Alright guys, need to catch you all up because I’m going to take a small time off social media for a while. So in this post I want to gloat and also share some deeper things that is going on in my life.
I managed to marry what has to be one of the most amazing husbands in the world. On October 13 we will be celebrating 9 years of marriage.Donovan has constantly sacrificed his dreams and goals for all of mine.
Mental health is not something our society handles really well. Everything is cheaply name anxiety and depression while never having actual therapist and counselors way in on the possible causes. For an overwhelming amount of people this society has created a dependency on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication while teaching that anxiety and depression is just something you live with. Rather than actually diagnosing and treating mental health disorders.
Now I’m not saying there aren’t a lot of people who struggle with depression and anxiety, but what I am saying is there’s a lot of people who will never overcome depression and anxiety and experience a free, full life. That free, full life comes from specific individualized treatment and therapy. This is something that Donovan and I have always had a heart to speak on since working with high school students and youth in foster care.
However, with that being said you can’t give what you don’t have. Before Donovan and I got married Donovan went through 100s of hours with counselors working through past trauma. After we got married I started to realize I struggled a lot with things that would be considered basic adult responsibilities. My already existing social awkwardness got worse while across the last 9 years I have continued to work with counselors. During this time I have watched many dreams slip out of my hands. Not just my dreams but I have watched Donovan willingly give up all of his in order to help me.
Seriously guys, Donovan has worked extremely hard to even give me this entire last year to not have to work and focus on myself and disc golf. I still struggled however I learned something. I have always heard Donovan quote Newton’s law of motion in regards to mental health “an object in motion will stay in motion until acted upon by a equal or greater force.” This is obviously a paraphrase. I think it really grabs a picture of what is needed to change when it comes to destructive habits we have developed, and combating trauma.
Sorry I know this is a long post, but if you’re someone who has always struggled with mental health even if it’s something just as small as having a hard time staying motivated and making the life you want to live happen I would encourage you that life doesn’t have to be that way. To meet with counselors, meet with therapist, and find the support you need to make the change. Life is too short to be crippled and paralyzed by poor mental health.
With all this being said, for the next month or so I will be out of disc golf and off social media in order to go to a treatment center in Illinois. I’m not going to lie this is a really tough thing to do but Donovan and I are really excited to see how this helps and for me to start living the life I want.
This isn’t a post for pity, but is a post to celebrate an incredible husband, an incredible marriage, and encourage and prove to everyone I know that the hard steps for mental health are worth it!