So thankful to read your deeply challenging update Carina. You are an amazing mother and an encouragement to others. Thank you for sharing your difficult and far too well traveled story for the little Calla you are loving so well.

It’s wonderful to have an update on Calla. She is beautiful and you are a very normal mom of a child with a liver transplant. You’re doing an amazing job!

Sending love and prayers to you and your sweet, sweet family. What a beautiful family you are ❤️🙏

This. Is. Incredible. This is so profound, powerful, insightful, filled with bravery, honesty, vulnerability. You are living life - you are living it at heights and depths most people don't know. You're an endurance athlete, an adventurist and explorer. So thankful for the update and for whipping up a whole lotta love and support for Team Callaway - and what a community it is, look at all this! Love to you always!!!

Carina! Your writing is so powerful and honest. I hope that the reflecting was just what you needed in the moment. Thank you for being you! I miss you! So thankful to hear a Calla update!

Oh, Carina. I *sobbed* reading this achingly beautiful post. Knowing. Nodding. In awe of your young wisdom. Dear, your journey will be easier (though, ha, may not seem so,) because you've grasped it. You've seen through in lens of your sweet child's physical suffering the harsh yet magnificent scope of this life. You've seen the way to hold in each hand the paradoxes of life and how to know and have perspective. You've wanted to cry out, "WHY ME?!? WHY MY CHILD?!?" But you knew the answer, me, my child, this. This is life....

I used to tell families at Autism 101 orientations: here you are. Autism is on your plate. All kinds of things land on people's plates. Divorce. Death, Cancer.... You get to decide how you will view it and live your life with it. How will you learn, cope, deal, love, grow....

You are amazing. Bless you. Thank you for sharing.
Just tonight I read this quote by Chani Nicholas: "The grief we carry must be articulated so that it might transform us and our understanding of what is possible."

Save your posts. Someday you can compile them into a book. I began that when my daughter was diagnosed. I thought I'd publish it when she was a preteen. She's 29 now and I've been living the life, still, to understand it, and the book is not finished and not yet published. I am getting closer. Maybe you will publish it sooner.

You are gifted. In more ways than one. —xL

Carina, I am glad to hear about you and Calla. I hear the tug of war between Hope and Fear. Please know that others are always holding on to Hope for you. Prayers and warm hugs are being sent your way. Take care of yourself as well as you take care of others. Love to all.

Love you guys!

Sweet mama… you are amazing! Calla is one blessed little girl to have you and Luke as parents!! Thank you for sharing your heart with us! I love you all and continue to pray for Calla and your entire family! ❤️🙏🏻

Dearest Carina,
Thank you for sharing your process and truth. It is beneficial for you and us.
Your transparency and confession of need for others and yielding control is universal but EXTREMELY hard and know that VERY FEW have the strength and courage to even yield to share with others. I read this after last night “breaking down” with a friend and not even realizing that I, too, have been holding in a hurricane of thoughts and feelings that could cause a volcanic(internal) explosion. It was ok for me to be strong for others but that weakens me when I don’t allow myself the truth of where my emotions lye and trust others that I (wrongly) believe that I am too much for others. Your sharing encourages and reminds me that we need each other. In the process of sharing we share our burdens, process and feel (and release) all the energy that is in the emotions. You reminded me to “practice what I preach”. . Oh shit!! That means that I am human too! So, thank YOU for helping me in my process.
Dear friend, you are doing all you can for Calla but we do not have control over everything. I hope that you will be kind to yourself and forgive yourself for not living up to your own unrealistic expectations. We live in an Ocean of life. Sometime the waves come fast and huge. You just have to go either the flow and ALWAYS face the oceans. Being in Hawaii you learn quickly to never turn your back on her. She, the ocean is powerful and unpredictable. It can be the most fun you have but then it can kick your butt! Surfers learn how to ride and work with this flow in a beautiful way.
You , Luke and all the family have been in a GIANT wave of zcalla’s life. I would give you a gold medal. Even gold medal winners wipeout at times. Recover, receive the love and help of others and get back on your board . There are fewer thrills and joy than riding and being at one with the Ocean. I love and appreciate you. I am with you as we both durf life.
Again, thanks for sharing. I needed this too. Sending y’al healing, rest in between waves and strength and joy to get back on your boards🐬(sometimes dolphins surf the waves with humans!) 🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻🏄🏼‍♂️