Sunday, December 25, 2005 10:55 AM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL AND A VERY SPECIAL MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY ANGEL IN HEAVEN....KENNEDY TYLER KIMBRO!
WOW I CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW HEAVEN MUST BE HERE ON THIS WONDERFUL DAY OF OUR LORDS BIRTH, LIKE NO OTHER I AM SURE!

well my kennedy i know that you are having a wonderful christmas today, how great it is that you are spending this day, the birthday of our lord with him....i just think that is so cool......
well as usual your sisters and brother made a haul, i mean a haul!!! we also remembered you to sweetie, we went and gave in your name o a little boy in iowa park, his momma was soooo happy, and it blessed our hearts to provide a small christmas, or at least help with his christmas....
last night we went to the church, it was wonserful, we sung amazing songs about our lord, i am sure you heard, and in the front of the church was a great scene...members of our church had their chilren there placing them as mary, joseph, and the baby jesus, it was a beautiful site.
i was just filled with the heavens last night, and thought of you and how lucky i was to have a son in christ...we miss you lots son, but we are over joyed that you spend your eternity with our creator.... we will see you soon, i know you are waiting, thank you for making me who i am today, with a lot of the lords help....
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Here are a few poems that i hold dear to my heart i would like to share this christmas day:

A Mother's Christmas Wish

I guess if I could make just one Christmas wish,
I would wish I could see you.
To hold, to snuggle, to just kiss,
This is something I'd really like to do.

My arms ache for my baby boy,
Who will always remain just that.
To never grow and experience joy,
I wish I knew where you were at.

Why is it God thought he needed you more than I,
And why is it wishes can't come true?
I am just an aching heart who can only ask why,
And a mother who can't let go of you.

Please God grant me this one Christmas wish,
If just for a minute, an hour or a day.
He is someone I really need & miss,
What more must I say?

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Christmas In Heaven

We’re wondering what Christmas in Heaven is like
As we grieve alone and pray,
longing for one who has gone before
To spend Christmas in Heaven today.

And so in our dreams we wander far
From the scenes and sounds of earth
‘Til we catch the strains of the Heavenly choir
As they sing of the Christ Child’s birth.

The Angels we envision there
As they join in the restal gay
And there amid the throng is our Loved One
Spending Christmas in Heaven today.

There’s joy in the faith that teaches
When our life’s work is done
Of a place in Heaven awaiting
And the crown we worked for is won.

In our grief may we learn well the lesson
So to work and suffer and pray
As to merit the joys of our loved one
And to spend Christmas together some day.

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An Angel's Christmas Wish

I looked through the clouds and what did I see,
The face of my mother, and her thoughts were of me.
He eyes filled with tears and her face looked so sad,
My wings fluttered softly and I felt so bad;
For I could do nothing to change how she felt,
Nor could I alter the hand fate had dealt.
My tears fell like raindrops, my heart felt so tight,
I lifted my face to heaven and told God of my plight,
For I can never be free just to fly,
As long as there's one lonely tear in your eye.
My years on earth were spent to please you,
And though what has happened was not my own choice,
The plan, my mother dear, came from a much higher voice.
As the birthday of our Savior and Lord draws so near,
I have a small plea I would like you to hear,
Remember me, Mom, with happiness and smiles,
And know when you do my soul will soar miles.
My wings will be light, and my heart will be free,
In the brightest sunshine is where you'.. see me.

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and of course i had to include this special poems it is one that you will get use to seeing here at this time of the year, very well written and just what i think kennedy
would say:


"I'm Spending Christmas With Jesus This Year"

I see the countless trees around the world below
With tiny lights like Heaven's stars reflecting on the snow
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
For I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
But they can't compare with the Christmas choir up here
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring
For it's beyond description to hear the angels sing
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
But I'm not so far away, we really aren't apart.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do
For I can't count the blessings of love He has for you
I can't tell you of the splendor, nor the peace in this place
Can you imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask Him to light your spirit as I tell him of your love
Then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.
So, please let your hearts be joyful, and let your spirit sing
For I'm spending Christmas in Heaven, and I'm walking with the King.

SO TO YOU ALL HAVE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR...HUG YOU CHILREN LOVE YOU FAMILY, AND SMILE EVEN WHEN YOU MAY NOT WANT TO, YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHO NEEDS IT AND WHO IS WATCHING....

GOD BLESS TO ALL:
Rachael

Saturday, December 17, 2005 12:07 AM CST

Hello to all, i know that i haven't been very good at updating this year, life is full and crazy and sometimes it just hurts to come here and write.
Here in my part of the country we had our annual Hospice Christmas tree lighting. It was of course a HUGE success!
This day bless's me every year, and I know others just the same. It puts me in a place where I should be daily, I guess that is what Christmas is doing this year again. i always cautiously enter this time of year. I won't lie it is a hard time of the year but at the same time it is one of the best. As my dad has always said life and time is what you make it. I choose to make it period!
i also think that here on earth at Christmas time is so beautiful, with the magic that it brings, and then i think of HEaven WOw it just blows my mind to think of how Christmas is up there, my Kennedy is having his second christmas up there and how wonderful it is. He gets to spend the most important time of the year with our creator. Lucky little boy!
I hope that you all are not exhausted from all the hustle and bustle of trying to get the "perfect" gift, the best gift is time! I will be coming back again right before Christmas so i hope you will all come back and leave a message that you where here.

Love always,
Rachael

Wednesday, November 23, 2005 5:52 PM CST

Here we are facing another holiday..........
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!!

I have been trying again to find something to be so graciously thankful for, this is something that I usually have to put alot of thought into but here is what I have some up with this year: GOD'S GRACE

I hope each of you can stop with your families and tell each of them what you are thankful for. My prayers are with you during this holiday and hope that you are all safe.

Here is a CUTE little poem that I found, it is a new twisted to an old Christmas favorite...hehe


Twas the Night of Thanksgiving

Twas the night of Thanksgiving, but I just couldn't sleep
I tried counting backwards, I tried counting sheep.

The leftovers beckoned-- the dark meat and white,
but I fought the temptation with all of my might.

Tossing and turning with anticipation,
the thought of a snack became infatuation.

So, I raced to the kitchen, flung open the door
and gazed at the fridge, full of goodies galore.

I gobbled up turkey and buttered potatoes,
pickles and carrots, beans and tomatoes.

I felt myself swelling so plump and so round,
till all of a sudden, I rose off the ground.

I crashed through the ceiling, floating into the sky
With a mouthful of pudding and a handful of pie.

But, I managed to yell as I soared past the trees...
happy eating to all---pass the cranberries, please.
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As I was going through some things, I came across this poems that was written in 2002 by my precious Kennedy. i wanted to share:

I'm thankful for my mother, and
I'm thankful for my dad.
I'm thankful for my sisters, and
for all the fun we've had.
I'm thankful for my brother, Acy,
(even when he's jerky.)
But most of all, I'm oh-so-thankful
not to be a turkey


God Bless you all,
Rachael and Family

Sunday, October 16, 2005 1:51 AM CDT

HAPPY 1ST HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY KENNEDY!!!!!!!!!!

Wow i just cannot believe that it has already been a year. I did really good sweetie today. I woke up about 4:50 even without my alarm, hmmmmmmm I wonder if you gave me alittle nudge???? I think so, cause you definatly didn't want me to miss it, that beautiful sunrise, hey tell God thanks for the beautiful day!

Me and your older brother and sister, went to a work day, called Teens Make a Difference. It was out at Chapparel Camp. My group painted. HAHAHAHA yes i know that you are laughing at me hysterically......you see folks I don't paint! Well when it was all said and done, I had that paint ALL over me, but not as bad as your sister did. Yes I know it your laughing outloud!

This evening we had a "celebration of life" for you, even though I know that you couldn't see it, it felt as if you could. I tangled those 50 some odd balloons, and lost about 4. That was good considering they were tangled bad. I just figured you got excited so you need those balloons as an attention getter! It was wonderful, and more people showed up than the ones I thought would. You are soooooooooooo loved Kennedy. I am so happy that you are able to run, even walk now to play.

I love you honey,
Thank you so much for making me into the woman that I am today!

Your mommy forever:
Rachael

Sunday, September 11, 2005 10:15 PM CDT

As I sit here tonight, I reflect on the last 15 years of my life. I had such a "real" day. I had emtions that I thought were gone, or where so deep inside of me that I thought that they would never surface again.
I realized that I have never forgiven myself for so much, and have begun to ask those who are so very close to me to forgive me for either the pain, or the worry that I caused.
To many this may not sound like a healthy thing to do at this time in my life, but to me it is just the start of a healthy life.
I realized too, that I have not yet dealt with the death of my sweet and precious Kennedy. I appear to have, and can talk like I have but like I said at the beginning I haven't been honest with myself nor have I yet tried to heal in the way that I need to and the way that God has been waiting for me to.
I know that you all continously pray for me and my family, I am not just asking for prayer but for complete healing in the area's that we need so much to heal in to become Heathly again.
I thank each and every one of you for standing beside our family through the worst possible experience that a person/family can go through. Please be paitient I am only human and I had no idea that life would be so different in just one day of being so "real".
I ask for who all reads that if forgiveness is need to accept my apology and to understand that I am so sorry.
I have been so selfish, and I have to do this for myself.
Now......
To my Kennedy, love I am so sorry for failing you in the ways that you only know. I love you my son, and i think of you daily. Your anniversary is coming so quickly, and I am so sadden again. I feel like it was only yesterday, that you were born, the feeling also like it was yesterday to let you go. The promise that was given to me was that through your death, I know that God is so real, he loves so much, and He is just waiting for us to take just a small step towards him, and He then will run the rest of the way to us, hold us tightly and allow us to come on home. Even though I cannot predict the day we will be reunited, I know that we will, everything is done in His time, His way, He is just waiting for us..........

Rachael

Monday, August 15, 2005 8:54 AM CDT

Here I sit on the monthly anniversary of Kennedy's death....
I can hardly believe that it has been 10 mths sincce my precious babies death....
I have been so busy getting ready for school, starting sports, and making sure that Acy, Alexis, and Claire are ready for the new year, I haven't had as much time to sit and reflect as I usually have....I have choosen to do this now, just a few minutes of my day....
As the rain falls here today, I think of how close that it makes me feel to my Lord and my son...
I know that the roads are flooding, and it is not a good hair day, but to me, when the rains come down, it makes me feel that much closer to the Heavens...
I like to go outside and allow the rain to sprinkle down upon my face, it feels sort of like little kiss's from Kennedy. Kennedy I love you so much and miss you so, thank you for showing what strength is and how close I can become to the Lord, because of you dear son I am the woman that I am today and who i want to be, it is because of you!!!
Please pray for this new year, things are different, Acy going into High School and Alexis going into Jr. High..WOW WOW...WOW...yes I know it is so hard to believe, they are nervous and I know that they will be fine, I just pray that this year there is only the normal stress's for teens..They have had to endure and take the back seat for so much and I want these first years in new schools to be so good to them, I also ask for prayer for Acy, he has hurt his leg in 2 a days and hasn't been able to practice or for that matter even walk correctly since....I want to thank you all for such a great support system, I couldn't of gone through the last couple of years without all of the support that I reacieved through you all, please never forget to sign the guest book, I need that....
God Bless to all
Rachael and Family

Friday, July 15, 2005 0:16 AM CDT

Well here i am on the eve of the 9 mth anniversary of our dear Kennedy Tyler Kimbro. I cannot tell how I feel every month that this day comes along. I just want to let you all know that we are taking each moment slowly and making it day by day. Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts throughout these last months. Please continue, we are still battling sadness, but we are making it. Thank you all for continuing to sign our guest book. Please continue it gives us such comfort. Please ask all to continue. I promise that i will continue to update, just sometimes it is to hard. Thank you again to you all and God Bless.

Love
rachael and family

Sunday, May 8, 2005 7:50 PM CDT

Hello all of you and for you mothers I hope that this is a very Happy Mother's Day!!!
I have had a glorious day.
I have reflected on this wonderful day and thought of how lucky I am to be priveldge to be a mommy of such wonderful children!
I had a beautiful sunrise to wake up to today, and lots of love and laughter all day long. Thank you Lord for this.
I want to share a wonderful experience that I also had today.
I was yes at one point of today, really down and thinking of my precious Kennedy Tyler. I sat there thinking of how preledged to have been able to be his earthly mother, and that I still have that preveldge to share his wonderful story.
Today as we sat and enjoyed a wonderful lunch at my moms, I was thinking that I might get away today and go home and of course what every mother does....CLEAN THE HOUSE!!! LOL
She said but Rachael you can't right yet you are expecting a visitor, I don't know her and neither do you. I said well hmmm, who could it possibly be. Now remember I have at that point started my longing for my Kennedy and didn't really feel quite up to a "visitor" at this point of my day. Lord who could this woman be. Well around 2pm as expected I noticed a car drive up and a lady with dark hair get out of this car and walk up to my parents door. Oh my I thought and i started to sortof shake. She entered and said "Hello my name is Sonya"! I of course had no idea who this woman was, but she sat can we sit I have something to tell you.
I invited to sit on the couches and she started to speak.
She said this," Rachael I didn't find out your name till last night, and I want to say please don't think that I am crazy or weird, since you don't know me, but the Lord wanted me to come and visit you.....
He wanted me to tell you that Kennedy is being very well takin care of and that he awaits the day the you are able to join him."
Let me tell you my heart went up to my throat and then back to my stomach and then up and down again. Was this an answer to a pray that I or maybe you have had. I think yes.
She proceeded to share more, stating that there was a time that she had visited a local daycare and spoke with a little boy, this boy had told her that he was very sick and had a brain tumor, and that she said she had thought how awful, but sometimes little kids just say things. When getting home she had spoke with her daughter and here daughter said yes mom he is telling the truth and he does have a brain tumor, and yes he may die. She said to me that she thought why would this happen to a little boy, but she said she knew that God had a wonderful and big plan for this child too.
Then she had said that she had seen me and Kennedy at church and said that she asked her daughter again was this the child, she had said yes mom. She said the next time that she looked we had gone from the place that we were sitting, and then she found us out in the foyer....she said at this point that she saw the anguish in my face and the pain that I was feeling as Kennedy laid there in my lap, she said she also saw the love and contentment that I had over flowing through me veins. She then started to state that the Lord had asked her to find me, and give me this book called "90 Minutes In Heaven" by a preacher man who was pronouced dead for almost 90 minutes and experienced the awesome sight of Heaven. She then also told me that the Lord had asked her to make me a cross which she showed me, it was made from four long nails, with an angel in the mmiddle, and she told me that this was my memory cross, and that she had made two. One for me to have and one for me to share. This woman I have never seen at church nor have I seen her in my community that I have lived in for 23 years. I believe that she was definately a messenger from God, to allow me to start healing on a different level. She blessed me, my day, and my feelings this glorious Mothers day...
I realize that I have rambled this story, but from here on out this story will be just one of the many that the Lord has sent me through this journey of illnes, death, and then peace. He has allowed me still grace, and baby steps to heal, and to know that my precious Kennedy is there with Him, taken care of, and they both await the day that I will join them. Real quick she pointed out two instants in this book, and she said that she hasn't even read this book yet, it says that no the people that are in Heaven don't know the ones that aren't there at this time, but what they do know is the ones that will be coming, this book also says that they are reunited with family members that went before them, and they are full of love, this book also speaks of the wonderful lights and colors that this man saw, like none that we have ever seen here on earth. What amazing story, I am so privedge to have had this "angel on earth" to come and visit me. I hope to that this story will bless you and make you want to be closer to Him. God Bless and I love you all.

Rachael

Monday, April 25, 2005 7:05 PM CDT

Well I finally made it to update this journal. I realize it has been a while, but life sometimes just doesn't allow us to get EVERYTHING done, and of course this is one thing that I haven't been very diliagent on.
The kids are doing well, luckly school is coming to a close, and things are starting to become fun for them and not so hard. Acy is playing baseball and doing well, he plays first baseball and when I get to watch him, he makes me smile. He just looks beautiful out there. Alexis well she has had some downers here lately , not making cheerleader, which just has devasted her, (I guess we have just gotten use to things not going our way) but she has held here head up high, and is starting to gymastic classes starting next monday, she says that she is going to blow them away next year trying out for "Jr High Cheerleader" WOW HUH!@!!!!. I hope so!
Not to much to get excited about, the job is wonderful still and I am thinking of getting a second, just to hopfully get caught up on bills. It is a bummer but we decided that it is for the best so that we might get out from under some of this debt from the last year.
Keep praying for us and I will have more to update on, at the first of May we are having our Relay For life, and I am looking forward for this. Thank you all for praying and helping us through the last couple of years.

If anyone would like to donate to the family please send to the address above, and put attn: Rachael Kimbro in memory of Kennedy Tyler Kimbro.

God Bless and take care

Rachael

Sunday, March 27, 2005 9:46 PM CST

Hello to all and a very Happy Easter too!
I felt a wonderful feeling today, the resurection of Christ! This day a special meaning to me, not only is it the day that Our Lord rose from his grave, it also to me means the grace, and mercy that the Lord above has on us. I hope that each one of you had a wonderful fulling memory making day. I wanted to share this story that was passed on to me today. It is a beautiful reminder of what I have said above. Please continue to pray for our family. It has now been 5 mths and closing in on our year half way mark. Somedays again are fine and then there are days that just take out breathe away. Thank you all in advance and take care. Please read!


Jeremy was born with a twisted body and a slow mind. At the age of 12 he was still in second grade, seemingly unable to learn. His teacher, Doris
Miller, often became exasperated with him. He would squirm in his seat,
drool, and make grunting noises. At other times, he spoke clearly and
distinctly, as if a spot of light had penetrated the darkness of his
brain. Most of the time, however, Jeremy just irritated his teacher.

One day she called his parents and asked them to come in for a
consultation. As the Forresters entered the empty classroom, Doris said
to them, "Jeremy really belongs in a special school. It isn't fair to
him to be with younger children who don't have learning problems. Why,
there is a five year gap between his age and that of the other students."

Mrs. Forrester cried softly into a tissue, while her husband spoke.
"Miss Miller," he said, "there is no school of that kind nearby. It
would be a terrible shock for Jeremy if we had to take him out of this
school. We know he really likes it here." Doris sat for a long time
after they had left, staring at the snow outside the window. Its
coldness seemed to seep into her soul. She wanted to sympathize with the
Forresters. After all, their only child had a terminal illness. But it
wasn't fair to keep him in her class. She had 18 other youngsters to
teach, and Jeremy was a distraction. Furthermore, he would never learn
to read and write. Why waste any more time trying?

As she pondered the situation, guilt washed over her. Here I am
complaining when my problems are nothing compared to that poor family,
she thought. Lord, please help me to be more patient with Jeremy. From
that day on, she tried hard to ignore Jeremy's noises and his blank
stares. Then one day, he limped to her desk, dragging his bad leg behind
him.

"I love you, Miss Miller," he exclaimed, loud enough for the whole class
to hear. The other students snickered, and Doris' face turned red. She
stammered, "Wh-why that's very nice, Jeremy. N-now please take your seat."

Spring came, and the children talked excitedly about the coming of
Easter. Doris told them the story of Jesus, and then to emphasize the
idea of new life springing forth, she gave each of the children a large
plastic egg. "Now," she said to them, "I want you to take this home and
bring it back tomorrow with something inside that shows new life. Do you
understand?"

"Yes, Miss Miller," the children responded enthusiastically-all except
for Jeremy. He listened intently; his eyes never left her face. He did
not even make his usual noises. Had he understood what she had said
about Jesus' death and resurrection? Did he understand the assignment?
Perhaps she should call his parents and explain the project to them.

That evening, Doris' kitchen sink stopped up. She called the landlord
and waited an hour for him to come by and unclog it. After that, she
still had to shop for groceries, iron a blouse, and prepare a vocabulary
test for the next day. She completely forgot about phoning Jeremy's parents.

The next morning, 19 children came to school, laughing and talking as
they placed their eggs in the large wicker basket on Miss Miller's desk.
After they completed their math lesson, it was time to open the eggs. In
the first egg, Doris found a flower. "Oh yes, a flower is certainly a
sign of new life," she said. "When plants peek through the ground, we
know that spring is here." A small girl in the first row waved her arm.
"That's my egg, Miss Miller," she called out. The next egg contained a
plastic butterfly, which looked very real. Doris held it up. "We all
know that a caterpillar changes and grows into a beautiful butterfly.
Yes, that's new life, too." Little Judy smiled proudly and said, "Miss
Miller, that one is mine." Next, Doris found a rock with moss on it. She
explained that moss, too, showed life. Billy spoke up from the back of
the classroom, "My daddy helped me," he beamed.

Then Doris opened the fourth egg. She gasped. The egg was empty. Surely
it must be Jeremy's she thought, and of course, he did not understand
her instructions. If only she had not forgotten to phone his parents.
Because she did not want to embarrass him, she quietly set the egg aside
and reached for another. Suddenly, Jeremy spoke up. "Miss Miller, aren't
you going to talk about my egg?" Flustered, Doris replied, "But Jeremy,
your egg is empty." He looked into her eyes and said softly, "Yes, but
Jesus' tomb was empty, too."

Time stopped. When she could speak again, Doris asked him, "Do you know
why the tomb was empty?" "Oh, yes," Jeremy said, "Jesus was killed and
put in there. Then His Father raised Him up."

The recess bell rang. While the children excitedly ran out to the school
yard, Doris cried. The cold inside her melted completely away.

Three months later, Jeremy died. Those who paid their respects at the
mortuary were surprised to see 19 eggs on top of his casket, all of them
empty.



Happy Easter!

Sunday, February 13, 2005 12:54 AM CST

hello and i hope that this finds you all well.
Well we are here two days before the four month anniversary of Kennedy's passing.
Wow does time go by us. I know that you all have prayed for us and we thank you for this. Please continue your prayers, this year seems like we will not get through but i know that God goes before us always and takes care of things before we even enter each day. I am so thankful for this.
The kids are doing well and asjusting to life that is so different. I know that yesterday I wanted everyone to hear a song that I had found that reminded me of kennedy, and when it started they both just looked the other way and sighed.....I turned it off, it is so hard walking through each day and having to but my grief to the side, there are days that I want to cry all day, and then there are days that there aren't any more tears to cry, but I just at times feel that I had to continue without feeling outwardly just inwardly and this to me sucks, considering I need to talk, cry and just yell at times. No one to do this with, no one that I would want to bother......
Byron (kennedys daddy) and i have ordered or should i say have picked out what we want for kennedy's headstone, it is going to be beautiful and just what i invisioned it to look like, i can't wait till we are able to place it out there....I intend on having a "ceremony" for this so keep checking back for times and a date so all who would like to come can...also aat Hospice they have tiles that are placed around the center, they cost $1,000 and with the donations to Hospice in Kennedy's memory he has more than enough to have one of these, this makes me smile inside and out....I went a couple of weeks ago and picked out where i would like it to be placed and the next week i received a note from Hospice telling me it was placed...Me and the kids will go up soon to see it, take a picture and say a verse and have prayer, I sometimes feel that these things that we are doing are wonderful, but I still wish at times that I could trade them in, if you know what I mean......We will survive and await the day the Lord calls us to come home......

In Christ's Name,
rachael and family

Thursday, January 20, 2005 10:09 PM CST

I know that it has been since BEFORE Christmas since I updated but I just haven't felted up to the task. Thank you for all of your continuous thoughts and prayers, please continue, we have as a family a long road ahead of us. I also want to thank you for not being strangers to us. Sometimes people just don't know what to say or how to act when they come in contact with us. Please ask us how we are doing or how it is going, we want to talk, and if you don't know what to say thats ok too, sometimes we just want to see a smile. And if you don't mind we DO want to talk about Kennedy, he isn't lost or just gone, he lives with Jesus now, and he is cured without pain.

Just an update on the family: The kids of course are doing really well, alexis has started playing indoor soccer and of course laughs and smiles while doing so. Acy has started woring out for baseball his passion and enjoys this so. Good news I started a job at the first of this month. I am extremely happy here and hope that this becomes my 2nd home. We attended our first Relay For Life Kickoff tonight. It is weird being "on the other side" so to speak of the events. I am totally pumped and ready to dedicated myself to this event for the rest of my life.

Please continue your prayers, nights are extremely hard for me, and somedays are hard for me. I am making it though and will continue until the day the good Lord calls me home. Hope all is well with you all and we will talk again really soon. Hugs, Love, and HOPE!!!!!

God Bless
In Christ,
Rachael

Tuesday, December 14, 2004 10:28 AM CST

Please remember to listen if you are local, to Lonestar 102.3 for the annual Tree of Lights Campaign for Hospice of Wichita Falls. I will be speaking on our story with Hospice and what Hospice meant to Kennedy and his family, please listen and if you feel need to give please do so at Hospice of Wichita Falls
PO Box 4804
Wichita Falls, Texas
76308-0804
Thank you for giving and listening. God Bless!!!!



So many times I have came to Kennedy's page to update and haven't because the words were just not there. I have so much emotion that I have a very hard time dealing with this, and I know that within time this will ease, but the pain of losing my precious Kennedy Tyler Kimbro will never leave my body, mind and soul, I know!

Here I sit on the eve of Kennedy's death, thinking of so many things, wondering if I just had that one moment in time would it be enough?? NO of course it wouldn't, I would need more so I cannot ask this of my Lord.

Every evening I pray and thank the Lord for the events that have occured in my life especially over the last three years. I thank Him for the journey, even though this was the worst time in my life, it is still and will continue to have been the best. I am a different person than I was before I walked the path that I have.

I was going through a box just about an hour ago and found a baggie, I pulled it out and saw where when Kennedy received his last hair cut at Hospice I had saved a HUGE WAD of his hair, I pulled some out and it still smelled of the hair gel that I placed on his head. These times are just so precious to me. I will admit I am struggling to not just sit around the house, I am searching for a job that could pull me out of my pit, and also for my family to overcome this horrible times. The kids seem to handle things these days better than me and I still think they are a breathe of fresh air to me. Their smiles continue to lift me up where I need to be, and their magic of Christmas fills the air here at home. Yes I know that this will be Kennedy's first Christmas in Heaven and I do Thank the Lord for this!

SO much has happened over the last 2 1/2 years....Kennedys diagnosis, The birth of Claire, many new findings, strength granted from Christ, baptism's (Kennedy and Alexis), twice have endured the loss of jobs, ups and down.....Kennedy's passing, so many things that Kenendy did, so many glorious miracles & memories given to me and the family, so many times the Lord granted comfort, hope and help through much suffering. I have told many who I have came in contact with, Kenendy was given such a heavy burden that many could not of beared, but he took it with his head held high,never once complained or shed a tear, molded and formed this to such a wonderful testimony that I know some day I will have the priveldge of telling many people. How lucky I am as a mommy to have this priveldge, the priveldge was being a mommy to Kennedy and knowing him. Not one day do I have any regrets nor guilt, I did my best and I did what was asked of me by God, to raise a child to become Godly and follow Him. This is what I have done and will continue with the other children of this family.

GOD IS SO GOOD!!
God Bless to all who read this, and if I don't get here again before Christmas, I do hope that all have a glorious, blessed holiday!

In Christ's Name:
Rachael and Children
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Thursday, November 25, 2004 9:59 AM CST

Friday, November 19, 2004 5:25 PM CST

Well as you all can see I DIDN"T update on monday, it was just to hard of a day. I want to tell everyone first off thank you for thinking again of me and my family over the last week and a half due to the death of my grand-dad. Now Kennedy has someone to hold on to or should I say we have someone else to hold on to that connects us even more to the Heavens.
Over the last month so much has gone through my mind and it has definately been almost to much. Again the kids are doing quite well, still a breathe of fresh air, and I well just hanging on by my dear life. I still am not getting through the physical loss of Kennedy. Everyday is a challege for me to just keep on, and I know that I said before that I feared for my strength and faith to continue as strong as I felt it through the last 2 and a half years and thank you God it has.
I wanted to share with you all that I was given the opportunity to speak on behalf of the "lighting if the Hospice tree" that will be on the radio (102.3) on December 17, 2004. Let me say that I get great joy speaking about my Kennedy and no I didn't cry, I don't know why but i didn't. It felt good to speak about kennedy again and tell his story. My dad has said that Kennedy's legacy will never end, everyday without me knowing through me Kennedy will touch another and then another. I can't wait to get to Heaven and see just how many are there because of my beautiful couragous son. I am so proud right now can you tell.
Also real quick, I always hate to ask anything of anyone but feel led to do so about this. Acy and ALexis and really Claire to, are having a hard time especially at night time, remembering Kennedy, thinking of Kennedy and thinking about the approaching Holidays especially Christmas. Acy has said mom it just won't be the same without Kennedy waking us up at 4:30 am anymore, how will we do this and get through this. I told him we just will, just like we have since out entire lives where changed on March 25th 2002 at 11:21 am when we were told what Kennedy had. Please pray for them during this time and I am not gonna lie I need prayer to, to help me focus, get a job, and pay off the great debt that I have been faced with. I know I can overcome this, since Kennedy was cured from cancer, it just sometimes gets really hard. God is in Control and I remember this daily and I hope that all of you do too. If I don't get to talk to any of yall please have a great, memory making, thankful Thanksgiving and please if you are traveling God Speed!!!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Wednesday, November 10, 2004 5:14 PM CST

Ok here is the long and awaited update to my precious Kennedy's webpage. Monday will be a month, and I had intended to update on this date and may do so more. We are surviving as many of you know and have seen us around over the last couple of weeks. I am having a really hard time, and the kids are still like a breathe of fresh air to me. I want to thank everyone of who who have sent your condolences over the last month. They mean the world to me. Also thank you to all who have continued to pray for us. Please Please Please do not stop ready this site, I know that it is as precious to you all as is to me. I will continue to update our journey without the physical presence over the next year. Also I have begun the www.kennedykimbro.com coming for that website to hold on to the memory of Kennedy and for all to come to read about our family, find possible answers to questions that I have found about medical treatments, concerns, first hand input of what our journey was like with a child with cancer. There will also be many financial avenues that people can find there, and also many organizations that can send out the "just because" gifts that they have started to comfort our children during and after. Stay strong to all and be sure to come back monday. I will indeed update again.
Love to all and hugs.

In Christ,
Rachael and family

Saturday, October 23, 2004 1:03 PM CDT

Hello all:
It has definately taken me a while to be able to come and say anything on this beloved site....I do think though it is going to take me a little while to relive the last days that I had my Kennedy here with me and I do know that you all will understand.....
The household is here, and the fog that I am trying to hold onto is starting to slowly fade and reality is slowly seeping in....I am fighting hard for my fog to stay but I know that within time I will have to release it and allow the feelings, pain, and crying to settle in for my own good. I will say that my other children are holding up better than I even expected, much better than myself. They say "mom don't cry, its OK he is with Jesus, playing and laughing and so should we" so innocent, such a breath of fresh my Acy, Alexis and Claire are to me.
I want to shout up to the Heavens and tell God thanks but yet only tears and fustration come out, God understands and comforts me when I slip like this.
Thank you all for all of your strength sent my way and love and prayers, I can't imagine life without this site and all of you.....More to come later when I can....Thank you for your patience....

In Christ,
rachael and family

Friday, October 15, 2004 5:16 AM CDT

I justed wanted to share with you all the our precious Kennedy Tyler Kimbro went to be with his Lord at 5:05 this morning.....I was there while he took his last breathe's and it was the most precious, quiet, time that has ever occurred in my life....I will post more when I can...I love you all and thank you....

In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday, October 14, 2004 8:13 PM CDT

I justed wanted to give an update for Thurday, I know that it is a late one and will keep this one on tomorrow also.
Kennedy's condidtion has changed. He started running a fever around 3:30 today which was 103.8, they treated it with meds and then checked about an hour later and it was then 103.4 they then placed a cool wash cloth on his forhead. The next time that they checked his temp it was 101.5, and even though we are thankful to God that the temp has gone down we are still understanding that this will continue because he is indeed developed Pnuemonia....Remember that this is what we were told yesterday and also on tuesday.
The doctor has come in and checked Kennedy, he has said that his lungs are rattley and that the time for Kennedy to take his flight to Heaven is growing near. I can say that Kennedy is definately comfortable and I am so thankful for this. I am though having a hard time with all of this since I consider him suffering. I pray that the temp is controled so that seizures will not start...
But I do hope that God will not allow Kennedy to suffer anymore, and I will tell you that I prayed the hardest prayer that I have ever prayed about 20 minutes ago that God will go ahead and take Kennedy from his cancer. I must say that I know all of you know that this is a difficult prayer to pray but as Kennedy's mommy I have to pray and do what is totally best for him........
I want to thank you all for praying for Kennedy and his family but most of all I hope that Kennedy's journey has brought you all closer to God and the reason why we are all here.....To have Eternal Life and live with our Lord.....

In Christ,
Rachael and Family

Wednesday, October 13, 2004 1:08 PM CDT

Hello all:
I was trying to update all day long yesterday but the computer here at the Hospice Center just wasn't cooperating.....boooo, but as you can see it is allowing me to update today....
Kennedy has had a peaceful last two nights with sleeping almost the entire night which is good for me and his dad since we stay up all day welcoming friends and family....
Back last weekend the staff made us aware that Kennedy would start having some significant changes, and yes I have seen some visibal to all and some that I feel just I have noticed since I have cared for him in the manor that I have for a long time....The first would be his breathing, he is now on oxygen and will continue with this for the dueration of his life, secondly slightly blue lips which comes from lack of continuous oxygen which the O2 will provide...
He is still receiving his meds through the mild ports that were placed over the weekend and still tolerating them very well and they are doing a great job, he has also been asking for break through meds for some headaches and they are able to control this with the liquid Morphine that he has taken all along.
Today so far has been again a blessed day for me with him still communicating well when needing a drink and get this one HE ASK FOR A SHOWER!!!! LOL If you know Kennedy this is such a cool thing, he loves them and also they help with the fever that has been coming and going...To be honest I am not sure if we have gotten through the first bout of peunomonia, I feel that we have but the doctor has assured us that we will more than likely face this again. Over all I feel that the Lord is still allowing us VERY precious time with Kennedy and those "small baby steps to Heaven"... Again I want to thank you all for all of your prayers, thoughts, and calls/visits, they mean the world to me and the family. If this computer allows me to, I still intend on updating daily....
I hope that you all are having a very blessed day..

In Christ,
Rachael and Family

Monday, October 11, 2004 5:19 PM CDT

Hello all:
I waited to update till this time so that I could first let some things that are occuring to sink in and to also find the right words to tell everyone what is taking place....
As you all know Kennedy for around three weeks now has had quit a hard time taking his meds, this is still the same...we have had some really good days, but things indeed are taking a turn....
As of last night I have opt to stop all meds through the mouth and as of last night started giving only what is needed through a light port through his legs....
This will help control seizures and comfort him so that he will stay as calm as possible. Due to the vomiting he has also aspirated on some of this, we are changing and may already have surcumed to pnuemonia and the doctor says that this will occur more than once, he said that this is what you chance....
I had to break for another talk with the doctor with Kennedy's daddy and I, we were told that we will be honored and blessed if Kennedy does make it too this Saturday on his 10th birthday, the doctor also said that he would say that he may only have a couple of more days...please pray for the peace that Kennedy deserves, and that a peace will come over this entire family at this time....
I can say that Kennedy does seem comfortable, and I was able to speak with Kennedy to say that "it is ok to go on towards the light, you will be free of this beast and CURED" I told him that this is God's time and that he would be fine, and that so would all of us too...
I also want to thank you all for the magnitude of prayer for my little boy, I love you all and feel such a grace from you all...Thank you and God Bless you all...will try to update again today or definately in the morning, I am staying continuously here at Hospice, again Kennedy is in Room #9 if any of you needed to have a reminder...

In Christ,
Rachael

Saturday, October 9, 2004 9:20 PM CDT

HEllo all and I hope that this was a great day as it was for our Kennnedy....
Thank you for all of the balloons, gifts and prayers that you have sent to Kennedy today, just remember if you still wanted to come by to see Kennedy on his "Birthday Weekend" please feel free....
I just wanted to share the feeling that I have felt today, even though today wasn't Kennedy's actual birthday, I was so overwelmed at the out pout of love and thought from you all, we all hope that Kennedy makes it to his real birthday which is Saturday,October 16th but I want to say how much love and strength I felt throughout today as everyone was sending special gifts to him and coming by to say hi.....I am so honored to be able to share this child from God, and I know that everyone that has had Kennedy walk through their life has been blessed.
Even though Kennedy's day is coming where he meets our Lord, I couldn't of made it through another day with out all of your thoughts, and prayers. I want to thank you all of slamming Heavens Gates with all of these prayers and thoughts, I know that God is smiling....I also feel that Kennedy is definately one of his "chosen children"...
I would ask of you to pray that Kennedy's days are pain free, and calm and quiet, and that when it is time for his passing that it is the most blessed and peaceful day that he and his family has ever experienced with God.
I know that many of you have read my post from the day that I started this webpage, and have realized that I am totally without words at this time....I just want to try to keep everyone close with this site and I hope that when you come and read that you feel the strength from this and also feel like you are right by Kennedy's side.....
Kennedy did well today but was not awake for a long time at all today, he did have his special girl come by "Ashley" and I hope that she had a wonderful visit with him.....
I wanted to say a very special thank you to her mom and dad for allowing their precious daughter to come and be with Kennedy in this time, and I want to say what a blessing she has become to not only Kennedy but to his mommy Rachael....
She has made me stand in awe of her compassion and childlike understnading towards Kennedy and she will stay very close to my heart always.
I hope that you all have a great weekend and a blessed Sunday, Praise the Lord, hold on, and Keep your faith!!!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Friday, October 8, 2004 7:29 PM CDT

Hello all and I hope that this finds everyone well and with many blessings as we enter into the weekend.

Just a reminder: ANYONE who would like to come up and see Kennedy is welcome, and also I am calling this a "birthday weekend" so that if any of you would liketo come up and wish Kennedy hapy birthday you may....his real birthday isn't until next Saturday the 16th, but I figured why not have one this weekend too...so please come either saturday or sunday which ever is more convenient for you.

Kennedy had a good day, he stayed awake until 2:30 but had lots of problems today keeping his meds down, I ask for pray of this since it is so important.....He also is seeing what the Hospice staff calls the small little angel that visits the patients....Kennedy calls her "Nick". the staff says that the patients including Kennedy say that she is a young child around 5 and has blonde hair with a yellow dress. This is what I feel would be an angel but Kennedy has fears about this, to me it is just a little something from God.......
Over all a good day, and Acy and Alexis are spending the night with him tonight, and are very excited about this...please say extra prayers for Kennedy's siblings since they are so fragile in this journey....

I am going to close for now, thank you all again for storming the Heavens Gates with all of your prayers for my family, we could never get through this without you all.

In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday, October 7, 2004 10:39 AM CDT

Good Morning everyone!!!!
Well I can say that my day started off with a wonderful, cheerful smile from Kennedy.....
After leaving last night I ended up coming back up to the Center hoping to be here while Kennedy had some of our local hockey team up here..(isn't he popular)
I did miss them but when I arrived he was up and talking clearer than he has all week, and he said "finally you are here, it is morning all ready??" I explained to him no and told him that I was just up here to check on him, wow now writing that I feel so heavy hearted, one of the loves of my life and the one at this time that controls my world and I am only visiting him???? Don't get me wrong folks I know my place and I understand what is expected of me, coming back and forth, taking care of Kennedy during the day and leaving to go home in the evening to be there for the other members of my family, but this is soooooo hard, and I feel such a horrible void ( I need ALOT of prayer for this)
Last night he did make the staff call me, I had just gone into sleep about 12:45 and this call scared the living day lights out of me....I was shaking from head to toe, but he just needed to hear my voice and I told him that I would be here in the morning, so when I arrived he was sitting up drinking and said "Good Morning MOMMY" Wow...i have a smile on my face that won't quit......
We read books and watched some Scooby Doo, but unfortunately he started to have a headache and had to have some extra morphine and he was alseep in no time....
Now I am on a "break" so to say...he is having school, I think this is important regardless on how he is doing!!!

NOW REMEMBER THIS!!!!!
This weekend will be the 1st birthday weekend for Kennedy, I feel lead to go ahead and have this occur......
It is a come and go type of party....whenever you all would like to come up and visit Kennedy please feel free, there will be cake, but you may come whenever the day allows, He is very excited, and so am I....JUST NO ONE FORGET!!!!!
Saturday the 9th, or Sunday the 10th, just come at will and we will greatly appreciate this!

Thank you all again for all of the thoughts and prayers, you are alal greatly loved and we also think you are why we are doing as well as we are.....

In Christ,
Rachael

PS Also many thanks to all that have offered to assist us in any fashion we thank you and appreciate this from the bottom of our hearts...

Tuesday, October 5, 2004 4:07 PM CDT

Well we made it...I just wanted to update real quick and I will add details this evening when I return home for the night.....Kennedy has tolerated the move quite well, very tired, but he has been giggling, and giving some of the nurse's that enter a hard time...he claims that they are just plain "evil" LOL feels good that he doesn't think that I am....Just remember to return today....I will be adding more

Thank you for all the prayers....
In Christ,
Rachael and Kennnedy


Wednesday Oct. 6,2004

Well I made it over night, one of another battles in my closet.....This was very hard for me to leave Kennedy at Hospice but I know that he was in remarable hands and that Acy and Alexis needed me here too.....I think that I even slept ALL night long too, what a feat...
As for KEnnedy since he was placed in Hospice on Monday he has slept most of monday and tuesday, he has woke up and gave all a hard time, but seems very glad to be there. The nurse's of course are so patient and understanding towards everything, this too will be a blesed experience for the entire family but most of all KEnnedy can have total peace. This agan is going to be a short entry, in time I will get comfortable in my skin and be able to balance coming and going once more. Please continue the prayers, and again thank you, all of you to have a great part in Kennedy's care and spirit with the prayers and thoughts that you have sent his way......We are still keeping all mail coming to our home, but if anything was to be sent to Hospice to cheet Kennedy up he is in room #9 and the address if 4909 Johnson Road, Wichita Falls, Texas, 76310

In Christ
Rachael


Oct. 6th ..afternoon
Kennnedy has hada very quiet morning to afternoon....he has slept most of the day away, and I know that this is a blessing for him, he was able to take a bath and feel so much better....Thank you for all of the prayers that we are not only recieving every minute of our day but also feeling...

In Christ
Rachael

Tuesday, October 5, 2004 4:07 PM CDT

Well we made it...I just wanted to update real quick and I will add details this evening when I return home for the night.....Kennedy has tolerated the move quite well, very tired, but he has been giggling, and giving some of the nurse's that enter a hard time...he claims that they are just plain "evil" LOL feels good that he doesn't think that I am....Just remember to return today....I will be adding more

Thank you for all the prayers....
In Christ,
Rachael and Kennnedy

Monday, October 4, 2004 6:26 AM CDT

This is the email that I sent out over the weekend to many, I decided that it was best to just sent this in the journal for all to read...Please keep us in your prayers today and throught the part of our journey.....Thank you....

Hello all:
I just wanted to send a email to all, first for thoughts and prayers for Kennedy Kimbro's family.
This last week has my thinking of alot, my entire family has had a viral thing encluding precious Kennedy who actually battled it for a little over a week. This brought me to thinking about care, and IF I fell sick again or what other things might happen to not allow me to give the complete care for a day or so, and what would happen to my Kennedy...Like I said lots of thought and what if's....

Kennedy has been on Hospice Home Care for 9 mths now, and I have made the decision to go ahead and now move him into the actual center. I truly believe that this is a good decision for everyone in our family, first for Kennedy's care and quality of life, he hasn't been able to even go outside for over three months, since we live in a upper apartment...There at Hospice they can even wheel him outside in his bed if need too.. also my 2 year old never gets to play outside and is left to play inside, closed door without the window to even be opened to allow the sunlight in since light is totally bother Kennedy and triggering headaches she would be attending daycare and have all the outside time she needs and allowed to be a "loud" child and play with other children too...so see this is something that from Kennedy first to the youngest member of our family. Then there are my older two, this care in the house unfortunaltly is taking its toll on them, eating the same living area that Kennedy is totally cared in, that has to be hard.

I will be juggling home and center, which i have so much anxity about, I do know that God will provide, and keep me strong. Which then brings things to me, I am tired, physically and emotionally, I just want to be MOMMY, I want to just care for Kenendy in the manner of reading a book, holding his hand while we watch TV, etc., now I will always, in the center, have tthe priveledge to care like I did at home, but it won't be left up to me entirely so that in these last weeks or days i may care for him in the gentle mommy way that I know best.

Today I did think to myself even though this is the "last" Saturday my Kenendy will be in his home, this decision, even his death IS NOT FINAL...How could it be he will have eternal life with CHRIST, nothing about this is final, so with that I may have not made much sense but I wanted to share this with you all, I will still access my mail through the Centers computer, so I will definately keep in touch and will frequently ( possible daily) update his precious webpage for all to read so that you amy know the thoughts that are occuringi n my head and what is actually occuring physically. Take care all and thank you for everything that you have provided to me........Talk with all soon....

By the way here at home I have given several close friends and family members a picture of Kennedy with a small candle to light as they think of him, meditate, and pray. I have ask that they light this candle for him or another if they choose, on Kenendys page there is a special site that I have found that allows anyone to go and light a virtual candle for someone. I ask if you would please go and light Kennedy one and your family or loved one a special candle through this. Even though this is totally a symbolic meaning, it truly provides in my opinion a closeness to me from all.

In Christ and Still holding on to Faith,
Rachael and Family

Friday, October 1, 2004 8:13 AM CDT

Well hello all and I hope all is well.....
This have been ruff here lately but I hope that we have come to the weekend so that we may have some Peace....
Kennedy has been ill, rather it has been the stomach virus that has been attacking people I do not know, and yes WE HAVE ALL HAD IT HERE, including ME!!!! Kennedy has not been able for around a week and a half to swallow his meds, this is scary considering he needs all of them but really needs the seizure meds to prevent seizures and then he needs this steriod, well that pill is more or less keeping him alive medically. I call these pills that are listed his "VIP'S" (Very Important Pills)he he......
He has started to do better with these pills but still it is like walking on pins and needles.
Kennedy in the last 72 hours has looked better than I have seen him in almost 2 1/2 years since he was diagnosised. We have laughed, and cut up, and he even "thought" he would go outside at the end of last week. I wheeled him out in his chair to just the top of the stairs and he just looked around like it was the very first time to see the outdoors. There have been alot of "first times" for him here lately, he looks around the house that way and sometimes and me and the kids too. It makes you stop and hold your breathe as he smiles the most innocent smile.
I will say that there are some decisions that I am going to be making here over the weekend for Kennedy, please keep me in your prayers.......I will post when these decisions are made and finialized to share with you all. I think that I may have rambled around here, I just have alot of thoughts running through my head right now.........Thank you all for all of your prayers......Have a great week all and talk to you all on Monday....

In Christ,
rachael

Tuesday, September 21, 2004 5:16 PM CDT

Hello all, well I know that this isn't monday but I can only hope that you all understand. The weekend wasn't as great as I had hoped it would be, but it did end up really good. Kennedy is asjusting well with the up in pain medicine, but now we are having trouble swallowing our pills. The nurse came out today and told me that I can crush everything but the morphine BUT we are able to take care of that with a pain patch that I will change every third day. This is a good thing but still it makes me nervous and I guess that is just because it is something new to us. Please pray that this will work out as good as the say it will, and that it will continue to relieve Kennedy also. He has come out of the pain med sleepy's (thats what I call it) and has had a funny diposition here over the last couple of days. Kennedy isn't getting stronger and the nurse's are giving me the talks of time reaching closer to Kennedy being with our Lord.
Just to say to all, I am going to have a small " Birthday party" for him really soon, and we may not call it that but it will be in honor of him. I will let you know on the date so that if any of you would like to send a card you can, I will also include our mailing address for those who need this. We are also considering having a "early Christmas" with him also nothing big just a time with him and Christ. This would be just really for him and the kids, I think that they need this too. Thank you all for your prayers and concerns, you will never know how much they have helped me and they have meant to me, again I will post these dates for all to know. We love you all!!

In Christ
Rachael

Friday, September 17, 2004 9:27 AM CDT

TODAYS TREASURE:
"Strengthening the disciples and encouraging them to remain true to the faith. We must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom of God" Acts 14:22

TODAYS VERSE:
Isaiah 40:31
" but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint"

I am sorry but today I don't have a great post, so I decided to leave these verse's with you to carry you through the weekend. Kennedy is comfortable, they have upped his pain meds, and we are watching him for about 48 hours to see if it will relieve him of headaches. Keep him in your prayers..........
This is Iowa Park's homecoming so Acy and Alexis are busy having a great time with a parade today and the big homecoming game, and then tomorrow they have the "Whoop-t-doo" for those who are wondering it is a homecoming carnival. Hope all is well on the outside and I will post on Monday. take care all and have a blessed weekend.

In Christ,
Rachael and the crew

Sunday, September 5, 2004 10:09 PM CDT

Hello all:

I thought that I would go ahead and update just in case any of you that are off where wondering how Kennedy and his family are doing.

Kennedy has had a smile on his face for many days. This last Tuesday he got to see a very special little young lady that is VERY dear to his heart.....ASHLEY!!! As many of you know this little girl is the apple of Kennedy's eyes and he adores her. She got to come after permission was granted by her parents and the school and was able to stay and visit with Kennedy for two hours. Kennedy had wanted to take her out on a date, but under the circumstances has not been able to so we made their date here at the house where he gave her roses of the prettiest pink you had ever seen, and a beautiful little cross necklace with a diamond accent. I wish that each and everyone of you could of seen the innocence of these two, the love and care in their eyes, and how much they just enjoyed each others company.We have so much to learn from children! Kennedy's nurse Anne was the coordinator of this event so hats off to her, she is such a wonderful person.
As for the other crew members they have had a great week and are looking forward to their day off as well.
Thats about all to report, Kennedy had a good week, lots of smiles and laughter, and we hope that your week closed with the same. Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts during the last 2 1/2 and counting, we could not of done this with all of your support. God Bless and have a great holiday weekend. Oh and by the way if any of you or your children would like to send any letters or cards they would be greatly appreciated, Kennedy loves mail and feels like it is way of still being apart of the "outside" world. Thanks in advance!!! :) :) :) :) :)

In Christ,
Rachael and the Crew

Monday, August 30, 2004 8:58 AM CDT

Good Morning all and I hope that everyone had a wonderful weekend.
Well to start things off I will be completely honest things have not been so great around here at all, until Sunday. Since the change in the pain medicine Morphine, we have had alot of problems. I think that we have finally gotten that all straightened out, and maybe pulling through it all and recovering somewhat.
Kennedy is bright eyed today and I thank God for that. I know that our days are numbered here with our precious Kennedy but I want to share with you all how I have my complete peace. Some may think that I am crazy to speak this way, but when you completely realize that Christ is the one whose hand is holding Kennedy you will also find the peace that I have found. I don't want you guys to think she really has it together about this, no one ever does but this is what has occured in my walk with my Lord that I would like to share.
First I want each and everyone of you to scroll back up and look at Kennedy's picture. Take a moment and either have a quiet time, or just prayer.................

Now this is where I am coming from, I LOVE KENNEDY!!! MY LORD LOVES KENNEDY more than I even do! Can you imagine that!!!!! There comes a time where all selfishness of human nature has to be put behind you completely. You have to realize do I want this precious child that God only gave me "as a loan" to continue this way. Look outside and watch some kids ride their bikes, or swim in the hot summer sun. Kennedy cannot do this now. It isn't fair, and it isn't fair for me or anyone else to become so consumed with grief and selfishness to want to make Kennedy stay. This is where love for Christ and Kennedy comes in, and the understanding on what our ultimate goal is: TO BE IN HEAVEN WITH OUR LORD!!!! Now no this isn't the way we want KEnnedy to go we want Kennedy to grow old, but to know where he will be and it will be like a snap of Gods finger to Kennedy and we will all join him! Now I will share what I told Kennedy about dying and going to Heaven to be with our Lord:( some may not agree, but I feel that something so wonderful happened during this conversation)
"First as we are born onto this earth our ultimate goal is to be saved and someday go to Heaven! Kennedy you have done this and I completely believe that you are a Christian and God choose you to be his special messenger". I also explained to Kennedy what the Bible says, of streets of gold, and a mansion on a hill. I also told Kennedy that there wasn't any sickness, no cancer, no medicins, no pain!! He smiled. We did go on but some of this is to personal to discuss on this site, but after our conversation he smiled and said "I AM GOING TO HEAVEN AND I WONT HAVE A TUMOR OR CANCER ANYMORE"!!! Now I recieved a hug and a "I LOVE YOU MOMMY". This is what I am speaking about people, I hope that Kennedy has been an inspiration to everyone to really evaluate your life, your stand as a Christian or maybe on becoming one.
Just to say I didn't write this today for people to have to agree nor to say I am right, this what has occurred and I wanted the important people in our lives to know, yes we are preparing for Kennedy to go to Heaven, but he isn't there yet and yes miracles do happen. But by far the best miracle that I have received to date is the joy of speaking about Jesus to my children, and knowing that I probably made a difference in them today.

In Christ,
Rachael and the crew

Monday, August 23, 2004 8:08 AM CDT

Hello all:

Well we made it through the first week of school and if I don't say so myself it actually went VERY smoothly!!!!
Acy is in 8th grade the top dog at the Jr. High and Alexis is the top dog at her school being in 5th. They both have had smiles on their faces every morning even though they have had to get up extremely early, let's wait till mid year and see!! :)
Kennedy also had a good week with his teacher that comes out to the house twice a week. She is such a wonderful teacher and such an inspiration to him.
As for medically I am sad to say but he had a extremely hard week. Hospice upped his pain medication which is Morphine and it was just to much, lefted him out of it and he would also go to sleep as he was trying to sleep. Wednesday I called to tell them this, I just felted that this wasn't right and they took off one of the dosage, he is doing alot better I guess his body has gotten use to it. He is still having trouble walking though. The nurse said that she hoped that this was from to much pain meds but she said that it really didn't look like it. He seems to be OK without being able to use his legs like before, can't say anything more cause Kennedy always I mean always out smarts us and goes beyond and pulls through. I pray for this to be tru again, if not just remember all that we are just taking baby steps to Heaven and he is that much closer to a cure.
Hope that this week is great for you all, Alexis's birthday is today and she is 11, going on 21!!!! If you would like to tell her a Happy Birthday just email her at the email address below. Have a great and remember we love you all and thank you for all of the prayers that you send daily to us.

In Christ,
Rachael and the Crew

Thursday, August 12, 2004 7:59 AM CDT

Hello all and how are you all doing?????? We are doing just fine this week before school starts. I believe that the kids are ready for school to start, I know that I am too. Our family enjoys the craziness when we are going and going because of school, sports, parties and studies. We are also so excited that Kennedy is really having some good days here lately. I know that you all will be please to know that!!!!

Wednesday I had a "ARD" meeting at Kennedys and Alexis's school to discuss what Kennedy will be taught here at home. We are still sticking with the videos for his studies since we had such good luck with him that way last year. Kennedy will also have the opportunity to go to the school when he is up to it for library, art, music and to hang out with his friends. His teacher will be Mrs. Becky Pedon. He keeps repeating her name to me since we go this evening to meet her and Alexis's teachers tonight. Excited yes, lots of anxity, yes that too :)

Well the only thing that I can say that has changed with Kennedy here in the last week is that he has had a GREAT BIG SMILE on his face. Our Hospice volunteer got together a meeting for Kennedy to have the Rustlers Goalie to come out and visit, they did this on Monday and he brought Kennedy and the other kiddos lots of goodies. What a nice young man he was, and the kids really did appreciate his visit too. Medicine wise on any changes I will say that Kennedy has retained a considerable amount of fluid as we all know due to the steriod that he has had to take, and we had no control over this until now. The nurse at the end of last week started Kennedy on a Lasix. He may be on the run to the bathroom constantly but to see him have some of this relief, well this is such a blessing!!!!!!!!

Kennedy is saying hi right now as I write this, he gets so excited when he knows that I am updating his site. By the way keep watching for KennedyKimbro.com hopefully soon we will have the front page up.

Thank you all for such wonderful support and all of your prayers. Also on a quick note, please keep a precious young man in all of your prayers. Steven Swanner a kid also from Iowa Park was diagnosed with Lukemia at the first of the summer (I think) He is being treated at OK City, and he currently undergoing his 2nd round of chemo. Please keep this young man and his family in your prayers also.


"Lord I pray for these children that are suffering such devasting disease's at such young and precious ages. Rap your strong and loving and caring arms around them. Help us to not question why, but to reach out to you Dear Lord and know that you are in control of their lives and that we must find the good in all of this and hold our heads up high to you Lord that you will quide our ways. Help us as parents to find the strength and courage everyday to raise our children through you Lord." Amen

In Christ,
Rachael

Friday, August 6, 2004 8:16 AM CDT

Hello.....Hello.......Hello!!!!!

Yeah I know many of you have been thinking "Why hasn't she updated, what is going on, is everything OK"!!!!!!

First,yes things have been slightly ruff. Nothing significant, but Kennedy hasn't felt totally well.
Kennedy has felt soooooo tired here lately, and moody man o man. He has though the last two days pulled out of this and his temperment is alot better. He is smiles this wonderful Friday, and has been wide awake since early this morning.

I can't believe that school is just around the corner!!!!
All three of the kiddos are looking forward to school, what is wrong??!!! :) :) :) :)
Acy will be in 8th grade at the Junior High with Alexis in 5th. Kennedy will be homeschooled again, which he is glad that he can stay in his pj's, hehehe, but he can go to the school for activites, music, art, and library. I pray that the kids are blessed again this year with great teachers, we have been so lucky.

Nothing really out of the ordinary to tell, just that summer is coming to an end. Acy has been working with a great young guy named Shawn who Acy was introduced to at the church camp in OK at Falls Creek. This young man is such a great example, he has a mowing service and so far Acy seems to be his right hand man. Acy is excited to get up early and conquer the day mowing. Well thats about it, hope that this finds you all well and heathly. Keep praying, and holding on to the Faith!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Sunday, July 11, 2004 2:23 PM CDT

Hello to all of you beautiful people. I hope that your 4th was a wonderful day and you all made very happy memories. We did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mom and Kennedy decided that they only wanted to watch the fire works, and they were able to do this sitting right outside of my mom and dads (aka. mimi and pepaws) home on the sidewalk. You could see them from all around out there, the Catlins that live right down the road where firing them up just like the big shows and then you could see the ones that individuals where firing up at the lake. They said they had a very relaxing and enjoyable time with each other.

NOW..............................................!!!!! Philip and I took Acy, Alexis and little Claire out to the boone docks to fire ones that I had bought. That was alot of fun, we would light them up and run like they where chasing us, WAIT some were chasing us!!!! LOL LOL LOL That was fun and the coolest thing was we could turn a complete circle out where we were and see gorgeous fireworks lighting up the sky, it actually took my breathe away. The food, the fun, and the kids where just awesome, I thank the good Lord for such a wonderful memory.

Well, I would just like to let you know the Iowa Park All Stars are first: undefeated district champs AND second: they are advancing to Fort Worth Texas!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO! They will be playing in a round-robin type tournement. Please pray for there safe arrival to and from, and of course while they are there. It will be such an experience for Acy and I sure do hope they do well.

Well that is all for now, the week was surprisingly good and quiet, I guess we are due???!!! Just thanking God for the peace!!!! Please keep praying and holding on to the Faith!!!

Love you all
In Christ,
Rachael

Sunday, July 11, 2004 2:23 PM CDT

Hello to all of you beautiful people. I hope that your 4th was a wonderful day and you all made very happy memories. We did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mom and Kennedy decided that they only wanted to watch the fire works, and they were able to do this sitting right outside of my mom and dads (aka. mimi and pepaws) home on the sidewalk. You could see them from all around out there, the Catlins that live right down the road where firing them up just like the big shows and then you could see the ones that individuals where firing up at the lake. They said they had a very relaxing and enjoyable time with each other.

NOW..............................................!!!!! Philip and I took Acy, Alexis and little Claire out to the boone docks to fire ones that I had bought. That was alot of fun, we would light them up and run like they where chasing us, WAIT some were chasing us!!!! LOL LOL LOL That was fun and the coolest thing was we could turn a complete circle out where we were and see gorgeous fireworks lighting up the sky, it actually took my breathe away. The food, the fun, and the kids where just awesome, I thank the good Lord for such a wonderful memory.

Well, I would just like to let you know the Iowa Park All Stars are first: undefeated district champs AND second: they are advancing to Fort Worth Texas!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO! They will be playing in a round-robin type tournement. Please pray for there safe arrival to and from, and of course while they are there. It will be such an experience for Acy and I sure do hope they do well.

Well that is all for now, the week was surprisingly good and quiet, I guess we are due???!!! Just thanking God for the peace!!!! Please keep praying and holding on to the Faith!!!

Love you all
In Christ,
Rachael

Saturday, July 3, 2004 10:24 AM CDT

Hello all and a VERY HAPPY 4th of JULY TO YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!

Well it is Satuday and we had what I call A WONDERFUL WEKK!

Kennedy was feeling just wonderful this week. He had the most energy that I have seen him have in a very long time. And the wonderful "smartie pants" attitude that is so whitty came out also.

Friday I feel was the best day of this entire week. We waited for Kennedy's nurse to come and she was pleased on how he was doing and it was a short visit. I had promised the kiddos that we would go out to eat and then go and run some errans. We ended up eating at a small deli here in IP call Kathy's Deli and Bakery. The food is fabulous, and it is so cute in there, and the bakery part is to die for!!! Let me tell you; Kennedy, Alexis, and Claire ate like they haddn't ate in a week. Alexis had a small potato and Kennedy had a large one. NOW, let me explain too you the difference between Kathy's small and large, the small is a large and the large well it is two large potato's put together!!! Kennedy ate every bit of that two-in-one potato, I mean all of it :) :)
Then we had to have some desert, mmmmmmmm good!!! Thank you Kathy it was a great lunch we laughed and laughed and laughed some more!!!! Loved it!!!!

Acy is expected back from camp today. In my last post I had said that he had gone with our church to Falls Creek in OK to a wonderful place for camp. It is right outside of Davis, OK. He did finally call me Thursday evening to check in?! He was having a great time and was so proud of himself. He said that he had bought himself a bible that was so cool and had, if I heard him correctly, a metal type cover??!!! He was proud and so was I, that the money that he spent on himself was for a bible. God is so good!!!! I have prayed so hard this week for Acy, I hope that this experience at camp brought him so much closer to our Lord and that he feels he does have a rock to hold on too during all of this craziness that is occuring in his teen life right now.

Well there was no soccer game this friday night, so no updates on that, but we did have a very blessed friday!!

I hope that this entry finds you all in great health, with blessings ALL around you. Hope you all have a great 4th and be safe and hope that you have also a blessed Sunday too. Isn't great that we have such a Huge celebration on a wonderful day like Sunday, fire off some crackers for our LORD!!!!!!

In Christ,
Rachael and the Crew

Tuesday, June 29, 2004 11:45 AM CDT

Hello to all on this beautiful Tuesday morning! I hope that this finds you all good and ready for a wonderful holiday weekend.

Well not much has happened since my last post. All is well here on the home front. Kids of course are busy as bee's or should I say keeping mommy busy as a bee. :)

Well I guess I will start off with Acy. He lefted on Monday to go to church camp. Whew getting ready was fun but exhausting. I probably over-packed but I am a woman and we always do that and think that we are gonna regret it but are soooo glad when we get about midweek and realize we are going to use everything we brought so I guess Acy will see that too! Acy went to Falls Creek which is I believe right around Davis OK in the Arbunckle Mountains. I have never personally gone but have heard of WONDERFUL stories. What a wonderful place for children or should I say teens to spend time with God! He will return home on Saturday, if I can ask for you all to pray for Acy and his spirituality, I hope that he really gets close to Christ with this trip and gets "one-on-one" with God and allows God to guide him.

Now for Alexis she is such a wonderful little lady. She makes such a wonderful hand here at the home front! I just am so proud of her giving and helpful heart. She is the best, with helping, Claire and even caring a little for Kennedy. What a wonderful child! :)

Kennedy has had some really great days, and I thank the good Lord above for everyone of them. Yesterday Gina who is Philip's sister came over to swim but we had forgotten that it wasn't going to open, so we decided to go to the Plex! FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN can I say FUN again!!!!!!!!
Kennedy really only wanted to stay inside but we talked him into going out the bumper cars, he didn't want to ride them so I did!! OK you all can quit laughing now!!! Man they shook me to death!! I am glad that Kennedy didn't ride them!! He did however rack up 222 tickets. He didn't want to spend them just yet but then he decided to, and spent them all. He gave Claire his sister and Colby their cousin both a troll doll, Alexis he gave play money too, Gina he gave a gorgeous plastic blue ring with red stone in it, and me well he gave mom those cool rings that are stretchy. He didn't even keep anything for himself:( he is such a giving child, I am so proud to have him!!!!

Well I guess I will close for now. Wow I wrote alot and really I didn't even have alot to say, imagine that one! :) I will update again so look for new stuff on Saturday!! We love you guys and "keep holding on to the Faith"!!!!!


In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday, June 24, 2004 2:31 PM CDT

hello all:

Just wanted to let you all know that things have gotten alot calmer than the last couple of weeks have been. Kennedy is doing good with quite a bit of energy. We have been being able to go to the swimming pool, outings to the grocery store together and just spending some good quality time as a family, which was greatly needed.

Please continue praying for our family. Please continue praying for our Kennedy too. He always has good days and bad days, we hope that he has the good days that out weigh the bad.

Also real quick before I close, we are going to have opportunity to move into a bottom apartment. We are calling a "family meeting" tonight so that I may give our answer to the landlord tomorrow. I think that we all will be on the same page, and we will all agree that this a convinence move for especially Kennedy. Even though I want all of the families input the decision in my heart and mind has already been made. It will be a HUGE job to move but since the summer is out I believe that we can do this.

I hope again that this finds all of you receiving blessings and that you all are in good health. For those that I have promised pictures too, it will be a July thing. Sorry that it has taken so long, just have to make that one a July priority. I love all of you guys and again thanks for all of your support and prayers. Together God will hear our plea for "OUR KENNEDY" whatever his plans are for him we can make it and accept it. :)

In Christ,
Rachael

Monday, June 21, 2004 10:57 AM CDT

Hello all:

Kennedy has been feeling so good that we have been having so much fun I haven't had the time to update! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This last week has been a good one for Kennedy. He has wanted to go and swim and then go grocery shopping with me and Acy. He had some money in his pocket to burn so he spent that all up on a cool Pokemon gameboy advance game (imagine that:))

On Friday Kennedy and Alexis had a indoor soccer game. Even though they lost again, they both played GREAT!!! Kennedy got out there too. Thank you for all of your prayers, his legs have been really holding up for him. He got out on the court twice and on the last time around he tried to kick the ball. I guess that it was a reaction type thing cause after he tried it kindof scared him and he asked to sit down! He was soooooo very proud of himself, and so are all of us too. I think it takes alot of courage on his part to get out there and try like he does. Three cheers for Kennedy!!! Alexis also did wonderful. She played goalie and was only her second time to do this, and really after a while of playing she got the hang of this. Being challenged has given us great rewards!!!!!!

The weekend was a great to. Had alot of fun on Saturday and then the kids went to see their dad on Father's day.

Oh and if I may brag on the teen of the house, HE MADE THE ALL-STARS!!!! Raise you hands up for this!!! He has really become quite a baseball player, I know... I know.... he gets that honest:)

I hope all is well in your worlds. We are still hanging on to Faith and holding on to that miracle!! God loves us all and provides what he intends on our lives to become. It is up to us to hear Him and believe in Him whatever His will may be.

God Bless you all and be safe!

In Christ
Rachael

Saturday, June 12, 2004 7:57 AM CDT

Good Morning All!!

Well I just tried to update, and of course it wouldn't me the way I wanted to and everything that I had writtend was lost. I guess I lessoned learned.

Kennedys a really good week. He desires to go out of the house so much, but since last week when his legs were failing him he is a little scared. I ask you to pray for him to receive the courage he needs to go outside rather it is just for 5 minutes. He wanted to go on Wednesday to have his visit with his dad but fear got the best of him. Also on Friday he wanted to and play his soccer fame but again fear got the best of him. He can move freely around the house and has confidence about that but when it comes to being away from that comfort, he is so scared so if you would just please pray for him in that area also.

Well I just wanted to take a moment to BRAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Acy completed his baseball games this week, and man o man did he finish well. The entire season he shined ( and I don't think that I am being partial) he really made his statement this year!! He played first base as well as pitched and God has truly given this child a gift. I am so proud of him. Alexis has also been shining the last two weekends. She is playing indoor soccer. As we all no Alexis is a prissy at times but she can really nail that ball. This has given her the confidence to do some sports and makes her smile. Oh and I cannot forget our "texas tornado". She is definatly living up to that nickname. Kennedy calls her "weezle" and Acy and Alexis call her "Taz" from the Looney Tunes show. Claire does keep us all on the go and on our toes but I know that she loves these kids so much and they love her. All of the kids are so very close at this time and it just bless's my heart to know and see this.

Well I will close for now, and I hope that this finds all of you well, and I hope that you all have a blessed weekend. I do hope that you guys are blessed in some fashion too, this weekend. Just remember " It may be a friday, but Sunday is coming"

In Christ,
Rachael

P.S. Just to fill you all in on the last sentence of this post. I attended a sermon at my church a year or two ago and the preacher closed by saying that. It means that we may have really had a bad hour, day, week, or month, but God is coming soon. What a wonderful thought. HE IS COMING FOR US!!!!!! I wish he would hurry!! HE HE!!!!
God bless you all and talk with you all really soon :)

Thursday, June 10, 2004 3:17 PM CDT

Hello all I am making the time to update today:)

The last couple of days especially from the end of last week till Monday Have weighed heavy on my heart. Kennedy did have a ruff couple of days through this time but is resting well now and pain is under control. He is up early in the morning and sometimes just likes to stay up late at night. The funny dry personality that we all have grown to love, thats also back!! I praise the Lord above for every day and every minute that I get to spend with my precious Kennedy. It also has been brought to my attention too, that many of you especially you that are from out-of town have been led to believe that Kennendy is in his last days.

REMEMBER: God is the only one who knows this and has control of this.

Unfortunately Kennedy is having to suffer a terminal brain tumor, he has his bad days, and he has good days, this is what is to be expected. Please when many of you have concerns are questions please feel free to email me personally. I want to help each and everyone of you find the peace that God has allowed me, Kennedys Mother, to have.

I will post more later this week!

In Christ,
Rachael

Wednesday, June 2, 2004 11:39 PM CDT

Ok I thought it would be a good time to take a chance to up date you all on Kennedy. Since Sunday evening we have had quite a roller-coaster ride!! Sunday started off slowly, Kennedy was wanting to go to Sunday School but because of some issues we just didn't make it. He felt on the up and up that morning so I felt OK about allowing him to go and spend some time with his dads family. WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was the first time since January that I had decided to "allow" myself to be away from home to do something "just for myself"?! So around 1 that Sunday Philip and I went to eat at On the Border, then we ran some errans and we came home around 3:30. I had told the Kimbros that I would be away from the house just for a short time but would definately be home before 4 when they were to return the kiddos. When I arrived at home I had close to 7 messages from them. Come to find out Kennedy wasn't doing so hot. When i did finally get them to bring him home, the Hospice nurse that had been called out earlier that day arrived also to check on Kennedy again. Believe me folks KT did not look so hot at all. His breathing was awful, coloring was bad, just was in so much pain, he had become almost completely withdrawn. This is a hard scare, even to the Hospice nurse. She did reassure me though that his vitals were OK and that time would only tell. What "time will only tell" what the heck does she mean by that one. She just didn't know if he would pull out of this one. We did go and stay at the Hospice center that night and what a wonderful environment that was, Kennedy and I soon became at ease and settled down for the night, well lets just say he was so full of anxity that he didn't go to sleep till around 5 am. Whew glad to be home after that one.
They changed some meds for him, which included decreasing the steriod that he uses to find some relief for breathing and all of the weight that he has gained, and the swollen look to hopfully calm down a bit.

Ok now here came Tuesday. Another blow with emotions. Kennedy tried really hard to enjoy VBS but had one heck of a headache that just wan't gonna go away without more help from the dreaded Morphine, o and by the way he is now on Morphine four times a day with a liquid morphine to help in-between. Dang I wish that there was something else that would help!!! Later on during Tuesday all Kennedy wanted to do was sleep, didn't want to eat, and again was in so much pain, the nurse once again said that she was completely concerned and worried again. OK people I can't take much more emotions on this roller coaster that I am riding on. She did say that she felt that the pain of headaches and body aches was extremely intense again and that he would have to stay on the morphine but we could help his stomache with finagrine?(not sure if I spelled that one right)
Ok that would bring us to my emotional breakdown, crying didn't even know that I had anymore of those things called tears, they just wouldn't stop. So mom was praying, so was dad, and I got on my knees and said Lord please don't allow Kennedy to be in this much pain, let something start to help and work, would you believe by 10:30 Tuesday night I was looking at a different child. DIdn't want to sleep, was scarfing pizza that was bought earlier and was so thankful to God that he was feeling much better.

Ok so this was all a BIG HUGE VENT to you all,THANK YOU!!! Kennedy is doing alot better now, but I beleive again we have entered yet another level in out journey. Please pray and pray like you mean it folks. I also want to send out a special request of prayer for my mom and dad. Enough said there, just please pray for some peace for them too.

Everyday is more of a gift from God than any of us really know. Take time to tell everyone that you love that you are there for them and that you love them. Make every one of those days count.

In Christ
Rachael

Tuesday, May 25, 2004 12:26 AM CDT

Hello all!!

I again hope that this finds all of you well and ready for a HOT HOT HOT summer!!!!

Man o man was it hot over the weekend!

Friday Kennedy and Alexis (his 10 yr old sister) had their Track and Field day and guess what we found out that BOTH of their homeroom classes won FIRST PLACE OVER ALL FOR THE DAY!!!! Applauds to them and their classmates. Kennedy was kindof upset cause he said "well i didn't do anything for them " well I just told him that o yes you did, more than you will ever know. You were there to root them on. I think or maybe it just seemed like a 100 orange shirted 3 rd grades hoovering around Kennedy saying hello, we miss you, how are you, and man i am glad to see you. I know that this blessed little Kennedy's heart and it did mine too. O and by the way thanks to the wind and the sun, we got sunburned. We are better thank you:)

Now over the weekend cause of being out, Kennedy wasn't feeling, I MEAN not feeling good AT ALL!! it just broke my heart. He didn't feel the need to play, or really even watch any TV. Now sounds of Pokemon, Scooby Doo not anything, so I knew that he wasn't up to par. THEN on Sunday he LOVES to go to Church, he did go to Sunday School but when I arrived at "big church" he wanted to go home. BLess his heart he was tired. Then around 1 pm me and my mom took the kids to see the movie Sherik 2, Kennedy didn't even enjoy that. OK this is were I was really getting worried, cartoons the love of this little boy and he isn't even wanting to be there or even laughing, God pleeeeeeeeese!!!! So when we got home from that Kennedy slept, and slept, and slept.

Well PTL he is up and at it on Monday , and boy does ANY ONE WANT A PLAY DATE WITH KENNEDY TODAY!!!!! O man is he full of it. He kidded around with Hospice nurse Janette I mean really gave her a hard time (ex. How much do you weigh??) You just don't ask a lady that but leave it to KT too ask and of course she answered!! We love her as the same I believe she loves us. Well it is time to feed the child before he blows away!! HA HA HA!!!! He says he is starving, just faminished. OK so I will talk to you all later on this week.

Hope you all have a great week and again I hope that you all are truly blessed!!!!!!!!!!!! Take care and YEA!!!! SCHOOLS OUT THURDAY!!!!!!!!! ANYONE NEED TWO MORE KIDS???????????
LOL LOL LOL JUST KIDDING!!! I LOVE EM!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday, May 20, 2004 12:36 AM CDT

Hello all.

Just wanted to let you all know thank you for all of the prayers, cards, and thoughts that all of you have expressed here recently.

Just as an up date, Kennedy is doing ok but has had some problems with his breathing lately. It is taking a liquid form of morphine to assit, with the help at times of oxygen. This saddens me, maybe I just read to much on the internet, but here the last two weeks I feel the weight of this disease on my heart. I have just had a VERY heavy heart here lately. Maybe this is just how I am dealing with this but God only knows, I just turn off the feelings and go on with it, paint that smile on my face and keep on keeping on!

If you all would please keep Kennedy in yours prayers like I know you all do. Next to his breathing he is very tired here lately and sleeps alot throughout the day.

Also pray that this friday will be rewarding for Kennedy too. They are having the Track and Field day at the high school field for all of the Bradford students and I would like to see Kennedy to take part in this. He says he does want to, but since the breathing and tired, restless behavior has been coming and going I just don't know.

On a lighter note: Kennedy and Alexis will be starting up the indoor soccer this June, they are both extremely excited and pumped up. It just bless's my heart! They make a good team! :)

And just one more prayer request, if it can happen, the apartment that is below me is vacant. I have asked to see if we can move into it. It would be a blessing to be able to do this for many, many reasons. When the weather gets bad, Acy can chill (cause we are on a bottom floor), if Kennedy is having "one of those days" he won't have to worry about going up and down stairs, he can just walk out and play. I will let you all know as soon as I know!!!! :) OK so I received the answer about this and she had just rented it to a family this morning, not quick enough I guess, she will be letting me know though when another comes available. BUMMER!!!!! Kennedy is sad and so am I, God is in control so just gotta take this one and hope for another to come available if this is meant to be!!!!

Once again thanks for everything that you have provided spiritually, and emotionally for my and my family. I love all!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Saturday, May 8, 2004 1:35 PM CDT

Hello All:

Well we all did it!! I believe that the 1st annual "Relay For Life" was a super fantastic success. I want to thank everyone who attended and all you that headed it up!! WE ROCKED IP in so many ways Friday night. This was the first time that I have actually enjoyed myself in this way in two years. I cried, laughed, smiled, and YES I even danced!!! This was such a wonderful memory for me and I thank Iowa Park for this and the American Cancer Society also.

As for Kennedy yes he even danced the night away!!! He was apprehensive on even going to this event but with a little encouragment he attended and had a BLAST OF A NIGHT!!! HE told me that it was the most fun he had, had in a while. He smiled and ate and danced and enjoyed the attention that he received from everyone. Thank you for this memory again to all.

Here is the peom that I entended to read at the closing ceremony that Kennedy and I could not attend, we apologize for this since we had originally decided to be there, but Kennedy was so exhausted he had to sleep till noon and didn't want me to leave his side. Again here is the poem that I wanted to share with you all:

A Mother's Fight For Her Child
written by: Rachael Kimbro
In Honor of Kennedy Tyler Kimbro
My little Warrior and Hero

There is something that I must share
Things in life that I am aware
They can break your heart forever more
It is CANCER walking through your childs door

It comes in silence just like a ghost
It turns into a your precious child's host
The child that you have loved for so long
Is hearing now a different song

It is one that's not a nursery rhyme
Nor one that goes away within time
The parents that have gone through this
Will beg of you to share just this
To make sure that each and every word is heard
To help your little child's voice be heard

They would say, please take the time to say you care
We have to find a cure!
Before these horrible monstor's come
These childhood diseases can strke the young
They do not have a preference of gender or of age

It comes and takes control of precious children like mine
so innocent and young
So please speak out to all of those
with power in their hands
Our children need us more than ever
To make some clear demands

But always please remember, that God is in Command
He takes a very horrible disease
and makes us understand
That He is the one that is in control
To help us make OUR STAND!!!!!

Ok I am not the best at writing, but I awoke a couple of nights before the Relay for Life and just wrote this down.
I know that this was written from my heart.

Thank you all!!!
In Christ,
Rachael

Tuesday, April 27, 2004 11:04 AM CDT

Hello all and once again I apologize for not being more up-to-date with this webpage. :)


Well let me see....
For starters we have really had two good weeks. Not alot of drama at all, and if you know our family personally you will know, that is a blessing all in its own! :)

I guess I will just start with this last weekend and week so far. On Friday we had the opportunity, weather even swirling around us, to go and see the "Teachers on the roof" campaign for the Relay for Life. Just a little background on that: The third grade teachers of Bradford Elem. challeged their 3rd graders to raise money for this event, and for every $100 they raise these 3rd grade teachers would stay on the roof for one hour. Well those wonderful, determined 3rd graders raise $1400, so our beloved 3rd grade teachers had to abide by their challege and stay on the roof for 14 hours. Due to the rain and funky weather that we had in this county they had to move the rest of their time to the porch and then to the entry of the school when the weather picked up. Praise the Lord for these teachers and their students. I want to let them know that we have acknowedge this when they read this, and tell them from Kennedy and me a great BIG THANK YOU!!!! You guys ARE the bomb!!!!

Now to "us". We had a party for Kennedy's youngest sister and cousin at Lucy park on Saturday. Started to rain a little and was quite cool, so Kennedy really didn't have the fun I had hoped for, but at least his attitude was great(as usual).
He had some headaches also on Saturday but I as able to treat him for these with only T3's and that is a good thing, could of just been the weather changing and not that stupid tumor. We will never know though?... Then on Sunday he just wasn't up to par, and I was afraid that he might be coming down with some virus that the older kids were telling me about, but he hasn't and that he, I guess was just tired from Saturday. He played a little out side, but that also got to him and then he had to take morphine to calm his breathing down. So then of course that made him want to sleep. Today he is doing well, but extremely sleeping. So to sum it up we really haven't had any big, events happening at this time, just going day by day, and praising God for these days.

ALso realy quick if I could ask for a prayer for our financial situation. Please not asking but knowing but PRAYER! Things are promising on a few things, not anything definate yet though, BUT the answer only lies with God and we ALL know that HE is in contol of this road we are having to go down. One thing that I hope for is that through a local Home Health Care Agency in WF, they have several different programs, one I hope that the state of Texas approves for this family is for me to become employed with them and them actually pay me earnings for being a caregiver for Kennedy! That would mean that I would still have work history through all of this, money coming in, and Kennedy still getting to have his mommy at home and being there for the other children. Sounds to good to be true, YES that is exactly what I think, hey but I couldn't loose anything by trying!!!! Thank you all. Hope this finds you all in good health, happy, and many blessings occuring in your daily walk with God. Hugs to you all!

In Christ,
Rachael

Monday, April 19, 2004 8:00 AM CDT

Hello all sorry that it has been over a week since I have wrote but life got a little crazy....imagine that!!!!!!

Lets see, we had a great week and I believe that Kennedy looked his best this week. He has had so much fun playing outside since the weather has been so nice. We have two kids here right across the way that are so sweet and they love to play with all of the kids. Kennedy likes to go with Acy, and Kelly(who is the male friend) and play out in the brush that is really close to our house. He usually comes in more than once and I guess he thinks that he has to "check in" with me, cause he tells me his every move. He is such a good boy!!!!!! :)

We had good reports from his Hospice nurse this week and his weight is standing steady. He has had a little trouble getting up from a laying or sitting position here lately, but still manages to have a smile on his face when he finally achieves getting to a standing position.

ALso, I would like to ask each and everyone of you who come and visit if you would say a special prayer for Kennedy, he has been asking me if he can have a MRI....I have asked him why, just cause there must be a reason, and he has answered by saying "Mom I just want to know what is going on up there", I hope that it will be OKed, sometimes, once you get on Hospice they don't ok something like this, so if you all would just pray that the Lords will be done in this.

NEW NEW NEW NEW!!!! Please also notice that there is a link at the bottom of Kennedy's page. If you regularly come and visit, in the guest book there are a few entries from the "Smile quilt" crew. They are such wonderful, loving people, who we don't even know. They are the people who have taken the time to make his quilt. If you click on this link it will take you to Kennedy's Quilt. If you have volume please turn it up cause there is a catching little tune playing while you scroll and read!! Also it states that you can add to the quilt, I am not sure how you do this but I am sure that there are steps to complete a square. Feel free to do so, Kennedy would LOVE IT!!!!

We hope that this finds everyone in good health and strong in faith. School's almost out and summer in just around the corner!! Praise The Lord!!! Just remember we CAN do ALL things through CHRIST who Strengthens Us!!!!

In Christ,
Rachael

Monday, April 12, 2004 2:12 PM CDT

WHEW WHAT A WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello all and we hope that you all had a blessed Easter!!
We sure did, it was a wonderful weekend Holiday!
We started off getting to go to Vernon to Philip's families Easter gathering and that was truly a blessing. Everyone had soooo much fun. We had a great day with cooking out, and hunting over 150 easter eggs. It was only Alexis, Claire Kennedy's sisters and then of course there was Kennedy and then Claire's cousin Colby. It was so much fun watching them as than ran around trying to be the one who found all the eggs.

Then Easter Sunday we went to church. All of us went and for the people who don't know us "THIS IS A GREAT BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT" I was so proud to have my entire family at church, encluding my sister Amanda and her boyfriend Jeff. We had a singing fellowship that was our service and it was very uplifting! After church we all gathered at my mom and dads and ate like we had not ate in days. After lunch and clean up we went egg hunting which was fun. Then we got to sit and just visit and that is something that just doesn't happen in our family as much as we would like.

Overall it was one of the best Easters we have had a years, and was a great blessing to me and I know to all of my family. Kennedy felt the best that he has in the last two years. He ran around both days and gathers eggs, I mean a ton of them!!! And just laughed and played like he didn't have any cancer at all. This was a joy to me and I will never forget this weekend ever!

Also Kennedy normally goes to bed at 9 or sooner, HE STAYED UP TILL AFTER 11!!!!! He played outside for 2 hours, and still wanted to play more! I just can't express the thanks for all the prayers that we recieve daily and thank you to all who do pray continuously, you gave me a wonderful memory, because of you I am so greatful!

In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday, April 8, 2004 9:51 AM CDT

Well I hope that this finds everyone well and ready for a beautiful Easter Holiday! We have had a pretty good week. The nurse came on Monday and said that Kennedy was doing pretty goo, except for some bleeding in his bowels. She explained to me that this is either from extreme stress ( ulcer ) or steriod induced gas...something you know those long medical terms, but I think that we are on track to help him a little.To try to find comfort for Kennedy he is starting to take a form of Maylox.

Tuesday of course was Kennedy sisters birthday. We had a small party to come out to our house and celebrite it with us. Mimi, my mom, came and Gina and Colbly. All the kids were so happy to get to give individual presents to Claire and she enjoyed getting them. We have pictures of each of them giving a gift to her and she would hug and kiss them. It was alot of fun.

Wednessday Kennedy woke up in the best mood I have seen him have in a really long time. He was joking with me and when his Hospice volunteer and social worker came he joked with them and just laughed out load and smiled. PTL it was a great morning. He also went with Marsha his volunteer out to lunch and to BOTH the Wal-marts. He loves to go with her. It is for me to get a "break" but I think the break is really for Kennedy. When they were going out the door he said " Mom see you later, I have a lunch date"! I just laughed and he literally ran out the door. When he came back he was especially tired, so he napped a while and then he had his hour with his dads side of the family, that when smoothly thank goodness.

This week Kennedy has looked especially good, and I hope that he feels as good as he looks to have a great Easter weekend. We keep our spirits high and our hearts full of peace, joy and happiness and we hope that you all do to.

See you all Saturday!! Take care, and bless you all :)

In Christ,
Rachael

Monday, April 5, 2004 0:00 AM CDT

Well a close to a really good weekend. We had fun at the library on Friday, then a GREAT time shopping for bargins at the City-wide Garage sale. Thank you to all who came up to Kennedy and said Hello, he really did enjoy the attention.

On Sunday we had a soccer party, the teams name was the Storm, we had a really good season. David Fields was Kennedy and Alexis's coach. He is so good to Kennedy. Kennedy made a goal at the very last game, and I will never forget the look on his face!!! TOTAL SMILE FROM EAR TO EAR!!! He told me after the last game, I did it mommy, I really made a goal!!! Boy that made me cry!!! But getting back to the party, he had a really fun time. The kids on the team ate LOTS of pizza, and laugh and cut up and Kennedy was right in the middle of them the whole time. It was lots of fun!!!!

As the evening went on though, Kennedy started feeling really bad. Please pray for him!!! Twice today he fell asleep for a little while and when he woke up he had no idea where he was. He also has suffered with two VERY intense headaches that I had to treat with Morphine and that of course made his little belly hurt. :( To be real honest with you guys, this part of my day really got to me, but he is sleeping peacefully now so I have been able to reflect and know that he had a great day dispite the bad ending.

Well I hope that this entry, which is short, finds you all well and that you all had a blessed weekend. Just think next weekend is Easter, happy hunting for eggs you guys, but remember the reason why we have Easter, "HE HAS RISEN" !!!!!!
Praise the Lord above for that one!!!

I hope that each day this week is blessed with something really special for you all, and that you may bless all you come in contact with.

In Christ,
Rachael

Saturday, April 3, 2004 11:20 AM CST

WOW WHAT A GREAT SATURDAY WE HAVE HAD!!!!!!! Hello all, you all would be pleased. We had a city wide garage sale in our town of Iowa Park,and we found some bargins! Kennedy, Alexis(sister), and myself got up early and went to alot of these sales. Kennedy had a ball, going from house to house, finding his bargins! Thank you to Mrs. Byrnes for the smile that she put on Kennedy's face by giving him his new friend "Jack". Now Kennedy says we are going to have to get some clothes for Jack. Any ideas to were we can go to find a boy cabbage patch kids clothing, please do tell :)!!

We saw many friends and got to visit with many new friends.
By the way, yesterday when we got to go to the library it just blessed my heart to see Kennedy there. He diligently found himself a book and a movie and had so much fun watching and reading them both yesterday.

We made such a great memory today by getting out at the "crack of dawn" to look through others used goods, we found some treasure's to bring home, but most of all the treasure that I received today was one of the best that I could of received by watching Kennedy run from house to house grabing the bargins that he found and the joy to see him feel so good. Thank you Lord Jesus!

In Christ,
Rachael

Friday, April 2, 2004 8:04 AM CST

Well I cannot believe in one day how many people came to read about Kennedy, and precious words were left for him to read. You guys are wonderful and you really put a smile on our "warriors" face. He said " This is for me?!" I said YES Kennedy it is all for you, we love you so much and want you to be reminded how many people love, care, and are praying for you everyday.

I truly believe that the more people who pray, the louder we are, the stronger we are, the power of Christ will shine through.

We are off to the library today. Kennedy is SO excited!
He had a GREAT day yesterday and he is thriving today also.
Day by day, hour by hour, that is our moto!

I am sure that I will be back this evening to let you all know how his adventure went today.

Everyone take care and you are all in our thoughts and prayers.

In Christ,
Rachael

Thursday April 1, 2004 CST 8:06

Hello all and I hope that this finds you well. Just a little background of Kennedy since this is my first "official" entry. For starters, Kennedy has a terminal Brain Tumor (GBM). Unfortunatly this is a highly aggressive tumor that is made up of multi-cells that are extremely hard to control. Not many treatments at this time are effective, but some can help prolong lives.


Now Kennedy's journey begins: Kennedy has always been a high strung, very aggressive,full of life, strong-willed little boy from birth. The day that he was born he came into this world with a BANG!!! I wasn't ready on October 16th of 1994, but our little Kennedy was. Mimi (who is my mother) drove a 100, weaving in and out of traffic to get me to the hospital to have Kennedy. We arrived at 4:22 and Kennedy Tyler Kimbro was born at 4:33, now he hasn't stopped racing with life until March 22nd of 2002. Kennedy had many headaches but of course without any knowledge of a "brain tumor" at that time I couldn't understand WHY he would have these outburst at night, waking him from, what I thought a very peaceful sleep. The day of March 22nd Kennedy was very ill but I had to work, so I had his grandma take care of him. By 4pm that day she arrived with him, Kennedy's color was very grey and he was very lathargic. We went to a local "speedy" clinic, they ran some test and told us that they would be in contact with us as soon and they knew somthing.Later on that day my boyfriend Philip sister, Gina, called to check on Kennedy and told her of one of the test that they had ran for his eyes and that it concerned me but didn't think anything of it. She said I will be right over, I kindof chuckled, and said well ok then. After her checking his eyes, she started her car and bundled Kennedy up and said "take Kennedy NOW to the ER, something isn't right" so I did. Around 11:15 that night, after a cat scan and some blood work, the doctor came in and told us that Kennedy had some type of tumor and it was VERY large and that they were arranging for us to be careflighted to Cooks Children's Medical Hospital in Ft. Worth Texas.


I can recall today looking at that doctor, and saying "what did you say, there MUST be a mistake"!! No there was no mistake Kennedy had a brain tumor, and I had no idea what a "Warrior and Hero" that my son would become in so many lives, including myself, on this day.


The following Monday Kennedy underwent a 3 1/2 hour surgery to resect as much of the tumor that the surgeon could. After this the Surgeon, Dr. Donahue came out to tell me that Kennedy indeed had a brain tumor the size of a lemon, and that it was called Glioblastoma Multiforme, and that this tumor was "highly cancerous" and that he had been able to resect 95f it, but it was going to be a fight cause this tumor is hard to stop. I fell to a sitting position and cried, first out of being scared of what this was and the fear of cancer, second out of the unknown. Cancer, I thought, people die from cancer, and my 7 year old has this in his brain? How would we get through this and what the outcome would be. To make a long story short Kennedy is 9 now, he has endured more than the average adult does in a life time. Two surgeries, 6 in a half weeks of full leftside head radiation, many medicines, seizures, left side paraylisis, short term memory loss, two rounds of a clinical trial chemo drug that did nothing, stereoactive raditation, depression, aggressive behaviors, BUT he became a Christian besides of all of the tramatic events in the last two years, loves Jesus, and his family.


On January 9th 2004, the doctors at Cooks told us that there wasn't anymore that they could do for Kennedy. He was sent home on Hospice, and the doctors only gave him ruffly 6 more mths to live. Kennedy is still at this time thriving, but of course has some really bad days. He is home schooled, goes and plays out side, and still loves his game boy advance!!


Kennedy is truely loved by so many, and he has touched so many peoples lives, and I know that he will continue to do so no matter what.

"They shall mount up with wings as eagles: Isaiah 40:31

In Christ,
Rachael