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missing you always madz!
♥ i love you like a fat kid loves cake! ♥
charlotte <33 <uhh0spaghetti0s@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn - Thursday, November 16, 2006 9:08 PM CST

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My mom will be calling, I heard she got your message. I should probably talk with you soon Julie. I hope things are going alright for you guys. I have had an interesting past two weeks.
Love you Maddie...I miss you so much and I hope you are relaxing up in heaven with all your CB buds and watching over us.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <monarch_president@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, November 16, 2006 2:02 PM CST

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missing you, loving you, and wondering what you're up to maddie!
lots of hugs,
dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn usa - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 10:53 PM CST

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Just thinking about all of you. Hope to see you soon!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 15, 2006 10:39 AM CST

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Hello,

I love coming here and reading your words. It is so inspiring to me. You have such a way with words, no matter what you are going through you can always lift someone up with words, on the phone or on the computer. It amazes me. You are such a wonderful friend. You have been on my mind a tremendous amount lately, you are always on my mind, but it seems to be a bit more lately than usual. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love Andrea Brown
Andrea Brown Ryans Story <andrea_brown03@yahoo.com>
Fort Campbell, Ky USA - Saturday, November 11, 2006 7:13 PM CST

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hey...i just thought that i would stop by and say hey....and to let u guys know that im always thinking about u guys......i love you Stephanie Moore
Stephanie Moore <Princess015@comcast.net>
St. Paul, mn - Saturday, November 11, 2006 2:55 PM CST

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There is no doubt where Maddie got her wonderful writing ability. Julie, I love reading your journal. You always seem to put so many of my thoughts into words. I sure could use a Keegan moment right now. He sure can put a smile to any face. Thinking about all of you guys !!! Good luck Chachi with basketball.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
Abingdon, MD - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 9:36 PM CST

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Julie and family, I have a daughter who also plays soccer, a year older than ChaChi and on Varsity. (She was also at the USA Cup this year, coincidence!) Her HS team had a player who, after earning a varsity letter as a freshman, was diagnosed with a brain tumor and died December 2005. She would have been a senior this year. After "Senior's Night" I realized that no-one thought about Daron or recognized her, even though her mother still comes to all the HS games. Thinking of your journey with Maddie, I knew I had to do something, even though my daughter and I hadn't known Daron.

I contacted the coach and the mom of the captain (who had played with Daron since they were 11) and suggested that the team dedicate their State elimination playoff game to Daron, give her mom flowers and announce it before the game. One of the moms wrote a piece for the program and it was beautiful, with a wonderful picture of Daron.

There were many tears, but her mom was so touched! Even though most of the players hadn't played with Daron, but only knew her from afar. The team won, and the paper also mentioned Daron, which was nice.

I thought you might want to know how I'm taking Maddie's lesson to heart and even though I can't do anything for you, I am remembering her.
Laura <mbaonline@comcast.net>
Seattle, WA - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 6:51 PM CST

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Julie...thinking of Maddie and all of you. Hold each other close in the memories of your beautiful sweet Maddie.Sending you hugs from Hemet and know someone cares Sherry
Sherry <cowpies5@aol.com>
Hemet, ca - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 1:22 PM CST

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Julie, I havent signed in forever. It honestly is still very painful to come to maddies or cheyennes site. I think maddies was more of a shock because we thought she was stable and doing o,k then the next thing was that she passed away. I know you kept the end private, It still breaks my heart like it does everyone that maddie is gone.
I dont like that brother bear is growing up without his big sis. she so loved him. and of course her sisters and her best friend. life seems robbed of maddie. she could of acomplished anything. Julie, you raised such beautiful, thoughtful, loving children. they are a blessing and Gift to all who know them. I think of you so so much. I come here and see maddie and cry, never sign .... as if that is going to change the situation by avoiding it. Im sorry! Just know I loved maddie and thank you for sharing her with all of us. I know I am a better Mom just following madddies journey. We all learned alot from that teenager. thanks for being you and keeping up maddies site. maddie.... your death makes me speechless.... what a loss for us. and a gain for heaven. miss you sweet girl! send my love to chey!
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Monday, November 6, 2006 10:01 PM CST

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Thinking and praying for all of you...
Mary Sievert <Msievert@MIAD.edu>
Mpls, - Monday, November 6, 2006 8:10 PM CST

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Thinking of all of you, and missing you!
Auntie P <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Sunday, November 5, 2006 7:13 AM CST

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Maddie- I miss you soooooooooo much!!!!!

XOXOXO...
Mom
Mom <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 2, 2006 10:18 PM CST

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I LOVE YOU
Austin Kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, October 29, 2006 1:21 AM CDT

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Thinking about you!!!
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 26, 2006 9:59 PM CDT

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Maddie~

So clever and thoughtful in the way you hide your wonderful letters for loved ones to discover. I love how you spread little gifts everywhere-- both tangible and spiritual. After reading about your Mom's finding, I was instantly reminded of the amazing creativity you presented to us each and everyday we were together. You are remarkable.
Love you Maddie!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
paskyloohoo@yahoo.com, MN USA - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 9:24 PM CDT

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Maddie Mo-

What do I do? School, friends, boys, UGH! Its just too much @ the moment, and im having trouble finding people who really understand. This is tough especially because I knew you always could, and make everything seem fine. You could turn a rainy day into a fun inside play day, a bad hair day into a make-over day, or a brain tumor into something that showed us how to really live life. I miss having someone who can turn everything crappy into something better. I struggle to immitate you in every way but always find myself coming up way short. I need reminders that stupid things arent worth stressing over and that I have all I need, plus a lot more.


I love you.


Really.





♥ ALWAYS n FORever!


liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 9:29 PM CDT

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Julie, Maddie, Ashley, Charlotte, and Keegan~
I miss you all SO much. Everything has been just TOO busy-- no time to think. I hope all of you had a great, long weekend! It's really cool to see Charlotte at school, although meetings in the hallway aren't too often. Ashley- your pics are fun to see! And I miss Julie soo soo much! Hopefully, one of these days, we can all have a Maddie day: Liz, Brittany, Austin, too. Telling lots of Maddie stories together would be amazing. I miss you tons n tons, Maddie. I love you guys!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:43 PM CDT

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I read that last entry through many tears. What an amazing young woman you raised. What a strong spirit. What a loving heart. You must be so very, very proud of your beautiful angel. Thank you for sharing her with us.

With love,
Katie (Hayley, Hunter and Taylor's mom) <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Friday, October 20, 2006 9:04 PM CDT

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Just wanted you to know someone was thinking of Maddie tonight. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Ruth <blueeyed_female@msn.com>
Hinton, WV - Thursday, October 19, 2006 11:33 PM CDT

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Just stoping by to say a quick hello. School has been really busy this year. Hope everything is going well for all of you. Chach hope you keeping up with school and you played a good this season! hope to see you all soon
klassy kernan <gsafsa@.,cim>
- Wednesday, October 18, 2006 1:51 PM CDT

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Hey guys,
It has been a while since I have seen you all! I hope things are going alright. If you guys are available I will stop by sometime this weekend, MEA! I love long weekends!!!
I am sure Keegan has grown a lot since I last saw him, and that Chachi is just as busy as normal and just as much of a social butterfly. I hope Ashley is still enjoying the U, and likes all of her classes this semester.
Julie I have been thinking of you guys daily. Many of the Monarch Volunteers ask about Maddie, and what your family is like. The hard thing is doing you guys justice! I could tell them some of Maddie's hilarious skits or jokes, (but we all know how that would go). It just isn't funny when you don't have the shared memory, or the when you don't have Maddie sitting right in front of you with a blanket around her head pretending to be Sadam Hussien's wife.
I will never forget the first time I saw her do that... oh god it was so unexpected and totally Maddie.
Hope to see you soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <Monarch_Volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 1:47 PM CDT

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Hey guys,
It has been a while since I have seen you all! I hope things are going alright. If you guys are available I will stop by sometime this weekend, MEA! I love long weekends!!!
I am sure Keegan has grown a lot since I last saw him, and that Chachi is just as busy as normal and just as much of a social butterfly. I hope Ashley is still enjoying the U, and likes all of her classes this semester.
Julie I have been thinking of you guys daily. Many of the Monarch Volunteers ask about Maddie, and what your family is like. The hard thing is doing you guys justice! I could tell them some of Maddie's hilarious skits or jokes, (but we all know how that would go). It just isn't funny when you don't have the shared memory, or the when you don't have Maddie sitting right in front of you with a blanket around her head pretending to be Sadam Hussien's wife.
I will never forget the first time I saw her do that... oh god it was so unexpected and totally Maddie.
Hope to see you soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <Monarch_Volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 1:46 PM CDT

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Hey Paguyo-Dornish household what's going on? I haven't seen you guys in FOREVER and I think that should change pretty soon. Soccer and fall baseball are done so I have more time now to do homework and just chill. School is a lot harder this year than the previous two but I'm dealing with it okay it just takes a lot more effort to keep the grades up. Hope Ashley is having fun at college and Charlotte is enjoying Southwest. (By the way awesome goal against South) Hope to see ya'll very soon!!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, October 15, 2006 8:45 PM CDT

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its been way to long since i've seen you guys... i mean play against you in soccer or seeing you in the stands just isnt the same. Hope all is going well with school and sports and i hope little keegan is as sweet as ever. Julie i hope your "missing maddie days" have become less stressful and have switched to the "i miss maddie days but i know she's with me always" I heard liz was over recently and i'm very jealous. Once soccer settles down we'll have to all spend some more time together. love always
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn usa - Saturday, October 14, 2006 12:25 AM CDT

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The quote brittany posted below about the butterfly is on my dorm room wall as a constant reminder of Maddies amazing personality... just letting you know you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers... -Mary
Mary Sievert <Msievert15@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, October 12, 2006 11:48 PM CDT

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"A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
And for a brief moment its glory and beauty
Belong to our world,
But then it flies on again.;
And though we wish it could have stayed,
We feel so lucky to have seen it."

Maddie, I wish you were here doing Monarch with me. It just isn't how it should be.
I hope that you are watching down on me... no I know you wouldn't have it any other way.
Things are not the same at all without your laughter, joy, and crazy personality.
You could make me happy in an instant, without even doing anything.
A certain glow radiated from you, not just when you smiled (which was frequently, almost constant), but also when you were telling a joke, or giving a presentation in class.
You forever hold a special place in my heart, no one will EVER take your place.

I still sit her wishing you could be growing, changing with us.
It is a constant battle between change and staying near to you.
I love wearing my M necklace everyday and I love telling others about how you have changed my life.
But at the same time, I wonder what is "right", how can I hold you with me,
throughout my life, and also continue to mature and grow.
Maddie I will always love you,
Brittany Dahlen <monarch_volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 10:45 PM CDT

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Julie,
You know you are on my mind! I was bummed (to say the least) when the school bus came and all the kids got off. Cameron should be on that bus. Then I got a giggle thinking about Maddie teaching and then really laughed wondering how she got that desk down here without it breaking. She's amazing!!

Miss you alot!

Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 3:34 PM CDT

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I LOVE YOU ALL!!
liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 9:32 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, I've Just been thinking alot about Maddie lately and thought I should check in on the site. Wow! what a "mature beyond her years" girl that Maddie was. I am pretty sure that I'm not that grown up yet! Alway selfless and thinking about others and never afraid to just be who she was. Steph still keeps her own "shrine" for Maddie in her bedroom. It is not surprising you still feel such emotion over her departure from this world. You are a great Mom and inspiration to so many.


love to you all, Lynn Moore and Family <mlaws@comcast.net>
St Paul, - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 2:49 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,

I found your daughter's page from David's today. Oh my, she is so beautiful!

I just sat and read those letters, and tears are streaming down my face as I type.

Yes, God sure blessed you with Maddie, and this child was wise beyound her years! I'm so sorry you are having a hard time. Grief is so much work, and takes alot of time.

My mom lost her 18 year old son, so I watched as a sibling for many years.

Keep holding on, Maddie is right there with you!

With hope,

Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Monday, October 9, 2006 5:00 PM CDT

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GREAT NEWS!!!
Monarch is now an offical South High Group.
After having about 15 meetings with the vice-principal who has to approve it is done!
Tonight Monarch is going over to Children's to paint windows, call me if you guys want to come.
See you guys soon!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <monarch_volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, October 4, 2006 1:55 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,Maddie... beautiful sweet Maddie.Thank-you for sharing her beautiful letter.She shines through you Julie!Thinking of you all and want you to know someone cares in hemet.sherry
Sherry <cowpies5@aol.com>
Hemet, ca - Tuesday, October 3, 2006 12:40 AM CDT

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Maddie
You are amazing and so inspirational. The world would be a better place if there were more people like you..
I miss you babe.
Love ya.
Jenny Bellew
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, October 2, 2006 6:31 PM CDT

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What a very wise, old soul Maddie is. She's beautiful. I cannot imagine your moments......Maddie is one of the most amazing souls to grace this Earth...her messages are resonated through you Julie. Thank-you for that. God Bless
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Sunday, October 1, 2006 8:49 PM CDT

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Julie, it's been a long time since I've checked Maddie's site but want you to know that you and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers everyday since the first time I read it several years ago. Maddie is so inspiring in her wisdom, wise well beyond her age with the strongest faith and the biggest heart. Maddie and a few other angels and their families are in my prayers by name each and every morning. So just know that some of us who haven't written in a long while, still have you and all your family in our thoughts and prayers. Take care and God bless!
Wayne Drum <murdlien@aol.com>
Tampa, FL - Saturday, September 30, 2006 11:37 PM CDT

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Thank you for sharing the gift of Maddie's wisdom through written words, again. Wow. What a blessing to know that she KNEW she was loved so deeply by you and your family. The greatest gift one can receive.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers,
Peace,
Katherine <lhallkhall@cox.net>
West Granby, CT - Saturday, September 30, 2006 12:45 AM CDT

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I too, found Maddie's website purely by chance/fate?! My daughter Amy died of osteosarcoma (bone cancer) in January, 2003. She was with us for just nine months after her diagnosis....and I understand totally the roller coaster feeling. From out of nowhere the sad days come...my heart was shattered and the pieces just don't always stay together anymore. I think that reading your beautiful daughter's letters to you....it will help me get through her approaching birthday on October 16th. My Amy handled her illness with the same dignity and grace that your Maddie did....how amazing they were! Know that your Maddie has reached out to other through her letters to you...I feel it was fate that sent me to her site. Thank you for sharing them.
Amy's mom www.caringbridge.org/sd/amyschroeder
Rosemary Harris <Rosmaburg@aol.com>
Rosemount, MN - Friday, September 29, 2006 11:30 PM CDT

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Hey gang, Hope the Soccer Saturday goes well! Wish we could be with you physically, but we are cheering you on from here! Thinking a lot about all of you, Julie, Ash, Maddie, Chachi, Keegan, Sara and Tricia, and though distance is between us, feelings are bigger than all of that! Love you all like crazy! Paula.... P.S. would love to see a picture of the red ppower ranger or Buzz Lightyear!
Auntie P <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Friday, September 29, 2006 9:17 PM CDT

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Good game Dach....ugh....

lol but I miss u guys tons! I feel like I haven't been over for EVER, that needs to change! I've been runnin around crazy the past couple weeks, just really busy w/ school and soccer and all that jazz. But I need to see you guys! I love u all and hope everythings goin good. see you soon.

and okay okay, i'll work on cleanin up my game.... I guess I do I get a little rough sometimes.lol

Lovin u Mads Always n Forever!
Liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, September 28, 2006 10:14 PM CDT

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Julie,
By pure accident, I just ran across your website. It was as though I was reading words from my own daughter. I lost my daughter to brain cancer in January, 2003. When she passed, my life forever changed and I, too, live a roller coaster life....good days and many, many bad ones. Thanks for sharing such precious writings from your daughter. I enjoyed reading them immensely. What an angel your daughter was and is!!
Vickie
Vickie Carollo <vickiecarollo@bellsouth.net>
Jackson, MS USA - Thursday, September 28, 2006 8:41 PM CDT

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Julie,

WOW! What an amazing letter. I just can't stop crying now. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.
Maryann Einarson (Sydney Coxon's mom) <meinarson@in-tec.com>
Seattle, WA - Thursday, September 28, 2006 0:28 AM CDT

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I am sitting in the Media Center at South reading your journal entry, reading Maddie's letter to you Julie. I am trying to find another advisor for Monarch (a long story which I will tell you later), and today I had the pleasure of talking about Maddie to a potential advisor. I loved telling her about how Maddie was so hilarious, she would say anything to you if you were unhappy just to get a smile. I love explaining to others how this wonderful friend of mine has changed me.
I love that I do not need to explain how she has changed me to you guys, you already know. Maddie is the greatest person I have ever met. She taught me to really appreciate the crazy days, sad days and beautiful days. Because of her I love every single day.
I hope to see you all soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, September 25, 2006 2:03 PM CDT

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Maddie,

I miss you babe! Your smile, your laugh, your friendship. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!!!! please stay with me and help me

KEEP SHINING MADDZ

austin kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, September 21, 2006 5:40 PM CDT

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Julie,

Thank you SO much for sharing Maddie's other letter to you. It is incredible.



Maddie is amazing.
Love you always and miss you forever.




Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Thursday, September 21, 2006 5:12 PM CDT

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Julie,

I'm visiting from Paulina's site and can hardly find any words to adequatly tell you how much your posts and your beautiful daughter's letters mean to others who are grieving. Wishing you and your family well on your difficult journey.
christy kennedy
- Thursday, September 21, 2006 10:10 AM CDT

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That was such a beautiful letter. Maddie is so well with her words and writting. Thinking of you guys always
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, September 20, 2006 11:08 PM CDT

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What a letter. Thank you for sharing Maddie's wonderful gift to you. The love your family shares is inspiring.
Katie <katie.kelley@target.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, September 20, 2006 2:25 PM CDT

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What a spectacular gal, that Maddie. You just can't get any better. Beautiful letter, beautiful family. Thank you for sharing it.
Kriss M <ihavepermission@gmail.com>
Minneapolis, mn - Wednesday, September 20, 2006 1:10 PM CDT

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That letter brought smiles and tears. What an amazing gift.


Mads you are undescribeably. I LOVE YOU
Liz SHay <lshay90@aol.com>
mplsm, mn usa - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 10:56 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,
I still check your site from time to time. I read Maddie's incredible letter and felt tears come to my eyes. She was and is such an amazing young girl. I met her by accident on caringbridge and was honored to meet her in person. I think of your family often. My beautiful grandaughter will be two tomorrow and is doing better these days. I thank God and maybe Maddie has had her hand somehow in this? She did love children.
Karen Ueland www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie

Karen Ueland <klpu@aol.com>
St. Paul, - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 10:31 PM CDT

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Hey Julie and family! What's going on? Haven't seen you guys in a real long time so I was just dropping by to say hi! Well not much is going on in my life except for the usual soccer and baseball and then the 3 hours or so of homework every night. My sister is still loving Madison and Adam is missing his nanny Ben(I think even a little more than Kristen. He talked to Ben for about 15 minutes and would only talk to Kristen for about 5 minutes). Well hopefully see you soon!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 10:05 PM CDT

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Julie,

What a letter, what a gift!! You have some great kids!! Thinking of you, as always.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:33 PM CDT

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There were tears falling from CA today after reading Maddie's beautiful letter to you all. What an amazing girl that Maddie! You are right...you have the most Beautiful and Amazing family....

You all remain in my thoughts...as always. Take care.
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 8:09 PM CDT

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Julie,
So often do I think of you and your family. Paula talks so highly of you. And every butterfly we see, we think of Maddie. I have experience a loss of my own and Fr. Bob spoke of butterflies in Mass, so now I think of butterflies with Maddie and my Riley. Love to your and your family. Lisa (Paula's Cosmo Club Friend)
Lisa Kanne <lisakanne@hotmail.com>
Omaha, Ne USA - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 7:10 PM CDT

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Oh, #*!?# Julie! I wasn't crying today - until I read Maddie's letter. I know we've talked about her letters, but this one was so... so ... what? I can't even put into words how meaniful. What a beautiful child ... what a beautiful soul. How blessed you are. I'll call soon.

Nadine
Nadine Paulmeno <Spitter24@aol.com www.caringbridge.org/ny/troy>
Hoover, AL USA - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 6:24 PM CDT

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Wow - Thank you, Julie, once again, for reminding me of what an amazing, mature and oh-so-special your Maddie was. You and ChaChi and Ashley and Keegan are never far from my thoughts.
~Tess
Tess Baker <tessbaker@sbcglobal.net>
Fresno, CA - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 0:59 AM CDT

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hey!
how are you guys? i was just thinking about you on this brisky september morning. havent seen you in a while! we should get together soon! charlotte, i hope sooccer is goign great for you! your so good! give us a calwhen your game is so we can come and watch you play! love you guys!
hipppapotomus aka Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 16, 2006 8:00 AM CDT

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Hello to all!
I was in the grocery store about to buy boxed mashed potatoes and thought about you guys. You made great mashed potatoes - from scratch! I decided the box would just be too lazy so I changed my menu!
It's hard seeing all the kids going to school again and all the changes. How can things just keep going without our babies here! It sucks (so eloquently put). I'll give you a call to see how things are going with everyone!
Chachi - I hope you are adjusting well to high school. Charli keeps commenting on how lucky middle school kids are - they have time after school to hang out. Not like now - (school, practice, dinner, homework & bed!)
I miss you guys.
Cameron’s mom forever!

Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, September 13, 2006 5:20 PM CDT

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I hope Keegan is having a great time at his new school!!! Thankyou so much for going last night to my soccer game!

:::SANCHEZ:::
Mariana Sanchez <ranasanchez@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, September 13, 2006 9:52 AM CDT

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Hey Guys,
I am currently printing off about 100 brochures right now! Although my fingers may be a little tired from folding and I really cannot wait to go to sleep, I am so excited to have the Monarch "kick-off" day tomorrow at South!
I finally go the group "offical" (as I told Julie earlier, you know why I think she now decided she likes me...).
Anyways, I have gotten a lot of interest from people who hear about it (yeah! Monarch is in the gossip around South!YES).
Tomorrow I also have auditions for "Hello, Dolly!" I hope that I do well. (cross your fingers)
I hope everyone is enjoying school somewhat. I am sure Chachi loves the high school environment, she is such a social butterfly, I bet she is talking to just about everyone.
I hope to stop by sometime this week when I have a package of all our Monarch stuff put together.
I miss you guys and I hope things are going well.
(I cannot wait to see the new puppy!)
http://monarchvolunteers.tripod.com is Monarch's site.
Much Love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com or monarch_volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minnneapolis, MN - Monday, September 11, 2006 10:43 PM CDT

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I was just thinking of Maddie, and saying a prayer for everyone.

Good luck in Pre-school Keegan!
Joyce <jdadekia@skidmore.edu>
Albany, NY USA - Monday, September 11, 2006 7:30 PM CDT

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Happy birthday ChaChi!! You must be quite an athlete making varsity as a freshman, way to go!

We are thinking of you guys lots. I know as a mom once cancer enters the picture, there is no such thing as a minor fever or 'just a virus'. Any time one of my kids seems less than 100% healthy, my entire body goes into panic-mode.

I always look at your photos and that one of Maddie and Keegan makes me smile every time. What a beautiful girl and what a sweet sibling moment.

Lots of love,

Katie (Hayley, Hunter and Taylor's mom) <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Sunday, September 10, 2006 8:53 PM CDT

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Julie when you spoke of your innocence being taken away, well it really spoke volumes. No longer do we play anything down and try and reason symptoms that also convey other more ominous possibilities...we must now confront these situations as you said with trips to the specailists or doctors and chip away until we are satisfied (for now) with a diagnosis.

Happy belated birthday Cha-Chi....and congrats to Ashley with her 2nd college year beginning and moving into her new place! Awesome. My Ashlei is just now mailing off those applications/essays etc....And Keegan starting pre-school! I think that's terrific...he'll have so much to add with his charming and wise personality. Always remembering Maddie. She evoked a spirit that will never be forgotten and contiues to remind us to live with dignity, grace and love.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, September 9, 2006 8:07 AM CDT

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Stoping by yo say hi...hoping to see you guys tomorrow at south
klassy kernan <sdhjshifhu@hotmail.com>
- Friday, September 8, 2006 11:22 AM CDT

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Think about you SOOO much Maddie and missing you. I love you!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, September 4, 2006 10:18 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,
I haven't signed for awhile but I still think of you and your lovely Maddie from time to time. As my daughter Kari starts her Junior year, I know that is where Maddie should be. I am still amazed by the lovely young person she was. I am glad to see your other children are doing so well. Maddie would be so proud of all of you.
Karen Ueland
www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie
Karen Ueland <klpu@aol.com>
St. Paul, Mn - Thursday, August 31, 2006 11:44 PM CDT

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Happy late bday chach... sorry its a lil late but i was outta town this past weekend. COngrats on making the varsity soccer team i know i already told you but its exciting. Well one week still school starts i dont want summer to end. Well we dance atsome of the girls soccer games so i guess thats when i will see the whole family maybe even sooner!
klassy kernan <hkljf;s@hklsaj/.com>
- Tuesday, August 29, 2006 11:29 AM CDT

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Happy Bday DACH a little late!!! I love you!!!!!!!!! Hope u had an amazing day!! Dont worry Im taking you out and a gift is coming! We just have to find some time! lol like i said before, your getting so big and finally not carrying arond ur pink blanket! haha it was like 6th grade... okay SWEETIE! I lylas for reallll!!!


♥


liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, August 28, 2006 8:49 PM CDT

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Happy birthday Cha-Chi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! May your "little" birthday gift give you millions of smiles!!!!

Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, Tx - Sunday, August 27, 2006 11:04 PM CDT

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happy 14TH birthday, charlotte! lol...
Hope it was filled with fun and laughter!

Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, August 27, 2006 10:58 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Chach, I know you are doing somethingbig and crazy or your celebration (as you guys always do)! I am ready for school, excited but I also know that I will be ready for summer again by the end of September.
I have gone all over Minneapolis to try and find someone to help my design the Monarch brochure... it is not happening as fast as I would have liked it to. I went to Yamamoto Moss, a friends father, an arts director, etc. no luck really.
I hope I can get this brochure done so I can actually help people. I hope your weekend went well and that chachi's bday is a blast tonight!
Talk to you guys soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com or monarch_volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, August 27, 2006 4:45 PM CDT

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HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY CHACHI!!! I hope you have THE BEST birthday! Enjoy your day, celebrate, eat lots of cake and MOST OF ALL HAVE A GREAT, HAPPY, FUN FILLED DAY!
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Sunday, August 27, 2006 12:59 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Chach! Big plans for a celebration? Everyone here is into the school year and knuckling down to projects, reports and tests, yuk! We see the weather has been somewhat of a downer there, is it effecting your soccer? Congrats to Ash on her big move to her new "house", how exciting! Keegan, hope you have a fantastic time at school, make sure Mom packs some goodies for lunch! Love you all, Auntie P
Paula <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Sunday, August 27, 2006 8:34 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Charlotte! And congratulations on making the varsity Soccer team! What a tremendous accomplishment! Hope you have a wonderful day today, and an even more wonderful year!
Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
- Sunday, August 27, 2006 0:29 AM CDT

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Julie - Your words always manage to touch me, and this last entry is no exception. I suppose it's because it strikes a chord deep in me that I recognize - the bittersweet contrast of missing one child so deeply, while at the same time cheering on the ones that are still here and doing so well. I also could relate to the fears you had with Keegan's health. I think that after what we've been through we become hyper-vigilant, and we are reluctant to ever let our guard down again. It's a very exhausting process! However, that our children are thriving is a testament to the fact that it is working. We aren't merely surviving, but truly living, and that honours our children that have passed.

Nice to read about all the exciting news with the kids. It sounds like a great year ahead for all of them!

As always, keeping you in my thoughts.
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn <shayleen_harris@hotmail.com>
Campbell River, BC Canada - Thursday, August 24, 2006 11:44 PM CDT

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Thinking of Maddie and her beautiful family - as I often do. Hugs to all of you.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Thursday, August 24, 2006 1:08 PM CDT

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She does live on, thanks to your beautiful words....thank you for sharing this journey. You have really touched me deeply...
Laura Hudlow <lnhudlow@yahoo.com>
Lilburn, - Thursday, August 24, 2006 10:55 AM CDT

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Congratulations ChaChi!!!! That is great news. As always I was just thinking of you guys and was so excited to see an update. Julie, I don't even have kids but I too look at every headache, ache and pain differently now. I hope you leave no stone unturned to make sure little Keegan is in perfect health. You deserve that reassurance! I was really hoping to see you again this summer but hope that soon we can get together again. Know that Maddie does live on in my heart and your whole family is thought about daily.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 23, 2006 10:13 PM CDT

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Maddie, and Keegan:
I love you all very much! Keegan it was so nice to see you and play with you, it has been too long bud! The trip to Jamba was yummy with Chach, Suzie, Liz, and Keegan.
I hope your new house at college works out well for you, Ashley! Julie, thank you so much for your kind words and concern. Hopefully I'll get to see you all before school starts.
Maddie--- You are always here and I know it. Thank you for that and everything else. I love you and miss you!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Wednesday, August 23, 2006 12:17 AM CDT

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How could anyone NOT remember Maddie??? Heck, I didn't even know her, yet I am reminded of her beautiful spirit and love of life more than people that I actually know. It is something about her....her words, her loving heart, the amazing ability she had to love and live life to the absolute fullest. She captured my attention one day as I stumbled upon her website and read through her website. After that day she not only captured my attention, but she captured my heart. IT is true Maddie is an Amazing person!
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 10:46 PM CDT

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Hey!!

I love reading the updates, I really do. I can't believe chach is really going to go to highschool now. It is really hard to still comprehend everything and I can too see her showing chach around. Things have been starting to get busy again, starting up a new school year, new soccer season, new job, new everything. And as much as I wish she was here experiencing everything for herself, I know shes always with me, and thats comforting. I missed Maddie an unbelieveable amount at camp. I know that place was somewhere she loved and truly enjoyed herself. It was tough being there and knowing she isn't able to be. I've lately found myself being at a point where it just physically, mentally and emotionally hurts to not have here here, and knowing shes in an amazing place right now helps, but it still can't take the selfishness away of me wanting her here with us. Thank you for continuing to show us and remind us how amazing Maddie was and still is.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 10:42 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, girls, and of course Keegan,

I am glad I checked for an update tonight, as I have been thinking of Keegan since our last conversation... Hug the little guy for us.

God Bless

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, Tx - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 9:10 PM CDT

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Julie,

I wonder where ashley gets all of her jouralism skills from... Reading your entrys takes me away from everything, and I constantly feel like I am experiencing every emotion that you write about. I am so excite to see Charlotte play for SOUTHWEST!!! Soccer saturday is JUST around the corner, and I will be sure to see you there. Until then, stay strong; you are an inspiration to so so many.

Always thinking of you and loving all of you
caitlin eide <caitlin.eide@gmail.com>
mpls, mn - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 7:16 PM CDT

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Thinking of all of you. The kids are all going back to school this week, so much ado and hubbub. The smell of new pencils, paper and backpacks, always puts me in mind of the consumate teacher who is Maddie. Sitting, and listening to the quiet, allows me to recall Maddie and always it brings smiles, a few tears, and quite often, a few chuckles. I never forget her belting out "Sandra Dee" from Grease, at the top of her lungs, with much gusto and joy, what a treasured recollection! Wishing you all happy memories of some great performances. I love you, Auntie P
P <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Sunday, August 20, 2006 9:06 PM CDT

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I love all of you.

soooooooo very much
just me <Me@aol.com>
Mpls, mn usa - Thursday, August 17, 2006 11:04 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,

Such a tiny - sometimes amazingly surprising - world we live in. I had the honor of being invited to speak at the DPG Family Gathering in Las Vegas these past few days. As people were gathering the first day...there was a slide show playing. All kids. All kids who had died. All beautiful kids. I saw Maddie's picture. I couldn't believe it. I said, "I know that girl. It's Maddie!!! Is her mother here?" They told me you weren't able to attend. I was hoping we'd get a chance to meet.

As I've thought about the families I got to meet in Las Vegas... I can't help but wonder if perhaps you are the person that connected me to Carla and Toni? If so, thank you so much. It was such an honor to be part of that incredible gathering. I am blessed for having been part of it.

Wishing you moments of peace!
Tom Zuba <tom@tomzuba.com>
- Wednesday, August 16, 2006 10:45 PM CDT

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I can't imagine how hard it must be to be on the "In memory of" side of that presentation. It hurts my heart just to think about it.

I hope it helps in some small way to know that we are thinking of you and Maddie is never far from our thoughts.

Lots of love,
Katie (Hayley, Hunter and Taylor's mom) <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Tuesday, August 15, 2006 10:36 PM CDT

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You all have been on my mind an awful lot the past two days... Was meaning to call, but things have been really busy.. Hope all is going as well as can be..

God Bless

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, Tx - Sunday, August 13, 2006 9:23 PM CDT

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Julie,

It was great to speak with you yesterday. Thank you also for facilitating Brittany getting in touch with me. What a great girl to speak too.

As always, you are all in my thoughts.
Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
- Friday, August 11, 2006 7:01 AM CDT

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Just thinking about you guys. I was just telling Carla and Charli that ever since we came to MN I see butterflies everywhere now. I would have never paid it any attention before. THANKS!
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbroooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 10, 2006 9:32 PM CDT

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Hi Julie and family,

I am "the friend" Sharon Larson was referring to in her previous post. I started following Maddie (and Jake and Cheyenne) in July of 2003. I learned from all of your families how one goes about facing death with grace and dignity.

As Sharon mentioned, my mother passed away in Sept 2003, another victim of breast cancer. Now our 2 1/2 month old daughter, Sophia, has just passed away due to a horrible neuro-muscular disease called Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA).

I turned to Maddie's CaringBridge site tonight for some strength and inspiration, and saw Sharon's post. I realized that I had never left you a message before now. Thought you should know that Maddie is still working her magic, many years after she has passed away.

I still think of all of your families often. I only hope that I can come through this experience as strongly and positivley as you have. Your CaringBridge sites have given us all the opportunity to be part of your journeys, and use your stories as examples in our lives.

Thank you for continuing to share your life with us all.

Fondly,
Lynne
Lynne Denk <lynne.denk@pragmatek.com>
Waconia, MN - Wednesday, August 9, 2006 10:07 PM CDT

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This is long but such an encouragement.

The Brave Little Soul
by John Alessi

Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. She especially enjoyed the love she saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day she saw suffering in the world. She approached God and sadly asked, “Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?”


God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people’s hearts.” The little soul was confused. “What do you mean,” she asked.” God replied, “Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone.”

The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, “The suffering soul unlocks the love in people’s hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this - it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer - to unlock this love – to create this miracle - for the good of all humanity."

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With her wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people’s hearts! I want to create that miracle!"

God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you.”

God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, “Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.”

Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through her suffering and God’s strength, she unlocked the goodness and love in people’s hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys – some regained lost faith – many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.

Thought this was lovely and you would like.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lenziebutland

Love, Lenzie's Nana Sue & Little Miss Lenzie, Tori, & Kelly


Sue Jeffries & Kelly Butland <sjeffries25@cox.net>
FL. & AL., U.S. - Monday, August 7, 2006 10:26 AM CDT

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Hi Julie,
Your old friend and neighbor Mary Therese. Thanks for the update, I check back here often and I was so glad to get an update on the household. I miss you all in a very big way, I have not found the courage to even drive down the street because I miss my old neighborhood so much. Your names are mentioned very often in our household. I think of Maddie many times, as I tap into my many friends thru Caringbridge.

Mary Therese <jmjtluedke@msn.com>
Plymouth?, MN - Saturday, August 5, 2006 11:56 PM CDT

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Julie, Charlotte, Ashley and Keegan,

Thanks for having John over to hang out with you and Liz-and for dinner too. He always has such a great time at your house and loved wrestling with Keegan. John said Keegan is definitely the "toolest"! Liz, Charlotte, Austin, Dannie and Mary, thanks for inviting John to your lunch at the Rain Forest and for the picnic at the lake. It's good for him to realize there is a little more to life in the summer than just the baseball diamond - although, the diamond is one of his "happiest" places.

Maddie, thanks for being at so many of John's games this summer. I always notice you flutter by behind home plate when he's pitching. He had a great season and played with a great group of guys. We'll be looking for you on the soccer field.
Lori <llicht@jacobs-mgmt.com>
- Friday, August 4, 2006 4:23 PM CDT

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Messenger of God

Oh, Little Butterfly,
Messenger of God,
When I see you in the sky
I cannot help but nod.
You bring me respite

From grief and dispair
Everytime I see you
Sailing through the air.
You renew my faith
In all God's wondrous plan,
And I know it's all in FAITH,
Not in what I understand.


Kathryn Poland

A Butterfly poem we thought your family and ^i^Angel Maddie^i^ might like.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lenziebutland
Love, Lenzie's Nana Sue & Little Miss Lenzie, Tori, & Kelly
Sue Jeffries <sjeffries25@cox.net>
FL. & AL., U.S. - Friday, August 4, 2006 9:18 AM CDT

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Hello Maddie's family, I have tried to find Maddie's site every since I saw her on Decorating Cents and low and be hold I finally found it. I wish it was under better circumstances though. I just had to sign and tell you that Maddie sure was a beautiful girl amd I know she is spreading her love all over Heaven . I found the site http://monarchvolunteer.tripod.com and this is where I found your Maddie's site. I went back and read alot of Maddie's story and by what I read Maddie was a wonderful young lady and I know her family truly misses her. I loved going back to read her poems and all that she wrote. Your Maddie is one of Heavens Brightest Stars......

A qoute I thought you would like.

"Some Gifts are Held in Your Heart Long after Your Arms No Longer Feel Them."

Our Lenzie was diagnosed with Ganglioneuroblastoma (Cancer) and OMS (a brain condition) back September 2005. It's the hardest thing that you will ever hear that your child/grandchild has cancer. You are in shock and you do ask why. Then you just go on and do the best you can and hope and pray alot. We wish no child had to endure what these children have to and pray for a cure everyday. There needs to be more funding for research for childhood cancer.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lenziebutland
Love, Lenzie's Nana Sue & Little Miss Lenzie, Tori, & Kelly

Sue Jeffries & Kelly Butland <sjeffries25@cox.net>
FL. & AL., U.S. - Thursday, August 3, 2006 9:44 AM CDT

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I miss you guys so much! I would write something really long now, but I hope to see you instead... so I will call really soon to check in.
Love you all,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com or monarch_volunteers@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, August 1, 2006 7:37 PM CDT

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miss you maddie

KEEP SHINING!
austin kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, August 1, 2006 11:41 AM CDT

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Hey Julie and Family it's been a while since I've been over but like always, I've been thinking about you all alot. Baseball was done for about 2 days when we got eliminated in a double elimination tournament and then our coach called me up and asked if I was ready to play again on Thursday in State. The post we play for is hosting the tournament and they have a team represented and we were the best team so we'll be competing against the best teams in the state. Our first game is Thursday out at Cassidy Field (Henry) at 10:00 a.m. It'll be fun because we have nothing to lose so we'll just go out, play hard, and have fun. This week I'm going out to a soccer camp at Ft. Snelling and today was extra hot. Well I'll catch you more when I see you tomorrow with Liz. See ya tomorrow!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, MN - Monday, July 31, 2006 10:48 PM CDT

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You guys are busy busy busy, hope you get some time to relax!
Thinking of you guys always xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Monday, July 31, 2006 10:10 PM CDT

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Hi Julie and family, I am a longtime reader but I can't remember when I started reading about your beautiful Maddie. Reading your journal is usually a learning experience for me.

My daughter also plays soccer and I believe that she is a year older than Charlotte. Her team was also in Blaine for the USA Cup (they were there for 10 days). I thought of you, and wondered if Charlotte would be playing there too. I'm glad her team won. My daughter's team did well and had a great time, but due to injuries didn't place as high as they wanted.

Wishing you joy, love and peace as always.
Laura <lreifel@comcast.net>
Seattle, WA - Sunday, July 30, 2006 12:52 AM CDT

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Hey you all, It was fun to see you, albeit a quick visit, and very hot. Hope you have gotten through all the stuff. Auntie Sara, we hope you had a very happy and fruitful birthday! Dash, you are soooo speedy, it is hard to even see you when you run. Chach, good luck with Hoop It Up! Ash, great to see you and so happy that freshman year went well, looking forward to seeing the new bachelorette pad! Thanks Julie, Sara and Tricia for all of the help, we love you. Maddie followed us to Iowa. She flew next to and in front of the car from around Northfield until the big Minnesota sign before we crossed into Iowa, great to have that angel with us for our trip! It was something I had prayed fr. I love you all, Auntie Paula
P <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Saturday, July 29, 2006 11:13 AM CDT

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Hello all!
Just checking in to say hello and let you know we are thinking of you! Also letting you know that Megan and the team of FROGs are walking South St. Paul's Relay for Life and Maddie will be honored in the Luminaria Ceremony. Maryah wanted especially to honor her inspiration. We always have you in heart and mind. Take care and hope you are enjoying your Summer!
Rachel, Maryah and Morgan Tift <racheltift@yahoo.com>
St. Paul, MN USA - Friday, July 28, 2006 12:01 AM CDT

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Hello,
I hope your summer is going well. I think of you guys often and check in. I often wonder how Dash and the other incredibles are doing.
Please give me a call sometimes! Sometimes I sit and think of Cameron sitting in Maddie's class or him asking her for help doing something. I bet all of her students love her there.

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)

Carla
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 7:03 PM CDT

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Hello,
I hope your summer is going well. I think of you guys often and check in. I often wonder how Dash and the other incredibles are doing.
Please give me a call sometimes! Sometimes I sit and think of Cameron sitting in Maddie's class or him asking her for help doing something. I bet all of her students love her there.

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)

Carla
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 7:03 PM CDT

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Julie - I really know what you mean what you say that grief becomes less externally obvious, but is still fresh and concrete in the heart. What I think is wonderful is that the outward expression of your love and experiences with Maddie take form in the positive chacter of your other children. It is such a testament to Maddie that you, Ashley, Charlotte and Keegan carry forward the best qualities of your amazing daughter and sister. You are doing a great job, and I'm sure Maddie is very proud of you all! Continuing to keep you in my thoughts, and determined to meet up with you one day!
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn
Campbell River, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 6:51 PM CDT

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My name is Kristi and i'm a breast cancer survivor. I remember reading Maddie's story a long time ago. I recently started writing for www.thecancerblog.com. I immediately thought of Maddie and wanted to write a feature about her. She was very wise for her age and I think her story should be shared!! I hope you don't mind.

Kristi Collins <yellowvlkswgn@hotmail.com>
Somers Point, NJ USA - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 10:50 AM CDT

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Thinking of you Julie and your wonderful children....everytime
I'm in my friends backyard I always think of Maddie, my friend has the most beautiful butterfly garden and it's so peaceful....Maddie and butterflys will always be synonymous with peace and beauty. God Bless
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, July 25, 2006 6:07 PM CDT

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Thinking about you guys lots... we just had our own Potty Party here when Hunter finally PT'd! :)

Lots of love,
Katie, mom to Hayley, Hunter, and Taylor <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Monday, July 24, 2006 9:36 PM CDT

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Oh dach, ash, teegs, jewls;;
Luckily i've made it back into the almost everyday at the Paguyos house schedule...even if my mother wont drive me anywhere, she'll take me to your house ((ocasionally after a 3 minute begging session)). Missing Maddie always.
See you soon i'm sure.
<3
<3 emma (keegan's girlfriend)
<3
emma breen <EmmaForschler@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, July 23, 2006 11:30 PM CDT

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Sorry it has been awhile sence i signed but i have been really busy with dance and going outta town. I went to a dance camp called Just for Kix,there was this girl that looked just like ash. Well i am leaving town again today...but i am hoping to get with chach soon and see you guys. Hope your having a nice summer so far!
xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, July 19, 2006 11:26 AM CDT

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Hey, I am just putting together a Monarch Site right now... hope it ends up looking good. I hope you week went well. Talk to you all soon!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, July 15, 2006 12:52 AM CDT

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Just thinking of you guys. Hope your having a great summer.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbroooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 14, 2006 9:06 PM CDT

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It's funny/odd how many twists and turns life throws our way. My daughter knows both Maddie and ChaChi..not really well, but knows them both. I like so many other Anthony parents, followed Maddie's journey..then and now. I had sent Maddie's page to a friend of mine, who's Mom had been diagnosed with some pretty horrific cancer. Her Mom did pass away, but she used CaringBridge as a source like Maddie and her family did. Sadly enough, my friend's newborn was diagnosed with SMA (spinal muscular atrophy). The baby isn't doing well and doesn't have a good prognosis. But oddly enough, what's comforting is knowing all these wonderful kids that are proceeding Sophia, are there to welcome her...another CaringBridge kid, who will then welcome, unfortunately, other kids after her.
Just felt the need to say thank you..thank you for showing us how to face adversity with braveness, so that helps me and so many others continue to face new challenges.

Sharon Larson
Sharon Larson <glarsonfamily@hotmail.com>
Mpls, MN USA - Thursday, July 13, 2006 7:19 PM CDT

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Hi all! We had the good fortune of having Tricia and her team stop by and spend some time with us. Liz and the girls were delightful, all fun-loving and silly. It r;eminded me of a trip Maddie and
Tricia made to see us. It was fast, not as fast as this one, and there was dancing, like todaly, singing and general frolicking! We had a blast, both then and today! What a glorious thing to be able to have those very heart-warminmg and cherished memories, they give me such happy thoughts and big smiles! Love you all, Paula
P-diddy <omahakillens@aol.com>
- Wednesday, July 12, 2006 8:57 PM CDT

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Heya!
I wanted to come over before I left for Nebraska, but seeing as I leave in like 10 hrs it doesnt look like thats going to happen does it! Oh well, I will definitly come over when I get back, wish me luck I have to spend another five whole days w/ tricia.. oh gawsh. haha jus kiddin!

Mads-
Im missin you like crazy! Its weird how the intense sadness of missin u can hit me like outta nowhere! LIke on the way home from practice today. I just been thinking about how things reallllly wont ever be the same, and that pretty much sucks! BUt As always you are there for me, and thats what keeps me going. I love you Maddie and Thanks for everything you taught/teach me. I can't tahnk you enough.

♥ ALWAYS n FOREVER!!
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, July 11, 2006 11:41 PM CDT

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Hey guys still been a while since I've seen you but you have all been in my mind. This summer has been jam-packed with baseball so its very often that I find myself hanging out at home on a summer night. It's fun but right now it's just becoming way too much. It was nice today to spend the afternoon just talking and messing around with Liz and Austin. (Charlotte you missed like the best picnic ever.) It's those times that make you forget about what's going on and gives you a new perspective on what you're doing and even life. After we got our butts kicked by a team, our coach took us out to right field to give us the post-game talk. He said that we were'nt hustling in and out and it just looked like we didn't want to be there. He then went on to say "You guys are very lucky to be able to be out here and playing baseball on beautiful summer nights. All it takes is one visit to the Children's Hospital to see all the kids who would give anything to play one single inning again." He went on to tell us the positives that went on in the game but my mind was still focused on what he had said. I am very lucky to be able to do something I love pretty much every day. I hope to see all of you very soon!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, MN - Monday, July 10, 2006 11:21 PM CDT

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Wow. Its been a long time since I've written anything... so overwhelmed with many obstacles and challenges of becoming a young woman... but as I take some time and reflect on life, I realize that there are so many beautiful things in this world... like the wonderful paguyo-dornisch family. I feel so bad for not keeping in touch. I hope you can forgive me. It was wonderful seeing you at the 8th grade graduation. It def. brought tears to my eyes seeing Charlotte being presented with the award which she deserves so much.

Time flies by yet passes so slowly.. it seems like just yesterday Maddie was here... i still cry at times.. when i just can't seem to hold in my feelings.. but i am strong because maddie is still teaching us today.. she is here with us. helping us with our day. i wasnt as close to maddie as i might have liked, being a year older- being closer to ashley when we all attended kenny elementary together- but maddie was still prevalent in my life just as she had been in people that she never met- thats why she is so beautiful. i love and miss her with all my heart.
you are an angel. i love you.

im sorry.

sometimes, one needs to let things off their chest.
i love you maddie. so much. thank you for helping me through a really tough end of june. i really needed you. and you held my hand.
Maia Roppo <m_ariana_07@tmail.com>
- Monday, July 10, 2006 2:05 AM CDT

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Haha I also want 2 wish u a happy fake birthday chach haha I love u thanks for coming!!!
&hearts
Liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, July 8, 2006 0:09 AM CDT

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hey everyone,
haha so dach hope you had a good bday hehe that was too funny!! lunch was fun you were a good surprise person!! love you

KEEP SHINING MADDZ
austin kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Friday, July 7, 2006 6:23 PM CDT

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Hello

My name is Richard Doten, and 27 years ago I sat in the waiting room of childrens hospital as I awaited the birth of twin sons. They were born three months early, and each only weighed two pounds. They were very sick, but miraculously they survived, but each day as I sat in the hospital with them, all around me parents were losing their children. When I read the letter Maddie wrote, I cried because how courageous she was. I can never imagine what it must do to a parent to lose their child. From this day forward I will always cherish each moment with my sons. Thank you for sharing this wonderful letter.

Peace
Richard
Richard Doten <Dotenr@msn.com>
Minneapolis, MN United States - Thursday, July 6, 2006 9:33 PM CDT

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Happy 4th of July Paguyo's and Dornisch's!!!
I'm finally HOME! And I really want to see you all!
I hope you are having a fantastic and relaxing summer.
I have some pretty great stories to tell you and some cool gifts for you from Bulgaria and Costa Rica.
I hope to see you soon. I'll give you a call, Julie!
Love you lots!

*MISSING you always MADDIE*

xoxo
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA! - Wednesday, July 5, 2006 0:31 AM CDT

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Bravo Charlotte on your award! You're a true example of tenacity and grace and strength....like your mother. And congrats on your first year of college Ashley! Julie I think of you often...I just wanted to stop by and wish all of you a Happy 4th of July..... thinking of Maddie and her wisdom and beauty....it's perennial....hugs to all
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Tuesday, July 4, 2006 8:56 PM CDT

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Maddie, Though the time has been great since last I signed the guestbook, our conversations continue daily. How deeply your words ring true! Though I do not possess the eloquence of a girl 1/3 my age, I aspire to be as free-loving, giving and generous of spirit as you. My dear, sweet Godchild, the impact you have on my life is immeasurable. Thanks just isn't enough, I love you, Auntie P
Paula <Omahakillens@aol.com>
- Tuesday, July 4, 2006 6:20 PM CDT

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Well I know it's very late(actually really early) and but i just spent the last few hours going through and reading the guestbook. I've been thinking a lot about Maddie lately and I'm just going to let it all out. I didn't read every single entry but I read a lot of the ones written by people I knew. I knew there was a lot of love and support for Maddie but not this much. Liz, Dannie, Brittany, Hanne, and Mayumi's comments seemed to come up every other comment. As I look back on these, it amazes me how much I have growen since 7th grade and also how mature Maddie was for her age. She was writing with such a fantastic skill and also understood life better than most people ever will. The guestbook brought back very good memories about Maddie and everything that went on because of her. It's very hard to sit here and not ask so many questions starting with "why?" but instead you have been very strong and understanding that sometimes life just isn't fair but everything happens for a reason. Also, reading all these entries makes me want to go back to the care-free times of 6th and 7th grade when everything was great. Hanging out in Mike Saunders' basement and listening to Perfect Gentleman over and over again. Maddie has been a great influence to many people and is one of the greatest people I have ever met. Thank you Julie for sharing your daughters story with so many people and I'm sure that every person who reads it or hears it will be changed forever.
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, MN - Tuesday, July 4, 2006 1:31 AM CDT

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Julie, thank you for always being there for me, and I am sure many others. I hope that your fourth goes well, perhaps you will see some fireworks. On Wednesday I have my first day at my new job! I am going to work at the Caribou coffee on 66th and Lyndale, I think it is going to be lots of fun! So someday you should come by and visit.
My whole moms side of the family has gathered and I believe it is over 30 people... crazy and loud. We have broken out in song too many times, I just spent about three hours around the piano singing old favorites. Anyways, my family is odd but I love them. I will hopefully see you guys soon, I actually have a few things I wanted to ask you. But, I will call you later.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, July 4, 2006 0:38 AM CDT

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Your words really hit home. You couldn't have explained it better. That uninvited resident really does go along everywhere! Now I know where Maddie got her wonderful writing ability from. I sure do hope to see you guys again soon. Know your always in my thoughts.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, July 2, 2006 11:21 PM CDT

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hey paguyo's. I havent checked in on you guys in a while and just to say hi. im always thinking of you guys and maddie, everything has just been really busy. congradulations on your award charlotte. that is a great honor and i know that award best fits you. you have many of the same qualities as maddie. have a great summer and good luck in high school! talk to ya later
amanda viehauser <uplaylikeagirl@hotmail.com>
mpls, mn - Sunday, July 2, 2006 10:59 PM CDT

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hey! just wondering how your summer has been havent seen you in a while! love you!
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Sunday, July 2, 2006 12:52 AM CDT

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Hey Julie and family just stopping by to say hello and catch up on what's been happening since I last saw you in early May. School finally ended but baseball is still going strong. We finished our varsity season with a loss in the playoffs to Armstrong but we had a very strong year considering this was a re-building year for us. After only one week, we were back on the diamond for summer league. I am playing on both the VFW and the Legion team for Southwest so that adds up to a lot of baseball. Also I got my license so I'm out and about so make sure to watch out on the roads. Sounds like things are going well at your house but I'll have to drop by soon so we can hang out again.
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, MN - Saturday, July 1, 2006 10:54 PM CDT

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Sorry about the double entry everyone. I am technically challenged.
Pamela Stewart
Pamela Stewart <pamela.stewart@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN USA - Friday, June 30, 2006 8:49 PM CDT

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Dear Maddie, Julie, Ashley, Charlotte and Keegan,
I did spring recitations on June 6 and the program was dedicated in honor and memory of you Maddie. We start out by reading your poem and I tell the audience what a wonderful student you were for me and how you recited a very difficult piece. You would have enjoyed watching the children recite their pieces. The Berger's mentioned that their oldest daughter, Quinn knew you and thought you were wonderful.
Julie, thank you for this continuing web site. I have read all of it and taken poems and other comforts and given to my niece who has the son with brain cancer. She has passed it on to people who have lost children. You and your family are a blessing! Thank you! I guess we have to learn to live each day, one day at a time, with our sorrow. Our loved ones will always have a piece of our heart. A piece of my heart right now is in Iraq. My son, Joshua, is over there getting shot at. It was easier for me to deal with breast cancer than have him over there. Our hearts belong to our children. God made us this way so he has to help us get through each and every day. Blessings to you and your family.
Pamela Stewart
Pamela Stewart <pamela.stewart@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN USA - Friday, June 30, 2006 8:45 PM CDT

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Dear Maddie, Julie, Ashley, Charlotte and Keegan,
I did spring recitations on June 6 and the program was dedicated in honor and memory of you Maddie. We start out by reading your poem and I tell the audience what a wonderful student you were for me and how you recited a very difficult piece. You would have enjoyed watching the children recite their pieces. The Berger's mentioned that their oldest daughter, Quinn knew you and thought you were wonderful.
Julie, thank you for this continuing web site. I have read all of it and taken poems and other comforts and given to my niece who has the son with brain cancer. She has passed it on to people who have lost children. You and your family are a blessing! Thank you! I guess we have to learn to live each day, one day at a time, with our sorrow. Our loved ones will always have a piece of our heart. A piece of my heart right now is in Iraq. My son, Joshua, is over there getting shot at. It was easier for me to deal with breast cancer than have him over there. Our hearts belong to our children. God made us this way so he has to help us get through each and every day. Blessings to you and your family.
Pamela Stewart
Pamela Stewart <pamela.stewart@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN USA - Friday, June 30, 2006 8:43 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, Ashley, Charlotte and Keegan,
Just letting you know I think about you often. Congratulations Charlotte for your awards and many accomplishments at Anthony and on the field! Way to go! I can't believe Ashley already has a year of college under her belt! Time marches so quickly. The monarch butterlies and larva have just swarmed in my garden this spring. Maddie's presence does not go unnoticed! Enjoy your days together this summer.
Jan Tift
Jan Tift <jtift@mn.rr.com>
Minnetonka, Mn USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 11:35 PM CDT

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congrats everyone on your awards, completions and potty training!! Sounds like all is crazy and busy as always. We just had another one graduate..and now will have two in college. Cree and Amy are busy planning their trip to Spain and Italy, and the rest of us are anxiously awaiting the quiet while they are gone. Cree is still not eating normally, but seems to have found a balance between not eating anything and humoring me. She is pretty much done with basketball, and is finishing with soccer...she will miss the big usa cup tourney, as she will be in Italy. Any way just wanted to drop ya a line and wish you all well!
ttyl,

julie cameron <rjac63@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 4:27 PM CDT

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Hey guys,
Thanks for having me over, it was (as always) really fun. Ashley I don't think I realized just how odd you are at times... but still hilarious. You are a really compassionate person, that I have known since I first met you. I am so proud of Keegan the big boy! Completely potty trained! And Chachi, my mom kept saying on the drive home "I cannot believe how old chachi looks, I really did think it was Ashley!".
Julie, I hope you got a break of some kind from all the crap that is being thrown at you. I really wish I could just make it all stop, I hate that you have to go through more shit. There should be some kind of limit to the amount of shit you go through in life... Anyways, I know you are strong and will plow through this.
Love you guys so much and I hope to see you all again soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 4:09 PM CDT

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♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, June 26, 2006 1:04 AM CDT

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Hi Julie,
I still think about Maddie often and remember what a special girl she is. Maddie would be proud of the way all of you are living. She was an incredible person from and incredible family.
Karen Ueland
www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie
Karen Ueland <klpu@aol.com>
- Monday, June 26, 2006 0:16 AM CDT

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I miss you Maddie, so so much.
I think about you so often down here- beautiful butterflies every where you turn. I love you!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
San José, Costa Rica - Saturday, June 24, 2006 10:06 PM CDT

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I LOVE YOU MADDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!


keep shining maddz!
Austin Kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, June 24, 2006 8:27 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I can't believe that I let so much time go by without seeing you all, that I partially relied on your journal entry to find out how you all were doing. Good to hear that Chachi has graduated/completed whatever... and that Keegan is POTTY TRAINED!!!!!! yea! I am still working on Monarch, the new volunteer group. I hope you guys are soaking up the rays, and enjoying the time away from homework and exams. Well, I hope to see you guys soon and really catch up on stuff.
Thinking of you all daily, hoping for the best for each of you.
Much Love,


Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, June 24, 2006 0:36 AM CDT

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Is it really over a year since I graduated from Anthony? Huh...
Amor,
Grayce Forsythe <graycemf@charter.net>
Northfield, - Friday, June 23, 2006 11:35 PM CDT

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hey everybody
hope to c you sometime this summer it was nicxe seeing you at the graduation
love ya
Alliosn
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Friday, June 23, 2006 9:23 AM CDT

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Julie,
I just stopped by to check on you guys and what a beautiful update I found! You are so gifted with your writing and really give us a great glimpse into your heart(s). I have learned a great deal from your words and am so grateful to you for that. Maddie does indeed continue to impact so many! What a great job you have done with her!

Martha Conners
St. Paul, MN - Wednesday, June 21, 2006 6:34 AM CDT

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First of all, a huge congratulations to you Cha Chi. You really are an incredible young lady. I know Maddie is so proud of you as is your mom and family. With all those accomplishments and the stress you were dealing with at the same time - you so deserve the 'Maddie' award.

Ashley, congratulations on a successful first year of college! and Keegan - a huge congrats for your super accomplishment of potty training!

Julie, you said it well - you don't stop grieving, it just appears to not be a visible to the outside world.

I am now getting out more and working again, but I am not enjoying myself or should I say looking forward to things as I had before. There is a missing piece. But I am working on it and yes, find myself laughing at times and laughing hard. This feels great. Julie, thank you for your update. I think of you and your children and your sisters often.

Love, Tess (always 'angel' Nolan's Aunt and 'angel' Dave's Wife)
Tess Baker <tessbaker@sbcglobal.net>
Fresno, CA - Wednesday, June 21, 2006 0:48 AM CDT

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I just came across an entry in another guestbook you may want to read. It was written by Mindy and it is in kyle in Iowa's guestbook. It just seems to hit home when you speak of your children.
Missy Snow <missy84s@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 20, 2006 6:38 PM CDT

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i miss the updates!
caitlin eide <caitlin.eide@gmail.com>
mpls, mn - Sunday, June 18, 2006 1:45 PM CDT

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Julie - Although I haven't written in the guestbook in awhile, know that I pop in and check on you, and keep your busy family, and your beautiful Maddie in my thoughts and prayers. Ever since your last post about butterflies, we have had more stunning ones visit our garden than ever before. Every time I see one, it causes me to pause and reflect on the beauty of the souls of Maddie, Cameryn and all the bright angels like Jacob D. that have recently joined them. It's just another reminder that we are connected and related through our love for them.
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn
Campbell River, BC Canada - Saturday, June 17, 2006 9:38 PM CDT

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I've been thinking of maddie and Cheyenne alot the past few days w/ Jacob becoming an Angel. I've thought of all the Angels that have a special place in my heart and of course Maddie comes to mind. I am sure she was there to welcome Jacob and teach him what he needs to know about being an Amazing Angel.
i think of your family alot. we are doing good, Justin gradates on Monday from high school and life is pretty good. I hope you have a great summer keegan must be so much fun at this age, Lyn www.caringbridge.org/nj/justinw
Lyn Wyatt <glwyatt@gmail.com>
stratford, nj usa - Thursday, June 15, 2006 9:49 AM CDT

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It was so nice to see all of you yesterday. You are all so beatuiful, i hope to see you soon!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, June 15, 2006 1:17 AM CDT

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Hey Julie and crew,

My little girl turned 6 last week, and I'm still a stunned banana that my baby is so big now! I've been reflecting back on how we got here to 6 years old and in remission, and how it is that this old dad of hers hasn't completely self-destructed along the way. I sure as heck didn't have it in me to make it this far when we started down this path, the only reason I'm still here in one piece is because I've been carried. At the time when I most needed to be carried, the vibrant life and spirit of your Maddie was one of the biggest shoulders. I'm very grateful to have met her and you all. And I hope that each day is bringing you more smiles and less tears.

Take care,
Terry Josephson, Julianna Banana's dad <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Thursday, June 15, 2006 0:19 AM CDT

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thinking about Maddie- praying for your family.
Courtney Hanneman <cahanneman@hotmail.com>
Eden Prairie, MN - Wednesday, June 14, 2006 11:27 AM CDT

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I miss you, Maddie. A lot.
Your big sissy, Ashley <paguy002@umn.edu>
- Monday, June 12, 2006 0:31 AM CDT

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Hey thinking a lot about you guys latly. Hoping i can come see all of you some time soon. I am so glad summer is coming! cant wait
Hope to see you guys very soon

klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Friday, June 9, 2006 1:39 PM CDT

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Hey guys,
I am hoping things are going well, it has been a while since i have seen you all. I am so ready for school to be out, and summer to finally come! I am sure you guys are just as excited.
Today was interesting... as I have mentioned I am putting together this volunteer group and today i got some alarming news. I don't have the full support of the school anymore. The administration wouldn't explain to me why the pulled back but anyways. I have decided I am just going to do it outside of school if tomorrow I don't get a more promising response.
I got a scare a couple days ago. I was talking to Liz online, and she said "Have you heard Dannie is sick" and i went crazy. The thoughts that went through my head in the few seconds it took to get all the facts were insane! I was so worried, Dannie luv ya hun! I am reminded by my reactions to things, of how close Maddie has brought me to all you wonderful people! I am so glad that I met Maddie, she has changed my life forever. Without her, I wouldn't be going the direction in life that I am going right now.
Thanks for always being there for me everyone, you all are such wonderful people.
Know that I would do anything for any of you.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, June 8, 2006 10:51 PM CDT

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Thinking of you always, miss all of you!
Austin Kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Wednesday, June 7, 2006 9:40 PM CDT

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Thinking about you guys always, Im coming over soon, whether you like it or not! lol LOve u lots n lots!!

♥ liz
liz shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, June 6, 2006 10:59 PM CDT

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Missing your updates...
KP <kmlindberg@yahoo.com>
Toledo, OH - Sunday, June 4, 2006 2:39 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,

I've been thinking of you...wondering if you gave out the "Madeline Taylor Paguyo Award" this year...and if so, how it went? I gave out the Rory Zuba Spirit Award Tuesday evening to four 8th graders...students who were classmates of Rory's. Had he lived - he would have graduated from 8th grade this year w ith these kids. Bittersweet isn't the right word to describe my expereince...more like Sad/sweet. Wishing you peace!
Tom Zuba <tom@tomzuba.com>
- Friday, June 2, 2006 11:07 PM CDT

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Stopping by to let you know I think of you all often. Every single time I'm near the butterfly garden it is a constant reminder of Maddie...and so beautiful. Hugs.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Thursday, June 1, 2006 4:58 PM CDT

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Great job in the play charlotte! I'm sure mother abyss is looking down on you beaming with pride! You all were a joy to watch!
caitlin eide <caitlin.eide@gmail.com>
mpls, mn U.S - Friday, May 26, 2006 5:49 PM CDT

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Hi Julie...its Julie. I spent the weekend with my 3yr old grandbaby...and I remember when you first found out you were pregnant with Keegan...all I could think of was...better you than me...the thought of having another child at my age...and well especially since it would have been child #8 in our family...UH no way. Then we got the news of our son having a child..too young of course, but now she is here! She is so full of energy and questions...argghh. Just made me think of you and your little bundle of energy. Hope all is well with you guys...miss you all tons!
take care!
Julie Cameron <rjac63@netscape.net>
- Sunday, May 21, 2006 11:52 PM CDT

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Always thinking of you guys. I hope I get to see you this summer!!
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 21, 2006 6:08 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,

It has been awhile since we have talked. I woke up with you and Maddie on my mind, and wanted to stop and say Hello. I am so glad I did! I loved the butterfly stories. How wonderful! I remember when Maddie held Julia. It made me cry then, and brought tears to my eyes again today. Keegan has always been so smart! Thank you so much for sharing those stories.
Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
- Sunday, May 21, 2006 8:30 AM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
Hope things are going well at 4441. I cannot wait to see your musical Chachi, hope your enjoying putting it together. Tomorrow I am walking in the AIDS walk, I just decided to do it a week ago. I wish I had raised more money but, maybe next year. I hope your weeked went well.
Ashley, I am sure you are glad to have your school year be over.
I cannot wait until SUMMER! I will talk with you guys later. Hope all is well.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, May 20, 2006 10:41 PM CDT

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The Butterfly signs of Maddie you wrote about Julie, arer just beautiful. Thinking of you all. Hoping your Mother's Day found you surrounded by those you love and the memories of Maddie filling your heart. Hugs from Florida,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, May 16, 2006 5:13 AM CDT

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Happy Mothers Day! ( sorry a day late) I hope to see you guys really soon. Xoxoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Monday, May 15, 2006 6:13 PM CDT

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Happy Mother's Day! You are such an inspiration as a mother and a person! Your journal entries prove what a wonderful mother you are. Maddie's letter to you is such proof. Your children are beautiful and growing into wonderful adults. That's because of YOU! Be proud!
I hope Maddie was all around you today!
Karen
Stow, OH - Sunday, May 14, 2006 6:53 PM CDT

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Happy Mother's Day, Julie!!!!!!!!!!!
We love you!!!!!!!!!!!
Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Maddie Love,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
paskyloohoo@yahoo.com, MN USA - Sunday, May 14, 2006 2:35 PM CDT

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Happy Mothers day Julie!!
THanks for being an amazing mom to more than just your own kids.
I love you!

Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, May 14, 2006 12:49 AM CDT

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Happy Mother's Day to one of the most amazing moms i will ever know!

caitlin eide <caitlin.eide@gmail.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, May 14, 2006 12:04 AM CDT

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LETTING YOU KNOW THAT YOUR THOUGHT OF ON MOTHER'S DAY.KEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AND IN MY PRAYER'S ALWAYS.



A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca~~THE PRAYER BEARS~~>
EDMONTON ,ALBERTA, - Saturday, May 13, 2006 0:23 AM CDT

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Maddie Mo-
I've been meaning to write since last week but everytime I sat down I couldnlt find enough time to actually relax for a second and write. My schedule is absolutely nuts. From track every day and basketball tuesday n Thrusday and then on top of that running between the two when I have a meet, its just getting quite hectic. I literally have something going on ALL the time, and I swear living like that will make you crazy!
Like tonight for example, I went to track practice complete w/ weight room and ice bath, was home for about 15 minutes and went to basketball untill 930ish. And let me tell you, all you want to do after a night like that is come home and eat, take a shower and sleep. but tonight I was lucky enough to come home to two upset parents, who happend to go to conferences tonight. School has been lets just say quite difficult for me lately and Im struggling w/ a few teachers. I know I can get these grades up but im not sure my parents think so, they only see the grade on the midquarter sheet, not the work im PLANNING on doing.

But anyway mads the point of the story is, I have you to thank for my sanity. Lol that sounds wierd but really, you keep me on track. I often find myself complaining ALOT and whining about things I know -just simply put- have to be done. School and sports are stressful, and especially when you over do it, but you keep me focused. Tonight after I yelled "I dont care" to my mom who had just explained to me that I had a C-, I instantly thought of you. I thought of you because those words would never come out of your mouth, if you had a C-, of course this would never ever happen, but if it did you would be doing anything you could to change it. You put your best into everything and kept going even when things became stressful. You stared a pontine Glioma in the face and said YOU are not going to run my life. You kept going and going and never stopped. I have you to thank for what I do when I feel like giving up.

I can't count how many times I've thought of you on the back streach or a final curve in track saying to myself, she did so much more, Im just running its not a big deal...I CAN DO THIS! It may sound dumb, but thats literally going through my mind on those days when I just dont feel like going ANY further.

This past month has been pretty difficult, (I know here I go again w/ the complaining) but on top of everything else, I miss you soooooo much. I miss you. Those words dont really show the pain behind them, but I really really miss you. I really wish I never knew what missing your best friend left like. I wish that Chachi and Ashley and Keegan never found out what its like to miss thier sister, and for Julie to miss her daughter and her best friend as well. Its hard, but you pull us through it, one step at a time. THANk you, for without this I would be completely in the dark.

I remember when we had a dance to that one song. (okay we had a dance to like every song) but one stands out to me tonight. We did it to 'I turn to you' by Christina Aguleria and I couldnt think of better words to explain you:

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way.
And when I'm scared and losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.

And when I'm down you're there; pushing me to the top.
You're always there; giving me all you've got.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

When I lose my will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing; 'cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night.

THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN AMAZING FRIEND. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


Liz Shay <lSHay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, May 11, 2006 11:17 PM CDT

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Just wanted to say, similar to Austin's story, I also had some run-ins with sleepovers with maddie and icecream, except mine included certain items of dog food, and some surprised coustomers. Only maddie could have gotten away with that. Sadly, Carly didnt get off so easy, she ended up with a bloody forehead after I accidently hit her in the head with a dog biscuit.Ouch! Of course Maddie was the calm one, knowing exactly what to do. Ah what a good night. Miss it.
Caitlin Eide <caitlin.eide@gmail.com>
Mpls, Mn USA - Thursday, May 11, 2006 6:56 PM CDT

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julie- sorry its been so long since my last entry. i'm always thinking about you guys and praying for you too. i loved reading your journal entry. that is amazing. it really touched me and i felt very happy reading it and knowing that maddie always is and always will be with you guys. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH MADDIE!!!! you're so amazing. i know you will continue to be with and comfort your family! thanks for everything madz!!!
amanda viehauser <uplaylikeagirl@hotmail.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, May 11, 2006 4:39 PM CDT

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OH MY LORD!! Julie it's Norita it's been ages since i've talked or heard from you. How are you all doing?! It's fun down here in NE, but alot of rain. How is the rest of your family?!? Man Maddie ohh Maddie.....I miss her so much even though i didn't know her very well. I'll talk to you later.
Love Norita <3
Norita <shortynorty2@yahoo.com>
Omaha, NE - Wednesday, May 10, 2006 9:44 PM CDT

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A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St. Paul, - Wednesday, May 10, 2006 7:25 PM CDT

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I got the chills reading about the butterflies. Not just because they are beautiful anecdotes, but because a friend and I have been exchanging similar types of butterfly stories from our own lives recently.

This is a bit from my friend's eulogy for his brother:

In early August, a week before he was to begin the stem cell transplant process — a week before he received the bad news that he could not, Father Fleming met with him at home alone. “How do I pray?” Ed asked, “How do I seek God?” (Ed always asked good questions.) Correct me if I’m wrong Father, but as Ed recounted it, your response was roughly this: “God is like a butterfly. You cannot struggle and run after it. You must be still and wait for it to land on you.”

Father Fleming left. Ed sat quietly for a few minutes, contemplating that sage advice. Sarah came home and ran straight past Ed without saying a thing. She grabbed a colorful paper butterfly she’d made in school and went back to him, placing it in his lap. “Here daddy”, she said, “I want you to have this because I love you very much.”

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

With love,


Katie, mom to Hayley, Hunter, and Taylor <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Wednesday, May 10, 2006 2:54 PM CDT

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Julie
It was so nice to meet you today at our Humor to fight the Tumor meeting. Your story about Maddie is so special! Thanks you for sharing it with all of us!! I have been reading your site and I just loved reading about the butterflies!! Your son is a doll!! He is so lucky to have such a wonderful mom!! Maddie's letter to you is unbelieveable!! To read such words from a teenager is undescribeable.You made such an impact on Maddie!!
I hope our path's will cross again! All the families you touch are so lucky to have you in their lives! Keep on sharing your Maddie story!! It is priceless!
Tammy Brooks <Tammyteach@mn.rr.com>
Eden Prairie, MN - Tuesday, May 9, 2006 5:49 PM CDT

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Thank you for sharing the glorious butterfly stories. I hope her visits continue to bring you peace and comfort.
Katie Kelley <katie.kelley@target.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, May 9, 2006 5:38 PM CDT

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I haven't visited your site in a while and felt compelled today. I am a few days late, but wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. The butterfly stories moved me to immediate tears. I believe with all my heart, it was indeed your precious Maddie visiting! May she continue to do so and bring you all comfort and peace!
Karen
Stow, OH - Tuesday, May 9, 2006 1:44 PM CDT

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Thinking of you guys more often these last few days.
Lots and lots of love-
grayce forsythe <graycemf@comcast.net>
northfield, mn - Monday, May 8, 2006 11:29 AM CDT

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Julie, Ashley, Maddie, Chach, and Keegan
Thank you very much for including me last night, I appreciated it very much. I still cannot get over how loving, caring, and strong all of you are. Everytime I walk into your home all of you are so welcoming I feel as if I have known all of you my entire life. I feel so blessed to know such wonderful people that have taught me so much about family, friends, and life.

Chach- I don't even have words to express my love for you! You have been such a wonderful friend to me. I truly do consider you one of my closest friends. I love you very very much!


Suzie
Mpls., MN usa - Sunday, May 7, 2006 9:27 PM CDT

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Maddie~ I think of you all the time, especially lately. I miss you lots and just wanted you to know your still in my heart. You gave something to everyone you knew, you somehow touched them in a way no one else i know can. Thank you for everything.

Julie and family- hope everything is going well. Your in my prayers and im thinking of you all.
Betsy Sandberg <bettygir007@netscape.net>
mpls, MN - Sunday, May 7, 2006 6:12 PM CDT

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I love the butterfly story. I cannot believe that it has been 2 years already. Time seems to be flying. Maddie's still in my thoughts daily. Her spirit continues to teach. I was touched by herin more ways then one and I'm sure many more will be. You are all blessed to have a beautiful angel guarding your every second. Take care. And know that you are in many prayers and hearts.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, - Sunday, May 7, 2006 3:46 PM CDT

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Maddie,

I was just thinking about some of the fun things we did together, and I came across one of the nights we spent at Rich's. It was me you and Mayumi, we watched Chicago, made you ice cream faces, and got scared of Rich's boat.

I remember me and Mayumi made menus and set the table and took your order to what you wanted (even though we only gave you one option) ICE CREAM! So we went upstairs as you stayed in the basement and we started to make your dessert. We ended up making a happy face with the ice cream and it was very fun.

I think this other story is from when me and you slept at Rich's as well as Chach, Amanda, and Allison. But you had gone missing for like an 20 minutes and I didn't know where you were, then came the singing. Here you come Maddz strolling down the stairs singing Nellys "Dilema" with a band-aid on your cheek and everything.

You were always someone that would cheer me up and make me happy, no matter of the situation. You had such an amazing spirit, that no one else can ever come close to fulfilling. You comfort me when I know that you are here with me. Everytime I see a butterfly I think to myself "Wow, I love that girl". Thank you for continuously being there for me, I need it, and you.


So many fun times with you Maddie, I miss them so much. Everyday is a hard day, I think about you and I realize how much I miss you. I can't believe yesterday was two years. I hear people say wow that seems so quickly, but for me not seeing you has made it incredibly slow. I think about the two years, and that is soo long, to not be able to see one of my best friends. I miss you more and more everyday Maddie.

Also, it was great seeing all of you yesterday night. Thank you for everything.

Keep Shining Maddie
Austin Kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, May 7, 2006 1:55 PM CDT

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Hey guys,
Thanks for having me over, as always, it was the greatest hanging out with you all. I hope Chachi won her second game, we all know that your defense because your faster than everyone else Chach! If Liz is still sleeping, someone should wake her up... I think she could sleep the whole day. Ashley, good luck on finals and all the other things you have to do before the end of your school year, which is sooo soon.
Julie, I will bring over the brownies once Liz leaves, to guarantee that you will get one... i love ya liz i am just kidding.
Anyways, I was just glad to see you all again, and play with Keegan, he is so athletic, it is crazy. If any of you guys need anything, just let me know.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, May 7, 2006 1:49 PM CDT

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Your entries are so beatiful, I wish you wrote Maddie stories EVERY day! :)

She sounds like she was wise beyond her years.

I have been following your story for over a year but wanted to finally sign in and say I think of her often and it reminds me of how precious time is. She has touched my heart.

Any pictures of the butterflies?
KP <kmlindberg@yahoo.com>
Toledo, OH - Sunday, May 7, 2006 9:54 AM CDT

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Thinking of you always and especially today. Loved the butterfly stories.
Love you,
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 10:17 PM CDT

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Hey maddie...2 years!!!!!! wow its been soooooo long.....but then not really cuz i think bout u every day and i kno that ur here with me still!!! guess wat i had a basketball game 2day and on my way there i was thinking about how we all played for the cougers and all the team sleep over and all the late nytes and loud songs and lots of fun that we had!!!! and now did u know that the cougers is a boys team haha (my brothers team) man we had soooo much fun and we wer good as hell.....but i just stoped by to say that i love you and i miss u...and u kno that i cant wait till i c agian!!!!

IIIIII LLLLOOOOVVVVEEEEE YYYYYOOOOUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stephanie moore <princess015@comcast.net>
st.paul, mn - Saturday, May 6, 2006 9:01 PM CDT

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hey maddie, two years...wow...it seems like yesterday that you sat molly, ashley and i down in a cirlce, made us all hold hands telling us that we were "miracle children." Entertaining me at all the sleepovers by doing flight attendants routines, singing kareoke while we were your back up singers. You always made us smile and laugh our heads off! ive been thinking alot about you lately and your great spunkiness that made everyone so happy and love you so much. its been so strange without you around, but everytime i see a butterfly i think of you and how your smiling down on all of us. thank you for touching my heart maddie! i miss you lots and love you tons!

paguyos/dornisch's-
i hope all is well, and ive been thinking alot about all of you lately, imiss you all lots and cant wait to spend time with you during summer! you are so strong and i admire all of you. truely amazing.
croix kennedy <croix-kennedy@uiowa.edu>
MPLS, MN - Saturday, May 6, 2006 6:32 PM CDT

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Maddie-
It's hard to believe its been 2 years, I honestly feel like the James and the Giant Peach play we did in 5th grade was yesterday. Or the time you helped me clean my room, and we organized everything alphabetically, and color-coded by order of increasing size. Or what about the time, You me and Liz walked around the neighborhood and took turns pushing eachother in a stroller... I couldnt even begin to describe all the memories, and ablsoulty amazing times i had with you. Its been Two years, and i still look for your face in the halls of southwest.
My mind knows you aren't there,
but my heart feels like you are.
I miss you more everyday, and love you very much.

Rachel Holmes <hOlmeSLiCE31@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 5:22 PM CDT

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Maddie-
It seems like it's been forever since i last saw you, but then again, it seems like just yesterday we were playing basketball for the cougars(i found pictures of us and the team the other day and we all looked so little!), hanging out at your house, karaoke-ing, going to richs (what lies beneath anyone?),taking pictures in the field, our trip to the spa, taking the trip to Florida, and making our secret little book...it's amazing how many things remind me of you, how often i think about what you would do in a situation, and of course, how much i will always remember our memories. It's also funny, because throughout my first two years at Southwest, i have met so many new people and a lot of them have little bits and pieces of you in them. Of course none of them look as good as you...or make me laugh as hard as you...but i always find comfort in knowing that you are around me, even if it's not actually you. I miss you soooo much and i love you i love you i love you. Thank you for everything.

Paguyos/Dornischs-
I'm so sorry it's been such a long time, i still think of you guys all the time, and i really would like to come see you. Susan, Hanne and I stopped by today but you guys weren't around so hopefully later this weekend at some point i will be able to see you! And as always, Julie, your entry is perfect. I know i've heard most of those stories but it's nice to see them all together. I miss you all and will see you soon!
Love, Mayumi <mayumihara90@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Saturday, May 6, 2006 4:40 PM CDT

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Loved and really did enjoy the stories,They made me shed some tears. Thinking of you guys always and love you!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 4:25 PM CDT

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Hi All,

Loved the story... Shared a few tears reading it, of course!!!! Many, many hugs from all of us..

Roy, Donna, and "Forever Cheyenne"
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo,, Tx - Saturday, May 6, 2006 4:16 PM CDT

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Thank you so much for those stories... although I have heard them all before they seemed so new an like maddie was right there, i could see her. I had a great dream to tell you guys, it was kinda short, or i don't remember some of it but it is definately worth telling you all. I cannot wait to see you, hopefully tonight. Love you all, and I hope Chachi kicked but at soccer today!
See you later,
Much Love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, May 6, 2006 3:54 PM CDT

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Madz-

Two years...

Two years of celebrating your spirit and of missing your magnificent smile and glorious outlook in our daily earthly lives. Two years of refelcting on your love of life and mourning your void in our earthly days...

Time hardly measures all that you brought to each of us, and it seems inadequate in its attempt to express the sorrows that we have felt.

What I have been thinking about quite a lot lately, and especially today, is how ferociously you lived life. You deliberately made each second count, you conscientiously took each minute as an opportunity to shine your light brighter and further.

I think about how often I have let inaction or complacency guide my life. I say that I am going to do something, and somehow a year sneaks up and I am in the exact same spot promising the exact same action...I have let indecision decide the direction of my life on many occasions, and often have felt that life was passing me by...

You never surrendered any segment of your life to self-pity, indecisiveness or uncertainty. You purposefully lived life each day, welcomed the unknown paths as adventures and made decisions with the help of that unflappable moral compass that guided you in light and love and passion for living a great good life!

Because I have seen how much you did in your lifetime of 14 years; how many lives you touched, how many minds you opened, how many hearts you stretched, how many stories you left to be told, how many memories you so graciously left us to tell and comfort ourselves with, I fully understand that time has little real ability to meausure love, experiences, loss, or life.

It is best for keeping appointments...

You lived your life from big-hearted experience to joyful event...from sharing love with someone to inspiring many, many people...I hope to worry less about time and start taking a hold of and living life...

I miss you...but know you are never far away.


Auntie Sara <saradornisch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 2:18 PM CDT

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Thinking of all of you. Thanks for sharing your beautiful butterfly/Maddie stories with all of us. Praying for each of you every day. Hugs from Michigan!!
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Saturday, May 6, 2006 1:49 PM CDT

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I am thinking of you all today. Maddie and your whole family have touched so many lives. My husband, who usually never reads any caringbridge sites somehow sat down this morning and read some of Maddie's. He was very moved. The butterfly poem is lovely. I look forward to talking to you soon.
Maryann Einarson (Sydney Coxon's mom) <meinarson@in-tec.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 12:57 AM CDT

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LOVE the butterfly stories...thanks for sharing them with us!
You are in our thoughts today.
Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St. Paul, MN - Saturday, May 6, 2006 12:53 AM CDT

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Beautiful stories. I really am glad that you decided to share them. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Ruth <blueeyed_female@msn.com>
Hinton, WV US - Saturday, May 6, 2006 11:45 AM CDT

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Thinking of you all today and offering my sincere love and prayers for you all!
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Saturday, May 6, 2006 11:39 AM CDT

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Julie, thinking of you all as you endure another especially hard day. Maddie was a gifted and talented young lady, wise beyond her years
Chris Gooch's mom <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, May 6, 2006 11:22 AM CDT

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Julie,

I am sitting here at Starbucks before ChaChi and Via's soccer game and once again am drawn to Maddie's site. I will always love hearing you tell the butterfly stories and I wish with all my heart that these and all the other beautiful memories bring you, Ashley, ChaChi and Keegan comfort today.

Maddie will never be far from our thoughts and our hearts. She will forever be our inspiration to live life everyday, keep family close, follow our dreams, and of coarse work our ass off!

Love,

Lizabeth, Alec and Via
Lizabeth <lizabeth@whitepineconsulting.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, May 6, 2006 9:45 AM CDT

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Thinking of you and offering prayers of support. The butterfly stories are incredible.
Dave and Cindy Malize <malize5@zitomedia.net>
Emporium, Pa U.S.A. - Saturday, May 6, 2006 8:52 AM CDT

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hello,

beautiful stories and beautiful memories for a beautiful family.


jane d'a
wakefield, ma - Saturday, May 6, 2006 8:34 AM CDT

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Thinking of you and praying for you today. I loved the butterfly stories--what an incredible gift! May God comfort you with happy memories today.
Lauren <dramauknow@yahoo.com>
Winston-Salem, NC USA - Saturday, May 6, 2006 8:07 AM CDT

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Hello Incredibles,
You are heavily on my mind today (it's the 6th here on the East Coast). I would say that I hope you have many smiles and good memories today, but I have no doubt that you will. I hope you found the video so we can watch it on our next visit.
You know that Maddie is taking the day off of teaching today to celebrate her Heaven anniversary.

(You see Aunt Toni signed the GB! she must love you.)
Thanks for the butterfly stories.

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Friday, May 5, 2006 11:59 PM CDT

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Thinking of your family and remembering the incredible girl named Maddie. Your family is very special. I can't believe it will be two years since Maddie left this earth.
Karen Ueland www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie
Karen Ueland <klpu@aol.com>
- Friday, May 5, 2006 10:13 PM CDT

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I'm always thinking of you guys and I can't wait to see you all again. Praying Maddie sends you lots of beautiful butterflies tomorrow.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
MD - Friday, May 5, 2006 9:19 PM CDT

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Julie, thank you so much for sharing those butterfly ~ Maddie stories. You brought tears to my eyes. I love reading of your beautiful children ~ especially the last paragraph when you described them in a couple of words. You are obviuosly a wonderful mother.
Thinking of you always,
~Tess
Tess Baker <tessbaker@sbcglobal.net>
Fresno, CA - Friday, May 5, 2006 8:27 PM CDT

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Thinking of you today.

Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St. Paul, MN - Friday, May 5, 2006 4:48 PM CDT

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Thinking about you and our girls. HUGS!!!!!!!

Roy
Cheyenne's Daddy
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, Tx - Friday, May 5, 2006 2:24 PM CDT

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I have been checking for updates to see what amazing celebration or balloon release you have planned...maybe it will just be low key? With all that nasty rain we had and the grey skies, I was so relieved to see the sun and all the green that the rain brought. I love Spring! I have been thinking of you often...especially this week. I was a little upset earlier this week, when I found a poem one of the girls wrote about Maddie. Can't get into all of it here, but I am sure I will talk to you soon. It is a beautiful poem, I just took it the wrong way, and over reacted...needlessly...hopefully! I need some Calgon..and a long hot bath. I am sure you could use the same. Hope you are all hanging in there...miss you all. Hugs and kisses for everyone! And Maddie dear, I know you already know this, but you are the most precious angel in Heaven! And I still feel lucky to know you, and God is lucky to have you!
Julie Cameron <rjac63@netscape.net>
- Friday, May 5, 2006 10:35 AM CDT

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Maddie,

I thought of you when I went to open the blinds in Kristen's room and noticed the power card on her dresser -- a beautiful blue butterfly and the words "I hereby release all my fears."

I thought of you when Adam and I were playing hide-n-seek and I found him hiding in the back of the closet behind Kristen's Dorothy dress -- the one you wore in the third grade class Wizard of Oz play. You were Dorothy, John was the scarecrow, Colin Weise was the tin man, and Nick Lundquist was a great cowardly lion. I can see the four of you skipping around the stage and singing the Yellow Brick Road song.

I thought of you when I was putting John's laundry away one day. I noticed that he had all his favorite white baseball hats lined up on his closet shelf - he once said there is nothing cooler than a guy in a CLEAN white hat - he even scotchguards his. And then I noticed that there was only one hat on his dresser - his Anthony hat with "4 Maddie" written on the back - it's still the only hat on his dresser.

I was thinking of you, but actually more about your mom, when I dropped John off at your house on your birthday. I have learned so much from her entries here, especially about feeling blessed. It amazes me how a broken heart can still hold so much love and thankfulness not only for your brother and sisters, but also for all of your friends. John always has such a great time at your house and Julie, I thank you for always including him.

Maddie, I thought of you when Adam and I went down to Lake Harriet on Easter Monday for a picnic. Since he retired from Kenny and moved to Annunciation, we've gained the catholic school holidays. It reminded me of a story I don't think I've shared here. Adam and I had come down to Lake Harriet for a last trolley ride before school started late in August of the summer you moved to heaven. After our ride, Adam wanted popcorn, so we bought some and started walking around the lake. He wanted to walk all the way around, but it was almost dark and I knew he was tired, so I told him we could walk down to the big dock and back. "How about we just walk half way around and then just cut accoss the lake on the way back", he said with all the logic of a kindergartener. "We can't walk on the water", I said. His reply, "Jesus did" (I guess he does listen to those bible stories). I wasn't sure what to say, so I said, "Well, maybe Jesus could give you a piggy-back ride accross the lake". "No, He can't," said Adam. He's busy." "He's busy?", I asked. With no hesitation he said, "Yes, He's busy helping Maddie tuck the baby angels into bed and sing them to sleep." And it made me smile. I can imagine you planning out your song list, gathering up a group of singers and baby rockers, including Jesus, and meticulously checking off each song as it was sung - just like you planned so many projects here with your friends.

And I thought of you last night as I was driving home after picking up some birthday presents for John. Colin Eide's entry about his emails with Ashely popped into my head - her comment about your being the glue. And again it made me smile, because if you were the glue Maddie, you could only have been Krazy Glue - it's a little bit flexible, it can even be stretched a little, but it's bond is permanent. You cast your net wide Maddie, especially in the last year of your life here, gathering family, friends and even strangers close, creating bonds with you and with each other - bonds that will remain forever - permanent bonds from heaven to earth.

Thanks for sneaking away for a little while during your family's Florida vacation to watch John play ball in Ft. Myers. He's a little harder to find now, without the sun bouncing off his braces!

Praying for much laughter among the tears and for peace in the hearts of your family and friends as they celebrate your second anniversay in heaven.



Lori (John's mom), Mpls <llicht@jacobs-mgmt.com>
- Friday, May 5, 2006 9:46 AM CDT

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Sorry i havnt signed in awhile been really busy trying to get everything done before school ends! ( gosh that kinda felt good to say lol) I have been thinking of you guys alot and i miss you and hope that everything goes well for you, chachi it was good to hang out with u the other night at baseball and i will be there some more if dance doesnt get in the way. Alright i better be getting back to work
MISS AND LOVE YOU GUYS!
Maddie~ i have been thinking of you so much and thanks for coming to my deams the other night!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Friday, May 5, 2006 9:12 AM CDT

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I think of you guys all the time, but for some reason I couldn't get Maddie out of my head tonight. Visited your site and can't believe it's so close to two years since she passed away. Her lifeforce is so vibrant and shines so brightly, she still touches me often.

Lots of love to all of you...
Katie, mom to Hayley, Hunter, and Taylor <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 10:12 PM CDT

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HUGS FROM US!!!!!!!!!!!

Roy, Donna and Forever Cheyenne
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo,, Tx - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 3:21 PM CDT

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hey! hope yto see you either this week or weekend, thinking of you!
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Monday, May 1, 2006 7:10 PM CDT

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan, and MADDIE,
I came across this in one of my books about butterflies. I know that butterflies hold a special place in your hearts, and I thought of Maddie when I found it. I also thought you might find comfort in it now that you are approaching Maddie's two year Heavenly arrival.
"The Greek name for a butterfly is Psyche, and the same word means "the soul". There is no illustration of the immortality of the soul so striking and beautiful as the butterfly, bursting on brilliant wings from the tomb in which it has lain, after a dull, groveling, caterpillar existence, to flutter in the blaze of day and feed on the most fragrant and delicate productions of the spring. Psyche, then, is the human soul, which is purified by sufferings and misfortunes, and is thus prepared for the enjoyment of true and pure happiness."
--Bulfinch's Mythology, THE AGE OF FABLE

Wishing you all peace and comfort.

Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Monday, May 1, 2006 5:46 PM CDT

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, and Keegan~

It has been way too long since I've seen or talked with you guys! I miss you all so-oo much! I haven't slowed down enough to think, and what I really want is to hang out with all of you again. So, I'm hoping when school is finally over (SOON!!) I'll get to see you more. But I hope I can spend some time over there on the weekend before school is done. Maddie and you are always thought about. Just today, my Dad and I were driving back to my Mom's from his house, and I saw a big truck with *Maddie* painted in huge letters on the back. And the hand-writing looked SO much like Liz's. I don't know if it was in honor of Maddie, but it was so nice to know that she's around. It stood out so well, stars and everything, and it was bright. So, thanks Maddie, that was awesome! Another moment that made me smile was when two classmates of mine shyly came up to me and said they saw Maddie's Decorating Cents episode on T.V. one night. I thought it was pretty cool, and it was so nice to hear.
Maddie, I've been thinking about you lots n lots and talking about you to whoever I can find at the moment. I've been remembering lots of projects that you made and we made because I've been trying to be creative on many new projects for school. One that I've thought about a lot is the Banned Books display board project for Citizenship in sixth grade. We weren't on the same team, but Ms. Agerter and Mr. Wentworth joined classes for this project. I think you and I ended up both doing Judy Blume, but you had finished way before and your display became an example for the others who needed help with creativity. The due date arrived and all of the student's display boards looked just like Maddie's. You certainly set the example, and received a four (the highest grade) for your work. Everyone thought you were so super cool, and they all wanted to be like you. We all think that everyday, and we soo miss being able to follow your lead.

I love you so much!!! I miss you so much!!!

Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, April 30, 2006 8:35 PM CDT

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Holding you tightly and fervently in my prayers as Maddie's Homegoing anniversary approaches. May our hearts be lifted to Heaven. May our spiritual eyes be opened to our Lord's Light and might we see beyond the now to the glorious promise of forever in the presence of our gracious Lord and our beloved children.

In His Love,
Yolanda Rogers
http://www.galatians5.com

Mom to Anna <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Saturday, April 29, 2006 1:28 PM CDT

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Hi Julie..and kids!! I am so glad you all had a nice time in Fl. Lots been happening here. Cree turned 16 ouch! She has been doing the soccer and basketball thing, along with trying to follow big sister everywhere. They ended up salsa dancing of all things on her birthday and had an amazing time! We tried to sneak away for some R&R, but everything is too hectic right now. Just wanted you to know that we are thinking of you and watching the cardinals flit around singing sounds of spring...as well as the return of all the beautiful butterflies! And the warmth of the sun..all reminders of miss maddie, makes me hungry for french fries!! We love and miss you all!
jcameron <rjac63@aol.com>
minneapolis, - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 2:38 PM CDT

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ashley,
my family has a card for you we will have to drop it b y very soon!!

miss you all, hope to see you guys soon

KEEP SHINING MADDZ

austin
austin Kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 10:25 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
Ashley I hope you had a great birthday! I just got back from D.C. on a Pop singers competition trip. (We got 1st!)
I cannot believe how long it has been since I have talked to you, I hope you guys are doing well and are ready for the school to end! I will hopefully see you guys soon, I miss you all soooo much.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 8:18 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Yesterday Ashley!!
Hope your day was amazing!
♥ liz
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, April 24, 2006 5:45 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, I was speaking about you & Maddie again this weekend as I met Nancy Morrison whose daughter Marin is fighting brain cancer right now. The Morrisons live next door to Larik's brother and have an amazing spirit about them as they walk this difficult road. I thought you might offer them support and I know Nancy is interested in learning about the man (I can't remember his name) Maddie worked with as a spiritual/life guide. Please visit Marin's website at www.marinlove.com. I know they would love to hear from you. Peace and love,
Katherine Hall <lhallkhall@cox.net>
West Granby, CT - Monday, April 24, 2006 11:30 AM CDT

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hey! thinking of you guy and girls today. miss you and love you thanks for allways being there
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Sunday, April 23, 2006 9:44 PM CDT

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Today is my schools Relay for life and in the past 2 months with all the prepartions for the event I found maddie and others in my head often. I am going to Winona State and our campus has raised over 30,000 dollars and the total is rasing hundreds of dollars each hour as we are now just 3 hours from the start of the event. I am unfortunatly stuck inside one of the residences halls working until 5, but i can see everyone setting up their tents getting ready for the long night. As i was raising money for the event my teamates and i talked about how this was going to be so fun and how it was for such a good cause. It was honestly until the past few days that the size of the cause and how lucky i feel to be a part of this has really affected me. Lumanaries will line our walkway after dark tonight and i decorated a few in maddies memory. Tonight i will walk for in memory of my grandpa who passed away in September. But i know maddie and all the others will be there with us. Hope everything is well for you and that i get to see Ashley and the rest soon.
Stephanie Ritter <slritter6435@winona.edu>
Winona/Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, April 22, 2006 2:09 PM CDT

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I loooooveeeeeeee you maddie! you've been on my mind allll day today and coming up in so many conversations..its crazy. i miss you. Hi julie ashley keegan and chachi hope you guys are doing well. i just wanna say hello and that I miss you quite a lot. see you sometime soon hopefully!.
hanne <hannegoetz@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 20, 2006 10:33 PM CDT

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Hey it was nice to see you somewhat last night! AHAh i thought it was funny hearing someone yell my name through the window. Well i have been thinking of you guys a lot latly, hope to see you guys really soon
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, April 20, 2006 9:00 PM CDT

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Thanks so much for the wonderful time in MN. It was so nice meeting your family and getting to know Maddie a little more. I look forward to seeing you guys again soon. Please say hello to all the Incredibles!
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 19, 2006 9:20 PM CDT

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So glad you had such a great time in Florida! Thinking of you and always remembering Maddie.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 6:30 PM CDT

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To the whole family!! We had a great time - the whole family is awesome. Toni and I will be talking about Keegan for weeks to come. You guys were the best hosts. Minneapolis is a great city - we will have to come in February before we decide to move there.

It was great to hear more stories about Maddie and share some of Cameron with you guys. I hope that they were together and laughing with us.

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartord, CT - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 10:02 PM CDT

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Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!
for everything Julie... I had an amazing time.


♥
Liz <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 11:32 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,

I have spent the entire afternoon reading Maddie's journal and I'm so touched by what a caring and special presence she is. Reading her words have touched my heart. The way she writes about you and your entire family is so touching. I feel like I was meant to read her words today, I needed a reminder of how sweet and beautiful life is and now I have it. Best wishes to you and your family.

Jenny Miller
Jenny Miller <jennymiller@vzavanue.net>
Ashburn, VA USA - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 2:38 PM CDT

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Hi Julie....hope you all had the best time ever with Susan and Mark and baby Colton. I hope you were able to relax and just be. Even though things will never, ever be the same....just being with Susan and Mark and getting away from the everyday routine, well, I hope it renewed your soul, only if for alittle while....sending you hugs and letting you know I'm thinking of you and your truly wonderful family. Maddie, I know you went to florida with everyone, bet you and Jakey were there looking over your loved ones. Think of you often.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Sunday, April 9, 2006 8:25 PM CDT

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Julie - just popping in to say that I'm thinking of you, and hoping that your trip and visit went well. A change of scenery and a visit with like minded friends can be so refreshing to the soul. I hope that you come home replenished and well rested - ready to tackle all the things that busy family of yours does next!

((HUGS))
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn
Campbell River, BC Canada - Sunday, April 9, 2006 6:27 PM CDT

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Ugh maddie I'm so tired of searching for a job. Life just seems to be getting more and more complicated every day. I wish we could go back to Mr. Lundberg's plays or 5th grade pine cone fights. Simple pleasures. The weather is warming up and spring is here, and I know this is a very difficult time for everyone who knew you. I miss you and your family and Liz and everyone, and I think and talk about you guys constantly.I know that you are looking down from heaven and helping us all with the difficult challenges we face in our complicated lives. You give me strength to not only continue on in life, but to do so with a radiantely possitve attitude.
Happy early Easter to all you Paguyo's.


Caitlin Eide
Minneapolis, Mn - Sunday, April 9, 2006 2:45 PM CDT

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Hope that everything went well on your trip! Thinking of you guys
xoxxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, April 8, 2006 11:31 AM CDT

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Hey how're you all doing. I haven't written in a while and now is just the time because so much has been happening. We just got back from Florida today and boy is it nice down there. We had perfect weather in Fort Myers and hopefully you guys had the same. The weather and team bonding were about the only things we got to enjoy down there because those teams are super good. We won one game down there against a J.V. team and lost all other 5. The teams that we played were ranked in the top 10 in state and we sort of hung with them but ended up losing by a bunch. It was a blast though and hopefully you guys had just as good of a trip and caught some of that nice, Florida sunshine.
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, MN - Thursday, April 6, 2006 5:14 PM CDT

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Maddie,

Sorry if this is too informal, but I just wanted to tell you a few things. I regret not getting to know you better, I really do. I do now more than ever before. I missed out on something so special, I missed out on a sure friend.

As I was just talking to your sister online for like a thousand hours, she made me realize that I just never knew. You were extraordinary, you were "the glue". Your big sis is doing pretty well at college, I promise to do all I can for her, but she still needs you every day.

Thank you for everything you've done, thank you for helping her, your mom, and everyone.

I miss you.

Colin
Colin Eide <colin.eide@gmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 4:43 AM CDT

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HEY MADDIE,
JUST THINKING BOUT U.....MISSING YOU.....LOVING U....I JUST STOPED BY 2 SAY THAT...N 2 LET U KNOW THAT I DIDNT 4GET BOUT YOU...BUT YOU KNO THAT ALREADY......CUZ U R THE UN4GETABLE.....LOVE YOU ALWAYZ N 4EVA THINKING BOUT U XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXO STEPHANIE MOORE
STEPHANIE MOORE <PRINCESS015@COMCAST.NET>
ST.PAUL, MN USA - Sunday, April 2, 2006 10:17 PM CDT

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Dear Aunt Sarah,
There is another heartbroken Auntie out there:
www.caringbridge.org/mi/ashleigh
annonymous
- Friday, March 31, 2006 3:33 PM CST

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Hope you have a lot of fun on ur trip! Hope your trip goes safe....thinking of you always, love you guys
klassy <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Friday, March 31, 2006 12:55 AM CST

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Thinking of you all. Enjoy your vacation to Susan's!! How wonderful for you all to get together! Wishing you continued wellness and strength...always keeping Maddie in my thoughts and prayers...Hugs and safe traveling!
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 5:14 AM CST

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Hey,
It was great to check in and find a big update!! I have been so horrible, and acctually had to rely on that update to find out what has been going on in your guys' lives lately... i thought I would be able to visit before my trip & your trip... yea not gonna happen! But I CANNOT wait to see you guys when I get back. It sounds like things are going well and that your upcoming plans are going to be crazy but as always, a blast.
Julie, I just have to comment. I am so glad you found some solution to all of that Children's $ thing and it sounds perfect. It is like Maddie dropped this new doctor and program from heaven! I am hoping that this will all work out great for you.
I have some MAJOR updating to do with you guys, some of which I mentioned a while back. I am starting a new club as I said a long time ago. It is called "Monarch", we will be bringing awareness about cancer (prevention and general information) to South, and we are going to volunteer together at certain places to gain an understanding of how we can help those with cancer and how cancer basically SUCKS! jk i was going to say, how cancer effect patients and their families.
Anyways, that has been my main focus for a while now, (as u know Julie it takes a lot to get anything started like this. If I have to write one more letter to the school district... i swear).
I hope you guys have TONS of fun in Florida, by the way where in FL are you going? Kaija and my mom and I are going on a road trip to Destin, FL (N.E.)... doubt we are anywhere near each other, but it would be funny if we were.
I will talk with you guys soon, give Jake's family a hug for me and see you all very very very soon (i hope)!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 11:14 PM CST

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saw a monarch butterfly today (strange, I know)
thought of Maddie and all the beauty and strength she is.
thanks for watchin out for all your loved ones Maddie!
i know nobody who has had such an amazing impact on others as you did!
kriss <mcl@pro-ns.net>
minneapolis, mn - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 3:10 PM CST

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Keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca ~THE PRAYER BEARS~>
EDMONTON , - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 2:07 PM CST

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I too am so excited about our trip to MN. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you guys. I told someone before it’s the weirdest feeling because even though we have never met, I feel like I know everything about you. Although Maddie earned her wings before Cameron was dx I read every past journal just to know how your journey went and then continued to see how you guys were doing everyday just because I felt so close. I truly feel in love with Maddie’s spirit through her writing. Anyway I can’t wait to put the faces to the names of those I feel like I already KNOW.
Forever Cameron’s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
Abingdon, Md - Monday, March 27, 2006 7:49 PM CST

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I think of all of you daily. I hope all is well and that you have a wonderful time in Florida. ChaCh, you still have to tell me what you want from Mexico!
Suzie
Mpls., MN u.s. - Sunday, March 26, 2006 9:47 AM CST

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Julie...you are a gifted writer! I haven't been checking in a while and now have spent my daughter's entire nap time immersed in your words of strength mixed with sorrow,vulnerability and joy...all in one! I hope my daughter and I have the love of good friends and family that surround you endlessly. I often think of you and keep you all in my prayers.
Amy and Emily Elsen <elsenae@hotmail.com>
Bloomington, MN USA - Saturday, March 25, 2006 11:42 AM CST

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ONE WEEK!!!!
Liz Shay <lshay90@ol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, March 23, 2006 5:30 PM CST

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Julie, Maddie and Family-
It's been awhile since I have been to the site, but I continue to think of Maddie everyday.
She was such a large part of my childhood, and a bit of her will be in my heart forever.
I hope everything is well.

Your family has changed my life and helped make me the person i am today.
Love, Rachel Holmes
Rachel Holmes <hOlmeSLiCE31@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 8:28 PM CST

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Julie, Auntie Sara and all ~

Several years ago your wonderful Maddie began to make such an impact upon my life. I do not fully understand this, given that we didn't know each other in our 3D lives, but her spirit, her energy, her joy and playfulness, her amazing sensitive caring that reached out to so many kiddos in the midst of her own struggles, her insightfulness and wisdom, and on and on touched me in a deep way.

Sara, as Maddie's health began to decline, you were the touchstone as your posts shed such light on how she was doing. I remember that we posted to each other a few times and you reminded me to cherish my girl (now ten, adopted from China like Marissa which I think was how I learned about Maddie originally).

I thank you for naming Maddie's friends in the picture - what amazing young women they and Ashley and Charlotte are becoming! And Keegan - how wonderful that he and Maddie are so much alike!

So what is it about Maddie? How could she transcend a blog and touch the hearts of many, like me, that she hadn't even met? What a girl you have, Julie!! I cannot begin to fathom the loss of her daily physical presence in your lives, and I'm sorry that words cannot really help with that.

Thank you so much for sharing Maddie with us and for continuing her site.

Sending hugs to you all,

Christine




Christine <cpurvis@lclark.edu>
Portland, OR United States - Monday, March 20, 2006 0:59 AM CST

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hey, how are you girls and a guy beebn lately, hope to go elevator jumping soon!
Alliosn <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Sunday, March 19, 2006 6:05 PM CST

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Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you everyday.
Love you,
Allie Myren<3 <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, March 18, 2006 7:24 PM CST

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Maddie-
I know that it has been far too long since I have writen
here...I come everyday with the intention of sending off a note, but feel at a complete loss for words. (I know, for me, that is incredibly hard to believe) I guess it is really not about having any words and more about not having the right words to express my thoughts and feelings.

I have been re-awakened to the sense of loss and the void your absence on earth has created in my life, through the loss others have recently suffered. I realize in many ways that the silent pain we all feel is within us as intensely as the day that you left this earth; it is just manifesting itself differently. I was looking at the picture boards of you with Keegan the other day, and I felt a little cheated not to be able to see the interaction you would have had with him at this age...he reminds me a lot of you...introspective, smart, full of life and funny, and oh-so-loving...I can only imagine the games the two of you would have concocted...the magical mischief you would have created...

Your utter joy for life has also hit me hard and has helped me to make a few decisions/changes in my life. I, like many, have waited for the perfect time to do things in my life... I have held onto things that were not always the most positive choices, instead of taking a risk that there could be something better or at least different for me...I have spun my wheels, afraid of the unknown....and you, well you embraced change and welcomed the unknown as part of the plan...

You continue to influence the lives of many, and I feel blessed to be able to call on your wisdom and spirit...and I delight in the conversations that Keegan has with you and the love you share...it helps to remind me how very close you are to us...every minute...
Auntie Sara <saradornisch@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, March 18, 2006 7:52 AM CST

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Hi Julie and family,
Thinking about you all and praying for you all- always. Hope all is well in life and in spirit. Thank you for continuing to share your life- and Maddie's- with everyone.
blessings, Courtney Hanneman
Minnetonka, MN - Friday, March 17, 2006 4:07 PM CST

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Okay, this happened again... I don't care if I just wrote. I am writing anyways! I just finished my time visiting some of the other CB sites, like Julianna and Maryah. I haven't seen you guys in a very long time, I am sure you have tons going on as normal with Chachi's soccer and basketball and this trip to plan. I must come by sometime to catch up on all that has been going on. Something big has just began in my life, I didn't want to mention anything until it was almost certain to happen. I am starting a new club at South, a cancer awareness and volunteer organization. I hope to tell you guys about it sometime soon and I need help to NAME it, I have had so many temporary names and then they get booted out for one reason or another. Anyways, I miss you guys, cannot wait to see you again.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, March 16, 2006 9:36 PM CST

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Hey Guys,
I hope you guys are doing well. I want to see you guys sometime soon! I hope your Florida plans are going well, and everyone is excited for spring break.
I will see you guys soon,
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, March 15, 2006 9:10 AM CST

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hey all you lovelies! another friend is on this site--the parent of my first love---sigh (not really). thought i would stop by and say hello and letcha know that you're on my mind. time flies--cant believe its almost 2 years since maddie went to heaven. i am moved by your continued sense of loss combined with an amazing sense of peace (does that make any sense?). she is sooo powerful!!! love you guys
bridge
Bridget Gregg <bgregg@charter.net>
- Tuesday, March 14, 2006 8:50 PM CST

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Julie, I havent signed in a while! this entry made me cry. I miss maddie so much too! yet I never met her. I cant imagine how you do it , You are an amazing Mom and the kids are proof of that! they are all great kids! I know you make maddie so proud all the time. Maddies death is particularly hard on me! she was the one I believed and had faith in her healing on earth. her death left me numb for a long time. then Cheyenne, and beautiful jakey bear! I think I spent more time in prayer over those 3 kids than on anything in my whole life. and I am a christian so I pray alot! But I Prayed without ceasing for those 3 angels and it did no good. But I learned alot from KIDS! miraculous Kids! Life is forever different, im better for knowing of them. and you. I think about you all the time. I just cant seem to sign maddies quest book like she isnt here! So Hello Miss Maddie! you are an inspiration in Heaven as you were on earth and you are truly loved and missed sweetie! Hugs!
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Monday, March 13, 2006 10:33 PM CST

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Missing you always!

♥ Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, March 12, 2006 10:54 PM CST

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We are looking forward to our visit. Julie, I love chatting with you, I get such great comfort. I'm missing Cameron like crazy!!

I wish it were something besides this awful tumor that brought us together.
Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Sunday, March 12, 2006 4:57 PM CST

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Hey Everyone,
I have been keeping myself busy, with a lot of schoolwork and other stuff. A lot has been changing with me these days (like my sister Erika moving back into my house...yea). I feel like i haven't talked to you guys in forever. I hope all is well and you guys are having fun in our no milder weather.
Maddie- You are so awesome, on Friday I kept thinking about how awesome your spanish project was, the one on Pablo Picasso... i have never seen anyone do that great on a spanish project. You put more effort (and creativity) into one project than most would give in an intire school year. I have missed you with your crazy comments and your witty remarks. You are the funniest person I know and I think it is going to stay that way for a while, not many people have the amazing outlook on life that you did. I miss you sooooo much. We are all down here thinking about you everyday, we love you with all our hearts. I love you.

Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, March 12, 2006 12:59 AM CST

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Goodnight Maddie!!
You are my star and WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Missing you always,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Saturday, March 11, 2006 9:13 PM CST

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hey,
maddie i have been thinking about you so much lately. the other night i had to call liz and she came pick me up and we talked and we both miss you so much. i had a really hard weekend thinking about you not being here and i love you so much!!!! i hope to see your family soon i love you maddie


KEEP SHINING MADDZ!

austin
austin kennedy <austinkennedy09@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, March 6, 2006 2:50 PM CST

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My History day project is completed!! YES!! just thought I'd let you kno lol its not nearly as beautiful as the one in 8th grade, considerin we basically threw it together this weekend alone, but we definitly got it done and it dosent look to shabby! Hope to see you sooN!
Liz Shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
Mpls, mn usa - Sunday, March 5, 2006 7:30 PM CST

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Alicia, John, Ciara, Hunter & ^^Angel^^ Tommy BENNETT CHILDREN'S JOURNAL <mps3mom@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, March 4, 2006 4:32 PM CST

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I AM BACK! and the weather was jsut WONDERFULL!
So i have a story so on my plane ride the flight attendents were doing the whole like how to use a seat belt deal and i just started to laugh because i thought of maddie like right then and there because on her movie she does it so well and just like them!
Well thinking of you always i will tell you more of my trip later....i think i am getting with chachi one of these days i think.
Well love you guys so much!
I have to say THANKS for everything and you guys are so STRONG!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, March 2, 2006 11:23 PM CST

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Just stopping by to say that I was thinking about you all and your amazing Maddie today. I hope you are all well and looking forward to Spring, with lots of butterflies all around! Take care....
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 2:09 PM CST

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Julie you and Maddie and Ashley, Charlotte and Keegan remain in my thoughts, heart and prayers....your grace is humbling. I cannot believ it will be two years.....sending hugs and warm thoughts.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Wednesday, March 1, 2006 7:21 AM CST

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Julie~
I'm glad I got a chance to see you the other day. I hope Keegan is feeling better. Keegy is such a cutie, no matter how sick he is or how rotten he feels! I think the meeting went well- talking about Maddie gave me a huge smile on my face. Thinking about her each day brings a whole different story of emotions, but it really comforted me to talk with you. Julie, you are one of the smartest people I know. You are right up there with my daddy (lol). You two may know and believe different things, but both of you hold a gigantic amount of wisdom that is evident in your words and actions.
Everytime I look back on any of Maddie's writing, I am blown away with how intelligent she was at such a young age. She worded her beliefs with amazing strength. Julie, you and Maddie share the wisdom you have given to her, and that of which she was born with and developed throughout her years. I love to witness the shared intelligence and beliefs whenever I chat with you. You are the coolest mom ever! Sending love and get well wishes to the Paguyo/Dornisch house!!
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, February 26, 2006 8:49 PM CST

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In response to Christine's request- if you scroll down the guestbook to see the photo of Maddie's friends(at our house celebrating Maddie's and Liz's 16th birthdays) the girls, from left to right, are: Brittany, Dannie, Austin, Cree and Kristina- Liz is the photographer, so she's not in the picture. If you look at the shirts the girls are wearing, you will see a photo of Maddie and Liz in what I think was 5th grade dressed for Halloween.
As Christine says, these girls are wonderfully inspirational, and their continued love and support of our family is a true testimony to the deep love and admiration they share for Maddie.
Julie <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, February 26, 2006 8:05 PM CST

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The girls in the birthday photo:
(L-R) Brittany, Dannie, Austin, Cree, and Kristina.
I think Liz was taking the picture of us, but she's the one on the right in the T-shirt picture. I'm sure we could post a bigger photo of Liz and Maddie in the guestbook for all to see. What do you think, Liz?!
Love,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, February 26, 2006 8:04 PM CST

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Hey Everyone,
CRAZINESS down at my cabin tonight. My parents are having their annual Carnivale (masked party Italian style), my family is so embarassing! Well i still haven't seen you guys since the 16th birthday bash. I hope everyone is doing alright, I love you all!
I will hopefully talk with you guys soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, February 25, 2006 7:04 PM CST

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Wonder if someone can put first names to the girls in Liz's photo? Maddie's friends have continued her inspiration by the way they live and it would be great to have names with faces. So which one is Liz??!!


Christine <cpurvis@lclark.edu>
Portland, OR - Saturday, February 25, 2006 2:24 PM CST

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Hi all! Maryah and I stopping by to send our love. We're home and happy to be here. Julie, so sorry to hear that you are sad but glad that all is well with each of you. Lots of love and hugs comin' your way from the Tift family.
Rachel, Maryah and Mo <racheltift@yahoo.com>
St.Paul, MN USA - Saturday, February 25, 2006 10:37 AM CST

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Hey guys,
I haven't been able to spend much time at the paguyo/dornisch house recently and that definitely has to end soon. Spending time with liz and chachi last week/weekend was a blast. Who knew you could go through so many drive-thru's in one night? haha what fun times we have. Keliix season is coming up quick and i can't wait until the summer when we get to have sleepovers and soccer just like last year. Even sooner than that, Florida is most definitely on its way. I'm almost counting down the days i'm so excited. Thank you so much for inviting me to spend this fun time with the family. I'm sure i'll never be able to repay you. Hope everyone is doing well and i'll call over to see when i can stop over next.
Love always,
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn 55409 - Friday, February 24, 2006 5:14 PM CST

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Hey Julie,

Just popping by to see how you were doing and what the family is up to. Sad knowing that you are sad, but happy knowing that you get so much from the other gals and the big guy. It sounds like we'll practically fly by each other depending on when your Florida trip is. We're off on Julianna's wish trip to Disney the last week of April.

Hoping this finds you well,
Terry, Julianna Banana's dad <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Friday, February 24, 2006 4:08 PM CST

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Dearest family
I have just read Maddie's journal and just want you to know how beautiful a spirit your Maddie is. What a joy for you to have had the 14 years with her. I lost my sister 8/26/05 to metastatic breast cancer, and have since been reading caring bridge since then to feel closer to the feelings that we share. I am sorry I did not have the honor of knowing Maddie on earth, she must surely be a wonderful angel.
Pam Kwazu <kwazu@msn.com>
Nashville, TN USA - Friday, February 24, 2006 11:52 AM CST

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Dear Maddie,

I think of you often. I dedicated my Spring Recitations to you last year and had a student read your poem to open the program. There was not a dry eye in the house. I am starting to help my students pick their recitations for this spring and will always dedicate the program to you. I can see you on the stage perfectly reciting Franklin D. Roosevelt’s “A Day that will Live in Infamy” speech. I see you singing “Each of Us is a Flower” and sitting right beside my desk performing the tasks of a student teacher in third grade. This year I sent out Christmas cards and I included your poem. One of my friends said she is sending copies of your poem to her friends. You were a blessing to my life, all the people around you, and I am sure you are a blessing in heaven. When you were sick I kept thinking you would always be alright, and I should not interfere with your time with friends and family. I now wish I would have been there for you physically, not just spiritually. I have a new understanding of life threatening diseases after experiencing cancer and chemo myself. Right now, I have a nephew who has a brain tumor and is getting chemo and radiation at Children’s hospital. I hope I can be there for him for whatever he needs. He, his mom, and one of his little brothers will be living with us for the next six weeks during his outpatient treatments. I wish you were here to tell me what to do. You will always live in a part of my heart, as long as I have my memory.

Your first grade music teacher and third grade teacher, Pamela Stewart.

Pamela Stewart <pamela.stewart@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN United States - Thursday, February 23, 2006 7:53 PM CST

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I was thinking of you guys today a lot... hope you all are doing well. Liz I especially thought of you when I made a big batch of brownies and cakes for my mom and dads party that they are having. I thought, if liz was here she would be eating half of this behind my back, oh liz i love ya! (PS I will be bringing you over some chocolate chip cookies i think because i have neglected your sweet tooth for far to long, sorry liz, you have been deprived.)
Julie, I was researching a project in health class today and i came across a name, you wouldn't happen to be related to a Mr. Allen Dornisch would you? Because he was in my textbook... random i know but it made me think about you guys and not finish my classwork.
I miss you guys, I hope to see you all soon!
I love you Maddie
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 8:42 PM CST

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Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Ruth <BLUEEYED_FEMALE@MSN.COM>
Hinton, WV US - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 4:04 PM CST

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Hey! I just took a test in 2nd hour, and I got 32 out of 60! bummer huh? lol allrighty well I thoughtd i just stop by to say hey! Hope to see ya soon! Love ya lots.
liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 10:21 AM CST

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I won't tell La La that you left her out :(

Love you guys,
Susan new mommy to Colton Jake and mommy forever to Jakey Bear
Susan <@aol.com>
- Tuesday, February 21, 2006 7:33 PM CST

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wow! I am so sorry that happened
Maddie <luvmonkees@cox.net>
Centreville, Va USA - Monday, February 20, 2006 5:41 PM CST

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Julie, I just had to let you know this: I was getting an early start on spring cleaning in Leanna and Caitlin's room and I came across letters and cards from you, Maddie and her friends. It made my day and I will put them in a time capsule I will be creating for Caitlin.
I hope all is well with you and the family. Thinking of you guys always.
www.caringbridge.org/ny/caitlintaylorgunn
Aleta, Mommy to Angel Caitlin <agunn@optonline.net>
West Nyack, NY - Sunday, February 19, 2006 9:51 AM CST

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Hi Julie,
Its been a long time since I have written. I'm glad to see how well the kids are doing. I can see how much you still miss Maddie and I'm sure you will until you get to meet her again someday. I hope you have a wonderful trip to Florida. My daughter Kari ( we came to Maddie B.D.) party will also be 16 in March. It is a scary time as she has her permit and will start driving ( if she passes)
Karen Ueland .

Karen Ueland ( www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie) <klpu@aol.com>
St. Paul, Mn - Saturday, February 18, 2006 3:52 PM CST

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hey!
happy belated valentines day!
love you
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Friday, February 17, 2006 9:51 PM CST

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Hey Guys,
It has been far too long since I have seen you all. That picture is not the cutest one I have seen of myself but I can deal. In all it is a great photo of that night. Thanks again for doing the party, it was an unforgetable night.
I am so excited that my show is over, today was the first day I rode home on the bus after school in a long time. Hope that everyone is doing all right, seems everyday is just as hard as the one before... whoever came up with that crap about time heals all wounds is very naive and obviously on crack! Ashley I want to hear about that African dance class that sounds like so much fun! Chachi I don't know how you can do all of the stuff you do, and still sleep. Julie me mom is kicking herself everyday for not getting together with you... saying she will call today, or today, or tonight, she is organizing the winery and it is taking up a lot of her time. I hope you and keegan are having some good times together.
With all of this cold weather I cannot wait until Spring Break! I am going on a road trip with my mom and Kaija, Ana and her friend. Florida will be a blast, take lots of pictures for me! I miss you guys so much, and I cannot wait to see you again.
Maddie- As I talked to you about last night, I cannot believe the amount of fun you put in every minute of life. How you could make a classroom burst with laughter with one word, and how you could make a project so fun and creative. Most of all you made life crazy, entertaining, hilarious, fun, joyful, spontaneous, and wonderful, to name a few. Each day I think of how awesome it is going to be to have every all together in heaven again. I imagine you with a big house full of people and party rooms, and somewhere in the mix of the chaos there is a classroom of sorts where you teach daily. You amaze me daily, and you continue to inspire me each and every moment of my life. I will love you forever. I miss you so much, but thank you for being there for me.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, February 17, 2006 5:05 PM CST

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I love the pic of all the girls! I really love the pic of maddie and liz!! Well jsut stoping by i am going to mexico i am so EXCITED i will be outta this cold weather. Well jsut thinking of you tons.
p.s chahci call me when i get back

klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Friday, February 17, 2006 3:46 PM CST

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cuties!
liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, February 16, 2006 10:36 PM CST

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Just wanted to say hello to you all... Hope all is well.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Thursday, February 16, 2006 7:49 PM CST

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Hey everyone,
I know it's a day late but I just wanted you to know I wish you a very happy Valentines Day!
Thinking of you and praying for you!
Love you SO much!
Allie Myren<3 <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 15, 2006 9:30 PM CST

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I know that I'm a day late just want you to know that I'm thinking of you always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA/CANADA, - Wednesday, February 15, 2006 3:44 PM CST

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Happy Valentines day! I love all of you!
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:09 PM CST

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Crystal Copeland mommy to Angel Ray-Anne (www.caringbridge.org/ca/rayanne) <crystal2175@yahoo.com>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:06 AM CST

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Thoughts & Prayers are with you.
Candice Behm <larcanril@comcast.net>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, February 13, 2006 3:27 PM CST

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It has been a long time since I visited this site, but recently some friends of mine were having some troubles and I was drawn to Maddie for some inspiration on what I might be able to do to help. I am so greatful to be able to continue to learn about life everyday from Maddie... it is truely a blessing.
Dave Premack <davemister@juno.com>
Duluth, MN - Sunday, February 12, 2006 4:38 PM CST

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hey Paguyo's,
I just wanted to say hi to you guys. I am hoping to find out when Cha chi playsthis week and come watch if i dont have a game. It does feel like an eternity since we have had maddies physical presence here with us and i cant even start to imagine everything you're going through. stay strong and keep being positive. i love you guys and you're all in my thoughts and prayers.
amanda viehauser <uplaylikeagirl@hotmail.com>
mpls, mn us - Sunday, February 12, 2006 3:41 PM CST

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Know I havent been here in a while and wanted to check in on you guys. Julie, I am thankful you do have the peace of knowing she is okay now, as you described as seeing in her eyes. Many dont get the privilege, and that doesnt take away from this unbearable and unfair agony of outliving a child, but its a small iota of comfort. Wishing you all well,
Chris Gooch's mom <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, February 11, 2006 7:32 PM CST

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hey everyone, i was just thinking about you all and thought I'd write to say hi! i was so disappointed that i couldnt make it to the birthday party, but i picked out a really cool toy!!haha, thinking of you always! love you all!
Croix Kennedy <croix-kennedy@uiowa.edu>
- Saturday, February 11, 2006 3:50 PM CST

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Love you guys! hope to see you this weekend, I'll give ya a call.
Love always
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, MN usa - Saturday, February 11, 2006 2:41 PM CST

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Love you and thinking of you always and forever.
<3
Allie Myren<3 <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 10, 2006 5:19 PM CST

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Think of you often, check on you daily. Remembering Maddie...her beauty, her grace and her wisdom. Prayers for peace and strength to get you through your days. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Friday, February 10, 2006 12:10 AM CST

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Thinking of you all...thought of Maddie and realized I had been away for awhile...sending love
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 6:36 PM CST

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thinking of you and your beautiful angel. that was a lovely letter she wrote. take care
Robyn mom to Nicole and angel PJ
www.caringbridge.org/visit/nicole

RW
Petawawa, Ontario (Canada), - Sunday, February 5, 2006 7:56 AM CST

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Sweet Maddie...I'm missing you tonight...thinking back to not so long ago...and so long ago... when I could look across the room and see your beautiful eyes and your incredible smile. Peace. love, Susan
Susan reynolds <selizreynolds@mn.rr.com>
- Thursday, February 2, 2006 9:10 PM CST

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LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Thursday, February 2, 2006 10:31 AM CST

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Hey Everyone,
I have ment to stop by and say how much fun I had with you guys over Maddie's and Liz's birthdays. Reading what liz had to say about the party pretty much summed up what a great time we all had, having our crazy moments and dancing around didn't matter that other people could hear our terrible singing or see our stupid dance moves, we were just having a blast. (wow big run on sentence, to lazy to fix it, sorry) Anyways, I just wanted to say a million thank you's to Julie and the rest of the family for letting us have a party in true Maddie fashion and hang out with you guys when maybe you would have rather been alone. I love you all so much, and the time that all of us get to hang out is really a lot of fun, times I will never forget. (except for that monkey impression I did that is being erased from my memory....thank you dannie for putting that dare in the bowl... I know it was you.)
Liz I wore my shirt with pride to South on your bday the 18th. I couldn't tell you how many weird looks I got from people, how many odd questions (or more like odd answers to their questions) that I got. But it was all worth it, because I knew that I was representing the two weirdest people I knew (yes even over Dannie and Austin and even Chachi... you freak jk love ya). I proudly walked around school (the only one at South from Anthony basically) with my two idols on my t-shirt.
Even though you failed your driver test I still think you are pretty awesome, heck I haven't even taken drivers ed. yet.
Thank you again to Julie and rest of the family, I love you all and I hope you guys are doing well.

Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 9:39 PM CST

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Who You'd Be Today
by Kenny Chesney

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go

I see your smile
I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
I still can't believe you're gone

chorus:
It ain't fair
You died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today

Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
I know it might sound crazy

chorus

Today, today, todayyyyy
Today, today, todayyyyy

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday

Someday, somedayyyy

I heard this song a while ago and it instantly reminded me of Maddie. It's my new favorite kind of music (country) and now one of my favorite songs. I just wanted to share it with you. Hopefully see you all soon!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, - Monday, January 30, 2006 10:16 PM CST

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I wish we could have made the party. I told Charli about our trip up there and that you have a 13 year old. She's excited to come visit. I hope and pray that it's no time soon, but unfortunately Cameron's not getting better. Please keep us in your prayers.

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Monday, January 30, 2006 5:33 PM CST

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hey!
im excitited to see you gus soon! love you and miss you
Allsion
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Friday, January 27, 2006 5:36 PM CST

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Hey hope that this rest of the week goes great for you! Thinking of you always. Chachi call me asap, we need to hang!
lyl
Maddie
Hey whats up? Me nm at school doing some work. Will you tell BArb hello and that i miss her so much and that i love her! Thanks and thinking of you always. Also i hope that you didnt mind that i put you on my project and i used your poem for english and everyone LOVED it! Well thinking of you always. Hope that u had a HUGE party up there for you! I bet your kids club was lots of fun on the 16. Well i better get back to work so ttyl xoxoxox
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Monday, January 23, 2006 2:45 PM CST

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Sure wish I could have been there for the party. Hope it went good and many children will benefit from it.. It was great talking to you a few weeks back. Everything here is about the same, maybe a little worse, don't know why, just because I guess.

As I lay in bed the other night I could just picture our girls having a big B-day bash for Maddie with all the little ones gathered around. Wish I was there also!!!!!!

Take care. You know that you all are always close in our hearts and thoughts.

God Bless
Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Saturday, January 21, 2006 11:29 AM CST

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Maddie-
16 already?
Wow, a couple days have passed since your bday and mine too, things have been quite crazy. Starting with the party- well what can I say? It was a blast, not sharing it with you physically is got to be the hardest part. Blowin out the candles(w/ the help of keegy of course) and openin presents w/ out you- still dosent and never will feel right. I had a pretty tough time but I hope you know that I really did enjoy every last moment of it. :) we always did throw the best parties, oh and in case you didnt know We have some amazing friends mads, they are great, very comforting and just really amazing- and I definately still see why we were/are so close w/ them.(exept when dannie does that impression and when brittany acts like a monkey, not to mention cree saying obscene things and austin, just being well.. austin) I love when this group gets together, it reminds me soo much of the good times and even though it may be hard, its fun to think about how amazing everything used to be. So the party was a sucess- complete w/ balloons and crazy singin and dancing, and ms quehl askin outrageous questions and trying desperately to help john out. lol man funny times.
So being 16.. is well um.. pretty much like being 15, only +1 more. Oh yeah and um.. I can only imagine the jokes you would be throwing at me right about now, because of the quite horrible event that happend this morning at around 9 o clock.. yeah u probably guesssed it. I FAILED! ahahah now I think its funny but I seriously and honestly failed my drivers test, they said it was becuase I didnt look both ways when i crossed the uncontrolled intersection, but It might have been also because the FIRST thing he asked me to do was take a right and I put on my left blinker, not to mention hitting on the windshield wipers when i was showing my blinkers, oh yeah and I didnt look when I pulled out of the beautiful parallel job I did and he might have gotten the idea I was nervous by my uncontrollable shaking. ahah okay i wasnt really shaking that bad, but my foot was. I was just too scared! ahah man it was horrible, It was almost to that feeling at track when your waiting for that gun, I was waiting to see if I failed, and I definately got that answer quickly. ahha as well pulle dover, he was like well these are a couple things that kept me from passing today.. ahah I was soo bummed out. Oh well I have the rest of my life to drive and I can wait another week (I alreayd have another appt for friday) lol and i guess i could use a lil more practice ahah ANYWAY mads Im sure you would have passsed w/ flying colors w/ or w/ out your eye patch.. you sure were better then me in 8th grade lol.
But mads,
You have shown me so much and in all of my 16 years, I never have had a better teacher then you. Thanks for being there, even now, when I need you. Even though its difficult, i can still feel you here and I love that. Thanks for everything you've done. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE ALWAYS AND ALWAYS AND ALWAYS..
oh yeah and


HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!


lyl,
liz




PS Thank you Julie for everything, you sure know how to throw parties. I love you!!
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Friday, January 20, 2006 4:21 PM CST

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Hope the party went well...what an awesome way to honor Maddie...hope Liz and you all had a wonderful time. Prayers and thoughts with you always.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Thursday, January 19, 2006 8:26 AM CST

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I hope you all got tons of toys to donate and had a great time in honor of Maddie & Liz! I wish I could have been there...I miss you all already. I hope the new year is awesome.
Betsy Aronson <elizabeth.aronson@tufts.edu>
Boston, MA - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 4:25 PM CST

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Right in the middle of the two best friends' birthdays...
I love you more than words can express Maddie & Liz!
You have been with me for so many experiences- if only all of the memories were clear in my mind. Thank you for all the advice, parties, and LAUGHS! You both can get me cryin' on the floor with laughter...
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
And thanks to you Julie, for everything this weekend and always. I had an awesome time.
Happy Sweet 16 Maddie Mo & Lizzy!
Kisses N Hugs N Lotsa Lotsa LOVE,

Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 9:35 PM CST

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I can not believe that Maddie would be 16. Even more incomprehensible is the fact that this beautiful young lady isnt here to celebrate with the family and friends who she loved so much. Wishing you all peace and happy Maddie memories,
Chris Gooch's mom <chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, January 17, 2006 7:34 PM CST

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Happy Belated Birthday Maddie--I'm sure the birthday candles were shining bright in heaven.
Katie <katie.kelley@target.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 12:15 AM CST

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Happy birthday (yesterday), Maddie!
Suzanne <iamjsrc@gmail.com>
Nicholson, GA United States - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 8:45 AM CST

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hppy birthday!
sorry we couldnt make it! love you so much!
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 10:25 PM CST

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H@PPY B!RTHD@Y MADDIE !!!!! I Love you SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

With love always Stephanie Moore
Stephanie Moore <Princess015@comcast.net>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 9:22 PM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!!!!

I am sure the party was a HUGE success! Wish I lived closer so I could be there to help you celebrate!


Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
Eighty Four, - Monday, January 16, 2006 6:00 PM CST

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HAPPY BDAY MADDIE!!!!!! Sorry that i couldnt make it to the party. Hope that you have great bday. Hope you get some GOLD! lol...Thinking of you always <3<3<3<3

p.s HAPPY BDAY TO YOU TOO LIZ!

p.s.s Hope to see you all soon!
xoxxoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 4:22 PM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIEEEEEEEE
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IM THINKING OF YOU LOTS

sorry i didnt make it to the party yesterday you guys. i found out last week that i have monoo so i've been sleeping alllll the time. but i relaly hope to see you guys soon. its been wayyyy too long
mayumi <mayumihara90@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn us - Monday, January 16, 2006 2:19 PM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE MOO I LOVE YOU
Hanne <hannegoetz@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn - Monday, January 16, 2006 1:09 PM CST

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HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MADDIE! the toy drive is such a wonderful way to celebrate, i hope the party went well! its great that liz and maddie can still celebrate together! love you and miss you maddie!
Croix Kennedy <croix-kennedy@uiowa.edu>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 1:01 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Maddie!! hope the party was great
Mary <bubbleducky19@hotmail.com>
Mpls, MN - Monday, January 16, 2006 12:24 AM CST

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Happy Golden Birthday, Maddie!

Guessing it is probably PLATINUM for you!

I am sure you enjoyed the party...I know you were there guiding the singing, the dancing, the laughter and maybe even the tears!

I am reminded today of all the gifts that we enjoy having your spirit forever weaved throughout our own...and selfishly wondered what more we would have experienced had you been with us today to physically share this time!!!
I thought about driving, etc...and I realized you are sixteen and in my heart and mind maturing and offering the same lessons,only magnified, today as you did throughout your life:

Dream Big
Follow Your Heart
Do what you believe is right
Live every moment honestly
Love Courageously
Face your fears
...

Always to be continued!!!!

Thank you for your constant and amazing presence!


Auntie Sara <saradornisch@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 11:36 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!!!!!!!!!!! <3
anne watlers-cooke <guekah@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 10:32 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!!!!!!!!!
Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St Paul, MN - Monday, January 16, 2006 9:37 AM CST

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Tiffany Schurstein <TSchurstein@aol.com>
rchfld, mn usa - Monday, January 16, 2006 2:11 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR MADDIE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
CHA CHA CHA!!! Is this your sweet sixteen?
happy sweet sixteen maddie!!!
love,
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tiffany <TSchurstein@aol.com>
- Monday, January 16, 2006 2:02 AM CST

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Hey,
it's me stephanie moore i kno that i have not written in a long time but i have been thinking of you all alot!!!!!!! i want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! to Maddie and Liz and im sorry that i couldnt get up to the house for the party my mom told me about it like last week but she was not sure when it was going to be, so i went this site and realized that it was 2day....im sorry i really miss u guys i love you all so much
-Stephanie moore
Stephanie Moore <princess015@comcast.net>
St. paul, mn - Sunday, January 15, 2006 9:38 PM CST

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LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 8:48 PM CST

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Hi i can't make it to the party but i'm sure it will be a blast!
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MADDIE!!!!!! i love you i miss you i think about you every single day and tomorrow especially i will be thinking of you on your golden birthday
your parties were always the most original and fun and i'm sure thats not going to change for this one!
happy birthday, i love you
Mary Kenney
- Sunday, January 15, 2006 4:01 PM CST

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Hope everything goes well tonight, i am sorry that i am unable to make, I am going outta town. So hope to see you soon and hope you guys have lots of fun ( witch i know you guys will) Thinking of you always. xoxoxoxo

klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, January 15, 2006 11:27 AM CST

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hello,
My name is brooke and i am a student at edina high school. I knew christie blackwood and started emailing with maddie a little bit before she passed away. Maddie seemed like a fun loving girl and i wish i could have met her. I think about maddie every time i go to sleep. I would check her website every day and we talked about meeting, but then she got to sick. She has taught me so much about life! the poem that starts out by saying what if the sun didnt shine tommorrow has been a big impact in my life. After reading that poem i fell in love with it~~ i truly did. I printed it out and i have it right next to my bed. Every night before i got to sleep i read it and think about how lucky i am and i also think about maddie! I really wish i could have met her. It would be really cool if i could meet all of you guys sometime!! email me sometime and maybe we can meet for lunch!! i just wanted to tell you how important your maddie was to me and i just wanted to thank u!! i love you guys and god bless.
Love,
Brooke

Email me if you would like at Edinagirl01@hotmail.com
brooke <edinagirl01@hotmail.com>
edina, mn - Sunday, January 15, 2006 1:39 AM CST

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I'll be thinking of you and Maddie on Sunday.
Tina & Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Saturday, January 14, 2006 6:36 PM CST

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Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. She especially enjoyed the love she saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however, the little soul was sad, for on this day she saw suffering in the world. She approached God and sadly asked, "Why do bad things happen, why is there suffering in the world?".

God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in peoples hearts". The little soul was confused. "What do you mean", she asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences, and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone.

The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this-it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer-to unlock this love-to create this miracle-for the good of all humanity.

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain herself. With her wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into this world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's hearts! I want to create that miracle!

God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you.

God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.

Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through her suffering and God's strength she unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys-some regained lost faith-many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives were changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased."

A perfect story for a perfect girl.
Happy Birthday Maddie!!



Megan <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St. Paul, MN - Saturday, January 14, 2006 10:52 AM CST

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hey! excitited to ee you soon!!
love ya
Allison
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Wednesday, January 11, 2006 9:37 PM CST

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Hope to see you soon! chachi i will see you on friday, I can show you my sweet moves lol
Thinking of you guys always
xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, January 11, 2006 3:35 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Maddie,
Today you are sixteen, an important day in everyone's life. But you are not here with us to celebrate it. You have gone away to a more important place to do a very important job. You spent your short life becoming the one who could best handle the responsibilities that the duties entail in this spiritual career that you accepted. We miss your happy smile and imaginative, creative ways, but we know you are now watching and protecting young people in all creation who find themselves in difficult and serious health conditions.
Certainly we wish you could still be with us. It would have been so much fun to spend this special day with you. We know that you would have designed some goofy, wonderful game or song or poem to bring joy and fun to all who would have been with you. But we also know that you are bringing peace and a share of happiness to so many others who have been placed into your care.
Please, look over each of us also.
Lots of love, Grampa
Al Dornisch <bigowl@alltel.net>
Ridgway, PA - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 7:57 AM CST

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Julie - as I read your first entry of the new year, I was really struck by something. I think as parents of children who have made such a huge difference, we feel compelled to carry on in their name with something big like a foundation. I know that I have felt that pressure - not only because I want to help, but because I want to do my daughter's memory justice. I want you to know that I think you are carrying out a legacy for your daughter that is just as important as any foundation. Your mission statement? "To continue to share the lessons Maddie taught so lovingly, purely and generously- through whatever methods I can." I would say that you are doing just that, and I know Maddie is very proud of the way you and your family continue to honour her.

Wishing you a new year filled with the comfort of old memories and the promise of wonderful new ones.
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn <shayleen_harris@hotmail.com>
Campbell River, BC Campbell River - Saturday, January 7, 2006 11:27 PM CST

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Hey Everyone,
Just checking in again. I don't want break to be over! But the sooner break is over the sooner we can have the huge party for liz and maddie! I am so excited!

Maddie- I miss you so much and I would like to dedicate this song playing on the radio right now in pepin, WI.

"ain´t no mountain high ,ain´t no valley low,
ain´t no river wide enough baby
If you need me call me, no matter where you are,
no matter how far, just call my name.
I'll be there in a hurry, you don't have to worry
'Cause baby there
Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you babe

Remember the day
I set you free
I told you could always count on me,darling
From that day on
I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
some way,somehow

cause don't you know that there
Ain't no Mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
to keep me from gettin to you babe
NO WIND NO RAIN!
or winters...

(Okay I realized I couldn't type as fast as I could sing... I will have to work on that... but part of the song is there! We all know the whole thing!)
Love you maddie! You always seem to lead me in the right direction when I need it most.
Thanks, and I will be REJOICING/CELEBRATING/PARTYING like crazy on your SWEET 16th!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, January 7, 2006 6:35 PM CST

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hey everyone hoping to stop by 2maro or soon this week if possible i will give you guys a call hope all is good

KEEP SHINING MADDIE!
luv you
austin kennedy <supasw33t33@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, January 7, 2006 6:11 PM CST

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wow...happy new year to all of you!!! It has been for ever since I have been on here, our old computer bit the dust and we got a new one....I never get to get on it and I do not have a favorites anymore, so I was truly glad to get an email from Linda with the website on it so I could click and go!!! We will definately be available to bring fun things to deserving little ones...and to "spank" Liz 16 times!! Take care until then! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Julie Cameron <rjac63@aol.com>
- Saturday, January 7, 2006 10:08 AM CST

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Dear Julie,

Long time no sign - 'eh? I stop by often to read and be inspired. It always happens, whether it is Maddie's words or yours. Thank you, and Happy New Year.

I have been gathering info for you, and your foundation ideas. Hope to send it off to you in the next week or so. Hope we can talk soon as well. I love talking to you, and I miss it.

Sounds like you have a big party in the making. If I can be of help, please let me know. I would be honored to help.
Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 8:59 PM CST

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Julie:

I had a minute...watching Colton enjoy his swing and I decided to stop by and visit (since I can't find the phone number to spirit kids). We are having a cold snap here and every time I step outside I think of you. 62 degrees. :) Will you e-mail me Liz's address when you get a chance?

Love to you all,
Susan ... mommy to precious Colton and precious Angel Jakey Bear
Susan <@aol.com>
- Friday, January 6, 2006 1:23 PM CST

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Thanks so much for having me over these past weeks of our holiday break. There is such an amazing presence in your house. Spending time with each and every one of you is so much fun: Ashley home from college, Keegan still as cute as ever, Chachi the social butterfly that she's always been, Tricia and Sarah being as fun to be around as ever, and Ms. Julie who seems to amaze me at how she can always be Supermom. Thanks for all that you do
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN 55419 - Thursday, January 5, 2006 11:28 PM CST

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I always enjoy reading your journal entries, Julie, and I love when you recite Maddie's. Thanks for the update!

Christmas and New Year's out-of-town was filled with excitement and fun. I hope everyone is enjoying their break! All of you definitely deserve relaxing time away from your job, middle school, college, and homework...

Count me in on helping truck loads of presents wherever the decided places are. The idea is so thoughtful. I'm happy we're doing it again!
I remember the year when Liz and Maddie got eachother these really cool books for their birthdays. I forgot what the books were called (all about me?), but they were filled with questions about their friends, crushes, family, favorites, and more. I remember them being sooooo super excited about their book after they had opened it.
Liz let me look at her book (well maybe I didn't ask..lol), and it was fun to read her answers. I'm sure Maddie and Liz wrote down a lot of similar things. :)

Maddie~
Your 16th Birthday is coming up quick, and I'm sure you're already riding the clouds in your NEW CAR! As always, we'll celebrate your's and Liz's birthday with you in style. I miss you and think of you!

Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Lotsa Love,


Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Wednesday, January 4, 2006 10:26 PM CST

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Wishing you a Happy New Year....Remembering Maddie, her beauty, her grace and her wisdom.....Love,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 6:41 PM CST

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Happy New Year!!!
www.caringbridge.org/ny/caitlintaylorgunn
Aleta, Angel Caitlin's Mommy <agunn@optonline.net>
West Nyack, NY - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 5:36 PM CST

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merry christmas and happy new year!!
i was looking through my year book the other day and i found the picture of Maddie Liz Dannie and i dressed like santa on the last day before winter break at school and of course Maddie was way more decked out in holiday gear with little pom pom balls on her shirt and fringe on her pants. we always left it up to her to have crazy ideas that she never fell back on! i love you maddie and i miss the fun we always had thanks to your creative mind!
Mary Kenney
- Tuesday, January 3, 2006 10:16 AM CST

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To say that your gone would be a lie,
Because your love could never truly die.
You taught us so much in such little time,
Taking you away seems like a crime.
I wish things were different, I wish you were here,
Its just not the same, not having you near.
The pain of missing you will never cease,
but you gave us something to help and that thing is peace.
No matter where you are or where you'll be,
You will always and forever have a place in me.


I wrote this a while ago but just found it. Hope your having a good day- I'll see you tonight! love and hugs and happy new year!


~*~missin you always madz~*~
liz shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, December 31, 2005 4:07 PM CST

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Happy Holidays to all of you! I hope Christmas was wonderful! Also Happy New Year!
Suzie
Mpls., MN - Friday, December 30, 2005 2:42 PM CST

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Merry (belated) Christmas! Thinking of you often,
xoxoxoxoxoxo
grayce forsythe <northfield@is.lame>
- Wednesday, December 28, 2005 2:16 PM CST

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan, Auntie's, and Angel Maddie,
Wishing you a very Merry and Peaceful Christmas, filled with more smiles than tears and so many wonderful memories to keep you warm inside. We are thinking of you all. Blessings,
Tracey, Steve, Quinn and Callum Ager. xoxo HAB <traceyhewison@shaw.ca>
Calgary, - Monday, December 26, 2005 2:07 AM CST

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Just dropping by to say Merry Christmas and that I was thinking of Maddie today and wanted to give you all my best. Hoping and praying for a Wonderful New Year for all....you are such a warm, loving wonderful family. Julie you should be very proud! Hugsssssss
Love,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Sunday, December 25, 2005 8:46 PM CST

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MY CHRISTMAS ANGEL
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, December 25, 2005 7:14 PM CST

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan and Maddie,
I hope you all have a nice day today. My thoughts have been with you and your family and of course Maddie many times today already. I hope Maddie's spirit surrounds you all today as Im sure it always does....but Im hoping that you feel a little extra "Maddie love" today. Merry Christmas to all!
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
Westminster, CA - Sunday, December 25, 2005 1:24 PM CST

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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 25, 2005 2:02 AM CST

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Merry Christmas! I hope today went well and I will give you a call tomarrow!
Love and hugs,

liz


Maddie MO-
I miss you like crazy- thinking about you ALOT lately - I miss the way you absolutely LOVED this time of year and how you made it sooo unbelieveable, the singing, crafts and just your overall happiness around this time is just simply unforgetable I LOVE YOU and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Liz SHay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, December 25, 2005 1:56 AM CST

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Hey guys,
Just finished Christmas Eve stuff with my family and desided I wanted to check in on everyone. I hope you all are having fun this weekend, and for christmas. I have been thinking of you guys all day, wondering how you are doing.
I have a reoccuring dream, the one when we are all in the backyard at 4441 and Keegan goes into his playhouse and comes out with Maddie and says, "I found Daboo!" I love that dream. I know Keegie will always remember Maddie. I am thinking of you guys always!
You guys are such amazing people and I hope you have a wonderful Christmas day.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, December 25, 2005 0:00 AM CST

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Hope that you guys have a very nice xmas. Hope tomorrow everything goes well. chachi call me over this break! love ya
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, December 24, 2005 4:50 PM CST

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so sorry its a few days late but i hope you had a very nice birthday and realized how much you really mean to so many people. hope you guys have happy holidays and hope to see you all soon.
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn usa - Friday, December 23, 2005 4:48 PM CST

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Wow Julie I can't believe it. I didnt even call you on your birthday- I am so sorry! Wow Im soooo horrible with birthdays it is crazy- I even forgot this year to say Happy bday to my mom untill the night on hers. WoW I am very sorry! But the thing that gets me is I knew it was coming and I even was reminded a couple times and I still forgot!!ahh! geez Im really losing it! Well I hope you had a good one anyway because you definately deserve it, you deserve alot more then a good bday actually. I really appreciate everything you've done for me- really you may not know it but you are amazing and there are soooo many people out there who love you!Thank you for doing everything you've done and everything you continue to do- and for having such amazing kids. I will call ya soon to stop bY! Love you all tons and tons!!!
LOVE ALWAYS!!!
Liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Friday, December 23, 2005 4:08 PM CST

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hey elevator jumping buddies? whats up? i miss you and we have to get together over break, ok? love ya call me
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Friday, December 23, 2005 11:03 AM CST

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Hey Julie and Co.

We wish you all a wonderful Christmas, with lots of pics and video of Keegan tearing through the wrapping paper! Maddie, we keep you in our thoughts always, may your presence fill your family's household this holiday season.

Bless,
Terry, Mary, Nicholas and Julianna Banana <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Friday, December 23, 2005 10:04 AM CST

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Hey Everyone
Julie I hope you had a great birthday! Wow it has been crazy these last couple of days. I sang on WCCO radio this morning at 4 am, crazy I know, but it was really fun, we went out afterwards and had breakfast then it was still too early to go to school... yeah. But I am sure excited to have time off from school and rehearsal and all of that. I hope you guys are doing alright. I hope you know that you can call me to come over and do any amount of crap for you guys, I would do it! Clean, write essay's, entertain you with dinner and a show... I'll be there. Well I have been up for too many hours straight and right now everything is funny to me. I keep thinking of Maddie and Liz's 15th b-day party when you had to take Keegan to the emergency room and you ended up being awake like 48+ hours or something crazy like that. Oh to run on pure adreniline...
Hope your holidays go great, although I know this time of year is really hard. I hope to see you guys soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
minneapolis , MN - Thursday, December 22, 2005 11:16 PM CST

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HEy just stoping by and wishing you guys a merry xmas before i leave town. Hoping to see you guys over break! xoxoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 22, 2005 10:59 PM CST

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God's peace to all of you.....
somehow...

with prayers and love from Missouri
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 22, 2005 8:39 AM CST

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Merry Christmas to you all and happy birthday Julie! Hope that everything is going well and you find a little bit of peace over the holidays... lots of love, Mary
Mary Sievert <bubbleducky19@hotmail.com>
Mpls, MN - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 11:46 PM CST

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Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday, dear Mommy
Happy Birthday to You
love,
Maddie
Maddie <maddie@heaven.com>
- Wednesday, December 21, 2005 1:16 PM CST

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Julie, Happy Belated Birthday!!! The past week has been so crazy for me, but I wanted to stop by and wish you and your beautiful family a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Always thinking of Maddie!
Aleta, Angel Caitlin's Mommy <agunn@optonline.net>
West Nyack, NY - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 4:55 PM CST

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Julie!! Ha! I did it again! And Trish informed me AGAIN that i'm early on your birthday. I remember we all called you and sang to you last year and Trish patiently waited until we fininshed singing and said "uh...it's not today". Or was that you who said that? Oh, my brain.... You were born on the 18th in my head!! - so Happy Birthday now one day EARLY! love, susan
susan reynolds <selizreynolds@mn.rr.com>
- Tuesday, December 20, 2005 10:49 AM CST

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Happy Birthday to you Julie...one day late...Happy birthday to you Julie....Yesterday as I was surrounded by Ed's family for our family Christmas celebration, you were often in my thoughts...as I remember your 40th birthday together with Maddie at Rich's house two years ago. It was a charmed evening...one with love, music, laughter, spontaniety, fun and did I say love? I marvel to think it was two years ago because that whole time seems as if it was a blink away...and then...oh so much longer sometimes. I feel very grateful that we got to spend that time with you. Life is so busy now..in some ways it seemed to stop then. With there really only being a few things we focused on. Now I seem to pedal as fast as I can. I don't get it.

I've been busy going to Seattle twice in the last 5 weeks and then hosting two family holiday celebrations (out of town family in for DAYYYYSSSSSSSS). But life is good...and we are headed to Calif on Friday to help move my mother out of her house of 45 years. The whole clan of 25 will be there..yikes...You know what that means.....the yearly flu.

I hope to see you more when we come around the corner of Christmas. It has been too long and I miss you. I hope these holidays go well and we can celebrate the new year with a dinner at PF Changs....love to ALL of you. susan
susan reynolds <selizreynolds@mn.rr.com>
- Monday, December 19, 2005 8:27 PM CST

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hello everyone!
You know..I was just reading some of Maddies old journal entries, and it really made me realize that I could probably have learned more from her, than I ever will in school. Maddie taught people things that you couldn't get out of reading a book. She taught people how to live life to the fullest, how to be hopeful and optimistic, how to love, and so much more. I feel lucky just to have known such an amazing person.
But you know..amazing doesn't even begin to cover it

wishing you a very merry christmas
~Annie
annie murphy <jellypig2323@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, December 19, 2005 6:58 PM CST

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Hey everyone! Hows it goin? Im doing allright, things are a little hectic w/ homework, and bball and everything. But Im hoping to stop by either tomarrow if i get my hw done or sometime very soon. Hopefully you are all doing allright- I know this time of year must be incredibly hard. I hope you guys know how much I love you!!!Love and hugs and prayers-

Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, December 17, 2005 10:49 PM CST

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Stopping in to say Hello. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, the visual put a smile on my face. Sending our love for the season and always.

Hugs,
The Copeland Girls
Crystal Copeland (www.caringbridge.org/ca/rayanne) <crystal2175@yahoo.com>
Portland, OR USA - Saturday, December 17, 2005 0:22 AM CST

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Hey guys,
Just stopping by once again! I just spent the last half hour learning the sign language to Jingle Bells. (It is so cool!) Anyways, I had to learn it for Pop singers, me and my friend are doing the sign language while we sing it, fun! On thursday we are singing at Loring pasta bar (now in Dinkytown) at 7pm if anyone wants to come, their food is delicious just to let ya know! And we are also singing at MOA on Mon 3pm and Tues 5pm, burnsville center Wed 5pm? i think. But if anybody feels in the mood for some holiday songs, I would LOVE to see you guys there. (p.s. I got a solo, Jingle bell rock!!)
Maddie- Lately I haven't been completely myself, and I cannot figure out why. But I just wanna say thanx dude for being there for me to chat with when I feel down or just a little bit crazy like you! Please help Liz & I get our acts together on this whole volunteering thing, eventually we will figure it all out I hope, but we may need a little smack in the face from you first... Love you maddie, and for the past day or so I have you singing "Dradel spin, spin spin spin , Hanukah welcome in" stuck in my head. Thanks for that too...
Much Love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 11:11 PM CST

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Julie,
Thanks for that wonderful image I now have, of you and Maddie, arms interlocked, going carolling. I am happy to hear that the children are doing so well and continue to be a source of joy, strength and inspiration for you. I know this holiday will be difficult for you all, and I hope you will feel Maddie's loving prescence all around you.
Merry Xmas to you all, I hope it's a white one, that makes it feel even more snuggly inside :)
Hugs, Tracey and family xoxoxo HAB <traceyhewison@shaw.ca>
Calgary, Ab, Canada, - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 11:34 AM CST

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Madz-
I am sure that you realize that the Holidays are forever changed...It seems to take special effort to get into the Spirit and instead of anxious, joyful anticipation, I need to find the emotional strength just to get through the coming days.
Two years ago, I would have walked into the house after work and heard you at the piano playing and singing Christmas Carols...there would have been a "buzz" in the house and a palpitable level of excitement and lots of activity...As I said, the Holidays have changed, and I feel like I merely survive them, instead of enjoy them.

And as surely as I know that this is not what you would want for us, and even what you asked of us...it is just as certain that I know you understand how difficult it is for each of us who loved you to celebrate as fully as we had...

I have holed up for the last couple of months and not quite been able to figure out my desire to be quiet;to be alone...
In these moments of introspection I realize that one of the most precious gifts of all is that of time...no fancy packaging, no extravagant price tag, but it is perhaps one of the most valuable things that you can give to others and to yourself...

It is something that I can give gently, without fanfare, and fits with how the Holidays have changed...Sorry to everyone who is used to getting those "Auntie Sara" gifts...
time, patience, understanding and forgiveness are the gifts I will try (I have to be realistic) to give this year.

Auntie Sara <saradornisch@medtox.com>
- Tuesday, December 13, 2005 11:11 AM CST

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Julie, I am thinking of you this morning. The holidays are hard, but it's the girls 16th birthdays that I'm really struggling with. I'm sure you are with me on this. We'll have to have one of our long phone chats at birthday time in January. I wish you and your family peace.
Karla Blackwood <blackwood1@mac.com>
Edina, MN - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 7:56 AM CST

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I know it's been like forever since I've visited you.
I have just been so busy.
But I think of you always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, December 11, 2005 8:10 PM CST

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Hey guys,
Just stopping by to check in. I hope you guys are having a great relaxing weekend. I have been on CB for only 2 and a half hours today but ummmm I have a lot of homework, maybe I will take a break and write my essay or my chemistry project... maybe after I visit a few more kids. I cannot believe how long it has been since I have hung out with you guys and liz & dannie (since keegie's party). Well hopefully I will see you all soon. Love you guys!
Much Love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, December 11, 2005 4:21 PM CST

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Hey stoping by havnt sign in awhile just letting you know i am always thinking of you guys, hope to see you soon!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, December 11, 2005 2:06 PM CST

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Hey Everyone!
Julie, when I am reading your journal entries I hate when they end! I love to hear you talk about maddie and about things that you see differently in life. It has been a while since I have seen you guys, I hope Keegan had a fun birthday and like all of his presents. I have some very good news!!! I auditioned for a musical last week while I was sick and hardly could sing but anyways... I got a part, there are 16 people in the cast and I have a big role! I am happy, the show goes on 1st week of Febuary.
Well I better get to sleep, Pop singers in the morning. We are having a whole bunch of christmas performances at MOA and burnsville center, loring pasta bar, and we sing on WCCO! well bye for now!
Much love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, December 8, 2005 10:53 PM CST

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Birthday's are fun for kids, but can make the parents and grandparents surviving do some definite soul searching. I too will be celebrating a birthday soon, a milestone birthday for me. Ryan taught me not to let anything get in my way of happiness. He taught me life is too short to worry over small stuff. Maddie taught all of us so many lessons, just like our family, I know you draw from her strength when you are down. Even though they are not here with us physically, what wonderful gifts they left for us to enjoy and cherish the rest of our lives. Strength, joy, hope, and happiness just to name a few. Happy Holidays to one incredible woman and her incredible family. We love you Julie and kids.
KEEP BEELIEIVING IN ANGELS!!!!

www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown
Nana Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 8, 2005 10:47 PM CST

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Happy Belated Birthday to Keagan. I love Maddie's entry. Love her heart, her soul, her spirit. Maddie....you continue to inspire through those who love you most...Julie, thanks so much for including Maddies writing's....they always elevate me spiritually and tug at my heart. Sending warm wishes to you and your wonderful children this holiday season...and always.
Love,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, December 8, 2005 9:51 AM CST

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Dear Julie, Ashley, Charlotte & Keegan,
Just here to wish you all a happy holiday season! I know you guys will celebrate in style, remembering those precious memories of Maddie... she continues to inspire me from up above... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, sweet Keegan! Can't wait for an update and possibly photos?? :) Have a wonderful Christmas...

^*^*^*^*^MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!*^*^*^*^

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Sunday, December 4, 2005 3:50 AM CST

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Thinking of all of you.Hope everything is well.

Suzie
mpls, mn - Saturday, December 3, 2005 9:44 PM CST

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Just thought I'd stop by and say hey before I go to bed, yes its definately 9:25, but these 630 mornin practices are killing me!! I will give you a call this weekend, hopefully we can get together, and I can play w/ that spinny jumpy thing, cuz that was pretty sweet. Oh and if you dont have anything to do tomarrow night at 7, I play at Washburn against Central. Hopefully everythings going good talk to you soon!
Love and Hugs
liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, December 1, 2005 9:28 PM CST

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thinking of you
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 1, 2005 6:05 AM CST

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sunday was fun icant wait to get together soon
www.caringbridge.org/mn/dennys
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Wednesday, November 30, 2005 10:13 PM CST

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Happy belated birthday Keegan!!! Hi Julie! Hi all!!! Maryah and I have been talking you up again and so I thought I would visit to let you know that I am thinking of you always. Julie it was so fabulous to finally get a chance to meet you at Maryah's dinner in October. I was so pleased that you and Keegan came. You and of course your precious Maddie have certainly made a HUGE impact on our little family. We are sending HUGE HUGS and lots of love your way. Hoping your holidays are beautiful.

Blessings,
Rachel Tift (www.caringbridge.org/mn/maryah) <racheltift@yahoo.com>
Saint Paul, MN USA - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 4:13 PM CST

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Hi Julie. I know it's been a long time, but I want you to know that I still think of Maddie. I still have all the cards she and her friends wrote for Caitlin. I will keep them always. You have a very special daughter and I will never forget her. Happy Birthday to Keegan!!! Sending love and light to all of you!!

www.caringbridge.org/ny/caitlintaylorgunn
Aleta, Mommy forever to Angel Caitlin <agunn@optonline.net>
West Nyack, NY - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 12:43 AM CST

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Happy Birthday Keegan,
It's him you know the guy that comes by your house twice a year. I hope you had a great birthday!! Hi Julie and family, I hope you had a great Thanksgiving. I think of the Colfax crew everyday. Love, Terrell
Terrell Jones <tjones425@yahoo.com>
Tampa, Fl USA - Monday, November 28, 2005 2:30 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Keegan,
You were wiped out, looking tired and I bet you are asleep by now. Thank you for having my over, it is always fun to attend one of your guys' parties! I hope Keegan liked all of his presents.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, November 27, 2005 9:30 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Keegy! I hope you loved "All the presents"! I love you Keegan! Love and Hugs
love always
liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, November 27, 2005 7:41 PM CST

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Happy thanksgiving! Tell keegan Happy birthday! Hope everything goes well!! LYL!
~Ellen
~Ellen Groff <PinkPancakes687@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, November 27, 2005 4:19 PM CST

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Happy belated Thanksgiving,
I remember reading Maddie's Thanksgiving wishes right after she posted. It brought tears to my eyes then and again now as I read it. She is so right about life and what is important. My beautiful grandaughter is still having uncontrolled seizures and is in the hospital. We are praying the doctors can help her soon. Take care.
Karen Ueland
Karen Ueland www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie <klpu@aol.com>
St. Paul, Mn - Friday, November 25, 2005 4:34 PM CST

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Hey Everyone,
Wow I never know how much I am attached to Caringbridge until I don't have internet (and it was only for 2 days...)! Can I just comment... Liz, I love to read/hear you talk about Maddie and your friendship, the good old days and things that most of us remember as "Maddie things". So that is how you got straight A's at Anthony... just kidding I know Washburn is a harder school than we all think! (I love you Liz, you are always so entertaining)
Well, I had a wonderful time at my Grandma's house which was packed with my whole dad's side of the family (about 25 people or something). At my family gatherings you are always guaranteed that you will have to sing the WHOLE Messiah at least once, and that you will be asked to sit at the "kids table" even though you are in high school and sitting with 6 and 10 year olds (a little depressing), you will have to sleep on the floor in the "girls room" (probably a product of 13 girl cousins on my dad's side). But best of all, when I see my family it is time to catch up on things, laugh with my sisters (who oddly are all getting along at once) and to sneak out after dinner to go see a movie... Harry Potter last night in Decorah, Iowa the smallest town with a movie theater in the world I have decided. These are just a few of the things I have been thankful for even more these past two years. Thank you Maddie and all the wonderful caringbridge families. You all have let me hear or bear witness to your journey through probably the hardest parts of your lives. I will never be the same, I will never take one single moment for granted, and I will always try to have as much fun as possible (the way Maddie would have wanted). These things I am even more grateful for.
I love you all!
Hope you guys had a good week and Thanksgiving. I cannot wait to see you guys when I get back on Sunday.
Miss you Maddie and I love ya like crazy!
P.S.- I hope you guys like the food!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, November 25, 2005 4:04 PM CST

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For her Sadam Hussien Impersonation,
For her silly laugh,
For her naughty ABC's,
For her amazing teaching abilities that taught me so much,
For all of our birthday parties,
For the crazy videos,
For the notes I have from her,
For the parties at 4441,
For her amazing family,
For all the memories,
For the trips to PA, Las Vegas, AZ, and everywhere else,
For the times at Simply splendid- eatin in the backroom, organzing things,running errands to wallgreens,gettin 2 work at the register, lol
For all the art projects,
For getting 2 do Hw, history day projects, science projects w/ her -- all guarnteed fun working on it and A+'s.
For feeling like I have a second family,
For getting to play school w/ her Even if the highest rank I got was Student teacher- (& it only happend once):)
For the chance to spend weeks at her house w/ my mom coming to visit,
For a friend that could spell caterpillar in Kindergarden-(it helped to fend off stupid boys)
For getting to play bar, olden days and judge judy,
For all of the pictures,
For the laugh-so-hard-your-stomach-hurts events
For a brave, loving, smart, caring and amazing best friend




These are the things Im thankful for.

Happy Thanksgiving- I love you all.






Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, November 24, 2005 10:43 PM CST

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Maddie, one amazing young lady. You know, Maddie and Cheyenne "got it" way before so many people, me included.. It will be quite some day that I get to meet your wonderful Maddie in person.

Always thinking of all of you. God Bless.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, TX - Thursday, November 24, 2005 10:22 PM CST

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wow julie...maddie truly is an inspiration...and her words are the perfect addition to each thanksgiving
hope all is well and the paguyo/dornisch family is having a great thanksgiving..can't wait to see mr. birthday boy on sunday
love always
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn 55419 - Thursday, November 24, 2005 9:00 PM CST

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I remember reading that last year. Hapy Thanksgiving!
grayce forsythe <asdf@ghj.kl>
northfield, mn - Thursday, November 24, 2005 2:22 PM CST

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Wow she really is amazing
liz Shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, November 24, 2005 12:37 AM CST

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havea gobling turkey day
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005 10:15 PM CST

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan, and Maddie,

Hoping that tomorrow is blessed with many, many great memories and family time.. Hugs to all.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever

Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, TX - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 7:59 PM CST

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Julie, Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan, and Angel Maddie,
Wishing you all a Very Happy Thanksgiving!

love,
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
CA - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 6:56 PM CST

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Julie - Just wanted to pop in to let you know that I continue to check in on you. It is strange how time can go by so quickly, yet stand still in light of the time that has passed since we last saw our children. Thankfully a huge part of them can remain in the present, and in our future, by continuing to incorporate the lessons and love they gave us into our every day lives. You and your family and friends have obviously done just that, because Maddie's essence continues to shine through.

Keeping you in my thoughts,


Shayleen and Angel Cameryn <shayleen_harris@hotmail.com>
Campbell River, BC Canada - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 0:13 AM CST

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hey everyone i hope keegys birthday goes well and i hope to see you soon!

KEEP SHINING MADDIE!!!
austin kennedy
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 11:31 PM CST

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Hey Everyone,
the short week has ended (for school at least), I still have a lot of plans for this weekend. The best plans of all are the awesome party I am planning to attend on SUNDAY, because it is someone's 3rd birthday. Keegan probably knows and expects a huge celebration, and I think that is the only kind of party you guys do!
Well I hope you guys are not out of town right now, but I will hopefully stop by briefly if you are not busy tomorrow. I will give you guys a call!
Much love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 9:22 PM CST

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Happy Thanksgiving! Hope you have a wonderful day. Thinking of you and your family all the time. xoxoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 22, 2005 6:45 PM CST

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NO MORE SCHOOL FOR 5 DAYS! YESSS
Happy early Thanksgiving!

Love you all, <3
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 22, 2005 5:18 PM CST

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hey! elevator jumping friends i cant wait o see you soon! ere going to have a blast! well i love ya and miss ya
down by the bay where the watermelons grow i darenot go for if mothere new shes say have u ever seen a hippo eating a hippo!
by elevator jumping friends
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Monday, November 21, 2005 6:11 PM CST

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Thinking of you and Angel Maddie today! Wishing you a blessed Thanksgiving week!
Jenn B. <pr@friendsofallie.org>
Fresno, CA - Monday, November 21, 2005 1:27 AM CST

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Hey,
how was your weekend? I hope it was good.
Thinking of you everyday.
Hope you have a great Thanksgiving!

Love You <3,
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, November 20, 2005 7:30 PM CST

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Thinking of you all-
Love and hugs,
Liz

liz shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, November 20, 2005 2:41 PM CST

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Hey everyone i havent talked to you guys in so long i really want to get there soon so ill call soon I LOVE YOU ALL

KEEP SHINING MADDIE!!!

Austin
Austin Kennedy
MPLS, MN USA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 6:50 PM CST

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hey love ya
Allison <Acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Wednesday, November 16, 2005 9:31 PM CST

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Hey girls (and Keegan),
Thinking of you everyday. Charlotte I hope your mouth feels better soon!

Love you, <3
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 15, 2005 4:33 PM CST

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Thanks for the fun night the other night. Hope to see you all again soon! lyl
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 15, 2005 12:18 AM CST

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Hey everyone,
Now I finally have my life back (for a few weeks until auditions for my next show...) so I will be enjoying this time while it lasts. I cannot believe Keegan will be 3 soon! He is such a smart & athletic boy, I can't accept the fact that he is more coordinated now than I think I was in 6th grade basketball... depressing.
It was awesome seeing Dannie, Liz and Miss(who I used to go to Field with) at my show Sat. night. I am going to miss the people in my show. Every night before you go on stage South has a tradition. The cast does dedications basically, and I really wanted to dedicate Sat. night to Maddie and Liz and Dannie cuz they are always there, but I knew I would cry if I tried to mention Maddie, and I already had my stage make-up on, do you know how long that stuff takes to put on!?! Anyways I decided I would just blow a kiss up to Maddie, I know she saw some of the show, she probably is cracking jokes about the "Haitian dancing" and the plot... I will have to bring over the Dvd when I get it, kinda hard to explain. Anyways,
Maddie- I love you, I always am performing for you and with you, before I go out on stage I can see you dancing along to the music and acting crazy, like always.
I love you all, and I cannot wait until I see you guys next. Thinking of you everyday.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, November 14, 2005 11:33 PM CST

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Hey-
I was watching some home videos last night, (when I came back from Brittanys play, it was amazing and like always she was wonderful )lol anyway the movies were from like when I was born and whatnot lol (i was trying to entertain Melli, kiara, dannie and chaez) and anyway after my extremely-fat-screaming baby video- I put in one and saw Maddie and I's limo Bday party. Man did we have some good times! You gotta see the video, it was sooo cute. It was crazy in the movie when I was like "come on Maddie! We gotta go" and she said somethin with my name like "where is it liz", I mean just hearing her voice say my name and seeing us open the thousands of presents we got, brought back sooooo many memories. Then I put in another tape and saw one of my 6th grade videos that Maddie had a small part in, she was being goofy as always in a funny voice. (I gave her the part of a crazy lady) lol and then there was another video where she was in this super bright yellow puffy vest and she had a frog puppet and was singing and dancin with Mary. Man I have got to show you these videos, they are halarious.

Mads-
Seeing those videos brought back a million memories. It made me once again, realize that I will never ever have another friend like you. You are so crazy and funny and I love you like no other! Man, When I slept over at your house on thursday, I felt for the first time in a while, that intense sadness. Like I'm always missing you but it seems like I've somehow managed to hide that real deep hurting feeling for a while, so when I felt it again, it was pretty crazy. I don't know what made me feel that way but when I was laying in your room, I just totally got the feeling of intensly missing you. Of course watching those videos didnt help much either, but I was definately happy to see them. Mads I love you and Miss you more than words can say. Thanks for everything,you are an amazing friend.



I really really really really miss you


ALOT!
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, November 13, 2005 8:58 PM CST

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maddie and i used to write notes to eachother and draw pictures of hairy legs and razors shaving them. i found one today and it made me laugh
i love you i miss you
Mary Kenney
mpls, - Saturday, November 12, 2005 11:10 AM CST

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HEy i thought i would come and stop by, i had a dream about maddie last night and it was about that i was biking around a lake ( witch dont ask me why i dont do it at all) then maddie came beside me and she goes " Hey klassy i know that you are having a bad day and i wanted to let you know that i am always here for you." then she just went away like vanished. ( the weird thing is i was having an off day yesterday) i thought i would come and share that. I think i might be seeing you guys later today.
Maddie,
Thanks for coming to my dreams.
* Hero*
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, November 12, 2005 9:48 AM CST

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hey everyone! thanksgiving break is coming up and i cant wait to see you all again! its been too long! i hope all is well for you! love you guys! see you soon.
croix <croix-kennedy@uiowa.edu>
- Friday, November 11, 2005 8:12 PM CST

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Hey guys,
Thank you for having me over, it was great fun chatting with you guys and watching liz be a pig, like normal. I am about to go to my show, I really hope it goes well! If any of you guys are interested in coming to see it, it shows tonight at 7 and Tomorrow at 5.

Maddie- I will have you with me tonight, I know you are performing for some kind of crowd up in heaven just like you were constantly putting on a show on earth. I love you, and I will miss you just as much. OH... guess what today I was talking with a girl that asked me who was on the back of my shirt, (I wore my shirt from May 6th '05) and I said it is my friend Maddie Paguyo, and as soon as I said that, she said "I read an article in the newspaper about her, she seemed really cool." and I answered, "She is the greatest." It is soooo odd and sooo cool to talk with random people who have heard about you, and some who have been effected by your story. I love ya Maddie!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, November 11, 2005 4:36 PM CST

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But they are outrageously YUMMY!!
Liz Shay <iloveBrownies@yum.com>
chocolatey, brownies yum yum - Thursday, November 10, 2005 11:02 PM CST

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LIZ STOP EATING THE BROWNIES!

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Mpls, MN - Thursday, November 10, 2005 10:52 PM CST

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hey guys
thinking of you everyday, hoping to see in the soccer season if i can manage to keep soccer and basketball schedules well organized. If not, hopfully ill see around
All my love <3
Emma Forschler <EmmaForschler@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 10, 2005 9:47 PM CST

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I'm sure Maddie will be seeing Brittany's play every night. Maddie is all around; she is in all of us. Ones who were fortunate enough to have known Maddie are spreading her love and wisdom around to others- always. I love you, Maddie Mo. I hope to see you in my dreams someday. I miss you o so much.

I know I had a dream about Julie recently, and some other friends. Maddie wasn't there, but I remember Julie vividly. I don't remember the dream very well, but all I know is that it was weird. lol. I hope all of you are doing well with work and school. I miss you. I need to come over to see you and give kisses and hugs to Baboo with Keegan. Miss you, Keegs! Thinking about everyone, always.
Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Lotsa LOVE,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Thursday, November 10, 2005 7:29 PM CST

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god i love you guys!
caitlin
- Wednesday, November 9, 2005 9:08 PM CST

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god i love you guys!
caitlin
- Wednesday, November 9, 2005 9:07 PM CST

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Hey guys,
Just a quick stop by. I watched the show Medium yesterday or the day before, and remembered how Julie was talking about it. I think ill make a point to watch it.
Lots of love
Caitlin Eide
- Wednesday, November 9, 2005 9:00 PM CST

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Hello. Just checking in and wanted to tell all of you I'm thinking about you! Have a good week.

Love you!
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 8, 2005 5:14 PM CST

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Beautiful Maddie continues to bring joy and wisdom the way only she knew how to! Thanks Maddie!
Kriss M <mcl@pro-ns.net>
- Tuesday, November 8, 2005 6:24 AM CST

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Hey guys,
I will be stopping by sometime this week (even though I have my show Wed. Fri. and Sat.) but I need to chat and drop off some SWEETS! I love you guys, I am of course thinking of you guys everyday, everynight.
P.S.- Liz, Dannie and Austin, you guys are probably wondering where your banana bread/ brownies/ any sweet food of yours is?!?! I know you all want some, but wait your turn! J/k I love you guys, I will see what I can do!
Maddie, I revisited many of your journal entries tonight, you always knew the right thing to say and the right way to act around everyone. You are AMAZING! I hope you will be watching my show from heaven one night (just not Wed. cuz it will suck probably that night... yea) Love ya! Miss you like Crazy!
Much Love,
Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, November 7, 2005 10:56 PM CST

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Thinking of yoou always! Chachi i wikk call u on thursday dont worry. Love you guys sooooo much!
Have a good est of the week
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Monday, November 7, 2005 3:39 PM CST

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Hey Julie, girls, the endless Aunties, and the Big Keegster,

A year and a half, it's almost inconceivable to me that it has been that long. It's barely been two years for our own battle, and it seemed like we "knew" Maddie like a long lost buddy...I guess that's how deep and lasting of impression she had, and always will have, on us.

I hope that the march of time brings you more smiles and fewer tears with every passing day.

Take care,
Terry, Mary, Nicholas and Julianna Banana <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Monday, November 7, 2005 2:15 PM CST

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Hey everyone -
It's hard to believe how quickly time passes. Thanks for the updates Julie! I miss you all a lot and I can't wait to see how much Keegan has grown...and to see Ashley's dorm. I think of you all often and I hope that the new job is going well. Much love,
Betsy
Betsy Aronson <elizabeth.aronson@tufts.edu>
Medford, MA - Sunday, November 6, 2005 8:53 PM CST

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LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Thinking of you Mads, espeically today.
Love always and always
Liz Shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Sunday, November 6, 2005 7:00 PM CST

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Hey guys,
I really wanted to tell you all about something and when I went to the guestbook page I realized I was the last person to write... yea I don't really care, I am still going to continue my long message I had planned!
So today was a relaxed day for me, hung out with my mom, and my sister too for a while. I walked through Loring Park (right outside my sis' apt., and Ms.Quehl's the next building over...), anywayz as you probably know it was pretty damp and gloomy today. But around noon the park was so gorgeous for some reason. I was sitting with my sister in the park eating lunch and chatting, catching up. I was telling her about a guy that I have a crush on (I will clue you in next time I see you) but as I was saying that I noticed a butterfly flying right in front of us. It continued to flutter back and forth as if it was trying to get in on the gossip. It made me think of Maddie and how she would just jump into conversations and turn the conversation into something so weird and hilarious.
I am reminded of Maddie constantly. Sometimes I get angry or really sad when I am reminded of her, but most of the time it makes me smile and makes me think of more of the crazy and ridiculous things she did and could (sometimes) get me to do. I do know I am always the more serious one of the group, but around Maddie, Dannie, Austin and Liz who the heck wouldn't look serious! (j/k)
Maddie- I love ya! I blow a kiss to you everyday & I think of you all the time. I have "met" such great kids and families on Caringbridge because of you. You are the inspiration behind so many of the things I do now. You were always there to help people and be there for the people you loved. I will continue to miss you everyday & I will continue to send my love up to you, up to heaven.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, November 6, 2005 1:51 AM CST

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Hey Everyone,
It has been FOREVER since I have stopped by to see you guys, or since I have even written in the guestbook. About a week ago I had a really awesome dream, I think one of the best I have had with Maddie in it.
So I was out on your guys' back porch, Liz was back there eating cookies and bickering with Austin (like normal), Dannie was running around with Keegan acting crazy, Julie Ashley and Chachi, you guys were tanning and sitting in Keegan's little kiddie pool (a funny picture trust me). We were singing a bunch of "Maddie Songs" at the top of our lungs. And as we said "Ain't no mountain high enough, Ain't no valley low enough, Ain't no river wide enough to keep me from getting to you babe," Keegan, who had ran into his playhouse as we were singing, he walks out with Maddie from th playhouse and said very excitedly "Look, I found Baboo!!"

I think Maddie is sending us a whole bunch of comforting reminders that Keegan will for sure remember her and that he will take her with him everywhere he goes. Like when a few of us (Liz, Dannie, Austin and I I don't know if there were more other people) were at your house with everyone and Keegan said "We need to send kisses and hugs up to Baboo". He is such a smart boy and I don't know how you(julie) could ever raise a child that wasn't AMAZING and always genuine and filled with love. Dannie and I were talking for about 2 hours on the phone last night, about everything, Maddie, your family, high school crap, homework, careers, and we sang Maddie's poem that I put music to. Thank you Maddie, Julie, Ashley and Chachi for giving me close friends that I can not see for months and then the next time I see them we can act like we were never apart. I will never take the friendships I have made for granted.
I love you all, hope everything is going well.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, November 4, 2005 11:16 AM CST

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Hi Julie,
I haven't signed your book for awhile but I still read your updates on the web page and like to hear about how you and your family are doing. I saw you also know Maryah, we met her at a benefit Keys restaurant held this summer for my grandaughter. Last year the benefit was held for Maryah and this year Maryah and her family stopped by. She is an amazing young girl and I hope she can beat cancer this time. My grandaughter is growing up (13 months now) she hasn't been doing very well except this week she has been doing great. We are taking her Tuesday to Mayo clinic for a second opinion to see what they think can be done to help her. I hope you enjoy your new job, and it is nice you have found someone you are comfortable leaving your baby with. Again, I still think about your and your lovely Maddie. Take care
Karen Ueland grandmother of Kylie (www.caringbridge.com/mn/kylie) <klpu@#aol.com>
St. Paul, Mn - Thursday, November 3, 2005 7:23 PM CST

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Well good news. I get to go to Florida! It's going to be a great time now i just have to wait until Spring Break! Well just thought I'd drop by and see how it was going. Hope to see you all soon!
John Licht <rjlicht@msn.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 10:06 PM CST

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Hello to the whole family! I hope that you are all doing well. We are definately hanging in there - here in Connecticut. Actually having some good days. I'm so glad to know that your there when I need you!!

Cameron’s mom
Carla <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 5:30 PM CST

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Madz-
I haven't signed for a very long time...It is not that I don't stop by or that I am not thinking about you, but it is more about a mental block that seems to happen everytime I start to write.
Time heals, or so they say...but in my experience dealing with your loss I have found that it is not so much that it heals, but more that it changes the way that I miss you.
For much of the first year it was a physical void that I felt. I would look for you everywhere and my body felt an emptiness. As the days past I learned to trust that you were everywhere and the physical ache dulled, only to feel the pain in my heart and soul much more acutely.
Maybe I even fight the healing process a bit... as I want to keep you close in my heart...and feeling the emotions, even if they are sad, allows me to keep you very much alive within me...

I miss you much...Love you always
Auntie Sara <saradornisch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 1, 2005 7:39 AM CST

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Oh yeah and Happy Halloween!!!
liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, October 31, 2005 8:37 PM CST

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Hey-
It was great to see you guys yesterday! Hopefully I'll be over again soon! Dach, You know you are shadowing me for at least a little bit, like one hour so dont even say that your not. But yeah I'll give u guys a call later

Mads-
I miss you like crazy Lovin you always and always



love always and forever,

liz shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, October 31, 2005 8:36 PM CST

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Hi Julie,

Sorry I missed you today. This evening we sent a bunch of balloons into the Heavens in celebration of Connor's birthday. I made a point of writing Maddie a looooong note on her's, asking if the kids are driving her nuts yet....

Thinking about you all the time,

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, TX - Monday, October 31, 2005 7:02 PM CST

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

Hope you have a great one!

LOVE YOU!
Allie <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 31, 2005 4:37 PM CST

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LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, October 31, 2005 12:12 AM CST

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Hello Julie and family. It's been a while since I left a message so I thought I'd change that. School is going alright except the homework seems to be piling on more and more. Basketball starts soon and my thumb will be alright for that. I've been expecting a letter from Southwest Baseball saying I get to go to Florida for Spring Training but they say they're going to send them out but never do. Hopefully I'll get it Monday or Tuesday and I'll let you guys know. Well I hope to see you all soon!
John Licht <rjlicht@msn.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, October 30, 2005 7:37 PM CST

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Srry i havnt updated in awhile my internet has been down...
Hope everything is going well over at 4441! Hope to see ya soon! lyl
Chachi i came to anthony on friday and i guess i just missed ya...maybe next time we REALLY need to hang out soon!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, October 29, 2005 3:50 PM CDT

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wow i cannot believe how long its been since ive actually written in here. i always find myself going to this page. whether is to see whats been happening in your everyday life, or just to read all of the inspirational messages that are left here. this whole website just oozes love and hope. i guess i just never really know quite what to say, because there really is no way that i could know what any of you must be/have been going through. but just seeing all the love people have shown for maddie, and everyone in the paguyo/dornisch family, it fills me with an over powering feeling of happiness.
hope to read more entries soon
with love
*annie*
Annie Murphy <jellypig2323@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn USA - Saturday, October 29, 2005 0:31 AM CDT

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A BIG congratulations to Bonnie!

I wish you the best health!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, PA USA - Friday, October 28, 2005 6:58 AM CDT

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Bonnie is SO cool!
I'm happy that everything went so well. Thanks for all the candy at Halloween time, Bonnie!
That was the best.
I'm thinking about all of you...
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, October 24, 2005 7:08 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
It is really good to hear that Bonnie got back such great news, I hope to hear even more great news about her full recovery! I just finished my homework 5 minutes ago, and if my mom knew I was visiting Caringbridge people instead of sleep she would freak out! I have to go, but I will stop by or call or something SOON! Miss you guys soooo much!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, October 24, 2005 0:06 AM CDT

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julie thanks for updating, it's great to hear about you guys!
Maddie- i got this allergic reaction in my eye-long story, but it reminded me of when you had to wear the eye patch and you and i drew an eye on it. you were always making people laugh and thats just one of the 9786 things i love about you! i miss you more than words can express, i love you
Mary Kenney
mpls, - Sunday, October 23, 2005 10:53 PM CDT

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Julie,
I'm so happy for your friend Bonnie! My prayers will continue to be with her and you as well. Take care and enjoy the rest of this weekend. Congrats on the new job too! Take care. You and your family remain in my prayers.
amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
ca - Sunday, October 23, 2005 5:02 PM CDT

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Julie~
Thanks for the update! You are awesome! Congratulations on your new full-time job! The plan seems to work great. I miss you all lots n lots. Thanks for everything!

I love you Mads! I am positive that you are there for us in everything that we do. You were there when I drove to my Grandma's to make sure that I didn't crash. You were there when it was Media Center Day in Spanish (the things that make my day..lol), and you were there when I became extremely connected with my Spanish exchange student, Cristina. I strongly believe that you bring these many blessings into my life. I know this because at a certain moment I get a 'Maddie vibe' and you somehow let me know that you made it happen. I thank-you so much for all the things you have given me. I love you so much, Maddie! Please take care of my Grandma for me! I miss you an incredible amount!

Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Lotsa LOVE!!!


Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Manchester and Chelsea, MI UsA - Saturday, October 22, 2005 9:15 PM CDT

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I'm glad to hear that you guys are doing well. keep up the good work ms. cha chi. love you guyssss!!!!!!!!!
amanda viehauser <uplaylikeagirl@hotmail.com>
mpls, mn - Saturday, October 22, 2005 12:33 AM CDT

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You are one of my shining stars. I love you guys.

www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown

KEEPBEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!
Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 9:36 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I have missed you all so much! It is great to hear you all are doing well. Chachi is of course busy with her soccer and her family and friends. It is really good to hear that Ashley is loving UofM, I should ask her some time if her and Courtney have connected there. That is so exciting, about your new job! I hope it continues to go well, keeps us updated. I have been really busy lately. I am in Pop Singers during 0 hour and I in a musical called "Once on this Island" based in Haiti, it is really cool but the show is coming up so rehearsals go on forever! (The show is on Friday 11th and saturday the 12th of November.)
I am always swamped with homework from my AP classes, my teachers are crazy, don't they think I hae a life outside of school? I will survive and balance it out.
I need to see you guys soooo badly. I cannot believe how long it has been! I have a fun dream that I need to share with you guys, I just had it last night.
I will send my hope to Maryah, Cameron and pray for Bonnie.
I love you all, you will always be in my prayers and my thoughts.
Maddie~ I love you so much, and miss you. Thank you for being there for me through all of this crappy stuff that has happened on top of not having you be here physically. I can always count on your encouragement and crazy ideas! Anytime I need to really cheer myself up I just think of you pretending to be Saddam Hussien's wife or a Flight attendent or Ms.Quehl. I can still see your face through that whimple singing "how do you solve a problem like Maria" best night, when you got a standing ovation and your face was glowing with joy. I will never forget that night, you are such a performer. I love you Maddie.

Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, October 21, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

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It was good to see the update and read all the positive things going on with Maddie's family. Keegan finally got his wish and we all pray that someday you will to. Reading about the way your other kids have done shouldn't surprise anybody, after all look at what they have had for a MOM all these years. Good luck on your new adventures and remember all the support out there if you need it.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 5:22 AM CDT

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Just reading your journal entry makes me tired!!!!!! Sounds like a lot of busy people.

Good to hear about your new opportunity at work, 32 hours sounds just about perfect, not too long and not too short. Your little one should enjoy it just fine, getting to play with his friend all day and mom not being gone all the time.

Thinking about you all, all the time. Thanks for being friends. God Bless.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, TX - Thursday, October 20, 2005 4:38 PM CDT

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Hello Everyone!
Im just checking up as usual to see how you all are and to read your beautiful words of wisdom in your updates.Julie-the other day this week i was sitting in advisory and my teacher had been talking about one of the girls who had lost her grandfather that weekend.After she was done explaning what had happened she then said to the class that i could relate to what had happened from what had happened in my family.For a minute i thought to myself and then it hit me just like that where i remember my grandmas physical prensence was no longer with me.I then started to cry and i cried all through first and second hour.When i arrived in choir (3rd hour) Charlotte had sat down next to me and ask what i was wrong i told her without hesitation or regret.She could not fully respond because we were about to start a song.Even though she did not respond i just saw her bright smile and it just made me think."im sure she has probably been through so much more than i have and yet she still stands tall and shines like a star!"both your family and Charlotte have been a real inspiration to me.Anyways i hope all is well and Ashley is doing well at U of M,Julie good luck with your new job,and i hope Keegan is just as sweet as ever!
Suzie
Mpls., MN United States - Thursday, October 20, 2005 0:12 AM CDT

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Hello Everyone!
Im just checking up as usual to see how you all are and to read your beautiful words of wisdom in your updates.Julie-the other day this week i was sitting in advisory and my teacher had been talking about one of the girls who had lost her grandfather that weekend.After she was done explaning what had happened she then said to the class that i could relate to what had happened from what had happened in my family.For a minute i thought to myself and then it hit me just like that where i remember my grandmas physical prensence was no longer with me.I then started to cry and i cried all through first and second hour.When i arrived in choir (3rd hour) Charlotte had sat down next to me and ask what i was wrong i told her without hesitation or regret.She could not fully respond because we were about to start a song.Even though she did not respond i just saw her bright smile and it just made me think."im sure she has probably been through so much more than i have and yet she still stands tall and shines like a star!"both your family and Charlotte have been a real inspiration to me.Anyways i hope all is well and Ashley is doing well at U of M,Julie good luck with your new job,and i hope Keegan is just as sweet as ever!
Suzie
Mpls., MN United States - Thursday, October 20, 2005 0:12 AM CDT

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Your family is always in my hearts and prayers.

I will say a prayer for your friend who is battling breast cancer.

In March my Aunt D was diangosed with breast cancer. She beat it 15 years ago but it has resurfaced. My Aunt K was diagnosed with invasive breast cancer in August. She had a double masectomy. Now..my mom has been diagnosed with breast cancer. All three of these women are sisters..and you know what? My grandmom, their mom, had breast cancer 25 years ago. We need to find a cure for this horrible disease..for ALL cancers.

((HUGS))
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, PA USA - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 6:27 AM CDT

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Wow, you all don't do things by halves, do you? My daughter also plays club soccer U-15. ODP for Charlotte is an honor, how exciting. College for Ashley, a job for you and a social life for Keegan, plus a new exercise plan-- I admire your determination! I wish you joy and love.
Laura
Seattle, WA - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 0:33 AM CDT

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Hey just checking to see what you are up to!

Chachi- *Nice shirt* **Shut up I washed it ok!** wow good times haha

Love Always!
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 17, 2005 5:12 PM CDT

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hey guys...its weird, 'cuz I just wrote the other day, and its not here?? I was just letting ya all know that I was planning how to spend the 300 million...but i didn't win. so i got a few more for the 340 million. its mine i know. i can just feel it. i will buy a new miata for ro, cree gets some new soccer shoes (hers smell unbelievably) rylee will get a maid to clean her room nightly..amy will get my car to keep (since she drives it all the time anyway, phillip will get his trip to japan, i will get a cabin up north, a house in the virgin islands, and a small resort in the british virgin islands. I will donate money to obscure organizations that save something, and give all of Cree's teachers a bonus for putting up with her. I will travel to all the places i cannot afford now, buy all of my lingere at victoria's secret and shop in paris, milan and rodeo drive for my everday clothes. I will probably give my sister some money, and my grandmother. and i know that i will definately buy a small motorcycle for myself as well. i have also thought about donating some money to build the twins a new stadium, and maybe help build a gym for keewadin park. ya think i spent it all yet?? Hmmm. i hope all of you are well...the weather has been great, hope you get out to enjoy it.
Take care!

julie cameron <rjac63@aol.com>
- Monday, October 17, 2005 11:02 AM CDT

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My first visit to Maddie's site. What an awesome daughter!!! And, so pretty, too. Her letter reflects what an absolutely extraordinary person she was/is. I say "is" because I believe that Maddie's spirit continues to live on and that she continues to touch lives and inspire. Thank you for sharing on her web site.
Betty Givens <bgarg@charter.net>
Ringgold, GA USA - Monday, October 17, 2005 2:02 AM CDT

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Hope all is well! We need to get together soon. Hope dachi's soccer season ended well, and that Ashleys havin a great time at the U. Julie and keegan, keep doin the great things that ya do!
with love
kristina <crystalina2315@yahoo.com>
minneapolis, mn 55419 - Sunday, October 16, 2005 9:24 PM CDT

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Greetings!
I hope you all are enjoying this fine fall weather, and my thoughts are with you as well!

Love,

Jasmine
Jasmine Austin <Aust0160@umn.edu>
MPLS, MN USA - Sunday, October 16, 2005 8:44 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone!
I miss you all soooo much, I feel like I never see anyone anymore, but that is going to change soon hopefully.
I will stop by and say hi sometime soon. Oh, my mom had something she wanted to tell you Julie, but I cannot remember what it was about, I am sure she will talk with you about it soon anyways. I love you all, I hope this school year is going well.
Always thinking of you guys and you are always in my prayers.
I LOVE YOU MADDIE!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, October 16, 2005 3:47 PM CDT

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I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Im going to give you a call tomarrow!
Love and miss you all,
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Friday, October 14, 2005 10:18 PM CDT

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I think of you daily. Keep checking for your next update...praying for peace, comfort and strength to come your way. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa <lvalent1@ford.com>
Macomb, MI - Friday, October 14, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

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Hello Everybody! How are you today? I am doing pretty good.

Charlotte-Maybe we will actually win this last game! But my hopes are not high....love you

Maddie-Even though you are up in heaven you continue to inspire so many people down here on imperfect earth. I hope you are having fun!

Love you all.
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 13, 2005 4:46 PM CDT

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LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Thursday, October 13, 2005 11:30 AM CDT

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Hi guys!!! How are you all doing? Haven't updated in a while Julie.... OMG I just saw a decorating cents truck and couldn't help but think of Maddie. I hope that all of you are doing alright. How's school going Ashley? Maddie still continues to inspire me. Take care guys.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, - Thursday, October 13, 2005 10:04 AM CDT

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Thinking of you all. Stopping by with a prayer and needing a Maddie 'fix'.....I'm always uplifted when I come to her site. Hugs.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 10:50 AM CDT

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Oh goodness goodness do I miss seeing the seniors around school. Its just not the same. The new seniors are not as cool. I do however get to see ashleys picture every day in m. Rumppe's class, so that makes it a tad better.
Caitlin Eide <ibh00pin73@aim.com>
Mpls, MN USA - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 5:56 PM CDT

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I often come to re read Maddie's journey and words amazed at how much I learne from her and embarrased that it took me over 40 years to leanr what she instinctlyknew. and now Julie, I'm starting to see where it comes from as I read your words. Hope Ashley is having a ball, Justin is a senior now and last week we went to check a collegein the poconos I know he would be so happy there but a selfish part of me wants him closer, hey do you think he would be terrible embarrased if I moved to where he goes lol. I was looking at pictures of ashley 18th and can't believe how big Keegan is. please know when ever one of "our" heart babies go to Heaven I tell their Mom's I am so sure these wonderful girls Maddie and Cheyenne will watch over them. I really believe it. Julie, hope you don't mind some frantic emails as this 'college thing" gets closer :o) Love Lyn and Just www.caringbridge.org/nj/justinw
Lyn Wyatt <glwyatt@gmail.com>
stratford, nj usa - Monday, October 10, 2005 9:11 PM CDT

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Maddie, this first month at a new school for me has been tough, but every time i ride the bus home i listen to butterfly by mariah carey on repeat and it makes me feel a whole lot better to feel your presence with me. thanks for always being here.
Julie, i love reading this website and hearing from you, i hope i can come over soon and visit!
Mary Kenney
mpls, mn - Sunday, October 9, 2005 2:39 PM CDT

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Hey Girls! and Keegan! Just checking up! Chach it was nice to see you this morning!
Julie-You are a wonderful mom, probably the best in the world. Just keep doing what you are doing, anyone would be lucky to have you as their mom.
Maddie-KEEP SHINING! I hope you are having fun up there!
LOVE ALWAYS!
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 8, 2005 11:48 PM CDT

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I will be thinking of you all on Sat. while walking Matthew's Miles.
Angel Melody's Daddy
Rob Schleigh (www.ourmelody.net) <Rob@ourmelody.net>
- Friday, October 7, 2005 9:40 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone!!
I know I haven't been writing or coming around much and I'm sorry about that... I love you all very much!! I think about you guys everyday... actually julie, that's kinda why I'm writing... I have been having these wierd Maddie dreams lately, and I told my mom about them and she told me to tell you... It's kinda like the one I told you about when we were painting the pots except you were in it, too.
I don't know where we were, but there was a lot of people (there always was a ton of people around you guys) and we were talking when Maddie appeared (smile on her face and all) she looked great and there was this strage light around her making her hair and eyes kind of sparkle... we were all sooo happy, and we started to talk and eat and sing and just hang out... and while we were talking, Maddie stood up and said "I have an announcement to make..." We thought she would make a joke or something... but, even though her eyes smiled, she had this serious look to her... "I have told you to look for something... and you guys were so close, but you guys have started to wander a bit... you have to find it... keep looking." And again... as she had before, she began to disappear, leaving behind just the ball of light that had just illuminated her seconds before. We didn't even get to ask what we were looking for... Anyway, later on i recieved a letter from you, thanking me for helping you with something... I dont't know... it seems strange... i just thought i should tell you.
I love you guys!! I'll come back soon!
te amo, maddie, ahora y siempre!

Cree Foster <Beepers023@aol.com>
- Friday, October 7, 2005 0:05 AM CDT

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Hey
Hows it going over there? Here, things are gettin a little hectic. Too much homework, with another loss in soccer today, along with some people makin me mad, made for a pretty spectacular day! Man o man, Maddie I don't know how you kept yourself together so well, and I know your daily worries were far from hw or soccer or dumb people. I keep looking to you for guidance, and I keep getting reassured that I'm stressing for nothing. THanks for keeping me on track, and tuned in to whats really important. I miss you like crazy, and that above everything is something that wont get out of my head. I wish you were here, more than anything else. I need your smiling goofy, crazy, dirty-alphabet making, laughin self back at 4441, where I could go to see you any time of any day. Keep shining, you are and will always be my hero.
I love you

Liz shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, October 6, 2005 10:01 PM CDT

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Hey everybody! Just stopping in! It's good to see you are all doing well and I love seeing you guys at soccer every weekend or so! Chach it was really fun playing with you last weekend! (Glad we found your cell) lol Well see you guys around!
**!Love Tons!**
Allie Myren <allie_hm03@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 6, 2005 5:12 PM CDT

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Keegan's got the right idea---when I woke up this morning and in the bottom right hand corner of my TV it said it was 39 degrees here in Minneapolis I said to myself "I DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK!!!"! Your family dynamic continues to be awe inspiring to me.
Katie <katie.kelley@target.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Thursday, October 6, 2005 12:33 AM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
Hope things are going well at 4441! I just got back from the South vs. Southwest swim meet. Many of my friends were swimming and of course, we won, because South is just awesome like that! (I am only writing that because I am pretty much the only one who goes to South who would be reading this...)
Anyways...
I am hoping to see one of Liz's and/or Austin's soccer games, (especially since Liz has nobody who wants to see her play, I should at least make her think her games are fun and go to one...) just kiddin liz! I love ya.
Maddie~ You are my favorite person to talk to when I am stressed out and cannot fall asleep because my brain will not shut up! Somehow after I talk with you I always chill out, thanks for the better nights rest!!!
I hope to see you guys soon,
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

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Hey Paguyo Family!!!! missing you TtttttttHhhhhhhhIiiiiiiSssss much (well that x 100!) Hope you've been doing well and enjoying the school year (or what there is to enjoy!)
hope to see u very very soon!
emma
emma forschler <EmmaForschler@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 5, 2005 6:59 PM CDT

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Just stoping by to say a hello.....HOpe everything is going well.
lov ya and miss ya
xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6+6_91@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, October 5, 2005 12:05 AM CDT

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Hi Julie and all-

You remain in my thoughts and prayers. Now that you mention working again I can picture you in "Simply Splendid." Seems like yesterday, yet so long ago. Peace to you.
Katherine <lhallkhall@cox.net>
- Wednesday, October 5, 2005 10:14 AM CDT

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The search for peace is a daily endeavor...praying that you find the strength in each moment to continue to search...seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:50 AM CDT

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Julie and family:
PLEASE come to Maryah Tift's Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser on
October 27th!!! She would LOVE to see you there!!! Go to
her website for more info. www.maryah.net (the fundraising
website). Thank you!! Your family is BEAUTIFUL!!!!
Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
West St Paul, MN - Monday, October 3, 2005 9:03 PM CDT

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I missed you guys sooo much!!!!!
I hope to see you more frequently because that was a long stretch of time for me without seeing all of you. Thanks for letting me come over and watch Desperate Housewives with you! I had a very awesome Sunday evening. Thanks again for everything and I'll call ya soon! This weekend??
Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Lotsa Love,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN UsA - Monday, October 3, 2005 8:14 PM CDT

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I dare say Keegan has spoken his mind and working does not seem to be an option for him! Charlotte and Ash seem like they have made their way into social and academic activities and are doing really well....it's so nice you aren't that far away from Ashley. You've done a remarkable job Julie...as I've said a dozen times before, I get inspired each and every time I visit Maddie's site....she is the epitomy of LOVE.
Sending you cyber hugs and prayers of peace and strength. God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Monday, October 3, 2005 8:53 AM CDT

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Hello to my favorite Minnesota family!!!! I am so glad to hear things are going good for all of you right now. I agree with Keegan, I DON"T WANT TO GO TO WORK!!!!! Hang in there, remember we are praying for you, crying with you, and holding on to the memories.

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!

www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown
Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, October 2, 2005 11:31 PM CDT

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You guys sure do stay busy. Charli is still upset that I missed the soccer deadline and she's not playing. Her social life still keeps her busy. I'm sure our 13's would get along well. Please know that I will pray for peace for you and your family. I miss Maddie also, but love going back to read her journals. I wonder if Cameron has any of her feelings that he just can't express or is he as oblivious as he seems.

Well, hang in there! (as though we have a bunch of choices, huh?)

Cameron’s mom
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Sunday, October 2, 2005 7:15 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
Ash, my cousin was saying they same thing, it was his 1st football game also, like the jingle their keys at like kickoff or i dont know but they do have a specail thing they do to everything.
I went to a uofm vball game on friday and they to had things but like it got really annoying because everytime we got a piont we shout " Point U" so i said that 90 times.
Well i hope everything is going well for you guys.
Julie and keegen hope work is going good.
Chachi how is anthony?? I hope to stop by there sooner or later i have been super busy. Call me sometime.
Love you all
xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, October 2, 2005 4:42 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I hope your weekend is going wonderfully. I have rehearsal for the show I am doing even on my days off now! But oh well it is a really fun show so it doesn't matter. (by the way, we are performing at South Nov. 10th and 12th and 14th) anyways...
Ashley, just to let you know my sister Kelsey had the same reaction to UofM football events...I don't get it?! But at least you got a cute sweatshirt and you are supporting your school in style! I hope school is going good for you both. It is really weird not having ANY anthony people in my classes anymore, no Mary K. or Dannie or Shira, I like South a lot and I know a lot of new people but I do miss Anthony people, and just Anthony!
I wore a shirt with Maddie on the back and a butterfly in the front to school one day and the whole day guess what happened, a girl said who is on your shirt she is really pretty! And I just said... Yeah she is really pretty! It is my wonderful friend Maddie. I do have to say it is still really hard to tell random people about Maddie, not that I don't love talking about her it is just the responces I get from the people I tell. One time I said told someone what my "M" neckalace stood for when they asked, and she responded "Oh I know how that is, my dog died last year." I just wanted to be like, "No.... you don't know. What are you thinking?? A person is not the same as loosing a pet." But I just said yea...

Maddie- I miss you like crazy and I will love you always! I know you are always with us, I cannot wait 'til the day I see you again.

P.S.- Some how my family has accumulated many banana's so be prepared to recieve some banana bread Julie & Liz!

Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, October 1, 2005 11:07 AM CDT

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It was good to see the update. Wish things were better for you. Sounds like you have been keeping busy, and Keegan finally decided he didn't want to share you with anybody else. Huh just like any other man isn't he. no one can take the pain and emptiness that the loss of Maddie has caused in your life, all we can do is be there when you need someone. You still have what has to be 3 wonderful kids and so much to be proud of. Thanks for your continued support of the kids and your words of encouragement.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 1, 2005 8:06 AM CDT

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Julie, wonderful update, as I sit here in tears! Wish I could bring Maddie back to you and your family, its just not fair! I can just picture your girls walking arm and arm. Have a blessed day.
Tammy DeBlaay ("Friends of Allie") <tammydeblaay@hotmail.com>
Fort Worth, Tx - Thursday, September 29, 2005 11:22 AM CDT

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Love Always BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 8:45 PM CDT

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Julie and Keegan and Chachi (and Ash at school) -
I miss you guys and your house! It was great to read a few new updates...sounds like things are going well, and I can't wait to visit the store when I come home. I think of you all a lot and even though it hasn't been that long, it will be great to see your smiling faces at Thanksgiving. You're all amazing!
Betsy Aronson <elizabeth.aronson@tufts.edu>
Medford (!) aka almost Boston, MA - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 8:34 PM CDT

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Julie,
I too am suffering CB withdrawal, with my computer being down...luckily, my sister lives close by...and I am starting to 'live' here..on her computer! I just did a bit of catching up on your journal. Everyone seems to be doing great, that is wonderful. You really are a very special mother, Julie, you have taught your children so well. And you remind us to always count our blessings...we know they are many. Thank you for sharing Maddie, Chach, Ashley and Keegan with us, and yourself, also.
Love and hugs,
Tracey xoxo HAB <traceyhewison@shaw.ca>
Calgary, - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 4:01 PM CDT

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i have no idea how i found your daughter's site, but somehow God must have known i needed to read her page, because i found it. i sat yesterday, while i was at work, and read about her life. i was truly amazed at how much life she had despite her illness. Needless to say, i cried and cried while i read her entires and yours. she was such an amazing, spritual young person. I feel like i have known her all my life when i don't know her at all. her story has touched my life and forever changed me. I have a little boy that is 7, and now instead of telling him to wait a minute and i'll be right there, i go right then, and i thank God every chance i get that i have him in my life. Thank you so much for sharing your daughter with the world. Its amazing.. I'm at a loss for words. You have raised such wonderful children. I'm a single mom, and i hope that i can be the kind of mom that you have been. I pray that each and everyday will get easier for you and your family. And that everytime you think you can't make it, you look at Maddie and see that she was an angel here on earth thatwas sent to make a difference and you are to thank for that. God bless you and your family. Thank you for Maddie. With lots of love!!
Heather King <gerdie2429@accessky.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 11:05 AM CDT

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i have no idea how i found your daughter's site, but somehow God must have known i needed to read her page, because i found it. i sat yesterday, while i was at work, and read about her life. i was truly amazed at how much life she had despite her illness. Needless to say, i cried and cried while i read her entires and yours. she was such an amazing, spritual young person. I feel like i have known her all my life when i don't know her at all. her story has touched my life and forever changed me. I have a little boy that is 7, and now instead of telling him to wait a minute and i'll be right there, i go right then, and i thank God every chance i get that i have him in my life. Thank you so much for sharing your daughter with the world. Its amazing.. I'm at a loss for words. You have raised such wonderful children. I'm a single mom, and i hope that i can be the kind of mom that you have been. I pray that each and everyday will get easier for you and your family. And that everytime you think you can't make it, you look at Maddie and see that she was an angel here on earth thatwas sent to make a difference and you are to thank for that. God bless you and your family. Thank you for Maddie. With lots of love!!
Heather King <gerdie2429@accessky.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 11:05 AM CDT

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Hi Julie,

Well at first it was you with the internet, now it is us with the telephone. Glad I called you when I did, as the phone went down and has not come up yet.

Just sitting here and Donna and I were thinking about you and the kids, so I had to say hello again.

God Bless

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 9:30 PM CDT

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Hey Julie and family what's going on? It's been a while since I dropped in and left a hello. School is going alright just a lot more homework then last year. Soccer is pretty good too but I broke my thumb again so no more fall baseball or fall basketball. Homecoming was fabulous again even though it was about 200 degrees on the dance floor. We have to get together and hang out around the house sometime. I just read in the paper about a boy who was dying of cancer and the head coach at Notre Dame knew about it and asked him if he would like to call the first play of the game. The kid said yes and told the coach what play to run but he died the night before the game. The coach ran the play even though they were deep in their own territory and it went for a big gain. It's nice to know that there are still nice people out there even though they are big and famous. Hope to see you all soon!
John Licht <gogrampaed72@yahoo.com>
MPLS, - Monday, September 26, 2005 9:17 PM CDT

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Just thinkin about you all. Hopefully I can get over there soon! I miss ya lots!

Maddie Mo-
I love n miss you more than words can say.

Love always,
liZ shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mplsm, mn usa - Monday, September 26, 2005 5:34 PM CDT

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Thank you so much for this beautiful tribute to what seems like an amazing young woman and family. The letter that Maddie left for you, Julie, moved me to tears and made me hope that I raise my daughter as well as you have raised your family. I am so hopeful for you and your family and thank you for having the courage to share your pain, so that we may learn to cherish what we have every day.
Laura <lulumiles@msn.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Saturday, September 24, 2005 3:06 PM CDT

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hey!
it was so much fun going to the september fest with you girls!
i miss hanging out with you two! it was nice to see you last night to! cant wait to see you on monday at are game! love you!
Allison
Allison <ACSeaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:23 AM CDT

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hey!
it was fun going to september fest with you girls! it was also fun seeing you last night! miss you and looking forward for you to be coming to oour game on monday! i love you
Allison
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:21 AM CDT

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hey!
it was fun going to september fest with you girls! it was also fun seeing you last night! miss you and looking forward for you to be coming to oour game on monday! i love you
Allison
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:21 AM CDT

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hey!
it was fun going to september fest with you girls! it was also fun seeing you last night! miss you and looking forward for you to be coming to oour game on monday! i love you
Allison
Allison <acseaburg@mn.rr.com>
- Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:21 AM CDT

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Thank you for the reminder, Julie, today will be a day for reflecting on what I hold dear to me.


Terry, Julianna Banana's dad <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Friday, September 23, 2005 2:38 PM CDT

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Hey just stoping by i thought of yo guys today there was a poster of Ash, Maddie, and Chachi. You guys all look so pretty. Its in charlie blackwood aunts office. She scared me on the first day of school because she cam ein ym class and was like were is klassy and yea i thought i was in trouble already lol. She is a really nice lady. Well i better get back to class. love ya guys! xoxo
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 22, 2005 12:34 AM CDT

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Hello Julie and gang, I hope your days are filled with peace. I know how hard these days can be for me and they are magnified greatly for you. I miss my little buddy so much and know you all miss Maddie also. Check the journal, she broke the news to the world. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!

www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown
Nana sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:21 AM CDT

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Love you and miss you, Mads!
Thinking about you tons n tons.

Dannie <pAsKyLoOhOo@YaHoO.cOm>
Mpls, MN USA - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 8:40 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I have some good news, I got into Pop Singers! Yeah!
I am about to leave for 0 hour, but I thought I would stop in and say hi.
Maddie- I couldn't get motivated to get out of bed this morning, but then I put in "Ain't no Mountain High Enough" and (I don't know if I am weird and I am the only one who does this...) I danced around, and I sang to you, it sure woke me up! Now I have lots of energy and I can go sing! I will be bringing you with me to Pop Singers, I know this kinda of group you would have had a lot fun in!
Love you soooo much and miss you tons.

Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minnneapolis, MN - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 6:50 AM CDT

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Julie I always get food for the soul when I stop by Maddie's page. I'm so happy for Ashley...what a wonderful young woman she is...and Char is on route to all kinds of new ventures...I love that you and Keegan are back at work! Good for you...and to be in a place that lends comfort and familiarity....thanks for sharing your heart, wisdom and Maddie's never ending messages that are far beyond most people's conception...I love being here. Hugs
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Sunday, September 18, 2005 6:37 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I hope all is going well at 4441! I cannot believe we are already two weeks into school... I want summer back. But I do have some good news, I am in a musical at South, called "Once on this island" it set in Haiti and there is a LOT of dancing in it (Haitian Dance/African). I also got callbacks for Pop Singers! I am so excited, Cross your fingers!!!
I will hopefully talk to you guys soon.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Saturday, September 17, 2005 7:02 PM CDT

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Thanks for stopping by Hunter's site. What a beautiful journal entry. The love for your family is so apparent, what a gift that is to your children that they know how much they mean to you and can come here anytime to read it in black and white.

Thinking of you and your precious angel.

With love,
Katie, mom to Hayley, Hunter, and Taylor <dugan2b@yahoo.com>
Franklin, MA - Saturday, September 17, 2005 5:39 PM CDT

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Hey!
How is everyone? I hoping to stop by today sometime, I have a game at 1, and going to another one at 5, but maybe sometime in between that! Allrighty I'll give you a call. Have a good morning! I love you all

love always
liz shay <liz11shay@Msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Saturday, September 17, 2005 9:39 AM CDT

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I check in often and think of you each day. Everytime I come to your site I am taken back by the Maddie's beauty. How breath taking. Her physical beauty, her mind, her soul. Brings me comfort knowing she's up there looking over all the children that are with her. Prayers for peace in your heart.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Friday, September 16, 2005 9:30 PM CDT

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So yesterday in chemistry we had a test on the first thirty elements of the periodic table. I'm not the best memorizer so i was frantically cramming before the test began. Dannie made a point of telling me K is the symbol for potassium, because Keegan likes bananas. Just thought you'd like to know you helped me pass my first chemistry test! -Mary
Mary Sievert <bubbleducky19@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:08 PM CDT

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Hey Maddie. I know we never met but I have a huge favor to ask you. Last month, a little friend of mine, Drew, died from Alpers disease. His baby sister, McKenna, is 5 mo old and they just found out she has Alpers as well. Without a miracle, she will die too. So my favor is, if you talk to God anytime soon, could you ask Him for a miracle to be blessed on their family? Also, please take care of Drew- he was only 23 mo. Say hi to my cousin, Maddie Johnson, We miss her! Love Kylie
Kylie Gibbons (and her mom Maria) <riau2@aol.com / www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie>
Falcon Heights, MN - Thursday, September 15, 2005 7:55 PM CDT

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Maddie was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing her letter. She sounds like she was an amazing daughter. God bless.
Renee
Mommy to: Kassidy, Kameron & Kennedy
Renee Garcia <CAmommy2KJ@aol.com>
Clarksville, TN - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 11:11 PM CDT

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Hey Paguyo's,hows everything going? Cha Chi.......wow I didnt even realize your an 8th grader. Oh my gosh. I can't believe how fast everything is going. Ashley, I wish you the best of luck with college. Hope you have a blast!!
Julie- I havent read your journal in a long time but every time I do I feel comforted by your words. I love reading them. You are such an amazing person to go through everything you have and still be positive and grateful for everything. I miss all of you guys so much. Hopefully i'll c ay soon!! and give keegan a big hug n a kiss for me.
amanda viehauser <uplaylikeagirl@hotmail.com>
mpls, mn - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 10:30 PM CDT

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Am I really in highschool? Am I really not at Southwest? Life is so different here. There's much less drama. The kids don't seem very individual, and thoose who go against the current are very unconfident about themselves. I'm trying hard to embrace life here. Between soccer practices and trips to and from Minneapolis, I've found time to make some friends, and do my homework(which is suprisingly little).
Grayce Forsythe <nada@aofjnwa.coan>
Country ville, middle of nowhere - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:53 PM CDT

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I'm glad to hear your getting out of the house. Charli and I will still have to make our trip out to the Mall of Americas! I think of you guys often. Does your store have a web site, even though Cameron doesn't really care what he wears.
Take Care
Cameron’s mom
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:27 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,
Wow - you never fail to inspire me. You have become quite a masterpiece in addition to the great art that is your family. I have to share a "moment" with you...last week I walked outside to water my flowers and a yellow butterfly flew right across my face. Without a thought I said aloud "Hi Maddie." It blew me away that I was moved to say that without prompting. I thought you would like to know. With peace and love,
Katherine <lhallkhall@cox.net>
West Granby, CT - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 6:55 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan and Angel Maddie,
Charlotte I got your very lovely and thoughtful note today I am glad you enjoyed your box of goodies. Bet you have the prettiest soccer ball of all lol! I hope soccer goes well for you. And Happy Birthday!
Pam(www.pamsstory.org) <sylteach@aol.com>
asheboro, nc - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 5:17 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,Ashley, Charlotte, Keegan and Angel Maddie,
Charlotte I got your very lovely and thoughtful note today I am glad you enjoyed your box of goodies. Bet you have the prettiest soccer ball of all lol! I hope soccer goes well for you. And Happy Birthday!
Pam(www.pamsstory.org) <sylteach@aol.com>
asheboro, nc - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 5:17 PM CDT

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Hi! I was just thinking about Maddie and I wanted to say hi to the whole family. I miss those basketball games! I hope everyone is doing well!
Nick Hara <nhara@wisc.edu>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, September 12, 2005 8:52 AM CDT

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Julie, thank you for sharing your beautiful family with the world, you sure do have a way with words, I love reading about and catching up on your lives! Best of luck working outside the home, I know how difficult it can be getting out! Hugs from Texas!
Tammy DeBlaay (friends of Allie) <tammydeblaay@hotmail.com>
Fort Worth , TX - Sunday, September 11, 2005 9:34 PM CDT

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Julie,
What a wonderful entry into the website! Thanks for continuing to share your journey. You have so much wisdom that you convey with such eloquence. You have an incredible gift for writing. I'm glad to hear that your job is going well. Best wishes to everyone as they soar into the new school year. It's a huge step sending your firstborn off to college, but you have done your work in providing solid roots and Ashley is ready to spread her wings. Warm thoughts and prayers are sent your way,
Jan Tift
Jan Tift <jtift@mn.rr.com>
Mtka, MN - Sunday, September 11, 2005 9:14 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I hope the first week went wonderful for you guys! Not too much homework, I got slammed with an essay my first weekend and three tests to look forward to for Monday!! (how fun!)
I went to support my South Volleyball girls on the first day of school when they played Washburn. I knew Amanda V. was playing but I didn't know how funny it would be. She is really pretty good, I mean how tall is she 6 foot and a million inches!(just joking with you Amanda, you looked great!) I just thought it was so funny because I used to get so much crap from Austin & Liz especially, but pretty much everyone for always talking about volleyball and now I am not even playing but I still talk about it a lot.
I got my next Tumbleweed kid, I am so excited, I think even more so than last month I don't know why. Oh man, I cannot wait to pick out the gift I am going to give her. Her name is Sophia and she lives in Ohio, she is about 2 1/2 years old. She had liver transplant about a year ago and now is dealing with bone marrow failure. Well, I hope I can find the perfect gift to send her and her family!
I have my auditions for "Cinderella" tomorrow after school and then my Pop Singer's auditions on Friday!!! I am a little nervous but you know I have learned to chill and not stress out so much about stuff! (Thanks Maddie!)

Well I hope to see you guys soon, hopefully when school stuff settles down.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, September 11, 2005 7:51 PM CDT

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Dear Maddie~

It's been a while since I've talked to you, yet you are forever on my mind. In 4th grade, I remember playing Survivor, and you and I would pretend we were an old couple who would hold hands in the 'connection' room..lolol...we had big imaginations. Also, one time your mom coached our KPAC team for one game, and I'm pretty sure we won...I thought your mom was so cool. I remember the Survivor Party at your house- Rich was Rich..and, well...I don't remember who anyone else was..but I know it was lots of fun. The variety shows in 4th and 5th grade were awesome, too. Destiny's Child performed 'Say My Name' tonight on T.V. at a concert to raise money for the Hurricane Katrina victims. I immediately thought of you and our kick-butt dance. And of course, the next year, you taught Charlotte and her friends the moves to Shaggy's Angel. But by far, the best and most fun song we danced to was 'Aint No Mountain High Enough.' The five of us (Liz, Amanda, Maggie, you, and me) would walk over to Maggie's house after school and practice, practice, practice. We bought pink-feathered boas, 'sugar' tanktops, blue wigs, and animal umbrellas from your mom's store. I remember the only time just you and I had a sleepover at my house. We both squeezed into my twin bed, I have no idea why..lol, and you told me my bed was really hard, but only because you weren't used to it. It's weird the little things I remember, but I still feel like I'm forgetting SO many more memories. I think hard to try to remember all of the goofy and hilarious things we did together. Oh, I've got a good one...I remember when you put two dots on your chin with lipstick, then went upside down on the couch. You looked soo funny when you started singing and talking, with your chin that had a little face. We all laughed SO hard. You taught us so many things, Maddie.... And although my memories of you may come and go, I know Liz remembers and Austin and Brittany and..we all remember the laughs and goofiness that you brought. We love you so much, Maddie. I love you and miss you always. Give Julia a great big hug for me up in Heaven! Hope you girls get to chattin'.
Kisses n Hugs n Lotsa Lotsa Love,
Dannie <paskyloohoo@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Saturday, September 10, 2005 1:29 AM CDT

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HEy srry i havnt sign in awhile so srry about that....
So i started HIGHSCHOOL and it is A LOT different then anthony like a lot i thought i was ready but then when i got there i was omg were am i and were do i go lol so that was pretty big day for me. I made the vball team and we havnt lost a game yet!! So we are doing pretty awesome!

So chachi How is being the big 8 at anthony?? It is a lot of fun more fun then 7 grade like in 8 grade u get a lot more freedom. So we have to get together soon!!!

Ash~ I hope ur liking college that has to be a lot of FUN!!

Julie~ You are an awesome mom and ur 4 kids are so lucking to have you has ur mother!

There is never a day were i dont think about you guys. Hope i can see ya soon!
xoxoxo
Klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 8, 2005 9:38 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, Maddie and family.

I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed talking to you on the phone. It made my day to hear your voice. I am thinking I will be getting out of the hospital on sunday. We really don't know but that is my guess and my mom's. Well tell everyone I said hi. Much love. God Bless.
Maryah
maryah <www.caringbridge.org/mn/maryah rypie10_04@yahoo.com>
St. Paul, mn usa - Thursday, September 8, 2005 1:36 PM CDT

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Hi all! Just wanting to let you know that we are thinking of you tonight. Maryah is in the hospital with a fever and tonight we talked about Maddie, as we often do and Maryah was reminding me of the times she has felt Maddie watching over her. Sometimes Julie my heart hurts with thoughts of things that could happen in this journey and then I remember your faith and strength, the humanity of Maddie's family and friends that have struggled through this with you all and I am humbled and remember to smile and never take a moment for granted.
Thank you again for the strength you didn't even know you provide for me daily. Love and hugs!
Rachel Tift <racheltift@yahoo.com>
Saint Paul, MN USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 9:09 PM CDT

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Julie:

Just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am thinking of you. I was at the baby store today and a woman I met there said she was having a little boy....to be named Keegan! Tell my little buddy Keegie that we really miss him here in Florida!

With love,
Susan... Jakey Bear's mommy forever
Griffin <@aol.com>
Palm City, Fl USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 4:54 PM CDT

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Maddie must have stepped with both feet -- because those tiny size 5s have left a HUGE footprint on my heart that will be with me forever!! Thank you so much for sharing once again. And thank you for reminding us to reflect on our blessings. You and your family ARE a masterpiece - one that many of us dream of having. Hugs to all of you ....
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 7:01 AM CDT

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Hi Julie,

Gosh you have some great children!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have started to call several times over the past week or so, but then something comes up and I never get the chance.

Back in the realm of employed, both of you yet. That actually sounds like a blast having your precious there with you.

Thinking about all of you all the time. Take care and I will try to call sometime in the next week or so.

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 9:55 PM CDT

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Hi Julie and family!! I just wanted to write and say hello! I check in on you all from time to time. Julie, I love reading your journal you have an awesome way of expressing your self through words and I find my self so entangled in your thoughts and feelings because they are so deep! I have read some of the things you put on here that Maddie wrote and It seems as though she had the same talent!! You all are an amazing family full of life and hope and I am inpsired each time I read your journal!!!

much love & many blessings,
mary

www.elishahenderson.com
mary estrada <zoehappyheart@hotmail.com>
Euless, TX USA - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 8:51 PM CDT

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well today was my first day at southwest, and it would have really helped to have maddie physically there to explain things to me, and to make me laugh, but i know her spririt was with everyone today! Julie and Keegan I hope you are enjoying work, and Chachi and Ashley i hope you guys like school!
Maddie i love you and i miss you!
Mary Kenney
mpls, MN - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 4:51 PM CDT

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Hey guys. Sorry I haven't signed in a long time. I keep all of you close to my heart. Maddie still inspires me. I just started school too. Ashley--- maybe I'll see you there. It's a huge school, isn't it!? Way different than high school. Chachi- have fun as an 8th grader--- you rule the school girl. And Julie and Keegan I hope that you will enjoy spending lots of time together. Keep updating Julie. Take care.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 6, 2005 12:17 AM CDT

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well mom it sounds like your amazing daughter Maddie is still influencing the people she knew and cared about. The letters from her classmates tell the kind of person she was and the kind of person you brought her up to be. Sounds like you have had a very busy time lately with all that is going on and it is good to see so many people visiting and signing in on the site. Good luck with you and Keegans new job and hope that the girls have a blast at school. Andrea talked alot about you guy's this weekend and thank you for your continued support.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 6, 2005 6:17 AM CDT

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Hey hey hey-
How is everyone doing? Im doing allright. Just gettin ready for the big day tomarrow! Ah scary, another school year is coming already! Like Brittany said, it's going to be another one w/ out Mads there, and shes right, it just all out sucks. I'm also missing those amazing times at Anthony. Ash- I hope you have the time of your life at college! Im sure your room looks beautifuL! I know you'll do great!
Chach- Wow I seriously can't believe your the big dog! ahah WOw 8th grader? Thats definately hot. Take advantage of your last year there, because before ya know it, you'll be outta there! Oh yeah and don't pick on the 6th graders!
Julie- sorry I didn't get a chance to call ya today, I will have to call tomarrow to see how things in the work life are going.
Allrighty, I will talk to you all and hopefully see you all soon !! Love ya tons and Tons!
Maddie Mo- Missin you like crazy, I know you'll be watchin over me as I start school as a sophmore! I know scary isnt it? I know you'll be right by my side! I love you soo much. Thanks for everything girly!
Missin ya,
love always and forever
Liz Shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, September 5, 2005 11:13 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I hope everything is going well at 4441.
School starts tomorrow, and about an hour ago I started to really feel down. I cannot imagine going through another year without Maddie! I miss her so much, and I am sure you guys miss her every second of every day. I wish that we were all back in 7th grade, practicing "The sound of music", everything before Maddie was diagnosed. I loved the person I became when I was around Maddie, she was always so fun and crazy and definately brought me out of my little box, she gave me a little bit of her adventure! I could never thank Maddie enough for what she has given me. If I began right now, listing all of the things she has helped me through or taught me I don't think I would finish until midnight. Most of all, I love how she has slowed life down for me. I can view life from a better seat, I never knew so many things were so much fun or so hilarious or so amazingly beautiful. I know it may sound really cheesy, (I could never write my thoughts out as well as Maddie) she taught me how to really live life to the fullest. I hate going to school and subconsciously thinking I will see Maddie, Liz and Dannie all hanging out in my next class, only to not ever see her. I know it may sound crazy but I really do think I will see her everywhere. Backstage during a show I am doing, or in a class, or just walking down the street, or especially at 4441, I still cannot believe she is gone.
I was talking to Dannie just a little while ago, trying to see if I was going crazy or if everyone else felt this crappy too. She helped me get past my fear of writing what I was feeling in the Guestbook. I would never want to cause you guys any more pain, that is the last thing I would ever want. I hope nothing I have said has made you more sad or miss Maddie more.
Thank you for always being there to just hang out or talk with or (of course) do crafty stuff with!
I love you all so much, and I hope Ashley's and Chachi's first day of school goes great.

Maddie- I miss you so much. I know that you are happy in heaven and that you are running your Kids club with Cheyenne for all the caringbridge kids. Thanks for making sure I didn't become really serious and boring when I got into high school (I needed to loosen up a bit). You are the greatest person I will ever know. Thank you (a million times). One of the best things you have given me is a closer friendship with you, your amazing family, and Dannie, Austin and Liz (without you guys I don't know what I would do). I love you soooooo much!! I hope you will watch over us all as we venture back to school!!(Ick)
I love you, and I miss you tons.

Much Love,


Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, September 5, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

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Thinking of you today and always. Prayers for peace and strength to get you through, smiles to warm your heart. Hugs from Michigan
Lisa Valente
Macomb, MI - Sunday, September 4, 2005 10:19 PM CDT

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Hello Julie -
I came across your web site through Jenny Scott - what an absolutely beautiful little girl Maddie is, and what a beautiful story. I am so impressed, humbled, and in awe of her positive energy and strength (and yours). I am very very sorry. Please know that your story has powerful influence on all of us. Thank you.
gbj <galitbj@yahoo.com>
New York City, NY - Sunday, September 4, 2005 9:50 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
I cannot believe school is starting on Tuesday, AHHHH! Well, I am finally done with my summer work! I bet Ashley is so excited in her new dorm and meeting all these people she has been talking with on the Face book thing. My cousin Courtney just moved in yesturday, my aunt was really sad...
Julie, I hope Chachi and Keegan are keeping you entertained! I hope Keegan likes his new work, I am sure you are doing great Julie!!
I sent my pick me up package last week for Tabitha, I hope she likes it! I really cannot wait until they send me the next person to send a gift to!!
Well, I hope I will see you all soon, probably after school gets going a little.
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, September 4, 2005 10:29 AM CDT

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Julie,
Just a quick note to say I am thinking of you. Best wishes to the girls as they start school, especially Ashley with the grand adventure of college! Peace and love,
Katherine <lhallkhall@cox.net>
- Saturday, September 3, 2005 9:34 PM CDT

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Julie you are the best Mom!! No wonder you are so loved. Hope Char's party was a smash hit...which I'm sure it was..and that Ashley got situated up at school...that's a big transition for everyone. Sounds like while everyone else is back to school you and Keegan will be making a living! Can't wait to hear about it. Hope you're feeling better... I had that crummy summer cold/cough not too long ago and they aren't much fun...sending warm thoughts and hugs...remembering Maddie always.
Love,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Saturday, September 3, 2005 6:10 PM CDT

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Liz Cook - Postpals
Brighton, England, UK - Saturday, September 3, 2005 2:43 PM CDT

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Hi Julie! I just wanted to leave a little note to let you know that I'm still checking in on you and your family. I hope that that nasty summer cold has gone away and that you've been able to get some sleep. Sleep is such a precious thing! I've been reminded of this with Carson. :)

Look forward to hearing about your job with Keegan. It sounds intriguing!
Shayleen and Angel Cameryn <shayleen_harris@hotmail.com>
Campbell River, BC Canada - Friday, September 2, 2005 9:44 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Charlotte! Sorry it is a few days late. Glad to hear the party went well, and was a lot of fun. Ashley I hope you love college. Good Luck tomorrow and the days to come. Keegan, did mom ever get you that lunch box that you so desperately want for work? I did hear that you were a big help and such a good little worker. Julie, I am so glad to hear that the cold is finally going away. Those end of summer colds are the worst, I think. They just seem to linger on and on. We are always thinking of you.
Love you guys,
Andrea-Ryan's mommy forever
Andrea Brown Ryans Story <andrea_brown03@yahoo.com>
Fort Campbell, KY USA - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:50 PM CDT

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Hey guys!
How are you doing? Im doing pretty well. Busy with soccer and trying to do the summer reading I definately procrastinated on. Geez school starts soo soon, Im definately not ready, I just want to have more days just sleeping in and hangin out. Oh well, I guess it has to start sometime. Anyway soccers been fun and we play Austin and Melli and them on friday, you guys should come! Lol see im inviting you! I have to make sure and call Brittany D too. lol DACHI! A teenager! WOW i really can't believe that one! Man oh man it seems like yesterday you were soo little, crying for that little pink blanket you just had to have at all times. And now your on the computer, phone and talkin to boyz 24/7. lol you grew up fast! I hope you enjoyed your party and that you are aware of how crazy your friends are. And i hope you enjoyed your sorted Gardettos! (isnt that much easier?) lol Julie you are amazing, I hope you know that Dach! Im sure you do. lol anways I hope to see you all very soon. Love and hugs!!
love ya always and always,

Missin you like crazy Mads!

liz
liz shay <liz11shay@msn.com>
mpls, mn usa - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 6:11 PM CDT

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Maddie-
I re-read the book "The Mastery of Love"...I thought of you from beginning to end...
It talked about self-love and forgiveness and belief in oneself. Ideas and ways of being that seem so simple to comprehend, yet so hard to practice every day. You did. You were a master, and through your total acceptance of who you were, your full embrace of your body, mind, heart and soul just as they are you have been able to love in the truest sense.
I come to appreciate more and more, day by day the full scope of your accomplishments and the true mastery of living life that you possessed.
I am hoping to discover the same gifts that you seemed to fully understand...with your guidance!

Looking to you everyday!
Auntie Sara <saradornisch@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 30, 2005 1:08 PM CDT

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Hi guys...hope u r feeling better Julie...that cold is a whopper, Rylee has it too. It seems like forever since I have written here, I check every couple of days for updates, but I do not always write. This week has been a little overwhelming for us here. Ro's mom was here from St. Thomas visiting...that was so great for Ro, he is such a mama's boy, it was his birthday yesterday! Rylee turned 12 last week-- yikes! Rhori left a few weeks ago for Florida, he is living with his mother there, and now his great grandma, who lives here is gravely ill. She had a pace maker put in and they found out days later that a piece of it fell out and punctured her heart. She is not doing well at all. So I am trying to get him back here, but I do not know what is going on. Mean time, Amy started school today!! I am so glad she is staying in town. I really did miss her last year, and she and Cree are really getting close. But, she just got back from Guatemala, and has now decided that she wants to study there or in Costa Rica... Cree is playing varsity soccer with Liz this year. It is great for her, she needs to get her aggression out and what better place than the soccer field?? They won their first game and tied the game today, so that is a pretty good start. So we got a jump on the school clothes shopping, and all that is out of the way...Cree hates to shop, that is soooo wierd to have a teenage girl who hates to shop!! Well, I just wanted you all to know that I am thinking about you always! Take Care and Happy belated Birthday Cha Chi...and good luck with soccer. Have a great time at school Ashley. Don't be late for work Keegan!! Julie, your children are beautiful, loving, funny and talented!! You all have such a special bond, you truly are blessed! Take good care of each other!
Julie Cameron <rjac63@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 30, 2005 0:33 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Charlotte! Sounds like the party was a hit! Good luck at college Ashley. And Julie, I hope that yucky summer cold is gone soon. Nothing worse than being miserable feeling in the summer.
Beth L. <beanieb@neo.rr.com>
Mansfield, OH USA - Monday, August 29, 2005 10:21 AM CDT

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Hey guys!
The party was pretty fun! Jumping in the moon bounce with all the different groups of people. Sometimes Ashley, Justine, keegan, and liz....other times Charlotte and her crazy girlfriends! I give you so much credit Julie, i could never put up with all those kids! So sorry i couldn't stay for the slumber party, but i'm sure it was outa control! Hope everyone is well, and julie i hope you feel better! Much love always!
Kristina Amrani <crystalina2315@yahoo.com`>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 10:34 PM CDT

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Stopping by to let you all know that I am thinking of you. Happy birthday Charolette! Good luck at college Ashley. Wow Keegan...a job you are too cool! Hope all is well with you Julie and your nasty cold passes soon. Take care.
Mel(www.caringbridge.or/wa/isaac) <mtropple@cocmast.net>
- Sunday, August 28, 2005 1:13 PM CDT

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Hey Everyone,
Charolette I hope your Birthday party went well and you all had a lot of fun. Julie I hope you and Keegan are having fun working, and I hope Keegan likes bringing his lunch to work. I cannot believe that Ashley is going to college! I know all of your things you have bought for your dorm will look so cute!
Well, I am finally seeing the end of my work for the summer for this AP US history class I am taking next year. I am so excited to have my dance classes and voice start soon, I need a break from learning about Columus all the way to the Clinton Presidency!
Well, I hope to see you all soon!
Much Love,

Brittany Dahlen <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, August 28, 2005 9:09 AM CDT

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It was good to see your update, and to have someone like maddie to help you out planning Charlotte's party should make it extra special. Good luck with all that you have to get done.
Bill courtney< angel Ryan's uncle POP BILL <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 28, 2005 7:03 AM CDT

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Thanks for having me over! I had a BLAST!!!
klassy kernan <kernan_6_6_91@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, August 27, 2005 8:54 PM CDT

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Happy 13th Birthday, Chachi!!! Have a wonderful time. I think of your family all the time.
Julie, I am about to start a PT job as well. It's just time.
~Tess ('angel' Nolan's Aunt and 'angel' Dave's wife)
Tess Baker <tmbaker3@aol.com>
Fresno, CA - Saturday, August 27, 2005 4:18 PM CDT

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Happy Bithday Charlotte!!!
Julie - Mom's need their rest too!
Jeni
poplar grove, il - Friday, August 26, 2005 2:30 PM CDT

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Thinking of you!
Love, The Ketchesins

www.caringbridge.org/oh/kara

sherri <ketch16@yahoo.com>
ohio - Friday, August 26, 2005 8:36 AM CDT

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Just stopping by to say hello. I hope Ashley is enjoying college and the other kids are doing good. I think of you everyday and pray for you all endlessly. Keep up your courage.

www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!
Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, August 25, 2005 7:39 PM CDT

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Julie, I think of you and Maddie daily. Both of you are such beautiful people, down to the very core. You are so inspirational - like mother like daughter. :-) I haven't seen an update in a while...I hope each of your days have few tears and many smiles. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa Valente <ltvalente@comcast.net>
- Thursday, August 25, 2005 6:53 AM CDT

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