My cervical cancer awareness ribbon tattoo, done on 11/3/2017 by Jynx at Underground Studios.

Niki Adams

First post: Nov 12, 2017 Latest post: Nov 2, 2018
I'm currently battling Cervical Cancer, and created this page to record and share my journey.  It will be personal.  It will be honest.  I'll have good days and bad days. Welcome to the ride.  - - - - - - -  > I had been having some medical issues for about 7 months. In Sept. 2017, I realized it was time to see my doctor. A pap smear & an ultrasound later, I was diagnosed with uterine polyps, but that didn’t explain all of my symptoms. So another pap, a biopsy of my uterus, and two biopsies of my cervix later, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer, but I already knew. I knew it from the day I called & made that first appointment, because Kris & I had googled my symptoms to death and read every article I could find about it on various sources. But knowing it, and hearing my doctor say the words “It’s definitely cervical cancer” was a different story. It really sucks, but I’m okay. A little sad, a little scared, & a little mad. Not a “why me” kind of mad, but a “why was I so stupid” mad. See guys, cervical cancer can be prevented, or at least caught and taken care of BEFORE it becomes cancer if you go to the doctor regularly like you’re supposed to. I didn’t. In 2014, I had a lump in my breast, but it wasn't the first one I'd had. In May 2000, I had one removed. So when I had another one in Sept 2014, I had to see the doctor and get mammograms and biopsies, and it was pretty expensive. So the following Sept (2015) I said I’m not going back to the doctor til we pay off these other bills. Then last year (2016) we were busy with paperwork and everything to buy this house we’re now in. I said I’d make my appointment when it’s all over... but there was Halloween, then the other holidays, so life was busy and well honestly, I was fine so I didn’t need to go to the doctor. Right? That’s the thing. We’re always busy, until we’re not, and we don't want to waste a relaxing day at the doctor. We’re all fine, until we’re not. And by then, it’s too late. Because now, I’m not fine. And now thanks to PET Scans, MRIs, chemo, and radiation treatments, I’m even more busy with 10x the doctor visits I didn’t want to go to, and 10x the bills that I didn’t want to pay, nor do we even have the money to pay. Life as I used to know it, has officially been flipped upside down. So with all that being said, I need a few things from everyone reading this: Don’t tell me you’re sorry. You didn’t do this. And besides, there’s people out there worse off than me.   Don’t tell me you’re praying for me. You can pray if you want, but hearing that really doesn’t help calm my nerves, so don’t tell me about it.  GO TO THE DOCTOR. Do your exams. Don't put them off. Don’t be like me. Please!

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