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*Adam*

I will definitely be lighting a candle for you tomorrow, buddy. I know which one I'm going to light too and it will be burning all day long. You are ALWAYS on my mind, sweetheart.

Guess what I got for a friend for Christmas? It's a little gumball machine, but it dishes out jelly beans instead of gumballs. Isn't that cute? I thought of you the minute I saw it and I knew I just had to buy it. See? Told you that you're always on my mind.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love

Just stopping by to let you know that my thoughts & prayers are with you this holiday season. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><

Here's to hoping you and your family celebrate a wonderful Thanksgiving together!!!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

Just wanted to stop by and let all of you know that you are ALWAYS thought of. Remember that picture you sent me of *Adam*, Holly? Well I have it in my wallet and I'm constantly looking at it. Thank you again for being so sweet and sending it to me. I'll treasure it always.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

I am just stopping by to say hi and let you know that I'm thinking of you. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><

Hi Holly & Family!!!

Hoping all continues to go well for all of you. Your entire family is in my thoughts and prayers every minute of every day.

Wishing all of you a fantastic weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Hi Holly & Family!!!

I'm so happy to hear that all is going well with all of you. As far as the driving thing goes. My Mom was also a nervous wreck when it came to teaching me how to drive. My Dad ended up taking over and I got my license within a month of him teaching me. I know I'll be a nervous wreck when Sammi starts driving too -- maybe it's a woman thing.

You're always in my thoughts and prayers.

Wishing all of you a fantastic "rest of the" week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly & Family

Hoping this weekend is a great one for you!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

I couldn't think of a better way to show your patriotism! I absolutely LOVE that picture of *Adam* Thank you SO much for sharing it. I hope Little Wyatt and everyone in your entire family is doing well.

Hoping this week is a wonderful one for you!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Wyatt

I hope your first 4th of July is a wonderful one for you, hon! Don't stay up too late partying.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Wyatt

What a beautiful baby boy you are!!! I just saw the picture of you posted in the photo album. You've got the sweetest little face. I'm happy to hear you're doing well and have been successful in keeping those two wonderful parents of yours extra busy these days.

Holly

Thank you for posting such a beautiful picture of Little Wyatt. What a sweetheart he is! And those pictures of *Adam* (as always) were wonderful to look at as well. I hope you and your family are doing well and are enjoying that little precious bundle of yours.

Sending lots of lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love to you on your special day!!!

(*June 19, 2005*)

Holly

I had no idea Wyatt was born because of a tubal reversal. I'm sure you had mentioned it but, knowing me, I probably missed that. How wonderful! I just had to check out the site you listed and I absolutely loved seeing that sweet little face of Wyatt's and *Adam's* What a wonderful, wonderful doctor! Congratulations again, hon! To you and your family!

Have a great "rest of the" week!

Wyatt

Welcome to the world, sweetheart!

I bet you are one VERY handsome looking baby. I'm so happy to know that you've arrived safe and sound. I can't wait to see some pictures of you. You're a VERY lucky little boy because you were born into a wonderful family.

Holly

How are you doing, hon? Are you having a blast spoiling that sweet little boy of yours? I bet *Adam* was with you through Wyatt's entire birth. Congratulations to you and your family.

Wishing all of you an excellent weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG "Congratulations" hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Happy Heavenly Birthday, *Adam*

Not a day goes by when you're not on my mind. I still have a bowl of jelly beans sitting above my computer just for YOU. Everytime I see a jelly bean, think of a jelly bean or hear someone mention a jelly bean I think of you. You are (and forever will be) an AMAZING boy.

Holly -- I can't thank you enough for sending that picture of *Adam* to me. It arrived this afternoon (what perfect timing!) and I've been gazing at it all day long. I will treasure it always. Thank you again!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

I'm SO happy to hear your latest doctor's appointment went well. Maybe Baby Wyatt will surprise everyone and arrive early. I hope and pray the rest of your pregnancy goes along smoothly for you.

Wishing you and your family a wonderful weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

(*National Nurses Week is May 6-12*)

Holly

I'm glad to hear you had a good Mother's Day with your family. Going to the Zoo sounds like a great way to celebrate your special day!

Best of luck during your appointment with your doctor tomorrow. If you're having an ultrasound done, say "Hi" to Wyatt for me!

Thank you for sharing yet another beautiful picture of *Adam* You're certainly full of them and I love seeing them!

Josh

I bet you made a great looking Elvis. I hope you had lots of fun dressing up as him. Did your Mom get some good pictures? I hope so!

Johnathon

How is drivers ed going for you, hon? My Dad ended up teaching me to drive, so I never got to go to drivers ed. He's a truck driver and has A LOT of patience, so he was the perfect teacher. Good luck going for your license, hon!

Hoping all of you have a great week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

We hope you have a VERY



Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

I can't believe Wyatt will be here soon. That would be wonderful if he were born on *Adam's* birthday. I wanted Sammi to be born on my step-Dad's birthday, but she ended up arriving a day early. I like this set up though. Sammi's birthday is one day before her favorite Grandpa's -- they couldn't be closer.

I hope you and your family have a terrific weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

The pictures you posted look wonderful! I can't wait to see some pictures of Wyatt when he finally arrives. I know he's going to be a VERY beautiful baby.

As far as my baby shower was concerned -- it was thrown in February; Sammi arrived in January. Guess who was the special (and VERY unexpected) guest. From the day she arrived we knew she wasn't the type to wait around for anything she wanted.

Hoping you and your family have had an excellent weekend and will continue to have a great week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

(Tomorrow is Earth Day!!!)

Holly

I hope all is well with you and your family. We think of you often and you are ALWAYS in our prayers.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

Thank you for sharing yet another wonderful picture of *Adam* with all of us. It's always great seeing that smiling face of his.

I bet Wyatt will look adorable in his camoflauge outfit. I'm expecting to see some pictures of him in it (*hint, hint* -- hehehe)

*Adam*

Hey buddy!

I just wanted to fill you in on something. Sammi's new best friend's (and possible boyfriend) name is *Adam*
As if I didn't think of you enough, now I get to whenever I hear her talk about him. DO NOT think I'm complaining.

Wishing your family an excellent weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

The new site you set up for *Adam* is absolutely beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing the address. While I was there, I saw the candle that was lit and the message Gabby left for *Adam* I couldn't stop smiling when I read that.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

I copied and pasted the link to *Adam's* new site, but for some reason it couldn't be found. Maybe it was something I did wrong. I'm going to try it again this afternoon. I'd love to see the new site you set up for him.

*Adam*

I have a whole bowl full of jelly beans sitting on my computer stand just because I think of you everytime I look at them. Now the only tricky part is keeping Jeff away from them. So far so good, but I don't know how long that will last.

Wishing your family an excellent week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

Wishing you and that beautiful family of yours a VERY happy weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

I'm so happy to hear you were able to find a crib for Wyatt. I'm sure a lot of stress is off your shoulders after tracking one down.

I'm including a poem I found this afternoon while I was surfing around online. As I was reading it, I immediately began thinking of *Adam* I'm not sure whether or not you've read it before, but I wanted to share it with you. I hope you like it.

The Jellybean Poem

RED is for my love for you that will never sever...
For love is not measured by the time we had together...
but what's in our hearts forever.

GREEN is for memories that I will always treasure...
Although time may pass...our memories will last...
forever and ever and ever.

YELLOW is for sunshine that you have gave to me...
You brightened up my life and made my world shine and
will continue to shine brilliantly for the rest of time.

ORANGE is for the candles flame I light in memory of
you...Flame that glows so bright as I speak your name in
prayer...Asking God to hold you close...until I join you
there.

BLACK is for my grief from my broken, shattered heart...
Taking each day one at a time...as I keep your memory
alive...Life is different...I am different...but I CAN and WILL
survive.

PURPLE is for tears I shed as I remember you...Precious
memories you left behind...preserved deep inside...You will
always live on through our family...forever by our side.

WHITE is for my hope and faith in God above...The promise
of resurrection...knowing we will reunite...Above the clouds...
over the rainbow...in His everlasting light.

PINK is for the signs you send from Heaven up above...
Lighting my path wherever I go...and whatever I may do...
My precious child...I will always love and always remember
you.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Oh I so agree........

Holly

Wishing you and everyone in your family a VERY Happy Easter!

*Adam*

I thought I'd let you know that Jeff and I are going out shopping in a little bit and I plan on buying one VERY BIG bag of jelly beans while we're out. Even though nobody around here eats them, I usually try to keep a bowl of them on top of our entertainment center. That way I get to think of you everytime I walk by and see them sitting there.

Have I ever told you the name of one of Sammi's favorite books? It's called "Jellybean Jungle"
She's always loved this book, but lately she has been wanting me to read it to her more than once a day. I don't mind at all because everytime I read it I think of how much you would probably have liked it.

You're always on my mind, sweetheart!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK

Holly

Selfish is the absolute last word I would EVER think of using when describing you. You are the most loving, caring, sympathetic person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. Please don't ever forget how special and how loved you are.

Wishing you a VERY Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Thinking of you this Christmas,

Love

Viks

Holly

I wish I lived close enough to you to release balloons on the 21st. I wanted you to know that even though I won't be able to participate with all of you, I will have a candle burning at that time for *Adam*

Hoping you and your family are doing well.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Holly

Hi sweetie! I'm SO sorry I haven't been able to stop by and visit this beautiful page of yours/*Adam's*. My computer has been driving me absolutely nuts lately & hasn't felt like allowing me to do much. It especially doesn't like the fact that I've been trying to visit CaringBridge pages -- it ends up freezing up on me everytime I attempt to open a page. If you end up seeing this message (crossing fingers) that should mean I have everything squared away. I certainly hope I do because this is driving me nuts.

Anyway, enough of that. How have you and your family been? Did I tell you we handed out jelly beans for Halloween? I know Halloween was a couple of months ago, but this is the first chance I've had to sign the guestbook since my computer has been giving me problems.

Hon, I hope all has been going as well as it possibly can be for you, your family and your loved ones. I promise I will be by to visit more often now that I have things straightened out with my computer. Please know, regardless how long it may take me to stop by, that you and your beautiful family are ALWAYS in my heart, thoughts and prayers.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Thinking of and praying for you this holiday season...

Carolyn <carolyn@quiltsoflove.com>
Oklahoma - Monday, November 29, 2004 10:27 PM CST

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We are back from my folks in upstate NY.. what a trip! I was thinking of you and your family Holly. Know that I'm praying for you!
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, November 29, 2004 7:53 AM CST

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Holly,
Thinking of you all. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, November 29, 2004 6:52 AM CST

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Happy Thanksgiving Adam!! Please be with you're mom,dad, Johnathon, and Joshua,and all the rest of your family as they go through the holidays this year. As they gather around the table and have an empty seat. It just won't be the same. I do know that you will be having your feast with Jesus and my dad and for that I am greatful. We miss you very much!!!!!!!!!!! Could you please tell my dad that we miss him dearly too. Love ya little sweetie.

P.S. I hope you and my dad have been gettin' alot of fishing in!

Love,
Diana
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, November 25, 2004 7:13 AM CST

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Holly-
I know the holidays will be hard for you all. Please know I am thinking of you all and Adam. I will be praying for you all. Just keep thinking about that beautiful new baby that is coming:)And know that God and Adam are watching over you both and want you to be happy.
Please, please try to enjoy yourself although it will be difficult and Have a Happy Thanksgiving.
I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 9:20 AM CST

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Hi Holly!
Stopping in to let you know you will be in my thoughts on THanksgiving.. we won't be home..leaving tomorrow for upstate NY and won't be back till Sunday.. so I wanted you to know that and that you are in my prayers always. I hope you are feeling ok.
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, November 23, 2004 6:56 AM CST

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Just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you this holiday season. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><

Lighting Children’s Lives
Caged Kids

*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children’s Lives & Caged Kids <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Monday, November 22, 2004 10:59 PM CST

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Hello Holly,
You don't know me. I am a caring bridge mom from Ohio, also. I got your website from Abbie's page. My little sweetheart Emma Joy was diagnosed on April 5th, 2004 with ALL. I can't even imagine what you have gone through and all that your brave son, Adam, went through. I too, believe in praying before Emma Joy gets a spinal tap. What a witness your precious son was and is. I am so sorry about your loss. It was Heaven's gain.
Angie and Emma Joy <Beglin@msn.com & http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/emmajoy/>
Laurelville, Ohio U.S. - Monday, November 22, 2004 12:53 AM CST

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Hi Holly,
I am so thrilled to hear that you are pregnant! I would have had another one in a heartbeat if it was possible. I know that Adam is looking over you and that sweet baby growing inisde of you. You continue to remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb - Steven's Mom Forever
www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Saturday, November 20, 2004 9:08 PM CST

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Holly,
Hoping you all are doing fine, especially you with the bun in the oven. How was your first full week off from work?? Are you rubbing it in to Doug again that you don't have to get up as early as him now??? I bet you are!
Thinking and praying for you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, November 20, 2004 5:43 PM CST

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Hi Holly!!
I hope you are feeling ok! Get lots of rest!! We are busy here.. trying to get things together for our trip to NY to see my folks.. I make my family xmas wreaths and they get them over thanksgiving as we don't go there for xmas.. so I have to get those together..it's kind of hard to get out here.. the nearest shopping place is almost an hour away. crazy! I really do like the picture of Adam with the guitar on the page.. did he take lessons? He looks like a natural holding that guitar!! how handsome! Well.. know you're in my prayers ok? I'm thinking of you
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, November 18, 2004 6:33 AM CST

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Holly
I just wanted to say hi and let you know I am thinking of you all and Adam always! I hope you are resting and feeling good. Take care of yourself:) I hope you all have a good weekend although I know it will be a difficult trip..try to enjoy it:)
I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 18, 2004 6:25 AM CST

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Hey, just wanted to say hello and let you know we are thinking of y'all and praying for you. Holidays are bittersweet when family is missing - especially the first holiday. So we hope you can be specially thankful for ALL your kids, including the two boys at the table, the one in mommy's tummy and the one in heaven this Thanksgiving. God bless you. (Off topic but not really: I must say I (Steve) was so glad to hear of your yard sign this election season. I could preach a sermon here, but I won't. (somebody say, "amen" !) But it just felt so good to know that godly folks like yourselves were not blinded by the cult-ure.)

Love from Memphis
Steve Holliday and family <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 7:26 PM CST

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hi holly

yes thats archie with mitchell, thats just 9 days before he passed away, in the picture ..i have jus t figured out some new things to do with borders soooo if you have a favorite pic you would like me to do like mitch i wouldnt mind at all!!! i spend alot of my time working with graphics.
my address
Abbie Fraser
22 Bayside Dr
Truro N.S.
B2N-5A9
canada



i send you this in an email but!!! we had one nasty storm and i have internet btu no email.. its not recieving any or sending any .
talk soon

ooo i wanted to share a tip wit hyou .. if you want to make you letter bolder when journalling .. just put a < B> ( no spaces) in the front of your journal and the end it will make it so much easier to see!!!

abbie «♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 9:43 AM CST

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Holly,
Hope you're enjoying your first day free from work. How's the "all day" sickness? I hope you will start feeling better soon.
I know this is off the subject but I'm really dreading the upcoming holidays as I know you are too. They just aren't the same when one is missing. Amazing how one's life can change so drastically in just a year. In fact , your nightmare was just beginning a year ago at this time.
As you know first hand,we should NEVER take anything or anyone for granted. Treasure every moment you have with the ones who you hold dear to your heart.

You all are always in my prayers. I love ya!

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, November 15, 2004 1:06 PM CST

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What sweet memories. THinking of you holly. Take care now
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, November 15, 2004 9:49 AM CST

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Wow.. what a great page!! Great job to Abby!!! Will be thinking of you this weekend Holly.. what a handsome picture of Adam!!!!
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, November 12, 2004 7:58 AM CST

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Holly-
I am sorry you are not feeling well. It is probably for the best that you quit your job so that you can take care of yourself and the baby:) Although I know you are gonna miss those kids at the day care. I can pretty much assure you that Adam will not be forgotten. He touched so many lives. I miss him so much and think of him every single day. If there is anything I can do for you just call. I will try to stop by to see you this weekend.
Take Care. I love you!
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 12, 2004 6:26 AM CST

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hi holly !!!
i was more than happy to do it !! i now that adams favorite color was green but anyway any time you want something differnt please ask ok !! i enjot doing it!!
especially for a boy as handsome as adam !!!
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns can - Thursday, November 11, 2004 7:33 PM CST

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Holly,
Sorry to hear you're so sick. I know EXACTLY what you're feeling. Been there done that. What we do bring children into the world, huh. But, it definitely is worth it though. I still to this day cannot handle the smell of diet pepsi, the oven smell, or the smell of dirt after a soaking rain. I want to vomit every time!!!!
I,too, think it will do you good to quit your job and just focus on taking care of yourself and the baby.

You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, November 11, 2004 10:19 AM CST

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So sorry you aren't feeling well Holly! Get lots of rest ok? Thanks for sharing the words to that song.. what powerful words!! It sounds real pretty though.. I am praying for you!!!!
Love always
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, November 11, 2004 9:21 AM CST

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hi holly
i wish we lived close!!!! i wouls give you the biggest hug!!! if you dontmind im goingto borrow adam beautiful face and make you something ok ...
hugs abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Wednesday, November 10, 2004 10:12 AM CST

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Hi Holly
How are you feeling? Thinking of you!!!
prayers always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 9:41 AM CST

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good morning, holly and doug. just wanted you to know that i'm thinking about you and am looking forward to seeing all of you soon!
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 8:38 AM CST

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I got to your site from another caringbridge site and wanted to sign and let you know what a beautiful boy your Adam is. He will never be forgotten, you'll make sure of that! I'm so happy to hear about your pregnancy (I read some of your journal history) and know that your new baby will bring great joy and blessings to your family; not replace Adam, just bring a ray of sunshine back in.

Know that Adam has had an impact on many lives; even those of us who never had the pleasure of knowing him.

God Bless you and your sweet family!
Lisa <loumicsmom@comcast.net>
Dallas, TX USA - Sunday, November 7, 2004 8:26 PM CST

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Holly,
Thinking of you all today and hoping all is well. Please know you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, November 7, 2004 5:27 PM CST

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praying for you Holly
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, November 5, 2004 8:49 AM CST

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Holly-
Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you! Take care of yourself and the baby.
I love you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 3, 2004 9:31 AM CST

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I'm so glad it all went well!!! congrats!!!
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!!!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 11:46 AM CST

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hi holly
well i got a funny story to make ya laugh!! every sunday we visit with mitch at the cementry ,yesterday as i was walking up to his site i had noticed his little pumkkin was gone!! i looked around and 3 lots done here was mitchs pumpkin!! i picked it up and it was peaked to pieceses!! i assume a bird tried to fly away with it and dropped it!! so i put it bakc but i thought that was just to funny ...a bird took mitch pumpkin!! its starting to get too cold for grasshoppers here now but all summer they were around along with a dove well i got 2 now!!
any way take care
love abbie

«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns can - Monday, November 1, 2004 2:25 PM CST

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Holly,
You are continually in my thoughts and prayers. We are going to be gone until Thurs. so I won't be able to write or check up on you, but you will be in my thoughts. Again, and I know I've said this now a couple hundred times but, I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND DOUG!!! What a blessing this baby is!!! I love you all.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, November 1, 2004 10:57 AM CST

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Thinking of you, this halloween

With love, Everyone at Post Pals
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, October 30, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

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Praise God! He is so good I am so happy to hear you had a great ultrasound. I am also excited to hear that you can hear the heartbeat because when I go I will be eleven weeks so we will surely be able to hear the heartbeat. How exciting. Oh by the way did he tell you when we would feel better. Please tell me it's gonna be soon, because God knows I am a Robinson and I don't do sick well at all. Your mom is so sweet putting that on Adam's grave. John's dad loved Hersheys dark chocolate so on Fathers Day John goes out and puts one on his grave too. We just miss those loved ones so much we want to do anything we can for them. Adam was so special I hated not seeing him Thursday night. But I rest in the promise that when we reach heaven we will never spend a holiday without him again. I just thank God because you seem to be doing so well and I pray that He just keeps healing you and Doug's heart all the more. Lots of love and prayer.
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
Kenton , oh usa - Saturday, October 30, 2004 9:37 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm sooo glad everything went well yesterday!!! Isn't it just the most amazing thing when you hear that tiny little heart beat?!? And, to see that little life inside of you growing?? What a miracle it is! How can ANYONE say that,that is not "a baby" and be able to abort it!!!!!!! Someone with NO heart, that's who!

Again, I am so happy for all of you. Finally some happiness!!
I just know that Adam had all the candy he could ever want with Jesus. And just think, he could eat as much as he wanted too without getting sick because there's no sickness in heaven!!!!!!!!!! :) :) That sure sounds good to me.

You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all very much.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, October 30, 2004 6:55 AM CDT

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have a happy holiday holly!! adam would of wanted you too!! im going to try to get threw halloween this year .
take care think of you often.i just figured out how to too the glitter names and thought of adam !!
abbie

«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns can - Friday, October 29, 2004 11:58 AM CDT

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Will keep you in my thoughts for your ultra sound! I loved watching my baby on the screen..!!! It made the waiting so much harder though!!!!! My mom and dad are coming for a visit tomorrow and staying through till wed. probably.. so I don't know If I'll be on during that time or not. so I wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you and praying for you even if you don't hear from me in the next few days!!! Have a good day tomorrow Holly!
Love and prayers always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 4:23 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all. Hoping and praying that all goes well tomorrow with your ultrasound. I love you all very much. You continue to take it easy okay.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, October 28, 2004 7:43 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am so glad you are getting messages from Adam. I know it makes me feel good when I dream about him:) You take it easy and rest as much as you can. I am sure everything will go fine on Fri and I will keep you in my prayers as always:)
I love you.
Love an Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 27, 2004 6:27 AM CDT

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Hi Holly - I'm thinking about you and hope all goes well at the doctor's this Friday. It hardly seems like a year has passed since Doug first called here looking for Kim - I remember it well. I'm sure sorry Adam isn't here to remember it too - we could celebrate with some shrimp! He sure was a brave little boy! Sleep while you can - I'm sure you need it. Take care - say "hi" to Doug, Jonathan and Josh for me.

Love, Linda
Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 2:30 PM CDT

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What a wonderful dream and journal.. how wonderful.. what great signs that Adam is doing ok now and having fun in heaven. He'll be watching over you and your pregnancy I just know it. Get lots of rest Holly!! I remember being so tired too.. and sick.. but it was wonderful all the same like you said!!!. Will check back soon
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 2:27 PM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad Adam continues to send you messages that he is okay. I'm also glad all is continuing to go well with your pregnancy. You all are forever in my prayers. You all mean alot to me. I love ya.

I know that your ultrasound Fri. will go just fine. You take all the rest you need! :)


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, October 25, 2004 7:32 PM CDT

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Holly

YOU'RE PREGNANT!!!

How wonderful! I have no clue how I missed this VERY important information, but I'm just glad I ended up catching on to this big news!

Of course I wish you a VERY happy and healthy pregnancy, hon. Congratulations to all of you! I'm so excited for you and your family!

(I had to add this -- thought it was too cute)

Shannon & Miss Samantha Therese <humphity@gmail.com>
#24 - Monday, October 25, 2004 5:37 AM CDT

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Holly

What an absolutely precious picture you've posted of *Adam*! Thank you SO much for sharing it with all of us!

How have you been doing these days, hon? I apologize (from the very bottom of my heart) for not stopping by to say "Hi" in quite awhile. My computer has decided to hold a grudge against me (I still don't know what I did to it) and hasn't felt like letting me update Miss Samantha's page or visit other CaringBridge families that I care so much for. After fighting with this darn thing, I'm hoping I've figured out what is wrong and won't be having anymore troubles.

Well it's official, later on this week I will be heading to the store to pick up some jellybeans. We'll be handing them out to the trick-or-treaters that stop by our house. Now let's just hope I'm able to keep them away from my Mom (she LOVES jellybeans) so I can hand them out to the kiddies. I couldn't decide what kind of candy to get this year, but then I thought of *Adam* and how fond of jellybeans he is. So that's what it'll be!

I hope you and everyone in your family are doing as well as all of you possibly can be. Despite my absence, please know that every one of you are ALWAYS in my heart, thoughts and prayers.

Wishing all of you an excellent week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Have a Very Spooky Halloween!

Shannon & Miss Samantha Therese <humphity@gmail.com>
#24 - Monday, October 25, 2004 5:31 AM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry, I haven't stopped by lately but what joy I feel for you and Doug right now! Oh I am so happy you are pregnant!
I immediately went back to your history to "catch-up" and noted where I will find Adam the next time I am in Kenton.
I was so close and just didn't see him but I will find him next time! I also read that it was Nov.5 when you told Adam he was going to be an angel. That was also the day that Abbie started having headaches that led to her dx on Nov. 14 of ALL in her CNS. The picture of Adam is adorable!
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USA - Saturday, October 23, 2004 11:49 PM CDT

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Holly,
Once again our computer has been down and I haven't been able to get on. It is so nice to have a husband who can work on things and fix them but sometimes he just can't quit tinkering until it breaks oh well gotta love em. On a much happier note CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't say that enough I am more happy about your pregnancy than my own. (partly because I have been so sick) I wasnt't sick for Todd so I guess I was kind of spoiled and wasn't expecting this. I am so glad that you are feeling well though! My due date is May 29th or 30th but I haven't been to the doctor yet I go Tuesday. Adam is so stinking cute in that little clown costume. I too will miss seeing him this year in Ridgeway. Todd never likes to walk very much being so little that we usually only do Marge and Susan and my brothers and sisters and your mom and dad's house and we either met you guys on the road or when we got to your mom's Adam always gave Todd his special treat that your mom made up you know she kind of favors her family they always get a little more. You said Adam was Zorro last year, I remember him being an army guy one year wasn't he but he wore army stuff a lot so it could have been any time of year with that little soldier. Holly I truly hope you have a wonderful pregnancy and that God continues to strengthen you each day. And by the way I don't think you are the least bit crazy for all the things you keep of Adam God only knows what any of us would do if faced with your situation so don't let people judge you and don't worry what people will think you just stay close to God His opinion is the only one that matters. I love you and I am always praying for you. OH by the way where are you going to deliver at we might be at the same place around the same time.
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Saturday, October 23, 2004 11:36 PM CDT

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Dear Doug, Holly & boys,
When I saw your due date I couldn't believe it! What a wonderful surprise! Just want you to know that we are remembering Adam too. We still keep the picture of Adam, Doug & Denny at the school benefit in our office at home. There's no way anyone who loves Adam and his precious family could ever forget him. We love you all.
Denny & Carol








Denny & Carol <livi@udata.com>
Forest, OH US - Saturday, October 23, 2004 9:36 AM CDT

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What a cute little clown!! I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Holly!!
Love always~

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, October 22, 2004 11:28 AM CDT

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Holly,
I just love the new picture!!! What a sweety!! I'm glad you're still feeling well.
It's hard to believe that it's been 10 mos. already since Adam left this earth. Just unbelievable! You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers as is your pregnancy. I know all will continue to be okay and in 8mos. you're gonna be holding that precious little baby in your arms!!!!

I love ya!

Love and Prayers,

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, October 21, 2004 6:24 PM CDT

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Holly-
Oh my Gosh...the new pictures are so adorable!! I added them to my screen saver with the others I have of him. What a cutie pie! Glad you are doing good with the pregnancy. I will be praying for all to go well:) It is great that your appetite is increasing.....the good thing about it is you can eat whatever you want and however much you want and just say it is for the baby...haha:o) You take good care of yourself and that baby:)
I love you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 21, 2004 6:56 AM CDT

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hi holly
the pics are wonderful!!! adam liked wrestling too?? holly ya gotta let me make you a border !!! i would love to do that for adam!! is there a favorite color of his or favorite thing?? talk soon
get some rest
love abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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thinking about you guys today. i was just trying to remember when my mom and i met you last year...it was right around this time, wasn't it...or maybe a week or 2 earlier? regardless of the exact date, i am so thankful that i got to meet adam. it was an honor and something that i won't forget. please know that there is a special place in my heart for all of you. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 5:35 PM CDT

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HI there Holly!
Don't you worry about anyone forgetting your sweet Adam! from what you've told us on here he is so special. Keeping this website up as a help for you and a tribute to him is such a wonderful thing and keeps his memory alive..Adam is so proud. hope you are feeling ok and know that you're in my prayers!!
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 11:07 AM CDT

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Holly-
Hope you are feeling ok! Please know there is no way we could forget Adam. He was wonderful, sweet, and wise beyond his years and he touched so many lives. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of him several times. That little boy took a piece of my heart...and will always be in my heart. I love and miss him so much.
I love you. I am always here if you need to talk call anytime:)
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 6:29 AM CDT

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ya know holly ,
i have been feeling the exact same way its been really bothering me that mitchs guestbook can go for a week before someone signs. ill continue to read about adam and his stories im sure like you will continue with mtichs. just lately i havent got the heart to go into mitch site and change it ..its almost like why bother but it makes me feel so good to write about mitch. well im babbling holly... your numbers are great btw!!! still praying for my miracle.
abbie <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Monday, October 18, 2004 7:11 PM CDT

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I'm thinking of you Holly..
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, October 18, 2004 8:01 AM CDT

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Holly,
Hope the smells aren't getting to you too bad. Again, I am sooo excited for you and Doug!! You all are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, October 17, 2004 8:32 PM CDT

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Hey all,

Remembering the joy that was had in our home the day we took the home pregnancy test and saw that little blue circle meaning that our first child, Brian, was going to be (and be with us for almost 16 years), we can only begin to know the joy that is yours with this pregnancy. All the best.
Steve Holliday and family <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Friday, October 15, 2004 9:23 PM CDT

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Holly,
Great news!!!! I knew all would be okay!! You continue to be in my prayers. I love ya!!!

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, October 15, 2004 6:52 PM CDT

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That is wonderful news! I'll be thinking of you this weekend. Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, October 15, 2004 10:54 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am so happy for you and Doug and so happy the blood tests went well. I believe in my heart that Adam certainly will be watching over you and this baby. You take it easy now and don't let Doug work you to hard in building that new room (haha). I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 15, 2004 6:34 AM CDT

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Holly,
Am praying all goes well again with your blood test today. Anxiously awaiting your update with the results!!! Again, I am soooo excited for you all!!! What a precious gift.
You're in my thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya!!

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 12:39 AM CDT

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Hi Holly!
I'm so glad the blood test went ok. Still keeping you in my prayers! As Diana said.. Adam sure had a hand in that and hand picked the very best baby..!!
thoughts and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:31 AM CDT

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Holly,
Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooo very happy for you and Doug. Like I told ya last night, you can bet that Adam has hand picked the VERY BEST baby he could find for you and Doug!! :) It was so good to talk to you last night. You all are always on my mind and in my heart. Your whole family means alot to me. I'm also glad to see that your blood test went well today. You will continue to be in my prayers. I love you all.


Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, October 12, 2004 3:28 PM CDT

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Holly,
I am sitting here crying my eyes out!! Tears of JOY! I am so happy for you! You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
VA beach, VA - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 10:19 AM CDT

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hi holly
i got your email and sent you one right back ... i am so so happy for you .. thank you for mentioning me in your journal entry
continuing to pray for you and your little bean
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 9:21 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am so happy for you and I know Adam is too!! Congratulations to you and Doug!! I had fun on Sunday hanging out with ya...we will have to do it again soon...that is if you feel up to it:) I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com >
- Tuesday, October 12, 2004 6:58 AM CDT

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Hi Holly!
I haven't signed in in a few days as we've had my brother and his family here since Friday. they came over from NNY to stay with us for a bit.. then I get on here to say hi and HOLY COW!!! What great news do I see?!! I pray that it all goes great for you. Adam is truly watching over you!! Take care of yourself!!
Love always~

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, October 11, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry it's been so long since I last wrote. Had a VERY busy week and weekend. I love the picture of Adam. Elijah just loovvvveeessss the Power Rangers and loves the costume that Adam has on!!!!!!! I, on the other hand, CANNOT stand to watch the Power Rangers. After all, after you've seen all the same shows 200 times,(at least 2 a week!!) Also take into account that Aaron went through this same phase, so i guess that would make a total of 400 times huh?

I hope all has been going as well as can be for you. I also hope the new addition is continuing to go smoothly. There's NEVER a lack of work to do around the house is there?!?!

Even though I haven't wrote doesn't mean You have not been in my thoughts. I still checked in on you daily. I love ya!!

Love and Prayers,

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, October 11, 2004 7:44 AM CDT

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Hi Angel Adam's mom and family,
Stop in all the time to read the precious memories of Adam. Just wanted you to know we still think of you all and pray for your wounded hearts. The LORD bless and keep you.
Steve Holliday and family <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Friday, October 8, 2004 7:50 PM CDT

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Holly-
What a great picture!! What a cutie pie! Thanks for sharing the memories of Adam....I can just imagine him doing that stuff! I will see you on Sunday. Thinking of you always.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 8, 2004 6:39 AM CDT

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hey holly...

thanks for sharing adam's thoughts. even through those few words you can tell how sweet he was. i'm thinking about you guys. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 5:37 PM CDT

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Wow.. that is so wonderful.. how sweet. What a great boy. Thanks for sharing that Holly. I'm praying for you.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 8:13 AM CDT

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holly
that was just beautiful what adam wrote!!! we got great kids dont we. we need to pat ourselves on the back for raising 2 wondeful boys!!
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 5:27 PM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad you have someone at work who gives you comfort and listens without changing the subject when you talk of Adam. Sincere people who really do care are very hard to find nowadays. I'm glad God put her and the other good people who visit this site into your life. You're in my thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya.

Love and prayers,

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, October 5, 2004 1:23 PM CDT

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Holly-
Thinking of you today and always. I am so sorry for your pain and I wish I could help you. I will give you a call one night this week and we can chat about a good time to get together.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 5, 2004 6:48 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
I'm sorry it's a hard day.. know that you're in my prayers OK? I am so sorry you have to go through this. Keeping you in my heart
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, October 4, 2004 7:58 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am thinking of Adam and you, today and always. I am always, always here for you, please call if you need to talk. I would really like us to spend more time together and I was wondering if you are not busy this Sat maybe I could come up and we could go to lunch or maybe we could go to Mt Victory shopping..I love doing that! I will call you to see if you are busy! I love you all.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 4, 2004 6:45 AM CDT

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Holly,
I recently went through Kenton and wondered if Adam's gravesite is there in the cementary beside 309? I drove through just a little bit hoping to find him, but I did not. Then I thought maybe he is not even there. You have such precious memories of your Adam. I have problems remembering what I did yesterday. That sometimes scares me because I think "if" Abbie doesn't beat this again I will not rememeber anything....I hope I never have to find out! So far she is doing okay. We will do radiation in December and that really scares me. I do hope you are blessed with another child. Thinking and praying for you and your family.
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USE - Saturday, October 2, 2004 11:35 PM CDT

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Holly,
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers daily. There's not a day goes by that I do not think of Adam or all of you. I love ya.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, October 2, 2004 10:06 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
Keeping those things around helps keep Adam close, then keep them all. I would do the same. I am so glad you are sharing his life with us. I am keeping you in my prayers and thoughts. Will check back after the weekend.
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, October 1, 2004 8:09 AM CDT

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holly
first of all thank you so very much !! i was having such a rough day no one signs mitchs gueestbook anymore and scares me to death thinking that people have forgotten about him... iknow its all emotions riding me, it will be 17 months tommorw since mitch passed away and its tough!! but you know that as well as i do.
A BIG THANKYOU!!!
and if you would like send me a kink and a pass word maybe i can out some files in there for you.
talk soon abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 7:09 PM CDT

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Holly,
Where do you suppose Josh got his commedian sense of humor?!?! Could it be because he takes after his MOM!!!:-) Sure sounds like it to me! I really do hope that you are okay and that you didn't hurt yourself. I bet if Adam was watching, you gave him a good laugh!!
I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you all and that you are always in my prayers daily. I love ya.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, September 29, 2004 9:36 AM CDT

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Mom....!! What a clutz!! HAHA!! I hope you didn't hurt yourself Holly. I want you to know I'm still thinking of you.. keeping you in my heart and prayers.
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 6:59 AM CDT

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hi holly
hubby and i last year for haloween carved a pumpkin at mitchs gravesite and we wil do it again this year.you know whats funny ... mitch hated halloween ,he was allergic to peanuts so not much candy he could eat.
praying for both of us :)
love abbie «♥Angel Mitchell♥»

<afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 3:47 PM CDT

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thinking of you as you take these steps without Adam being physically here. know he is always with you, we really do enjoy hearing about him, his likes, dislikes and memoriable stories you tell of him. I am so glad this website helps you some Holly. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always.
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 7:49 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all always.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, September 27, 2004 2:42 PM CDT

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Hi Holly - I've been visiting my daughters in Wisconsin and Missouri this past week so have not even turned on a computer, but continue to think of you all. I like this current picture of Adam - he looks very determined. I hope your job is going well - it will help. Don't be so hard on yourself - all those years of constant care can't be erased and no one can understand it unless they too have been in the same situation. Hang in there! Take care of yourself and your men. Hi to all.

Love, Linda




Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Monday, September 27, 2004 9:16 AM CDT

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Hi Holly!
That picture of Adam in the mouse costume sounds so adorable.. you'll have to find a way to put it on here..!!! I am thinking of you!!
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, September 27, 2004 6:42 AM CDT

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Holly-
Just wanted you to know I am thinking of Adam and you all!
I will try to stop by and visit this weekend.
I love you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 24, 2004 11:36 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
Just wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you this weekend.
love and prayers~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 10:00 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all. You all are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, September 23, 2004 12:25 AM CDT

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I just wanted to say hello to you and your family. I took care of Adam over 2 years ago and still think of him and the impact he has left on me. I miss his smile and laughter too!
Christy Tompkins, rn <osuhockey@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 22, 2004 6:06 PM CDT

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I love the new picture.. what a grin!! You're on my mind Holly.
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 6:45 AM CDT

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Holly-
9 months......somedays it seems like forever and sometimes it seems like just yesterday....I miss that sweet boy. Thinking of you all today and everyday.
You are in my prayers.
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 21, 2004 12:24 AM CDT

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Dear Holly~
I am thinking of you today. As always, you are in my heart and in my prayers!!!!
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 7:56 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all this morning, as today marks 9 mos. since Adam left this earth hand in hand with Jesus. I am sooo sorry you must travel this horrendous road. How does one travel this kind of road without Jesus in their lives?????
I am glad that you and Doug have been having good dreams of Adam. I love you all very much. I'm here for you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, September 21, 2004 7:33 AM CDT

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Holly-
I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and I am sorry I have not been by to visit lately. I was gonna stop by last weekend but we think my youngest niece had the chicken pox and I did not want to visit anyone else in case I was contagious with it somehow. And I did not come up this weekend...just in case. I will try to stop by this weekend...I will be up that way. I miss you all. I also had dreams about Adam last week...2 nights in row. They were wonderful dreams....he was healthy and happy and it made me so happy that I was able to remember those dreams. I miss that little guy so much! I will try to stop by this weekend. Please call me if you need to talk or need anything at all. I love you and miss you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 20, 2004 10:00 AM CDT

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stopping in to say hi Holly. praying for you! Thank you for sharing that memory of Adam and your dreams.. that is so wonderful you both got to see him.. you both had the same dream, that really does tell us something!!!.
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, September 20, 2004 8:51 AM CDT

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Holly,
You are such a wise lady and you don't give yourself any credit. See most people would have dismissed that little voice or not have heard it at all. But you are so willing to hear from God that He can truly speak to you. And those little nuggets will stay with you. You may not think it is much right now but I believe God is healing you more and more each day. I know you have heard that verse in Ecclesiastes about how there is time for everything and I think somewhere in there it says we are to mourn a birth and rejoice in a death. I always thought that sounded so crazy to be sad when a baby was born and to rejoice when someone we loved died. But with the way that this world has changed to be something that we are none safe, we could lose our life or a family members anytime due to a terroist attack. Or the fact that there are child predators who are out there just to harm our children. I know none of this stuff probably makes you feel any better about your situation you would still rather have Adam just as I would rather take the chance and keep Todd here and just try to protect him my self. Even though I know in heaven how happy and safe he would be, no terrorists, no child predators, no cancer, not even the common cold in heaven, nothing but complete and total happiness in heaven, so I finally understand that verse but I do not think it is possible for us to rejoice in the death of one we loved as much as Adam but we should because like you said he has already achieved what we are trying so hard to do to hear those great words enter in thy good and faithful servant. I'm sorry I ramble on to you sometimes but Holly you are doing so good at receiving these important messages that God is sending you, I just want you to know that you are not whining you are coping and you are doing a great job. You truly are an inspiration to us all.
Love,
Tracy
tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Sunday, September 19, 2004 5:01 PM CDT

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holly.
your not whining hun... you miss your son !! believe me i do alot of whining myself. just think positive hun i know its sometimes so so hard. hold your head up high because we both raised great boys !!!

love abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Saturday, September 18, 2004 7:36 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all today and every day. I love ya.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, September 18, 2004 12:35 AM CDT

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Will be thinking of you this weekend Holly. I may not have walked in your shoes but I know that you are going through a great deal. I am so sorry you have to go through this..I can't imagine your pain. I know this website is great for you. A place to share your feelings and your wonderful memories of your sweet Adam, and sharing him with us! I know I speak for everyone on here when I say that:) You are in my prayers every night. I want you to know that. I will check back with you soon.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, September 17, 2004 7:17 AM CDT

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Holly,
You know the old saying "with time it gets easier" .
It is somewhat true but should really be "with time it changes". I believe grief is a process with no time constraints and no boundaries. You are not that far into the process. You are allowed to "whine....although I don't see it that way. You are sharing your emotions and if that is helping you in even the smallest way then whine on. I for one am inspired that you continue to share your emotions and memories of Adam.

ps. sorry we haven't been on lately, my computer is down and I've been forced to go on this relic of a computer my husband set up....I think it's from the stoneages! :)

pps. I am continuing to work through everything that happened and have been able to enjoy some things with the kids.....and laugh a little.
Lisa and Lindsey <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
va beach, - Thursday, September 16, 2004 10:17 PM CDT

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Holly,
Yes, that revelation is true, just like it says in that poem "Why Us" that I sent you a while back ago. When I first saw it I automatically thought of you.
You are not whining you are grieving. There's a BIG difference!!!!! You feel and do what you need to on here. None of us on here will be offended (unless anyone has walked in your shoes). You and all your family is loved and cared for deeply by those of us who get on this site. We all wish we could somehow help ease your pain. Please know how often you all are in our thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya!

Love and Prayers


Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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Holly-
Please know that you are not whining and we are all here for you. I appreciate that you share your feelings and your memories of Adam. I am thankful that you have this website. I wish I could somehow help you and ease your pain. I love you and am praying for you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 11:10 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
It's ok to get on here when you feel your lowest!! Especially if it helps you to get on here ok? We are never sick of hearing you that is for sure. I know I can't completely know how deep your pain is, but I will "hear" about all of your feelings and try to help. Don't ever think that you are whining ok? God is surely talking to you Holly.. you are listening too.. that is so wonderful. Some people don't "hear" it like that. or they do and chose to ignore it. I am praying for you and your family. I heard on TV last night about this mom who lost her child tragically.. she said that she chooses to mourn in public rather than all in private so that people will know her son and bring awareness to the way he died and also to keep his memory alive as well.. I think that is so true and that it helps some to do so.. I am very happy you choose to do so as well. Bringing Adam into all of our lives has been so special. I am thinking of you today!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, September 16, 2004 7:25 AM CDT

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kindells,

please know that i check the site everyday, even though i don't always sign. i just don't know what else to say except that i'm thinking about you and hoping that everyday is better than the one before. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 8:50 AM CDT

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Thank you for sharing that Holly. My prayers are with you
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 6:29 AM CDT

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hi holly
thanks for coming in to mitchs site , i dont know what i would do without it !! i have gotten to know some great people. getting a song on a website toook me the longest to figure out, but you do need another website to store the music on i use bravenet pages.
i have that touched by an angel recorded i still cry everytime i watch it. so some time email me with things that adam liked and i can help you out with some borders and stuff.
praying for both of us to hear the beautiful sounds of pitter patter soon.
love abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 5:16 PM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry you missed the rally, but at least you were able to talk with some of Adam's Dr's again and enjoy a little of what was left of the post-rally.
Thinking of you all.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, September 13, 2004 4:13 PM CDT

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Hi Holly
I've been thinking of you!! Keeping you in my prayers.
Love to you and your family~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, September 13, 2004 7:44 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you. Hope all goes well at the rally today.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, September 10, 2004 12:56 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
I wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you this weekend, and your family too. Love to you all and ^Adam^. I know he's watching out for you.
Love always~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, September 10, 2004 9:34 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am thinking of you all and Adam.....always.......just wanted you to know.
I love you all.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 10, 2004 6:39 AM CDT

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Holly,
I do understand how you feel, how the thought of living years and years until we are reunited with our children is almost too much to take. Only someone who has been through this can truly understand the hopelessness that we feel each day. It’s not that we love our other children any less, but a part of us has been ripped out and we are forever changed. Please e-mail me if you ever need to talk, I am here for you.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Thursday, September 9, 2004 7:52 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you, especially this week, as you must go through another milestone without Adam (the fair). I can't imagine how you must feel. I can tell you that it's hard enough being at the fair without dad there, I can't imagine being there without my child. Please know how much you are all thought of and prayed for each and every day. Again, I want to "Thank You" for continuing to share Adam's life and memories with all of us. You are such an inspiration to many, as was Adam. I love ya.

P.S. I still would like to be on your team for that walk if you'd like. Let me know either way.

Love and Prayers,

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, September 9, 2004 7:28 AM CDT

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Holly

Hi there, hon!

That certainly is a VERY beautiful song! I've heard it quite a few times, but I will most definitely be thinking of *Adam* when I hear it again. And I'm sure the next time I do hear it I'll have tears in my eyes thinking of that sweet little face of his.

If you've e-mailed me or have left a message in Samantha's guestbook, please know that I WILL be getting back to you VERY SOON. Things have been more than a little crazy around here lately, so there hasn't been much online time for me. I'm just starting to get back into the swing of things though, so I'll be sure to keep in touch more often.

I hope you and your family have been doing well these days. I've missed not being able to check up on all of you. Please give my love to your wonderful family and be sure to leave a few jelly beans (or some other sort of yummy treat) for *Adam* when you visit him again.

Sending LOTS and LOTS of hugs, love, happiness and prayers your way!!!



Shannon & Miss Samantha Therese <humphity@gmail.com>
#24 - Thursday, September 9, 2004 5:53 AM CDT

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I love that song...truly a message from Adam letting you know he's ok. I'm thinking of you Holly. Keeping you in my prayers
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 6:28 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, September 7, 2004 10:34 AM CDT

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Holly-
I know it will be hard to go to the fair...but Adam will be with you....he will always be with you in everything you do and everthing you see that reminds you of him. Hold on to all those wonderful memories of Adam. I will be thinking of you and praying for you. If you go to the fair on Saturday..maybe I will get to see you...I am going with Cindy and the girls.
I love you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 7, 2004 9:49 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
You got to the fair anyhow, I know Adam was with you, the way you talk about him loving the fair, he was with you. Your other boys will be close with you again some day. Especially when they have familes of their own. I am always thinking of when my kids approach the teen years and how I will not be such a big part of their lives, but I look at my mom and I and how close we are even though we're many miles apart. Adam's grave sounds so beautiful the way Diana described it. I'm so sorry you are going through all of this, I understand you not wanting to see too much of his friends around Holly. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.
Love~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 7:11 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you and hoping you have had a good day today (as good as can be). Love ya.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, September 4, 2004 7:29 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,
It's me again. I just had to tell you that we went to the cemetary earlier this evening and the flowers at Adam's grave are just ABSOLUTELY beautiful!! Those vines ( I forget what they are called, I have some of those here at home too) are gorgeous! The boys enjoy looking at all of his things too. That is so sweet, whoever left that folder and ink pen in memory of Adam going to school. That was so clever. I never would have thought that.
What day and time are you going to be at the daycare booth? Let me know and I will try to visit you. I love ya !

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 8:58 PM CDT

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Holly,
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. I pray that God continue to carry you and Doug through this difficult and unbarable road you must travel. I love you all.

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 2:00 PM CDT

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Holly,
well, it's Friday already! I'm stopping in to say hi and to let you know I'll keep you in my mind this weekend. Take care now
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, September 3, 2004 8:53 AM CDT

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Holly
Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you all and Adam today and everyday. I love you all!
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 6:43 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
Well, Christian is off on the bus and Sarah and I are here at home.. I'm waiting on Carter. he's the little guy I watch during the day for extra money. I like to stay home but I want to make at least a little money so I won't feel so bad about being here. I do love staying home though..! Today I have 5 kids getting off the bus at my house.. just for today of course! I have to clean the house yet again today. Are you going to go to the fair? I know Adam would love it if you did. Kids just hear the word and they beg to go. There are a few around here this week too.. We already went to one which is enough for me but what can you do right? I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. What a beautiful boy Adam is. I love his pictures. Thanks for sharing Holly
Love always
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, September 2, 2004 7:07 AM CDT

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Holly,

Well, the Hardin Co. fair is fastly approaching. I can tell you, I'm not looking forward to it, in fact I DREAD it. But, the things we do for our kids right?!?! Not only do I dread it because my dad absolutely LOVED going(every day in fact, he and mom would go!) but also because each day that it gets closer all I can think of and invision in my mind is you telling me how excited Adam was last year about getting to FINALLY go to the fair. In the years past he never got to go because of being sick or fear of catching something. I remember you saying how he tried just about EVERY single food there (even though he only took about a bite from each item). I can just picture his excitement and those big eyes and that beautiful smile grinning from ear to ear. I am sooooo thankful to God that he was able to enjoy the fair before he was called home.
I know I sound like a broken record every time I get on here but, you all in my thoughts and prayers continuously. I still would like to be on your team for that walk if you want me to, please let me know.

I also want to tell you (before I forget again) that ever since we saw you guys at the cemetery and then Josh and Johnathon again at Rushsylvania the day after, That's all Aaron and Elijah talk about. They think alot of your boys.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, September 1, 2004 10:33 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today! How is your job going? How is school? Christian is already looking forward to having a 4 day weekend.. What a nice looking family you have. My mom had three boys before me. keeping you and Adam in my thoughts! Love and prayers~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 8:11 AM CDT

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Holly-
That is a great wish list and I am so glad you put it on here. And I just want you to know..I have Adams pictures all over my house....on the China hutch (that was at Grandma's house)and in my living room and bedroom. It is a comfort to me to see his sweet little face....as I am sure it is for you too:) I am thinking of you all and Adam..always. Thanks for sharing your memories of Adam...he was such a strong, brave, sweet, and wonderful boy and he touched so many lives. I miss that little guy so much and love him with all my heart!
I love you and I am always here for you if you need me.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 1, 2004 6:41 AM CDT

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Holly~
It makes me feel so wonderful to sign the guest book with a few meaningful words just to let you know I'm praying for you and thinking of you..just making you feel ok..even if for only a moment brings me great comfort. I am thankful for you bringing Adam into our lives. Having two kids of my own...watching one get on the bus yesterday morning for his first day made me so sad, then I think of you not seeing one heading off with his backpack and big smile...I can't even imagine your pain. I keep you in my thoughts and I am so happy it brings you some comfort. God is truly with you and your angel son Adam. All the memories you share on this site mean so much to us and we love hearing them..! hearing the sad memories is a reminder of what this disease can put a child through and Adam stayed with God through it all. How very special, you are a good momma Holly, keeping your kids knowing the Lord. God Bless You!! You are an angel on earth!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 7:21 AM CDT

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Thinking of you Holly
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, August 30, 2004 5:25 AM CDT

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Holly,
I just read this letter written by a 14 year old girl to her mother when she first found out that she had cancer. Her mom said that she is posting it for all the other grieving mothers because she thinks that it is the way that all children who have cancer feel towards their mothers. Her address is www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie if you haven't already read it. I hope you are doing as well as you can. Lots of love and prayers.
TRACY HOLLINGER <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Saturday, August 28, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

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That wish list is very well said Holly. I am so glad you have this "place" to come to and let your feelings out and to share all of your special stories of Adam with all of us. I am thinking of you Holly, and your family. My prayers for you are headed your way. Love always~

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 8:04 PM CDT

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WELL SAID HOLLY!

thoughts and prayers
Lisa and Lindsey <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
- Saturday, August 28, 2004 7:15 PM CDT

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hi holly
i love the wish list !! almost makes me wanna get that printed out on a tshirt!! i would love to help you out with adam site i do it for mitch because i feel im still doing something for him and oooo how i enjoy it.all you need is another website to upload your pictures to i use aol to store my pics but i noticed alot of people use photobucket and there both free.i make mitchs borders,, if you want a border done up i can do it for you just need a pic of him and some things he likes
any hoo talk soon
love abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Saturday, August 28, 2004 9:04 AM CDT

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Just wanted to stop in and let you know I'll be thinking of you this weekend. Will sign on real soon. Love always

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, August 27, 2004 7:18 AM CDT

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Hi Holly - I've been thinking about you and imagining how hard it must be not to see Adam go off to school this year like his brothers. I remember how happy you were last year at this time when we first began reading the website and Adam was on his way to school. It's such a hard adjustment to realize how the world just keeps going on, but it surely does. Enjoy your job and remember time helps us all. Take care of yourself and say hi to the rest of the family for me.
Love, Linda
Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Thursday, August 26, 2004 9:05 PM CDT

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Holly,

Wanted you to know I was thinking about you. You need never apologize to anyone. It is a horrible thing you are suffering through and you must get thru each day however you can. This is the place to vent. This is a place we will support you. Love and prayer
Lisa and Lindsey <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
Va beach, - Thursday, August 26, 2004 5:09 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all with much love. Hope the boys are having a good week back to school. Hope your job is going well also.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 3:37 PM CDT

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Holly-
It was really nice spending time with you and talking with you on Sunday. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Keep holding on to the wonderful memories of Adam. Like I said on Sunday, I think this website is a great way for you to express your feelings and try not to worry so much about what others might think about it you really need to express all of your feelings. Please know that you can call me anytime day or night if you need to talk and you can always tell me anything...I will always be here for you. I am thinking of you all......always.
I love you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 6:37 AM CDT

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Hello Holly
I am thinking of you today and Adam too. What a gorgeous angel he must be. I'm sorry for all your pain and grief. Know that you are in my thoughts daily and in my prayers nightly.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 1:54 PM CDT

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Dearest Family,
I have been thinking of you and your Angel today. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find peace and comfort in the beautiful memories of your precious child in heaven.
God Bless you all,
Island Princess

Butterfly Island


Island Princess <mooks@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 11:04 AM CDT

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Holly,
As I've said before.... you feel what you need to feel and act as you want to act. No one can tell you how to be or what to feel unless they are in your shoes, and even then, every one is different and grieves in their own way. You feel free to say whatever it is you want to on this site. We may not know what to say but at least we can listen( with our cyber-ears!! ) I hope you know how much we all love and care for you on here. I wish I could take away your pain and bring Adam back....a cancer free Adam.

Your always in my thoughts and prayers.


Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, August 24, 2004 9:49 PM CDT

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Holly,
I'm so sorry that I haven't posted in long time. We have been busy with Tommy finshing treatment and taking his fishing trip. You and your family are always in our prayers. Everyday when I think of Aunt Pam I also think of Adam. She loved him so much. She would tell us she did not think she could ever love someone that much and never meet them. But Adam stole her heart and she loved it. Please remember you are always in our thoughts and prayers.
Love-In-christ,

Dawn Gresham (Tommy's Mom) <bdmteg@hotmail.com <www.caringbridge.com/sc/tommygresham>>
Warrenville, SC - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 5:55 PM CDT

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i hope you continue to use this site, holly, to keep us all informed and as a place for you to speak your mind. i am sure that any little bit helps. i'm thinking about you all today and everyday. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 4:34 PM CDT

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Holly,
It was good to see you the other day. Johnathon and Josh are growing up sooooo fast. All three of your boys are so beautiful. I wish I knew what to say or how to help take your pain away, but I don't. I never do say the right thing.
You all are in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I love you all very much.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, August 22, 2004 9:08 PM CDT

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I see you've got yourself a job at a preschool! That is great Holly! I bet Adam is so proud. I'm thinking of you and your family. Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Saturday, August 21, 2004 1:49 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,
Have you been enjoying all these Elvis movies lately? Everytime I go down to mom and dad's they are watching Elvis movies. Is it close to his birthday or death day or something he is everywhere. I know just the way you like it right. I think I saw you walking the other day when I was leaving church either Tuesday or Wednesday up by Saint John's you were with some blonde lady I didn't recognize. I didn't actually see you until you were almost past me. I am glad you had a good time in Gatlinburg and congratulations on your new extended job. I am really praying for you to have a baby Holly I think that could be just what you need. Would you like to have a girl this time or would you like to have another beautiful blonde haired blue eyed boy! Well whatever you want I hope you get it maybe even twins one of each. Well I better get going Dad's got a horsepull up by Bowling Green I know he's just like Grandpa Pat he worked two shifts yesterday just so he could go today. And Butch's kids are just as bad Jimmy and Brad go to everyone, but so do I, I don't know why but I just love them. Mom said to tell you she is always praying for you, she said she never mentions Adam to you when she sees you at the store because she is so afraid of hurting you or making you upset but I have told her you really like to talk about him, so she said she would try to talk about him more with you but she just loves you so much she is scared it will make you cry or feel really bad but she is praying for you a new baby too. So I expect to be going to a baby shower soon.
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Friday, August 20, 2004 10:27 AM CDT

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Holly,

I would love to be on the relay, but I won't be able to make it that day. I would be happy to make a donation, however, so please let me know how I can do that. I'll be thinking of you all on Sept. 10! Love, Kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, August 19, 2004 4:32 PM CDT

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Holly,
I would love to be on your team for the relay for life. It will be an honor to walk in "memory" of Adam!! When is it? I will definitly keep you all in my prayers on Sept. 10th.
Don't worry Holly, God will bless you and Doug with another baby. You are one of the best mommies in the whole wide world!! :)

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 5:42 PM CDT

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What a beautiful website. God has blessed you with a sweet spirit. May He continue to give you strength and mercy for each day. I too had a stem cell transplant in Seattle Washington after being diagnosed with myelofibrosis. God is the maker of all miracles. We praise Him and give Him all the glory.Love in Christ Rhonda
www.caringbridge.org/tn/rhondajulian <brjulian6@hotmail.com>
Mohawk, Tn Usa - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 3:25 PM CDT

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Holly-
Congratulations on the fulltime position. They are really lucky to have you!! Thinking of you today and everyday!
I love you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 10:41 AM CDT

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Holly

Congratulations on your new position!
Working with all of those babies must be a wonderful experience. I've been thinking a lot about what I would like to do when I'm able to go back to work and working with kiddies (I've decided) is what I'd love to do. Young children around the ages you work with. I've put a lot of thought into going to our local community college and I'd love to should I be able to come up with the time and money. Hearing how you get to work with all of those beautiful babies just makes me want to do it even more. God Bless you!

I wish you and your husband nothing but the best as you work on this pregnancy. Of course everyone knows *Adam* will never be replaced and I completely understand your reasoning for wanting another child. You are an amazing woman who I thank God everyday for meeting. You are SO strong and, despite what curves life has thrown your way, you always seem to come out on top. Thank you for being there for us. Your kindness and friendship means the world to me.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!



Shannon & Miss Samantha Therese <humphity@gmail.com>
#24 - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 6:01 AM CDT

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Holly,
Congrats on your job!! Part to full, that's GREAT!!!!! Yes, I know all too well the anxiety and impatience of trying to get pregnant. It will happen , and you can be sure that Adam will hand pick the very best baby around!:)
I think and pray for you always. You are always on my mind,even though i don't write on here everyday. I'm here for you anytime. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, August 17, 2004 8:37 PM CDT

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hi kindells!

i am glad that you all enjoyed your vacation. holly, i hope your blisters are healed! congrats on the preschool job...the kids are lucky to have you. i'm thinking about you all today, like everyday. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 4:38 PM CDT

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Holly-
I know that had to be hard to go on a trip without Adam, but I am glad you were able to go and I am sure Johnathon and Josh had a good time. Thinking of you always.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 8:43 AM CDT

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Hey there!
The hike did sound long!!! We went on one a couple of weeks ago..Sarah was the one complaining that time.."I wanna go home!!" Christian is my little outdoors man. He just was way ahead of us. It was hot and humid too. I'm glad you went on a little trip. You are doing your best for your other kids..what a good momma. I'm so glad you share your Adam with all of us too. (I know I've said that before..but again, it's so wonderful to see the new pictures you post for us and share his stories!!!) I'm thinking of you ! Also I wanted to let you know that we are having company all week this week..my brother and his wife are coming from upstate NY today and then my mother in law is coming (from the same area)on Wed. the day my brother leaves.. busy, busy week! I will sign in after the company leaves. We will be traveling around all week, I'm sure doing all the site seeing stuff around...probably take in a few covered bridges in the state. should be fun., but know you're on my mind and in my prayers!!! :)
love~
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, August 16, 2004 7:49 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad you had a good time. It sounds like alot of fun, even with the blister. We love to take hikes. Hocking Hills is great for hiking. Last year we went down there and did some hiking with the kids. Aaron and Elijah thought it was fun at first then the whining and complaining would start 15-20 min. into the hikes. "my legs hurt", "I'm tired", "are we almost done yet", "my feet are going to fall off", "carry me"..... and so on. Now, you can bet if there was a bag of candy waiting at the end, you'd be the one to have to catch up with them!!!! Ha! Ha!
Well, I'm glad you made it home safely and without a run-in with Charlie. You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, August 14, 2004 8:32 PM CDT

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Will be thinking of you this weekend. Hope you are feeling better. how wonderful about the film..finding that must have been so special for you. THank you for sharing the picture again. I'll be praying for you
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, August 13, 2004 2:02 PM CDT

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Holly,
Nice picture! What a wonderful suprise that must have been for you to find that roll of film, just like the wonderful suprise of finding that Christmas present behind the dresser(where it had fallen) for your mom from Adam several weeks after he had passed away. I know your mom will treasure that one forever!!!
How are your kidney stones? Have you finished the siding yet? It's going to look sooo nice I'm sure:)
You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, August 13, 2004 11:49 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
Just stopping in to check up on you and let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers! That is a sweet memory!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH U.S.A. - Thursday, August 12, 2004 6:26 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
That is a wonderful picture! We got to see that tree this year. We took a trip down to Fl in the winter. My Aunt and Uncle work at Disney. You have a very nice looking family. you are all on my mind and in my heart. Thinking of you!
prayers always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, August 10, 2004 7:34 AM CDT

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Holly-
That is a great picture! I am thinking of you and praying for you all. I am praying for Lakota too.
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 10, 2004 6:21 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you always. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, August 9, 2004 12:28 AM CDT

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Holly-
I hope your tests come out ok and I hope you are feeling better soon! I am sure Adam was there with you while you were having your tests done:) I also think of Adam when I go to have any medical tests done..I think of how brave and strong he was and all he had to go through....then my little test doesn't seem so bad at all. I love that little guy with all my heart and have learned - and continue to learn so much from him. Thinking of you and praying for you always.
I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 9, 2004 6:32 AM CDT

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There is always someone out there who understands you..even when you feel like no one does..the lady at the cemetery who has so much in common with you was sent to you I believe! I pray every day for you and so many others from caringbridge and all the other kids in this world who are suffering. I pray for a cure for all of these terrible diseases. I pray for you too Holly. Adam is there with you in your heart .I'm thinking of you!
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, August 9, 2004 6:15 AM CDT

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hi holly
well i hope things turn out good for you and your tests. i felt the same way when i had my surgery i thought what am i doing here without mitch it was a tuogh one by far.
take care
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Thursday, August 5, 2004 1:46 PM CDT

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I hope your tests come back ok. I'm sure Adam was with you Holly..watching over you. feel better soon
Love and prayers!
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, August 5, 2004 7:03 AM CDT

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thinking of you always Holly
Love~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 7:22 AM CDT

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Holly-
Thanks for sharing your memories of Adam. I love hearing about him. Thinking of you and Adam...always.
I love you.
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 4, 2004 6:25 AM CDT

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Hello Holly,
I took my Adam to get some things squared away at Lima Tech last week. Of course we went through Kenton. It seems like such a nice, clean little town. I thought of you and Adam as we drove through Kenton. At clinic this week I saw a girl that was Dx the same time as your Adam and my Abbie. She is so tall and beautiful now and I couldn't help but be jealous of her good health. I found myself asking the why questions again and again and again, as I am sure you do daily. You keep doing whatever helps you get through another day. I am glad you were able to participate in Bible school while your heart was breaking.
That says a lot about what a wonderful mom you are to not only your boys but to all the kids there. God Bless!
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USA - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 11:14 PM CDT

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Hi Holly
Don't worry about guarding your words. We may not understand completely but we'll listen and speaking for myself, you telling us what's bothering you helps me out by you letting me know what acceptable to say. I'm here everday checking in on you and the memories of Adam. It so good to hear the stories. Love you & Thinking of you always.
Amy
Kenton, Ohio - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 7:28 PM CDT

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HI Holly
That's ok.you use this site to say anything you want..anything to make you feel better ok? We're here to "listen"!! I love that picture!! And the mac and cheese...my Sarah would love to see this picture.she is always talking about mac and cheese. What a handsome boy..but you already knew that !!! I'm praying for you and here is a smile from me to you..:) you take care and know you're in my heart ok?
Love~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 7:05 AM CDT

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Holly-
I hope I have not been insensitive to your feelings..if I have I am truly sorry and I certainly did not mean to if I did. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of Adam and I miss him so much. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and Doug. I hope you know you can always talk about Adam to me. I wish I lived closer so we could talk more. I love you and Doug so much and I wish I could help you out more.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 2, 2004 9:24 AM CDT

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you're not alone holly, even though it's got to feel that way sometimes. we all care about you, doug, jonathan and josh and think about you everyday. i can't imagine what it's like to be without adam...it must be so hard for all of you...everyone misses him in their own way. just know that i'm thinking of you today and everyday. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Monday, August 2, 2004 8:37 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
I'm so sorry that you are feeling like this..I can't imagine losing a child, I am a mom so I know that great love..know that I am here praying for you and thinking of you. I am glad that this website is your outlet .. we are all very greatful for you sharing Adam's life with us. we all love his pictures and stories of him. Thinking of you always
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford , NH USA - Monday, August 2, 2004 8:04 AM CDT

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Hey there,

We check your site all the time. We don't sign the guestbook as often as we should, but just know that we are thinking of you guys every day and praying for the healing of your hearts. If you are not interested in little babbling ("trying to help" - you know how that is! or can be!) about dealing with this crapola, just stop reading here and know that we love and care for you folks so much.

Life goes on. At first, that just stinks to think of it. At least it did for me. But one day i was coming home from work and i put in a Beatles cd (HUGE Beatles fan here -- probably as big a Beatles fan as some people are Elvis fans, from what I've heard) that I hadn't listened to for months after Brian died. The first song that struck me was "Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da" which has a chorus that says just that: "Life goes on." I felt like it was Brian wanting me to hear that song. (He was buried with the other half of the two cd set that the cd I was listening to came from. I had turned him into a HUGE beatles fan, too.) Anyways, Brian's entire life, as well as his death, is part of who I am, part of who Lori is, part of who we are as a couple, part of our other two kids. And so, life goes on. I'm glad it does. I know Brian is glad it does, too. Oh, i wish he was "here" to help us deal with Dad's cancer and with mom's hip, and with a thousand other things that I wish he was involved in. But the thing is, he IS involved in all those, just because he is now, and always wille be, part of who we are. Just as much as if he was still walking around breathing and making his funny remarks. So, someday, I pray, you'll be glad for THIS life. The one that Adam left too soon, but still, the one that he graced with his presence and continues to grace. He's part of each and every one of you. That love you want to give him -- why not give it to the part of him that is in each of the members of your family? Not that you don't already do that. I'm sure you do. While you're loving on all the people in your life, just remember what you said on here the other day. Adam taught you how to love. How cool is that for his legacy to be LOVE! Keep on loving and living. Life goes on.

Love from Memphis!
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Sunday, August 1, 2004 4:55 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope you're feeling better. I sure hope you can pass those stones on your own without much pain or difficulty.
I won't be able to write on here until Fri. We are leaving for vacation tomorrow evening. I must admit that I'm not really looking forward to it. I'm just doing it for the kids. I don't want to leave mom.
I just cannot BEGIN to imagine one's grief over the loss of a child. Losing a parent is heart wrenching enough. Who would have ever thought a year ago that our families would be in the situations that we are today!! I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!
Just about every day on caring bridge another child loses their battle with cancer! What is going on?! That shouldn't be! Children should be playing NOT fighting cancer!
I bet satan is just loving all this. I'd LOVE to ring his neck!!!!!!!
I'm sorry, I don't mean to squabble. It's just some times I get soooo furious! Of all the lousy, good-for-nothing scrounges out there still walking the earth,and the good ones are always taken away!
I'm sorry. Forgive me. I know God loves them just the same as you and I.
You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers while were gone. I love ya!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, July 31, 2004 11:04 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope your last evening of bible school went well. I bet you never thought it would end!:) Thinking of you all always and prayers are never ceasing. Hope your pain was better today.
Looking forward to more "Adam" memories!!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, July 30, 2004 9:27 PM CDT

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I'm so sorry about you feeling so yucky. I'll keep you in my prayers and take it easy ok? I'll check back after the weekend. take care Holly and family!! :) thank you for sharing your sweet Adam with us!!!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 7:39 AM CDT

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Holly-
Sorry to hear you are not feeling well. I hear that kidney stones are painful, so take it easy and don't over do it and take care of yourself:) I think of you all everyday and pray that God will ease your pain. I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 30, 2004 6:05 AM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry to hear of your kidney stones. I have never had any but my dad had them several times and they are EXTREMELY PAINFUL!!!!! Next to child birth I've heard. Not what you wanted to hear I'm sure. I hope you can pass them without any laser or whatever they do now a days and without much pain. I hope you got my e-mail the other day. If I'd had the time I would have called you.
It's so nice to see and read all the comforting messages that people write to you on here. Everyone always has something special to say. Your family and Adam are sooooo special and loved by so many people. God sure does provide doesn't he?
You all are in my prayers. I love ya!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, July 29, 2004 8:22 PM CDT

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hi holly
once again i find myself checking up on adams memories and how things are going with you. kidney stones!! i never had them and pray i never do. and once again thank you for sharing memories of adam i love reading about htem
abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
- Thursday, July 29, 2004 4:33 PM CDT

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It is so wonderful to hear those stories of Adam. So sweet about playing army..it's amazing how much they take in from movies etc and add it to their playtime. It is sweet about the basketball too. I hope you find out who left it. Prayers are headed your way!
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 1:03 PM CDT

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My thoughts and prayers are with you Holly.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 7:57 AM CDT

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Holly-
Thanks so much for sharing the memories of Adam. I love to hear them. I am so sorry for your pain. I am praying for God to ease your pain somehow. I wish I could help in some way. I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, July 28, 2004 7:44 AM CDT

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Holly,
I am so sorry you are having such a rough time and honestly I don't want to say it will get better because I don't know how it could, but I know it has to, God says so He says you will grieve for a time but joy comes in the morning. I don't know when your morning will come but He promises He will take care of you so try to stand on that the best you can. I know easier said than done. But Holly you really have to quit feeling selfish you are a wonderful loving mother and you should never apologize for that. I feel kind of bad telling that you I have learned so much from your loss. I have learned to appreciate my child so much more than I did, I have learned to cherish every little thing about him, like taking the time to lean down and kiss him each chance I get and to try not to take my frustrations out on him when I have had a bad day, and to tell him how much I love him every chance I get. So I am sure that this stuff is not very comforting to you but I just want you to know that your loss is not in vain we all have learned so much from you and Adam and I am so sorry that you had to be the example but you are a great one such a loving caring mother who has taught me so much. I pray for your peace and healing to come soon. Lots of love and prayers!
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kentonq, ohio usa - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

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hang in there, holly. thinking about you today.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il 60523 - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 1:56 PM CDT

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What a great picture! I'll be thinking of you while you're at VBS this week. Adam is there with you listening to those sweet praises and probably singing along. I'm praying for you!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 12:49 AM CDT

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Hey Holly. I love to read your stories of Adam. Keep sharing. I hope that you are doing okay. You are thought of often. I don't sign your guestbook each day, but I do check on you daily.

In His Care,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Hernando, MS - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 9:35 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you and praying for you daily. Good luck with VBS this week. Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, July 26, 2004 3:46 PM CDT

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that's a sweet memory. I'm sure Adam is having a great time with all the things he can now do through being so complete. I'm praying for you and your family. keeping you in my thoughts and in my heart too!
Love always~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford , NH USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 8:28 AM CDT

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I'm just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

My website


*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 6:53 PM CDT

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Holly,
Aren't memories precious? You don't know how precious they are until you lose someone you love. My advice to EVERYONE, make all the memories you can because you never know when you might lose a loved one or you yourself pass away.
It's also amazing how even the littlest memory, that you had totally forgot about, you suddenly remember once that loved one is gone. Thank God for those!!!! Memories are PRICELESS!!!
Again, I enjoy hearing all your memories of Adam and I'm glad you share them with all of us on his CB web site. I think and pray for you all daily. I'm here for you always.

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 6:54 PM CDT

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Holly,
Well Abbie and I are currently on floor 5, but I remember those 2 floor days. It was alot simplier when Adam and Abbie were 3 years old fighting leukemia. At 11 it's tough. I am glad Adam was a fighter and fought it to the end! I pray Abbie's body can hold up to the fight and also her mind. Thanks for being such a great mom to Adam and helping him fight to the end.....
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 10:46 PM CDT

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Holly-
I check the website almost everyday to see how you are. 7 months seems like a lifetime ago and sometimes it seems like just yesterday....I miss Adam so much. I am thinking of you all and praying for you.
I love you all.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 22, 2004 6:38 AM CDT

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We're heading out for a camping trip tomorrow so I'll sign in now to let you know you're in my prayers Holly. I'll be thinking of you. I'm so sorry for your grief. I wish I had something to say to make you feel better..all I can say is that God is with you and with Adam. Know that you're in my thoughts. I'll check in on you again real soon. Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford , NH USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 6:23 AM CDT

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Holly,
Seven mos. ago seems like a lifetime ago. Tomorrow will be 1 mos. since dad's death, even that seems like a lifetime ago.
It's just unbelievable how soooo much can happen in one year. You just never know. All we can do is live one day at a time,never forget,and keep their memories alive. Like I've said before, "life sucks and then you die."
You're in my prayers. I'm always here if you need me. I love ya!
Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, July 21, 2004 6:57 PM CDT

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I see someone signed in from England! Neat!! Thoughts and prayers are headed your way Holly. Diana described Adam's stone..the way you decorated it..it sounds so special. you are in my thoughts. You take care
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 8:21 AM CDT

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Thinking of you lots, love from Poppy and everybody at postpals. xxxxxx
Poppy <info@postpals.co.uk>
Milton Keynes, England - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 1:45 PM CDT

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Thinking of you lots, love from Poppy and everybody at postpals. xxxxxx
Poppy <info@postpals.co.uk>
Milton Keynes, England - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 1:45 PM CDT

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Holly,
I stopped by the cemetary today and visited dad and Adam. You have Adam's grave decorated so nice. I see you've put some of his army men on the ledge and have scattered some of their guns in the flowers. It is sooo nice. He would like it. All of his osu things are nice too.
Praying for you daily. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, July 20, 2004 1:18 PM CDT

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Holly-
I am glad you are able to keep busy and Adam would love that you are continuing to fight this terrible disease. I am sure he is very proud of his Mama:) I love you and think of you and Adam everyday!
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:02 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
It's Bible school time in the summer huh? I remember going. Will say a special prayer for you tonight. Adam is so proud of you fighting this terrible disease. My thoughts are with you Holly!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 6:57 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of all of you. I hope your job is still going well and the work on your new addition is close to being complete.
I'm here for you always!! Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, July 19, 2004 2:57 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and your family Holly
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Sunday, July 18, 2004 9:29 AM CDT

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Im sending all my love to you all,

Love

Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, July 17, 2004 11:29 AM CDT

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Holly,
I too am struggling with a new school year approaching and the fact I will not be going school shopping with Abbie. I remember last year celebrating our 5 years of being cancer free last October with a shopping trip to Limited Too. She had such a cute "girly figure" now she is blotted with drugs and stretch marks and will probably never be able to wear Limited Too clothes again.
My heart aches for you every time I go to your website. But I am still drawn to it and admire the many memories of your Adam that you share with us. You are a very special mom!
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USA - Friday, July 16, 2004 11:46 PM CDT

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Holly,
You have no reason to feel like you have to walk on egg shells and not talk about Adam if that is what is getting you by talk till you are blue in the face. But in people's defense if I didn't read this everyday and know that you want to talk about him I would be leery too because I wouldn't want to upset you more. Like a good example is Aunt Bea she has a really hard time talking about Uncle Dick she is remodeling her whole house to keep her mind off of him she said she has to keep her mind busy on other things or she will go crazy. So I guess it's true everyone deals with loss and grief differently. But you don't worry about it you do what you have to do and let your friends and family read between the lines whether or not you want to talk about him. Everybody just loves you so much and has seen you hurting for so long we don't want to do anything to add to that pain but if we realized not talking about him was painful to you we would talk about him as much as you do. I know it has to be very frustrating to you how different people react to you now not knowing what to say but just keep getting on here and expressing your feelings then we will know and we can pass it on to others that you never want to stop talking about your wonderful child. Quit worrying and apologizing to us we are here to listen to anything you have to say or feel good or bad! We love you so much and we just want you to have the closest thing to a normal life you can have now with a part of your heart missing. So please Holly just be yourself and don't worry about anyone else you have had to deal with enough emotions to last a life time without having to worry about how people react to you talking about sweet wonderful Adam!
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
Tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh us - Friday, July 16, 2004 9:51 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you always.
Love and Prayers,

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, July 16, 2004 10:56 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am so sorry for the pain you and Doug are going through..I love you and I wish I could make it go away. Hold on to those wonderful memories!
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 16, 2004 8:41 AM CDT

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Just stopping in to say hi and let you know you're in my prayers. I'll check back after the weekend Holly. You take care now
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, July 16, 2004 7:11 AM CDT

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Holly, letting you know that I'm thinking of all of you.
Kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, July 15, 2004 8:45 PM CDT

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Prayers of Love
are sent your way,
May the Blessed Lord
stay with you and comfort
you as each day passes.
Love Angel Toto <pat_totoofoz@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 15, 2004 6:21 PM CDT

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Holly-
Thinking of you today and always:)
I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 15, 2004 9:39 AM CDT

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Thinking of you today Holly!
prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, July 15, 2004 7:08 AM CDT

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Stopping by to let you know that your in our thoughts and prayers.

Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
God be with you!!!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota~*~

http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 12:08 AM CDT

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leave it to the dog to keep things interesting in your house! i'm thinking about you and hoping you have a good day. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 9:23 AM CDT

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You seeing signs of Adam is wonderful. I know Adam is looking out for you holly. You take care now and know I'm thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers! Glad your telephone line is back..I know how animals can be..!!!
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 9:08 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad Adam is giving you signs everywhere. I know what joy that brings you Holly! You all are in my constant thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, July 13, 2004 8:08 PM CDT

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Holly,
I got your webpage from LaKotas page. Please know that I am praying for you and your sweet angel in heaven. My husband had a mud transplant June 16, 2004. We are in Houston butlive in La. We are away from our 6 and 17 yr old sons and it is so hard. I pray for you and to Adam. Our caring bridge is la and johnny. Take care and I send you lots of hugs!! Cin
Cin Bulger <kingbee3rd@earthlink.net>
St. Rose, La. - Tuesday, July 13, 2004 9:25 AM CDT

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Holly,
I got your webpage from LaKotas page. Please know that I am praying for you and your sweet angel in heaven. My husband had a mud transplant June 16, 2004. We are in Houston butlive in La. We are away from our 6 and 17 yr old sons and it is so hard. I pray for you and to Adam. Our caring bridge is la and johhny. Take care and I send you lots of hugs!! Cin
Cin Bulger <kingbee3rd@earthlink.net>
St. Rose, La. - Tuesday, July 13, 2004 9:24 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am glad you all were able to get away for Johnathon's bday...15 yrs old...wow...it does not seem possible does it? I understand about the 4th and the holiday get togethers.....but I hope one day soon it will get easier for you...we missed you at the picnic. I am always here for you...and I am behind you all the way in your decisions...always!
I love you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, July 13, 2004 8:16 AM CDT

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Hi Holly
prayers headed out your way from new england
love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, July 13, 2004 7:09 AM CDT

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Holly,
I totally understand what you mean about that feeling of emptiness. There are so many clueless people in the world, people who have no idea of our pain. It isn’t their fault, and I do hope that they never do understand this pain. They just don't get it, and think we will get over it. We will never be over the loss of our children. Please know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers each day.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Monday, July 12, 2004 9:06 PM CDT

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Holly,
I found this poem some time ago and thought of you. I just haven't taken the time to write until now. You may have already read it before. It is titled "Why Us" originally written by Erma Bombeck for mothers of children with autism (I believe) but someone changed some of the words to fit for mothers of cancer children. Like I said, when I first read it, I thought of you .

Why Us?

Most women become a mother by accident,
some by choice, a few by habit.
Did you ever wonder how a mother of children
with cancer are chosen?
Somehow,I visualize God hovering over the earth
selecting his instruments for propagation with
great care and deliberation. As he observes, he
instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger....
"Armstrong, Beth, son, patron saint Matthew"
"Forest, Marjorie, daughter, patron saint Cecilia"
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins, patron saint Gerald
He's use to profanity"
Finally, he passes a name to an angel and says
"Give her a child with cancer."
The angel is curious. "Why this one God? She's
so happy."
"Exactly, smiled God. "Could I give a child with
cancer a mother who does not know laughter?
That would be cruel."
"But does she have patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience or
she will drown in a sea of self pity and despair.
once the shock and resentment wears off, she
will handle it."
"I watched her today." said God. "She has that
feeling of self-independence that is so rare and
necessary in a mother. You see, the child I'm
going to give her has it's own world. She has to
make it live in her world and that's not
going to be easy."
"But Lord, I don't think she believes in you."
said the angel.
"No matter, I can fix that. This one is perfect,
she has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps, "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she can't seperate herself
from the child occassionally, she'll never survive.
Yes, here is a woman I will bless with a child
less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet,
but she is to be envied. She will never take
anything her child does for granted.
She will never consider a step ordinary. I
will permit her to see..... ignorance, cruelty,
prejudice..... and allow her to rise above them."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the
angel, his pen poised in mid-air.
God smiles and says "A mirror will suffice."


You're in my thoughts and prayers daily Holly. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, July 12, 2004 3:03 PM CDT

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Thinking of you Holly. I'm sorry for your pain..keeping you in my prayers~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, July 12, 2004 11:22 AM CDT

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Hi Holly,
Just here to let you know that you and your precious angel are still very much in my thoughts and prayers...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, July 12, 2004 5:46 AM CDT

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Holly,
Tell Johnathon "Happy(belated)Birthday" !!!!!! the BIG 15!:) I had forgotton all about it until I talked to your mom at church today. I'm glad you guys are having a good time this weekend. Although I know you feel a "void" in your outings. I truely hurt for you and Doug. I hope you know that I will always be here for you! I love ya!!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, July 11, 2004 3:02 PM CDT

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Holly and Doug, I hope your new addition is coming along well. I am not surprised you went through with the reversal Holly. Doug had mentioned you two had talked of it but never said that you followed through. I pray things work and you are blessed with another child. I love all the little stories of Adam. They are truly unique and show that regardless of what life threw his way he lived it as full and as humorous as he could. I love the candy stories!! I pray your family continues to heal and hope Dougs' week went well!!
Jenny Cornell and Dakota & Madelynn <dakotat@bright.net>
Alger, Ohio - Sunday, July 11, 2004 2:30 PM CDT

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Holly, Just want to let you know that you are still in our thoughts and prayers. I hope that your busyness this weekend helps a little bit. I was so glad to hear that you and Amy had a good time in Columbus a few weekends ago. Its okay to take a break from your grief. Adam understands and rejoices when you are able to get a little relief from the pain. Hang in there sister!
Lori Holliday <lorihol@midsouth.rr.com>
Memphis, TN - Sunday, July 11, 2004 8:10 AM CDT

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HI Holly,

Thanks for sharing that memory of Adam. I am glad that you have the tape and the laughter that goes with it. I laughed right with you. Hang in and continue give yourself what you need to heal. Denise
Denise Hall <dhallartist@aol.com>
Thonotosassa, FL - Sunday, July 11, 2004 7:44 AM CDT

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I wish I had some answers for you. I wish I knew why kids get cancer at all, why we are made to feel lucky its only ALL, and yet we seem to still be losing so many to it. I am sure it feels like the grief is suffocating you. I can only equate it to the fear of losing a child, of which I am sure is no match. Please know we are all thinking of you.
Chris - Gooch's mom
Share the Love
- Saturday, July 10, 2004 11:35 AM CDT

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Holly,
Please accept my appologies for not getting on here as often as I usually do. For one, our internet has been acting up AGAIN ( mainly when i need to use it, when I'm busy,it's working!!!) You all are always in my thoughts, I think of you daily, and how hard it must be for you to cope and go on with your lives. I just cannot imagine!!!! It's hard enough losing a parent, I can't imagine losing a child.
The main reason I haven't been writing on here lately too is anger and depression (which all started with Adam when he passed away and now even more so with my dad). To be honest, I have nothing good to say. I hurt soooo much seeing all of you and your mom and dad suffering of broken hearts and now my mom. The loneliness and emptiness you are bearing. All the other children out there suffering from cancer and their families, all knowing deep down what the outcome is going to be, yet still holding on to that little glimpse of hope that maybe, just maybe, they will be one of the "VERY few and far between" who beat cancer. The doctors call it remission, is it really? I don't think so, it's just in hiding, laying dormit getting ready to rear its ugly head!!!
I'm sorry, forgive me. I didn't mean to get on my soap box again.
Our Bible school starts next week. I still remember last years VBS program. Elijah WOULD NOT go up front to sing with the others WITHOUT Adam with him. Then he got Johnathon involved. You could tell Johnathon was embarrased to be up front because he didn't know very many people from our church, heck, I don't even like being up front and i know everyone!!!! But, being the sweet boys that they are, went up anyway. Adam I don't think was bothered at all. He LOVED little kids!!! Elijah stuck by him like glue whenever he was around. It's amazing what a years time can do. All I can say is that I'm glad we can't see into the future.
Now, you said you wouldn't be updating this weekend because you are going to be busy? Is that busy on the new addition or busy making a baby?!?!?! HA! HA! HA! I'm sorry, I just couldn't resist!!!! Please don't be mad. I love ya Holly!! You and all your family mean the world to me. If there is anything you need let me know.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, July 8, 2004 2:10 PM CDT

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Hi Holly
Just wanted to stop in and say hi and let you know that you're on my mind! We're heading out to NY tomorrow to attend yet another wedding and to bring my nephew Zach home. He stayed with us for a week. I'll check in when we get home! You're in my prayers!!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, July 8, 2004 10:25 AM CDT

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Holly,

It is strange how other peoples live seem to go on yet we feel stuck in the same place. Stuck in different ways yet still stuck. Continue to do what you need to. Adams life needs to be remembered and celebrated. It is up to you now to do that. If people can't handle it, OH WELL!
There is no time frame, no protocol, grief is a different process for everyone. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
- Thursday, July 8, 2004 10:13 AM CDT

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Holly,

I found Adam's page through LaKota's. Just wanted to add my heartfelt condolences for your loss. It sounds like Adam was a very loving son. God was so good to give you such a gift. May He comfort and bless you now. He holds the peace...

I will remember you in my prayers.

Love,
Merri
The Mickelson Family www.caringbridge.org/mn/portia <KenandMerri@tcinternet.net>
Elk River, MN - Wednesday, July 7, 2004 4:39 PM CDT

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I hope you know that everything you are suffering through IS normal. They say 'time heals all'....I don't think time can ever heal the loss of a child. I hope you can find some happiness and comfort. Be happy for your kids, your son would want that.
A Mom
MN - Wednesday, July 7, 2004 9:57 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly
I'm sorry that people don't bring up Adam..they don't know how to react to the situation..they have not been there like you have. Let them know that you want to talk about Adam, it's just that they don't know, just give it some time Holly..they will come around. I think it's great to share in those memories with your son at the cemetery..sitting and talking about all the wonderful things Adam did and how he is in your heart etc.. I know I am glad that you are sharing him with all of us out here. I love hearing his stories, I'm so sorry that he had to leave this Earth so early. I keep you in my prayers Holly. Know I have you and your family on my heart. Have fun with the Bible school. fill us all in on how it goes!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, July 7, 2004 8:09 AM CDT

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I am a friend of Lakota'a and I found your site from hers. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. I have walked in those shoes. Hang in, keep talking and writing, get what you need from those willing to give and hang what anyone else thinks. This is your journey. While others who have traveled a similar road may offer strength, each journey is unique and only you and God truly know the time and depth of your healing. I will pray for you.
Denise Hall <dhallartist@aol.com>
Thonotosassa, Fl - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 6:17 PM CDT

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To the wonderful parents who brought Adam into this world, my heart aches for you. May God love and keep you, until you and your precious angel are reunited. I will pray for your emotional recovery in the face of this unspeakable loss...what do people lean on, who don't have faith? Your baby is soaring with the angels, without a doubt.
Suzanne
Monmouth Junction, NJ USA - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 4:29 PM CDT

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Keep talking WITH God and listening to His responses.
Thinking of you with empathy and sympathy for the loss of your precious Adam.
Mrs. Pam (from Lakota's site)
St. Louis, Missouri - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 10:51 AM CDT

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HI Holly
I thought of you all on the 4th. Don't worry about "rambling" we're all here to listen ok? I'm thinking of and praying for you.
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 8:13 AM CDT

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May God bless and keep you and your family. I pray for you to have strength and faith through even these hardest times.
melissa
saint louis, mo USA - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 8:06 AM CDT

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Our family has dealt with death, and now we are dealing with Cancer. It is okay and perfectly normal for you to be having the feelings that you are. I think as a parent who loses a child we tend to count the holidays, the birthdays as milestones. I will be thinking about you. Hugs to your family:)
The Rech family
Wyatt's Site
Kris Rech <kmrech@hotmail.com>
New Prague, MN USA - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 7:52 AM CDT

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You do not know me, but I am praying for you and your family. I pray that through God you all find a peace and healing. There are no words for your loss. May God hold you in his hands.
Sincerely,
Claire Crenshaw <ccrenshaw@bufordcityschools.org>
Dacula, GA - Monday, July 5, 2004 9:42 PM CDT

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Holly,
I love all the pictures of Adam. I really look forward to them!!! Not sure if I have ever signed but I have been following your site for a long time. I can feel your pain in a different way. My mom died of cancer too and holidays are not the same. I try to put on a smile for my family but it is so hard. Take it easy and know that so many people are thinking of you and your family during this difficult time in your life.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Sunday, July 4, 2004 9:55 PM CDT

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Holly,
It is so good to hear you talking so positive about God I think that is a really big step you have taken in the right direction of healing your heart. I expected you to be upset with God who wouldn't be when we all know He has the ability to heal Adam and chose not to, I have never been angry with God very confused but never angry but I think if anything could make me that way would the loss of my son. But I am so glad you are such a mature and good Christian, that even though your heart is torn into because of His choice to bring Adam home you have forgiven Him and have seen that He gave the ultimate sacrifice over 2000 years ago so that we can one do rejoice in heaven with the ones we love that have gone on. I by no means think you should be over what has happened or be totally healed of your broken heart, but now that you are no longer angry with you God you can keep drawing closer to Him and get the healing you need. You probably did not feel much like praying or telling God how much you loved Him when this first happened and He will not force Himself on us,but now that you are not angry with Him anymore the possibilities are endless how He is going to restore you. I know that another child is never going to replace Adam but if you remember in the story of Job God allowed everything to be taken from him just to see if He would still serve Him and Job was faithful even when he had lost all his material possesions and all of his children, he said naked I came in and naked I go out and that was the turning point in his trial, God immediately rushed onto the scene and restored Job to where he had more than had in the beginning and I believe that is what God is going to do for you and Doug, you cannot replace Adam but you do have the promise of seeing him again and oh what a day that will be! Don't worry about Jonathon I will be praying for him, but I think he has just clammed up for so long that he is probably just starting to grieve for Adam and with that comes all kind of feelings and emotions and anger at God is one of them unforutnately, but just keep instilling Godly principles in him and God will heal his heart and draw him back to. Well sorry I preached a little sermon to you, I am just so proud of how great you are doing and God is helping you to put everything into perspective. And don't worry about not wanting to party without Adam, I don't blame you, but you are right he is having a great time in heaven I know that, there is a good book called a Divine Revelation of Heaven where God showed a lady what Heaven was going to be like and it sound so wonderful I mean even better than the preachers and the Bible described it. I think I have it somewhere if it would give you any comfort to read it. As always lots of love and prayers, and Holly you are truly doing a great job what an inspiration as a mother!
Tracy
Tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, ohio us - Sunday, July 4, 2004 7:28 PM CDT

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Holly,
Please know that you all are always in my thoughts and prayers daily even though I have not been writing on here lately. I just don't have anything possitive to say. Ever since Adam's death and now more so since the sudden, unexpected death of my dad, I find myself questioning more and more.....is there REALLY a heaven, or are we just fooling ourselves to help us go on with our lives without our loved ones? I know I shouldn't think that but I do. Two BEAUTIFUL people who had soooooo much to give are gone, meanwhile the scroungiest of scrounges are still out there living their unworthy lives!!! It's just not right!!!!
I'm sorry, I better just stop right there.
I hope you all enjoy the fireworks tonight. Adam would want you to be happy Holly. Do you know how sad he would be knowing how badly you are feeling? Your happiness made his happiness and vice versa :)
I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, July 4, 2004 5:31 PM CDT

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Holly,
I know what you mean about the need to have another baby. Shortly after Abbie was born we decided our family was complete. But after she was Dx(8/2/96)with leukemia, I knew if we lost her my arms would be empty. So bless Larry he had a reversal in July, 1999 and LeAnna was born August 3,2000 and Luke was born September 2, 2001. Although we are still blessed to have Abbie the babies have been a real blessing since her relapse in November, 2003 and we're in the fight again. They keep some normalcy in our lives although it is difficult with all the clinic and hospital appointments we have again in Columbus and they are two little to understand why mommy and Abbie have to go to Columbus all the time. I am so glad we had them and I hope God blesses you with a baby in the near future. I love your new pictures of Adam!
Sherrie Dunn <www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn or sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, OH USA - Sunday, July 4, 2004 1:03 AM CDT

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Ahh the Fourth of July! Remember when you would hose Adam down with OFF so the mosquitoes wouldn't bite him? Then we would all pile out onto a blanket to watch the "crackers". All the triple poppers are for him this year.
Granny Witch
Kenton/Hepburn, OH Hardin - Friday, July 2, 2004 2:33 PM CDT

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Today' picture is darling. That's the sweet little grin I remember. He has left may memories for all of us who knew him. We love you all.
Gaye Holliday <cgholliday@hotmail.com>
Kenton, Oh - Friday, July 2, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

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Happy Anniversary Holly and Doug!
I think that is wonderful about your sugury Holly. Don't worry about people who will judge you..they have no right to. I'm sorry if that has happened to you. You write what you want to on here ok? It's good to write what you want to on here, don't be afraid to ! :) I'm so glad that Adam came to you while you were in the hospital. I'm thinking of and praying for you. Will drop you a line after the holiday weekend. Hope you get to go out and see the fireworks!
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, July 2, 2004 11:41 AM CDT

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to read what you write everyday is a reminder that i do not have any idea what you and your family are going through. and no one else can, either, unless they've experienced what you have...and even then, everyone is different and feels things differently. this is your life, and you make your decisions and the people that choose to judge, i think, have no right to do so. i'm thinking about you guys all the time, and wishing you well with whatever you do. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Friday, July 2, 2004 9:13 AM CDT

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Hi, This is Bryanne from Quilts of Love stopping by to leave prayers and hugs. I hope you are doing ok.
Bryanne Weaver <weaverbj@nsuok.edu>
Tulsa, OK USA - Friday, July 2, 2004 0:28 AM CDT

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Holly,
I think that is awesome news I hope you have ten more kids you are such a good mother. You are right you could never replace a kid as special as Adam but I think having another child is a great idea, and you need to quit worrying about what other people will think of you. You have to do what is best for you! I know Adam would love you to have another baby because I know he wants you to be as happy as you possibly can be. You and Doug deserve the best after the hell on earth you have been through.
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
Tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, ohio us - Thursday, July 1, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

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Hello Holly and Doug!!!!!! Im sorry I haven't wrote in while,Amy keeps me in touch with your Entries.I really miss Doug alot,he and I vent on each other often and im sure with that addition going on and the projects I have going on here that we have alot to say to each other. I greatly admire Doug and the strengths you all have together,I use him as my example in lifes trials.(no pressure Doug!!)I have for the record offered many times to help anytime he needs me, for all the things he does for me I would drop what Im doing anytime for my buddy.Holly,when Amy and I got together it wasn't possible for us to have children together,we talked alot and I went and had a reversal done myself so we could "try" to have a baby together.To make a long story short I recieved my surgery on Oct.3 1997 and on Oct.4 1998 Morgan was born!!!They said it could take up to a year to even possibly conceive,with alot of prayers together god gave Amy and I our little girl.I will say this though....he gave us a very beautiful,smart,and determend little girl. She's 5 going on 15!!!God blessed you with Adam to teach you all how sweet life really is and to test your faith and I would say you passed with flying colors and with everyones blessings and prayers I beleave the both of you well deserve another baby.I would also venture to say this though...if you ask Doug and the other two boys you'll find out you are still very much needed and depended on much more than you'll ever know.Please don't assume when your name isn't called every 5 minutes or that you find more time to yourself than what you would like that your not needed,your the glue holding things together and without you in the Kindal boys lives things would surely be lost and scattered.God bless you Holly and tell Doug to bend a nail or two for me.See Ya !!!
Johnny Downing
Lewistown, oh logan - Thursday, July 1, 2004 10:09 PM CDT

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HOLLY AND DOUG< HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
Kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, July 1, 2004 7:47 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,was very nice to see you the other day, you sure look nice with your hair like that.Diana is sure a sweetie isn't she?I sure do love her.My prayers go out to both of you and your families.Love to read about Adam.
Kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, July 1, 2004 7:44 PM CDT

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Holly and Doug,
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't realize that today was the day, I'm sorry, I would have sent you a card.
Thinking and praying for you always!!! I love the new pictures of Adam. He looks so peaceful in the picture where he is sleeping on the couch with Gabby.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, July 1, 2004 3:41 PM CDT

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I love that movie too!! What a wonderful memory.. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers today Holly. Know that you have many people out here eager to know more about your Adam, he sounds like a truely special boy and you a wonderful momma. thinking of you
love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, July 1, 2004 7:37 AM CDT

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hi holly,

the memory you wrote of adam today made me smile. i, too, prefer the whipped cream straight out of the can and into my mouth. and i just picked 'the goonies' as the next movie we will be showing at our special drive-in movie events here at the park district. i didn't even ask anyone else's opinion...i love that movie! i'm thinking about you. i hope today was a day of other good memories.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, June 30, 2004 4:18 PM CDT

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Hi Holly. Thinking of you today. keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. thanks for sharing your precious boy with us through this website!!
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, June 30, 2004 11:02 AM CDT

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Holly-
I can just see Adam out there riding his bike...and taking those training wheels off all by himself.....what an independent, brave, sweet boy:) Sorry I missed your call on Sat...I am glad you found the place you were looking for and I am so glad you had fun!! I'll bet Adam loved hearing "Laverne and Shirley" at their best:) Thanks again for sharing these memories of Adam, I truly enjoy reading them! I love and miss that little boy so much and it helps to read about him. I love you!
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, June 30, 2004 6:21 AM CDT

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Holly,
Cute picture of Adam with his b-day cake!! He has the same look as you do when you are listening intentively to someone speak. Like the "puppy dog" look. Those big brown eyes could melt ANYONES heart!!!! What a sweety!!
Thinking and praying for you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, June 29, 2004 9:40 PM CDT

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I bet he got a kick out of hearing you sing that song!! Praying for you holly! Thinking of you!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, June 29, 2004 7:12 AM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry I have not written on here for a while. I'm still in shock from the last week. I want to "Thank You" sooooooo very much for coming to the viewing and the funeral. You will NEVER know how much that meant. I can't imagine how hard that must have been for you. I'm sorry. You are such an amazing, strong and faithful person and such a wonderful friend!! You truely are an angel on earth!!! I love you for that!
I was so happy to see that my dads grave is right across the little roadway from Adam.

Adam, i hope you and my dad are having a good time. I bet by now you've become really good fishing buddies. I hope you and my dad know how much we all miss you both sooooo much down here!! We just keep going through the motions. Life just isn't the same without the two of you. Sending my love, Diana

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, June 28, 2004 9:00 PM CDT

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holly,

i hope today was a better day for you...it sounds like you deserve one! hang in there! thanks for continuing to write on this page...i am always glad to read a new entry and hear another memory. please pass a hello along to doug, jonathan and josh and know that i'm thinking of you all.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Monday, June 28, 2004 3:42 PM CDT

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You are such a wondeful friend for diana..how strong you are and being there for her. I don't know Diana, but I can tell she is a great person and she will be appreciative that you were there for her. God sends us these angels here on earth to help us along. What a big boy to ride his bike all by himself. What a wonderful memory. how strong to ride his bike with his sore legs. I have been keeping you in my prayers Holly. Will check on you again real soon
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, June 28, 2004 6:49 AM CDT

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June is almost over...it's all down hill after the fourth of July, you know! (That's just teacher and kid talk.) I have been thinking about Adam at school and some of the things he used to do. The memories of him are comforting but bitter sweet. I'm sure you understand what I am saying. I'm very glad though, I got to see the "student/school" side of Adam. I have a picture of him at school that I love to share with the kids; they ask, and I tell them about "Angel Adam". Tell the boys that "round two" of the big bad badmittin game is coming to a backyard near them, soon.

Love you muchly,
Granny Witch
Hepburn/Kenton, OH Hardin - Sunday, June 27, 2004 9:14 PM CDT

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Holly

Hi sweetie!

I do hope all went well for you (as well as things could have gone) when you attended the funeral last night. Funerals are never fun, but I can't imagine how much more difficult it must have been for you to go to the same funeral home where *Adam's* services was held. My thoughts and prayers are ALWAYS with you!

That story you shared about *Adam* taking off his training wheels was absolutely adorable! I always love visiting *Adam's* site not only so I can check up on you and your family, but also because you always share the most precious stories of *Adam*. Keep up the wonderful work, hon!

Hoping you and your family have been enjoying this weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!



Shannon & Samantha Therese <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Saturday, June 26, 2004 8:58 PM CDT

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Holly,
Boy you are so good with almost daily entries. My goal is to make at least weekly updates. I am not much of a writer, but I have found this past week it does help to journal it down at this website. I am so sorry for you and your friend, Diane. I will keep you in my prayers.
I sent you an email....did you get it?
Sherrie Dunn <sherrie_d@treca.org or www.caringbridge.com/oh/abbiedunn>
Morral, Oh USA - Friday, June 25, 2004 11:37 PM CDT

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Holly,

Thinking about you today.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
- Friday, June 25, 2004 9:52 AM CDT

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So sorry to hear about Diana's Dad..I'll keep her in my prayers.
Thanks for another wonderful memory of Adam Holly! Those red neck jokes are very funny...he must have made them even more so with his southern drawl. Thanks for sharing. I'm praying for you and your family. You take care Holly
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, June 25, 2004 9:30 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am sorry to hear about Diana's father. I will be praying for Diana and her family. I love to read about the memories of Adam. I can just see him and hear him doing that stuff. I loved his laugh and his smile. I miss him so much.
I love you!
Love and Prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 25, 2004 6:26 AM CDT

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Holly-
Thinking of you today and everyday. I am praying for you, Lakota, and Diana's father. I love you.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 24, 2004 11:29 AM CDT

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Hi Holly - I haven't been on the computer for a couple of weeks now for one reason or another, but think about you all often. I'm sure Father's day was hard, especially with it being so close to Adam's anniversary date. Hang in there. If you and the family can get away, even for a few days, I think you should. Survivors have no choice - they have to keep going forward, living with and sustaining the memories, making new ones for those left behind. Just when you think you've done the hardest thing you can, something new will come along to challenge you. I'm sure Adam would want you to continue doing and seeing things even though he can't be with you. Remember - one day at a time. Sorry to hear about Diana's dad - it's never easy. Say hi to all your family for me. Take care.

Love, Linda


Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Thursday, June 24, 2004 9:32 AM CDT

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HI there Holly
I'm thinking of you today. prayers headed out your way from NH .
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, June 24, 2004 9:25 AM CDT

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Holly,
Please know that you continue to be my thoughts and prayers as we go through this horrible journey.
Barb - Steven's Mom Forever
www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Wednesday, June 23, 2004 8:05 PM CDT

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I am so sorry about Diana's Dad..I read her entries on here and she sounds like a truely special friend of yours Holly. I will keep her and her family in my prayers. Thinking of you and your family Holly. I'm so sorry for all your pain. Keeping you in my prayers
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, June 23, 2004 2:06 PM CDT

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thinking of you today and hoping that the good memories start outnumbering the sad ones. love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, June 23, 2004 1:11 PM CDT

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I pray that God is watching over you Holly. To help you with your pain. I'm sorry for all you've been through. Thinking of and praying for you and your family
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 7:36 AM CDT

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Holly-
Please know I think of you all everyday and I was sending special prayers to Doug on his birthday and Father's day, I know that must have been very difficult. I pray that God will help to ease your pain...and I wish there was something I could do to help you. I am so very sorry that you and Doug have to go through this. I love you!
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 22, 2004 6:21 AM CDT

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Holly,

Been thinking about you alot. We are moving along......
I am still struggling but am trying to be strong for the girls and Hayden. I know we would have had Tanner this Friday. It just doesn't seem right. I wanted you to know that although our situations are different your strength has helped me.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
Va beach, Va beach - Monday, June 21, 2004 3:06 PM CDT

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Thinking of you today Holly!
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, June 21, 2004 6:46 AM CDT

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Holly,
I don't think we ever crossed paths but I find it hard to believe that we did not. My daughter Abigail was diagnoised with ALL on August 2, 1996. We recently relapsed in November of 2003 in the CNS. I was at a Kids n Kamp event and a lady from the Dispatch asked if I knew you? She gave me your caring bridges website. I just set one up: caringbriges.org/oh/abbiedunn. I don't know a lot about computer and will have to figure out how to do the pictures. The picture of your Adam with the guitar is great. I too have a Adam in fact his name is Adam Dunn for
you Reds fans but unfortunately he's not the ball player making big bucks! I live in Morral it's between Kenton and Marion. Your story breaks my heart and I pray that your cup passes over us....but one never knows.
Sherrie Dunn <sherrie_d@treca.org>
Morral, Ohio United States - Sunday, June 20, 2004 0:06 AM CDT

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Hi Holly,
Great to hear the jellybean story as well as the other memories of Adam that you've been sharing. Y'all take care of each other.
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Saturday, June 19, 2004 3:10 PM CDT

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Holly,
That story is funny, how sweet!! I love to hear all the stories about Adam. I am especially thinking of Doug this weekend. How difficult it will be this Fathers Day without sweet Adam. You are in my prayers.
My dad had his open heart surgery today, 5 way bypass. So far all is going well. Now the long road of recovery begins. Thank you VERY much for all your prayers for him.
You are such a sweet friend. I love you all very much. If you need me at any time, I am here.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, June 18, 2004 8:58 PM CDT

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I wondered where the jelly bean thing came from!!! :) that is sweet. How sharing and loving are the stories of Adam. THanks for sharing Holly. thinking of you!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, June 18, 2004 4:22 PM CDT

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I am also loving the memories of Adam. How sweet. Keep sharing them. I know that it makes you feel better to share.

In His Care,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason


www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Hernando, MS - Friday, June 18, 2004 3:40 PM CDT

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Holly-
Please keep writing about the memories of Adam. I really love hearing these stories because I can vividly picture him doing and saying these things:) I miss that little guy so much!!
I love you.
Adam- I love you and I miss you so much!
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 17, 2004 12:46 AM CDT

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Funny song..I have heard that someplace..! I love chinese food and eat it all the time. My brother will call me up every weekend to say hi (my family is all back in upstate NY) and he always picks on me about that..! I like the new look on the page. Pretty color. I'm thinking of you today Holly!! prayers headed out your way from New England
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH U.S.A. - Thursday, June 17, 2004 11:30 AM CDT

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Holly,
I like the new design you put on here, it is very pretty.
I think our computer has a virus cause at times as soon as you turn it on it locks up(that's why I couldn't write yesterday)But this morning it has been doing fine so far. Every time Michael tries to do a virus scan it locks up about half way through.
Please know I'm thinking and praying for you always. Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, June 17, 2004 9:40 AM CDT

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holly,

i love to read your memories of adam. the one that always sticks in my head was when you, doug and adam were trying to explain the email to my mom and i that had a dancing hamster or mouse or something...and it sang a song? doug tried to open the email while we were at your house and it wouldn't work, and than adam started singing the song. he was laying in his recliner, and sat up a little, held his eye open, did a little dance in his chair and sang the song for us. i thought it was great and it definitely made me laugh. that's how i remember your son. sometimes i am sad that we didn't meet sooner and then i remind myself that i was lucky to meet your family at all. thanks for sharing adam with us. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 7:50 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly!
THat is so funny about the wrapper! He didn't miss a trick then did he? He sounds like he was such a sharing child with the money he put in the can for the child with burns..how many other kids can you name that will do that? how special. God was surely in Adam. Thank you for sharing Holly. I love his stories. The trip to the falls might be good for you. I know that it would be hard w/o Adam being with you physically, but once you get there I'm sure you'll find him around every corner in the beauty of the falls. It is a pretty place. I know I don't know how you feel, but I know that Adam is in your heart wherever you go. He is there with you, you are keeping him there by sharing his stories and talking about him on here. It was so wonderful to hear of him! you aare such a good mamma. you take care Holly. Thinking of and praying for you and your family!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 7:41 AM CDT

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Holly,
I remember you telling me about the twinky wrapper and him lifting up his eye to see if you were eating his candy!!!! That is hillarious!!! What a sweety.
No, your vacations won't be the same without Adam there (physically) but he will be with you ALWAYS no matter where you go, in your heart. He's looking down on all of you. It will be hard to make new memories. I will say some extra prayers for you and Doug tonight. I look forward to hearing more memories of adam:) I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, June 15, 2004 9:56 PM CDT

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I love the picture, what a handsome young man with that guitar! Thanks for sharing holly. We love to hear of Adam and see his pictures. Thinking and praying for you~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 7:42 AM CDT

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Holly-
That is a great photo of Adam!! What a cutie!! I think of you daily and I wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain.
I love you!
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 15, 2004 6:11 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you always.

Love and prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, June 14, 2004 10:19 PM CDT

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Thank you for your words of encouragement. I do know your pail all to well. I wish we could find some magic pill or something that would help ease the pain. I guess you are right we only can think of their joy and hope it makes our pain easier. Take care and keep in touch. www.caringbridge.com/va/taylor
Neena Hancock <Neena04@aol.com>
Portsmouth, Va - Monday, June 14, 2004 8:50 PM CDT

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Hi holly!
The baseball coach sounds like such a sweet man. It's so special when people like that come to our lives. Truely a God send!! :) I'm thinking of you today. Prayers coming your way.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, June 14, 2004 7:34 AM CDT

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Stopping by to let you to know that we are thinking you, and sending lots of prayers your way.+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Love LaKota , Debbie & Steve
God be with you!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota~*~
DOG (DEPEND ON GOD)



http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Sunday, June 13, 2004 6:13 PM CDT

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Holly,
What a hansome picture (yet again) of precious Adam and he's even posing with his guitar!!! What a beaut!!!
I wish I could help ease your pain. I know you probably get tired of me repeating this day after day, but.... you all really are on my mind daily and always in my prayers. I love you all very much!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, June 12, 2004 9:24 PM CDT

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Holly,
Sounds like you had a GREAT day!!! Sound like our house!!!
Thinking of you always and in my constant prayers. Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, June 11, 2004 9:48 PM CDT

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Holly,

I have to laugh at your day care stories...we have pretty much outlawed glitter here at the day camps...I know how messy it can be! I worked in the 3 year old room here a while ago, and it was nuts. And I could never understand why they just couldn't go in the bathroom and wash their hands...why do they always have to fill the sink, overflow it with bubbles and get their shirts wet up to their armpits?!?!? I'll never understand it. They are cute, though, and sometimes I just had to laugh. Now you have all weekend to rest up! My friends and I are going on a baseball road trip the weekend of June 25 and one of the stops is a Reds game in Cincinatti. I'll be thinking about all of you, especially Adam. His pictures are still here in my office and I check the website everyday...you guys are always in my thoughts. Have a good weekend. Love,
Kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Friday, June 11, 2004 2:24 PM CDT

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Holly-
I just wanted to say I love you all and am thinking of you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 11, 2004 1:47 PM CDT

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Holly,
You’re right, our boys are free from all the cares in the world, and finally whole again. I need to remind myself of that more often. I will pray for the little boy in your class – pray that it is just a “normal” pain. Isn’t it amazing how if someone is hurting, our first thoughts are always that it must be serious? I guess it’s because we know how serious a simple pain can be. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Friday, June 11, 2004 12:03 AM CDT

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HI Holly
Thinking of you and your family. I'll check up on you after the weekend! Take care now
Love and prayers~ :)
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, June 11, 2004 8:38 AM CDT

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thinking of you Holly ,hope your keeping cool.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, June 10, 2004 9:13 PM CDT

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Hi there Holly!
The new addition sounds great. I bet you are all excited!!! i would love and addition!!! There is ALWAYS need for more space isn't there? How did you like the movie? A friend and I went on opening night. it was a mad house but we pre bought our tickets so we got right ahead of the line. It was good, but the first one is my favorite :) we have read all the books..what kids we are right?! THey are fun though. WEll, I want you to know I'm thinking of ya and praying for ya!! Take care now and "talk" to ya soon!
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, June 10, 2004 6:45 AM CDT

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Holly,
I bet you are excited that the process of the addition is beginning. I know how much you have been wanting to use a whole room for Adam's things. I'm excited for you!! I'm glad your job is going well for you also. I think of you all, all the time, and you're most certainly always in my prayers.

Love and Prayers,
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, June 9, 2004 9:33 PM CDT

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THe pool sounds wonderful about now..it's been miserably hot here..I've been watering the garden like crazy in this heat!! I'm praying for you and your family holly! Thinking of you today!! :)
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, June 9, 2004 6:51 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you. Love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, June 8, 2004 8:01 PM CDT

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hi kindells!
i am finally back from atlanta and pretty much caught up at work. my trip wasn't great - i hurt my elbow playing volleyball and am still in a sling. i hope adam's birthday celebration went well. i hope you're enjoying your job at the day care! please say hello to all and know that i'm thinking about you. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il 60514 - Tuesday, June 8, 2004 10:14 AM CDT

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Yes, we do enjoy you sharing those memories with us Holly! Thank you for that. I'm glad the kids make you feel better and it sounds like you really like your job. i do agree.Adam's pictures are gorgous. Thank you again for sharing your precious memories of him with us. Praying for you and your family. take care.
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, June 8, 2004 7:14 AM CDT

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Holly,
Just like they say...."out of the mouths of babes". We could all learn lessons from children. They "don't beat around the bush", they come right out and ask or say what is on their minds and they ALWAYS, ALWAYS look you straight in the eye when they talk to you!! Why must we lose that innocense? Children are sooo precious! Yes,they can get on your nerves and drive you nuts alot, but I wouldn't change that for the world!!!!!! Just think how BORING life would be without all the chaos and such that comes with having children around.
I'm glad your job is going well. You are soooo good with kids, you are just like your mom. I'm glad you continue to share *Adam memories* with us on here. We really enjoy them.
Thinking and praying for you always! Love ya!!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos,.com>
- Monday, June 7, 2004 9:02 PM CDT

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Holly

Hi hon! I apologize for not signing in for awhile. Please don't think that means you and your terrific family haven't been on my mind. All of you are in my heart, thoughts and prayers every minute of every day.

I'm sure *Adam's* song and video are absolutely beautiful! I can only imagine how wonderful it is (and possibly heart breaking as well) to see that gorgeous boy of yours on video. I can completely understand how it bothers you when people say they don't care to watch that tape with you, but I'm sure you don't have any problem watching it by yourself.

I don't find it pitiful at all that you thought of *Adam* while you were hugging that nephew of yours. Actually, I think it's quite beautiful. I've been following *Adam's* page for quite sometime now and I've yet to read of anything that has made me think any less of you. You are a beautiful, caring, loving, WONDERFUL woman!!!

That picture of *Adam* on the front of his page is gorgeous! What a beautiful boy! Thank you so much for posting such a wonderful picture!

Wishing you and your family an excellent week!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Samantha Therese



Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Monday, June 7, 2004 8:15 AM CDT

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Not pitiful at all Holly, I would be the same way. I bet the song was beautiful at the banquet. thinking of you and your family. I'll check back soon!
love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, June 7, 2004 6:32 AM CDT

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Holly,
Please know how much you are thought of and prayed for each and every day. I'm sorry you must go on in life without sweet, precious Adam. I love ya!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, June 6, 2004 9:25 PM CDT

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Adam's baseball photo shows the most handsome boy full of life- a boy any mom would be proud to call her own even if it were only for 11 short years. With tears in my eyes I send you my prayers to continue on.
XXOO, Marey
http://caringbridge.org/ca/ali
Marey, Ali's mom <kteachermom@hotmail.com>
San Carlos, CA - Sunday, June 6, 2004 1:00 PM CDT

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Holly,
Don't appologize for not having anything positive to say. We all wish we could take away your hurt and your pain. I, personally, do not know how you can still get on here as often as you do and continue to journal. I don't think I could. All you can do is just take one day at a time, one hour, one minute, one second. Continue to keep God first and know that each day you get through is another day closer to being with Adam again.
I love you all.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, June 5, 2004 9:44 PM CDT

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Holly,what a beautiful stone,everything looks nice.love ya hon,my thoughts and prayers are with you
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Friday, June 4, 2004 9:48 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you today and hoping that your day is a good one (as good as can be). You're always in my thoughts and forever in my prayers. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, June 4, 2004 9:53 AM CDT

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Hello Holly
I wanted you to know that I'm praying for you!! Thinking of you~
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
ORFORD, NH USA - Friday, June 4, 2004 9:34 AM CDT

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Hi Folks,

It was good to talk with you folks briefly while I was in Ohio. What made it especially good was to see smiles on both your faces. There was hurt behind those smiles, for sure, but there were smiles just the same. So I thank God for that.

In the rushing around the few days I was there I didn't get to Adam's grave. So thank you for the pics and descriptions and updates you put on here for those of us who can't/haven't seen Adam's resting spot. You talking about the picnic, Holly, reminded me that after Brian's death, I wanted to sleep out at the cemetery. I am sure that the rule about being there after dark was the only thing that kept me from doing it. You want to stay close physically someway somehow. So with the picnics and the helping with, and showing up for 50th anniversary parties and all that you are doing in your lives these days let me just say that you are honoring Adam's memory so faithfully by the way you are living your lives - working, helping friends and neighbors, loving deeply. Your boys must feel good inside to know that their parents' love is a love that stays strong in life and in death. Keep smiling.

Love from Memphis, Tennessee
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Friday, June 4, 2004 8:18 AM CDT

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thinking of you today Holly
prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
ORFORD, NH USA - Thursday, June 3, 2004 7:04 AM CDT

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Holly,
I have to take back what I said about Adam only looking like Doug he looks just like you in this picture, I never realized he has your exact same smile. What a handsome handsome boy. I wish I had a better phrase to say to you other than I am sorry but what else is there? You have literally had the life sucked out of you but yet you are forced to go on living. You have all these wonderful blessings all around you but they mean nothing to you without Adam there to enjoy them with you. I guess I feel like Diana did a couple of days ago, it's hard to be encouraging when we think it sucks just as bad as you do. God is awesome I never question His love or His ability but I do get very agravated with all the diseases we have down here I just wish he would waive His hand and make it all go away. I know it is foolish of us to think that no one should die because it is just a way of life but it doesn't seem fair that a little child who had so much to offer this world would have to leave so early. Your mom was down at Dad's birthday party on Monday and she misses Adam so much but I think the thing that is killing her the most is watching her child go through the same thing she did, I know you already know it but she loves you so much and hurts so much for you, she's a great mom and the apple didn't fall far from the tree. This is just too much hurt and pain for any one family to bear, but what do you do? You grin and bear it and pray that God gets you through each day until you run through those pearly gates and throw your arms around that beautiful boy and you never have to let go of him again! What a day that will be I hope I am there to see that reunion. Lots of love and prayers.
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
Kenton, oh u - Wednesday, June 2, 2004 11:49 PM CDT

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Hi,Holly.just to let ya know that I think of you and your family often.Going to stop tomorrow to see Adams stone after work.luv ya,
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Wednesday, June 2, 2004 9:06 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope you had a good day today, and that your job is still going well for you. How's it going getting up by 6am? I know Doug likes to tease you about that. But, like I told him (since you only have to work until noon and he doesn't get off until 3pm) you get to be the first one to take a nap!!!! Oh Holly, you have such a wonderful, beautiful family. I'm just sooo sorry that Adam can no longer physically be here with you all. It just breaks my heart to see you all enduring this agony!! I hope you know how much you all mean to me and that if you EVER need ANYTHING, I'm here for you always. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, June 2, 2004 8:33 PM CDT

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Hey there Holly
I am so sorry for your grief..i don't know what else to say..just know I'm praying for you and your family ok? That is so sweet about the kids meal toy..what a loving brother..take care now. prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
ORFORD, NH USA - Wednesday, June 2, 2004 7:46 AM CDT

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Holly-
I just wanted to say that I am glad I was able to attend the memorial for Adam and the celebration of his 12th birthday. Although it was very nice...it was very difficult as well. I miss that little guy and love him with all my heart. I think of Adam and you, Doug, and the boys everyday! I love you!
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, June 2, 2004 6:15 AM CDT

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Holly,
Always in my thoughts and always in my prayers. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, June 1, 2004 9:14 PM CDT

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Hi Holly
I'm glad that the balloon release was so gorgeous and I was there in my heart. We just got back from NY and my friends wedding etc..what a hectic weekend but I was thinking of you and your family. You are in my prayers. Thinking of you
Prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, June 1, 2004 10:15 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm soooo sorry. I know that doesn't mean much when you are hurting so, but I don't know what else to say. To be honest, ever since that Wed. night at church when your mom came in crying and came straight over and hugged me and said " they sent Adam home with hospice." All I REALLY have wanted to do is cuss until I'm purple!!!! I know that won't make things any better though.
I can't imagine having to live with half of my heart. It's so hard watching you,Doug,the boys, and your mom and dad going through this and there isn't ONE DARN THING I CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!!! I can't bring Adam back, I can't go back in time and change the outcome! I hate not being able to "be in control" of "uncontrolable" situations. Like the saying goes.... Life sucks and then you die.
I'm sorry, but, sometimes it's hard to be encouraging on here. To be quite honest that's why I missed writing on here a few days last week. I couldn't think of ONE encouraging thing to say. Adam's passing (and all the other children out there losing their lives to this beast)isn't right and it CERTAINLY isn't fair!!! I just have to believe that all these questions will be answered in heaven.
There's not a day goes by that I don't think of sweet little Adam and all of you. I love you all.

Love and Prayers

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, May 31, 2004 7:19 PM CDT

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Hello, just dropping by to send a hug to you









Love Viks on behalf of everyone at Post Pals


viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, May 30, 2004 5:32 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, May 30, 2004 6:45 AM CDT

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Holly, I Just want you to know that I still think of you.

Barb - Steven's Mom Forever
www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Saturday, May 29, 2004 7:33 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and wishing you all good memories and unexpected smiles to help you get through the especially hard days, like your angel's birthday. As another ALL mom, your journey of course terrifies me, we are told its not to be, we are the lucky ones, with the best type of cancer...
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Saturday, May 29, 2004 3:38 PM CDT

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thinking of you on adam's birthday. may the sun shine all day warming your heart. thoughts and prayers, angelique parker
www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Saturday, May 29, 2004 0:18 AM CDT

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Holly,
Just had to let you know again how beautiful Adam's memorial was this evening and how beautiful his stone and all the decorations are. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 28, 2004 8:50 PM CDT

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Doug&Holly,I read the web site about everyday, I just never sign the guest book, Holly I admire your strength,Adam was so lucky to have a Mom like you!! I enjoyed looking at all the pictures, he was a beautiful boy. Your in my thoughts &prayers,Take Care-Anita Justice
Anita Justice <justus1413@yahoo.com>
Spfld, Oh USA - Friday, May 28, 2004 2:34 PM CDT

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Happy "12th" Birthday Adam!!!!!! We love and miss you very much!!!
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 28, 2004 7:26 AM CDT

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR, SWEET, PRECIOUS ADAM!!
We love you and miss you soooooooo much. We pray that you have a wonderful 12th birthday with your Heavenly Father and Creator. God Bless You!

Love, Amy, Gary, Brady and Alex


Dear Holly, Doug, Johnathon, and Josh,
I love you all. You are in my heart and my prayers today. I know that the birthday celebration will be very special. You have done Adam very proud!! I pray that you feel his presence in a special way today. God Bless You All!!!!!
I love you.
Love, Amy



Amy <collinsa@kenton.k12.ohus>
Kenton, Oh - Thursday, May 27, 2004 10:24 PM CDT

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Thinking of Adam as he celebrates his earth birthday in heaven with the host of angels playing songs for him.
Love Angel Toto <pat_totoofoz@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, May 27, 2004 9:54 PM CDT

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Holly,
Looking forward to tomorrow...sweet Adam's 12th birthday! I think the memorial is going to be beautiful along with all the green balloons that will be sent up his way in heaven.
I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to write yesterday,but you never leave my thoughts nor prayers. Again, I want to "thank you" for sharing your memories of Adam on here with us. I think I can speak for all of us on here, that we GREATLY enjoy hearing them! Adam is dearly missed by all who knew him.
Please know you, Doug, and the boys are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers! I love ya!!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, May 27, 2004 9:18 PM CDT

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Dropping by to let you know that I carry you in my heart and prayers as you celebrate the remembrance of Adam's birth and special life with you this side of Heaven. Our Lord Jesus prayed that "those which thou hast given me" be with Him where He was. Praise God that by His grace and mercy that is where our beloved children await. May we always be comforted and encouraged by His precious promise.

Yolanda Rogers, Mom to Anna, http://www.galatians5.com <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Thursday, May 27, 2004 7:49 PM CDT

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hi kindells,

i wanted to wish a happy birthday to adam. i'm sure the balloons will be beautiful tomorrow. i am off to atlanta for volleyball until next friday, so i'll check back in then. just know that i'm thinking of you and hoping that the good days come more often than the bad. love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, May 27, 2004 3:05 PM CDT

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Hello Holly and family!
Just stopping in before we head out to NY for the long weekend..I like the new picture and I'm so glad that the stone is up..it's just gorgeous. Happy first birthday in heaven Adam.. thinking of you all Holly. I'll sign in on Tuesday. Take care now..prayers going out to you all
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, May 27, 2004 8:34 AM CDT

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Dear Holly, Doug, Jonathan and Josh - I know that this will be a weekend of highs and lows for all of you, but I'm sure you will have plenty of love and support from all your wonderful family and friends. I will be thinking of you and watching for all those green balloons. I'll be thinking about you too, Jonathan, as you get ready to move up the education ladder. I hope the weather is good for all the events - it does help when the sun is shining. Take Care. Love, Linda

Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Wednesday, May 26, 2004 7:25 PM CDT

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Hey Holly. I am enjoying all the pictures of Adam. What a cutie. Thanks for sharing those.

From your entries, you sound like you are doing okay. Taking each day as it comes. Continue to be strong in Christ. I am still praying for you.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Wednesday, May 26, 2004 12:47 AM CDT

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Holly-
You are so right. Anyone who had the honor of knowing Adam knows what a sweet, brave, wonderful, special boy he was!! He touched so many lives in his 11 years and I feel truly blessed that I knew him and was able to spend time with him! I love that little boy with all my heart! I miss him so much! My heart aches because I miss him so much and my heart aches for you and Doug and what you are going through.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 26, 2004 7:54 AM CDT

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I followed a link here from Lakota's page. Your story hit me particularly hard because my daughter Hunter was diagnosed with ALL on 12/20/2003, just one day before sweet Adam went to heaven. Please know that I am thinking of your family and of Adam.
Katie, Hayley, and Hunter (ALL-Kids)
Franklin, MA - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 1:48 PM CDT

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Holly,
I'm so glad that Adam's stone is up, and just in time for his birthday! (Although, it is not the type of birthday present any parent should have to give their child.) I'm sorry, but it just makes me sooooo mad!!!! Adam should be here!!!! I'm sorry. I just hurt for you and Doug.
I love the picture you have on here of Adam. What BIG ears he has!!! Thank you soo much for your prayers for dad. I appreciate them alot. You are so sweet!
I can't wait to see Adam's stone and the gorgeous landscaping you have done around it! I love you all.
Also, good luck tomorrow, your first day at your new job! You'll do great!!!!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, May 25, 2004 5:52 AM CDT

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Thank you so much for posting a picture of Adams stone..Its beautiful!!! I know from experience of my own its such a peace and joy to see it standing ...Will be praying for lots of peace and joy for you these days....

Hugs and Love Carolyn ~Quilts of Love~

Carolyn <carolyn@quiltsoflove.com>
Oklahoma United States - Monday, May 24, 2004 11:29 PM CDT

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praise the Lord !!! I just knew that the stone would be up,I cried when I read that it was up.Oh Holly, we all Love you so. thank God again.I can't wait to see it. hugs.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 9:26 PM CDT

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Stopping by let you know that you are in our prayer's and thought's.
God be with you my friend's.
Love LaKota and her mom, Debbie
~*~LaKota~*~

http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Monday, May 24, 2004 3:27 PM CDT

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Holly-
I am so glad they got his stone up!! :) Your prayer was answered....I'll bet Adam had something to do with that:)
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 2:01 PM CDT

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Holly-
Sorry about the mis-type.....thank you God and Adam for looking out for Johnathon and Josh:) I am so glad they are ok.
Love you.

Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 11:14 AM CDT

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It seems as though things are ALWAYS exciting in your house, Holly. I am so glad that Jonathan was watching out last week during the storm! I hope any damage that was done to the house is minimal. I'm thinking of all of you this week...I know it will be a hard one, but you'll get through it. One day at a time, right? I'm flying to Atlanta on Friday and will be thinking of Adam. I think everyone could use an angel like him. Love, Kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Monday, May 24, 2004 10:53 AM CDT

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Holly-
Oh My gosh!! Thank you God and Adam for looking out for Adam and Josh!! I am so glad you got that job at the day care!! That will be good for you and it should be fun too!
I sure hope they get Adam's stone up before his birthday too! I will be there on Friday and I will call you. I will stay with Grandma Stella Thursday night.
I love you and continue to pray for you all!

Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 9:17 AM CDT

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Holly,
Praise the LORD,and Adam, for looking out for the boys.
Jane beck <bulrush@2access.net>
Huntsville, OH USA - Sunday, May 23, 2004 4:14 PM CDT

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Holly,
Still praying for nice weather for tomorrow so that Adam's stone can FINALLY be set!! I too cannot wait to see it! I hope you all are having a good day today. You're always in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, May 23, 2004 3:36 PM CDT

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Whoa..God and Adam were sure looking out for his brothers!! I'm SO glad it all turned out ok and only your house was hurt..! i'm gonna be pretty busy this week getting ready to head out to NY before the weekend. My best friend is getting married there on Sat. and I'm in the wedding and I have a TON to do..I'm making her her gift and I'm not done and starting to panic...I hope to stop in to my caring bridge sites at least once before we head out though! :) I'll be thinking of and praying for your family this week. I'll be there in my heart when those balloons go off to Adam. you take care...I'll check back shortly.
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Sunday, May 23, 2004 2:20 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hoping all is going well today. Thinking of you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, May 22, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad all is finally ready for the stone. I will pray for dry weather so that Adam's stone can be placed Mon.
I'm also thankful that no one was hurt today(except for your doors and windows)God sure is good....ALL THE TIME!!!
I too am sure Adam had a part in watching over his brothers and keeping them safe.
Yes, today marks the 5th month of Adam's passing. It seems like with each passing month it gets harder and harder to believe that he is gone and not coming back. It's sooo unreal.
If you need help with any cleanup from the storm let me know, I'd be glad to help. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 21, 2004 8:24 PM CDT

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Hey there!
Just stopping by to let you know I'm thinking about you. I'm glad things are finally under way..I wish I could be there to let a balloon off for Adam. I'll be thinking of you all though. have a nice weekend.praying for your rainy weather to stop!
Take care
Love~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, May 21, 2004 11:57 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thanks for the invite we will most likely be there. Todd's biggest problem, being the only spoiled child that he is he probably won't want to let go of his balloon, but he did like Adam so that might be a good enough reason. That's really great that you got that job with kids that means you and Adam will be doing the same thing this year because I know if there is a nursery in heaven Adam is probably in charge of it by now, when he got there the angels probably stepped back and said let's let the professional handle these kids, because the Lord knows Adam is great with kids. We went to see Shrek tonight you'll have to take Johnathon and Josh it is hilarious. I am so sorry to hear that things are getting harder on you and that you feel like you're forgetting things, I know God will help you with this because He loves you too much to not help you. As always lots of love and prayers.
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
Kenton, oh usa - Thursday, May 20, 2004 11:14 PM CDT

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Holly,
I hope they got the footer poured for you. I know how frustrating it is,when you want something done NOW!!!! I'm also glad you got the job you wanted. You will be good at it. You are good with kids just like your mom. Your always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, May 20, 2004 9:27 PM CDT

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I'm thinking of you Holly and praying that they will have Adams stone up soon ,congradulations (I think I spelled that wrong) on your job
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, May 20, 2004 8:53 PM CDT

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Hi Holly - I just checked in to see the great smiling face - Adam's pictures always have such great smiles. It would be hard to be mad at a face like that. I have to tell you -the other thing that caught my eye was the wall covering. I'm sure we had the exact same thing in our kitchen - Kim is probably hoping this is not true, but it is. It was great at the time. I didn't realize you were going to work with the kids. It'll be a wonderful job for you with all of your energy. Last week when I was volunteering at the zoo we had 191 bus loads of kids on field trips - by the end of the day, I realized I'm way too old to keep up with all those kids all day long - I'd be constantly exhausted. Wishing you all a good weekend -

Love, Linda
Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Thursday, May 20, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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Holly,
Congratulations on your job!!!! I just started to call you, but looked at the time and thought I'd give you time to get supper over before I called. I wanted to know about your job interview so I thought I'd check here. I'm very happy for you. I will continue to pray that you feel Adam's presence with you always and that you are able to remember every memory, every feature and every detail vividly!!! He was such a precious little angel that remembering him brings joy to all of us that knew him. I love you all very much! You are always in my heart, my thoughts, and my prayers.
Love, Amy

Adam, I love you and miss you so much Sweetie Pie! Brady misses you too. God Bless your SWEET little soul.
Amy <collinsa@kenton.k12.ohus>
Kenton, Oh - Thursday, May 20, 2004 3:28 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and your Angel today...I pray that the Lord helps you to find comfort in your memories and the love in your heart.
God Bless You,
Island Princess



Island Princess <islandprincess@quiltsoflove.com>
- Thursday, May 20, 2004 11:56 AM CDT

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Ouch!! THey always want to do just what their brother's do, don't they? then the chicken pox... My son's favorite color is green too..he's wearing a green shirt today to school. He wants me to paint his room green etc. Yard sales? Diane, I really do like yard sales, I would go if I lived nearby you! :) Holly, thank you for sharing your son's life with us. I don't know you or your family but when I saw Adam's name on the website with "adpot me" next to it, then I saw his face, I couldn't resist! I enjoy seeing Adam's pictures on here with the rest of your families pics and talking about Adam on here. I know he was a very special young man who loved his momma and Jesus..what a special boy. Thinking of you always and praying for you and your family!!!
Love :)
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, May 20, 2004 6:48 AM CDT

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Holly,
I've started to work on getting things ready for our yard sale(which will be Sat may 29, not this sat. like I originally told you)and all I can think about when I'm going through stuff is Adam. I remember when we stopped by your yard sale about 3 yrs ago. Elijah was 1 yr old and sweet little Adam picked out several stuffed animals for him to take home, for free. Here Adam is, trying to make money by selling his stuff, but because he was such a sweet and caring little boy,he enjoyed making another little boy very happy with some new toys, more than making money!! He loved babies and little kids sooo much. What a sweetheart!!!! He was soo special. I look forward to his birthday memorial. I hope his stone will be up in time like you had wanted.

Love and Prayers
Diana <Diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, May 19, 2004 11:50 AM CDT

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What a cute smile! I bet they all are hams..! What happened to his arm? Whatever it was it didn't seem to bother him one bit! Christian and I were waiting for the bus this morning and he spotted a moose..cool huh? It was running through the field beside our property. It's the first time Christian has seen one since we've lived here. Well, I want you to know I'm thining of you guys ok? I'm SO glad things are under way for Adam's stone etc.. You all take care now.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 6:26 AM CDT

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Holly,
I am really surprised Josh would wear all that cutesie stuff since we all know how rough and tough he is! But I'll bet he looked great he is so cute he looks just like you. Was green Adam's favorite color, because I have heard you mention green balloons a lot? Because green is Todd's favorite color too and he would probably enjoy seeing all those green balloons go up to Adam in heaven. Adam is so cute in that little picture, I remember when he broke his arm, that poor little guy sure kept the doctors and hospitals hopping but yet I don't ever think I heard him complain what a trooper!
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
Tracy Hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 11:29 PM CDT

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Hi Folks,

Just wanted to say hello and glad you're back online at home. It'd be a disaster around here if Mom, Dad, Ben, and Becky (not necessarily in that order) could not get on the internet. Which reminds me of one of the things I have always felt kinda bummed about, in kind of a less serious way than ALL the other ways I miss our son Brian. He died in 1994, before the Internet was big. He loved doing all kinds of computer things. If he was here now, he'd be having such a blast chatting and surfing the net. I can only say that his brother and sister are doing their best to take up the slack. (Mom and Dad do their part as well.)

Anyways, sorry to start out talking so much about Brian and not enough about Adam! Every time I check in online to see how the Reds are doing, I think of that little guy. When one of the fellas hits a home run, or anyone does something special, I think that Adam would probably be smiling and happy about it, probably talking with his dad or grandpa or somebody about how things were going with those old Redlegs. Back in the day, the old Reds started getting good the year after my grandpa died. He was a diehard Reds fan, too, and followed them through some pretty down years. So the Reds will probably always be for you folks what they have been to me: one of those connections to a loved one that makes going on after they're gone seem like it might be worth it - just to keep on caring about the things they cared about.

Ok, I guess I have rambled enough. Just wanted to let you know we check in all the time and have you often in our thoughts and prayers.

Love from Memphis
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 10:43 PM CDT

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Holly,
Yesterday and todays pictures that you had/have on here are sooo adorable!! All three of the boys are such hams!!! I'm glad that the cemetary workers are another step closer to getting the job done. I'm sorry that it is taking so long.
I can't wait to see the finished project. I know it will be absolutely beautiful!! Adam would love it!!
You all are in my thoughts and prayers always. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, May 18, 2004 8:39 PM CDT

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Hi Holly - From the number of times people have visited Adam's website, it's obvious you have lots of support and well wishers out there. Like many, I check it several times a week, and am glad you are able to use your computer again. I don't use mine for much, but when I want it and it's not available, it's maddening. I can't imagine how frustrating it's been for you. With Adam's birthday approaching, I'm sure there will be some emptier than usual days - remember how many of us check up on you and the family and that we're all thinking of Adam as well. It will be nice when his headstone is in place. Hopefully we'll hear that it is soon. Take care.
Love, Linda
Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 9:09 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am glad you all got your PC fixed! I'll bet Josh was so cute and I'll bet he did a great job!! I would loved to have seen him in the play!! I think of you, Doug and the boys everyday and I miss Adam so much! I am praying for you all everyday! I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 18, 2004 8:51 AM CDT

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Let me guess..they are saying "cheese" for the picture right? How cute! Thinking of you and your family today Holly!
Prayers~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 7:16 AM CDT

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I am stopping by to leave love,
prayers and hugs,
you are special to me!
May the sweet Lord ease
the pain of your loss,
yet keep your child alive
with sweet memories of
good times shared.
Love Angel Toto <pat_totoofoz@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 17, 2004 8:15 PM CDT

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Holly,
Glad you got your computer fixed. I don't know about you, but when ours is down I feel lost! I hope Josh's play goes well as "a blind mouse". The play sounds really cute! I hope you have success with the cemetary workers this week and they finally get something done!
You all are in my thoughts and prayers. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, May 17, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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i'm sure you're glad to have your computer fixed, and we're all happy, too! i still check the site everyday, and it was weird to not see a new message from you. i'm glad the trip with doug went well, and i hope josh's blind mouse performance is a success! have a good week, and know that i'm thinking about you. love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Monday, May 17, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

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YAY ! I'm so glad it's fixed. Worth all the money isn't it?! Good luck with your son's play, it sounds so cute..Sarah had a ballet recital Sat. night. Boy, it was soooo hot in that building, she was so anxious to get up there and do her thing. She wasn't scared one bit.I am thinking of you and your family Holly! Take care now.
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, May 17, 2004 8:30 AM CDT

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Holly,Just to let you know that I'm thinking of you. I just know that they will have Adams stone up before his birthday.Can't be any other way.hugs for you .
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Sunday, May 16, 2004 9:07 PM CDT

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Hello, I just read Adam's journal. He must have been a very special young man. You have every right to be so proud of him. He was a very handsome boy. Like all the other Caringbridge children I have visited, he too seems like such a sweet soul. I can't even begin to imagine the loss you are feeling but I am so very sorry. I just wanted you to know I'am thinking of you and Adam and will say an extra prayer for you both.
Judy <judith127@webtv.net>
Jacksonville, Fl - Sunday, May 16, 2004 4:49 PM CDT

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Sounds like you're having a very frustrating time with the computer guy and for Adam's stone. I'm so sorry they won't have it up in time. I know Adam will love his balloons.. wish we could be there to let one go. Know I'm thinking of you all. Take care

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Saturday, May 15, 2004 8:25 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thank you so much for calling to see how my dad was doing and for your prayers. That was soooo nice of you, it meant alot to me. You are such a sweet heart! I'm sorry you had to listen to the horse chomp his gum. You should have asked him if he eats from a troff (?sp) too!
I think of you,Doug and the boys constantly. I just HATE it that you have to live your life without Adam. It's just soooo unfair!!!! I hurt for all of you. I love you all. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 14, 2004 8:49 PM CDT

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Holly-
I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you, Doug and the boys!
Love and Prayers.
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, May 14, 2004 10:59 AM CDT

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Have a nice weekend Holly. Know I'm thinking of you! :)
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, May 14, 2004 6:27 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you and hoping you had a good day, as good as can be. You're in my thoughts and prayers daily. Love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, May 13, 2004 7:34 PM CDT

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What a sweet story Tracy..
I'm thinking of you today Holly! I hope things are going ok with that computer of yours! Keeping you on my heart, in my mind and prayers. Take care!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 6:15 AM CDT

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Holly,
I hope this story doesn't make you too sad but I thought it was so sweet and worth sharing because Adam was such a special boy that even my three year old appreciated and misses him. We were decorating John's mom and dad's graves tonight getting them ready for memorial day, and then we walked over to Adam's and Todd immediately went up and looked at the pictures of Adam and said hey I see Adam and we had just got done trying to explain death to him at his grandparents'grave so he knew that Adam had passed away and he said "Why is Adam here?" and I said because Adam got sick and he went home to be with Jesus and Todd gave me kind of a dirty look and said "Well who made him sick I don't like them anymore, I like Adam." So just a couple of graves down someone has those flower pot things on either side of their stone that if you talk into them they echo and to a 3 year old they look like they go down into the ground, and I heard Todd yelling into one "Adam ,I like you, can you hear me I like you?" And I just thougt how special Adam was that Todd continually brings him up and he was rather upset that someone would make him sick. So like I said I am sorry if that makes you sad but I just wanted you to know that we all feel the same way you do Adam was and is one terrific kid. I hope you get your computer fixed so we can see more pictures of your blonde haired beauty.
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy
And P.S. Next time your around Betty Jo have her sing you a little tune and you'll see why Adam went right to sleep that night!
tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 11:45 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thank you for coming over and visiting me yesterday. I TRUELY enjoy your company. I'm sorry that the cemetary workers haven't done anymore with preparing for Adam's stone. I know how FRUSTRATING that is for you. Hopefully they will have it done in time for Adam's birthday. By the way, thank you for inviting us to his birthday memorial, we will definitly be there! Wouldn't miss it for the world!!
Again, I'm glad all went well on your trip. You certainly were on my mind even more while you were gone.
I hope you can get your computer fixed, that too is VERY frustrating!!!
I know I tell you this all the time, but, you all are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, May 12, 2004 8:10 AM CDT

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Hi there
Hope that computer gets fixed soon and it's nothing too major!! Don't you hate it when things break down??? It is ALWAYS something..our car started leaking oil yesterday. uggg..just hate spending money on stuff like this!! well. I'm thinking of you and praying for you and your family Holly! Take care! :)
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 6:25 AM CDT

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hi Holly,glad you had a nice trip.I'm glad they will soon have Adam stone up.Hope you get your computer fixed soon ,it's probably a pain going to the library.thinking of and praying for you. hugs.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Tuesday, May 11, 2004 8:51 PM CDT

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Holly-
I am glad you and Doug had a nice trip! That must have been pretty cool riding around in the convertible!!
I know Mother's day must have been hard....but keep holding on to those memories!!
Thinking of you and praying for you always!
Love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 11, 2004 8:07 AM CDT

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hello Holly
I'm glad your trip went well..mustang..whoa!! We used to have one..before we had our family. We LOVED it! I remember waxing it and cleaning it all the time! I'm glad you had your nice memories for mother's day. they sound just wonderful. I was thinking of you. You take care and I'll drop in soon.
Love and prayers

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, May 11, 2004 6:59 AM CDT

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hello there Holly! Thinking of you and your family today. :)
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, May 10, 2004 9:58 AM CDT

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Holly



***I can't even begin to imagine all of the emotions that must be running through you on this day. I hope you're doing well and will be able to enjoy this special day of yours to its fullest. You and that WONDERFUL family of yours are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers***

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Happy Mother's Day to an EXCELLENT Mom!!!



Shannon, Jeff & Samantha Therese <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Sunday, May 9, 2004 10:21 AM CDT

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Holly,
Hope you both had a good trip and a safe flight back. I know tomorrow will be a hard day for you without all three of your babies being there. I'm thinking of you. Try to have a Happy Mothers day, as best as possible.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, May 8, 2004 9:11 PM CDT

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Holly, I just wanted to stop by and let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow, as we try to get through our first Mother’s Day without out sons.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Saturday, May 8, 2004 5:48 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you. Hope all is going well.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 7, 2004 7:59 PM CDT

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hope your trip is going well. I'm thinking of you Holly.
Love and prayers
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, May 7, 2004 9:01 AM CDT

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Holly,
Hoping you and doug are having a safe and enjoyable trip. You are in my constant thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, May 7, 2004 6:30 AM CDT

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Mothers Day Prayer

I Pray for you that on this special Mothers day,
God fills your heart in a truley beautiful way.
And may, He in His reach from heaven above,
Flow the wonderful family spirit, of His love.
I pray He grant, truley sweet and Angelic care,
That you may know, He is, always there.
I pray within God's great vast Love for you
In life, daily onward, In all that you may do,
You feel His love, His strength, His peace,
This Mothers Day blesses a spiritual release.

Have a Blessed Mothers Day

Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
- Thursday, May 6, 2004 11:26 AM CDT

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Holly-
I hope you have a great trip and Mother's day. You are a wonderful Mom and deserve the best!!
I love you.
Love and Prayers.

P.S.- About your PC problem - I am not sure but you may want to check into the Sasser virus that is going around..it sounds like your PC may have gotten hit - but like I said I am not sure...but my company was hit with it and that error sounds familiar.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, May 6, 2004 8:57 AM CDT

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Doug and Holly,
All the best to you on your trip. Hope you'll each be personally rejuvenated and lifted up, and that you'll be strengthened as a couple.
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 4:47 PM CDT

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holly and doug,

i hope you enjoy your time together this weekend. i know sunday will be hard, but i'm glad you're getting away for a little while. i hope your time is filled with rest and relaxation.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 11:36 AM CDT

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We just got in from ballet practice with Sarah..boy those girls are so funny. i thought of you all today. I hope that your trip goes well. Hope your computer gets fixed soon, can't wait to see more pictures of your baby. Will check up on you soon!
Take care
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 11:32 AM CDT

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Holly,
Sorry I could not write yesterday, our internet was down from about 1pm yesterday to about 9am this morning.
I love the picture of Adam, with his shades and radio but no sandy beach. I just had to laugh when I first saw it because I can tell that he was probably trying to be like mommy when she would lay out in the sun to get a tan. Am I right??? What a precious sweety!
I've been thinking about you and Doug alot lately and your trip. You're leaving tomorrow correct? I hope you both have a safe trip and that all goes well. Enjoy your time alone together. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, May 5, 2004 8:43 AM CDT

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It's amazing how pictures take us back and we remember certain things. Thanks for sharing Adams life with us. Keep your chin up it's easier to see heaven that way.

karen <KARENS@HARDINESC.ORG>
- Tuesday, May 4, 2004 2:50 PM CDT

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Holly-
I love all of these pictures of Adam. I am sad though that I was not here in Ohio for all of Adam's life..I really wish I could have been here in the early years too....I really appreciate you sharing the pictures:) What a sweet, wonderful boy! Thinking of you and praying for you, Doug, Johnathon and Josh!
Love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 4, 2004 12:20 AM CDT

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I love what you are doing with Adam's pictures. That is such a clever idea. I hope you don't mind, but I might have to do that for Shae's b'day.
You sound like you are doing well. I know that there will still be tough days, but you are a survivor.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 10:39 AM CDT

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Hello,
You don't know me, but I found your website through a friend who has a child that is battling cancer right now.
I cannot begin to imagine the pain and anguish you are in. Please know that I am praying that God would give you the strength to face each new day, and that you will find rest in the arms of Jesus, knowing that one day, you will see your sweet boy again, and spend forever and ever with him.
P. Scott <Scot1440@bellsouth.net>
- Tuesday, May 4, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

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maybe, one day soon, it will be easier for others to see adam's pictures. i love them, and each one is cuter than the one before. i hope jonathan is enjoying his last days of 8th grade! i'm thinking of you all.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 8:31 AM CDT

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Oh, I love the first birthday pictures of children..it looks like he really dug in too! Christian wouldn't touch his, all he would eat was crackers..little stinker. He never wanted his hands dirty at that age. I love his new hair cut too, what a sweetie. THanks again Holly for sharing Adam's story with us. I think of you daily and pray for you and your family nightly. You take care and I'll sign in tomorrow!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 7:47 AM CDT

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Hey Holly,
I'll bet you thought I forgot how to get to your website but actually my husband is such a tinkerer he downloads and adds to our computer so much that it went down for weeks. He couldn't get it to go on to the internet or anything so I had been bugging him to get it fixed and to load Adam's website back on here so he finally got it fixed and I told him to leave it alone. So I just got done reading all your past months journal entries. Please try to quit to beating youself up you are a wonderful mother and always have been. Adam loved you more than life itself anyone could tell that just being around you a little bit he wanted you to do everything for him because he knew you loved him and you would do it right. And all that you said about faking it and smiling and pretending to be happy quit it go off when you need to yell when you need to cry when you need to You and Doug have got to do what gets you through. Your family and friends love you enough that we would be thrilled to listen to you vent if it helps. And I never get sick of hearing you talk about how much you miss Adam if you didn't do that I would think that there was something wrong with you. So please Holly quit apologizing I think you are doing such a great job coping with this. And another thing I would like to thank Adam because he has helped me to be nicer to Todd and to not yell at him about stupid stuff because like you said you never know when they might leave you. I mean don't get me wrong I totally think you have to discipline your children so they don't get in harms way and they are not disrespectful but Adam has helped me to enjoy Todd and let him be a kid instead of yelling at him when he spills stuff or does little things that irritate me. Adam once again has touched my life and taught me something. Now on a little funnier note, in one of your entries you said that Adam could only be sung to sleep and that was so true. One night when I was babysitting for you Adam got to crying and I couldn't get him to stop I rocked him and tried to play with him and Jonathon tried to make him laugh and nothing was working so I got concerned and I remebered that Betty Jo and CT were over at Mickie and Ken's so I called them to see what to do and they came over and Betty Jo started rocking Adam and singing to him and God love her heart but Betty Jo is tone deaf and can't sing a note (I hope she doesn't read this) but believe it or not Adam went right to sleep so either it was comforting or he thougt sleep is the only way out of this misery! Ha Ha! But Adam was a great kid and Holly you and Doug are great parents so keep hanging in there we are still praying for you and I know it will get easier for you because God loves you too much to let you keep suffering.
Lots of love and prayers,
Tracy

tracy hollinger <john1957@bright.net>
kenton, oh usa - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 0:16 AM CDT

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Holly,
What an adorable picture!! Soooo precious! He was an incredible little boy Holly, such a trooper. I really appreciate you sharing his life with us....birth-death. I love to here the memories of each of his pictures!!!
Thank you!
You all are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, May 3, 2004 10:43 PM CDT

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Holly,

Thankyou so much for talking with me. Through your journal and with talking to you I know that you couldn't say anything offensive to me and you didn't. I felt i could share all aspects of what is going on and wanted too. I would love to read that book. When your ready to pass it on please do or just give me the author and I will pick it up. I have read some grief books but have been wondering things...like do children age in heaven..etc.
Of course I love the new picture!!! Talk to you soon.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
- Monday, May 3, 2004 7:55 PM CDT

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Holly,the stone is beautiful.What a darling picture of Adam eating?his birtday cake . thinking of you all the time my prayers and hugs are for you and your family.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Monday, May 3, 2004 7:45 PM CDT

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adam's stone is even more amazing than i thought it would be...the sketch looks great! i hope you all are happy with the end result. i'm thinking of you, doug and the boys today and hoping that the good memories are starting to come more often.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Monday, May 3, 2004 3:13 PM CDT

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Holly-
Adam's grave marker is beautiful! I hope the memorial at Children's went well! I am thinking of you and praying for you:) I hope you have a good trip this weekend!
I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 3, 2004 12:18 AM CDT

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Not a day goes by that your not in my thoughts. Your strenghth is amazing.
Karen <karens@hardinesc.org>
Kenton, - Monday, May 3, 2004 8:45 AM CDT

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Hi there
I hope it all went ok for you. I'm thinking of you and praying for you and your family. What a sweet picture!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, May 3, 2004 7:34 AM CDT

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Holly,
I hope the memorial service went well. I'm sure it must have been hard going back to children's without Adam, all the memories good and bad.
Thinking of you always. Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, May 2, 2004 9:49 PM CDT

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Just dropping in to let you know I am thinking of you and hope your weekend is going well.
Kathy H.
Thousand Oaks, CA - Sunday, May 2, 2004 5:00 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you today and hoping your day went as well as can be. You're always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, May 1, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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Holly and Doug, I must apologize for not writeing in so long.Life's little obsticles have been throwing me for a loop hear latey so I haven't time to do much else it seems but to survive.I greatly miss talking to Doug as much as we used to but with work being turned upside down we don't have the time to hang out much.Beleave it or not he is handleing the new pace at work much better than I am right now, for the first time in a long time I get to look at Doug for security rather him to me!! I think of Adam often and would love to have his opinion on lifes quizes right now, it seems everything has went into high gear and I was fairly comfortable with the old pace.Doug has seem to beat the confusion and stress that we are faced with often on a daily basis and Im trying so hard to get the time to get his advise on this.Im sure he has told you of the obsticles I have had to face lately at work and his support along with my family's has been comforting and helpfull.Thank him again for me please. Again I apologize for not writing sooner and for the record I think and pray for you all daily.Adam is so very lucky to have had the quality of life he had as a child,very mature child and not the misfortune that sometimes comes as a adult with all the responsibilty and commitments we have.God Bless Adam and God Bless his wonderful family.Talk soon, Johnny
Johnny Downing <www.downing@logan.net>
Lewistown, Ohio logan - Saturday, May 1, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

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Holly,
The stone looks great. Adam would be pleased. I'm glad you still feel his presence and he gives you signs to let you know he's okay. What a beautiful little man he was.
Thinking and praying for you always. I love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, April 30, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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Love the new picture and the verse on here! I'm glad that today is an "up" day. I know that Adam has something to do with that! I'm glad the stone is done and i hope it turned out wonderful. I'm thinking of you today holly and praying for you and your family! I know that God is with you!
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, April 30, 2004 10:20 AM CDT

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Hi Holly - I'm glad to know the stone is finished. Somehow having a stone is proof to everyone else that such a person did indeed exist although in Adam's case, I know his resting place has been full of proof since December. I too am enjoying the pictures. You're right - tomorrow may be a down day, but it's good to see you sounding more hopeful. I wish you and Doug a safe trip and hope that you are able to enjoy it a bit. We'll be thinking about you. Take care.
Linda

Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL - Friday, April 30, 2004 7:56 AM CDT

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Holly,
Another gorgeous picture of Adam yet again! I'm glad the stone is FINALLY done. I hope it is exactly what you wanted. I look forward to seeing it too! We have that same kind of bath ring that Adam is sitting in, in that picture.
Thinking and praying for you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 8:07 PM CDT

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Oh! Holly,I'm so excited for you about Adams stone,I hope it's all that you want it to be.I'm glad today was a good day for you. It lifted my heart more than you'll ever know.God bless you and yours .Love ya.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 7:51 PM CDT

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Holly-
This picture is so adorable! I am thinking of you and praying for you!
I love you!
shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 6:58 PM CDT

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hang in there, holly. with adam's birthday coming up next month, i know it's going to be hard. please give doug, jonathan and josh a hug for me and know that i'm thinking of all of you everyday. i just keep hoping for a little peace and sunshine come your way. love, kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.cm>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, April 29, 2004 10:38 AM CDT

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What a cute sweet boy. I am looking forward to seeing more pictures on here, thank you for sharing them Holly. Thinking of you
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, April 29, 2004 9:03 AM CDT

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Holly,
What a beautiful,sweet picture. Always a cutie pie! Adam was in the best,most safest and comfortablest place(in mommy's arms)he could ever be in, here on earth when he passed on. That's what mommy's arms are for.......to keep her babies safe,secure,and for lots of hugs and love.
You certainly have done that, not only for Adam but for Johnathon and Joshua too.
Your in my thoughts and prayers. I love ya!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 12:31 AM CDT

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What a sweet picture.. thinking of you today Holly
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 8:48 AM CDT

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Holly-
That is a wonderful photo! What beautiful, sweet boys! I am looking forward to seeing all the other pictures!!
I am praying for you and thinking of you always!
I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 6:18 AM CDT

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Holly,
There's nothing more precious in this whole world than to hold your newborn baby for the very first time. What a wonderful feeling,what a miracle!
I look forward to celebrating Adam's life on here with you through pictures. What a beautiful baby Adam was, and such a proud big brother (Johnathon).
Thinking of you and your trip next week. I hope you both have a good time together and a safe one.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 9:18 PM CDT

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PRICELESS,HOLLY, JUST PRICELESS
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 7:39 PM CDT

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holly,
in the short time i knew adam, it was obvious that he was wise beyond his years and had a peaceful, extraordinary presence that few people have. keep remembering the good memories...his sweetness is unforgettable. one day at a time.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 1:13 PM CDT

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Holly-
I will never be tired of hearing you talk about Adam and I want you to know you can call me anytime to talk. I would love it if you and I could spend more time together...maybe we could go to lunch or shopping or antiquing in Mt Victory sometime! You can talk and vent to me anytime and I will not mind in the least. I want to help you..I just wish I could help ease your pain! I am so sorry for what you and Doug are going through! I love you and I am praying for you!
I am here for you always!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 8:06 AM CDT

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Keep on talking about Adam to all of us Holly, we are here to listen to you. I know I can't completely understand what your feeling but I do have kids and I know that I would be going through the same things if this happened to us. Go ahead and vent out everything, I'm sorry that Adam isn't here with you, he is in your heart,, I know it's not the same thing, not even close but God has a plan for him. He has a plan for you too. I'm sorry that you all are going through all of this. Take some comfort in knowing that I'm praying for you and that God is there for you to lean on and vent to as well!! He is listening. I'm thinking of you today Holly. You take care
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 6:22 AM CDT

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Holly,
I wish I had the answers for you but I don't. Like I've told you before, you can scream,hit, kick, throw things, etc. at me anytime! You feel what you need to feel! Don't worry about what others might think, they're not in your shoes. Please believe me when I say, I NEVER get sick of hearing you talk about Adam. You can talk to me all you want to! I care about you and love you very much. I'm here for you always!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, April 26, 2004 1:54 PM CDT

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Holly,
I tried to call you but the number didn't go through. Can you email me your #? I know our loses are different but I can empathize with you about feeling empty. I am also battling feeling so ungrateful for losing Tanner but grateful that Lindsey beat cancer. It is such a fine line to be walking. I feel as though it is driving me crazy. I am trying to maintain some sense of normacly for Loren, Lindsey and Hayden....it's just really hard. I am in a weird kind of limbo. Please know I haven't signed much lately but I check on you daily and you have been in my thoughts and prayers.
Lisa <silvergirl0203@verizon.net>
VA beach, www.caringbridge.org/va/lindsey - Monday, April 26, 2004 12:20 AM CDT

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Whew..I'm back..what a week!! Very full, back to reality now with our schedules. I thought of you this past week though and your family. I'm thinking of and praying for you Holly! Will check in soon
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, April 26, 2004 6:33 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm sorry I didn't sign yesterday. I was going to. It was such a busy day and then when I had time Michael was hogging the computer and by the time he finished I had fallen asleep.
I'm glad Adam gave you your sign and positive thoughts. You and Doug should have NO regrets! I think you both did excellent with Adam. Not only is Adam an inspiration, but you and Doug as well.
I love the new picture of Adam on here. What a cutie pie!!
As always, you all are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I love ya very much!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 7:00 AM CDT

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Holly,Holly, Please don't be so hard on yourself,we all do and say things like that,The thing is you loved Adam and he knew it .My heart hurts for you .Forever in my thoughts and prayers,love ya .
Kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Friday, April 23, 2004 8:38 PM CDT

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Holly,
Listen to what these wonderful people have written to you on here today. They are right. Adam would not want you to be feeling guilty, he knew you were trying to help him. I think in the end when he said for you to "go ahead and leave", he just couldn't fight anymore. His little body had had enough. After fighting the way he did so long and soo hard for 7 1/2 yrs, he just couldn't do it anymore. Bless his sweet little heart. Please don't beat yourself up.
You're always in my thoughts and prayers. I love ya.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, April 23, 2004 8:32 PM CDT

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Hi Sweet Holly,
Sounds like you're having a hard time shaking off old Mr. Guilt! He's not worth hanging around with so dump him - now! I remember a precious young mother reciting this prayer to me when things didn't make sense and I was feeling really bad:
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference."
I also remember that that precious friend was named Holly Kindell.
I love you and care about you and your family - and I miss Adam too.
Love, Carol
Carol Livingston <livi@udata.com>
Forest, OH USA - Friday, April 23, 2004 5:44 PM CDT

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~*~*~*Holly*~*~*~

I know this is easier said than done, but please don't beat yourself up over this. You did a terrfic job with *Adam* when he was alive and I know you will continue to do an amazing job with your other children. Don't feel bad for the time you lost your temper, feel happy about things the two of you did together. Don't dwell on what you should have done or should have said, remember the 'I Love You's' and all the love that stood behind them. I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm lecturing. I don't mean too. I just hate seeing you this way. You've been through so much but still you continue on. You always leave the sweetest messages in Samantha's guestbook and for that (and many other reasons) I am VERY grateful for having gotten to know you.

Thank you for your prayers and support as we go through this "thing" with Sammi. Knowing so many people are behind us helps us through our days. I'd like to be there just as much for you as you have been for me. Please don't ever hesitate to let me know if you should happen to need anything. Even if it's just to vent and let out some frustration.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

~*~*~*Miss Samantha*~*~*~



Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Friday, April 23, 2004 2:28 PM CDT

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Oh Holly, please don't do this to yourself. I am sorry for the guilt you feel, but try to focus on the good times you had with Adam. He would not want you to feel guilty about anything that happened with him. I learned that a while back. I know that Shae would not want me feeling guilty for anything. There are plenty of things that I would change, but I can't. So the only thing that I can do is NOT dwell on those times and focus on the good times that we had with Shae.

Keep your chin up. You will get through this first year, I promise. I am not saying that it's easy, but you will survive. Feel free to e-mail anytime. If you want to e-mail me and I will give you my phone # and you can call me. I know how you feel Holly. I am here for you.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - Mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Friday, April 23, 2004 1:11 PM CDT

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Holly-
Please...please try not to feel guilty....you are a wonderful Mom and Adam loves you and he knows you love him. You were doing what you thought was best and you did not want Adam's muscles to get stiff and you wanted him to be able to use them when he felt better. I am sure Adam knows you were not trying to hurt him in anyway. I am so sorry you are hurting. I wish I could help make it better for you! I love you and I am praying for you always!!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 23, 2004 12:31 AM CDT

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Dear Shirl,
Thank you soooo much for taking Mom to work today! You have no idea how much I appreciate that!!! I love the Sweet little face with the doughnut!!! Mom and I were talking last night about how much Brady misses talking to Adam about the Reds. He talks about Adam during every game. None of it makes any sense and I am sooooo sorry. I love you so much and you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers!!! I hope you and Josh have a good day today.
God Bless you all!!
Love and Prayers, Laverne
Amy <collinsa@kenton.k12.com>
Kenton, OH - Friday, April 23, 2004 8:50 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you daily and praying that God give you strength and peace to get through each day. I love you all very much. Again, what a cute picture of Adam, that donut looks pretty good too! Every time I get on this website and see that picture, I remember what you said, that Josh said when he saw the picture... that Johnathon won that contest. It cracks me up everytime!
As always, you are all in my thoughts and prayers. I'm here for you anytime.

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 8:16 PM CDT

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Just a short hello to let you know you and your family are still in our prayers. I hope you and Doug have a peaceful weekend when you take your trip. I hope the time you have together will let you guys grieve together and reminise about Adam. He will surely be watching over you two. I do not get sick of hearing how much you miss Adam. You are his mother. You are suppose to miss him. I wish you luck on the job search. I am sure Adam will pull some strings to give you some luck too.

Hello Adam. Send mommy some love, I am sure she loves to feel your presence.


Jenny Cornell and Dakota & Madelynn <dakotat@bright.net>
Alger, Ohio - Thursday, April 22, 2004 5:31 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and praying for peace.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Thursday, April 22, 2004 3:49 PM CDT

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hi there!

just wanted to say hello. i hope the sun is shining over in ohio the way it is here...it's beautiful. keep your chin up, and please let doug, the boys and the grandparents that i'm thinking about them.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, April 22, 2004 9:31 AM CDT

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Hi Holly - and Doug, Jonathan and Josh -
Four months - I'm sure there were times you thought you wouldn't make it this far. One step and one day at a time. It's amazing how fast time flies in some instances and how slowly in others. I've listened to the Cubs/Reds games a little differently this year, having met Adam and you all. Before that, the Reds were just some other team out there. Now there's kind of a connection - I just hope Adam doesn't give the Reds a little extra help. The memorial sounds like a wonderful idea. It sure will make for a day of mixed emotions, though. I hope Jonathan is looking forward to graduation. It will be another big change for him. Take care of yourself and your men.

Love, Linda
Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL USA - Thursday, April 22, 2004 7:03 AM CDT

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Holly,
You all and Adam have been on my mind all day today,this being the 4th month ann. of Adam's passing. It is STILL so unreal to me. I cannot imagine your pain and heart ache. I love you all very much and I'm here for ALWAYS. My prayers for you never cease.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 7:13 PM CDT

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I found Adam's site through another Caringbridge site. What a beautiful boy. I have a two-year old son and I pray to God that I never have to walk in your shoes. I am so sorry for your loss and I will pray that God helps to heal your broken heart. Know that there are people that don't even know you that care.
Ashley Seratt <aseratt@ycinet.net>
Newbern, TN USA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 7:13 PM CDT

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Holly-
The Memorial for Adam at his school does sound like it will be very nice. I am thinking of you and praying for you.
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 12:39 AM CDT

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Hello. Just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am praying that all goes well during your flight on Mother's Day weekend. Take care and God bless.
Jennifer <charay913@yahoo.com>
Wichita Falls, Texas - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 10:34 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,what a beautiful picture of Adam.Holly you are normal,I couldn't imagine loosing one of my children though they are all grown,let alone if I would have lost one when they were a child.no one knows what you are going through ,they are not walking in your shoes.let what people say just roll off. I think some of them have a problem. Hope you have a nice Mothers day weekend,Have a safe trip.I think of you and pray for you daily.Hugs to all of you .
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 10:23 PM CDT

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I came across Adam's page while visiting another child's site here at Caring Bridge and I read your journal entry today. I'm sorry for the loss you have suffered, and sorrier still that there are people who are making you feel badly for grieving the loss of your precious son. No one can know how they will truly feel or act until they experience a situation first hand, so do not let anyone try to tell you how you should feel or grieve. The grief process goes on for years and you will have highs and lows. They are normal and anyone who tells you otherwise is misinformed. Those who know you, love you and care about will see you through. I will pray for you and your family.
~*~*glitter*~*~ <buggbaybee@yahoo.com>
My Town, USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 2:38 PM CDT

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Holly-
I agree with Diana - forget what those other people say...you are a changed person...forever. Those people are not in your shoes and they have no idea how you are feeling and how much you hurt and ache for Adam. You are not complaining...you are expressing yourself and your grief...there is a big difference. Those of us who read this website love you and are here for you....to express whatever it is that you are feeling...no matter what! You are a strong person, a wonderful Mom, and a loving human being. You just need to be yourself and say exactly what you feel....no one can or should tell you "how to be."
You deserve some time away, though it may be difficult, try to have a great time on your trip:)
I love you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 11:36 AM CDT

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Holly,
I for one have NEVER thought that you are complaining on here. Missing your child is not complaining. What I would like to know is..... How on earth is a parent suppose to "get over" the death of a child...EVER, let alone in just 4 months?!?!? YOU DON'T !!!!! Whom ever is thinking you should be "getting over" this either 1) Has NO children, family or friends, or 2) They have a heart of ice (no care in the world for anything) I'm not in your shoes Holly, but to imagine having to live life without one of my children is unbearable. It makes me sick to my stomach to even think about.
Like I've said before, you are forever changed! You will not be the Holly you use to be. Don't "try" to act like it just for other peoples sake. You be who YOU need to be right now for your own sake.
I'm sorry if I'm being too verbal but it just GREATLY upsets me. This makes (at least) the third time you have mentioned that some people think you should be getting back to normal. I have some advice (in my own opinion) for those of you out there, EXCLUDING the nice, caring people who sign this guestbook and are VERY supportive of Holly,Doug and the boys,........ If you think they are taking too long in "getting over" Adam's death and "should" be back to normal....Just stay AWAY from them, for they surely must be ABSOLUTE MENTAL cases for still grieving over the death of their son. Afterall, it's been 4 months ALREADY!!!!!!!
Who needs enemies when they have good supportive friends like you! I hope to God this never happens to you!

Like I said, this is not directed to anyone who signs this guest book. You all seem to be very supportive,caring and nice.

I hope I have not offended you Holly. You may delete this entry if you don't feel it is appropriete on here. You are my friend and I hate to see you having to deal with added baggage like this.

I love ya, and I'm here for you ALWAYS!!

Love and Prayers



Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 10:54 AM CDT

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I'm glad Gabby is back home and safe...pets sometimes drive you crazy, don't they? The cat and dog in my house see absolutely no point in sleeping in - even past 6:00 am - and don't think I should be sleeping either. I think I've had more coffee in the last 8 months than I ever have before! You guys are in my thoughts today and everyday. Love,
Kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 8:29 AM CDT

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Thinking of you today and praying for God to give you comfort.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ and precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 8:05 AM CDT

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I'm so glad you got Gabby back, that must have been scary.. while you were hunting her down I was hunting down our house cat Lacey, she ran off right between my legs yesteday. I found her by the wood pile taking a bath like nothing had happened. When the animals belong to your kids it's different isn't it? Well, i wanted to let you know that my folks are coming in from NY today and I am in the middle of painting my living room, so it may be a few days before I can visit again, but I wanted you to know you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I'm keeping you all on my mind, you take care Holly and I'll check in on you again real soon.
Love~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 7:43 AM CDT

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Holly,
I'm glad you got Gabby back home safe. I hope the new collar works. Ours didn't. Once our labs got a taste of getting away, that was it. I hope you have better luck with Gabby.
I know you probably get tired of seeing me write this day after day but it is true...... You are always in my thoughts and prayers daily. I am here for you at anytime.
I love ya!
Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, April 19, 2004 9:13 PM CDT

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Holly-
I am sure Adam loved the balloon!! It was good visiting with you all on Sat and thanks again for the red pop!!
Take care.
Love and prayers
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 19, 2004 1:29 PM CDT

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I know Adam just loved his balloon you sent him. The statue sounds so cute too! We've been trying to clean up around here too, I'm just so lazy.. my mom and dad are coming from upstate NY for a visit this week. I had planned to have my living room painted by then, but I haven't even picked out my paint yet! This week is Christian's spring break week. he's happy about that. Thought of you and your family over the weekend and said a little prayer. I hope you are doing ok. Thinking of you all. Take care and will check back soon.
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, April 19, 2004 8:24 AM CDT

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Holly,
I bet the balloon sailing up into the heavens was beautiful and I'm sure Adam loved it. Yes, the last few days have been awesome. It's just a shame Adam can not be here to enjoy it with us. He would have been riding on his 4 wheeler and going fishing no doubt. I'm sure he is doing those things in heaven though.
You all are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I love ya and am here whenever you need me.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, April 18, 2004 9:22 PM CDT

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Hey Holly. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you today and praying for God to give you peace. Try to remember the good times with Adam.

Have a good day and remember that I am here for you.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ and precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Sunday, April 18, 2004 10:31 AM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you always!! You all mean sooo much to me. I love you !

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 8:55 PM CDT

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Thanks for stopping by David's site Holly. I cannot imagine your pain. There are so many children that we've gotten to know who have become Angels....these children are so courageous and such warriors. Adam and David do have that same smile. Adam sounds like he had such a battle and yet he did what he had to do with fortitude and grace. These beautiful children that we are privilaged enough to have can teach us far more than we ever expected. I'm a single parent and I always wish it were me instead of him, I did have colon cancer 8 yrs ago, but brain cancer is far worse....so far he is stable, it's such an aggressive cancer and I just keep it all positive and upbeat, and I have two other kids so it's a balance and it's imperative to let the other two know they are loved. My heart aches for you. I will keep you in my prayers Holly. God Bless.
Kathy-mom of David
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <jOY2jAK@CS.COM>
Boynton, FL USA - Saturday, April 17, 2004 2:38 PM CDT

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Thinking of you! Wishes for good days.

Warmly from the great Buckeye state, Angela
www.ChristiThomas.com


With love and prayers, Christi's Mommy - Angela <zzartset@bright.net>
Tiffin, OH - Friday, April 16, 2004 11:46 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,dropping in to say hello,You sure do have wonderful parents and they truly love you. I know that you miss Adam very much and it doesn;t seem fair that children have to die when there are so many older people that are ready to go home to be with the Lord.His ways we don't know, but someday we will and we'll understand.hugs to you and your family.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Friday, April 16, 2004 9:17 PM CDT

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Hi Holly
It was so sweet of you to mention me in your entry! I "adopted" Adam when he had the "adopt me!" sign next to him on the share the love website (then, chubby chica!) I have been praying for you guys ever since! I should probably fill you in a little on myself..my hubby and I are from upstate NY, my husband, two kids (Christian 6, Sarah 4) live in NH now due to my hubby's job (forester) . We like it here, it's very pretty, although we miss family. I'm glad my entries brighten your day if even it's just a little bit. I didn't know anything of Caring bridge until a friend of mine from upstate ny sent me a page on a little boy named Tyler who was from that area. He had cancer and I visited his site every day and prayed for him. He lost his battle with the sickness and I found some pages of other kids through his site and decided to try and make someones day a little brighter by visiting them. I know I can't put myself in your shoes but since I do have kids I can't imagine anything ever happening to them, I can't fathom it, Reading your story and several others has changed me, I pray every night, I give my kids an extra hug at night and ask them to pray for all the sick kids everywhere. I'm sorry you and so many others have to go through this. I wish we could make sense out of it all, just know that God has a plan, it must be a very important one if he chose your adam that's for sure. From what you said he was a truly amazing little man..the way he spoke about God and his family. I think of you guys and pray for you every night, you have a nice weekend Holly and I'll sign back again after the weekedend..we're taking our kids and Christian's friend Samuel to see "home on the range" tomorrow..our first outing with a friend of Christian's..wish us luck! Thinking of you and yours
Love and prayers

~Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, April 16, 2004 11:51 AM CDT

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i wanted to let you know that i'm still here, checking in and hoping that each day is a little better than the last. keep your chin up, and know that i'm thinking about all of you. hi to doug, jonathan, josh and all of your parents!
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Friday, April 16, 2004 9:08 AM CDT

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Holly,
I hope you are feeling much better from your cold. Sorry, I didn't get a chance to write yesterday, I did check on you though. I use to watch St. Judes, but it is just too heart wrenching for me to watch anymore. These innocent children going through all that they do (and their parents too), and I'm sorry this may sound mean but, the outcome is still the same....death. With all the technology and inventions and discoveries today, why can't they find a cure for cancer? There are soo many people dying every day from this dreadful "monster" we call cancer!!! It's just not right and it's not FAIR!
I'm sorry your family and so many others are having to go throught this. I pray daily for you and all the children out there suffering from cancer.


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, April 16, 2004 5:56 AM CDT

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I ALWAYS WANT TO SIGN THESE GUESTBOOKS BUT WHEN I GO TO WRITE I CANNOT THINK OF ONE WORD TO SAY BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER EVER BEEN THROUGH THE TROUBLES THAT YOU GUYS HAVE. AND THE ONLY THING I CAN EVER THINK OF IS GOD BLESS, BUT I FEEL THAT PEOPLE DO NOT TRULY UNDERSTAND, IN ITS ENTIRETY, HOW POWERFUL AND MEANINGFUL I HOPE THOSE WORDS ARE HEARD AND THAT I AM PRAYING FOR ADAM AND HIS FAMILY EVERY DAY!! SO...
GOD BLESS!
- Friday, April 16, 2004 2:09 AM CDT

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~*~*~*Holly*~*~*~

What a sweet picture you've put on the front of *Adam's* page. I had to laugh when I saw it because (not only is it adorable and shows his true handsomeness (?)), I JUST recently picked up that exact same Suave shampoo for Samantha. I don't know why that dawned on me but I thought I would share it.

I want to thank you so, so, so much for all of your prayers and wonderful thoughts as far as Jeff is concerned. It means so much knowing so many wonderful people are thinking of him and wishing him well. I also want to thank you for taking the time to sign Samantha's guestbook when you're able to. It's always great to hear from you and you always leave the sweetest messages for us. Thank you!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

~*~*~*Jeff is HOME!!!*~*~*~



Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Friday, April 16, 2004 1:15 AM CDT

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Hope you feelg better soon Holly. I watched those shows too, they are so sad and I say a prayer for all those kids and your family too. God did touch Adam and heal him completely..not the way we all wanted but he is through will all the pain and I'm sure he's playing baseball in heaven. I'm praying for you and your family for God to make his presence known so you can lean on him. I hope you have a nice weekend, know I'm thinking of you!
Love and prayers
~Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, April 15, 2004 9:36 AM CDT

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Holly-
I am thinking of you and praying for you all. I am praying for all the other children and families that have to go through this. You are such a strong wonderful person and I am so sorry you are hurting. I wish I could help you and make all the pain go away. I am here for you always. I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 6:23 AM CDT

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Holly,
Your update is so heartbreaking...I don't have any children (not yet anyway), let alone lost any so I won't have a clue how you are feeling...I follow hundreds of kids on Caringbridge and so many have earned their angel wings and their parents' pain seem all so familiar in the updates that I read...I know you're hurting...I just want you to know that I'm thinking of you and your precious angel up above...I know my mom (who's in Heaven too) is looking out for all these kids in Heaven...I tell her to keep an eye of them when I talk to her in my prayers. Keep hanging in there and know that I'm thinking of you...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~



Love & prayers,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Thursday, April 15, 2004 6:12 AM CDT

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Holly,
Like I told you earlier today, what a cute picture! Although Adam wouldn't find it cute! Again, I enjoyed your company today. My heart just breaks to see you hurting so. I pray that God give you all strength and peace through this difficult road you must travel and endure. I love you all.

Love and Prayers Always
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 10:25 PM CDT

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What a cute picture! Thinking of you today. God Bless~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, April 14, 2004 12:21 AM CDT

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Holly,
Hi Swetie! I am at the Middle School today. I just wanted to stop in and say hello. That is absolutely awesome about the cubscout medal!! I am sure Adam is very proud. As well he should be. I love the picture in the bath tub. I can here him yelling at you for it. MOM!!!!!! I miss that sweet little voice and that sweet little smile. I love you so much Sweetie. My heart aches for you. I love you and I pray for you always. God Bless You and keep you in His peace.
Love, Amy
Amy <collinsa@k12kenton.com>
Kenton, oh - Wednesday, April 14, 2004 9:44 AM CDT

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Holly-
That is so wonderful - what the cubscouts want to do for Adam!
I just wanted to say you are a great Mom and a wonderful person! You are in my thoughts and prayers!
I love you!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 5:58 AM CDT

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Holly, I do not sign everyday but I read this daily. You are still in our thoughts and prayers. I can not even begin to know how you feel. I know I would feel lost. I pray for more good days for you and your family. I pray Adam sends you some signs.

Jenny Cornell and Dakota & Madelynn <dakotat@bright.net>
Alger, - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 5:02 PM CDT

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hang in there, holly. and please let the doug, jonathan and josh know that i'm thinking about you all.

love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 10:45 AM CDT

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Holly, please don't consider yourself selfish. You have every right to be angry and to voice your feelings. If you feel the need to vent and don't want to post it on Adam's site, feel free to e-mail me. (dawn.pierce@bxs.com) I know your pain and understand where you are coming from. It will never be easier, BUT you will learn how to cope with it all as time goes by. I pray for you daily that you will be blessed with strength and comfort.

Again, please feel free to e-mail me at anytime. I am here for you and will listen. I am thankful for your friend, Diana, that keeps up with you daily. What a blessing she is to you and I know that she is what keeps you going sometimes.

I wish I could give you the words to make things better, but I can't. What I can do is pray for you and I do.

Love,
Dawn
www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 9:00 AM CDT

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I'm so sorry you are going through all this pain. I wish that none of this had happened to you, God must have had a very good reason. I wish we knew what that reason was. We will all know some day, in the meantime know that I'm praying for you and asking God to send you some comfort in some way. I know I'm not in your shoes and i can't imagine how you feel but know i'm thinking of you and your family and including you in my daily prayer. You take care and I'll check on you real soon. Thinking of you~
Jennnifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 8:38 AM CDT

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Holly,
YOU ARE NOT SELFISH!!! You are in pain and going through hell !! Any loving, caring parent who has lost a child would be going through the same anger,feelings, and emotions. If you weren't I'd think there was something wrong with you. I cannot BEGIN to fathom what you are and have been going through. To lose a piece of your heart is just unimaginable to me. The only good thing to come out of all this, is that Adam is no longer in any pain. I'm soooo sorry that you all are having to go through this. I love you all very much and am here for you always. By the way, there is no thanks needed. I only wish I could do more for you, like take away all your pain.
Also, I am very sorry if I have said or done anything to offend anyone. It was not intentional.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, April 13, 2004 8:34 AM CDT

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Holly-
I just wanted to say I love you and I am so sorry for the extreme pain and hurt you are feeling. You all are in my thoughts and prayers every single day.
Adam- Please give your Mommy some more signs that you are ok..she needs them and misses you so much. I love and miss you.
Love and prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 13, 2004 7:15 AM CDT

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Holly,
You all are continually in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all very much!


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, April 12, 2004 8:58 PM CDT

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Dear Kindells,

What I am about to share is for everyone that reads this website or shares it with others:

Maybe I am out of place for saying what I am going to say but you know how outspoken I can be. I really wish people would stop and think about their conversations when they are around those individuals who have lost a loved one. Being exposed to the highlights of your family life can further depress a grieving person when those highlights are said in an insensitive manner. The interjection, "you know..." is truly hard to take. We will never know because Adam isn't going to experience the things you are talking about. It is not that I expect you to "tip-toe" around any issue that you have to share, but please remember that we are still hurting and maybe what you're about to talk about is not appropriate. And, something I myself am guilty about, is that the feelings of Doug, Holly, Johnathon, and Joshua are the priority; always! NOT what I myself or you are experiencing. It is not about yourself, it is about them.
They are such brave souls and could use any and all love and compassion you send their way. Just think, think of what you are saying.

"When men are brought low and you say, "Lift them up!" then he will save the downcast." (Job 22:29)
Granny Witch <rmjkindell@wcoil.com>
Kenton, OH USA - Monday, April 12, 2004 3:53 PM CDT

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Hello there
I thought of you all on Easter Sunday! We were away in NY, we got back yesterday. I said a prayer for your family. Thinking of you

Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, April 12, 2004 11:43 AM CDT

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Good Morning,
Just wanted to let you know that we were thinking of you.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. ++++++++++
What a beautiful precious picture.
Love,LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota ~*~
God be with you.

I John 4:11-12 - Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. (12) No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us.

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Monday, April 12, 2004 5:39 AM CDT

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Thinking of you and praying for God's Peace to be with you. I hope you had a good Easter.


Love,
Dawn
www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
- Sunday, April 11, 2004 10:16 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope all went as well as can be today. Your in my prayers daily. Love ya.


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, April 11, 2004 8:19 PM CDT

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*Holly*

I know this isn't an easy holiday for you, hon but please know our thoughts and prayers are with you. We hope you're having as good of a day as you can possibly be having. Wishing you and everyone in your family a happy, healthy and blessed holiday!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

(for *Adam*)

Happy Easter!!!

Shannon, Jeff & Samantha Therese <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Sunday, April 11, 2004 4:29 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thinking of you all always. My prayers for you never cease.


Adam, Happy Easter!! One of your most favorite holidays!! Be with mommy,daddy,Johnathon and Josh and help them get through this special day without your physical presence. We all love and miss you very much!!


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, April 10, 2004 8:20 PM CDT

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Thinking of you this Easter, Love everyone at Post Pals



Kat <kat@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, April 10, 2004 5:41 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope you can find some peace through this difficult Easter holiday. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Thinking of you always.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, April 9, 2004 9:05 PM CDT

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Holly and family,have a blessed Easter.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Friday, April 9, 2004 7:34 PM CDT

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Hi everyone, just wanted to say hi and to let you know that we all miss you guys and Adam very much. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him and of you. Hope your Easter is nice. We love you all very much, Love,
Ebi, Kris, and Karen
Ebony <kmoore@kua.net>
Clermont, FL USA - Friday, April 9, 2004 4:52 PM CDT

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Holly-
I will be thinking of you all and hoping you have a good Easter! I love you all!
Love and prayers.

Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 9, 2004 12:53 AM CDT

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We're heading out to ny for the weekend today and I wanted to wish you a happy Easter and I'll be thinking of you. Take care and God Bless
Love
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, April 9, 2004 6:24 AM CDT

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Holly,
Hope your day has went as well as can be. I don't know if you have looked yet at little Jake Griffins site today but he earned his angels wings at 6:04am this morning. It is just Sooooo sad what Adam and all the rest of these innocent cancer children have had to endure/or are enduring at this very moment. Why do they have to suffer so. My heart aches for each and every one of them along with their parents. I know I probably sound like a broken record, but you all are always in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all very much. Thinking of you especially upon this upcoming Easter.

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, April 8, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

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i'm not worried about the cubs dropping a game to the reds. sorry, adam, but it is the cubs that are on the cover of sports illustrated!
hope you all are having a good day. i'm thinking about you, as always.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, April 8, 2004 1:23 PM CDT

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Holly,
Thanks again for today. We had a good time also. I truely enjoy hearing memories of Adam. My heart just aches for all of you! It just didn't seem right being at your house and Adam not there holding Ethan and playing with Elijah. I still cannot believe this has happened! I think and pray for you always. I love you all very much!

I must tell you one more thing before I sign off. After we left your house, I thought we would go over to moms house to see if she wanted to take a walk ( since it was such a nice day out.) As we were walking in her front door Elijah showed me his hands and said "look mom".(He had a light reddish stain on his finger tips and a little on his palms from the juice box you gave him) I said "Yes, that is from the juice you've been drinking". And he said "No, it is from Hollywoods toys." I thought that was sooo funny. From now on, that is going to be your new nick name!!!!


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, April 7, 2004 6:52 PM CDT

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Stopping in to say Hello !!!!!!!!!
Thinking of you during the Easter holiday.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way. +++++++++++++++++
Sorry it's been a while since we signed in, But been gone for a few day's. Love, LaKota and her mom, Debbie
God be with you.

Whatever you ask for in Prayer with faith you will receive.
Matthew 21:22

http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, April 7, 2004 12:26 AM CDT

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Holly-
The music and the pics are great!! I know it may be difficult at times, but I hope you all have a Happy Easter!!
I am thinking of you and praying for you all!!
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 7, 2004 11:58 AM CDT

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Just wanted to drop by and let you know that Adam is always near to our hearts at Quilts of Love.. and to wish you a Happy Easter...

Hugs and Love Carolyn
Carolyn <carolyn@quiltsoflove.com>
Oklahoma - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 9:31 PM CDT

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Holly,
I love the song you put on here. Believe me, you are not the ONLY computer illiterate out there!!! I have to ask Michael how to do alot of things on the computer! Thinking of you always! Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 6:19 PM CDT

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I like the music and the picture holly, it turned out really neat. Praying for you and your family during this Easter holiday season. Thinking of you! :)
Love and prayers
~Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 2:58 PM CDT

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Hey there,

Glad you and Joshua had a good time yesterday. Becky is home sick today and I am home with her. Don't think we'll do any painting though. ;)

I look forward to visiting Adam's grave some day. When I was a kid, the only graves we visited were great aunts and uncles, grandparents, great grandparents, elderly friends of the family... oh and the occasional president and etc. I didn't know it could turn out like this: visiting our children's graves. It's something, isn't it? I don't know what it is, but it's something. Anyway, I will have to check out Adam's grave next time we are in Ohio. We still have a Captain Picard (star trek) standing at the base of Brian's grave that a friend and fellow star trek watcher left him shortly after he was buried.

Oh, that Zeocast picture/music thing is nice. I had to add one to our webpage, too, after I saw yours.

The Lord bless and keep you. And give you peace.
Steve Holliday <shollida@hotmail.com>
Memphis, TN - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 11:31 AM CDT

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~*~*~*Holly*~*~*~

Hi hon!

I'm SO glad to hear your migraines have subsided. Hopefully they will continue to leave you alone. Please do not EVER think you're a bad mother. You are the most courageous, kind hearted, sweet, loving woman and mother. I mean that.

***Sweet Adam***

These are for you, sweetheart!



P.S. They're supposed to be jellybeans.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

~*~*~*Miss Samantha*~*~*~

Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 10:47 AM CDT

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holly,

i am glad to hear that the migraine is gone...i know that they can take everything out of a person! i'm sure your bathroom looks great with some new paint. josh must have loved helping out!
i've got a soft spot for the cadbury eggs, too. ok, i have a soft spot for all easter candy. i'll be glad when it is out of the stores!
have a good week. tell everyone i said hello.
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 8:48 AM CDT

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Hey guys, we watned to wish you
a happy easter early. love, craig,
lauren, and helen

CRAIGGY
craig <trula1@comcast.net>
- Monday, April 5, 2004 10:08 PM CDT

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Holly,
Glad you had an enjoyable day with Joshua. No, you are not a bad mother! You are a kind and loving mother who enjoys spending time with her children and enjoying the "little" things in life that is shared between parent and child. You of all people understand how important and precious time is with your children. We should all take as much time out of our hussle and bussle lifestyles and just be "a kid" with our children, for you never know what the future holds, and it may be too late.
I'm praying especially hard for strength for you through this Easter holiday. I know it's hard for you. I'm here for you always. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, April 5, 2004 9:16 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,
It's great that your migraine is now gone. Also, I'm glad that you had a chance to have Joshua home with you today. I have to admit that I’ve kept my Jeremy home from school when he could have gone too. I like it when he’s home with me – he keeps me company. I also find myself letting my kids do things (like painting) that I never used to. I used to let Steven do things with me all the tine. We’ve learned to make memories whatever we are doing. We know better than most people that you just never know what can happen. And you’re right, if they make a mess – we can just do it over. As long as they have fun – that’s all that really matters. I hope that your Easter is okay (Sometimes okay is the best we can do). You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Monday, April 5, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

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Holly, I havent ever written on here before but wanted you and your family to know that you guys are always in our prayers.Usually evertime I pass your house I say a little prayer for you.Just always remember that God is forever with you and will never forsake you, He is your peace and comfort. You are always in our thoughts and prayers!!! With all our love.
Penny Prater
Kenton, Oh - Monday, April 5, 2004 6:59 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hi Sweetie! I am here at the high school again. I have a few minutes so I am checking in on you. I am so happy I got to come see you last night. Thank you so much for calling. I LOVE sharing memories of Adam!!! Not a minute goes by that I don't think of you. I love you so much. Don't ever forget that I am here for you ALWAYS!!!! Alex wants to have his cross done by Easter. He said he wants to give it to Adam for Easter. When I got home last night, the boys, Gary and I all shared memories of Adam. He was such a beautiful, special, precious, wonderful child. We miss him very much, which makes my heart hurt soooooooo much for you. I cannot imagine the pain you deal with every single moment. I love you Shirl! My thoughts and prayers are with you constantly. God Bless You All !!!
Gottta go!!
Amy <collinsa@kenton.k12.com>
Kenton, Oh - Monday, April 5, 2004 12:51 AM CDT

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Holly-
I hope your migraine has finally gone away! I am thinking of you!
Love and Prayers:)
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 5, 2004 11:38 AM CDT

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Hi there Holly~
I know how those migraines can be..I had one Friday night, shades drawn the whole nine yards. YUCK!! I've had the flu so that is maybe an end result. I'm sorry you have had one, and I am praying that you'll feel better. Know I'm thinking of you at Easter time and Adam too. He'll be with you at that sunrise service. Take care and I'll sign back soon
Love and prayers
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, April 5, 2004 7:53 AM CDT

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~*~*~*Holly*~*~*~

Hi hon!

I'm so sorry to hear about your migraines. I don't know if the headaches I get would count as migraines, but I get some doozies sometimes. I also know another CaringBridge Mom who gets migraines, and she's absolutely miserable when they hit. I hope you're feeling better, hon!

I'm so glad to hear you received *Adam's* video! I'm sure it was a bittersweet time watching it, but I'm sure it's beautiful!

I just wanted to stop by and let you know that you and that wonderful family of yours is thought of often.

Wishing all of you a wonderful week! Please tell *Adam* I said "Hi" when you visit him again.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

~*~*~*Samantha Therese*~*~*~



Shannon <humphity319@aol.com>
#24 - Sunday, April 4, 2004 11:07 PM CDT

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Hi Holly,Thoes headaches are horrible,I use to get them long time ago the older I got they seemed to go away (one good thing about old age huh).Glad you are doing well in school ,Adam would be very proud of you. I hope you have a nice week,Hugs..
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Sunday, April 4, 2004 9:27 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope your migraine is totally gone. Those things are the PITS!!! I hope to see the video of Adam one day. I bet it is REALLY nice. Thinking of you always and constantly in my prayers. I'm always here for you. I love you all!

Adam, thank you for sparing us from the snow. I know how hard that must have been for you since you love snow!! Continue to show mommy and daddy signs that you are okay and having a blast with Jesus. They especially need them now since Easter (your favorite holiday)is just around the corner. Your mommy misses making your basket this year. They love and miss you so, as do so many others. Please keep watch over them and help them through this life without you. It is an AGONIZING road they must travel. I love ya very much and miss ya. I also miss writing to you on here. Give Jesus a hug for me okay. Love ya!


Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, April 4, 2004 6:18 PM CDT

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Holly,
Hope you had a good day today (as good as can be). It sure was good to finally see the sun! I guess Adam's not tired of the snow yet cause the weather man says we could get 1-2in. tomorrow. Adam, you just love to tease don't ya!:)
I've been battling a headache since yesterday afternoon, so I'm gonna cut this entry short again unfortunately.
There's not a moment goes by that I'm not thinking of you all and Adam. I love you all. I'm here for you always!!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, April 3, 2004 8:03 PM CST

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Hi Holly - You don't have to worry about people forgetting Adam. YEARS from now, someone will say something about him that maybe even you had forgotten. You are too hard on yourself. Life changes all of us, and the people we meet along the way all have some effect on us - but we don't forget them. Believe me - as I tell the girls - I didn't live this long without learning SOMETHING. I'm sure your mom can agree. You did well with your classes. Keep up the good work. Say hi to Doug and the boys for me. Take care of yourself.

Love, Linda

Linda Lojewski <momloje@core.com>
Oak Brook, IL DuPage - Friday, April 2, 2004 6:25 PM CST

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Holly,
Please know you are thought of and prayed for daily. I know I am always saying that but it is true and I don't want you to forget that. Adam will NEVER be forgot, don't worry. His memories will live on. I'm here for you always! Lova ya!

Love and Prayers

Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Friday, April 2, 2004 6:21 PM CST

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Stopping by to let you know that your in our thought's and prayer's.
Sending lot's of prayer's your way.++++++++++++++++++++++

Holly, The feeling's that you have, is very normal for some people.....I know that feeling to well, I have two children in Heaven, and our daughter LaKota with cancer. Just want you to know we are here for you.
God be with you my friend.
Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota's Page ~*~

PRECIOUS CHILD

What is more precious
than any gem or stone?
More lovelier than a flower
full of bloom
Your smile, my dear, your smile.
What can soften the heart
and make you want to shout?
What can give your soul joy
turning your frown upside down?
Your smile, my dear, your smile
God sent you from above
To give me loads of love
He gave me you just a little while
Yet, you gave me so much more.
With your smile my dear, your smile.
Though I miss your presence
feeling of loneliness without you here
I want to be selfish and have you stay
To enjoy your sweetness more each day
I know you had to go.
I'll see your smile again someday.
In the trees, blowing softlly in the breeze
As the sun shines down from the skies.
A soft whisper, a mellow sound
I'll enjoy, your simle- my dear, your smile.



http://www.carinbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <sdl@astound.net>
St.Cloud, MN - Friday, April 2, 2004 5:12 PM CST

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Holly-
Please don't be so hard on yourself...what happened has changed you and your life. You need to grieve....Adam understands that....those of us who love you understand that too. You are a wonderful person and a great Mom!
I love you.
Adam - Please send your Mommy some more signs that you are there with her, right beside her and that you are ok. I love you and miss you sweetheart!
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 2, 2004 3:39 PM CST

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Just stopping by to let you know that you are being prayed for. Keep expressing your feelings. Grieve the only way you know how. If people can't understand your grief and anger, call me. (E-mail me and I will give you my phone number.) I know how you feel. I pray that God will give you the strength that you need to survive daily. Remember, take one day at a time.


Dawn Pierce (www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce) <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Friday, April 2, 2004 10:14 AM CST

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HI there Holly
Have a good weekend, I'll be thinking of you!
Love and prayers
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Friday, April 2, 2004 8:48 AM CST

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"The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to God can stand up to anything."
GOD BLESS!!!!
- Friday, April 2, 2004 3:35 AM CST

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Holly,
I'm glad the boys are opening up more to you about missing Adam. I know how much that means to you. I'm glad you had fun coloring easter eggs too.
You are in my thoughts and prayers continuously. I'm always here for you.

Love and Prayers


Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Thursday, April 1, 2004 6:25 PM CST

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Holly-
Great job in school...I am so proud of you!! You should be so proud of yourself too! I know Adam is proud of his Mama!
I am glad to hear Johnathon is expressing himself a little more. I love you and think of you always.
Love and Prayers.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 1, 2004 12:35 AM CST

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Hi there Holly. I hear you did really well in school? GREAT JOB! I'm so proud of you!!! :) How wonderful about the Easter egg and the story, you must be proud of your boys. Adam is watching over you all. You take care now. Drop you a line soon!! :)
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Thursday, April 1, 2004 11:28 AM CST

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holly,

congrats on the 4.0! i wish i could say that my transcript had that fantastic number somewhere on it.... and i was glad to read about jonathan sharing things with you. it's got to be so hard for those guys, too, to not have their brother around.
keep your chin up, and know that there are people thinking about you, doug, jonathan and josh all of the time.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Thursday, April 1, 2004 11:27 AM CST

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Holly,
I love the picture of Adam in the Army outfit! My son wore a similar outfit for Halloween in 2001 also. It was a great year to dress like that.




I read this webpage frequently and I think about you and your family often. Though I barely knew Adam, I only ever heard good things about him. Adam was so lucky to have a great mother like you. I am sure he is very proud of you! You are always in my prayers..........
Kendra <mkhale@wcoil.com>
Kenton, OH - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 8:08 PM CST

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Holly,
Congrats on your 4.0 !!!!!!! That's great! I knew you would do good. There is no "thanks" needed, I am here for you always at ANY time. You are NOT wallowing in self-pity !! You have lost one of your sons. A piece of your heart. You CANNOT get over something like this in just a week or two! If you did, I would think you were mentally ill! You will never be the "old" you. That part of you has been forever changed. I wish I could ease your pain. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all very much!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 7:53 PM CST

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God bless you and family .my prayers are with you all.and little Adam is watching over you all allso .
Lassie Smelser ,Celina Ohio.
Lassie Smelser <lsmelser@bright.net>
Celina, ohio usa - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 6:59 PM CST

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Hey Holly. I look forward to your updates. I know that it's so hard, but you are doing well. God will get you through this. He is still giving me strength everyday to deal with Shae's death and it's been 3 years. I was able to share Shae's story today with a customer. It always makes me happy to share his story. I love it when people ask about him. Please feel free to e-mail me at any time or sign Shae's guestbook. I probably won't have too many words of wisdom, but I can listen. I have walked in your shoes and now how you feel.
May God's grace shine on your and your family.

Dawn Pierce (www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce) <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 4:17 PM CST

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holly,

i would donate again in a second...i wouldn't think twice about it. i am just sorry that it couldn't help adam more so that he could be there with you guys now. i think about you and check this everyday, even if i don't sign on. i know that good days will start coming again...just hang in there! please tell everyone i said hi.
love,
kim
kim lojewski <kimlojewski@hotmail.com>
clarendon hills, il usa - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 3:35 PM CST

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HI Holly
Just checking in on you and I wanted to leave a message to say hello and I'm thinking of you! :)
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 11:24 AM CST

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Holly-
Just wanted to say hi and let you know I am thinking of you and praying for you.
I love you.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 6:22 AM CST

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Hi Holly,checking in to see how you are,Missed seeing your Mom and Dad At Church Sunday,how very sweet they are.My prayers are with you and your family.Please pray for my best friend Shirley,she just found out last week that she has cancer,she is a very loving Christian woman.love to you all.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Tuesday, March 30, 2004 8:27 PM CST

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Holly, I really love the army picture on here. It is adorable. I bet Adam was just a laughing at you with your little problem with the jelly beans. I am glad to see your Compassionate Friends group is helping you to a point. I know you will never feel normal again. I grieve for you and pray time will ease things. I hope God can help give Jonathon and Josh some patience and help with dealing too.

Always in our prayers.
Jenny Cornell and Dakota & Madelynn <dakotat@bright.net>
Alger, - Tuesday, March 30, 2004 6:22 PM CST

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Holly,
Thinking and praying for you all, always. Hope your grocery shopping went well yesterday. I hate grocery shopping too, but I hate unloading and putting stuff away even more!!!
Love ya!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Tuesday, March 30, 2004 6:07 PM CST

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hello Holly
I'm praying for you today! :) You take care an know I'm thinking of you.
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Tuesday, March 30, 2004 8:33 AM CST

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Holly,
Thank you again for your company today. I really enjoy listening to stories of Adam and all the memories. Please stop beating yourself up over "yelling" at him the last few mos. he was here. It was out of "fear" of losing him. He understood that. You were a GREAT mother to him from beginning to end, so don't you think otherwise! He knew how much you and Doug loved him and he loved you just as much.

Adam will love that keychain. Not only because it's a picture of his favorite man but because his mommy and daddy picked it out just for him.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all very much.

Love and Prayers



Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Monday, March 29, 2004 2:08 PM CST

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Holly
I am glad you were finally able to go to the concert and have fun. Please know that you are not selfish, no parent should have to go through what you and Doug are going through, it is not fair and you have every right to be angry. I am here for you always...no matter what...if you want to you can call me anytime and I will come up there..you can talk to me, cry or scream whatever you want. I could even bring my punching bag up for you....it may help with the anger a little to beat the crap out of that...it helps me:)
I love you and am praying for you. Please call me if you need anything at all.
Shelly <shelly_b44@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 29, 2004 8:58 AM CST

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Oh Holly, I'm so sorry you are going through this, give your sons a hug and start fresh, like someone else said on here taking time minute by minute it's all you can do and pray for the strength of another day. know I'm thinking of you and praying for you ok? God is there with you Holly even when you feel the furthest away from him. I'll check back on you real soon
Love and prayers~
Jennifer Parenti <parenti@netzero.net>
Orford, NH USA - Monday, March 29, 2004 7:07 AM CST

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Holly,
Of course you are not selfish. How can you be selfish for wanting your son back? I haven’t done Easter baskets yet for the same reason as you. I cannot stand the thought of doing three baskets instead of four. I know that I have to do it, but I just keep putting it off. I did the same thing at Christmas. I know how hard it is to get through each day. The only advice I can give you is to just hang on for a better day. Try to get through this minute, and no more. And sometimes even getting through a minute is so hard. But we need to do it for our other kids. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Barb – Steven’s Mom Forever

www.caringbridge.org/ny/stevens <bspittle@stny.rr.com>
Binghamton, NY - Sunday, March 28, 2004 8:56 PM CST

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Holly,
I'm glad you had a good time at the concert, but I'm sorry you are going through this hell. I wish I could ease your pain. I hope you know how much you all mean to me and how much I care for you all and Angel Adam.

Love and Prayers
Diana <dfiana@michael-angelos.com>
- Sunday, March 28, 2004 4:30 PM CST

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Don't feel bad Holly, I'd never thought about the flies either.good intentions were there and thats what counts. hope you had a good time at the concert.
kandy <kandyshepherd@alltel.net>
- Saturday, March 27, 2004 9:43 PM CST

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Holly,
Hope you enjoyed the concert with Adam's favorite man! Hope you felt Adam near you. I love you all lots! Always in my thoughts and prayers!

Love and Prayers
Diana <diana@michael-angelos.com>
- Saturday, March 27, 2004 6:11 PM CST

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Well I certainly learned something new about jellybeans. What a day you had! And I know your sweet Angel Adam knows the thoughts behind your actions and that's what counts! You are a wonderful Mom! Hope you got to go to the concert.

Kathy H.
T.O., CA - Saturday, March 27, 2004 1:26 AM CST

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