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BUTTER
Butter, like love,
seems common enough
I held a brick of it, heavy & cool,
and glimpsed what seemed like skin
beneath a corner of its wrap;
the sight revealed a most attractive fat!
Not milk, not cream,
it was a delicacy which assured me
that bliss follows agitation, that even
pasture daisies through the alchemy of
four stomachs, may grace a kings table.
We have a yellow bowl near the toaster,
where summers butter grows
soft and sentimental.
We love better for its weeping,
its nostalgia for buckets and churns
and deep stone wells,
for the press of a wooden butter mold
shaped like a swollen heart.
g'nite Jessica
Love, Gramps
Bruce <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, Nebr USA - Thursday, December 29, 2011 8:53 PM CST
Today, Jessie celebrates her tenth birthday in heaven with her mom, dad, and big sister. We love and miss you all so much! Love, Uncle Tony
Uncle Tony Hindman <tony@homesteadcustom.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Monday, July 25, 2011 7:56 PM CDT
Six years ago today, Jessie lost her battle with Neuroblastoma, but got to meet Jesus. Today, she is with so many loved ones, but those of us left behind miss them all so much.
We love you all!
Uncle Tony
Tony Hindman <tony@homesteadcustom.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2011 8:13 AM CDT
Dear Jessie,
Six years ago on Easter weekend, we learned that your cancer had come back and was going to take you from us. This Easter, you are celebrating in heaven with Jesus, your loving Mommy, Daddy, and Dena, and all the cookies you could ever want! We're all still down here, loving you and missing all of you, as we will until we meet again.
Happy Easter to all of you!
Love,
Uncle Tony
Tony Hindman <tony@homesteadcustom.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Sunday, April 24, 2011 6:45 AM CDT
God Bless this family that they are together watching over all of us. They all touched our lives in ways that they will never be forgotten. Help us deal with our pain of not having them to talk to and spend time with on this earth.
Kathy Fink <katzmisc@cox.net>
Glendale, AZ - Wednesday, March 16, 2011 8:33 AM CDT
Jessica, I know you are sharing those cookies with Dad, Mom, and sister Ardena. We know you are all happy to be togeher again. We miss all of you.
JH
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, February 23, 2011 0:02 AM CST
Moths fill up the morning and spiders
slide down the shafts of sunlight.
The wind now makes a long slow moan.
Tired of the old Octobers
the moan is more a sigh.
Resigned and lonely
like those of us who face the wind
the wind itself on seeing autumn
runs to hide.
I walked home through the field alone
looking at the row on row
of dead cornstalks frightened by the frost
arrested by the first
long breath of autumn.
I'll pass by again through frosted fields
where even pumpkins now detatch themselves
from dead and drying vines.
I hope you and Jesus keep baking those cookies,
Jessica, and we'll be by someday to help you eat
them. Gramps
Grampa Bruce McNeff <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, Nebr USA - Saturday, February 5, 2011 9:03 PM CST
I think of your family often and hope you are all doing well. Jessica is still greatly missed. I remember when she was here and always wanted to go for a ride on her pole. Even on those days when she "wasn't allowed to" and we snuck her out for a quick ride around the floor once or twice! She had a great spirit and I'm glad that I was able to meet her and your family. God Bless!
Jacqulyn <jkellberg@childrensomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, April 30, 2010 8:20 AM CDT
Thinking of Jessica and the fun her and Sky had playing on the 4th of July. I wanted to wish you all Happy Holidays.
Kelly and Adam Walsh & Saint Skylar <dudeslady@msn.com>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, December 2, 2009 3:47 PM CST
DEAR MR. HALLMARK
—Author Unknown
I am writing to you from heaven,
And though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit
Your stores to find a card--
A card of love for my mother,
As this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake, I thought,
Every card you could imagine,
Except I could not find a card
From a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too,
No matter where I do reside.
I had to leave, she understands,
But, oh. the tears she's cried.
I thought that as I wrote you,
You would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me,
We still share our laughter, too.
Memories are our way of speaking now--
Would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart,
Her tears they cloud her sight.
She writes poems to honor me,
Sometimes far into the night.
She plants flowers in my garden,
There my living memory dwells.
She writes to other grieving parents,
Trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark,
Though I no longer live on earth,
I must find a way to remind her
Of her loving, wondrous worth.
She needs to be honored
And lovingly remembered too,
Just as all the mothers’ children
Still living on earth will do.
Thank you, Mr. Hallmark,
I know you'll do your best.
I have done all I can do now,
So to you I'll leave the rest.
Please find a way to tell her
How much she means to me,
Until I can do it for myself
When she joins me in eternity.
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY
Kelly, Adam and Saint Sky <dudeslady@msn.com>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, May 10, 2009 7:53 AM CDT
Was thinking about Jess the other day and decided to check your CaringBridge...realized the reason she was on my mind is because this is the time of the year that I met Jess and your family. Even for me...and I knew Jess all of a couple weeks, her death still seems so fresh, like yesterday.
Tabitha is considering being a sponsor for CaringBridge and encouraging our Hospice families, Rehab and Home Health families to use this awesome way to keep in touch with those that care about them.
Thank you for continuing to write about your journey. I am so very thankful for the opportunity I had to met Jess and the whole family. God Bless.
Becky Lindsay RN-Bereavement Coord-Hospice <beckyl@tabitha.org>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 9, 2009 1:36 PM CDT
love you guys!
Susan, Jake and Rowan McNeff Skokan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Arvada, Co US - Friday, March 27, 2009 9:31 AM CDT
Tim & Toni - I want you to know that I still think of you all and keep that precious picture of the girls at my desk, so I see it daily. Angels are with us and some are familiar. I'm just starting to deal with my friend's son's death that happen 1 1/2 yrs ago. I just can't believe he's not here. His birthday was on the 22nd and he would have been 18. You are in my prayers. Lots of Love.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, February 24, 2009 7:52 AM CST
Tim,
I have also thought a lot of the same milestone. The date for Josh will be November 19, 2009. It is so hard to think about all that they have missed. We think of you guys a lot.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, Ne - Wednesday, February 11, 2009 7:58 AM CST
Merry Christmas!!
Kelly and Adam Walsh & Saint Skylar <kwalsh_angels@hotmail.com>
Omaha, - Tuesday, December 23, 2008 11:58 AM CST
Wanted to stop by and say hello. It has been awhile but was thinking of little Jessica. Hope you all have a great holiday season.
Kelly and Adam Walsh & Saint Skylar Moon <kwalsh_angels@hotmail.com>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, October 30, 2008 11:04 AM CDT
My prayers go to you daily. Thank you for the update. I'm happy that the family is still strong and enjoying the little things in life.
Lots of love from Az, Kathy <katzklown@aol.com>
- Monday, August 11, 2008 8:38 AM CDT
Praying for your family tonight.
tb
- Tuesday, June 3, 2008 10:02 PM CDT
I miss you Jessica!! I was just talking about you the other day at Children's, I hope your famiy is doing well. God Bless
Jacqulyn <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, ne - Sunday, April 27, 2008 9:17 PM CDT
You have been on my mind all day. Not sure why. I've learned not to ignore these subtle little hints from above. Want you to know that I am thinking of you and will say an extra prayer for your family today.
anonymous
- Wednesday, February 27, 2008 4:38 PM CST
Merry Chritmas
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <Johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Tuesday, December 18, 2007 10:25 AM CST
Just stopping by and wishing you a nice holiday. Hope things are all ok with you.
Take Care
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <Johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Tuesday, November 27, 2007 2:14 PM CST
I was thinking about our children in the hospital coloring and watching fireworks. Seems like not long ago. I think of you guys often. Hope all is well.
Kelly, Adam, and Saint Sky <dudeslady@msn.com/www.caringbridge.org/skylarberry>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, October 19, 2007 9:46 AM CDT
Just "Grampa" Very hot in the garden so came in for a
lemonade & air cond. A/C has ran more last two weeks than
all last year! When working in the garden I remember how
Jessica & all the g-kids loved to play in the dirt & mud &
how much fun they had. Kids & dirt just go together, like
salt & pepper - watermelons & weeds,etc. Thats why I will
just keep on gardening. Well,got corn & weeds to chop.
Love ya, Gramps
bruce mcneff <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, nebr usa - Thursday, August 16, 2007 4:05 PM CDT
Very good and touching.
Cliff Schneider <daigostoy@atcjet.net>
Brule, Ne - Friday, July 20, 2007 7:51 AM CDT
I really enjoy your new message, Tim, & sorry I missed
the rememberence program in Omaha. It just doesn't seem
like that long ago that "Jessica" was here, and really
like to pull her pictures up & view them ocasionally. The
pastures have never been "greener" than they are right now.
What a difference 6 or 7 inches of rain makes. I think it
is about Grampa's bedtime, so, so long for awhile.
Love ya'll, Bruce mcneff & Grannie Jeanne
Bruce McNeff <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, Nebr USA - Friday, May 18, 2007 11:08 PM CDT
Lovely entry Tim. We all enjoyed being invited to go to the remembrance ceremony, even though it was difficult. Your strength inspires me. Happy Mothers Day to Toni. love-carol
Carol Biel <cjmcneff@windstream.net>
York, NE - Saturday, May 12, 2007 11:35 PM CDT
Toni, Tim and Ardena,
I know the anniversary has past, but wanting you to know that I think of your family often. I am so glad I got to know Jessie, and that I got to know each of you. Jessie's short life was a blessing to me, even in the short time that I knew her. Thank you for sharing your life and loss with me.
Becky Lindsay RN-Bereavement Coord-Hospice <beckyl@tabitha.org>
Lincoln, - Thursday, May 3, 2007 10:36 AM CDT
I hope all the wonderful memories of Jessica helped with the pain of Friday. It is amazing how many emotions you can feel in just one day.
Steve just said to me that we need to get together soon. So maybe I will check my calendar and get in contact.
Thinking of you all daily.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, May 2, 2007 8:58 AM CDT
Toni, Tim and Dena:
We're all thinking of you three today...
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Hindman
Pullman, WA - Friday, April 27, 2007 6:03 PM CDT
I am thinking of you today. I haven't talked with you for so long but it seems like it was just the other day. Our angels are playing together and paisting pictures they made on the walls of our house in heaven. Take care today and God Bless!
KELLY, ADAM AND SAINT SKY <DUDESLADY@MSN.COM>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, April 27, 2007 11:34 AM CDT
Me, again - - we got 6 inches snow so far today so didn't
have to work. Really wet stuff on {5th-apr ?} but nice as
could be. Just checkin' on ya! Grampa Bruce - Love you'all.
Bruce McNeff <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
brule, Nebr USA - Thursday, April 5, 2007 4:17 PM CDT
I am very sorry and hope your family get better.
I just want you toknow that your daughter is very pretty.
My name is sierra and I am 11 years old.
sierra <sierra_peanut@hotmail.com>
maryville, mo missouri - Friday, February 23, 2007 6:30 AM CST
Toni - I just wanted you to know that I am still here, still thinking of you and your family. I hope you are all doing well. I often think of you and Jessica. I check in from time to time on your website. Sending good thoughts your way.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Thursday, February 1, 2007 5:08 PM CST
Wishing all of you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
A friend
Lincoln, NE - Saturday, December 23, 2006 2:38 PM CST
Hi kids, Just Grampa - Really liked reading that letter and gives us all something to think about.
good luck w/tests tomorrow. Love, Dad
Grampa Bruce <bmcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, Nebr USA - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 10:37 PM CST
WOULDN'T IT BE NICE IF WE ALL COULD HAVE RECIEVED A SPECIAL LETTER. HOPE YOUR DAYS ARE GETTING A LITTLE EASIER. THINKING OF YOU THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS.
Kelly VoorVart , Adam Walsh, and Saint Skylar Berry <dudeslady@msn.com/caringbridge/ne/skylar>
OMAHA, NE - Tuesday, December 5, 2006 2:58 PM CST
Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Love Ya!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Arvada, CO - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 2:13 PM CST
meep!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Arvada, CO - Thursday, November 9, 2006 2:31 PM CST
Think of you often, wondered how you are doing. Glad you are continuing to write. I will have to check in more often!
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
usa - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 11:32 PM CST
Hi just checking in on you and seeing how you are doing. Still continue to keep you all in my prayers.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Thursday, October 12, 2006 11:44 AM CDT
Toni--just checking in--I check in often because I feel I get a better sense of what is going on in your life through the journal than I do during our visits because we focus on the girls, family etc and not on how you are really doing. So, never think no one is checking--never feel alone!! Looking forward to our "girls sleep over"--too bad you think you will get some sleep!!HA HA--later--carol
carol biel <cjmcneff@windstream.net>
york, ne - Thursday, September 28, 2006 11:45 PM CDT
Hello Toni,Tim & Ardena ... you wonder sometimes if anyone visits Jessica's site... the answer is YES. I have not forgotten your little girl or you and your families. I'm glad you updated us on how you were doing. Sometimes it is hard know what to say to a family that has lost such a precious angel. I'm happy that you are finding the strength to go on and widen your horizons and helping other little angels to be wonderful adults. You may not feel like you are.. but to me you are a very strong vivacious person. Thank you for being you. Lots of love Kathy
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, September 26, 2006 9:19 AM CDT
Dear Jessica's family:
I can only offer sympathy and warmest healing thoughts to you for having lost your beautiful daughter. The devastation this terrible disease has caused is beyond words, as we all know. We too are an NB family, and this week is the one-year anniversary of our daughter's diagnosis, and she is nearing the end of treatment. We just had scans last week and heard the terrifying words "areas of concern." But today, after additional scans were taken, we were told "everything looks fine." For absolutely NO reason, we have been very lucky so far.
I am so very sorry for your tragic loss and sincerely hope you find some eventual peace and comfort.
best thoughts,
Rachel, for Tilly www.caringbridge.org/visit/matildajade
Redondo Beach, CA USA - Friday, September 15, 2006 11:48 PM CDT
Toni,
I love to read your ramblings. Sorry I haven't signed in a while. I do check in several times a week. I know exactly how hard the start of school is. Josh would have started last year. I remember going by the school on the first day and seeing parents walking their kids to school. I cried all the way to work. I should have been there that day. Sounds like you are keeping very busy. I am sure the pink isn't too bad. Jess redid her room and had a very bright lime green picked out. I had to talk her into a lighter shade. It looks great. We think of you guys so much. We need to get together again. Hugs and love.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Friday, September 15, 2006 4:29 PM CDT
I'm still here and checking on you all.
Mandy
mamatooryan
- Friday, September 15, 2006 10:41 AM CDT
still reading ; )
great to hear from you! *hugs*
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Arvada, CO - Tuesday, September 12, 2006 12:48 AM CDT
I thought of you all on and around Jessica's birthday.
Love ya!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
- Friday, August 4, 2006 12:26 AM CDT
I think of you all very often and check your webpage almost daily. Just want you to know that your family continues to be in my prayers and you are not forgotten.
t
- Saturday, July 29, 2006 5:59 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Angel Jessica. I know you are celebrating with the angels in Heaven.
Allie
San Francisco, CA - Tuesday, July 25, 2006 2:36 PM CDT
Hey Hindmans,
Miss ya, love ya!
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Arvada, CO - Friday, July 21, 2006 1:59 PM CDT
Hi Toni and all,
Thinking of you today, so I thought I would say "hello". I hope the summer is treating you well!
Until the next occasion...
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, July 20, 2006 3:57 PM CDT
Happy Father's Day!
A Friend
Lincoln, NE - Sunday, June 18, 2006 10:45 PM CDT
Toni,
Wishing you a Happy Mother's Day
Brenda
Lincoln, NE - Sunday, May 14, 2006 4:53 PM CDT
Toni,
Happy Mother's DAY to you. Hope Tim and Ardena spoil you! You deserve it. Try to kick back and rest a bit.
Joyce & Family <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columb ia, MO - Saturday, May 13, 2006 10:25 PM CDT
Stopping by to wish you a Happy Mother's Day. You are in my thoughts.
Mandy (Angels on Earth)
mamatooryan
- Friday, May 12, 2006 9:27 AM CDT
HI Toni and Family-
I often think of Jessica and want to let you know that your family is still im my prayers. I took care of her in nuclear medicine and she was such a sunshine that will never be forgotten.
Liz Molenaar <gums83@hotmail.com>
Omaha, Ne - Thursday, May 11, 2006 4:46 PM CDT
Hindman Family,
I have been thinking of you a lot lately. I hope the 27th wasn't too hard. I hope you felt Jessica's presence with you all day. Hugs.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, May 3, 2006 1:42 PM CDT
thinkin' of you all... yesterday and always... things are running a bit late this year - go figure.
Love ya!
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Arvada, Co - Friday, April 28, 2006 4:43 PM CDT
Hi Toni, I truly believe Jessica was trying to let you know where to find her bench! I have never been to the Children's zoo in Lincoln, but we have cousins that live in Lincoln, so now this summer I want to go and find Jessica's bench! We will take our picture sitting on it! And now we will know just where to find it! Thinking of you, Darby Brion
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Friday, April 28, 2006 11:07 AM CDT
Thinking of you and remembering Jessica.
That's an awesome story about the bench! I hope it's a really great spot.
Kris Herbst - Angels on Earth <kris@ercolina-usa.com>
Bettendorf, IA - Friday, April 28, 2006 10:32 AM CDT
Thinking of you all today!
Love,
The Boesiger Family
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 27, 2006 4:36 PM CDT
Just thinking of you today.
Kelly <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
Denton, NE - Thursday, April 27, 2006 3:40 PM CDT
Thinking of you and sending many prayers out to you today. ((((((HUGS)))))
Mandy (Angels on Earth)
mamatooryan
- Thursday, April 27, 2006 8:59 AM CDT
Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you all.
Sara *Angels on Earth* <colinsmamu@tampabay.rr.com>
Seminole, FL - Thursday, April 27, 2006 8:00 AM CDT
Thinking of you this week more so than any other week. Is it odd or it God that the little monkey appeared on your tray at Runza! Amazing story. God has a hand in everything.
Joyce & family <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Monday, April 24, 2006 9:00 PM CDT
I wanted to let you know that this lurker is thinking of you as the 1st anniversary approaches. I pray that you find peace and memories that bring joy. I will be lighting a candle and thinking of Jessica on the 27th of April.
Monica <rulonm@hotmail.com>
Flanders, - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 5:50 PM CDT
It's hard to believe a year has almost past. I still think of you and your family often and pray that life is getting easier and more laughter is felt and heard. Jessica is still around and letting you know it from the sound of it. What a precious gift from God and Jessica. I get a picture in my mind and a big smile thinking of Jessica sitting on God's lap telling her stories and thoughts to Him. It seems so-real and something she would do. God bless your family. Lots of love.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 8:58 AM CDT
Toni - Im sure that Jessica was sending you a sign that she wanted you to go to the zoo. We will be in Lincoln at the end of May and plan on a trip to the zoo. We will be sure to find Jessica's bench. How special to have a remembrance such as that bench. I have thought of you a lot this last winter and fall and Im sorry I haven't signed your guestbook as much as I should have. Please take care of yourself. Thinking of you and your family.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 8:09 PM CDT
Thinking of you and hoping that you had a good Easter. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers everyday.
Tina
Lincoln, NE - Monday, April 17, 2006 4:42 PM CDT
Happy Easter sweet Jessica. I continue to pray for you family and know the missing you never gets any easier. Please thank God for all the blessings He has given us. You were a blessing to so many and personally to me because you brought me closer to God. Thank you.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Sunday, April 16, 2006 0:06 AM CDT
Toni, I found you through a friend's website. Emma Rose Miller, her mom is Shelli and they live in NE. They no longer have a website and I was wondering if you'd heard from them? I hate that I've lost touch with them. We met through my son's Website. www.caringbridge.org/ga/austinluke. I'm praying for you and your family. I know next month will be rough.
God Bless,
Amy and AUSTIN <ambbab@alltel.net>
gray, ga usa - Monday, March 27, 2006 9:41 AM CST
Toni, I found Jessica's website through Joyce Zulovich way back when. To be honest with you, I didn't know you would keep up Jessica's website after she passed away, so I didn't check in till I saw your name in Jill Z's guestbook recently. So here I was, wondering how you are handling each day as it comes. My girls are 7 and 3...sound familiar? I admire your strength, and honesty to say when you're just not feeling strong and how you miss your sweet girl. I can only relate in the sense that I would be so devastated if one of my girls went through what Jessica did, and my heart breaks for you and your family. It breaks for Ardena losing her sister. I'm sorry to say all this negative stuff...I don't meant to open sore wounds. I just wish I could meet you and hug you. Take care, and know that there are lots of us out there praying for your family...for life to be happy and healthy.
Beth Azdell <azdellb@health.missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 4:33 PM CST
I don't know you but I am thinking of you and praying for you every day!
Ashley
Ashley Fowler <jasnchr@gtmc.net>
Blue Hill, Nebraska - Friday, March 17, 2006 8:40 AM CST
thinking of you.
Mandy
mamatooryan
- Wednesday, March 8, 2006 1:22 PM CST
What a wonderful memory. Even though I didn't know your family after following you for a while I feel as though I do. And all these wonderful stories makes me feel like I knew Jessica. But I am sorry for all your pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Wednesday, March 8, 2006 11:59 AM CST
Hi Toni, I love your story. I love how you can remember those sweet things Jessica said. She was funny! Your story is the perfect example of how these things do happen to just anyone. No warning. You never know if it might be you. Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you! Love, Darby
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, March 6, 2006 10:40 AM CST
Hi Toni - Sounds as if writing is helping you cope, maybe you should publish the thoughts of a precious Angel. Jessica will always be with you and her smile will remain in everyone's mind and heart. I look at her picture daily and it makes me smile, I never did get to me her but I sure do feel her through your words. Keep going with your memories and writing. Lots to love to your family too.
Kathy <katzklown@aol.com>
glendale, az - Monday, March 6, 2006 10:24 AM CST
What funny and cute things for her to say! Those are wonderful sayings to hold on to and remember her by. Jessica was always such a character! She is such a doll!! My thoughts and prayers are with you! Keep remembering the wonderful things she said and did!
Tara RN 5th floor Children's hospital
Tara Schuman <ttschuman@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, March 6, 2006 1:23 AM CST
Beautiful words Toni. Thank you for sharing!
Jane
Jane Griffin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, March 3, 2006 6:38 AM CST
Thinking of you on this day and wishing nothing but happy memories of your beautiful daughter.
Tim
NE - Wednesday, March 1, 2006 4:11 PM CST
I think so often of the night Jessica jumped into my arms, and how she felt there. It's a feeling I'll hold on to forever. I was amazed the first time I heard her talk, how articulate and intelligent her words...
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
CO - Wednesday, March 1, 2006 2:21 PM CST
Hi Toni,
Just stopping by to see how everyone is doing. Hoping everyone is feeling good. It was great to talk to you. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, February 27, 2006 9:51 AM CST
Love you kids!
Suze <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Avada, CO - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 3:56 PM CST
Happy Valentine's Day! I am thinking of you.
Mandy (Angels on Earth)
mamatooryan
- Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:23 AM CST
Hi Toni,
It was nice to see you, your Mom and Ardena bouncing down the street! I wish I would have had time to stop and chat for a minute, but I was already running on the late side. As I said, let's try to get together. You let me know what works best for you...and we will go from there.
Hope things are going well for all of you. Take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:31 AM CST
Hi Cousins Toni, Tim and Ardena --
I can't believe tomorrow begins our second month of this New Year, and we haven't recovered from our losses and tragedies in 2005.... Jessica continues to work her "little miracles" bending God's ear to hurry Cousin Faye's return to good health, and keeping Faye smiling with every little nerve that shows improvement (slow as it is). Her patience and acceptance just has to be from Jessica's intervention "up there"... Thanks Jessica -- We love you and think of you often
Cousin Lois <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Rancho Dominguez, CA Log Angeles - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 5:39 PM CST
Just wanted to let you know that we continue to think about you and pray for you often. Hoping that you may find some comfort in each and every day.
The Lamberts (www.mollylambert.net)
Tim, Kerrie, Carli, Bethany, and Molly
Kerrie Lambert <klambert@esu8.org>
Chambers, NE - Friday, January 27, 2006 11:01 PM CST
Toni-I was just reading your past journal entries, even printed all 103 pages--but the last 2 word on each page didn't print--and I'm telling you--you are a beutiful writer! I had visions of binding the pages into somewhat of a book--titles "musings of grief" or "the nutty mom" haha--Anyway--your writing is amazing--what about a writing class?
Carol <cjmcneff@alltel.net>
York, - Friday, January 20, 2006 0:49 AM CST
Hi Hindmans,
Sorry it has been so long since I have signed the guestbook. I hope you found some joy in the holidays. I am so sorry to hear about Tim's friends. Prayers will be said for them. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Friday, January 13, 2006 4:36 PM CST
Hi Toni and all,
I have been thinking about you over the Holiday season. I am sorry to hear the very sad news about Tim's friend...
How are ideas, plans coming along??? Give me a call if you ever want to chat...take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, January 6, 2006 6:42 AM CST
HELLO TONI JUST STOPPING BY TO SEE HOW YOU ARE DOING. I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD HOLIDAY SEASON. GOD BLESS!
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com/caringbridge/ne/skylar>
OMAHA, NE - Thursday, January 5, 2006 4:54 PM CST
Thinking of all of you during this time. I hope that the Holidays were ok for you. Always praying for your comfort and guidance.
Will be praying for Tim's friends during this difficult time.
Stephanie
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, January 4, 2006 9:29 PM CST
Hi Toni! I've been thinking about you!
I see the countless Christmas Trees around the world below,
with tiny lights, like heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
for it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me. I see the pain inside your heart,
but I am not so far away. We really aren't apart.
So be happy for me dear ones. You know I hold you dear,
and be glad I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I send you each a memory of, my undying love.
After all "LOVE" is the gift, more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
for I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,
Remember, I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
Roberta Turnbull <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE USA - Monday, December 12, 2005 4:51 PM CST
Hi Toni,Just thinking of you and Jessica and thought I would drop in and say hi. Hang in there! I hope you and your family try and have a wonderful holiday seson. Take care!
Kris, Karrie, and Baylie Kudlacz <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
omaha, ne awesome USA - Saturday, December 10, 2005 5:59 PM CST
I know it's been like forever since I've visited you.
I have just been so busy.
But I think of you always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Thursday, December 8, 2005 8:27 PM CST
Happy Holidays Toni, Tim and Ardena... being down from time to time is part of the grieving process, and sharing it with everyone is healthy for you, don't bottle it up, say it and let God take it from there. What is Runza? You talk about it and I have no clue. =) Take care and have a safe holiday.
Lots of Love and prayers
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Thursday, December 8, 2005 8:22 AM CST
Toni...Don't ever feel ashamed about your feelings. Your feelings are real and I'm sure helpful sometimes to write them down and share them. Hopefully sharing them will brings words of comfort and encouragement. Keep up the journaling and stories...I love to read them. Hope to see you soon.
Kelly Rainforth <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
- Wednesday, December 7, 2005 7:00 PM CST
Good Morning, Toni!! I've been wondering how the runzas turned out?? You never mentioned that part! I love them too -- my mom used to make them all the time when I was little -- lots of work, but surely worth it (if they work out!!) I keep thinking I'll give it a try, too, but just never take the time. Emma loves to help in the kitchen, and would be great help. Maybe we should have a 'runza party'! Does Ardena like them, too?
It was great talking to you last week, and watching the movie with you Sat. I have a copy of the original I've been meaning to drop by for you to watch, too.
Take care, and stay strong! Know we're here, thinking of you and praying for you daily!!
Kathy Dunbar <kate92264@msn.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, December 7, 2005 6:04 AM CST
I want you to know that Jessica has had a profound impact on me as I am sure many others as well. I think of your family often and pray for strength for you. As far as Ardena being bored I thought I would share what my seven year old son enjoys doing with me. He loves to help me bake cookies and is so very proud of them. He likes to beat me at Uno or any other game we play. We dance in the living room sometimes and we all enjoy doing silly dances. Reading is always a favorite, we switch off so we both get to read. I hope this helps. Take care and I will continue to pray for you and the many kids battling for the ultimate cure.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 11:11 PM CST
I don't know if you've heard of this before, but some of our friends lost a daughter almost 8 years ago and we've participated in this each year since....I thought you may be insterested in remembering Jessica again through this during the holiday season. This is the message that my friend sent to us today.
"...That their light may always shine.....The world wide candle lighting....remember all children who have died. Light a candle in memory of Sarah and all children who have gone to meet our Heavenly Father ... on Sunday, December 11. 7:00pm around the Globe. THANKS to all who do this in honor of Sarah each and every year. We love you all!!
Barb and Bruce"
Sara Hughes <dshughes@netins.net>
Truro, IA USA - Sunday, December 4, 2005 11:07 PM CST
Dear Toni,
I found your site from Kaitlyn's "neuroblastoma angels." Your girls are beautiful! I'm so very, very sorry for the loss of Jessica to neuroblastoma. We lost our daughter, Gabrielle, to neuroblastoma in May 2002 and it still hurts as much as ever.
Your journal on how your feelings about wanting to be alone go back and forth and your identity and just the heaviness of grief are so true. There is nothing harder in this life then to say good-bye to a child. We do know that God loves them so very, very much and that now they are joyful before the LORD.
But still, this is so hard. I'm so very sorry.
God bless,
God bless,
The Paquette's: Monica, John, Aubrey, * Saint Gabbie * and Noah
Monica Paquette <mj.paquette@att.net>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, December 1, 2005 9:24 AM CST
My heart goes out to you and your family during this holiday season. It was so touching to read your most recient log entry. My name is Kara and I was a teacher of Liam Kane's when he was between the age of one and two. He was and IS a wonderful little man that had more energy and life than anyone could see in a day. Like all others, he fought this battle with all he had and with every ounce of strength in him until he just had no fight left. Every child that has entered my classroom had become a part of my life as part of my own "extended family". I know only my own emotions and can not even begin to comprehend the feelings from within that you, the kanes or any other family who have battled with this horrific disease feel.
I was reading your entry and you state that you may need something new to do, to keep you busy. I have discovered my own way to healing. I have been working on doing a scrap book "memory" book for the kane family. Liam was such a joy to have in my classroom and i can never even begin to thank andrea and kevin for allowing me to be apart of not just his life, but a part of their whole families life.....
Back to the scrapbook, I have found that doing this allows me to release my emotions by looking at the pictures and reading all the net entries, but it also brings joy to see the happy smiling faces of family and friends. in the end there will be a wonderful book of love, memories and tears.........good ones.
Kara <kfdarlene@yahoo.com>
PA - Monday, November 28, 2005 3:42 PM CST
I love your rambling, Toni! It makes to much sense and it scares me. I like that you share exactly how it is, it makes me feel better knowing some of the things I feel are OK, other people feel that way, too. Thank you Toni. I think of you all the time and you are in my prayers. I think Jessica is hanging out with the pope! How cool is that? even though so hard for us. Love you guys, Darby Brion
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Saturday, November 26, 2005 4:10 PM CST
Hi Toni, Tim and Dena:
On Thanksgiving we all were remembering how wonderful last Thanksgiving was. Katie and Will remembered Jessie eating pumpkin pie, and especially how she played football by tackling all the big kids. It's a wonderful memory for all of us.
Hope your Thanksgiving was as good as it could be.
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Friday, November 25, 2005 11:54 PM CST
Just stopping by to let you know I will be thinking and praying for you family this holiday... I know it will not be easy.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Tuesday, November 22, 2005 10:16 AM CST
Hindman Family,
Stopping by to let you know we are thinking of you. I hope you have a good Thanksgiving. Jessica will be watching over all of you. She will be there with you. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 8:53 AM CST
Hi Toni....I know it's been a while, but I still like to check in on you to see how you are doing. It sounds like you are a busy woman. I have been missing MOMS group due to Jason's schedule with school. I hope to be back soon. Call if you get a chance. Take care.
Kelly Rainforth <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
- Saturday, November 19, 2005 4:06 PM CST
Hello Toni - I'm glad to hear you are doing better and keeping busy. I think of you and your family often. Best wishes and lots of love
Kathy <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 8:57 AM CST
Thinking of you, hugs.
Amy and Nicholas <mom2lilnick@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE - Friday, November 4, 2005 3:00 PM CST
I THINk of you and all the other parents that have lost THEIR beautiful children. My heart goes out to you all. I hope that the pain continues to lessen even thought it will never be gone.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Thursday, November 3, 2005 1:00 PM CST
Thinking of you!
Robin Brunet (Angels on Earth) <robinb@neptune.on.ca>
Bradford, Ontario Canada - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 12:38 AM CST
Thinking of you today as you experience another first without your precious Jessica. I hope Ardena had a good day with loads of fun and sugar.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Monday, October 31, 2005 10:48 PM CST
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, October 31, 2005 9:49 PM CST
Happy Halloween! Hope today is a festive day!
Melissa (Angels on Earth) <melnjess2002@yahoo.com>
Colorado Springs , CO USA - Monday, October 31, 2005 4:15 PM CST
Happy Halloween!
Shay & Chayce <eeneedscure@yahoo.com >
Davison, MI - Monday, October 31, 2005 4:08 PM CST
Tina & Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Monday, October 31, 2005 3:14 PM CST
Happy Halloween!
Angela*Angels on Earth* www.caringbridge.org/ma/heathergrace <alisonheathersmama@gmail.com>
- Monday, October 31, 2005 3:10 PM CST
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!
Kari *Angels On Earth* <zfamily00@hotmail.com>
Wauwatosa, WI - Monday, October 31, 2005 3:06 PM CST
Happy Halloween!!!!
Mandy
mamatooryan
- Monday, October 31, 2005 2:59 PM CST
thinking of you today.
mandy
mamatooryan
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 3:07 PM CDT
Toni,
Love the stories from school. I am glad you are keeping yourself busy and having a good time at it. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, October 25, 2005 11:42 AM CDT
Toni, Just wanted to thank you for sharing your feelings and cute stories. I laughed until I cried at your booger-eating story. I think you are hilarious and have a very special writing talent. Ever considered writing a children's book? I think you would be awesome at that!!
a future fan
- Friday, October 21, 2005 6:19 PM CDT
I miss you guys!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Arvada, CO - Friday, October 21, 2005 5:01 PM CDT
Hi Toni and all,
I was just wondering what Ardena is going to be for Halloween? I am sure she is getting excited!
Hope you are all doing as well as can be expected! We are thinking and praying for each of you!
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 9:35 AM CDT
Thinking of you and your family and hoping your are enjoying the wonderful fall weather we are having.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 6:41 AM CDT
Stopping by to send love your way. I hope all is as well as can be expected. Take care!
Casey Brecka www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@neb.rr.com>
Seward, - Monday, October 17, 2005 10:06 PM CDT
JUST wanted to stop in and see how you and your family are doing. I just can't imagine your pain. I am so sorry for all the families who have lost their children. It is just so unfair.
I am glad you had fun at the camp. I have 3 horses myself and they fun. Sending you hugs from Ohio
Sheryyl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.ujs>
- Friday, October 14, 2005 12:19 AM CDT
Always here for you
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Thursday, October 13, 2005 0:30 AM CDT
Hi, Ardena!
This is your cousin Katie writing from school. Remember when I saw you at your Grandparents farm and we saw that little toy rapping hamster thing? That was pretty fun! Well, I hope you and your family are doing O.K.-- remember, we all really love you guys!
Katie B. Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, Wa - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 3:21 PM CDT
It is so great to sense a little joy in your lives. It sounds like you are all very busy. I'm was thrilled to stop by and see a new post. Keep up the good work. Good luck!
Sput Turnbull <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE USA - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 12:09 AM CDT
Hello Toni, I'm very sorry to hear about your loss. I was hoping that things were going better and just happened to find your website you gave me the last time Adam had his chemo. Sorry forgot to identify myself. I'm Rae, my son had osteosarcoma and we met in Lincoln and at the med center. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Rae <rkeedy@esu5.org>
Blue Springs, Ne - Monday, October 10, 2005 2:31 PM CDT
9 Oct o5
Just stopped in to look at pics & stuff. You write
good "stuff"& I always enjoy the journey. You know
I lost my "crossword mentor" awhile ago, but still
do the puzzles. See ya soon! Love, Dad & Dusty &
Target& Mom
<brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
brule, nebr usa - Sunday, October 9, 2005 11:33 AM CDT
Hello Toni,
Thanks for writing to us. I saw a few entries in your guestbook and it looks like we know quite a few of the same people. Losing Cavion has been unbelievable pain and I know very few know how it truely hurts and unfortunately I know you do. I am slowly going through the motions these days but I am afraid of the tomorrows because they feel so empty. My family is gone now and the house feels as though it's 500,000 sq feet. I am unsure of how but I know we will heal slowly and we too look forward to seeing what God has in store for us.
www3.caringbridge.org/ne/cavion
Danielle
Bellevue, Ne USA - Friday, October 7, 2005 10:27 AM CDT
Toni and family,
I wanted to let you know, I was thinking about you guys and Jessica.
I hope you are doing really well as you are continuing on with what each day holds. I learned a lot through Jessie and you, Toni, during your stays at OHSCU, and you are a very special family.
May God hold you in the palm of His hand.
Julia Wells (OHSCU) <julia_gulia91@hotmail.com>
omaha, ne usa - Thursday, September 29, 2005 10:44 PM CDT
What a wonderful update on your life. Such beautiful, strong growth in your family. I love the singing and grass episodes. Life is never dull, and with your joyful outlook the future will always be bright and interesting.
You are in my thoughts and prayers daily. May Our Lord shower you with blessings.
Peg Ricketts <pegricketts@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 3:44 PM CDT
Hey Toni, Tim and Ardena!
I've been thinking of you lots and lots. I'll send a letter sooooon.
Love,
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Arvada, Co - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 9:24 AM CDT
HI Toni, It was nice to see the update. It sounds like you are doing a wonderful job, even though it might not feel like it. Somehow, your entries always manage to give me a laugh. You should write a book. You have a great way of putting things. So refreshing. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you. Lots of love, Darby Brion
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, September 26, 2005 3:17 PM CDT
Thinking of you all today.
Mandy
mamatooryan
- Monday, September 26, 2005 2:56 PM CDT
Hi, Was thinking of you all and Jessica tonight. I remember her sweet smile. Prayers of Peace be with you all!
Love, Tammy Burroughs RN
Tammy Burroughs <taburro@yahoo.com>
Omaha, Ne usa - Monday, September 26, 2005 4:21 AM CDT
Hey Toni, I think about you almost daily. My schedule is very busy with school, work, & the kids, but I really would like to spend some time with you. I will be in Lincoln a lot so perhaps there will be time.
I found a book called Longing For My Child. I haven't read too much in it yet but it seems to touch on each step of the grief process with thoughts that may or may not go through a hurting mother's mind. The thoughts are followed by scripture reminding us that others, too suffered but the promise is Christ. It's quite uplifting.
Take care. I miss you!
Casey Brecka <cbrecka@neb.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:26 PM CDT
Hello All,
It was so nice to spend the evening with you, Francesco especially enjoyed getting to know you all a little better. Thanks for bringing the yummy potatoes!
Hope you have a nice rest of the weekend!
Take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Saturday, September 24, 2005 12:10 AM CDT
Love Always
My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 7:43 PM CDT
THOUGht I would stop by and see how you and your family were doing. What heart ache for you all. My thoughts and prayers go out to you each and everyday.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Friday, September 16, 2005 11:00 AM CDT
Hello Toni, Tim and Ardena,
Thank you for the wonderful update. It is so enjoyable to read your entries, you enable us to see exactly what you are describing through your words! What a gift.
I hope the start of the school year has gone well. As does everything, it surely evokes a lot of emotions, and thoughts. I wish you each the best with the new routine.
I look forward to seeing you all soon!
Take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 3:46 PM CDT
Hello to Jessica's Family: I just wanted to stop by your website and wish you peace and comfort. I am Cameron Brecka's Grandmother and I was looking at Cameron's website today and saw your website. I wish I could say something that would make things all better, but all I can say is God is with you and Jessica with with Cameron in Heaven...Two Blessed Angels. Thinking of you in Kansas.
Karen & JD Ham <hammershow@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 2, 2005 3:54 PM CDT
Toni,
Sorry it has been way too long since I have signed the guestbook. As usual you had a wonderful update. You do such a great job of putting your feelings into words. I wish so much I had that talent. Toni when you are having those bad days and want to talk I am alway here. I have been having a hard time lately also. Josh would have started school on Monday. He was so looking forward to going to Sissy's school. Even though she was no longer there it was still her school. I did pretty good until I got Jess to school and then I fell apart. It was so hard driving her to school. We have to go past the grade school. The hardest was watching all the kids walking to school holding their mom's hand. I wanted to do that. We are also coming up to his dx day. Almost two years ago who would have thought we would be where we are today. It is so great you and Tim have each other. I don't know what I would do without Steve. We lean so much on each other. You are doing some wonderful things in Jessica's memory. That is great. We hope to see you guys soon. Jan keeps asking me when we want the next picnic. Our calendar is getting very full. I hope we can find a time we can all make it. Hugs and love.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Friday, September 2, 2005 3:43 PM CDT
HI TONI! THANK YOU FOR CHECKING IN ON ME. I ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER FOR MY CARINGBRIDGE FRIENDS. I HATE FIRSTS. I THINK I'M MORE AFRAID OF MY SECOND,THIRD, TWENTY YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. IT'S HARD TO IMAGINE BEING AWAY FROM OUR GIRLS THAT LONG. I HAVE A SCRIPTURE VERSE I LIKE TO APPLY TO THE "WHY" I DON'T KNOW IF IT WILL HELP BUT I THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE.
ISAIAH 57: 1 AND 2. 1. THE RIGHTEOUS PASS AWAY; THE GODLY OFTEN DIE BEFORE THEIR TIME. AND NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND THAT GOD IS PROTECTING THEM FROM THE EVIL TO COME. 2. FOR THE GODLY WHO DIE WILL REST IN PEACE.
I LIKE THIS BECAUSE IT MAKES ME THINK GOD SEEN SOMETHING WORSE TO HAPPEN IN LAUREN'S FUTURE.I DON'T KNOW WHAT COULD BE WORSE BUT THAT'S WHAT I BELIEVE. I HOPE IT MEANS SOMETHING TO YOU.I OFTEN TRY TO HOLD ON TO ANYTHING THAT MIGHT MAKE SOME SENSE OR GIVE JUST A LITTLE COMFORT. I HOPE I WAS ABLE TO DO A LITTLE FOR YOU! ALWAYS KNOW YOUR FAMILY IS IN MY PRAYERS.
caringbridge.org/mi/sweetlauren
KIM [MOMMY TO ANGEL LAUREN] MOMMY TO JAY AND HAILEY <redwinggirl2@juno.com>
DETROIT, MI - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:50 PM CDT
Toni, you do not know me, but I saw you and Jessica at the HemeOnc clinic at Children's last summer. It was my first trip there with my baby girl and I remember seeing little Jessica's bald head and frail body and being so afraid of what would happen to my daughter. Jessica turned to me, smiled, and giggled at the sight of my daughter playing with toys. Her sweetness and beauty shined through and I just wanted to hug her, but didn't for fear you would think I was a crazy woman. I have thought of Jessica and you so many times since. I can't wait to meet Jessica someday and thank her for helping me that day and for giving me such peace and hope. But this time, I will be sure to hug her!
a mother who cares
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 9:46 PM CDT
Hi Toni -- When I read your journal about your reaction to what a friend said "Preparing you for...." and I immediately responded aloud --- "Don't even think horrible" -- more like "Toni, my child (God speaking) you have suffered the worst possible pain, and I will get your thru your darkness. Yes, I know it will be a slow one, but I will show the way, and give you the strength to really open your eyes and heart to the joys around you."
I was so taken with your telling of Ardena learning to ride --- what joy and fun -- Lincoln Town is lucky to have you and Ardena. Hope my little package brightens a corner too..... Between homework that is -- Love
Lois <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 6:57 PM CDT
Stoped by to let you know that I am thinking of you.
Mandy
mamatooryan
- Tuesday, August 30, 2005 3:25 PM CDT
GOOD TO HEAR YOU ARE KEEPING BUSY. THINKING ABOUT YOUR FAMILY OFTEN. GOD BLESS!!!!
KELLY VOORVART AND SKYLAR BERRY <DUDESLADY@MSN.COM>
OMAHA, NE - Saturday, August 27, 2005 11:14 PM CDT
Hi Toni and family!!! I'm a CCP at Children's and took care of Jessica what a beautiful family you have. My husband and I lost our daughter Oct. 12th of last year I know what you mean about the firsts. The anniversary of her death date which also is her birth date is coming up and I am dreading it so much. But what choice do I have other than to get through the day? Your family is always in my prayers. I know Jessica is smiling down on you!!!
Heather Mixan <aamixan@cox.net>
Omaha, ne USA - Saturday, August 27, 2005 9:41 PM CDT
It's so nice to hear from you! Ardena is such an amazing girl too, I love hearing about the bike riding episodes, I can just see her sticking our her arms.
Love you!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Denver, CO - Friday, August 26, 2005 10:24 AM CDT
Toni, thanks for writing.. I was getting a little worried about you and your family. I know things are strange and tough and I pray for your family often. Take care.
Lots of Love and good wishes
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Friday, August 26, 2005 8:24 AM CDT
Love you guys!
Susan <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
Denver, Co - Thursday, August 25, 2005 1:19 PM CDT
Ardena,
Did you have a good first day of school? I bet it was fun to get back and see all your friends.
Toni,
I am thinking of you a alot. It must be hard to send Ardena to school. You can call me anytime if you need to talk. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 5:40 PM CDT
Hello Everyone,
I wanted to wish Ardena "Happy Back to School!" I hope it goes well for her, and for each of you.
Good luck!
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 10:05 AM CDT
BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Saturday, August 20, 2005 0:33 AM CDT
Thinking of you today.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, August 16, 2005 6:38 AM CDT
Just wanted to let you know you are being thought of and prayed for daily.
Fackler Family <nf61134@alltel.net>
Joliet, Il USA - Thursday, August 11, 2005 9:40 PM CDT
Hello Hugs to the Hindman Family,
Just a note to let you know that you are thought of today,
and prayed for nightly. Hoping that Ardena is getting
excited for school to start, and that each new day brings
you one more ounce of peace.
Cyber-Hugs to all of you!
Anne Pelnar, Anthony and Joey <anne@pelnar.com>
Keawunee, WI USA - Wednesday, August 10, 2005 12:19 AM CDT
HEY THERE AGAIN! I HAD FORGOT TO MENTION A BOOK I FOUND TO BE COMFORTING. LIFE AFTER DEATH REDISCOVERING LIFE AFTER THE LOSS OF A LOVED ONE BY TONY COOKE
IT'S A CHRISTIAN BOOK SO I THOUGHT YOU MIGHT BE INTERESTED. TAKE CARE.
KIM <redwingirl2@juno.com>
- Monday, August 8, 2005 10:16 PM CDT
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HELP. I TO TRY TO STAY BUSY.I ONCE ENJOYED QUIET TIME WHEN I COULD GET IT.BUT SOMETIMES NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE AROUND ME OR HOW MUCH NOISE THERE MIGHT BE I FEEL SO ALONE AND I FEEL I AM MISSING ONE VOICE.KNOW WHAT I MEAN? I DON'T MAKE SENSE SOMETIMES SORRY.I DID WANT TO SAY SO FAR IN MY EXPIERIENCE WITH MY 5 YEAR OLD TWINS. YOU DON'T HAVE TO REGULATE YOUR TEARS IF THEY SEE ME CRY OR SEE I'M SAD THEY ASK ME "YOU MISS LAUREN?" I SAY YES I DO.JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO HIDE ANYTHING? I ALSO HAVE THEM IN A GROUP CALLED SANDCASTLES.IT'S A SUPPORT GROUP FOR KIDS. THEY REALLY DO WELL WITH THAT. WE JUST MADE GARDEN STONES AT OUR LAST MEETING.THEY REALLY LIKE TO DO THINGS LIKE THAT.I TEND TO GO ON AND ON SOMETIMES.SORRY ABOUT THAT.PLEASE KNOW I AM SAYING PRAYERS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
caringbridge.org/mi/sweetlauren
KIM [MOMMY TO ANGEL LAUREN] MOMMY TO JAY AND HAILEY <redwinggirl2@juno.com>
DETROIT, MI - Monday, August 8, 2005 10:00 PM CDT
HI THERE! I OFTEN CHECK YOUR SITE. I AM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS.I WAS WONDERING IF YOU HAD ANY ADVICE ON HOW YOU GOT THROUGH HER FIRST B-DAY. LAUREN'S WILL BE IN NOVEMBER AND I'M SO NERVOUS ABOUT IT. I KNOW OUR GIRLS ARE IN A BETTER PLACE. BUT THE MORE I HEAR IT THE LESS IT HELPS.I'M SELFISH I GUESS I'D RATHER HAVE HER HERE. SORRY TO GO ON AND ON! PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS!
caringbridge.org/mi/sweetlauren
KIM [MOMMY TO Angel LAUREN] MOMMY TO JAY AND HAILEY <redwinggirl2@juno.com>
DETROIT , MI - Sunday, August 7, 2005 10:35 PM CDT
Toni and Family. We hope you are having a good week! School is about to start. The girls got a kick out of buying school supplies and clothes.
Not sure when we'll be in Nebr. again but will call you when we're in Big Red Country!
Joyce <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Thursday, August 4, 2005 8:31 AM CDT
Toni ~ Thinking of you today and hoping it is a good one. I check in often to the website to see your posts. I'm sure Jessica's birthday was a hard day for you and I hope that the past memories helped you get through that day. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as always.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Monday, August 1, 2005 8:17 AM CDT
Hi. Angela and I coming by to see how you are doing. I know we are a day late but I know Jessica had the best birthday ever in Heaven. I can see her running around all over the place now. Thinking of you always. You all are in our prayers.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela/
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 4:06 PM CDT
Dear Toni& family,
I really enjoy reading your entries, etc. and someday will
get better at this infernal mach. Happy Birthday, Ardena !
Sure had fun swimming with you & cousins at the lake the other day. Keep on doing what you're doing, Toni, 'cause I think you're doing well. Hope to see you soon!
Love you-all, Gramps
Grampa Bruce <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
Brule, Nebr USA - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 3:00 PM CDT
I hope your day is blessed.
Laura J. Ibsen
Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 2:59 PM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim and Ardena,
Jessica opened the heavens and let us all rejoice and celebrate her day with the beautiful, and much needed rain. Way to go Jessica.
Toni...if you are ever up for a cup of coffee, I am right across from the Mill...it would be nice
Take care,
Jane
Jane Grifin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 7:42 AM CDT
The Heavens rejoice and I think Jessica is leading the choir. Illinois got the much needed rain today and I couldn't help but look to the sky and smile thinking of her and remembering her vivacious spirit.
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Joliet, Il USA - Monday, July 25, 2005 9:19 PM CDT
Dear Angel Jessica, Happy Birthday in Heaven. We can't even begin to imagine the party you had today with all of your new friends. Last week your mommy and sissy met us at the Lincoln Children's Museum. I think little Jill reminded Ardena of YOU! You keep watching over all of us!
Joyce & Family <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Monday, July 25, 2005 8:28 PM CDT
Happy Birthday sweet Angel Jessica. I know you are probably having the biggest and best birthday party ever.
Tim and Toni, thinking of you today and wishing you nothing but happy thoughts and great memories of your sweet baby Jessica on her birthday.
Dan
NE - Monday, July 25, 2005 4:17 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Sweet Jessica. Tim and Toni we will be thinking of you today. I know how hard it is to celebrate Jessica's birthday while she is not physically with you. Just remember she is there watching over you all. Hold tight to each other and remember I am here if you need me. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, July 25, 2005 9:06 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Angel Jessica... Your family misses you dearly but know you're watching over them.
Toni, Tim and Ardena have a good day. Jessica would want you to be happy and enjoy life to the fullest... that is what she would have done. She is a precious angel.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Monday, July 25, 2005 8:37 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Precious Angel Jessica~! Thinking of you Toni, Ardena and Tim.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Monday, July 25, 2005 8:33 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Sweet Angel! Our thoughts & prayers are with you Toni, TIm & Ardena. May your day be filled woth happy memories of your precious girl!
Love, Cori, Wayne, Karissa & Kyra Boesiger
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, ne USA - Monday, July 25, 2005 8:19 AM CDT
BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, July 24, 2005 1:51 AM CDT
Hi Toni -- I'm in the group that didn't know you had a birthay last week, :<( :<( and just purchased a "Thoughts of You" card yesterday and put it in the mail.
Do hope you had cake and ice cream and got all the candles blown out with one big HUFF -- probably Ardena helped HUH... Around here we have to lite and relite them --- such a fun, silly thing to do. Oh, yes and I so enjoyed the new photos -- we miss her too...
HUGS
Cousins Lois and Randy <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA Los Angeles - Friday, July 22, 2005 3:47 PM CDT
Toni,
It was great to see you yesterday, you truly are a Hero, hang in there for Ardena, Tim and yourself.
Ardena played so well with Jill and Jenny, like they're old best friends! May your families continue to meet in the future, you are neat people with so many things in common. Have a great summer what's left of it, school is just around the corner.
Sandy Strizek
Omaha, NE - Friday, July 22, 2005 8:39 AM CDT
Just dropping by to let you know we still are thinking and praying for you three. HUGS
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela/
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Thursday, July 21, 2005 3:34 PM CDT
Toni and family,
Please know that we will always keep you guys in our thoughts and prayers. Thanks so much for continuing to pray for Molly. We just picked her up from Camp CoHoLo and she had a wonderful time. Remember to Fully Rely On God!!!
Tim, Kerrie, Carli, Bethany, and Molly Lambert (www.mollylambert.net)
Kerrie Lambert <klambert@esu8.org>
Chambers, NE - Wednesday, July 20, 2005 2:14 PM CDT
Just a note to let you all know that you are thought of
and cared for today.
Anne, Anthony & Josef Pelnar
The Pelnar Family <anne@pelnar.com>
Kewaunee, WI USA - Tuesday, July 19, 2005 12:08 AM CDT
Checking in on you guys again. I know it is so hard everyday. My cousin passed away at 14 months old and I know what my aunt and uncle went through. Our prayers are with you always. We are sending big hugs.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela/
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Thursday, July 14, 2005 1:48 PM CDT
Toni! I didn't realize it was your birthday! I hope you had a great day! Have a good weekend!
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, July 14, 2005 8:06 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Toni! Did not realize yesterday was your day.
Today is mine! Isn't it funny how birthdays aren't as fun as
we get older. My 6 year old wanted an explanation for that,
and I couldn't give him one without sounding vain. I am
going to try and enjoy my day without feeling "old" today!
Hope your birthday was special for you, and that today is
good as well. You are all thought of often!
Love,
The Pelnar Family
Anne, Anthony & Joey
Anne Pelnar <anne@pelnar.com>
Kewaunee, WI USA - Thursday, July 14, 2005 7:48 AM CDT
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday Toni, Happy Birthday to you. I hope you enjoy the day. It was great seeing you last night.
Kelly Rainforth <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
Denton, NE - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 2:59 PM CDT
Hi
just thought I would stop by and see how things were going. Glad you are reading some books on grief. Sounds like you found some interesting information.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Tuesday, July 12, 2005 12:22 AM CDT
Hi Toni - I hope today is a better day for you, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. For friends like me who are not near by, I feel like I can help by listening or rather reading. I am sorry for your pain and wish that I could take it away. God works in mysterious ways and each day is a gift. I know that a broken relationship is no where near the loss of a beautiful child but it is a death that I need to process the pain. I look to friends to spend time with when the pain gets to be too much. God has blessed us with those quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.
Lots of love and prayers
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, July 12, 2005 8:55 AM CDT
Hello Ardena,
Ask your mommy and daddy to watch the mail for you, for a
package from Wisconsin! Sorry it's late. I hope it brightens
your day.
Love,
The Pelnar Family
(Anne, Anthony & Joey)
The Pelnar Family <anne@pelnar.com>
Kewaunee, WI USA - Monday, July 11, 2005 9:10 AM CDT
hey toni. hard times. i never imagined ever having this kind of raw hurt. i think about you everyday. i miss jessie...i miss cameron. i know they're having a blast right now surrounded by the love of jesus.
casey brecka www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@neb.rr.com>
- Saturday, July 9, 2005 6:12 PM CDT
Hi Toni,I just wanted you to know I think of you and your family often and Jessica too.I know Karrie misses seeing her when she gets her allergy shots!I have been reading some of your journal entries,I dont usually sign the guestbook though,but you are an amazing person,very strong,even though you probably dont always feel that way,but your positive thoughts and your entries are absolutly beautiful.Every now and then I think of Jessica,when I would go in to take her blood pressure and she would hide behind a chair and say "ha-ha".She is an awesome little girl who always made me smile.Take care Toni and God Bless you and your family,and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kris (nebraska medical center) <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Thursday, July 7, 2005 7:38 PM CDT
Just wanted to know there is people thinking of you in Ky. I was so sorry to read about Jessica. I know you all must miss her so much. My heart goes out to you all. She is in a happy place and pain free. I can just see her running around now. Glad you all had a nice 4th of July.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Thursday, July 7, 2005 6:26 PM CDT
ADAM AND I THOUGHT A LOT ABOUT WATCHING FIREWORKS WITH YOUR FAMILY LAST YEAR. GOD BLESS YOU TONI AND YOUR FAMILY. IM SURE IT IS SO HARD. HOPE EVERY DAY CAN GET A LITTLE EASIER.
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com/caringbridge/ne/skylar>
Omaha, NE - Tuesday, July 5, 2005 12:10 AM CDT
Happy birthday 2 days late Arden! Hope you are enjoying everything!
Love,
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 4:25 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Ardena! I have been following your sister's
website for some time now and I feel like I know your whole
family.
A little bird told me that you would be getting a lot of
birthday wishes in the mail! Please tell your mommy to post
some of your favorite things so that those of us who are
not so close to you can send you a birthday surprise too.
You are a very special and beautiful girl, and you are very
lucky to have such wonderful, loving parents. Give your mom
and dad big hugs every day! One for you and one for Angel
Jessica.
Love from Wisconsin... home of the Packers, and lots of
cheese!
Anne Pelnar <anne@pelnar.com>
Kewaunee, WI USA - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 10:47 AM CDT
Just wanting to let you know you are in our prayers.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela/
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Tuesday, June 28, 2005 5:05 PM CDT
Wishing you Happy, Happy Birthday Ardena!! Eat lots of cake and ice cream. Have a great day.
Sharon
Lincoln, - Tuesday, June 28, 2005 11:42 AM CDT
I was certainly touched by the story of your little angel. please know she's at peace and you are in my prayers.
Mary Beth <DylanWTBY@aol.com>
CT USA - Monday, June 27, 2005 6:15 PM CDT
Hi Hindman's,
Hang in there!! Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of your beautiful angel.
Sandy Strizek (Jill Z's aunt)
Omaha, NE - Monday, June 27, 2005 11:40 AM CDT
A friend of mine emailed me about your site. I just had let you know that I am so so sorry for your loss. It takes time to heal, I lost a child 3 1/2 years ago(she was 4) and I still cry myself to sleep. I feel for you and grieve with you. Peace and love be with you.
Brandy <brleba@hotmail.com>
Grand Rapids, MN USA - Monday, June 27, 2005 11:19 AM CDT
I just wanted to let you know that I still read your entries and a day doesn't go by that I don't think of Jessica. You are such a strong mother and I admire you. Jessica couldn't have had better parents. Ardena is so lucky. Wish her a very Happy Birthday for me. Take care.
Erin (nurse from Children's) <eew79@yahoo.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Sunday, June 26, 2005 6:06 PM CDT
HELLO TONI GREAT TO SEE YOU TODAY. HOPE YOUR LITTLE JESSICA HELPS TEACH HALEY THE ROPES UP THERE. THANKS FOR THE EMAIL.LOTS OF LOVE
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com/caringbridge/ne/skylar>
Omaha, NE - Friday, June 24, 2005 9:47 PM CDT
Toni,
As usually what a wonderful entry. It was great to see you guys again at Mike's. I am sorry your days have been rough lately. We will always have our good days and bad. I was thinking of Tim on Sunday. I remember how hard Mother's Day was for me. Steve had a bad day Sunday. So many memories both good and bad come flooding back. We had a great time in Washington D.C. and talked to lots of wonderful people. I will try to update Josh's page with all the details soon. I am just not up to it this week. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, June 23, 2005 8:58 AM CDT
Toni,
I was so saddened to hear of Jessica's death. I am Cameron Brecka's cousin and I too have had a child die. You and your family are doing a wonderful job even though it probably doesn't feel like it. Know that you all are in my prayers.
Stacey <svinton@neb-sandhills.net>
Mullen, Ne - Wednesday, June 22, 2005 6:20 PM CDT
Hi Jessica and family my name is shanelle. Once my friend told me your website I went straight to. I hope you have a good life and im sorry about all the trouble and sorrow you gave to help Jessica. Well bye
Shanelle
Hastings, NE USA - Wednesday, June 22, 2005 11:58 AM CDT
I am just stopping by to see how you are doing. What a difficult time for you and your family. My heartfelt sympathies to you all. I keep you and your family in my prayers.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Wednesday, June 22, 2005 9:12 AM CDT
What a beautiful entry, Toni. You are a wonderful mother. Ardena is very lucky. Love you, Darby Brion
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, June 19, 2005 11:51 PM CDT
Hi Toni my name is Heather I'm a CCP on 5th floor at Children's and I've taken care of Jessica before I always read your website and my heart goes out to you and your family. My husband and I lost our daughter in October and you put a lot of my feelings to words. You took such wonderful care of her. I think your such a strong person and wonderful mother I will keep praying for you guys.
Heather Mixan <aamixan@cox.net>
Omaha, Ne. U.S. - Sunday, June 19, 2005 1:46 AM CDT
I thought I would stop by and say
Plus I had to let you know that I'm thinking of you always.
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, June 19, 2005 0:44 AM CDT
I am a first year medical student. I just wanted to let you know I have learned so much from visiting your site. Thank you for sharing your story; it has truly had an impact on me.
Laurie
Philadelphia, PA USA - Friday, June 17, 2005 5:12 PM CDT
Your family is in our prayers. Jessica is now pain free and running and playing in Heaven. She is watching over you all.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela/
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, Ky USA - Friday, June 17, 2005 2:05 PM CDT
I have been checking your sight daily for several months now. I am praying for comfort for you and your family. I know Jessica is having a wonderful time in Heaven.
Leslie <faithinhim99@hotmail.com>
Fort Worth, TX 76137 - Friday, June 17, 2005 1:00 PM CDT
You are a wonderful person. Are family is praying for you everyday. Take care!
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com/caringbridge/ne/skylar>
Omaha, NE - Friday, June 17, 2005 10:17 AM CDT
Toni,
Thank you so much for your entry (6/15/05), I have been praying for Jessica and your family for a while, but never posted. We lost a very precious family friend to cancer a year ago, and your entry makes things better. Thank you. We will keep you in our prayers and thoughts daily. Sending you big hugs.
Amy <amy@kellyworld.org>
Indepednence, IA - Friday, June 17, 2005 7:30 AM CDT
God Bless you and your family.
Brenda
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, June 16, 2005 5:27 PM CDT
Why God Made Children
It's said God made children
To bring the world joy,
Through the giggles and laughter
Of each girl and boy...
It's said God made children
To bring the world sharing,
Pure understanding,
Kindness, and caring...
And especially to show us
His peace from above,
For it's said God made children
To bring the world love.
Jessica had an innocent and precious faith, only the rest of us could hope for. Your family has endured so much, we pray for God to console your grieving hearts every night. Be patient with yourselves....its okay to cry. Your heart is broken, it will take time to heal.
You were talking about tending to the garden is a lot like tending to children or loved ones....it was a beautiful parallel. Thank you.
Anne <dings@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, June 16, 2005 4:10 PM CDT
I'm so thankful for you.
Love,
Susan
Denver, - Thursday, June 16, 2005 1:16 PM CDT
Toni, It was so good to hear from you again. I love to read your entries. Please keep writing...even if it is only a few lines. It means a lot to a lot of people. Stay strong!
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready
In heaven far above
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.
He said "This is eternity
And all I've promised you"
Today for life on earth is past
But here it starts anew. "
I promise no tomorrow!
For today will always last
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
So when tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me
I'm right here in your heart.
Sput <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE USA - Thursday, June 16, 2005 12:03 AM CDT
However, you do not know me, my heart is so heavy for you and your family. I truly believe that God works his magic in all forms, we sometimes do not understand his "magic" but it is there. You were given Jessica to care, love and honor her and you can honestly say you did all that. She was loved very deeply and will always be in your heart. Her spirit will carry through your family forever, she is and always be a part of you. Surround yourself with love and love will flow into your heart.
Shelly Trojan <edshelly@alltel.net>
Dwight, NE USA - Thursday, June 16, 2005 9:54 AM CDT
Sending you my love and prayers.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ 85306 - Thursday, June 16, 2005 9:01 AM CDT
Toni, Your 6/16/05 journal entry is so well written that it's bound to help other families in your situation. I'm sure it was a good outlet for you as well. No need to sugar coat anything for the rest of us. Telling things like it is is the best approach.
Try to enjoy the summer. The fall will bring more changes with school starting. Hang in there. WE LOVE YOU!
Joyce & family <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Thursday, June 16, 2005 8:25 AM CDT
Toni~ I still check your website daily..wondering how you, Tim and Ardena are doing. Your last entry had me in tears. Your writing is so beautiful and I can feel the emotion come through your words. I think of you often. Hoping you are doing well...I just want to reach through the computer and {{{{hug}}}} you.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Thursday, June 16, 2005 8:15 AM CDT
Hi Toni, Tim and Ardena, Glad I now know who to call to fix a mower! Wow, impressive!! We're in Illinois now, and enjoying friends and family. Just checked into your site and wanted to say hi. Love ya and thinking of you often.
kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
lincoln, ne usa - Wednesday, June 15, 2005 11:04 AM CDT
Well I am glad the cow pie was dried up. I know you are. Sounds like the girls had a good time. Glad everybody is doing ok.
http://www2.caringbridge.org/ky/angela
Vicki and Angela
Louisville, KY USA - Sunday, June 12, 2005 2:01 PM CDT
We love you so much. I really hope you come camping with us. You are the best, as our family is. I am so lucky to know you, all of you. I'm touched by how wonderful you are. You make me smile. I had so much fun with Ardean and the baby goats. I can't wait untl the next time I see you. We are the best family ever.
Jake and Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Saturday, June 11, 2005 11:03 PM CDT
Just stopping by to let you know that we're thinking about you. I hope the days are getting a little easier for you and that you are somehow able to cope with your new life.
Now I'm fretting over Jill's next back surgery in Aug. Too much time to think and worry but it has to be done. We're just thankful she's well enough that the doctors think the prognosis is good and that it's time to strengthen her back. She knows the doctors have to FIX her back but she doesn't know major surgery is involved. My heart just aches for her. But we'll make it!
Joyce <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Saturday, June 11, 2005 11:29 AM CDT
Hi Toni -- Loved reading about Mr. Fix-All Delmer' -- put me right back "down home" with all the wonderful memories of long ago times at all the farms -- and lucky for Delmer you were such a good helper...and your cow pie episode... . it's like being a cowboy -- "If you haven't hit the dirt, you aren't one" -- same goes for a farmer.... lots of slipping and sliding HUH I remember the pig pen at Bill's place ... .. Your story of the slips made me thing of my lingerie drawer and "do something with my dainties" -- like when was the last time I wore them (they are just taking up much needed space)... Thanks for sharing - Mariah and her sleep over friends will have a blast... Love and HUGS to all..
Cousin Lois <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 10, 2005 1:59 PM CDT
Hi Toni -- Loved reading about Mr. Fix-All Delmer' -- put me right back "down home" with all the wonderful memories of long ago times at all the farms -- and lucky for Delmer you were such a good helper...and your cow pie episode... . it's like being a cowboy -- "If you haven't hit the dirt, you aren't one" -- same goes for a farmer.... lots of slipping and sliding HUH I remember the pig pen at Bill's place ... .. Your story of the slips reminded me I should "do something with my dainties" -- like when was the last time I wore them (they are just taking up much needed space)... Thanks for sharing - Mariah and her sleep-over girls will have a blast... might even find a couple with "tags" still on 'em for Ardena ---- Love and HUGS to all..
Cousin Lois <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 10, 2005 1:58 PM CDT
There is nothing like lawn mowing as a stress reliever! I have felt the calming effect for years. You can think and ponder-all the while being uninterrupted, busy, and productive! I do enjoy reading your journals, and hope that you are finding peace and acceptance. It will be a long road-and you have already come so far! Thinking of you often.
Jane B
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, June 9, 2005 9:55 AM CDT
Hello Hindmans,
Glad to hear about the adventures you have been a part of! It is always so enjoyable to read your entries...they are so colorful. Happy travels!
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, June 7, 2005 9:16 AM CDT
I just got done with the Relay for Life in Grants Pass , OR. You sent me a photo of your beautiful daughter and I bought a luminaria for her, it was displayed in my office before the relay and someone else was so touched by her beauty they bought one as well. So all the way over in Oregon your little girl was making a difference in helping the fight against cancer, and there were two luminaries in her memory, they burned all night dusk till dawn.......
eva kallai <ekallai@charter.net>
Grants Pass, OR 97526 - Monday, June 6, 2005 0:18 AM CDT
Hey Girls,
If you travel down south, look us up! I'm completely serious. We would love to see you. Traveling sounds like such fun. May God Bless you with wonderful times and memories together. I hope 'Dad' can get away sometimes too.
Take Care, Keep the Faith.
Amy and Austin <bean1352@cs.com>
Gray, GA USA - Thursday, June 2, 2005 8:10 PM CDT
Sounds like you girls are pretty adventuresome. Glad you're having a nice time! Just wanted to stop by and say Hi! and that I am thinking about you. Darby
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, June 2, 2005 2:54 PM CDT
the traveling sounds wonderful!
We love you!
Susan and Jake <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Thursday, June 2, 2005 12:40 AM CDT
I've been hearing that people can't get into my guestbook I think I fixed it now I hope.Thinking of you always.
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Tuesday, May 31, 2005 11:44 AM CDT
u r in my prayers!
arika kitten <ronnettk@hotmail.com>
hastings, ne usa - Tuesday, May 31, 2005 8:29 AM CDT
Happy Memorial Day! Today we celebrate all the heroes of our country. Some heroes fight for our freedom, others fight cancer to help doctors learn and find a cure. We celebrate Jessica as a hero today, and always.
Michele Pickering <mpickering@tams.com>
Mission Viejo, CA - Monday, May 30, 2005 11:40 AM CDT
HI THERE! SOMETIMES I DON'T MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL.BABY STEPS.DON'T PLAN,DON'T FEEL YOU SHOULD OR SHOULDN'T BE DOING SOMETHING.IT'S REALLY AN EFFORT JUST TO GET OUT OF BED.JUST TAKE IT ONE DAY EACH MINUTE AT A TIME.OR YOU MIGHT GET STRESS ON TOP OF STRESS.EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT OF COURSE.I CAN ONLY SPEAK FOR MYSELF.BUT I'VE FOUND IF I DON'T PUT PRESSURE ON MYSELF THEN I'M NOT SURPRISED WHEN SOMETHING DOESN'T GO RIGHT.SEE I BABBLE TO.IT'S BEEN ALMOST 6 MONTHS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO ANYTHING.IT FEELS LIKE I'M STARTING MY LIFE OVER.MY OLD LIFE HAS VANISHED RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES.I DON'T KNOW IF I HELPED OR MADE THINGS WORSE??
caringbridge.org/mi/sweetlauren
KIM [MOMMY TO ANGEL LAUREN] MOMMY TO JAY AND HAILEY <redwinggirl2@juno.com>
DETROIT, MI - Friday, May 27, 2005 10:42 PM CDT
Toni, Tim, Ardena,
Love you all! I hope you feel surrounded in love and hugs today.
Sincerely,
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Friday, May 27, 2005 10:22 AM CDT
Toni - it's okay to ask for help! You don't know me but I feel like I know you from reading your journal over the past several months. Mike Peterson (Schuyler's dad) asked us several months ago to pray for Jessica. Now that I know she's with Jesus my prayers have been for you. What can I do to help you? I'm very good at following orders and would be honored to help you with meals, cleaning house or even home organization. I'm serious. Just send me an e-mail and I'll do whatever I can.
Karen Heusinkvelt <rh50321@alltel.net>
Martell, NE USA - Thursday, May 26, 2005 2:52 PM CDT
We found you all from another CB site and I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your indescribable loss. I look at the photos of Jessica and her smile reminds me SO much of my own daughter, Hunter's smile.
Holding your family close in our hearts...
Katie, Hayley, Hunter and Taylor <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 10:30 PM CDT
Dear Toni,
I think of you, Ardena and Tim everyday. I know your heart is sore and you wonder if you'll ever laugh again. And when you do laugh, you'll feel like you shouldn't have. You will never "get over" losing Jessica but you will learn to live again. Summer is near and I hope you, Tim and Ardena take time to 'be' together. Keep journaling your memories and feelings and encourage Tim and Ardena to as well. Grieving is a life time recovery. My brother died suddenly nearly 10 years ago and I still reach for the phone to call him and tell him something funny that just happened. Not the same as losing a child...I know. We live with that threat everyday as our child was born with congenital heart defects and a chromosone abnormality. I have dreamed it many times in my nightmares and can only imagine what you must be feeling now. Just know that there are people out here ..some you have met and others like me...you probably never will meet...that are praying for your family to heal. Jessica truly is a jewel in your treasure in Heaven. I'm sure she is delighting others with her spontaneous laughter and has them marching in parades down the streets of Gold.
Thinking of you.
Amy and Austin <bean1352@cs.com>
Gray, GA USA - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 4:58 PM CDT
Toni, thank you for continuing to write. I've never met you, and yet I feel I know you as I pray for you and your family. Dale knows you. I would like to meet you sometime when you are in Brule. You will get through this by loving your husband and Ardena, and by letting everyone else love you. Go ahead and ramble on, and don't worry about anything else. Someday when you are ready, you will be able to cook again. Until then, it doesn't matter. We will continue our prayers.
Dale and Sheila Johnson <sheila_johnson@gps.esu16.org>
Brule, NE - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 2:31 PM CDT
Thinking of you Toni, Tim and Ardena, today and every day.
Love,
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, CO - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 12:51 AM CDT
I saw your site on angel Savannah Olsons. I am truly so sorry to hear about the passing of your beautiful baby girl. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Keri Bernhard
Downers Grove, IL Usa - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 10:50 PM CDT
Praying for peace and guidance for you and your family.
Hamburger shmamburger!!
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 2:00 PM CDT
Hi cousins Tim, Toni, and Ardena... Continuing our prayers for your peace and ability to carry on. You are with us daily..... Jessica too. Your Home page photo, and others have joined the "umpteen" family / friends on every available space in our home. I take after your Aunt Margaret (my mover and shaker cousin)... God Bless
Cousins Lois and Randy <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA - Sunday, May 22, 2005 3:26 PM CDT
Hi cousins Tim, Toni, and Ardena... Continuing our prayers for your peace and ability to carry on. You are with us daily..... Jessica too. Your Home page photo, and others have joined the "umpteen" family / friends on every available space in our home. I take after your Aunt Margaret (my mover and shaker cousin)... God Bless
Cousins Lois and Randy <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA - Sunday, May 22, 2005 3:26 PM CDT
Thank you for continuing to share your life with those at CB who have come to care about you. I understand the short attention span...we just learned my dad is very sick and I told my husband I haven't been able to concentrate, finish a project or sit still the past couple of week. This is so not like me and has been very frustrating to me. By you sharing your story, you taught me that it's a normal reaction to loss or in my case, impending loss.
God bless you as you journey down this changed path in your life.
Hugs,
Connie Frisby-Griffin <cdlfg@adelphia.net>
Colorado Springs, CO - Friday, May 20, 2005 10:36 AM CDT
Toni, I just wanted to write to say we are thinking of you very often and can only imagine that this is a very difficult time for you and your family. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Rhonda Lange.
Rhonda Lange <BLange1@Neb.rr.com>
lincoln, Ne United States - Thursday, May 19, 2005 11:35 PM CDT
Please know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Allie <allisonporto@hotmail.com>
San Francisco, CA - Thursday, May 19, 2005 5:26 PM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are offered up to all of Jessica's family and friends. (We learned of Jessica and this website through Dr. Ewy)
Linda Kliewer <l_and_d_kliewer@yahoo.com>
Sedgwick, KS USA - Thursday, May 19, 2005 7:58 AM CDT
What your family has been through with Jessica it is no wonder you feel distant and apart. I hope that you and your husband will grow back close again, sometimes this type of thing destroys relationships because people do change. I wish all your pain would just go away. You and your family have such an adjustment, I will pray for peace and comfort.
thinking of you.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Thursday, May 19, 2005 7:58 AM CDT
My mom, sister and I are completely in love with the following books: Before Women had Wings, and Where Blue Begins...I'm sorry i can't give you the authors off the top of my head...
a friend in PA
- Wednesday, May 18, 2005 11:45 PM CDT
Hospice gave me this little book when my grandmother passed away. Since then, I have shared it with everyone who has lost someone! I hope it helps you as much as it did me. Hold on tight! You're family will come together and be stronger than ever!
Water Bugs and Dragon Flies
Down below the surface of a quiet pond lived a colony of water bugs. They were a happy colony, living far away from the sun. For many months they were very busy, scurrying over the soft mud on the bottom of the pond.
They did notice that every once in a while one of their colony seemed to lose interest in going about with its friends. Clinging to the stem of a pond lily, it gradually moved out of sight and was seen no more.
“Look!” said one of the water bugs to another. “One of our colony is climbing up the lily stalk. Where do you suppose she is going?”
Up, up, up it went slowly. Even as they watched, the water bug disappeared from sight. Its friends waited and waited but it didn’t return.
“That’s funny!” said one water bug to another.
“Wasn’t she happy here?” asked a second water bug.
“Where do you suppose she went?” wondered a third.
No one had an answer. They were greatly puzzled.
Finally one of the water bugs, a leader in the colony, gathered its friends together. “I have an idea. The next one of us who climbs up the lily stalk must promise to come back and tell us where he or she went and why.”
“We promise,” they said solemnly.
One spring day, not long after, the very water bug who had suggested the plan found himself climbing up the lily stalk. Up, up, up he went. Before he knew what was happening, he had broken through the surface of the water, and fallen onto the broad, green lily pad above.
When he awoke, he looked about with surprise. He couldn’t believe what he saw. A startling change had come to his old body. His movement revealed four silver wings and a long tail. Even as he struggled, he felt an impulse to move his wings. The warmth of the sun soon dried the moisture from the new body. He moved his wings again and suddenly found himself up above the water. He had become a dragonfly.
Swooping and dipping in great curves, he flew through the air. He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere.
By and by, the new dragonfly lighted happily on a lily pad to rest. Then it was that he chanced to look below to the bottom of the pond. Why, he was right above his old friends, the water bugs! There they were, scurrying about, just as he had been doing some time before.
Then the dragonfly remembered the promise: “The next one of us who climbs up the lily stalk will come back and tell us where he or she went and why.”
Without thinking, the dragonfly darted down. Suddenly he hit the surface of the water and bounced away. Now that he was a dragonfly, he could no longer go into the water.
“I can’t return!” he said in dismay. “At least I tried, but I can’t keep my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the water bugs would know me in my new body. I guess I’ll just wait until they become dragonflies too. Then they’ll understand what happened to me and where I went.”
And the dragonfly winged off happily into its wonderful new world of sun and air.
Thinking of you at this difficult time.
Sput <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE USA - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 2:48 PM CDT
Toni
It is so good to see you are still writing here. Especially for those of us far away. Am still thinking and praying for you and your family.
becky (ben, owen, and miriam)
Becky Duncan <ne-duncans@worldnet.att.net>
Fargo, ND Cass - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 11:32 AM CDT
Thank you for writing, doll!
Suggested books (for you): "Strands of Starlight" by Gael Baudino
I've looked for it when I've been in a bookstore lately, 'cause I've wanted to give it to you...
I know I have other book ideas, but now that I'm writing my mind is blank.
Love you!
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 10:54 AM CDT
Toni - I'm glad you're still writing entries, because we do care what happens during the greiving period. I have felt like I've been right there during this whole thing and with you going thru changes so are your readers. We've been friends for many years and it has always felt that we live next door to each other.. I miss you and want to give you a big hug. I pray that you all have a wonderful summer with those new adventures ... Love you all.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az 85306 - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 9:57 AM CDT
Toni,
I just wanted to write and let you know that I can relate a bit with what you are going through right now. In February, I lost my mother and brother in a tragic car accident. I am still struggling with keeping my attention on something for more than two minutes. At first I thought there was something extremely wrong with me, but from what I hear, it is a natural process.
Also, it seems that some of my hobbies and interests have changed.
Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart goes out to you and your entire family.
Laura Dowding <laurahazard@hotmail.com>
Waverly, NE USA - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 9:25 AM CDT
I could have written the next entry by Carol. The first time I came to your site I felt I had met you before but I live in Missouri and grew up in Illinois so I doubt that we have ever met. My heart aches for your wounded family. The day Jessica went to heaven was so sad for so many of us out here and not a day goes by that I dont come here and cry with you. I will continue to pray for you and your family.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 7:59 AM CDT
Dear Toni,
I don't know why but you look so familiar to me and I feel like I should know you. You look like someone I would really like. And to read your sweet thoughts just makes me feel like we're close friends. I just ache for you. You are doing so much better than I can even imagine. It must be the grace of God. It seems like it would be totally normal to just want to lie in bed all day and do nothing. Yet you are doing so many things. You sound like such a sweet mother. I'm so sorry that you have to endure such pain and grief. I'm so glad that Ardena has you. Is she in any grief group-like Charlie Brown (I think there's such a thing as that).
Everyone grieves so differently, that sometimes it can really put a stress into relationships. You and your husband and Ardena have been through so much and I know that it takes it toll on everyone. God put you on my heart tonight to pray for you and your family. He will give the the grace and the strength and the understanding that you all need. Please feel free to e-mail me anytime. I know we don't know each other, but you are in my heart. Love, Carol
Carol Hansen <mcldj@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 0:53 AM CDT
HI TONI-
I DONT KNOW IF YOU REMEBER ME BUT I HELPED WITH JESSICA'S MIBG SCANS IN NUCLEAR MEDICINE. SHE WAS SO VERY SPECIAL TO ALL OF US AND STILL AND WILL ALWAYS HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN OUR HEARTS. YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS. TAKE CARE
LIZ MOLENAAR <gums83@hotmail.com>
OMAHA, NE USA - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 7:34 PM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Keep on writing, that is so healthy to be able to vent and share what you are family. I wish I had comforting words for you all to help you with your loss, but I can't find any words that can do that.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Monday, May 16, 2005 8:42 AM CDT
Keep rambling, Toni! I love to hear your stories. You have such a knack. I think you should write a book someday. Your stories, your thoughts, your dreams; they are all so interesting and such an inspiration to so many. You know how to tell it like it is, and that is so refreshing. I think of you and your family and Jessica every day. All my love, Darby
Darby Brio <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, May 15, 2005 6:40 PM CDT
Were are thinking of your family. Glad the kids were having so much fun. Our prayers are with you.
Kelly VoorVart <Dudeslady@msn.com>
Omaha, Ne - Saturday, May 14, 2005 10:58 PM CDT
I am so thankful that the kids and I came to see you guys in early April. We did not get to spend much time with you on the last trip, but I understand that you needed space and time to be alone together. Let us know when you are coming "out west" the next time and maybe we can drop down. Love from all of us!
Deb and Rus McNeff <mcrus@comcast.net>
Northglenn, Co USA - Saturday, May 14, 2005 12:12 AM CDT
I'm so sorry to hear of Jessica's passing on, but glad that she had so much love and attention from friends and family before she left. It sounds like her short time on Earth was fulfilling and full of wonderful experiences.
Kate <kamajo5@hotmail.com>
Denver, CO USA - Friday, May 13, 2005 4:06 PM CDT
Sorry Tim missed all the fun !!! But you are lucky there Toni, you would have had to bathe (and redress) 4 MUDDY MUDDY KIDS. Keep fun a constant, and if need be, cry thru fun times too, I do --
I really feel as tho I know you Toni and Ardena, and we've yet to meet. Planning to remedy that next summer hopefully at Ft. Robinson. I feel as tho I am right there with you all, Jessica included. Your journal entries are so wonderful, and helpful to all of us. Hugs to everyone.
Cousin Lois <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA USA - Friday, May 13, 2005 2:21 PM CDT
hugs, hugs, hugs!
The water and the playset sounds so fun!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Friday, May 13, 2005 11:01 AM CDT
Hi Toni,
All of your mixed emotions are so understandable. I hope you can find peace and strength, through your family, friends and your church. Father Sullivan was so wonderful at Jessica's service. It was beautiful. You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.
Take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, May 13, 2005 9:37 AM CDT
Hi, i know you dont know me, but i am sorry to hear about the loss of your baby girl. I was just doing a search for other kids with Neuroblastoma and came across your website. My son was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma stage IV on February 21st, 2005. He was just under 2 months old when he was diagnosed. If you would like to visit his website it is:
www.caringbridge.org/mn/jasonk
He just finished with his chemotherapy and will go for a cat scane, bone scan, and a bone marrow biopsy next week to see how it is doing. Once again, i am sorry to hear about the loss.
Erin <erqterin@aol.com>
Minnesota, USA, - Thursday, May 12, 2005 10:05 PM CDT
Toni,
What a wonderful entry. I just love reading your writing. You do such a great job of putting to words your feelings. I wish I was better at that. Don't worry about the crying. You cry all you need. My Jessica has a hard time seeing be cry too. I just told her how healthy it is to cry and that it is okay to cry. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, May 12, 2005 9:40 AM CDT
Hello. I found your website through Haley's website, and after visiting it for the first time I checked in on Jessica's website every week. I am very sympathetic for your family's loss, but we can all rest in peace knowing that she is no longer suffering. I have 2 very small children of my own and I could not imagine losing one of them. You have a very strong family and a lot of caring friends. I just wanted to let you all know that I don't really know you but I feel like a part of your family, and little Jessica will be missed but god bless her and your family.
Amanda <amanda.pearson.ssux@statefarm.com>
Lincoln, ne usa - Thursday, May 12, 2005 9:09 AM CDT
I was looking at Camer's website and read about your loss. I'm so sorry. I can understand the numbness you felt while planning the service, I've been there, tired, emotionally drained and answering questions. My thoughts are with you and your family. Jackie
Jackie Hughes <JHughes2@neb.rr.com>
Seward, NE USA - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 4:50 PM CDT
Praying for your comfort during this difficult time.
Mark
Atlanta, Ga - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 3:03 PM CDT
Toni, I'm still here. Haven't added much to your guestbook lately but wanted you to know that I think of you many times a day and check the website to read your latest words. You are an inspiration to me when I am having a hard day, your words lift me and make me realize everything that I have and to never take it for granted. Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do for you.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 3:33 PM CDT
Bless your family and may you find great comfort from Our Father during your difficult time. I am so sorry for your loss.
Audra Deffenbaugh <audrall@yahoo.com>
Tyler, TX USA - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 11:10 AM CDT
HELLO -- Jessica continues to work miracles...I am so HAPPY -- (crying like a BIG baby) I've been trying 9 months to reach this website, and my rookie computer skills (or the computer) defeated me. Now since 4:30 am I've been thinking of who and where to go, (crying) thinking of Jessica, (crying),writing a little poem (crying). I got online to email and share Cousin Jerry's (my brother) poem with my children who have shared Jessica's website for months, and went to one of Tim's Updates, clicked on and here I am -- I love you all so much, and my heart has broken with you, but above and beyond that I have marveled at your strength. I get 40 lashes for not calling, but you don't want to hear me blubber--I never passed Emotion Control 101..
Love Your Cousin Lois ---
Jessica – A Picture in My Heart
I tucked you softly there the day,
Grandma shared your birthday fun.
Laughing and playing in your backyard,
Not a care that day under the summer sun.
Daddy sent word pictures often, and,
I followed your tiny toes.
Skipping along that "big people’s" path,
Of ups and downs and "rainbows".
Now you are way ahead of me,
But I know I’ll catch up soon.
I’ll hug you, hold you, your smile I’ll see,
As we dance and play to your angel’s tune.
In loving memory, your cousin Lois
Lois Gaskin Miller <gaskinnumber5@yahoo.com>
Carson, CA USA - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:32 AM CDT
God bless each of you! I heard about your little girl through "Josh Brestel's page". May they both be having heavenly fun together with no pain. My deepest sympathy to you and your family.
Angie Kathman <angiekathman1@hotmail.com>
Lawrence, NE US - Monday, May 9, 2005 2:26 PM CDT
Happy Mother's Day! I found you through Cameron's website. I know that he and Jessica have found each other in heaven and are playing right now. I pray that you enjoy Ardena today and find rays of sunshine from heaven sent especially for you from Jessica.
Michele Pickering <mpickering@tams.com>
Mission Viejo, CA - Sunday, May 8, 2005 7:16 PM CDT
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Sunday, May 8, 2005 5:15 PM CDT
You are never far from my thoughts and prayers. Your journal entries show the great strength your family has. I feel privileged to have met Jessica and Toni, for you have enriched my life. Blessings on the days ahead.
Peg Ricketts <pegricketts@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Sunday, May 8, 2005 1:12 PM CDT
HI MY NAME IS KIM.I FOUND YOU THROUGH HALEY'S SITE.PLEASE KNOW I'M SAYING PRAYERS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS.IT HAS BEEN 5 MONTHS NOW SINCE I LOST MY SWEET GIRL.PLEASE KNOW I'LL BE PRAYING FOR YOUR DAYS TO BE MORE BEARABLE!
caringbridge.org/mi/sweetlauren
KIM [MOMMY TO ANGEL LAUREN] MOMMY TO JAY AND HAILEY <redwinggirl2@juno.com>
DETROIT, MI USA - Saturday, May 7, 2005 3:00 PM CDT
Toni,
I wanted to stop by and wish you a Happy Mother's Day. I know it will be hard. I have very mixed emotions about it myself. I miss Josh so much but still need to be here for my Jessica tomorrow. I hope all the wonderful memories of "Little Jessica" (that is what Josh would call her) help comfort you tomorrow. Have a very Happy Mother's Day. I wanted to share a poem.
God Bless The Grieving Mother
God bless the grieving mother ...
In January as the snow falls ...
And a new year dawns ...
For her memories will comfort her ...
Through winter, spring, summer and fall.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In February during the month of love ...
She sends her hugs on the wings of a dove ...
And her kisses are blown to the moon above.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In March on St. Patrick's Day ...
A beautiful rainbow ... symbol of hope ...
Which colors her world ... in a magical way.
God bless the grieving mother ...
On Easter in April as she stops to pray ...
Thanking God for the gift of everlasting life ...
Knowing she will be united one day.
God bless the grieving mother ...
On Mother's Day and through the month of May ...
Whose memories are like threads of gold ...
For they will never tarnish ... or go away.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In June as her tears fall like the rain ...
Please comfort her ... give her strength
and peaceful days to help ease the pain.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In July as the fireworks light up the sky afar ...
Just like her memories light up her heart ...
And she wishes upon an evening star.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In August...as the sun shines through ...
Who;s life moves on ... through ups and downs ...
Whose heart is so tender and true.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In September as the leaves turn and fall ...
Her child's life forever etched in her heart ...
Her child's name entered on a memorial wall.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In October...with the harvest colors all around.
Please guide her on her journey of grief ...
and keep her safe and sound.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In November ... a time to give thanks and pray.
Who is so thankful for each precious memory
But wishes with all her heart ... just one more.
God bless the grieving mother ...
In December as Christmas nears ...
Please bless her with the gift of peace ...
And many great friends to help dry the tears.
God bless each grieving mother ...
Each day throughout the year ...
As seasons come and go ...
And time unfolds ...
Day by day ...
Month by month ...
Year by year ...
and especially today ...
on this Mother's day.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Saturday, May 7, 2005 11:01 AM CDT
I am so so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express what pain you are going through. I was one of Jill Zulovich's teachers when she attended The Academy. I read her site religiously and found your site through their's. Just know that she is in a safe and warm place with God by her side all the time. And that she is watching over you through every action you take. She knows you all love her. God bless you all. You are in my thoughts and prayers. :)
Laura <Lindancer@yahoo.com>
Columbia, MO USA - Friday, May 6, 2005 9:36 PM CDT
May God continue to give you strength. He is our hope. We know that Jessica is with Him now, and as my son says, doing what kids should be doing. We are praying for you. May God bless you.
Lynn Nikkel <LynnNikkel@cox.net>
Chesapeake, VA USA - Friday, May 6, 2005 7:45 PM CDT
Toni...Thanks for your journal entries. Myself, and I'm sure a lot of other people, check often to see how you are doing. I'm thinking of you so much and praying you are haveing some good days. I'm glad Ardena is having fun feeding the cows. I'm sure they love the salad! If you need ANYTHING, please let me know. God Bless!
Kelly <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
Denton, NE - Friday, May 6, 2005 5:24 PM CDT
love you!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Friday, May 6, 2005 11:40 AM CDT
Your journal entries are so vivid and such a loving tribute to Jessica. Have you thought about making your journal into a book? I wish I could make your pain go away and I think about your family every day.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Friday, May 6, 2005 10:44 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim, and Ardena,
Just want you to know I'm thinking of you. I pray that your loving memories of Jessica continue to bring you smiles even though your hearts are breaking. All my love, Jane
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, TX - Friday, May 6, 2005 10:30 AM CDT
May God continue to give you the peace, comfort & healing that your entire family needs. Prayers & thoughts are with you.
Donita
Roca, NE USA - Friday, May 6, 2005 9:18 AM CDT
I'm sorry for the loss of Your beautifull child! She is a beautifull soul.God definitly picked a beauty for his garden.I look at your photos and see her smiling and know that her parents had alot to do with this.Please know that we will be praying for your family.I read about your daughter through Jill's caringbridge page.Praying that peace and God's comfort will surround you at this time
Tonya and Stormy Lott <plainsmiles722@yahoo.com caringbridge/tn/stormyrlott>
Tracy City, tn u.s.a. - Thursday, May 5, 2005 10:20 PM CDT
I am saddened by the loss of Jessica, and will be praying for all of you.
We know Mike Thaler quite well. I will share Jessica's story with him the next time we chat. It will encouarage him. His wife died last summer following a long battle with cancer.
May the Lord encourage your hearts.
Stephanie & RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Thursday, May 5, 2005 7:02 PM CDT
Just today heard about little miss Jessica losing her fight. I am so happy she is no longer suffering and can play, eat and just be a normal kid now, but my heart aches for your family. I will always remember caring for her in the treatment center and how much fun she could be and how silly she was. You could always tell when she was feeling better because her interactions with the staff were so much more fun filled. What a character! God Bless you Princess Jessica. You are all in my prayers. Stacy RN BSN
Stacy Rooker, RN BSN, Cowdry Cancer Treatment Center
Omaha, NE USA - Thursday, May 5, 2005 4:41 PM CDT
We're so sorry to hear of Jessica's passing, but she has a "Best Bud" in Heaven with her, our Cameron. Words can't really express our feelings in your loss. God grant you peace.
JD & Karen Ham (Cameron's Pappy JD & Grandma Karen) <hammershow@yahoo.com>
Garden City, KS - Thursday, May 5, 2005 2:47 PM CDT
We're so sorry to hear of Jessica's passing, but she has a "Best Bud" in Heaven with her, our Cameron. Words can't really express our feelings in your loss. God grant you peace.
JD & Karen Ham (Cameron's Pappy JD & Grandma Karen) <hammershow@yahoo.com>
Garden City, KS - Thursday, May 5, 2005 2:47 PM CDT
Hello, I heard through camerons site of your loss. I am sorry. I have had you on prayer list since I first came to this site, will keep you and yours in my prayers..
Amy
Trenton, ne - Thursday, May 5, 2005 1:46 PM CDT
I am a friend of the Brecka's, I clicked on your link and am saddened to hear of Jessica's passing, but know in your hearts you have the most wonderful angel watching over you. I am sure Jessica and Cameron are together, pain free, their spirits and love will never end. I am praying for you and your families.
Melanie <melaniejos@yahoo.com>
Exeter, NE - Thursday, May 5, 2005 11:11 AM CDT
Regarding the lawn mower entry from May 1st.....if I could have been there, I would have gone and turned that mower off myself. Thanks for honestly sharing and showing us yet again the truest moments of your life.
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 10:29 PM CDT
WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOUR FAMILY.
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com>
OMAHA, NE - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 4:45 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss, please know that many are praying for your family.
Kami
Waverly, NE - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 11:22 AM CDT
Dear Jessica's Family,
We read on Haleygirl's website Jessica earned her wings. We are so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful little girl. Our hearts go out to you. We will keep your family in our prayers. My daughter, Addie, is a friend of Haley's. She suffers from gliobastoma multiform. We are battling hard right now for Addie. We are waiting to go to Chicago any day for hopes of a miracle for her. Please keep her in your prayers. May god give you comfort and strength in the days ahead to heal your hearts.
Love, Cindy, Molly, and Addie
www.caringbridge.org/ne/addiemarie
Cindy, Molly, and Addie <monkiesrock@hotmail.com>
Hastings, Ne usa - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 9:02 AM CDT
I am sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in our prayers and thoughts.
Jana <johndeer4240@juno.com>
- Wednesday, May 4, 2005 8:36 AM CDT
I've been reading Jessica's story every day and am sorry to hear about your loss. I work at Children's and have taken care of Jessica many times. What a fiesty little girl!! I know she's busy in heaven my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Heather <aamixan@cox.net>
- Wednesday, May 4, 2005 3:03 AM CDT
Thank you for the beautiful stories you have been sharing with us, Toni. It means so much to us all that you are willing to share them with us. All my love, Darby
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 6:12 PM CDT
You have touched me. My heart goes out to Jessica and you all. May God comfort you and give you strength for the days ahead. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Your journal is very special and thanks for sharing it.
Michelle Mosiman <MMosiman@hospicecareofkansas.com>
Newton, KS HV - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 5:13 PM CDT
We got your site from Brooke's. Sorry to hear of your loss. Jessica sounds like a very neat little girl. We wish we would have had the blessed opportunity to meet her. My child has 'The Kissing Hand' and we love that book - I'm glad your girls had that very special moment. I believe that Jessica feels ALL of your love.. ALL of the time.
May God comfort you -
Julie Barlow <juliebarlow2003@yahoo.com>
Olathe, KS - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 4:02 PM CDT
Thank you so much for sharing these entries in your journal with us. Please know that I continue to pray for your strength during these difficult days. Your journal attests to the comfort that your faith has brought to you, and it truly serves as a tribute to the difference that Christ's love can make even in the most challenging situations, if we just keep our eyes on Him. Take care--
Christie
Christie Beck <beck@ohio.edu>
Athens, OH USA - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 1:00 PM CDT
Thank you for sharing Jessica's last few moments and her service with us. I had just began checking her site daily and was praying for her daily. I am thankful that she passed easily into Heaven and is there now without any pain or suffering. I am so thankful we believers have a better place to ascend to once we die. I know that one day I will see Jessica there.
David Daniel and family <rhondavid@yahoo.com>
Birmingham, Al USA - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 12:46 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim, and Ardena
Beautiful Jessica has consumed us these last three weeks. We have reconnected with a neighbor of yours that Shirley worked with 10 years ago.We have seen how she has positively affected our neighbors,friends, acquaintenances, your friends and neighbors through your journal entries. Jessica has been in our thoughts and prayers for the past year but especially in the last 3 weeks. It was so unique that I got to spend 1 hour hopefully making Jessica's life special for the the three of you. The coincidence that I was coming to your house and that you folks came around the corner when I had my basket of goodies, balloons, and pinwheels will be very special to me for the rest of my life. I have told your story tearfully to many of my family, acquaintenances, friends, and coworkers. Maybe we can have a parade again next year to celebrate this unique little girl.
Tony Manthey(the clown) <idocmanthe@cs.com>
Lincoln, Ne - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 0:51 AM CDT
You are all more loved than you will ever know...
and not a bit cuckoo.
Thank you for being part of my family. I know you don't get to choose that, but I can't imagine having a better one.
Love,
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver (currently Lincoln), CO - Monday, May 2, 2005 7:30 PM CDT
OH I am so sorry for your loss of Jessica. How your hearts have been broken. I came acrossed your site through Josh's site.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
sheryl <johnston_sheryl@mail.dublin.k12.oh.us>
- Monday, May 2, 2005 12:56 AM CDT
The ONLY possibility is that Jessica still feels your love for her, and she always will. You surrounded her with your love and filled her up with it, as she filled you with her love for you all. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Cathy, Kirk, Joel & Hannah
Cathy <ckcryer@worldnet.att.net>
WI - Monday, May 2, 2005 9:52 AM CDT
I know in my heart that Jessica will always feel your love for her. I believe she did wait to take her last breath until it could be right for all of you. She had so much strength and courage. Cris Berry(Skylar's grammy)caringbridge.org/ne/skylarberry
Cris Berry <cris1966@cox.net>
Omaha, Ne - Monday, May 2, 2005 9:11 AM CDT
I'm so sorry to hear about Jessica. She's a heavenly angel watching over you and your family. The "kissing hand" is very touching, I never heard it but I will now remember it. I'm sorry I never met your angel but I know I love her from your journal entries. She is precious and inspirational to me. My prayers for you during this special time.
Kathy Fink <Katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Monday, May 2, 2005 9:05 AM CDT
I learned about Jessica from Joyce Zulovich and have been checking on your website every now and then. It was through her that I found out your precious little Jessica is with the other angels now. I pray that your grief will be somehow lessened knowing that Jessica is in a place now where she is no longer suffers and is smiling down on you now knowing that you will be together again one day in a place where there is no pain and suffering. My condolences to all of you. Connie Burris
Connie Burris <burrisc@missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO USA - Monday, May 2, 2005 8:15 AM CDT
Dear Hindman Family,
My faith has grown because of your angel, Jessica. She earned her wings in a trying way, yet so many have been blessed by knowing her (and your) journey. I truly pray that you will find the strength you need to work through your grief. Thankfully you know where that strength is to be found. I am Katie's teacher here at LMS in Pullman. She and her family shared their concern for Jessie with our church and Katie and I spoke of Jessie at school. I know you know what an exceptional young person Katie is, I am sure Jessie's legacy will be fulfilled in some way by her, and others. Love and peace!
julie clark
Pullman, WA - Sunday, May 1, 2005 6:54 PM CDT
On the Day Jessica left, the world became a bit dimmer -- and Heaven shone brighter. Blessings to all of you as you adjust to life without Jessica here. But our hope is in the promise God gave to us that HIS gift is the gift of eternal life -- You will be together again.
Amy <bean1352@cs.com>
Gray , Ga 31032 - Sunday, May 1, 2005 3:01 PM CDT
TO JESSICA AND ALL OF HER LOVING FAMILY. YOU HAVE TOUCHED MY HEART THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY AND I HOPE THAT YOU NOW RECEIVE THE LOVE AND KINDNESS YOU DESERVE AND FIND A BEAUTIFUL PLACE TO REST. I HAVE SENT REIKI AND LOVING HEALING AND LIGHT TO YOU AND ALL OF YOUR FAMILY SO THAT YOU CAN STILL BE CLOSE AND FIND A WAY TO REMEMBER EACH OTHER WHEN TIMES WERE GOOD AND YOUR HOME WAS FULL OF FUN AND LAUGHTER. MAY YOU ALWAYS BE TOGETHER IF NOT IN BODY THEN IN MIND. WITH MY LOVE AND BEST WISHES, ADELE SEARLE (EXMOUTH, ENGLAND.)
ADELE SEARLE <adelesearle@tiscali.co.uk>
EXMOUTH, ENGLAND - Sunday, May 1, 2005 2:40 PM CDT
I was so sorry to read on little Jill Zulovich's site about Jessica. I know how dear your family is to theirs, and my heart breaks for all of you. We will pray for your peace and comfort.
Julie Wargo <g8tor90@aol.com>
Longwood, FL - Saturday, April 30, 2005 10:45 PM CDT
Tim, Toni and Ardena,
Tomorrow at our church service we will be sharing your names and praying in our congregation for all of you. You continue to inspire us to grow in our faith as you are such faith filled witnesses of the greatness of God's love. I will never read "The Kissing Hand" in the same way again. I will remember little Jessica when I read it. It has always been one of my favorite books to read to my grandchildren. Please feel my Christian sympathy as you greive the loss of Jessica but celebrate her new life in eternity. Blessings today and always.
Pastor Judith Rainforth <jrainforth@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Saturday, April 30, 2005 8:54 PM CDT
God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be,
so he put his arms around you,
and whispered "Come to me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
and saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.
Anonymous <cryingwithyou@godsfamily.org>
- Saturday, April 30, 2005 8:36 PM CDT
Tim and Toni,
I visited your home only once, but could feel the love for your family and your Lord while I was there. I'm reminded that God's grace is sufficient for the trials He allows His children to endure, and that He never leaves us to endure them alone. He walks beside us or carries us, whatever we need. I'm praying for you, that you will know God's perfect peace as you remember your dear Jessica.
Peggy, Tabitha Hospice
Peggy Confer <pegbmxmom@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Saturday, April 30, 2005 7:09 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. I offered by Mass tonight to you and your family that our Lord walk with you and continue to give you strength.
Donna Lowdermilk <dlowdermilk@msn.com>
West Monroe, La USA - Saturday, April 30, 2005 5:46 PM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim and Ardena,
Your love and devotion to the girls is so touching and inspiring. You made Jessica's life happy even during the most difficult conditions. It is inspiring to the rest of us how you have handled yourself in sharing your faith especially with Jessica. Her dream about Jesus fills the rest of us with hope and faith. Thankyou for sharing your thoughts in your diary with us all, you are and have been in our prayers every night since last year. Your Friends,
The Deterdings
Jamie, Anne, Jackson, Bailey and Elise Deterding
Lincoln, NE - Saturday, April 30, 2005 3:12 PM CDT
Beautiful little Jessica, I am so glad you will have the kisses from your loved ones whenever you need some extra love in heaven.
Tina, Tim and Ardena, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little Jessica. I hope you find peace and comfort knowing she is now pain-free and that she left this world in the comfort of your love.
Love and tears from your nb family,
Jennifer Click and Carolyn & Evan Coveney <jclick@mindspring.com>
Falls Church, VA - Saturday, April 30, 2005 10:04 AM CDT
Toni,
In the time that I have known you I have learned so much. I am so sorry for your loss but so grateful for your sharing of your family and Jessica with us here. She is at peace now--no more suffering and hurts, no child should ever have to hurt that way. Jessica taught me too--such perseverance and courage. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Tim and Ardena as you continue on your journey.
May God continue to bless you and your family. Please keep in touch and let me know how you are doing.
Terri Engel <tke61ne@aol.com>
Omaha, NE - Saturday, April 30, 2005 1:53 AM CDT
God looked around His garden and found an empty place.
He then looked down upon His earth and saw your loving face.
He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest.
His garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best.
He knew that you were suffering; he knew you were in pain.
And knew that you would never get well on earth again.
He saw your path was difficult; he closed your tired eyes,
He whispered to you "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly.
When we saw you sleeping so calm and free of pain,
We would not wish you back to earth to suffer once again.
You've left us precious memories; your love will be our guide,
You live on through your family; you're always by our side.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you on the day God called you home.
Anonymous
- Saturday, April 30, 2005 1:00 AM CDT
Toni,Tim, Dena, Jeanne and Bruce~ It was truly an honor and blessing to have known Jessica...she, and your wonderful faith-filled family will remain in my memory forever. I really felt that precious sweet smile shining warmly down from heaven today.
Brenda Rickman RN CHPN <rosesandlilacs@hotmail.com>
Nebraska City, NE - Friday, April 29, 2005 9:48 PM CDT
Toni, Tim, and Ardena:
I have followed your story from the beginning and thought and prayed for you often. Jessica was such a beautiful girl because she had a beautiful family. You are all truly amazing. God bless you.
Karen, James, Brett and Kayla Foster <kjfosterne@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 9:42 PM CDT
Our hearts break for your loss. We will be praying for comfort, strength, peace, grace and love for your family.
Christy and Tim Smith
caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson
Bailey's Nonny and Papa < csmithnonny@charter.net>
Genoa, NV USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 7:12 PM CDT
May God Bless you all. We will continue to pray for Jessica and each of you. She was a very brave little girl. I'm sure that your strenght became her strenght. Peace to all of you.
Mary, Michael, Tiniqua and Bobby Millard
Blessed Sacrament Chruch
Mary Millard
Lincoln, Ne Lancaster - Friday, April 29, 2005 6:09 PM CDT
Hindmans-I am so sorry to hear about Jessica's passing. I am so glad that you were able to be with her during that time. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Abby
Omaha, NE - Friday, April 29, 2005 5:19 PM CDT
To Jessica's family, my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. I'm so very sorry that Jessica had to endure so much during her short time here on Earth but now she's in God's hands and is truly at peace. May God bless Jessica and all of you.
Debi Jackson-Campbell Charterwest Mortgage <debijackson0854@yahoo.com>
Golden, CO USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 5:09 PM CDT
Jessica is truly God's most precious angel. Think of her in Heaven in the Lord's hands--an awesome thought. You have a beautiful family with lots of love in the air, I could feel it in the wonderful pictures.
We will pray for you today, tomorrow and always as you go on, living your life with Jessica in Heaven guiding you and helping you in these difficult days. God Bless You ALL. The sun will shine again, as Jessica smiles with you thru the sunshine.
Sue DeVos (sister in law to Rhonda Lange, your friend)
Fargo, ND USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 4:21 PM CDT
Just remember: Sorrow is not forever, LOVE is.
Stacy Mousel
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 4:04 PM CDT
Our prayers are with your family. Thank you for sharing Jessica's story and for being such a good friend to Kelly and Skylar. Cris,Gus,& Drew Berry
Cris Berry <cris1966@cox.net>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, April 29, 2005 3:30 PM CDT
I am sorry for your loss. My prayers are with your family.
I am Katie and Will's "other" grandmother.
Eleanor Blanks <ewb50312@aol.com>
Des Moines, IA US - Friday, April 29, 2005 3:27 PM CDT
God bless your family. What a beautiful journal entry. It must have been a very hard, brave thing to do. We came across your site from contact with Joyce & Jill Zulovich, and just wanted to let you know that you are in our thoughts.
Allan Biddulph & Family (www.caringbridge.org/europe/nicole) xxxx <allanbids@hotmail.com>
Torquay, UK - Friday, April 29, 2005 3:24 PM CDT
To All Who Knew and Love Sweet Jessica,
I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling, the mixed feelings, You all expecially Mom, Dad , and Sis are feeling. You all have been on such a Roller Coaster ride for so long now. Your sweet Jessica is with Jesus and no more pain, except for your pain. She was on this earth for a short time but there is a reason, you may not know for a long time but you will one day know how she touched and blessed lives. May God be with you and carry you through this. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Trish Seders mother of Samantha and Jacki <rottiegirl69@msn.com>
Bridgeport, WV USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 3:03 PM CDT
Tim and Toni,
Words cannot say how sorry we are for the loss of your Jessica. We know that although she was not on this earth long enough, she is in a wonderful place now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Tony and Deanna Korth <tkorth@ngpc.state.ne.us>
Gretna, Ne - Friday, April 29, 2005 2:04 PM CDT
God Bless You and your family. The Kissing Hand is my daughters favorite book. I pray that God gives you the peace and strength to continue this journey.
Bebe Troppoli
Charlotte, NC - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:41 PM CDT
PS--My older daughter shared The Kissing Hand book with us a few weeks ago, and when I read that Ardena had done that with Jessica, I instantly had tears because it was so sweet. What a wonderful thing for Ardena to do for Jessica! She's a great big sister.
Beth Azdell <azdellb@health.missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:31 PM CDT
I heard about your site from Joyce Zulovich and have been following Jessica's story for a few weeks. Joyce's site said that Jessica had passed away, so I immediately went to your site. I have two small daughters, too, and I cannot begin to imagine how devastated you are. My girls adore each other, and I'm sure Ardena feels lost without Jessica. But I can tell that you are a very loving, supportive family and together, you will get through this. My prayers for you are for strength, but also for loved ones around you to lean on when you just want to shout at the world how unfair it is that she is gone. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Beth Azdell <azdellb@health.missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:29 PM CDT
The Kissing hand story touched my heart. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of such a beautiful little girl. Its unfair that Jessica had to leave you so early in life, but she will not suffer anymore. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you. I;m sure her sister will miss her! Julie
julie Jolstad <jjolstad@charterwestmortgage.com>
Golden, CO - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:13 PM CDT
Tim, Toni & Ardena,
We are so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little Jessica. I think of you daily and wish you strength and hope. God Bless You All.
Daryl, Audrey, Sidney & Mason Ramaekers
Audrey Ramaekers <audrey@haberfeld.net>
lincoln, NE United States - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:06 PM CDT
On the days to come when you are filled with sadness, remember that you have an angel in heaven looking out for you. May the Lord hold you very close during this time. We are so sorry for your Loss.
Roger & Teri Knowlton <teriknowlton@hotmail.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 11:42 AM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is heavy for you and your family. You are in our prayers in Saskatoon Saskatchewan Canada.
Marlane Fox (Grandma to Matthew Epp - Wilms Child) <fox2@shaw.ca>
Saskatoon, SK Canada - Friday, April 29, 2005 11:15 AM CDT
All my love and prayers are with you right now. I am so so sorry for your loss. I know Jesscia is feeling no pain. I love that Ardena thought of the kissing hand story. It is beautiful. Wishing you the strength you need.
Shelli Miller http://www3.caringbridge.org/ne/emmamiller/ <shellimm@msn.com>
Fremont, NE - Friday, April 29, 2005 10:03 AM CDT
We like the Kissing Hand at our house. Your story was amazing and will be such a precious memory for her.
May you find comfort with your family and friends and God's loving arms during this very sad time.
Hugs,
Connie Frisby-Griffin <cdlfg@adelphia.net>
Colorado Springs, CO - Friday, April 29, 2005 10:02 AM CDT
I know that sharing your most heart-breaking moments can be so painful - but thank you for that. Thank you for sharing your beautiful Jessica with us. Your story is painful - yet one of the most beautiful ones I've ever heard. It has changed my life! We don't understand but I know God has a most special purpose and He knew no one else could take care of precious little Jessica like you. I am praying for your peace and comfort. Just feel God's loving arms around you and know how much He loves you.
Wynona Eason <wynona.eason@vdh.virginia.gov>
Burkeville, VA USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 9:26 AM CDT
i AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS!! I WAS CRYING WHEN I WAS READING IT BUT THE STORY OF THE HAND KISS MADE IT EVEN WORSE!! WHAT A SWEET STORY!!! I PRAY FOR STRENGTH FOR YOUR FAMILY DURING THIS DIFFICULT TIME!!!
www.caringbridge.org/nc/nicholas
(Stage III NB...currently NED)
Heather Black (Nicholas; mom) <heatherblack99@yahoo.com>
Bolivia, NC - Friday, April 29, 2005 9:00 AM CDT
I am so sad for your loss and yet my emotions can't begin to comprehend the burden you bear at this time. May God soon grant you the peace that Jessica now realizes.
Sarah Lang
Columbia, Mo USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 8:47 AM CDT
Your Angel Jessica is at peace and no longer suffering. May God's love be with you to give you the peace & comfort that you are needing now and in the many days to come. My prayers are with you and your entire family.
Donita
Roca, NE USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 8:43 AM CDT
Your family is in our thoughts and prayers. May God give you peace in knowing that she is no longer suffering. May Gods angels surround you and comfort you during this very difficult time. God Bless, Melissa (Proud Army Spouse)
Melissa Marbut <melissa.marbut@cmtymail.98asg.army.mil>
Wuerzburg, Germany - Friday, April 29, 2005 5:06 AM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss.
I will keep you in my prayers.
May God now watch over your
family as you go through the upcoming
future.
Connie Strayer (Jared's web page) http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/jaredstrayer <tinbkerbell53@netzero.net>
Carlisle, PA - Friday, April 29, 2005 4:57 AM CDT
What beautiful little girls. Oh so sweet. I'm so sorry for your loss of your sweet angel. Praise God that we do not grieve as those who have no hope. For we know we will be re-united with those who have gone before us-and will all be with Jesus. Oh, what a wonderful Savior. I pray for His comfort for you. You are all in my prayers. I'm so sorry.
Carol <mcldj@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE - Friday, April 29, 2005 0:35 AM CDT
I know there's absolutely nothing anyone can say to make the pain go away. Just know that you're in our thoughts and prayers.
Nicole, mom to Matthew.
Nicole Epp <nikepp@hotmail.com>
Fiske, Sk Canada - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:46 PM CDT
I am so sorry about your loss. There are no words I can say to help you through this time. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Becky and Ashlyn www.caringbridge.org/sd/ashlyn <beckjo70@hotmail.com>
Mitchell, SD - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:22 PM CDT
We are thinking of you and pray that you will find comfort in knowing that God will be with you through this difficult time.
Tom and Vicki Spahn <vspahn@esu16.org>
Brule, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:03 PM CDT
My heart breaks for you. I am a friend of Cindy Roll's through MOPS. She shared your need for prayers with our group weeks ago. Words seem so futile right now. I know our real comfort can only come from God. Let him take care of you and just feel His love. Just think how much more beautiful heaven is right now.....
Jodi Mackin <jmackin@gtmc.net>
Ayr, NE 68925 - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:59 PM CDT
We are so sorry to hear of your loss. Jessie was such a beautiful young lady & she will be missed by so many. She touched the lives of so many. I will never be able to bake cookies without thinking of Jessica sitting in the arms of Jesus. Thank you all for sharing your journey with us. May God wrap His loving arms around all of you.
Love,
Cori, Wayne, Karissa and Kyra
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:44 PM CDT
i am so sorry for your loss may God be with you in your time of need
mira phroper
bennet, ne united states - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:18 PM CDT
You have left a lump in my throat! She is a most beautiful angel. I love the photos of her from Easter. I can picture her swinging high in Heaven! God be with you! Thank God for your many memories!
Sput Turnbull <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE usa - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:11 PM CDT
Toni, What a sweet story about the kissing hand. I am so glad you and Tim were both there when your sweet Jessica went to heaven. My love to you, Tim, Ardena, Grandma, Grandpa and all who love Jessica so much. Darby Brion
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:42 PM CDT
Your sweet Jessica passed into the loving arms of Jesus and sweet angels who have gone before her. How beautiful that she was with her family and in her loving home when she passed. I shed tears with you and wish that I could make the hurt go away. Love you all!
Wendy
WV - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:06 PM CDT
We have the book you wrote of....what a wonderful way for her sister to show her love and give Jessica the way to pass from this world to the next. It gave me shivers just to read it. May the Lord hold you all up through these next steps along your path. We'll be praying for you all.
Sara Hughes <dshughes@netins.net>
Truro, IA USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:01 PM CDT
Jessica is a lovely child. Her pictures and your words express how much she was loved and admired. I know no words can help, but I want you to know that I am praying for you and hoping Jessica loves heaven.
Love,
May Hinicker
caringbride.com/mn/may
May <jessica@heaven.com>
Minnnetonka, MN USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 8:02 PM CDT
What a beautiful little Angel Jessica is.
I'm so sorry, and there are no words that will help.
Thinking of you
Colleen - Kaitlyn's mum
www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn
Colleen <ozi_gal@hotmail.com>
Beverley, WA Australia - Thursday, April 28, 2005 7:06 PM CDT
Sending you love and prayers. What a beautiful family you are. I'm so sorry. This disease is a beast; yet our children so lovely. We lift you up in prayer!
the Thomas team <Email@ChristiThomas.com>
Tiffin, OH - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:55 PM CDT
Dear Tim, Toni, and Dena,
My name is Sara Olin I am one of Katie's friends at school in Pullman Washington when I first heard about how Jessica was sick my heart was broken and even more when I heard today that she had gone to heaven. But then i realized that jessica is in a better place know where she can play with the Pope. ( Katie told me the story) I just want you to know that my heart is with you and I am praying for you. I just want you to know that this story has changed my life and i will always remember your family.
Love,
Sara Kathleen Olin
Sara Olin <sweetie_chix37@hotmail.com>
Pullman , WA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:55 PM CDT
I just want to tell you how sorry I am. I love the pictures of your family and your beautiful little, angel, Jessica, especially of the one of the kiss. I love the story of the kissing story before she went to heaven. I will post this information on NB-Angels list. We are here if you need us. with tears and sadness, Theresa Angel Becca's Mom 2-17-95 6-17-04
Theresa <TLockler@aol.com>
Aurora, CO USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:47 PM CDT
Tim and Toni: So sorry for your loss. Jessica is now soaring with all the other NB angels. Find peace in knowing that she is in no more pain. I pray for the Lord to wrap his arms around you and give you the strength to make it through this trying time in your lives.
Cheryl Renner <rennerg7@AOL.com>
N. Huntingdon, PA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:44 PM CDT
Tim and Toni,
I am sorry for your loss. Your family is my thoughts and prayers.
Sid
Sidney Bauguess
- Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:36 PM CDT
Tim and Toni,
I am so, so sorry for you loss. You have both been pillars of strength for Jessica. I'm sure Jessica has gone to a wonderful place where the burden on her body has been overcome by the power of her spirit.
Mike Witmer
Lincoln , NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 5:54 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss, but just know that your little angel is watching over you and yours. You may not remember me, but I am one of the many, many, people whose life your Jessica touched when I was invited along to the Children's Museum with Uncle Brian, Caylen and Seynen. It was a joy watching all the kids enjoy every bit of that museum! Thanks to Brian for sharing that moment with me. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and the whole family in the coming days and months.
Susanne <zannyh@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 5:47 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. Jessica was a brave warrior and is a beautiful little angel forever. You are in our prayers.
Aimee, Mom to Kendall (dx5/04) and Zachary, www3.caringbridge.com/ny/kendall <aimee1@optonline.net>
Long Island, NY USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 5:08 PM CDT
I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU A GREAT BIG HUG. YOU WERE THE FIRST FAMILY I MET WITH NEUROBLASTOMA WHEN SKY WAS DIAGNOSED AND YOU WERE SO HELPFUL AND CARING. JESSICA HAD THE GREATEST PEOPLE TO WATCH OVER HER WHILE SHE WAS WITH US. SHE IS SMILING DOWN TO YOU KNOWING HOW MUCH LOVE YOU GAVE HER. NO MORE PAIN. ARE PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.
KELLY VOORVART,SKYLAR BERRY,ADAM WALSH <DUDESLADY@MSN.COM>
OMAHA, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:28 PM CDT
Hi, What a beautiful way to pass from this earth to Heaven with her Mom and Dad holding her "Kissing Hands" and a special Kiss from her sister. Blessings for your little angel and your family. Love, Ellen
http://www.caringbridge.org/ma/seanhanson
Ellen Hanson <ehanson89@aol.com>
Marstons Mills, Ma USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:27 PM CDT
I've been checking on Jessica and your family every day. I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for God's immeasurable comfort for you all. Thank you for your updates...you have blessed my life by sharing Jessica through this journal.
Sally Branch <sanbranch@earthlink.net>
Snellville, GA USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:18 PM CDT
I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. She is a beautiful Angel in Heaven now.
Karen(RA/FOA) <karen0801@aol.com>
McKinney,TX, - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:18 PM CDT
I was introduced to Jessica's story thru Chad and Jane Reynoldson. Whether it was that extra kiss or hug at bedtime or spending that extra minute she may have wanted/needed for no apparant reason; you guys made sure she had it. Jessica is a very lucky little girl to be surrounded by such a selfless, loving family. In the name of Jessica, continue to show the love for your family and appreciate every moment you spend together. God Bless you always.
Dee Martin <dee.martin@amx.com>
Dallas, TX USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:05 PM CDT
We are very sorry for your loss. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.
Mike & Lisa Chick and family
Gretna, Ne USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:51 PM CDT
Heaven is filling up fast today, 3 new angels from caringbridge. I am so sorry for your loss but happy that she is free from her pain. God gave your family the most precious gift when he gave Jessica to you to love and care for, knowing no other family could do a better job. You did a wonderful job. My prayer is that God cradles you gently in his arms thru the coming days as He now cradles Jessica. My heart breaks for you.
Susan Foster <CLF8987@aol.com>
Wentzville, MO USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:51 PM CDT
Your girl is such a beautiful, beautiful angel. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Jacquelyn <jacqmills@sbcglobal.net>
Sacrametno, CA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:48 PM CDT
A Penny From Heaven
I found a penny today
Just laying on the ground
But its not just a penny
this little coin i found.
Found pennies come from Heaven
Thats what my Grandpa told me,
He said, " Angels toss them down."
oh, how i loved that story.
He said, "When an Angel misses you
They toss a penny down,
Sometimes to cheer you up
To make a smile out of your frown."
So dont pass by that penny
When you're feeling blue,
It may be a penny from Heaven
That an Angel tossed to you.
May God Bless at this sad time for the family.
JSchu
Omaha, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:44 PM CDT
We are so sorry for your loss. Jessica is an angel watching over you. She is in Heaven with Jesus and no longer in any pain. God will comfort you as you deal with this. Someday, according to His plan, you will all be together again.
Dale and Sheila Johnson <sheila_johnson@gps.esu16.org>
Brule, ne usa - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:40 PM CDT
Dearest Tim, Toni, and Ardena
I am so very glad that both Jessica's Mommy and Daddy were holding her precious little hands when she went to heaven to be with Jesus. My favorite passage in the Bible is when Jesus says he is going to heaven to make us a mansion. I imagine Jessica's mansion as a big pink doll house, with beautiful spring flowers around it, birds singing above it, lots of puppies and kittens to play with and cookies baking in the over. We are holding you close to our hearts during this saddest of times. Love, hugs, and prayers, Shirley and Tony Manthey
Shirley Manthey <Shirls01@cs.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:15 PM CDT
My prayers and thoughts are with your whole family. What a heartbreaking loss. My God's hand bring peace and comfort to you.
Robin Stec <rstec@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:08 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. You family is in my heart and thoughts.
Hillari
Glasgow, Scotland - Thursday, April 28, 2005 3:00 PM CDT
Dearest Tim, Toni and Ardena,
I am so very glad that both Jessica's Mommy and Daddy were holding her precious little hands when she went to heaven to be with Jesus! One of my favorite passages from the Bible is when Jesus goes to prepare a mansion for us. I imagine Jessica's massion as a big pink doll house surrounded by beautiful flowers, birds singing, lots of puppies and kitties to play with, and cookies baking in the over. Take care dear friends. We are holding you close to our hearts in this most sad time. Love, hugs, and prayers, Shirley Manthey
Shirley Manthey <Shirls01@cs.com>
Lincoln, Ne USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:55 PM CDT
Toni, Tim and Ardena,
God be with you at this time. Heaven is a Glorious place, with a new little angel. Keep writing Toni, your words are comfort to many. We will continue to remember your sweet and precious little girl. She will be missed.
Kendrea,Than, Ethan and Noah Fackler
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:53 PM CDT
Dearest Tim, Toni, and Ardena,
I'm so very glad that both Jessica's Mommy and Daddy were holding her precious little hand when she went to heaven. One of my favorite passages from the Bible talks of Jesus going to prepare a mansion for us......I imagine Jessica's mansion as a big pink doll house with beautiful flowers, birds singing, lots of puppies and kitties to play with and cookies baking in the oven! Hold each other close during this dufficult time and we will be praying for all of you.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Shirley Manthey
Shirley Manthey <Shirls01@cs.com>
Lincoln, Ne USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:36 PM CDT
Toni, Tim, and Ardena,
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of sweet Jessica! It is good to know that she went peacefully with you by her side as she earned her wings. She will always hold a special place in my heart. God Bless
Jacqulyn Kellberg <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:34 PM CDT
Angel Jessica is with the Angels and i know they welcomed her with open arms and hearts. I am so sorry for her family and her sister. We will keep Angel Jessica and her family in our prayers and hearts. God bless all of you.
Sweet Hugs From The Sweets and Sweet Angel Luke 2-9-98 2-8-04 http://www3.caringbridge.org/oh/lukesweet
Grandpa Gene and Grandma Gail <gailsweet@zoominternet.net>
Ashland, OH U.S.A. - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:27 PM CDT
I am so sorry you lost your beautiful daughter. Today is a sad day and we cry with you. Stay strong sweet family.
Mindi & CamiJo (FOA/RA)` <mopoelwijk@cs.com>
Sun Valley, NV USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:26 PM CDT
Jessica's family - I am so sorry for your loss. I am a friend of Tina Scully's and she shared your story with me just yesterday and returned today with your sad news. Turn to God for comfort as he now has your darling angel. May she rest in peace playing Kissing Hands forever.
My sister died in 1968 at age five of neuroblastoma. I was eleven, but yet I still remember the comfort in knowing that her suffering was over and that she was with the angels as is Jessica. Her name was Margaret Mary "Peggy". I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Rose Le Corgne <mamarosa42@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:17 PM CDT
I'm sorry for your loss. You wrote of such a beautiful passing...I know Jessica felt the love of her family as she made her journey to heaven. I pray for you all to have peace and comfort as you grieve for your beautiful Jessica.
Cathy Weber <webercath@juno.com>
Akron, OH - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:15 PM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Kris Herbst <kris@ercolina-usa.com>
Davenport, IA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:54 PM CDT
I found your web site through NB-Angels. My son Shawn also had NB and his doctor was Dr. Gordon. in Omaha. We live in Alexandria. I just wanted to say how sorry I am about the loss of your beautiful daughter. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You can email me anytime. Melanie
Melanie Disney (Angel Shawn's mom 9-15-97/1-11-03) <dizkidz2001@yahoo.com>
Alexandria, Nebraska USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:46 PM CDT
I just found out through the NB angels group about your precious Jessica's passing over into heaven. I'm so sad for your family. I am praying for comfort and peace for all of you in these coming days...weeks.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lisa Wimberly- Angel Chyanne's Nana <lisaw@charter.net>
Jackson, TN USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:37 PM CDT
Jessica's Family,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, our prayers are with you. Today is the first time I have entered your care page (I got Jessica's info from Haley Mathis' page) and didn't expect to hear this news. But we have to accept that this was the Lord's timing and your precious child is now singing and dancing and blowing kisses with Jesus! May He comfort you and give you peace as you go through this time of loss.
God Bless,
Ken and Arlene
Ken and Arlene Spaustat
Omaha, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:33 PM CDT
Dear Tim, Toni, and Dena,
We are so sorry. We are at school and we just found out. We all sent you something in the mail, so hpoefully you will get it soon. Dena- Katie really enjoyed seeing you and Jessie over thanksgiving! Remember tackle football?
My friends, Sara, Ariana, Hailey, and Emily Rose are all praying for you. We love you!
Katie hindman, Ariana Garcia, Sara Olin, Hailey Vik, and Emily Rose Rodgers
Katie HIndman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:27 PM CDT
Toni and family
Your precious daughter has not been far from my thoughts and prayers from the start of this journey. Thankyou for sharing your lives and Jessica's preciuos, lively, loving spirit with me and so many others. In this time of sorrow, cling to each other and Jesus to make it through. Remember Jessica is dancing in heaven. I'll never forget her beautiful smile and zest for life. You are all in my prayers!
Love,
Lindsay Jenkins, RN at Children's Hospital
lindsay <linzy_jenkins@yahoo.com>
omaha, ne - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:26 PM CDT
Dearest Jessica's family,
I learned of Jessica becoming an angel thru the NB Angels listserv this morning. I have spent time devouring Jessica's website. I want to extend my sincere condolances on the loss of your beautiful Jessica. It is so heartbreaking. I am a mother of an Angel named Lance. I have asked him to take Jessica's hand and show her the ropes in Heaven :)
I read your latest journal entry and could not help but feel Jessica was waiting for that special kiss from her adoring sister before she left this life.
I am absolutely heartbroken for you and tears are flowing as I have been reading Jessica's site, I lit my special angel candle for her.
Please know that you are not alone, there is comfort in the NB Angels group.
When you are ready.
The link to the group is posted on Lance's website listed before.
God Bless you all.
Much love and many prayers coming your way.
Justine Saylors, Mom to Angel Lance, www.caringbridge.org/page/lance <justine.saylors@mac.com>
Lake Oswego, OR United States - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:16 PM CDT
Dear Toni and family,
I feel so incredibly sad for you! I hope that you are all able to find peace after going through this ordeal. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Take care and God Bless you for taking such great care of your beautiful Jessica.
Sincerely,
Stacey Werth Sweeney <Sweeney822@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:01 PM CDT
Dear Toni and Family
Our thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. We feel so fortunate to have known Jessica during her short time here on earth and are so thankful that she is no longer in pain. I think we have learned many important lessons from Jessica and your family about love and strength and faith in the Lord.
Shelly Smith and family
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:58 AM CDT
Dear Toni and Family,
We're so saddened to hear of your incredible loss. I'll continue to pray for your family. Thank you for so eloquently sharing your journey-Jessica was truly a special little girl who will be greatly missed by all who knew her.
Jen & family
Jen Bruha
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:44 AM CDT
Your Baby Angel is now an Angel With Wings. What a true Blessing. God Bless you and your Family. Thoughts and Prayers are with you at this time and always.
Jeanette Schu
Omaha, Ne - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:40 AM CDT
What a gorgeous child. She is God's child and now your precious angel. God bless her and welcome her into your holy home.. where no cancer or pain can find her. Embrace this family and care for them, now when they need you so desperately. Please, God.. let this family know that this sweet baby is home and safe with you.. waiting for her the day each member will be called back together.
Please God.. kiss the plams of their hands and let them know you are with them.
God bless you all and may He carry you through this time.
Love,
Heather
www.caringbridge.com/ga/jennifercorbin
Heather Tierney <heather@bestnetsol.com>
Dawsonville, GA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:33 AM CDT
Dearest Toni and Family,
This ever so sad story was told so beautifully. The love your family shares is so evident, so strong. I pray for each of you, and know that beautiful Jessica is now such a beautiful angel. May your faith continue to guide you through this difficult time.
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:31 AM CDT
We are very saddend by your families loss. Jessica was a true blessing to all of us here on earth and she will be missed by all who knew her. She however will continue to live in our hearts, memories, thoughts and prays. Our families thoughts and prayers go out to Jessica, you and your family in this your time of need. We pray that God will accept Jessica into his loving arms and continue to hold you and yours here on earth as well.
We are truely sorry, God bless.
Brian and Renee Beck and Family <bb02218@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE US - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:25 AM CDT
JESUS SMELLS LIKE COOKIES
So Jesus smells like cookies
Just how do I know that?
T’was told me by a princess
So it has to be a fact!
I learned a special thing that day
That made me warm inside.
A special princess had a dream
Where she and Jesus did abide.
And in her dream-- so she did say
T’was she and Jesus “set to play”
The smell of cookies then filled the air
Not a note of sadness there to share.
What great news this “Heavenly Tale”
From this brave miss- so sweet and frail
A MESSAGE is here for us to LEARN
We must be READY-- when it’s “our turn” !
Jesus will tell us- in his own way
How to be at PEACE- on that “Final Day”!!
Our precious little gal has now gone home
But we all know she is NOT alone
For now she has a job to do
Sharing cookies- with “You Know Who” !!
In memory of Jessica, from cousin Jerry
Moorcroft, WY - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:17 AM CDT
Thinking of you at this sad time, Jessica is now pain free and playing with her angel friends
beth Hughes www.caringbridge.org/vt/megan <bethhughes30@tesco.net>
Croydon, Surrey, UK - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:17 AM CDT
Good Luck and many prayers are with you.
Mark Gilbert
Salt Lake City , Ut United States - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:08 AM CDT
Our prayers are with you all now! Jessica is with her lord and savior free from pain. May God's grace shine upon you now in this time of loss, and I pray that much love, comfort and healing will come from Him for you all.
Linda Moran & Family <moranljm@aol.com>
Chaska , MN US - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:04 AM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. The kissing hand story was beautiful. I will share it with my own children tonight.
I'll be thinking of you.
Lenaya
NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:01 AM CDT
Toni and family, we are so sorry to hear of your loss. Jessica was a beautiful little person that will be missed greatly. Rhonda Lange and family
Rhonda Lange <BLange1@Neb.rr.com>
Lincoln, Ne us - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:56 AM CDT
You must be so proud of having had her in your lives. I´m sorry for your loss.
Fernanda - FOA/RA
Sao Paulo, SP Brazil - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:49 AM CDT
I am so very sorry for your loss. She had a face that just screamed "sparkling personality". I know she will be greatly missed, and not the least by her incredible sister, what wonderful little girls you have. I hate that there is nothing I can do and nothing I can say to help. Just know my prayers are with you.
SJensenArt - using art to fight cancer
http://www.caringbridge.org/or/sandy
Sara <jensenp@spiritone.com>
Sherwood, OR USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:26 AM CDT
My prayers thoughts and prayers are with your family. She is a beautiful Angel watching over all of you. I love the story about the 'Kissing Hand'. My children read that too as they started school and I will always think of Jessica now as we read it to our youngest. She certainly has a wonderful sister.
Kari Z. (Wisconsin Angels) <zfamily00@hotmail.com>
Wauwatosa, WI - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:18 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim and Ardena, I am so very sorry for your loss. You will see your sweet baby girl again one day. Praying for God to comfort you and give you the strength you need. She is now pain free and playing on Heaven's playground.
Love and prayers,
Bridge Of Dreams
Debbie from the Bridge Of Dreams and Friends of Allie/RA <debbie@bridgeofdreams.org>
VA USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:13 AM CDT
So sorry for the loss of your sweet little girl. What an incredible story of two sister's love that will always span the path to heaven and Earth. Blessings and prayers for your family in this difficult time.
Kellie Beresh - Jacob's mom - Jake's Site <scbkab@cox.net>
Omaha, Nebraska - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:13 AM CDT
Toni, Tim, Ardena,
I am so sorry for your loss. Jessica is now at peace. She is pain free and living with Jesus. I am sure Josh welcomed her with open arms and is showing her around. What a very sweet moment Ardena had with Jessica last night. Please know we are thinking of you and praying for you during this difficult time. You know you can call if you need anything at all. I could help with anything you need. Hugs and love to the whole family.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:09 AM CDT
Peace be with you all. We are so sorry and so grateful that you have such caring family and friends. Our hearts go out to you. Cathy, Kirk, Joel and Hannah
Cathy <ckcryer@worldnet.att.net>
WI - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:07 AM CDT
Sorry for your loss. All the best to you during this difficult time.
Robin Brunet <robinb@neptune.on.ca>
Bradford, Ontario Canada - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:07 AM CDT
Know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Mandy
Amanda Bauer <abauer@adamscounty.org>
Hastings, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 11:03 AM CDT
Toni, Tim and Ardena,
Jessica is now forever at peace. You have done a wonderful job of being a loving family to help her transition to heaven. You will forever be in my thoughts and prayers.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:55 AM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss. I came across your web page from Cameron's. I pray that god gives you the strength to get through the days ahead.
Sherri
NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:35 AM CDT
I came across your page through Haley's, and just wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep strong and know that truly God is loving and He will help you through this. I pray for peace and strength for all of you, and especially peace and comfort for Jessica. God Speed. Trudy
Trudy <tstadler@rolla.k12.mo.us>
Rolla, MO - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:18 AM CDT
Toni and family,my heart,thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family at this very difficult time.
Kris <KKUDLACZ@YAHOO.COM>
Omaha, NE USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:56 AM CDT
Our prayers are with you through this difficult time. May you look to God for comfort, and may you feel Jessica's love around you.
The Zitek's
Ulysses, - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:23 AM CDT
I came across your site and I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Those pictures you posted are absolutely beautiful. They are priceless. Praying for peace for all of you.
God Bless You
Pat and Brianna
www.caringbridge.org/tx/briannal.tellez
Pat <ptellez2@excite.com>
- Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:17 AM CDT
I pray for peace for all of you! Toni, you are amazing.
Karen Heusinkvelt <rh50321@alltel.net>
Martell, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 8:49 AM CDT
Thank you for sharing your journey through Caringbridge. I am at awe of your strength as you go through this. Your writings are so beautiful and positive. Jessica is a beautiful child who is blessed to have such a loving family. She feels your unconditional love. I will continue to pray for peace and comfort for all of you. God bless!
Cathy Weber <webercath@juno.com>
Akron, OH - Thursday, April 28, 2005 8:04 AM CDT
There are no words. Today we put aside our own trouble and worries and reamin focused on your family and your spiritual needs. God Bless your entire family. Keep looking up to the Lord, he will carry you thru the challenging days ahead.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Thursday, April 28, 2005 7:46 AM CDT
You're entire family is in my thoughts and especially my prayers.
Renee <reneeb@usxpress.com>
Chattanooga, Tn - Thursday, April 28, 2005 7:00 AM CDT
We happened to drive past the little clown parade on Saturday in my daughter's neighborhood. It looked like fun. The beautiful pictures of Jessica and her loving family are proof of the love and devotion bestowed upon her. Peace and prayers for this difficult time.
Jane B
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:52 AM CDT
All of your family is in our prayers tonight thru this difficult time. We send our love to you and pray for strength for all of you in the days ahead. Love Richard and Joanne
Joanne <rlvv @hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:09 PM CDT
Hi Jessica and the rest of the Hindman family! I'm one of your cousin Katie's friends. I hope that peace is with you.
Emily Rose Rodgers
Pullman, WA USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 9:53 PM CDT
There is no doubt that Jessica can feel your love. I am praying for Jessica and that God give your family the strength you need. Jessica will always have a place in my family's hearts. Cris Berry (Skylar's grammy)
Cris Berry <cris1966@cox.net>
Omaha, Ne - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 9:51 PM CDT
Thank you for the new pictures, Toni. They are priceless. And thank you for your frequent updates. You are amazing. Love and prayers, Darby
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 9:51 PM CDT
I also am a stranger to you and received your info via Haley's website. We are great friends of the Matthews family in NC whose daughter Makala was diagnosed with a Wilms tumor last year. She is doing well now and is receiving treatments. I will surely remember your family in my prayers. Just remember God will never leave you, even in the most difficult times of our lives He will carry us through.
Anne Keene <abkeene@cox.net>
Greenville, NC USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:44 PM CDT
Tim, Toni, Ardena, Jessica,
Thinking of you and praying for all of you.
In God's Love,
Mike and Barb
Mike and Barb Langley
Cambridge, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:08 PM CDT
When your spirit is overwhelmed do not loose heart but believe. Stand strong do not be afraid; for the Lord is with you. May the peace of God embrace your hearts providing peace in the days ahead.
Donita Kemmerer <dkemmerer@usxpress.com>
Friend, Ne Saline - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 5:02 PM CDT
I LOVE LITTLE JESSICA SHE IS SO WOUNDERFUL. I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO READ YOUR WEB SITE BECAUSE OF MY OWN FEARS FOR MY SON. YOU ARE VERY STRONG AND GOD KNOWS JESSICAS HEART VERY WELL. HE WILL TAKE ESPECIALLY GOOD CARE OF HER. AS HE DOES WITH ALL THESE CHILDREN WHO HAVENT MADE THE FIGHT. AGAIN I WISH I WROTE YOU MORE, BUT WE HAVE ALWAYS PRAYED FOR YOUR FAMILY ESPECIALLY NOW. PLEASE KNOW ARE PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU DURING THIS TIME.
kelly voorvart ,skylar berry,adam walsh <dudeslady@msn.com>
omaha, ne - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4:42 PM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Deanna Dredge <ddredge3@cox.net>
Omaha, NE United States - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4:41 PM CDT
Hi my name is Wendy Bales my husband Tony works for Coram Healthcare and asked me to visit your page he works in the warehouse. I will pray that God will comfort you during the time in your life. I know your daughter has touch my husband. God Bless you and your family.
Wendy Bales <Chocdrop31@netscape.com>
Glenwood, Ia usa - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4:30 PM CDT
Dear Hindmans, our thoughts are with you, and we wish Jessica a very peaceful and easy transition. Peace to you all.
Leah & Brad
Leah Hayes <leahksh@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, Ne USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4:07 PM CDT
I will pray for you and for Jessica. I too learned of Jessica through Haley's page, which I started monitoring when my friend Jordan Mumma was diagnosed with Wilm's Tumor. I struggle with understanding why these children must go through this pain. I hope God brings you comfort.
Lynne in Missouri <lynne@rollanet.org>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:51 PM CDT
Our thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless.
Rick & Stephanie Hestermann & Family <rshestermann@alltel.net>
Eagle, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:19 PM CDT
Dear Toni and Tim,
I do not know you, but I found your story from a link on Haley's page. I was made aware of her story from a group called Raise Awareness and have been following it for some time. Please know that you have one more person who is keeping your entire family in their prayers. I will continue to pray for peace for all of you during this difficult time. God bless you all!
Amy <hskrfans04@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:17 PM CDT
Toni and Tim
I am praying that Jesus will send a special Angel for Jessica..One that will comfort her so that she can go to Heaven with peace. I pray that you too can have a peace knowing that your beautiful Angel is no longer being tormented by this beast...I pray that Ardena can adjust to the things to come and continue to be a spirited, happy young girl....I am praying for you daily.
Paula P. Watts <paula.watts@talk21.com>
Mangham, la - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:01 PM CDT
I am an employee at Coram who has heard Jessica's story second hand. I have not met any of you, but believe me when I say you have grabbed a hold of my heart! I cannot express any emotions that you have not heard or felt a thousand times over. I am the single mother of a 4yr. old little girl who is the light of my life. As a mother I truly feel for you. I saw the pictures on your webpage and read the journaling and cried my eyes out! Not that my words will be of any more comfort, but please know that there is another heart and soul out here praying continuosly for peace for your family. If you feel like you could use an extra friend to talk to or just to listen, please feel free to call me anytime. God Bless you and your family! Kendra
Kendra Sciford <Sweetbooni@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 2:11 PM CDT
Your love and committment to little Jessica is amazing! I have a 7 yr. old neice with cancer so I know a little of your pain. I will pray for your family daily. I pray for peace and healing for you all. I am so sorry your family is going through such a traumatic time. May God surround you with is love, strength and comfort.
wynona eason <wynona.eason@vdh.virginia.gov>
Burkeville, VA USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:48 PM CDT
We're thinking of you continually. The photos of the Hindmans together, Jessica's calf, swinging, the clown parade, and the others are wonderful. Stay strong.
cousins: Faye, Jerry, Justin Gaskin <fayeg@vcn.com>
Moorcroft, WY - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:46 PM CDT
To the Hindman Family - I'm so very sorry to hear about your daughter's health condition. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless.
Joan Danitschek (friend of Laura deNoyelles) <catnshock@aol.com>
Wichita, KS USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:28 PM CDT
Hindman family-I'm so sorry to hear about Jessica's condition. My thoughts and prayers are with you all at this time.
Abby (Children's)
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:06 PM CDT
Thinking of you often. Stay strong. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sandy Strizek (Jill's aunt)
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:04 PM CDT
What wonderful photos! That smile on the swing! And we love seeing Delmer and Florence, and Tony and Sam.
Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you today. Katie's first question as she walked in the door from school yesterday was, "How's Jessie?"
All our love...
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Blanks Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1:01 PM CDT
God will lead you thru this journey. You and your family are truly amazing people.
Mark
Atlanta, Ga - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 12:46 AM CDT
Prayers for peace for Jessica and strength & peace for the entire family.
Donita From
Roca, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 12:33 AM CDT
Just stopping by to check up! You are so strong, so brave! Our prayers are with you and your family!
www.caringbridge.org/canada/matthew.
Nicole Epp <nikepp@hotmail.com>
Fiske, Sk Canada - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:15 AM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are with you Toni, Tim, Ardena and Jessica. I hope Jessica is able to be comfortable and at peace.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:14 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim, Adena, and Jessica,
We met you in Valparaiso at the party for Jill Zulovich. Jessica is such a beautiful little girl. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We will pray daily that Jessica is peaceful and God is with you every step of the way.
Love - Kristin, Doug, Brooklyn and Seth Bohac
Kristin <kdbohac@charter.net>
Wahoo, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 10:31 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim, Adena and Jessica,
I am so saddened to hear about Jessica's discomfort, my prayers are with your family.
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 10:00 AM CDT
Toni, your family is my every thought and prayer today. If Jessica has to leave us here I pray that she goes peacefully. I also pray that you will find the strength you need. I'm crying with you.
Love Shelli
Shelli Miller http://www3.caringbridge.org/ne/emmamiller/ <shellimm@msn.com>
Fremont, NE - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 10:00 AM CDT
May God be with your family. You are in my thoughts daily.
Marlane Fox (Grandma to Matthew Epp, Wilms Tumor Child) <fox2@shaw.ca>
Saskatoon, SK Canada - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 9:18 AM CDT
Toni, Jessica, Tim, Ardena and the whole family ... I'm praying for you all that this time will be peaceful. I've never met Jessica but she sure is a precious child and in my thoughts daily. I love you all.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:48 AM CDT
We are praying for strength and peace for all of you. Know that we are feeling your pain, you are not alone.
Laura deNoyelles <jldeno@att.net>
Wichita , KS USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:36 AM CDT
The prayers of me and my family are with you during this difficult time. I am praying for two things. First that there will be a miracle done and Jessica can be totally healed, but secondly the Lords will be done and if he choses to take Jessica into His Kingdom, that it will be quickly without pain and suffering.
David Daniel and family <rhondavid@yahoo.com>
Birmingham, Al USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:32 AM CDT
God bless all of you. You all are in my prayers.
Cathy Weber <webercath@juno.com>
Akron, OH - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:01 AM CDT
Your are an awesome, awesome family and have done so much for Jessica! I can not EVEN imagine what this road is like for you. Thank you for sharing a piece of this journey with us. You are in my prayers.
Becky Lindsay RN-Hospice Bereavement <beckyl@tabitha.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 7:48 AM CDT
Thanks for the update. You are so faithful in keeping us updated. I keep wondering how can this possibly be happening? I thought Jessica and Jill were perfectly FINE in Feb. when we were together. You don't know how many times I had to reread your entry saying she relapsed. I kept thinking that I couldn't have possibly read it right.
Hang in there. I know that's easier said than done.
Joyce Zulovich www.caringbridge.org/mo/jillsjourney <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 7:14 AM CDT
I will pray for Jessica & that Jesus is with her soon. I am so very sorry her pain, your pain....a pain unbearable. Love & prayers,
Kerin Hentz(friend of Joyce)
Kerin Hentz caringbridge.com/ky/louie <kerin.hentz@fmr.com>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 6:45 AM CDT
Beautiful Jessica,
You are so loved by so many people. I am praying for you and especially your mommy, daddy, sister and all of your family. You are so very strong and brave!
Lindsay (from Children's)
Lindsay Jenkins <linzy_jenkins@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:06 AM CDT
Jessica and Family,
Your journal entry brought tears to my eyes! What an amazing little girl you have been blessed with. We send love and prayers to your babygirl and family from Bigfork, MT. We ask that the lord cradle your little girls in his arms. It sounds like Jessica is quite the fighter, and that she has an amazing sister and family pulling for her every step of the way.
God Bless- Chloe Moore
www.caringbridge.com/mt/ellieanna
Chloe Moore <teamellieanna@hotmail.com>
Bigfork, MT - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 3:03 AM CDT
Dear little Jessica
You sound so loving and beautiful to your wonderful family.
Hoping you have more loves and hugs with your mummy and daddy sweet girl.
Love Colleen - Kaitlyn's mum
www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn
Colleen <ozi_gal@hotmail.com>
Beverley, WA Australia - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 10:56 PM CDT
Jessica and your family are in my prayers. You are all showing so much love and strengh at such a hard time. Cris Berry (Skylar's grammy)caringbridge.org/ne/skylarberry
Cris Berry <cris1966@cox.net>
Omaha, Ne - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 5:55 PM CDT
Jessica, Your family is so blessed to have been able to share your life! May Jesus continue to hold you in His loving arms and comfort you thru your pain. You and your family are in my prayers.
Liz Monaghan <monaghane@ctt.com>
Chaska, MN USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 5:48 PM CDT
Toni,
What a wonderful entry. I am so glad you are having lots of great moments with Jessica. It is great she wanted to talk to everyone and express her feelings to all. These will be very precious moments that will help everyone in the future.
Toni thanks so much for calling the other day. It was wonderful to talk to you. Please call again any time you need. Please know we think of you and your family everyday and are praying for pain free days for Jessica. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 4:41 PM CDT
Thanks for the update. Know that you are in our constant thoughts and prayers. God has everything under control and knows the big plan for your family but I know in the meantime things are hard. Take care.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 4:21 PM CDT
Sometimes Love can last a Moment
Sometimes Love can last a Lifetime
Sometimes a Moment is a Lifetime
* * * * * * * * * *
Enjoy your lifetimes with Jessica. Each one is so very precious and special. Thank you for sharing this journey with those of us who read and cry, trying to somehow take pieces of pain away from your dear, sweet family. May God truly bless you.
Katie Rose the Clown <Kbrrico@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 12:59 AM CDT
May God bless you and protect you. Prayers are headed your way. I bet you make a lovely princess.
Julie B.
- Tuesday, April 26, 2005 12:06 AM CDT
We got your web site from Heidi & Jon Johnston and wanted you to know we are praying that God holds you in His arms during this very difficult time and pray he will continue to give you strength, wisdom and courage to deal with all of this. Blessings to you and your family.
Linda Moran & Family <moranljm@aol.com>
Chaska , MN - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 10:54 AM CDT
We got your website info from the Van Velsons. We are praying for you.
Dale and Sheila Johnson <sheila_johnson@gps.esu16.org>
Brule, NE US - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 10:38 AM CDT
Received your website through Haley's site. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Donita, Brad, Rosten & Sammy From
Roca, NE USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 9:08 AM CDT
Jessica,
You will truly be the prettiest princess in heaven!
Jeremy
Wichita, KS - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 6:57 AM CDT
Hello! my name is Judy. Thanks to Haley's mom, I got to view your page. What a strong little girl you have! I will keep her in my prayer. LiveStrong!!! Judy
Judy <Jleannp@hotmail.com>
Waite park, mn USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 0:18 AM CDT
There is a billboard sign I pass by everyday that says it all, "THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE AREN'T THINGS"...I feel this is so true. Your love and courage is more powerful than anything else, your family is in my prayers and thoughts.
(I am the niece of Charleen Kimberly)
Christina Running Hawk <runninghawk77@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 11:07 PM CDT
Hi, I am a cousin of Joyce Zulovich and I met you back in February at Jill's get-together in Valparaiso and my brother-in-law is John Scully. I just wanted to let you know I will be thinking and praying for you and your family in this very difficult time. I hope and pray Jessica has more good days than bad in the future. Take care.
Tonya Brown
Tonya Brown <jetobro@hotmail.com>
Raymond, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 11:07 PM CDT
I can not even begin to imagine what you are going through! I checked out your page at the suggestion of Haley's mom. I have read your journal entries and wonder where you get the strength. I think about you often and check your site for updates. After reading your pages and seeing your photos, I feel as if I know you. It is so nice of you to open your hearts and home to let so many people in. I hope you have many good moments! My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sput Turnbull <mk91101@alltel.net>
Pawnee City, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 8:50 PM CDT
You guys are such a beautiful family. From our family to yours comes prayers for strength, healing, and courage for you all. This mother's heart cries out for you all.
Sherry, Justin, and Whitney Jones <lois951@cs.com>
Gainesville, FL US - Monday, April 25, 2005 6:09 PM CDT
What can words say? Just cherish every moment that you have with Jessica. Make many new memories. Love and hold her every chance you get. The Lord and all his Angels are there to comfort you and your family. I know what you are going through. Last June I lost a grandson to this disease. It has been a terrible year, but with the Lord's help we have made it through. Lean on him. I'll be praying.
Cheryl Renner (Mam-Maw to Angel Alex at caringbridge.org/pa/alexp) <rennerg7@AOL.com>
N. Huntingdon, PA - Monday, April 25, 2005 6:04 PM CDT
We're so glad you have your family gathered, wish we could be there as well, but we are sending all of love and prayers your way. Thinking of you, Love, Cousin Jane and Aunt Bette
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, Tx - Monday, April 25, 2005 4:05 PM CDT
I send many prayers toward your way for the entire family. My 47-year old father got diagnosed with cancer last year and has had a lot of treatments. I can understand some of the feelings that you are experiencing. Live each day to the fullest and appreciate the time that we have all been given to know and love each other during this time on earth. You are in my prayers and I wish you only the best with every obstacle that comes your way. Take care of each other!
Tonya B. <tonyakaczor@hotmail.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 3:44 PM CDT
You guys are doing everything right. Jessica and Ardena are fortunate to be in such a loving family! You are in our thoughts and prayers and songs. Love from Wisconsin, Cathy & crew
Cathy
Madison, WI - Monday, April 25, 2005 2:56 PM CDT
Toni, Our heart and prayers continue to go out to Jessica and to your family. Bless your sweet girls.
Love Becky Ben Owen and Miriam Duncan
Becky Duncan <ne-duncans@worldnet.att.net>
Fargo, ND Cass - Monday, April 25, 2005 2:47 PM CDT
Jessica: We pray for you and your family everyday. I am glad that you got such a nice award, you have earned it. You'r an inspiration.
Floyd Adams <floydsa2@charter.net>
Ogallala, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 2:02 PM CDT
Jessica, The kids at St. Mary School in Newton have been praying for you.
Kristina and Alex <dewy3@cox.net>
Newton, KS USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 12:44 AM CDT
We think about you every day, Jessica.
Donna, Charles, Kristina, Alex <dewy3@cox.net>
Newton, KS USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 12:42 AM CDT
Hey there Jessica, it deeply saddens me to hear about all of your new struggles, you make a great a pretty princess. You are a fighter, keep it up. Make sure to love up your sister, mommy and daddy and that grandma of yours. Love you lots, Rochelle RN(5MS Childrens Hospital)
Rochelle Bangtson <rlbangtson@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, April 25, 2005 12:10 AM CDT
Jessica you make a wonderful princess!
Ardena you must have shown her how and to be so gracious to share your clock makes you a very special princess too!
Ethan and Noah
Kendrea Fackler <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 9:28 AM CDT
Just heard about your site from Haley's mom. Just wanted to say my family and I will be praying for you and your family.
David Daniel Family <rhondavid@yahoo.com>
Birmingham, Al USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 9:25 AM CDT
Hi Jessica,
Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and your family. I also wanted to let you know that our family is praying for you to find the strength to get through this.
Rachelle <rrknothe@yahoo.com>
Fairbury, NE USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 11:16 PM CDT
Jessica,
My thoughts and prayers are with you. My daddy was the clown that led you on your parade. I know that you have touched my parents, and now you story touches me. God bless you.
Heidi Merritt <hmerritt@cableone.net>
Norfolk, NE USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 9:29 PM CDT
Hi, I'm a friend of Haley Mathis's and I wanted to let you know i will pray for you. Hope you get to feeling well Jessica.
Laura
- Sunday, April 24, 2005 8:35 PM CDT
This is my first time on your site. I also have a child with cancer, wilms tumor X 3 relapses, and we are also at the point of being able to do nothing medically for him. We are choosing "quality of life" at this point also, and enjoying every single moment we all have together, as you so understand!! I will stay in touch, and our prayers go out to you and your family!
Nicole
www.caringbridge.org/canada/matthew
Nicole Epp <nikepp@hotmail.com>
Fiske, Sk Canada - Sunday, April 24, 2005 6:32 PM CDT
Hi Jessica! Hi Toni! Hi Ardena and Tim! You all continue to be in my prayers. May Our Lord bless each of you abundantly! I had my stem cell transplant and am doing well. I am offering it all up for the your family. You are shining stars of faith, hope and love! I am so glad Jesus smells like cookies -YUM!
Peg Ricketts <pegricketts@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 6:09 PM CDT
Hi Jessica, I know you don't know me but I was reading Haley's web page and she mentioned you so I had to let you know that we are praying for you also. Haley is a sweet girl and is fighting hard to win this battle. I hope you are fighting too. Life is good. Love and prayers Ardi form Panama
Ardi Kempkes <ardikempkes@aol.com>
Panama, Ne USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 8:03 AM CDT
Dear sweet family,
I came here from Haley's site, and have read the last few weeks of your entries. I will surely be praying for your whole family. I'm so sorry for all you are going through. I pray that God will give you the grace you need to bear the unbearable. I'm so thankful that Jesus has been visiting Jessica in her dreams. Isn't it just like Him to smell like cookies! He is so cool and so good. We truly have no idea just how wonderful He is and how wonderful it will be to be with Him. What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear. No one ever cared for us like Jesus. There's no other friend so kind as He. He loves all of us more that we will ever comprehend. He will see you through the pain. You're so right to be remembering His suffering and death. It was all for us. He loved us so much that He paid the price for our redemption. He endured the cross so that we could be His friend and become children of God. He will always take care of Jessica. When the days are dark and too hard to handle, always go back to what you know is true. Jesus loves you. Jesus is with you. He will see you through. For I am convinced that nothing can separate us from the love of God. Neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor pricipalities, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38,39
Carol Hansen <mcldj@alltel.net>
LIncoln, NE - Sunday, April 24, 2005 1:00 AM CDT
Hi Jessica and family,
Just wanted to drop by to say I'm praying for you all. May God grant you the strength you need. Keep believing!
http://www2.caringbridge.org/la/jordanamato/
Susan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
covington, L 70433 - Saturday, April 23, 2005 7:49 PM CDT
We will be remembering you in our prayers. God Bless you all.
Harley and Merileen Einspahr <harley@atcjet.net>
Farnam, NE USA - Saturday, April 23, 2005 7:06 PM CDT
Patty Mathis told us about your site. Just wanted to stop by and tell you that your family is in our prayers. Be strong and trust in God. God Bless You All!!!
Robin Rosenboom <Boomers6@aol.com>
Panama, NE - Saturday, April 23, 2005 7:00 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
I was told by Haley Mathis' mom Patty to check out your page and to add you to our prayer list. You and your family can count on our prayers. Enjoy the time you have and remember God is there with you even though you don't always feel him.
Pam Pella <CSmomof3@AOL.com>
Hickman, NE United States - Saturday, April 23, 2005 2:12 PM CDT
I am so sorry you have to go through this. God's plans are not so easy are they? My heart aches for you. Continue to seek Christ for your strength and peace. We will pray for you. Camie caringbridge/az/addy
camie <cride1629@yahoo.com>
phoenix, az usa - Saturday, April 23, 2005 10:51 AM CDT
Schuyler's dad, Mike, asked us to pray for you. You don't know me but that doesn't matter...I grieve for you deeply. I'm sure the doctors have told you not to take Jessica's rages personally. If she could change her behavior, she would. If it makes you feel any better, I was told this week by my 10-year old daughter, Maggie, that I'm the "stupidest" mom in the world. So get in line behind me! You and your entire family are in my prayers. God is in control. Turn to Him for all of your needs and pray without ceasing!
Karen Heusinkvelt <rh50321@alltel.net>
Martell, NE - Saturday, April 23, 2005 8:46 AM CDT
Jessica, We are glad you felt like going to the zoo.
Having a wonderful support system will get you thru the upcoming days. Hang in there. God has everything under control.
Joyce <stjudmom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Saturday, April 23, 2005 7:26 AM CDT
jUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW YOU ARE CONSTANTLY IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU. PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I CAN HELP (402)720-0990...I LOVE YOU - 'GOD WILL GIVE HIS ANGELS CHARGE OF US TO GUARD US IN ALL OUR WAYS.' PSALM 91:11
SANDY DREYER <SANDY_DREYER@HOTMAIL.COM>
SCRIBNER, NE USA - Friday, April 22, 2005 10:57 PM CDT
Sending strength & prayers your way. Your love and faith will guide you through.
Take Care,
Amy Ness http://www3.caringbridge.org/nd/zacharyness/index.htm <siouxfan2001@gra.midco.net>
- Friday, April 22, 2005 9:53 PM CDT
Jessica,
You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
May God Bless
Sheena & Gabrielle
www.caringbridge.org/la/gabbylou
Sheena <sheenajennings@hotmail.com>
Port Barre, LA USa - Friday, April 22, 2005 9:32 PM CDT
Jessica,
You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
May God Bless
Sheena & Gabrielle
www.caringbridge.org/la/gabbylou
Sheena <sheenajennings@hotmail.com>
Port Barre, LA USa - Friday, April 22, 2005 9:32 PM CDT
Jessica,
You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
May God Bless
Sheena & Gabrielle
www.caringbridge.org/la/gabbylou
Sheena <sheenajennings@hotmail.com>
Port Barre, LA USa - Friday, April 22, 2005 9:32 PM CDT
Jessica- You are such a sweetie! My prayers are with you and your family!
Emily Laub (friend of Jordan- www.caringbridge.org/mo/jordanmumma) <ealhbf@umkc.edu>
Kansas City, MO U.S. - Friday, April 22, 2005 9:26 PM CDT
Dear, Toni, Tim, Ardena, and Sweet Jessica,
We just finished reading your last entry, we wish all the prayers and love could make it different but we must trust in God's plan for Jessica. Let your faith in the Lord help you through this difficult time.
Love, Aunt Bette and Gary, Jane and Chad and Family
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, Tx - Friday, April 22, 2005 5:07 PM CDT
It is inspiring to read about the strength that you all have is amazing. I admire your family and your faith in the Lord. The story about her dream has helped me reestablish my faith in him. Thank you for sharing your struggle with us. It truly has inspired me.
anonymos
anoanymys, anonmys anonymys - Friday, April 22, 2005 1:56 PM CDT
My thoughts and prayers have and will always be with you and your family through this rough time. You are a brave and strong little girl....just remember God loves YOU!!!
Kori Brennemann <kori.brennemann@duncanaviation.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, April 22, 2005 1:21 PM CDT
Love the new photos, Toni. I am so glad your Mom is there with you. I can't believe all Jessica's hair! Love and prayers, Darby
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Friday, April 22, 2005 11:41 AM CDT
Jessica, I hope you feel better today. I am the woman who helped with your lunch on the airplane. That was a lot of fun!! I had heard that you weren't feeling very good lately, and I wanted to let you know that we are thinking of you and praying for you here at Duncan Aviation!!
Stacy <Stacy.Mousel@duncanaviation.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, April 22, 2005 9:47 AM CDT
Toni,
Thank you for keep us updating on all these special moments. Your strength is amazing to us. You are all in our prayers.
The deNoyelles Family
Jeremy deNoyelles <jld8996@yahoo.com>
Wichita, KS - Friday, April 22, 2005 7:04 AM CDT
I pray for you all!
Rachel Negley <rnegley@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, NE USA - Friday, April 22, 2005 0:58 AM CDT
Wanting to send extra prayers for Jessica to be comfortable tonight. Haley & Hanna sais extra prayers tonight for her. We were Happy to hear that she had a good time receiving her medal:) Keep smilin sweet girl
Lots of Love
The Mathis family
www.caringbridge.org/ne/haleygirl
Patti <www.haleym10@alltel.net>
Panama, Ne - Friday, April 22, 2005 0:12 AM CDT
Hi Toni, Hey Tim,
Back in the Boeing days (1981-1989), my faith and spirituality took me to places unimaginable.
I remember feeling helpless when daughter Alice was being treated for haemophilus influenza; the odds seemed hopeless. Linda and I grew stronger in our marriage.
I sense that you are both aware of the gifts you have in each other. God moves in mysterious ways.
Your family is a perfect example of unconditional love. Bless you and Dena for sharing your home with Jessica.
Dan
Dan Zeorlin <zeorlin@everestkc.net>
Overland Park, Ks United States of America - Thursday, April 21, 2005 10:38 PM CDT
Toni, Tim, Ardena, Jessica... Thank you both Tim and Toni for the updates. We have you all in our thoughts and prayers. You are such a strong family. What an honor Jessica had today. The pictures show how proud you are of Jessica and the love in your hearts for her. May you all continue to be great support for one another. Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 10:22 PM CDT
Thanks for the updated pictures. You are all HEROES in my book. Keep your faith and keep looking up to God. He will guide you and provide for you in these dark days.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Thursday, April 21, 2005 9:58 PM CDT
You all are constantly in our thoughts and prayers. You are all so strong and I admire each & every one of you!
Please let me know of anything that I can do to help!
The Boesiger Family (Wayne, Cori, Karissa & Kyra) <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, ne 68512 - Thursday, April 21, 2005 6:11 PM CDT
To the family and friends of Jessica,
My heartfelt prayers are with you and Jessica through these very difficult times. I know each day is precious to you but I'm sure that Jessica is surrounded by so much love and care. As a friend of Karen Erb, I have been aware of Jessica's long journey. I will also say a special prayer for Ardena as she struggles with her own pain and sadness.
Diane Centner
Tinley Park, IL USA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 2:18 PM CDT
Jessie, Dena, Toni and Tim:
You're all in our thoughts and prayers. Glad Jessie had a good time getting her well-deserved medal today.
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Blanks Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 2:06 PM CDT
I just wanted to let you know that I will continue to keep Jessica and your entire family in my thoughts and prayers. It was a great pleasure taking care of Jessica when she was at Nebraska Medical Center. You are a very lucky family to be so close and share such a loving committment to each other. Best wishes for strength and peace.
Jason C. Schultz, M3 <jcschult@unmc.edu>
Omaha, NE USA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 12:55 AM CDT
Tim and Toni and family,
Our thoughts are with you and your family.
God Bless.
Alan Weeder <alan.weeder@twtelecom.com>
Englewood, CO - Thursday, April 21, 2005 12:48 AM CDT
awwww. that's a LOT of medicine! Hang in there!
I just mailed Jessica and Ardena a bunch of stickers... just to warn you in case that's too many choices...
Love Ya!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, CO - Thursday, April 21, 2005 12:29 AM CDT
Toni,
I have often stopped by to get updates, and have constantly kept you all in our prayers. I am glad to hear the meds/advice from the hospice nurse are working. I hope you can continue to create good days for Jessica. You are doing such a great job of providing for your whole family, and the fact that you still have your wonderful sense of humour is remarkable. May the rain soon finish, so you can have more cowboy baths and chalk painting outside!
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 11:23 AM CDT
Your family is in our prayers
Serena Gilbreath <sgilbreath@usxpress.com>
Sherwood, ar 72120 - Thursday, April 21, 2005 11:04 AM CDT
you are in our thoughts and prayers,
The Bauguess Family
Leslie Bauguess <lesbau@msn.com>
Powell Butte , OR Crook - Thursday, April 21, 2005 10:28 AM CDT
Toni, the creativity and humor you continue to show in the face of such gigantic frustrations continues to amaze me. Thank you for continuing to keep us all updated on the extraordinary events of your life. I'm sure you would give about anything right now for a little more ordinaryness, but the Silver Lining seems to be equally as extraordinary. The power of love that has been demonstrated in your life is utterly profound, and through your writings, we are all reminded of its magnificence. Thank you so much.
I loved the yellow chalk drawing of the horse at the end of our sidewalk. I'm sorry the rain washed it away so quickly. My compliments to the artiste. Y'all are welcome to draw on our sidewalk anytime.
Peace be with you,
Leah
Leah Hayes <leahksh@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 21, 2005 9:57 AM CDT
Toni - I just wanted you to know what a wonderful job I feel you are doing with Jessica. The choices you have made, I admire you for. You are such a strong and loving mother. Thankyou for your updates. I think of you and your family often. How you are able to keep your sense of humor in such a trying time is great. I hope the cat doesnt get Jessica's meds either! LOL I hope today is a good day for Jessica.
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE - Thursday, April 21, 2005 9:06 AM CDT
I am so sorry to hear about the turn in Jessie's condition. Please know that I have asked my whole church family to pray for your family's strength and courage during this tremendously difficult time. I can't even imagine what you're all going through; however, please know that all of you will be in my prayers. Keep us posted...
Christie Beck <beck@ohio.edu>
Athens , OH USA - Thursday, April 21, 2005 8:59 AM CDT
I am so very sorry to hear how Jessica is doing and I will have her in my thoughts and dreams....
Leah Boulton <rlbboulton@hotmail.com>
Tallarook, Vic Australia - Thursday, April 21, 2005 7:43 AM CDT
So sorry the news is not better. We have been praying for Jessie and for you for several months.
Sonny and Carol Womack <sonncaro@cox.net>
Wichita, KS USA - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 11:22 PM CDT
Hi Jessica,
I know you don't remember me, but you and your Mommy and Daddy used to walk by my house. Sometimes you would stop and sit on our porch and visit for awhile. You and your sister liked to get in my candy jar. It's still full, so if you are out walking just knock on the door and you can have all you want! I will be praying for you and you family and will hold you my thoughts and close to my heart. Love and hugs always. If I can help in any way I'm only a phone call away........435-8486. Shirley Manthey
Shirley Manthey <Shirls01@cs.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 10:28 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
I want you to know that I keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you can have more good hours and minutes to spend with those that love you the most!
Gos bless you and those that surround you.
walter horn <walter.horn@wichita.edu>
wichita, ks usa - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 9:35 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
My name is Charleen and I work with your Aunt Carol. I just wanted you all to know that I'm thinking about you and saying many prayers for all of you.
Charleen Kimberly <ckimberly1@alltel.net>
York, NE 68467 - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 8:02 PM CDT
Hi Jessica and Family! Just thought i'd let you know that I miss seeing all of you. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Give Jessie and Ardena a big hug and kiss from everyone at Children's!! God Bless
Jacqulyn Kellberg <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 3:07 PM CDT
Hi,
My cousin, Rowan, is on this site also. I wanted to stop and write to tell you that I am sending love and healing energy your way. Jessica has such lively eyes. I wish I could split up her cancer and give a piece to everyone that loves her so we could all fight it together. Remember in the difficult hours that many people hold you in their hearts.
Kat Stribling <mademoisellekitten@yahoo.com>
Bellevue , WA USA - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 2:17 PM CDT
Many prayers are sent to you and your family. I'm a relative of the Brecka family. It is a wonder to me how you all handle this heavy burden that has been placed upon you. As I have always admired Greg, Casey, Addie, Cameron and Trevin, I admire you.
Gwen
Lincoln, NE 68516 - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 9:45 AM CDT
Jessica, Ardena, Toni and Tim,
Thanks so much for letting me be there Saturday. It looks like you have a great support group. We're all praying for God's peace for Jessica and his strength for the rest of you. If you need something, just call, anytime. Give Jessica a hug for us.
Mary Boden <mary.boden@hhss.ne.gov>
Hallam, NE USA - Tuesday, April 19, 2005 2:04 PM CDT
I love you all ... lots of prayers and angels are surrounding you. I hope you have a good day.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, April 19, 2005 8:23 AM CDT
Jessica,
Hi, you don't know me, but I am one of Skylar Berry's grandmothers. I remember when he told me how you watched the fireworks together in your room last July 4th. You and your family are in my prayers, always.
Fran Walsh <afewmuscles03@aol.com>
Omaha, Ne - Monday, April 18, 2005 6:24 PM CDT
Hello! Thinking of you all, always.
Love,
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, CO - Monday, April 18, 2005 11:01 AM CDT
Thanks for the update. We continue to pray for your entire family. You are absolutely right; cancer affects the entire FAMILY. That includes grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc. I know Jenny would like to escape the cancer world we now live in.
Our life is simple......simply different now.
Joyce <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Monday, April 18, 2005 9:28 AM CDT
Sending love from Wisconsin! Our whole family has been thinking of you and praying for you all, and sending all our "good vibes" for peaceful, good days for you! I absolutely believe that Jesus smells like cookies. Hugs to everyone from Cathy, Kirk, Joel and Hannah
Cathy
WI - Sunday, April 17, 2005 7:44 AM CDT
Hi there Jessica
Wow, what are you going to do with so many heart candies?
Take care sweet girl.
Love Colleen - Kaitlyn's mum
www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn
Colleen <ozi_gal@hotmail.com>
Beverley, Western Australia Australia - Saturday, April 16, 2005 5:15 AM CDT
SCORE!!! How exciting...14 pounds of candy hearts?!!? Don't eat the white ones. They're yucky. Tell Mommy to put them in a zip-lock. Then when I come to see you, I can take them and get rid of them for you...yeah, don't eat the white ones!!
Take care, Miss Jessie...
Case Brecka - www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@yahoo.com>
Staplehurst, NE - Friday, April 15, 2005 9:15 PM CDT
It has been so long since I have been able to check on anyone other than ourselves, but you have been just a prayer away & not a day goes by that we are thinking of you guys. We hope that Jessica is feeling a little better today & not having so much pain, we pray that you are holding up as good as can be expected & that the Miracle you are awaiting will come your way.
God Bless each of you
Kevin, Patti, Haley & Hanna
www.caringbridge.org/ne/haleygirl
Patti <www.haleym10@alltel.net>
Panama, Ne - Thursday, April 14, 2005 11:38 PM CDT
Hello to all. We were just checking in to see how things have been going for you guys. Your in our thoughts and prayers and we hope that Jessica's pain issues can be resolved so you can enjoy your time together.
Heather and Annette @ Children's <netti53@cox.net>
- Thursday, April 14, 2005 10:49 PM CDT
Hi Tony and Jessica,I was glad I was able to stop up for a short visit while you were upstairs at the med center,I think about you both all the time and always wonder how things are going,please remeber you and your family are always in my prayers.Jessica, you are such a beautiful little girl. Take care all of you.
Kris <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
Omaha, Ne usa - Thursday, April 14, 2005 9:41 PM CDT
Hey there - looking at Air Planes huh - if Jesse would be interested I am sure I could get the ok for her to get a ride in a big truck. If she'd find that interesting at all let me know - bye Sis - W.H.F.U.
UNKA BRIAN <bmcneff@hotmail.com>
LINCOLN, NE LANCASTER - Thursday, April 14, 2005 4:45 PM CDT
We pray for you Jessica and your family!!!
Bill & Rhonda Lange <BLange1@Neb.rr.com>
Lincoln, Ne Lancaster - Thursday, April 14, 2005 5:34 AM CDT
My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Cindy <clatoure@aol.com>
Sonoma, CA USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:32 PM CDT
I am "the woman" with the hearts. They were leftover from a women's retreat last weekend. I believe they were "leftover" b/c God had another use for them. My prayer for you is that God will show you the way through this time in your life. Enjoy the hearts.
Arnette <arnette_garris@thrivent.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 9:47 PM CDT
Hi Toni,
Think of you and you family often. Bob Zingg stopped tonight and was on his way out to see your dad. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Take care,
Doris
Doris Wiest
Brule, NE usa - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 8:30 PM CDT
Hi Toni,
I put a pledge in the mail today...I hope it is not too late. Congrats to Ardena on the great math work. I am really glad to hear Jessica is feeling better. I have not had a chance to check the white valentines candy...I will try to remember tonight!
Best wishes,
Jane Griffin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 3:17 PM CDT
Toni- The woman I work for has a plethera of candy hearts, I will get them to you soon.
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 6:24 PM CDT
Toni,
I am so glad you are home. Nothing is better for Jessica then her family and her own surrounding. I will be praying the pain issue is taken care of for good. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 4:49 PM CDT
Hi Toni...I have a little box of those Valentine hearts you were talking about. I'm not sure how many white ones are in there, but I'm sure there are a few. I'm sorry to hear Jessica is back in the hospital. I hope she will be home soon. God Bless!
Kelly Rainforth <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
- Tuesday, April 12, 2005 2:53 PM CDT
Hello, Today is my first visit to your web page. I am a friend of Camer's mom. You have a beautiful daughter, you will continue to be in my prayers. Have a wonderful week!!
Tami
- Tuesday, April 12, 2005 2:29 PM CDT
So sorry to hear that Jessica had to be admitted. I hope the Dr's at UNMC can give her some relief from her pain and "not feeling right". Thinking of you...
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 12:28 AM CDT
Toni and family,
We made it home safe. It was so wonderful to see you! I am thinking about trying to come back, if I can make it work. I sure liked hanging out with both girls. They are amazing.
I don't know if I got to tell you Toni and Tim, Jessica told me that Saturday night was perfect, another "birthday"
party, when we went on our walk, and she was so happy and having a great time, and the weather was perfect and the wind high in the trees was perfect.
She is right, it really was great and perfect. Thank you for having us.
Much love!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 11:35 AM CDT
Jessica you are a very special little girl, in having those special dreams of Jesus and sharing them with everyone you know gives us an insight that only a child can express so beautifully. Joining Jesus is a joyous peaceful occasion, unfortunately for those of us that will not be joining Jesus until later in life, will miss those that go sooner.
Toni, I feel blessed that you have been able to share all this with your friends, to make us realize how precious life really is and that a child is a blessing not a burden. I'm sorry this is painful to you and your family I wish I could take that away from you all. I love you all so much I wish I could be there to give you a big hug. Know in your heart that I am with you in spirit.
Kathy fink <Katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 9:06 AM CDT
Hi, You are an exceptional writter and have an exceptional daughter. I can never get my thoughts into words like that. I'm so happy that Jessica thinks that Jesus smells good. I read that another child thought he smelled like chocolate. I'm so happy that she is comfortable with the garden. Bless your little one. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Ellen
http://www.caringbridge.org/ma/seanhanson
Ellen Hanson <ehanson89@aol.com>
Cape Cod, Ma USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 11:31 PM CDT
Toni and family, we are so sorry to hear of the update on Jessicas condition. Please know that we are praying for each and everyone of you. Rhonda Lange and family.
Rhonda Lange <BLange1@Neb.rr.com>
lincoln, ne us - Monday, April 11, 2005 10:50 PM CDT
Dear Toni and Tim,
May God grant Jessica some relief of pain and give you all some peace in your hearts at this time. You are so dear to Him and I pray everyday that you don't ever forget that. God Bless Ardena for having such a big heart and doing what she can to help others. She's a blessing. Thank you for your thoughts on the webpage, I know it's hard to talk about it, but I'm here if you need a soft place to fall.
We love you.
The Fackler Family
Kendrea <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 9:31 PM CDT
Toni,
I am so sorry Jessica had to be admitted. Hopefully they can get the meds worked out so she has no pain. She has been through so much. She should not have to deal with pain. I always felt so helpless when I could not help Josh feel better. I will be saying prayers for the pain to go away and Jessica to be home very soon. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, April 11, 2005 3:46 PM CDT
I know how you are feeling I have a son that had ALL. Thanks God he is doing fine. I will pray for comfort for both your family and Jessica. When my son was sick and he wanted to do something if it was at all possible I made it happen. Have you contacted Make a Wish. They were great with us, also Stop Children Cancer. They helped me so much with the expenses.
Addie Pons mother of Steven Stariling
Gainesville , Florida USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 10:30 AM CDT
Toni,
My heart is breaking for you and your family. I want you to know that we are here for all of you whenever you need us. I hope you realize how wonderful you and Tim have been for Jessica. Throughout all of this, you have kept your focus on her, what is best for her, what makes her happy. Even though this is not the news you had hoped for, I think you should be comforted knowing you've done everything you can to give her a wonderful life. She is truly blessed to have you as her parents. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless.
Kandi Dion
Lincoln, NE - Monday, April 11, 2005 9:32 AM CDT
Toni,
Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and your family today. I hope the weather clears up soon so that the girls can get out and enjoy some nice sunshine. I think of you often and wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. You are an amazing woman and Jessica is such a insightful little girl. I love to hear her "connection" with Jesus. I know that must be comforting to you.
Sending lots of Love and Prayers your way,
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE 69166 - Monday, April 11, 2005 8:08 AM CDT
I am so very, very sorry that your sweet girl relapsed. I won't pretend to know what you're going through. Instead, I'll just say thank you so very much for sharing your story. Your journal entries help me to see the realness of our most Awesome Lord Jesus Christ. May he continue to grant you much grace, strength and peace as you go through your journey.
Huge Hugs!
Jean, Dianna and Sofia Lavidalie <ddlavidalie@aol.com>
Laplace, LA USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 11:25 PM CDT
Toni, I wanted to let you know that I think you are an amazing woman. My father-in-law passed away from cancer a few years ago, and as hard as it was, I have to say it was so nice to be able to cherish every moment spent with him and we all got to tell him how much we loved him. We had no regrets. Jessica is such a beautiful child, and I think it is so wonderful that she talks about Jesus and how she already knows him! I can't even begin to know how you feel, but please know we are praying for you. All my love, Darby
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, April 10, 2005 8:57 PM CDT
I love that Jessica thinks Jesus smells like cookies! I bet Jesus does smell like cookies or anything else that takes the fear away from our children...
Blessings...
Angel Michaela's Mom Kim Mease ~ http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/michaelaann <knikdan@comcast.net>
Lancaster, Pa USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 1:05 PM CDT
toni,
i read your journal entry this morning and i felt as if i were reading my own journal entries. i know the feeling of despair. i know the feeling of near collapse. i think to myself, what can i do? how can i help you? i don't know. i know that this is not fair - life itself is not fair. but i also know that jessie is a pretty special little girl. a little girl who was hand picked by god himself to accomplish a task far greater than anything we could ever plan. a task that would teach others, help others, and encourage others. and through jessie's day to day suffering, god is glorified. he's glorified by her courage, by her smile, and by her desire to fight. the beautiful thing is she's seen the face of jesus. she knows the power of his love and she's not afraid.
as a parent, there is nothing more terrifying than to know you're losing your child. the beauty in the horror is knowing your child will be living in the light of jesus EVERYDAY. yes, there are days that are filled with anger and it's a battle to find joy and to that, i have no advice. it's hard.
my heart is aching today. i'm angry because i don't understand. i'm hurting because i miss my son. i'm hurting because i do not want another family to endure the pain of losing a child. yet through my tears i can smile. i can smile because i have the memories of halloween. i have the memories of following two little ones running through the halls, giggling. memories of two little ones sitting on the floor playing. i also have the promise of christ and i know he's true and i know he's real. i have christ's word at my fingertips anytime i need it.
i'm not sure there's one thing i can say that will give you comfort. please just know i'm one phone call and 40 miles away and i would be there in a heartbeat to help you in any way i could. please don't hesitate to call, ever.
case brecka <cbrecka@alltel.net>
- Sunday, April 10, 2005 8:34 AM CDT
Dear Jessica and family,
I don't know where to start. I'm so sorry you are facing this terrible news.
Jessica won't be far from my thoughts.
Love and best wishes always.
Colleen - Kaitlyn's mum
www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn
Colleen <ozi_gal@hotmail.com>
Beverley, WA Australia - Sunday, April 10, 2005 7:16 AM CDT
Jessica and family
We just returned from Molly's MAW trip to Disney World and read of your very unfortunate news. That is news that a parent of a child with cancer NEVER wants to hear. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Prayers that the doctors can find an answer, strength for your family, and that Jessica continues to feel well without alot of pain. Livestrong, Jessica and family!!!!
The Lamberts (mollylambert.net)
Tim and Kerrie Lambert <klambert@esu8.org>
Chambers, NE - Saturday, April 9, 2005 10:55 AM CDT
Sending Big Hugs your way today & hope that the pain is uncontrol at this point.
Lots of Hugs & Prayers for each of you
The Mathis family
www.caringbridge.org/ne/haleygirl
Patti <www.haleym10@alltel.net>
Panama, Ne - Friday, April 8, 2005 2:13 PM CDT
Hi Toni,
WOW, how can I top the entry before this one. What a great poem. Toni, I just wanted to stop by and let you know how much I have been thinking of you, Jessica and your family this past week. My heart is breaking for all of you. I sure hope the doctors find some kind of treatment that will help Jessica. I am so glad she is feeling fairly well. Toni, please know we are praying for you all every day. I will give you a call soon, but know if you need anything before that call me anytime. 467-5185 (home) 472-8647 (work) 417-5236 (cell). Hugs to all of you.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, April 7, 2005 10:22 AM CDT
To My Child
Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore.
And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day...
Anonymous
- Wednesday, April 6, 2005 9:25 PM CDT
Hi Toni and all,
I hope you can get some answers from the tests that will help you in your next decisions. I also hope the nice weather comes back so the girls can enjoy some play time outside. Good luck with all,
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 11:59 AM CDT
Toni,Tim, Ardena, Jessica.. We think of you often. Hope no one blew away down there today. I hear aunt Bette is coming to see you. I bet you like that. Hang tough all of you and may each day be better for you. Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, April 5, 2005 11:28 PM CDT
We are friends of Jill Zulovich in Columbia, Mo. and have witnessed God's devine work through her journey over the last year. We send prayers for Jessica, your family and her medical team. May God's love bring you comfort, guidance and many wonderful blessings.
Sarah Lang
Columbia, Mo USA - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 8:50 AM CDT
Dear Jessica and your family-- I am a friend of Josh Brestel and his family. I'm also a friend of Jody Klitzke. I've been praying for you and I'm glad to be able to send you a note of encouragement. Jesus love you, Jessica! He knows about your pain and it makes Him sad too. Let His love give you and your family strength and courage. I'll keep praying for you!
Holly Gifford
Lincoln, NE USA - Monday, April 4, 2005 9:37 AM CDT
Dear Jessica and family, I got to your website from Cameron's site and wanted you to know that our family is going through something very similar to Jessica. My nephew Kevin Willis was diagnosed with Stage 4 Ewing's Sarcoma in February 2004. Jessica, you and Kevin are the strongest children I know in this world! Your fighting spirit is amazing so keep on fighting little one! You are in all of our thoughts and prayers everyday. We wish all of you the best and continued hope and strength!
If you want to talk to Kevin, his caringbridge site is www3.caringbridge.org/oh/kevin11. Kevin is 11 years old and I'm sure he wouldn't mind the company. Kevin has a 4-year old sister Emily that is your age. She would probably enjoy a note from you too. Her big brother is into everything World War II (yuckie for us girls!).
Julie Slone <desilucy03@netscape.com>
Pataskala, OH 43062 - Sunday, April 3, 2005 7:33 PM CDT
Hi Jessica, Dena, Toni and Tim:
You all were in our church's community prayer this morning--lots of folks out here in Washington state are thinking about you and praying for you.
Jessie: Katie and Will have been remembering spending Thanksgiving with you. Do you remember playing tackle football in the front yard?
Ardena: Will really liked the birthday card you made for him. Thanks for thinking of him.
Toni: Thanks for the amazing journal entries--your ability to share your thoughts helps us have a glimpse of your life right now. Thank you.
Take care--we're sure praying for all of you.
Love, Doug, Beth, Katie and Will
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Blanks Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Sunday, April 3, 2005 6:46 PM CDT
Keeping all of you in my prayers!! So sorry to hear of Jessica's relapse! God Bless!
Anisa
Anisa Hoie <ahoie@cox.net>
- Sunday, April 3, 2005 4:38 PM CDT
We visited your website after hearing about Jessica's journey through Casey Brecka and family. We will be thinking of her and praying for your entire family.
Sincerely,
Michele Mowery
Michele Mowery <usmctim1@comcast.net>
Greenwood, MO USA - Sunday, April 3, 2005 4:26 PM CDT
We're with you.
Jake Skokan & Susan McNeff Skokan <nixvivivi@gmail.com>
Denver, CO - Sunday, April 3, 2005 1:28 AM CST
Hello there, Sneaky Snake! I've never heard that song. Maybe you can sing it for me one day! I pray you're doing as well as you can...I know you will. You are a trooper.
I'm very proud of you, Jessie. You will know one day what kind of impact you had on everyone around you. I remember the smiles on the faces of those who passed you and Cameron in the halls of UNMC. Somehow I saw the unspoken thank you's from those same people. You have made a difference, Miss Jessie and for that alone I am so very, very proud of you.
I will come to see you...hopefully sometime this week. I just need to call your Mommy and work a date out. Maybe Addie could come. I know she'd love to play with you and Ardena.
Take care sweet girl...
Case Brecka - www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@alltel.net>
Staplehurst, Ne - Saturday, April 2, 2005 9:10 PM CST
Dear Family ,
This is my 1st time visiting I found you through Josh's webpage . I wanted to offer my prayers to you all . My little girl has Wilms' tumor and is almost done with treatment she also has a very aggressive cancer and I pray that we don't relapse . I wish you all the best . you are in my prayers . Sincerly , Emily
www.caringbridge.org/oh/oliviagood
Emily Johnston <peanut420e@aol.com>
Johnstown, Oh USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 12:27 AM CST
Toni,
I can't tell you enough how many times I've come to the guestbook and not been able to choose the words to write. Your last journal entry had me giggling and then in tears. I imagine this is how your daily life must be. I am so sorry that the results of the testing came back not in Jessica's favor. I think of your family often and pray for a miracle for you. I'm glad you had such a wonderful Easter "on the farm". Out here all there is are ranches and if you call a rancher a farmer you are in for it! ~Take care and here are a few {{{hugs}}} for you :)
Carlynn and Mackenzie <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 11:28 AM CST
Jessica I love the pictures. I hope Easter was as fun for you as it was for Skylar. He got way to much candy. We pray you are feeling better. Make sure you enjoy the good weather to come.
kelly voorvart and skylar berry <dudeslady@msn.com>
omaha, ne - Friday, April 1, 2005 10:34 AM CST
Hello, Jessica, My name is Ruth Ann and I am a member of First Lutheran Church in Omaha. I am praying for you and hope your day today is full of smiles and love. AND I really hope you enjoy the buffalo tomorrow. Wish I could ride a buffalo. Do you think it would be bouncy??? Have a great time!!!
Ruth Ann Barth <ruthann@firstlutheranomaha@flc.omhcoxmail.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 10:13 AM CST
Toni, Tim, Jessica, and Ardena,
I just got a chance to get on Jessica's website. I'm so sorry to hear the bad news. We will pray to God for a miracle. Jessica is a beautiful little girl. I don't know how you get the strength to go through this. You are an amazing family! If you want to get out of Lincoln for a while, please come down anytime. The girls had fun that day and we now have more calves.
Mary Boden <mary.boden@hhss.ne.gov>
Hallam, NE USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 9:00 AM CST
Hi Jessica! Thanks so much for coming over to play Tuesday. Ethan and Noah had a great time. Ethan especially liked making you laugh. We hope you can come play again soon!
Kendrea, Ethan and Noah <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, March 31, 2005 8:48 PM CST
Hey Jessica, How was your Easter? Did you find lots and lots of Easter eggs? I hope so. We miss you here at Children's, but I am glad that you are able to stay at home with your family. I'm so sorry to here about the not so good news. It made me sad, but I know you are a very strong little girl. I will pray for you every day! God Bless!
Jacqulyn Kellberg ccp @children's <jkellberg@chso.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Thursday, March 31, 2005 3:27 PM CST
hello, I hope today is full of giggles.
Looks like we will get to come play with you soon! : )
Love,
Susan <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Thursday, March 31, 2005 2:34 PM CST
Hello Jessica and Family, my name is julie and I work with your 2nd cousin, Susan McNeff. Your website is beautiful, just like you. Jessica, you are such a courageous little girl with a strong spirit. I am a mommy to 2 children and my heart breaks to hear of your pain. You are so lucky to have a wonderful mommy and daddy to love, protect and care for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you today and always. Julie, Golden colorado
Julie Jolstad <jjolstad@charterwestmortgage.com>
Golden, CO - Thursday, March 31, 2005 11:34 AM CST
God bless you Jessica, and all of your family. I am now dealing with this horrible disease in a dearly loved one - and I can appreciate the courage and faith and most of all, love, that is needed to get from day to day.
You are in my prayers.
Michele Burkhiser
Lincoln, NE US - Thursday, March 31, 2005 9:29 AM CST
Jessica and Family,
I am Kelly Rainforth's Mother-in-law and Pastor at First Lutheran Church in Omaha, NE. I was a Hospice Chaplain and know some of the extreme feelings you must be experiencing but only God totally knows your hearts at this time. We have printed Jessica's name on our weekly prayer list in our bulletin and will be speaking her name at each worship service we have as we pray for all of you. It is such a difficult time but knowing you know Jesus as your Lord and Savior is so comforting for all of us that are supporting you. Kelly shared Jessica's dreams of Jesus with me and what a blessing to know she is so faith filled. If only more people could have such child-like faith. You are an example and influence for all of us. Stay steadfast and be in Easter Hope.
Blessings to each of you,
Pastor Judith Rainforth
Pastor Judith Rainforth <jrainforth@cox.net>
Omaha, NE USA - Wednesday, March 30, 2005 8:56 PM CST
Hello from the Hoffmeyers! We want to send our love, thoughts, and most of all our prayers. It's always nice to know that our Mommies and Daddies are there when we need them. But most of all we can always find comfort in our heavenly "Daddy". Your strength, hope, love and especially your faith, will see you through everything. Always hold tight to that and His hand that leads and comforts you all.
God's Peace and Strength to you, Kristi and family
Jessica means "Yahweh beholds"
Kristi Hoffmeyer <adhkmh@inebraska.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, March 30, 2005 3:57 PM CST
Hi Toni. Thanks for the update. Glad to hear that you all had a wonderful Easter. After reading your entry, the only thing that I could think of was HOPE. I looked at the letters and thought, His Omnipotent Peace Everlasting. His almighty peace that can only come from His Spirit provides HOPE forever. Our prayers are for continued HOPE each and every day.
Dave Dermann <dave.dermann@bryanLGH.org>
Lincoln, NE Lancaster - Wednesday, March 30, 2005 2:44 PM CST
Jessica and Family,
Hi. I'm Kristin from Denver, Colorado - friend of Susan McNeff Skokan. I can't be sorry enough for your situation and think often of Jessica. Our prayers are with her. She is a beautiful and precious child and anyone's lives are enlightened by knowing her and seeing her smile. May God give you the strength that you need and peace in the knowledge that it's okay to not always have it.
We love you Jessica! You are too cute!
Kristin <kcavalier7@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, March 30, 2005 2:21 PM CST
Dear Toni and family,
I am so sorry for what you are going through and will DEFINITELY pray every day and keep you and your beautiful daughter in my thoughts! I hope all turns out for the VERY best and that you and your family have all the strength and courage you need for this trying time!
Sincerely,
Stacey
Stacey Werth-Sweeney <Sweeney822@aol.com>
Lincoln , NE USA - Wednesday, March 30, 2005 1:01 PM CST
Hi Toni, This is Kelly Rainforth from your MOMS group. I'm so sorry to hear the news. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers and thoughts. I spoke with Karen today and she said you would like to come out to see our buffalo. You are welcome to come at any time.
Kelly Rainforth <kellyrain4th@alltel.net>
Denton, NE USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 10:19 PM CST
All of you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Paul & Kandi Dion
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 10:09 PM CST
Toni, You are a wonderful Mommy and I am so glad you have your Mom with you to help you get through all these tough days, also. I am glad to hear you had such a nice Easter. Being on the farm with the new calves and the fresh poop sounds absolutely wonderful! That is how I grew up, too! I remember having to run to catch up to my Dad, he had lots to do and no time to wait for short, little steps, but we loved following him around and I know he loved it, too. It sounds like your girls have the best Daddy, too! I know you are savoring every minute of every day. I am too. Brooke took her shoes off at the park today and I thought about how good the gravel must feel between her toes! Know we are praying hard for you. I have a hard time going to church anymore because I just fight back the tears the whole time, but feel so much better after I leave. Please let me know if I can do anything for you. Lots of love and prayers, Darby
Darby Brio <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 9:59 PM CST
You are in all our hearts...
Kristi
Broomfield, CO USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 1:11 PM CST
Toni, Tim, Ardeana and most of all Jessica:
Each of you are an inspiration to everyone that knows you. You have taken on the challenges of your current situation head on, you have courageously fought a battle that many may have easily given up on and you have continued to have faith. Every single one of us is here for a reason. We don't know what our specific mission is be but we do know that when our journey comes to an end we are able to go home. The lessons that we learn are not by circumstance they are all part of the grand plan that each of us it to live out. Hope, Faith, Love and Courage keep these close to your heart always. Jessica is but a little angel sent to you to not only fulfill her mission with all of us but to possibly awaken you to yours. It sounds like Jessica continues to find happiness and joy in her days and I hope you find some in yours too. Love to all of you.
Michaelynn (Frates) Brown <mfrates@hotmail.com>
Norwalk, CT 06851 - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 11:55 AM CST
Dear Friends, Our thoughts and constant prayers are with you as you face the coming days. Hang in there.
Your Missouri Friends Forever!!! <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 8:45 AM CST
Hey Jessie girl! I'm so glad you had such a great time on Easter. I think about you every single day. I will plan on coming to see you soon, maybe Wednesday. I'll even make that silly sound for your Mom...remember that? It got your and Camer's attention, didn't it? Yes, I'm a big goof!
Toni ~ give me a call. I'm anxious to talk with you. I may not have any answers but I've been where you are right now. NEVER take your eyes off Jesus. There are days that will test every bit of faith you have. Try to remember God is bigger than any of this...although I KNOW some days that means absolutely NOTHING!! Hang in there!
Casey Brecka www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@alltel.net>
Staplehurst, NE - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 7:22 AM CST
Dear Hindmans,
Our thoughts are with you, and we're sharing in your tears. May you find joy and comfort in the scent of cookies.
Leah & Brad
Brad & Leah Hayes <leahksh@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, March 28, 2005 3:24 PM CST
Dear Toni and Family,
As always, your entry was so beautiful, so wonderfully descriptive, I felt I could see all of the stories you told. I am so saddened by the news you all had on March 23. Your thoughts and feelings are all so understandable, and it sounds like you are doing wonders to give Jessica and Ardena everything you can. May God give you and Tim the strength to continue, and may God bless Jessica with a miracle. Our thoughts and prayers are with you as you face the new challenges.
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Monday, March 28, 2005 9:19 AM CST
Hello from Arizona. I was hoping that no news was good news ... I will pray that Jessica is blessed with a mircle so that she may stay with her loving family for a full lifetime. Toni, you and Tim are such loving, caring parents know that God did pick special parents for one of His angels. From what I read His angel is enjoying her family to the fullest. I'm not sure I could handle what you've been through, keep strong and know that I love you and will pray for you and your family.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Monday, March 28, 2005 7:54 AM CST
Hello Hindman clan, I am sorry that things haven't worked out in your favor thus far, I am praying for you all and Jessica daily that hopefully things will turn around for your sweet little girl. Just remember, she truly is fiesty and a fighter. Hang in there and stay tough Jessica. Love you all, Rochelle (RN at Childrens).
Rochelle Bangtson <rlbangtson@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, March 27, 2005 11:03 PM CST
I am sorry to hear of the news. Jessica is such a beautiful and strong little girl. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.
Rachel Negley (CCP at Children's) <rnegley@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, March 27, 2005 10:55 PM CST
Toni, Tim, Ardena and Jessica,
My mom(Doris)keeps me updated all the time and I was so sorry to talk to her on Fri. for the latest update. You all have been in my families daily prayers and will remain there. My local MOPS chapter prays also as I have you on our prayer chain. I'll be praying for strength and peace for you all and also that you have lots of good times, lots of giggles and lots of hugs and kisses! PEACE BE WITH YOU!!!!
Cindy (Waterman)Rolls <cindyrolls@yahoo.com>
Hastings, NE USA - Sunday, March 27, 2005 10:22 PM CST
Hindmans,
My heart is breaking for you. I so wish I could do something to make you feel better. We will be saying lots of prayers for all of you, for the doctors to find a treatment that will work for Jessica, and for Jessica to continue to feel good. Toni, call anytime you need. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Sunday, March 27, 2005 8:43 PM CST
Besides PRAYERS, what can we DO for you? Call me any time day or night if you need to talk, cry, pray, scream, talk, pray some more, laugh, pray again, etc. We will be back in Nebraska May 1st for my uncle and aunt's wedding anniversary. I was the flower girl in their wedding!
I will come and visit you if you are up to it. Our constant thoughts and prayers are with you.
Joyce & family <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Sunday, March 27, 2005 4:22 PM CST
I will be sending healing thoughts your way. I'm glad Jessica is having a great Easter.
Kate Johnson <kamajo5@hotmail.com>
Westminster, CO USA - Sunday, March 27, 2005 11:12 AM CST
Well, Have a good easter, and know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Trevor Brookwell <tbrookwell@yahoo.com>
Denver, Co United States of America - Sunday, March 27, 2005 1:17 AM CST
We love you so much!
Love,
Susan and Jake <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, Co - Saturday, March 26, 2005 8:56 PM CST
Hi Jessica and Toni,I hope you and your family have a good Easter, you are always in our thoughts and prayers. Kris ,Karrie and Baylie
Kris Kudlacz <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
Omaha, Ne USA - Saturday, March 26, 2005 10:50 AM CST
Wishing the Hindmans a Blessed Easter.
May God keep you in His care always.
Fackler Family <kf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, March 24, 2005 9:38 PM CST
Hi! Hope you can come and play at our house again soon Jessica! We can color and cut out fun shapes and designs, and run around and be silly like we did the last time you were over.
Noah Fackler <kf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, March 24, 2005 9:36 PM CST
Hello,
Just stopping by to wish you all a Happy Easter. Jessica what a wonderful dream. I hope your Easter is good. Are you going to have a Easter egg hunt? Enjoy. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, March 24, 2005 8:36 AM CST
Toni, Tim, Ardena,Jessica..hello from us (Rich and Joanne) I have not had the chance to ck your book as our computer has been down. Gramma Jeanne keeps us informed. Hope all is going well for you. We think of you and it was good to hear Jessica was feeling much better. Talked to Aunt Bette today and so we are praying extra for you. Tell Gramma Jeanne hello and we know you are so glad she can be there for all of you. She has a way with children doesn't she Ardena and Jessica? Grandmas are so special because grandkids are so special. Take care ..Aunt Joanne and Uncle Rich
Joanne
Brule, Ne Ne - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 10:16 PM CST
Hi Toni, I check on you often, too. I love the dream stories. The first time I read Jessica's it brought tears to my eyes, but now it gives me a big smile! Your girls are so, so sweet! Lots of love, Darby
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 11:43 AM CST
Dear Jessica, I have not yet met you but I think of you often. I know your Mom and have met your sister once. Your mom is my cousin Kim's cousin. I hear about how you are doing thru Kim and I always have positive thoughts for you. You sound like a strong girl. We send you warm wishes and a healthy recovery. I have a two year old son and we too cuddle in the mornings. Now when we cuddle we will say a morning pray for you.
Mona (Van Velson) Maser <monavv@hotmail.com>
Fort Collins, CO usa - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 2:16 PM CST
I love the dream stories!!!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Monday, March 21, 2005 1:46 PM CST
Hi Toni,
Glad to hear Jessica is ready to go in her Barbie jeep...I hope it warms up so you can wash it today.
You will continue to be in my prayers...especially with the upcoming scans!
Take care,
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, March 18, 2005 10:11 AM CST
Hey Jessie girl! I miss seeing your beautiful smiling face. Sounds like you're doing pretty well. I pray you continue that way.
Toni ~ I know exactly how you're feeling right now. I've been there. Seems like when all the "big gun" stuff is over, and that's all you've been used to, where you are right now feels like nothing. I don't know what to tell you. It's hard and it's scary. Just enjoy the day and make the most of it and always smile.
Just wanted to touch base. Maybe we can do lunch one day. I'd love to see you & Jessie again. Take care!
Casey Brecka - www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@alltel.net>
Staplehurst, NE - Thursday, March 17, 2005 9:10 AM CST
Just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I hope all continues to improve for Jessica. How great you got to meet with Jill's family. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 8:49 AM CST
Just checking in and wanted to let you know we are thinking of you. Glad your cat is doing better and I LOVE the ink face picture of Jessica! Too funny. Take care :) Your friends in the Nebraska Sandhills ~
Carlynn & Mackenzie <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Tuesday, March 15, 2005 8:36 PM CST
Hello, hello!
Love,
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, CO - Tuesday, March 15, 2005 1:31 PM CST
Toni, Just checking in on your family, glad to hear things continue to progress nicely with Jessica. She and the rest of your family will remain in our prayers.
Becky, Ben, Owen and Miriam Duncan <ne-duncans@worldnet.att.net>
Fargo, ND USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 1:21 PM CST
Just seeing if I am doing this right. To bad the girls won't talk to grand Pa on the phone. Hope they enjoy all those stickers he sent. Hope they don't stick them where you don't want them. MOM 3-13-05
jeanne <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, March 13, 2005 6:12 PM CST
Looking good Jessica ! I drop in every once in awhile just to see how Jessica is doing. She's got a place in my heart and I think of her often.
Daisy Doe the Clown <daisy@clowningaround.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Sunday, March 13, 2005 7:31 AM CST
Hey Jessica! Sounds like you are having fun at home with mom and dad and your sister and grandma jeanne! I can't wait to here some more good news from you! God Bless
Jacqulyn Kellberg <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
omaha, ne usa - Wednesday, March 9, 2005 10:25 PM CST
Hi,
Toni it is so good to hear you guys are getting out a little bit. I can't wait for spring. How great you got to meet with Joyce and her family. It is always to wonderful to visit with other "cancer families". Give Jessica a big hug.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, March 8, 2005 8:33 AM CST
Hello - just checking out the new photos - Ink face huh ? Nice
Brian <bmcneff@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, ne - Monday, March 7, 2005 2:46 PM CST
Hi Toni,
I am so glad that the tube is working for Jessica! I hope you are all enjoying this weather...it feels so nice to be able to be outside.
Take care! Jane
Jane Griffin <janegriffin2@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, March 2, 2005 7:41 PM CST
Toni and family,
I am glad the feed tube is going okay and helping Jessica feel a little better. Not much new around here. Day by day. I hope you are getting out a little more. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, March 2, 2005 3:00 PM CST
Hi Jessica,
We are praying for you.
Jaime www.caringbridge.org/nj/jaimelynn <jaime13042@aol.com>
nj usa - Monday, February 28, 2005 8:11 PM CST
Hi Jessica and Toni, it was good to see you in the treatment room last week, you looked great Jessica.....even though you were hiding behind the chair when I tried to get your blood pressure while mom went to get something to eat :) Hope everything continues to go well.Take care sweetie. Kris,Karrie and Baylie
Kris <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
Omaha, NE USA - Monday, February 28, 2005 5:47 PM CST
What a beautifull Family that you have.I'm new to your page and wanted to stop in and say hello to you all.I'm happy to hear that Jessica is doing better.Somtimes we fear things that will make our children better.I know this because I have walked in your shoes.My family will add Jessica to our prayer list and continue to pray for her healing.God bless.
Tonya and Stormy Lott <plainsmiles722@yahoo.com caringbridge/tn/stormyrlott>
tracy city, tn u.s.a - Sunday, February 27, 2005 9:30 AM CST
w 2-24-05 I put my comments is once , but don't know if I got them sent right. I WILL redo them. Glad to hear that Jessica's check up was good. Love and kisses to you girls and MOM--HUGs to DAD and the cats. LOVE YA Grammy Jeanne
Jeanne mcneff
- Thursday, February 24, 2005 12:23 AM CST
Jessica, and Family, our prayers are with you!
George and Lita Meyer <gm91914@navix.net>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, February 24, 2005 9:56 AM CST
Love the new pictures! Darby
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, February 20, 2005 8:39 PM CST
Hi Toni, Jessica and family!
I wanted you to know that I have been checking in to your website daily and thinking about you often. I hope all is well. Not very nice weather we are having today, but it's a good cuddle day :) Take care! Your friends from western Nebraska ~Carlynn and Mackenzie
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Saturday, February 19, 2005 8:50 AM CST
Lots of love and prayers are being sent to you from Arizona. You're in my thoughts daily.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Friday, February 18, 2005 7:41 AM CST
Tim and Toni,
Your little girl is in my prayers. I hope it all works out okay.
Sidney Bauguess <notanemail@msn.com>
Powell Butte, Or USA - Wednesday, February 16, 2005 6:34 PM CST
Hey Jessica and Family! sounds like you guys had a fun Valentine's Day. Hope everything continues to go good for you. We miss you here at Children's. God Bless!
Jacqulyn Kellberg <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Wednesday, February 16, 2005 6:03 PM CST
*Loves*
Suze <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Wednesday, February 16, 2005 3:09 PM CST
I'd be fearing the NG tube, too. Not fun but sounds like it may be necessary. I see your point about all of the weight she gained while being on TPN and then loosing the weight and freaking everyone out over it. We will pray HARD for your family and the decisions that you will have to make. God Bless you all.
P.S. We will be in Big Red Country this weekend. I'll try to call you!
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Wednesday, February 16, 2005 6:28 AM CST
Hi Jessica, Toni and family
Mom and Dad stayed overnight after spending two weeks with Kevin and touring Arizona. They are on their way home. We thought we would check your web site and see how thing are going. Glad to hear that Jessica can do some low crowd activities. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Love
Lois, Ray and Mike
Michael Rose
Divide, CO USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 11:52 PM CST
Jessica,
I hope you have a great Valentine's Day. Just checking to see how you are all doing. I hope well. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, February 14, 2005 8:21 PM CST
Good looking family there, Tim. Glad I popped in. You can know you are all in our prayers. Keep up the Good fight. Later,
GD
Greg Davied <Theophilus@earthlink.net>
Wichita, Ks USA - Sunday, February 13, 2005 2:51 PM CST
Jessica you look good, we are praying for you. Hope to see you outside playing. I'll bring Rudy and Reese around later in the spring.
Anthony J Manthey <idocmanthe@cs.com>
Lincoln , Ne - Sunday, February 13, 2005 2:05 AM CST
Hi Toni
I was happy to get your email. It's always nice to meet someone else who really "gets it". I was trying to get through Jessica's journal but I have a very crabby baby who won't sleep. I'll try to finish reading tomorrow and write you back. Jessica and the rest of you will be in my prayers. Love Shelli
http://www3.caringbridge.org/ne/emmamiller/
Shelli Miller <shellimm@msn.com>
Fremont, NE - Thursday, February 10, 2005 10:16 PM CST
Toni and Jessica,
Sorry to hear your tummy isn't feeling so great. I think it's just a girl thing sometimes. Aleah has those days when she just feels blah too. WE are praying for you and all of these children suffering from NB. Thank you for your support and kind words on Aleah's site. We wish you more pleasant days and hopefully the end of treatment will be soon for both of our girls.
hugs to you little Jessica. You and your sister are so adorable!
Tina Cornelius <tinac@peoplepc.com www.caringbridge.org/ky/aleah>
Maysville, ky - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 8:48 PM CST
We love to hear the great funny stories about the kids, like Ardena's comandments ; )
Love and Hugs!
Susan and Jake <mindonfire17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 2:49 PM CST
I FOUND YOUR SITE ON ALEAH'S PAGE. MY SON AS WELL HAS BEEN BATTLEING NEUROBLASTOMA. HE WAS DIAGNOSED AT AGE 2 ON MAY 23, 2003. HE IS CURRENTLY 1 YR POST TRANSPLANT AND IS DOING WELL. OUR PRAYERS AND HEARTS ARE WITH YOU AND THE JOURNEY WE AS PARENTS FACE DAILY. KNOW ALWYS, GOD IS IN CONTROL AND WILL CARRY ALL OF US THROUGH THESE TIMES.BLESSINGS AND PRAYERS. SHE IS A BEAUTY.
www.caringbridge.org/ky/littlejaydon
STEPHANIE AND JAYDON MAYFIELD&FAmily <SJMAYFIELD@MSN.COM>
OWENSBORO, KY - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 12:06 AM CST
Hey Jessica and Family! How are you guys doing? Good I hope. We miss you here at Children's but you must be so happy to stay at home. I love your pictures from the airplane. That must have been so much fun. i will check in on you later jessie. God Bless
Jacqulyn Kellberg ccp @childrens <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 10:03 PM CST
Toni, it was so great to see you this morning!! I am so glad that Jessica is doing so well! I just wanted to tell you, again, that we would love to have Ardena over! Give us a call the next time you need someone to watch her! Take care!
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, ne - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 7:52 PM CST
Glad to hear the eating is going a little better. I think of you guys all the time. Toni you are such a great mom to Jessica. I know how hard it is to be basicly homebound except doctor visits. Hang in there and know you can call whenever you need to talk. (472-8647-work and 467-5185-home). Keep up the good work Jessica. You are such a brave girl. Hugs to all.
The Brestels
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 11:35 AM CST
Hello to you all, sounds like things are going pretty well. We are so glad to hear it. You are always in our prayers. Mikayla wanted to tell Jessie she loves her and we love you all. Take care and God Bless. Jane
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, tx - Saturday, January 29, 2005 10:46 AM CST
Ouchie! Sorry to hear Jessica fell today. I hope she is feeling better. Glad to hear her appetite is picking up a bit. I have been thinking of you guys alot. Thanks for the email back the other day too Toni :) I promise to write more soon. I check in often. Keep up the good work Mama and Jessica too!
Carlynn <emtb203@yahoo.com>
Thedford, NE USA - Friday, January 28, 2005 5:20 PM CST
Don't beat yourself up over botching up ONE bag of fluids. You certainly aren't the first cancer mom or the last cancer mom to spoil a bag. I was total butterfingers dealing with most of Jill's medical needs. Those dressing changes almost did me in several times.
Don't worry about the cooking right now! You don't know how I wish I lived closer so I could help you out! Believe me I know what you are going thru. Hang in there. You can do it!
Joyce <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Thursday, January 27, 2005 12:03 AM CST
Hi Jessica! I just came across your website. What a brave young lady you are! My son Blake was diagnosed with Leukemia in December 2003. You and your family will be in our prayers!
Kassie Pelster <www.caringbridge.org/ne/blakepelster mpelster@sktelsie.net>
Elsie, NE - Thursday, January 27, 2005 11:48 AM CST
my hopes and prayers are with you and your family.
leighanne borem <Borem6@msn.com>
Fort Benning, Ga USA - Wednesday, January 26, 2005 12:20 AM CST
Hi there!
Praying that God will surround your beautifull family!I have a child who had had Leukemia three times.she's seven.God is always there walking beside you and carring you in your darkest hour!God bless
Tonya and Stormy Lott <plainsmiles722@yahoo.com caringbridge/tn/stormyrlott>
Tracy City, Tn u.s.a - Tuesday, January 25, 2005 10:51 PM CST
Hello Hindman's!!! I know I don't put an entry in everytime, but I do want you to know I think of you all everyday and you are all in my prayers. I check for a new entry almost everyday to keep updated on your events. It was great talking to you Toni, whew 83 minutes...hope we can get together next week when we are all healthy here again. I know the girls would love to play. Big hugs & love to all of you!
Julie <candldy4u@aol.com>
- Saturday, January 22, 2005 10:47 PM CST
Hi Jessica, We continue to keep up with your progress and pray for you and your family, Our daughter, Molly went through a lot of chemo the past spring, summer and part of fall. She's in remission, happy ,healthy and at school. We had so much personal anxiety over Molly's situation, and it is like being set free to have her healthy again. We will pray hard that you and your family can experience the freedom and happiness of a healthy little girl again. We think and pray for you and others with cancer often. Molly's site is www.mollylambert.net
Tim Lambert <klambert@esu8.org>
Chambers, NE USA - Saturday, January 22, 2005 10:42 PM CST
Hey Jessie girl!!! I miss seeing you boppin' around the Med Center. You be sure to tell Dr. Gordon "Hi" from all of us and tell him to be good because Cameron's watching him!! Give Sue and Jeannine a big hug from us, too.
I want you to always remember Cameron and how he always wanted to see you, Jessie, when you two were in the hospital together. I hope you are still enjoying the kitty Cameron picked for you.
You keep fighting, little Miss!! And remember, you've got a real angel on your shoulder now!!
Hugs and Kisses
Casey Brecka http://www.caringbridge.org/ne/camer <cbrecka@alltel.net>
Staplehurst, Ne - Wednesday, January 19, 2005 4:49 PM CST
instead of bored I should have said "stuck"
S <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
- Friday, January 14, 2005 5:42 PM CST
Hello, Hello!
I wish I could come over and make you not bored, but instead I am here and bored at work. Ooops, not bored, I mean swamped.
It has been a strange year so far.
We still check the site every day and think of you more, though I have not written (sorry).
I'm so glad you get to be home.
I ran across this the other day, http://www.pbs.org/redgreen/ there is some funny reading. This show always makes me think of your Dad and my Dad... and makes me smile and feel safe with such a great family.
Love,
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Friday, January 14, 2005 4:08 PM CST
I loved the new pictures. It looks like you had a great time on the plan ride. Jessica, you are being such a big girl taking your pills. Mom and Dad must be so proud. It sounds like you are taking some little steps to improving. Remember those little steps add up to miles and miles. I will pray for all to continue to improve. Before you know it, the 5 year mark will be here and Jessica will be a happy healthy girl. Hang in there. Toni, please call or email if you need anything. Even to just talk. I think of you guys every day.
Diane
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Thursday, January 13, 2005 11:32 AM CST
Love the new pictures! Thanks for sharing!
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, January 12, 2005 4:32 PM CST
Hello Toni, Jessica, Tim and Ardena ... I love the new intro picture... Lots of prayers and good thoughts are being sent your way. I hope all keeps going in a positive direction. Let me know if there is anything I can do for your family.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Wednesday, January 12, 2005 8:36 AM CST
Hi Jessica and Toni!
Keeping you in my prayers and hope things are going good. We were looking at your pictures up here on OHSCU and laughing at your smiles tonight. Keep up the hard work! how are those princess teeth?
Julia <jwells@nebraskamed.com>
Omaha, Ne - Tuesday, January 11, 2005 3:46 AM CST
Hang in there; brighter days are headed your way.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Monday, January 10, 2005 9:20 PM CST
Hi Jessica. Hope you are feeling OK. Did you get alot of new games to play with your sister? My brother and his family were back from Denver. We played Clue and Life. We missed having Glen around. His birthday is the 23rd of this month. I am going to eat a donut for him. He loved sugar cake donuts. Remember that Jesus cares for you and hears all of the prayers that are being said. Bye!
Dave Dermann <dave.dermann@bryanlgh.org>
Lincoln, NE Lancaster - Monday, January 10, 2005 4:05 PM CST
Hey Jessica! How are you feeling today? Better I hope. I miss you here at Children's. Im glad that you and your mom got home safe in the snow storm. Hope you don't have to go back to the hospital anytime soon. Stay home and play with Ardena ok? I miss you. God Bless
Jacqulyn Kellberg ccp@chs <jkellberg@chso.org>
Omaha, Ne USA - Saturday, January 8, 2005 10:25 AM CST
Hello Jessica and Family,
Gald to hear you are such a big girl and able to swallow the pills...and great thinking Toni about the thermos, you are so on top of things! You are in our thoughts and prayers...enjoy the snow day!
Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, January 5, 2005 11:40 AM CST
Hi Jessica.Hope your feeling better.I miss comming to see you when I come to get my allergy shots.Here's my late christmas gift from me to you. Let's go to Runza sometime and eat lunch.Get well soon! I miss you!
karrie <kkudlacz@yahoo.com>
omaha, ne usa - Monday, January 3, 2005 5:37 PM CST
Dear Jessica, Toni and family,
Yey for NED!!!! and I'm so glad you're feeling perky and loved your jet ride Jessica.
For the rest, we're thinking of you always and as always your judgement sounds very sound Toni - I hope she will be able to rest and heal soon.
We love you!
Susan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, CO - Friday, December 31, 2004 11:59 AM CST
Hi Jessica and Family,
Sorry to hear you are back in the hospital, let's hope the antibiotics can take care of it, and hope that you can continue to have the tests done that need to get done. Sounds like you had a great time on the jet!
You are in our thoughts and prayers...Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, December 29, 2004 9:51 AM CST
Jessica and family,
I think of you everyday. I am so sorry to hear you are in the hospital again. I will pray the antibiotics work and take care of whatever is causing the fevers. It is good news that tests so far come back with no evidence of disease. Just keep holding on to the positive things. I know it is so hard not to worry. We will continue to pray for Jessica and your family. Toni, please call if you ever need to talk.
Diane
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, December 28, 2004 7:30 PM CST
Hi there! Hope you and your family had a very merry Christmas! Wish you a happy New Year!
Rachel Negley (CCP at Children's) <rnegley@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, NE - Tuesday, December 28, 2004 2:25 AM CST
Merry Christmas Jessica and family! We hope you are having a great time with your family! We have gotten to see a lot of family this Christmas and it has been so nice! Last year we had to stay home and Brooke was in the hospital the week of Christmas, got to come home in time for Christmas Eve! I'm so excited for you to go on your plane ride and eat Runza! How fun!!! Toni, I have to say it again how much I love your journal entries! You always make me laugh - you know how to tell it like it is! Always makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one like that! I know what you mean about packing and unpacking, it gets so old and is so much work. I don't think people know - it gets so old living out of that suitcase. I'm so glad you have such great friends and family to help you out once in a while - like with the food and certificates to Runza! They make the world a better place! Take care. We're thinking of you! Lots of love, Darby Brion
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Sunday, December 26, 2004 9:42 PM CST
hi jessie- ardena uncle brian helped me get into this machine. have a great day. enjoy your time with sam.
gramie jeanne <brucemcneff@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, December 26, 2004 11:17 AM CST
We love you!
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com>
Denver, Co - Wednesday, December 22, 2004 10:29 AM CST
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year's to you all. May the new year bring happiness and positive results on conquering this cancer. God bless you all.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ USA - Tuesday, December 21, 2004 1:34 PM CST
Jessica,
It sounds like you are doing well. Congrats on finishing radiation. I will be thinking of you while you go through all your tests.
Toni, I will also be thinking of you and the family. I will pray for the right treatment to be found for Jessica and that not too many problems arise in the next 6 months. Know I am thinking of you guys everyday. I just don't seem to get to the pages as much as I use to.
Diane Brestel
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Monday, December 20, 2004 10:50 PM CST
hey jessie and family!! Sounds like you guys are having so much fun all being home together. It must be great! Well I hope you guys have a wonderful Christmas together. We all miss you here at Children's. It sounds like you are doing great. I miss you. God Bless
Jacqulyn <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne - Monday, December 20, 2004 11:15 AM CST
Hi to all. I have been thinking of you all so much lately. I am happy to hear of all the fun times you are having at home whenever you get the chance. The photos on the web site are wonderful. You have such beautiful girls. I've finished the movie of Jessica's birthday and hope to get it in the mail this week so look for it soon. I hope you like it. Hugs to you all. My prayers are with you. Love, Jane
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, Tx - Tuesday, December 14, 2004 3:29 PM CST
Isn't it great to be at home tripping over toys!!!! I hope the weather cooperates for you. It's going to be 14 degrees here tonight so I know it will be much colder up in Big Red Country for you guys!
Jill was on TPN continuously from Feb. to Sept. 2004. Thankfully she didn't have any side effects and weaned off okay. I did read on one caringbridge website that an older cancer patient (I believe he's 7 years old) ended up with gall bladder trouble after being on TPN for a period of time. I can contact his mother if you want more details. They lived down the hall from us in Memphis.
Keep up the good work Jessica! Your break will be wonderful and I know your tests will come out great.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Monday, December 13, 2004 8:37 PM CST
Glad to hear you get the week before Christmas off! That will be nice! Good luck with your last week of radiation. Love & prayers, Darby Brion
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, December 13, 2004 4:58 PM CST
Hi Toni and all,
I was so excited to read the Dec.8 entry. Great news, and hope you are all celebrating. We keep you in our prayers that things continue to go well. Take care, Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, December 10, 2004 11:31 AM CST
Yey for Jessica being NED. That is a great thing as far as I can tell from all the reading I have done! We continue to think of you and pray she stays that way.
Love,
Susan and Jake
Suze <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, CO - Friday, December 10, 2004 10:40 AM CST
Hey there Jessica, Toni and Mom--Emily and I are just sending a quick note. We just got done looking at pics of the party etc and now Emily is singing Jessica a song! Wish we could see you--hopefully soon! Take care--love Aunt Carol and Cousin Emily--and Uncle John says "hi" too!
Carol Biel <cjmcneff@alltel.net>
- Thursday, December 9, 2004 5:02 PM CST
My husband, Mike, works with Grampa Bruce. We share in your pain. It's hard to understand "why", but you just have to keep your faith. We pray for you and yours.
Mike and Nancy Sterling <nsterling@lakemac.net>
Lemoyne, Ne USA - Wednesday, December 8, 2004 1:32 PM CST
I love you Dada. I love you soon. I want to play in my back yard. La la lalalala. I hope you come our way soon.
Jessica <thindman2@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 6:10 PM CST
Hi sweet pea! I'm busy working on airplanes again today . . . Learjets, Challengers, Falcons, and Astras so far. Hope you, Mom, and Grandma are having a good day. Dena and I love you and miss you very much!
Daddy <th42820@navix.net>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 1:47 PM CST
Hi sweet pea! I'm here working on airplanes . . . Learjets, Challengers, Falcons, and Astras so far today. Hope you, Mom, and Grandma are having fun! Dena and I love you and miss you.
Daddy <th42820@navix.net>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 12:28 AM CST
Hi Jessica! What a neat webpage you have! I love all of your pictures of you with your family and friends. You're a trooper! What do you want Santa to bring you?
Jana/ Radiation Therapy <jkoth@unmc.edu>
- Tuesday, December 7, 2004 8:32 AM CST
Hey Jessica and family! We miss you here at Children's!
Jacqulyn Kellberg CCP @ Children's <jkellberg@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, December 3, 2004 10:41 PM CST
Jill's radiation was measured in rads, too, but I sure can't explain it to you now! I was under the impression that she needed almost 30 days of radiation but then the number of days got decreased because they crammed in more rads per day. I took their word for it. If they gave you cream for her radiation site, use it heavily so she doesn't get burned. Jill's skin even peeled. She loved the cream. We even "qualified" for a more heavy duty cream since she still burned on her back by her incision.
Have a great weekend. Maybe you can sqeeze in baking Christmas cookies with your daughters. Does St. Nicholas visit your house on the 6th? Our girls will get their stockings filled on Sunday night and awake bright and early Monday morning to open the little trinkets. Heck, they'll probably have candy for breakfast that day. My parents and grandparents celebrated St. Nicholas Day, too, so I was very pleased to learn that Jenny's school also observes the feast day.
Joyce Zulovich <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO - Friday, December 3, 2004 9:48 PM CST
Tim and Toni,
Our thoughts and prayers go out to your family. Stay strong during this difficult time. Hopefully knowing you have the love and support of so many people will help you through this. If you ever want a second opinion of your lab reports, I would be happy to talk to my instructors about them. Never feel bad about being forceful when it comes to Jessica's care. You know her best, and have every right to question her treatment decisions. God bless all of you!
Kandi & Paul Dion <pdion@neb.rr.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, December 1, 2004 10:31 PM CST
Hello to everyone whereever you may be. We hope and pray that you are all at home and doing well. It's been forever since we have been able to see and talk with you. Elijah misses Jessica and always wonders why we can't get together and play, or see each other at MOM group. We pray for each one of you every day! Let HIS strength be your strength! We hope to see you soon, we would love to introduce you to baby sister, Zoe (almost 6 months old now). All our love and prayers, Kristi, Andrew, Elijah, and Zoe
Kristi Hoffmeyer <adhkmh@inebraska.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, December 1, 2004 0:27 AM CST
Happy late Thanksgiving! Thinking of you here in freeeeezing Colorado - hoping you're much warmer and glad to hear you are at home for a bit.
Love,
Susan
S M S <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, Co - Tuesday, November 30, 2004 9:28 AM CST
Glad to hear the day went so well. I sure hope Jessica can do it without sedation. That would be wonderful! But you never know with those kiddo's. Good luck! Darby
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Monday, November 29, 2004 7:54 PM CST
Happy belated Thanksgiving to you also. We are so glad you all got to be together. Good luck with the radiation. I know you would like to be home everynight, but one thing if you can't is you can tell Ardena that it will only be for 4 days a week.. That should help some. Whatever is best for Jessica I guess is what you have to go with even though you might wish different. I don't know if a person gets really sick after radiation or not. She has so many issues it sounds like, so whatever is the norm might not be for her. Whatever, we wish the best. Take care and tell all your family hello. Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE NE - Friday, November 26, 2004 2:51 PM CST
Happy Thanksgiving to you all. I hope all is going better and that you can spend Thanksgiving together. Lots of prayers and love to you all.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ 85306 - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 7:42 AM CST
Hang in there girl freind. Better days are headed your way. Bottom line is your baby's cure. I will pray for your strength and sanity. I wish I lived closer I could probably hook up her IV pumps with my eyes closed and one hand tied behind my back. Jill was on TPN from Feb. to Sept and had other pumps for antibiotics. I'm sure every bone in your body aches from lack of sleep.
Love you,
Joyce
Been There, Done That in Memphis! <stjudemom@tranquility.net>
Columbia, MO USA - Thursday, November 18, 2004 10:15 AM CST
Hello Jessica!
Toni, just want to say you are the most responsible wonderful mom and it sounds to me like you're doing all the right things. I can't imagine someone not wanting to see charts, scans, xrays etc. I'm no expert, but it makes so much sense to be as informed as possible.
We're thinking of you all!
Love,
Susan, Jake and Scott
Susan, Jake and Scott <ar1_17@yahoo.com >
De, CO - Thursday, November 11, 2004 2:36 PM CST
Toni, hang in there. So much to look through and try to understand. Between you, Jeanne, Tim, Bruce, most of the questions will be asked. Remember you are not super mom and can't expect to understand it all. I second the nomination for Grandma of the world. You have a jewel there. Thinking of you and praying for the best. Tell Jessica we are thinking of her. Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Wednesday, November 10, 2004 10:05 PM CST
Hang in there Toni, I hope that you will all be home soon together. My heart goes out to you and your family. Lately I just want to cry when I read the journal entries especially for the happy moments and bigs hugs it does make one look at their issues and realize it is the small stuff that get us through day to day. Prayers, good thoughts and extra angels are being sent to you. It is good to know that they are not going unnoticed. Keep smilin' Jessica !!
Kathy Fink <Katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Wednesday, November 10, 2004 8:35 AM CST
Just want to say I love your new photo album so full of pictures! Darby Brion
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 9:17 PM CST
Toni and Jessica,
How wonderful you got to spend some time at home before you start radiation. I am so happy you are doing so well. What great news about the airplane ride. That will be so much fun. We will be thinking of you as you go through this next step in treatment.
Diane and Josh
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Sunday, November 7, 2004 8:28 PM CST
Hi Toni and Jessica, I am so excited I found your website from another. I am Brooke's Mom and met you at Children's a couple times when the girls were in at the same time. Brooke finished up tx this summer and is in remission, so we don't spend near as much time there as we use to. I am so glad to hear that Jessica is recovering from her transplant and it sounds like things are moving in the right direction. I just read through your past journal entries and must say you do a wonderful job, Toni. I have been laughing and crying and can relate to so much of what you have said. I am so excited about your playground in your backyard from MAW! I remember you talking about maybe that would be Jessica's wish. I really like your idea about the roof of the hospital being like the top deck on a cruise ship! You really have been there too long! And I think your Mom deserves the award for best Grandma in the world! I feel so lucky that we live in Omaha and did not take the convenience to the wonderful medical care for granted. Please, please call me if I can do anything to help you out at any time. My # is 965-9280 and cell # is 707-6734. Know you are in our prayers. All my love, Darby Brion
www.caringbridge.org/ne/brooke
Darby Brion <nbrion@cox.net>
Omaha, NE - Thursday, November 4, 2004 10:17 PM CST
Hey girls! Just wanted to tell you hi! I miss seeing Jessie's face here at Children's. I'm glad things are going ok and hope to hear more soon. You are ALL in my thoughts and prayers.
Rachel Negley (CCP at Children's) <rnegley@mail.unomaha.edu>
Omaha, NE USA - Thursday, November 4, 2004 12:52 AM CST
Wonderfull, wonderfull, on the news of the airplane ride. You will so much enjoy that Jessica and family..What a big thrill and treat. You will never forget it. We think of you often Jessica and hope you are getting stronger each day. How are those boots doing? Sounds like they are really nice. We pray for all of you. Love Aunt Joanne and Uncle Rich
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, Ne USA - Wednesday, November 3, 2004 9:51 PM CST
Hi Toni and family,
Going to work this morning Grandpa Bruce was pulling on to the highway. See him most morning and think of you often. We still had some snow left today from what we received on Monday. Brule still had snow but Ogallala did not. My prayers are with you and family.
Doris
Doris Wiest <dwiest@atcjet.net>
Brule, ne 69127 usa - Wednesday, November 3, 2004 9:14 PM CST
Jessie, Toni and Mom, Hello from Uncle John, Aunt Carol and Emily!! Emily sure enjoyed talking to you on the phone last night, Jesse! She was very tired after trick or treating and supper!! Emily was a nurse! She had a white dress and a cap and everything! She said she "makes people feel better, just like mommy!" Maybe she can see you soon and make you feel a little better too! Uncle John says hi and is jealous of the hugs your daddy got--hopes your arms are strong to give him one too when you come home. We miss you all and our prayers are with you. Take Care--love The Biels.
Carol Biel <cjmcneff@alltel.net>
- Monday, November 1, 2004 10:07 PM CST
Hi Jessie and Toni,
I was jsut writing to wish you a Happy Halloween, hopefully i will be able to see some pictures of you in your halloween costume Jessie!! I hope that you are feeling better, and that each day is brighter than the one before. Take care, Sarah Lowe (CCP from Children's, we all miss you!)
Sarah Lowe <slowe@chsomaha.org>
Omaha, NE USA - Sunday, October 31, 2004 7:23 PM CST
Jessica,
You and Jill are so much alike; it's funny. She didn't wear her bumble bee costume to the University of Missouri Hospital's Halloween parade either. It was too stinkin' hot to wear a coat like costume indoors. So mom just carried it. We looked like goofballs; but Jill didn't care one bit. At first Jill was shy and timid, but then enjoyed getting all of the good loot that the departments handed out to the kids. Very generous of them; it sure brightened our day.
I'm sorry you're still stuck in the Big "O". I know you'd much rather be at home playing with all of your fun toys. That day will come.
Have fun trick or treating tomorrow. Hope you get lots of chocolate. Remember that chocolate is comfort food. You will be a beautiful princess regardless of which dress you wear. Have a nice weekend. We hope your counts RISE!
Love you from the Show Me State! Sure am glad that the Huskers won today.
Joyce Zulovich
Joyce <zulovichja@missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO USA - Saturday, October 30, 2004 3:41 PM CDT
Hi Jessie!
It's Uncle Tony checking in from work. Just wanted to say hi and hope you are having a good week. Soooooo glad you got to leave the hospital. Sam and Aunt Amy both had very good birthdays this month (Aunt Amy's was yesterday -- the big 4-0).
Well, take care and keep being a strong brave girl! We love you!
Uncle Tony
Uncle Tony <tony@homesteadcustom.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 4:57 PM CDT
Dear Toni,
It's great to read when you update - makes those lonely mornings at work a little less lonely sometimes.
We love you guys!
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
- Thursday, October 28, 2004 9:49 AM CDT
Hi Jessica, Toni and Grandma Jeanne:
I just learned about this site when Carol called about Grandma Reba's birthday party next month.
You have been in my prayers and will continue to be in my prayers. None of us have any idea what you have been through, but want you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers all the time. We are pulling for you "out west!"
Eloise Schmidt <eschmidt@atcjet.net>
Brule, NE USA - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 12:50 AM CDT
Jessica,
We love your new wheels! You are so deserving of the new Jeep considering all that you have been thru these past few months in Omaha.
Hang in there. Radiation will be a breeze compared to everything else. You will love the white "milk" sleep medicine! Parents beware; no naps during radiation. The sleep medicine puts them in a wonderful deep sleep that takes the place of their daily nap! Take a few minutes to yourself while Jessica is going thru her radiation treatment.
Hope to meet you some day when we are visiting relatives in Big Red Country. Even tho we now live in the Show Me State we're still die hard Husker fans despite their record.
Have a wonderful day. God is good and will take care of you. I just know it.
Joyce & Jill
Joyce Zulovich <zulovichja@missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO home of the MU Tigers! - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 11:25 AM CDT
Hi, Jessica, Toni, Jeanne..Just read your updates and Tim's update. Things appear to be better, but different and so we are all hoping for the best. Maybe this change of places will really be great for all of you, expecially Jessia. I am sure she and Ardena miss each other terribly and so it will be good when Jessica gets to go home. I know it will be scary. How can it help but be that. We are all pulling for you Jessica and family. Love Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Monday, October 25, 2004 10:14 PM CDT
Dear Jessica and family,
We hope you remain fever free. We know all about fevers. Jill spiked a fever after 7 out of 8 rounds of chemo and had to be inpatient which makes sleep difficult for everyone.
I'm sure about now you feel like you've earned your "back seat" MD by learning all of the medical procedures expected of the parents. Jill was on TPN continuously from Febr to Sept of 2004. Finally her appetite is BACK.
We hope your older daughter remains strong and happy while sissy is getting all of the treatments in the big "O". It's hard on everyone.
I am so sorry you had to come home to a yard that hasn't been mowed since July. Our yard was neglected this year, too. Along with the housework. But our children are top priority right now.
Hang in there. Better days are ahead for all of you. Enjoy Halloween. You all deserve a break!
Joyce Zulovich--cancer mom
Joyce <zulovichja@missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO USA - Monday, October 25, 2004 8:01 PM CDT
Toni, Jean, and Jessie,
A change of view? That sounds like a good thing. Maybe having some of your own space will make you feel more "homey" I am not nearly as crafty as you and I am sure I would feel sanitized if I had spent I much time in the hospital as you guys. Send me the new phone number I have been thinking of calling all last week but the time aways appeared that it might conflit with you sleeping, eating, etc. We are thinking of you. Kim, Shawn, El
Kim Riley <kvrainc@atcjet.net>
- Sunday, October 24, 2004 11:54 AM CDT
Hello Jessica
Skylar, Adam and I have all been praying for you. Hope the stem cell transplant is going as well as planned. Sky just got done with another round of chemo(his 6th one before they atempt his surgery. His spirits are great as yours are I am sure. He still talks about watching fire works with you. Keep strong we are always thinking of you.
kelly voorvart <dudeslady@msn.com>
omaha, ne douglas - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 8:51 PM CDT
Happy Belated Anniversary Tim & Toni!! I thought of your anniversary on Monday... of course a card didn't get mailed out... I've gotten bad at that ... but you guys are in my thoughts daily. I read the entries you write just about daily and I have that picture of Jessica and Ardena on my desk so my thoughts are never far. I wish I was closer to help out. I miss you Toni, it's been a long time since our own childhood introduced us. I enjoy knowing how things are going and pray that Jessica gets better every day. Lots of love to you all!!
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 3:38 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
Toni it was great to talk to you last week. Thanks so much for calling. I continue to prayer for your whole family. I hope Jessica continues to improve and the antibiotics will help and surgery will not be necessary. Toni hang in there and if you ever need to talk again please call. (home 467-5185 or cell 417-5236). Someday we will get Jessica and Josh together to play. The day will come that they will both be cancer free. We will pray that day is soon. Take care.
Diane and Josh
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 8:33 AM CDT
Happy Anniversary Toni and Tim!!!!!!!
I'm so glad the staff at the hospital continues to work with you!
We miss you, love you and think of you every day. We gathered with Scott, my Da, Debbie, Tim, Brooke and Duncan on Friday and I know they feel the same.
Love,
Susan and Jake
Suze <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, CO - Monday, October 11, 2004 10:22 AM CDT
Dear Jessica and Dena,
Our pastor prayed for you in church today. A lot of people really care about you! We are really glad that you are feeling better today! Will says that you look really cute in your make a wish pictures. We really hope to see you at Thanksgiving in Lincoln! Dena, How are you? We really hope to see you soon!
Your cousins, Katie and Will Hindman <kbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Sunday, October 10, 2004 8:58 PM CDT
Toni, Jessie, and Jean.
Toni, sorry I missed you the other day. I was going to call you back, I will try this week. We are thinking of you. El brings up Jessie at Church on Sunday during the concern time. I made the request to pray for your strenght. Just know that today there are alot of Congos in Brule thinking of you guys. Take care and keep up the good work advocating for the treatment Jessie deserves, I am in awe of your ability. Kim
Kim Riley <kvrainc@atcjet.net>
Brule, NE USA - Sunday, October 10, 2004 1:40 PM CDT
With Jessica's family support and great love for her, she's bound to beat this BEAST soon. Our prayers are with you as we're also fighting cancer with our two year old daughter, Jill. Now she has a nasty line infection. Always something when will it stop? Our toddlers deserve to be little kids having fun! Not stuck in a hospital.
Hang in there. I agree; what would we do without our mothers in this case??
Joyce Zulovich
www.caringbridge.org/mo/jillsjourney
Joyce Zulovich <zulovichja@missouri.edu>
Columbia, MO USA - Saturday, October 9, 2004 11:54 AM CDT
Hello Toni, Jessie and Mom, just thinking alot about you all today and missing Jessie lots. Here she got a kick about us potentially naming our new pup after her--but we decided on Molly instead; can't wait for you to see her! I am glak to have spent the night w/Jessie and pray all the nights go well from now on. Love you lots--Aunt Carol
Carol Biel <cjmcneff@alltel.net>
- Friday, October 8, 2004 4:47 PM CDT
Hi, I'm so glad Jessica is doing a little better. I check this web site regularly and call Mom for updates. Playing and singing seem like good signs that she's feeling stronger. We pray she'll be back to her usual sweet and sassy self very soon. Love to you all. Jane
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, TX - Friday, October 8, 2004 3:56 PM CDT
Hi Toni,
Think of you and family often. The big ciy of Brule is the same!
Take care, easier said then done.
Doris
Doris Wiest <dwiest@atcjet.net>
Brule, ne usa - Thursday, October 7, 2004 7:21 PM CDT
Hi Jessica! We think about you often. Hope you will feel better and be able to come home soon!
Mom and Dad and Ardena, This must be a difficult time for you all. Take care of yourselves! You're in our thoughts! Dale and Carol (Wishgranters)
Dale and Carol Kroeker <dalek@clsinvest.com>
lincoln, ne usa - Sunday, October 3, 2004 11:08 AM CDT
hang in there Toni. Be patient. I can only imagine what you are all going through especially Jessica. I am so happy there is some improvement. She will be back to her normal self you just have to believe that. We think of you all often. Aunt Joanne
Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Saturday, October 2, 2004 9:58 PM CDT
Jessica, Toni, Tim and Ardeana: It was wonderful speaking & laughing with you today!! Keep laughing and living. You are in our prayers. Let us know if you need anything.
Michaelynn & Kiyati <mfrates@hotmail.com>
greenwich, CT USA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 2:20 PM CDT
Just reading your updates, We met you at Rainbow House some time back. We just checked back into Children's with our daughter, Molly as she is now recovering from round 5 of chemo for AML leukemia. Our prayers are with Jessica and your family. Tim and Kerrie Lambert
Tim, Kerrie and Molly Lambert
- Wednesday, September 29, 2004 11:37 AM CDT
I am so happy that they are treating you well there Toni, and listening to your ideas. Having just been through a similar situation I know how rare that can be. The water matt sounds wonderful, and I'm so glad they got Jessica something she could take (yum, grape).
My uncle constantly had to think outside the box to find new solutions to new difficulties. It sounds like you're doing a wonderful job of that - we salute you! Jessica is so lucky to have a smart family helping her. I wish I had more ideas for you (and was close enough to donate blood), but it sounds like you've got things in hand as much as you can.
Love,
Susan and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, Co - Monday, September 27, 2004 1:35 PM CDT
Dear Jessica and family,
Hello! I am Katie's, Will's, Beth's and Doug's pastor out here in Pullman Washington. I want you to know that you all are in our prayers -- my two children, Leda and Jake, and I said a prayer for you as we read your journal this evening. Know that we are thinking of all of you and send our love and many prayers for God's strength and healing. Blessings, Rev. Kristine Zakarison, Community Congregational United Church of Christ, Pullman WA
Kristine Zakarison <kristine@pullman.com>
Pullman, WA - Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:04 PM CDT
Thinking of you all everyday. God bless you all, we are with you in spirit. What a great way to keep us all updated on the events. Take care and we love you all. Hope to see you soon Jessica.
Steve, Julie and Ella <candldy4u@aol.com>
- Saturday, September 25, 2004 1:35 AM CDT
Hi Jessie:
We're praying for you out here in Washington state...you hold on tight to those angels. Your cousins Katie and Will are looking forward to seeing you and Dena again at Thanksgiving.
Doug, Beth, Katie and Will Hindman <bbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA - Friday, September 24, 2004 4:24 PM CDT
We LOVE YOU!
Susan McNeff Skokan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
CO - Friday, September 24, 2004 3:46 PM CDT
Hello to everyone. I'm sorry to hear of all the struggles you are facing with this treatment but I know Jessica is blessed to have you there with her, loving her and comforting her and cheering her on. I pray God gives you strength everyday. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you. We are there for you in prayer and spirit. Much love, Jane and Family
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, TX usa - Friday, September 24, 2004 3:08 PM CDT
Hi Jessica! I'm planning to visit you soon. In the meantime keep on keeping on. You're in my prayers and I'll see you soon. We'll have fun playing. Love, Aunt Bette.
Bette Sigwing <ziggy@megavision.com>
Ogallala, Ne USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 3:00 PM CDT
Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you.
Uncle Chuck and Aunt Connie <ccfarm@atcjet.net>
Brule, NE - Friday, September 24, 2004 10:00 AM CDT
Thank you Toni and Tim's e-mail for the update. We think of you often and pray for your strength. Keep yourselves well so you are there for the girls. Tell Jessica and Ardena hello and keep us posted.
Aunt Joanne <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Brule, NE USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 9:57 PM CDT
Checking in and thinking of you all lots! Hoping Jessica is doing alright today and can be giggly with you. Love from Wisconsin, Cathy & crew
Cathy Cryer
Madison, Wi - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 8:29 PM CDT
Hello from Wichita, Kansas. Jeremy Denoyelles has sent an email to us letting us know about Jessica. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I have gone through cancer treatment myself, but it doesn't compare with what your baby is going through. Children are so strong, hang in there and know that you have friend that you didn't even know you had. I have placed her name on the prayer line at the Sisters of St. Joseph.
Debra Forshee <dforshee@pdstech.com>
Wichita, ks USA - Monday, September 20, 2004 11:28 AM CDT
Dear Toni,
You are truly remarkable, not to mention Jessica, Tim and Ardena! What troopers! Thank you for keeping us updated through the journal. On behalf of everyone at Make-A-Wish, we send you our best! Jane
Jane Griffin <jgriffin@nebraska.wish.org>
Lincoln, NE USA - Friday, September 17, 2004 1:15 PM CDT
Toni,
You should write a pamphlet for parents of children with cancer that includes all of your creative solutions for things that have come up during Jessica's treatment. My favorite, so far, is definitely the Sleeping Beauty challenge. How perfect! I will love sharing the story of Jessie becoming a true sleeping beauty during her scan. You are all in our thoughts and prayers!
Cousin Jody
Lincoln, NE USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 11:19 AM CDT
Jessica and family,
WOW. What a busy two weeks you have had. I know the feeling. Josh had 2 1/2 weeks of radiation. You would rather drive everyday so you can spend time at home at night. I am glad Jessica is feeling good. It sounds like you had a great time this weekend. Family times are so precious. We will be thinking of you and praying the transplant all goes well. We will check in again.
Diane & Josh
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 8:30 AM CDT
Hi All--
Aunt Joanne told us about the web site. So very nice. Hope all is going well. Think about all of you. Looking forward to seeing all of you soon. Let us know if there is anything we can do to help.
Love lots, Uncle Chuck & Aunt Connie
Connie Frates <ccfarm@atcjet.net>
Brule, NE Keith - Friday, September 3, 2004 10:06 PM CDT
Dear Toni and family,
I wish you guys all the best! Take care! I hope we can all see each other soon.
Love,
cousin Scott McNeff
M Scott M
Denver, Co - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 10:56 AM CDT
Dear Toni, Tim, Jessica and Ardena,
Happy September! Hope you have a good strong day. I love you all very much!
Hugs,
Susan McNeff Skokan
Suze and Jake <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, Co - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 10:54 AM CDT
Hi Toni and Family,
Linda (Poppe) Lakey here in Imperial, NE. Just got done reading about your struggles and wanted to let you know that Mom keeps us up-to-date about Jessica and your family. Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Your girls are just beautiful!! Hang tough! Linda
Linda Lakey <lakey@gpcom.net>
Imperial, NE - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 10:40 PM CDT
Hello Tony, Jessica and family I hope you remember me Tony I am Sue Goettles friend we meet at her new house. My prayers are with all of you
Bonnie Nguyen and Brenden
Bonnie Nguyen and Brenden <brendenlee@msn.com>
Lincoln, ne usa - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 8:52 AM CDT
Jessica,
Please come back to Brule we miss you. I miss you and love you very much.
I enjoyed the pictures. Love Bob
Bob Zingg <dwiest@atcjet.net>
Brule, ne usa - Monday, August 30, 2004 7:09 PM CDT
Hi Toni, Doris Wiest from Brule. Stopped at Bob Zingg's today and he gave me this web site. This is a very nice web page. You and your family are in my prayers. Take care Doris
Doris Wiest <dwiest@atcjet.net>
Brule, ne usa - Saturday, August 28, 2004 9:01 PM CDT
Hi Jessica and everyone,
Rain today so we had time to look at the pictures. That is a great play set. We keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Keep up the spirits and the fight!
Love you guys.
Rus and Deb McNeff <mcrus@comcast.net>
Northglenn, Co usa - Friday, August 27, 2004 7:11 PM CDT
Hello Toni and Tim...Ardena and Jessica. Thanks for the update. We do think of you all often. Elkanah started school on the 18th. I bet Ardena is looking forward to it. We know things will keep going better for Jessica. Think positive at all times. POWER is positive thinking in our lives. Take care. Love Aunt Joanne
Joanne VAnVelson <rlvv@hotmail.com>
- Monday, August 23, 2004 8:26 PM CDT
Hi Toni, Tim, Ardena and Jessica - I hope all is going well today. I have been thinking of you all a lot lately. I'm happy that you had some fun with the safari. Have fun at school Ardena!! 'Take the good with the bad, do your best, lend a hand and rely on friends'
Keep Smilin' too.
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, Az - Thursday, August 19, 2004 10:52 AM CDT
Hi, Jessi & Toni. Hope everything is going according to plan finally. No more sniffles etc. Good luck!!! Barb
Barb Mapes <artlady@cornhusker.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, August 5, 2004 9:07 PM CDT
Hi Tim, Toni, Ardenna and Jessica
The website is great and to get to see pictures of all of you! My prayers are with you. Gods Blessings
Kevin Rose
Kevin Rose <ks1rose@hotmail.com>
Phoenix, AZ - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 2:17 PM CDT
Hi, Jessi, Ardena, Toni & Tim. I'll see you tomorrow afternoon & we'll find some FUN!!! Barb Mapes
Barb Mapes <artlady@cornhusker.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 10:23 AM CDT
I Jessica..How are we doing today? Heard you enjoyed seeing Elkanah. I like the piece on the news channel about you. What a deal. Looked like you really had a good party. I bet you and Ardena enjoy the playset. I can't think of a better way to enjoy time with my sister. We are thinking about you. Tell mom, dad, gramma, Ardena hello for me.Joanne
Joanne
Brule, NE USA - Monday, August 2, 2004 10:35 PM CDT
HI Jessica UNCLE BRIAN here. Say it loud and we'll see you soon
Brian McNeff <bmcneff@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, ne USofA - Monday, August 2, 2004 5:00 PM CDT
Hi Jessie,
Sam and I just watched you on the tv station's page. We really wish we could have been there too! Sam really watched and talked to the screen, so I think he must recognize all you pollacks!!! Give Dena, Dad, & Mom big hugs for us!
Love you all, and lots of prayers!
Uncle Tony & Sam
Uncle Tony & Cousin Sam <tony@homesteadcustom.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Sunday, August 1, 2004 8:26 PM CDT
Hello Everyone,
I am very glad that you have a great "tree house" and playground!!! That will be wonderful for many years. We are thinking of you and pray for your strength.
Susan Malloy and Family
Camp Verde, AZ 86322 - Sunday, August 1, 2004 9:16 AM CDT
Hi Jessica, Deena, Tim and Toni.
WOW! What cool playground you have! Girls, you looked so beautiful on televison! Jonathon said to say HI! COOL Slide!
We missed seeing you all on the 4th of July but you were on all our minds at the neighborhood gathering.
We love you all - Mary Furnas and family.
Mary Furnas <mefurnas@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Sunday, August 1, 2004 8:56 AM CDT
Hello everyone!
We missed you muchly at the lake, I hope you're all there with us next year or the year after. It was wonderful to see Emily, Carol, John, Bruce, Jean, Amy, Roger, Tessa, Brenna, Tonia, Tayla, Terrance, Becky etc. even though I only got to see Uncle Bruce and Aunt Jean for a little while. We thought of you - always do. I'll send pictures soon. I'm already home but they are still out there. Carol called last night and said they were watching a beautiful sunset with a big storm off to the North and crashing waves.
I'm glad you're getting more nutrition Jessica. Stay strong.
Take care and I hope everyone gets a moment to breathe and relax.
Love,
Susan
Susan McNeff Skokan <smcneff@charterwestmortgage.com >
Denver, CO - Friday, July 30, 2004 3:52 PM CDT
I heard about this website today from sister Jody. I've put you guys on our prayer chain here. I consistently have people asking me for Jessie updates. Love is coming from Glenwood Springs, CO!
Jan Hindman Shute <janetteh@rof.net>
Glenwood Springs, CO - Thursday, July 29, 2004 8:41 PM CDT
Hi! Ardena told us about this site today! What a fun birthday party! May God continue to watch over all of you and may you see His hand in everything!
Love and prayers!
Cori, Wayne, Karissa & Kyra Boesiger
Cori Boesiger <coriandwayne@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 12:02 AM CDT
My prayers and thoughts are with Jessica and her family during this very difficult time. I learned of Jessica's illness through Kendrea's mother and wanted to express my deepest hopes for Jessica's recovery. May God watch over Jessica and her family.
Diane Centner <dysgarden@ameritech.net>
Tinley Park, IL - Thursday, July 29, 2004 10:11 AM CDT
So happy to hear about Santa coming to your Birthday Party; what did you name your moose? My best to Mom, Dad, big sister, Grandma, & Grandpa too. You may remember me...I was one of the nursing instructors for students when you were at Children's Hospital early July. Love to read your entries & see pictures. What a party!
Sharon Johannes <slj3981@aol.com>
Omaha, Ne USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 4:49 PM CDT
Jessica,
What great news that you are home. It sounds like you were a very brave girl. Josh was in clinic on Monday and he wanted to play with you. Maybe we will see you there soon. I loved the pictures of your party. What a great wish. Take care.
Diane & Josh
www.caringbridge.org/ne/josh
Diane Brestel <dbrestel@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 3:50 PM CDT
I everyone. I have tried and am finally getting into the site. Is good to hear the sugery went well. I think of you all often. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Call if you need anything...Keep positive thoughts.
Terri Hunter <nurse_lady1@yahoo.com>
Lincoln, ne usa - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 8:32 PM CDT
We loved viewing the home page with the pictures and music! What a wonderful birthday you had! We'll be thinking of you in the weeks ahead. You are such a brave little girl. Dale and Carol (Wishgranters)
Dale and Carol Kroeker
Lincoln, NE USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 6:44 PM CDT
Hi Tim, Toni, Ardena and Jessica:
Greetings and best wishes from Washington State. Know that we and our church are praying and sending our love to all of you!
Thanks so much for setting up the Caringbridge.
Doug
Doug Blanks Hindman <dbhindman@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 3:29 PM CDT
Hi Jessica, I am Patricia (a chaplain who visited you a few times, a friend of Kendrea) maybe you remember me? I also had my birthday last Sunday 25, and I remembered you that day. It is ve#97n@adelphia.net>
Pullman, WA USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 3:29 PM CDT
Hi Jessica, I am Patricia (a chaplain who visited you a few times, a friend of Kendrea) maybe you remember me? I also had my birthday last Sunday 25, and I remembered you that day. It is very nice for me have a little friend who have the birthday the same day!!!
I hope you are doing ok. I would like to visit you soon.
God stay with you always little friend!!
Patricia <patojcp@yahoo.com>
Omaha, NE US - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 10:47 AM CDT
I can't tell you how happy we were to hear how well the surgery went! When Mom said Jessica was running around already, I couldn't believe it. That girl has an amazing spirit! We pray for you all everyday. Mikayla feels a special kinship with "Jessa." She talks about her all the time and says special prayers for her. She is anxious to see her again and play. We had a wonderful time at the birthday party. Thank you so much for including us. I only wish there was more we could do to help. We love you all. God Bless You. Jane and family.
Jane Reynoldson <jane@reynoldson.net>
Frisco, Tx - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 10:35 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Jessica. My prayers are with you and your family that you will get well. Your web site is great and it will be nice to see how you are doing. Take care.
Mike Rose <flyingsaucerdude@starband.net>
Divide, CO USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 10:08 PM CDT
Our prayers are with you. Kendrea told us about your pleasant disposition. Keep on smiling -- God is with you.
Ken & Karen Erb <krekse@msn.com>
Joliet, Il USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 5:02 PM CDT
Jessica, Ardena, Toni and Tim,
Seeing God's handiwork in so many ways, keep the faith! May He keep you strong and give you peace. Always in our thoughts and prayers, The Fackler Family
Kendrea Fackler <nf61134@alltel.net>
Lincoln, NE USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 4:09 PM CDT
Hello, Toni,Tim,Ardean, Jessica, Jeanne... So good to hear from gramma Jeanne tonight that jessica is going strong. I know things will keep going that way. One step at a time..Right? Keep looking forward..I know Ardean will help you feel better Jessica.. Good to have a caring sister. Hang in there Jeanne, Toni, Tim...I know it must be really hard. Know that we are thinking about you. Joanne
Joanne
Brule, Ne USA - Sunday, July 25, 2004 9:41 PM CDT
Hi all! We were so thrilled to hear that Jessica's surgery went so well. You are always in our prayers and it looks as though they are being answered. Please let us know if you need anything. We would love to help out wherever we can.
Love and kisses to all!
Rus and Deb
Rus and Deb McNeff <mcrus@comcast.net or mcdeb96@comcast.net>
Northglenn, CO USA - Sunday, July 25, 2004 7:52 PM CDT
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and pray that all will continue to go well. Happy Belated Birthday Toni... and Happy Belated Birthday to Ardena too... One year I'll get birthday cards out in a timely fashion. I think of Jessica often and I'm glad that there is a website to catch up on events without bothering the family too much. Lots of Love and Prayers
Kathy Fink <katzklown@aol.com>
Glendale, AZ USA - Sunday, July 25, 2004 3:15 PM CDT
I'm so glad to hear that overall things are going good. I am sure there are setbacks, but the BIG picture is what's important. It seems as if you are taking things one day at a time. I think that is all you can do. We continue to pray for you and always hope for the best.
Tawny, Ed, Morgan, & Bryce Zach <tawny.zach@earthlink.net>
Lincoln, NE U.S. - Saturday, July 24, 2004 9:03 PM CDT
hi kids,the"computer-illiter*"taking lessons on idiot-bboxfrom Carol - like your website. Hoping youj will getbetteer soon(sooner than I learn how to operate this infern'l contrapshun) Love, Grampa BRUCE
Bruce Mcneff <mcneff@ATCJET.net>
Brule, NE USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 11:19 AM CDT
Jessica and Family,
My name is Janice Ayres. I live in Lincoln, NE. My mom (Sharon Struckman) has been keeping me up to date on Jessica as she works with Jessica's aunt Joanne at the bank in Brule. I'm an oncology nurse at Bryan here in Lincoln so my mom comes to me with her questions about Jessica's condition/treatment. What a beautiful girl you are Jessica! You have amazing eyes that reveal your strong spirit! Know that I am thinking about you and praying for your full recovery. God Bless!!
Janice Ayres <janicemayres@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE 68502 - Saturday, July 24, 2004 9:51 AM CDT
GLAD THAT THE HARMONICA HELPED WITH JESSIES RECOVERY WE WILL CONTINUE OUR PRAYERS THAT THINGS CONTINUE TO GO WELL GRANDPA DELMER AND GRANDMA FLOSSIE
DELMER HINDMAN <WWW.DHINDMAN@GPCOM.NET>
HAY SPRINGS, NE USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 9:50 AM CDT
Jessica and Family,
It was so good to see you all at the hospital today. Jessica and Ardena looked so cute all dressed up. I am so happy that Jessica's surgery went well and she could not have looked better. Jesse you are in my prayers. God bless you all.
Tiffany Williams <tiff725@hotmail.com>
Omaha, Ne - Friday, July 23, 2004 10:35 PM CDT
Jessica Toni Tim and Ardeena
Shirley and I are praying for you
Tony Manthey
Anhony J. Manthey <idocmanthe@cs.com>
Lincoln, ne - Friday, July 23, 2004 9:34 PM CDT
I think about you and pray for you every day. Please let me know if I can help in any way (402)720-0990. All my Love and Prayers,
Sandy <sandy_dreyer@Hotmail.com>
Scribner, NE 68025 - Friday, July 23, 2004 8:13 PM CDT
Jesse, Toni, Tim and Mom--you are all in our thoughts as you go through the next week of recovery- as you know we wish we could do more and take the hurt away. Jesse--have some fun and TCDB!!(turn, cough and deep breath!!!) :) LOVE YOU!!! John, Carol and Emily
Carol Biel <cjmcneff@alltel.net>
York , NE USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 10:01 PM CDT
yaaaahhhooooo! Gooo! That's a comment from Sam, anxious to see his cousins Jessie and Dena someday soon. He can't wait till you can come to the farm and visit and chase kitties and chickens and guineas. Take care you all and we are so happy.
Sam and Amy Hindman <amyhindman@yahoo.com>
Hay Springs, NE USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 3:39 PM CDT
Tim, Toni, and Jessica - what great news with the surgery. I just wanted you to know that even though we are far away and have never met Jessica - we are sending good thoughts and warm hugs your way. Hang tough - we are thinking of you often. Sharon & Evan Hindman and family.
Evan & Sharon Hindman <evanh@cedar-rapids.net>
Cedar Rapids, IA USA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 7:03 AM CDT
My prayers for you and the family today and as you recover from the surgery. ANd for the recovery time over the next months. When I say my prayers for you I set the intention that you heal fully and that you get back to doing the things that little girls do soon. Get well Jessica. Deb
Deb Mizell <debmiz@msn.com>
Denver, CO - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 8:24 PM CDT
God bless you, Jessica and Ardena and Tim and Toni.
Donna Ewy <dewy3@cox.net>
Newton, KS USA - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 8:13 PM CDT
Hi, I'm a friend of Susan's, and I just wanted to wish you well, and let you know that there are people all over the place thinking of you, and supporting you! You will be in my thoughts!
Kristi <cattiva_maga@yahoo.com>
Lafayette, CO USA - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 6:36 PM CDT
Jessica, Tim, Toni and Ardena,
We are so glad the surgery went well. You all are in our prayers every day. We hope someday we can come visit you all and the girls can play together in your new treehouse. Thinking of you from your friends in Wichita!
Jeremy, Laura, Ainsley, Sara and Maggie <jld8996@yahoo.com>
Wichita, KS - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 3:26 PM CDT
Jessica and all,
It was so good to see you Monday. We are glad the surgery went so GREAT! I can't wait to come play on your new slide. I hope you feel better soon. Love, Bryce
Bryce Goettle and family <tnsgoet@msn.com>
Lincoln, NE - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 1:19 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you all today and days ahead. We want you to know we think of you all everyday. God bless and love to you all.
Steve, Julie and Ella <candldy4u@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 10:23 PM CDT
Jessica and family,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you all today and days ahead. We want you to know we think of you all everyday. God bless and love to you all.
Steve, Julie and Ella <candldy4u@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 10:22 PM CDT
Jessica,
I am thinking of you. Hope you get better soon and come back home soon. I want to come over and play ball with you again. Love you Jessica. Hugs and Kisses.
Ella Rae <Candly4u@aol.com>
Lincoln, NE Lancaster - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:47 PM CDT
Jessica, we are thinking of you today. What a lucky girl you are to have mom, dad and your lovely sister Ardena pulling for you. We think of you all often and know that today will go well for you. Aunt Joanne and Uncle Richard.Tell Gramma Jeanne Hello , She loves you and your sister very much. she is so great as you know.
Joanne Van Velson <rlvv@hotmail.com>
Bruel, Ne USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 8:04 PM CDT
my prayers are with all of you today, as they have been every day, Know this is the best way to help. Other (our) Tim has said many times that without all the prayers said for him, he would not be as he is today. will pray the surgery goes well and your family will all be together and happy soon. Love and prayers, Ruth
Ruth schmeits
Goehner, Ne Usa - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 11:15 AM CDT
our prayers are with you all. What a brave little girl and caring family. Tim, we are so proud of you and your family and accomplishments.
Gary Cassatt and Mary
Derby, Ks USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 10:25 AM CDT
Dear Jessica, Tim, ToniRae, Deena,
We pray for you today as we have been other days and months.
Jerry, Faye, Justin Gaskin <fayeg@trib.com>
- Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:21 AM CDT
Good luck today Jessica! Jake and I send you and Toni, Tim and Ardena lots of love! Candles are burning for you today. My co-worker Angela saw your picture yesterday and she thinks you and your sister are just adorable. I'll write more later!
Love,
(cousin) Susan
Susan McNeff Skokan <ar1_17@yahoo.com>
Denver, CO - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:14 AM CDT
Toni, Tim, Jessie, and Ardenia;
We are thinking of you all today. I heard the birthday party went great. You are one special girl to get Santa out in this kind of weather. Call if you need anything.
Love, Kim, Shawn, and Elkanah
Kim Riley <kvrainc@atcjet.net>
Brule, NE USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:11 AM CDT
Jessica - This is the Iowa grammie who made you the pink blanket. I pray every day for you and hope you are getting better. You are such a pretty little girl. I especially liked your teddy bear, as I collect them and have quite a few. May God bless you and take care of you.
Reva Scully <rsquilt@iowatelecom.net>
Oakville, IA USA - Monday, June 14, 2004 8:42 PM CDT
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