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I love that the post was made at 11:11. I'm sure you must know there is an angel with you at that time!
Tracey
- Saturday, March 24, 2012 8:03 AM CDT

Thanks for updating. We don't know each other, but because of someone I knew with DSRCT, I found your Steven. Please post now and then, if you can.
Kay Boyle <iamk511@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, MO - Sunday, May 15, 2011 9:32 PM CDT

i hope you all are well.i just recently lost my brother to DSRCT he was 24.im 17 his burial is may 14th,we lost him in dec.Jason is his name.he has a 2 year old daughter and he just got married in october.he is greatly missed by everyone.i know my family and i miss him ALOT!! but i hope all is well + if you ever need to talk at all im here + i understand how you feel.
Alixa Roy <alroy14@yahoo.com>
Winchester, NH United states - Wednesday, April 28, 2010 11:25 AM CDT

Thank you for the update on how you are doing. I pray for your family, even though we don't know each other. Because of someone else I knew with DSRCT, I read about your Steven. What a lovely young man he seemed to be. I pray for God to hold you in His loving arms and comfort you always until you are re-united with your Steven. Please update again when you are able.
Kay
St. Charles, MO - Tuesday, April 20, 2010 3:39 PM CDT

Dearest Family and friends,
I am amazingly sad. To work my way into a better place, I am trying to find some sense of blessings and what is to be learned from these five years as to living a meaningful life. It helped to go back and read the journal on Caringbridge. I think...it takes a great many people to surround each other with love, faith and help. Luckily, the Paynes and Parros are large families. Families, large and small, need to stay close. You never have too many friends and friendships are built over time. Start early and support your friends as you would have them support you. Knuckle down and fight hard to get the best medical care possible, never give up for a moment. Tell people you love them. Be honest. Forgive others and yourself for real or imagined wrongs.
I admire Jeff, Claudia, Kyle, Ryan and Steve. They have shown us how to live. They had five years and made the most of that time together. What a blessing.
Love,
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Saturday, October 31, 2009 12:34 AM CDT

Jeff and I are so sad to hear of Steve's death. You all are in our thoughts and prayers. So many people have spoken of your strength, love, and faith. I pray you feel God's arms around you, holding you close.
Jo Slaga
Denver, CO USA - Wednesday, October 28, 2009 11:00 AM CDT

Dear Payne Family,
I am very sorry. My son suffers the same cancer and I hate it. I pray for strength for you and your family and for peace.
Tracy Morgan (www.caringbridge.org/visit/raymondalaniz) <t2morgan@hotmail.com>
Sanger, CA USA - Monday, October 26, 2009 6:11 PM CDT

Dear Jeff, Claudia, and Family
My prayers and heartfelt sympathy go out to you upon hearing of Steve's passing.
Mark Pielsticker <bayperf@aol.com>
Sacramento, CA US - Wednesday, October 21, 2009 0:57 AM CDT

Dearest Payne Family:
Our deepest sympathies to all of you. Steve was a symbol of strength, courage, determination and dignity and our family will carry that into our lives every day. Your faith is an inspiration and the love of your family is undescribable. You are and will continue to be in our prayers. The Verdin Family
Lois Verdin <LVerdin5@comcast.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Tuesday, October 20, 2009 11:28 AM CDT

Dear Payne Family,
My heart is just breaking over the loss of your precious Steve. I was Steve's counselor during his junior and senior years at LT, and I was just devastated when my nieces told me the news. He was and continues to be an inspiration in my life, and I share his story of determination and perseverance with many of my current students.

Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers. I know all too well the pain of losing a child, and no parent should have to endure this grief. I am so very sorry for your tremendous loss.
Meredith Sheriff <mere924@hotmail.com>
New Lenox, IL USA - Tuesday, October 20, 2009 8:14 AM CDT

Dear Jeff, Claudia, Kyle, Ryan, and extended family,
We hold you in our prayers as you walk this most difficult journey. It is impossible to even imagine what you must be feeling now. Just know that your witness of reliance in your faith to take you along this entire journey has been an inspiration to so many people. Steve's life and battle were a great witness of strength, courage, and dignity. We will continue to pray for you all. The Ellisons
Judy Ellison <jestitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Monday, October 19, 2009 7:44 PM CDT

Dear Jeff and Claudia,
Our hearts go out to your family. Ben and Elizabeth asked if they could plant a tree for Stevie between our two cabins at Big Fork. Benjamin said "That way he will always be there with us."
We love you guys,
Caitlin, Andy, Benjamin and Elizabeth Mack
Caitlin Mack <caitlin@emack.net>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, October 19, 2009 6:41 PM CDT

Dear Payne family,
Our hearts are broken. Your family has been and will continue to be an inspiration for us. Steve's courageous battle against this terrible disease will give others the strenght to do the same. The determination that his family had for his care will give other families the strenght to do the same. We wish you peace and comfort. We are all better people for knowing Steve, thank you for sharing him with us.
Mike,Nancy, Mike Jr. and Jack Peth
Nancy Peth <nlpeth@sbcglobal.net>
La Grange, Il USA - Sunday, October 18, 2009 9:34 PM CDT

Dear Claudia and family:
My heart is broken for you as there can be no greater pain than that of losing a child. Although I never knew Steve, knowing how kind and loving you are, I am positive that he knew how loved he was by your family and all your friends. May you have some comfort believing that Steve has returned to the arms of the Lord and is free from pain. May God's grace and unending love bring your family the strength you need to live through this grief. I will keep you all in my prayers and thoughts.
Chris Maxwell <cmaxwell@d181.org>
Wheaton, IL USA - Sunday, October 18, 2009 8:28 PM CDT

To the most amazing family thank you so much for allowing us to be a part of your amazing Steven Such love for each other and for the people around you all. What we learned from Steven can not even be put in words Thank you Steven Payne for being a part of our lifes
JoAnne and Jay and he family <joannenur@aol.com>
western springs, il usa - Sunday, October 18, 2009 12:38 AM CDT

Dear Jeff, Claudia, Kyle, and Ryan:
Our thoughts and our prayers are with you all. Love, John and Angela Scherling, Kathy and Karen, in Colorado.
Angie Scherling <jtsams@q.com>
Littleton, CO USA - Saturday, October 17, 2009 10:42 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, Ryan and Kyle,
We are all devastated to hear about Steve. The courage he showed throughout his treatment was nothing short of incredible. You are an amazing family! I'm honored to be part of the extended Payne family. I hope that the love and support from everyone who cares about Steve and about all of you will be a source of comfort. With our deepest sympathy. Love, Kath, Erin, Jack, Emily and Meghan Treptow
Kathleen Treptow <k.treptow@comcast.net>
Homewood, IL USA - Saturday, October 17, 2009 11:31 AM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, Ryan and Kyle
I am so sad that Steve is not with us. Gosh, I loved his smile, and I still do and that will not change.

Last Saturday, I was with you for a few hours as Claudia and Jack worked on questions to ask the doctors about the future medical course of action to get Steve healthy enough to come home and then be ready for the next treatment. This was serious business, as it has been for a long time, Claudia on her computer making a record and Jack, sitting on an exercycle, being a doctor and uncle. Jeff and I were there as a plan was proposed and imagined. There were smiles and a positve feeling that with some combination of good medical care and God's help, Steve would be able to come home for a weekend and leave room 6371. Steve, on that day, was able to walk tho not far.

Steve was in his bed at the far end of the room away from the door playing a video game shooting aliens, with a headset against an opponent in Germany. Every once in a while, not talking to us, he would say something like :Gotcha! It wasn't as if he was looking healthy, there was the oxygen and the drain tube and difficulty breathing and coughing. Dang that pneumonia. So, after a while, I asked Steve if he was good at that game. And he had this wonderful look and said, Yea, I'm pretty good.

I bet he was darn good and now I wish I had found out more, like if he won. He came by his skills naturally, both genetic and learned. Following in his father's footsteps, Jeff became one of the best and most dedicated solitare (cards) player in the family. Jeff is fast and committed to winning, so few of us even challenge him anymore. One day, I recall Jeff shaking his head because Steve could beat him regularly at double solitare. I was surprised...and I regarded Steve very differently from then on.

Steve was a player. He played hard and he played to win. He came to this health battle the same way...he battled hard, he was strong and he tried to win. Right up to the end. As I think about this, it must be very hard to do. What an inspirational person.

Steve had an uncredible support group. It starts with the family, then goes to the extended family, then to friends, girlfriends, then to co-workers and neighbors and then students and so many others. It starts with love and love that you can see and want to share because it brings out the best in all of us. I am grateful that this experience brought out the values and choices that are the best of life's lessons.
Thank you, Claudia, Jeff, Kyle, Ryan and Steve.
Always with love,
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 7:31 PM CDT

Dear Payne Family: We are all so sad about Steve. He was such a brave and wonderful young man. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. With very deepest sympathies, Haig, Anne, Michael and Elizabeth Garabedian
The Garabedian Family <301garabe@sbcglobal.net>
La Grange, IL - Friday, October 16, 2009 5:51 PM CDT

Dear Claudia,Jeff,Kyle and Ryan,
Even tho I never met Steve he was such an incredible and strong person. He fought a very long and hard battle with cancer. His pain is gone as he is with God. We will keep you in our thought and prayers.

Love,

Barb and Bill Saad
Barb Saad <bjsaad44@comcast.net>
Westmont, Il USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 4:42 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff and family,
We are so sorry to hear about Steve's passing. Words seem so inadequate at a time like this. We are praying for you and hoping that your deep faith in God, the strength and support of family and friends and the precious memories you have of Steve will comfort you in the days ahead.
Love, Tom, Kathy and Mark Coticchio
The Coticchios <coticch@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 3:31 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, Kyle and Ryan

Barb and I as well as our whole family and our church family are grieving with you over Steve's passing. We know he fought a long and brave fight. We also know that he is now at peace and out of his suffering. Our family, which has experienced a small part of your ordeal through the loss of a brother and child, reaches out to you in this difficult time. Our prayer is that you will be able to find comfort and peace and that your faith will remain strong even though there is no earthly understanding of this kind of loss right now. Steve's courage and tenacity have been an inspiration to everyone and the love and compassion your family have modeled for all of us will be long remembered. God bless all of you.
Jim and Barb Cox <Jcox1950@aol.com>
Batavia, IL - Friday, October 16, 2009 2:32 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, Kyle and Ryan,
Steve lived well and fought hard because he had such incredible support and love always right by his side. While his passing is devastating, Steve's continuing gift to all of you is the knowledge that you are a family in every possible definition. One that he will always be a part of...

Hank and Elaine Sledz <owl5703@comcast.net>
Hinsdale, IL USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 1:33 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, and family,
We are deeply sorry to hear that Steve has passed. We have wonderful memories of him. We so wished and prayed that you would not have to endure such grief and heartbreak. Sharing the fight with others was a loving, courageous act that will continue to help and inspire us all. We pray now for your peace and strength in the days ahead.
Love,
Karen and Don Mon and family
Karen Mon <dkmdmon@comcast.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 1:02 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Jeff, Kyle and Ryan,
Steve was an extraordinary young guy to have fought his battle with cancer so bravely. Your reliance on God to see you through this journey with him has been a wonderful witness to all of us. We pray that God will comfort all of you with His peace.
With much love and our deepest sympathy,
The Olunds
Donna Olund
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Friday, October 16, 2009 8:34 AM CDT

dear jeff and claudia. Thank you for allowing us to be part of this battle. We were honored to be there last night and be with your family as we bid farewell to our precious Stevie. You and the boys were so brave and so strong and truly an inspiration to all that were present at this heartbreaking time. We love all of you so much and will pray for the entire family. Love Jack,Pam,Katie,Kiel,Kristin,Tim,Billy, Chris, JJ
pamela payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
WESTERN SPRINGS, IL USA - Thursday, October 15, 2009 11:22 PM CDT

Jeff and Claudia and family:

Nick just told me about Steve's death. I am so sorry. I will always carry with me a vision of the sweet little boy in that Westchester Charger uniform, becoming such a fine young man.

May your faith and knowledge that Steve is no longer in pain help you today and always.

Sara Mikuta
Sara Mikuta <smikuta@leadersbank.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, October 15, 2009 8:15 PM CDT

Hang in there Steve! We're all still here pulling for you!
Scott Curran <scurran@clintonfoundation.org>
Little Rock, AR - Thursday, October 1, 2009 11:52 PM CDT

hi Steve, just wanted you to know that we think of you and pray for you daily. You are due for some good news and we are convinced it will be coming any day now. Don't get discouraged, God is with all of you during these tough times. We watched Tommy Boy the other day and when the famous line "Shut up Richard" came on we both burst out laughing remembering your famous contribution to that silly game we were playing so long ago at Three Lakes. You are the best! Stay strong, we love you! Aunt Pam and Uncle Jack
pamela payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
- Tuesday, September 22, 2009 9:29 PM CDT

Hi Steve & Family:
Just checking in to let you know you are always in our thoughts and looking forward to seeing you soon. Relax and heal.
Love,
Dave, Andrea Jason & Aaron Allison <A-Allison@wiu.edu>
East Moline, Il USA - Tuesday, September 22, 2009 4:22 PM CDT

Hi Steve,
It was nice to visit with you and your folks the other day. We think of you often, hope and pray that those antibiotics can do their thing and that you are feeling better.
Love,
Mr. and Mrs. Olund
donnao@ameritech.net <donnao@ameritech.net>
La Grange Park, IL USA - Monday, September 21, 2009 10:43 PM CDT

hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam and Uncle Jack, just wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you and hope you are feeling better. We love you and pray for you daily. Keep strong. Love Jack and Pam
pamela payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
WESTERN SPRINGS, IL USA - Friday, September 11, 2009 10:41 PM CDT

Steve and family -

Been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing. Hang in there and continue to believe in the power of prayer.

Sara
Sara Mikuta
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, August 19, 2009 10:43 AM CDT

yeah.... steven you went skiing but you went with out me next time we both go glad you had a great time in 3 lakes love Joanne Jay
Joanne <joannenur@aol.com>
western springs, il usa - Sunday, August 9, 2009 9:25 AM CDT

Steve
good man..keep up the good fight. my brother Denis (27, Ireland) is battling DSRCT with you since Feburary. he's after a tough week following surgery last week in MSKCC. the road ahead doesn't seem as daunting after reading the path you have paved...keep believing, trusting and fighting
elaine
www.caringbridge.org/visit/denisdennehy

Elaine Dennehy <elainedennehy21@hotmail.com>
IRELAND - Thursday, July 16, 2009 10:28 PM CDT

Welcome home Steve! Glad to hear that you finished your treatments in Bloomington and hope that you will be able to enjoy some time with the fam back in LaGrange and/or up north. We continue to pray for you , especially that those stubborn platelet counts would behave.
Take Care,
Mrs. Olund
Donna Olund
La Grange Park, IL USA - Thursday, July 16, 2009 11:02 AM CDT

Hello Everyone!! I have been following Steve's case for quite awhile. Please post and update on how Steven is doing. He and his family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Donna Malvaney <bdmalvaney@live.com>
Redmond, OR USA - Tuesday, July 14, 2009 6:52 PM CDT

Dear Payne family
We are very glad to hear of the good insurance news and that the treatment is going well. You are one unbelievable family, truly an inspiration to everyone. We wish all the best for Steve and the loving family that supports him. Stay strong and positive. Love, the Peths
Nancy Peth <nlpeth@sbcglobal.net>
La Grange, Il. USA - Monday, June 8, 2009 1:50 PM CDT

Steve:
We are so glad to hear that you were accepted for these treatments. Enjoy your time with friends in Indiana and rest and get well. You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.
Love to you and your family,
Dave, Andrea, Jason & Aaron Allison
Andrea Allison
East Moline, IL USA - Tuesday, June 2, 2009 10:53 AM CDT

Steve and Family,
My son was diagnosed with DSRCT March of 2008. Once recovered from surgery he will have stem cell transplant. Your journal has given me new hope. You are in my prayres.
Cindy Statler <cstatler@comcast.net>
Markham, il cook - Wednesday, May 27, 2009 9:46 AM CDT

Steve and family, We are so glad to hear that you can have the proton therapy and that you can be with your friends while doing it. We will continue to pray for you and God's healing power. Love and prayers, Gerry and Diane Pedersen
Gerry and Diane Pedersen <dgped@comcast.net>
Crest HIll, Ill Will - Tuesday, May 26, 2009 7:33 PM CDT

Steve - You and your family continue to be in our thoughts and prayers for your treatment's success and your continued recovery. We are so glad that the proton treatment seems to be such a great option and know that you will have some great times with your friends at Bloomington during the "off" times!
The Ellisons <jestitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Thursday, April 23, 2009 6:21 AM CDT

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mugu maga <nwa.owerri_mugu@yahoo.com>
lome , lome togo - Wednesday, March 25, 2009 12:06 AM CDT

steven just letting you know you are in are thoughts
snow jo and jay jes josh shannon matthew daniel MADDISON <joannenur@aol.com>
western springs, il usa - Wednesday, March 4, 2009 5:41 PM CST

Steven Our prayers continue we will be thinking of you on Monday and for indiana say come on down
love snow jo <joannenur@aol.com>
westen springs, il usa - Wednesday, February 18, 2009 8:53 AM CST

STEVEN MISSED YOU LAST NIGHT JUST TO LET YOU KNOW YOU ARE IN OUR PRAYERS DAILY LOVE JOANNE AND JAY JES JOS
JOANNE AND JAY <JOANNENUR@AOL.COM>
WESTERN SPRINGS, IL USA - Monday, February 16, 2009 6:27 PM CST

DEAR STEVEN ,

MISSED YOU LAST NIGHT BUT JUST TO LET YOU KNOW YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYS DAILY LOVE JOANNE AND JAY AND JES
JOANNE AND JAY <JOANNENUR@AOL.COM>
WESTERN SPRINGS, ILL USA - Monday, February 16, 2009 6:22 PM CST

MY DEAREST STEVEN
JOANNE HOLMES JAY PAYNE JESSICA PAYNE SHANNON DANIEL MATTHEW HOLMES PS GRACIE <JOANNENUR@AOL.COM>
WESTERN SPRINGS, ILL USA - Monday, February 16, 2009 6:18 PM CST

Steve,
This is fantastic news. Progress is being made every day in cancer research and this proves it. There are new drugs, new regimens, new discoveries every week with cancer research. You are winning this battle because you are your own advocate. Never stop being your own advocate. This is crucial. Okay, so chemo doesn't feel so good and I could tell you my own sob stories about chemo but I won't. Instead I'll tell you what made me feel better - I'm embarrassed to say that after during enduring the 3-day chemo hangover, a beer always cured me. (I always appreciated a nice import.)
All the best and more,
Caitlin, Andy, Elizabeth and Ben Mack
p.s. Ben wants you to take him water-skiing next summer because he thinks you and your brothers are "cool'".
Caitlin Mack <caitlin@emack.net>
Plymouth, MN USA - Friday, January 9, 2009 8:29 PM CST

Dear Steve,
Well, so your counts are up and you are back to the chemo. Hmm, I am sure that is good news although it probably doesn't feel so good. Stay strong, Steve. You are fighting a good fight and keep in the memoent which is that there is beauty with the snowy times and we will soon all be together to smile, laugh and bless these times with each other. I love you so much!
Love always.
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Wednesday, December 17, 2008 9:33 PM CST

Dear Steve and Family, It has been a very long time since I wrote anything here. I am so happy for you and your family that your cancer is retreating from your body. As your Mom wrote God is so good and we often don't pause long enough to see His hand in everything, all the details of our lives. I will continue to try to remember to pray for your continued healing and for comfort for your family. May God bless you and keep you.
Jim Graff
LaGrange Park, IL - Friday, December 12, 2008 12:46 AM CST

Oh my God that's the best news I've heard all day! I have been checking this site for news and have also said quite a few prayers for Steve.
Shrinking tumors! I wish I could say more, but that seems to be all that comes to mind. Wow! I'll keep you guys in my prayers.
That quote about trusting in an unknown future with a known God is a good one. Mind if I steal it?

-Jake (The guy who talked with you about my own DSRCT story)
Jake Brunello <jakebrunello@gmail.com>
San Francisco, CA USA - Thursday, November 20, 2008 0:24 AM CST

Hey, hey, hey Steve! The Fritz boys are ready to come hang out with you again! We are all so glad to hear your awesome news! You are our hero....keep fighting the fight till we see you again.
Chas & Laurie Fritz <lauriefritz@gmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 19, 2008 6:42 AM CST

The Jack Payne house is celebrating your good news tonight, we have forwarded this on to all of our kids and everyone is calling and we are all so happy for all of you. God is good and looking out for you Steve, we will truly have so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving. Can't wait to celebrate with you. Love Uncle Jack and Aunt Pam
pamela payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
WESTERN SPRINGS, IL USA - Tuesday, November 18, 2008 10:58 PM CST

Dear Steven and family, First I want you to know what a beautiful family you have and I can tell you have wonderful support. As you already know others are out there fighting the same fight. My nephew Mark Briscoe is fighting this same awful disease. I am so sorry you are having to go thru this again especially after being cancer free for as long as you were. I am sure your mom and family has already told you to keep a positive attitude and to never give up. Since I am a mother too that is my same advice :0). I just wanted you to know that there are others out there that are thinking of you and praying for you. We really do care and wish you the very best, hugs from Redmond Oregon.
Donna Malvaney <bdmalvaney@live.com>
Redmond, Ore Deschutes - Saturday, November 8, 2008 3:47 PM CST

Steve: Letting you know we pray for you daily and know your strength will see you through this. Our thoughts and love are with you and your entire family. The Verdins
Lois Verdin <LVerdin5@comcast.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, October 6, 2008 1:47 PM CDT

Steve...just wanted to let you know that the entire Garreau family is praying for God's healing touch for you.
Mrs. Garreau <BJGarreau@aol.com>
La Grange Park, IL 60526 - Thursday, October 2, 2008 10:17 AM CDT

Hey Steve,
I want you to know that I've put you on every prayer list I know of, so know that God will be looking out for you as you struggle through these tough days. Call on Him when you need some strength.
Love,
Mrs. Olund
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Thursday, September 25, 2008 7:15 AM CDT

Hey, guest book people
I look at this site everyday to see what is up and who is out there thinking good things and saying prayers. I am. If you can, sign in and lend support...we all need you. It is so hard to know what to say. Hi and I love you is sometimes all I can say and, yet, I know that being present and expressing love is what we all need in these times and always. No family could be more loved than Steve, Ryan, Kyle, Claudia and Jeff, which I belive is in birth order, but don't hold me to that.

Love to all the Paynes and their wonderful friends.
God bless you.
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <ckntui@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Wednesday, September 24, 2008 8:39 PM CDT

Dear Paynes,
I received the caringbridge info from Carol Knuti so my family and I can keep up to speed on Steve's recovery. It sounds like he is handling the chemo very well and this is GREAT news. Plus not losing the hair is a plus! We are sending positive thoughts and energy from both Wisconsin and Minnesota. Tell Stevie that we'll treat him to a big breakfast at Sunset's next time we're all up at Big Fork.

Your Noisy Big Fork Neighbors,
Andy, Caitlin, Elizabeth and Benjamin Mack
Caitlin Mack <caitlin@emack.net>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, September 22, 2008 8:45 AM CDT

Steve, el al,
Hey what a great picture!! Last week was off and this week was back on, or have I lost a week??? How is it going? Have you figured out how to take that med? Any med that kills the cancer has to be tough. I have trouble with vitamins, what a wimp I am.
How about those Cubs?? Is this the year?? Stay tuned.
Love you all,
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <ckntui@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Sunday, September 21, 2008 6:04 PM CDT

Well Stevie - four weeks into your new challenge and as alway and to my amazement you are rising to the occasion, meeting the challenge head on and showing all who love you how amazingly strong and quietly determined you are to fight and Beat and Win this battle. You are an inspiration to so many friends, family and strangers who know your journey. Keep the faith! Love Aunt Dawn J.
Dawn Jacobsen <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
Orland Park, IL - Thursday, September 18, 2008 3:00 PM CDT

Dear Payne family,
My name is Jake Brunello. I too have battled DSRCT, and thanks to our dear lord, am in remission. I was treated in San Francisco. I thank God for every day that I have since my diagnosis. It is a blessing to still be here.
I have been tracking Steve's progress for about a year now. I have said many prayers for him and continue to do so. I am sorry to hear that he has to endure another sarcoma battle, but I have faith in our lord. I will continue to pray for Steve every chance I get. It would mean a great deal me if you would e mail me. My email is jakebrunello@gmail.com. I hope it is not too weird of a request, but Steve's story has been an inspiration to me, and I would like to keep as up to date on his health as possible. I consider anyone as family who battles this rare disease. Again, you are all in my prayers, even though I do not know you. Best wishes.
-Jake

Jake Brunello <jakebrunello@gmail.com>
San Francisco, Ca United States - Saturday, September 6, 2008 0:21 AM CDT

My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Anna Mryczko <amryczko@gmail.com>
Des Plaines, IL USA - Friday, August 29, 2008 6:33 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
We are so sorry that you have to go through this again, but we know you will beat this again!! You remain in our thoughts and prayers. Love, The Coticchios
Kathy Coticchio <coticch@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL 60525 - Wednesday, August 27, 2008 8:25 PM CDT

Dear Jeff, Claudia, Steve, Kyle and Ryan. Wow, it had been so long I could not even remember how to get on this website, I had to email Claudia for the details. We love all of you so much and want you all to know we are ready any place, anytime for whatever you need. You will never be alone in this battle, we know Steve can beat this again. Stay strong, the Lord is with you every step of the way. Love Jack and Pam
pamela payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
western springs, IL USA - Wednesday, August 27, 2008 4:03 PM CDT

Hey Steve,
Well, things went as planned and the counter attack began yesterday at Children's with the surgery for the port and then the first round of chemo. Wow, it was almost a shock to see that some of the chemo is in the form of a pill, handled by a nurse with plastic gloves, which was the only clue of its toxicity. Once again, and always in my observation, you were such a trooper. Coming out of the surgery and later, even after the general anesthetic you looked really good. That was on the 2nd floor and then transportation to the 4th floor for the first dose of chemo. I don't know what time you and your parents finally left, maybe around 7 pm for a total of 7 hours at the hospital. The good news was that the chemo can continue at home starting today (Tues. 8/26). This treatment has come a long way toward making it convenient (with the help of Home Health Care)

So, I hope you are tolerating the chemo. That was another interesting fact: you can "taste" some medicines in your mouth that are delivered by a port in your upper chest. Hmm. Go figure. I hope the shoulder and chest muscle discomfort and lack of range of motion from the port surgery is almost gone, as the medical staff said it would be.

Take care. With love
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <ckntui@msn.com>
Cromwell, IL USA - Tuesday, August 26, 2008 1:13 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
While we have only met briefly at church on a few occasions, you have often been in my thoughts and prayers. May God continue to comfort and strengthen you in this process.
Bruce McKenzie <bfm@ntrs.com>
Western Springs, IL usa - Monday, August 25, 2008 2:19 PM CDT

Steve and family-
We don't know what to say. Obvious 4 letter words come to mind. I'm glad you've choosen to meet this head on and happy to hear that you can do the chemo at home. I'm so sorry that you and your family have to deal with this. You can beat this. Good luck with this chemo regimen.

It was great to see you at Katie's wedding-you did a great job! I look forward to seeing your smiling face again.
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn
Dexter, MI - Tuesday, August 19, 2008 9:47 PM CDT

We Love you Stevie and we will fight this fight with all our strength and might and Trust the Lord through it.

Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding: In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight"
Aunt Dawn J. <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
oralnd Park, IL - Tuesday, August 19, 2008 11:20 AM CDT

Our prayers are with the Payne family
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, - Tuesday, August 19, 2008 9:40 AM CDT

Payne Family,
I am so sorry to hear this news. I am praying for a complete recovery for you Stevie. God is the Great Physician and this story of healing is not yet finished...
~ Erin Eppinette
www.caringbridge.org/visit/danieleppinette
Erin <erin_eppinette@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 19, 2008 9:29 AM CDT

The entire Payne family is certainly in our prayers. God has given you much strength and we are sure He will continue to do so.
The Ellisons <jestitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Tuesday, August 19, 2008 8:22 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Payne family,
We were all sad to hear of your recurrent cancer and want you to know that are prayers are with you as you fight the battle again. Stay strong and rely on God (and a little chemo) to help you through these tough times.
Love,
The Olunds
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Sunday, August 17, 2008 1:31 PM CDT

Dear Steve, Jeff, Claudia, Kyle and Ryan
It is very hard for me to find the right words. Together you fought this disease. With God's help you will do it again.

The day of the biopsy, Monday, August 11th, Jack, Nan, Jeff, Claudia, Denise, Jay, JoAnne and wonderful, Kathryn, were at the hospital. Steve was released from recovery at about 4 pm, having been at the hospital for about 6 hours. The hospital, even the new building, feels like a safe place because of dad's and mom's involvement with it as a doctor and volunteer and Jack's medical practice, which is there. I wish that all of you could have seen Steve's smile as he left the hospital. Steve has the ability to make others feel that they said or did just the right thing.

Stay strong, Steve. I love you.
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <ckntui@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, August 15, 2008 10:07 AM CDT

Steve, Claudia, Jeff and Family,
We are very sorry to hear of your latest test results. You are in our thoughts and prayers. I have posted your story on the bulletin board at work (Sisters of St. Joseph) and many, many prayers will be sent your way.
The Talentowski Family <ltalent@sbcglobal.net>
LaGrange, IL - Wednesday, August 13, 2008 6:03 PM CDT

Please update when you can. I am praying for Steven every day and hope he's doing well.
Kay Boyle
St. Louis, MO USA - Monday, August 11, 2008 8:55 PM CDT

Hi, my name is Kris and my son had this cancer. I hope all is well with Steven. My son has also developed enlarged lymph nodes in his chest and I was wondering if you found out what was causing this. thank you.
Kris smith, David's mom <kristina_smith@ncmc.com>
Springfield, OH USa - Tuesday, August 5, 2008 7:15 AM CDT

Hi,

My son had the same cancer around the same time. He has also developed enlarged lymph nodes so I was wondering if it was indeed just the mono. They also think it is nothing here.
Kris smith, David's mom <kristina_smith@ncmc.com>
enon, oh usa - Friday, August 1, 2008 7:57 AM CDT

Jeff, Claudia and Steve - just thinking about you all and dropped in on the website to see if there were any updates. You have continually been in my prayers and we hope that all will be answered in the way we want them to. It is just so hard to believe how grown up our boys are!

Sara
Sara Mikuta
Western Springs, IL USA - Friday, April 11, 2008 4:42 PM CDT

Hello, my name is Melinda Hutchinson and my son also has DSRCT. He was diagnosed in 2/07. We have completed treatment and is so far in remission. You have not posted on your website in a long time. We are just hoping that everything is still going well. I know that you probably would like to put this all behind you, move on and never look back I can certainly understand that. Let us know if you can how you are doing. We love good news!!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ryanhutchinson

Melinda Hutchinson <mghutchinson@aol.com>
Salem, Va USA - Sunday, April 6, 2008 3:09 PM CDT

Hello,
I have a dear friend who has been diagnosed with DSRCT. I came across your website and was excited to learn of your success with the "alternative" chemo regiment design by your doctors. My friend's cancer is largely presented in the abdomen, but what is most concerning at the moment is the metastasis to the liver. Would it be possible for you to share your chemo make-ups, in particular, the schedule which seemed to have success with eliminating the cancer in the liver? I'm glad you are doing so well. God bless.
Ernie Bowles <ebowles@clintonutilities.com>
Clinton, TN USA - Monday, November 26, 2007 8:28 PM CST

Hi,
My husband Daniel is battling this disease right now and it great to read how well you are doing! God is the Great Physician and we can rest in that fact. Have a great week.

Erin Eppinette <erin_eppinette@yahoo.com>
Greenbrier, Ar - Sunday, September 16, 2007 11:31 PM CDT

Dear Steven. Congratulations on your graduation and recent birthday! Our Greg is right with you. Greg was 19 this past week, and like you, headed off to college. If fact, we're packing him up today. Enjoy Indiana University. It was on Greg's list too, but the warm weather in Florida was too good to pass up! Good luck in school. Study hard, but don't forget to enjoy yourself. Hope all your scans continue to be negative. Take care of yourself.
Beth, Ira, and Greg Orgel <bkorgel@dsrct.com>
Toledo, OH - Sunday, August 12, 2007 3:55 PM CDT

Congratulations on such a great accomplishment. I am a mom of another DSRCT patient who has been showing no evidence of disease for 2 years. Nikki will be 16 in September diagnosed in April of 2003 (she had a relapse) We are so happy at where she has come and can understand exactly what you are feeling. I have a question for you about Celebrex. You are the only ones I have found that have taken it for maintainance and would like to know how things have gone on that note for you. If you ever have a moment and can email me I would really appreciate it. Keep up the great work and I will continue to pray that things continue to go well for all of you.
Kristi Schaut <ksmchaut@comcast.net>
Oakdale, MN 55128 - Friday, July 20, 2007 11:34 AM CDT

HOW WONDERFUL!
Thank you for keeping the journal up to date.
May your faith in God and all He is capable of continue to shine through you as you continue the journey.
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
La Grange, IL - Thursday, June 28, 2007 9:41 AM CDT

It is great to hear you are doing so well. My son has been fighting for over 3 years and we so need to hear about people who have won the battle hopefully forever. Thanks for being out inspiration.
missy (www.caringbridge.org/ne/ryan) <dm4rs@cox.net>
omaha, ne usa - Monday, June 25, 2007 6:38 PM CDT

Steve, I'm a good friend of your Aunt Nancy and have followed your progress both with this site and through Nancy. Just read your mother's February entry and was so delighted to hear how well you're doing. You certainly are an inspiration to others. May God continue to bless you and your family. You must be excited with graduation approaching and looking forward to college in the fall. Hope you have a wonderful summer.
Norine Tempelman <Nortemp@aol.com>
Hoffman Estates, IL - Tuesday, April 17, 2007 11:49 PM CDT

So, so, so glad to hear the good news! Sending a survivor off to college is such a great step! We are so grateful that you are able to plan for it! They'll be plenty of us (almost) empty nesters around, so keep in touch.
Donna Olund
La Grange Park, IL IL USA - Saturday, February 24, 2007 9:02 PM CST

It is great to see you are doing so well. The photo at the lake reminds me of my time as a kid in Wisconsin w/family. Those are the best times. Keep fighting and good luck in College.
Coach Johnson <jjohnson@lths.net>
- Thursday, January 11, 2007 2:43 PM CST

Happy 2007!
We are just surfacing from the holiday doings here at the Currans. We appreciate your updates and look forward to new ones even if they "only" say Steve is doing well! Information is always better than silence and wondering.
We hope you had snow up in Three Lakes. It isn't sounding very wintery there and I understand the ice isn't very thick or sturdy on the lakes.
We will continue to follow Steve's progress.
Love, Lois and Chris

Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 4:29 PM CST

Dear Steve and all the friends out there.
This site has been viwed over 21,000 times. Wow. Keep the messages coming everyone with holidays wishes and blessings for what has been a long and rewarding journey for all of us, particularly Steve. It makes me feel that the world is a full of loving people everytime I check in here.
Give your parents a big hug, Steve, for you, for me, for all of us.
Love and hugs, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn. com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 9:51 PM CST

Glad to hear that you are feeling better and planning / choosing a college.
Ann Olson (mother of Liz Olson)
La Grange Park, IL USA - Friday, December 8, 2006 7:50 AM CST

Jeff,Claudia,Steve,Kyle and Ryan:

We are thrilled with the news and so happy for you. We am glad to hear that the basketball will be back in your hands and that college is around the corner.

The amazing power of prayer...............
Sara Mikuta <smikuta@leadersbank.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, December 7, 2006 7:09 AM CST

Hi Steve,
It was great to here the good news! I hope you enjoy your senior year and find a college you would like to attend. We are about a third of the way into our basketball season and I remember your days here at Park as a member of the basketball team. You are an awesome young man for never giving up. Best of luck in the future.
Mark Kubik <kubikma@dist102.k12.il.us>
- Wednesday, December 6, 2006 12:33 AM CST

Hi Steve,
It was fantastic to hear the great news! I hope you are enjoying every minute of your senior year. You are a strong young man, and I am very proud of you for never giving up. Best of luck to you in college and beyond.
Mr. Gage <gagejo@dist102.k12.il.us>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:57 AM CST

Hi Steve,
Glad to hear about your recent scan and that you are enjoying senior year! I am excited to hear you are considering Indiana! I love to hear of former students maybe becoming Hooisers! Looks like a great list of choices- good for you!
Mrs. Moran <amymoran27@msn.com>
LaGrange Park, IL - Tuesday, December 5, 2006 10:04 PM CST

Dear Steve,
We are all so happy that you are enjoying your senior year and the decision process for your college choice. Your kind- hearted, fun loving personality is remembered her at Park, and as the basketball season is currently in session I remember your good old days as a Patriot player. Feel free to stop in an visit, or let us know if we, the park staff can be of any help to you and your family! You and your family are in our prayers. All the best!
Ms. Fitz
Ms. Fitz ( Kieran Fitzgerald Park Jr. High Physical Education) <fitzgeraldki@dist102.k12.il.us>
LaGrange Park, - Tuesday, December 5, 2006 6:32 PM CST

Steve and Family
We are elated to hear the goods news of the recent scan. We feel blessed just knowing your story of God's healing. Thanks for being such a trooper and hanging in there.
May God continue to bless you and your family for many years to come.
The Mathieson Family

Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
La Grange, IL - Saturday, December 2, 2006 1:56 PM CST

Steve, once again the Payne's gathered for Thanksgiving, this time at your house. Foremost on our minds as we gave thanks and counted our blessings was you and your family. We have been truly blessed and you have shown us strength, faith and courage. Thank you.

For all of you who looked at the wonderful picture of Steve with hair...I could not resist when I was standing next to Steve (he was seated) touching his hair. It is baby type fine and glorious. If Steve had been standing, he is now 6'5", I wouldn't have been so tempted and it would have been a lot harder. What a smile Steve has. It makes your spirit soar.
I hope everyone feels as blessed as we do this Thanksgiving.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn. com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Monday, November 27, 2006 4:23 PM CST

Thank you for the update. We always check the website so are thrilled when there is news. The fact that is was good news is a bonus. Have fun checking out colleges, Steve! It certainly sounds like you are having a busy senior year. You all remain in our thoughts and prayers.
Love, Chris and Lois
Chris and Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Thursday, November 2, 2006 9:32 PM CST

I'm not in Claremont, CA. Didn't want you to think that I am that far from you, Steve.
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Sunday, October 29, 2006 9:51 PM CST

Steve,
I love you.
The dock in the picture is in and on the shore, so life moves on and I look forward to seeing you for Thanksgiving. I look at life with gratitude for our many blessings and the beauty of it all.
as always and here for you,
Aunt Carole
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Claremont, IL USA - Sunday, October 29, 2006 9:49 PM CST

What great news!!! We are excited to hear that Steve is doing so well.

College is a blast and I hope you all have fun looking at schools.

Steve, Dawn, and Ethan Curran
- Tuesday, September 19, 2006 4:30 AM CDT

Thanks for the great news update. We are all so encouraged to hear that you are doing so well and can look forward to enjoying your last year at LT! We will conitnue to pray for wisdom in guiding your future decisions regarding treatment, college and life!
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Friday, September 15, 2006 3:06 PM CDT

Such great news!! Jeff and I are two of the countless people that faithfully check for updates and pray for you all. You continue in our thoughts and prayers.
Jo and Jeff Slaga <jslaga@earthlink.net>
Denver, CO - Saturday, September 9, 2006 3:32 PM CDT

Steve, I heard that you took a break from radiation to get your counts up. And, as I write you and your family are having a wonderful cloudless sunny day up at Three Lakes. Nothing is better than having the ones you love close enough to touch. I wish I were there to give you a hug and tell you once again what a truly wonderful person you are. I miss your smile.
Last trip I saw you, Ryan and Jonathan get up together on skiis (not on the same skiis, of course) With the three Payne boys up there, maybe you three can do a reprise. Have loads of fun and don't beat your father too much playing double solitaire.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Friday, August 11, 2006 5:32 PM CDT

I am so delighted to read about the good times at Three Lakes. I am praying that the radiation treatments are tolerable and are doing what they are suppose to be doing. Ridding your body of any and all cancer cells!! Hang in there. Sure hope you get back to Three Lakes before the summer is over. Did you know Three Lakes is having a Relay for Life Rally on Aug 5th?
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL - Monday, July 31, 2006 9:22 PM CDT

Steve, I'm not sure what day of radiation this is, although I suppose that I could figure it out, maybe 15. Not as much to go now, although it isn't easy. I heard that it wasn't making you as sick as the first time when your counts were down to the level where it,the radiation, was terminated. So, way to go big guy. Stay strong in spirit and in body. The good news is that there is no cancer to target and the bad news is that there is no cancer to target. How do they radiate? All over? Yuck!! Keep smiling as Gramps might say now and did say often.

Much love in the heat of this very hot night.
Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn. com>
Chicago,, I USA - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 10:01 PM CDT

How fabulous that you have had a great summer and will be starting school in such a good spot! I am sure you're glad Physics is out of the way and even more glad to be doing all the fun things you've had to delay for a couple of years. We continue to hold you in our prayers and are so grateful to God for the powerful way He has acted in all of your lives.
The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 7:03 AM CDT

Dear Steve and family, Thanks for the recent update. It sure was nice to hear that you have been able to enjoy some fun things this summer. I loved the picture of the three of you, too. We will continue to pray for God's healing touch as you finish this last part of your treatment. We know He will give you the strength to endure!
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Sunday, July 16, 2006 9:02 PM CDT

It is so good to see that Steve is doing well and fighting his cancer.

We are hoping to catch up with everyone in Three Lakes sometime this year. We will be up from Aug 11-17 and for Labor Day. Please stop by and if you don't come over we will come see you.

Keep up the fight Steve.
Steve, Dawn, and Ethan Curran <steve.curran@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, July 13, 2006 9:52 PM CDT

Glad to hear that your son is doing well, enjoys Physics (say, what?) and has gotten to enjoy his time off treatment! Way to go. Real bummer that he needs to go through radiation, but hopefully it will do its job.

My son also has DSRCT. We are waiting the results of CT and PET scan before deciding the next step in treatment. He has been 'no evidence' of the disease since January, so we are hoping for good news in that area! He has not done radiation or the stem cell so those are all possibilies.

Anyway, hope your son tolerates the radiation and rebounds strongly for college this fall.
Patty Robertson <nathan.neal@gmail.com>
Thomaston, ME - Thursday, July 13, 2006 9:30 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
Aunt Carole here after a long dry spell. During this "spell" you have gone healthy and grown hair. Prayers have been answered and life is good.

We were up at the lake together for the beginning of the 4th of July week. A small crowd, by our standards: you and the boys, Jonathan and Ryan (Kyle was in Europe), your parents, Jeff and Claudia, Jack and Pam and me. There were 5 day guests on Sunday, so there was lots of activity because we were blessed the the best weather: pleasant in the shade and warm to hot in the sun. Boats and wave runner were going like crazy with a break to head over to Pine Isle. We did get two new skiiers up on Sunday and one new skiier up on the 4th. So, once again we did it!

Unfortunately you and the guys had to leave on Sunday at the typically Payne outrageous time of 8pm..so arriving safely in Chicago at 2am. All because you had to go to you physics summer school class and take a test. Hope you did your usual scholarly best. (Just so others know, you are doing great! And in physics!)

Today is another story. Once again you are in treatment which is no fun. Not even pleasant. Today you start radiation, which is part of the protocol. Cancer free and you still have to do radiation. Thankfully, this treatment is local (Hinsdale?)and does not involve transportation downtown. Really yucky preventative stuff has to be the pits. And because there is no real spot to radiate, this is particularly sickening treatment. You have been so strong and uncomplaining. This is going to be hard. Steve, we are all thinking about you and the ups and downs of this process. We are proud of you, your strength and endurance, your healthy attitude and love.

Day 1 and counting down.

Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Tuesday, July 11, 2006 11:54 AM CDT

Hey Steve, just checking in to see how everythings going. Hope you have a great summer and fun at the cotttage.

Take Care
Mrs P
Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL 60525 - Wednesday, June 14, 2006 9:26 AM CDT

I am currently in my last day of school. Looks like I'm doing a lot of work, huh? The lake was great (I'm talking 85 degrees great) and I can't wait to go back later this summer. I'm praying you feel good enough that I can take you up on that double skiing offer next time Steve. Love being with you and the rest of the Jeff Paynes as usual. See you soon and should we also pray for a move to Chicago? :) Love you, kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Wednesday, May 31, 2006 6:57 AM CDT

Hi Steve and family,
It is so great to hear that you are doing better and going to graduate on time. That is wonderful. You looked great when we saw you at the Corner Bakery a few weeks ago. Everyone in the church is praying for you as you start your radiation treatments. Enjoy your Memorial Day weekend. It's going to be a nice one.
Love,
Terri, Kevin, Kevin,Jr., Blake and Mallory Barrett
Terri Barrett <tbearit@comcast.net>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, May 25, 2006 4:29 PM CDT

Hi Steve and Family:

I'm so glad to read good things about your health! We will all keep praying that you continue to improve. I keep wearing the "Expect Miracles" bracelet and it reminds me to think of you often. I'm looking forward to seeing you with hair again. We'll plan a weekend in Chicago soon and hope to see you then.
Dave, Andrea, Jason & Aaron Allison

Andrea Allison <A-Allison@wiu.edu>
East Moline, IL USA - Thursday, April 20, 2006 10:41 AM CDT

Great update! Happy to see it! I check daily so was thrilled to see the good news. I'll be in Harlem in NYC for the summer but am hoping to make a couple trips back to Chicago so that I can make it up to Three Lakes! Hope to see all the happy and healthy Paynes there!!
Scott Curran <smcurran@clintonschool.uasys.edu>
Little Rock, AR - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:06 PM CDT

Hi Payne Family,
How nice to find an update on the website today! Thank you. It was such a good update too. Congratulations on good steps forward! We are hoping to see all of you at some point this summer in Three Lakes. Chris heads north in mid-May. I am hoping he gets the majority of work done before I arrive!
Love, Lois and Chris

Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Monday, April 17, 2006 7:31 PM CDT

Hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam. I talked to your Mom tonight and she said you have that same flu that Katie has, wow it sounds ugly, glad to hear you are recovering so well. I wanted to let you know we are always thinking of you even though we don't write as often as we used to. We all celebrated the good news of your last CT scan, keep up the good work and know that you are loved and everyone is rooting for you. Love Aunt Pam
Pam Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 7:33 PM CDT

Hey Steve,
Was just checking in to get an update, glad to hear that things are good and that your trip was so much fun. Take Care.

Mrs P

Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL 60525 - Monday, April 10, 2006 1:37 PM CDT

Hi,
We are wondering if there is any recent update? We haven't heard anything since your last update and hope that means you are all busy and things are going well?
We are gearing for spring. I think yard work should enter the schedule but Chris feels it is the start of fly fishing season -- April 10 finds him on the way to Michigan and steelheading. He does have tomatoes and other plants growing from seed under grow lights in the basement. He plans to head for the Three Lake's house by mid-May. I am busy working at a variety of schools and love working at the two high schools in the district. Otherwise, our family is well.
We look forward to hearing how Steve is doing.

Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Saturday, April 8, 2006 5:39 PM CDT

Hey stevey!
sorry i should call ya steve because you are not the little kid i used to play with up at the lake anymore! I just wanted to say hi my mom (Bobby's sister Mary Ellen) sent me this link, i have looked at it before, it has helped distract me while im in the library and im supposed to be studying. Anyways i have great memories playing with you and your brothers and my cousins matt and ellen up at the lake house when i was a kid. I would love to go back up there sometime soon. Anyways i just wanted to say hi and the best of luck to getting better!! love always,
Leah Crane

PS. GO HOKIES!!
Leah Crane <Lkcrane@vt.edu>
Blacksburg, VA USA - Thursday, March 16, 2006 10:23 AM CST

Sounds like the Pro Bowl was a blast. I'm glad you got to go. 3 cheers for Make-A-Wish. I'm also happy to hear that you are back in school and doing well. Let us know when you get back to radiation.
Liz and Tim <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Monday, March 6, 2006 9:44 PM CST

You are the envy of "my" Kiel as well as most boys across America! I hope Hawaii was even better than you thought it could be. I can't wait to hear about it! I know you and Peyton Manning are tight now. Love, Katie
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 11:11 AM CST

Hi Steve-
This is a great week to be in Hawaii. The weather here in LaGrange stinks!
I hope the trip is wonderful for the whole family and that you return home rested and renewed. It won't be long before spring will arrive and you can hang outside with your friends- until then, take lots of pictures of your trip so that you can savor the experience! Our small group from Willow Creek Church will keep you and each of your family members in our prayers.

Mary Vejr

Mary Vejr <mjvejr@yahoo.com>
LaGrange, IL United States - Sunday, February 12, 2006 7:42 AM CST

Steve and Payne Family,

I am so THRILLED to see that you are all doing so well. Steve, clearly you'r a rock star! Just goes to show the effects of positive energy. Good luck going back to school, have fun at the Pro Bowl, and if you go to Prom this year you must send pictures to Children's so we can see how it went (prove to us you wear more than basketball shorts, hahaha)!

Stephanie
4 West-Children's Memorial
Stephanie Walan <nursewalan@yahoo.com>
Chicago, IL - Thursday, January 12, 2006 11:34 PM CST

Hi Steve, Congratulations on getting the license! We're all hoping and praying that your counts will get back up so you can finish this last part of treatment and get to that Pro
Bowl in Hawaii.
Love, The Olunds
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Sunday, January 8, 2006 10:45 AM CST

Happy New Year to the entire Payne family! You have had an amazing year and our hope is that 2006 is even better. You are so lucky to have each other. Our very best wishes to you. Love, Chris and Lois
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Saturday, December 31, 2005 5:28 PM CST

Steve...and your whole family.
We want you to know that we think about you often and couldn't be happier that things sound like you are doing really great! You are one strong young man with an incredible family! We wish all of you the BEST holiday season and all good things in the new year.
Hopefully you get vacation from tutoring over the holidays!! I'm sure you deserve a break from that!! :-)
Best Wishes, Bill and Susan Lake
Susan Lake <sblake907@aol.com>
LaGrange , Il USA - Friday, December 23, 2005 5:55 AM CST

Steve, just thought say hey. Had a busy night on Sunday. We caught 2 fires, I had to thaw my gear out after the second 1 at 11 pm. I looked like a penguin walking with my pants frozen solid. We could have used you and Kyle on our 6 am run. He was a 450 lbs guy that had fallen on the floor and couldn't get up. It took 7 fire fighters to get him off the floor and back into bed. Well, lookng forward to doving a little riding with you after Christmas, see you on the 27th.
Todd <tpayner@hotmail.com>
Indy, IN - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 12:46 AM CST

Hi Steve and The Payne's-
I am an old co-worker of your Mom's. I am so glad to hear that things are going well. I heard you and your parents on the Loop's web site as I was making my donation. Great Job! I hope that you get your wish, that sounds amazing. Your stories have been such an inspiration. We continue to pray for you each night.
Best Wishes, Chris Guide
Christine Guide <cdebrizzo@hotmail.com>
Chicago, Il. USA - Friday, December 9, 2005 9:33 AM CST

Hi Steve and Paynes,
Are you up for another deer story? It is deer hunting season in Michigan and today I got one. At 1:00 in the afternoon (bright and sunny), a good size deer darted from some bushes right into my driver's door, taking out the front panel and rear door in the process. It made quite a loud noise as it hit me. I can still claim that I have not hit a deer, but I have had a run-in with one.

Nathaniel and I are just fine. I asked the Deputy how the no fault insurance in Michigan worked and she said it means that I cannot sue the deer. I think she is missing her calling as a stand up comedian.

Kyle and Anna drove from Chicago to Ann Arbor last night arriving at 3 am and did not see a single live deer. Although there were plenty of deer that have been hit on the side of the road. They went to the Michigan - Ohio State football game and had a great time. They said the Michigan fans are really into football - now that's an understatement!

I showed them my car thinking they would decide to wait until morning to drive back home. Silly me - they left here at 8 pm est with strict instruction to drive carefully.

Now the question, Steve. How long will it be before I put this image of killing Bambi behind me and start driving at a normal speed, rather than like an old lady?

Kyle gave us the latest update and it sounds like you are doing great. Wonderful news!!! It was nice to hear your blood count is up and you did not need the transfusion. We are looking forward to seeing you next week for Thanksgiving. Liz has ordered a lot of pies and one of them will have your name on it.

Get all of your homework done so you can join the family tradition of 5:30 AM shopping the day after Thanksgiving. Better yet, stick with the majority and sleep in until 10.

Love to all, Aunt Nan
Nancy Moroz <nancymoroz@sbcglobal.net>
- Saturday, November 19, 2005 8:51 PM CST

hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam, It was so good to be with you today. I want everyone to know what a good report you had at Childrens. The blood counts are stable, you did not need a transfusion and they seemed really pleased with your progress. We will anxiously await to hear where the radiation is going to be done, whether it is at Northwestern or here in LaGrange. Kristin is home safe and sound and is looking forward to seeing you. Uncle Jack and I went to a black tie affair downtown tonight and so many people asked about how you were doing, don't ever forget for a minute how many people care about you. Anyway I loved being with you today, our lunch was great and don't forget what happens on days with Aunt Pam, stays there. Our secret Steve. Love Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Saturday, November 19, 2005 1:01 AM CST

Hi Paynes-
It has been a long time since I have written, and for that, I am sorry. I am so glad to hear that things went better than expected (other than the insurance denial) with the stem cell transplants. I would think that the most difficult treatments are completed. I'm sure you will sail through the radiation treatments. Even though you won't have as much fun with home tutoring as being at school, it beats being in the hospital. Hopefully your appetite is returning.

Can't wait to see all of you at Thanksgiving. We do have a lot to be thankful for. Thanks, also to the doctors and researchers who have made the treatments possible and thanks to Caringbridge for helping people stay in touch. Stay strong and see you in a few weeks.
Liz Pielsticker <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Thursday, November 3, 2005 11:08 PM CST

PUT IT ON THE BOARD
hey steve i know u enjoyed watching the sox dominate as much as i did- next year we gotta go to some games and watch them repeat. keep getting better and ill see u around
Dan Olund <dozone@ameritech.net>
LGP, IL USA - Thursday, October 27, 2005 10:20 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
So a few of the Paynes (Aunt Jane, Bob, Carole, Cleo(the dog), Nan, Pete, Kyle, Anna) gathered at your house to both welcome you home and cheer on the White Sox in the first game. We were lucky to see you before you and Kathryn left for date night. I know this sort of overstates your well being because there are still limitations due to the normal recovery from these two heavy duty rounds of chemo. I really didn't know that you couldn't go back to school for 100 days after the last round just to get healthy and fully recover. You do look so handsome. As I've said, you, and only you, make this whole process look tolerable. You said that you don't feel "normal" yet. I want to think of you as well, you look so good. Thanks for reminding me how much of this apparent recovery is really just because you are the strong and happy and wonderful person that you are. While the rest of your class at LT has shifted to North campus, you will have to wait until Jan. Do you have a locker there? I hope so. What fun to think of the adventure of being at North Campus just around the corner in 2006. I love you.
Aunt Carole, the Believer
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Tuesday, October 25, 2005 7:11 PM CDT

Hey dude...it's been awhile since I've written. Just wanted to say how happy I am that you are done with this stem cell stuff. I ask my Dad about you ever time we talk and he always has good things to report. I explain you to people in my life here in Indianapolis as a true miracle. Anyway, glad you're home! Hope to see you soon!
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 10:33 AM CDT

Dear Steve, Welcome home! I heard from your Mom that you left the hospital at 5pm on Monday. Home is so so good. Spread the word far and wide to friends near and far that Steve has done it again and is NOW home!!

Your Mom and Dad must be happy to have you with them and for them to be together. Does everyone know that for the last four weeks your parents have been taking turns at the hospital doing what all parents should do- loving and helping their children? Note: Claudia did the lioness share. So--last night they were together. Gosh, it makes me appreciate my parents, Steve's grandparents, so much. Your parents, Steve, are setting a fine example for all of us--and what I love to hear the most is how much you want them to be with you.

You are the best son, Steve. We all have many roles to play and you have been a star in the roles of son, boyfriend, friend, nephew and patient. We acknowledge your achievements , knowing that it is not always easy, but that you make it look easy. Welcome home. Eat, drink and be merry. You need the fluids and the calories and the laughs.

Love to you, Jeff and Claudia. Aunt Carole, the Believer
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 9:51 PM CDT

Steve, congratulations! I hear your counts are coming up. Up is a good way to go. Keep up your deep breathing to keep that oxygen level high. Good advice for all of us, eh? It makes me happy to hear that despite the body pains you are noticably improving. Stay strong... You are amazing.
Love, Aunt Carole the Believer
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:36 PM CDT

Hi Steve,
My name is Pat and I met your mom running on the lakefront this morning. I explained to her that I run for kids like you that are being treated at St Jude's. I have been running for the kids for 17 years. You all have an incredible strength that is just mind boggling to me and many others. After meeting your mom this morning I was thinking about you during the rest of my run. It made the 6 miles go alot easier. I am training for the St Jude Half Marathon that will be in Memphis in December. I will be thinking of you and your family during my training runs and while participating in the race. Good luck to you!
Pat Ridings and the St Jude Memphis to Peoria runners <patridings@yahoo.com>
Chicago , IL - Monday, October 10, 2005 11:26 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
I haven't been to the hospital this time to see you. It is a nasty cough that keeps me at a distance of three blocks, but I see your mom when she goes running in the park for a small break. We all wish that you could do the same.

Today, I had a moment of concern. I talked to your mom, and Claudia said that all things are going well-at least as well as they should be. You are now in the middle of the really down white cell count period, having had the full dose of chemo and the stem cells reinserted. Yes, new cemicals (chemo). So, the more things stay the same (a chemo treatment), the more they sort of stay the same (a total assult on any remaining cancer cells). Yes,right now you have temperatures, mouth sores and fluctuating heart rates, all of which need to be monitored. Part of the process...ugh.

I am so glad that you are so strong, mentally, physically, spirtually surrounded by love. Thank you Kathryn, Kyle, Ryan, Nate and all of you--this takes a wide circle to keep movin onward. It isn't as if this procedure is easy, but you, Steve, somehow with your strength, make it seem tolerable. How, do you do it? Tell me.

Keep your sprits high,Steve, and look forward to getting out of the hospital sometime around the 16th or 17th. maybe earlier.
I believe in this progress and that you are wonderful.
Love, Aunt Carole, the Believer
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Saturday, October 8, 2005 10:23 PM CDT

Thank you for the update. We know things will go OK for you in the hospital, Steve. You have an amazing support system in place. You have been on our prayer list all along so now we will just broaden our requests to include your docs and nurses.
Chris and Lois

Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Friday, September 30, 2005 3:32 PM CDT

Wonderful news for you. Your journal also serves to bring hope to others with this disease. Thank you so much for writing about it.

My 17 year old son also has DSRCT and will undergo surgery and hyperthermic chemoperfusion in a few weeks. We are not yet at the point where a stem cell transplant is feasible, but we remain hopeful.

Wishing Steve well as he continues with treatment.

Patty Robertson <nathan.neal@gmail.com>
Thomaston, ME USA - Monday, September 26, 2005 9:02 PM CDT

Hi Steve and family,
I am so happy to hear you are home. We have been following your battle and progress via this site. I recently went to a women's prayer group. The topic was, how with God's help, the trials in our lives will not harden our hearts, but grow and strengthen our souls. I thought of the trials you and your family have endured and roughly calculated your souls must be quite huge and strong by now. We will hold you close in our thoughts and prayers as you recover and get ready for the next phase of treatment. Please let us know if we can ever help in any way.
Love,
Mrs Mon
Mrs. Mon <dkmdmon@earthlink.net>
LaGrange Park, Il USA - Friday, September 23, 2005 8:07 PM CDT

Steve, I just read the note from your Aunt Carole, that is awesome super news!!! WELCOME HOME!!! It is so wonderful to see that God does answer prayers and that there are miracles that happen. In about 4 weeks my family and I are going to Disney World. We bidded on this trip at your benefit. I will keep my eye out for a special souviner for you and somehow get it to you. My sister (Jenny Wilton) knows your Mom. She was one of the people that helped put the benefit together. We didn't get to meet you that night, but hopefully soon we will. Take it easy at home, and God Bless you and your family!!! You are all such inspirations and have such a true spirit.

Sue Welker <KSWelker@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Monday, September 12, 2005 10:20 PM CDT

Steve is out of the hospital!! For this record, he got his discharge papers at 12:15 pm and headed for the car at 12;23 dressed in a blue hat, white shirt and red shorts (very patriotic) carrying the laptop (very student like) next to his mom (very loving) in this 91 degree heat (very hot) detached from hospital machines, no mouth sores and checking his cell phone and walking (very normal). Congratulations, Steve. Steve is home.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, I usa - Monday, September 12, 2005 3:06 PM CDT

Dear Steve, it seems that all is in place for you to go home probably Monday--no fever, the good counts are going up and you have had something to eat. What great news. Kyle had something to do with the first bite of the apple. Take a deep breath when you step outside and I hope there is a light breeze rustling around you to welcome you. Home is where the heart is and where you should be. You are a true wonder and inspiration to us all. Thank you, Steve.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL usa - Sunday, September 11, 2005 11:39 AM CDT

Hey Steve, it was great to see you feeling so much better today. I hope those mouth sores are gone for good. You were a good sport trying to eat that ice cream and I hope you were able to enjoy an apple later on. Sorry we did not bring you better news from the Sox game, but hopefully they will do better. Steve we both felt you looked really good today and we are so looking forward to you getting back home so we can spoil you with your favorite foods. Hang in there, you are doing a fabulous job. Look forward to seeing you at home soon. Love Aunt Pam and Uncle Jack.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Saturday, September 10, 2005 10:28 PM CDT

Hey Steve,
What can I say, spending time with you at the hospital has been soo great. You are such a role model to me and my boys. Your bravery and humble spirit are a true inspiration to one and all. I love you kiddo, hang in there and know that many are praying without ceasing, just for you and your healing. God loves you and has carried you through this, and He will continue to stand by you. I'm so glad you can come home, hopefully, this Monday. You are loved, I hope you are feeling it. Love, Aunt Dee
Denise Hermann <denise.hermann@comcast.net>
Orland Park, IL USA - Friday, September 9, 2005 9:28 PM CDT

Hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam. Your Dad just left our house, we had a great visit with him catching up with everything and we just enjoyed being together. Your Dad and Uncle Jack could not believe I actually came up with some hidden Dove Bars that I had stashed, so a good time was had by all. It was so nice for me to spend some time with you yesterday at the Hospital. I loved being with you, I have missed you and it was good to see how strong you remain during this battle. You are truly awesome in the way that you handle this latest regimen. I know the mouth sores are horrible but you never complain and continue to do just whatever it is that is required at the momemt. We are all so proud of you and continue to love you and pray for you. We are anxiously awaiting your arrival home and can't wait to tempt you with your favorite foods once that appetite returns. Love you and can't wait to see you at home Love Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Friday, September 9, 2005 1:10 AM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
Thinking of you and praying often that this "long weary time" (from one of my favorite childrens books The Velveteen Rabbit) will pass quickly.
Expecting miracles
to God be the glory

Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 1:30 PM CDT

Dear Steve, It was good to see your mom last Friday, although it would've been great to see you too. I hope you enjoyed all of the prayers your friends came up with at our gathering the night before. You continue to be in everyone's thoughts and prayers as you get through these tough days. It seems that all of your friends really do miss hanging with you or just running into you at LT. We thought you could use the prayer calendar as a way to stay in touch, so don't hesitate to call the person listed on any given day and know that each person will especially be praying for you on the day they signed on. Please let your mom and dad and Kyle and Ryan know that they can call with any special requests too. Steve, I know that God has a great plan for you and that we need to trust in Him and His mighty power to provide all that you need every day to get through this time.
Love, Mrs. Olund
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL 60526 - Monday, September 5, 2005 10:24 PM CDT

Dear Steve,

I have never been more proud of you than I am today. This past week you have endured nausea, mouth sores, body aches, fevers,and stomach aches. You never complain and are always kind to the nurses that treat you. Sometimes I feel like yelling at someone when I watch what you are going through, but you continue on with such courage and a sense of peace. I thank God for you daily and I know you will come out on the other side of this a stronger and healthier young man. I love you and thank you for the priveledge of spending these weeks with you. Expect Miracles!!
Love Mom
cpayne <bailey6682@aol.com>
- Friday, September 2, 2005 4:27 PM CDT

Hi, Steve!
I have finally found my way to the caringbridge website!
It is easy to see by all the messages in your guestbook that you are a well-loved young man.
We are thinking about you as you are entering this chemo and stem cell treatment and we hope that it will not be long before you are out of the hospital and back with your friends.
Speaking of friends, I would like to thank you for being such a great friend to Kathryn. It has been a rough year for you with your treatments but I know that the two of you have had some good times, too.
We will keep you in our prayers. And if you should need anything at all, please give us a call. You know the number.
Love, Mrs. Tuerk

Donna Tuerk <janddtuerk@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, August 26, 2005 4:51 PM CDT

Thank you for the update! We were pleased to read the latest news and also get a tentative schedule of future plans. It sounds like you might have some tough times ahead but in true Payne fashion, all angles and possibilities seem to be covered. We believe you are going to do very well, Steve. We'll continue with our prayers and checking this website daily.
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 11:00 PM CDT

Steve...Just read the latest journal about your upcoming treatment and want to send lots of positive thoughts and prayers your way. Continue to be strong, continue to be tough..WE know you will.
Luv, Susan and Bill Lake
Susan Lake <Sblake907@aol.com>
LaGrange, Il - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 10:15 AM CDT

Dear Payne Family,
You are all an inspiration to families everywhere. How you have faced cancer and all that comes with it is remarkable. This is definately the stuff that miracles are made of. Faith, love, support, optimism and humor is what your family is all about and is what will make you all winners in this battle against cancer. A day does not go by without us thinking of you. Steve, we wish you to have everything and more that you need to get better. Stay strong and focused and before you know it you will be healthy and strong. Good luck Payne family, we are all here for you, anytime, any day, and any place.
Fondly, the Peth family
Nancy Peth <nlpeth@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 9:55 AM CDT

Hey Payne family, what a great message on the website tonight. It is so good to hear exactly what is going to be happening over the next six months. I guess that all we can say is that we will be praying for all of you, Claudia and Steve will have a tough time at the hospital, I know Jeff and Kyle will be missing everyone while they are at home and we all know it is tough for Ryan to go back to school knowing what the family is facing at home. I guess our message to all of you is that we are here for you for whatever you need. Claudia and Steve should know that anytime we can do anything for them, just give us a call, the empty nest family here is ready and willing to do whatever you need, Jeff and Kyle we are hoping to have some great dinners together and keep supporting you in whatever you need and Ryan, know that Katie is in Indy not that far from you and would love to see you anytime for support, some inappropriate cousin time, whatever you need.
We love you guys and are still thankful that we have been allowed to be part of this ongoing process, God has been so good to our family during this ordeal and we truly believe that Steve is going to conquer this illness and all of our prayers will be answered. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, August 22, 2005 10:59 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Miracles do happen!! You are the best. Wednesday is the big day when you go to Children's for the really big deal. It is a long haul but you can do it.. one minute, one day at a time. I do wish that you didn't have to do this, but when I start to think that way, I remind myself of all the successes you have achieved... You are blessed and a blessing to all of us. Be strong for us and we will be strong for you.
Love, Aunt Carole, the believer
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL usa - Monday, August 22, 2005 2:04 PM CDT

Whooo....whooo.....MIRACLES DO HAPPEN and we are all lucky to be able to see one with our own eyes! Praise God for He is SO, SO good. We continue to thank Him for your life Steve!
Love, The Fritz's
laurie fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
- Friday, August 19, 2005 8:23 AM CDT

Hey Steve, we were at the Sox game tonight, too bad they lost but it was a great night, we went with the DeBerges who bought the tickets at your benefit, so thanks for a great night. We will be thinking about you tomorrow as you go to get some more stem cells harvested. Good luck to you tomorrow and in the next few weeks. We will be there for you and the rest of the family. Love you and wish only the best for you. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt, Pam, Katie, Kris, Billy and JJ
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 1:03 AM CDT

My family and I are soo happy to hear the wonderful news! My sister, Jenny Wilton, told us the joyous news! Goodluck this month and stay strong. Miracles do happen!

Susan Welker and Family <KSWelker@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Tuesday, August 16, 2005 10:30 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family, Sure sounds like you guys have a great plan with alot of details that God will just have to work out in the next month or two! We will continue to pray for everything and anything you might need. In fact, it would be great to get our prayer group together again, but we will not be available until the week of the 22nd. I will try to get in touch with kids that week. So Steve, while you venture on down that rode to CMH, know that you and your family will be in our prayers everyday.
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Thursday, August 11, 2005 7:17 AM CDT

Steve and family, What great news! Steve, enjoy your time off of school. You deserve to relax. All my best wishes and prayers are headed your way.
Emma Zone (Steve's former English teacher at LT) <ezone@lths.net>
Chicago, IL - Monday, August 1, 2005 2:51 PM CDT

Steve and Family: We are overjoyed to hear this fabulous news! Rejoice and be forever happy. Miracles happen. We continue to pray for all of you and hope you have a great vacation together and wish you the best during the stem cell procedure. You've shown such love and strength through this all and your faith is inspirational. Steve -- your unbelievable and we couldn't be happier for you. Love, The Verdin Family
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 7:44 AM CDT

What fabulous news when we got back from vacation - praise to God and congratulations to your whole family (especially Steve) for your strength, courage, and confidence in the Lord's provision (expect a miracle - and it looks like you have one)! We will continue praying for you and rejoicing in your great news.
The Ellisons <jestitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Sunday, July 24, 2005 9:20 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,
It was so wonderful to be able to meet you finally. Steve, you look great. Congratulations on the great news. We will continue to pray for all that is coming up in the future. It is so awesome though, to know that we serve a loving God who will take care of the details. Thank you for all the information that you gave us as Randy continues on his journey. Take Care!

Randy and Ann Asprey and family <raasprey@deskmedia.com>
Dodge Center, Mn USA - Saturday, July 23, 2005 6:33 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Just read about the great news. Hallelujah!! After a very long year I can imagine the rejoicing that is going on. Praise God! Give God the glory! We will continue to pray for you, your family and the many Drs. involved. Have a wonderful time in Three Lakes.
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL - Tuesday, July 19, 2005 2:18 PM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,
I found out about the unbeleivable happpy, joyous news as I was sitting watching a baseball game at Sedgewick. EVeryone in the stands, including myself were ecstatic. So many people, have prayed for this day to come. We continue to pray for your good health in the times ahead. Way to go Steve!! (By the way your good news must have been an omen - LaGrange won the game) Best of luck with your future treatments
The Coticchio family
Kathy Coticchio <coticch@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Tuesday, July 19, 2005 1:47 PM CDT

Alright, I have goose bumps. Cancer Free!!!!!
Way to stay strong
Mrs P

Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Monday, July 18, 2005 3:09 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
We were so excited when we heard the message your mom left on our answering machine - Cancer Free!!! Miracles do happen!! You have all been so incredible during this extremely difficult time! Steve, your strength continues to inspire us! We will continue to keep you in our prayers as you begin the process of a stem cell transplant. May Good continue to bless you all!!
Jenny & Mike Wilton <wilton7@sbcglobal.net>
willowbrook, Il 60527 - Monday, July 18, 2005 2:58 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
I was overcome (literally with chills down my spine!) as I read your updated news this AM. Remission at last!It sure
has been a long haul for you. We are so excited to see that your perseverance, strength, faith and even your parent's decisions regarding your "untraditional" treatment have all been a part of our answered prayer. We are so happy
that you can plan on the next step toward a cure and will
pray that God will continue to guard and guide you along the
way. Love to all of you, Mrs. Olund

Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
Lagrange Park, IL USA - Monday, July 18, 2005 10:36 AM CDT

Dear Payne Family,
That's great! We rejoice with you in the good news about Steve. We will continue to pray for you all, especially as Steve goes through the stem cell procedure.
Norm and Barbara Swift <normandbarb@sbcglobal.net>
Western Springs, IL US - Sunday, July 17, 2005 3:58 PM CDT

Hey Steve and Payne Family,
I am so excited to hear that Steve is considered cancer-free!! Steve is so strong and handled this whole year with perseverence and strength. Thank you for letting me be involved in this experience, it has taught me so much! Steve, you are amazing to say the least. You fought so hard and the result is a blessing. Stay tough through these next treatments. You will have people by your side each day. Congratulations!! :)
Kathryn Tuerk <ketuerk@gmail.com>
- Sunday, July 17, 2005 1:05 PM CDT

Hi guys, it is Jack and Pam. Our hearts are so filled with love and thanks at this moment, it is hard to know what to say. We are so happy for all of you. We are so honored to have been a part of your battle, your family has been so wonderful in their support of Steve during the last year. Jeff, Claudia, Kyle and Ryan have stood strong and done whatever needed to be done whenever it needed to be done. Steve we have witnessed your strength and courage during this year long battle and all we can say is thank you for being the fine young man that you are, you have taught us so much and we are eternally gratefull for having you be such a big part of our lives during this past year. God is good, and we will be thanking God nightly for the rest of our lives. We love all of you.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, , IL 60558 - Saturday, July 16, 2005 11:12 PM CDT

Hi Claudia (and Stevie and family),
I checked the website today after not being here for a month, and what GREAT news! Keep up your strength and faith.
God bless,
Laurie (teacher at CHMS) and Dick Mole
Laurie Mole
Indian Head Park, IL USA - Saturday, July 16, 2005 3:29 PM CDT

What a great way to celebrate a birthday -- with good scan news. When does the driver's test and resulting license occur? Happy birthday a little late, Steve. We are concerned about your Dad's back. Is he using the hot tub too? That could be a great help -- if he can get into and out of it! Still hoping to see you at some point in Three Lakes.
Love, The Currans

Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Friday, July 8, 2005 10:33 PM CDT

Hi Steve and Family!
Happy belated birthday! We're so glad to hear that your CT Scan went well. Sounds like you will be enjoying the rest of the summer relaxing in that hot tub. We pray that you will continue to get stronger and be able to take a break from all that chemo. We admire the strength of character you have shown this past year and hope that some of it will wear off on all of us. Take Care,
The Allison's
East Moline, IL USA - Friday, July 8, 2005 2:44 PM CDT

Halleluia! We have been checking the website regularly. What a blessing to read that the tumors continue to shrink! Obviously the thousands of prayers combined with the treatment are working together with Steve's own strength and positive attitude. You and your family are part of our daily family prayer time. Enjoy the hot tub - we think one of the best times to use it is when the snow is falling around you and you can be sitting there in your bathing suit - check it out in November or December!
The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Friday, July 8, 2005 7:02 AM CDT

Halleluia! What a blessing that the treatments and prayers continue to work together with Steve's own resolve! Prayers for your healing and strength for you and your family are part of our daily family prayer time. Keep strong and enjoy that hot tub (we think one of the neatest times for the hot tub is when the snow is falling around you and you are toasty warm in your bathing suit - check it out in Nov. or Dec.)!
The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Friday, July 8, 2005 6:46 AM CDT

Hello Payne family!
The Tom Moucka family was here visiting in N.C. for the 4th of July and we brought them up to speed on the current tests etc. That means you got even more prayers for the test today and we can't wait to hear the good results. Jeff, we are praying for your back also....
We will be checking the website daily for the next update. Hope your summer is great!
Love to all,
The Fritz's
L. Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
- Tuesday, July 5, 2005 4:30 PM CDT

Hey Steve, it was great being with you and all of the family this weekend, it was out first 4th of July at Three Lakes in quite a while and we loved it!!! Katie says thanks for being her "date" last night, she had a blast. We are thinking only good thoughts for you tomorrow, we are expecting good results from the CT scan. Hope your Dad's back is doing better also. Thanks for a great time together this weekend. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie and JJ.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs , IL US - Monday, July 4, 2005 10:32 PM CDT

Happy 4th Steve and Family!!!! Hope you're having great weather in Three Lakes. Steve, we will be praying for good news on your scan tomorrow. Remember, God loves you more than you can imagine. Please call us if you need anything.
Love, The Bieze Family
Bieze Family <fraubz@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, July 4, 2005 10:00 AM CDT

Hey birthday boy!! Happy Birthday to you. Wow, the 16th birthday is one of the best, you get to have that first kiss, become eligible to drive etc (one out of two is not bad!) Anyway all of us wish you the best birthday ever. We cannot help but think about last year at this time. I will never forget your Dad confessing to sneaking into your cake after so many delays on actually celebrating at home. It is hard to believe that one year has gone by. Steve you have proved yourself magnificently over the past year. You are a strong, brave young man and we all feel so privileged to be part of your battle. We can't wait until you get your license and pull in the driveway, we know it will happen soon. Hope you have had a great day, we love you and hope you got to eat your cake tonight!!. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.,com>
Western Springs, IL 60448 - Friday, June 24, 2005 10:24 PM CDT

Hi Steve,

You are loved and you are in our prayers daily. You see God hears our prayers 24/7 and he watches over you moment to moment. So in those moments of fear, anxiety, joy, laughter, (cheating at card games) God is watching and protecting you. "Be still and Know that I am God". Stay strong and focused.

Happy Birthday one day early! The streets are you canvas and the deers are your target! Forge Ahead!

We love you and are so proud of your courage and strength!

Love, Aunt Dawn J.
Dawn Jacobsen <djacobsen@ibbotson.com>
Orland Park, IL - Thursday, June 23, 2005 10:14 AM CDT

Ok guys. Yes, the Paynes do have a long tradition of deer vs. cars. When making as many trips up to 3 lakes as we have and many of them at night, you are going to run into something on the road. Mom hit a deer after Antigo about 40 years ago. She also hit a porcipine (sp) and the needles, several actually stuck in the tire. Pretty interesting. I don't think Dad ever hit a deer with a car. But... in his mid-life adjustment, he and mom started flying lessons. (Mom dropped out when the lesson came to landing the plane). Dad forged on, borrowed against his insurance policy and for a short while had a very small plane. Taking off from the Three Lakes internatioanl airport (no kidding about the name) on the grass runway, he hit a deer with the plane. The wheel of the plane. Dad and I were taking off to find a friend of mine who was coming up from Chicago with a mattress on the car's roof. I finally got really bored with the flight, never did find the mattress covered car. I do remember Dad saying that he could land the plane on the trees and wondering if that really could work, but then I was and am one of the most gullible people ever. AFTER we landed, Dad told me he was using up as much gas as possible, just in case the wheel didn't turn and we flipped over on landing. The wheel did turn although the wheel cover was mighty dent.
We have actually hit surprisingly few deer. Everyone except me can spot deer on the side REALLY well. Shotgun passengers are expected to act as spotters too. It is not unusual to spot six or more deer a night at the lake loitering within sight of the road or on it. But our parents taught us to hit the deer--protect the people, avoid trees and never ever lose control of the car. Bravo, Steve. Maude and Gramps would be proud of you.
Thanks for Monday-
Love, Aunt Carole, the Believer
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn. com>
Chicago, I u - Tuesday, June 21, 2005 4:07 PM CDT

Congratulations to the writers of the updates! It has been so nice to check the website the past few weeks and have news. It sounds like you are doing well, Steve. Good for you. We know it isn't easy with all this chemo stuff plus the never ending tests. How nice that your Mom gets to spend more time with you now as we know she misses being there every day during the school year.
As to the deer in the headlights action, the Curran family would prefer not to participate in this northwoods activity. I know there are more than enough deer to go around but I prefer watching them eat everything we buy and plant in our yard to peeling them off the front of the car!
We hope your entire family has a really good summer. We also hope to see you when you are up north. How about coming by our place? Come by water or road, we aren't picky. Stop in and we promise to have some chocolate dipped pretzels on hand.
We continue to pray for all of you and your doctors too.
Love, Lois and Chris
Chris and Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Tuesday, June 21, 2005 3:41 PM CDT

Hey man, you might not remember me, but we met last august up in eagle river for like a whole five minutes maybe. Anyway, its good to hear that your doing well. Say hi to kathryn for me. Catch you on the flip side
Jeff Jones
Oregon, Wi - Saturday, June 18, 2005 11:53 PM CDT

Steve,

I heard about the deer on Memorial Day weekend from my mom just before we left to head back to Chicago. Nice job. I've never actually gotten the "if you hit a deer" pep talk so didn't know that you're supposed to keep driving straight ahead and not swerve. Yet another Payne family contribution to this Curran kid!
If I recall correctly (and I may be off on my facts), didn't Jack hit a deer several years ago on the way up north just after getting the new (white) van? My memory on that might be a little hazy, but if I'm not too far off, it sounds like you're just continuing a long and proud Payne tradition of deer vs. car action.
Here's hoping that if you should be fortunate enough to get your own ride that it will be deer proof.
Keep it between the ditches! And stay off the sidewalks!!
Hope to see you up north sometime this summer.

Scott
Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Saturday, June 18, 2005 11:22 PM CDT

Steve,
You have never met me but I am part of the LT Mom's prayer group that prayed for you and your family throughout the school year. For some reason you came to mind several times in the last couple of days and so each time I wondered how things were going and prayed for you some more. You are incredible and have amazing courage. I pray that someday you will look back on this year as just a bump in the road.
By the way, we know why you like Three Lakes. We go up to Eagle River every chance we get. (have never hit a deer though)
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL - Wednesday, June 15, 2005 10:36 PM CDT

Steve,
Have I told you lately how proud I am of you. You have faced this disease with strength and unbelievable character. You never complain but take everything in stride. You have completed your Sophomore year strong. I am looking forward to spending time with you this summer and watching you grow into a young man of integrity. God has blessed us with such a wonderful son. Love, Mom

Claudia Payne <bailey6682@aol.com>
- Monday, June 13, 2005 11:49 PM CDT

Hi Steve, It is Aunt Pam. I will miss being with you this week during your round of chemo, but I know you will love having your Mom with you. Uncle Jack . JJ and Joe just left for the Lake and they are hoping for some good weather, I am holding down the fort down here. I did the Young Life Golf Marathon today, I actually played 58 holes of golf and I am totally wiped out, anyway so many people there asked about how you were doing, you need to know that there are so many people out there who love you and pray for you daily. Be strong and get through this tough week and then we can't wait to hear about your birthday and getting your license. Good Luck Steve, we love you!!!
Pamela Payne <PPaybne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, June 13, 2005 10:46 PM CDT

Ok...sooooo, any chance we can get an entry from Steve himself telling a driving story?...maybe a recent one?...maybe one involving a deer?...i mean, if such a story exists...good to see people at JJ's graduation party this past weekend...hope to be back soon! love, kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Sunday, June 12, 2005 10:25 PM CDT

Ok. I must admit that while I was taking drivers ed in high school, I hit a cat that ran out in the road. I did the right thing by not swerving. I remember being scared to death that my teacher would flunk me. He just kept his head focused straight ahead and never said a word about the cat.
Stephanie Payne <stephanie.payne@insightbb.com>
Westifeld, IN USA - Sunday, June 5, 2005 6:23 AM CDT

3 Feathers:

Many moons have past since you began your battle.
Each day you fight with a fearless might.
Throughout, you have had the support of your circle.
They have written on these pages.
They have offered words of encouragement.
They have strengthened your spirit as you have strengthened theirs.

Warriors believe in the support their spirit receives from their circle
and they are strengthened by it.
But the visible support is not always present,
that is why warriors summon their strength from within.
Warriors learn that they must support their own spirit.
Warriors know that they must paddle their canoe in many waters.
When the water is high and running
When the current is against them
And when the river is dry and they must carry their canoe

Recently these pages have not been so full
The river bed was dry and you have carried your canoe with the
inner strength only a true warrior can summon.
It is a valuable lesson for a warrior.
Although your circle is always there, they may not be able to voice
their encouragement.
Your strength comes from within.
You have been able to depend on your strong spirit.
It has made you strong and independent.

A warrior will fight a common enemy with his circle,
or he will fight alone.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit.
Live Strong , be strong.
Choose victory.

AF
- Tuesday, May 31, 2005 1:58 PM CDT

Steve,
I bet you had a good (terrific) time at 3 Lakes for the Memorial Day weekend. I wish I could have been there with your family sans Kyle ,who was working on a paper, (good luck) plus Kathryn. Saves on the phone calls, huh?
Love, Aunt Carole, the believer
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL usa - Monday, May 30, 2005 10:15 PM CDT

O.K. Steve, I don't think I have even told my kids this story.....two months after I had gotten my drivers license I was going to the beach with friends, not paying attention when I rear ended a car on the causeway ~ totally smashing the other car's backend. To make matters worse, my dad was a car dealer and the lady I hit was his customer who was on her way to his dealership to trade in the car! No way I could hide that accident from him!
Drive safe and have a great summer! We will be up June 16th for Linda Hurt's graduation......we'll stop by to see the family!
The Ft.Myers Fritz family
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL USA - Friday, May 27, 2005 10:59 AM CDT

Just wanted to wish you guys a good, fun, safe trip up to Three Lakes. Hopefully, you will have better weather than they are predicting for Mullett this weekend. Get some driving time in while you are up there. Good luck with your driving test.
My driving story is when I was a passenger in the Suburban when my Dad's crew chief lost control of the Suburban and race car trailer. The trailer wound up on it's side across all 3 lanes of traffic and the Suburban did a 180 degree turn and wound up facing traffic. A tow truck righted everything and we limped home (took all night to get to from LA to San Fran). On the bright side, I didn't have to go to school the next day.
Take care
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 9:54 PM CDT

Hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam, I was thinking about you alot on Wednesday when I was in Washington DC at my aunt's funeral. I was with a lot of my cousins that I don't see that often now, but I grew up spending lots of time with them and it was soo good to be with them again and we had lots of laughs about things that went on when we were all growing up. I thought about you because as one one the younger Payne cousins, you would also have a lot of funny stories to tell. Steve,you know how important our Wednesdays are to me and it takes something really important for me to miss that time together. So, I missed you, I thought about you and I will look forward to taking you to school next week and catch up with all of your news. Love you Steve. Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, May 19, 2005 11:13 PM CDT

Hey Steve,

We (the Curran clan) had an awesome time at brunch with your Aunt Pam yesterday and were able to catch up on all the latest. I was glad to hear that you are in Drivers Ed. Apparently you're doing alright in the program given that I haven't heard anything on the news lately about anyone terrorizing the sidewalks in the western suburbs. Good job. I'm known in some circles for driving over more lawn than is generally appropriate. Long story�but kinda funny. I�ll tell you when I see you up north this summer.
I heard that a group of Paynes was up north working on the house in Three Lakes, getting it ready for summer. We're headed up Memorial Day weekend to get things in order at our place (well, at least to do the things my parents haven't already done). For my part, "getting things in order" will ideally include sitting in warmer than average weather on the end of the dock on a sunny day not doing any work. I'm hoping that happens.
We might have a full house if everyone we're hoping will go up actually makes it for the long weekend. But the more the merrier, right?
Anyway, just wanted to make sure I did my part to check in and keep the guest book entries going.
Good luck with your new round of chemo and with Drivers Ed. Remember, the best advice about driving is the same advice we all got as little kids when it came to coloring books...just keep it inside the lines and you'll be good to go.
Take care.

Scott

Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Monday, May 16, 2005 4:46 PM CDT

Hi there Steve,
School must be winding down for you. . . can you believe you are done with one more year! We just know that next year is going to be your best yet! Tell someone that it is time for an update on the site! We need to hear how things are going with our favorite Illinois guy!
Chas, Laurie, Brett, Tanner, Ty and Paige Fritz
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
- Monday, May 16, 2005 7:50 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
I am so sorry that I can't be there for the Monday of your next round of Chemo. Yuck.... Stay strong. Too many people have bad colds, coughs and feel just plain sick, including me. Makes me appreciate how much you take without complaint. You are the best!!
Love always.. the believer, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, I usa - Sunday, May 15, 2005 11:27 PM CDT

Dear Steve ,
You don't know me, but my sister, Jenny Wilton, works with your Mom at CHMS. My name is Susan Welker. I am married to Kevin and we have 2 girls. I learned about you from my sister and have been keepping him in my prayers since. When my sister started helping out with the benefit, I told her we wanted to buy a ticket to attend. That was a wonderful benefit. It was wonderful to see a jam packed room full of people who care about you so much. Then to see all the tables full of items to bid on. We did get a few items that night including the trip to Disney. We can't wait to go! If you have never been you must! It is really the happiest place on earth and nothing like it. Well, I just wanted to introduce myself and my family. Sounds like you are doing great Steve, keep up the courage and strength. You are such a strong person! You are in our prayers!

Susan Welker and family

Susan Welker <KSWelker@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Sunday, May 1, 2005 10:09 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Thank you for taking care of my dog, Cleo, while I am gone. I will light a candle for you in Westminister Abbey. I will light another candle for all of you who have brought light to our lives. Thank you. May our lights burn bright and happy illuminating the way ahead.

Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL usa - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 11:38 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Wow, what awesome news. The power of prayer, positive thinking and least we forget one amazingly strong kid. Keep up your strength Steve, you are going to need it to convince Jeff and Claudia to let you drive their cars to Wendy's at 11:00 pm!!!!!
Take care and drive carefully!!
love, Mrs. Peth

Nancy Peth <NLPETH@sbcglobal.net>
LaGrange, Il. USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 9:08 AM CDT

Steve, let me help you out a bit...people NOT to take driving lessons from: Uncle Jimmy, judges think they can get away with anything-and they do...my Dad (Jack) but only when he's behind something like the Jeep-he gets way too excited...your Dad, i hear once he had a new car, was revving the engine while at a stoplight and bragging about what the car could do...the light changed and CRASH...reversed right into the car behind him...could be rumor though...(oops, maybe i wasn't supposed to tell that story)...hope this helps :)...and i hope i'm not in big trouble after this message...keep smiling...love, kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Monday, April 25, 2005 11:08 AM CDT

Great to seen an update! Keep em coming!!
Steve, glad to hear you are doing well. Stick with it...and stay off the sidewalks when you get behind the wheel!
Sunny days in Three Lakes are right around the corner!

Scott
Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Sunday, April 24, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

Steve,
It was so good to see you on Wed. after your driver's ed class. I was just hanging out at Jay and Dawn's for dinner and who should walk into their house but you! You walked a mile or so down Ogden after the class got out early. You are a really social guy!! Jonathan was there with his son, Jacob, with Jess and Josh. Jess had just taken first place in discuss and a fourth in shotput(8 pound shot) at a track meet. Then your Dad came and whisked you away for dinner at your home. Busy, busy, busy...

So, the written test is first for the learners permit and then... behind the wheel. Takes me back quite a few years. What I like best for you are the truly normal times when things are right with the world and you are doing just what every 16 year old should be doing. Learning to drive. Your Payne grandparents, John and Ginny, were two of the best drivers I ever knew. Keep it in the family, Steve.

Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL usa - Friday, April 22, 2005 11:50 PM CDT

Hi Steve and family,
I check every day for updates and bits of news about how things are going. Your love and caring for each other just shines through on these pages. You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.

Jo and Jeff Slaga <jslaga@earthlink.net>
Denver, CO - Monday, April 18, 2005 10:27 PM CDT

Hi everyone,
We've had lots of us check this site, but not so many people sign in. We are up to alomost 10500. Who is out there? And where is AF? Sign in and just say a line or two. Send a prayer, a joke...

As soon as five of you sign in (hope this works) I'll fulfill my promise to describe the hospital beds. Sort of a you are there kind of thing.

There is some news. Remember this is from me and so it is heresay, speaking professionally. Steve is on some new anti-nausea (how do you spell that word anyway) and it is making life a little easier. As I mentioned, it was disturbing to watch him get ill during the five days of chemo last week. What a tough guy you are Steve.

I believe in you and your future. A true believer am I.
Love, Aunt Carole
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, I usa - Monday, April 18, 2005 12:32 AM CDT

Hey Steve, it is aunt Pam, hope you are relaxing at home and getting some well deserved rest. I know you must be feeling great that another day of chemo is behind you. Okay, I admit my knowledge of the city streets of Chicago is a little bit lacking, but I think we need to stick to our agreement, what happens on Ogden Avenue, stays on Ogden Avenue. One thing I do know is that you are so amazing in that you handle yourself so beautifully during these tough chemo days. Your patience is something I will always respect. Thank you Steve for allowing me to be part of this battle, I consider it a privilege. Good luck the rest of the week. Love Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 9:30 PM CDT

Hey Stevie!! It is wonderful to hear that you are doing GREAT! You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Hopefully we don't have to go another year without seeing you guys! I wish you all the best and then some! Love, Jenna Erickson
Jenna Erickson <jnewbc@mizzou.edu>
Columbia, MO United States - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 12:02 AM CDT

Hey Steve and fam - We were so thrilled to hear the good news of your latest update and are so grateful for the answered prayers. I know that God can do far more than we can ever imagine, so we'll just keep praying for all that you need, especially with your chemo this week. Love, Mrs. Olund

Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 10:45 AM CDT

Steve,
Well one day finished and four more to go for round 10. I guess that we could hope this was the 10th and knock-out round for the cancer, but that is maybe being optimistic. I'll settle for making headway.

I took over at the hospital for the afternoon, although Kyle and his good girl fiend, Anna, stopped by while I went home to walk the dog. She, the dog, was grateful. Then Steve and I left at about 7 pm and arrived home for Corner Bakery sandwiches. This is Steve's choice. Chemo days, whatever he wants to eat he gets since the smell of any food in the hospital, including coffee, makes him nausiated.
It is really telling to see Steve turn from normal to ill. It happens quickly after two hours. I watched as the nurses put on special blue thick gloves to handle the chemo bags so they didn't get any on the outside of their hands. And then you think, my gosh they are taking this precaution and this stuff is going directly into Steve. Some cure, huh? Steve leaves the hospital in a wheel chair. But just leaving the hospital perks him up, as does being home with his family and Kathryn.
There is a small new set of personal DVD players someone just donated to this area of Childrens. Sound good, but lots of the kids, like Steve, are feeling the effects of the chemo before two hours and their concentation is zapped. If the chemo doesn't do it then the anti-nausea medication is also potent stuff and tends to put them right to sleep. Sleep is a good defense and makes the time pass faster. The nurses are great.
Oh, Nancy Payne Moroz, set up this web site and writes the journal updates. I agree, she is a good writer. That is my sister! Thank you, Nan.

Love, Aunt Carole, the believer.
* Next installment I want to describe the hospital day beds.
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, I usa - Monday, April 11, 2005 11:12 PM CDT

Hi Payne Family,
We always appreciate the updates here on the website. Since we check every day, any news or information is most appreciated. Thank you to whomever does that job.
We saw your Uncle Jack last week at the hospital, Steve and got a personal update from him. He was most impressed and pleased about the latest tests, etc. We also talked about what a great time we had at the benefit. It was such fun! I also noticed Uncle Jack is NOT allowed to have a microphone or whistle in the hospital. Thank goodness for small favors!
You are in our prayers daily. The entire family!
Love, Lois and Chris
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 4:10 PM CDT

Hi Steve,

Well it round number 10 for Chemo tomorrow. I am so glad that I can have some time with you on a Monday vs a Friday. What better way to start your week but with your Aunt Dawn who has really bad puns but can still make you laugh. I love you and will see your tomorrow bright and early. God will give you the grace and strenght to endure this round. You have been a rock thru this journey. God will keep you safe and strong.

Love you

Aunt Dawn

PS HOW BOUT THEM CUBS whats their record..... h mmmmmmmmm
and what our Home Town True Baseball team the Sox doing right now. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM How bout that record! Go SOX!
Dawn Jacobsen <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
- Sunday, April 10, 2005 9:13 PM CDT

Steve,
I wish for you that the cancer has been beaten, but I know that you are still in the midst of the fight and that you, your parents and the doctors are taking the new good news and trying to figure out what went right and why. Then more of the same until this cancer is eradicated from your body. I heard that one of your doctors was out of town and then the medical team will recommend a next step.

You stay strong. Take heart that you are winning. You can do this. I believe. You believe because we all believe that you can do it.

Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 10:05 PM CDT

Steve-
What great news! Our prayers are being answered. Glad to hear you were able to get away on spring break. Stay strong.

Love,
Mrs P

Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Friday, April 8, 2005 10:04 AM CDT

That is feel, not fell. Get me a proof reader!
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 9:47 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
I can not even imagime what it must fell like to hear that you do not have to have abdominal surgery tomorrow. What a joy, blessing. I am so happy for you that I have just been floating with happiness. I believe in this happiness. I believe in you. I believe in the strength of your community.
Good night and sweet dreams.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 9:44 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family ~ WE are thrilled to hear the news! We know without a doubt that prayer changes things, even things like cancer! It was great to see you in Florida and we are thinking that the "Son-shine" had a lot to do with this recent victory! !
Keep it up!
Love, The Fritz family

Laurie and Chas Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL - Thursday, April 7, 2005 5:06 PM CDT

I was going to post a message but the Bieze family took the words right out of my mouth! Keep smiling! Love, Kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Thursday, April 7, 2005 11:17 AM CDT

Steve, What great news!!!!! We are praying for you and your family!
Patty, Bob and Carly Weber <pattyweber614@aol.com>
Starnberg, Germany - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 11:18 AM CDT

Hi Steve,
Your mom called us last night with the good news! God is so good!! Keep on fighting. We are praying for you.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Jeremiah 29:11-13
The Bieze Family <fraubz@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:42 AM CDT

Hooray!!!! What wonderful news!!! Our prayers continue, God is with you and the love surrounding you is HUGE. Best wishes with your homework...you have a wonderful spirit! With love, Ruth Paul
Ruth Paul
Western Springs, Il USA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:02 AM CDT

Steve and Family and Friends
Your Dad, Jeff, just called with news that the CT scan was read and there is reason to be "cautiously optimistic". HOORAY!! And, no surgery tomorrow. Whew.
I was sitting here in my Shoot for the Stars t-shirt waiting for a call and thinking about you. The stars, God, and friends have been so good. It is a happy day...April 5th. It feels like a rebirth and this cancer is indeed understanding that it can be beaten. I believe. I believe. I believe in you.
Everyone, keep up the prayers and thoughts, because it seems to be working.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn. >
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 5:02 PM CDT

Steve:
Our thoughts and prayers are as always with you and send all our love to you and your family. Positive things happen to positive people and you are that special kind of person. It was great to see you and your family down in Marco on that magnificent beach having fun. Keep strong, live strong and DEMAND miracles!!!
Love, Mrs. Verdin
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 8:44 AM CDT

Steve, When I let my mind relax as I am viewing this site, it seems to me that I can feel your spirual community and the strength of it. Keep the prayers and love coming, especially now.

Many chemos have brought you to the story that a CT scan tells. This is one story but there are other stories too of strength, determination and love. While this cancer is a forminadble foe, I believe it can be beaten. I believe. I believe in you.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Monday, April 4, 2005 10:47 AM CDT

10,000 website hits!!! Wow! Hope you had a great time in Florida. Good luck with the CT scan tomorrow.
Liz Pielsticker and Tim and Nathaniel Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Sunday, April 3, 2005 8:37 PM CDT

Steve and the rest of the Payne family-
You are in our prayers and thoughts daily and we were so glad to be able to celebrate with you on March 19. Your witness is awesome to so many people. The lives you have touched through this battle and how you are dealing with it and depending on God for strength through it cannot even begun to be listed. Victory is ahead (for you guys and the Illini, too)!
The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
- Sunday, April 3, 2005 6:41 AM CDT

Dear Steve.
9940...
There are many prayers being said for Pope John Paul II. It is a time of faith, belief and strength for him and for you.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 9:20 PM CST

Dear Steve,
9926...
There is a big week coming up. Feel the power of your spiritual community.
Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, April 1, 2005 9:21 AM CST

Dear Friends, Family and Steve
Aunt Carole here. Well, I just noted that 9,906 people have logged into this site. Wow, almost a round 10,000 hits.

The benefit was exhausting. Auctions are labor intensive as we found out. And, they only are successful with the support of the donating community. We on the committee, family and teachers, could only shake our heads in wonder that so many people know and love you, Steve. There are people who just understand the circumstances and, without knowing you personally, want to be supportive.

Yes, amazing support for an amazing fighter.

The benefit was a fund raiser. In this, it was a success. Thank you everyone. But, it is possible to lose perspective of the goal. This battle against cancer can not be won by money. Evidence suggests that the outcome of this battle is impacted by the spritual community. So, the real success of the benefit, the evening of March 19th, was, to me, the feeling of strength, resolve and love bonding Steve and his family to each of us. I did not want the evening to end.

Each of us viewing this site can contribute to this spiritual community by logging on with a message, no matter how short or how often. 10,000 and more hits until this cancer understands it is beaten.

Love always to all, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, March 31, 2005 10:49 AM CST

Dear Steve; Wonderful to hear what a huge success the party was on the 19th. You deserved every bit of it. Your courage and good spirit and great smile are gifts to all of us. You are close in mind and heart...our prayers continue always. God is near. With love, Ruth
Ruth Paul
Western Springs, IL USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 8:00 AM CST

Hey House of...
I just wanted to take a minute to write and wish you the best. Your pictures look awesome. I always knew there was nothing that could take away that smile. I have always been much better at the quick comebacks and jokes (although some like to pretend like they are not funny) than the inspirational message, but know that you are never far from my thoughts. I will always have fond memories of you as a student and an even better young man. You WILL beat this just as you will conquer everything else in you life. Jimmy V probably said it best, "Don't give up... don't ever give up!" Best of luck Steve. Look forward to seeing you sometime soon.
Mike Bickerman <bickermanmi@dist102.k12.il.us>
Westchester, Il Cook - Thursday, March 24, 2005 10:07 PM CST

Hi there Steve and family. I just wanted to let you know what a great time Tim, Nathaniel, and I had at the benefit on Saturday (even though I was out-bid on everything-Nathaniel distracted me). It was great to see everyone. Have a great time in Florida.
Liz Pielsticker and Tim and Nathaniel Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Thursday, March 24, 2005 9:09 PM CST

To All our friends and family,
Jeff and I are overwhelmed by the love and support we have encountered from so many. Each one of you has touched our lives in such a precious way. Thank you one and all for caring for our Steve and our family. A special thanks to the amazing committee members who worked endless hours to make Saturday night a complete success.
Love, Jeff and Claudia
Claudia and Jeff Payne <bailey6682@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Monday, March 21, 2005 10:14 PM CST

Hi Payne Family,
We had a great time Saturday night! It was nice to see you, Steve, your family and extended family. We knew it would be a good time as we anticipated most Paynes would be in attendance (I must say, some are a bit more energetic and noisy than others. Who thought issuing a whistle was a good idea?). You all have such a great family bond! We had fun seeing everyone, catching up on news and doing some fun activities. Thank you for including us.
Congratulations to everyone who planned and worked on this event. You did a terrific job! It was a wonderful evening.
Love, Chris and Lois
Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 10:24 AM CST

Steve,

I am sorry Mrs. Stickels and I were not able to attend Saturday nights event but it sounds like it was a huge success! I am sure you need some time to recover and watching the NCAA games will be good medicine. I hope you are doing better in the NCAA pool then I am!
For some reason I can not pick the upsets.
Take care and I will see you around school.

Coach Stick
Doug Stickels <dstickels@lths.net>
Wheaton, IL USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 9:55 AM CST

Dear Steve, I am so glad that you were at the benefit! I don't think that two days out of chemo most people could have the strength that you have. What a guy! I wish everyone viewing this site could have seen Claudia, Jeff, Kyle, Ryan and Steve expressing their appreciation to 350 friends and supporters. What a family, but we knew that, didn't we?

I don't know how to express gratitude to all the people who came to the benefit and all the people who could not come but contibuted physically and spirtually. To those who were able to come to the benefit, please write and share here with others the love and caring that the evening was intended to evoke. I felt it. Claudia said, and this is not a quote, that we need each other and they need us. Thank you, each one of you. Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, Il USA - Sunday, March 20, 2005 11:34 PM CST

Just a quick note to let you know how much we enjoyed the event tonight (even though we didn't win the Bob Stoops autographed football!). It was great to see everyone and to see all of the love and support you have behind you during this journey. After tonight, Amy and I are thinking of hiring Judge and Doc Payne to MC our wedding reception.
Seriously, it really was a fantastic evening and we hope it was a great success. Kudos to everyone who worked so hard. You did a great job!
Scott and Amy
Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Saturday, March 19, 2005 11:39 PM CST

Hey there Steve and family! We just wanted to say we wish we could be there tonight for the big event but know that you will be surrounded by all your many friends, family and support team. You make us all so very proud Steve and continue to amaze us with your strength. (of course we still picture you as the cute little chubby kid!) Have a blast tonight and know that we are thinking about you always. The Florida Fritz's
Laurie & Chas Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
- Friday, March 18, 2005 7:05 AM CST

Hey Steve, We enjoyed seeing your mom and dad last Sat nite
and hope they shared the leftovers with you! You are all always in our prayers,especially as you face another round of chemo this week. We will also be praying that you and your family will be able to enjoy a great spring break.
We are looking forward to seeing all of you at the big bash this weekend.
Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 10:34 PM CST

Three Feathers:

In three moons your circle will gather in Pow Wow
to honor Three Feathers,
All of your circles Hunka, those that have pledged support to you,
are now no longer friends but relatives,
connected by this struggle.
The bond is greater than blood.
This circle is connected by the spirit.
There is nothing that Hunka would not do for another Hunka,
Whether it is giving blood,
or giving generously at the Pow Wow.

The strong spirit that is Three Feathers connects us all,
The courage that you display everyday inspires us all,
Within your chest beats the heart of a warrior,
The spirit of all of your ancestors will be present at the Pow Wow in just 3 moons
Call upon them to give you strength.
The Great Spirit honors you with big challenges.
Only a warrior as strong as Three Feathers would be given such a challenge,
The spirit of your circle on March 19th will bring Big Medicine from the Great Spirit.

You have fought many battles,
You have earned bear claws for your many victories.
There are more battles to fight and win,
You cannot be defeated,
You must choose victory,
You are Three Feathers, Warrior Strong in Spirit
Live Strong, be Strong

A. F.
- Wednesday, March 16, 2005 4:48 PM CST

Hi Steve,
Well, Saturday is the celebration. Many people have been so generous and kind and supportive of you and your family. It is a true blessing, and Saturday will be the best. If you'd like to see the cool stuff that will be auctioned off, check out the stevejpayne.org web site. You are one very special young man. We love you and are praying for a quick chemo week. - stay strong. Much love, Aunt Dee, Uncle George, Matt, Brent, and Brian
Denise Hermann
Orland Park, IL USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 4:30 PM CST

Hi Steve,
It is your neighbors (to the right)the Beckleys. We want you to know we are thinking and praying for you. If you and your family need to get away this summer we will be happy to help in anyway including dog sitting Bailey :) We look forward to seeing you & your family next week.
Jim,Amy & Ava Beckley <jrbeck22@aol.com>
La Grange, IL USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 0:09 AM CST

Steve, See you at the hospital tomorrow for the next round. Be strong. Focus on a happy thought, Peter Pan. Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, Il USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 0:04 AM CST

I check this website just about once a day...and every time I have to try not to cry...the good kind of cry though...it is amazing...Steve, you are amazing and so are all the loving people in your life...wow...God is so good...can't wait to see you in a week...love, kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Sunday, March 13, 2005 12:00 AM CST

steve i watched a joe frazier mohamad ali fight last night and thought to myself "THATS MY STEVE" .You are fighting this battle the way joe frazier always fought. Never backing away.Always advancing despite the punishment that Ali was inflicting.I suppose your cancer reminds me of Ali's rope a dope style in that it covers up while you hit with everything you've got [chemo ,r.f.a. ,transfusions,and an amazing positive attitude]Keep fighting steve, just like joe frazier,because as I recall he became heavyweight champion of the world .Know this Steve youv've got the best trainer a fighter has ever or will ever have,OUR LORD JESUS
jeff payne <bailely6682@aol.com>
lagrange, il us - Sunday, March 13, 2005 11:21 AM CST

Hi, Steve, March 11, 2005
I want to tell you a special teaching of Jesus for you today. He said, " I am the vine, and you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, and I in him, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing apart from me" (John 15:5). It is very important for us to have God in our life and believe in Him, particularly when we are under some kinds of torments such as illness, dread, horror, stress and/or threat. If we believe that we are never apart from the love of God, we cannot be worried and upset.
Many, many years years ago, when Hebrews were under the torment of slavery, they celebrated 'Passover.' The ceremony builds to a crescendo of thanksgiving for freedom and the beauty of life given by God. It ends with articipants singing and praising God. It was their experience for the emotional joy of freedom. We need this kind of emotional joy of freedom when we want to be free from our torment of fear, sicknessw, discourgement, weakness and suspicion when we want to be courgeous, hopeful and joyful again. Yes, we need them from time to time or always when we feel akin to God.
Near the end of Passover meal, the second half of these
Hallel psalms are sung.
"The stone which the builders rejected
Has become the chief cornerstone.
This was the Lord's doing;
It is mavelous in our eye.
This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it" (Psalm 118:22-24).
Steve! Are you able to praise our God even though you go through your own dark days that often discourage you?
Even in the valley of dark shadows
Steve's heart sings in joyful praise
not because God says you should, but because
you know God is good and you cannot be apart
from Him.
Rev. Dr. Samuel Shinn (Liz's father-in-law) <sshinn@localnet.com>
Albany, NY - Friday, March 11, 2005 7:39 PM CST

Hi Steve & Family,
We have been keeping abreast of your progress through Liz & Nancy and sounds like you are doing wonderfully. Keep it up! We check your website almost daily to see how you are doing. You have amazing family and friends that are a blessing to you and are truly blessed to have you as well. Stay strong and never fail to use that awesome support system you have all around you! God bless you and yours.
Mike, Melissa, Ashton & Kendsi Sullivan <mersulli@earthlink.net>
Franklin, IN USA - Friday, March 11, 2005 11:35 AM CST

Hi Steve and all the Paynes,
I'm Aunt Carole's sister-in-law, Bob's sister. My twin daughters, Sarah and Leah Crane (who are now 19), and I have never forgotten all those fun, wonderful days at Three Lakes and the fun Payne families. Steve, you're in our thoughts, hearts, and prayers.
Mary Ellen
Mary Ellen Knuti <mek8151985@yahoo.com>
Vienna, VA 22182 - Tuesday, March 8, 2005 4:42 PM CST

Hey Steve,
You know how much we love you!!! I believe God is already working miracles in you life - the excceptional way you and your body has handled the chemo; limited additional trips to Children's. From a teenager's point of view, it probably isn't enough, but our awesome God is holding you in the palm of His hand. Stay strong; we'll continue to hold you up in prayer. We love you!
Aunt Dee, Uncle George, Matt, Brent, and Brian
Denise Hermann
Orland Park, IL USA - Monday, March 7, 2005 6:37 PM CST

Hi Steve & Family! I wanted to add my positive thoughts & prayers for all of you in your struggle. I am a friend of Liz & Tim's & have followed your progress thru Liz. She told me of this site so I could tell you myself of my wishes for you. I too believe in angels & miracles - they surely are at your side. All of you take care. Hugs, Shirley

Shirley Felbeck <sfelbeck@umich.edu>
Northville, MI USA - Saturday, March 5, 2005 2:22 PM CST

Hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam, it was great to be with you tonight at Aunt Jane's birthday party, I know she was so excited to have you sitting right next to her. It sounds like you have really fun plans for the weekend. Have a great time at King of Hearts, we will be anxiously awaiting the next set of pictures. Steve, we all love you and pray for you daily, stay strong and healthy, you are fighting the fight better than anyone I have ever known. Take care pal, Love Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, , IL - Friday, March 4, 2005 10:16 PM CST

Thank you for the update. It sounds like you have busy times ahead, Steve. Enjoy the dance!
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Thursday, March 3, 2005 7:22 PM CST

Hey Steve. I can't tell you how great it is to hear that you are doing so well and fighting so hard. I know it's been written several time, but you truly are an insprition to us all and I hope you believe that when we say it. The stories we hear about your determination and strength are incredible. I'm so glad this website is here so I can stay informed on your life and successes. My thoughts are with you and your family every single day.
Rob Pielsticker <ROBPIEL@CS.COM>
New York, NY - Thursday, March 3, 2005 10:35 AM CST

The "T" man. I was just reading your website and am amazed how many lives you have touched. You are an inspiration to me beyond words. Keep the faith and strength--Love uncle Jay.
Sorry Jeff and I have been working so hard on the 3 flat. We are almost done.
Jay Payne <JAY.DAWN.PAYNE@comcast.net>
Hinsdale , IL United States - Wednesday, March 2, 2005 9:30 PM CST

Hi there, Steve. I heard you had a great time snowmobiling at the lake over President's weekend. We were at Mullett and got the same snowstorm that hit you, otherwise, we wouldn't have had enough snow. Can't wait to see you in a couple of weeks. We will be bringing Nathaniel, so that everyone can meet him. He is getting big so fast. Have a great time at the King of Hearts dance and hope you get over this cold soon. Take care.
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Tuesday, March 1, 2005 10:23 PM CST

Please keep the faith! I had a child who was in and out of hospitols for 2 years when he was 5. He is 10, and doing great. He was diagnosed with a rare condition that prevented him from eating. If you need any help dont hesitate to call, I am a medical doctor with a child at CHMS. My wife is 20 years recovered from her end stage Lymphoma at the time of diagnosis. Incidently, I do believe in miracles!
George Fikaris M.D.
clarendon hills, il USA - Sunday, February 27, 2005 8:33 PM CST

Friends and Family have created a new web site for more information on a number of fundraisers coming up for the Payne Family

stevejpayne.org

Please visit this website today!

Debbie Nederhouser <Dneder@comcast.net>
Hinsdale, IL - Saturday, February 26, 2005 1:51 PM CST

Mrs. Payne,
I was in your home room in 2002-2003 at CHMS with Mrs. McCurry. I'm so sorry to hear that your son is sick, and i hope that he can get better. I'm now a student at hinsdale central and i know that everyone that went to CHMS feels the same way. Good luck Steve, I hope you get better!
Sincerely,
Jackie Wilhelm
Jackie Wilhelm and Wilhelm Family <Boardbum20@aol.com>
Hinsdale, IL 60521 - Wednesday, February 23, 2005 6:52 PM CST

Hi Payne Family,
We keep hoping for an update as we aren't in contact with anyone, just your website. How are things going? We missed seeing you at the Super Bowl party, Steve, but it was nice touching bases with your Mom and Dad again. We check daily on this website and you are on our prayer list.
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Tuesday, February 22, 2005 10:22 AM CST

Hi Steve,and Payne Family,
Sounds like you are making great progress....Way to go!Pj keeps us all updated including a recent letter informing us about an upcoming fundraiser to help raise funds for additional experimental treatment for you.I would love to participate and also would like to take advantage of my companies "matching" program which allows my donation to double.The only requirement is that the "medical trust" has an IRS 501(c)(3) tax exempt status.Any ideas if that is so and more importantly how I can obtain that info?
Looking forward to continued GREAT UPDATES FROM PJ!!!and pictures of all of you(Katherine,Nate,Pj and You)at KOH!!!

PJ's Aunt Mare

Mary Ann Shannon <mapshannon@hotmail.com>
Milwaukee, Wi USA - Friday, February 18, 2005 12:19 AM CST

Steve - You don't know me but I used to teach with your mom at Brodnicki. I am so sorry for what you are going through. It sounds like you are a very brave and determined young man. I am sure that your parents are proud! Please know that you and your family are in my prayers. Hang in there!!
Tara (Herbik) Faragoi <teachintara@hotmail.com>
Plainfield, IL - Thursday, February 17, 2005 8:54 PM CST

I hope you are feeling better,
Evan Roglich 6-1 CHMS
Evan Roglich
Hinsdale, IL USA - Sunday, February 13, 2005 8:07 PM CST

3 Feathers:

Over these past several months you have read about many things that are sacred to Native Americans.
The pipe, the drum, the eagle feather, the number 4, the spirit world, the connection to your family, friends, relatives ancestors, your sacred circle.
But the most revered and sacred amongst Native American culture were the four values of COURAGE, GENEROSITY, RESPECT AND WISDOM.
Although tribes throughout north America differed in language and geography these values existed in varying forms.

COURAGE:
Native American elders teach that do something dangerous for the benefit of another is worthy of the highest honor.
To face that danger with grace and dignity is an indication of the strength of a warriors spirit.
3 Feathers has been a shining example of courage in his fight.
He has brought honor to himself, his circle and his ancestors.
His feats soar with eagles and will be shared with generations.

GENEROSITY:
Native American elders teach that it is better to give much than to have much.
3 Feathers has more battles ahead and his circle needs to provide him with the weapons necessary to carry on his fight.
These pages indicate that there is an opportunity to give much to 3 Feathers and his circle during the benefit to be held March 19th.
3 Feathers has been an example of Courage.
The rest of his circle has an opportunity to be an example of Generosity.
Your acts of generosity will be well received by the Great Spirit and his big medicine will help 3 Feathers and his circle.

3 Feathers is a warrior, strong in spirit.
Live strong, be strong

A.F.
- Friday, February 11, 2005 11:24 AM CST

Steve,
Wow, Your circle keeps growing! Two weeks ago at Church during our Children's moment a group of kids formed a circle and threw a ball of string back and forth. The circle represented God's love and the bond formed by His family. As one person let go, the slack was picked up by the rest of the circle until that person could grab hold again. The idea was that God and His family are always there to support you. I immediately thought of how this is being illustrated so beautifully by your circle!
Keep up the fight, keep the faith, you are strong and your circle is strong.

Troy Kimberling <troykimberling@msn.com>
LaGrange, - Thursday, February 10, 2005 11:20 PM CST

Hi, Steve. We are Kathryn's aunt and uncle from "out east." We just wanted to tell you that people are thinking about you and praying for you in this area of the world too! Your courage and fight are awesome. But we would have expected nothing less from a close friend of our goddaughter and favorite niece. Keep it up!
Bill and Vivian Tuerk
Bill and Vivian Tuerk <bill_tuerk@vetaff.senate.gov>
Fairfax, VA - Thursday, February 10, 2005 5:08 PM CST

Sunday Steve Ryan Jonathan and myself went to the Illinois mens basketball game. It was alot of driving but it was fun. Thank you uncle Jim for getting us the tickets and sorry about being late. Steve got to see some of the campus and we had lunch with our long lost cousin Brent. Well hang in there Steve with the chemo, its going to get better.
kyle
LaGrange, Ill US - Monday, February 7, 2005 7:02 PM CST

Hi there, Steve. Congratulations on your RFA procedure. Sounds like it went very well. Hopefully you get will get out of the hospital today and back to school tomorrow (or Monday). We hope you enjoy watching the Superbowl-we will be watching in Canada while on a ski trip (although I don't anticipate doing much skiing since this is our first big trip with a 2 month old!) Nathaniel Steven is smiling right now for you. Take care and we will see you in March. Keep up the positive attitude!
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Thursday, February 3, 2005 3:03 PM CST

Steve-
It's so good to hear all the positive news. Seems like those doctors know what they are doing and everyone's prayers are being heard. Keep that positive attitude going.
Take Care
Mrs P
Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Thursday, February 3, 2005 12:00 AM CST

Hey Steve, it was great to have you stay here on Saturday night. You are looking so healthy and strong, we are so grateful for that! Steve, the donations are pouring in for your benefit. I think it is important for people who view this website to know how appreciative all of the family is for such a great outreach from so many family and friends. I am so impressed at how loved you and your family are and how many people have responded to your situation. Thank you to everyone. Steve, we wish you the best of luck this coming week and know that you and your family are loved by all of us. love Aunt Pam, Uncle Jack,Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ.
Pamela Payne <PPayne 112@aol.com>
Western Springs , IL USA - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 0:44 AM CST

What great news that the chemo is doing what you hope! We pray for you as a family daily and know that you feel the power and comfort of the prayers of the hundreds of people regularly praying for you! Keep up your courageous fight!

The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, January 31, 2005 12:12 AM CST

3 Feathers:
A Native American Holy man tells this tale:
Amongst the tribes of the forest there lived a young brave
This brave althought the same age was little more than half the size of the the other braves
The little brave also spent more time studying plants and animals than engaging in the physical games of the other braves.
As young braves do they would make sport of the small one
saying that he was born without courage.
One day the men of the tribe were out on an overnight hunt.
The braves decided to play a trick on the small one
They told him that the tribes enemies were hiding in the forest preparing to attack and that also there were wolves and wild boar in the area and that all of the braves were going to leave the tribe to retrieve the men of the village and that he should stay behind and defend the women and children, tipi and horses.
The braves rode off and left the little one behind.
They returned the same time the men returned from their hunt and they told the warriors of the trick the played on the small one. They told the warriors they expected to see the small one hanging on to the clothes of his mother.

Instead what the found was the little one on guard, walking the village like a sentry. They found sharpened sticks, and arrows, in strategic places in the camp. They found tree limbs fashioned into weapons. They found the horses moved to a safe protected area and the women and children moved away from the village to a safe area in the forest.

The young braves in seeing all of the work the small one had done laughed as said he did this for nothing because it was a trick and there was no threat. But a holy man gave the small brave an eagle feather and a bear claw. When the braves saw this they said why should this little one get praised and honor when no courage was needed, when there was nothing to defend.
The holy man said that he showed the greatest courage of all. That the little brave did not know what lay ahead for him. That any warrior can fight when the enemy is upon you
and there is no choice to fight or die. But this little one was willing to prepare for his battle, to prepare to defend his village and for that he earned an eagle feather. But he also won a battle. The battle with the the urges to run and hide. He fought his demon within his spirit hour after hour with opportunities to run and hide, instead he fought with great courage to hold his post and for that he earned a bear claw.
3 Feathers, often you will be faced with the unknown.
Like the little brave, prepare for what faces you and face the known and unknown with the same courage.
The little brave chose to stay and fight
He chose victory over any other outcome
You must do the same
You cannot be defeated
You are a warrior strong in spirit
Live strong, Be strong

A.F.
- Saturday, January 29, 2005 4:55 PM CST

Steve, I was just playing solitare on the computer and it reminded me that your mom said that you set a family record for playing out. Could it have been under a minute? I am sure that you are better than I am. I can't take it all in fast enough. For you'all, cards are a real family thing, and our father, John, played all the time, particularly at the table in 3 Lakes looking out over Big Fork Lake. Two things, it kept his hands mobile as a surgeon (justification of some sort) and the other is that it was an open invitation to sit with him and talk. Gosh could he talk. Jeff has taken over his position at the table. From father to son to son. Steve, hang in there because the position is destined for you.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, January 27, 2005 7:35 PM CST

3 Feathers:

Native American braves, (Usually young men) would go through a sacred ceremony and embark on a �Vision Quest�
Although the �Quest� has many parts and traditions in short it was an attempt to determine ones destiny, to see what one can accomplish
This �Vision Quest� would involve a purification ritual and long periods of fasting
The brave would spend time in a lodge, and would leave his tribe and venture to a secluded, solitary place.
The brave would stare at the sun, and deny himself simple pleasures as he sought his purpose.
These quests were not a one time thing.
As life changed for the brave his purpose also changed and he would seek what new path the Great Spirit had planned for him by making another �Vision Quest�.
3 Feathers, you have been on a �Vision Quest� these many moons
and although no knows but the Great Spirit what is ultimately planned for you
one thing, one vision for you, is perfectly clear
Your quest was to unify your circle,
To bring together your friends, family, hunka, ancestors and strangers to one focus
You have accomplished this through your remarkable courage,
Your positive and strong spirit and your warriors heart
Your �Quest� was to bring your circle together and to be an example to all of courage and strength.
You are 3 Feathers, a revered warrior, strong in spirit
Live Strong, Be Strong

A.F.
- Thursday, January 27, 2005 12:05 AM CST

Great to see you and your Dad a couple Sundays ago. I'm still praying for you each day and that that still happens even when I'm in Orlando, Florida. Got to babysit some of my Grandkids - fun! It will get to 76 today [ 8-) ]. Congrats on the tests. Always disliked tests. Hope to see you soon.
George Winkler <geowinkler@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL - Thursday, January 27, 2005 10:43 AM CST

Friends and Family have created a new web site for more information on a number of fundraisers coming up for the Payne Family

stevejpayne.org

Please visit this website today!
Dawn Jacobsen <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
Orland Park, IL 60462 - Sunday, January 23, 2005 3:41 PM CST

Dear Steve,
You don't know me but I used to teach with your mom. I just learned about your illness tonight. You sound like the same great kid I used to hear her brag about. Please know that I will be praying for you daily and your family as well and will check on how you are doing. If you get sick of the snow and cold weather tell your folks to send you to see us or better yet bring the whole family! It is summer here!
Connie Rhodes <dcrhodes@terra.com.pe>
La Molina, Peru, So America - Saturday, January 22, 2005 10:13 PM CST

Dear Steve,
It was good seeing you at church last week. I decided to check the website again instead of trying to catch up with you and your parents or others who know the latest in your treatments. I'm glad you got up to Wisconsin for your Christms vacation and got to go snowmobiling. The pictures were great. We're glad to hear that the whole family was able to help you out with the chemo trips to the hospital over the last few weeks. Glad too you're keeping your weight up. Hope you continue to eat ok. We're all praying very earnestly for you all through all of this. We wish there was more we could do, and yet, that IS MORE--it's the best thing to do. We're thankful that you have such a loving and caring family and bunch of friends also surrounding you with their prayers and love. Keep the faith and know that we love you and continue to uphold all of you in our prayers. Love, Jeff, Kathy, Michael and Kimberly Gabriel
Kathy Gabriel <j-gabriel@sbcglobal.net>
Western Springs,, IL USA - Tuesday, January 18, 2005 4:34 PM CST

Hello Steve-
I'm glad the whole Payne clan was able to go to Wisconsin for the Christmas break. I really enjoyed seeing the pictures of you and the family having fun (inspite of the frigid temperatures).

Since our small group of 10, from Willow Creek Church, prays for you and your family each week, I plan to print the picture of you on the snowmobile and give each of them a copy.

My question is.... Do I need to have you sign a release form? You know like models? Just joking of course.

Mary Jean Vejr
Mary Jean <mjvejr@yahoo.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Friday, January 14, 2005 5:20 PM CST

Hey Steve! Sure sounds like you had a great Christmas and wonderful break with family and friends. Dan really enjoyed your feast at Wendy's, probably more than the Christmas dinner I slaved over. Bet you're enjoying that unique(?) gift from Coach K as much as the rest of the guys! We consider ourselves privilged to now have 2 blocks of wood in our house (Kyle got one last year for managing!)Know that you continue to be in our prayers as well as many of your friends who have signed on to pray for you on a specific day(s) of every month. I will get the prayer calendar to you as soon as we finish putting it together.
We are all hoping and praying that the new year will be filled with the most effective chemo, less nausea or an even better anti-nausea med, restored blood counts, miraculous CT scans, along with a complete remission of your cancer and maybe even a complete healing while He is at it! I know that God can handle all of that and whatever else you may need in the coming year! Love, Mrs. Olund

Donna Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Thursday, January 13, 2005 11:38 AM CST

Woo hoo!!! A new update! I continue to check daily with the hope of seeing good news. I'm glad to see this update. Here's hoping for great CT Scan results! Keep those updates and great new pictures coming!
Steve, keep on keepin on!
Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Wednesday, January 12, 2005 6:16 PM CST

Many moons have past since you began your battle
Each day you fight with a fearless might
Even the strongest Warriors grow physically weary from the constant struggle
It is now when the body is weakened that the spirit must be strongest
Call upon the strength of your circle
Call upon the strength of your ancestors
Remember that within you lives a piece of everyone in your circle who has come before you
Your enemy fears you
Your enemy has changed courses because you are a great warrior
Choose strength, reject weakness
Go to that place within your heart where courage lives and summon the strength to carry on the fight
You are a hero to many
Many more need you to show strength
Your acts soar with eagles
You are 3 Feathers, warrior strong in spirit
Live strong, Be Strong

A.F.
- Tuesday, January 11, 2005 5:35 PM CST

Hello there Steve and family! Happy New Year to you all! We hope your holiday was wonderful and relaxing. (and warm!) We continue to pray for you Steve and find ourselves sharing the story of your battle and courageous fight with many people. We are amazed how many of those people continue to pray and ask about your progress. You have been an inspiration to so many! Now that the holidays are over and everyone is back in school, remind someone to give us an update via the site so we can pass it along to all those prayer warriors......they are soldiers in this battle too!
Stay strong!
The Fritz's
Chas and Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL - Monday, January 10, 2005 8:45 AM CST

Steve and the Currans
Of course we know who you are!! You are one of the most wonderful and loving families we know and we share memories of and the future at 3 Lakes.
Carole Payne Knuti and the rest of the many Growin Paynes
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, January 6, 2005 11:47 AM CST

Happy New Year to the Payne family. So I guess the question is, do you have a clue who we are, Steve? Since we keep returning to these pages, be sure to clarify with your Mom and Dad who in the world we are. Our holidays were wonderful and we hope you too had a good Christmas. Our house was packed with "kids" and it couldn't have been better for us. Our grandson was here for a week and a half and we got to Connor sit alot. It just made our holiday! Then we headed for Minnesota on the 31st to meet up with lots of cousins for a weekend of family, family and more family. Right now we are trying to figure out when we can get to Three Lakes for a weeks stay. Everyone we know up there says it is beautiful with lots of snow and we need to come up and enjoy it. We just love the slower pace there plus the peace and quiet. I also get to snowshoe and that is such fun -- along with being extremely exhausting. I am a novice at it and so end up falling a lot and sinking deep in snow and then struggling to surface. Otherwise we are working on all the projects we put off by saying "after the holidays." Now we realize we have no more excuses! You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. Lois and Chris Curran
Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL DuPage - Wednesday, January 5, 2005 6:42 PM CST

Hey Steve, it is aunt Pam. As the weather gets worse, I'll bet you are glad your Dad is taking you down to Children's tomorrow and you are not stuck with Aunt Pam negotiating her way down Odgen Avenue. It was so great to be with you on Christmas day, we loved having Catherine here and it was great to see you in such good spirits. Hope the rest of the week goes well for you, our thoughts and prayers are with you always. Love Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Tuesday, January 4, 2005 11:50 PM CST

Hi Steve,
You don't know us, but Jeff and I are friends of your Dad's from high school. We recently heard about your cancer fight, and wanted to let you know you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

Jo and Jeff Slaga <jslaga@earthlink.net>
Denver, CO - Tuesday, January 4, 2005 8:48 PM CST

Hi Steve & Family,
As I have been praying for you lately, these verses just keep coming to my mind and I wanted to share them with you.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Jermiah 29:11-13
We are praying that you do really well in this series of chemo. Keep on fighting. There are so many of us praying for your complete recovery.
Love,
The Bieze Family
Suzanne Bieze <fraubz@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Tuesday, January 4, 2005 4:29 PM CST

Dear Steve,
A new year. 2005. Stay strong for the chemo that just started today. I intended to come by the hospital, but I bet that you and Ryan had a good time. I'll try to come by with Ellen this week as I think you are in during the day for the entire week getting loaded up with cancer fighting agents. Help those chemicals along by being feisty. Love you.
Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Monday, January 3, 2005 9:35 PM CST

Hi Steve,
I've been keeping up-to-date through the website, Mike Jr as well as many throughout the community. There's not a day goes by that the Peth's don't think about you and your family. Your bravery and attitude is inspiring to all. Matter of fact, just the other day I found an old document that made be think of you. I wish that I could say that I wrote it - but I can't. I do however believe it. I thought that I would include it here...titled ATTITUDE.

ATTITUDE
The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude is more important than facts. It�s more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company�a church�a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past�we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. The only thing we can do is play the on the one string we have; and that is our attitude� I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it.

Keep up your great attitude that we all read and hear that you are exhibiting each and every day.

The Peths
Mr. Peth <mpeth@sbcglobal.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Thursday, December 30, 2004 2:39 PM CST

3 Feathers:

The white man brought Christianity and Christmas to the native americans.
It was easy for missionaries to instill christian thought to the Indians as they were already deeply spiritual and lived in a rich spiritual world.
Much of the christian teachings were already in exisitance within the Indian nations in different forms.
There was already a firm sense of family (circle) values and a "do onto others" mentality.
Over time new christian actions were mixed with native american traditions.
These traditions are similar to the traditions that you 3 Feathers share with your circle.
Native americans looked upon these traditions as a conection to their ancestors.
To borrow from eastern religions, traditions are social "mantras". The mere act of participating in a traditional ritual puts the participant in a comfortable place amongst his circle and his "hunka" (relatives).
3 Feathers, your strong spirit comes from your circlr and your ancestors.
Do not miss an opportunity to participate in your circles traditional ritual.
Connect with your ancestors and circle.
It is from them that you will find the strength to continue your fight.
It is from them that you find that quiet place where courage lives.
Christmas has great meaning among christians, but it is the rituals of the this holy day that connects you to your circle and generates the strong spirit that is 3 Feathers.
Connect during this time, fortify your spirit, call upon your ancestors for strength.
YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, December 27, 2004 10:22 PM CST

Steve-
We are sorry that we did not make it to Chicago for Christmas this year. We really wanted to get over and see you, but we couldn't make it happen. Thanks for the great gifts for Nathaniel-he will look great. Hopefully, we will make it over in the next month or two-we will definitely be there for the benefit in March. Mullett Lake is always open to you and your family for snowmobiling-just let us know and we could meet you up there-maybe President's weekend? I hope you had a great Christmas and hope you have a great winter break from school. I hear you went to the Blue Man group. I hope you had a great time. Take care
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, - Sunday, December 26, 2004 9:58 PM CST

Steve, Merry Christmas!!! Sounds like things are going well!! So glad to hear the good news about the new treament. Enjoy Christmas break with no school or homework. Give our love to your parents and the rest of the family. All our love and prayers. Angie,John,Karen, and Kathy

The Scherlings <amsjts@netzero.com>
Littleton, CO USA - Friday, December 24, 2004 4:16 PM CST

Steve,

When Aunt Denise gave me the great news, all I could think about was the power of all those prayers and the absolute strength of your character. You are an inspiration to all of us. Keep the faith and have a great Christmas.

We love you and continue to pray for you.

Uncle Brad, Aunt Maura, Maddie, Brad and Fiona
Brad Parro <bmparro@aol.com>
Houston, TX - Friday, December 24, 2004 9:28 AM CST

Hey Steve
Its Pat and I hope that you are happy that Chirstmas is coming. You are a still a big inspiration to me even though we don't spend a lot of time together. You are always in my thoughts and prayers and I'm so happy that this scan has shown improvment. Enjoy the Chirstmas holiday.
Pat Kilrea <Dapatch15@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 22, 2004 1:10 PM CST

Hi Steve,
I just got your family Xmas card and letter. I was so happy to hear that you had some positive news and are staying so upbeat and strong throughout your illness. We really don't see you much, but don't think for one minute you are not in our thoughts and prayers. You have been since the moment we heard about the cancer. Boy, it just seems like yesterday we were in Sandusky, Ohio and you freaked out those little boys in the pool when you stood up and showed them your real size!! May the coming year
bring only good news for you and your family.
Kathy Coticchio

Kathy Coticchio <Coticch@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, December 20, 2004 2:08 PM CST

Dear Steve,
You have been such an inspiration to Dad and me. We are continually blessed by your great sense of humor and your continued positive attitude. We are so proud of you and love you so much. As we enter this season we look at the blessings in our life. God's son Jesus was a gift to all mankind. You are a gift from God to us as well. Remember to keep your eyes on Jesus for he will be your strength and he loves you more than you can imagine. We may not understand God's reasons but we know God's character and he will always be there for you. And so will Dad and I.
Love, Mom
Claudia Payne <bailey6682@aol.com>
- Saturday, December 18, 2004 5:50 PM CST

Steve, I think of you every night before I go to bed.

Many times I wish that I could meet AF. There has been much speculation as to AF's identity. The most charming of guesses was Tim Shinn's mother. Tim is married to Liz Pielsticker, Nancy's daughter. Liz and Tim were blessed to have a son, Nathaniel Steven Shinn, born on November 30, 2004, which is his great grandfather's (John W. Payne) birthdate in 1918. That is 86 years one birthday to another. Nancy (now a grandmother) and I (not a grandmother) are the daughters of John and Virginia Payne and Nancy Jane (our Aunt Jane is the sister of our father, John W. Payne) is the sponsor of this site. Notice the middle name connections? Back to Mrs. Shinn. She is married to a leader and minister of the Presbyterian Church and she is a forceful and wonderful woman in her own right. But, it is doubtful that she is AF. This abreviated family tree sounds very much like an AF family circle, as indeed it is.

To all of you who view this site may you have a Christmas of wonder, hope and love and hold in your hearts, Steve, our 3 Feathers. Thank you for your extraordinary inspiration AF.
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, December 16, 2004 11:37 PM CST

3 Feathers:

Many times after battle, warriors would gather in the sacred circle, smoke the pipe, and talk about their experience.
Often they would comment on not knowing how they survived the battle.
They would speak about being outnumbered in warriors or disadvantaged in weaponry.
They would thank the Great Spirit for his protection.
They would also recognize among themselves that they always believed they would win.
That they always believed that would survive.
Their attitude contributed to their success.
They chose to win when victory seemed impossible.
So it is with 3 Feathers.
3 Feathers attitude and courage have conquered 6 rounds of Chemotherapy.
3 Feathers belief that he will conquer has changed the enemies course.
You are not done.
Stay strong.
Call upon the strength of your circle and your ancestors.
Believe you will prevail and you will prevail.
Your warrior heart will defeat all enemies.
Choose victory.
You are a warrior strong in spirit.
You cannot, you will not be defeated.
Live Strong, Be Strong.

A.F.
- Tuesday, December 14, 2004 12:24 AM CST

Hey Paynes! Scott Curran here again. I check this site every day (sometimes multiple times) with the hope of an update. So I was glad to see the update today and am thrilled to hear that the new treatments appear to be heading in the right direction. That's great news!
Just wanted to let you know that more people are "checking in" than you may know and that you remain in our thoughts on a daily basis. Here's hoping for continued good news in updates to come! Merry Christmas to you all!
Scott
Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Monday, December 13, 2004 10:53 PM CST

3 Feathers:

Native Americans of the Southwest would create sand paintings on the desert floor
They would do this as a method to speak to the Great Spirit
They would ask for strength and courage and good fortune for their circle.
The painting would depict the courageous acts of brave warriors
The courageous acts of 3 Feathers is worthy of a sand painting memorial
You have faced 5 great chemotherapy challenges
You have emerged victorious
Your triumph is testimony to your iron will and strong spirit
You truly are a warrior
You bring honor to your circle
Your spirit soars with eagles.
You are a warrior strong in spirit
Live strong, Be strong

A.F.
- Monday, December 13, 2004 4:11 PM CST

Hi Steve,

As I pray for you daily, a verse keeps coming to mind that I want to share with you. Jeremiah 32:27 "I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?

Remember nothing is to difficult or hard for God to handle - bring all your concerns, fears, anger, joys, dreams and hopes to God! He created you and knows every hair on your head and loves you with a love that is beyond comprehension. Talk with God! He will answer!

Love you tons and look forward to seeing you tomorrow for our Chemo Day together - Day 5 Last day of Chemo - YEAH

Aunt Dawn

Dawn Jacobsen <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
orland park, Il USA - Thursday, December 9, 2004 10:27 AM CST

Hi Steve-

We continue to pray for your victory in this battle and are so thankful that God has given you and your family strong and courageous spirits! You are in our thoughts and prayers daily and we, too, hope to see you at a basketball game soon.
The Ellisons <JEstitch@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 8, 2004 12:20 AM CST

Dear Steve, I am thinking about you tonight as tomorrow would normally be my day to spend with you down at Children's Memorial. sorry I can't make it this time, but I am really hoping to be there the next time I can help out. I will miss you tomorrow and think about you all day, I am feeling a lot better and hoping you are also feeling well during this week of chemo. Hang in there and know that you are loved. Hope to see you soon. Love Aunt Pam
Pam Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs , IL USA - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 11:17 PM CST

hey steve
i still have the monkey in the freezer do you?
have a fun christmas
Michael Erickson <theshnitz@yahoo.com>
Rocky Mount, MO usa - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 7:02 PM CST

We continue to pray for your complete recovery.

May you all have a HAPPY CHRISTMAS.
Mary & John Graff <jgraff23@comcast.net>
Downers Grove, IL United States - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 2:05 PM CST

Steve: I haven't written in awhile, but you and your family are in my thoughts every day. Glad to hear your staying strong. Hope you have a wonderful holiday season and I feel blessed to know you and your family and thank you for that. Hope to see you at a basketball game soon. Love, Mrs. Verdin
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 9:12 AM CST

Steve Payne - it's been quite a while since you sat banging on a keyboard in my general music class but I remember you oh so well. I see that your positive nature, athletic skills and great character are serving you well in what I can only imagine is a scary and trying time for you and your family.
I hope that LT has been fun for you - sports, dances, friends, activities and oh yeah - school! Keep loving life Steve - you're a tough young man. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers

Kelly Paetsch (Miss Comiskey to you!)
Kelly Paetsch <paetscke@dist102.k12.il.us>
LaGrange park, Il USA - Monday, December 6, 2004 11:07 AM CST

A Pampered Chef Fundraiser
For Steve Payne
December 1-9, 2004

All Profits (30% of all orders) will go direct to the newly established Trust. Steven Payne Medical Trust

It�s easy to help:

Place an order for Pampered Chef products between Dec. 1 � 9, 2004. Simply go to www.pamperedchef.biz/nancyjo and place your order with payment and shipping information as requested.

When you enter the website, please click on �order from a show� (not the individual order button) and enter under �fundraiser� Steven Payne Medical Trust/Family if a family friend or family member or Steven Payne Medical Trust/School if you are associated with Steven�s school.

Most orders will be received by Christmas but to absolutely guarantee Christmas delivery you can have your order shipped directly to your home for a special shipping fee. We will do our best to have all products in your possession by Christmas.

If you have any questions about your order or shipping arrangements, please contact:
Nancy Jo Ryan, Independent Kitchen Consultant, The Pampered Chef at 708-342-0979 or at Topcluster@mac.com

If you have any questions about the Steven Payne Medical Trust or would like to send donations directly to the Medical Trust (and not place a Pampered Chef order), please contact:
Dawn Jacobsen (Claudia Payne�s sister) at 708-403-3734 or dawnjacobsen@comcast.net

Thank you for your support and participation in this worthy cause!

Dawn Jacobsen <dawnjacobsen@comcast.net>
Orland Park, IL USA - Friday, December 3, 2004 8:56 AM CST

Steve, The other day in my classes we took a break from the usual English stuff to talk about cancer, you, and the family. My special ed., inner city sophomores have NEVER been so attentive! One of my more rebellious students even said, "I think this is the best we've ever been in your class." They were awesome and so curious about you. I showed them the website and two of my crazy white girls said, "He's cute...for a white guy." To be honest, I saw my kids in a completely different light because they saw you as such a strong and amazing person...without even meeting you. I loved every single one of them, when usually they make me frustrated and exhausted. Thank you. Can't wait to see you again. Kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN USA - Wednesday, December 1, 2004 10:38 AM CST

Hey Steve, it is Aunt Pam, I have thought about you a lot during the last week after I had my surgery, why do you seem so much stronger than I am? could it be that you are just a really fit young man who heals up faster than any of us can believe? Anyway, it was great to be with you and your friends on Saturday night, we loved having you here. I hope to be ready for you on the next Wednesday that you need some help, it is my main goal to be there for you. I love you Steve and love the time we spend together. Love always, Aunt Pam
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Tuesday, November 30, 2004 10:13 PM CST

3 Feathers:
Over the past two weeks Native Americans have gathered in various places for �pow wow�.
They celebrated their culture and exchanged stories of great warriors.
They also called upon the Great Spirit for help and guidance.
The most widely used article in religious ceremonies today is the Sacred Pipe to carry out worship activities.
The Pipe is filled with sacred tobacco.
Each grain of tobacco represents part of the thousands upon thousands of things in the universe.
The fire of the great universe is thought to make the man smoking it become all the parts of the universe and be able to feel God�s presence within him.
The smoke rising is visible prayer,and all things are at peace with each other.
It is for this reason the Pipe is used.
The Pipe, representing the universe and man, is often smoked when visitors arrive.
The Pipe bowl, where tobacco is put, stands for the heart or sacred center of man.
The filled Pipe represents everything in the universe.
The fire represents the Great Spirit who created all things.
When one smokes the Pipe, he becomes one with God and the universe.
When the smoke rises to heaven, it is a visible prayer.
The pipe was smoked often for 3 Feathers, brave warrior.

The Great Spirit was asked for big medicine to help
3 Feathers in his battle.
3 Feathers must choose victory over defeat, for his circle and all of his ancestors.
3 Feathers has the heart of a bear and his courage soars with eagles.
3 Feathers is a warrior strong in spirit.
Live strong, be strong.

A. F.
- Tuesday, November 30, 2004 1:52 PM CST

Steve, it sounds like you have such an amazing family. I am not surprised though, because your mom is pretty wonderful. I just thought I would drop a line to let you know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers daily. I am happy to hear that you had a nice holiday. I look forward to hearing all of the good news that the future has to bring.
Chris Guide
Chicago, - Monday, November 29, 2004 8:32 PM CST

Steve and Family
Thanks for coming downtown to our place for Thanksgiving dinner. The Paynes rotate the big event dinners and this Thanksgiving dinner was my turn. We were at a modest number for us (21) because Jim and his now very large family (11 counting 2 children and their wonderful spouses and 5 grandchildren) stay in Indianapolis but join the Chicago group on the afternoon Christmas Day. So, that gathering is really getting well up into the double digits (over 35) Lucky us! It is quite something to have the Jeff Paynes arrive because everyone, except Claudia is over 6'5" and all of a sudden the rooms are full of people talking and laughing. The guys even got in some ping pong. One interesting thing is that now that there aren't any little kids for dinners, we easily comsumme lots of turkey. Even Jess and Josh, Jay and Dawn's children, are not in the little kid category any longer. The sink drainage problem turned out to be a blessing because no dishes could be washed, at least after dinner, and sitting around talking was the best. Kyle, thank you for having Anna come and join us. Jeff gave the Thanksgiving blessing, as usual, and included a prayer for Steve.
So, there was much talk about the now Payne tradition of early Fri. shopping starting with a 4:30 am or so breakfast, but I understand that our thrifty shoppers (Jack, Jeff,Claudia, Nan, Katie and JJ) got in lines at about 5:30, had fun, made some purchases and then had a group breakfast. Eating seems to be the theme here followed by ping pong (Nan and Jeff bought a new table for Three Lakes because our lively players have dished out some rough play on the now old table).
I am grateful that we gathered as a family for Thanksgiving and giving thanks.
Carole Payne Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Monday, November 29, 2004 11:01 AM CST

Hi Payne Family, I am sitting here letting all the good Thanksgiving food I consumed turn to lard. My excuse is it is raining outside and too nasty to walk two miles. Chris is sure it is because I plan to buy only elastic waist jeans from now on! We hope you had a good holiday. No update in a bit so I am always hesitant to assume anything. We hope you had the traditional turkey and a dozen side dishes and a fun Payne day full of relatives and friends. My Mom was in for the holiday and I showed her this website and the pictures. You know, Jeff, she holds you in a special place in her heart after all the time you worked on projects here and she was child sitting. I think your willingness to eat anything she baked made you a "tall adopted son" she doesn't forget! We are into getting the furniture moved to set up Christmas trees. We went to Wilmington to cut trees the day after Thanksgiving -- a Curran tradition. We found trees in record time and they are in buckets in the garage just waiting for Chris to check a mountain of lights before we bring them in to decorate. Steve and Scott both took their trees home and put them up the same day. Old age keeps us at a slower pace! Steve, we hope you get in on some of the holiday hustle and rush, shopping and fun. Did you get out in the snow? Any orders from the parents about shoveling? It was perfect for making snowballs! Have a good week. We await the next update. Love, Lois and Chris Curran
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Saturday, November 27, 2004 3:31 PM CST

Dear Payne family, We are so thankful for the friendship that we've developed through the boys' basketball years with the Lions,at Park and as freshmen. We miss seeing all of you at the tournament games this weekend, especially you Steve, on the floor. The boys are 2-0 and playing their last game of the tournament against Gorden Tech tomorrow at 10AM. I know that's early, especially for you, Steve, but it sure would be great to see all of you there - we miss you so much! You continue to inspire us with your faithfulness. God is glorified when those who suffer continue in faithfulness. Our prayers are with all of you.
Donna Olund
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Friday, November 26, 2004 10:31 PM CST

Steve-
You've been my best friend for a long time now and I'm so happy to see that you are fighting this disease with such strength. I wish that I could see you more but basketball takes up a lot of my time. Make sure to eat a lot of food over this great Thanksgiving break. You are always in my thoughts and in my prayers. You're the best friend anybody could ever have. I hope that we can start making more memories from where we left off some time ago. You're the man Steve, stay strong and live strong.
Pat Kilrea <Dapatch15@aol.com>
LGP, IL United States - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 11:11 PM CST

Thanksgiving is a time to reflect back on all the blessings in our lives. Even though this has been a very tough year, we can see so many things to be thankful for.
We are thankful for Kyle, Ryan, and Steve- three of the most remarkable sons any mom or dad could ever ask for. Our families are also an incredible blessing and are always there to encourage and support us. We can not forget our dear friends who have supported us every step of the way. We truly are blessed and thank God daily for all he has given us. Thank you one and all. And lastly we thank our God who has been faithful and has sustained us with his peace and grace. Jeff and Claudia
Claudia and Jeff <bailey6682@aol.com>
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 9:44 PM CST

Thanksgiving is almost here. Please write to let everyone know what tops your "Thankful" list.

I am most thankful for the support from the Payne's friends. Family is family and we were taught to exhibit unconditional love toward each other. Friends reach deep within their hearts to celebrate a family that has touched them throughout the years.

Bless you all!!!
Nancy Moroz <nancy_moroz@aon.com>
- Tuesday, November 23, 2004 11:22 AM CST

I can't wait any longer to finally get home for Thanksgiving! Steve, I'm excited to see you since it has been awhile and I hear you are doing great! Can't wait to see the rest of the family either! Love you guys. Keep on truckin'. (If you know what movie this is from, you've earned major points in my book...ok, I'll tell you, it's Old School.) Kt Payne
kt <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN USA - Monday, November 22, 2004 10:52 AM CST

Hi all- Tim and I had a very nice dinner last night with Ryan and Lauren (sorry if I misspelled) in Ann Arbor. It was nice to catch up on what is going on through Ryan and the update on the website (thanks Mom). I'm glad this last round of chemo wasn't as bad and that you could go home in the evening. I've seen a lot of people not do as well with chemo as you are doing. That's a testament to you and your family's strength. I'm happy to hear about your weight gain-that's a great sign. I hear school is going well and that you are getting good grades. Good job. Sounds like there are going to be some major changes in your chemo regimen coming up that sound very promising. We wish you, Jeff, Claudia, Kyle, and Ryan the very best. Stay strong everyone!
Liz and Tim <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Sunday, November 21, 2004 7:45 AM CST

Dear Payne Family,
You are never far from my thoughts and prayers...I read your updates...vicariously going to homecoming, etc! I miss working with Claudia; I so looked forward to her "hanging out with me" fourth period...I wish you all a most joyous peaceful, restful Thanksgiving...
Barbara Johnson <J1JABAR@AOL.com>
Downers Grove, IL USA - Saturday, November 20, 2004 10:43 AM CST

Dear Steve,
As we are preparing for Brett's wedding this weekend I wanted to take just a minute to remind you that we are still thinking and praying for you each day! We have lots of friends of your parents that are coming in for the weekend and they will join us as we ask our mighty, wonderful God to strengthen you this week. Have a great thanksgiving and eat lots of your mom's good cooking! We are anxious for another good report on your progress!
Love, The Fritz's
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
- Wednesday, November 17, 2004 7:07 AM CST

Dear Steve,
I am one of your brother's instructors at North Central College. I can always tell how great people are by how important they are to their family. Your brother sent me your website and asked me to check it out. Although I would perfer that he didn't miss class, I realize that you must be a special person and time with you is precious. My prayers are with you and your family.
Collin Barnes
Naperville, IL - Monday, November 15, 2004 8:33 AM CST

Steve, I'm thinking about you and going to be checking the clock because by 5pm today you should be out of Children's headed home having finished round 5 of chemo. Congratulations to our brave, fun, handsome and most wonderful young man! Love, Aunt Carole
cknuti@msn.com <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Friday, November 12, 2004 2:00 PM CST

3 Feathers:
Your wakan (spirit) will be very strong this weekend. Native Americans will be at pow wow at the University of Illinois Chicago pavilion celebrating their accomplishments, culture and bravery this weekend.
Your circles strong spirit will mix with the strong spirit of the pow wow to create big medicine. The pipe will be smoked and drums beat to send messages to the Great Spirit.
3 Feathers bravery in conquering chemo 5 will soar with Wamdi (eagles) close to The Great Spirit.
You have accomplished much. Your circle is enriched by your strength. Rest, eat and get strong. Your warrior spirit has battles ahead. You cannot be defeated. Choose victory over defeat. You have the strength of 1,000 braves. Believe you will prevail� and you will prevail.
YAAWSIS LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, November 12, 2004 12:52 AM CST

Hey Steve, I am happy to hear you finished your latest round of chemo. The word, "hero" has been used often to describe you. I wonder how you feel about that, because you are such a humble person. I would agree with those who call you a hero. I know you didn't choose your circumstances, but most heroes don't. It is how one reacts to those circumstances, that makes them heroic. A hero inspires the people around them to do wonderful things, maybe even "heroic" things as well; like the close friends and family around you.

I ask God to continue to work in you the blessings that are flowing out from you and your family. I thank God for reminding me how good people can be.
Rick Olund
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Thursday, November 11, 2004 6:09 AM CST

Hey Stevie, another round of chemo behind us and counting. I think today was kind of an adventure, you saw another side of Chicago driving down Ogden Avenue, I know it took us a long time, but at least we kept moving. I was so impressed by you today, you have such a presence about you when it comes to giving information to the nurses or whoever comes in. you truly seem to have a real ownership in your treatment. I was so proud of you and pleased to be a part of your day. Steve, I don't want to sound corny, but you are truly a hero to me, a brave young man who just stands up and does what has to be done, god bless you always and know that you are truly loved and respected during this battle.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Spings, IL USA - Wednesday, November 10, 2004 11:57 PM CST

3 Feathers:
Women in Native American culture were silent warriors.
They would work in the background, often tending to the wounded in battle or gathering and cleaning the kills after a great hunt.
Warriors understood the great gift women possessed. The ability to present life.
The earth itself was called the �the great mother� or �grand mother� by many tribes because the earth possessed the same gift.
Strong warriors like yourself, need women to help them. Not because they are less strong but because they have greater capacity to care for life.
At a time when the great warrior, 3 Feathers, is facing another challenge (chemo 5), call upon the spirit of your ancestors for strength.
Not just father and fathers father,
but mother and aunt and grandmother.
There are always women with strong spirits who created warriors with strong spirits.
They may stand behind the warrior in battle or on hunts but should never be in his shadow.
Your circle is filled with strong women.
Their spirit is your spirit.
They too are warriors.
Together you pull the canoe in the same direction.
They believe in you.
Believe in yourself.
Believe you will prevail and you will prevail.

YAAWSIS LSBS

A.F.
- Tuesday, November 9, 2004 6:00 PM CST

Steve,
Another wonderful Steve Monday! This is the first day of Round five and the blessing is that it is being done as an outpatient in the hospital. It is a busy time with your dad taking you in, your mom picking you up and I filled in during the middle. It seems more relaxing in the day area of the hospital but the primary focus is what time do I get out and what is the traffic going to be like on the way home. I got to see the end of Saving Private Ryan with you (you had the earphones). Stay strong and keep smiling.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Monday, November 8, 2004 4:57 PM CST

Steve:

You don�t know us, but we feel that we know you! We are a group of teachers from Laidlaw School, and we know Kyle and Ryan from the days when you all lived on Lawn Avenue. We have been meeting as a prayer & share group every Wednesday at the lunch hour for the last five years; now that we are all retired, we are not restricted to 60 minutes so if there are a lot of requests or praise items, we can extend the time! We have been praying for you and your family especially since your treatments began and were thrilled to see you in church today : ). We shall keep up with your progress via the site and look forward to God�s power in your situation.

Blessings from Mrs. Cummins, Mrs. Whittaker, Mrs. Frey, Mrs. Winkler, Mrs. Powers,
Mrs. Helin

Janet Helin <jhelin44@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, November 7, 2004 6:55 PM CST

Stevie,
I hope you had a wonderful time at homecoming! You and your date looked great! We miss you all so much and hopefully we can all get together sometime soon and play some SPADES (hopefully Kyle won't cheat this time, like he always did!!) I miss all the good times we all had together!! Well Steve, I just wanted to let you and your wonderful family know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers every day. Hope to see you soon! Love, Jenna Erickson
Jenna Erickson <jnewbc@mizzou.edu>
Columbia, MO - Friday, November 5, 2004 0:25 AM CST

Stevie , you and Katherine are such a cute couple. Ilove being able to see what's going on in your life through pictures. It's so hard for me to be so many miles away from you guys at this time. I will be in Chicago next week so I'm planning to see you in the hospital when your having your chemo. Bring the cards and the chips, time will fly while I,m kicking your butt at poker!!!!Ha!! I will talk to your mom about which day. Your constantly in my thoughts and prayers. Can't wait to see you. Peggy
Peggy Erickson <twodogs22@comcast.net>
Rocky Mount, mo usa - Thursday, November 4, 2004 8:41 PM CST

3 Feathers:
These pages say that a new member of your circle will soon be named after you.
Native American naming ceremonies were great events and celebrations and the taking of ones name by another was viewed as a sacred event and a display of reverence. 3 Feathers this is a great honor bestowed upon you and is an indication of the honor you bring to your family and circle through your brave acts. You have been a hero to many.
Your positive attitude and acts of courage serve as an example to all members of you circle.
Your bravery is legend and your story will be told by holy men for many moons.
He who bears your name will live in honor and will forever be filled with your strong spirit.
You have the strength of many braves.
The spirit of your ancestors and all that came before you strengthens your spirit.
Nothing can defeat you.
Your warrior heart beats strong.
Believe you will prevail and you will prevail.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS LSBS

A.F.
- Wednesday, November 3, 2004 4:12 PM CST

Hi Steve,
I love seeing your Homecoming picture and am so glad you had a great time!!! The messages indicate you are quite comfortable on the dance floor and must come by your great moves from your mom and dad!!

I have been thinking about you everyday and keeping you in my prayers. I have a question for you. A friend of mine who underwent chemo several years ago really loved rice pudding. It seemed to agree with her when lots of other foods didn't. Have you tried that? I would love to bring some by so let me know if you are willing to risk my cooking!!

I'm sitting in my office at Park, and every now and then I am in our old math classroom for a meeting. My job includes working with teachers and students on classroom environment in all five of the schools in our district. It is really fun to see the whole scope of ages from kindergarten classes to eighth grade classes. I was working on Project Linus with the 7th and 8th grade classes last week.

Hope to see you soon.
Sue Johnston
Sue Johnston <donsuej_2000@yahoo.com>
LaGrange, IL Cook - Wednesday, November 3, 2004 10:00 AM CST

3 Feathers:

These are the words of Black Elk a great Lakota Chief.

"The light of the Sun enlightens the entire Universe; and as the flames of the Sun come to us in the morning, so comes the goodness of Wakantanka , The Great Spirit, by which all creatures are enlightened. It is because of this that the four-leggeds and the wingeds always rejoice at the coming of the light. We can all see in the day, and this seeing is sacred, for it represents the sight of that real world which we may have only through the eye of the heart. �
3 Feathers, you are bringing Light into the Universe, through your courageous acts. Stay strong and fight fearlessly. Your strength brings meaning and great benefit to your circle.
You are a warrior strong in spirit.
Live Strong, be strong

A.F.
- Tuesday, November 2, 2004 1:34 PM CST

Hi Stevie

Guess who! You cheat at cards and are so smug about it. I guess you have bragging rights on me for awhile. My loot of mints is gone because of your acute betting skills and poker face. Next time Ill get ya! Sounds like that should be a week from Friday. Just think another 6 hours with just me! I look forward to our rematch and conversation next week. As always, I am in on constant prayer for you! Dont forget to Brusha Brusha Brusha

Till then. Guess who?
A very bad poker playing family member <djacobsen@ibbotson.com>
- Monday, November 1, 2004 9:58 PM CST

Hi Steve,
Love the Homecoming pictures! You look great!!! Tanya said she saw you at the dance and that you were having lots of fun. Honey, you and your wonderful family continue to be an inspiration to us with your positive attitude and love for life. Every day we think of you and your family and pray for you. May God richly bless you all.
Love,
The Bieze Family

The Bieze Family <fraubz@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL - Monday, November 1, 2004 10:15 AM CST

steve, a few years ago, angie and i used to go dancing with your parents in downtown chicago at a real cool joint called "finleys". just ask them; they'll remember. our favorite song was "whip it" by devo. maybe you've heard of that classic. i'm sure your folks will recall. the bottom line is: we've seen those fabled "payne dance moves". anyway, keep up the good work. we're with you. LT RULES!!
john, angie, kathy, and karen scherling <amsjts@netzero.com>
littleton, co usa - Sunday, October 31, 2004 8:46 PM CST

Steve,
I called to see what is up with my Monday with Steve and talked to your Dad as hordes of trick and treaters came to your house. The news was that the next chomo round has been delayed until next week, maybe Monday, because the counts were low. I guess that means the chemo is doing what it is designed to do and the good news is that you have a week at school and and home with friends and family. So, Happy Halloween, Steve. BOO!
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Sunday, October 31, 2004 5:39 PM CST

3Feathers:

Look for a peaceful weekend to spend with your circle.
After the lunar eclipse look in the heavens for signs of the Great Spirit and the big medicine he provides.
Your acts of courage have soared with eagles and run with deer.
Your spirit wambdi has mixed with the spirit of your ancestors and the spirit of the earth, winds, sun and moon.
Rest, eat and get strong to fight as the mighty warrior you are.
You are 3 Feathers Warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS
A.F.
- Friday, October 29, 2004 4:40 PM CDT

Hey Steve-
I am not sure you will remember me from your Park Junior High days�
I have many fond and funny memories of you from Advisory and of you, Mike P and Jacob acting out Social Studies projects. I just heard yesterday of all you have been going through and I needed to let you know I was thinking of you.
To borrow a quote Mr. B often uses: �Heroes are just ordinary people that do extraordinary things.� After reading your messages from family and friends it is clear that you are that hero. Take care and I am praying for you and your family.
Mrs. Moran

Amy Moran <amymoran27@msn.com>
LaGrange , IL United States - Thursday, October 28, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

Hi Payne Family, Thank goodness for a new update! We were thrilled to sign on and see it and really enjoyed the new pictures too. It sounds like things are going well right now and we are pleased about that. The previous picture of you in the car Steve, was eye opening to us. Chris and I both looked at it and said "that is Jeff" -- obviously in his younger days! Guess we hadn't noticed such a resemblance before. We figured your good looks were all from your Mom! It is good to see all of you and we will continue to check on news. Love, Lois and Chris Curran
Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 10:12 PM CDT

Hi there Steve. I'm sure you are probably tired of hearing how great you and Kathryn look in the Homecoming pictures, but it's true. I'm glad you had a great time. I don't know if you have heard, but Tim and I plan to name our baby Nathaniel Steven. Suffice it to say that you, your brothers, and your parents have been inspirational. I hope school is going well for you. I hear that you are going to be able to spend nights at home during the next round of chemo. That sounds great! Take care.
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 9:35 PM CDT

3 Feathers

It has been written on these pages that 3 Feathers, needs blood.
Two of the four great Indian values are courage, and generosity.
Warriors were taught that it is better to give a lot than to have a lot.
They were taught that a person who does something dangerous to help another deserves honor and respect.
Giving ones own blood for another deserves honor and respect.
Hunka, those connected by their spirit, would do anything for their circle.
Giving blood is an act that soars with eagles, close to the Great Spirit.
3 Feathers has shown us how to face danger with grace and dignity.
He is fearless. So should we be.
3 Feathers, you are a warrior.
Your circle will support you.
Hunka, send a smoke signal to LifeSource Blood Services @ 800-486-0680.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Wednesday, October 27, 2004 11:09 AM CDT

Hi Steve, You are looking great. I'm glad that you are eating so well. Keep up your strength and the positive attitude. It was fun going out to dinner with you and Katherine last weekend for sweetest day. Take care, Anna.
Anna Mryczko <sockrchick21@hotmail.com>
morton grove, il - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 0:39 AM CDT

3 Feathers

This Wednesday night will be the last lunar eclipse for 3 years.
The moon will disappear for several minutes as the earth passes between the sun and the moon.
Native Americans would be frightened by these dramatic changes in nature.
They were frightened because they did not understand.
They would search for the message in these events from the Great Spirit.
Did this mean that their crops and animals would die?
Did it mean their enemies were approaching?
Warriors would use these changes in nature to test themselves and their courage.
They were prepared to take on any challenge that these changes would bring.
�If the moon should vanish from the sky and leave the land black, a true warrior was prepared to adapt to life in darkness�.
Always the moon would reappear, yet a warriors reputation would be enhanced by his bravery in facing whatever nature had to offer, and his circle would be uplifted to know that he was prepared and would lead his people even through the darkness.
3 Feathers you are that warrior.
Your courage is great.
Your bravery legendary.
Your spirit strong.
Your circle is uplifted by your approach to each challenge.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit.
Live strong, be strong.

A.F.
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 6:23 PM CDT

Steve!
Alicia took you to Children's in morning rush hour traffic. She is a gem. I found the two of you at noon after you had consumed one bag of platelets and one and 1/2 bags of red cells. It is really red, isn't it. If any of us are wondering how we can help, in a global sense, we can contribute blood. Steve had four transfusions of red blood cells today. I'm a real chicken, but I'm thinking this is what I should do notwithstanding. Thank you all you donors out there. We need you, Steve needs you. The nurse said that Steve is not making blood the way a body should and he needs the transfusions to keep his strength up, although he hadn't noticed a problem. Thanks be to God. We had a lot of laughs this afternoon. Spending time with you Steve is quality time, because you are a quality kind of guy. Another great day. Thank you.
Love, Aunt Carole (the pesty interloper who lives five blocks from the hospital)
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 6:21 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Well, Monday, yesterday, was my Steve day but I got off to a slow start and missed you in the morning before you went to school. I did get there in the evening in time to see Kyle before he went off to the Bulls game, you and your parents. I had made some lasanga from the Prince package recipe and I'm waiting for a review. I plan on stopping by the hospital today where you are right now getting a platelet transfusion. It takes six hours, what a surprise, and Alicia, bless her heart and blood system, is with you since this is her Tuesday. Your Dad said that these two new chemos did not lower your white count, but did affect your platelets. Go figure. And, more news to all, in the last week Steve has gained 8 pounds, which means you have not been munching on salads! Go Steve, eat lots of lasanga. I love your smile. You, by your parents account, had a great weekend, going out with Kathryn. I didn't get any details, but I'm on a need to know basis. Claudia has hopes that during your transfusion you will do homework. Any chance? Multitasking is a real challenge. See you soon.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 10:30 AM CDT

3 Feathers:

The drum is a sacred instrument in Native American ceremony.
The beating of a drum speaks directly to the Great Spirit.
The tribes holy man (shaman) would identify who could be behind a drum creating its beat.
The beating would reflect the rhythms of life.
Warriors lived in the rhythm of life.
Neither too fast or too slow
but in perfect time with nature and the earth�s movements.
One of your relatives wrote on these pages that 3 Feathers is a patient, Patient.
Indian elders taught young warriors patience.
They taught that, when the sun rises, then we see clearly what things are.
This lesson is to not act hastily in the dark, better to wait until daylight to act when all can be seen.
3 Feathers lives within life�s rhythm and creates the drum beat for his circle.
You have shown your tribe, how to be courageous, how to be strong, how to be patient.
Your legend is mighty. Your sprit strong.
You are 3 Feathers Warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, October 25, 2004 3:00 PM CDT

Hello Steve,
So glad to hear you had a good homecoming. We can't wait to see those pictures on the website. We check in everyday, hoping for good news as we continue to pray for you and your family. We are so glad you are a child of God and that you depend on Him for strength as you fight this fight.
We'll watch for those photo's soon (hint! hint!)
The Ft. Myers Fritz Family
L. Fritz <lfritz@neom.com>
- Monday, October 25, 2004 11:04 AM CDT

Dear Stevie & Family,
Just a note to let you know that you are remembered daily in the thoughts and prayers of the morning Mass community of The Church of St.Luke in El Cajon, California. May God bless you and keep you safe all ways; at all times; and may He continue to hold you in the palm of His hand.

JMJ/ vivian & george simon
vivian simon <VIV2009@COX.NET>
El Cajon, CA USA - Sunday, October 24, 2004 4:39 PM CDT

Steve,

Haven't signed in for awhile, but keeping up on your progress. Ahhh, I remember homecoming - very fun - great to hear you had a great time and that some things don't change! I'm taking notes on the Indian traditions in this journal, I'll be an Indian Guides chief next year and I plan on barrowing some of these inspiring thoughts! You continue to be in our prayers and thoughts everyday. Say hi to your family and keep up the fight - you have an awesome team supporting you!
Troy, Sue, Alex, Laura, Megan Kimberling <troykimberling@ascential.com>
LaGrange, IL - Friday, October 22, 2004 3:52 PM CDT

3 Feathers

Native Americans believed that the number 4 was sacred.
They associated much with the 4 directions and winds (East, North, West , South)
The 4 directions served as a model for the 4 great values of Native Americans.
The Four Values Generosity, Courage, Respect and Wisdom are the Four Directions on which a good life depends.
The Elders of the Tribe give these Values to the young by the way the Elders live.
The Holy Man and his helpers tell the stories of brave men and women who had these values.
Warriors learned that it is better to give a lot than to have a lot.
They learn that a person who does something dangerous to help another person deserves honor and respect.
They learn that all things live in harmony.
They learn to respect the places of the other things.
They learn that, when the sun rises, then we see clearly what things are.
Warriors, like 3 Feathers, lived their lives by these values.
It is their code.
You have learned these values from your parents and grandparents.
The fact that you have such a strong circle of friends and family indicates that you embody the four values.
Your acts of courage soar with eagles and are stories told by Holy Men.
You must fight on fearlessly.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, October 22, 2004 1:44 PM CDT

3 Feathers

These pages say that you have danced a great dance and celebrated with your youthful circle.
You have experienced the joy of your connection to that circle and brought joy to all you have touched.
The stand of cottonwood trees was revered by Native Americans because from a distance they stood tall and strong and looked like individual trees, yet the entire stand of trees was not made up of individual trees but were all connected by their roots as if they were but one tree.
So are you connected to your youthful circle and your family circle and the circle of your ancestors.
Your spirit is strong individually but you are connected to the spirit of your great circle.
The spirits of your great circle stand with you as you face your challenge.
Your acts of courage in the face of your challenge inspires your nation.
Your ability to enjoy each moment of life as you face each challenge shows your circle how strong your spirit grows.
Believe and you will prevail.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Thursday, October 21, 2004 3:52 PM CDT

Dear Fam,
I've seen the pictures of homecoming and all of you are in for a real treat. Steve and his Kathryn (I'll get it right sometime) are SO beautiful, wonderful, handsome, happy and comfortable. It almost made me want to be younger again, just seeing the pictures of two people who are, catch this, color coordinated. You'll see. Homecoming has a whole new meaning for me.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 10:06 PM CDT

Steve and Family,
I thought I had sent you guys a message, but I guess i
must not have read the instructions well.
Anyway, Steve, we are thinking about you everyday.
I'm so glad you got to go to LT's Homecoming. I'm sure
you were quite handsome!
Michael is at Naz. Did you know that? He loves it.
He enjoys the small school feeling....he's a little shy.
I'm hiding out in the basement right now cuz' Mr.Garabedian
and Michael are watching game 7 of the Yankees vs. Bo Sox
game...Yankees are getting creamed. Mr. G. is a HUGE
Yankees fan (he grew up in upstate NY...went to Syracuse).
Anyway, he's not a happy camper right now.
Hang in there, Steve. Hello to your folks.
Fondly, Anne Garabedian
Anne Garabedian <haigcg@worldnet.att.net>
La Grange, IL USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 9:22 PM CDT

3 Feathers:

Native Americans understood that you are the living embodiment of every joy you've ever experienced.
You are the accumulated wisdom gained from every difficult challenge you've ever faced.
You are the young brave who danced gleefully in the new snow.
You are the wonder, the curiosity, the thrill of each new discovery.
You are so much more than just the circumstances of this challenging moment.
You are all the life you've known, all the days you've experienced.
You carry with you the joys from the good times and the strength that the difficult times have forged.
As a strong warrior you've gained confidence when things have gone your way,
and determination when things have not. What you share with your circle from your experiences is more than can be measured. Your strength makes all members of your circle better.
Remember all of who you are. You are the product of all of your experiences and the experiences of your great ancestors. Their spirit is connected to you and gives you strength. You must fight with a fearless might to honor their name.
You cannot be defeated.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Wednesday, October 20, 2004 10:44 AM CDT

Hi Steve. Thinking about you (as always) and wanted to drop a line. That's great that round 4 is over and your feeling good. Can't wait to see some homecoming pictures --the word is that it was a great time. All that eating your aunt described makes me crave junk food. Stay strong and as always you and your family are in my prayers. Love, Mrs. Verdin
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL 60525 - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 8:28 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Family:

I am grateful to have this website to keep up on your progress and to share in some of the encouragement and feelings found here. Times like these bring out the best in people. If there is anything we can do, please call. We continue to pray for you all.

Rick Olund
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 5:17 PM CDT

3 Feathers:

You have another significant victory over Chemo Treatment 4
Yet you are still 3 Feathers, warrior.
Naming ceremonies were very important to Native Americans
and treated as sacred events.
Although names would sometimes change,
a name given in a ceremony was to depict the actions and essence of an individual.
In your case the name 3 Feathers symbolizes the speed at which you conquered 3 such significant challenges and earned eagle feathers.
Such accomplishment for such a young warrior.
The eagle, wambdi, and the eagle feather are sacred as wambdi fly in the sky closest to the Great Spirit.
Your feats of courage soar with the wambdi.
Only two eagle feathers are alike, they are called the twin feathers.
The rest are different.
If a warrior was fortunate enough to get twin feathers
he would many times keep one twin feather and give the other to a mate who waits in the village as he faces his challenge.
You are 3 Feathers because of what you have done.
There is much left to do.
Only a warrior with a strong spirit could face these challenges.
You must get strong.
You cannot be defeated.
You are 3 Feathers warrior, strong in spirit.
You have earned bear claws and can paint your pony with the story of your victories.
Your legend is great.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 3:27 PM CDT

Dear Steve.
Yesterday was my Steve Monday. And so even though you had a teacher institute day off from school and were by all accounts feeling well (no mouth sore or nausea), I headed to your house to see what I could do. To my chagrin the ddor was locked and that was followed by my wonder that you were up on a day off at (:45 to open the door. You were up and waiting for you delightful home health care nurse who asppeared shortly after Aunt Dawn dropped by too as planned.
Regular party people we are. Good news is that your weight had not dropped and you even gained a pound or two or three, not that you look beefy yet by any means. Since I'm on the other end of the weight scale fighting to lose a pound, it is really fun to push high caloric food. Let me see, while I was there you had a pizza munchable, a BR chocaolate milk shake (Dawn's and my sole contribution to the day) and half of a sarah Lee coffee cake (shared with Nathan), with plans for a slice of pizza as an afternoon snack followed by a formal dinner for 8 prepared by Katherine (sp?) for her class assignment at LT. It takes my breath and stomach away. And I say kudos and keep it up!!
You told me about the hydration process after you left the hospital. For close to two days you had a back pack filled with the hydration material (a glucose solution?). Now, I know next to nothing about why you need this hydration, except that we all do and they talk about it in the hospital all the time. Maybe it is to flush the chemo out, maybe? All I know it that it is very important and expect me to ask you what this is all about the next time I see you. I want to get with the program.
I'm grateful and counting blessings that this round four of chemo did not produce the same distressing side affects
Finally, as last, I am wondering if now that you are through round four if you are now Steven 4 feathers? If it takes a full bonnet of feathers to beat this, you can do it.
It was a great day, thank you.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 10:17 AM CDT

Dear Steve: Even though Sally and I are babysitting Grandchildren in California, we are still thinking about and praying for you every day. Sounds like the Homecoming was big success. Great! We know you are coping well. Hi to your Mom and Dad.
George and Salyy Winkler <geowinkler@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 5:06 PM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,
I do hope you are reading this at home and not in the hospital. Four chemos down!! Hope you can get back to school soon.
I wanted to let you know that the ladies in the LT Mom's prayer group continue to pray for you often. Praying for healing, peace and comfort.
Psalm 33:21,22 "Let your unfailing love surround us, O Lord, for our hope is in You".
Marilyn Mathieson <mathieson@ameritech.net>
LaGrange, IL - Sunday, October 17, 2004 3:49 PM CDT

Steve,
I just noticed on the first page that this site has been visited 3561 times. Wow!! Keep up the good work all you people out there and sign in and leave a message. Over three thousand times and I think that I account for a little over 100. Pam and I both check this site before we wrap it up for the day. It is like saying good night to you and tucking you safely into bed. What shall we do tomorrow?
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 1:16 PM CDT

Steve, you did it!! Round four of chemo is over and you said that they would release you at 1 pm today, Saturday. What a great day. Home to the family and comfort. For all of your friends not at the hospital, Steve is pretty tall (6'2") for Children's so they have to modify the bed by taking out the footboard so he has enough room the stretch out. For most of this round, Steve didn't have a roommate, which gave everyone more space. Thanks for wed., Steve. While you were in and out dozing your room was busy with nursing and cleaning activity, it seemed like, every ten minutes. While the staff is really good, you are a truly remarkable patient. I would say that you are a patient patient.
Love always, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Saturday, October 16, 2004 3:48 PM CDT

3 Feathers

Warriors were not deemed so just because of their performance in battle.
Warriors achieved that status because they bested all of the challenges in life.
Not only enemies on the battle field , but hunger, drought, severe cold, attacks from animals and disease.
Warriors are the conquering heros of whatever challenges the wind, the earth, nature and the Great Spirit put in their Sacred Path.
Many men would be worn down by the number of challenges great Warriors faced and defeated.
But the Great Spirit would only give great challenges to Great Warriors.
These Warriors would face these challenges by dealing with the moment of challenge.
They would clear their mind of all that was around them and focus on the moment. They would become part of the moment.
3 Feathers, as you face and recover from round 4 of chemo you must face this challenge moment by moment.
You must focus on getting through this moment and recovering to face the next moment.
Your sprit, wakan, is stronger than any disease or momentary discomfort, they will pass, but your spirit will conquer.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior strong in spirit.
You can do anything.
You can face and conquer any challenge.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, October 15, 2004 12:58 AM CDT

Steve-We are really glad that you had a good time at homecoming. The rumors are that you are pretty great dancer. Are you already planning for the next big dance at LT? (King of Hearts?) We will be praying for you as you undergo this next round of chemo.
Mary and Dan Vejr
Mary Vejr <mjvejr@yahoo.com>
LaGrange, IL 60525 - Friday, October 15, 2004 5:55 AM CDT

Hey Steve, it was soo good to be with you yesterday, I almost felt guilty because as you slept I did two of my favorite things, knitting and listening to a great book on tape. I was so glad you were able to get some sleep and rest and get through another day of chemo. We are all thinking about you and the rest of the family all the time. We love you guys, Love Aunt Pam, Uncle Jack, Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 11:41 PM CDT

Hi Payne Family, We haven't heard much since the last update. How was homecoming? Did you go, Steve? We assume so and hope you had a good time. Your aunt, Pam, mentioned you are into chemo again. That must be so hard for you. We hope it goes as well as it possibly can and that it knocks those cancer cells for a loop. Greetings to your parents. We understand that things have really cooled off up north in Three Lakes and that most trees are bare. Our docks are all out and it sounds like most of the summer people have left for warmer climates. Things here in Darien are good. We just returned from a week in LA visiting our daughter, Trea and seeing our grandson, Connor. He turned one while we were there and we got in on the big birthday party. He is a good kid and very easy going. He did all the obligatory things needed at a first birthday --- loving the cake, squishing it with his fingers, eating it with his hands and then spreading it in his hair. Now we are back to the reality of getting the yard and house in shape for fall, etc. Have as good a week as possible, Steve. Remember, there are two people in Darien who would love to help any way we can. Love, Lois and Chris
Lois and Chris Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Thursday, October 14, 2004 3:17 PM CDT

3 Feathers

The number 4 is sacred among Native American Tribes.
There are 4 winds, West, North, East, South
There are 4 great Indian values, Courage, Generosity, Respect, Wisdom.
Whenever an eagle feather fell to the ground during a ceremony,
4 veteran warriors would pay homage to the 4 winds and pick up the feather and return it to its rightful position of honor.
Today begins Chemo treatment number 4.
The fourth wind or direction is south.
The color of the south is yellow which represents warmth and peace,
The south wind brings fruitfulness and safety and a relief from danger.
3 Feathers, must fight on fearlessly.
May the south wind bring you to safety.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 11:49 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
Your mom told me you are starting round 4 of chemo keep up the good work. I know it seems like hell at times but only some good will come of it. Keep your spirits up, my family and I pray for you every day. It sounded like you had a blast at homecomming, glad you got to go. Your mom will keep me posted, take care and God Bless.
Barb Saad
Barb Saad <bjsaad44@comcast.net>
Westmont,, Illinois USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 10:04 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Well, into Children's for round four of chemo and now you are into day 2. Keep up your strength. Nan called from Hawaii to find out how you are. See you tomorrow morning.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, I USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 5:23 PM CDT

HI Steve:

Hope you had a great time at homecoming and got a chance to use some of those great Payne dance moves to "wow" the ladies. I'm glad you are feeling better and can eat. Take care and continue to get stronger. We will come to visit soon.

Dave, Andrea, Jason & Aaron Allison <A-Allison@wiu.edu>
East Moline, IL - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 9:18 AM CDT

Steve,
We think about you all the time, and are glad to hear that
you are able to get to school, and that you got to go
to Homecomeing! I couldn't talk Michael into going. Did
you know he's at Naz? He really likes it so far.
I run into Mrs. Verdin all the time, and she keeps me up
to date with your progress. She told me about your website.
Anyway, very best wishes to you and family, AND lots of
hugs to you all.
Fondly, Mrs. Garabedian
Mrs. Garabedian <asnipesg@att.net>
la grange, il usa - Monday, October 11, 2004 8:17 PM CDT

3 Feathers

You are a warrior strong in spirit.
Your spirit is legendary.
Members of your tribe and circle speak of your courage on these pages.
Your spirit is known as Wakan.
These pages also speak of the wakan of your ancestors.
A story is told of your fathers, father and his love of life as he taught young braves to glide on the water.
Another story is told of your father and the honest way he conducts his business.
Yet another story is told of the respect co-workers hold for your mother.
Wakan connects all of you.
Grandfather, father, mother, brothers. All members of your circle.
All of their spirits support you.
You have the strength of your ancestors and 1,000 braves.
All of your ancestors believe you will prevail.
Believe you will prevail� and you will prevail.
YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, October 11, 2004 10:53 AM CDT

Steve and family, You all remain in our prayers. Sounds like Homecoming was fun! God is with you. Love, John, Angie, Kathy, and Karen (in Colorado)
The Scherling Family <amsjts@netzero.com>
Littleton, CO USA - Sunday, October 10, 2004 6:42 PM CDT

Steve,

Hope your Homecoming was awesome. I am reading your updates via the website, so not to bother you all at home, but I think it is about time I gave your mom a call. I miss her.

My prayers are always with you. All of my family and friends continue to pray, as well. I am so thankful that the school year began with such success. Your teachers sound great!

Sincerely,
Amy McCurry

Amy McCurry <amymccurry@comcast.net>
Clarendon Hills, IL USA - Sunday, October 10, 2004 4:26 PM CDT

Steve-
I hope you had a great time at Homecoming and I hope LT won the game.
My Mom and I were talking tonight and she mentioned that you got your braces off, which I can see in the pictures and I noticed that your smile looked different when I saw you, but I couldn't put my finger on it. Congratulations! I know how awesome it is to get braces off (seeing as I had them 3 times)
Rob and I just got back from Mullett Lake and it was the first time he has seen the place since the kitchen was finished and the new french doors, that you and your Dad helped put in in May, have been up. Once again they look great and he was impressed. We had a pretty strong windstorm last night and the doors are holding up great, as opposed to the doors that haven't been replaced that howl with the wind! Thanks for all your help with that project.
Take care. Love from Michigan
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, MI - Saturday, October 9, 2004 8:30 PM CDT

Steve - it is early Saturday morning - looks like you have a beautiful day for homecoming - hope that you enjoy every minute - and every minute of you three day weekend. To all of the Paynes - thoughts and prayers to you daily - you are an inspiration to see that your strength comes from one another. God bless.
Pete and Barb DeBerge <bdeberge@sbcglobal.net>
Western Springs, IL - Saturday, October 9, 2004 8:43 AM CDT

3 Feathers

Warriors would leave their village and their circle for long periods of time.
They would be gone on a hunt or on scouting missions for days.
When they would return there would be grand celebrations.
There would be dances depicting the events of their hunt or of their victories over their enemies.
There would be dances depicting the courageous acts of their ancestors, and there would be a gathering of the tribe to exchange stories of the past.
The entire tribe would prepare for the day when the warriors came home.
It was good medicine and warriors would celebrate.
It has been written on these pages that 3 Feathers is going to a Homecoming.
Celebrate your homecoming.
Do your individual dance.
Dance with the other members of your circle.
Dance to celebrate your victories.
Dance and be proud of who you are.
Dance with the spirit of your ancestors.
You have earned this celebration.
You are a warrior coming home after many victories.
YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, October 8, 2004 10:46 AM CDT

We finally found this sight!! God Bless.
Jeff and Kathy Gabriel
Western Springs, Il US of A - Thursday, October 7, 2004 6:57 PM CDT

3 Feathers

The winds have changed.
It is time to put up meat and grain, and sew new skins to keep us warm during the dark season.
It is time to move our tipis to the south.
As the leaves fall it is time for us to prepare for the season when the earth sleeps.
Native American warriors were one with the earth.
This preparation was not a burden but and adaptation to the earths condition
The season would change but warriors would be the same and continue to be one with the earth
It is also time for you to prepare.
To eat and get strong for the winter.
The season may change but your spirit remains the same.
Adapt to your situation and remain focused and positive.
Believe, and it will be so.
You are strong.
You are focused.
You cannot be defeated.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Thursday, October 7, 2004 11:39 AM CDT

Hey guys, its Kt...I'm at school "supervising" these ridiculous high school kids as they try to throw together a class presentation that is due in five minutes...anyway, Steve, I was just thinking about you and hoping that your day is a good one...I also hope your Homecoming weekend is great...remember, pictures are the worst, but the parents think it is the best...Catherine is beautiful :)...and just love every second of it...ok, my group is finished...i have to go...love you and can't wait to see you again...kt
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
Indianapolis, IN - Thursday, October 7, 2004 10:40 AM CDT

Hey Steve, Uncle Jack and I loved being with you today. You seem to be doing just great,i was so glad you enjoyed your doughnuts and pizza (oops not too healthy are we?)Have a great time at Homecoming. Your plans sound great. Lets hope LT can pull off a big win and we also hope you get to enjoy the game. have a great weekend. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kris, Billy and JJ.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 10:47 PM CDT

Dear Claudia, Steve and Family,
Since I have viewed this site a few times, I'd better say Hi. I am also a teacher/friend of Claudia's at CHMS. While I am very concerned about how Claudia and the family is doing, I am happy to see there is so much support and love for you all.
God bless you Claudia, Steve and family.

Laurie Mole <molefam@earthlink.net>
Indian Head Park, IL Cook - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 7:55 PM CDT

3 Feathers

Warriors have many personalities.
Some are filled with energy and zeal and are always ready to attack.
Others are sly and calculating and use all the elements to gain an advantage.
Still others are calm and reserved and consider all of the aspects and features of their challenge and take the reasoned and measured approach.
It is these warriors who become chief.
Not the one that is hasty to act or the calculating warrior.
But the one who remains calm when the �earth is upside down�
The members of the tribe respect that calm approach, knowing that action has been contemplated and not just taken for actions sake
Many members of your circle have described you on these pages.
They have commented on your calm approach to adversity.
That you have kept your wits about you when everyones �earth is upside down�.
You are warrior to be chief, possessed of calm courage and reasoned fearlessness.
Your circle admires your calm.
Continue to show your tribe the way to face adversity.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Wednesday, October 6, 2004 5:36 PM CDT

Steve, remeber when we used to hide that huge stuffed Gorilla in the freezer at the cottage? Good times. Your awesome Steve, (if that hasn't been stressed enough throughout this guestbook) Be joyful always-1 Thess. 5:16
JJ Payne <Jajrage16@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, October 6, 2004 0:22 AM CDT

Steve, I'm having a tough time picturing you with your lucky date at the Homecoming dance! Don't even tell me you're going to wear a sport coat and maybe even a tie. You have always been such a snappy dresser. I think you may have picked that up from your dad. By the way, please tell your dad I got a call from a guy we used to play against in high school from York. His name is Dave Atlas and he heard you were'nt feeling well. He just wanted to call and let you know even your Dad's old competitors are wishing you the best. Hope to see you soon. Mr. Shannon
Tim Shannon <tshannon@bradnersmith.com>
LaGrange, Il USA - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 10:02 PM CDT

3 Feathers

There is a ceremony in Native American culture where strangers become relatives.
These relatives are called hunka.
During the ceremony these strangers swear that they will treat members of the tribe as relatives and do anything for them as if they were of the same blood.
Likewise the members of the tribe pledge to do the same for the new relative.
Hunka pledge that they will take the animal hide off their back to give to another hunka if he is cold.
They will take food out of their mouth to give to another if he is hungry.
There is nothing they would not do for another.
Your friends, and the friends of your family are hunka.
Their outpouring of sentiment and acts of goodwill make them part of your tribe.
Part of your great circle.
This exists because of your strong spirit.
You are all connected by your spirit wakan.
You are supported by the hunka in your great circle.
You inspire them through your acts of courage.
They depend on you to be strong and to fight.
Be strong, believe in positives�... and there will be positives.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior. You cannot be defeated.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Tuesday, October 5, 2004 5:20 PM CDT

Hey- Steve and the gang- great to see you all on Friday night late- I wish you had come to the lake so I wouldn't have had to do any work- but your Dad did most of it so it was fun. Yo really have some great friends- even thought hey conldn't get the OK sign on the chin and put it on the cheek (for those of you reading this, it would't make any sense- dont't try- it was a thing we did in the kitchen). Anyway- the trip up was Ok but late (we arrived at 4:30 AM on Saturday) and the rain messed us upe- especially when the windshield wiper blew off of the truck yor Dad was driving- slowed him down a bit, but not much. We got the place closed down- the pier in, platforms in, yard cut, wood stored, placed cleaned and looking "really nice"!! Ate too much- but that's what we do. Thought about you a lot and talked some- the Indianapolis Paynes think and pray for you often and knw that the support with family and friends is beyond description. Keep smiling and have that simple easy way you do around people- it is really comforting to watch you mave and play with everyone- great friends and family are a blessing beyond words. Take care and see you soon Love, Uncle Jim and the Indianapolis bunch
Jim Payne <jpayne@indygov.org>
Indinapolis, in - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 4:03 PM CDT

Dear Steve and your remarkable family,
The journey that you are all now is very difficult, but in reading these journal entries, you must realize that you are not alone nor will you ever be. A cancer doctor once told me, that to beat cancer, treatment counted for 10% and attitude and support counted for 90% . I think you have way surpassed the 90% part.
Have a great time at Homecoming (hey maybe you can borrow that cool car!!) Is it time for more choc. chip cookies?
Take care and stay strong.
Mr.& Mrs. Peth, Mike Jr. and Jack

Nancy Peth <nlpeth@sbcglobal.net>
Lagrange, Il USA - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 10:53 AM CDT

Stevie,
I haven't written since July, but your Aunt Nancy has been keeping me updated and is doing a fantastic job with the site. I have learned what an awesome family you have from her and from reading all the entries family members have contributed. With the love and prayers you are receiving every day, God will see you through this. He must be using you as a vehicle to inspire and teach others in ways many of us are realizing each time we learn of a new Stevie triumph. We continue to learn more and more about the remarkable young man you are. You are definitely having an impact on the lives you touch. You continue to be in our prayers. Keep up the good work. Hope you have a great time at Homecoming.
Norine Tempelman <Nortemp@aol.com>
Hoffman Estates, IL - Monday, October 4, 2004 10:32 PM CDT

Hi Steve. You don't know us but we're friends of your dad. He's been working at our house on-and-off for the last couple of years and we're happy to call him our friend. He is one of the nicest, most sincere people we have even met. In the past, whenever we finished up talking "business", the conversation would turn to our kids and he would share stories about you guys. His love and admiration for his three sons was very apparent to us. It's just the kind of man he is. We know that you share alot of his qualities just by the way you are handling yourself over the past few months. You truly are an inspiration to alot of us. Learning to be optimistic in the face of adversity is something some of us never learn. To be there at your age is a testament to your strong will and character.

Thank you for letting us be a part of your journey through this website. We feel honored to be able to read about your progress. It helps those of us who care about you and your family feel connected.
Jack and Julie Serrano <jaknjul@sbcglobal.net>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, October 4, 2004 10:11 PM CDT

3 Feathers

Native American warriors realized that they were not living on earth but were part of the earth.
They were one with the wind and rain and animals.
They even referred to animals as people, such as birds were winged people.
They would hold a pre-hunt ceremony to show reverence to buffalo before they went on their hunts.
They would praise the buffalo for providing meat for their tribe, and hair for clothing and their hides for shelter.
They lived in their space, in their time, in their moment.
One circle that had no beginning and no end
With each species contributing to the others.
They believed that animals and even rocks and mountains had a spirit (Wakan).
And that the spirit, Wakan, ran through all beings and connected them together.
3 Feathers, your family and tribe are connected through Wakan.
Your family and friends and Nurses and Doctors are Circles within circles within circles connected through your strong spirit, Wakan.
Your strong spirit strengthens your circles.
You must be strong for your circle and yourself.
The Great Spirit, Wakantanka, has much planned for you.
Your victories are legendary.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, October 4, 2004 4:00 PM CDT

Hi Steve. Glad to hear your feeling better. Your such an inspiration with your perserverance and strong will. I admire that in you so much. Glad to hear you'll be at homecoming -- you'll have a great time. Your in my heart and prayers every single day. Stay strong. Love, Mrs. Verdin

Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, October 4, 2004 11:13 AM CDT

hey stevie, been thinking about you and the rest of the crew a lot lately, its good to hear that youre feeling better and are going to homecoming, i'm sure it'll be awesome. Wishing the best for all of you and I'm keeping you guys in my thoughts.
billy payne <wtpayne@uno.edu>
new orleans, La usa - Sunday, October 3, 2004 9:09 PM CDT

Hey Steve, it is the Jack Payne family writing to say that we are always thinking about you and praying for you. Pam says over and over that she is always amazed by your strength throughout this entire process, also all of us are amazed at the great sense of care and love that exists in your home. It is truly a blessing. Jeff and Claudia and Kyle and Ryan have taught all of us many lessons on what a family is all about. You guys are an inspiration to all of us. Forget Tuesdays with Morrie, Pam can't wait for Wednesdays with Stevie, it is something she looks forward to and feels honored to be a part of. Keep up the good fight. We are with all of you constantly in thoughts and prayers. Hang in guys. We love you!!! Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs , IL USA - Sunday, October 3, 2004 0:26 AM CDT

Dear ones -- We just learned about Steve's illness, and wanted to let you know how often you are in our thoughts and prayers. We pray that you are surrounded byl the Lord's loving arms and can claim His Peace. 'Be strong and courageous' were the words the Lord spoke to another young man, Joshua. From the sound of it, you're taking on the challenge in an awesome way!!! We'll keep checking up and we'll talk to you all soon. Steve--ask your dad about the 'lovely' opposums he encountered at our house. It's probably one of his favorite memories of the Nelsons and Lawn ave. Love---Carol and Gerry
Carol and Gerry Nelson
Western Springs, IL - Friday, October 1, 2004 6:21 PM CDT

Hi Steve,

Scott Curran here, from the Curran clan, your Three Lakes "neighbors." I check your site frequently but haven't left a message until now. I�ll share with you a thought I recently shared with your Aunt Pam, who I communicate with frequently to get updates on how you�re doing. I told Pam a couple weeks ago that I often think about how proud your grandparents, Doc Sr. and Mrs. Payne (as I called them), would be of all of you and the way you have fought this fight.

I have such fond memories of them. They were highlights of our family trips up north every summer. Before my parents bought the place we have in Three Lakes now we used to stay at a resort in Eagle River. But during every trip we would take a day to visit the wonderful Payne house in Three Lakes. Your grandparents were such warm, fun, funny and enthusiastic hosts and they always provided us with a fun day on the water, a great dinner at Pine Isle, and a whole lot of wonderful memories. The first time I got up and stayed up on skis was while Doc Sr. was driving the boat. He�s also the only person I�ve ever known who could take my dad (Dr. Curran) full speed on a tube, turn the boat into a hard turn, never letting off of the gas, thereby whipping my dad off the tube, sending him cartwheeling across the lake....and then laugh about what he had done. Great stuff....and traditions that I�m happy to know the rest of the Payne�s carry on today (as do some of us Currans!). I think of your grandparents every time I drive the boat through that shallow channel and look over to the left and see that red boathouse.

At any rate, I�m happy to have known your grandparents (not to mention the rest of your family) and I know that they are watching over all of you and are so proud of everyone, especially you. Keep up the good fight.

Scott

Scott Curran <scurran@pfs-law.com>
Chicago, IL - Friday, October 1, 2004 2:33 PM CDT

3 Feathers:

A warrior does not say I cannot.
A warrior says I will.
No liquid contrast media or concoction can stand in a warriors way.
3 Feathers is brave and vanquishes yet another foe.
3 Feathers Conquers yet another challenge.
Your courage inspires us all.
Your legend grows.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, October 1, 2004 12:24 AM CDT

Hey Steve, I just finished praying with the LT Mom's-in-Touch prayer group this morning (we pray together every Friday morning for the needs of students, teachers, families and activities at LT), and wanted to let you and your family know that you were high on our prayer list today! I've learned that committing things to God is ALWAYS
a great thing - especially when we really don't know exactly what to do - because HE does know! I hope you have a great weekend, whether its up in Wisconsin or down at Indiana. Hang in there, Steve!
Mrs. Olund <donnao@ameritech.net>
Lagrange Park, IL USA - Friday, October 1, 2004 11:25 AM CDT

We are thinking about you and praying for you every day. You are a strong guy and inspiration to us all.
The Ellisons <jestitch@aol.com>
- Friday, October 1, 2004 11:05 AM CDT

Steve,
After hearing about the c scans and the yucky stuff, I went to meet you at the hospital on Wed. to do whatever I could. After a slow start (a 15 minute delay) and rejecting the various fruit flavors of apple. lemonade, cranberry, you selected WATER as a mix. I thought that was gutsy. Every 15 minutes for an hour and right on time you slugged down the clear liquid from the 20 oz. styrafoam cup, LARGE cup. No straw just DID it. Claudia was part of the team effort holding your nose for the last two of the four gulps. AND in between you finished some of your English homework including a crossword puzzle that made me wish that Maude or Aunt Jane were there. For about two minutes, I thought that I could be in the c scan room until they realized that they only had two lead aprons and your mom got one and the nurse needed the other. So, I had about 10 minutes to study the really intricate outdoor type wall decorations that they have all over Children's Hospital. Butterfies, birds, vegetation, flowers, pretty nicely done. And, don't forget that not to be outdone by your brother, Ryan, I did try the concoction, although I think that Ryan drank lots more than I did. It wasn't TOO bad, but a sip is not the same as 20 ounces. You were great Steve. I had yet another wonderful time with you and your mom doing what needs to be done and doing it in style! This is getting to be a good habit with us. Stand tall because you are some kind of wonderful.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, October 1, 2004 10:54 AM CDT

Hey steve its pat, i know we don't talk as much as we used to. I am alwasy praying for you and want you to know that i am always here. You are still my boy and i am goin to try and come see you more ofter.
Pat <dapatch15@aol.com>
- Thursday, September 30, 2004 10:28 PM CDT

3F

Before a battle or any challenge, tribes would dance.
Each step of the tribal dance had meaning.
The tribal circle would call upon the Great Spirit for victory or would recall great acts of courage of their tribal ancestors.
Although the steps of the dance were repeated for generations, each warrior brought his own individual interpretation to the circle so that no two dances were exactly alike.
It has been written in this journal that 3 Feathers is a dancer.
Do your individual dance.
Make the music in your spirit your own.
Dance and call upon the Great Spirit for big medicine
Dance and call upon the spirit of your ancestors for strength.
Dance with your tribe.
Dance with your great circle.
Dance full of positive expectations.
Dance and believe� and it will be so.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Thursday, September 30, 2004 5:08 PM CDT

3 Feathers

Warriors were fierce when engaged in battle.
But, warriors were revered by their tribe not only because of their courage and bravery in battle but also because they were understanding of the needs of their tribe.
Warriors would often talk with other members of the tribe and let them know what the warrior was feeling in his heart.
This helped to unburden the warrior.
It also helped the tribe because they understood the warrior and knew how to best help him in his time of need.
It also allowed the warrior to focus on his challenges.
It is time for you to focus on the challenge at hand.
Let your tribe know the feelings in your warrior heart and let them help you when you need help.
Focus on what you need to do and help yourself.
Eat and get strong.
Face adversity head on.
You will prevail.
You are 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Wednesday, September 29, 2004 4:22 PM CDT

Hi there Steve and family,
Each day you and the family come to our minds and we are blessed to be able to take this journey with you through this wonderful website. I was listening to an old song by the group "For Him". The chorus words go like this....."I've found that the measure of a man is not how tall he stands, how wealthy or intelligent you are...but what's in the heart desribes....the MEASURE OF A MAN." Steve, you have shown us all just what kind of awesome man you are as you fight this battle each day. We are proud to know you and will continue to lift you in prayer each day as you walk this path. Love to you all,
Chas, Laurie, Brett, Tanner, Tyler and Paige Fritz
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL USA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 7:33 AM CDT

Steven 3F

Tribes would gather in a circle and ask the Great Spirit for big medicine
for their warriors.
They would look for signs in nature that the Great Spirit had sent the big medicine
Like an eagle and a bear together at the water s edge drinking from their stream
Your family and friends ask the Great Spirit for big medicine
Look for signs that that it has been sent
Your spirit is strong
It is filled with life and joy
Make your body strong to accept the big medicine of the Great Spirit
You are S3F, warrior

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Tuesday, September 28, 2004 12:09 AM CDT

Thanks so much for the update. We are praying for you all, throughout the day. God has created a reflex in us; we think of you and we pray. We do believe in miracles and are praying for a really BIG one. In the meantime, I thank God for all of the "tender mercies" God is sending you from the loving community that surrounds you, in the midst of so much discomfort. Steve, I so agree with the faithful emailer who writes you, "you are a warrior" and so are the family members who stand with you.
Rick Olund
LaGrange Park, IL - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 10:54 AM CDT

Hey Steve, from everyone on the LT basketball team, we wish you luck and we're pulling for you. Hope to see you back on the court soon.
Andrew Corcoran <ace201300@aol.com>
- Monday, September 27, 2004 10:31 PM CDT

Steve,
Today was my Steve day, so I headed off to be at the house and got there in time to see Kyle drive Steve off to school and then Kyle was off to school(college) and I was left behind with Bailey (the dog). Steve left munching on a doughnut and came back from school tired and happy but just in time to meet the home health care nurse. Once again, Claudia came home with just the right thing, a piece of pizza. Steve's gained 5 pounds and the goal is to gain another 3 pounds by Thursday. Go Steve! It was such a normal wonderful day. Thank you, Steve. Much love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Monday, September 27, 2004 10:17 PM CDT

Steven 3 Feathers

You have a new name.
Given in recognition of your great acts of courage.
You must now take on the challenge of getting strong.
Eat what is good for you.
Nurture the physical spirit.
Your circle looks to you for strength
Be their leader
Show them the way to deal with adversity and how to overcome.
Your inner spirit will guide the physical.
You can do anything.
Believe you will prevail� and you will prevail
You are Steven 3 Feathers, warrior.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, September 27, 2004 3:49 PM CDT

Stevie, I get updates from your Aunt Nancy. I continue to be amazed by your strength and courage. Bravo on you and your loving family - ALL OF THE PAYNES! Once a Payne, always a Payne. Everytime I get and e-mail or phone call from her, I hug my children a little more at that very moment. Keep up the good work!!!! You sure are an inspiration to all of us.
Sherry Brand <slbrand@wideopenwest.com>
Arlington Heights, IL USA - Monday, September 27, 2004 8:00 AM CDT

Steve you know who this is. This is my first time signing the guestbook although i look through it frequently. Steve after all the bad news that we got the days after your first surgery you have showed everyone that nothing will stop you, not cancer not chemo....nothing. I'm very proud of you and how you have handled yourself throughout this hard time. You have helped out mom and dad alot by being yourself, by being strong and that means alot steve. Thank you steve for showing us how to be strong.
brother <kpayne28@hotmail.com>
lagrange, il us - Monday, September 27, 2004 0:14 AM CDT

Steve you know who this is. This is my first time signing the guestbook although i look through it frequently. Steve after all the bad news that we got the days after your first surgery you have showed everyone that nothing will stop you, not cancer not kimo....nothing. I'm very proud of you and how you have handled yourself throughout this hard time. You have helped out mom and dad alot by being yourself, by being strong and that means alot steve. Thank you steve for showing us how to be strong.
brother <kpayne28@hotmail.com>
lagrange, il us - Monday, September 27, 2004 0:04 AM CDT

Stevie,You are pretty special because as your mom will tell you I DON'T DO COMPUTERS!!! Just wanted you to know how incredible and brave you and your family are. Keep that wonderful sense of humor and that beautiful smile on that handsom face of yours. I miss all of you but promise I will be in the area soon. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Love Peggy, Dave, Heidi, Jenna, and Michael.
Peggy Erickson <theshnitz@yahoo.com>
Rocky Mount, Mo USA - Sunday, September 26, 2004 3:25 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
I work with your Mom at CHMS and just wanted you to know that I continue to pray for you and your family every day. I have been amazed by your strength and by your positive outlook. I know that God is with you and your family every day.
Jane Lichter
Jane Lichter <j.lichter@comcast.net>
Lombard, IL - Saturday, September 25, 2004 2:06 PM CDT

Steve,
Haven't signed on in a few weeks, but we are keeping tabs through your Dad. Just want you to know you continue to be in our thoughts and prayers everyday! Keep fighting like the champion you are!
Troy Kimberling <troykimberling@msn.com>
LaGrange , IL - Friday, September 24, 2004 9:36 PM CDT

Steve:

We are very sorry to hear you are suffering from those painful mouth sores. We pray for your healing. We hope you will feel better soon and be able to eat and drink again.

The Olunds
LaGrange Park, IL - Friday, September 24, 2004 8:23 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
We have not had the pleasure of meeting you, but we met your parents many years ago through John and Angie Scherling. We received a note from them today letting us know that you just completed round 3 of chemo and also informing us about this website. It has been such a blessing to read the guestbook entries tonight!! It is so clear that you are a very loved young man and that the love of Christ is really blazing forth in your life. We will be praying for you daily.
Dave and Charla Russell <crussell@hinsdale86.org>
Clarendon Hills, IL USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 8:08 PM CDT

Steve: Just wanted to say hi and am praying for you and have you always in my heart. Good luck with the scan today and I admire your strength -- keep it strong. I'm going to have Jack color you another picture to put on your wall. It was great seeing you the other day. You look great and handsome as always. Have a great day. Mrs. Verdin
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 12:33 AM CDT

Steve

Today as you prepare for your scan, your circle calls upon the Great Spirit for blessings.
Your circle of family and friends supports your strong spirit and asks the Great Spirit to keep you safe.
You must be positive and use your strong spirit to fight and prevail.
In your chest beats the heart of a warrior.
You have earned 3 eagle feathers.
You have the courage and strength of 1,000 braves.
The spirits of all of your ancestors are rising to the skies
to help you in this battle.
You are Steven 3 Feathers, a warrior strong in spirit.
YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, September 24, 2004 10:41 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
It's Jenny Wilton, I work with your mom at CHMS. (Remember me - Debbie and I brought over the sausage pizza that was spoiled - yummy!!!)I signed your book when you were about to start your first treatment and just wanted to tell you that I continue to be amazed and inspired by your courage, strength and positive attitude. I am keeping you and your family in my daily prayers. I know God is watching over you and will get you through this. I am sure He is also amazed by your strength and courage. Take care and be strong.

Jenny Wilton

Jenny Wilton <jwilton@d181.org>
- Thursday, September 23, 2004 10:51 PM CDT

Steve,

We know that this is an important week for you with the chemo treatment and scan.

You and your family are in our thougths and prayers! From all we hear, you are a real trooper! We are amazed! And we hope that you continue to amaze everyone!

Dave & Elizabeth Nehf <danehf@earthlink.net>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, September 23, 2004 11:17 AM CDT

Steve:
Brave Indian warriors would train themselves to do more.
If they were tired on their hunts they would do one more mile.
If they were hungry or thirsty they would go longer without eating or drinking even though food and water were available.
They did this to prepare and be ready for the time when they were called upon to do more.
You must prepare to do more.
Now you must eat and get stronger.
When you don't feel like eating, eat one more.
Your physical strength must be as strong as your spirit.
It will be needed.
Prepare like the brave warrior you are.
You cannot be defeated.
You will prevail.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Thursday, September 23, 2004 11:10 AM CDT

Steve,
Your dad has been working on my house the last two months, so I feel as though I know you even though I have never been blessed enough to meet you. I am inspired by your strength and your will to get through this. You and your whole family are amazing and should serve as an example to us all. I am praying daily for you and good luck with the scan on Friday.
Jennifer Johnston <cjjohnston226@hotmail.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Thursday, September 23, 2004 9:12 AM CDT

Steve
A boy does not become a man because of his age.
There is no magic that makes a boy a man at age 21.
A boy becomes a man because of what he has experienced and what he has overcome.
You have experienced much.
You have overcome much.
You are already a man.
The spirit of a man is strengthened by the fires of adversity.
There are many examples in nature that prove this point.
Trees in the forest become stronger as they fight against the wind, because their woody fibres are stretched.
An animal's sense of smell and sight are sharper when they are hungry and without food for a long period of time.
Like the trees in the forest your spirit is becoming stronger.
You are a man, a warrior, prepared for your next challenge.
Your courage, iron will and warriors heart will prevail.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit
Live Strong, Be strong

A.F.
- Wednesday, September 22, 2004 2:26 PM CDT

Steve and Family
It is exactly two months, July 21, since the first entry and tomorrow will be the first day of fall. So much has happened, so much endured, so many people have come together with love,hope and admiration for all of you. Each day is an adventure to be respected and treasured.
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 11:07 PM CDT

Steve,
You inspire me with your strength and great attitude. I'm amazed by your great sense of humor through all this difficulty. You are loved by so many. God has blessed me with such an awesome son. I love you.
Love, Mom
cpayne <bailey6682@aol.com>
LaGrange, - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 7:14 PM CDT

Steve,
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Be Strong
That was a beautiful family picture.
You don't know me, but I'm a friend of Chris and Lois Curran. Also a patient of your Uncles, and was even a patient of your grandfathers, so now you know how old I am. lol
Love, Margaret Kolschowsky
Margaret Kolschowsky <MargieK42@aol.com>
Marco Island, Florida - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 5:31 PM CDT

Steve:

You have already made many sacrifices.
You must continue to do things that are hard to do.
You must eat, you must listen to your physicians,
they bring good medicine to your circle.
You must maintain a positive spirit.
You must know in your warrior heart that you will prevail.
You must fight this battle alone, but there is an army of supporters in the war with you.
They need to see your spirit.
They need to feed off of your courage
You have been presented a great challenge.
The Great Spirit would only give the strongest warrior such a challenge.
Expect the positive.
Make the positive your reality for you and the army that supports you.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Tuesday, September 21, 2004 11:57 AM CDT

I am pulling for you, Stevie. Keep smiling. Let me know when you need more brownies.
Love Great Aunt Jane
Jane Stacy <nancy_moroz@aon.com>
- Monday, September 20, 2004 7:50 PM CDT

Steve
There is a silent space where courage lives.
There is a stillness there where life comes to life.
Most people only listen to the sounds, only to the noise.
Warriors with a strong spirit listen also to the silence, to the space between the sounds.
Listen to the silence, and what you'll hear are your limitless possibilities.
Experience the stillness, and you'll discover how it feels to be fully aware.
In silence you come to hear and know your meaning.
In stillness you come to know your purpose.
Know that silent place where courage lives.
For it is the place where all that is possible takes shape.
Your courage and strength and positive spirits lives in that space.
Unleash those positive thoughts to the rest of your circle.
It feeds off of your strength and positive spirit.

You are a warrior strong in spirit
Live strong, be strong

A.F.
- Monday, September 20, 2004 10:46 AM CDT

Hi Stevie,
This is your cousin, Fiona. I live in Texas. I hope you get better soon! We are all praying for you and may God bless you! I have faith in you, stay strong!
Love, Fiona
Fiona <fionarp@aol.com>
Cypress, TX - Sunday, September 19, 2004 11:46 AM CDT

Steve:
Reading over the entries in your guestbook show a tremendous amount of love people have for your and your family. I am not surprised by this, it is easy to love the Payne family. It is a blessing, amidst the battle you are facing, to have the opportunity to read these words of love and encouragement. Another blessing is all of the prayers people are saying for you, your mom, dad and brothers. Next time you should eat something, but don't feel like it; try to remember there are many who are asking God to help you to eat. Next time you feel sick, tired or down; try to remember there are many who love you and are praying to God to give you strength and peace. God will answer and give you what you need in that particular moment.

Love from The Olunds
Rick Olund <rickdakidd@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Sunday, September 19, 2004 8:41 AM CDT

Absolutely the BEST picture of the family. Please keep this one on the site. We have more and more people who want to access the site but most have never met you(some of my Minnesota relatives, Bible study people, etc). They want to add you to their prayer list, etc. So this family picture is wonderful. It is good to hear this last round of chemo didn't wipe you out, Steve. We have prayers going for a good outcome of the tests and scans coming up! Love, The Currans (as in Chris and Lois)
Lois Curran <cagneycac@aol.com>
Darien, IL USA - Saturday, September 18, 2004 5:44 PM CDT

Steve:

You have accomplished much.
You have vanquished 3 rounds of Chemo
Your acts of courage soar in the heavens.
You have earned your eagle feathers.
Your feathers are blessed by the Great Spirit.
They are symbols of your courage.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Friday, September 17, 2004 12:31 AM CDT

Steve:
You can do anything.
No mountain too high.
No river too wide.
�There is no try.
There is only do or do not�
Choose do.
You can eat, you can go to school.
Live your life on your terms.
Only your own spirit commands you.
No outside force affects you in any way.
You are the master of your actions.
You cannot be defeated.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit.
Live strong, be strong.

A.F.
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 10:07 AM CDT

Hey STeve, it was great being with you today, I think Wednesday is going to become my favorite day of the week whether you are in school or not, it is my Stevie day. I love being with you , and can't wait to continue to watch the progress of the famous Ken on Jeporady. How about those Cubs, that was quite a game we watched today. Keep up the good work and we'll talk to you soon. Love Aunt Pam
Pam Payne <PPayne112!@aol.com>
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 0:24 AM CDT

Steve, it is Wed. and I miss spending the day with you. You are good company, but we all knew that. Keep eating to stay strong, but you knew that. Homework. Steve and I perused the Spanish book at the hospital after I took a look at that intimidating book bag. Heavy as lead, but lots more information. Hope you went to school today. See you next Monday and we'll get a milk shake together after school.
Love, Aunt Carole

Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 9:54 PM CDT

Hi Hottie,
I can't wait for all of this to be behind you! Keep up the good work! Eat the croutons...they really are an amazing treat.
Lauren

Lauren Rozich <laurenrozich@hotmail.com>
Willow Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 5:07 PM CDT

Steve:
There is a concept practiced by great Indian Warriors.
It has been popularized and brought west by "Zen" philosophers.
But Native American Warriors practiced this art as well.
They LIVE IN THE MOMENT.

Rather than trying to make things perfect, they saw that they already are. This moment is as it is, and it's a perfect opportunity to fully live.
Though the details may not be precisely to your liking, you can still work with whatever you have. And whatever you have is always enough.

There is always something in this moment that will get you to the next. And in the next moment there will always be something that will carry you to the one after that.

Look back and see that it always has been this way. Although things have often seemed not to be perfect, you've made it this far because of your positive spirit being in each moment.

Moment by moment, day by day, you're spirit will conquer. The more you live within what already is, the more you'll be empowered to create what you want.

Expect positive outcomes... and outcomes will be positive.

This moment is perfectly suited for you because your spirit is strong. Live in this moment and go where you will.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

--

A.F.
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 11:37 AM CDT

Stevie,
Congrats on finishing round three so strong but we all knew that you would. keep up your strength and talk to that homework fairy see if she cant stop by my house. again you are in all of our prayers.

Jason Allison <jsqueak03@netscape.net>
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:35 AM CDT

Steve,
Keep kickin' this cancers booty. Your doing a fine job. I think your head feels silky and soft and it is about time your dad gets himself to the barber to TRY to get as smooth as you. This website is such a fabulous way of keeping us all informed. You and your family are in our thoughts everyday.
Mrs. Karaffa <elses5@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL The Great, USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 9:54 AM CDT

I spent Monday with Steve at Children's until Caudia got there at 3:45 from work with a mostly melted chocolate chip milk shake. Steve after not eating, wolfed it down. Guess it takes a mom's touch to come up with just the right thing.
I had a great day and I wouldn't have traded the time with Steve for anything less than his being well. He has a smile that warms your heart. Thank you Steve for making my life meaningful.
Steve had this wacky and upbeat nusre named Margaret, who said she wouldn't let Steve go because he (and family) were such good patients. As it came to pass, he and Claudia were delayed at least two hours, which is a bummer when you are looking at the clock and counting the hours until you get sprung. Count on me to be there for you.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago,, IL USA - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 1:08 PM CDT

Steve:

Call upon the spirit of your ancestors for strength.
There are great acts of courage in their history.
Call upon your father�s strength; and his fathers; and his fathers father.
They made great acts of courage when they were called upon to move to a new place, build their first house, raise their first family.
Learn their stories and call upon their strength because the reason for their existence; and everything thing they did was done for one reason only... to bring you to this point.
Their strength is your strength.
Their spirit is your spirit.
Their blood beats within your warriors heart.
As strong as their spirit is, yours is stronger because of the challenges they faced and the ones you have already overcome.
The spirit within your ancestors circle is great and growing greater because of your victorious battle.

YAAWSIS
LSBS

A. F.
- Tuesday, September 14, 2004 9:52 AM CDT

Hey Steve,
Hope round 3 of chemo went well. It's great to see your pictures and read how well you are doing. Keep your strength and positive attitude, you are in our thoughts and prayers every day. Hopefully our families can get together soon, we miss all of you!
Heidi and Jenna
Heidi Erickson <hlen7d@mizzou.edu>
Columbia, MO USA - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 0:19 AM CDT

Steve:
I just found out about this site and it's great to read and see the pictures. Not a day goes by when your not in my thoughts and prayers. Your a strong young man and this is just a detour in your road of life. Stay strong and positive -- you will conquer. Love to you and your family.
Mrs. Verdin
Lois Verdin <LVerdin@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Monday, September 13, 2004 6:19 PM CDT

Steve:

Even the bravest warrior needs time recover from battle.

Native Americans would hold the brave who received the most challenges from the Great Spirit in high regard because the Great Spirit would only give those challenges to a warrior who could master them. Many braves would marvel at how lucky a brave was to be given so many challenges. Even so these other braves realized that they must help the warrior to recover so that he could face new challenges. And the chosen brave new he must accept the kindnesses of the others to help to prepare for future battles that lay ahead.

This is your time to accept those kindnesses and use them to strengthen yourself for the next battle.

There is no weakness in using this time to rest and recover.
Your spirit is strong and grows stronger with each challenge faced.

Today the warrior rests. Tomorrow the battle begins again.
YAAWSIS
LSBS

A.F.
- Monday, September 13, 2004 12:21 AM CDT

hey steve and family, hope round 3 of chemo is going well. keep looking to God for your strength; he will not fail. we love you all and you are all in our daily prayers!!!!
angie,john,kathy, and karen <amsjts@netzero.com>
littleton, co usa - Sunday, September 12, 2004 5:32 PM CDT

hey- it's the Indianapolis Paynes- Take care and drive em hard- we think of you often and know that the Angels (helpers) are taking care of things- wish we could be there and be one of them- know that we think of you often and and pary regularly- nice pics of the lake- hope you get there next week end- left it nice and clean and ready for lots of activities- now- all we need up there is good weather. Keep working and doing- by the way- GREAT dancing- teach me those steps so I can keep the ladies happy. Love- Jim, Terrie, John, Heather, Caleb, Caitlin, James, Berlynn, Todd, Steph and Sydney (and Dude)
jim payne <jpayne9432@aol.com>
Indianapolis, IN usa - Sunday, September 12, 2004 7:17 AM CDT

Steve:
Today is not just another day.
Today is the first day in your victorious battle.
In your chest beats the strong heart of a warrior.
Your spirit is positive.
Your thoughts are positive.
All who support you will see your positive approach to this challenge and be embued with your strong spirit.
Everyone will be better off for having witnessed your courage in this struggle.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit.
Live Strong, be strong.

A.F.
- Friday, September 10, 2004 11:30 AM CDT

Steve:

On Friday you will meet a new challenge.
Your spirit will make you strong.
Your spirit in partnership with the knowledge and skill of your physicians and nurses will overcome fear, anxiety and disease.

Put yourself into that silent space where courage lives.
Repeat in your mind � �I am a warrior, strong in spirit�
Summon up the courage of 1,000 braves.
You cannot be defeated.
Believe in positive outcomes� and outcomes will be positive.

Friday begins just another battle for the brave warrior you are.

(YAAWSIS)
(LSBS)

A.F.
- Thursday, September 9, 2004 9:58 AM CDT

Steve:
Your courage cannot be held or restrained.
Your courage cannot be hidden away or saved for another time.
Your courage flows freely to all who support you.
Your courage generates and spreads to others when you focus your attention on the positive possibilities.
You possess a warriors heart.
Believe in positive outcomes.
Expect positive outcomes� and the outcomes will be positive.
You will prevail.

Then live with courage, spread it far and wide, and it will flow with ever-increasing power and be an example to all those who need it to face their adversity.

You are a warrior, strong in spirit. (YAAWSIS)
Live strong, be strong (LSBS)

A.F.
- Wednesday, September 8, 2004 1:39 PM CDT

hey stevie, good luck wih round three im sure you'll do fine your a payne you can do just about anything. our prayers are with you as i am sure many are. stay strong get your rest and keep up the dancing.
Jason Allison <jsqueak03@netscape.net>
- Wednesday, September 8, 2004 10:56 AM CDT

Hi Steve:
Good luck with round three of chemo. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We hear you have taken up dancing. You must get it from your mom. Rest and get strong. We admire your courage and sense of humor as you face these rough times. You are an inspiration to us all. Love, You're snowmobiling friends,
Dave, Andrea, Jason & Aaron Allison <a-allison@wiu.edu>
East Moline, IL USA - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 9:29 AM CDT

Steve:
You have been given a unique opportunity.
There are many young people who are faced with adversity just like you.
But unlike you, their strong spirit has not yet been developed.
They need a role model to show them the way.
You are their mentor.
Show them the way.
Show them how to see the joy in each day, no matter what challenge is to be faced.
You are a warrior, strong in spirit. (YAAWSIS)
Live strong, be strong (LSBS)

A.F.
- Tuesday, September 7, 2004 11:53 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,
Love your website. It was good to read that round II went very well for you. Keep up the good work, we have faith that you can do it :-) You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Rich, Sheila, Matt and Patrick Hayes
Sheila Hayes <sheila.hayes@nav-international.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 9:36 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,

It was great to read of the success of round 2! We continue to pray for healing, strength and wisdom -- especially as school starts up and brings new challenges. May God help each of you "rise to the occasion" and give you His strength.

Dawn, Stan, Diane, and Dean Nelson <wsden@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, September 6, 2004 10:34 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
We were so thankful to hear round two of chemo went well. We have been constantly praying for you and your family as you go through this illness. I know God will get you through this difficult time, just lean on him and he will always be there for you all. Love and Prayers,
The Fazio Family
Ruth Fazio <drfazio@ameritch.net>
LaGrange Park, Il USA - Monday, September 6, 2004 9:43 PM CDT

We are so glad that round 2 went well and pray for you daily as a family. We have confidence in God's grace and strength and are so glad you and your family are depending on Him. Hang in there are you go forward!
George and Judy Ellison <JEstitch@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Sunday, September 5, 2004 7:44 AM CDT

Steve,

So glad to hear that you won round 2 also! It has been said that an individual's true character is revealed in how he faces challenges. From what we hear, you are a man of great character and courage.

We continue to pray for God's healing hand in your life. We also lift up your loving family.

Thanks for your willingness to share your journey with all of us.

The Brunstings
John & Sondra Brunsting <jbrunsti@sbcglobal.net>
Westchester, IL USA - Saturday, September 4, 2004 7:14 PM CDT

Steve:
Your courage cannot be held or restrained.
Your courage cannot be hidden away or saved for another time.
Your courage flows freely to all who support you.
Your courage generates and spreads to others when you focus your attention on the positive possibilities.
You possess a warriors heart.
Believe in positive outcomes.
Expect positive outcomes.
You will prevail.
Then live with courage, spread it far and wide, and it will flow with ever-increasing power and be an example to all those who need it to face their adversity.

You are a warrior, strong in spirit. (YAAWSIS)
Live strong, be strong (LSBS)

A.F.
- Friday, September 3, 2004 12:32 AM CDT

Hey Steve, we are so glad to hear that you are feeling so much better. You are an inspiration to all of us. Your battle gives us the strength to fight our battles. Kris and I were so nervous about our marathon drive to San Francisco and as we were driving along, we kept saying to ourselves this is nothing compared to what your family is doing. Jeff and Claudia, you both have been so strong and so caring, we all love you so much and are so proud of your wonderful family. You guys are an inspiration to all of us. We love all of you and please know that we are here for you whenever you need us. Love Jack,Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy, and JJ.
Jack Payne <Ppayne 112@aol.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 1:25 AM CDT

Steve:

There are challenges in your path.
To get to your destination you must be brave, courageous� strong.
Every warrior needs weapons.
Your weapons are not guns or knives, but your indomitable spirit.
When faced with a challenge that required courage, Indian warriors would focus on the challenge and repeat in their mind that they were a Warrior, that they were strong in spirit.
When faced with your next challenge, overcome fear and anxiety by repeating in your mind �I am a warrior, strong in spirit. I cannot be defeated, my feats of courage will soar with eagles� Believe you will prevail�and you will prevail.

You are a Warrior, strong in spirit (YAAWSIS)
Live strong, be strong (LSBS)

A.F.
- Thursday, September 2, 2004 11:25 AM CDT

Great news Steve! It's a tough road but I know you will prevail. Keep your spirits high. Glad to hear your back at school (10:45 start, jeeze there are some benefits eh?). Stay strong.
Love Mrs P

Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Thursday, September 2, 2004 10:18 AM CDT

Steve

Choose strength over weakness.
Never give up.
When a result can be positive or negative, choose positive.
Face all your challenges and fears with courage and a positive attitude.
The character of a man is tempered by the fires of adversity.
Each challenge faced makes you stronger.
Become a beacon of positive thoughts.
Put your personal positive brand on each challenge.
Be an inspiration to all on handling adversity.
But most of all, believe that you will overcome� and you will overcome.

You are a warrior, strong in spirit. (YAAWSIS)

Live Strong, be strong (LSBS)

A.F. (Anonymous Friend)
- Wednesday, September 1, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

Steve - Glad to hear your second chemo is finished. God is certainly watching over you. We've been praying for your complete healing and for strength through this time of chemo.
Mary & John Graff <jgraff23@comcast.net>
Downers Grove, IL United States - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 9:37 PM CDT

Hey Steve, we hope you feel better and we look forward to seeing you soon.
The Flessor Family <af251188@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 9:15 PM CDT

Hi Steve. We have been rooting for you thru all this and we so happy to read the latest entry. Your strength and spirit have touched us all.
Bob and Pat Brown <pb6919@hotmail.com>
Sarasota, Fl - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 8:10 PM CDT

Steve:
Many obstacles are obstacles only because you see them as such. Change your thinking, and change the reality of your obstacles.

Instead of struggling against the obstacle, move positively forward on your own terms. What you once may have viewed as a rock-solid obstacle can become just another factor to be considered as you overcome.

You can decide what defeats you and what doesn't. Handling adversity makes you stronger. Put a positive spin on your thoughts, and things that once would have stopped you, no
longer will.

You can do anything.
You can do the impossible.

For you are a warrior, strong in spirit (YAAWSIS)
Live strong, be strong (LSBS)
A. F. (Anonymous Friend)
- Tuesday, August 31, 2004 11:06 AM CDT

although we hardly know your family, you are all in our daily thoughts and prayers. best of luck to you all! we are sending good wishes your way.
The Kearney Family (Ed, Pam, Kevin and Ryan)
Western Springs, il - Monday, August 30, 2004 7:44 PM CDT

Steve
You are already a hero to many.
You can be a hero to many more.
Heroism is displayed by example.
Show the world how to deal with adversity.
Adopt an attitude that you cannot be defeated.
That your spirit is strong.
That you posess a warriors heart.
Face your challenge every day with courage and a belief that you will prevail... and you will prevail.

Native American Indians would receive an eagle feather for acts of courage because those acts caused the spirit to soar in the heavens.
Soar with the eagles.
Believe and it will be so.

You are a warrior, strong in spirit. (YAAWSIS)

Live Strong, be strong (LSBS)

A. F. (Anonymous Friend)
- Monday, August 30, 2004 11:43 AM CDT

May the LORD touch your body and your heart in a special way today! With Love and Prayers for God's Very Best!
Jim & Lonnie Bone <loonielonnie@yahoo.com>
Indian Head Park, IL. USA - Monday, August 30, 2004 9:08 AM CDT

Dear All, You have been given an opportunity to see God's great power in action, and to bring glory to him. He can and will use adversity to glorify himself and to accomplish mighty works. I'm excited to see how God will use you through this time. I confess having difficulty finding words when I pray for you, but lean ever more on the knowledge that the Holy Spirit hears the 'groans' of our hearts. Love, Linnie PS Finally found someone willing to test the coyote, but now the police are looking for me. I am the 'one armed man!'
Linnie Decker <tommystandup@aol.com>
La Grange , Il USA - Monday, August 30, 2004 7:27 AM CDT

hey steve, im happy to hear you are doing well. i look forward to seeing you at school this year. we are all thinking of you.
we are all thinking of you,
grant fillipitch
filly <johnfillipitch@ameritech.net>
- Saturday, August 28, 2004 11:20 AM CDT

steve this is entry two. we havent talked much lately. I hear round two went well. You will always be my best bud. Good thing you have turk there to keep you company. You r always in my mind and you no that anything you need you can always call me and get it from me. Youll get over this and well have more fun over the next few years.
Killer <dapatch15@aol.com>
- Friday, August 27, 2004 11:44 PM CDT

Steve

Don't spend time trying to fit in with the rest. It is only those
who are different who leave an impression.

Steve you are different.
You are special.
You have been given a special challenge.
Only those with special strength are given special challenges.
Use that strength to overcome.
Believe in your inner strength.
Fight with a fearless might.
Show the rest of the world how to deal with adversity and overcome.

You are a warrior, strong in spirit.

Live strong, be strong

A. F. (Anonymous Friend)
- Friday, August 27, 2004 10:35 AM CDT

*~*~*~*~*~*~*HEY STEVE!!! I'm happy to hear that you are doing good! Stick with it, and stay strong! I hope to see u more often, we have to hang out!! We keep sayin we'll call eachother but we havent! Well i'll call ya again sometime, bye i love u!!!!!
Alyssa Kallal <Lilack56@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL US - Friday, August 27, 2004 0:10 AM CDT

Hi there, the Jay Payne family is a little slow at getting with the technology thing but we are with it now. Love the web page. Hope all is well today and we love you.
Dawn Payne <cabooseclub@aol.com>
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 7:58 PM CDT

Steve:
The army and the individual warrior need strength.

No one who has friends and family faces adversity in solitude. Although you have to fight the battle alone, you have an army of supporters. They are in this war right along side you. The relationship between that support group and you is a partnership that needs strength. Your strong example of courage provides strength to your support group, they in turn , provide encouragement and strength to you. It is a perpetual self- generating source of strength. Both parties have a responsibility to the other to be positive and believe that you and they can do anything. You are a warrior. You are strong in spirit. Your brave performance in this battle strengthens the spirit of those that support you.

Live strong, be strong

A. F. (Anonymous Friend)
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 12:14 AM CDT

Our small group from church continues to pray for you, hope you're feeling better since getting round two of chemo
dan vejr <danvejr@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 7:59 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
I just seen that you finished your secend round of chemo and did very well. Keep up the good work, know you can do it. You and your family are always in my prayers and thoughts.
Sincerely,
Barb Saad
Barb Saad <bjsaad44@comcast.net>
Westmont,, Illinois USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 3:51 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
We are glad to hear that your second round of chemo went well. I am so glad that we can keep up with you via this website. Maybe you and Kevin will have another class this year together. Stay strong and good luck with school! We are praying for you.
Love, The Barretts
Terri Barrett <tbearit@sbcglobal.net>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 2:06 PM CDT

Steve and family
It was good to read on your website that your second round of chemo went well. We are keeping you and your family in our prayers. I'm anxious to hear how school will be starting out for all three of you!
Claudia... maybe we can do coffee some morning soon!
Mrs. Peters (Linda)
Linda Peters <peters.linda@sbcglobal.net>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 1:52 PM CDT

Steve, I am a friend of your Aunt Nancy. We used to work together at Aon in Internal Audit. I am so glad to hear how well things are going for you. You are a very lucky guy to have such an awesome, loving family and group of friends. Bravo on keeping such high spirts. You are to be commended for your strength and courage. Keep up the good work!
Sherry Brand <slbrand@wideopenwest.com>
Arlington Heights, IL USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 11:08 AM CDT

Steve:
You have the unique opportunity to show all of us how to live with courage. You can, will, are an example to everyone who must face adversity. You can show us how to rise above. Your attitude will determine you altitude.
Your inner strength is as important as your physical strength. You can do this!!!
Live strong, be strong!!

Anon Friend
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 10:35 AM CDT

What up Payne trizain,
How you doing? You better be doing good! im commin soon so just hold on to your pants. If you have 2nd lunch it's going to be over because i have it both semester. but the S.S. Lowe isnt going to be there. WOW hes really stupid for doing that. well, all I can say is Hope for you get well soon and keep on fighting that nasty stuff.

Evan Karaffa <ESPNRJ3@aol.com hahah i dont have one thats rjs>
LGP, IL USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 0:38 AM CDT

Steveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
whats up man, havent seen u in a while but im comin soon once football slows down man were running a lot. we need you there we don't have any good tight ends. im playin wide receiver, thats right wide receiver nolan said im the first kid ever to go from guard to receiver. someone said u got ushela for geomatry thatd be pretty awesome if we were in the sam class. we got our first game this friday hopefully u can make one of the games if u ever want to come call me ill tel you when we got a home one. im gonan go eat some pie i found in my fridge, french silk pie, but ill be by to see you soon
Rj Verdin <espnrj3@aol.com>
Lagrange, IL United States - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 11:53 PM CDT

hey steve im so glad to hear that everythings going well. just stay postive and i know that you well be fine. just stay strong and never give up. you are one of the strongest kids i know and i know that there is nothing to hard for you to overcome. get better soon its not going to be the same till you're back. livestrong!!!
mike peth <mdpethjr@sbcglobal.net>
largrange, - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 11:37 PM CDT

Steve its great to know that you and your family are doing so well. We were on vacation in California for awhile and while on our trip we often wondered how you were doing back here in Chicago. Luckily, Kyle found an internet lab thing in one of our hotels so it was easy for me to check up on you and read about your condition. During your times of struggle try to remember all those around you who are pulling for you every step of the way. Your friends and family arent going anywhere during this time of need and its good that you know that you are not fighting this battle alone. Keep those around you in mind, and know that you are often in our minds as well.
Dan Olund and family <dozone@ameritech.net>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 7:08 PM CDT

Steve,
This day is yours to live just once. Yet that is more than enough. For you can fill this day with love, with effort, and joy. You can put purpose and meaning into every moment.
You can live this day in such a way that you'll be forever thankful for having known it. You can do things today that will positively affect your life and your world from this point forward.

Make full and joyful use of your time, each passing moment and it becomes your forever friend.

This is a day to create treasures that will last a lifetime and beyond. Imagine that opportunity, and imagine the possibilities.

Then step forward and bring those possibilities to life. Today is your day to do it.

Live strong, be strong.
You are an inspiration to all.

Anonymous Friend
- Tuesday, August 24, 2004 12:38 AM CDT

Steve,
You are a remarkable young man and an inspiration to everyone who is witnessing your courage and strength as you continue to fight through this challenging time in your life.
...No surprise seeing how intently you can serve a volleyball!

You are in our prayers every day. Keep the faith and keep your eye on the ball - you are winning!

Troy Kimberling

Sue, Alex & Megan say thanks for rescuing them on the lake- I'm sure the gas gauge must have been stuck!
Troy Kimberling <troykimberling@msn.com>
LaGrange, IL - Monday, August 23, 2004 9:28 PM CDT

Our thoughts continue to be with you and your family as you take on these treatments.
David & Elizabeth Nehf <danehf@earthlink.net>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, August 23, 2004 5:25 PM CDT

Hey Steve-
It's so good to hear you're doing well. Everyone is praying for you. We're all pulling for you. Stay strong!
Rachel <Sabs088@aol.com>
LaGrange Park, IL USA - Monday, August 23, 2004 4:37 PM CDT

Steve,
I like your anonymous friend. Very inspirational. It is somehow comforting to have a friend who encourages you to go beyond barriers. Rest up and stay strong and feisty.
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Monday, August 23, 2004 3:38 PM CDT

Steve,
Im so glad to see that you're doing well, and that the chemo is working. It's great to see that you are home and having fun. I know that you are going to pull through like you always do. I havent seen you in awhile because of vacations and family events, but I hope to see you soon. You and your family are always in my prayers and those of my family. Keep fighting
Smitty <smittyj14@AOL.com>
- Sunday, August 22, 2004 11:17 PM CDT

Hey Steve,
We have been checking in on your progress and reporting back to all the Young Life friends we made in Australia. We are all so happy with your progress and upbeat spirit! Someone told us about your dad shaving his head so that he could be like you.....but as we recall, he didn't have all that much to lose anyway! (don't tell him we said that!)
We just survived "Charley" and know that you too will survive this storm in your life! Keep tough kiddo!
The Fritz Family
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL USA - Sunday, August 22, 2004 9:04 PM CDT

Hi Stevie, the Thompson's are praying for you each day and know that God will provide for you and your families needs each day. Mark sends his wishes and get well from Maxwell AFB, he is in his 7thweek of basic training for the AF flightprogram.Keep looking up, you might see him flyby oneday.With Christ's blessing,in His name the Thompson family
The Thompsons <ONT@prodigy.net>
IndianHeadPark, Ill USA - Sunday, August 22, 2004 5:35 PM CDT

Hey Steve,
We are so thankful that you are handling the chemo as well as you have been. Our God is good and He is right there with you. We think about you and pray for you each day. Hang in there.
Love, The Bieze Family
Psalm 56:3

The Bieze Family <fraubz@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Saturday, August 21, 2004 11:52 PM CDT

Hey Steve! We are all praying and rooting for a strong recovery! We are looking foward to the day we see you back on the basketball court! LT is sure going to need the help. So,hang in there and may you get better each day! You are in our thoughts and prayers!! All the best, Quinn, Patti, Tim, Andrew, and Quinn Corcoran.
Quinn Corcoran <qtc43@aol.com>
La Grange, Il USA - Friday, August 20, 2004 9:55 PM CDT

Dear Steve-
Every morning we pray that God will be with you during the day, strengthen you, and encourage you. We know this is tough, but so many people are praying for you, and we know our awesome God is with you!
Gary and Gayle Pierson
Gary and Gayle Pierson <gpgp2@global.net>
La Grange, IL USA - Friday, August 20, 2004 6:27 PM CDT

Steve: I pray for you every day and know our awesome God will care for you every nanosecond of every day. Blessings.
George Winkler <geowinkler@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Friday, August 20, 2004 3:29 PM CDT

Steve,
We are praying for you and your family daily. We know God has something awesome in store for you. Keep the faith!
Don and Ruth Whittaker <wittacre@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL Cook - Friday, August 20, 2004 2:22 PM CDT

Steve, Now you are into day 3 of round two at Children's. Things looked good except for that orange goop drip stuff. Ln can give you some tips on tanning. The air show is this weekend and there will be lots of noise and traffic. Look for the jets outside your window tipping their wings in tribute to one tough guy- you. Gotta go, I'm trying to see Harry Potter at the Imax on Navy Pier with Ln before she leaves for Colorado College next week.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, August 20, 2004 10:47 AM CDT

Hey Steve, hope things are going well. We have been thinking about you and praying for you the last couple of days. You are so awesome with your strength in getting through this chemo. keep up the good work and we will look forward to seeing you when you get back home. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy and Jacqui.
Pam Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
- Friday, August 20, 2004 1:07 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
Just a messge to let you know that we are praying for you and your family every day. We know that chemo is really tough, but you can do it. Hang in there.
Norm and Barbara Swift
Norm and Barbara Swift <Normandbarb@msn.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 11:20 PM CDT

Hi Steve:

I'm very glad to hear that stage 1 went well. Not a day goes by without our family praying for you. I'm looking forward to the day when it's finally gone.
george ellison <gellison@ellisonlaw.net>
lagrange, Illinois USA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 11:51 AM CDT

Steve:
There are many perfectly logical and understandable reasons why you can't. Yet even so, you can.
There are difficult obstacles standing in your way, and you do not now know how you'll get beyond them. Yet even so, you can.

Others may persuade and convince you that you can't. Yet even so, you can.

If you can dream it, if you can imagine it, then you can be it, you can do it. If it is meaningful enough, and you commit the energy of your passion, you will.

Many of the things you now take for granted were once considered impossible. Many of the things now considered impossible you'll one day take for granted.

Go ahead and dream, go ahead and imagine, then get busy bringing those dreams to life. You can, if only you will.

Anonymous Friend
- Thursday, August 19, 2004 10:50 AM CDT

Steve, I am so glad to hear that things are going well. We at WSBC had you on the prayer list again tonight and were very encouraged to hear about your progress. We will continue to pray for you and for your family as well. I hope to see you at the basketball games this year and announce you as the BID (Basketball Information Director)!
Howard Amerlan <amerlanh@msn.com>
LaGrange, IL USA - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

Steve:
Have great hopes and dare to go all
out for them. Have great dreams and
dare to live them. Have tremendous
expectations and believe in them."
Be strong, live strong
Anonymous Friend
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:14 AM CDT

Hey Stevie I hear your doing great and keeping a positive attitude. i know youll get better real soon at the rate your going right now.and when you come and visit us down here in mo. (its been a while)
Michael Erickson <twodogs22@comcast.net>
Rocky Mount, Mo USA - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 3:14 PM CDT

Hey Steve...you don't know me but I know Jacqui through Young Life. I just wanted to write and say how extremely impressed I am with your awesome progress and attitude! People in my family have struggled with cancer and I just know that you can beat this thing! I'm praying for you and God bless!
Maggie Shehan
Highlands Ranch, CO USA - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 12:38 AM CDT

Hey Steve! You don't know me, but I'm a friend of Jacqui's from Young Life. I just wanted to let you know that there are so many people out there praying for you, myself included. Hang in there!
Emily Scatterday <mimi9010@aol.com>
Geneva, IL USA - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 8:22 AM CDT

Hey, Steve!
Word's out about this website, thanks to Mrs. Pralle and Mr. Peth (who forwarded the URL to us). The pictures look really cool. Great website. Glad you are back home. Keep up the fight, my man. We just got back from vacation, so this was the first opportunity for us to get back in touch. Will see you soon!
Don Mon <DKMDMon@earthlink.net>
LaGrange Park, IL` USA - Monday, August 16, 2004 9:25 PM CDT

Steve-
Just looking for an update on how your doing. Your one tough cookie so keep on fighting. Remember that your mental health is sooooo key. Do the kid's know about this site? I don't think Scott does so I'll be sure to tell him and pass this on. Thinking of you and praying for a speedy recovery. Hang in there!
Kelly Pralle <krp1111@aol.com>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 1:32 PM CDT

Hey Stevie,
Just another hello from Texas. We were so glad to hear you made it through round one so well. Saw a shooting star this am as I was praying for you...figured God was telling me He is listening! You look awesome...keep it up. We love you.
Aunt Maura, Uncle Brad, Maddie, Brad and Fiona <msparro@aol.com>
Cypress, Tx - Thursday, August 12, 2004 2:32 PM CDT

Hey Stevie,
You might not remember me but I remember you. I am the kid who everyone thought that I liked you. I hope that you are doing well. I wish that i could come and visit you but I cant because it is a eight hour plane ride over so keep up the great attitude. I am praying for you every night
Carly Weber <carlywarly10@aol.com>
Munchen, Germany - Thursday, August 12, 2004 6:33 AM CDT

Hey Steve,
You don't know me, but i heard about your situation. I just wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers and that NVHS YL is cheering for you! It sounds like you've got a great attitude towards this, keep it up! God Bless.
-Angela
Angela McBride (NVHS YL) <xbutrflikissesx99@hotmail.com>
Naperville, IL USA - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 5:14 PM CDT

Alright, I hear there aren't enough "kids" signing, so I'll try to help that...I try to go through life affecting people and making a difference as best I can to make others better...most of the time I have no idea if I've made a difference or not and have to go off of faith with friends or students or whoever moves on...steve, it is amazing to actually SEE the difference you are making in people all over...some that you don't even know and maybe never will...and it is not just because you are sick (although i saw you running with a squirt gun yesterday, so "sick" doesn't seem like a good word)...you are amazing...i hope i can be uplifting to people the way you have been...keep smiling...1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Katie Payne <paynekatie@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 11, 2004 0:38 AM CDT

Hey- great to be in Chicago and see you and everyone- I did see you, didn't I? You and your friend disappeared- but who wants to be around an old, grumpy and tired Uncle anyway. Sorry we didn't get to stay long- had to get that wave runner out of the backyard so your dad can make a full size basketball court in the back yard-- NOT! Anyway- the kids, Caleb and Caitlin ask about you and said some prayers for you. We had a great trip back to Indy and then drove down to Bloomington to get the wave runner delivered. Got home around 6:30 PM, cut the grass, worked on the computer for the office until 12:30 AM and went to bed. Made for a long day. Anyway- have a great time at the lake- wish I could be there. Will try to let you know how things are here next time. Hugs and prayers to you and all in the home, Jim, Terrie, John and family, Todd and family--- oh, and the dog- Dude
Jim Payne <jpayne9432@aol.com>
Indianapolis, in usa - Tuesday, August 10, 2004 10:19 PM CDT

Hey steve,
I have gotten to know you over the past few years and you are my best friend. This cancer thing really sucks but we all know that you will pull through with no problems. If you ever need anything I would be happy to accomadate it for you. We have a lot of good memories like me walking to the cornor and back, so get better so we can have a lot more of these memories together. You and your family are always in my mind.

Patrick <Dapatch15@aol.com>
LaGrange Park, Il United States - Tuesday, August 10, 2004 10:59 AM CDT

Hey steve, so glad to hear that you guys are heading up to the lake this weekend. We had such a fabulous time, Jack introduced our kids to the agony of quadruple solitaire, it wasn't pretty. Kristin organized 11 decks of cards that actually are complete, so live it up. My sister sent you a Lance Armstrong bracelet and I will get it over to you soon. I went on the website and ordered 50 of them for you to pass out to your friends, they are back ordered but we will get them to you as soon as they arrive. It is a great inspirational story!! We love you and are thinking about all of your family and praying so hard for all of you. Have a great time up at the lake and we will see you soon. Love Aunt Pam, Uncle Jack, Katie, Kris, Billy and JJ.
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Monday, August 9, 2004 11:28 PM CDT

steve, hope you are feeling ok and wanted to send you a message. judge payne is my boss here at the court in indianapolis but over the years, i have heard many stories about your family. i hope to meet you sometime, maybe you can come here!!! i will stay in touch, take care
peggy farrar <pfarrar@indygov.org>
indianapolis, in usa - Monday, August 9, 2004 8:22 AM CDT

Steve -
Greetings and thoughts and prayers from another Indianapolis family - Your Uncle Jim and Aunt Terrie are very special people to our family and have shared your incredible strength and determination with us. We loved looking at pictures of you at the lake - as we had a wonderful weekend up there a couple years ago - although from the pictures we noticed you are a much better skiier than anyone in my family that weekend!
You and your family are in our thoughts - be strong - and use that Payne Family Power... we have seen it work wonders here in Indy.
Jeff, Stacy, MacLeod, Alan and Scott Lozer
The Lozer Family <lozers@comcast.net>
Indianapolis, IN USA - Monday, August 9, 2004 8:08 AM CDT

Hey Steve,
You are doing so awesome. When I heard about your low count I was happy to see you were doing so great. I'm glad you are feeling well and have a really good appetite. Keep on eating and smiling. You are a strong man and inspiring to the people around you. Love, Anna
Anna Mryczko <sockrchick21@hotmail.com>
Morton Grove, IL USA - Saturday, August 7, 2004 11:06 PM CDT

You are one tough and upbeat guy! Imagine you and your mom at millinium park on a beautiful Friday 8/6/04. Only someone like you could make chemotherapy so tolerable. I'm am impressed beyond words....so no more words.
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, August 6, 2004 6:29 PM CDT

Dear Stevie,
We know Judge Payne through our son, Clark Rogers. He told us about your situation. It sounds like you are being very brave. We will add your name to our church and Bible Study Prayer Lists as well as our own for a healing mirace for you.
Jack & Shirley Rogers
Carmel, IN USA - Friday, August 6, 2004 6:02 PM CDT

Steve, We are friends of your Uncle Jim and we have heard about your situation. You are constantly in our thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and be positive.
Clark Rogers, Theresa Griffith, Bruce Johnson <rogers9027@aol.com>
Indianapolis, IN USA - Friday, August 6, 2004 1:33 PM CDT

Steve,
I also worked with your mom at CHMS. I share your love of basketball and she would always tell me stories about your games and tournaments. She is so proud of you! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jen Scheuerman <rgm062698@comcast.net>
Elmhurst, IL - Friday, August 6, 2004 1:04 PM CDT

Dear Steve, We have not met but we are inspired by your courage. We are long time friends of your Payne relatives. Carol Knuti and I have been friends since law school (last century). Good luck meeting with this challenge. Our prayers are with you. Fondly, m.j.harris and family
M.J. and Jerry Harris, Chase, Brook and Keane <mj.harris@abnamro.com>
Chicago, Il USA - Thursday, August 5, 2004 4:00 PM CDT

Hey- Tommy Boy- or Stevie- Just the Indianapolis Paynes- all 10 of us- plus the dog- saying HI and to let you know we are thinking of you- every day- wishing we were closer but confident in the support and family and staff to get the job done. We'll stop by soon- keep on doing what works and always listen to Mom and Dad- that's the parent inus- see you soon Love Uncle Jim, Aunt Terrie and all
jim and terrie payne <jpayne9432@aol.com>
Indianapolis, in usa - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 11:06 PM CDT

Steve - You don't know me, but I worked with your mom at HMS this past year. She is so proud of you, and always talked about you - I know that she will be a pillar of support for you as you fight this battle. We are all praying for you, and I know that you have not only a wonderful family, but a whole network of supporters out here in your corner. My grandfather used to tell us that when things seem hard, we should remember a simple saying:"Take things in stride - God will provide." Get strong - God will surely provide for you.
Donna Vorreyer <derfwad@yahoo.com>
Hinsdale, IL USA - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 5:07 PM CDT

Steve, I heard you were off to the movies, a couple of days after cruising out of Children's. Bet that felt sooo good! What a strong person you are!!
Love you,
Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 9:32 AM CDT

Dear Steve and Family,
You do not know me, but I am very good friends with your cousin Liz and your Aunt Nancy. I have heard alot about the whole family so I feel I know you all. My family and I will be lifting your name up in prayer and pray that God gives you and your family the strength to get through your time of need. Here is one of my favorite bible verses that I hope will give you some hope and peace right now. Isaiah 40:28-31 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
We will continue to pray for your strength and for a speedy recovery!
The Sullivan Family - Mike, Melissa, Ashton, & Kendsi <mersulli@earthlink.net>
Franklin, IN USA - Monday, August 2, 2004 12:18 AM CDT

Hi there Steve-
Welcome home! Sounds like you did great during your hospitalization. Surprise, surprise-Not!! You're going to do great! Keep up the good attitude. I heard you got some use out of the DVD player. That's awesome. We still haven't gotten the car, but when we do, I'll be sure to stop by and take you for a ride. Kudos to Kyle for shaving his head-Go for it Ryan! Tim says hi and wishes you well. Hope you are getting your appetite back. Take care everyone!!
Liz Pielsticker and Tim Shinn <epielsticker@yahoo.com>
Dexter, Mi USA - Monday, August 2, 2004 2:06 AM CDT

Steve,
You are my hero.
Dad <bailey6682@aol.com>
LaGrange, IL - Sunday, August 1, 2004 8:33 PM CDT

Steve,

Mike, Micah and I were out of town this last week, and not a day went by that we weren't thinking and praying for you. So many people are behind you praying while you fight this battle. You are never going to be alone. Keep leaning on that wonderful family of yours. God has blessed you all with such a strong and loving foundation.
We will come visit again soon!
Love,
Amy McCurry
Amy McCurry <amymccurry@comcast.net>
Clarendon Hills , IL USA - Sunday, August 1, 2004 4:02 PM CDT

HEY STEVE!
Wuts goin on? this website thing is so cool, ur famous! Lol we should post the hole in one story on here for everyone to laugh at, cept some people might not laugh. So yeah, this cancer thing really blows, but I know your gonna pull through it, because you�re stronger than any bodybuilder and ur so awesome. Im trying to make this as non-cheesy as I can, but its tough. Anyway, your doing a great job so far with this whole thing, and I just wanted to tell you, if you ever need anything, like a great big PJ hug (lol, there goes the cheese again), or someone to watch the poker channel with, im just a phone call or instant message away�UR THE BEST!
Much luv, PJ

PJ <ratfacepj@hotmail.com>
Spring of Western lol, IL US of A - Saturday, July 31, 2004 10:52 PM CDT

Steeeeeeve!
I thought it was about time I signed this guestbook! I'm happy to see that you're home and feeling alright. It's worth any price to see you smile, and everytime I see you, you're smiling! :) I guess that's what beating me at Candyland does to you...you cheater. Actually, beating me at anything makes you feel better, I even have bruises... haha. I'm thinking of you all the time and am here if you ever need someone to completely womp at Kemps. I'll be seeing ya, love you!
Kathryn <ketuerk@hotmail.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 10:43 PM CDT

Hi Steve-
I also have had the wonderful fortune to work with your mom (and share a very tiny room)this past year at HMS. Within our plan periods together and going out for lunch I had the opportunity to hear such loving stories about you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I look forward to meeting you soon.
Tracy Hauenstein <TracyLHauenstein@aol.com>
Wheaton, IL USA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 6:27 PM CDT

Dear Steve and family,
You don't know me, but I am a friend of your Aunt Nancy's. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. The chemo is a bear, but doable. Keep your chin up and stay possitive. My son is doing the battle with a rare non-Hodgkins lymphoma, so I know what you are all going through. Live, laugh, and be happy each day.

I saw the picture of you water skiing, and I am really jealous. I've been to the family cottage with your Aunt Nancy, but it was way too cold to ski. It is a beautiful and peaceful place. I hope you enjoyed your weekend there.
Love and Hugs, Pat
Pat Kay <patkay@cox.net>
Pensacola, FL USA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 8:10 AM CDT

Hey Steve and family - We are still in Australia with the Young Life tour but wanted you to know that not only our family, but now all the Australian Young Life kids are praying for you and a quick recovery! Next year we will be taking another team somewhere around the world and we want you on our team! Get better kiddo....our love to you all. Chas, Laurie, Brett, Tanner, Tyler and Paige Fritz
Laurie Fritz <lfritz@comcast.net>
Ft. Myers, FL USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 10:55 PM CDT

Dear Steve, I do hope you are in great shape! I hear from your Aunts Carol and Nancy that you are a super trooper. I am so sorry you got sick, though! I have been your Grammie Jane's buddy for a LONG time and she always talks about you so lovingly and proudly. Here's to your good health and good spirits ... hang tough and take care of yourself,

Love,

Paula Lenczycki
Paula Lenczycki
Grayslake, IL USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 10:21 AM CDT

Dear Steve,

I've met you through the Curran family, and have had the pleasure of getting to know you and your family through the years. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with and your family always.

Love,
Michelle
Michelle Van Der Puy <mvanderpuy@eichhorn-law.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 8:51 AM CDT

Hang tough Stevie - you can beat this. We at ACS are all praying for your speedy recovery. You are an inspiration for all us.
Lois Tryba
Oakbrook Terrace, IL - Friday, July 30, 2004 8:12 AM CDT

Dear Stevie,
I worked with your mom at chms she talked about you and your brothers all the time. Your're going to have a lot of ups and downs during your treatment but, stay strong.
You see, I beat cancer twice, my last bout was over 25 years ago. Just take one day at a time and things won't seem so bad.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Stevie fight hard and talk to people you will find out that you are not alone.
Take Care,
Barb Saad
Barb Saad <bjsaad44@comcast.net>
Westmont,, Il USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 6:47 AM CDT

Steve-We have been thinking about you and your family this past week as you start on your road to recovery. Through the good days and not so good days remember that lots and lots of us are cheering you on. Hang tough!
Love and prayers, Bill and Susan Lake
Susan Lake <Sblake907@aol.com>
La Grange, ILL USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 6:14 AM CDT

Dear Bailey, This is your step-sister Daisy and I understand that Stevie's sick. You have to give him lots of licks and help him feel better. Dog kisses are as good as people kisses(we think they're better). Spend lots of time with him when he is home because he needs you. Try not to bug him about throwing the ball too often yet. Gotta go - my paws don't type too well. Take care of Stevie, Bailey. Love Daisy.
Daisy Ives <pives@premium-surge.com>
Romeoville, IL USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 11:01 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
You are such an inspiration. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!
Nicole Roley <nicole.roley@cancer.org>
North Aurora , IL USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 10:20 AM CDT

Steve and Family,
You are in our thoughts and prayers here at the American Cancer Society office. Hang in there and make sure you get spoiled by all the nurses at Childrens Memorial.

Julie Edmunds <julie.edmunds@cancer.org>
Naperville, IL - Thursday, July 29, 2004 9:39 AM CDT

Steve and family,
Although I haven't had the opportunity to meet you, I feel like I know you. Your mom has shown me many photos! I wish you a quick recovery and want you to know my whole family is praying for you. I even tossed a lucky penny into Buckingham Fountain for you. God bless.
Cheryl Esparza
Romeoville, IL USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 9:21 AM CDT

Dear Steve,

I have had the pleasure of talking with your Aunt Nancy over the past week. She had called looking for some additional information for you and your family. After speaking with her I felt I had to tell you how wonderful you are. I work for the American Cancer Society DuPage Area office and on behalf of all of us here at ACS we are cheering for you. You are an inspiration to all of us and the work we do. Please remember that we are behind you 100% and if you need anything please call. Aunt Nancy has my number. Take care Steve-keep on fighting!!

Jillian A. Smallwood <Jillian.Smallwood@cancer.org>
OakBrook Terrace, IL USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 9:16 AM CDT

Well, Steve, yesterday was the first day of chemo at Children's and I heard from your mom that you had a crowd of friends and family playing cards last night in the "lounge". Play your cards right. I was interested that you can wear "chivies" not a charming hospital gown while you are on the chemo drip. That's cool all things considered. Day one on the road to recovery successfully completed. Chalk one up for Steeeve.
I'll be by to see you...

Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn. >
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 8:51 AM CDT

Hi Steve, My name is Lisa and I work with your aunt Nancy at Aon. I just want to tell you that I admire your courage for dealing with such an obstacle in your life, and that my thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.
Lisa Zaripov <Faint227@hotmail.com>
Chicago, Il USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 4:26 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
I taught with your mom at CHMS. We are all looking forward to having her back this year. She is a great teacher, and I know she is so proud of you. I am praying that you will respond well to the chemotherapy and that you will be back doing the things you enjoy soon. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jane Lichter
Jane Lichter <j.lichter@comcast.net>
Lombard, IL USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 2:06 PM CDT

Hello Stevie. We are old, old friends of Jack and Pam (think Mexico) and we feel connected to all the Paynes thru that very long relationship. We are rooting for you and we will keep you and your family in our thoughts.
Bob and Pat Brown <pb6919@hotmail.com>
Sarasota, Fl USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 11:48 AM CDT

Dear Steve, We are old (ha!)friends of the Paynes and Knutis. Carole K. and I went to law school together. Our whole family has vacationed in Three Lakes with yours, and we remember you well from vacations some years ago. We are raising you up in prayer, Steve, that you will get through the chemotherapy just fine and that the therapy will be totally successful. God bless you and your family. We love you all.

Ellen Romeiser, plus Adam, Adam, Emilie and Lillie <redskiball@aol.com>
Lake Forest, IL USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 10:01 AM CDT

Dear Steve
I work with your mom at CHMS. I have 4 sons and they are athletes, too. You guys are tough and resilient. There may be some rocky times ahead, but you will make it thru ~ just hang in there. It's like making that game winning shot in overtime, you never give up! You have a huge crowd of fans cheering you on with their prayers. Stay tough! Thinking of you and your family with love and prayers.
Candace Gross <grosx2@comcast.net>
Willowbrook, IL USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 9:30 AM CDT

Hey Steve, we will all be thinking about you tomorrow, we know you are getting ready to fight a great battle and we are all behind you, with good thoughts, prayers and lots of positive feelings. Hang in there and know how loved you are. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kristin, Billy and JJ
Pam Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
Western Springs, IL USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 0:39 AM CDT

Dear Steve,

Aunt Maura, Maddie, Brad, Fiona and Uncle Brad are constantly thinking about you and praying for you (I also have at least 5 prayer groups praying for you through people at my office). You're awesome and although we are far away in Texas, we're with you in His Spirit. Love ya.
Brad Parro <bparro@petrocom.com>
Cypress, TX USA - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 5:02 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
You don't know me, but I have had the pleasure of working with your wonderful mother at both Brodnicki and more recently at CHMS. She is an exceptional teacher and friend. I have heard many stories about you and your brothers and from these stories I know what a wonderful family you have. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
Chris Guide <cdebrizzo@hotmail.com>
Chicago, Il. 60608 - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 2:04 PM CDT

Dear Steve
I work with your mom at CHMS. She is one cool lady. I want you to know that my whole family is praying for you. We are three quarters Italian and one quarter Irish so we just love to pray everyday. We are including you in our prayers so, don't worry. We have it covered. Just concentrate on getting better.
Donna Tovello <chmssra@aol.com>
Addison, IL - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 1:43 PM CDT

Hi Steve,

We know someone who works with your Mom and a bunch of us are all in a Bible studay group together. Dave Bendis asked us to pray for you and your family and so we have been and we will. I have a 15 year old boy myself and I know you can beat this, you guys are tough! You are in the best of hands, both God's Hands and your doctors, so fight hard and try to keep your spirits up. You and Lance Armstrong, both into sports, both winners!

Lynn Zak
Lynn Zak <Lynnazak@aol.com>
Naperville, IL USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
I also work with your mom at CHMS. Like many people who have signed your guest book I have not had the pleasure of meeting you but have heard lots of great things about you. I am praying for you and so are many people in my church as you begin your treatment and recovery. I am inspired by the strength, courage and love you and your family have shown through this difficult time. God bless you! I look forward to meeting you soon!

Jenny Wilton <jwilton@d181.org>
Willowbrook , Illinois us - Monday, July 26, 2004 9:06 PM CDT

Hi Steve,
I work with your mom at CHMS, one of the Special Ed gang, in fact we were roommates her first year. During that time, I heard so much about you and your brothers - your mom just glows when she talks about you!
I just want you to know that my family and I are praying for your recovery and for you and your family to have the strength to go through this difficult time.
Hang in there, Steve!

Debbie Nederhouser

Debbie Nederhouser <Dneder@comcast.net>
Hinsdale, IL - Monday, July 26, 2004 7:21 PM CDT

Hi Steve,
I work with your mom at CHMS. I wanted you to know that many people from my church are praying for you. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Your courage and stength inspire me. Take care and God Bless.
David Bendis <dbendis@d181.org>
Clarendon Hills, IL - Monday, July 26, 2004 12:52 AM CDT

Dear Steve,
I know you have to be a special young man because I worked with your Aunt Nancy at Aon and I know what a truly remarkable person she is. We often speak of our families and I know of the great family you are so fortunate to be a part of. She speaks of you and your strength and courage as you face your upcoming treatments, and I wanted you to know that my family's prayers and thoughts are with you. It's apparent that you have a great support team going. We know you will get through this and soon be playing basketball again. Hope you enjoyed the weekend up at the lake with your family.
Norine Tempelman
Hoffman Estates, IL - Monday, July 26, 2004 8:45 AM CDT

Hey Steve- its the Indianapolis Paynes. We are far away but never too far. Hope the Lake was good- it should have been since we had all of the bad weather whean we were up there a few weeks ago. We think of you often and will keep you in our thoughts and prayers this week. Tell every one Hi and we will be in touch with Mom and Dad- We had a boring weekend- I worked at the office all day on Saturday so it had to rain on Sunday here. take care Steve- we love you.
jim payne <jpayne9432@aol.com>
Indianpolis, in usa - Sunday, July 25, 2004 10:40 PM CDT

Dear Steve,
Although I don't know you personally, I worked with your mom this past year, and I have heard a lot about you. I speak for myself, but I know all the eighth grade teachers at HMS would agree, we are keeping you in our thoughts and are praying for a speedy recovery. I look forward to meeting you sometime soon.
Barbara Johnson <J1JABAR@AOL.com>
Downers Grove, IL United States - Sunday, July 25, 2004 2:23 PM CDT

Hi Steve:

I work with your mom at Clarendon Hills Middle School. She is one great lady as you know. I just want you to know that dozens of people in our church as well as many other people I know are praying for you, your family and the doctors. They are also praying for your strength and courage.

Jim Cox <JCox1950@aol.com>
Batavia, IL USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 6:59 PM CDT

Hey Steve, we are so happy you guys are up at the lake and we are hoping you take all of that cold weather away before we get up there next week. We all love you so much and we will be there 100% for you and the rest of the family during the coming weeks. There are so many thoughts and prayers with all of you, only good can come to you. Have fun , we will see you soon. Love Uncle Jack, Aunt Pam, Katie, Kris, Billy and JJ
Pamela Payne <PPayne112@aol.com>
western springs, IL USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 0:37 AM CDT

Hi Stevie -- Hope you are enjoying your weekend at the cottage. Aunt Dee keeps me posted about you. We are all praying for you and your family. Chemotherapy is tough - but you can get through it - just take it one day at a time. Jesus is walking with you. Love, Pat and Frank Hermann (NY)
Patricia Hermann <frankhermann23@msn.com>
Lindenhurst, ny usa - Friday, July 23, 2004 7:40 PM CDT

Dear Stevie,
You are awesome!!! You have been such an inspiraton to me. You know you are loved by so many, what ...70 people visited you at the hospital, I'm impressed. Keep up the positive spirit. People across the nation are praying for you, even in Europe. May God give you the strength over the next few weeks. We love you Steve and are there for you. Love, Aunt Dee and Uncle George, Matt, Brent, and Bri
Denise Hermann <denise.hermann@comcast.net>
Orland Park, IL USA - Friday, July 23, 2004 12:31 AM CDT

Steve,
What a great idea! I feel connected to the family and friends this way. Have a terrific time in 3 Lakes this weekend with your Mom, Dad and friends.
Love, Aunt Carole
Carole A. Knuti <cknuti@msn.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 9:18 AM CDT

Hi Steve!
You and your friends are an inspiration! I love seeing the family room and patio filled with kids. The outpouring of love and support for you and your family demonstrate the utmost devotion to a truly outstanding family.
Nancy Moroz
- Wednesday, July 21, 2004 9:47 PM CDT

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