Our Family.

Journal

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 8:21 PM CDT

I have received many notes and emails wanting to know how we are doing so I will try to update more often. It just seems so strange not telling you how Ryan is or what the next treatment will be. There is not a day that I don't think that he is just out of town and he will call soon. Then the reality hits. We all miss him so much. The children mention him often and I hope that will continue. We ordered his gravestone. i hope it is what he would have wanted. We tried to incorporate all of the things he loved Family, Friends, Chiefs, Golf and art. A cross he drew will be on the right side while the arrowhead and a golf ball will be on the left.
Life continues to go on and we will have to learn to live without our wonderful son. It is a open wound that continues to give us pain. It is so unnatural to have to bury your child. We will never have our old normal again so we must find a new normal. For the 4th Dan and I are going to the Amana Colonies. It is just to painful to be here doing the things we have done for so long. It has been 5 years since Dan and I went away. Nothing is easy but it is the way it must be.
We are also going to make plans for Christmas. We would love for our family to be together away from home. Not that that will diminish our memories but we will be making new ones. if you have any get away ideas let us know.
Have a good holiday make sure to hold your children tight. Love, Missy

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