholson@shaw.ca>
- Tuesday, May 17, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

Hi Ashley, We are keeping in touch with you via this web page. I think it is so neat. The outpouring of kind words, thoughts etc is what gets you thru these hard spots. ( I know as well as you) I love reading your journal and you're right. Look good to feel better. :-) No comfy sneakers, wear those darn stillettos girl. You rock!!!!!!!! Thinking of you lots Hugs Judy
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 6:39 PM CDT

Ashley,it was a privilege to be with you last night through healing hands. I saw and felt, in you, deep beauty, spiritual connectedness and courage, and I am grateful I can be be one of so many who offer you caring support and prayers.
Wendie

Wendie Reinhardt <reinhardtw@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 5:51 PM CDT

Hey Ashley,
Stay positive girl!!! This is just another reminder of how tough you are. You inspire me and so many others. Keep fightin' hard, cause I KNOW that you're gonna beat this thing once and for all. Keep lookin' forward; it'll be gone before you know it. xoxo
Christina
Christina Vasak <laura_baci@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 4:54 PM CDT

Ashley, Heidi told me where to find "you" and I'm really glad to know. So with you . . . continuing our prayers for you . . . so cherish the light you have continued to shine out in the deep places as well as the high. Love, Paula
Paula Porter Leggett
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 4:50 PM CDT

Heya sexy!! Sorry I haven't looked at this page sooner...life is busy busy! Spots on the liver..no no no!! I guess you have some big decisions to make soon huh? Well you know I'm always here to talk (and sometimes I listen..haha). And don't worry, even though I am writing in this little guest book thingy I'll still be calling later so we can bitch, whine and complain about life to each other (although you usually win at that one...) Anyway, hopefully you are getting outside today in the patches of sun we are having between the rain now that you at least feel better!! Oh, of course you will be! It's voting day! The Brear division of the NDP support chain will march on the polling station!!!! Maybe if you're lucky later you can all watch some washer and dryer instructional videos together. Hehehehe....okay I'm bored if you can't tell (hard job I have) but I better go. I'm attempting to knit a hat for Brian's baby...hmmm...I hope he'll like holes... LOVE YA BABE!! MWAH!!
MARISA
North Van? Kits?, BC CANADA - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 3:29 PM CDT

Dear Ashley

My thoughts, love and prayers are with you always, my dearest granddaughter, God bless you
Grandma
Chomedey, P.Q Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:45 AM CDT

Ashley, thanks to Rev. Wendy we are kept updated on your condition. My prayers and thoughts remain with you and I am sure you will beat this challenge with your strength, courage and faith. May it help to know that we are all praying for you.
Hazel Johnston <johnstonh@sympatico.ca>
Laval , Que Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 7:03 AM CDT

Ashley,
What a phone call to get. Can't stop thinking about you and your family. I just added you to two more prayer chains. Picture yourself surrounded by all our positive thoughts like a giant, enormous hug that is reaching across the country!!! You can do this. You are amazing! We believe God is behind you and so are we. Hang in. Picture the hug. We love you:)

Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 7:00 AM CDT

Hold the line, Ashley! You will win this! You have God, leading edge medicine and overwhelming Love on your side! That cancer will be gone. Stay strong and keep on swimming. I know you will.
Lots of Love,
Leah & the Callens xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 0:51 AM CDT

Dear Ash,
We were glad to hear that the tummy bug is is being banished by those antibiotics and that you are feeling better, but we were so sorry to hear the PET scan results and to know that you must still do battle with this lymphoma. You are in our prayers as you make these difficult decisions and we are praying for the team of doctors too that they will give you the very best advice. You are surrounded by the prayers and healing thoughts of so many people and we all love you so much.
Love and hugs, Maureen and John.
Maureen and John Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 0:46 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, you are so incredibly strong. This, with prayer and good medical care, will ensure victory. We are with you....to support you and your lovely family. Your courage is inspirational, an example to all of us when it's our turn to face adversity.
Dennis and Suzanne Pavlich <pavlich@telus.net>
Vancouver, Canada - Monday, May 16, 2005 10:51 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
We were so sorry to hear that you have to deal with tough decisions again. We join in with your great company of friends in sending you love and keeping you in our heart and prayers. Love, Ariel, Hugh, Gen & Andrea
Ariel Creighton <arielcreighton@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, May 16, 2005 9:12 PM CDT

Babe you are SO in my prayers. Keep fighting.
Lisa Lindsay <chickenscantdance@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, bc - Monday, May 16, 2005 7:18 PM CDT

keep fighting Ashley, these symptoms will pass (as you know) your so lucky to have so many friends! I am feeling pretty good I even have a little bit of hair growth! Anyway, thinking of you and praying you will feel better.
Shae
Shae Horsley <shorsley@coppervalley.bc.ca>
Ashcroft, B.C Canada - Monday, May 16, 2005 7:02 PM CDT

Tough seems to be what you do best, kiddo! And there are so many of us here to prop you up, lift you up or carry you along if you're feeling a little tired. You are so loved by so many.
Chris <ceboyle@interchange.ubc.ca>
vancouver, bc Canada - Monday, May 16, 2005 6:12 PM CDT

Dear Ashley, We are very sorry that you have had such a difficult time.We are glad that you were feeling a little better yesterday and we pray that your PET scan results today will be good news. Your courage, your positive attitude,and your kind care and concern for others are truly inspiring. Thank you for all that you do and all that you are. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless. With our love and best wishes for a speedy and complete return to perfect health, June, Robert and Holly
June, Robert and Holly (Sandwell, Brickwood-Sandwell) <robert.sandwell@videotron.ca>
- Monday, May 16, 2005 6:09 PM CDT

Feeling better?
ZAKON!!! Jupiiiiiiiiii!!!

Cavci, princeska!
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Slovenija - Monday, May 16, 2005 2:53 PM CDT

So so so glad to hear you're feeling better. Hugs.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Monday, May 16, 2005 2:39 PM CDT

Dear Ashley, I admire your courage and amazing strength that you have shown to fight your battles that you are going through. My heart and thoughts are with you.
maria pichichero <mpichichero@sd43.bc.ca>
Pt. Moody, - Monday, May 16, 2005 10:32 AM CDT

Ashley,

We are constantly getting updates about how you are from your grandparents at Northlea. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.

God bless,

Carolyn
Carolyn Sturge Sparkes <csturgesparkes@emsb.qc.ca>
Montreal, QC - Monday, May 16, 2005 9:05 AM CDT

Ashley, when we talk to Alex in Montreal, we always ask about you and she has been keeping us up to date. You have a lot of fans in this family and we know you're going to keep fighting your way to perfect health... and we'll be there cheering you on. Much love and big hugs from all of us.
Bernie, Kim, and Heather Motut
North Van, - Monday, May 16, 2005 0:38 AM CDT

Ash,

you are amazing. you are filled with power. and i love you........like crazy.....you are amazing.

i love u. i miss u. the third times the charm. your gonna kick the ass out of cancer! my heart is with you from ocean to ocean. i cannot wait to laugh with you for hours!! 10 days baby.

love xoxo mel

Melanie <melaniegmcdonald@hotmail.com >
- Sunday, May 15, 2005 11:04 PM CDT

Ashley, I've always known you to be a fighter and a very stubborn girl (in a good way) and I know that you will fight and be stubborn against the cancer (not the doctors, just the cancer lol). Keep fighting and I'll keep you in my prayers:)
Heather Andrews <super_chickky@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Sunday, May 15, 2005 8:29 PM CDT

ashley ,keep the faith !it was nice meeting you in august ,the churches prayers watched over me for 15 months and now i am home from iraq safe and sound ,well sort of !!haha!if they took care of me i know they will take care of you too .so good to see you and take care ,gary bosse
gary bosse <bozman86@yahoo.com>
fall river, ma usa - Sunday, May 15, 2005 5:33 PM CDT

Wishing you all the best Ashley. You are such a brave girl..You are in my thoughts & prayers.
Aline Melanson <ghdb@msn.com>
Laval, qc Canada - Sunday, May 15, 2005 3:24 PM CDT

Ashley
We are thinking of you and you are in our prayers Love
Jacqueline and Marcel from Northlea'family
Jacqueline and Marcel
laval, q.c. - Sunday, May 15, 2005 9:10 AM CDT

What an inspiration you are, Ashley! I came to your website feeling sad about the recurrence of your cancer, and now I am cheered by your courage and good humour, my hope and confidence regained. Our love and prayers are with you and your family and your doctors.
Lois and John Hashimoto <jhashimoto@sympatico.ca>
Laval , QC Canada - Sunday, May 15, 2005 7:38 AM CDT

Dear Ashley, I received this homepage from Wendy. I'm sure glad she send it. Lost your e-mail when my puter hard disk broke. Just a little note to let you know you're allways in my thoughts and prayers! Be well soon ! big hug!
Nicole Ferraro <nicole.ferraro@sympatico.ca>
Laval, Qc Canada - Sunday, May 15, 2005 6:39 AM CDT

You inspire the world Ashley Brear!
I know the waters are rough lately but "keep on swimming!"
Much love

Wendy Wright MacKenzie <wendywm@sympatico.ca>
Laval, QC CA - Sunday, May 15, 2005 6:11 AM CDT

Ashley, Your dad has kept me up to date as to your activites. I'm sorry to hear you are under the weather right now but I feel confident this is but a 'blip' in the radar and you'll be back to your old self very soon. Hugs Judy Jackson and family
Judy Jackson <anchorjack@telus.net>
Coquitlam, Canada - Saturday, May 14, 2005 10:15 PM CDT

Hello Ashley

Thank you for inviting me to your web,,I like pictures of you!! you are a pretty,, positive girl(*^_^*)I pray for you and talk to you soon by MSN
Mitsuki Fukunaga <s5454milefuku@hotmail.com>
Kyoto, Japan - Saturday, May 14, 2005 8:35 PM CDT

Hi Ash!
Glad to hear you're feeling better!! You sure know how to attract bugs. Good thing you went to the doctor. Excellent choice. Sorry you can't go to the concert. Kick back in bed and blast some ACDC in your leather attire....you'll feel like you were there. Hang in there!!
Love Kathleen
Kathleen <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, On Canada - Saturday, May 14, 2005 4:39 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
I'm beginning to worry that if you got your fever from being hot for Bruce... there are going to be hundreds of boys around the lower mainland getting fevers because they are hot for you. It could become an epidemic!
You'd probably best stay in bed for a little while. Give them all some time to rest and recover before you start going out dancing again!
Otherwise the hospital will be full of boys who are smitten by your sense of humor, your relentless charm, your passion and your compassion, your intelligence and your maturity, your strength, your integrity, your newly styled hair, and your hickman scar!
It could be a disaster :)
from... you know who.
vancouver, bc canada - Saturday, May 14, 2005 4:27 PM CDT

I hope you get better soon! Maybe it is some type of 24hr Flu Bug? I'm so ecited, we will be sseing you guys this summer! Yay... not sure when though?
Love you lot's!!!
aLLiE <miss_dramatic_airhead@hotmail.com>
Brampton, ON Canada - Saturday, May 14, 2005 4:21 PM CDT

Dear Ashley, I just found your web site by following links. The first thing that I did before reading anything was look at your beautiful pictures and saw what a beautiful young lady you are! I then began reading your journal entry - starting at the very beginning and was stunned to read that you had so recently discovered that your cancer had returned for the third time. Although there are no entries regarding your previous experiences I have surmised that you are a very courageous person! I promise to pray for you and will be returning to your site for updates. I am amazed that you were able to make your last entry being as sick as you were! More evidence of what a really remarkable person you are! God bless you, dear lady. Check out http://www.wisehearts.com/yaam.html
Betty Givens <bgarg@charter.net>
Ringgold, GA USA - Saturday, May 14, 2005 1:59 AM CDT

Ashley,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We wish you strength, love and encouragement to beat this cancer. We know you will!!!
Debbie, Ross, Colin, Ian and Anthea <d_jillings_hardin@shaw.ca>
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Friday, May 13, 2005 11:02 PM CDT

Hey Ash,

I didn't know the PET scan cost you money. I thought it was like an MRI. Sounds scary!!! I'm sorry that you have a fever, maybe you were hott for Bruce?!? Take care of yourself and feel better soon! We are praying for good results! Love you...
Allie & Kathleen <miss_dramatic_airhead@hotmail.com>
Brampton, ON Canada - Friday, May 13, 2005 8:21 PM CDT

Ashley, our prayers and love to you and the family in this life battle (that you're going to win!) See you later this summer.

Robin and Brenda Allardyce <robinallardyce@rogers.com>
Ottawa, ON - Friday, May 13, 2005 12:22 AM CDT

Ashley -- we missed you last night. But know that everyone in the YACN group is keeping you close to our hearts, in our thoughts & prayers... Hope you wake up tomorrow feeling better than you have been the last few days. NO FEVER please & thank you. Love ya.
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Friday, May 13, 2005 0:48 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
it was so great opening my eyes after my healing touch session and seeing you there!!! I'm sorry to hear of the continuing frustration though -- go away fever!! I know everything is so hard right now and scary. & it's NOT fair. I can see, however, that you are surrounded by so many loving people who are here to carry you through!!! You are not alone and you are LOVED :)
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Friday, May 13, 2005 0:15 AM CDT

Hi Ashley
Just a note to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.Lets pray that you will only need radiation and no other treatment.You have been through too much already.
All my Love Aunt Shirley
Shirley Peace <shirley.peace@sympaatico.ca>
Toronto, Ont - Thursday, May 12, 2005 5:36 PM CDT

Hey,

It's me! You've been so strong through this whole thing. I admire everything you've done. Your a true hero. God bless your entire family! Love you!
Ur cuz Allie <miss_dramatic_airhead@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, May 12, 2005 1:29 PM CDT

Hey Ashley!
Cancer has been a tenacious fighter but it is black and blue already and by the time you're finished with it it'll be lying on the floor with it's tongue out. You can beat this! I'm sending my energy your way for a few extra punches.
Take care and all my wishes,
Jessie
Jessie Anderson <joocyjessica@hotmail.com>
Revelstoke, BC - Thursday, May 12, 2005 9:29 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
I'm so glad the PET scan is today, at least you'll have accurate information. It's the not knowing that is even more difficult. We're with you today in thought and pray it goes well. Hang in there. You're the best!
Love you.
Love Kathleen, Mike, Allie & David
Kathleen Holloway <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Thursday, May 12, 2005 6:10 AM CDT

Ashley, you will be in our thoughts and prayers as you get the PET in the am. We will be waiting the results. Take Care and lots of Love, Laura, Walwyn, Stephen and Zoe Wells
Laura Wells
N. Vancouver, - Thursday, May 12, 2005 0:42 AM CDT

Hi Ashley. Just a note to say how sorry I am to hear the new news. You know how much you are loved by all at St. Agnes'. We are all praying and doing anything else we can for you. All you have to do is ask. My daughter Arlene has added you to
her healing/prayer group in Coquitlam, another one can't hurt.
love always. Nora Haaland
Nora Haaland <rickhaaland@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, , B.C. Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 1:27 PM CDT

Ashley
I am Sherry & Glen Ringdal's neice in Alberta and my family just wanted to let you know our thoughts and prayers are with you. It's inspirational how truley brave you are.

Lynn Baron <baron25@telusplanet.net>
Spruce Grove, AB Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 1:05 PM CDT

Ashley - dearheart,
You know we are all here...praying for you, sending you endless love and energy, let us hold you up when you need us, you are never alone and you are loved so very much !!!

Sherry, Glen and Chelsea <greatopenings@shaw.ca>
Coquitlam, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 12:17 AM CDT

Hey Ashley
Your dad has been keeping me updated.I'm so sorry this is happening again to you.You certainly deserve life's best--not this whole thing! We all think about you everyday and send you all our love and prayers.Stay strong--once again.Hope to see you at ballet soon.
Love,Miss Douglas
Kelly Douglas <kellycdouglas@shaw.ca>
Belcarra , BC Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 2:11 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, You are in the thoughts and prayers of all your friends (and some strangers who have not yet had the privilege of meeting you) at LVUC. When the water gets rough, float on your back and then you can see the sun, the moon and the stars, and be reminded of how huge is God's strong love, and how vast is the company of people who care for you. Keep on swimmin'
Sharon Copeman and the LVUC congregation <copepersons@telus.net>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 1:59 AM CDT

Hi Ashley,
When I read all the notes to you on the guest list, I realized how huge the love energy is that is being directed towards your healing - just soak it all up, knowing how powerful that energy is. You are in our hearts and prayers. Love, Ariel, Hugh, Gen & Andrea
Ariel, Hugh, Gen & Andrea Creighton <arielcreighton@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 0:35 AM CDT

Ashley, It's great that you have this site. Now I can stay closer (electronically) to you and your continuing battle. As I said to your mum last week, you may not have beat the cancer yet and it has not beaten you. Our thoughts ans prayers are with you, Connie, Dessa and Ray

Connie Burns <cib5@tagline.cc>
Quathiaski Cove, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 0:11 AM CDT

Hi Ashley, we are very devastated to learn that the cancer has redeveloped, but we are pulling for you so you have an Alberta support chapter here at our house. Keep in touch and we hope to get to Vancouver in June to see you. Love from all our family.
Dave & Sue Day <dlday@telus.net>
Calgary, AB - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 11:49 PM CDT

Hi Ashley.
So glad u are getting a PETscan!! It's an answer to my prayers! Don't worry. The PETscan will show everything the doctors (and you) need to know to go forward with the right decisions.
I did not find radiation as hard as chemo... maybe you will find the same thing if you receive it. And you may just get to see Darryl after all! :)
I love you and am praying for you. Livestrong, mi amigo! Leah xoxo
Leah Callen <leahcallen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 10:49 PM CDT

Ashley, know that my prayers are with you, now let's beat this thing once and for all!

as a "smart" fish once said, just Keep Swimming....

Chelsea Woit <kissmytooshie@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

Dear Ash,
You are in our prayers. We wish we could wave a magic wand and make this lymphoma go away! We're grateful that you can have the PET scan so soon and you'll be in our thoughts as you make the difficult decisions. Your positive attitude is such an inspiration to us and we're praying that this next course of treatment will bring you COMPLETE HEALING. Love and hugs, Maureen and John.
Maureen and John Bruce
North Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:33 PM CDT

Star Light, Star Bright,
Help dear Ashley win her fight!
Since your Dad shared the news about the tough road you're travelling, yet again, I've been right back on duty... wishing on "your star". You can do it, girl! Keep that beautiful smile! :-)

Nora <boekhout@shaw.ca>
Belcarra, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Round three in the ring...Your boxing gloves may be taking a beating....but you will come out the winner at the end of the fight. We believe in you and we believe in God's love for you. You are an inspiration to us each and every day. Keep fighting!!!!! We'll send you the Rocky music to inspire you. Hang in there Ashley. At least the PET scan is being done this week. We love you!
Kathleen, Mike , Allie & David <kathleen.holloway@peelsb.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 8:57 PM CDT

Hi Ash:
We're routing for you and are confident that any decision you make will be the right one!! Our thoughts and prayers are with you and we are waiting to help out with your next Gala affair!
Love Nancy, Ron, Mark & Scott Dekanich <n-rdekanich@shaw.ca>
North Van, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 6:51 PM CDT

Hi Ashley...we are all praying for you. What a bloody nuisance this whole cancer thing is! Let's all pray together and KILL it this time!!!
Love you dearly, Aunt Sally, Cliff & Family xoxoxox
Sally Lloyd <newslloyd@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 6:36 PM CDT

Ashley girl -- you are in my thoughts always. Can't believe this is happening to you again. It's not fair. I haven't told my mom yet -- she's going to be very very upset I think. I hope that you get your PET scan done soon and that the frustrating time of waiting and decision making does not last too long... Is your cough getting better?? Will I see you Wednesday night?? HOPE SO. Many many big hugs. xoxox
Anna <annainitaly@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, May 10, 2005 5:25 PM CDT

Hi Ashley. You can do this!!! You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Love Koreen, Makenna and Jacob

Mak says hi to "Big Ash"!!!
Koreen Carl <rkcarl@telus.net>
Port Moody, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 5:06 PM CDT

Ashley,
I agree with "third time LUCKY!" All of us here in the Johannesen household are cheering you on. You are in my thoughts daily as is, dad, mom, Heidi and my 5th son Andrew!!!!
Keep on Swimming sweetie, you are an inspiration!
Love from,
Val, Daryl, Jordy, Justin, Kevin and Daren
Val <vjohannesen@shaw.ca>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 3:18 PM CDT

Dearest Ashley,
The third time's a charm....it seems you're getting all of your relapses out of the way. We know you'll keep on swimming!! Ashley, you are an inspiration to all of us. You're in our thoughts and prayers.
Much Love,

Chris, Andria & Grace <ink.aj@forces.gc.ca>
Vancouver, BC, - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 12:18 AM CDT

Dober dan, princeska!

RADA TE IMAM!

Lupcke,
Katja
Katja <katjatavcar@hotmail.com>
Kranj, Slovenija, EU - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 11:38 AM CDT

Hey You Nut,
I was wondering why you weren't at gymnastics, and I didn't even think that it was because the cancer was back. . . . . Well all I've got to say is . . . THIRD TIME'S A CHARM,BABY!! YOU CAN DO IT ASHLEY!!!!!!!!!! My love and support is with you 110% You're in my prayers everyday. You can get rid of this thing! My support goes out to your sister, too .
nothing but love baby!!
Christina Lane <crookedcupid@hotmail.com>
North Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 2:56 AM CDT

Ashley,

We can't wait to have our "can-can mistress" back at ballet on Mondays! We are all thinking about you & we can't wait to have you back.

Ingrid
Vancouver, BC - Monday, May 9, 2005 11:44 PM CDT

hi ashley!
i just got an email about your website from Leah and i am bookmarking it!
you are in my thots...wishing you strength for your battle...you can lick it again!!!!
i hope you will be feeling well enough to go to the YACN meeting on Wed...i always look forward to seeing your bright smile and being in your presence...all my best to your sister too.

Christina
vancouver, b.c. canada - Monday, May 9, 2005 10:20 PM CDT

Hi Ashley,
Leah has often emailed me about you. Our prayers are with you always. Get better.
Anthony - Truehope

Anthony Stephan <a.stephan@truehope.com>
Magrath, AB Canada - Monday, May 9, 2005 9:25 PM CDT

Hey Ashley,
you got a caringbridge site - yey! I am bookmarking this.

Ashley, you have such a brilliant spirit about you. I am devastated by this latest news, knowing that you have to get the fighting gloves back on...AGAIN. I am relieved however that you are under Dr. Barnett's care. What a great guy he is, we are both in good hands!

Please know that there are SO MANY of us who are praying for you and cheering you on. We love you!
Karin's Caringbridge Site
Vancouver, BC, Canada - Monday, May 9, 2005 6:59 PM CDT

Ashley,

Keep on Swimming Sweetie.

my heart pours out to yours,

margaret
Margaret's Caringbridge Site <mltse@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, May 9, 2005 6:51 PM CDT

Ashley,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I wish you all the health and positivty one needs to overcome this battle. You have overcome it before, which leads me to believe that you are a true champion. Every Live At The Sante Fe program B Mac and I do will be dedicated to you overcoming your battle. You are an ispiration to all of us.
Love Chris and B Mac.
Chris - Live @ The Sante Fe <captainc53@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Monday, May 9, 2005 5:45 PM CDT

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