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Sep 25, 2017 Latest post:
Jun 14, 2018
I have cancer.
It is still hard to wrap my head around those words. I found out on 8/25/17, hours after my 3D mammogram. It has been a crazy couple of weeks. Since the mammogram I've had an ultrasound, biopsies, and an MRI. I'm going through Saint Luke's Breast Cancer Center for my diagnostics and treatment. They are great, I am confident in them and feel really supported by their staff.
What we think we know now:
- It isn't an aggressive type - It appears only one lymph node is involved - I'm going to have a bilateral mastectomy (both breasts) - I'm leaning toward reconstruction. - I am a candidate for hormone blockers that I would take for 10 years to keep the cancer from returning.
What we don't know yet:
- It is not 100% clear how much radiation and/or chemotherapy will be needed post-surgery. The Drs will know more after surgery when they have a better idea how invasive it is. - We do not know if the cancer has spread to other parts of my body, however I'm having a full-body CAT Scan and Bone Scan tomorrow, so hopefully that will give us that answer.
What I know for sure:
- I'm doing OK. Some days are better than others, just like life always is. - The more information I have, the better I do. The not-knowing is the worst. - I'm going to fight like hell and beat this shit. - The tears come when I start worrying about my guys and the rest of my family. Their world has been rocked and not in a good way. - I just thought I was stressed and anxious 3 weeks ago when I saw a psychiatrist and she started me on meds. - I'm going to carry on working my jobs and living life the best I can while all this is going on. - My Faith will carry me through this. - I appreciate all the love, support and prayers more than I'll ever be able to express. ❤