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just checking in on you once more..thinking of you often..and, happy for your new career...
mary alice Dorschel and Lizzie <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va usa - Friday, January 27, 2006 7:56 AM CST

Hello Kathy,
As Always still checking on you guys glad to here things are good, I can't beleive Christina is going to Middle school time is going to fast.
Love Martha
Martha Maloy <Maloywayne@msn.com>
West Palm Beach , Fl 33406 - Monday, January 23, 2006 12:14 AM CST

I dont sign in much but I do think about you and hope and pray things are ok. Glad you like teaching thats what I wanted to do in the olden days when I was younger...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, January 21, 2006 1:58 PM CST

Hi Kathy and HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!
It sounds like things are going great and I am so happy that you are happy. What a blessing to find a job that works so well for so many reasons !!!
Just wanted to let you know I stopped by-
hugs-
Alison Haddock
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Wednesday, January 18, 2006 3:01 PM CST

Just stopping by belatedly to wish you all the best in the New Year.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Monday, January 16, 2006 10:42 AM CST

Hope all is going well in the New Year.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Sunday, January 15, 2006 4:53 PM CST

Happy New Year Charltons!!!

Love to All
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Monday, January 2, 2006 7:22 PM CST

I thought of your family often over Christmas. I hope you're enjoying one of the "perks" of teaching - CHRISTMAS VACATION!!!!! Hoping all is well..............
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
b'ham, - Thursday, December 29, 2005 10:08 AM CST

Merry Christmas! God bless your family
Jo and Robert <jvonschoeler@cox.net>
Crestview, FL - Saturday, December 24, 2005 7:07 PM CST

Thinking of you and your entire beautiful family..Hope all is well.
Mary Alice Dorschel and Lizzie, Jay, and all <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, va usa - Saturday, December 24, 2005 2:15 PM CST

Thinking of all of you during this holiday season. May you feel Robert's love all around you.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, December 24, 2005 10:52 AM CST

I am thinking of you and still praying for you every day. I hope you can have a nice Christmas... I am heading to visit my youngest son and his family in ILL for a few days....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 22, 2005 7:03 AM CST

Kathy, as someone who always reads but never writes here I feel compelled to tell you how much your words always touch my heart. You are never alone and speak for many so eloquently. I am glad you are on the planet and continue to use your writing to help others feel. May all the blessings of Christmas be yours and your family's.
Judith (old friend of the Pachecos) <msgeorge52@earthlink.net>
Bowling Green, FL USofA - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 4:59 PM CST

Forgot to wish you a blessed Christmas.

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, December 20, 2005 4:15 PM CST

Kathy,
Thank you for once again blessing me with one of your thoughtful and beautiful journal writings. I will pray for the children and families of the two mothers you refer to in your last entry. I believe with all that is within me that your Robert is in the presence of his Lord and Savior. I believe that you and your family will some day be reunited with him. I believe that even though we may never meet on this earth, that you and I and our families will share eternity together. Praying for you always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 4:14 PM CST

Thank you Kathy. Merry Christmas to you and your family.
Terri Daringer <tdaringer@shco.org>
- Tuesday, December 20, 2005 3:01 PM CST

Once again - so eloquently written....love to all & have a great Christmas
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 9:06 AM CST

Dear Kathy,
Hoping all is well and you are able to have peace during the Christmas season.....knowing that because of your faith and belief in Jesus Christ that you will one day see your precious Robert again. I am praying for you and your family.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Monday, December 19, 2005 7:11 PM CST

oh my..the Holiday thing often sucks...the stuff to do, not the reason...pardon me, but really, it is hard. I totally understand the wanting to be alone and just leave for a bit..and you deserve it. Is hard to give all the time, and never have time out time...
You are in my thoughts, for some peace and beautiful memories.
much love,
Mary alice Dorschel and Lizzie, Jay, and all <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, va usa - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 9:12 PM CST

I wish I had a nickel for every time I wanted to fly the coop. My greatest prayer for you is for peace.
Jo and Robert <jvonschoeler@cox.net>
Crestview, FL - Sunday, December 11, 2005 5:22 PM CST

Been there Done that! Thank GOD for very capable older daughters!!! I often refer to Kacie as my "assistant manager"!
Tammy www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove <tammy@allen-graham.com>
brunswick, ga usa - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 10:22 AM CST

Kathy - I had to smile when you wrote about the "MOM" hormones that send you over the edge when you see a pair of shoes left out. I felt that way about teaching too. Some days we would close the classroom door and be our own happy little community, and then there were days when the noise, hustle and bustle shook me to the core! Woe - Teaching and being a Mom requires an extra dose of energy and paitence. My hat's off to you Kathy Charlton. :) My heart aches hearing your Target story. Please know that so many of us continue to pray for you. We remember your family during Christmas and always.
Tammy <tholston3588@charter.net>
bham, al - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 8:07 AM CST

Kathy - I pray you have better days ahead. You have so much going on. Teaching can be a very tiring job. My daughter teaches and is still living at home. She is worn out when she gets home. And she has no other responsibilities like you do. Take time for your self often. Maybe a massage, pedicure might help. Hope you have a wonderful, happy, stree free day-is that possible?

Praying for you.

Joy
Wilson, NC - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 7:50 AM CST

Kathy, I can only imagine your grief in Target. It brings tears to my eyes when I stand in the midst of all the hustle and bustle of Christmas thinking about all of my friends who are spending Christmas without their children this year--for the first time or the 10th. And, I'm just a bystander. Many people have trouble during the holidays with missing loved ones, but Christmas seems to be so very difficult when it comes to missing children and my heart just aches for you. God has a way of giving us breaks when we need them and I am so glad you were able to get away, even if just for a short time. I will be praying for times for you to just get alone with God and do the emotional WORK you need to do as you face the difficult aspects of another holiday without Robert. You are a wonderful mom and a wonderful person and I am so glad God allowed our paths to cross. I'll check back in soon. Blessings in Christ as you try to get through the next several weeks.
KhalitaDuke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 5:57 AM CST

Kathy,
Quite an entry, I must say. My heart truly ached for you as I envisioned you in Target having a major melt down. I am sorry that nobody offered you a kind word or a sign of concern. I had a similar experience with a customer last year at the store I work at. When I asked her if she needed help, she let it all out and told me her whole story. Her son had been murdered and left behind two small children. The murderer had been her daughter-in-law and mother of the two small children. I listened to her, I cried with her and I hugged her good bye and told her I would pray for her. I wish that someone had been close by and offered you some love and support. She came back at a later date and told me that it had made a real difference to her that a stranger had shown her compassion. I am not telling you this to make myself sound good. I am telling you this to let you know that it is through sites like Robert's and reading journals like yours, that I learned how to react in a situation of a grieving mother. Thank you for teaching me the lessons you have taught me. You and Robert have touched my life, have changed my life, and have made me a better person. I know you will be okay, but I can certainly understand how you hit the wall at this point. You are in a new situation with teaching 1st grade. You have had many ups and downs in the past year with your finances, your home and a broken relationship. you have three children that need your attention and love and then there is always the constant reminder of you really have four children, but one is not here. Of course you hit the wall....who wouldn't with all of that on their plate?!! I am so sorry that life is so difficult. I know you are strong. I know you will make it. You are an incredible woman that so many of us out here in cyber land admire. My prayers are with you this evening and each and every day until Christmas, because I know this is so hard at this time of year. Please take care of yourself and if you have to fly the coop for an hour or two now and then....know that it is alright to do so. Blessings to you always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Monday, December 5, 2005 11:58 PM CST

Good for you for flying the coop when you need to.
God Bless you and try to enjoy your holidays.

Ruth Trombino <ARTrombino@cox.net>
westerly, RI - Monday, December 5, 2005 9:36 PM CST

Well, after reading your latest entry, I just had to sign in again. How about that? 2 in one week after taking FOREVER to say hi? Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that if you need a listening ear/email/shoulder, etc. regarding the school issue(s) feel free to get in touch with me. I'm sure you have PLENTY of good friends who have excellent advice. But, I figured it never hurts just to make the offer and let you know I'm here and willing to listen anytime. I am currently teaching high schoolers--sometimes it's worse than the 6 o'clock news and feels like an alternate universe of some sort. And then, of course, there are the times when the kids are decent and even GOOD (very occasionally--lol). One of the greatest joys of teaching, for me anyways, is to learn how to trust God more as He builds our faith, trust and relationship with Him. When we are placed in a new and challenging situation, it is always to build our faith & character and to make us more like Jesus. But, of course, I'll be the first one to admit that this is OFTEN much harder than it seems. We certainly don't have control over the situations of any students once they leave our classes, but these kids still tell (or show) us the things they are dealing with day in/day out even if just in mannerisms and attitudes. God has put us in a position such that we can pray, love and really let Christ shine as He makes a difference in the lives of the young people looking to you for guidance. And, you have wonderful guidance to offer. If that were not the case, God never would have put you where He has you. It's possible that it may be to help just one child that needs something emotionally, academically, spiritually, etc. And, God knows He can trust you to trust Him. He will certainly show you what to do. The teachers and students at our school gather for prayer every morning before school starts. I will be sure to lift up your situation during our time tomorrow and ask my fellow teacher/prayer warriors to pray in agreement with me for you and the situation you're facing. Thank you for sharing and allowing us the opportunity to pray for you. That's always such a blessing--to pray for others. And, remember, please don't hesitate to contact me if I can help at all. Blessings and love in Christ.
KhalitaDuke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, December 1, 2005 11:42 PM CST

Happy Late birthday to Matthew.... I remember hoping that Mike would not come on thanksgiving at least till after I ate.... He was born the 30th so he waited....I truly hope the school situation is being worked out to the good of everyone. It is so hard when one person ruins things for all.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 29, 2005 9:59 AM CST

You are one of the most amazingly brave people I know. I have no doubt you are touching both the lives and hearts of the kids you teach! Tell Matthew belated happy birthday. We were out of town all last week. My Matt had a birthday too...he's just a few years older than yours!

Lots of love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:56 AM CST

I'm glad that Matthew had a great birthday and that Thanksgiving was so nice for you all. I hope that the situation you're facing with your student resolves itself well; it must be very difficult being a teacher. I know it's not something I'd ever want to tackle! I hope you all have a great week.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Monday, November 28, 2005 1:26 PM CST

I don't sign in as much as I used to, but I certainly don't think of you any less. And now that you are a fellow teacher, I will pray for you even more :) Please know that you are loved and cared for and I will continue to check on and pray for your family. Blessings in Christ as you go through the holidays without the physical presence of your precious Robert.
KhalitaDuke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Sunday, November 27, 2005 9:42 PM CST

Happy Thanksgiving and a happy birthday to Matthew!
Tammy <tholston3588@charter.net>
Bham, - Thursday, November 24, 2005 6:58 AM CST

Happy Thanksgiving, Kathy and the Sunshine Band!! And a VERY SPECIAL Happy Birthday to you, Matthew!!!!!!
Tom and Lynne <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Heartland Ramblings , - Thursday, November 24, 2005 5:27 AM CST

Kathy,
On a day I was feeling really troubled about many things, your journal entry both broke my heart but brought me peace, by once again putting things into perspective. I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I pray for you and Robert.
Lynn
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 5:34 PM CST

Oh Kathy, what a tearbreaker, and I can imagine trying to picture that scenario with my loved one, I was crying just reading it. What you all have been through, unbelievable and unfair. Robert knows you loved him and did all you could for him. You have to know that
Chris Gooch's mom
- Monday, November 21, 2005 8:54 PM CST

Hi Cathy,
It is Bridget. I haven't been online in a very long time. My daughter became very ill. She is still battling things. But I am hopeful that she will be ok. If you would like to visit her caring bridge page it is www.caringbridge.org/visit/laurenetto
I have missed reading your page and I am glad to be back.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Bridget
Bridget <bc2brn2001@yahoo.com>
Wellington, FL USA - Monday, November 21, 2005 10:38 AM CST

Kathy- You, Robert and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Diane Mathis <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Hickory, NC - Monday, November 21, 2005 7:18 AM CST

And I am the mother of a third son in the bunch that I love and miss dearly. So often your words describe just how I feel on a certian day. I can not express how I feel near as good in words as you do. May GOD be with you and hold you and your family close.... I hope the teaching goes great for you. I feel you will make a wonderful teacher
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 21, 2005 7:06 AM CST

Kathy,
My heart aches for you as you recount Robert's last days. May you feel a deep peace inside knowing that he is in the presence of the Savior. I am sure you will always have a big hole in your heart, since Robert is no longer here on earth, but I know he visits you in your memories each and every day. Blessings to you always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Sunday, November 20, 2005 2:49 PM CST

Dear Kathy, so many time you have captured my feelings in your words. Although we've never met, and are miles and miles apart...we are two Moms of two precious boys. Two boys that we love and miss dearly. I'm so thankful that they are both healed, healthy, happy and hanging out together in Heaven. I can't wait to get there myself, and 'hang' with 'em. I am praying that you feel all the love coming your way...God bless you.
jan livingstone (andy's mom forever)
IL - Friday, November 18, 2005 8:02 PM CST

Ohhh Kathy, Thank you for sharing. I am speechless right now and not good with words but I am sending you a cyperspace hug and am embracing you with all I got.
Terri Daringer <tdaringer@shco.org>
Persia, Ia - Friday, November 18, 2005 2:51 PM CST

Kath: Was thinking of you all yesterday - love you all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, November 18, 2005 11:35 AM CST

Sweet Kathy, my heart aches for you and the pain you have suffered. Be at peace knowing that Robert is safe and warm and healthy, waiting for the day you will be reunited. Much love,
Elaine Haugan <ehaugan@fbcwpb.org>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Friday, November 18, 2005 9:17 AM CST

Kathy, I was guided to your website tonite and had tears of my own never ever forgetting the first time I met Robert and the McDonalds you all got for Jessie. Roberts first impression will last on me for a lifetime I am honored to have known him and will cherish that first day I met him forever. Love ya Kathy. Tricia
Doyle <pampcheftricia@aol.com>
Loxahatchee, FL USA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 8:45 PM CST

I wondered when you would share that...you are ALWAYS in my prayers. On another day I will tell you how Robert changed my life...and how it continues to change, because of him.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, November 17, 2005 8:23 PM CST

I did not for get about you on this day. I have thought about it often all day long. I know for a fct how hard these days are.. Just know that you are loved and Robert will never be forgotten.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 17, 2005 5:21 PM CST

Been thinking about all of you today, Kathy. Wishing you peace and comforting memories...
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Heartland Ramblings , - Thursday, November 17, 2005 4:29 PM CST

Kathy, Just wanted to let you know that I have not forgotten Robert or you. I think of him all the time, today, tomorrow, forever. I wont' forget him. I know you are going to be a remarkable teacher.
Terri Daringer <tdaringer@shco.org>
Persia, Ia - Thursday, November 17, 2005 4:08 PM CST

Wanting you to know that you are indeed in my thoughts and prayers--especially today. Blessings and love to you in Christ.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, November 17, 2005 3:17 PM CST

Hard to believe that Robert has been gone for several years now. I can remember Robert's final days well and how blessed he was to be surrounded by friends and family.
Benjy Starling <starling@northwood.edu>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 1:23 PM CST

Kathy,
I had to come and visit Robert's page today. Isn't it funny how a day like November 17th has meaning to a perfect stranger? It is a day etched into my brain because of the love I have grown to have for a young man named Robert and his family. I remember very much following Robert each and everyday that year and feeling such deep grief for his family on November 17th. My grief was not for Robert. Not at all. He was with his precious Savior, but the pain that his family felt had to be unbearable. Reading your entry about going to the cemetary made me cry. I can't help but believe that if it were my child, I would have done the same thing. I am so sorry that Robert is no longer on this earth to continue living the life he loved living. You are a remarkable woman Kathy! Robert is with you each and everyday, just not in the way our earthly hearts desire. Remember him? Remember Robert? How could I ever forget? YES! I will ALWAYS remember Robert!
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Thursday, November 17, 2005 11:15 AM CST

GOOD MORNING,
WE SHARE A COMMON DATE, ONE YEAR APART, ONE A BROTHER,
ONE A SON, EACH VERY PRECIOUS TO THEIR FAMILIES AND
EACH IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER.
WITH MUCH LOVE PAM
PAM SCHWARZ <PSCHWA4992@AOL.COM>
W. PALM BEACH, FL PALM BEACH - Thursday, November 17, 2005 9:49 AM CST

Kathy - What a beautiful entry to your Robert. He is so loved, and it is evident you are too. You move us to tears with your memories and pain, yet you end your entry with "all is well with my soul". What a strong statement. I hope to have an ounce of the faith you demonstrate here daily. Robert is remembered....... by family, friends and even complete strangers! What an incredible boy.
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
Birmingham, AL - Thursday, November 17, 2005 9:00 AM CST

Kathy,

Way out here on the west coast, I remember Robert. Every time I listen to "Robert's Tunes", or see an extraordinary sunrise or sunset, or sometimes I remember him because I'm just thinking about his amazing mom.

Unless I'm mistaken, I don't think you've ever written details about Robert's last days...you wrote about the wind, and knowing he was leaving, but not much else. I feel sure that your boy is watching over you, and his brother and sisters. I bet he's proud!

Lots of love to you, today and every day.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, November 17, 2005 8:37 AM CST

Dear Kathy,

I woke up this morning, thinking about you...all of you. Robert, Matthew, Christina, Jessica, Mimi Bunny and Jeff.

I can't possibly fully know just how hard this day is for all of you, but I can continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Your writings are so amazing. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us, for letting us continue to remember Robert!

Love to you all,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Thursday, November 17, 2005 8:29 AM CST

Hope you are having a wonderful week at school. Just wanted you to know someone in Wilson, NC was thinking of you and praying for you.
Joy <jamesproperties@earthlink.net>
Wilson, NC - Thursday, November 17, 2005 7:51 AM CST

Although it's the "next" day, and it would appear that the "anniversary" is over and one must "move on", "moving on" is not "forgetting", and it is obvious, Kathy, that Robert's memory continues to make you stronger and stronger. Your grief will continue, possibly forever, but the joy of having "had" Robert and the memories of his life, will eventually overshadow your grief....Praise God! I said a special prayer for you today. May God continue to bless you.
Jean Kropid <Powergal43@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beach, FL US - Thursday, November 17, 2005 7:32 AM CST

Hello Kathy-Ther is no truer tribute to someone than the love that you have exhibited and shared with anyone who can read. Your hearts' message becomes all too clear and screams to be remembered within the quietness that is your grief. You continue to surprise me and make me proud with all you do. Robert was the most remarkable of persons who affected many, many lives. You carry the torch of a true messenger of God.
Goodnight our Sweet Robert, Goodnight.

Mimi Bunny <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, Fl. USA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 7:15 AM CST

Good morning,
I just read your page and cried like baby, it brought back all the memories, you are such a strong wonderful person and I know Robert is so proud of all of you, I know how much he loved his family and I know we will all see him again, but please find comfort in knowing how many lives he touched while he was hear and all in such a positive way.
Love you and miss Robert and know he will always be missed.
martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
west Palm beach, fl palm beach - Thursday, November 17, 2005 6:54 AM CST

I REMEMBER,KATHY.

THANK YOU FOR LEADING US BACK TODAY, I WOULDN�T HAVE WANTED TO MISS THIS DAY. IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THAT YOU SHARED YOUR HEART WITH US, BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU AND WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU ARE.I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE ROBERT, JEFF, JESSICA, CHRISTINA AND MATTHEW. YOU ARE IN MY HEART TODAY YOU�RE A VERY SPECIAL WOMAN. GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL. YOU�RE AN ANGEL OF GOD.

ALL OUR LOVE,

DELORES AND MARK

Delores and Mark Kern <dmpro@bellsouth.net>
Rockledge, Fl Dade - Thursday, November 17, 2005 6:38 AM CST

Kathy,
Thinking of you today and tomorrow.
I have also been given that grace that you are talking about. Other people dont understand it cause they dont have it because they dont need it.
FYI
They bury people with their head up against the stone.
I have never done what you did but I bet you if I asked my husband he has.
Take care
Ruth Trombino <ARTrombino@cox.net>
westerly, RI - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 10:01 PM CST

Kathy,
I felt like I was there with you and re-living Robert's final days on Earth. I wish I had gotten the pleasure of meeting him in person. Life has been hectic here. Tomorrow is my 16th anniversary and I am busy working working working!!! i am glad you are settled into your new position. I forgot what grade you are teaching. We got a bird- a cute baby quaker parrot to love and cuddle. She is adorable and I am in love with her already. I know that it is so hard for you!!! I just passed a 10 yr anniversary of my mom's death and it was tough. You are such a strong person, a wonderful mom, and a blessing to have as a friend!!!!!! Hang in there. It will be alright. Hugs to you.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, ny - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 9:14 PM CST

Finding comfort in your memories is amazing thing. You are truly an inspiration, I could never be as strong on you, even on my best day! Your journal entry was so emotional, heartfelt by others and heartbreaking at the thought of what you have gone through. I feel as though I felt some of your pain, as I cried while reading your entry. I remember your son, he was so handsome, so strong and I especially remember him at the Miami Fusion soccer game as he and his friend watched the game so seriously, what a lovely & sweet child...... your family will remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Colette McKnight <colettemcknight@bellsouth.net>
PSL, FL USA - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 8:33 PM CST

Hi Kathy! Just wanted to leave a quick message to say that you are in my thoughts & prayers. Congratulations on the new job - I am sure you will be a terrific teacher! God Bless You. As a child, I always wanted to be a teacher, but now with 4 kids at home, I'm glad that I have a day job with grownups!
Tammy (www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove) <tammy@allen-graham.com>
brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 3:14 PM CST

I'm glad the new teaching job is going well. You are in my thoughts and prayers especially for a good night's sleep tonight. I'm praying that tomorrow's classes go very well and that you are given strength to conquer the day.
Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, Ont Canada - Wednesday, November 16, 2005 10:47 AM CST

Kathy, Congradualtion on your new job, I know it will be a wonderful experience for both you and the children they are so blessed to have you. I have been thinking alot about you and I know thursday is going to be hard staying busy will help a little I hope, know that I am thinking and always do about you all.
Love Martha
martha Mlaoy <Maloywayne@msn.com>
West Palm Beach , Fl - Tuesday, November 15, 2005 12:19 AM CST

so, your first day went well,, I am not at all surprised. I would be thrilled to have a teacher like you, who loves kids, loves teaching, and also, has the hard won gift of knowing what matters in life..you will be amazed one day looking back at what you have done in lives, I think. Please know my thoughts are still with you and this time of year especially..time does stand still so we acknowledge, though I will let you know, I have never for a day forgotten..
Liz is good, has a list of radiation late effects, but no biggie..
Good to see you beginning a new career, very exciting.
Much love
Mary Alice Dorschel and Lizzie <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va usa - Monday, November 14, 2005 7:10 AM CST

I have not signed in some time, but I still think of you all the time and want you to know that I continue to lift you up in prayer. Congratulations on your new position. Blessings especially as you go through this difficult week ahead. I'll keep checking in.
KhalitaDuke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Sunday, November 13, 2005 10:07 PM CST

WOw!! 22 kids that sounds like a lot to me. I know you are a good teacher and all will go well. I also know you will be very busy with the kids on Thursday and that will be good for you. I remember having a job and kids and how hard it was... but some how we mothers muddle through...November is my Mike's birthday(the 30th) he would have been 44 this year. I will try and think on the happy times more and I hope you can do that too and not dwell on the sad and horrid days. I know you will never for get Robert and that is good.... I thought I had more to say but suddenly have drawn a blank... I still pray for you and the kids every night....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, November 13, 2005 8:58 PM CST

Kathy, I cant wait to here how the first week of teaching went. First grade kids are so great!!!! (well, most any way) I know this next week is a hard one for you and the family and I want you to know you will be in my thoughts and prayers even more this week.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, November 12, 2005 8:27 AM CST

Hello, Kathy and the Sunshine Band! Good to see you back and posting again. I'm really glad to hear that you made it through Wilma without any major catastrophies.

It's been weeks of Indian Summer here in the Heartland of NC, which has really confused the gardens. We're still picking tomatoes, yet daffodils are trying to sprout. Flowers that should have been pulled long ago continue to hang on, and those that like the colder fall and early winter temps are really confused. It does make for great outdoor working conditions, though ;)

I, too, am looking forward to hearing about how the new teaching position is going. I hope it's as exciting as you anticipated. The part-time work at the lighthouse sounds like it would be a good thing too, especially since you like it so much there.

Take care, and we'll be checking back on you again soon. Say HI to Matthew, Christina, and Jessica for us ;)
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Clayton, NC Heartland Ramblings - Wednesday, November 9, 2005 7:31 PM CST

Kathy - I know you're swamped right now, but...... you've got an army of fans just waiting to hear how your first day went!! :) Praying that this job is the perfect fit!
Tammy <tholston3588@charter.net>
b'ham, - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 7:10 AM CST

Kathy,
Praying right now that tomorrow will be a wonderful first day of teaching for you! Glad you and your home weathered the hurricane okay. Praying for you and remembering Robert especially during the month of November.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Sunday, November 6, 2005 11:07 PM CST

CONGRATULATIONS KATHY !!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW EXCITING !!!!!! I am so happy for you that you
are now a first grade teacher and the kids are SO lucky to
have such a wonderful person as a teacher !!
Good luck and don't forget the antibacterial soap !!!

In Him-
Alison Haddock
Mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.org/page/alexandriasangels
alison haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 3:23 PM CST

Kathy congratulations!! Hope that today was a great first day with those first graders. Here's to you girl!!! You deserve a huge bouquet of all-the-very-best-wishes. If I was better on the computer, you would see a bouquet of roses right here. So use your imagination, and you'll see the most beautiful bouquet of roses you have ever seen!!!
Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, ON Canada - Monday, October 31, 2005 2:23 PM CST

Hoping everything is OK down your way, Kathy, especially with some of the reports I've heard from the WPB area. Take care...
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Clayton, NC - Sunday, October 30, 2005 6:46 PM CST

good for you I used to want to be a teacher before I got old and retired never did make it. Life got in the way. I hope and pray you and the house are ok after WILMA went roaring by
Sharon < sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 25, 2005 5:59 PM CDT

Congratulations on your teaching job. I hear that teaching can be very rewarding...Change doesn't always have to be painful, too.

Prayers being said for your family.
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, PA USA - Monday, October 24, 2005 6:31 AM CDT

well - all I can say is that those first graders will be the better for having you as their teacher - WAY TO GO - great re-invention. I am sure Robert is up there giving you a BIG "thumbs-up"

Prayers go out to all the Floridians, especially the CB families that WILMA will skirt you and leave you alone this time - none of you need this added agrevation

(((hugs))) and prayers continue
Lynne <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
Heartland Ramblings, - Sunday, October 23, 2005 10:44 PM CDT

Yes Kathy, Robert would be so proud of his mom teaching 1st grade. I am so thrilled for you. I think this is a very good "reinvention" for you. I will be praying that this brings you much satisfaction and financial security. Also praying that Wilma leaves you alone. Take care of that precious family.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Sunday, October 23, 2005 8:32 PM CDT

Kathy, may Wilma leave you alone as you start this new journey in life. Good luck and God be with you.
Sandra K. <cymomtx@yahoo.com>
Cypress, TX - Sunday, October 23, 2005 10:02 AM CDT

Oh Kathy - I am so thrilled for you!! I was a first grade teacher before I started having all these babies!! :) I hope to be again one day..... First grade is a wonderful age. They think everything you do is fabulous. They would even beg for me to sing and I'm horrible!!! I wish you were closer - I could hand over all of my math games, beginning readers, bulliton boards etc..... When I quit teaching my husband was horrified to see all of the "school junk" I had accumulated. When is your first day? We'll look forward to hearing all about it. What an exciting change for your family. Is Matthew at your school? Take care. We hope to hear soon that Wilma came and went without any trouble! Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
bham, - Saturday, October 22, 2005 2:07 PM CDT

Way to go Ms. Charlton....I'm so happy for you. Kids need great dedicated people like you teaching them. The children you get in your class are going to be so blessed to have you. We'll go out to celebrate when I'm in town.... love ya
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Duhram, NC - Saturday, October 22, 2005 6:40 AM CDT

Kathy
I am so happy and excited for you!!!!First grade is such a wonderful grade to teach. You will be the perfect teacher. I hope Wilma does not get the best of you. Go back to Fred!! I just had my first flooded basement and garage and it was nothing compared to what you get in Florida. So why are so many people leaving NY for Florida? Oh well. i cant wait to hear all about your first day. Hugs to you
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 10:07 PM CDT

Congratulations, my friend! Good for you. I absolutely love your tenacity and flexibility. You are going to be such a blessing to the children whose lives you touch! I'm proud of you! Have a great weekend and I'll pray Wilma takes a hard right turn.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 1:01 PM CDT

HI Kathy,

I too, had to highlight the page to read the journal, but it was so worth it. CONGRATULATIONS on getting the teaching positon. I know you will have a lot to offer those youngsters.

I wish you the best. I hope and pray that Wilma will leave you all alone!!

Sending love and hugs,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Friday, October 21, 2005 12:41 AM CDT

OK, So I had to highlight the Journal to see a new one was up ;) Congratulations on the new teaching position, Kathy!!! That's great! Hopefully, you'll be able to take much of what you learned at the lighthouse, the stories, the history, and your own solid good sense and share it with the kids you'll be working with. Of course, I'm sure I speak for many when I say Lynne and I will certainly be looking forward to more regular 'musings' once you adjust to the new schedule. I think you'll do just fine with this latest change, and re-inventing Kathy. Be careful while you prepare for this storm, Kath.
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Clayton, NC Heartland Ramblings - Friday, October 21, 2005 6:55 AM CDT

Hi, Kathy and the Sunshine Band!!! Hope you've been able to get some work done on the wall that went MIA on you. With winter coming on... oh wait, you don't HAVE winter ;) Seriously, I do hope you've at least been able to make some repairs to get it covered up.

There's been some exciting news in our family in the past 3 weeks!!! Stop by Heartland Ramblings and meet our Baby Granddaughter!!! :) :) :)

Otherwise, things are going along nicely here in Carolina. Some of the gardens don't want to stop growing, though, and it makes it hard to start pulling things out to plant things for the fall/winter. We do have a fall vegitable garden in, and can't wait to start picking from that. We keep wanting to make a trip out to the beach, but for the last few weeks, with the constant offshore storms, the ocean's been pretty rough out on the coast. We'll make it back there sometime, though ;)

We'll be thinking of you guys and our other Florida friends this weekend as we wait and see what Wilma has in store. Take care, Kathy...
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Clayton, NC - Friday, October 21, 2005 6:29 AM CDT

We'll be thinking of you guys through the weekend - Stay SAFE!!

Love ya & see you soon
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 3:01 PM CDT

Good morning Kathy! Just thinking of you this morning. Hope is everything is going well!
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
bham, al - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 9:04 AM CDT

Happy Friday. It's still dark here on the west coast, but the starry sky made me think of Robert, first thing! Have a great weekend.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, October 14, 2005 8:24 AM CDT

I can not beleive I have not signed in for so many days.....I think of you every day, and I read and re read your words of wisdom. ITs uncanny how often you write about things that I am thinking and worrying about... You know I care and I pray for you and the kids.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 13, 2005 9:40 AM CDT

Dear Roberts family
I found your page through QOL
I have just read your words on fear and as a mother my greatest fear was to loose one of my children..We lost our Jacob this June 1 day before his 14th birthday..I will also never forget the day we were told he would die ..I know what you meant by the air left the room I didn't think I would ever breathe again.. But we do ,dont we?
with love and sorrow for your loss
jacob's mum
Deanne www.caringbridge.org/me/jacob Angel Jake
Alexandra Hills Brisbane, Queensland Australia - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 9:54 PM CDT

Hi Kathy...I have been following your journey for several years now but rarely stop into the guestbook to write. Your entries are always so moving. I lost a very close friend to medullablastoma earlier this year and have gone back through some of your older entries to gather strength. You are truly an inspiring woman who has an amazing way with words. Your entry on fear is particularly moving to me...I know I personally let so many things go by simply because I'm afraid..I shouldn't be though, should I? Life is too short. Thanks for keeping up with this site..I think it means more to people than you realize.
Love, Erin Doyle <boltsfan19@hotmail.com>
Clearwater, FL - Sunday, October 9, 2005 6:39 PM CDT

Kathy, as I prepare for our Light the Night Walk in West Palm Beach, I cannot help thinking of that day I received the call from you that I needed to go to the house as you had just hung up from telling Jeff the news from the Doctor's in Memphis and that he and Jessica would be travelling to Memphis. We were in line at Krispy Kreme. In all the time that has passed, and all the issues we have all faced together, and sometimes apart, we have not lost sight of the fact that God's mercies are everlasting, and that all things that we face can be faced only in the knowledge that he knows the beginning, the middle and the end. He already knows the entire pattern of our lives, and when we ask him to fill our needs, we must come with open hands to receive his blessings. Let's keep our palms up, ready to receive. Love, Mimi Jane
Jane Pike <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 9:29 PM CDT

Kathy,
Your latest journal was so profound and meaningful to me. There have been many fears in my life lately about the unknown of the future. Thank you for reminding me to turn toward God during those fears not away from Him. I have to admit, lately, I have even been blaming God for all that has happened to create my fears. I know better than to do that, but the "fallen human" in me has been very predominant lately. I know I have said it before, but I must say it again, you write so beautifully. When I got to the very end and read that 3 years ago today was the day you were told that Robert would die, I literally wept for you. I am so sorry that that day ever had to be. I so wish for you that Robert had survived his cancer. I know Robert is where he wants to be, but still the loss for you has to be so great. For someone that has been through so much in the last few years, to me, "reinventing" would be the only way to survive. So keep on trying to find that reinvented Kathy. I know in the end she will be magnificent!!
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 7:18 PM CDT

keeping touch...think of you often
Mary Alice Dorschel, <Jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, - Monday, October 3, 2005 1:50 PM CDT

Your words continue to inspire me and so many others. I hope you can get a book deal some time... I don't even know if you want one, but you are so good with words you should. I hope things are going ok for you and the kids. I think about you often and pray for you daily.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 30, 2005 7:52 AM CDT

Kathy,
I hope you realize how inspirational your writing continues to be. Not only to those of us who loved Robert, even without the pleasure of meeting face to face, but for anyone in any type of undesirable circumstance. After reading your current entry, I sat and realized how many times I have prayed there was a "delete all details" button for my life. If only I could go back....this has been one of the hardest parts I've had to face in the last two years. I CAN'T go back, I CAN'T change things.....oh how I wish I could. But I am learning that I can only go forward and if I only dwell on my past mistakes, I will continue to make more today. If only it were as easy to forgive yourself as it is for our Lord to forgive us. My pastor said to me once, "Do you not believe that God has forgiven you?" I said I knew that He had. He then said, "It's about time to forgive yourself!" Somehow that is much easier said than done. Yes, there are most certainly different reasons for our wishing there were a "delete button", but we all need to learn to forgive ourselves and others, just as the Lord does for us. Thank you once again for your wisdom.

I wish I could be half the woman you are.....you AMAZE me!!!

Big hugs and love,

Krista Iverson <iverson0215@sbcglobal.net>
Ottawa, IL - Monday, September 26, 2005 8:50 AM CDT

Hello my friend,

It's a Friday afternoon and I find myself thinking about you...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, September 23, 2005 7:13 PM CDT

Kathy,
Your journal entries are always so thought provoking and such a blessing. Thinking of you and praying for you and your family.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Friday, September 23, 2005 4:22 PM CDT

Wow, all you have gone through and you have such a wonderful way with words. You have it all together, and are a great inspiration for others. Have a great day!
Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, Ont Canada - Thursday, September 22, 2005 6:19 AM CDT

Kathy
I love the delete button idea!!!!If only we could delete all the bad stuff. My days are actually a bit lonely now that my baby is in kindergarten. More time to worry about things. I work part time but it is still lonely around here. This Sunday is the ALS walk and there are 15 of us walking for my sister. It is going to be a beautiful day or so the weather report says. It should be fun and for a good cause. Have a nice rest of the week and wonderful weekend.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 4:28 PM CDT

better stop while I am ahead ... now I see I spelled thinking wrong too.. and goofed..... its more the typing than the spelling .. any how I am thinking aboutyou today
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 19, 2005 1:00 PM CDT

Stopped Stopped there I spelled it right.... I goof on the post below.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com,>
- Monday, September 19, 2005 12:59 AM CDT

Just toppped by to tell you I was thnking about you today... Hang in there MOM
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com,>
- Monday, September 19, 2005 12:58 AM CDT

Kathy - Last Thursday I walked in the Light the Night Walk here in Birmingham. I remembered back to two years ago when I walked it in honor of Robert. This year I walked on team Scarlett. Scarlett is one of my 6yr old daughters closest friends. The last time I walked, I never imagined Scarlett would ever be diagnosed with Leukemia. I thought of Robert as we walked. I celebrated that Scarlett danced and led the walk with lots of energy. I prayed that one day this disease will be NO MORE.
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
Birmingham, AL - Saturday, September 17, 2005 10:12 AM CDT

Your words are so profound! I don't know if it helps to know that you weren't alone in your "Monday". We had a full blown "Monday" on this coast too! I keep thinking of the words to a worship song, "By the grace of God we will carry on...His love endures forever!"

Take care, my friend.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Monday, September 12, 2005 9:06 PM CDT

your story of Matthew's morning sure brought back memories of Mike. that boy could find a million reasons not to go to school, since it was before cell phone days and I could not be reached at work unless the secretary really thought it was an emergency he just stayed home... or he went to school and laid in the nurses office compliaining of this and that til they would call me. I hope Matthew's day got better as it went along. I think of you so often. and stil lhave you in my nightly prayers too.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com,>
- Monday, September 12, 2005 1:35 PM CDT

Hey Guys,
Still checking on you, glad to hear everything is okay.
Love
Martha
Martha Maloy <MaloyWayne@MSN.com>
W.P.B., Fl. Palm Beach - Monday, September 12, 2005 12:01 AM CDT

Hey Kathy & kids....
I had such a good time seeing the children this weekend. They are so beautiful. We had a great time. Justin, Emily, and Hannah LOVED seeing their cousins. Hannah especially. She and Christina had a wonderful time together. They are a pair the two of them....movie stars. They have grown so much...Matthew is such a little man. He is definately not a little boy anymore. He had such a good time and he is so sweet and gentle with the younger kids. Jess.....just wanted to let you know that Jessi is doing just fine...she loves it at our house. She is a very sweet puppy. I will get some pictures for you and send them.
Kathy, thanks for the sweet gifts you sent the kids....thanks for thinking of them. They loved them.
I hope the children had a good time....I sure did.
Love you all!!!! Hope to be able to see you again soon!
Dawn <dawn.holman@sw-stainless.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 10:14 AM CDT

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viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, September 3, 2005 12:04 AM CDT

Dearest Kathy,
Just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know that I DO still stop and check on you. I haven't signed in for a long time now. I still love to come to the homepage and look at Robert's smile.....it can bring a smile to my face on days that are so very low. I am glad that you are all still putting one foot in front of the other. I'm learning that the "one day at a time" phrase can work for so many walks of life. Please take care and know that you are always in my prayers.
Krista Iverson <iverson0215@sbcglobal.net>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, September 2, 2005 11:59 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,

I'm glad all is well in the Charlton household. I've shed a few tears watching and reading of the devastation in Mississippi and Louisiana. Hard to believe something like that can actually happen here...

We're winding down summer. The girls go back to school next week. Shea to second grade, Tate to kindergarten, and Jacey to preschool. Unbelievable!

Take care and know that I think of you often!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, September 1, 2005 10:21 AM CDT

Kathy - I've started to sign your guestbook several times lately, but I haven't had much to say (this could be a first!!) Life is flowing along and it feels good to be back in Birmingham. Besides my Kindergartner crying and begging not to go to school, daily life has been calm and nice - as calm as it can get w/three little girls :). We lost power and phone service when Katrina reached us. Once the power came back on last night, I was able to see for the first time the devestation in Mississippi and New Orleans. It is unbelievable! One of the reporters was crying as she interviewed a man that had lost his wife, his home, and all of his possessions. It makes things here seem very trivial. I miss your daily updates, but I know life is crazy! I hope all of your crew is happy and enjoying school. I hope your happy too! Take care.........
Tammy Holston <tholston3588@charter.net>
B'ham, AL - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 12:00 AM CDT

hey I am still here and still thinking about you and hopiong things are getting better down there with allthe things you have going on.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 30, 2005 2:19 PM CDT

Good morning, Sunshine Band! I guess with Katrina in the neighborhood there isn't much sunshine going on. After all those storms from last year, I'm glad this one didn't get y'all too bad. Sounds like there's been a lot of rain with it, though. Sure hope some of it drifts up this way; we've been really dry lately (but someone forgot to tell the humidity guy that).

It's hard to believe that summer is already coming to an end. We've picked the last of the squash, and cucumbers from the first planting, and now the veggie bed is looking a little barren with just tomatos and a couple pepper plants left. A lot of the summer flowers have finished blooming now.

Have the kids settled into some sort of routine, now that they have 2 weeks of school under their belt? Have you ;)

Hope things are going well on the other fronts for you guys. Take care, and stay dry ;)
Tom <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Heartland Ramblings , - Friday, August 26, 2005 8:03 AM CDT

Hi Kathy - just stopping in to say HI and see how things are going. Looks like from the weather channel you guys may get a little wind and rain. Hope that is all it is - just a T-storm and some rain.

For Tom's birthday (well it just happened to be delivered on his birthday) we got a rather large order delivered from Lowes - brick, pavers, edging stone, wood and various dirts. This should give us plenty of gardening projects to last us till Christmas.

Take care and keep an eye on that weather
Lynne <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net ~~http://heartlandramblings.blogspot.com/>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 3:50 PM CDT

Hi Kathy- Just stopping by to say hi and to check up on you guys. The pictures of you and the kids on your beach trip are very nice. I was thinking of when we were all scattered from Florida this time 3 years ago - we were at Duke and you and Robert were at St. Judes. I remember the gift you and Robert sent Mitch for his birthday. He enjoyed getting mail at his "home away from home". I am sorry I wasn't able to IM the other night - I was actually away from the computer mostly that night. We will definately keep in touch. Hoping all is ok at home and that the kids are adjusting to school. Mitch and Kaleigh start on Thursday up here in North Carolina. Mitch is going into 6th grade and Kaleigh is going into 2nd grade. They will be going to the same school as it is K-6 in the area where we live. Talk to you soon....
Diane Mathis (Mitchell's mom) www.caringbridge.com/page/mitchellmathis <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Hickory, NC - Saturday, August 20, 2005 3:46 PM CDT

thinkin' about you all and saying a prayer I hope the school year goes good for the kids... and for MAMA too
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 19, 2005 3:29 PM CDT

The pictures at the beach are great! The kids have really grown up and matured, especially Jessica. Kathy, I continue to check in on you and pray for you. May life, somehow, someway, begin to get easier, with the help of those around you, and especially the Lord.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Thursday, August 18, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

Hi Kathy, I thought of you, Robert & your family yesterday as I planted my 1st gardenia tree. How is your tree doing? I wish you and the kids well for this school year, my son Kade is also in 5th grade this year and Kailey turned 3 in April.. I will keep in touch.

Colette McKnight <colettemcknight@bellsouth.net>
WPB, FL - Monday, August 15, 2005 11:51 AM CDT

My dear Kathy - 3 years WOW but yes I guess it has been that long because it was about the same time that I was made aware of the Caring-bridge community. A community where we have all made close friends for all the wrong reasons. I know it is small consolation to know that you and other parents going through the same pain of losing a child gave me the strength to face what would be my husband destiny also. We all looked to each other for that little bit of strength to get through yet another day.

The pictures of your children are absolutely precious - what a perfect way to end the summer.. soaking up some rays.

Life here in the "Heart of North Carolina" is very good now - hot and humid but good..........
Lynne <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net ~~http://heartlandramblings.blogspot.com/>
"Heart of Carolina", - Saturday, August 13, 2005 8:39 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,

3 years...it doesn't seem possible. I hope and pray that anyone would understand the tears of a mother sending her son off to school...even without knowing the whole story. I tear up every single year. No apologies. No excuses. I love my girls and each school year is another milestone in their sweet lives. Jacey starts preschool this year. Tate is off to kindergarten, and Shea is going into second grade.

I'm so happy you had such an amazing week at the beach. I love the pictures. What a beautiful family. We spent 4 days on Sand Key with the girls in April. They were in heaven because the Gulf water is much warmer than the Pacific Ocean.

I think of you often and we still listen to "Robert's Tunes." Sending lots of love from waaaaaay out west...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, August 13, 2005 12:34 AM CDT

Stilll reading, and thinking of you lots. We are nearly 5 years out, and in a good/strange place in dealing. You remain in my heart, and it is good to read your post..the past 3 years has been so fast//slow//odd. I sense the movement in your life, just wanted you to know I think of you, and all your family so very often. much love
Mary Alice Dorschel, <jay,dorschel@verizon.com>
Suffolk, va usa - Saturday, August 13, 2005 8:14 AM CDT

I am glad you had a good time at the beach. I spent one afternoon on a beach in Fla and would like to spend many more there. I think school snuck (is that a word) up on a lot of people this year... what ever happened to the day after labor day starts they had when I was a kid??? maybe 50+ years is what.. your kids are growing up fast it seems. they all sound so neat with all their many talents. I still think of you every day and have you in my nightly prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 12, 2005 10:47 AM CDT

Thinking of you!

Doris (Angel Andrew's Mommy)
- Saturday, July 23, 2005 0:00 AM CDT
Edited by request to fix centering of guestbook
- Tuesday, August 9, 2005 5:50 PM CDT

Dear Kathy,
Sorry, its been forever since you've heard from us. Thanks for checking in on Ryon, I do appreciate it and love to hear from you. Thanks for the link on Robert's site also. I haven't updated for awhile, it just seems to drain me to do it. No new news really, just waiting for the healing of time to ease up this horrible GVHd. We are waiting on a new wheelchair for Ryon to help him get around better. Love to you and the kids. Dolores Rommel
The Rommel's <datz-phat@mail.com>
Jupiter, Fl. USA - Sunday, August 7, 2005 10:46 AM CDT

Kathy
I hope one of the changes will not be to stop writing here. You have no idea how much comfort your words are for me and so many others. I hope you are enjoying the rest of the summer(even with the heat). You are in so many prayers. Hang in there.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, August 3, 2005 7:44 AM CDT

HI Friend!

What a poignant journaling of thoughts. I was left speechless - gosh it HURTS... goodbyes hurt, pain hurts, suffering hurts, change.. even change can hurt. All of this hurt - it increases our longing for heaven.

I am still pondering and holding onto sweet Matthew's wise words from your last entry.. "everlasting family that never dies." Thank you Jesus, that this will REALLY come to pass... and we must persevere until that day.

"He leads me beside still waters.. He restores my soul.. " May God bless your time at the beach.

Lotsa love!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, July 31, 2005 0:39 AM CDT

Kathy,

Always good to check in on you. I can count on a contemplative voice and a woman struggling to create meaning out of pain and chaos. I admire you, Kathy. You inspire me.

Barb Abernathy (POST) <just_do_it@earthlink.net>
- Friday, July 29, 2005 2:59 PM CDT

Kathy - Still checking in :) So glad to hear that you're getting to spend a family vacation together, and that you've avoided hurricanes!! I have to run, but I just wanted you to know that I'm still here - even though I don't always sign in- and I continue to pray for your sweet family. God bless!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
B'ham, Al - Friday, July 29, 2005 10:39 AM CDT

Hope you are finding peace. Enjoy your vacation. Always thinking of you and your family. Life is tough but we are strong. We will make our way through until we are with our children again.
God Bless
Ruth Trombino <ARTrombino@cox.net>
Westerly, RI - Thursday, July 28, 2005 9:39 PM CDT

Have a great trip. All of you deserve a break.

Stay cool!

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN United States - Thursday, July 28, 2005 10:23 AM CDT

glad to read you are still here...thinking of you all, and even I will never forget Robert, he remains so close to my heart...Kathy, as you do. Life moves on, but the place you all have in my heart is there. Let us know how your beach time is, we are headed out Fri as well....Much love
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, nc usa - Thursday, July 28, 2005 7:51 AM CDT

Thinking about ya all, hope you have a good time at the beach, ahhhhhhhhhh the memories. sent an email with my private thoughts... I know life gets tough and we wonder if we can make it but somehow we muddle through... hugs and prayers for all of you.... My daughter bought a house I am so happy for her, moving day is today> only sad part is she is further away from my house now (probably she is glad bout that LOL)
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 28, 2005 4:58 AM CDT

Just thinking of you guys today...
Lots of love, Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, July 27, 2005 9:39 AM CDT

Signing in to let you know that I'm thinking about you. We were down your way on Vacation and say the exit for the Kravis Center. I immediately thought of you guys. Know that you are in my prayers and enjoy the rest of your Summer. Blessings in Christ.
KhalitaDuke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 9:09 AM CDT

Good morning, KC and the Sunshine Band!!! Glad to hear all is well with everyone down there. I've always been amazed at the things children recall. years go by, and suddenly you hear that familiar "Remember when...?" Matthew's story reminds me of the song "Let Them Be Little"

Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
~Lonestar~

Things are quieting down here in the Heart of Carolina now that we're back from the mountains, which were a beautiful change of pace and scenery. The flower gardens are in transition now, which the birds are loving, since we save a lot of the old flower heads for them to pick the seed off. Butterflies are filling the front and back yards every day, adding to the beauty. The vegitable garden has really taken off. We've been picking and picking squash (yellow and zuccini) for weeks, and the tomatoes are not far behind. Lynne's going to have to refresh her canning skills, I believe ;-)

Well, better get going here before the heat sets in too bad. Looks like another week of 90's ahead. Looking forward to more from "the Summer of Matt ;-)

Take care down there...
Tom - DaDuck <solakinnc@yahoo.com>
Clayton, NC - Thursday, July 21, 2005 5:21 AM CDT

Hello Kathy,
I just want you to know I always check on you guys even if I don't always write, I know what you mean, when you said that Mattew stuck out his lowerlip, I remember Robert doing that its like I could see him doing it now. I'm glad eerything is going well.
love Martha
martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., - Monday, July 18, 2005 12:21 AM CDT

Dear sweet Kathy - what a perceptive child you have there - those are some very deep thoughts for an 8 year old but then again when a child goes through what he did at such a tender age they tend to dwell on those thoughts more so than other children. I know when my oldest grandson was asked in school 2 1/2 years ago (he was seven then) what he wanted for Christmas - it was not toys or the latest video game but to have his grumpy (grandaddy) well by summer and not get sick again. I just never thought of a child that age thinking in those terms. It really touched my heart - still does.

As for the other part of your journal "making memories" aahhhhh so very many are being made this summer. Tom's and my current favorite song is Keith Urbans 'Making memories of Us" and that we are. The day of the wedding was beautiful and the gardens looked so wonderful. We had a small group of friends and family there. We wished there could have been more friends but in this day and age of the internet - our closests friends are spread out all over the country and travel enters into the picture. However we could feel their presence.

We did have the effects of hurrican Dennis out in the mountains of North Carolina while on our honeymoon but it only made the waterfalls and cascades more beautiful and we just drank in the beauty of God's handiwork.

Take care Kathy and spend your summer making memories with you wonderful kids and never forget that God is in charge and you never know what he has waiting for you.

Peace to you and LIFE IS GOOD
Lynne - now Mrs Tom Mann and moving forward <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Monday, July 18, 2005 8:03 AM CDT

That's nice that Matthew is growing up to be like his older
brother, Robert. I'm sure it does the heart good. Have a great summer!

Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, Ont Canada - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 8:19 AM CDT

yes yes yes start having a pad and pen with you so you can write down your thoughts and not loose them.... I think of you all so often. I pray the hurricanes stay far from you this year. dont know why they can't all just stay at sea and leave everyone alone. I hope the kids are having a good summer... (Mom is about the same ) Life is good lately for me.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, July 12, 2005 11:03 AM CDT

Another Hurricane??????
Mary alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, VA usa - Thursday, July 7, 2005 6:18 PM CDT

Kathy,
Hi. How was the 4th for you and the rest of the Charlton family? My sister came by bus (handicap accesible) to the beach club where we have a cabana. She had a great time and it was nice. She did get stuck in the bathroom with her scooter for a few minutes and alot of women stood on line with their legs crossed. It was quite comical. At least we thought it was. Please say a prayer for my friend Chris who is not doing so well right now. She has 3 small children and things are not looking very good. She is a fighter and is fighting with all she has to stick around for her family. Hugs to you and the kids. Ps i am sending you some pics of my little one's pre k graduation so you can see.

hugs, haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Monday, July 4, 2005 10:07 PM CDT

thinking about you, wondering if its pouring rain there too, guess I will go look at weather.com n see. any how I hope you all have a good 4th my town is 150 years old and they are going all out for celebration this year over the 4th
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 30, 2005 3:14 PM CDT

HI Kathy,

Camping sounds like it was rather fun. I'm glad you chose to go!!

Hope things are going well for you all, and that you all are enjoying the summer!!

Have a great week!

Love and hugs,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Tuesday, June 28, 2005 8:39 AM CDT

Hi Kathy!
Just stopping by to say a prayer that you and the kids are having a fun summer. I know there is always a part of "what should've been" missing from your life without Robert here to share it with you, but I so admire you for the way you have a positive attitude and continue on.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Monday, June 27, 2005 1:53 PM CDT

I'm in...I think you and I could be the modern day "Lucy and Ethel." Remember though, you promised I could sit by Matt Lauer!

On a serious note, I hope it helps knowing that Robert is not forgotten--that he touched so many lives. I heard a song the other day called (I think) "I'll See You on the Other Side." I thought of Robert, my friend Kristi, my grandmother...I guess that's what provides the threads of hope...knowing we'll meet again.

I hope this Friday brings smiles, an uplifted heart, some laughs, and much peace. Have a virtual cup of coffee and a hug, on me!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, June 24, 2005 9:10 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,

I love coming here and catching up on not only the Charlton's, but your legion of fans...I can't wait to hear about Tom and Lynn's wedding; I love all the "The Way We Were"/Robert Redford stories; etc. This place is like a virtual coffee shop!

So, news on the Hamilton front...the girls are officially on summer vacation...FINALLY! We get out much later than you guys, but don't go back until after Labor Day. Shea finished up last week and Tate finished yesterday. September will find both of them in elementary school, and Jacey off to preschool. Wasn't she just a few months old when we first "met"? Time flies.

I've been thinking of you because we are in the midst of recital season. Tate's was a couple of weeks ago. She did tap and ballet and was so precious I cried. She stood up on stage waving like a maniac and signing "I love you" to us.

Shea's recital is this Saturday. Her dress rehearsal was Tuesday and she looked like a little doll. She is really excited. She said she was nervous when she first walked out on stage, but when the music started, the nervousness went away...that's my girl.

Jacey will start dance in the fall and already told me that she wants her "own recital with a tutu, and wants Matt and I to bring her flowers." She's pretty bossy for a 3 year old.

Everything else is status quo on this coast. Oh, other than a nasty bout with the flu...I'll spare you the details but I've been out of commission since Sunday.

I hope all is well with you guys. I think of you often, and the girls and I still listen to "Robert's Tunes."

Sending lots of love from way out west...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, June 23, 2005 9:41 AM CDT

mom i think we need to watch rhe movie uh........w,w,w,w. i wish i was home with you at the time u watched that movie you know i love chick movies

peace to you, chrissy bell/tornado room
christina loren charlton <clc890o@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL US - Sunday, June 19, 2005 2:11 PM CDT

thinking about ya as the weekend rolls around again and its FRIDAY!!! I guess every day in summer is like the weekend.. I know you are all busy as can be,
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 17, 2005 1:04 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,

I know it's been a while since I've stopped in to say hello. I do "lurk", but I guess I should type in, huh?

I hope things are going well with you and the kids. And I hope you are enjoying your summer!

How exciting about Tom and Lynne's upcoming wedding, huh? Lots of new beginning in moving forward!!

Have a wonderful weekend!!

Love and hugs,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Thursday, June 16, 2005 6:29 AM CDT

Cathy, just because I have not posted for awhile does not mean I have not been thinking about you. I love that movie too, could it be Redford's pretty eyes? :)I know you will be really extra busy this summer and I hope it goes good for you and the kids.
It is good to read news of your family (and also of Tom and Lynn.... in the guest book)
I always keep all of you in my prayers, I know some days go great and others the memories pop up when least expected to tear us apart again.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 14, 2005 2:37 PM CDT

OMG Kathy - I can't believe we are linked by yet another memory - I love that movie "The Way we Were". I have had that on video tape for as long as I can remember. Now I am going to have to drag it out again and watch it and maybe even subject poor Tom to it and a box of tissues.

Life here is starting to reach the "panic" mode - a bunch of things need to get done and time is running out. I know that final week before the wedding I will be shoving things into a room that will have a closed door and an "enter at your own risk" sign on it. I guess it is a good thing that Tom isn't concerned about my housekeeping skills but ....hey.....we have pretty gardens.

take care and will check back later - LIFE IS GOOD
Lynne - the future Mrs Tom Mann :):) <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Monday, June 13, 2005 7:24 AM CDT

Ahhh--- a fresh breeze blows in when Lady Charlton posts ;)

Yes it rained....quite a bit in this first week I was here. Fortunately, it's been coming right as the heat reaches it's peak for the day. Of course, that makes for the best (worst) thunderstorms, as well. the parched gardens didn't seem to mind, though. (I'll send ya some pics ;) )

Well, I was only in town a week before I made the newspaper! For a good reason, however, not the police blotter. It seems that the Shadow smiled on us last Friday night, and held off the rain until (honestly) we left the parking-lot after the Relay for Life. Since I wasn't here when the Relay shirts were passed out, I wore the next appropriate one... one of the multitude of CSC shirts I own, courtesy Scott F. The particular one I chose that night had the saying "CANCER ONLY SUCKS ON DAYS THAT END WITH 'Y'". I guess it caught the eye of a local newspaper reporter. Anyway, she got to interviewing me, Lynne, and Lynne's mom, who also participated in the walk .Lynne's mom, God bless her, she walked the entire circuit around the lake, which was probably a mile or longer. Mom will be 90 next month, and is an 8 year breast cancer survivor. But like all these walks, there are way too many luminaries lining the way :(

Things here are moving along... the gardens are really looking nice, and the veggies are happy in their little plot. We've got 7 hummingbirds that entertain us all day, and a bluebird nest that's about to have some fledgling birds soon. The deer made a rare AM appearance last week... and life continues to be good.

I'll be heading back to the beach this weekend to pick up my nephew and bring him back here. There's a tree in the back yard that needs to come down before the wedding, so he gets to help us do that *snicker*Plus it'll give him a chance to learn the route here for when he and his wife come back next month.

Exciting day today, too... we're going out to get the marriage license and look at rings ;) Then it'll be back to slaving away watching the garden grow, pull an occasional weed, and filling the birdfeeders (and dig holes and haul dirt and paver blocks and whatever else the boss suggests :) )

Hope your summer is off to a good start... take care, All of you....

DaDuck
Tom
All moved in-but still unpacking, NC - Monday, June 13, 2005 7:03 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
Robert obviously had a tender heart. I've always loved that movie too. I'm praying that you have a wonderful summer with the kids and stay safe and dry from the hurricanes.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Saturday, June 11, 2005 7:36 PM CDT

Hi Kathy and family,
I have a Robert redford story for you. I met him face to face!!!! He even talked to me. I was working at eastern Airlines at the time. He pulled up on the ramp and dropped somebody off at the entrance. he came in and said excuse me, can you direct me back to the Cross Island parkway? I could not utter a single word. Thank goodness a skycap came by and gave him directions. He had no clue it was Robert redford!!!!
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, June 10, 2005 10:51 PM CDT

Hi guys,
Just thought I would drop by and say hello. We are embarking on our yearly trek to the mountains. Going for a week in a cabin on the river. I have been missing you guys lately. The kids are looking forward to being away from home for a while. I hope you guys are drying out. PLEASE send us some rain. We are dusty up here. Hope everyone is doing well. Summer is upon us full swing here in Mississippi. Hot and humid. Well I hope to hear from you guys soon!!! Have a great summer!!

Love you all!
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Thursday, June 9, 2005 1:57 PM CDT

Just stopping in to say HI and see if there is anything new. Tom has officially moved in and been complaining about the noisy frogs already. So far in the evening we have heard 4 different frog sounds and multiples of each sound. Tonight after a brief shower - well a REAL downpour actually - we sat and watched about 7 hummingbirds go from feeder to feeder and divebomb us on the porch. Nothing like enjoying what God and nature have to offer - LIFE IS GOOD
Lynne <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Monday, June 6, 2005 8:03 PM CDT

Kathy - We are officially moved!! We are back in Birmingham and I hope to NEVER move again!!! I beat you back on line - I hope no news means good news. We're still w/out email, but at least we have internet. It's rained for 5 days straight!! Between unpacking boxes and this horrible weather, I have three fussy girls.:) I hope the sun is shining on you! "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path." Psalm 119:105 - You have a way of taking God's word and making it come to life. I miss your words Kathy!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
BIRMINGHAM, Al - Saturday, June 4, 2005 10:11 AM CDT

Greetings, Kathy and the Sunshine Band!!!!

Well, the move is finally over, and I'm now very happily living here among the flowers, birds, cats, and a wonderful family ;) Leaving the beach was quite an emotional experience, but my last few days there I was able to spend quality time with some family who were down on vacation for the holiday weekend. We're now set up so we can both be online at the same time, which of course means I'll be changing email accounts in the near future...I'll let you know when that happens.

Well, now that I have computer access, I can tell you the exciting news that Lynne mentioned in her last post~~~

2 weekends ago, at a family picnic, Lynne's son and daughter-in-law surprised us with the news that they're expecting a baby!!!!!! WE'RE GONNA BE GRANDPARENTS!!!!!!!!! Her daughter already has 3 great boys, but this one will be the first 'newborn' for me ;) The following week, Kevin, her son, called us and informed us that they're going to have a GIRL!!!! Of course, almost immediately, Lynne was dragging me through the baby clothes department *shock* My reaction to all of this was..."Where am I going to find a PINK fishing rod for this new child?" :) So, it's going to be a most exciting summer and fall, with our wedding next month, and the baby coming in October.

This evening is our "Relay for Life" walk. It takes place around a beautiful lake on the local community college campus... a perfect setting to reflect on our friends we've lost, and to support those we know as survivors. Needless to say, we'll be remembering Robert, and Lynne's Glenn, along with some other close friends tonight. I do hope the 'shadow' can try to halt the rain long enough for everyone who plans on walking tonight.

Take care, friends. I hope all is well with everyone.

Tom-DaDuck
Now at home, NC - Friday, June 3, 2005 8:01 AM CDT

Haven't been by in a while. I spoke to Tom the other day and thought of you tonight. I hope all is going well. I too understand that penny pinching thing. I'm a single mom too. It's no fun. You take care and you have a beautiful family, Laura
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ca - Friday, May 27, 2005 9:28 PM CDT

Hi Kathy!

Our triumphs and tragedies make us who we are!

I agree with the poster about the patchwork quilt - Our lives are just bits and pieces sewn together to make us!

Have a great, sunny day!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, pa USA - Thursday, May 26, 2005 7:17 AM CDT

Kathy,

Remember when I got locked out (or rather, Tate locked me out) of the house in my pj's?? Remember your mental image of me yelling through the front window, trying to tell Tate how to unlock the door? I've topped myself...

The girls were playing with the hose this weekend, and the trigger nozzle broke. So, unbeknownst to me, Matt replaced it with a normal nozzle. Monday morning I went out (yes, in my pj's) to baby the new flowers I had planted. Usually I turn the hose on, and then pull it out to where I need it. (A little background--some rocket scientist put the hose in the garage and it's mounted to the wall on one of those round things you can wind it up on.) Our garage floor is sealed with this stuff that apparently makes it look better to the male species.

Anyway, true to form, I turned the hose WAY on and immediately got shot in the face with a stream of water. I had turned the pressure up enough to start spinning the hose, giving me about 3 seconds to breathe between each jet of water SOAKING me. Add that water to our lovely sealed floor and it was like trying to stand on ice. It was so slippery, and I was caught off guard. No, I didn't actually fall, but I did do some crazy limbo thing with the side of the garage door, while trying to maintain my balance and shut the water off. Matt swears he told me he changed the nozzle. Personally, I think it was all part of his ongoing "entertain the neighbors with Christi's antics" plan.

So, does this mean that my story is a comedy? Yet another day in the life of this generation's "I Love Lucy." UGH!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, May 25, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

My dear Kathy - reading your analogy about our lives being a story or stories reminded me of one I had heard one time about our lives being a patchwork quilt and the bits and pieces of it are the 'fabric' of our lives. When you view a patchwork quilt from afar it is a beautiful piece of work but upon closer examination - not every piece of fabric is beautiful - it is the melding and blending of those pieces that create in the end a quilt to treasure and to love - so are our lives - we must take the good with the bad blend it together and along with God's blessings which hold the pieces together - in the end - our lives are beautiful and treasured by those who look back upon it.

As for our lives - I will let Tom come in and tell y'all the "news" - there was a big announcement yesterday and I think he is just a 'little' excited about it - I know I am and am so very proud to be able to share with him this part of my life.

Take care Kathy and as long as you continue to journal - we will continue to share your life and ours........
Lynne - forever moving forward and counting the days to a July wedding <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Sunday, May 22, 2005 2:23 PM CDT

Kathy - Speaking of packing up and moving on........ We are literaly doing that right now! We are packing for our move back to Birmingham. We move one week from today. It's going to be great to go home to where most of our stories have unfolded - newlyweds, having babies, our first home etc... As thrilled as we are, it broke my heart when my (almost) 8 year old climbed on my lap last night and started to cry. Change is so hard - even when it's to something familiar. I will be without a computer for a couple of weeks, but I'll be back soon! I thought of you the first time we cranked our lawn mower this spring. I must admit, I've yet to cut the grass this year. Maybe in Birmingham.................
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell (for another week!), GA - Friday, May 20, 2005 1:05 PM CDT

The end of the school year is always so hectic isn't it? then more kids ya have the more hectic it is.
the story of our lives............I am supposed to be writing the story of my life and the story of my Mike's life for a family reunion book. I am 65 and came up with about 10 lines at the most. thye told me I had to "expand" it. Did a little better on Mike' life but need to "expand'" it too have a week to finish ..and get it sent off.
I think of you real often and hope things are gong along as good as they can. I know it's hard being a single mom and working and making ends meet and all that goes with it. I hope they are wrong about the FLA weather this year and thatyou have NO hurricanes. your in my prayers daily.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, May 20, 2005 10:56 AM CDT

Greetings, KC and the Sunshine Band! I hope the past week brought y'all more sunshiney days. When does school let out for Matthew, Jess and Christina? I've also wondered, while being here on the coast (well, for 2 more weeks), do you have a 'tourist season' like we do up here in NC, or is it an 'all the time' thing down that way? Planning ahead for a future trip, yanno?

Just about all moved out to Lynne's now. 'Most' of my fishing rods are out there, but I kept a few here to play with these last 2 weeks, and left the pier rods at my sis' camper for the nephews to abuse and catch their own war stories. With 3 grandsons soon to teach the finer things of life to ( fishing, fishing and fishing) well, Lynne is now the proud owner of 7 spinning rod/reel outfits, and a couple cane poles ;) I'm sure we'll find plenty of use for them this summer.

Take care, and have a good weekend!

Tom-DaDuck
Almost in Clayton, NC - Friday, May 20, 2005 0:45 AM CDT

My dear Kathy ((((HUGS)))) - the tears do come out of nowhere don't they and I don't think they will ever stop - they become less over time but never completely stop. As happy as I am with the direction of my life since my husband's death - I still get caught off guard - be it a song on the radio - a butterfly on a particular flower, a fleeting thought or something I come across in the house unexpectedly. Those feelings are just reminders of the impact our departed loved ones had on our lives and that will never change. They helped mold us into what we are today.

I really believe if you and Andy are meant to be together - love will find its way. Peace my dear friend
Lynne - forever moving forward <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Thursday, May 19, 2005 7:44 PM CDT

Dear Kathy,
Sorry to read about you and Andy. You are in my prayers during this time when life seems especially tough. I'm so sorry about the bracelet breaking. Hopefully, you will be able to get it put back together "pretty close" to the way Robert had made it for you.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:52 PM CDT

Where have I been? I read your entries all the time but dont see where I have written in forever. That does not mean I am not thinking of you and all thats going on in your life cause I am. and I am praying for you. I hope you can find a great love again in your life. Maybe its Andy, maybe not but I am sure there is some one. I can really relate about the bracelet. I feel apart over my blue glass birds I had got from Mike getting broke and I know I would have even more over something he had made me. then the other day I broke a bell he had got me in California for my collection.. while the things are replaceable the sentiment isnt and I dont want to replace them. ((Hugs)) and prayers for you and for your family. Its about time for things to get better for you....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 17, 2005 5:22 PM CDT

Hi Kathy!

Just thinking of you and wanted to let you know.
Lots of love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, May 17, 2005 9:00 AM CDT

I, too, have been thinking of and praying for you more lately. I was not sure why, but after reading your recent entry, God has certainly revealed the reason. Please know that you are cared for and prayed for. I am so sorry for your heartbreaks...and am so glad for your salvation. Blessings in Christ. I shall return as soon as I can. In the meantime, I will be lifting you up in prayer--you and the ones you love.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Monday, May 16, 2005 10:11 PM CDT

how odd, I have been thinking of you so sadly, and about how long it has been and how short as well..your "coldness" sounds familiar to me..protection, and also, how much can you give away, without remaining empty??? that was always my fear, of just empty..I know however, your God is always with you now, even though it is terribly hard..I also remember Robert coming to me and giving me assurance that Heaven is very much here..we cannot know how hard this is, but Kathy I do pray and think of you so very often.
much love Mary Alice <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Monday, May 16, 2005 8:08 AM CDT

Kathy: When you relayed the story of how you had that uncontrollable sobbing that you think will never stop over the bracelet incident...I can relate in a small way. That has happened to me twice...over things Kyle has made for me. I got to thinking of how much MORE painful it was for YOU. For I have my son with me, yet when the treasures he gave me broke...I broke inside. I cannot even begin to IMAGINE how devastated you were! I know that in the long run..it's what's in our hearts that we carry with us forever, but those little treasures that we can physically hold onto mean the world to us too. I am so sorry about the bracelet. I hope you're relationship with Andy will find it's way through, if it was meant to be...it WILL be. You and all your family continue on in my prayers.
God's blessings to you.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, May 15, 2005 7:33 PM CDT

Oh Kathy.. sniff.. bless your heart. :"/
I have no words right now.. I care so much for you, dear friend - friend I have never met. I can indentify with some of these thoughts and emotions expressed, more than you know.
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Dear God, HASTE the day when the pain of this earthly life is NO more.. and the joy of heaven is ours. Until then, help us to LIVE.
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((((((BIG HUGS)))))) to you, sweet Kathy.

Lynn (my superlynn cape is in the wash - today you get to see the real me! : ))

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, May 13, 2005 4:12 PM CDT

Dear Kathy, I hope that, if it is your wish, that you and Andy find your way back to each other. From what you have said about Robert, I know he would want you to be happy. And if the other children love Andy, I'm sure Robert is rooting for him.
Lynn
St. Peters, MO - Friday, May 13, 2005 9:34 AM CDT

((HUGS)) to you Kathy - stay strong...if you don't look for love - LOVE will find you!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
- Friday, May 13, 2005 8:40 AM CDT

Happy Mother's Day Kathy! I hope your day is special!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia, AL - Sunday, May 8, 2005 3:28 PM CDT

Peace to you as well, friend! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Love and hugs,

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, May 8, 2005 11:36 AM CDT

Peace, my friend, and Happy Mother's Day... (still waiting for that file)
DaDuck
almost in Clayton, NC - Sunday, May 8, 2005 10:53 AM CDT

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, KATHY!!

Wishing you a beautiful day!!

Love and hugs,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Saturday, May 7, 2005 9:19 PM CDT

Dear Kathy,
I know there is always an emptiness everyday without Robert here, but days like tomorrow must be even more difficult and painful. I hope you are able somehow, some way to feel him close to you and may God wrap his arms tightly around you and hold you up as you celebrate the day with your other three beautiful children. Happy Mother's Day to an outstanding mother!!!
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Saturday, May 7, 2005 5:15 PM CDT

I know you will force yourself to enjoy Mothers Day for the kids' sake, through your grief. Hoping you are able to enjoy Mothers Day and the good times with Robert overshadow the emptiness somehow.
Chris & Gooch
- Saturday, May 7, 2005 1:57 PM CDT

I'm just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you! God bless and *warm hugs* ><>�<><

Lighting Children�s Lives
Caged Kids
Raise Awareness

*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children�s Lives, Caged Kids & Friends of Allie/Raise Awareness <jenniferc@ilovetcolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Friday, May 6, 2005 1:22 AM CDT

HOWDY!! Thinking about you all. God Bless! Much Love! Hope you have a wonderful day. Psalm 91:14.
leanne scott <hotpink88@direcway.com>
Tomball, TX 77377 - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 10:25 PM CDT

just want you to know Im thinking about you and praying that things get easier on all fronts. sometimes I wonder why life has to be so hard.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 4, 2005 10:03 AM CDT

Kathy-Once again you have stunned us with your thoughts of Robert, your memories and his loss. Please know that all who loved Robert will never be the same, now that he is gone. I try hard not to grieve, just knowing that we had him for 11 years, no it was not enough, but it was SO MUCH. Noone will ever forget his exhuberance for life, his laughter, his ability to light up a room. Robert was 100% real. His time with us was a blessing. I miss him always and still listen for his laughter. God, thank you so much for this wonderful man-child. God Bless you, Robert-----Mimi Bunny
Mimi Bunny <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
West Palm BEach, fl US OF A - Friday, April 29, 2005 8:05 PM CDT

Hi Kathy and family,

I know this is a day late, but I wanted send my thoughts and prayers in honor of Robert's birthday. I hope your memories brought you as many smiles as they did tears. My birthday is April 28th, so I will undoubtedly think of your son and his wonderful memory on this day forever.

Take care,
Terry Josephson, Julianna Banana's dad <tjosephson@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Friday, April 29, 2005 3:21 PM CDT

Kathy,
All day yesterday I thought about Robert I didn't know what to write and then I thought I would call but never had the courage didn't know what to say, I just want you to know I miss him and love him very much.
love martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB, Fl 33406 - Friday, April 29, 2005 7:10 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Robert!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, PA USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 6:28 AM CDT

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRECIOUS!!***
Sniff.. God Bless you dear Kathy.. and comfort your heart. Sending you a BIG BIG HUG!
Love and hugs,

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 0:11 AM CDT

Kathy, what a beautiful update. 14 years old, taken so much too soon. Happy Birthday Robert. Hugs to you Mom
Chris & Gooch
- Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:59 PM CDT

It always amazes me how the Lord leads us to where He wants us to be. I have been offline for a long time (by my standards) and wanted to make this one of the first stops because I felt the Lord lead me here. Lo and behold I find that it is Robert's birthday. Please know that I continue to lift you up in prayer. Blessings and love to you in Christ.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@yahoo.com>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:56 PM CDT

My dear Kathy - my thoughts are with you today as you reflect back over the years in rememberance of Roberts birthday. Our loved ones will ALWAYS be with us and those memories are just a reflection of the impact they had on our lives - whether a life time partner or a child who never really had the chance to reach his potential. Every memory is so very precious.

Plans are kicking into high gear as the day gets closer to when Tom moves out here and then the July wedding. I marvel every day at how God works in our lives and takes such a devastating loss and weaves it into a path of complete joy - I am truly blessed to have Tom in my life - life is good
Lynne <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Thursday, April 28, 2005 6:41 PM CDT

Greetings, Kathy and all you of the Sunshine band :) Had to stop by and let you know I've been thinking about Robert today. Took some time out today to visit some of my favorite haunts, and the usual suspects were around, wading, soaring, or swimming.

I'm slowly packing down to the essentials, as the boxes and bags fill up and get set aside for a trip to Lynne's. I'm really looking forward to relocating, and the beach will never be too far away to visit.

Hope your day was filled with all the joyful sights and sounds you always mention that Robert loved... and yes, I'd love a slice of cake, please ;)

Peace, my friend �
DaDuck
Almost in Clayton, NC - Thursday, April 28, 2005 4:37 PM CDT

Praying for you today.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Thursday, April 28, 2005 12:05 AM CDT

Kathy - I heard a song by Nichole Nordeman that made me stop and think of your sweet Robert and his birthday. This song always brings me to tears, but the thought of you rejoicing in heaven as you are reunited w/your Robert was more than my heart could take. :) I can't remember the name of the song but the words go.........
Before I was born
I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance
'round the throne.
Who can say when
they'll dance again,
when I am free
and finally headed home.
I will be weak
unable to speak
but still I will call you by name:
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer, Lord, and King, Beginning, and The End - Amen

Thank you Lord that Robert was "woven and spun" created like no other. Thank you that although his family aches they will rejoice and the angels will "dance" when they are reunited once again.

Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:29 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Robert.

I bet all of heaven is celebrating with you. Much love from the Hamilton clan.
Christi and Crew <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, April 28, 2005 9:03 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
A beautiful entry, a beautiful tribute, to wonderful, sweet, precious Robert. I never knew Robert but grew to love him during his last days on earth and have grown to love his mother through her tremendous gift of writing. Of course you think of Robert everyday and as you said, every moment. I would too if I lost one of my children. I know I would always think of my child in heaven many times throughout each day that I continue to live on this earth. I am so grateful for the promise of salvation and so thankful that you are a believer. As Mimi said in her entry below, "at the feet of Jesus". Ah, what a wonderful place to be reunited with our loved ones. My prayers are for all of Robert's family today as I know it is a bittersweet day and Robert is missed greatly. I will never be able to hear the Carpenter's song, "Close To You" again without thinking of Robert. Thank you for sharing your memories and love for your son. Blessings to you always.

Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:16 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Robert! Kathy--you're in my prayers as always. Eat some cake for me!!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia, AL - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:08 PM CDT

Happy birthday Robert.
Of course we think about our children daily. Actually endlessly. I think about your son everyday when I check your site and I never knew him.
As a mother of a child that has died we will never forget them.
The thoughts almost become obsessive.
I would love to come have cake with you. I wish we didnt live 24 hours apart.
Always thinking about you and your family.
Ruth Trombino <ARTrombino@cox.net>
Westerly, RI - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 9:44 PM CDT

Hi Kathy - This is my first time writing, although I check your page weekly. I love hearing your stories. I just wanted to let you know I think of you guys often... I too lost my brother to cancer when we were kids. I know the battles you deal with. Thanks for sharing your life. Happy Birthday Robert!
Loron Teig <loronbarclay@yahoo.com>
St. Michael, MN United States - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,
This is my first time to your page. My heart just broke reading about your precious son. I know only the "Grace of God" can walk you through this, one day at a time for sure. Thanks for sharing your beautiful story, it blessed me so much. I sure wish I would have had the honor to meet him. Well, one day, I will!! God bless you,
Susan
Jordan's Site <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Covington, La 70433 - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 5:19 PM CDT

Kathy - What a beautiful entry. That sweet song is what my husband and I sang to our oldest when she was a newborn. I'll now think of Robert too as I sing. Not a morning goes by that I do not click on your page to see if you've updated, and there smiling back at me is Robert's sweet picture. You see, many of us think about this amazing boy that we didn't actually "know".
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:37 AM CDT

Hi, HAPPY, HAPPY Birthday Robert, Til we meet again, til we meet again, til we meet at Jesus feet!! Love you all, Mimi Jane & Papa JC - I'll email you a photo from our garden June 2002.
mimi jane <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL USA - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:26 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,

What a beautiful tribute to Robert. Today is Tate's 5th birthday...my own little miracle. I never thought about the song you quoted, but now every time I hear it, I will think of Robert and Tate. I believe angels touched her very broken heart, before she entered this world, and made a dire situation not so bad. I feel blessed she is here for me to hold, and my heart breaks at your loss.

I was changed by Robert, and I look forward to meeting him in heaven and thanking him for bringing me such an amazing, beautiful, insightful friend. (Even though you're a day ahead of yourself...today is the 27th!! I feel OK telling you that because I'm famous for not knowing the date :)

Let's celebrate Robert today, tomorrow, and every day!!

Lots of love and hugs are being sent your way.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 10:02 AM CDT

Kathy: What a tremendous gift you have for the written word. Beautiful entry...as always. I so love coming here! I also want you to know you were heavily on my mind this week, as I know it is Robert's Earthly birthday this week. Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and that I will always remember Robert....he has a special piece of my heart from the day I started following his page. :) Thank you for continuing to journal...you are an inspiration by sharing Robert's story and by sharing your gift of writing!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, April 26, 2005 7:20 PM CDT

I will be away from my computer for a few days but I know this is a hard few days ( harder) and wil lhave you in my thoughts and prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 25, 2005 7:21 PM CDT

What a amazing Lil boy he must have been and stillbe in Heaven. I wish I could have knew him. I love the Picture with the fishing pole my 3 boys love to fish. We to Have a Lil Angel her Name Is Mikayla. We will keep you family in our prayers.
With Gods Love and Peace
April And "Angel" Mae MAe and Mimmie and Boys
www.geocities.com/angelmomfriends5/kayla1.html
www.caringbridge.org/tn/mimmie <babymsmom04@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 22, 2005 3:01 PM CDT

You are a gifted writer, thank you for sharing. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

www.Kenziescause.com
McKenzie and Jeanne Johnston <Kenziescause@hotmail.com>
Pevely, Mo - Tuesday, April 19, 2005 6:37 PM CDT

YES! The picture of Robert is back!! Kathy, you are such an incredibly strong person. I cannot believe all that you have gone through and the positive attitude you have. You truly do inspire me to be a better person. I will be praying for you as the time of Robert's birthday nears. God bless always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Tuesday, April 19, 2005 0:25 AM CDT

Hello Baby Whisperer! I can totally relate to your babyitis! We took down the crib this past weekend after almost 10 years--of course I cried. My husband didn't say a word, just hugged me and put the crib in the attic. I'm afraid if he didn't put his foot down we'd have our very own "Cheaper by the Dozen"! I'm glad your trip went well. I'm sorry to hear that your IRS and FEMA troubles are still around. GUIDANCE--G=God + U + I + Dance. I pray for guidance for you and hope you enjoy the "dance" with our Father!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia Hills, AL - Monday, April 18, 2005 10:28 PM CDT

You are one tough lady. How do you deal with everything? You must be one special person. Praying that your life gets easier. You deserve some good things to come your way. God Bless You and your kids.
Joy
Wilson, NC - Monday, April 18, 2005 11:04 AM CDT

Dear Charlton family,
Hi. We will be in Florida visiting Disney next week. So, do us a favor, think only sun and no rain, PLEASE!!!! Have a great week

Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Sunday, April 17, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

What you friend said and you elabroated on is so true. Kathy you amaze me with your grace, really. Such a lady.
PS - if you meant the 2nd photo, it' a link to ryons page so it must no longer be linkable from there....
Chris & Gooch
- Saturday, April 16, 2005 9:05 PM CDT

I see the picture is back..... glad you found it or that some one did... Hope your little trip was fun. have a good weekend ya'll
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 15, 2005 8:23 AM CDT

safe trip my friend...I miss the photo too...What did Caringbridge do??? Oh my...I remember each inch. Tell us how your trip went...thinking of you.
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Saturday, April 9, 2005 8:14 PM CDT

Kathy
That last entry was so very true. I sometimes am guilty of taking one bad glitch and making it ruin a perfectly good time. I hope you have a wonderful visit with your friends and the twins. Tomorrow I get to meet my friend's twins for the first time. (They were only born in October!!!!). We will be visiting Florida from April22-29. We are staying at Disney. The kids are so excited.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, April 8, 2005 10:34 PM CDT

Again, very well said, my friend. Aren't we, daily, being refined?

Have a wonderful time in Birmingham...I'm actually a bit jealous that you'll be flying alone. Next Thursday I'll be jumping on a plane to your neck of the woods...me and the three girls! Matt is meeting us in Tampa but I'll be traveling "alone" with Shea, Tate, and Jacey. I've done it once before, when they were 3, 2, and 5 months old..so, this should be easier.

Enjoy your time in 'Bama! Lots of love, and thanks for my daily dose of perspective. HUGS!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, April 7, 2005 8:41 AM CDT

We love you too - THANK YOU for sharing your life with us!
Tammy - Lacie's Mom (www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove) <tweston3@hotmail.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

Kathy - There is a chance I might be in B'ham this weekend. We sold our home in Atlanta and we have to be out in less than 2 months. The problem is we haven't found a home in B'ham yet!!! It is our spring break and I had planned on spending it w/Amanda in Montgomery, but the need to house hunt has changed my plans!! Email me and let me know how we could reach you. We would love to meet!! I'm glad that you're enjoying your work at the Lighthouse. It sounds like you do a variety of things w/each day diffrent. Only a mother could balance the different activities you have going on there! :) Take care and let us hear from you!
Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell..... for 2 more months, GA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 10:49 AM CDT

I havent signed in much lately but I think about you and the kids a lot. Hope spring is being good to you still have you on my prayer list too
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:25 AM CDT

Missing Robert's wonderful picture on the web site. Hope it returns soon. Blessings to you today and always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 12:03 AM CDT

Hi Charltons.

Just stopped in to let you know that I'm thinking of you!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, April 5, 2005 10:05 AM CDT

Hi Guys,
Just wanted to check in and say hello!!!! Life is crazy as always. Seems the same there. Hope you guys are taking good care of each other. Have a great day!!!
Love you guys!!
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 8:01 AM CDT

Kathy-
I've missed you!

What a beautiful entry . . . plain and simply you spoke the truth. I know the last few years have been so painful for you and I wish there was something I could do.

I believe a get together is in order. Give me a ring (I'm home from NY). Lots of love to you and the kids.
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Friday, April 1, 2005 9:54 PM CST

My dear Kathy - once again when I am down - I find myself reading your journal and once again you strike such a cord with me and read my thoughts - and you just have the knack for expressing them in written word. I thought of you often last week when my daughter and I put a memorial bench in my garden for Glenn - my husband - her father. It was done 2 years to the day that we lost him. It was emotional with both laughter and tears knowing he is gone physically but never from our thoughts. A few minutes later, Tom came over and joined us in a few minutes of silent rememberance. Yes life does go on - new paths are taken but the memories and the spirit will always remain with us.

One day I really hope I have the pleasure of meeting you in person rather than on these pages and e-mails - you are an amazing lady - may God continue to bless you and your children
Lynne Smith <Lynnencfan@earthlink.net>
Clayton, NC - Friday, April 1, 2005 12:17 AM CST

Hey Guys,
Hopw all is well thinking about you guys.
Love Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., fl 33406 - Thursday, March 31, 2005 12:01 AM CST

Kathy
I just love reading your pearls of wisdom. They are so uplifting for me. It makes me feel so special to be a part of your world. I do not know you personally and yet I feel you are a friend. I feel as though I know your family and especially Robert. I actually go through kathy withdrawal when you dont write. I have said this before and I will say it again. You are one special person.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, March 30, 2005 8:44 PM CST

My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you Kathy and your children.

You have not lost your identity just evolved from your former self to a new person.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 9:24 AM CST

wondered where you were..and worried. your grief hurts so, and I know what that minister was doing in what would you go back to, but what a question..Kathy, in my mind, you are such a strong woman, maybe even more with all your saddness.. I am glad you can hang on to your Faith for most times, it is so very hard many days to understand..I just remember Roberts visit to me, in a time I was desperately questioning, and he touched me from Heaven to let me know even there all is close, and well...he was sent to me. Does not ease your missing I know...Much love from VA...
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, - Monday, March 28, 2005 5:40 PM CST

Kathy,
Your faith is tremendous, and even at times you may feel extremely weak, your strength humbles me. Continue to live your life each day to the fullest as Robert would want you to do. You are finding your way as a single mom and God will continue to bless you as you travel this journey with Him by your side. I too believe in a Risen Savior and it is only because of Him that I have hope to live my life each day, knowing that this time on earth is just a blink of the eye in the span of time.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Monday, March 28, 2005 10:52 AM CST

Happy Easter Charlton crew!!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Sunday, March 27, 2005 3:16 PM CST

Oh Kathy I am so sorry you are having a rough time, but as cliche as this sounds, you are addressing it now, and can start to deal with it. You are absolutely right, who ever thought when they held their beautiful baby for the first time, there would be a time they would no longer have that person in their life? So many people and relationships we all take for granted, the toll all of this takes on a person, and the two people in a marriage, is incomprehensible. It changes you forever. But your faith will see you through. Hugs and prayers
Chris - Gooch's mom
- Sunday, March 27, 2005 9:49 AM CST

HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK

Post Pals <info@postpals.co.uk>
- Friday, March 25, 2005 1:53 PM CST

As I keep saying you have such a gift with words... I guess most mama's have an idenity thing of some sort. I used to be brads mom mikes mom brendas mom scotts mom.... now my mom is in a nursing home and Im geri's daughter and the grand kids grandma. I thought Id get to be me sometime..... guess not. I can not beleive how your 'help' at work was talking. they should be ashamed. take care and have as good an easter weekend as ya can. my mom will be 91 this weekend
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 23, 2005 1:51 PM CST

Hi Kathy - it's been a while since signing your guestbook, but continuously come here to read your wonderful and inspiring updates. Just wanted to let you know that your words here on this webpage have been such a blessing to me. In reference to one of your prior updates - YOU definitely deserve an award!!!!! God Bless You & Yours
Tammy - Lacie's Mom (www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove) <tweston3@hotmail.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 10:15 AM CST

Thinking of you this Easter and always. May the glorius fact that HE IS RISEN fill your heart to overflowing!
Love, Eileen

EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, March 22, 2005 10:07 PM CST

Kathy,
Your identity is a "child of God" and it is clear to me that you understand fully that nothing else matters. Life is so hard at times and you have been through more than your fair share of "hard times". I am so humbled by your courage and strong spirit to search for the good in all of what has been given to you to endure. I admire you so much. You deserve the best of what this life has to offer. Praying for you.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Sunday, March 20, 2005 9:53 AM CST

Oh Kathy, you have been so on my mind...I have no words for you I guess, but wish to just sit and talk....I can picture this "volunteer", who gives his "valuable time" to do this...looking at you...as my kids used to say. All the change in your life, and sorrow, you will find who you are, but it takes such time. I recently heard of a place, L'abri....that you can go, and study..wish I could go. Just wait, 50 has become a comfortable age for me. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you....Much love,
Mary alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 4:22 PM CST

You are so much more than any "label". You are a very strong, sensitive, insightful, loving, inspirational, faith-filled woman. Blessed are those that can call you "friend".

I hope you can feel the reach of your influence and the love of all your friends. It's been awhile since we talked, but you are on my mind and you guys are always in my prayers.

Lots of love,
Christi-the divorced, then remarried mother of 3 insane little girls <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Monday, March 14, 2005 5:51 PM CST

You are a courage, loving, person that shouldn't be so down on yourself. Don't worry about a title. Titles are bunk. Just be. The world doesn't need anything else. Just your "being" makes the world a better place.

Blessings my friend.
Cheryl Myers <cgmyers@cox.net>
tulsa, ok USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 2:34 PM CST

Wow is all I can say - I'm speechless (which doesn't happen often). You have a gift for putting on paper what so many of us feel yet can't verbalize. I'm going to have to think about this one for a while. It hits home - hiding, uncertainty, faith. I'm for one glad your not hiding today. Thank you Kathy.
Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, Ga - Monday, March 14, 2005 10:47 AM CST

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, March 12, 2005 9:42 PM CST

What a beautiful entry, Colton and family
.org/ca/coltonmeyer
- Saturday, March 12, 2005 12:10 AM CST

I am WAY late, but Happy Birthday Jessica. Please know that you were not forgotten on your special day; I just didn't get to sign in. Blessings to you in Christ.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT - Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, March 11, 2005 4:43 PM CST

Kathy - It's been a while since I've signed, but I've been "quietly" checking in. :) Let us know if you decide to visit B'ham this spring. We'd love to meet you! Happy (LATE) Birthday Jessica!!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell (but soon B'ham!), GA - Monday, March 7, 2005 8:34 PM CST

What an inspiring entry. WOW! I know that your daughter is a very special young lady; she has an amazing mother to see to that! I pray for you today.
All my best.
Lisa <loumicsmom@comcast.net>
Dallas, TX USA - Friday, March 4, 2005 7:46 AM CST

Jessica
Happy Belated Birthday!!!! I hope it was wonderful. As I may or may not have mentioned, Kathy, my dear friend's husband died unexpectedly at the young age of 52. It has been one heck of a week for so many of us. I finally got out of the house tonight and came home to a message from my husband that my aunt called. She is 75, lives in L.A. and I have not spoken to her since my mom died in 1995. Loooong story. But I decided to call her because I do miss her. She is the last link to my mom's family and they were very close. I needed to hear her voice. i think my mom had so much to do with her calling me. I think it was a sign that she met Mike on the other side. What do you think?
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Tuesday, March 1, 2005 8:42 PM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica. Kathy, I feel exactly like you do about those gold statues given to people who are no where near the heros that the children and families of the children fighting cancer are.
lynn
st.peters, MO - Tuesday, March 1, 2005 4:25 PM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica! I can remember the day you were born - where has the time gone! Hope this is a wonderful year for you and your family. Tell your mom I said hello. :)
Carla <cartrash@bellsouth.net>
TN - Monday, February 28, 2005 9:10 PM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica hope you have a wonderful day.

Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., Fl Palm Beach - Monday, February 28, 2005 12:14 AM CST

Jessica:
Hope your birthday is as special as you are!
Blessings, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/e
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, February 25, 2005 11:23 PM CST

Kathy, hoping the tshirt brought more comfort than uneasiness. Wishing you well,
Chris - Gooch's mom
- Friday, February 25, 2005 7:58 PM CST

thinking about you today. yes, it is so sad about Diane she will be so missed. its the little things like the tshirt that really get to us sometimes isnt it?
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 21, 2005 3:07 PM CST

Kathy, I hope you are saving all these entries for a book some day. I have read things that are not near so profound. I dont know if you spend time thinking about these entries or if they just pour onto the pages, but they have so much meaning in different ways for so many of us. I hope things are going ok this week, and that no one was disappointed with what ever they got for valentines day..especially at school.someetimes it can be heart breaking if some one you wanted to hear from didn't do anything. as story... the year my daughter was in 6th grade this boy liked her and gave her a heart shaped necklace. she could not stand him and gave it back to him and when he insisted she have it she slugged him. not that was not nice of her at all, and yet what her teacher told me about it was that he did not blame her .. she had tried everything to keep away from the boy and he would not listen... He used to sit on our front steps till she could not even go out the door. her brothers and I spent a lot of time chasing him off.... he finally gave up. in one way I felt sorry for him and another would get so mad.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 15, 2005 2:17 PM CST

I'm sitting here with tears, AGAIN! :0 Your writings are so very, very touching! I am glad to read that Matthew is feeling so much better, those "bugs" really hang on. Take good care, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, February 14, 2005 12:59 AM CST

Hi Kathy... Happy Valentines Day. I'm so very happy that it's sunshiney here today; I too have been in a bit of a sad funk. I am so very thankful to have my little Guatemalan babies finally home, and loving every minute of taking care of them. But, it truly makes me miss Andy all that much more. He LOVED babies & would so love these two. I know in my heart that he isn't missing anything here, after all he's in Heaven...what's to miss here, right?!?! It's all just so bittersweet. I can't wait for that day when we ALL meet! Hope you have a good week.
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever) <jagl@htc.net>
- Monday, February 14, 2005 9:30 AM CST

Hi Kathy,
It has been forever since I've been able to come check on you. My computer has been down for about 3 months. I am up at my mom's this morning and decided to make a quick stop. Hopefully soon we will be back up and running. I just spent 3 1/2 weeks at a rehab center and returned home a few days ago. Hopefully this is a start to a new beginning for me. The last 1 1/2 years have been like something from a bad dream. I know that nothing compares to the time your family has spent, but nothing short of a miracle that God does remain strong for all of us during our hardships. One thing I know that I have learned is the word "surrender". Being somewhat of a "control freak" this concept was very hard for me to grasp. I need to run, but often wondered if you noticed that I had "disappeared". If so, I apologize, and please know that it wasn't intentional. I continue to pray for all of you and hope to be able to be back soon.

God bless and keep you.

With big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Sunday, February 13, 2005 10:53 AM CST

Kathy
I have missed reading your entries!!! For some reason, I lapsed. I talked my sister into getting a caringbridge page because this way she can update without repeating so many times to family and friends. Here is her link:
http://www3.caringbridge.org/ny/auntfern/
I just want you to know that your words get me through so many dreary days of my own and i thank you for that.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Sunday, February 13, 2005 7:35 AM CST

Hello Miss Kathy!
oooh, I loved your closing words in this most recent entry - what a day it will be when we can meet face to face. And it will be in God's glad city - Where cancer does not dwell!! YEA YEA YEA!! God haste the day!

I'm so glad that Matthew is on the mend and back to being himself again! So glad that MOST of the time.. these things are just little "couple of days bumps in the road".. but once you have seen the dreadful cancer monster up close, these little ailments can conjure up heart-wrenching memories and stir fear in the heart yet again. Your courage and tenacious spirit inspire me.. stir something within me.. to be better, fight harder, press onward with purpose - stay the course, win the prize! The way home is hard, dangerous, difficult, sometimes unbearably painful.. but the first deep breath we draw in heaven will erase every struggle and trial and tear! We will be HOME - TOGETHER!
Keep on Friend! Keep on!
Lots of love!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, February 12, 2005 4:56 PM CST

Kathy, of course there's a point to your rambling...although I consider your journal entries much more than that....

I see y'all got the cold front, and some 'crisp' weather. bet it's nice to clear out the humidity, and add a little more color to the sunrises and sunsets.

I've spent several weekends inland over the months, preparing for my eventual move and marriage to Lynne, and I still see things I know the Shadow shares. There was a time 2 weekends ago while I was outside when 3 hawks were hovering overhead. Reminded me much of our coastal Osprey. the little birds at the feeders went into hiding, as nature dictates them to do. Apparently birds have more sense to hide from their enemies that Mullet in the sound do from the Osprey, because while the hawks circled, the bird feeders went empty. Soon as they move on, the little birds came back. I just know it's something Robert would have noticed and said---"That's Kewl"

Again, you write something priceless, Kathy.... so I will close with it, because it's so true. Gld Bless, Sunshine Band.....

"peace is something that is priceless..."
Tom- DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Almost Home, NC www.caringbridge.com/ks/dianekeel - Friday, February 11, 2005 6:02 PM CST

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Thursday, February 10, 2005 11:29 PM CST

Happy (very belated) birthday. I am so sorry I am a few days late. But, please know that I love you and continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. Your stories were beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing such intimate thoughts here. Blessings in Christ.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Tuesday, February 8, 2005 6:09 PM CST

Hope you had a happy birthday Kathy!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia Hills, AL - Sunday, February 6, 2005 10:47 PM CST

Happy Birthday, Kathy...

I hope your day was as beautiful as you are!!

Love, hugs, and forever moving FORWARD...
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Saturday, February 5, 2005 8:08 PM CST

Happy Birthday, Kathy! It is a joy to have you as my "new" friend. I feel blessed to share your sorrow, grief, joy and memories on this, your "special" day. Of course, we know that Robert is watching and wanting you to enjoy ALL your days. I lost my mom to cancer and understand watching the change in a loved one's appearance and spirit.....but, we can rest in the knowledge that they are pain-free and so very happy in their home that knows only peace and joy! I hope you find the same comfort as myself in knowing that they are awaiting our presence in their lives again, when our "togetherness" will be endless! Praise God!
Jean Kropid <jkropid@hotmail.com>
West Palm Beach, FL US - Saturday, February 5, 2005 7:37 PM CST

Happy Birthday Kathy - I am so glad to see that you choose to make it a HAPPY one too. Like Tom said - one day we will get down there and be able to meet face to face. Your journals have meant so much to me over the past couple of years and even this one mirrors thoughts and feelings that I have gone through the past couple of weeks - sorting through my dear late husbands things and coming up with that special item that just tells you - "it is OK - go on with your life and I will be by your side smiling with you"
We were so blessed to have them in our lives......
Lynne <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Saturday, February 5, 2005 5:04 PM CST

Happy Birthday, Sweet Kathy!!!! I, too, am glad you've chosen to be happy this day. And yeah, girl, it IS a "privilege", as you so eloquently state, to 'KNOW' you. That will change soon, since we have on our agenda (yanno, that forever growing 'someday list') a trip to S. Florida, a vacation of sorts, with a purpose.

I wish you peace today, Kath, as you celebrate the past, the present, the future.

Love ya,

DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Almost home, NC - Saturday, February 5, 2005 2:29 PM CST

Happy Birthday Kathy!! I hope you have a special day!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell , GA - Saturday, February 5, 2005 8:57 AM CST

Kath - your old friend read your entry today. How happy I am to be back in your life. It will always be a wish of mine that I could have known Robert beyond infancy... but we have the now- and you inspire me. It is my prayer that you receive from your Heavenly Father today a gift that no one else can give you. I know that Robert is safe there- remember we are surrounded by "a great cloud of witnesses." This is not a nameless, faceless multitude- they are the ones we have loved. May you feel surrounded today. I love you Kath
Misi Stonecipher <bluedogtif@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL USA - Saturday, February 5, 2005 8:49 AM CST

Happy Birthday Kathy. My mom finds pennies all the time and always thanks Adam for them when she finds them. She also believes he sends them to her. Hope things are well for you. We are getting ready for a trip to Disney. We have to get out of the cold. It has been an awful winter.
Take care. My email will be changing soon. ARTrombino@cox.net
Ruth Trombino <ARTrombino@msn.com>
Westerly, ri - Friday, February 4, 2005 11:02 PM CST

WISHING YOU A VERY "SPECIAL" HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MANY MANY MORE.
THE D'UVA FAMILY
BARBARA D'UVA <DUVA_@ABELLSOUTH.NET>
WEST PALM BEACH , FLA USA - Friday, February 4, 2005 7:31 PM CST

Hi Kathy

Happy Birthday tomorrow!!!! I know it is hard to have a happy one and I am glad you chose the happy route this year. I know all about this. My birthday is sept 4th and my mom's was the 6th. So, we always celebrated together. Our cake always was shared with both of our names and we all got together to celebrate the 2 birthdays as one. It was fun and special. That 1st year without her, I let it pass and sobbed all day long. Every year after, it got a little bit better and this past year(my 42nd)(dont laugh!!!), I was able to be happy too. It took 9 birthdays but I finally smiled. It felt good to be able to enjoy my day with my family. I hope you have a wonderful day filled with family and fun.
Hugs,Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, February 4, 2005 7:29 PM CST

Just feeling in my heart that this WILL be a HAPPY birthday!
I mean, a present from Robert! How much more special or happier can this birthday be?? I hope you have a lovely birthday....I hope you truly know how much you touch and inspire others with your words.
Blessings,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, February 4, 2005 2:36 PM CST

Kathy,
I have been reading you journal entries for some time now and have rarely signed your guest book. I always look forward to reading about your life. I think I told you this time, but it bears repeating...you have a gift for writing. Through your journal I feel like you are an old friend...one that is wise beyond her 38 years. Weather you realize it or not....sometimes your words are PROFOUND and I found myself in awe of you and your faith in God, your outlook on life, your courage to face death and divorce. Your journal entry today made me cry....it was so real, so full of love and loss. My prayer for you today is that this birthday is precious for you as your journal has been to me. Thank you for being so dedicated to sharing your life and inspiring me to be more than I am.
Carla

Carla
TN - Friday, February 4, 2005 10:57 AM CST

as usual your writing has so much to ponder in it. I understand about the sad thing leading up to your birthday. for me it is Christmas. once I get that over every year i am ok. I hope you have a happy birthday.38 is still a good age to be... really it is. I hope you have a really great weekend with the family
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 4, 2005 9:43 AM CST

Hi Kathy. I'm not sure how I found your site but I'm glad I did. I've been inspired reading your entry. I'm also glad to know I'm not alone- I think I've started at least 6 books on grief that I've never finished! Your family is beautiful- all of you.
love, hope, courage
The Miller family
Carol Miller (Reid's page) <dmill3@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, February 4, 2005 7:58 AM CST

Dear Kathy,
I DO have much to have gratitude for in my life. I want you to know that I am grateful to have found Robert's site and to have met his wonderful mother through cyber space. God bless always.

Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@earthlink.net>
St. Louis, - Monday, January 31, 2005 9:56 PM CST

BRAVO!!!!! Kathy, when you become a published author one day.....I will NOT be surprised! LOVE coming here!
God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, January 29, 2005 0:57 AM CST

I hope ya'll have a good weekend take care now
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 28, 2005 8:26 AM CST

Hello, haven't signed in awhile so just wanted you to know I was here and thinking of you all. :) You know I check in practically daily though. :) Have to have my dose of your journaling....always does my heart so good. God's blessings to you all.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Wednesday, January 26, 2005 8:07 PM CST

Just stopping by to say I am thinking about you. I was reading Cam's too I remember all of you in my prayers at night. It is a hard road your all traveling.. Hope things are all fine with you and the kids.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, January 25, 2005 8:42 PM CST

Kathy,
It was so great to see you last night. I am glad you made it. I am thrilled to read and hear how well the kids are doing. I miss them terribly. Keep in touch.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scott, Rebecca, & Zachary Finestone <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Friday, January 21, 2005 5:21 PM CST

Hi Kathy!
Once again your journal entry was wonderfully written. You have a beautiful gift of putting your thoughts down on paper(or should I say screen). I am always amazed by your ability to express yourself. I am praying that 2005 will be a happy and peace filled year for you, Jeff and the children. You have all had a tremendous void in your lives since Robert went home to be with Jesus, but you have found a way to move forward. That is good, even though I know the emptiness of him being gone from this earth will never go away.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Wednesday, January 19, 2005 6:56 PM CST

KATHY
SO GLAD TO SEE YOUR UPDATE, EVEN THOUGH I SEE MATTHEW ON
THE STREET, STILL LIKE UPDATES ON THE KIDS DOINGS, I WILL
KEEP MY FINGERS CROSSED FOR CHRISTINA, DANCING IS JUST
PERFECT FOR HER. WENT BY THE CEMETARY DURING XMAS AND
SPENT A FEW MINUTES ON ROBERTS BENCH. WHAT A FITTING
TRIBUTE TO A BEAUTIFUL BOY WHO LOVED TO FISH. IT IS SO
BEAUTIFUL, I HAVE TOLD MANY PEOPLE ABOUT IT, BECAUSE
IT TOUCHED MY HEART SO.
LOVE PAM

P.SCHWARZ <PSCHWA4992@AOL.COM>
W.PALM BEACH, FL PALM BEACH - Wednesday, January 19, 2005 1:27 PM CST

Kathy,
Wow your writing as always is unbeleivable, thank you for taking the time to let us all know how you guys are doing.
love Martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B. , Fl Palm Beach - Wednesday, January 19, 2005 12:24 AM CST

HI glad you updated. This an entry I will have to re read a couple of times. I can sure understand Jessica's lament. a lot of parents do try to out do each other with gifts and privilges so on. glad you dont. I hope Christina can get into dance lessons it sounds as though she really is going to be an entertainer of some sort.. and Matthew and school.... A lot of people would like to talk to who ever started schools.....I know you are really a busy mom,( hope hope you eat your wheaties and take your vitamins.. I like that neverday too so much better than the 12th of never. My prayers are with your family daily. take care now
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 19, 2005 10:58 AM CST

Happy New Year
Hope all is well with all of you thinking about you.
love Martha

Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB, Fl Palm Beach - Tuesday, January 18, 2005 3:46 PM CST

Good morning Kathy! It's clear and COLD in Atlanta today! BRRRRR! I hope all is well - I miss your daily journals. I hope that no news is good news and that all is well and busy for the Charlton crew. We have been painting this weekend - we're trying to get the house ready to put on the market. We're planning on moving back to Birmingham this summer! Let me know when you're going to be there for a visit. We'd love to finally meet you! Take care and God bless.............
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Tuesday, January 18, 2005 9:50 AM CST

just checking in on you down there, keeping touch. No update hopefully means you are busy with other things,..and good ones I hope with all your wonderful family. All is well here,
Mary Alice Dorschel <Jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Monday, January 17, 2005 7:42 PM CST

Happy New year. I don't know how things started out for you this year, but I want you to know that I am praying with you continually for God's blessings on your life and your family. It is so true what you said about disaster not discriminating. Praise the Lord that we know the deliverer and have the hope of being together for eternity no matter what stumbling blocks Satan attempts to throw our way. Blessings and love to you in Christ. I will check back in as soon as I can to see how you are.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, January 7, 2005 7:37 PM CST

Kathy - I was so pleased to see an update when I came to you site today. Happy belated birthday to Christina and a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR to you and yours. I will join you in choosing to LIVE in 2005 and enjoy everything life has to offer. Life is good here in NC with my summer wedding to our mutual friend to be planned for - yes moving FORWARD is a wonderful thing
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Friday, January 7, 2005 6:05 PM CST

Glad to see the update. WOW!!!! an new lawn mower.... I know that was a much needed gift and how much you will love and use it. I know how much I loved mine.... I am glad you made it through Christmas and New years. Happy Birthday to Christina...I am a JAN baby too... Had my birthday yesterday... I hope that 2005 is a much better year for you, with no hurricanes and lots of good things happening. I still pray for you every day.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, January 6, 2005 10:23 AM CST

I hope no update means good things are happening and your just to busy. I think of you often and pray for you daily

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 5, 2005 10:43 AM CST

Happy New Year!
May 2005 bring much peace of mind, heart and soul and much happiness.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, January 2, 2005 7:32 PM CST

HAPPY NEW YEAR dear Kathy and may 2005 bring you more peace of mind and spirit. The loss of a loved one can never be forgotten but as time goes by I truly believe we start to reflect more on the joys that they brought into our lives as we move FORWARD in our current lives.

Tom has gone back to the coast and we are back to IM's, phone calls and the occassional weekend visits till he moves out here permanently sometime late spring as we plan for a summer wedding - life is good in NC
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Friday, December 31, 2004 3:25 PM CST

well, here we are at the end of 2004. I know its been a hard year for you and I pray that next year will be better. I hope everyone had a good christmas in your family. it was pretty good here but I for one and glad its over for this time around. take care enjoy the last days of school vacation and get rteady for 2005
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 31, 2004 6:59 AM CST

Merry Christmas to you, and all of your beautiful family...we woke yesterday to 8 and more inches of snow...has been a beautiful week..Have also been thinking of you often, and hope we see each other some day...after winter, and storms!...Glad you are hanging in there. Much love from Virginia...
MaryAlice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Monday, December 27, 2004 1:18 PM CST

Merry Christmas to you too, friend!
Thinking of you all with love today.. praying the Lord will continue to carry you close in the coming year. Thank you so much for your beautiful heart, your transparency, your wonderful insights which encourage me always. It has indeed been a difficult season - you worded it well, that people have seemed to fake it, almost.. to go through the motions without their hearts being in it. Strange, isn't it. Maybe we all need some refreshing, a recharging of our spirits.

May God keep you strong, and keep your faith strong as well!

God Bless the whole Charlton gang! (aka KC and the sunshine band!) hehe!

Love and hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - & Proud! - Saturday, December 25, 2004 5:33 PM CST

Merry Christmas sweet Kathy and family! :)
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Saturday, December 25, 2004 2:03 PM CST

Merry Christmas, KC and the Sunshine Band!!! Things are wonderful here in NC this morning... so good they've even added the chance of light snow this evening. I saw 3 deer in the backyard the other day, and well, you know ... ;) Have a great Christmas and Holiday season...

Christmas cheers~~~
Tom and Lynne <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Home, NC - Saturday, December 25, 2004 8:05 AM CST

Merry Christmas, Kathy and kids!
I promise to write more later, but I wanted to wish you a merry Christmas. I hope that your day is filled with love and happiness, as I'm sure it will be. May God bless your family.
Love,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. Simons Island, ga - Saturday, December 25, 2004 0:46 AM CST

Merry Christmas Kathy and kids! I hope you have a happy, healthy holiday!
Laure C.
Vestavia, AL - Friday, December 24, 2004 9:50 PM CST

See I knew you'd get it all pulled together thats what Mama's do.I hope you and the kids and the rest of your family have a really nice Christmas.. I know you'll be missing Robert and thinking what if...I pray for you every night.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 24, 2004 7:35 PM CST

Merry Christmas Charltons! We Miss all our friends.

Much love
Lyle and Peggy <lylev@datacc.net>
- Friday, December 24, 2004 9:44 AM CST

Merry Christmas, Charltons....

Wishing you all a joyous holiday season!!

Love, hugs, and forever moving FORWARD...
Eva, Glenn and Sammie <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
Rodney, Mickey, Ryan, Sean, and Dakota, - Friday, December 24, 2004 6:28 AM CST

Merry Christmas to all the Charltons, thinking of all of you and missing a very special one.
much love and happiness
martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB., Fl Palm Beach - Thursday, December 23, 2004 11:29 AM CST

Thinking of all of you and your beautiful angel and sending continued love and prayers during this difficult holiday season.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, December 22, 2004 9:31 AM CST

Kathy,
I am so glad I read your most recent entry today. I appreciated every word and all your wisdom more today due to my last few days. Thank you for writing to us. I am so glad our Counselor has been working with you, because your wonderful words make me want to run get on His couch! Have a glorious Christmas.
Sincerely,
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Tuesday, December 21, 2004 7:18 AM CST

Hows the gang doing today? I knw you would do it ... that youd have Christmas ready in time. I like your new family photo looks really good. I hope you all have a great Christmas together. I know you will miss Robert and what might have been... You are all in my prayers...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, December 20, 2004 9:19 PM CST

What a day. It sounds a bit like my day today when the windchill was - 7 (yes, that is a NEGATIVE 7--lol!) and my little ole '92 toyota just couldn't get going. And...it was parked BEHIND my other car (my mom's car that I have a key to) so I couldn't get that one out. But, I figured out how to do it! At least I only have myself to get somewhere--I can't imagine having to get kids off to school. I spent over an hour rearranging things inside the garage to try and get the car that would start out. What an adventure. At least tomorrow it's supposed to be in the teens in the morning!! Anyways, just stopping in to wish you a Merry Christmas. I hope you won't have anymore days like that for a while. You've done your "stress quota" for life!! Blessings to you in Christ.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Monday, December 20, 2004 8:10 PM CST

Greetings, my Florida friends... WOw, compared to some weeks, let's look at the bright side of things.... you didn't mention IRS, FEMA, or other assorted acronyms. No mention of hurricanes, doggie accidents, or kitchen mishaps... Sounds like a pretty standard week to me ;) Of course, I won't go into all the illegal things you DID mention... ;-)

In a couple days, I'll be heading inland for Christmas. It's going to be my first one off the beach in about 9 years. I was thinking I might be a little homesick, but how can one be homesick while spending their first Christmas with someone very special, and her family, over the holidays -- in a house that will someday be "Home". It will truely be one of those 'Home is where the heart is" situations. Fortunately, Lynne's saved all the outdoor ladder climbing for me to do... I hope she's checked all the bulbs, because I REALLY don't want to be climbing the roof at night in 20 degree windchills looking for that one loose one ;) And she saved the garage for me to do, as well. Plus, we'll be doing something out in the yard, I'm sure... A holiday concert, visiting with her Mom, sisters, daughter, son, grandkids, Church.... I'm glad this isn't s 3 day trip like several have been!!! Wouldn't be enough hours! Oh, did I mention cookie cooking? LOL-- that should be fun. I hope Lynne doesn't get any incriminating pictures :-/ ;-)

Have a great weekend, Sunshine band... and Kathy, the family picture is BEAUTIFUL!!! They all are growing up so fast, while you're staying so young ;)
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Friday, December 17, 2004 7:17 PM CST

Kathy you are an amazing person. I would have called that a bad day but you go girl! It is amazing what you can do when you are so frazzled that you can't think right. I once left my keys hanging in the cars lock on the outside of the NEW car for hours while I was at work in a bad part of town and it was still there when I came out! I also almost locked the car while it was still running. I always wondered how people do these stupid things but now I know -we are just frustrated, frazzled and tired with too much going on at once. I hope you have a WONDERFUL Christmas!!! Love,Anne
Anne Himes <arhimes@msn.com www.caringbridge.org/page/andrewh>
Boonsboro, md USA - Friday, December 17, 2004 6:21 PM CST

Good morning my friend.

Yesterday was a particularly bad day for me, for reasons I won't go into. I was working around the house, listening to Christmas music, and trying to pull myself out of the mood I was in. An Amy Grant song came on and when I heard her sing "Wonderful Counselor" I burst into tears. I had much the same reaction you described in your journal. I just said, "Thank you, God, for being my counselor--because today, I REALLY need one." I even had the image of the proverbial "couch". It does help to know, doesn't it?

OK, leaving the car on ranks right up there, maybe even beyond, Tate locking me out of the house in my pajamas. Remember that??? Maybe we can share a padded cell. I'm glad you've retained your sense of humor.

The family picture is beautiful. When did Jessica turn 20??? She looks so mature and I love her hair! Christina is beautiful and Matthew still looks like a little heart breaker! You look amazing.

Have a great weekend and don't let the men in white coats come get you until you get in touch with me. Maybe we can get a 2 for 1 deal. Take care.

Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, December 17, 2004 10:23 AM CST

Kathy - you dear sweet wonderful person - your journals never cease to amaze me and give me that extra boost. This is my second Christmas without my wonderful husband of 38 years but God in his great wisdom and love has allowed another to enter my life and show me that the spirit of Christmas can live again. May that same spirit envelope you whole family this Christmas season and give you that peace that only God can bring.

So very glad to read that some of the weights that had you down in your last journal have been lifted and that you can enjoy the sunrises - the stars in the sky and beauty of nature. Peace to you and yours.......
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Thursday, December 16, 2004 8:51 AM CST

Nothing new and nothing Clever
just praying for you same s ever.
I hope things are going along ok and that your getting everything done a mama has to do this time of year. Let the ole scrooge IRS ignor you for a few day (or you ignor them if ya can)
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 15, 2004 1:53 PM CST

I thought of you as I read these words this morning..... "Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man." You always seem to find the light Kathy -- You always find a way to "Shine"! Merry Christmas to your sweet family!
Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Monday, December 13, 2004 7:11 AM CST

Kathy,
So glad to read that you are feeling brighter and more hopeful. I know many of us out here in cyber space were praying for you. I will definitely be praying that the IRS issue is resolved very soon. That would be a wonderful Christmas present, wouldn't it?!! I know God will take care of you and your precious family. May He bless you not for how much you spent on the little girl that wanted the skim board, but for the motives behind you finding a way to get it for her. Your heart is beautiful.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Sunday, December 12, 2004 4:55 PM CST

No Kathy, thank you! Your entries serve as a wonderful devotional for me (as well as many others I'm sure). I hope this Christmas season you will remember how loved you and your family are, and know that Robert will always remain in our thoughts and prayers too. Merry Christmas!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia Hills, AL - Sunday, December 12, 2004 12:12 AM CST

Hi Kathy,

Your entry had me in tears today. Pure and simple, the love and devotion that you possess are amazing. I hope this Christmas season is bringing a turn in the tides for you. I pray that 2005 is IRS free and overflowing with goodness.

I've told you before, but now is a good time to say it again...you can call yourself Scrooge, or Andy can call you "Grumpus", but I know it's all tongue in cheek. You have suffered the most extreme of losses, and still not only managed to find happiness in every day, but to blossom beyond what most women ever learn. You are introspective, generous, grateful, loving, strong, I could go on and on...I love that you kept the Pez candy, and I am confident your star ring is firmly on your finger. You are a wonderful mom, beautiful person, and I'm privileged to call you friend.

Lots of love, this most special of seasons! Merry CHRISTmas!

Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Sunday, December 12, 2004 8:58 AM CST

That little nine year old is so blessed that you picked her name. Not because she's getting a great present but because you really care about making her happy at this special time of year.
Wishing you a very Merry Christmas!
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Saturday, December 11, 2004 11:46 PM CST

Thank you so much for updating. I was really worried about you after your last one. I know it all gets over whelming at times, and I have not even been in a hurricane, That little girl will be so pleased with her gift. I know your children will be too. they have so much love. Ahhh... the joys of a dog peeing on the tree stand... I am sure that dog thinks that tree was brought for just that purpose. The cat at this house sleeps under the artiifical tree guess she likes the lights. you are in my prayers daily, and I know that things will work out in the end... Our GOD is always in control.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, December 11, 2004 11:33 AM CST

YIKES!!!! This is TOO scary -like seeing myself in the mirror!! : / Not a single decoration is up at my house either.. I can hardly breathe,from "emotional stuff".. much less spend the energy to decorate.. and I have a houseful of worried kids. We are going through some VERY tough financial times, and 2005 is not looking like a place I want to go. I'm praying for us both, sweet girl... that God will pick us up and carry us for a while, til we regain some strength.

You take care of yourself.. take it a day at a time.. I will do the same.
Sending you lots of love from up here in the panhandle where it is muggy, stormy, and unseasonably WARM! ICK!!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Thursday, December 9, 2004 11:46 AM CST

Kathy,
Reading the entry from Mimi Bunny below brought tears to my eyes. You are so blessed to have her to love and support you. Little ones do not understand things such as not having a Christmas tree, but they do understand the Christmas spirit. Don't worry about the tree. With God's help you will find that Christmas spirit that is within you. I will be praying that you do. I am so sorry that things are so very difficult for you. I know you will persevere. You are strong Kathy, stronger than most. You inspire me and humble me with your strength and zest for life. Robert is honored by your strength. God bless.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Thursday, December 9, 2004 10:37 AM CST

Hello Kathy-Just a few, short, encouraging words about the season ahead........ I wanted put up my tree the other day with the help of Christina and Matt. It is no fun putting up a tree alone: so here you come with the kids sans Jessica, who had a basketball game. While the kids and I started decorating, you sat off watching from the Charlton Family Rocker. Whenever I see you sitting in that rocker, I think of the countless hours you rocked babies in it. (I am sure the mileage chart is over the top!)Throughout the hours, you sat, quietly looking through each new box of ornaments--finally you said--"Hey, Mom, where are the old ornaments? Where are the ones we made, the ones I remember from childhood?" You were so excited when you found the paper plate Santa face Michael made and the hand painted wood ones made by our long-lost Karen, which you promptly hung right near the top. You smiled over the glittered, construction paper cut outs you and the kids made for me when I first moved to WPB and you bought and decorated a tree to surprise me in my new home. WOW! What a treat. God has given me many blessings from you and your family--watching your growth, struggles, stride and rebirth. I have been at the window, looking in. I want to always be there to love and give good hugs and kisses all around. Missing Robert is one of the things that makes us close. We hold on to memories of Robert all the time. "Hey, Look! A Fish, Mimi, just for Robert"--Matt exclaimed that night. Yes, we know Robert is gone. Yeah, we miss him. Always we will honor him and celebrate him-in our dreams, our memories and the little fishes on the Christmas Tree. God Has Blessed us so much......Thank you , Lord for my family.
Love, Mom (Mimi Bunny)
Barbara Waldron <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, fl US OF A - Thursday, December 9, 2004 9:53 AM CST

I wish I knew something I could do to help you but other than Pray I can't .... I am sending lots of prayers for you and the family. I know you will pull through all this stuff but IT's hard while its happening I know that for a fact... be strong!!! and lean on others they want you too you know. DOnt try and do everything alone
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 9, 2004 8:26 AM CST

Oh Kathy, At least, you sound like life is happening...tree??? It wont matter, or if it is up, it will be beautiful...I think that someday your kids will look back and write a wonderful book, on the time their world was apart, and YOU put it back together. piece by piece....chaos reigns at my home, and it all still seems to work somehow. However, I have not lost my child, and that, is the crucial thing...we love you, you know that, and I wish I was there. We also, forever, remember and honor Robert. Hang on, the Holidays will be over soon, remembered for fun, and life goes on...my parents, by the way, just got the final work done on their demolished home from Isabel, 1 full year ago!!!! Good Grief!!!
Love,
Mary Alice Dorschel
Suffolk, Va - Wednesday, December 8, 2004 6:57 PM CST

Kathy-
Hang in there, momma . . . you will come to and lift out of this fog. You sound so distraught and I am sorry. But, I also know you to be a strong woman who can decide how she is going to react. You know this is key. I pray that peace settles over you once again. May you have a smile when you see Matthew excited over the tree that you bring home for him to get to decorate. May you kind of sit back and appreciate the chaos in your house in some odd way. I know you miss Robert. As always, it pains my heart as well. Please take care of yourself. Maybe we can see one another when I get home??? Hey, maybe even a double date with our men? That would be a lot of fun . . . something to think about. Let me know . . . love,love,love,
Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 8, 2004 9:29 AM CST

Hey Kathy,
Tammy warned me she was writing true stories about me on the Internet so I had to check it out. She is right, of course, I did celebrate Christmas sans-a-tree. It was fabulous for me. I found a 2' artificial tree for $5 at a dollar store. It was great. The kids kept asking why our tree was so short. When a 2 foot tree is on the floor, well, it is short. But, when you put it on the dining room table it becomes average. I told them if they wanted it any bigger it would have to go on the top bunk bed and they were satisfied with the dining room table. Now, I write this to you to be an encouragement-- Christmas is in the heart and when the decorations are killing your joy, then I become suspicious about our little decorating tradition. You must live with your children and it is very important to make them happy-- so take this for what it is worth, BUT..... It is fine with me Kathy Charlton, if you do not put up a tree this year.
Feel better?

Praying for your peace-
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 5:45 PM CST

Kathy--Well, bah humbug to you! I pray that you find the Christmas spirit that I know is within you. I know exactly how you feel--it's 75 degrees here today and that doesn't exactly put me in the Christmas mood!! My house is filthy and we don't have a single Christmas decoration out (they're all in the attic and when I went up there today I spotted a swarm of wasps!). And to top it all off, I went to check on our Pennies for Patients jar at a local restaurant and they didn't even have it out on the counter! AAHHHHH!
Oh well, Merry Christmas! Cheer up and enjoy your beautiful children and the magic of the season, and I'll try to do the same!!

Laure Christie <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia Hills, AL - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 3:31 PM CST

Kathy - I smiled when I read your "no christmas tree" idea. Amanda did the same thing a few years back. Each year as they decorated the tree, something broke. The kids would drop an ornament, an angel would get knocked off the mantel - and finally Amanda decided no more!! She was tired of fussing at everyone and wanted an easier more peaceful Christmas. Well, the rest of us were horrified :) Enough pressure from everyone, and she has a tree again! I must admit after sweeping up broken Christmas balls, I'm starting to think she had the right idea! Thinking of you this holiday season and praying you will find time to post more often. I miss starting my day with you!! Remembering your Robert............
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 2:47 PM CST

Happy Monday, KC and the Sunshine Band!!!!

I know, I really confuse people when I say that on Tuesday... I confuse myself as well... I actually don't go in til 11 tonight, which is the Monday of my week. My Monday ends as the sun rises Wednesday morning.

The shadow was around during the past week... An unusual sighting of a gaggle of geese lighting on a pond a few hundred yards from the ocean in the morning... later that evening, a single goose. Then the other morning... saw an unusual sight... an Ibis soaring around that same pond, and decided to perch on a rooftop. Goofy looking bird when not stabbing minnows ;) We don't see them often up here, so it was one of those "OH WOW" moments, yanno?

Also saw another sunrise rainbow... vertical .. I know winter will soon be around, so I'm enjoying these brief interludes of warmth while I can. Think I'll go for a bike ride while it's still light out... then it's off to bed.

Then I look to see if there's an update before I post, and by Gosh and by Golly, there is!!! So I add for you, Kath, you Blue Roofed Grumpy Gabby woman... The shadow lives on.

If good thoughts counted as Christmas presents, you'd sure have a houseful, and the dog wouldn't be able to see the tree ;) Have a great week... and thanks for updating life.

Of course, in a couple weeks, I'll be posting here about my Christmas cookie cooking deal with my soon to be new grandsons... that should be good for a chuckle or 3 ;)

Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH-for now, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, December 7, 2004 1:58 PM CST

Oh my friend, no wonder you have not upddated for so long... I am truly sorry for all the things you can not control... It is the pits to put it mildly. I know as the days go by you will get the tree decorated and the gifts wrapped. my prayer is that you will find a few things besides the kids that you are in control of.. nd things will gt more settled... I will never understand how FEMA works....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 7, 2004 9:31 AM CST

Wishing you a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, December 5, 2004 11:04 PM CST

Hi Kathy,

I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you! I hope you guys are doing well. Lots of love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, December 4, 2004 9:03 AM CST

I'm still here still thinking about you and praying for you. I hope you all have a great weekend
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 3, 2004 8:26 AM CST

Friend, you are remarkable! Your heart is precious! What a remarkable birthday celebration.. so many lessons in your writing of it. So many precious lessons.

You are loved!! God bless!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, November 29, 2004 9:56 PM CST

I just wanted to let you know that although I don't sign in all that much, you are very much in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that your Thanksgiving was wonderful and that your Holiday Season will include lots of laughter along with the sadness that I know comes with missing your Robert. Blessings in Christ.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Monday, November 29, 2004 6:15 PM CST

Kathy and family,
I stumbled onto your web site the same way many of us CB moms do, linking from one site to the other. Something about your entry made me want to read more. It took me 3 days, one night I read from 10pm until 2am, I cried many times. Especially about having to drive by the store where he had his make a wish shopping spree.
Your story is so inspiring in so many ways. We have many things in common. I also have 4 children aged 5 to 13. My 11 year old is the one who is ill. Although her disease is not cancer, it is a life threatening illness nonetheless. We even recently, a few weeks ago, bought a corgi puppy.
We are about to do our own make a wish trip to Disney.
I'm sorry to have written so much here, you and your family just really touched me.
God bless you.
Cheryl,Haley's mom
Haley, Cheryl and family <bandcvincent@aol.com>
Kingsport, TN - Friday, November 26, 2004 8:11 PM CST

Kathy, much love to you all, on Thanksgving...and please to Jeff as well, what a great gift you do have, with all there..and also, it is a gift that you can know that. My thoughts have been with you lately, just wanted to say hello. We head to Memphis this next week, and will also see Peggy and Lyle, as Peg runs another marathon! for St Jude..what a woman. Love to you all,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
Suffolk, Va - Friday, November 26, 2004 6:59 AM CST

Just stopping in to wish you and your family a HAPPY THANKSGIVING but as always when I read your journals - I come away the better for it. The way you wrote about family changes and being able to accept those changes touches my heart having had to go through that last year and now this year with even more changes on the horizon. God certainly has a plan for all of us - we are just not privy to it all at one time and have to have faith that he will never let us down.

Happy (belated) Birthday to Matthew :):)
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Thursday, November 25, 2004 10:26 PM CST

Happy Birthday, Matthew!!!! I hope it was a really special one ;)

Happy Thanksgiving to you, Kathy, and all the Sunshine Band, scattered as you may be. As always, what a beautiful message you leave for us. Have a great day!!!
Tom - DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, November 25, 2004 6:14 PM CST

First and foremost.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW!!! 8 years old already, wow!!!

Ok..now, onto secondary business.....

HAPPY THANKSGIVING, KC AND THE SUNSHINE BAND!!

I'm so touched by your journal. I love the fact that you and Jeff can spend "family" time together, with your "special friend". I know it means the world to the kids. And we all know that divorce is hard, but to be friends afterwards, is amazing and it is the way to go, if at all possible. I commend all of you adults in this matter!!

Wishing you all the best day!!

Love, hugs and forever moving FORWARD.....

Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Thursday, November 25, 2004 5:22 AM CST

Hi Kathy,
Tell Matthew Happy Birthday. Thank you for stopping buy and remembering us. I keep track of you and love to hear what your family is doing. Yes, we truly have so much to be thankful for. We seem to look at life differently when your family is touched by cancer or other tragedies. But God is good and is love endures forever. We will be celebrating with my family tomorrow and Lyle's on Friday. We will be minus Justin in California, but look forward to his return at Christmas. Have a wonderful thanksgiving, enjoy the fun and family time.
Love,
Peggy
Peggy VonSpreckelsen <peggyv58@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 10:47 PM CST

Kathy,
Give Matthew a big birthday hug from me. I hope his birthday is filled with all sorts of wonderful memories. I am so glad that you and Jeff get along well enough to be able to share the important times of your children's lives together. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us total strangers out here in cyber space that have grown to love your wonderful family. I am thankful that I found Robert's site over two years ago. I am still sad that he had to leave this earth way too soon, but he touched my life and will never be forgotten.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 5:57 PM CST

What a wonderful message you have for us today. Matthews prayer is so touching... I am sure he is having a wonderful birthday. My Mike was born at thankgiving time too.. I remember hoping he would not come till after we had the turkey...he waited a couple more days. I am so thankful that you can go to Jeff's to have the whole family together for a birthday. That is a true blessing in itself... My prayers are with you as always.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 10:19 AM CST

I am so thankful that I decided to check your page before I left town. You bring a smile to my face Kathy Charlton. Happy Birthday Matthew - What a special family you have!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 10:19 AM CST

Kathy,
I am sorry I was unable to stop by the other day to let you know that I was remembering Robert and praying for you and your family. My computer has been down and I just got back on line. I know two years ago your life changed forever. You should be very proud of how you have continued your life, giving God the glory for all of your many blessings.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
- Tuesday, November 23, 2004 5:56 PM CST

Charlton family,
I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving and happy birthday Matthew!!!!! It is so warm here in NY (not as warm as Florida. I love the bench. I hope you can find peace sitting on his bench and talking to Robert. Hugs to you all
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Monday, November 22, 2004 2:14 PM CST

I dont want to forget Matthews birthday either so
Happy Birthday to you
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 22, 2004 10:57 AM CST

Hello Charlton's! :)

I know I am 4 days early for these wishes, but here it goes. Didn't want the day to pass me by before getting here.

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear MATTHEW,
Happy birthday to YOU!!!!

Hope you have a very special, memorable day! God's blessings to you all.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, November 20, 2004 7:50 PM CST

hi just want to let you know your on my mind and in my heart and prayers. i hope you have a good weekend
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 19, 2004 10:41 AM CST

Kathy I apologize for letting time get away from me and not acknowledging the day Robert became an angel. I'm really sorry, I know your world ended when you lost your baby, and I wanted you to know people do mourn for you.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Thursday, November 18, 2004 6:28 PM CST

Happy Thanksgiving!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Thursday, November 18, 2004 5:56 PM CST

Kathy - just stopping by to say that you are on my mind. Yesterday had to of been a difficult day as I know only too well - but we do get through them with the love and support of friends and family. I love the bench - one day soon I will share with you a picture of the bench that I bought in memory of my dear husband.

take care Kathy - in spite of all the sorrow we have been through (different journeys) - we still have much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", NC - Thursday, November 18, 2004 5:38 PM CST

Thinking about all of you and of your special angel. Robert's bench is beautiful!

Much love and continued prayers of comfort and peace...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, November 18, 2004 9:22 AM CST

Just stopping in to let you know that you are on my heart today. I have been thinking of and praying for you more than usual as I know this is a very difficult time. And, especially today, I hope you have felt the prayers of the saints collectively storming heaven for you. Blessings and much love in Christ. I will check in on you again soon.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 8:13 PM CST

you've been on my mind especially today and in my prayers. hope your getting through the day with happy memories and no regrets. you did all that you could do, sometimes GOD answers NO to our prayers. I dont know why......(((hugs))) for all of you. pass them around
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 17, 2004 5:35 PM CST

Thinking of you all today. Robert IS here and will remain in my prayers, as will you all. The bench is beautiful--what a wonderful tribute to a special boy!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia Hills, AL - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 2:26 PM CST

Kathy - So glad to hear the trip was wonderful. Remembering your Robert today and always.
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 2:01 PM CST

Hi there KC and the Sunshine Band!!! Welcome home again~~~ How good it was to 'talk' to you last week, Kathy... been way too long. Interesting, The Sunshine Band spending a weekend AT Camp Sunshine.... how appropriate. Yes, Matthew, Camp Sunshine IS always with you, wherever you go.

Thought of you guys a lot, especially in the early pre-dawn hours last week, with the sliver of a moon dancing in the skies just before sunrise.

And yes, Kathy, the 'Shadow' still follows me around... ;), sometimes now with a companion nearby.

Doesn't surprise me that Christina took to the stage right off. I'm sure she had a great time.

Soon the holidays will be upon us, and I'm sure I'll have some kitchen war stories for Jess to laugh at and have a witty comeback to.

Thinking of all of you today, in a special way, as the journey FORWARD continues. Robert would be proud...is proud ;) �

Peace to you all, my friends.....and Kathy.....thanks ;)

Tom - DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 1:41 PM CST

Hey gang,
I was just thinking about ya'll today. Remembering Robert.
Take care!!!
Love you guys
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 9:53 AM CST

Kathy,

I was out at 5:00 a.m., waiting on my friend to run. I was watching the MOST beautiful sunrise, thinking of Robert. (here in CA we don't often have clouds or moisture in the air, so our sunrises and sunsets can be non-descript). This morning the sky was on fire. It was coral, purple, and pink. How appropriate for the anniversary of the day Robert left for heaven.

My friend was late so I went to check the mail and got your package. How can I ever thank you? I stood there crying, reading your note, smelling the candle, etc. Thank you. I'm thinking of you today.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, November 17, 2004 8:10 AM CST

Hello Guys
Just wanted you to know I am thinking about all of you and missing Robert alot today.'
Mcuh love
Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
lake clark shores, fl palm beach - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 7:30 AM CST

Thinking of Robert and your family today!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, - Wednesday, November 17, 2004 6:12 AM CST

Hi Kathy,

I wanted to post tonight, in case you read first thing in the morning. What a beautiful journal entry. I remember our emails back and forth while you were in Memphis. How we made each other smile with our "kid" stories. I remember wondering how I came to your page. I remember being grateful that I did. Robert definitely touched this family...made us slow down a little--smile alot--hug like there was no tomorrow.

I am rarely on the computer on Sunday mornings, but that Sunday I felt like I needed to check on you. Your entry that day is etched on my heart. Your family handled such a horrible situation with so much grace and faith. More importantly, Robert handled everything with a wisdom and faith WAY beyond his years.

I'll never forget the tears I shed when you left Memphis; when Robert went on his Make-a-Wish shopping trip; reading about his last Halloween. His touch stretched far.

I'm thankful for the friend I gained through Robert. You are an amazing woman. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lots of love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, November 16, 2004 10:00 PM CST

Hey Kathy- I wanted to let you know I am thinking of your family this week. I know it is tough everyday, but especially now. I think of Robert and his fight all the time. What a strong boy.Thanks for the lunch invite - Michelle is out of town this week with Cam, but maybe next week we can get together. Hugs to you.....
Diane Mathis <stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, , FL - Tuesday, November 16, 2004 8:46 PM CST

Kathy,

Thinking of you all, holding you near in our hearts!

Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Tuesday, November 16, 2004 8:00 AM CST

Kathy, I know how hard this week is for you.. My prayers are with you...and the family... how was the trip?
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 15, 2004 6:51 AM CST

Kathy - just stopping in and catching up on your news - I am SOOOOO happy to hear about Camp Sunshine and especially it happening now. I hope you are having a wonderful time and that the healing continues. I know there are days when you, well all of us who have lost loved ones, wonder if the pain will ever go away but God does have his hand on us and works in ways we NEVER even would imagine - I know - I am a walking example. I sincerely pray that you and the children are sharing good memories and a closer bond with each other.

Anyway - just wanted you to know that even tho I don't sign in often I do read and follow your journey and draw strenght from your journals.
Lynne - moving FORWARD and loving it <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
Clayton, NC - Sunday, November 14, 2004 4:14 PM CST

Kathy: YES, I too noticed the "timing" of your trip as soon as I read it! What an AWESOME God we have! Definitely NOT a coincidence...for there are no coincidence's - ALL GOD'S PLAN! Hope you all enjoy it and have a safe trip.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, November 14, 2004 1:05 AM CST

Kathy and family-
I do hope you have a wonderful trip . . . how beautiful it is, the way the Lord works. It is no coincidence that you all are up there this time of year. Kathy, I know how hard this time of year is for you. I know it brings back many, many memories. You and I have spoken of this before -- and while our memories are different and while this time of year gives us both a different feeling, I want you to know I have been thinking of you so much. I know I don't have to explain what I am saying. In the end, however, I suppose we both know all is well even when it may not feel that way. Please also know that thoughts of sweet Robert weigh heavily on my heart, as well. What a dear boy . . . he is surely missed.
Give me a call if you are up to it when you get back. Let's do lunch, just the girls, at the Mexican restaurant soon. Take care and I hope your trip has a bit of a healing effect for you in some regard. Kisses to the kids, even Jess, as I know she is too old for that!
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam

MIchelle Jorgensen <largo142@aol.com>
Lake Worth, FL - Friday, November 12, 2004 8:52 AM CST

I hope you have a wonderful time at camp sunshine, I too noticed the timing....can't wait to hear how the trip goes. I also dont know if I mentioned the bench before. it is a wonderful tribute to a great son.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 11, 2004 9:04 AM CST

YEA!!!!!!! This sounds WONDERFUL! Isn't the Lord so tender and merciful! I straight-away noticed His timing! This will be culture shock, going from Florida to Maine! WOW!hehehe!! DON'T freeze up there!! Do we Floridians even OWN enough clothing to stay warm in Maine? : )
Take care friend!! I will be smiling as I think of you in that cold, snowy place! May your heart experience great warmth and love, and continued gentle healing! HAVE FUN CHARLTON GANG!!!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Wednesday, November 10, 2004 12:43 AM CST

Kathy,
I forgot to mention that the pictures of Robert's bench are beautiful. What a beautiful tribute to an incredible boy. Your boy, the one we all love and miss so much.
Love you,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 10:38 PM CST

Kathy...Yes...that "Dream Team" is something else! I have always said that they are angels on earth. SO glad to hear that you'll be able to go to Camp Sunshine. Have a safe trip.

Sending love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 8:14 PM CST

Well Charltons I am so happy about your upcoming trip...you ALL deserve it. I am also so happy to read my emails & finding out about the arrival of the twins. We should maybe plan a trip late this winter to go see those 2 little ones.

Love to all & have a safe and fun trip.

PS: Happy Birthday Bunny!!!
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 7:15 PM CST

Oh Kathy, I'm so happy that you get to go to Camp Sunshine! I don't know if I ever told you, but that was one of the places that I volunteered at 2 summers ago. I love it there! I have so many good memories of going there, and then there was the gash I got in my leg by jumping onto a cinder block, but despite that, it was wonderful! Please give Mike Katz (one of the Camp Sunshine guros my love) he'll remember me because of the leg incident. I have so much to tell you about the developments in my life in the recent months, but I will save that for another day as I know you are busy. The food is so yummy, and there are so many things for the kiddies to do. I do hope y'all will get to see snow. Have a great trip!
Love,
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 6:42 PM CST

Kathy -- I'm thrilled to hear the news of your trip!! The Lord's hand is evident in this trip to Maine - the timing, the funding, everything! What a special time together. How do you even begin to pack for weather in Maine? Do Floridians even have those type of clothes?! :) We can't wait to hear all about it. Congrats to your friend Shari! Is she the friend that lives in Birmingham? If you go visit her, let us know. Amanda, Laure, and I would love to meet you for lunch! Wouldn't that be a little scary - we might overwhelm you completly! I'll pray for a safe trip and that this is a wonderful weekend for your sweet family.
Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Tuesday, November 9, 2004 7:34 AM CST

Oh Kathy, I am so happy that you are getting to go to Camp Sunshine with the kids. May God continue to bless those that made it possible. I will be praying that you have a safe trip and that the time at Camp Sunshine is filled with meaningful memories of love and hope. I know you are heading into a difficult time of the month and I so hope that the trip helps you and yours.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Monday, November 8, 2004 3:04 PM CST

HI Kathy!
Oh, I am so glad to hear that your father in-law is recovering. Yes, it may take some time.. but day by day I pray he sees steady improvement. I visited the photo album before coming here... my heart was so touched, seeing the pictures of the bench, expecially after reading your latest journal entry. :" / That Robert is so dear to my heart - I can't explain it. There is just a heart connection and I look forward to meeting him in heaven.

On a different note, what a nice picture of you with the children! I am so glad to see you! I don't recall seeing a picture of you before, so it was nice to put a lovely face to the name and sweet personality that I have come to know and love, here! You are a beautiful lady - inside and out!

You will be in my prayers this month especially. Though we have a sure hope, a future laid up for us in heaven.. I know the present separation you must endure is very painful. Lots of love and hugs.. and prayers for you!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, November 6, 2004 11:23 PM CST

Hoping you are having a good day, Robert's bench is so beautiful!

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJs caring place
- Saturday, November 6, 2004 6:45 PM CST

Robert's bench is beautiful Kathy. I hope it gives you some sense of peace now that it is marking his resting place. God bless those that made it possible. Thinking of you today and remembering Robert especially at this time of year. Praying for you always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 11:48 PM CST

Hi guys....sound like you all have a great Halloween planned. Kathy, you told us what everyone else was wearing and you told us that you were going out in costume however you neglected to tell us what you are going to be......Hmmmm.
I wanted to give you all a quick update on Paw Paw Mitchell. He is doing so much better since his surgery. He is still in pain but doing a lot better. I do beleive that the surgery was a success. Thank you all for praying for our Dad.
I hope all of you have a wonderful and safe Halloween!!
By the way the pics of the bench are great. The bench is beautiful. Just like Robert.
Love to you all!
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Friday, October 29, 2004 12:26 AM CDT

I think of you all so often sounds like your gonna all have a fun halloween... I know that you will miss Robert so much. I was just thinking about how my Mike came home one day and said Im going to a halloween party tonight and I need a costume... I tore down to the fabric store and got some black cheap stuff and quickly made him a costume... he went as the grim reaper as he had a scythe and so that was quick and easy. I think he was about 20 then.. just a memmory to share.... I am gong to the nursing home where mom is in a few minutes as they have about 300 trick or treaters coming from the area day cares and kindergartens to trick or treat. It will be fun I think. they are dressing mom as a witch I hope you have a great weekend all of you. you are all in my prayers daily. I hope to hear that your father in law is doing better real soon.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 29, 2004 11:14 AM CDT

Sending many, many prayers to Robert, Sr. and your entire family.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, October 29, 2004 5:09 AM CDT

Kathy - Lifting up prayers for Mitchell. Keep us posted. Tammy
Tammy <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

Kathy and everyone that is praying for my dear husband. Thank you so much. It really means a lot to our family. The Charlton family is very strong, and with all of your prayer we will make it thru this with the grace of God. Kathy you mean so much to us and we love you very much. God bless you and lots of love from all of us here.
Janice Charlton <jcharl8197@aol.com>
Senatobia, MS usa - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 1:48 PM CDT

And so shall I, as the ones who've signed before me - pray for Robert Mitchel strength and complete healing. The love you feel for this man, your father in-law is so tenderly evident. You are a blessing to me, ((( dear Kathy.))) May the Lord reward your faithful devotion.
Take care friend! (thanks for the recent visit at my place!)
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:06 PM CDT

Sweet Kathy,

You and I never finished our "power of prayer" conversation awhile back, but I think you answered my question in your journal.

I will definitely be praying for Jeff's Dad, Robert. Keep us posted...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 7:18 PM CDT

Kathy and All of the Charltons....

I'm so sorry to hear about Robert Mitchell, Sr. Please know that lots of prayers are being said for all of you!

Sending lots of love, hugs, good thoughts, and prayers,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:10 PM CDT

Praying right now for Jeff's father. I am so sorry to read of more heartache in the Charlton family. May God perform a miracle and give him the strength he needs to recover.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 11:23 AM CDT

even as I type I am sendig prayers for your father in law. It sounds as if he has had to endure so much already. I hope that everything else is ok in your busy lives.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:39 AM CDT

Happy Halloween!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 1:19 AM CDT

Hi guys!! It is good to hear a positive update. Everyone seems to be trying to get back to normal. We are trying to do the same. I am very glad to hear that your museum is getting back together. It seems like a dream job. I am so happy for you Kathy!! The kids seem to be doing well. Tell them we love them very much. Take care of each other!
Love always,
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, ms - Monday, October 25, 2004 10:38 AM CDT

Hey Guys so good to read an update also glad all is well aways thinking about you guys.
Much love Martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
w.p.b., fl - Friday, October 22, 2004 12:04 AM CDT

Kathy - Whew! I'm tired just hearing about your busy schedule! :) You are a woman on the move - kids, work, and not to mention keeping us all posted! How wonderful that you were able to share Robert with someone this week. He is the reason we all come here. He lived a life of courage and you do to Kathy. Your children are blessed to have a mother that loves them so much. Your pride is evident in each of them. What a special family you are. I must go "kick the cribs" - "rattle the cribs"?! I can't remember your great expression!!! I think I ALMOST got it right! The crib is actually coming down at my house this weekend. What a sad day!!! :( When my youngest can actually say - "I really want a big girl bed now, PLEASE!" - It's time to get her out....sigh.
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Friday, October 22, 2004 7:30 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
I am sure you were an incredible blessing to the hospice nurse that you shared your Robert with. Hopefully, in some way, you were able to make a difference in helping her marriage to survive the separation she is now going through. I continue to be blessed in coming to Robert's site and reading your words of wisdom. I am humbled by your strength and faith. God bless always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Thursday, October 21, 2004 8:56 PM CDT

As Novemebr 17th approaches I think of you and your kids more and more. You are such a loving mother, I'm sure Robert not being here with all of you probably does not get much easier for you. Please know that I keep all of you in my prayers.
Colette McKnight <colettemcknight@aol.com>
WPB, FL - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 12:46 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,

We were in Florida last week and I was thinking of you. Hopefully we can connect when we are there in April...we'll be there for a week. You guys are always in my prayers. Lots of love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 7:56 PM CDT

good morning to you. I know there have been a lot of times in my life when I have had enough,.... just like everyone has.... and its time to start off in a new direction i hope things are going along fairly smoothly for you lately you sure have had ENOUGH going on the past few weeks to need some down time. take care and know that I have you in my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 10:23 AM CDT

Hello, I know I say this again and again...but your entries are so very POWERFUL. You inspire me and make me "think". I love this place! Hoping today finds you with your heart filled with love and peace of mind.
Blessings,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, October 16, 2004 8:06 PM CDT

Kathy,
It is always so good to come to Robert's site. It is such a great place to go when my days seem to be overwhelming. I'm sorry I haven't written sooner....hopefully you got the book that I sent. With all the weather you received, I didn't know if it would get lost in the shuffle. Your most recent entry really spoke to me. With the situation I am in right now, there are so many days that "I've had enough". Every time I think I've hit the worst situation that I will have to deal with, along comes one that is worse. Last weekend was dealing with telling Rachel what has been going on. You talk about "hurt"!! It is a good thing I wasn't home alone that day.....I have started some other meetings and treatments, and I continue to pray that God will help me beat this demon. I have FINALLY realized that IT is much BIGGER than ME, and I can't do it alone. I had a dream about Robert last week, and we were sitting on the beach. He was fishing and I was just watching. We were discussing my life and what a failure I felt like. He informed me that God doesn't create "mistakes". So once again, he told me to suck it up and keep on trying. I am trying to follow his words each day. I hope someday I can say I have won the battle. Thanks for continuing to journal, I don't think you even realize what a servant God has made you.
Sent with huge hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, October 15, 2004 1:53 PM CDT

have a good weekend....
sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 15, 2004 1:10 PM CDT

But Kathy, your Enough is not like some peoples....you have learned the walk the coals way what matters.. and, remember, you are a survivor, and your family is too, as this strikes the whole family we have found, and you already know. We, and you, are never the same...I wonder about your job, and your lighthouse,did it blow down totally??? Virginia was lucky this season...my Florida inlaws were just here, complaining about the cold (65) weather...they forget way too fast, and I am impatient...Isnt life a mystery?? Much love,
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 5:38 PM CDT

You and Robert on are my mind this morning. I don't sign in often, but I check on you all every week. I'm sitting here waiting for my friend to call and update me on her daughter's ALL treatment. It's her first "bad" chemo treatment. She's a beautiful 5-year-old little girl! We have four little princesses and I cannot imagine the pain you and your family have gone through, and the agony my friend is going through right now watching her child suffer. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers always. Take care of your beautiful family!
Laure C. <laurec@bellsouth.net>
Vestavia, AL - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 10:27 AM CDT

Good morning... Just want you to know i am thinking about you today. and saying a prayer for you. Hope things are ok down your way
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 12, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

How important is it to learn to listen?? When Liz was finishing chemo, got that fungus, we had to do a difficult surgery, leaving her on a vent...dad was gone to airport to get his parents, my parents were frantically cleaning my house, Becca was home packing to go as a freshman to college that next am, (alone, I may add), other kids were with dad, or going to help Becca, so most of the surgery I was very alone, was an emerg. so after hours, etc etc. One of my old prayer friends just walked in, she had not been called. Said she was at home, praying for Liz, and God spoke to her to get in the car and come....she sat with me several hours until Liz was at least safe in the picu...Kathy, God is giving you a great gift. Also, never forget, Robert also gave me a gift, speaking to me one night about Heaven. I know it does not help the loss, but God is strong with you still, ...I dont think He can heal your broken heart, but you are not alone. You know we love you,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, October 11, 2004 7:16 AM CDT

Sweet girl, I think this is one of the most eloquent and beautiful expositions on prayer, I ever heard. And in understanding, a few tears rolled down my cheeks as I read it. Dear Lord, keep us in your tender care.. and guide us safely on this journey!

I love to come and sit here awhile.. to listen to you share.. what a blessing to be sisters in the Lord, even though we've never met!

Take care! Enjoy this hurricane-free weekend! YEA!! :)
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, October 9, 2004 6:58 PM CDT

Hi Kathy! Robert's bench sounds beautiful; wish I could see it. Our 'place' has rules against that sort of thing, or I'd have one too. Ha, I break so many of those 'rules' as it is, I might as well go ahead and get a bench! We do have true seasons here in Illinois & I understand what you mean. With each change, there is a time of sadness. I DREAD seeing winter get here; that's my worst season now. The days are short, the nights long and cold. I am praying that we are able to travel soon and get our Guatemalan angels... then there would be some sunshine on those long winter days/nights! They're our tiny hints of hope in this life we now live. :) I will continue to lift you and yours in prayer; wish I could do even more. God bless
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
Columbia, IL - Friday, October 8, 2004 4:53 PM CDT

I just wanted to let you know you aren't forgotten. I continually think of you and lift you up in prayer. Blessings and lots of love in Christ. I'll try to sign in more as I am able. You are loved.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, October 7, 2004 5:28 PM CDT

Thanks for taking the time to update Kathy. I am sure you are very busy trying to get put back together after the hurricane(s). I hope the IRS is leaving you alone or getting solved. God bless as always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 9:57 PM CDT

just wantto say hi and how are ya today. I hope things are slowly but surely getting back to a routine for all of you. take care prayers for you as usual
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 6, 2004 11:14 AM CDT

Kathy - Things are busy here this morning, but I just wanted to leave you a quick note to let you know that we miss you and hope things are back to "normal" soon! :)
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 7:30 AM CDT

Kathy & kids....I am so glad to finally hear from you guys. We have been worried about how you guys were holding up. I am glad to hear that the house is still standing and that you guys are ok. We are doing OK....Paw Paw Mitchell is back in the hospital with a little infection, but hopefully it will not be to long. Things are just chugging along.
I hope to hear from you guys soon....and we are still keeping you all in our prayers. Take care of yourselves down there.

Love always,
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Monday, October 4, 2004 9:21 AM CDT

Kathy,
It was so good to see the kids yesterday at the movies. I think Christina was shocked at how much Zach has changed... he has a head FULL of hair and a few inches taller..please keep in touch.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Rebecca, Scott and Zachary <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Sunday, October 3, 2004 8:17 AM CDT

Good to see that you have power.... I can not tell you how bad I feel about the destruction that has gone on in FL this year. and to your lives....homes... and general well-being. ITs hard to tell your self that these are just things when you need them so much. My prayers are with you and the kids as you try to get lives back to normal again... what ever that is.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 1, 2004 2:29 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,

YIKES! Sounds like chaos doesn't begin to describe what's going on around you! Let's punt on connecting this month and shoot for April. I think you have way too much other stuff to deal with! You guys are in my prayers.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, October 1, 2004 11:57 AM CDT

I hope and pray that you soon have power again, that your job is still there, your house is still there, and that you are all ok. I know you will let us know as soon as you can.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 30, 2004 11:07 AM CDT

Just stopping by to let you guys know you're being thought of... hugs and prayers sent your way...
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 7:34 PM CDT

Kathy,
Continuing prayers for all of your safety....Enough is Enough!!! Will be waiting for new information on how you stand after this storm. God be with you all.
Sent with big hugs and love,
Krista <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Monday, September 27, 2004 1:10 PM CDT

sounds like you really caught it again. I pray everything is ok with your family and that you home is still there.
sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 27, 2004 9:19 AM CDT

Kathy - I'm once again watching the news and praying for your safety...........
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Sunday, September 26, 2004 7:23 AM CDT

thinking bout you and praying for your safety
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 25, 2004 8:33 PM CDT

Kathy....

We'll be keeping you in our thoughts and prayers as you batten down the hatches yet again!!

Be safe!!

Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Friday, September 24, 2004 3:07 PM CDT

Good day! I hope and pray that Jeanne decides to miss you, keep the faith and as the friends from Kansas say keep moving FORWARD
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 24, 2004 8:30 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,
You do have a good sense of humor. Praying that this hurrican will stay away from land. You are an amazing women and God will continue to give you the strength you need each and every day. I still have a vivid picture of Robert & Steven playing play station and us visiting. Hold on to your memories and continue to make more with your family.
Love,

Peggy VonSpreckelsen <peggyv58@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 23, 2004 9:26 PM CDT

Yes Kathy, the strength is in rebuilding, just as when you fall down, you must get up. Life is not easy, and especially not for you, and for that I am sorry. I wish I lived close and could offer a helping hand and lend a listening ear. Well, I guess I do lend a listening ear, since I always come back to Robert's site to see how you and the kids are doing. I am glad that your house sustained minimal damage. My prayers are still with you and right now they are for NO MORE hurricanes, especially in Florida.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Thursday, September 23, 2004 8:03 PM CDT

Kathy,
It is so good to hear from you.....We have all been wondering and praying. I am so glad that you guys didn't suffer as much as you could have. I do beleive you have suffered enough. I am so sorry about your beautiful museum. That is heartbreaking. Please take care of each other and keep in touch. Tell the children we are thinking of them. I came across a picture of Christina the other day, it was one of her when she couldn't have been any older than 3. Jeff had brought all of the kids to see us and she was so cute. Just thought I would share that with you. We love you all!!! Take care! Hope things are trying to get back to somewhat normal. Love,
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Thursday, September 23, 2004 8:07 AM CDT

thinking of you again...and your words about the strength being in rebuilding after the storm..really hit home. Would love to see you, sending you much thought.

Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 7:56 PM CDT

good day to you. i am glad that your home sustained little damage. enough is enough in one life. I sure hope the hurricanes are done with you for a long long time to come. Have to laugh at the cookie/ brownie story, while in a way its not funny in another it is. I have been there many times unable to decide even the smallest thing, I guess we all have. You are a strong woman. you will make it-- you and the kids. You have the basic foundation that can keep you going no matter what... Faith in GOD.... and as for the movers at the museum.....that is unreal. I am sorry to hear that the building sustained such damage, I suppose they will have to totaly rebuild or move. I am glad you still have a job that would be just too much if you lost tht too. My prayers are with you and your family and all those who are having such major upheaval in life,rather from the weather or from health problems. take care now!!!!
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 21, 2004 9:48 AM CDT

Hoping you have little damage, and I can only imagine what the neighborhood looks like, our was demolished last year with a cat 1..........I think of you so often. Hope you get time to post soon, so we can hear your power is on, and streets are passable...Much love
Mary Alice <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, September 20, 2004 5:59 AM CDT

Good to hear. Your still there. and House standing as well. Always in our prayers

Love,

Lyle and Peggy

www.caringbridge.org/ne/steven <lylev@datacc.net>
- Saturday, September 18, 2004 11:55 PM CDT

Ever so grateful to see your update! Had me so worried, I am glad you, the family and your home are all ok. Look forward to further updates, til then....take good care.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, September 18, 2004 7:17 PM CDT

Thankful to see that you are still here and that your house is still standing. Praying that the stress of clean up and everyday function is not getting you down too much. Life has certainly dealt you more than your fair share.....I am so glad you know the Lord, because He has to be the only way for you to get through all you have been through.

Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Thursday, September 16, 2004 8:36 PM CDT

Hello my sweet Kathy,

I am so glad to hear that your family has surived the hurricane! I pray that before you know it normalcy will find its way back into your neighborhood. These hurricanes need to go away!! Right now we are feeling the effects of Ivan...tornado warnings are all around, and rain is falling in surplus. At least UGA took notice and closed, now I don't have to brave the elements on my way to class. I pray that the kids are doing well. I can't imagine how hard it must be to recover from such a disaster. But, I know that if anybody can do it, you can!
Blessings,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athensq, GA - Thursday, September 16, 2004 3:27 PM CDT

I am so glad to hear that your ok I have been so worried. I am still praying for you and for all in the paths of the storms. I just can not imagine how terrible it all is.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 16, 2004 8:32 AM CDT

Kathy,
Praying that you and your family are all okay.
I will continue to check in.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:20 PM CDT

Hello...... Is anyone out there? :) I'm hoping that all is going well - the grass is mowed, the IRS is staying away and hurricanes are a distant memory! Praying that you've had some days of smiles and laughter.
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 3:27 PM CDT

Looking for new posts, worried about you and praying ALL is well. Will be back soon.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 12:38 AM CDT

Thinking of you today.

May God continue to watch over your family.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 8:37 AM CDT

Hi guys,
Just wanted to stop by and say hello. I hope you guys are trying to get back to normal.(whatever that is) I see that there is no new post since last week. I hope all is well.
Love always,
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS USA - Monday, September 13, 2004 7:59 AM CDT

Sending lots of love and prayers down your way. This weekend I will be doing the "Light the Night" walk here in Raleigh - you and all our CB families will be in our hearts and in our prayers.

Praying that Ivan spares all of you in Florida and that you can get back into your home soon and back to a normal life - well the new normal that is for many of us.
Lynne - no longer questioning - why???? and knowing her angel is smiling <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", - Sunday, September 12, 2004 7:32 PM CDT

hi I am gone from home for a few days of R&R. I see you have no new new entry since last week. I hope things are coming together again for all of you and that IVAN finds somewhere else to go wish it would just disintagrate and do no more damage. as always your all in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 12, 2004 6:59 PM CDT

Hoping all is well with the Sunshine Band.. Not wishing Ivan on anyone, but am glad it looks like it will spare your part of the state. Peace...
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Sunday, September 12, 2004 4:46 AM CDT

Praying that you are home by now and that the electricity is on in your house. Also praying that the damage was minimal to your place. I am very thankful that you were able to flee to the middle of the state and stay safe. God bless.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 5:48 PM CDT

your on my mind and in my prayers. I hope you are back home by now, and didn't find things too bad. I hope you can all miss IVAN's wrath too. I wil lbe gone from my computer for a couple of weeks but that don't mean I wont be thinking of you.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 8, 2004 8:30 AM CDT

Hey Kathy and kids!
After doing some journal catch-up reading, I am very relived to read that you are safe and sound! Frances has been brutal, to say the least...it just won't go away! I am so happy that your home is fine, but more importantly, that you and the kids are as well. I was in Minnesota all weekend, so I didn't see much on tv about the storm, but my mom kept me updated. We have gotten a ton of rain, and it is still raining, but nothing compared to what you and your neighbors have experienced. I pray that you make it home soon.
Love always,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
athens, ga - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 10:51 PM CDT

HI Kathy,

I too, am glad to read that you are safe. Though this Ivan is coming and is gonna cause some more grey hair on all of us! I hope and pray he heads out to sea also!!

We'll all be thinking of you as you trek back home tomorrow.

Sending you lots of love, ((((HUGS)))), and prayers....

Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
My brother Rodney , - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 8:18 AM CDT

Glad you're all safe...

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 6:56 AM CDT

Glad to hear that all of you are safe. I hope that your home sustained no damage. We are all fine here...just some minor damage. Now, we have to pray like crazy that Ivan heads out to sea!

Love and prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 6:26 AM CDT

SO thankful that you guys are safe.. that your home still stands! SIGH!! We stayed safe up here in Panama City as well. Your recent posts resound of a weariness of heart and spirit, beaten down by the "hurricane winds" of life, . : ( I feel so sorry ..isn't it enough, the heart pain. Must life inflict more pain to burden your way? :"( I am praying the Lord will renew your strength as the eagles. You have become a friend of mine, not only through the pages of a journal, but through a heart connection, and in God's family. I remember you in my prayers, Precious! May God bring you refreshment, to lift your spirit.
Take care!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, September 6, 2004 10:38 PM CDT

Hi Kathy... this 'perfect stranger' is so happy to see you checked in, and did have the chance to get out when you could. Really good to read your house/area 'survived'. I wish the same good fortune to all our CB friends and their families down that way. Peace, my friend...
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC - Monday, September 6, 2004 5:04 PM CDT

Kathy - I'm SO glad to hear that you left West Palm Beach!! I continued to check on your area each time the news came on. How amazing that you have so many "strangers" that care. Thrilled here in Georgia to know that you are safe!! We are expecting rain from Frances tonight. Keep us posted!
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Monday, September 6, 2004 7:19 AM CDT

Kathy

So glad to read that you and your family were out of harms way during Frances and that you house remained intack. I just can't imagine the stress y'all went through with the uncertainty of not knowing what you would return to. Will be praying that Ivan decides to take a different path and lets you Floridians call it an end to the hurricane season. You have certainly have had your share this year. God Bless you all
Lynne - proud member of WerbeRacing <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
"Heart of Carolina", - Monday, September 6, 2004 7:07 AM CDT

Kathy,

Thank you for the update, and thank you for getting out of there, though your house didn't suffer major damage. Everytime our TVs showed your area, I thought of you and all of the CB families that I know of down there!

I'm so glad that you are with your precious children and that you are all safe! With the threat of Ivan looming over you, please be safe!

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers......
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Monday, September 6, 2004 6:08 AM CDT

I am glad to hear things are ok down there for you. The hurricanes are devastating and I am not familiar with the area down there and cant tell who lives near what...
Chris - Gooch's mom
Share the Love
- Sunday, September 5, 2004 9:37 PM CDT

Thank you for the update. I have been so worried as they showed WPB on FOX. I hope you find things ok when you get back home. Yes, I am sure the kids were glad to have mom and jessica with them...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 5, 2004 7:28 PM CDT

Thankful to read that your mom checked on your home and it looks pretty good. Still praying for you.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
- Sunday, September 5, 2004 6:36 PM CDT

Thank God you are all safe, and together! Funny how much you can worry about a family you've never even met! :) We have dear friends in Orlando, that have a severly medically challenged baby...he NEEDS electricity, so they fled to the safety of Grandmas, in St. Louis. What a blessing that they too are safe. Hoping that the clean up isn't too bad, when you return...but hey, it's only 'stuff' anyway. :) I don't know about you, but 'stuff' doesn't hold much importance to me anymore... God bless you all.
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
Columbia, IL - Sunday, September 5, 2004 5:35 PM CDT

been thinking about you and praying for your safety... please let some one know how you are as soon as you can
sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 5, 2004 10:26 AM CDT

Kathy and Jessica...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, as this nasty storm moves in on you! Be safe!!
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 4, 2004 6:01 AM CDT

Kathy,
As you can see by the time of this posting....not sleeping tonight. Been a rotten day here, there seem to be way too many of them lately. I sent a package to you today, hopefully it won't take too long to get there. I will be in continuous prayer for you and Jess, that God will keep you safe and sound. I am very envious of the relationship you share with Jessica. Rachel and I seem to be at odds on almost every subject anymore. They keep telling me it is the age......I hope we make it!!! Please keep posting if you are able, so we know that you are ok. God bless everyone who will be in this storm's path.

With love,
Krista <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Saturday, September 4, 2004 1:30 AM CDT

Kathy...So sorry to hear about the recent happenings. Why can't anything ever be easy??? :( Thinking of you and sending continued prayers.

Stay safe...
Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, September 3, 2004 9:01 PM CDT

Kathy and Jessica,
I am thinking of you and the Rommels and everyone else down there. Hold on tight. I think it is so wonderful that you are so close to your daughter. What a blessing. WE will check on you when it is all over to see how you are. Praying until then. Love,Anne
Anne Himes <arhimes@ msn.com, www.caringbridge.org/page/andrewh>
Boonsboro, md USA - Friday, September 3, 2004 11:34 AM CDT

Greetings, Kathy and Jess ... I had read yesterday before I went to work that you were going to evacuate, and was going to wish you well with the storm, knowing you probably wouldn't see any entries for several days...and now you're home, waiting and watching. I remember doing the same with Isabel last year. I'm sure you're all prepared, with all the help you mentioned, so I'll just tell you that I hope the storm continues to weaken as it approaches, and wherever it goes, it does it quickly, sparing as many as possible. Here's a little hint. If you can get your hands one one, find a phone that isn't portable/doesn't have an answering machine. Yanno, like a $10.00 wall phone? I found out in Isabel that my phone line never went down, but didn't know it because the answering machine required electricity. I coulda been yacking away for 3 1/2 days, and didn't even know it!!! I'm glad you get to hang out with Jessica... you'll probably need her more than she'll need you ;)
I will not use the unpleasant words I personally know the IRS by...Ducks have images to uphold, too, yanno. My comments would tarnish my image forever ;) As others have offered, you have a shoulder here if you need to spout off on. And yeah, I agree with others... (hoping IRS agents don't monitor CB pages}. They seem to want to rape and pillage those who can least afford it, for whatever reason, then come back for more. At least that's MY experience. I'd be looking for a good advocate, if for nothing more than to have someone 'in the know' that might give you a little 'peace of mind' if that's possible.

If you happen to hear from Scott, Ruthie, Joe, Nat, Jo and Robert, Shay, or our other CB friends your way, please let them know EVEYONE is thinking of them. I did read that Zman and Co. have transported to Tampa----I hope Frances doesn't find out.

On a lighter note... you DID promise me some pics to resize for you *giggle*. I'm sure everyone would love to see the pleasant scenes from the late summer trip to that 'other' coast ;)

Wishing you well in the uncertain days ahead, knowing that the good Lord and some very special ANGELS are watching over someone and their very special family. Peace and safety, Sunshine Band....

DuckHugs.....

Tom - DaDuck <Werberacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC Hurricanes are NOT nice....www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Friday, September 3, 2004 9:19 AM CDT

Know you will loose power, but we are steady in prayer for you...Let me know what you need shipped from here later, and I wish you had gotten out, but hopefully this will weaken..Please know we are thinking of you all down there, How far from the water are you??? Are you in a low area? Keep us posted when you can, and much love,
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, September 3, 2004 9:13 AM CDT

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jess this weekend. May God keep both of you safe and protected.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Friday, September 3, 2004 8:38 AM CDT

My prayers are with you and Jessica as you batten down the hatches for this storm. and with all in the path of it. I can not imagine how scared I'd be. i will be waiting and hoping and praying it is not as bad as some say it will be.
It would seem that enough is enough.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 3, 2004 6:38 AM CDT

Kathy,
I came by last night and read the entry about the IRS problem and just could not think of anything to write. I had planned on coming back in a day or two and leaving a message. Now my message is of concern for more than the IRS, yes, it is about Frances. I am very concerned for you and your family. I wanted you to know that I am thinking of all of you and keeping you in my prayers. May God keep you safe and free from harm and destruction. I am so sorry that you are once again having to go to battle.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Friday, September 3, 2004 2:27 AM CDT

Hey Kathy,

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, the dreaded IRS. I sometimes think that those people just don't get it...no, I know that they don't. I am so sorry that you have to endure their wrath. And then there is Hurricane Frances which I guess is imposing the most immediate danger. And we thought Charley is bad. I pray for your family's safety. My parents are a bit anxious themselves about the projected path - I'm not sure what they will do should it visit St. Simons. I am headed up to Minnesota tomorrow (to see the boy :) ), but it looks as though I could face trouble when I try to head back on Tuesday. I am sorry I have not written more - Grad school has gotten the best of my time. One of my professors looked at me in awe (or could it have been pity) when I told her how many hours I was taking. Nonetheless, that's not an excuse, I mustn't forget those that are most important to me. I promise to keep in touch more in the future. Well, I'd best head to bed...my alarm is going to go off way too soon. Keep smiling.
Love always,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Friday, September 3, 2004 1:07 AM CDT

Hi Kathy: So sorry to read of you recent dilemmas. Makes my heart heavy and wishing that I could do something. I have followed your page for so long and you and your family have become very dear to me. Please let me know if you ever need an "ear" to listen, I am available. :) Just when life seems to be on an even-keel, it turns into a rollercoaster ride. Your faith is so strong and so admirable. You are such a strong person and such an inspiration to so many of us! God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Thursday, September 2, 2004 7:43 PM CDT

Hi Kathy - just stopping by to wish you God Speed with this hurricane - something I see you don't need in your life right now - well really when do any of us need this one. So sorry to hear about the IRS and that fact that you have to go back and revisit such a painful time in your life. It just breaks my heart. Just lean on your faith and trust the Lord to get you past this hurdle. Sending nothing but good thoughts and prayers to you.
Lynne - proud member of WerbeRacing <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
Clayton, NC - Thursday, September 2, 2004 5:36 PM CDT

Dearest Kathy,

Recieved a call from Jeff Saturday as well. Such memories. It hurts to hear of your struggles. wish we could sit and visit. But know your family continues to be in our prayers. You were the inspiration for me to finally start Steven's page 2 years ago now. Jeff drove me to the airport to rent a car for my first trip back home. You and Robert showed such wonderful Hospitality to Peg and Steve when they returned for the transplants. You were already in the Target House. It would be after Thanksgiving before they would make the move and you and Robert were then at home. Amazing all that God has brought your family through. And He will bring you through this as well. If you need to talk call anytime. Collect. Know that we still care.

As for the handprints. I always knew and wondered what they would do when it was time to repaint. I am sure it is much harder for You and Jeff. We do need to try to remember that the Mission of St.Jude is not to be a memorial, but to make Sick Kids better. And to make that time, that battle if you will, as easy as possible. It was something to look forward to. Completeing treatment and leaving one's mark. An achievement worth celebrating. But it is hard sometimes for us to remember and accept that the good people at St.Jude will always be faced with more sick kids. And they will try their best for them just as they did for us. I have pictures and I'm sure you do as well. I will miss seeing the handprints when we return. Rest assured we will not forget Robert or his parents. When we return to the wall just north of the elevator. We will remember why Steven chose that spot. Just above, his forever friend and comrade, Robert's. Even if the handprints last for only a short time. I hope they continue the practice. It was one of the little things our kids looked forward to. They need all of the little things. We all do.

Blessings
Lyle (Steven's Dad)

<lylev@datacc.net>
- Wednesday, September 1, 2004 9:40 PM CDT

...This is what the Lord says to you: Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours but God's... II Chronicles 20:15. This verse came into my heart as I read your entry today. I don't know how you feel or what you are going through, but I do have empathy and full confidence that the Lord will carry you as you allow Him to. I know that it's very easy to read and very difficult to embrace in the midst of trouble. I will be praying for the grace for you to be able to do that. I am confident of Philippians 1:6 for you and I claim it in Jesus name. God used that verse this morning to touch my life on the radio station I listen to, I shared it with my bible study and now with you. You are such an awesome mom and woman of God. Blessings to you and lots of love. Praying about the hurricane situation as well. I'll check back soon.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 7:53 PM CDT

Wishing you all safety & luck over the coming days...We're praying for you all to stay safe from Francis.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 3:08 PM CDT

Kathy -- What can we do to help? I was thinking this morning - what a part of my life you have become. I check your site each morning and am INSPIRED by your faith. Is there anyway we can help you? What a rollercoaster week this has been here. First, I got the news that my Dad's lung scans were clear. He is done with Chemo and can come home!! :) He left Houston and joined us for my 5 year olds birthday. Then, I received the horrible call that ANOTHER one of my friend's daughters has Leukemia. How can it be that the "C" word continues to strike this small community in Birmingham?! There is so much I do not understand in this life. I hold on to the passage in the bible where God tells us that in heaven there will be "no more tears". That statement alone tells me how different heaven will be. This life seems to be full of tears. I wish I could help you or at least give you a hug. Keep us posted Kathy - so many of us are worrying about you and praying for you.
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 12:21 AM CDT

Kathy,
Is there no one who can help you in you battle with the IRS. No one here who checks on this web page, or in your wide circle of friends who has knowledge of these things and the strength left to fight it for you. We are to support each other in these times of need. You NEED. You have too much on your plate. I make a plea for you for someone to step in and do what they can. I hope the storm is turned away. Love, Anne
Anne Himes <arhimes@ msn.com, www.caringbridge.org/page/andrewh>
Boonsboro, md USA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 11:16 AM CDT

My Kathy, come to Virginia!!! We are watching with you, and hope it turns to sea, as anywhere we wish it makes it hit someone else. The handprints, I am pretty totally certain, were all photographed, and will be displayed, if not already, in an area that is being redone. I know they were NOT destroyed randomly. Lyle will know, I will find out. You are constant in my prayer. the IRS is not what you need now, good grief, how can they do that to you. My love is with you,
Mary alice <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 9:29 AM CDT

My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you Kathy.

Please know that you are not alone out here in the world. Just as the storm that is headed your way will pass all of the awful things that are bogging you down shall too pass.

Please let me know if there is anything that you need.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 8:22 AM CDT

Kathy - The IRS can be a pain. Why don't they pick on the ones that make millions? I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this. I will pray for your strength. I hope happier days are ahead for you. You so deserve it. I'm just someone who stops by to check on you and pray for you. Take care.
Joy
Wilson, NC - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 8:03 AM CDT

Kathy...Matthew is such a wise little boy...his words are true...you guys will prevail...you have so many out there that love you guys & pray along with you that all will turn out OK.

Love ya
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 7:58 AM CDT

HI Kathy,

Just stopping in to say hi!!

Love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 7:32 AM CDT

Kathy, So sorry to read about the children's grandfather. He will be added to my prayers for your family. I pray he is here a very, very long time. Yes, we humans ARE selfish with our loved ones, it is our nature. The bench sounds like it will be lovely, I hope you will be able to post photos. Well, take good care.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, August 30, 2004 9:13 PM CDT

Hi Charltons,
Hope all is well.
Was that Jess we saw in Sunday's paper?
Ruthie, Scott, Emily, Ethan and from heaven Seth www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach , Fl - Monday, August 30, 2004 5:33 PM CDT

Just checking in. Have had you on my mind a lot lately. (hope this next storm heads another way, too)
much love,
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, August 30, 2004 8:23 AM CDT

Hi Kathy, yeah I cant imagine it ever gets any easier. Outliving a child is something no one should ever have to endure. It doesnt seem possible thats its been 2 years already.
Chris - Gooch's mom
- Sunday, August 29, 2004 9:23 PM CDT

JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOUR FAMILY IS IN OUR PRAYERS. I READ THE PAST JOURNAL HISTORY FROM THE VERY BEGINNING. I AM SO SORRY FOR THE PAIN YOUR FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH. I CAN'T BEGIN TO IMAGINE THE PAIN OF LOSSING A CHILD. WHAT AMAZED ME ABOUT YOUR STORY IS YOU HAVE NEVER LOST YOUR FAITH IN GOD. I AM NOT WHERE I SHOULD BE WITH GOD IGHT NOW AND I WON'T LIE ABOUT IT. I DO BELIEVE IN GOD BUT I AM JUST NOT LIVING THE WAY I SHOULD. ACTUALLY I AM VERY ANGRY WITH GOD BECAUSE OF SOME THINGS THAT HAS HAPPENED. WHEN I READ YOUR STORY I KNOW THAT I HAVE NO REASON TO BE ANGRY WITH GOD. YOU ARE SO TRUE TO YOUR FAITH IN GOD AND YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH ONE OF THE WORST THINGS I THINK A PARENT COULD EVER GO THROUGH. IF YOU CAN SURVIVE WHat you have been through and still be so true to god, THEN I KNOW I AM JUST BEING CHILDISH AND LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO BLAME. IF YOU VISIT THE SITE I POSTED YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MORE OF WHAT I AM TYPING. PLEASE PRAY THAT I GET CLOSER TO GOD. KATHY YOU ARE A VERY SPECIAL PERSON WITH A VERY SPECIAL FAMILY. PLEASE KNOW THAT ROBERT WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. YOUR FAMILT WILL REMAIN IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.

CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/WV/FREDAFOX
RUTH <BLUEEYED_FEMALE@MSN.COM>
HINTON, WV - Sunday, August 29, 2004 8:53 PM CDT

Hello Kathy and family. I hope that grandpa is doing better with each day. I hope the bench will turn oooooout just as you want too. I know what you mean about the missing getting worse and not better. I was just in Ga for a few days and went to visit my sons gravesite... IT brought back every sad memory and of course many happy ones too. I thought of you all often but had no internet can you imagine? IT was rough!!! :( I hope you are having a good Sun
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 29, 2004 8:01 AM CDT

Hi Kathy... it sure is good to come in and read the positive reoports on PawPaw- thanks, Jeff's Mom ... Prayers now for a complete and speedy recovery.
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC watchin more hurricanes and storms... - Saturday, August 28, 2004 5:07 PM CDT

I could tell it was more difficult, it feels like it from here. Just wish I could be close to do something...also, some survivor guilt, though I know you celebrate with us....please know I can so feel your sadness, I think God is sad along with you, and I just pray daily for strength to come to you, and some eventual healing, and never "getting over"...we never forget. Please know we send our love to heaven, and to you daily. I wish we were closer so I could share some time with you.
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, August 27, 2004 7:51 PM CDT

Hi everyone, just spoke to Mitchel's wife, Janice - he's in his room, one tube out another to wait until Saturday; his nurses got him to "sit up", oh, pain! But, that's a good sign they say. The mass was growing around several key areas, but again, even though growing; not cancerous according to Janice. Perhaps when Jeff is back in town I can get more details from him.
Jeff's mom <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL - Friday, August 27, 2004 2:11 PM CDT

Dearest Kathy,
I just got done typing a nice long entry and hit the wrong button for the terms of use and lost the whole darn thing!! Anyway...I was very glad to see the entry by Jeff's mom when I logged on. Wonderful to see that everything with PawPaw went "well". I'm sure he is not feeling the best by any means, but very greatful for the results. I had been praying since I logged on yesterday and read your entry. I have no doubt that Robert was in that operating room keeping an eye on his PawPaw. Robert, along with our Heavenly Father, to guide the surgeon's hands. I will be sending an e-mail one of these days. Please know that I keep you all in my prayers daily, and spend alot of my "thinking" time with Robert.

I hope you all have a great weekend!

With love,
Krista
Krista Iverson <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, August 27, 2004 11:40 AM CDT

Hi all, I called Mitchell's wife today - she reported that Mitchel was in a lot of pain, but the "mass" was not cancerous, apparently the tumor(s) were large but not malignant. She had spent the day yesterday, and all night with him and was headed home to refresh and come back for the evening.
So, we must give God the praise for his watchful care over Mitchel.
Jeff's mom <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL - Thursday, August 26, 2004 3:01 PM CDT

Good Morning, Kathy... Praying all went well for Mitchel yesterday, and that you'll be back with a good report for us soon. Thinking good thoughts for all of you...
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, August 26, 2004 9:34 AM CDT

Hi sweet Kathy,
I will keep Mitchel in my prayers. I know that Robert is watching over him. I am sorry that I have once again been slacking in my guestbook entries. I will send you and email to update you on my latest adventures. Have a wonderful weekend (it is almost here).
Love,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 11:43 PM CDT

Dearest Family,
I have been thinking of you and your Angel today. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find peace and comfort in the beautiful memories of your precious child in heaven.
God Bless you all,
Island Princess

Butterfly Island

Island Princess <mooks@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 5:42 PM CDT

Kathy....

Keeping PaPaw Mitchel, and your whole family in my thoughts and prayers today, as he goes through his surgery today. I know that Robert will be watching over him.

God Bless you all....

PS...very handsome men on your front page!!!!

Eva......Werbe Racing <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 9:44 AM CDT

Hi Kathy,
After I read your web page a few days ago I sat on my sea wall and just let my self go back in time and I was thinking about the early morning hours that Robert and I spent there talking it wasn't daylight yet and I had torches burning him fishing and me talking, I'm so grateful that I had that opportunity He was such a joy you did such a great Job of rasing him he was so sure of him self but yet very aware of others, I to miss him, I'm so sorry about all you are going thru. I wish I knew what to say, I wish I could make it all better, just know that I will never forget him.
Love Martha
martha Maloy
w.p.b, fl 33406 - Monday, August 23, 2004 3:59 PM CDT

HI Kathy,

WOW! Long time, no see! I hope that things are going well for you!

I am on my way to work, but wanted to say hello and wish you all a good week!

Love,
Eva.....Werbe Racing <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/mi/rodneyreeves, - Monday, August 23, 2004 6:13 AM CDT

Dear Kathy, you know you are in my thoughts so often. We had several days at our beach recently with Lyle, Peggy, Steven and Michelle, and it was so good, having what felt like family to me there. The ties go on, and life does, and I forever wish it could all have been so different. Please know I love and think and pray with you so often..
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Thursday, August 19, 2004 8:24 PM CDT

"For I am convinced that neither life nor death, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans 8:38-39
Kathy - I prayed this verse for you today, but when it said "anything else in all creation" - I entered - nor the IRS, nor congressmen, nor attorneys, nor creditors and neither will the car dealership sales managers seperate us from the love of God!
I hope you have a better day - an uneventful day! :)
Tammy Holston <tsh61197@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 7:33 AM CDT

Hi guys,
I just wanted to check in and make sure that you guys are ok. We have been watching the devistation that has taken place down there. We will keep all of you in our prayers.
Take care of yourselves. Please let Bambi and family know that we are thinking of them as well.

Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Monday, August 16, 2004 1:59 PM CDT

PLease let us know how things are for family on the west coast...... I hope you have a good week.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 9:05 AM CDT

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, August 15, 2004 7:45 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,

I hope Hurricane Charley spared you too much hassle! I was thinking of you guys.

I'm glad the kids are settled back into school. We have a few more weeks of summer before school starts here. I'm thinking of you. Guess what??!! You and I will FINALLY get to meet month after next!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Sunday, August 15, 2004 11:02 AM CDT

hi mommy its chrissy i hope that aunt bambi and all of them are alright aswell.i cant wait to read the web page more ofton since is starting i think i should read more so i decided to choose the web page. An ambulance and a fire truck were at my school friday a kid named anthony rodriguz broke his wrist at recess playing football were not aloud to play that game anymore.i hope that robedrt and god will help him heal i love you so much christina
christina loren charlton <clc890o@aol.com>
west palm beach, fl united states - Sunday, August 15, 2004 10:53 AM CDT

I hope you have had a nice few days on the beach... looks like bad weather is on the way now. Are the kids ready to go back to school? probably not, most kids are not
as i remember your family in my prayers please remember me in yours... Thanks
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 11, 2004 1:14 PM CDT

Peace to you as well, friend! Your journaling is a blessing that helps me to face my own inner thoughts concerning the losses in my life.

I hope by now, the sand has been on your behind, and that your laughter has carried on the sea breeze, straight to your children's hearts! God Bless you!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, August 8, 2004 9:54 PM CDT

Stopping by and praying for you and your dear family.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 10:02 PM CDT

Thank you for being you!!!
Krista Iverson <iverson4@inottawa.com>
Ottawa, IL - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 9:52 AM CDT

You are always doing for others just by your journals. You help by reminding us to keep what is most important in life first. LOVE, HOPE & FAITH in our GOD
Joy
Wilson, NC - Wednesday, August 4, 2004 8:15 AM CDT

Good morning, Kathy and vacationing kidlets!!!!! I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted to y'all. But I've read along with your writings, always anticipating what gem you'll come up with next. I'm hoping that finally, the motel will open back up this week!!! One building is ready, they just have to get the occupancy permit. The other one, with the new office, well, it'll probably be around Oct 1 before that's ready... I'm glad my sister and hubby came down last week... we've got a hurricane headed this way! Didn't we just go through this not even a year ago??? Looks like this one's gonna stay just offshore, though...phew!! Glad to read things are going well for you... enjoy yourself when ya hit the beach... don't forget the camera *hint, hint* ;) Have a great week
DaHurricaneDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Close to the eye, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 7:40 AM CDT

Dearest Kathy,
As I have told you time and time again, you should write a book. I feel so blessed and honored to read your journal, your innermost thoughts. I cherish each word and its effects on my heart. Reading your journals has become a special treat for me; they have taught me the value of loving and living. You are an inspiration; you have led many others to live the life we are given with our heads a little higher and our hearts a lot fuller. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow.
Love always,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. Simons Island, GA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 5:23 PM CDT

well, here we are to Friday again. IT rained so I dont have to mow till tomorrow... I am so glad some one helped with the marker, until I had to buy one I had no idea of the cost. (no one in the family wanted to help and some couldn't so it took me a long year to get the money together but I finally did.) I wish for you a happy weekend with fun love and great people.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 30, 2004 10:00 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
What a touching and moving entry. May God bless the many people that made Robert's marker possible.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 0:05 AM CDT

God just keeps blessing. I'm sorry you felt you had to keep the marker issue to yourself. You should know by now that God has placed His workers all around you to lift you up and encourage you. I'm so happy that Robert's marker will be ready and installed soon.
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net (www.caringbridge.org/fl/robert)>
Crestview, FL - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 9:00 PM CDT

What a beautiful story, momma. I, for one, never even knew . . . how sorry I am that you had to struggle with that pain. I am so glad to hear that Robert will have his beautiful marker. He was certainly a beautiful boy. . . I can still remember sitting at the end of the O'Keefe hallway with him teasing him about a puzzle piece that did not fit. He was so good natured and sweet, so easy going. We miss you, Robert. Kathy, take care of yourself. It was wonderful to see you last week with all of the girls.
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Monday, July 26, 2004 9:10 PM CDT

As always your updates are true to your being. A testament to your love for your family and children.

Never feel as if you cannot ask for that of what is needed. God always finds a way to provide. He can move a mountain if needed. And bring out the best in people.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, July 26, 2004 3:12 PM CDT

Kathy
Good Morning !! I frist off have to tell you that your writing always inspires me ...this Journal was so uplifting and gave me such a good cry ...I to have realized what FRIENDS mean to a person ...I was going though some hard times here in Kansas and Dianes Treatment ...I was lost (I am not to proud to admit it ) and I didnt know what to do where to go ...how to tell anyone that things were so very hard at that time ...I had friends/teammates jump at the chance to get to Kansas to help me out ...one person even came twice to Kansas ...if it wasnt for the friends/ teammates coming to help me I dont know where I would be ...so much has happened ...cancer wears you out (If your not fighting it but there everyday and watch it ravage the person that has it !!
I want you to know I come and read your page all the time ...somtimes I dont post cause I dont have the words to say ...but I do inculde you and your family in my prayers dialy ....
I just wanted you to know that I am around and lerking :) I will always be around ..you and Robert are still so much part of this team Kathy
The #60 still has Roberts wings on the back deck lid ...yes Tyler started us but Robert Seth Becca Joe Glenn and all the other angels are all still part of the Race Team ...it is thier wings that guide us around the Race Track and keep Ed safe (its been proven time and time again Eds been in some bad wrecks ...but Eds always been safe when he wrecked
With that I am going to go but I will be back to post again Kathy ....
Have A AWSOMLY WONDERFUL DAY ....Know Our Thoughts Are With You .....
Three Cheers For REAL FRIENDS !!!! THEY ROCK!!!!!
Moving FORWARD With You Always
Ed & Diane & The Pita
Werbe Racing
Racquell Werbe <PiggysPita@aol.com>
Kansas City (This Weekend ), Ks www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Sunday, July 25, 2004 8:55 AM CDT

Kathy...Once again, your update has me in tears. What a beautiful act of love by Miss Tammy and all the people at MeadowPark Elementary!!!

If you're still using the monument company we spoke about, yes...they are indeed wonderful people! I know Robert's monument is going to be just beautiful!

Much love and prayers of comfort and peace...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, July 25, 2004 6:58 AM CDT

Kathy: Beautiful, moving entry once again. You never fail us. :) God IS good and your friends are such blessings!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, July 24, 2004 8:18 PM CDT

Kathy, again the tears are welcome, as I read....hallelujah for the world and the good people in it, as faith is hanging on..I often think that those in the "other " world have no idea of what life is....please post a pic so we can see Roberts memorial...it will be wonderful. . I think I am going to be blessed with Lyle, Peggy, Steven and Bootsie visiting us at our beach in 2 weeks from Nebraska.....we will miss you!!! Much love from Virginia
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, July 23, 2004 9:37 PM CDT

Kathy - What an entry..... What a testimony to you and Robert. It's very telling how much your community loves Robert (and you)!! You sound like one of the "richest" people I know! You have touched my heart again! Now on to something a little lighter........ MOWING! I can't leave this topic w/out telling you about my old neighbor. She was a single Mom w/a great big yard. We noticed that every Spring "Sally" would start dating a new guy. He would faithfully be out there each week mowing her yard. Around the end of the summer the relationship would suddenly end. Low and behold, the next Spring, a new "boyfriend" would be out mowing the yard. Not that I would ever suggest you do that :O) but I just thought it was important info to pass on!
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Friday, July 23, 2004 12:47 AM CDT

good morning I am sure you will updte later today so I want to be sure and get my good weekend wishes in for you. Hope every thing is going good... guess what I get to do today?? you got it mow..... take care and as always your all in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 23, 2004 7:51 AM CDT

Hi: It's time to update again. We come here every day expecting some exhilirating, profound words and when they're not updated, we're just left on our own.

Was that lawn service I saw today? No more lawnmower?????

Hope all is well with the whole family.
Nancy McDaniel <nmcdan1@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, fl - Thursday, July 22, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

I hope you and the kids had a good weekend and that you have a good week too,, prayers for all of you
sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 19, 2004 8:34 AM CDT

Hey Kathy...Thinking of you and your family and sending prayers of comfort and peace. Hope to see you at the Light The Night Captain's Meeting on Friday night!

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw forever and ever") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, July 17, 2004 6:46 PM CDT

Im sending all my love to you all,

Love

Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, July 17, 2004 12:57 AM CDT

Sounds like you had a good and busy week. I ment to get here before you updated so you would be sure and see my ppost You are all still in my prayers....wish I could go to the beach... saw it once on a trip to Fla..... sure is something how everyones livees are so different as to local and so the same in joys and sorrows.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 16, 2004 10:14 AM CDT

stopping by to say hello. Love, Laura
www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer
- Monday, July 12, 2004 1:04 PM CDT

Dear Kathy,

You have no way to know the precious impact this legacy of love and hope is, on those of us who read it. :") THANK YOU , dear precious one, for sharing these intimate thoughts, feelings, and assurances with us, friends you may never have seen . . but we love you none the less! When I come here, it is as if I come to the warm home of a precious friend. I feel your words, your thoughts, I sometimes tear up and cry with you.. I laugh, I smile. I thank the Lord for a friend - a friend that I will one day meet and know face to face - if not here, then surely in heaven. GOD HAS PROMISED! Though some days the heart ache is nearly unbearable.. we persevere, we run toward that finish line.. we KNOW WHOM WE HAVE BELIEVED!!! Keep the faith dear one!! I treasure my visits here! I love my sister Kathy, whom I have not yet seen! But one day.. one sweet day..

Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, July 12, 2004 9:05 AM CDT

Kathy -- Memories of Robert are very precise even to those of us that never met Robert because of your journal. I found myself looking back over old journal entries the other day. I don't know why -- but I read and read. I read happy entries and heart breaking ones. What an incredible gift this journal is to your family. So many of the "details" of your life during this time will not be forgotten. You have done an incredible job of keeping Robert's memory alive for everyone. What an incredible lady you are!! :) Peace......
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Saturday, July 10, 2004 7:51 AM CDT

Kathy,
I read your journal everyday.
Today's entry has really touched my heart. I remember the smile and look of peace on your face that you speak of and I was in total awe of your strength. I felt as if you were the one to comfort all of us all of our fears and all of our heartbreak ..you comforting US. I guess that shows your strength and love as a mother and friend. I know that as i stood there in church with pastor tom telling of Roberts fight and his "journey home" i have never been so touched.

As a mother of a child who has fought this fight walked the halls and cried so many nights wondering why?

You show us/me that there is no curling up in the corner..that there is sunshine and rainbows and very special hellos from heaven and love that will carry you and lift you until the day you are reunited with Robert.
Thank you for being a great mother brave and true! I know that Robert is looking down on you with a big smile.

thinking of you and your family always
Audra Malone

p.s Ty has a hamster that plays "kung fu fighter". (I guess my dad gave it to him.). everytime i hear that silly hamster start to sing and dance i think of Robert!
Audra Tim Alex and Ty-Michael Schmidt www.caringbridge.org/fl/tymichaelschmidt <grlwndr68@hotmail.com>
Hobe Sound , Fl - Saturday, July 10, 2004 1:32 AM CDT

Thinking of you and once again and completedly riveted by your beautiful journal entry! Have a weekend blessed with the love of family, friends and beautiful memories of Robert.
God bless. Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, July 9, 2004 9:47 PM CDT

HI I was just thinking about you hows the lawn mowing? My grass needs it again. guess I have to start the fun another time
HA hope things are go9ing good this summer with the kids and work and all
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com, mopgal@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, July 8, 2004 11:08 AM CDT

Kathy - Forget the lawn....... We're being buried alive by a mountain of clothes that is my laundry!! Why is it that we have time to go to the pool each day -- yet I can't manage to fold our clothes. The kids are hunting for their bathingsuits on the bottom of my "clean clothes mountain". Just checking in -- I hope you had a great fourth. The kids put on the Newsboys CD this morning and I thought of you! :)
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, July 7, 2004 10:12 AM CDT

Hi Kathy and the Charlton Gang!

I'm going to be incommunicado for a couple of weeks and just wanted to drop in and let you know that even though I won't be leaving you notes, that you are never far from my thoughts and you are always in my prayers! Take care.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net.net>
- Wednesday, July 7, 2004 8:58 AM CDT

Hi Kathy!!
I hope that you are having a blessed day! I am leaving for Minnesota today, but I just wanted to say hi before I left. So...HI!! I hope that you are having an awesome week, and that you are having no more lawnmower run-ins.
Love always,
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
st. Simons island, ga - Wednesday, July 7, 2004 8:28 AM CDT

GLAD YOU GOT YOUR LAWN MOWED. YOUR FAMILY IS IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.

CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/WV/FREDAFOX
RUTH <BLUEEYED_FEMALE@MSN.COM>
HINTON, WV - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 11:23 PM CDT

Hello Kathy!
I have missed checking on you as we have been out-of-town for many days and maybe weeks! I can tell you Tammy's husband is one lucky man. She really does mow the lawn and the super-cool-self-propelled-push-mower was her wedding anniversary present! It really is all in the attitude. She was thrilled with it. :)
You are one inspiring woman. Thank heaven for cell phones!
Have a great week.
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 4:43 PM CDT

Hi Guys, the lawnmower story cracked me up. Ironically almost the very same thing happened to my best friend last week, but she actually got the thing started and then it blew up. Go figure. It is the lawnmower world out to get women everywhere. It is summertime here in Mississippi. Hot, humid days are back again. It hasn't been too bad though. It hasn't hit 100 yet.
I hope everyone had a great Fourth of July holiday. It was lovely here we went to the same park that we took the Charlton kids to the year they were here to see fireworks and had a great time. We miss you guys! Hope to see you some time this summer. Take care of yourselves!!!
Love always,

Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, July 6, 2004 9:54 AM CDT

Happy 4th of July, Kathy and kids! I hope that you have a wonderful holiday.
Love,
Haley H. <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. Simons Island, ga - Sunday, July 4, 2004 4:56 PM CDT

oh Kathy, thanks for the laugh.. ( what any resorsefull woman in the year 2004 would do) I love it. I have to mow my yard every week too when it isnt raining it will be at least knee deep before I can again...
I know it isn't nice to laugh at other people troubles, and I am laughing with you not at you, I hope you all have a nice peaceful 4th.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 2, 2004 2:33 PM CDT

Kathy...Oh my...the lawnmower story is too funny. (Though I'm sure you were far from laughing on that day!) It's been a rough day here...thanks for getting my mind off things and making me laugh.

Yes...I, too, find great comfort in thinking that our babies will be thought of and that they will still be talked about in years to come. It's amazing how many hearts these beautiful children touch!

Hope to see you at the LTN Team Captain Kickoff Celebration on July 23rd! Jeanette and I will both be attending.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, July 1, 2004 1:26 PM CDT

Happy 4th of July!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Wednesday, June 30, 2004 10:41 PM CDT

I have never been able to get my lawn mower or rototiller started either. But if you put a pony-tail holder (the kind with the balls) around the bar, you don't have to worry about letting go. Of course I know that it probably isn't the safest thing and if it is self-propelled watch out but if not it works great for me. At least you can stop long enough to wipe the sweat out of your eyes. Anne
Anne Himes <arhimes@ msn.com, www.caringbridge.org/page/andrewh>
Boonsboro, md USA - Wednesday, June 30, 2004 5:40 PM CDT

Kathy -- I decided it would be good exercise to start mowing the yard. Every Friday, I would mow the grass when my toddler napped. Last year, I got a new, self-propelled lawn mower.... for my anniversary! Hmmm...... maybe mowing the yard wasn't that great of an idea after all!!!
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, June 30, 2004 2:57 PM CDT

I had to laugh at your lawn mowing story. I know its not funny but thats how i feel when I mow. this yer its a little better though as I got a mower that starts with a key.. I never could pull the cord on the old one. I have a huge yard and it takes a couple of days to get it done working an hour or two at a time... I had to get a new mower cause the neighbor that used to start mine moved away. I had to mow the whole thing at once when he did too.
No one will ever forget Robert. My Mike has been gone 10 years and we still laugh at things he did and said. Its easier to remember the good times now....everyone in the family will always miss him though.
I hope you are saving all these things you write cause I honestly feel you could put them in a book and have a best seller. a mother's thoughts on life after..... take care and know that your in my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, June 30, 2004 10:50 AM CDT

Thanks for the laugh (the lawnmower story)! Glad to hear that you all are having a good summer. I have no doubt that Matthew hears every word and is smiling down on your sweet family.
Laure C.
B'ham, AL - Tuesday, June 29, 2004 9:13 PM CDT

Hi Kathy---just stopping in to say Hello to you and the kids...hope all is well
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC - Tuesday, June 29, 2004 3:25 AM CDT

Hi Kathy! I rarely sign your guestbook but I check your site daily to see if you've updated. Your entries always seem to touch me. You are a great writer and always have something thoughtful to say. I love how you write about certain things that most people never touch on. Thanks for continuing to update your site even if it isn't an everyday thing. Your family's strength is inspiring.
Love, Erin Doyle <boltsfan19@hotmail.com>
Clearwater, FL - Sunday, June 27, 2004 11:55 PM CDT

Hi Kathy: Wonderful entry again! :) May ALL your "I love you's" ALWAYS outweight the "I love you, but...."!!! Keeping you close in my thoughts.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, June 27, 2004 9:15 AM CDT

checking in as I do often. thought of you this week as we went back to Memphis, Matt and Nancy Noyes there, Steven next week, so many are missing...you and your family are ones we miss. Scans for us are good, and is now 2 years, bit of milestone for BT kids. I think of you so often Kathy, and hope you can feel that. Not much has changed, but the North End is Closed!!!! That is a big change, actually.....Much love
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, June 25, 2004 6:37 PM CDT

Hey Kathy!

Sorry I have not emailed you yet, but I plan on doing so tonight. I just wanted to let you know that I have not forgotten about you - I could never do that! I hope that you are having a great day!
Love,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. simons island, ga - Friday, June 25, 2004 3:16 PM CDT

Hello Charltons,
Just wanted to stop by and let you know we were thinking of you. I hope everyone is well. We are here for you when/if you need to talk.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scott, Rebecca and Zachary <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
JB, FL USA - Friday, June 25, 2004 3:02 PM CDT

Well said Kathy! Another good lesson from the Kathy Charlton Handbook of Life!! You have such a way with words.

My sweet little Jacey, who is barely 2, has also acquired the gift of expression. Her newest phrase is "I love you much, much and much." It sounds like "I yuv you muts, muts, and muts," and I have no idea where she got it, but I love it!!

I hope you are all enjoying your summer. I think of you often!

Much love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, June 25, 2004 9:03 AM CDT

Once again you have moved me with your words. you are so good at putting your thoughts down....I envy you the wonderful job, it sounds like you have some variety in it too so that makes it better. I hope the kids are having a great summer, it sounds like they are too. prayers as always...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 25, 2004 7:15 AM CDT

Kathy - When are you going to print these entries, bind them together, and sell them!! You amaze me and inspire me. I must go wake my sleepng girls -- that I love -- IN SPITE of the fact that noone wants to get out of bed!! :)
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, Ga - Friday, June 25, 2004 6:55 AM CDT

Kathy I am always so moved by the thoughts you have... my thoughts are never so introspective (I think thats the word I want) I hope things are going good for you and the kids this summer... I know its hard to work when they are at home and you are wondering what you will come home too.
you know your always in my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 22, 2004 6:34 PM CDT

Hey Kathy!
I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I hope that you and the kids had an awesome weekend. And, I wish you the most wonderful of weeks.
Love,
Haley <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. simons island, ga - Monday, June 21, 2004 11:38 PM CDT

Kathy - what a beautiful wonderful journal - it has been oh so long since I have been here to post but we have a mutual friend that gently urged me to get back over here and read your journal and his response knowing that I have been going through another rough spell and how much your journals in the past have been uplifting and a source of strenght for me. Your journal was especially poignant in that even tho I spent 38 years with my husband - there is still that "why not" and why's" which weigh heavy on my heart - why did't I give him that extra hug - why didn't we linger a little longer gazing at the stars and why was the TV show more important than just sitting and talking. I am remined of the words to the song by Diamond Rio - "one more day - one more time - one more sunset I'd be satisfied but then again - I know what it would do - leave me wishing still for one day with you". While, yes, we need to continue on with life here on earth - it is also reassuring to know that one day the "gravity" will be released and we will float up and be reunited with Robert and Glenn again. They are up there waiting for us and that is a good thought.
Lynne - moving FORWARD w/angel Glenn <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
Clayton, NC - Monday, June 21, 2004 0:58 AM CDT

Hello, my Florida friends... again, a beautiful journal to digest over the weekend... and I must agree with the post from EJ's place... if you get CMT, a must see video, as well, that reflects the song beautifully.

As the Sunshine Band knows, I often post about things I see here on the coast of NC. While I never knew Robert, I often see similar things I know he would also have taken note of. Yesterday was one of those moments...

I was outside the motel in the pre-sunrise moments... the purple martins were soaring and flitting, and the mockingbird chorus was in full volume. Now I'm a big fan of the Osprey...I love it when they return, paired for life, to the same nest year after year, making repairs to their summer home, and go about raising their brood. Love to watch their soaring and diving, always managing to catch the fish spotted from hundreds of feet in the air. Now, mid-June here in NC is when our fledgling Osprey take to flight...--for the last 2 weeks or so, they've perched on the edge of their nests, stretching their wings in pretend flight, getting those soaring muscles ready. Yesterday, apparently was the big day for many Osprey families. Where I'd usually see 4-6 of these magnificant birds over the breakers, circling their prey, then quickly diving, That count was more than doubled... and the not yet adult colors let one know that that many of these were this year's brood. So, the hunt is on for breakfast at the beach, as they spot and dive, grasping at mullet or flounder, or whatever the ocean is offering. I watch one of these birds, new to the hunting technique, soar with the rest, spotting his prey, and diving. I must admit, his fish/catch ratio put me to shame on his first attempt.... he dives, he scores... looks like a good size mullet, maybe a trout. He (generic of course, it could have been a female angling Osprey) then strained his wings, and took flight from the surf, burdened by the weight of his first catch. It rearranged the catch in his talons, making it streamlined for flight, and I had assumed he would follow one of his parent birds back to their nest on the soundside. This bird however, had other plans. Whether it's catch was simply too heavy to fly with, or this young Osprey decided to eat some of his catch alone, I don't know, bu he lighted on a power pole there at the motel, picked and chewed for about 15 minutes, then took flight again, the weight of his catch now reduced, his burden lightened somewhat.
I think of the Robert I never knew when I see such things, because this is the Robert you've shared with us, Kathy, I'd like to think. Hope all of you, including my fellow 'lefties' have a great weekend...
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Saturday, June 19, 2004 4:00 PM CDT

Yes, I did see the funeral of Ronald Reagan - BEAUTIFUL ceremony - the speeches by his children were awesome and the picture is still in my mind of Nancy Reagan saying her last goodbye at the casket. I was watching it in the wee a.m. hours when I could not sleep and the tears just flowed for her. Your entry was so eloquent as usual. Your entries NEVER fail to move me. Thanks for continuing to share Robert's and your family's lives with all of us out here. Enjoy your three day weekend.
God bless,
Eileen
P.S. - After reading your entry - reminded me of a song by Tim McGraw that I love. It is his newest release. I have posted it below.

"Live Like You Were Dying" - Tim McGraw
He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin� �bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How�s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn�t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin�,
"Wasn�t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you�d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it?

"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'."

Ej's Caring Place
- Friday, June 18, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

Hello. It's been way too long since I've even remotely tried to write something in the guest book. My deepest apologies. Even though I haven't written, I read the journal all the time and am always amazed at your ability to inspire me with such few words. You are amazing and I really want you to know that. I have never been so eager to read what someone has written, your ability to use words in such ways is incredible and I thank you for sharing your talent. You have come through so much, yet still stand strong. You have truly helped my relationship with God and understanding things through your perspective. You were blessed with beautiful children and they were blessed with a beautiful mom. =) May God bless you. Keep on keeping on.
Meg <Megster733@AOL.com>
- Friday, June 18, 2004 12:39 AM CDT

Happy Friday!

Once again, a good dose of perspective...thanks!

We're off to family camp for Indian Princesses this weekend...down to Mission Bay in San Diego. Today will be a blur of packing, organizing, re-packing, etc. etc.

I hope you and your beautiful, talented, intelligent kids enjoy the weekend. They are so much like their mom!!!!

God bless.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, June 18, 2004 9:39 AM CDT

Could you send the bulldozier our way? Three little girls home for the summer equals one big MESS!! :) I hope your crew has a great weekend! I bought the "shine" CD on ebay the other day and every time I hear it -- I picture Robert's sweet face. Have a great weekend!!
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Friday, June 18, 2004 9:32 AM CDT

Hey Kathy!
I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I hope that you are doing well. I just got back yesterday from my travels to Nicaragua, the Bahamas, and West Virginia - now I'm home for a few weeks. They were amazing, but I'll email you all the details later. I hope that you are having a wonderful week!
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
St. Simons Island, GA - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 9:34 PM CDT

Oh Kathy...your children are so blessed to have you with them, and guide them, as they continue to deal with losing Robert. You guys are in my prayers everyday.

By the way, I watched both Reagan's funeral service at the National Cathedral and the service at the Reagan Library on Friday night. I agree, they were both beautiful but I think the cameras should have shut off when Nancy Reagan started to break down on Friday night.

Everyone is FINALLY out of school here. Today is lounge around/recovery day. I hope you are all enjoying your summer.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, June 16, 2004 10:42 AM CDT

Prayers for peace and comfort for you and your family.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 8:44 AM CDT

Hello,
Yes Kathy I am still here and always will be, It was so good to see you walking yesterday you so amaze me, I had not read your entry for monday until this morning and It was so touching you have been thru the hardest thing any one could ever possibley go thru and you have done an amazing job, I know that its hard every day but by the Grace of God you have managed to make the best of what life has put in your path, I can't tell you what an inspiration you are, I love you and I'm so proud of you.
"The best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or touched they must be felt with the heart" Helen Keller
Love Always Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com >
1501 Shore Dr. , fl Palm Beach - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 5:45 AM CDT

Kathy,
I was in tears as I read your entry. It is amazing what children remember and will say. I would have been speechless, too. Gentle healing thoughts and prayers coming your way.

Debbie Hallemeier
Matthew's Website
<Debbie54RN@aol.com>
O' Fallon (St. Louis), MO - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 8:23 PM CDT

Hello, Kathy and family.... Again, a touching entry. Yes, I did watch the events for President Reagan. Had flashbacks to 1963, and the Kennedy processions that passed by my street corner. I was talking with a friend during much of Friday evening's celebration of Ronald Reagan's life, reflecting on my own parents' funerals, and my families participations in them. How special that even now the other children ask and remember the cherished moments. Amazing the things we seem to pack away in our minds, but are there for 'instant recall', when needed.

The motel situation??? Laugh if you must ;) Well, I hear maybe June 30th now? Carpet is down, furniture is coming in, but has to be stored outside, since there's no occupancy permit. They still need a parking lot, and there's landscaping to do; our office will be in one of the motel rooms while they work on the other motel building... confused yet? Not sure when that move will take place, but I heard the phones will be working over on that side of the road on the 18th. Meanwhile, I'll hang out with the tree frogs and snails, with an occasional visit from the ever-wandering red fox. Other than that, not much new from the humid shores of NC. Hope your summer continues to go well...
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 5:57 PM CDT

Wow Kathy...another great entry today...make us all think

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 8:42 AM CDT

Kathy,
Such a touching entry today. I am sure those visions and memories of Robert's last moments will always be with you and the kids. I just pray that as time passes those painful memories will be overtaken with all of the beautiful and happy memories of Robert. I too was unable to watch the funeral services on Friday. I did stay up until four in the morning watching the repeat and I agree with you that it was very moving and touching. Keeping you in my prayers.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 0:54 AM CDT

I finally got a chance to sit down at the computer and catch up on journal entries! Discouraged....... My parents are in Houston getting my Dad's port put in today and preparing to begin treatment for his melanoma tomorrow. Discouraged is how I feel to watch a man so strong placed in such a vulnerable position. Discouraged is how I feel because they've had to travel so far away to get treatment. Your words are so comforting to read today. So often I come to your page to lift a prayer up for your family - a family that has gone through so much. Today I felt discouraged and your words were so uplifting. Peace............
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, GA - Monday, June 14, 2004 3:39 PM CDT

THINKING OF YOU AND KEEPING YOU
IN OUR HEARTS THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS

BLESSINGS ALWAYS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

ANGEL CHRIS
QUILTS OF LOVE
CHRIS <WARDSWEB@EARTHLINK.NET>
LOS ANGELES, CA USA - Monday, June 14, 2004 3:33 PM CDT

Wow! that had to be hard but I am glad the kids can speak to you about it all....some families can't.... IT just breaks my heart... I still remember how my little granddaughter who was 4 at the time went and stood by her uncle's casket (my son) and wispered and sang to him...we asked her what she said and she told us thats between me and Mike and GOD.
All we can do is carry on the best we can.. and remember the happy times along with the sad. This should not have to happen to any family. YOu are all in my prayers.. and yes I did watch the Reagan funeral all day long. It was all very touching. especially the part in California.. The kids talks were good. I dont know how they got through them. I dont think any two have ever loved any more than Nancy and her Ronnie

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, June 14, 2004 2:35 PM CDT

Once again - an inspiring, beautiful entry by you! Bravo!! So glad the camp is going well for the kids and summer is proceeding along "ok". Think of you so often.
God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, June 13, 2004 10:11 PM CDT

Wow, what an encouraging journal today. Thanks for opening your heart to us. I needed your "sermon". Thanks for obeying God and sharing with us.

Everytime I hear "Shine", I think of Robert and you. I love that song. Speaking of songs, do you have the latest CD by MercyMe? There is a song on there that really speaks to me and I know it will speak to you. It's called Homesick. It's a beautiful song.

I think of you often and are praying for God's love and peace to surround you.

"He is the source of every mercy and the God who comforts us." 2 Cor. 1:3

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Hernando, MS - Friday, June 11, 2004 3:54 PM CDT

HI I hope you all have a wonderful good weekend. prayers as always
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 11, 2004 11:35 AM CDT

Hey Kathy, the girls look great in the new pics. I hope you are doing good, and at a better place emotionally despite the emptiness that will always be there...
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Thursday, June 10, 2004 10:15 AM CDT

Hello Kathy
How are you doing ??? Kansas is Moving FORWARD !!! We are also waiting paitiently for Misty Dawns arravil here in Kansas ...Nitas due date was the 7th ... today is Nitas Docters app...The Docter will probelly enduce Nitas Labor !!
We are all so VERY Excited and Egerly awaiting Our New Team Mate !! I am sure Diane will be here to tell you when Nita has her baby !!!
Kathy since things have slowed down here in Ks Our Team will have more time to post and do mail and all the fun stuff that we havnt been able to do !!!
Diane and I are going to start making things for the OUR Team Mates ...I am so glad ...I will tell you it is like coming home after a long trip ...I never knew I would miss doing the things for the Team that havent been done in awhile (Mail,Making Things For Team Mates ,Phone Calls and Posting )
I will be back often ...Know that your thought of often !!
Sending Love Your Way !!!
Moving FORWARD With You
Dianes Pita
Yes It Is Racquell <PiggysPita@Yahoo.Com >
Kansas City (This Morning ), Ks www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, June 10, 2004 8:59 AM CDT

just sitting here thinking about you and saying a prayer for you.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, June 9, 2004 10:47 AM CDT

Hello Kathy,
It was really great to see that you have posted on the journal and even greater to know that you and your family are continueing to do well, I know at times it has to be so hard for you to move forward, and I truely am very proud of you and how well your doing. Give each other a great big (((HUG))) from Nita and myself in Leavenworth, your always in my thoughts and prayers, do the best you can to always remember to keep moving FORWARD...

Diane (Pita's Piggy) with Team Werbe Racing <pitaspiggy@yahoo.com>
Leavenworth, Ks - Tuesday, June 8, 2004 4:46 PM CDT

Hi Kathy and the Band! I've been MIA for a while...Was out in Kansas visiting Miss Diane (Piggy) and the race team for the week. We had a lot going on with Penny-a-Point on the track. Got to see Eva again, too, and a few others who visit the Caringbridge pages. Sounds like summer is off to a good start for all of you. Are you pretty much settled in to the new job now?
Things at the motel are going along slowly. They started laying carpet last week, and some furniture was supposed to come in sometime today. I still look over a bunch of empty rooms at night, however. I'll be glad when I can see faces at night to help pass the time. Hope all is well...and Kath, if you need the pictures (love 'em) resized, let me know, and I'll size them down for you. Have a great week, all of you.
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, June 7, 2004 7:29 PM CDT

The photos of the girls are beautiful! Hoping you are all enjoying the summer. Thinking of you and prayers continue on. :)
Love, Eileen
ONE AND ALL ARE INVITED TO VISIT MY PAGE :)
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, June 6, 2004 10:27 PM CDT

The girls are beautiful we are making a coppy of photo will bring to kravis on the 15th.
The Socks Eda, Sock and David.
- Saturday, June 5, 2004 11:24 AM CDT

The girls are GORGEOUS! (just like their mom!) Where is a recent picture of my future son-in-law? Glad to hear all is well and life is moving peacefully along. You are always in my prayers!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, June 5, 2004 10:16 AM CDT

The new pictures of the girls are beautiful. Am I mistaken, but do Jessica and Christina(especially Jessica) look a lot like Robert? I took two sheets of paper on the middle picture of Jessica, and covered up her beautiful long hair, and I remember a picture posted of Robert that resembles her eyes and smile a lot. Checking in on you Kathy from time to time and always remember Robert!
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Friday, June 4, 2004 9:51 PM CDT

Beautiful pictures. Thinking of you and your family today. God bless.
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net (www.caringbridge.org/fl/robert)>
Crestview, FL - Friday, June 4, 2004 8:41 PM CDT

love the pictures the girls are so pretty. you have a great family. I like their dresses too. I know you miss Robert and you always will, but I am glad to see you are moving on as best you can too, life is so full of changes. some good some bad.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 4, 2004 2:14 PM CDT

Wow Kathy - looking at Jess is like sitting right in front of you on the sidewalk on 102nd Avenue - she IS definitely your daughter. Absolutely beautiful (& Christina is following her sister)

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, June 4, 2004 12:48 AM CDT

Where are you woman?? I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you guys!! Drop me a line when you get some free time...oh, wait, you're a working mother of three...free time probably isn't in your vocabulary!

Miss your updates!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, June 3, 2004 12:51 AM CDT

Where are you? I bet busier than ever now that school is out hope everything is ok .. miss ya and all your musings.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 3, 2004 9:49 AM CDT

I haven't signed in here in a while, but please don't think I've forgotten you. Even when I don't sign in, I am still keeping you close to my heart in prayer. Blessings and love to you in Christ. I'll check back in on you when I can.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC, - Wednesday, June 2, 2004 8:49 PM CDT

HiGuys,
I just wanted to drop by and say hi and we are thinking of you. Have a great week!!! Love Ya!!
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, June 1, 2004 8:01 AM CDT

Hugs!
AngelSheri <yankee_cajun2001@yahoo.com>
Lafayette, LA - Tuesday, June 1, 2004 7:28 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
Remembering your brave Robert on this Memorial Day. He may have lost his earthly battle with a horrible disease, but he won the ultimate battle. He now lives forever with our Lord, and one day you will be with him again. Praying for you today and always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Monday, May 31, 2004 10:24 PM CDT

Kathy,
Just stopping by on this Memorial Day to let you know I am thinking about "our" boy. I hope the wonderful memories you have are giving all the Charlton's a great day today!!
As always, I'm sending big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <iverson4@msn.com>
Ottawa, IL - Monday, May 31, 2004 2:35 PM CDT

Hello, just dropping by to send a hug to you

Love Viks on behalf of everyone at Post Pals

viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, May 30, 2004 4:38 PM CDT

Hello Kathy,
My hat is off to you sweetie, you have written a great journal, you sure do rock thats for sure. I just came by to see how everything is going and to send you a great big (((HUG))) from Kansas. Know that you're always in my thoughts and prayers, and most of all remember to keep moving FORWARD...

Diane (Pita's Piggy) with Team Werbe Racing <pitaspiggy@yahoo.com>
Leavenworth, Ks - Sunday, May 30, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

Dear Kathy,
I cannot remember if I've ever signed your guestbook. But I found Robert's site a while back and have been lurking since.
My son, Mitchell was diagnosed with osteosarcoma (bone cancer) in August 2002. He's endured 15 rounds of chemotherapy and a partial amputation. This month marks 10 months of NED.
You and your family have been in my prayers the day I found Robert's site.
Robin , mom of Mitchell @ caringbridge.org/ga/mitchman <vb11potsy1@yahoo.com>
Senoia, GA - Saturday, May 29, 2004 3:33 PM CDT

well, its Friday again. I am waiting (as is everyone else) for the pictures...... I know we all think you have nothing better to do than get pictures posted. ITs like we think you dont have kids, pets, a house to run and a job and of course a special friend........I wish you a wonderful weekend and as ever your in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, May 28, 2004 8:54 AM CDT

Hi Charlton Gang!

I can't wait to see pics of Jessica's dance. I bet she was stunning! I'm glad she had fun and I'm glad you got to spend that time, helping her make memories. Times like that are so priceless.

I also love the pictures in the photo album. What a beautiful family.

Well, I'm booked for my Florida trip...as it gets closer you and I need to chat. I really hope we can connect. I think of you guys daily.

Much love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, May 26, 2004 9:58 AM CDT

Such special memories!! I repeated the "prom" night with more kids than my own with each of my three daughters. It was so exhausting, but so very special. I am so happy that you enjoyed it and now you can look forward to doing it with Christina! You may need some time to recuperate!
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net (www.caringbridge.org/fl/robert)>
Crestview, FL - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 6:04 PM CDT

Kathy
I know you are a bit busy but WHERE ARE THE PICTURES???
Only kidding. Sounds like you had an exciting weekend.
Have a great week.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 5:38 AM CDT

what a weekend you had!!!!! I am so glad that Jessica and her friends had a good time and that you got to be included. Isnt it fun????? I can just imagine the noise and the laughter in that house with everyone there and all that going on. School is out here for the summer. and just in time its getting hot. take care and we are all waiting for the pictures as ever your in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 1:21 PM CDT

Good Monday Morning Kathy....
Just was taking a few minutes to hop on the computer and see how my friends are doing. I am still off of work and still continue to fight my battles. With God's help I will succeed. You know through my trials I have thought about Robert quite a bit...I do believe he has been with me in some of the darkest times. I know how hard he fought with everything that was in him....this has given me the fight I have needed some days that I really didn't have the strength to fight. But I know he would want me to give it everything I have. So day by day I keep going. Sometimes it is a minute or hour at a time, but every morning I wake up and thank God for giving us another day!! I hope this finds you and the kids doing well.

Sent with big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <iverson4@msn.com>
Ottawa, IL - Monday, May 24, 2004 11:16 AM CDT

Hi I hope you all had a good weekend and are ready for this brand new week
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 24, 2004 10:08 AM CDT

May the sweet Lord ease
the pain of your loss,
yet keep your child alive
with sweet memories of
good times shared.
Angel Toto <pat_totoofoz@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 23, 2004 12:14 AM CDT

Hi Kathy.

Just thinking of you and wanted you to know. Have a great weekend. Love and prayers,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, May 22, 2004 9:27 AM CDT

Just wanted to stop by and say "hello." Also curious if you were going to the Grief Seminar in South Carolina this year. Carol (Meghan's mom) and I are planning on going. Please feel free to join us for a VERY emotional, yet therapeutic weekend this July.
Hugs-
Alison Haddock
mom to Angel Alexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 8:09 PM CDT

I am so glad the talent show went great and that she had so many there to cheer her on. Summer is always a worry when you have kids at home and your at work, but I know it will be just fine. you know your in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 18, 2004 8:30 AM CDT

Stopping in with a cheery hello and to hope you have a wonderful week.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, May 17, 2004 7:01 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,
This is Kathy...Ruthie's cousin. Thank you SOOO much for visiting my webpage. I remember checking in on Robert's after I would visit Seth's page. Wow...never realizing I would be here one day. But you are soooo right, I have had such amazing blessings sent my way some times so many at once, I'm blown away. Amazing how God can give you such wonderful blessings at such a confusing time. Well, Tuesday will be 2 weeks since my bilateral mastectomy. I find it truly amazing how my healing is going. I did have just one set back last week. The Dr. did say he would probably have to remove 5-10 more lymph nodes, but I've come to peace w/ that. They know what they are doing and I trust they have my best interest at heart. Wonderful Doctors! I love the support of the webpages. I know Ruthie and her mom (Aunt G!) were heavily encouraging my mom to persuade me to do my page. Well, I half heartedly agreed. I am in awe of the strength these little messages can bring. I love Robert's picture you have on his webpage. What a sweet boy. Well, I just wanted to thank you for caring enough to write. It means a lot to me. The minute I saw the name of Robert's webpage, his picture clearly popped in my mind. Funny how I so vividly remembered that picture...like Seth's picture. Anyway, I hope all is well with you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing w/ me! I so appreciate it.
Kathy Goodman <goodkat1@msn.com>
Orlando, FL USA - Sunday, May 16, 2004 8:34 PM CDT

Hi Kathy,

I just wanted to drop in and wish you a happy weekend. I've been sick the ENTIRE week, but seem to be on the mend. Tate went for her cardiologist appointment today. She's doing great! We've moved to every 9 months now. I always breath a sigh of relief when we get good results from the echo cardiogram. Today's news: No surgery in the forseeable (sp?) future!!

Love and prayers,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, May 14, 2004 6:31 PM CDT

Hi Cathy, I hope you are well, I saw the kids at Zachary's Birthday party they look great!! I hope you are doing well - thinking of you. Colette
Colette McKnight <colettemcknight@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Friday, May 14, 2004 12:10 AM CDT

good morning hows things there? Hope you have a good weekend down FLA way.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, May 14, 2004 9:23 AM CDT

Thinking of you and your Angel today...I pray that the Lord helps you to find comfort in your memories and love in your heart.
God Bless You,
Island Princess

Island Princess <islandprincess@quiltsoflove.com>
- Thursday, May 13, 2004 9:39 PM CDT

Your writings BLESS MY HEART SO MUCH.. they leave me wordless often..and with wet eyes often too, but with my heart FULL. You are a special, special lady! Thank you for sharing life's journey with me. I am still pondering those words in Robert's last Mother's Day card to you..about missing you, and seeing you in his heart. SNIFFFFFF... what a beautiful boy!

Take care Kathy! You remind me of the hymnwriter who wrote "It is Well With my Soul" who endured such heartache upon the accidental drowning deaths of his children, yet kept his eternal hope and perspective. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR PRECIOUS FAMILY!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 9:57 AM CDT

Kathy, you are amazing, you words, thoughts, actions, and everything about you is amazing. I meant to sign your guestbook and send you mother's day wishes on Sunday, but as it has with you, time got away from me. It has been an eventful week. Last week, I got into graduate school at UGA, and on Saturday, I graduated from UGA. Although I realize that my graduation is a big accomplishment, it felt like another day since I knew I was coming back.

As I write this, I am thinking about how long it has been since I last posted. I am leaving for Nicaragua on Sunday, so it will be another 2 weeks before you hear from me again. In the meantime, I'll be praying for your family.

Have a wonderful weekend!
With love,
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 12:27 AM CDT

Thinking of ya today and wondering how things are
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 11, 2004 2:16 PM CDT

Kathy,
I loved the words of love very much deserved for you as Mother. May your day be filled with love, fond memories and hope.
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Sunday, May 9, 2004 8:27 PM CDT

Happy Mother's Day Kathy! We have the stomach bug here!! My mother-in-law laughed and said they were testing my mothering skills this Mother's Day! :) Just a quick note to let you know I'm thinking of you today.
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Sunday, May 9, 2004 12:36 AM CDT

Oh Kathy, you didnt warn I'd need kleenex!!!!! What wonderful caring kids you have!!!! I know they learned that from having a wonderful mama. I hope you have a sunshiny day today filled with love.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 9, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

Mothers Day Prayer

I Pray for you that on this special Mothers day,
God fills your heart in a truley beautiful way.
And may, He in His reach from heaven above,
Flow the wonderful family spirit, of His love.
I pray He grant, truley sweet and Angelic care,
That you may know, He is, always there.
I pray within God's great vast Love for you
In life, daily onward, In all that you may do,
You feel His love, His strength, His peace,
This Mothers Day blesses a spiritual release.

Have a Blessed Mothers Day

Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
- Sunday, May 9, 2004 8:50 AM CDT

Happy Mother's Day!
Kathy I hope that you have a happy mothers day with plenty of sunshine to brighten your way. Your always in my thoughts and prayers. Keep moving FORWARD...

Diane (Pita's Piggy) with Team Werbe Racing <pitaspiggy@yahoo.com>
Leavenworth, Ks - Sunday, May 9, 2004 3:10 AM CDT

Kathy,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Bo Mathis(father of DOUBLE M)
www.caringbridge.com/fl/champ <saveit24@aol.com>
boynton beach, fl. - Sunday, May 9, 2004 2:29 AM CDT

Great to read about Jessica's trip and all the sweet things your kids made you for Mother's Day. Really made me smile! Have a nice Mother's Day!
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Saturday, May 8, 2004 2:18 PM CDT

How wonderful that your daughter was able to make the trip! :) Stopping by to wish you a Happy Mother's day filled with happy times and wonderful memories. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, May 7, 2004 10:32 PM CDT

Good morning from Southern Cal.

First off...YES!!! Shea will wait for Matthew. Although I think our plan would be more effective if we told them NOT to date each other...you know how kids are. Grin! She's a sweetheart and loves the beach as much as Matthew. In fact, we just got her a new wetsuit and boogie board. She's so excited to try it out tomorrow.

Shea was in a musical last night and one of the mom's, who has a son, asked me if I knew that all the boys in the class had a crush on Shea. Once I finished giving Matt CPR we chuckled about it. Isn't the opposite sex still supposed to be gross in kindergarten??

I'll make sure and tell Shea how wonderful those Florida boys named "Matthew" are. All she has to do is look at her daddy.

I'm anxious to hear all about Jessica's trip. What a great experience.

By the way, we're still on for our October trip to Florida. We HAVE to find a way to get together...I can't imagine meeting face to face after so much time.

Have a wonderful Mother's Day. I'm sure Robert was nodding his head as Matthew made his list of when you are pretty. Love and hugs,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, May 7, 2004 10:03 AM CDT

Happy Mother's Day to YOU, Kathy! Each of your children are so blessed to have you as their mom. As you wrote of the gifts Christina and Matthew gave you, I thought how Robert's gift to you was his sweet and loving self...and how each day, not just in your posts but in your life, you honor both his "gift" to you and his life. And you have that gift to carry with you always. Enjoy the weekend!
Lindsay Scott www.caringbridge.org/tx/leannescott <Lindz2005@hotmail.com>
College Station, TX - Friday, May 7, 2004 9:06 AM CDT

Kathy,
That was really great to read about Jessica. I hope she has a great time. Big salute to you for rounding up the money and making it possible for her to go! She couldn't have a better mom.
Bo Mathis(father of DOUBLE M)
www.caringbridge.com/fl/champ <saveit24@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, Florida - Thursday, May 6, 2004 3:17 PM CDT

Hooray for Jessica. I have to say that I am a bit jealous though. I have always wanted to go to the Big Apple and just have never had the opportunity.

I thought of you, Kathy, earlier when I went to lunch. I got in my car and "Shine" was on the radio. I have always liked that song and now it has a new meaning for me. Thanks for sharing it on Robert's site.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Thursday, May 6, 2004 2:43 PM CDT

That is such good news for Jess. I am so excited for her. I know she must be having a blast. You guys always seem to pull it together. Have a great weekend!!!
Love ya'll!!
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Thursday, May 6, 2004 12:51 AM CDT

Kathy,
I'm so happy for you guys thats wonderful that Jessica got to go to New York what a wonderful opportunity for her, I love the pictures, what a beautiful boy he is, He looks so much like you.
Love Martha
Martha Maloy <Maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P,B., Fl Palm Beach - Thursday, May 6, 2004 12:08 AM CDT

Wow! What a great surprise for Jessica to be able to go to New York. I hope she has a wonderful time.
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net (www.caringbridge.org/fl/robert)>
Crestview, FL - Thursday, May 6, 2004 5:31 AM CDT

Hooray for trips and healing. I am thrilled to hear she is in NYC, we love it there, though our trips are usually for relapse and checks...still, it is a great city. It is wonderful to hear that she is healing, frankly it makes all the hard work to move on worth it, knowing they can carry so much love and pain in their heart and still know joy. You have done a great job, Kathy...you can surely be proud. Keeping in touch, and Love,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 6:56 PM CDT

oH THAT MAKES ME SO MAD I pushed clear instead of preview agaim........ any how I am so glad tht Jessica got to go on this trip,And how is Christina's talent show and how is Matthew.. I am so glad to see that you are all seeming to be happier lately......you are still all in my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 5, 2004 5:55 PM CDT

WOW TERRIFIC NEWS ABOUT JESSICA. I KNOW SHE WILL HAVE A BLAST AS WE ARE ORIGINALLY FROM NY AND LIVED ONLY 35 NORTH OF THE BIG APPLE. THERE WILL BE PLENTY OF EXCITEMENT AND THINGS TO TALK ABOUT WHEN SHE RETURNS. GLAD SHE HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO GO.
PRAYERS, PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL OF YOU. GLAD YOU LIKE YOUR NEW JOB. CHECK THE SITE, BUT DO NOT ALWAYS SIGN IN, SO AT LEAST YOU KNOW I AM CHECKING IN ON YOU AND THE FAMILY.

BARBARA D'UVA <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH , FL USA - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 4:21 PM CDT

Kathy,
I am in tears myself. How long will she be there? I live in NY too. NYC is a wonderful city. Is that where she is going? Details, details, please
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, May 5, 2004 3:54 PM CDT

Kathy - I have tears in my eyes as I read Jessica's good news. I'm so glad to see good things happening to your family. What a thrill it is for us mothers to see our children happy! You will have to post a picture! :)
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 2:58 PM CDT

So glad to hear you had a good trip to the wedding. I have had to cover a lot of miles in a weekend a couple of times and its hard and tiring, but worth it. I hope this week finds everything going good for you and the kids.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 5, 2004 9:21 AM CDT

Welcome Home, Kathy. Glad all went well at the wedding. Sure is a lot of miles for a weekend! I did about half that in 2 days alone 2 summers ago, and I don't think I've recovered yet. Hope all is well with everyone.
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
- Wednesday, May 5, 2004 7:47 AM CDT

Hello Kathy,
I hope that things are going well, and this past week passed with very happy memories. God bless you, and always remember to keep moving FORWARD...And Robert happy birthday with Jesus little buddy...

Diane (Pita's Piggy) with Team Werbe Racing <pitaspiggy@yahoo.com>
Leavenworth, Ks - Tuesday, May 4, 2004 6:19 AM CDT

Kathy, I know this week had to be harder than most, with Robert's birthday. Its just not normal to not have your child here for that. I doubt its something you ever get used to. I wish you peace my friend
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, April 30, 2004 12:06 AM CDT

Hey Kathy,
Just wanted to say hi and that I love the pictures you posted. They are priceless. Have a great weekend.
Love you guys,

Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, ms - Thursday, April 29, 2004 9:17 AM CDT

Robert,
Happy Birthday!!!!! What a beautiful boy. Heaven is having a great party today for a special person
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 9:08 PM CDT

Happy Birthday in Heaven, Robert!!

Peace to you, Kathy, Jessica, Christina, and Matthew

Sending you all lots of love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 5:03 PM CDT

Hi guys,
I couldn't let this day pass without saying hi and I miss ya'll. Happy Birthday Robert. We miss you so much. Thanks for the memories and the beautiful picture you have painted. I remember Robert as a baby, he was definately a happy baby. I actually have a picture of the two of us (Robert & I) at Paw Paw Mitchell's house when he was just about 10 mo old. He was so sweet. I cherish those memories.
Happy Birthday Kathy I know it is bittersweet.
Have a wonderful trip North. Love you all,
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 4:54 PM CDT

Kathy,
What beautiful thoughts and memories of Robert you have shared with all of us. You are such an inspiration to everyone that checks in with the Charlton family. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with your family. The picture of you is lovely. It's always nice to put a face with the wonderful words of wisdom that you share with all of us.
Brenda <wduffy6633@aol.com>
Boca Raton, FL - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 1:49 PM CDT

Happy Birthday, Robert! How we wish you were here on this Earth to celebrate . . . and we do miss you.

Kathy- I know today must be especially hard for you. Please know we are thinking of you and are only a phone call away if you need anything. I hope you find some joy in only happy memories of Robert, today.
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 12:56 AM CDT

Kathy,

What a beautiful tribute to Robert. Happy Birthday Robert. I'm sure all of heaven is celebrating with you!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 10:56 AM CDT

a VERY Happy Birthday to Robert and to you his family, you have kept his spirit alive with your love, helping us all to understand that love is eternal..thanks and God Bless all of you....midge
midge Gagne <atticfanatic999@aol.com>
Miami Springs, Fl. U>S>A> - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 10:03 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Robert
I can't even tell you how much we miss you, Your mom is right in what she wrote you have a wonderful way with people making them feel special and I can just see you in heaven doing more of the same.
Love you Lots
Martha
martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
w.p.b., Fl 33406 - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 10:02 AM CDT

Happy Birthday to Robert! Kathy - my thoughts are with you today, and always.
Diane Mathis <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, fl - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 9:55 AM CDT

Thinking of you all today...another milestone. God bless.
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 9:14 AM CDT

Happy Birthday to Robert. This is one of those milestone days that are hard to get past. Christina you wrote a real nice entry.. Da Duck you said it all so much better than I can. I know everyone can remember this day with joy for a wonderful boy that was so good to everyone. Jessica, Christina, and Matthew...You are all speciall too.. Keep the faith. everyone.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 7:58 AM CDT

In loving memory...
~Happy Birthday, Robert Mitchel Charlton~

What a special joy it has been to continue to get to 'know' you, through your Mom, and your family's writings. As you continue to soar wiith the gulls, please continue to SHINE for them, as the sun during the day, as the stars and the moon at night.

Kathy, Jessica, Christina and Matthew... wishing you special thoughts of peace and comfort as you remember Robert, the shadow, on his Birthday.

Peace to you, and peace to all Robert has touched~~~

Love y'all, my Florida friends...
Tom - DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 7:12 AM CDT

hi mom. i read your webpage for the first time yhis morning.
Your right, ROBERT IS A GIFT FROM HEAVON. Now we must cherish our moments without him.We had some rough times without him.but today is different,were gonna have fun and no rough times. Because thats how Robert would have had it.god bless you and always be with you,your chrissy miss.

christina charlton <ckcharlton@aol.com>
west palm beach, fl - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 6:01 AM CDT

Kathy - What a lovely story about the gulls! And it was wonderful to see what you actually look like - that is a wonderful picture of the 3 couples. All you ladies looked beautiful and the gentlemen so handsome - and I am so glad you are "happy". I have never seen Robert's father so I cannot compare - but I think Robert looks very much like you! Same dark hair and beautiful eyes. I know Robert's birthday is fast approaching - I hope it is not too difficult of a day for you. Wanted to stop in and let you know I was thinking of all of you and that I remembered Robert's birthday. God bless you all, you are in my daily prayers.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 8:00 PM CDT

Kathy, that had to be a sign witih the seagulls.. and what a lovely sign... that should give you lots of peace..and comfort. I wish you only the best with Andy and I hope things are good with the kids
prayers always
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 3:04 PM CDT

Hi Kathy -- THanks so much for posting the picture. Michelle was a childhood friend of my daughter's and I have been reading your journal after finding you through Cam's page. I read the Mathis' journal too, so seeing the three couples there together, I felt like I knew you all. I have followed your journal since the summer before Robert died, and you have been such an inspiration to me. I just wanted you to know that you are a really beautiful person, both inside and out.
Judy Blackwell <jblackwell@morrisandraper.com>
Atlanta, ga usa - Monday, April 26, 2004 10:30 AM CDT

Kathy -- So glad to finally see a picture of you! I think Robert's picture is what initially drew me to your page. I was drawn into "the caringbridge world" by my friend's battle w/Leukemia and then I stumbled upon your page. Now you've become a part of my day - Robert's sweet face shines as I read your family's inspiring journey. Kathy - I don't know how you find the time to write as often as you do! It only takes a second for us to check in on you -- I can only imagine the time it takes for you to record your thoughts and feelings! It's Monday again - I hope this is the beginning of a great week for your family. It's time for me to go wake the sleeping babes..... Peace to you.............
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Monday, April 26, 2004 6:45 AM CDT

Kathy
You really do look happy!!!! You deserve it. You make a beautiful couple. Robert is smiling down on you.

Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 6:24 PM CDT

The photo is amazing!!! I'm glad some peace and happiness are in your life, Kathy. It shows in your eyes. Yay!
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Saturday, April 24, 2004 1:54 PM CDT

oh wow. You look so good, I am glad to see the pic of you, it was becoming hard to remember from so far away...I am glad your life is having good times, and it all mingles in with the mix.. thank Andy for us all, for giving you a smile back. Much much love from Virginia.
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, April 23, 2004 8:41 PM CDT

I am loving the picture of you with your friend Andy.

Thinking of you and praying for continued strength and happiness. God bless you and yours.

Love in Christ,
Dawn - Mommy to ^Angel Shae^ & precious Mason

www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Friday, April 23, 2004 3:49 PM CDT

What a great entry! I'm so glad that you are happy. I remember conversations we had where you thought happiness was unattainable! I'm glad you and "Andy" (grin) had fun at the benefit and I'm sure you were the belle of the ball!

Have a great weekend--much love from sunny southern Cal,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, April 23, 2004 2:56 PM CDT

I just wrote the nicest entry and pushed clear by mistake. so I will try again. I am not gonna redo it though. Here is hoping you have a good weekend planned. I have you in my prayers as always.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 23, 2004 9:28 AM CDT

Hello,
I was so glad to hear that you were able to move forward a little more. Don't be impatient take your time. Easier times are just around the corner you know you have angels looking over you to make sure of that. I'm sending you and your family great big (((HUGS))) keep moving FORWARD...

Diane (Pita's Piggy) with Team Werbe Racing <pitaspiggy@yahoo.com>
Leavenworth, Ks - Thursday, April 22, 2004 6:27 PM CDT

Kathy....I check in on you often but rarely sign....I guess because I see so much of me in you and I wonder how you do it. Today my heart just aches for you...for your loss. I have lost too...many times...but never a child. To think it takes my breath away. You are in my prayers....I pray that somehow your journey will get easier. You are a remarkable woman!
Rhonda Byars <jbyars@austin.rr.com>
Cedar Park, TX USA - Thursday, April 22, 2004 1:26 PM CDT

Kathy-
Thinking of you, Robert, and your sweet family often. You are always in my prayers.
Lots of love,
Lindsay
Lindsay Scott www.caringbridge.org/tx/leannescott
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 8:41 PM CDT

Good early morning, Florida...Hope you had a good weekend. We're finally getting some spring-like weather!!! First weekend in the last 7 it hasn't been windy, or cold, or rainy. Even managed a few hours yesterday at the beach. Nothing much new here...work is the same boring routine, with the renovations going on at the motel. Things are coming along, but I'm not sure they'll meet their scheduled re-opening in 6 weeks. Guess we'll see. Hope you have a great week...
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC - Monday, April 19, 2004 4:35 AM CDT

Is this lighthouse where people can go on tours? sounds like you have an interesting job to say the least. I hope this finds everyone well, and happy and having a good weekend.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 8:13 AM CDT

Hi guys! Just stopping by to say Hi. Sounds like a beautiful Easter weekend for you. How precious for Matthew to remember Robert in the beauty of a flower. Jessica, congratulations on Getting accepted into the School of the Arts. That's really super news, and I'm so happy for you. Have a great weekend, all of you.
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Friday, April 16, 2004 1:01 PM CDT

Hello, you are on my mind this am I hope things are ok there. Do you have a fun weekend planned with the kidos? as always you are in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 16, 2004 8:23 AM CDT

Great job Jessica!!! Congratulations!

Kathy, I just stopped in to see how you're doing. Have a great weekend.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 6:22 PM CDT

Way to go Jessica! That is great!!

Kathy,
Your entry brought tears to my eyes, especially Matthew wishing that Robert could raise from the dead as Jesus did on Easter. I wish I could say something profound that would ease your pain, but the best I can do is pray, and please know that I do pray for you and your family often.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, April 14, 2004 11:15 PM CDT

Hi first of all GOOD for you Jessica!!!!
Next I am glad you had a good Easter. I know the holidays are the hardest, but some how we all get past them. Sometimes our thoughts do wonder to strange things but at least we have the memories. With out knowing about Jesus so many have no hope of ever seeing their loved ones again. We are truly GOD BLESSED to have that knowledge.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 1:03 PM CDT

Those kids will get you every time. We have a Hurler family that lost their little boy and his sweet sister says the most heart-renching things you have ever heard and it just breaks my heart. She tells everyone about her brave brother who is in Heaven and I am sure her parents are torn between not wanting to hear any more and being so thankful, that at such a young age, she hasn't forgotten him. I wish your pain could be lessened but I guess if I knew how to do that I would be rich. Congrats to Jessica, you must be so proud! I am glad that you enjoyed your Easter together. I know that even though I didn't loose my son, I find that many times when I am frustrated or bad tempered it is because I am worrying about him. It sure does carry over into all parts of our lives. Love, Anne
Anne Himes <arhimes@ msn.com, www.caringbridge.org/page/andrewh>
Boonsboro, md USA - Wednesday, April 14, 2004 11:52 AM CDT

So happy to read you Easter was so nice. It is wonderful to be around family. And how great to have ALL the children together on Easter Sunday. Please congratulate Jessica for me - she (and you!) must be so very, very proud. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, April 13, 2004 6:21 PM CDT

CONGRATS TO JESSICA!!!!!! We are so very proud of you. Good luck!!!
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 1:03 PM CDT

HAPPY EASTER! BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL! Love, Eileen

www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, April 11, 2004 1:40 PM CDT

Happy Easter, Family........

Wishing you all a Blessed day!!!!

Sending love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 11, 2004 10:20 AM CDT

Happy Easter, all you wonderful Charltons! Kathy, I've continued to read along, following stories from the past, events of the present. Sometimes, even DaDuck has to just sit back and absorb things you say in your unique way. Isn't it amazing how God can pass out those pastel colors, or the painted wings of a butterfly, or the infamous sliver of an early morning moon, always when we need to 'know'. Yes, Robert is with the Risen Lord, this day and for always. Yes Robert is sometimes present in the shadows here on NC. I'm sure other friends tell you similar stories. Please, Kathy, continue to share Robert's memories, whom some of us only got to meet since this page's inception. I'm sure I'm not alone in saying 'when you cry, we cry'... 'when you smile, we smile'. Peace to you today, Kathy Charlton.

Jessica, I thought long and hard about doing an Easter Feast for one again this year, but opted out. So, thankfully, there will not be any war stories from DaDuck's kitchen to report on. I hope you aren't too terribly upset.
I hope all of you have/had a WONDERFUL Easter. He Is Risen... Alleluia ...

Peace...
Tom, DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Sunday, April 11, 2004 10:08 AM CDT

Dear Kathy,
I haven't signed in a while, but still check in often. Your journal was very moving and you truly are an inspiration. May you have a blessed Easter with your family, and I am so thankful that you know, because He rose, you will one day be reunited with your precious Robert.

Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Saturday, April 10, 2004 11:30 PM CDT

Dear friend --
What a beautiful journal . . . you are so brave and not broken regardless of the suffering I know you feel each day. I know that pain must have been exacberated when you heard of Jake. I myself cried a lot the day before when I found out . . . it is a trying thing, this cancer. It is equally hard for me to look at my beautiful son and wonder if the cancer is indeed growing in his body despite treatment. I can only pray that God does not want him back any day soon -- any day in my lifetime. You hang in there, Kathy. Continue to be amazed by the beauty of the sunsets and you will never be broken. I love you and looking forward to seeing you for the Excalibur dinner.
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
LW, - Saturday, April 10, 2004 8:38 AM CDT

still lurking out here....think of you and your family often. We are good, Liz doing well. Please know I continue to pray with you, and share your confusion some days for the beauty of Gods world and the pain, makes no sense in those times we are tired. Much love to you Kathy.
Mary Alice Dorschel, and Lizzie, and all <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Saturday, April 10, 2004 7:40 AM CDT

I am really sorry to hear about Robert. His family and friends are in my prayer. Robert is free from the pain that he suffer and running around with God and many angels. No more pains to suffer. He will always watching over people and protect them. I think that he is watching and smiling right now. I am still praying for other kids who suffer from serious diseases and hoping that they will get 100% better. Please pray for two kids who has and had cancer. One of the kids is on chemotherapy for treating a bone cancer called Osteogenic Sarcoma. Her name is Taylor M and was diagnosed with bone cancer since May 29th, 2003. Please pray that she will get into remission in jiffy! Another kid had a brain tumor, but now he is in remission. Please pray for him that he is still in remission. Thank you and God Bless You All!
Vaishnavi <SweetNmad89@netscape.net>
Hartsdale, NY USA - Friday, April 9, 2004 2:12 PM CDT

Happy Easter to the Charlton House.

Love to all,
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, April 9, 2004 8:55 AM CDT

Kathy-You continue to amaze and yes, surprise me. Your words are truly hopeful and sad and courageous all at the same time. Many, many souls are stirred within the pages of your journal-just as Robert stirred all who touched him. I applaud you and your courage and your faith and would expect nothing less of my beautiful daughter. I love you deeply and tenderly and pray for the best for all of our family. Love, Mom
barbara waldron <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
west palm beach, fl us of a - Friday, April 9, 2004 8:02 AM CDT

Kathy -- I haven't signed in a while, but I'm still checking in! :) I'll be thinking of your family this Easter.
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta , GA - Thursday, April 8, 2004 11:30 AM CDT

Hi just wanted to say hi and let you know I am thinking about you and praying for you too.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 8, 2004 10:38 AM CDT

Hello Kathy,
I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I am sure the dreams are just as hard as reality. I am so glad that you still have that to hold him near to you. Spring is finally upon us here in North Mississippi THANK GOODNESS. I am sick of the cold temps. (Sorry to those North of us) Memphis is coming alive now flowers and trees blooming. Come see us when you can.....We miss you guys up here!!!!
Happy Easter everyone. Take care of yourselves.
Dawn Holman <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, April 7, 2004 7:41 AM CDT

HI Kathy, oh the dreams!!!! I rem one dream I had when I was getting ready to go to Nebraska for my youngest son's wedding. Mike was there getting ready too and said "You don't think you're going to this wedding with out me do you?" as he threw some clothes in a bag. that was about 10 years ago and was so real I can still feel him. Some times the dreams make us feel better and sometimes they don't. I know you did everything you could for Robert, and that you still do everything you can for the other 3..Don't beat your self up over the what ifs... please don't. You have my prayers every day.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 1:10 PM CDT

Hi Kathy Just wanted you to know that you're not alone in your thoughts. I think all of us, that have lost our children...especially to cancer, have the same thoughts. I continue to struggle with the pain and agony of those horrible last days; I guess we always will. I just wanted you to know that I understand.
jan livingstone (Andy's mom forever)
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 1:05 PM CDT

Hey Guys,
You have all been so much on my mind I can't explain it. I think about Robert alot and I can't even imiagine what you are going thru, thinking and praying for all.
Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., Fl 33406 - Tuesday, April 6, 2004 11:58 AM CDT

My sweet Kathy,
It broke my heart to read your journal. I remember those vivid dreams that came after my Mom died. They were so incredibly real. They were both a blessing and a curse. I would be affected for days, yet greatful to have been in her presence. I suppose it is all part of the healing process. I pray daily for your healing....And yes, we all have suffered a loss. That is what it means to be in a family. That is why God's plan for our lives includes having close family ties. Because we share one another's pain, suffering, joys, celebrations etc. That is the gift of family.
I love you and your family.
Bam <mary@forristall.com>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 10:46 AM CDT

Oh Kathy...

It must be wonderful to dream of Robert, and heart wrenching when you wake and realize he's not here. One thing really struck me...when you wrote of how our Savior is alive and at the right hand of God. I guess Robert is even more alive than we are...and he's at the hand of God, and if I guess correctly, on God's knee, behind God, and in God's hair--grin!

I think of you often. Much love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, April 6, 2004 9:17 AM CDT

Hey Kathy, still checking in. I'll stop by soon with
Brandon, Jason told me he saw you the other day. You will now have a new neighbors. Jason enjoyed talking with you
as well as his girlfriend. They thought you were so nice.
They wanted to know more about Robert. I told Danielle how Robert loved the ocean and fishing, how he reminded me of
Jason at that age, being so athletic and artistic etc. I'm glad he's moving close by. He told me you were going to be stopping by and he thinks that's great. Talk to you soon. Shalom, Liz
liznorcross <athomewithliz@yahoo.com>
lake worth, fl - Saturday, April 3, 2004 7:21 AM CST

Kathy, miss you. I can feel you are so sad, and it just takes moms so long to get "over it"..I am sad, and Liz is with me!! Life is just not as we thought it might be, when we were small and dreaming...it is much more, and much emptier I guess, with "mights". Guess the sleepless nights finally make us tired. Oh well, my thoughts are with you so often. I am proud of you.
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, April 2, 2004 7:21 PM CST

Short, sweet & to the point.

See you in a few weeks.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, April 2, 2004 12:45 AM CST

I am sorry you have been having such a heavy heart ~~~ but I sure do understand. I know a lot of the choices we have to make in life are really hard ones and do involve a lot of other people. We can only do the best we can....Pray first.... I hope you all have a good weekend full of love and fun.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 2, 2004 9:36 AM CST

Here's a hug for your heavy heart.
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net>
Crestview, FL - Friday, April 2, 2004 5:48 AM CST

Kathy
Hi. I hope you cherish Robert's painting always. I know you will. My 7 yr old was in our district's art festival last night and we are so proud. She did a Picasso-ish picture of a dog. LOL. Have a great weekend
Hugs Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, April 2, 2004 5:34 AM CST

Hello, stopping in again with some wishes for a good day. Sorry your heart has been heavy - the mention of the card and what Matthew said, my that was precious and priceless. How wonderful and exactly WHEN you needed to hear it - when you were feeling "down". God blesses us in those little things that make a world of difference. Thinking of you, praying for you.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Thursday, April 1, 2004 2:18 PM CST

Hi Kathy and the Sunshine Band! Don't want to look like I'm hogging the board, but no one's posted since me on Monday. It appears from today's journal, and journals on other pages, that your 'Spring Break' was anything BUT a break! Sounds like just a change in venue for the children. I'll be looking forward to the Prom Queen and the Pink Panther photos soon.
What a wonderful touching story about the 'unfinished business' painting of Robert's. I too wonder about those people with the 'ability' to channel messages. Working overnight (3rd shift) I come across a similar program on TV sometimes. While sometimes I wonder about the ability of others to channel thoughts to me, I guess I'm sorta like you, where the channels are direct to me. Maybe it's mom's porpoise, or Robert's mullet and a castnet,, Tyler's butterfly, or the 'shadow' on the pier...I'm sure you can relate. I remember the snapping turtle from last spring... saw a baby one last weekend while out on the bike...flashback time... Over at Diane's Page we often use the word FORWARD for various situations, from her breast cancer, to a friend's blindness, or even with personal issues. You, my friend, seem to be moving 'FORWARD' just fine. As are your children.

Jess----it's getting ready for that time of year where I'll have to be dealing with the Attack of the Killer Ham. Any suggestions for this Easterfest? Full body armor? Eat fish and be wary of bones? Tomato soup and grilled cheese? The there wouldn't be the Leftover Recipies for a Single Guy dilema!!! BTW, I donated your suggested ham coasters to the wildlife critters that inhabit the shrubbery adjacent to my place. Have a great week, and turn on the heat lamp sometime soon. I'm in dire need of watching tomato plants grow....like NOW!!! Peace, my friends �

Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, March 31, 2004 8:35 AM CST

Hi Charltons...just stopping in to see what's up. Hope y'all had a good weekend. Boy, this east coast weather sure has been something, huh? It's been another cold, gloomy few days up the coast here in NC. Hope everyone is well. Take care
Tom
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, March 29, 2004 11:25 PM CST

My Angel Son.

The morning dawn ascends so bright,
The world unfolds within it's light,
Hearts are merry and filled with joy;
But mine's of sorrow, o're my boy.

For he no longer shares my life,
And loving memories are not suffice,
I try so hard to smile within,
It seems impossible, without him.

To fill my heart with joy and glee,
I need my son, right here with me!
Our dreams, our future where stolen from us,
I'll never know why, it's all so unjust.

Since time cannot erase my love
For my son who now resides above,
I'll live my life with a heavy heart
Until that time we'll never part.

So morning dawn ascend so bright,
I'll do my best to *see* your light,
With hope and dreams for a better day,
I'll seek to understand as I kneel to pray....

"God, please love him as I do,
And may I also ask of you?
Tell him his mom worships him so,
She thinks of him always..I just want him to know.
Thank you God, I know you'll do right,
And thank you for the dawn so bright."

Author ~ Sandra Hemstock ~

Saw this poem and thought of your wonderful Robert. Thinking of you today, God bless. Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, March 29, 2004 4:05 PM CST

Good morning. well, spring break is over huh? Life gets back to normal..what ever that is! I hope things went ok for you over the weekend. some days are super hard aren't they..like birthdays of our loved ones that are gone. I know you have good memories to hang on to... thats what helps. You are a strong person and you will get you and your family through all these days... Prayers and cyber hugs.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 29, 2004 7:36 AM CST

It was so nice reading about your beautiful Robert, i found your site through another caring bridge site. My son Matthew is on hospice right now so I read some of your old entries to "prepare" myself even though we can never prepare ourselves for losing our child. God bless you and your family.
DArla <DLinden73@aol.com www.caringbridge.org/in/matthewlindenmayer>
Lexington, IN - Saturday, March 27, 2004 4:35 PM CST

Your comments about the puzzle of life touched my heart. My hope for you is you will always keep trying to keep filling it up until the picture of your life becomes very clear. Even if you don't like what you see, you will know the true meaning of love and who truly loves you.
-Anonymous
- Saturday, March 27, 2004 9:28 AM CST

After starting each day reading your updates, I feel lost without knowing what is going on. I hope yall are having a great spring break!
Laurie McDaniel <lauriemc@uga.edu>
Athens_Moultrie, GA - Friday, March 26, 2004 10:59 PM CST

Hello my beautiful friend.

I'm missing your updates...I hope all is well with the Charlton clan. I have a new nephew!! Matt's sister had a baby boy, Adam Matthew, on Sunday. He is (sort of) appeasing my desire for another baby!! I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend.

Love and hugs.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, March 26, 2004 10:20 AM CST

Just wanted to say hello. Eva was telling me about yall. I lost my son Feb 9,2003 to Leukemia. His webpage is www.caringbridge.org/la/matthewdison. We will be at memphis for the day of remembrance next weekend. Eva said you would be there also. Maybe we can speak and say hello.
Nicholas Dison <crasycrasy@aol.com>
Homer, LA - Friday, March 26, 2004 9:26 AM CST

No new updates = spring break..... I hope its been a good week for all of you. your still all in my prayers. My mom had her 90th birthday yesteray, it was a very busy and tiring day she got lots of flowers, tons of cards, and quite a few visitors.

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, March 26, 2004 9:05 AM CST

Dear Kathy,
Just stopping by and remembering a very special young man, named Robert. His mom is pretty special too! I am remembering you and your family in prayer.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Thursday, March 25, 2004 2:10 PM CST

Good Morning to ya'll. I am just blown away every day by the insite you have on things. I know you should have a column in a newspaper or write a book or something. I hope the kids are having a great spring break.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 24, 2004 9:15 AM CST

Hey there. So perfectly written (again). I'm heading that way again in a few weeks. Looks like I'll be in town on Friday, 4/16 until Thursday 4/22. Maybe we can do a 'Mom's' dinner again on Friday night????

Love to all,

Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, March 23, 2004 10:22 AM CST

I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you today and praying for peace and comfort.

God bless you and your family,

Dawn Pierce (www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce) <pierce94@juno.com>
Southaven, MS - Sunday, March 21, 2004 9:21 AM CST

Hi Kathy.

I checked your site earlier, but I'm glad I checked back. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. We're going to spend the weekend in Huntington Beach (just Matt and I). The kids are "camping out" with Grandma and Gramp!

I've been doing something called "Adventure Boot Camp for Women". I started this week, and it's a 4 week program. Needless to say, I'm exhausted and SORE! (It starts at 5:30 a.m. and I get home just in time to make breakfast, pack lunch, etc.) Well, I guess I better figure out how to get out of this chair and start the laundry...it's a glamorous job, but someone's gotta do it. It's going to take a bit longer than usual because my aching arms will only be able to load one thing at a time!!

Enjoy your weekend! Much love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, March 19, 2004 10:04 AM CST

Kathy
Hi. Glad you are enjoying work. I know how you feel about morning traffic. Every few weeks, the street near my house has a water main break. So, instead of a 5 minute ride to school, it could take 45 minutes. It drives me crazy. My sister is having surgery tomorrow for a shattered wrist(she fell last Thursday) so if you could say a little prayer, I would appreciate it so much. The sun is shining here today but we are supposed to get 3-6 inches of snow tonight. Go figure
Have a great weekend
hugs, Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Thursday, March 18, 2004 2:00 PM CST

Dear Kathy,
I just read your journal and back on the journal history for about a month. I don't read many of the websites anymore and neither does Joe. I guess we are just burned out! Thanks for signing on Ryon's website, it was good to hear from you. I think of you, Robert and the family often. I still can't fathom what you are going through. Ryon still has such a long road ahead of him with healing. He is growning so weary at times and it breaks my heart, but I thank God he is still here with us and that helps us to go on. Love to all the family. Dolores and crew.
The Rommel's <datz-phat@mail.com>
Jupiter, Fl USA - Thursday, March 18, 2004 7:52 AM CST

Oh Kathy: I am heartbroken about you having to decide about your dog. I guess my opinion won't be very "open-minded". I am such an animal lover - I will work around any problem rather than relinquish the pet. But, this is only my opinion and I know my answer cannot be right for everyone. Was pondering on what options you had. Here were some of my thoughts. Hope they help.
1-Could the kids use a different door instead of the front door where whe wants to bolt past them?
2-obedience classes?
3-Do you have a basement they could put her in when you are not home to hold her back from going out the door?

Just seems as if there is some sort of answer. You have had her a long time,she is quite settled in her ways and your home is the home she knows. And your kids are the one's she loves. On the other hand, I guess animals are adaptable and as long as you find her a very loving, caring home - she would adjust. But, would others tolerate the behavior? Or, would they not be so caring and when no one else would take her - would they be so responsible as to find her a good home or would they end up taking some less caring alternative?
I know this is NOT an easy decision for you.....I support you in whatever you have/choose to do. Wish I could take her myself---I cannot. :( I will keep you in my prayers for your heart to come to the decision that is right for all of you.
Your journal today was beautiful - the "everyone gets hungry" thing......you really should look into writing in a newspaper, magazine, something---you have alot of talent!
God bless,
Eileen
- Wednesday, March 17, 2004 4:55 PM CST

I always feel "full" after reading your post. That's one of the many reasons I come each day!
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, - Wednesday, March 17, 2004 1:37 PM CST

I've lurked for too many days, Kath, just following along. First, wishing you and the family all the Irish blessings and good wishes of today.
Again a powerful message today. Have you ever thought of becoming a cyndicated columnist for one of the newspaper organizations? Your way with words.... *amazing* once again.

I, outside looking in, can sort of agonize with your situation with Angel. I used to have a dog who was also very territorial. Animals are so astute. A dog I used to have, Gypsy, could hear MY car from 11 blocks away. She knew the car, not the driver. But if I wasn't the driver...well.... Not an easy decision to make regarding pets that have become 'family' over so much time.

Food for thought??? That's interesting, and close to home at the moment. Thanks again for the opportunity to make me stop and thing once again ;)

Sorry about confusing you with an obscure email the other day...consider the source, and you'll figure it out ;)

Wishing all of you a Pinch-free St. Patrick's Day... I'm sorta safe.... I posted as a Green Duck over at Diane's page Time will tell, I guess. God Bless
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.racingagainstblindness.com - Wednesday, March 17, 2004 9:54 AM CST

Happy St. Patty's Day to one of my favorite fellow Irish sisters :) Missing you...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, March 17, 2004 9:09 AM CST

Hello to you and your family. I found your site through another caringbridge site. My son, Shae, was a patient at St. Jude too. March 20th will be 3 years that he entered the gates of Heaven. I am sorry for your loss and will pray for you and your family.
Please stop by and read about Shae.

Dawn Pierce (www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce) <dawn.pierce@bxs.com>
Southaven, MS - Tuesday, March 16, 2004 4:38 PM CST

Wow! "I Can Only Imagine" is my favorite song and it brings me to tears when I sing it from my heart. I know it must bring them to you. I often think about how awesome it will be to meet Jesus. I have been checking Robert's site for awhile yet I dont think I have ever left a message. Keep it up and may God bless you and your family. In His love,
JoBeth Hunnicutt <jobedu@alltel.net>
Moultrie, GA USA - Monday, March 15, 2004 6:20 PM CST

Isn't it just amazing what a song can do for the memories and the tears....I have had to get up and leave a time or two or 3 or 4 when "It is well with my soul" was sung. I can't get past the opening cords still after 10 years. I am glad the whole thing went well though. and that kids will be able to play basketball for years from the scholarships.
While we all have to move forward in our lives we never will forget.. I was gonna say some more but I can't put it into words....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 15, 2004 2:48 PM CST

Kathy: If you happen to have a couple extra of those envelopes - how about putting one in the mail to me? Hope the kids are enjoying their week off - & I'll keep my thoughts toward you as you make your decision to head to St. Jude's as well as say goodbye. Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Monday, March 15, 2004 12:19 AM CST

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 0:46 AM CST

Hoping for a wonderful weekend for you all.
God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, March 12, 2004 11:03 PM CST

Just a note to let you know that at the School Summer Camps (Palm Bch County) they have schlorship programs. My daughter went 5 years in a row and I didn't have to pay. You should check into that at Matthews School.
Also, through that Palm Bch County Parks & Recreation Dept Christina can go to Summer Camp on a schlorship (all you have to do is apply) you don't have to be low-income.....
They have wonderful summer programs.....
FYI
someone who cares <someonewhocares@aol.com>
- Friday, March 12, 2004 10:39 AM CST

Have a good weekend my cyber friend. i am sure you will be busy. you have my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, March 12, 2004 10:30 AM CST

Good Morning Charlton Clan!

It's a cool morning here on the west coast. Kathy, as always, your entry really reached my heart. I'm contemplative as of late (could be PMS) and as I was running with a friend yesterday we were talking about our friend, Kristy, who died last year. We were Kristy, Christy, and Christi, and yesterday as we ran past the preschool where we all met, it hit the two of us very hard. We stopped, remembered, talked about Kristy, talked about us, our kids, our blessings, etc. It was both cathartic and heart breaking. I imagine there are many times you feel that way...maybe all the time. The seasons bring on memories and emotions and we can only move through them.

Once someone like Robert or Kristy enter your life, you are forever changed. They are impossible to forget! I hope today is filled with happy memories and much peace. Have a wonderful weekend.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, March 12, 2004 10:03 AM CST

You post today reminded me of a song we sing in church...
Will there be any stars, any stars in your crown... Kathy I am sure you will have many. What a blessing in your life to know that some one you prayed with at a Billy Graham (Know I spelled it wrong) crusade was saved in part because of your being there and kindness and prayers... You are a blessing to so many of us out here every day and I know that you are to your children too and family and friends. Keep up the good works. I can not imagine how it was for Robert or the thousands of other kids out there knowing the things they know about how things are gonna end up. I do know how my son felt about it as we talked about it, but in the end we still thought he had some time left when it all ran out. GOD be with you all today ..you are in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 9:25 AM CST

Kathy and family,
Glad things are going well. It is getting a bit warmer here on Long Island and guess what? I actually saw landscapers on my block today!!!! Could this be a sign of Spring? I sure hope so. Hav e a great weekend
hugs, Haley <Haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Wednesday, March 10, 2004 4:51 PM CST

I agree with Tammy's entry below - you have become a part of my life and I so enjoy checking on your family. The basketball games sounded like a blast and how wonderful to have a scholarship in Robert's name - what an honor. Well, just wanted to pop in, let you know you were in my thoughts and prayers and hoping for only the sweetest of blessings to fall upon you and yours.
God bless,
Eileen

www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Tuesday, March 9, 2004 7:25 PM CST

Funny how you have become such a part of my day. I check in each morning, and if you haven't posted, I check again in the afternoon. My children recognize Robert's sweet face when it pops up on our computer. I hope things slow down for you this week. Too much fun always wears me out! :)
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, GA - Tuesday, March 9, 2004 2:29 PM CST

Hey guys.....just wanted to drop in and say hello. We are just a week away from spring break around here, the children cant wait to be out of school. Yipeeee. Finally summer is a reality. We are tired of the 40 degree days around here...bring on the springtime. I hope all is going well down there in sunny Florida. Sounds like you have had a busy couple of weeks but then again when hasn't it been busy, tending to 3 kids, dogs, cats, and a job. Whew, a mom's work is never done. We are counting the days til summer and hope to see you then. Take care.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, March 9, 2004 1:34 PM CST

He IS VICTORIUS!! Hoping today finds you filled with God's never-ending love.
EJ'S "CARING" PLACE
Thinking of you!
Eileen
- Sunday, March 7, 2004 9:36 PM CST

Stopping by and praying for you and your children today. I love coming to see Robert with his fishing pole. He was such a fighter, fought to the bitter end, and definitely won. He is victorious over the evil one. I am thankful for his life, and all those that he touched. He is not forgotten, not even by complete strangers. Kathy, love to you and your children as you continue to live life to the fullest.
Love in Christ,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Saturday, March 6, 2004 7:36 PM CST

Kathy... all I can say is AMEN to your last entry. Again I'm finding comfort that our boys are together; mothered seperatly, in diffent states, but it seems they were so much alike. God bless
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
- Friday, March 5, 2004 11:22 PM CST

Kathy,

You expressed in a different way one of the lessons I learned through all this. Especially as we approach the Easter season. In these events we learn how deeply we love our children. More than we could imagine. Created in the image of God himself. We love to the point we would give anything to spare them pain, suffering or death. We were given no choice. Which makes me now appreciate how much we are loved by the Father. He had a choice. He chose to allow HIS child to suffer in our place to save us. Even to the point of saying no to HIS child's plea "Let this cup pass from Me". Somehow through your loss and Steven's suffering I understand that better now. I only pray others can accept and understand that without enduring the loss you have suffered. We remember Robert has gained everything. A wonderful reunion we look forward to.

Blessings to you and yours

Lyle Steven's Dad <lylev@datacc.net>
- Friday, March 5, 2004 10:28 AM CST

Thinking of you today.
Blessings, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Friday, March 5, 2004 2:17 AM CST

Greetings Kathy and the rest of the Charlton clan,
I know that it has been months, an eternity since I last signed, but I check this page everyday. I look forward to reading your words about life, death, everything in between, and everything thereafter. I have learned so much from your beautiful protrayal of your family's story. You have a talent like no other, and although you use it well through Robert's page, you can go so much farther. I want an autographed copy of your first bestseller. I am so glad to read that the kids are doing well (happy belated b-day Jessica)...I especially love the tales about basketball games. I am glad that you are loving your new job - if you can be happy working, then you are in the right place. Speaking of work, I graduate in May and have begun the job search, or rather the decision of where do I want to live, do I want to stay in school, etc. etc. I know that wherever I am supposed to be, God will lead me there. Spring break starts tomorrow and I am headed home - I have been sick thanks to student teaching for a month, so I really need to get healthy. Although a week at the beach would be fun, home is where I need to be. I hope that your family has the most wonderful weekend. I'll be praying for you.
with love,
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Thursday, March 4, 2004 11:57 PM CST

Hi Kathy.

I was just thinking of you guys and wanted to let you know. I missed Jessica's birthday and I am SO SORRY!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!!!!!!!

I had a baby shower here, on Saturday, for 50 people. Sunday we did clean up and then went house hunting. Long story and one I'm not too thrilled about. The good news is, we didn't find anything.

Off to command the chaos. Love to each of you.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Thursday, March 4, 2004 8:42 AM CST

Good Morning Charlton clan! It sounds like Jessica had a great birthday AND the job is going great! Is it time to break out the bathingsuits in Florida? It has been in the upper 60's and my little ones keep asking to go to the pool. I don't think they realize how cold the water would be - not to mention pools aren't even open here yet and it snowed here last week!! We have spring fever. Please send a little warm south Florida weather this way!! Always checking in............ :)
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, GA - Thursday, March 4, 2004 6:49 AM CST

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESS!!!! Sounds like you had a great day. I am glad you had fun. Take care.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, March 2, 2004 2:11 PM CST

I am sooo glad that you like your job and are fitting in, Isn't it nice to be hired on instinct?? I hate all those stupid questions and the answeres ya have to think up for some jobs. I specially hate the one 'and what can you do for our company better than anyone else can?' Hello to the kids you are all doing great. oh, and I was glad to read about Jessica's birthday dinner.. that every one came and got along and made a special day for her... Lots of families can not manage that. I am so glad that yours can and does.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, March 2, 2004 2:03 PM CST

Greeting, Charltons! Kathy, what another beautiful post. I don't need to remind you...Robert HAS made many impressions! I'm really glad you found that at a time when you needed to see yours. And you, my Florida friend, have made an impression on many, myself included.

Jess, is sounds like the party was just Superfantabulous on Saturday with so many important people there for and with you. Lemme guess... Chocolate cake with white icing?
Have a great week, everyone!
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, March 2, 2004 5:04 AM CST

once again your insite just blew me away..it's taken all day to get around to write... I know that Robert left a wonderful lasting impression that will never be forgotten. I hope that I can leave one that people remember me with as good of thoughts as everyone has of Robert. Im glad Jessica had a good birthday and that the job is going great... and that you have a wonderfulk houseguest
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 1, 2004 5:51 PM CST

Jessica-

Happy Birthday!!!!
Diane, Bo, Mitch and Kaleigh Mathis <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, FL - Sunday, February 29, 2004 6:17 PM CST

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JESSICA~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I hope you have the most FANTASTIC day!!

You girls are going to have lots of fun, doing the "girl" thing!!

Sending love and ((((HUGS))))

Eva...Proud to be part of Werbe Racing <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 28, 2004 7:20 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA, I AM ON THE WEB PAGE EVERY DAY
FOLLOWING HOW YOU ALL ARE DOING, ESPECIALLY YOU AS YOU
JUST HAD YOUR AUDITION AT DREYFOSS & CHRISTINA & MATTHEW.
PRAYING FOR YOUR ACCEPTANCE AT DREYFOOS, IT IS AN AWESOME
SCHOOL. I AM GLAD YOU HAVE MARIEKA HERE FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY
WHICH I AM SURE WILL BE GREAT BECAUSE OF YOUR FAMILY
AND FRIENDS. I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH AND YOU ARE IN
HEART EVERY DAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY , MRS. SCHWARZ(PAM)
P.SCHWARZ <pschwa4992@aol.com>
- Saturday, February 28, 2004 12:31 AM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica. Hope you're having an awesome day. I'll see you guys on Tuesday & I am so looking forward to it. Looking forward to being w/you guys for a few days & really, really looking forward to the Florida Sunshine & warmth.
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Saturday, February 28, 2004 12:08 AM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica!!
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net>
Crestview, FL - Saturday, February 28, 2004 7:45 AM CST

I said it before and I'll say it now
happy birthday Jessica. I hope you have a wonderful birthday.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 28, 2004 7:36 AM CST

Happy Birthday, Jessica! Hope you have a really great day and night, Jess. Glad things are going well for everyone else. Kathy, that's great that the job is working out well for you. Have a great weekend, everyone!!!

Tom-DaDuck <Werberacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Saturday, February 28, 2004 6:49 AM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JESSICA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!

Hope you have a most wonderful birthday and that it is filled with only happy things that you want to do! Enjoy the day surrounded by the love of family and friends.
God bless,
Eileen

www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, February 28, 2004 1:15 AM CST

Happy Birthday Jessica
hope you have a great day, thinking about you guys.
Love Martha

martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
w.p.b., fl 33406 - Friday, February 27, 2004 12:20 AM CST

Dearest Jessica, our firstborn "GRAND(EST)daughter". I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY, you are loved, you are special, I have a gift certificate for you since I know you LOVE TO SHOP... Call me on the cell phone and maybe we can connect after you are home from school today. LOVE AND BIRTHDAY WISHES... Mimi Jane and Papa JC
Jane Charlton Pike <ejpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL USA - Friday, February 27, 2004 8:44 AM CST

Jessica,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I hope you have sunny weather this weekend and may all your wishes come true. Kathy, I am glad the job is moving along and you are HAPPY. That is important. My sister was able to get coverage for the 800.00 a month medicine she is taking so this is a step in the right direction. Yay. Oh, and the Girl Scout cookies are almost gone from my living room. LOL. Have a great weekend.
Hugs, Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, February 27, 2004 5:39 AM CST

Happy happy Birthday Jessica... I hope its everything you wish it to be.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com, mopgal@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, February 26, 2004 10:02 PM CST

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!! I can't find my post so have to do it again. I just anted to say I hope things are going great at the new job and great for the kids at school... I hope you are all having a good week. you know your in my thoughts and prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, February 26, 2004 3:41 PM CST

Ugh, I still get car sick too, Kathy, and I'm 37 years old! For me, the dizziness comes first, then the light hurts my eyes and everything won't stop spinning, and I feel like I'm falling, very fast. Then the nausea hits. But it's a weird kind of nausea. I have almost never actually lost my lunch, so to speak.

Only thing that helps me is lying down in a dark room with no sound at all, and on a surface that's NOT MOVING. Takes quite a while for me to recover, hours sometimes.

Soooo.....now that you know way more about me than you ever wanted to, I just wanted to say CONGRATS on the new job! And WOO HOO KIDS, you make your Mama proud, I can tell!

Hugs and best wishes,
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Wednesday, February 25, 2004 6:15 PM CST

I am so glad to read the job is going well and the people are nice and the hours will work out for you. You deserve it!!! God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 10:50 AM CST

Hey guys!

Kathy, I hope the job is going well and the kids are all doing great. Not much to report from Southern Cal...just stopped in to let you know that you're in my prayers.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 10:28 AM CST

thanks for the post sorry the ride got you sick.... I envy you your job wish I had one like it. ya'll have a good evening now.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 24, 2004 1:55 PM CST

I hope you post tonight and tell us about the job and how it went the first day... and of course about your family... Did your guest get there ok? (I know you have nothing better to do than sit and type us a report ;) )
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 24, 2004 11:37 AM CST

I hope your first day at the new job went well.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, February 24, 2004 11:16 AM CST

sounds like today has some daylight in it..you sound a bit better, hope the spring is beginning. Think of you daily,
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, February 24, 2004 6:35 AM CST

Hi Kathy and family. Its good to see your post this morning, It sounds like you have a very welcome guest coming I know you will all have a good time together. I also think the job sounds so great. I know I said that before but I really mean it. I hope you all have a good week together. I like the words the minister left you with they mean a lot to me.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 23, 2004 9:46 AM CST

I found your website through another page. You have such a way with words. I was so touched by your entry that I have been sitting here reading many of your past entries, getting very emotional at times. I will pray for your family.

He gives strength to those who are tired and more power to those who are weak. Isaiah 40:29
Laurie McDaniel <lauriemc@uga.edu>
Moultrie_Athens, GA USA - Sunday, February 22, 2004 6:39 PM CST

Kathy and family,
Hope you had a great weekend. New York had off this week from school and it is back to the "fun stuff" for the kids tomorrow. My livingroom is flooded with Girl Scout cookies. I am the cookie mom for the troop and i cant wait for everybody to come get their orders today. yay!!!My sister is still stable but she did fall on Monday when she came with me to the mall. Insurance is tough and the meds she needs to take (which would only help with quality of life for awhile) cost 800.00 a month and it is not covered. She is petitioning her insurance company. Hope you are enjoying a sunny Sunday.
hugs Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Sunday, February 22, 2004 7:16 AM CST

The results take too long!!!! How can we all wait so long to hear if she gets in or not????? Good grief. Thinking of you Kathy and all of yours, and your life. Much prayer and sending faith your way. I do know that God wants no pain, His idea of time is just sooo different from ours....Love,
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Saturday, February 21, 2004 8:41 PM CST

Kathy,
Sounds like a wonderful day of new beginnngs and meaningful memories. You manage to combine your two worlds with courage and grace. I am proud of you and your job, as well as Jessica for her tryout. College entrance will be nothing to Jessica after she has completed this process!! You have moved over many bumps in the road and accepted changes and challenges with a peace that is truly beyond my comprehension. I am praying for your strength, wisdom and peace today.
Sincerely,
Amanda Adams <bafivefive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Saturday, February 21, 2004 7:31 AM CST

way to go Jess.....we are proud of you!!! I know you did your best. Have a great weekend guys...Hannah and I will be standing out in the cold selling girl scout cookies. Please think of us and send warm thoughts our way (and maybe some hot cocoa)!!! Give the little ones kisses and hugs from Mississippi!!!

Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, - Friday, February 20, 2004 4:29 PM CST

Just checking to see how the 'audition' went?????

Love ya
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, February 20, 2004 8:26 AM CST

good morning. It is always good to hear about the kids. Isn't it weird how a person can't start their day without checking on a family they have never met, yet feel close too.? I hope you have the laundry all caught up and are ready to start this new job. (as if laundry is ever caught up :) )I think the job sounds great. I know you are all moving forward and that is good. IT is still good to remember though......and hopefully with happy thoughts and not so much pain. as always you are all in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 20, 2004 7:25 AM CST

Hi Kathy,
I am so happy to read such delightful things are happening for all of your family. Good luck to Jessica. Just let your brightness shine through, that will blow them away.
Tell Christina and Matthew that I am proud of them too. You have such amazing and beautiful children.
Aunt Bambi <mary@forristall.com>
- Thursday, February 19, 2004 1:12 PM CST

Kathy - I check your journal almost everyday. You are such a great inspiration to me. You have so much faith and it shines in your journals. You are a great witness. And what a loving Mom. You have been through so much and yet you have been so strong. I don't know many people who could have made it through all you have had to endure. Good things will happen. Your new job is just the beginning. It sounds perfect for you. Hope your kids realize what a special Mom you are. I'm sure they do. I'll keep you all in may prayers.

Joy <jamesproperties@earthlink.net>
Wilson, NC - Thursday, February 19, 2004 8:39 AM CST

Ditto to all those below.... good luck today, Jess.... and hugs to all the Charlton clan, just because cyberspace lets me!!! ;)
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/sianekeel - Thursday, February 19, 2004 8:31 AM CST

Good Luck today Jessica!!
Tammy <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Thursday, February 19, 2004 6:36 AM CST

Hey Jessica...

BREAK A LEG!! I know you're going to be awesome.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 5:42 PM CST

Kathy - A NEW JOB!!!!!! YES!!!!!! I am so happy for you. I pray it is everything that you hope it can be. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's "Caring" Place
- Wednesday, February 18, 2004 5:08 PM CST

Good Luck tomorrow Jess. look forward to seeing you soon.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 2:48 PM CST

Hi Kathy and the rest of the Charlton Gang!

Kathy, I still check in on you every day. I'm not as good at signing in as I used to be, but I get about 3.5 seconds before I'm interrupted, need to drive the carpool, etc. Regardless, I think of you all the time and pray that you are all doing well.

Congrats on the job! It sounds like it's right up your alley. I hope it's everything you deserve.

By the way...I told you that Matt and I were planning on coming to Florida in November...well, it's been changed. Matt's cousin is getting married in Clearwater on October 16. So, we'll definitely be there. I'm not sure if we'll come in a week early, or stay a week after, but I'll let you know. I truly hope we can meet! (the girls may be with us too, so bring Matthew so he can meet Shea--grin!)

Hang in there my sweet friend! Love and prayers,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 11:54 AM CST

Kathy, thats great news about the job, I hope it works out well for you, as I am sure it will. I really dont know what else to say because its true, too many kids are relapsing. I look at the list of angels on the adopt a kids site and see that its 4-5 times longer than the list of the kids doing well off treatment, and its pretty scary...
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~ <Chrisrusso_@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 10:23 PM CST

Just to let you know we still check up on you. Hope the new job brings some satisfaction. Continue to keep you, Jeff and the family in our prayers.

Blessings,

Lyle and Peggy <lylev@dtnspeed.net>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 7:45 PM CST

That sounds like the perfect job for you, and the volunteers are lucky to have you. This will work out, and it may just bless you in many ways. Hope so, at least. Know my thoughts are with you daily. Much love,
Mary AliceD. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, February 17, 2004 7:04 PM CST

opps.... typo in the below entry I ment here not her....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 3:16 PM CST

Wow Kathy. that sounds like a job that iwould really like too. Congrats!!!!!!!! Glad to hear things are moving forward with the kids. I know there are so many days when something big or even really small brings back memories. The past two nights I have dreamed that the son I lost was here helping to remodel my house and it seemed so real. and I wish so much that he had been her to be an uncle to my last two grand kids they will never know him and how much he loved kids. Enough of that. I am so happy to hear about your job...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 3:14 PM CST

Welcome 'back', Kathy! That's really great news about the new job. It sounds like an exciting new challenge, and I'm sure you will do well with it. Sounds like a setting that does you really well, to. I wish you the best. Glad to know the kids are all doing well. Good luck with the audition, Jess...
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, February 17, 2004 6:59 AM CST

Kathy -- Congrats!!!! What a burden lifted -- and the job sounds fabulous too! Since we've moved, I haven't wanted to leave my house - too comfortable in here - too "new" out there. Coming to your site helps keep me from "dysfunction junction" :) You're right we must keep moving. Good luck Jessica! Keep us posted on your try out.
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell, GA - Tuesday, February 17, 2004 6:38 AM CST

Kathy
Congratulations!!!! The job sounds so relaxing and fun. You deserve it. I hope things continue to move only in the positive for you and your family. I did hear that it is a bit nippy there in Florida. We have some unhappy New Yorkers visiting and they are FREEZING. Hugs to you and thanks for caring.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 6:22 AM CST

Well Sunshine Band...it DID snow! It shut down the beach for a while again. It didn't just snow, but it was terribly windy as well. Tropical depression/storm type wind--- it's a good thing it's not bitter cold to go with it. AND...new forecast...Snow tomorrow night, Wed, ending Wed night.... HAHAHAHA ---global warming, my foot!!! Hope all is well down in tropical Florida...
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.or/ks/dianekeel - Monday, February 16, 2004 7:58 PM CST

Hey Charlton's
I just wanted to drop in and say hello. I haven't checked in for a while. I hope all is well. Hope the interviewing is going well. Everyone sounds good down there. We sure could use some of your Florida warmth these days. We actually got our first snow of the year yesterday. It was gone by noon. Oh well, there is always next year.

I guess that is all for now....take care of all of you!!
We miss you. Happy belated Valentine's Day!
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
MS - Monday, February 16, 2004 8:07 AM CST

Kathy: Hope the job interview leads somewhere and hope your heart is lighter. Thinking of you often.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Ej's Caring Place
- Monday, February 16, 2004 2:10 AM CST

Kathy,
I just read your entry about your birthday. I am 37 myself, and some days it doesn't seem so old. Then one day I say my age and I am struck, amazed, horrified, "Thirty-seven," I say to myself, "What? I am supposed to be 30! When in the world did that happen?" Well, since I can't be young anymore, my new goal is to have as much fun as I had when I was thirty. Notice, I did not say I am trying to look 30. That takes away all the fun I was just promising. :o) To look 30 now, there would be no chocolate or margaritas and I would have to live in the gym. No thank you! I will just act 30, how about you?
I think of you often. Praying for your peace---
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Sunday, February 15, 2004 8:43 PM CST

Kathy - I cannot believe I'm back! I've been w/out a computer since Christmas!! Laure and Amanda have given me some updates, but I have missed coming here each day! We now officialy live in Atlanta. I have been a baby -- missing my friends, church and schools. The kids are adapting much better :) I have lots of catching up to do. How long will it take me to read your journals since December? I hope all is well -- I'm thrilled to be back!
Tammy Holston <tsholston@bellsouth.net>
Roswell , GA - Sunday, February 15, 2004 7:23 PM CST

Hi, Friends --- I hope "All is well" down there. Life just doesn't seem the same without a daily message. I hope all of you had a good week and weekend. Guess what---it's supposed to snow yet AGAIN overnight. Now THAT's NOT Londonish type weather. Cool and Damp---yeah...Cold and snow???? Arrrrrrrrrrgh. Hope everyone is well. God Bless
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Sunday, February 15, 2004 6:26 PM CST

I hope the Charlton household had a gret & fun Valentine's Day. Can't wait to see you guys in a couple of weeks.

Love ya
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Sunday, February 15, 2004 10:16 AM CST

Wishing all of you PEACE AND LOVE this Valentine's Day.
DaLoveDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Saturday, February 14, 2004 9:40 AM CST

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, KATHY AND KIDS.....

Wishing you all a very "sweet" day!!

Love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 14, 2004 7:52 AM CST

I hope you and the kids have a happy valentines day!! I hope its filled with love and peace. How bout that job interview ??? Did it swallow you up??? you know your in my prayers daily
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 13, 2004 10:08 AM CST

Happy Valentines day!

Just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in our prayers.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Friday, February 13, 2004 8:32 AM CST

Gee Kath---did the interview take you out of the country? ;) Hope things went well with it, and that you and the kids have had a good week...
Tom-DaDuck <werbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, February 12, 2004 7:20 PM CST

Good morning to you I hope you have a good day.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, February 12, 2004 7:07 AM CST

Happy Late Birthday & Good Luck on the Job Interview!! You are always in my thoughts & prayers.
Tammy Weston (www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove) <la9tm@aol.com>
Brunswick, GA #1 - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 9:29 AM CST

Well I hope the interview went well - good luck on your job search - I know it's tough out there - trying to find one that will match your personality, your family, etc.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, February 10, 2004 8:29 AM CST

Hi thinking about ya and saying a prayer.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 9, 2004 2:40 PM CST

Good morning, all. Just stopping by to wish all of you a good week. Sounds like everyone had a great weekend. I read over at Zman's about the benefit dance. Of course, I'll wait til he posts his unbiased take on the event via cell phone before I pass judgement. ;) Have a great week... the *S* word is being tossed around here once again, and I don't think it means steak or shrimp or other good things associate with the letter "S"
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, February 9, 2004 8:24 AM CST

hi just want you to know I am thinking about you tonight and saying a little prayer. I hope you had a great weekend.. that every one stayed healthy and happy (happy as a bunch of kids can be)
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, February 8, 2004 9:40 PM CST

Sending ((hugs)) your way. Hoping today finds your heart a little lighter. God bless you Kathy.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's "Caring" Place
- Sunday, February 8, 2004 2:23 PM CST

Here's a hug. I wish we could take away the sadness. PS happy birthday.
Jo <jvonschoeler@cox.net>
- Sunday, February 8, 2004 5:01 AM CST

Hey Kathy- Happy Belated Birthday. Let's figure out a good day this week for lunch - my treat for your birthday. Let me know what day is good - Thursday, Friday???
Diane(Mitchell's mom) <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, FL - Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:41 PM CST

Happy belated birthday. I'm sorry I missed signing on Thursday. My nephew's birthday was on Wednesday and mine is today. I think that people born in February should celebrate their birthdays all month because it's a short month :) don't you? Hehehe! I just wanted you to know that I DO still check on you quite often and lift you up in prayer--and I think of you even more than I actually stop by and read the entries. Every time the Lord puts you on my heart I lift you up in prayer. I wish I could sign everyone's page every day. But, since I can't, please just know you are very dear to my heart and I care for you. I will continue to lift you up in prayer as the Lord leads. Blessings and love to you in Christ. I will stop back by as soon as I can.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC, - Saturday, February 7, 2004 10:41 PM CST

Happy Birthday! Funny how I used to want time to pass so slow, and now I am ready to hurry it along, so I can know how it all ends..you must feel that more than I do. You are always in my thoughts as you go along the hard path put down, and know I pray for you daily. Of course the star was Robert!! and God was out playing with him too. Happy Birthday, and much love from far away..
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Saturday, February 7, 2004 10:41 AM CST

Happy belated birthday! Hope it was a good one--I'm sure the cake the kids made was delicious!!
Laure C.
B'ham, AL - Friday, February 6, 2004 3:01 PM CST

Happy Birthday Kathy. I had been thinking of you and am surprised to find out its your bday, I should have come that day and I might not have missed it.... I know I am guilty of not coming by and not knowing what to say, which is ironic since I preach to so many people to just say anything! But I am thinking of you and how hard it must be on you all....
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, February 6, 2004 12:55 AM CST

Happy Belated Birthday!!! I'm sorry I missed sending wishes on your special day. As usual, your writing touched my heart today.

I was hanging out with my dad on Sunday...my parents have had some recent heartbreak, and I took the girls over to cheer them up. Anyway, my mom and the girls were baking cookies and my dad and I were talking. Suddenly, I looked at the man who taught me to scuba dive; coached my softball and swim teams; taught me to ride a bike; never missed a performance (even though he ran a company); and as tears were streaming down his face, I saw his age.

Never before have I thought of my parents as "old". But his grief aged him in a day and it broke my heart. Thanks for the words about your dad and Robert, and the reminder to cherish every moment. We're off to pick up "Grampy" and take him out for pancakes!

Much love to you!!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 10:35 AM CST

Kathy,
I have become adicted to your site. I eagerly await your daily updates. You probably think that I should get a life...I have one. I have one that I am very grateful for. I am a 44 year old mother and wife that was given a second chance to live life to the fullest. It is a long story...one I'll share with you one day. Having had a life changing experience has made me live life to the fullest, much like you do. Your site has been such an inspiration to me and I feel like you are an old friend. I know if I ever get to your part of the world I would be honored to meet you. I admire your being so straight forward and not afraid to share your insecurities and failures. I know I am rambling...so I will go. But I just had to drop by and tell you to glow girl and Happy Birthday. Your precious story of the shooting star brought the tears...what a gift.
Hugs,
Carla
C Adams <cadams@sedev.org>
Athens, TN USA - Friday, February 6, 2004 10:19 AM CST

Happy Birthday, Kathy (late).... because I always stop here in the morning, your late day post catches me wishing you everything good a day late. Your entry brought a smile once again to a friend who needs some smiles. I, too, saw the setting sun/rising moon yesterday evening, while mulling over lots of things. Change being one of them. Changes in my life seem to be a constant thing, as are the adjustments needed to satisfy the change. I hope someday I can deal with mine as well as you have done with yours.
Sounds like you had a wonderful birthday with the family. How special!!! And your own cake!!!
Jess will be happy to know I haven't destroyed any meals lately ;) Glad to here Matthew and Christina are doing well, too. Peace to you, Kathy.
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Friday, February 6, 2004 9:18 AM CST

Happy Birthday Kathy!!!!
always thinking of you.... & the family.....
Love you, always...
Becky <rbeckys@yahoo.com>
WPB, FL - Friday, February 6, 2004 8:04 AM CST

It sounds like a birthday filled with new memories.

I hope you had a very happy Birthday!
Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Friday, February 6, 2004 7:52 AM CST

Kathy

Happy Birthday. I know how you feel about birthdays. My mom and I always shared a birthday cake. Our birthdays were 2 days apart. After she died, I hated having birthdays. I mean, still today after almost 9 years, I despise the month of September. I am glad that your family and friends made it as special as you allowed them to. I remember my mom's 'ast birthday on earth. My husband and I went out and bought her so many presents. She did open them and they sat on the couch at her house until the day she died. New clothes and jewelry. I called her best friend to come over and take everything. It was so hard. Today will be a challenge for my sister and I hope she gets some hopeful answers. Have a wonderful weekend filled with happiness.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, February 6, 2004 5:32 AM CST

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY. I AM SURE THE CHILDRENS CAKE WAS A BIG HIT. HERE'S WISHING YOU A NICE WEEKEND AND PRAYERS, PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
THE D'UVA'S
BARBARA D'UVA <duva-a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH, FLA USA - Friday, February 6, 2004 4:47 AM CST

37 huh????? my baby is about that old he will be 36 real soon. I had never thought that I am old enough to be your mom guess I am though, Sounds like you've had a good birthday. I understand about how it can make you sad too. and a falling star how neat!!I dont think i have even seen one in all my 64 years. I think of you often and I always have you in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 7:39 PM CST

Hey you. Did you find the ultimate shoe sale and lose yourself in new shoe bliss? Do you need help carrying the bags??? Just checking in on the Charlton clan and missing your updates. Have a great day!!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, February 5, 2004 9:01 AM CST

Thinking of you!

Tammy Weston at caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove <la9tm@aol.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 10:03 PM CST

Thinking of you!

Tammy Weston at caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove <la9tm@aol.com>
Brunswick, GA USA - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 10:02 PM CST

hi nothing happening here to write about just the same old lauundry and dishes and cleaning... you would not think two old ladies could have so much stuff to do.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 4, 2004 1:13 PM CST

Hey Guys,
I want you to know that I'm thinking about you guys and missing Robert alot, Jessica I saw your Photo, here at the School Board they have the art display from all the School you take a really good picture, Katy I really what to see you soon.
Love Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB, Fl Palm Beach - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 12:13 AM CST

Just stopping in to say HI, and see how everyone is. Nothing new up this way, but the sun is out today. Hope all are well. Take care.
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, February 4, 2004 11:49 AM CST

It is so funny that you write about what is "acceptable" and "unacceptable" in our lives now. Boy have things changed at my house! Four kids will do that I guess. I have to just sit back and laugh as I look at my filthy kitchen floor and realize it probably will not get mopped again today--too many stops for the "Mom" taxi to make! Nice to hear I'm not alone!

Laure C.
B'ham, AL - Tuesday, February 3, 2004 12:43 AM CST

HEY, we all need a little optimisim.....I have things going on in my life that need quite a bit of it. I am glad you had a good weekend at the games. I also wish I could reflect and write about the things I see around me, but It just don't come. either ya got it or ya don't and you do. keep on thinking and keep on writing. I hope you hear soon about the job.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 3, 2004 9:31 AM CST

HEy there... I hope things went good at the ball games. and that ya'll had a good weekend. Since you havent been on today yet I am presuming that you either started a job or are at interviews...... I hope everything is ok where you are.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, February 2, 2004 1:14 PM CST

Saturday greetings, Charlton gang. Just stopping by to see how things are. Funny, I spent a good part of yesterday going back through old journals and posts as well. It's very interesting to see how things have evolved to where they are today, with lots of people. I hope you and the kids have a good time at the games this weekend. Take care, and God Bless...
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Saturday, January 31, 2004 7:00 AM CST

Sounds like all really is well with the Charlton clan! Hope you have a nice weekend. Peace to you!!!
Laure C.
B'ham, AL - Friday, January 30, 2004 12:49 AM CST

Good Morning Kat,
I too got that from that passage. I also read into it that the healing of his body was almost secondary or irrelevant after the healing of his spirit. Perhaps... the two are very connected. Perhaps, in some way his crippled body was a visible symptom of his broken spirit (body, mind, spirit). I often recognize that we "wear" our problems as visible banners of the state of our souls. This story is a good one to contemplate on many levels. Isn't it interesting that each time we read the same story in the bible, we can come away with a different meaning or new level of understanding?
I love you all,
Bambi <mary@forristall.com>
- Thursday, January 29, 2004 10:23 AM CST

Kathy
I am always drawn to your site for some inspiration or hope. My sister was diagnosed with ALS yesterday and I need all the hope I can get. Keep making a difference.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Wednesday, January 28, 2004 5:21 PM CST

You are so very wise! Your journals give me inspiration every day. I hope you got the kids up and moving...all is still quiet here on the west coast. I'm sure the day will come roaring down the track at any moment!

Love to each of you.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 8:13 AM CST

Hello Kathy and clan. youhave been in my thoughts... and prayers... I hope you get this job it sounds like it might be just the one you need. I don't know where we would all be without faith, although I don't know if I can put mine into words. maybe its a good thing to think about and try to~~~~~~ the time may come when I need to.
So Jessica is about to have a birthday. Hard to beleive they grow up so fast....
Here's wishing you a grand day today full of good news and good vibes.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 28, 2004 8:10 AM CST

WISHING YOU THE VERY BEST IN YOUR JOB SEARCH. IT WILL COME IN TIME AND IT WILL BE WORTHWHILE WAITING FOR.
MUCH LOVE , PRAYERS, AND PEACE TO ALL OF YOU
THE D'UVA'S
BARBARA D'UVA <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH, FL USA - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 5:04 AM CST

Very powerful last paragragh, Kathy, which I need at the moment. How'd you know? Thanks.

It's that time of year for it to be 'Londinish' again... 37 and fog/drizzle. Had snow over the weekend, which the rain stole away. Winter on the NC Coast is strange thing. Hoping good things with the interview
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 8:28 AM CST

Kath: I'm with Tom - send me some of that 'warmth' you have!!! It is cold up here - although I still love it up here.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 8:08 AM CST

Hi Kathy and family: So glad you had a delightful weekend. And that you found comfort at church - (and the special friend was......?) Glad you had company. God bless you all.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Monday, January 26, 2004 11:39 PM CST

Hi, Kathy and kids. I'm glad you had a good weekend. It's good to hear that the kids are enjoying themselves. And I'm glad you had the chance to share some time with the 'CB extended family'. Did ya snag any Key Lime Pie-on-a-sticks? If so, my mailing address is..... *snicker*

Please, when you have time, send some of your Florida warmth and sunSHINE up the coast... this 35 degree drizzle/fog/try-to snow stuff is getting old....real fast. Have a great week!
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, January 26, 2004 8:16 PM CST

Kathy, if a theologian wants to argue with a sense of Heaven sent to a bereaved mom, let him begin. I am sure Robert was there, as I am sure Heaven is so terribly close to us all, we are just a breath away..and God allows comfort to pass through..Glad you are in Church, I know it is hard to sit and not cry. Much love
Mary Alice D,. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, January 26, 2004 6:42 PM CST

Hi Kathy,

Hope you and the kids are doing well. Just wanted you to know I thought about Robert the other day, when I bought a Fisher Price fishing rod for my little boy. He's been having a great time catching the fish, although he likes to hold the fish in his hands and then put the hook in its mouth, and then he shouts 'I DID it!!' and we cheer and clap to celebrate. He'll get the hang of it, lol.

Warm wishes,
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Sunday, January 25, 2004 7:28 PM CST

Good Friday Kathy,
Have you missed me???? You have so many faithful followers I'm sure not!! Just wanted to drop you a quick line to let you know that I HAVEN'T forgotten you guys!! Things have been extremely "nuts" at this workplace, so my time to "sneak my peeks" has been very limited!! Please remember that I'm never too busy to remember you all in my prayers each night and I NEVER forget "our" boy. Your last journal entries with the job situation have been quite "amazing"!! I am very sure Robert was getting quite a laugh watching all of that go on. I am very proud of you for holding out for the "right" thing. It will come along, I have faith!! Please give the kids a big hug, and one for yourself as always!! I'll be back soon I hope, but until then......

Sent with BIG hugs and love,
Krista <krista.iverson@ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, January 23, 2004 10:37 AM CST

Kathy as I've in the past - you are such an inspiration to us all!!! What an eloquent entry today. I will listen to the song you quoted w/a whole new meaning.

Love to all,
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, January 23, 2004 9:39 AM CST

good morning Kathy and clan. I hope ya'll have a good weekend together...

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 23, 2004 7:10 AM CST

God has his reasons and when the right job comes along you will know it. Enjoy your spare time while you have it.
Sandra K. <cymomtx@yahoo.com>
Cypress (Houston), TX - Friday, January 23, 2004 6:24 AM CST

Incredible!! lol Good luck on finding that job that I KNOW is just waiting for you to find IT!! Good luck.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Friday, January 23, 2004 2:05 AM CST

Hey momma!
I was telling Diane about your e-mail to me (describing the job thing) and Diane's face fell, like oh my God! But, I said, "No, no, Kathy is fine . . . her e-mail was lighthearted . . . " And, that is you my friend . . . keeping it together when it seems to be falling apart.

I continue to be so proud of you and inspired by your courage and WONDERFUL attitude. Can we get together this week for lunch? I need a dose of my crazy friend!

I love you and though I am sorry your job fell through, I know the right occupation is waiting out there for you! One door closes and another door opens . . . always!
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Thursday, January 22, 2004 8:58 PM CST

Kathy: I'm not sure whether or not you should write a column because no one would believe "a day in the life of" at your house. You're so cute. Frank Cerabino and Ron Wiggins - look out!!!!! Most people would have curled up in a little ball by now but you're still out there plugging away. What else can you do? You know I don't write often but I do read every day.

Now about that job you got but didn't get -that would probably have ended up to be another just like the last one so you're better off. Work for someone who is family friendly. So many things coming your way that I'm sure something just perfect will be there soon! Good luck!!!!!
Nancy McDaniel <nmcdan1@aol.com>
WPB, FL - Thursday, January 22, 2004 9:31 AM CST

Good morning Kathy... Yes you should write a book or a column or something you are good at it and should get paid for it. That is a new one, to get fired before you even start. I have quit a job before I went to work the first day though. I hope just the right thing comes along soon. I was a working single mom and at one point left a 10 yr old to get her little brother up for school and fed, her older brothers were there but she was the responsible one....:) she got the older ones up and off to school too. it seems they either have to get off to school alone or come home alone after school. not good either way.
I hope Matthew is feeling ok from the dentist trip by today. you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, January 22, 2004 9:17 AM CST

Awwwww Kathy---I hate when that happens. And it's so hard to get back in the mindset of the original thought/post. It's happened to several of us, I know.

I really wish you had snagged some of those key-lime bars and sent them here. Even by snail-mail, they'd still be frozen. It's been sorta cold here on the NC Coast. But not like our friends up north who's forecasts call for blowing and drifting snow. Hope things are well today for you and the kids.

Tom
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, January 21, 2004 6:53 PM CST

WOW got up early to check on you and you lost it.... sounds like me... I am glad the kids ball games went ok and that ya'll had a good time. I hope the job thing gets settled soon, its tough to be a single mom and have to work and what to do about the kids needs. been there... done that.... I think that is the reason my oldest son never had kids.. to much raising kids when he was one. :(
take care now see ya later.

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 21, 2004 5:49 AM CST

Missing you today hope everything is ok there.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 19, 2004 4:15 PM CST

Hey Kathy: YES, I come here on weekends too - I am addicted! LOL Not only do I love reading the journals of my caringbridge friends, but the guestbooks are just a wealth of information AND inspiration! Praying for you continued strength and Peace. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Monday, January 19, 2004 12:21 AM CST

Hey there Charlton Gang,
I just wnated to remind you that we still think of you EVERYDAY and read every update.. even if we don't call. We will have to come see the kids play basketball. I am sure it so cute. Miss you guys.
XOXOXOXOX

Cancer Sucks Club!
www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scott, Rebecca and Zachary <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Sunday, January 18, 2004 3:38 PM CST

Kathy, I hope I was the Ruth you were talking about. I read everyday. I was happy to see your post tonight. I just got home from work and I spend about an hour reading caringbridge sites everynight. Basketball games are bitter sweet here also. Adam also played when he was going through chemo. He wasnt very good and it broke his heart that he couldnt be better, but with the vincristine and the steriods it was just so hard. Austin is a great basketball player and has such a good time playing and it comes so easy for him. I wish Adam could have enjoyed it more. I think it just brought alot of frustration to him. I remember one of the last games that he played all the players on the team kept giving him the ball to try to get him to score cause he hadnt scored the whole season. Everyone was pulling for him. Today we made soupy, an italian tradition that we do every year, and Adam loved making that. Its hard to do it without him, but Austin so enjoyed it today. I will Never understand why they had to go through all that suffering and still die. Always thinking about you and your family.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 10:55 PM CST

Cathy, thank you so much for sharing that journal entry with us....I'm praying for you all as you go through this difficult and lonely time..Please know your Quilts of Love family is here for you if you should need us..Hugs Carolyn

Carolyn <carolynj52@ilovejesus.net>
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 5:18 PM CST

I'll be thinking of you today...I hope you feel Robert during the games! I'm sure he's watching.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 11:40 AM CST

Kathy,
It must be so hard for you with all the memories of Robert. You are such a strong person and I need some of that strength right now. Please, if you get a chance, say a little prayer for my sister, Fern, who is going through a difficult time right now and we are waiting for good news.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 10:25 AM CST

Peace, this weekend, Kathy �
Tom
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 9:18 AM CST

Oh Kathy, I know the pain. I am glad you have so many memories of your sweet boy, but at the same time it does hurt. Take care... have a good weekend with the kids...
and yes I come every day just in case you have something here. your in my prayers even as I type.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 7:09 AM CST

So glad to read Jessica is feeling better. Just stopping by to let you know you were in my thoughts. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Saturday, January 17, 2004 1:50 AM CST

Kathy, I love that song so much. It makes me very happy for Adam when I hear it. I wish I had heard it before Adams furneal so I could have played it there. People would have then realized what a great time Adam is now having, yes it doesnt stop us from missing them any less though. You know I never thought of how we should be happy to go to heaven to see Jesus. I just always think about Adam when I think of heaven now. But you are so right, that should not be our only focus, but as humans it is and I do think God does understand.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Friday, January 16, 2004 9:08 PM CST

how deep your thoughts are.. and I can understand what you are saying. exactly. I am glad to hear that Jessica is finally feeling better and that the other two are busy being kids too.
I hope you can find a job that is what you want and that pays enough to live on.
Have a good weekend all of you.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 16, 2004 3:16 PM CST

Just dropping by to say hello and let you know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, January 16, 2004 2:15 PM CST

Kathy, remember, a year ago, when we were still fresh in remission, and had lost a couple of close friends, as all cancer families, Robert came to me, and let me feel that Heaven is soo close to our world..I needed this for some reason to resolve a major dilemma with God I had been having, the What IF dilemma, and together they let me know that if ever what if, it was not far...so, your feelings have to be because they are walking with you. We go again in June, will you try to go to Memphis in the spring?? Would of course love to see you there, but the summer is warm there.....I read daily, though I often dont write. Still, I hold you close. We are good, Love to your family...
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Thursday, January 15, 2004 7:05 PM CST

My eyes must be going bad...I thought Tammy wrote "we've been between horses"... Happy Thursday to you and the Sunnshine Band.

Of course, work has once again altered my schedule, so 'girl A and boy B can have a same day off together'. So now, tonight will remain my Tuesday in the scheme of a 5-day workweek. If you're confused, check in here!

From NC, Have a great day....
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, January 15, 2004 10:24 AM CST

Kathy-

I wanted to stop by and say hello. I am so sorry to hear about Maria. Cancer just sucks, plain and simple. I think of Robert often. There is a boy in Mitchell's class that reminds me so much of Robert - his looks and his personality. I remember seeing this boy last year at the baseball field and immediately thought of Robert. You are such a strong woman, great mom and wonderful friend. Take care - good luck with the job interview and yes, I agree we should get together this weekend. Talk to you soon-
Diane <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, FL - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 7:12 PM CST

Kathy -- I have been w/out a computer since Christmas! We have been between houses for three weeks and staying with friends. What brave friends!! They have opened their homes to me and my three girls! Scott is already in Atlanta, but our home will not be ready until next week. I can't wait to get back on-line. I miss your daily entries. I'm at a friends right now... borrowing her computer! Amanda told me about Maria. I'm so sorry. I'll be keeping tabs on you and should be back on line by February. Take care -- Peace to you Kathy Charlton!
Tammy Holston <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham (at least for now), AL - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 4:41 PM CST

Kathy,
My wise young nephew told me a few days after his mom lost her battle to cancer "I'm sad, but I should rejoice because she is in a far better place than we are. I am only being selfish to want her here with me. She is in a place free of pain and she is happy to be there." I thought about this after he said it, I thought he is so young but so wise. I hope this makes you smile. Life is beautiful, and so is the after life. Live this life like Robert would want you to live it, and someday you will rejoice in Heaven with Robert.
Melissa <mdmarkowski@adelphia.net>
Huntersville, NC USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 2:49 PM CST

Hi Kathy. an email will be on the way shortly. You are in my prayers. isnt it funny how you think the kids are little and can't cross the street and here they are growing up. enjoy it caue they grow so fast
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:41 AM CST

Just stopping in to say Happy Wednesday
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 1:42 AM CST

Dear Kathy, You have no idea how timely that message of "Hope" is for me today. Thank you!!
Jacqueline
Stamford, CT - Tuesday, January 13, 2004 10:03 AM CST

thinkin' of ya today and of course saying a prayer

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 12, 2004 7:00 PM CST

Oh Kathy Robert did love food, and he eat it with such pleasure and he would alway let you know how Good it was and thank you, I always liked to cook for him because he did apreciate it so, he seem never to take it for granted, I miss that so much.
love Martha
Martha Maloy <Maloywayne@msn.com >
WPB, Fl Palm Beach - Monday, January 12, 2004 11:17 AM CST

Good early morning from still chilly Carolina. Hope you guys have recovered from the sweet-tooth party on Friday. Just wanted to stop in and say Hi. Hope everyone is healthy. Have a great week.
Tom
KDH, NC - Monday, January 12, 2004 3:44 AM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA. GLAD YOU ARE HAVING THE GIRLS OVER FOR A FUN TIME.
WISHING YOU ALL THE VERY BEST THNGS IN LIFE
LOVE, PEACE, AND MANY PRAYERS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
THE D'UVA'S
BARBARA D'UVA <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PLAM BEACH, FL USA - Saturday, January 10, 2004 5:45 AM CST

Christina: Your party sounds like a wonderful CELEBRATION! Gee, would love to have one of those treats! LOL Happy Birthday!
Hello Kathy: Just stopping by to read yet another journal entry that touches my heart. God bless, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej - one and all come by to visit. :) Eileen
- Friday, January 9, 2004 11:59 PM CST

Christina
I hope you have a great party. Sounds like fun and so FATTENING. My kind of party. I have to say, Kathy, you truly amaze me. You manage to find the positive in everything and make so many of us feel blessed to have found this special place. Have a great weekend
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, January 9, 2004 6:45 PM CST

Happy Birthday to Christina, Hope you all have a wonderful time together.
Love Martha

Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB, Fl 33406 - Friday, January 9, 2004 3:55 PM CST

Hey Kathy.... Remember that one sunset picture I posted to you a while back----the one with the tree? My 'mullet hole', as Robert might call it? No castnet today, but... the scenery is just as PEACEFUL.... Same tree, different season. I sit here and chuckle, as you reflect----what would Robert have said if it was snowing on his favorite mullet hole?

DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC - Friday, January 9, 2004 12:10 AM CST

Happy Birthday Christina........we hope you have a great birthday party!!!
Hannah, Emily & Justin <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Friday, January 9, 2004 8:44 AM CST

Kathy, Peace to you also today. I love to start my day with your journal entries. Miss them on the days you do not write. Always thinking about you and your family. Hey how about Oprah?
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Friday, January 9, 2004 7:56 AM CST

Happy birthday just in time for your Party Christina. Jessica I hope your feeling real good soon... and Matthew I hope your trip to the dentist was not to bad.
Isn't it nice to hear good things about how Robert influenced others...? You are doing something right Kathy.. You know I wish only the best for you all. and you know your in my prayers

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 4:56 PM CST

Hi Kathy.

I've been out of town and just getting caught up on your last few entries. What an up and down week or two you've had--but, true to form, you found the beauty and the hope in every moment. You are an amazing woman!

Funny you should mention your early morning walks...I was running yesterday morning and I ran my route in reverse because of the full moon. (It didn't make me crazy, I just wanted to look at it, not have it at my back--grin) I was thinking of you and how you often described the early morning moon. I was mesmerized at how soft, but how bright, it lit up the morning. (sounds silly when I re-read that but I was thinking of those "soft white" light bulbs and how the inspiration must be the moon. Still, nothing man-made is as beautiful!)

Happy belated birthday to Christina and tons of well wishes to Matthew as he heads off to the dentist. I hope you have a beautiful day.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Thursday, January 8, 2004 10:07 AM CST

I am enjoying the stories - they are so heartwarming. Happy, Happy birthday to you Christina!!!!!! My son is 9 also, his birthday was in August. Good luck Matthew on your dentist appt. I certainly understand your nervousness, my son doesn't much like the dentist's office either. Hope you do well. Have a good day Kathy - I will be back very soon. Take care. Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Thursday, January 8, 2004 8:15 AM CST

Hi Kathy! and Happy Belated Birthday, Christina! Mom's going to have to stop calling you her 'little' girl soon, yanno ;) And let me guess----you're going to have a chocolate cake with white icing ;)

Glad to hear Jess is feeling better. Any kind of sick is no fun... especially when you just feel so 'blah'. And Matthew---I hate dentists too. My teeth are proof of that ;)
Kath, routines or not, your journals are always a pleasure to read. And it's great to read about how Robert touched others in much the same way he touches us 'strangers'. Keep the stories of 'the Shadow' coming, please ;)
Tom <Werberacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, January 8, 2004 7:35 AM CST

hello I hope this finds you all ok. I know you have a lot going on and I hope you are finding peace with it all. I survived my bad month once again and things look better on this end so I hope it does for you too.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, January 7, 2004 11:15 AM CST

Kathy,
Please forgive me for my lack of entries. It hasn't been because I haven't been here or haven't had you on my mind each and every day. Things have been extremely crazy both at work and home. I tried to give you a quick call this morning, but was unable to get you. I'll try again later today. Eric and I are taking off for a few quick days of R&R in Vegas on Friday. Rest and relaxation and Vegas don't quite go together do they? Oh well, we've never been there so I decided to surprise him with a quick 3 night trip for his Christmas present. The only catch was...he had to take ME with!! If I get everything done in time to leave I will be amazed, but I'm trying!! There are so many things I want to talk about, but now isn't the time. SOMEDAY we will connect, maybe it will be today!!! Until then, please give the kids big hugs from me and as I always say, have them all squeeze you real tight from me too. "Our boy" has been on my mind really heavy lately, I don't know the reason, but I'm sure there is one. Keeping you all in my prayers and I'll talk to you soon.

Sent with big hugs and love,
Krista <krista.iverson@ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Wednesday, January 7, 2004 7:19 AM CST

How neat a story. I am glad she shared it with you. Chocolate cake with white frosting is my favorite too, however I can't have sweets any more, so just hearing how some one else enjoys it will have to do. Jessica... I hope you get well soon being sick is no fun. and Kathy good luck with the job search... I always hated looking for a job and being the new person the first few days. guess everyone does. Your all in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, January 6, 2004 8:25 AM CST

just checking in, not worried as I know you are busy with life, and so many to look after and yourself included I hope!!! Is 75 here today and I thought of you. Things remain good here, and you know we are Thankful and realize what we have. Keep in touch, and much love,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, January 5, 2004 6:35 PM CST

thinking about you and praying for you
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 5, 2004 10:26 AM CST

Hey Guys,
Thinking about you guys and wishing you a happy New Year
love martha
martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
WPB, Fl Palm Beach - Monday, January 5, 2004 9:34 AM CST

Sweet Christina, i dont have your personal email adress so Im writing the best wishes (belated) for your birthday on this page. I hope it was a great one. Please keep your warm and tender heart, much love to you and the others.
Yours Marieke
Marieke <Rieke61083@aol.com>
Hannover, Germany - Sunday, January 4, 2004 7:54 AM CST

I had to write and tell you that I am so sorry for all the losses in your life at this time. A time when you are still hurting over the loss of your precious son. I too lost my precious Zach on Sept. 14, 2003. He was 9 yrs. old. He was such a special little boy. He was diagnosed on June 8, 2002 with a pontine glioma. He fought hard for 15 months. I just had to introduce myself. It so helps (me anyways) to e-mail back and forth with others who are going through what we are. We all know how we are feeling. Losing a child is like having your heart ripped out and stomped on. The pain is unbearable. I will keep your family in my prayers.
www.caringbridge.org/nm/zach
Misti-m/o angel Zach <dmherrera14@msn.com>
Artesia, NM USA - Saturday, January 3, 2004 0:42 AM CST

Kathy, just checking in, though I read you daily. You know I think of you lots, and all your family. We remain good, and things are going well here, just wanted to say hello...keep strong. Much love
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, January 2, 2004 11:06 PM CST

Kathy
I am so heartbroken to hear of Maria's passing. Robert is comforting her now and they are both watching over your families.
hugs, Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, January 2, 2004 6:26 PM CST

Good morning Kathy. I am so sorry for yet another loss in your life of your dear friend Maria. 2004 is off to a bumpy start, but I know you will "shine" through with the faith you always show. What an inspiration. Take care and blessings to you all. Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Friday, January 2, 2004 11:50 AM CST

I know I sent a message this morning but I do not see it. Must have pushed the wrong button
anyway I know this is gonna be a rough day for you. I wish you comfort and peace. my prayers are with you especially today.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 2, 2004 11:48 AM CST

Happy New Year my dear friend and to your family too. I am sorry for the loss of your friend Maria. I hope she will give Robert a big hug from all of us. I will touch base with you soon. Otherwise peace and happiness in this New Year. Much love, Tricia and Jessie
Tricia <Supportjess@aol.com>
Loxahatchee, FL - Thursday, January 1, 2004 8:10 PM CST

Peace, love and much happiness for all of you, Kathy, in 2004.
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, January 1, 2004 7:16 AM CST

Hello-I was wrapping Christmas gifts with Robert's photo collage at my face. I shed a tear and talked with him. Letting him know that Christmas will be a happy time, though we will always miss and love and remember him. He understands, I know.
The loss of Stephen is new and raw and the testament to how short and unpredictable our lives are. Stephen was a part of our family in the sense that he grew up with Kathy and her brothers. The children were inseperable and they ruled the neighborhood: Shari and Steven, The Irvins, the Waldrons, kids being kids and sticking together. This group lived inside each others homes-shared all experiences and always had each others back. Some of their antics made them quite like the Three Musketeers (or the Three Stooges) but they felt safe and shared much and embraced their differences. Growing up makes you move apart, but not in your hearts and minds. These are the people who helped make you feel safe and secure to grow up, knowing that there was a place (called 102 Avenue) where you ruled, played football in the street, hide and seek on the block, ate great meals and had sleepovers and a few great parties, all within the cocoon of the neighborhood, where life was big, but also small enough to grow and mature and change safely. God bless the neighborhood and the neighbors who nurtured my children to grow into the adults they now are. God bless you, Steven Bell. You were loved and will be missed.

Barbara Waldron <imb4ubunny@aol.com >
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 4:31 PM CST

I WAS TRULY SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT MARIA. WHAT A WONDERFUL FAMILY SHE HAS AND THE THOUGHT OF HER WANTING TO BE NEAR ROBERT IS A BLESSING IN DISGUISE. SHE WAS A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN AND ALWAYS LOOKED LIKE AN ANGEL WHENEVER I SAW HER. I GRIEVE WITH HER FAMILY AT SUCH A LOSS, BUT AM JOYOUS OF THE FACT THAT SHE WANTS TO BE NEAR ROBERT. MUCH PEACE, LOVE AND PRAYERS THAT 2004 IS MUCH BRIGHTER FOR ALL OF YOU.
THE D'UVA FAMILY
BARBARA D'UVA <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH, FLA USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 3:04 PM CST

Hello Kathy and family,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know she was not family but I can tell you loved her just the same. She must have been a beautiful woman, you have talked of her so highly. I know she is happy where she is with our Lord and with Robert. Thank you for such a wonderful tribute to this woman. It is funny how life changes in just one instant. We lost a dear woman, my mother in law, this month too and it is still heavy on my heart as we go into this new year. She had melanoma and there was no treatment for it. I don't know how it is to lose one of my children but I do know that any loss at all is very painful. My children lost their grandmother and I lost my friend. Next to losing Robert, it has been one of the saddest moments of my life.
Please tell your friends that we are so sorry, and thank you for painting such a beautiful picture of this woman that meant so much to Robert.
Love and Peace to all of you down there in sunny Florida.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 11:27 AM CST

I agree with the post below. Kathy, I can not even begin to know how sad you must feel. You are loosing just too many here all at once. my prayers are especially with you this day. I hope that 2004 will bring happier times for all.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 10:53 AM CST

Oh Kathy...what a beautiful tribute to your friend, Maria. I pray that her family finds peace. Have a blessed New Year, my friend. You are all in my prayers.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, December 31, 2003 10:04 AM CST

Well Mimi Bunny couldn't have said it more true about Steven & our lives together on 102nd Avenue. He will be missed, as is Robert, but as I look back I have a smile on my face as I think of all of those antics that Mimi Bunny talks about as well as the love we all had & still have for those families who we were all a part of. While we have moved away, we still keep in touch, although probably not as well as we should, but it is comforting to know that we are still a part of each others lives & there for each other.

While we go into the New Year lets stop & say a prayer that life can get a little easier for all, while right now we are feeling the pain of such a loss, we learn & find our strength within and with our beliefs to move on, as Steven & Robert would want. Hopefully in 2004 we'll move a little closer to wiping out those nasty 'Satins' such as Cancer, depression & other illnesses that seem to be afflicting us all in one way or another.

Love to all & please have a Happy & Safe New Year
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 9:12 AM CST

Hello friends! Another year closes... another year looms ahead.

Kath, as always, your words tug at the heart. You speak so well for so many. The wounds you feel now will heal, and you'll have the scars as memories. Scars are a good thing, though, because scars show that healing is taking place. Some take longer than others to mend. Eventually they do.

I'm sorry for your recent losses in these holidays. Though we hate it, I guess sometimes God needs to take these angels from us, to either save them from their pain, or maybe, to save us from ours.

Ahhhh---- the benefits of multiple windows... I can listen to SHINE while I post ;)

Jessica, since you read daily, I've got to get something in here for you to chuckle at. I survived the Christmas ham! No mortal wounds! Now, a certain EVIL person is telling me I'm not a 'real cook' because I've never made bean soup. Or that I cheat on New Years, and have always used canned black-eyed peas. So... I'm gonna fix that EVIL one! I'm gonna cook my own black-eyed peas to perfection, flavored with the Christmas ham bone, then send the bone to an undisclosed doghouse in Michigan as a late Christmas present for Brutus the Beastly Beagle ;)

I'm glad you saw the moon the other evening, Kath and Jess. There's something about the stars....and nature. I'm still stalking the blue heron that I see most every morning coming home from work ;)

Glad you got the photos up again---if ya need help with any others, let me know, Kath.

I wish the KC Sunshine Band peace and happiness as the New Year begins.

Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 8:24 AM CST

Kathy
I am glad you had a wonderful Christmas with your family. I am sure that Robert was watching with a big smile on his face. I hope your family has a great 2004 and that it is filled with much love, health and happiness
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 9:48 PM CST

HI. I am glad to read your post of the day. Things will get a little easier as you go on.. they truly will. You will have whole days when you are not sad even once. ( and days when you ar sad all day) this is the 10 year anniversary yesterday of when my Mike left us.. I have tried really hard to keep busy these few days, but its always there in my mind. you know you are in my prayers daily... I hope you can begin to go on again...in fact you already have for over a year now.....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 8:18 PM CST

Dearest family & friends - I very seldom leave messages here, though I do read and "catch up" when I have been away from the pages for a while. I am so glad we "lingered" with Robert at home before he left for the last time in Jeff's arms. I am so glad we came early and stayed late when we had family and friends for "visitation". I am so glad we can go and linger at his body's "resting place". Yet we know he is not there for he has since his spirit left us been in the very presence of God. It is strange that your best friend lost her brother at age 38. My brother Robert left this life at the same age of pancreatic cancer. My mother had to deal with that just as you and your friend's mother are dealing with the loss of a son. I do not think there are any of us who deal with it in the same way as a mother does. I think back to the words in the bible where Jesus says to John, the beloved "John, behold your mother" (he was speaking of Mary, his own mother) and "Mother, behold your son". Perhaps he wanted to teach us that we must look to someone else to share the loss with. Someone who can fill the void being left by the one leaving. Not as a substitute "Robert", but as one we can relate to in the same manner. We would all prefer it be us, the older ones to go; yet God's plans are perfect and we will know of them in time. I pray God's richest blessings on you and our family as we go forward in the life that Jesus would have each of us live for HIS GLORY. Love and Prayers, Mimi Jane
Jane Charlton Pike <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 11:07 AM CST

Good Morning, Charlton Clan....

I hope things are well with all of you, since we've not heard from you. I'm taking it that you are really enjoying each other, and all of the new Christmas gifts! Maybe you've taken to bike riding, Tour de Florida? Maybe Jess is busy looking for recipes for a certain duck who don't know how to cook bean soup or blackeye peas??

Wherever you are, know that we are out here, missing you, but wishing you well!

Sending love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 9:03 AM CST

Hey! Where are you? Are you stuck under the pile of Christmas stuff you were wanting to bulldoze? Just checking in on the Charlton clan! Hope all is well on your coast. Love to each of you.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, December 30, 2003 8:22 AM CST

Many blessings and much happiness in the New Year!
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Monday, December 29, 2003 10:30 PM CST

Please know that although I do not get to sign your page every day, rarely a day goes by when you are not in my thoughts. And, of course, when I think of you, I lift you up to the Lord in prayer. I am happy to hear that your Christmas was filled with joy. I know you miss your boy, your Robert. I am constantly praying that the Lord continue to give you strength there. You are doing a remarkable job with all that you have to deal with. Please know that you are loved, cared for and prayed for. I will be back as soon as I can to sign in again. Blessings and love to you and your family in Christ.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Monday, December 29, 2003 10:34 AM CST

good monday morning Kathy. I was getting ready to say are the kids all at school, then I remembered... its still vacation. YOu can tell I dont have kids at school any more. :) I hope all is going well for everyone.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, December 29, 2003 6:07 AM CST

When you're done with the bulldozer will you send it my way? For some reason, I decided to clean out the girls' closets and drawers before I tried to squish all their new clothes and toys in...Like it wasn't a big enough mess with all of the remnants of Christmas lying around--now I have a closet cleaning mess on top of it all. To make matters worse, I'm out of steam. So, it will wait for me to recharge and start up again tomorrow.

I'm glad your Christmas went well. Our's was a bit different too...my brother-in-law joined us, with our nephews...he's newly divorced (hmmm...interested in long distance??) and it was a bit tough on all three of the Hamilton boys this year. At 6:45 a.m. we had 13 people checking out what Santa had left, and watching the rain come down in buckets. By 4:30 p.m. we had 19 people eating me out of house and home and a river running down the street. It was great! Thus...the Christmas remnants all over the place. Oh well.

It's a lovely, clear, cold, night...I'm thankful for this time of year and what it's really all about. I'm thinking of ya...
C hristi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, December 26, 2003 8:02 PM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope today was enjoyable.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Friday, December 26, 2003 0:14 AM CST

Merry Christmas, Charltons...

I hope you all had a very enjoyable day!

Wishing only the best for you and the upcoming new year,

Love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva and Sammie <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 7:10 PM CST

Merry Christmas Kathy and kids! I hope your Christmas Day is filled with wonderful, HAPPY memories and that you make many more!!!
Laure C.
B'ham, AL USA - Thursday, December 25, 2003 2:53 PM CST

Merry Christmas! I just wanted to drop in to let you know I'm thinking of you today, and as I can see in the guestbook-- so are MANY others!
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Thursday, December 25, 2003 11:45 AM CST

Tom
DaDuck
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 10:27 AM CST

Good morning. Where ever you are and what ever you do today I wish you PEACE.... my prayers are with you. GOD bless.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 8:55 AM CST

CHRISTMAS GIFTS

IF I COULD GIVE YOU LOVELY GIFTS

TO MAKE GLAD YOUR CHRISTMAS DAY,

I WOULD NOT GIVE YOU A SINGLE ONE.

I'D TAKE SOME THINGS AWAY.

I WOULD TAKE AWAY ALL YOUR SORROWS

ALL PAIN AND DOUBT AND FEARS.

I'D TAKE AWAY THE LONELY HOURS

THAT WOULD COME THROUGHTOUT THE YEAR.

I WOULD TAKE AWAY ALL UNKIND WORDS

THAT MAKE YOUR HEARTACHES DEEP.

I'D TAKE YOUR WORRIES AND YOUR CARES,

THESE I WOULD NOT KEEP.

YOU SEE INSTEAD OF LOVELY GIFTS,

"IF I ONLY COULD"

I'D TAKE AWAY FROM YOU ALL THE BAD THINGS

AND LEAVE ROOM FOR ALL THE GOOD.

Author Unknown

I love that song that you have here.
Yes, life goes on, memories and bonding moments are treasures that can never be taken away.
If you need to punch somthing, maybe there is a boxing club in your area? Perhaps they could help you out! Great stress relief I am sure.
Wishing you and yours a very Happy Holiday.
Hugs and Hope, Love and Prayers to you from us, QOL
Cheryl <carpathienblue@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 25, 2003 0:38 AM CST

Merry Christmas Kathy and Family.
Know that I am thinking of you this Christmas Eve night and hoping for a Christmas that is peaceful. Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 9:29 PM CST

Kathy...May God bless and comfort you and your family this holiday season.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, December 24, 2003 6:53 PM CST

Kathy - I made a promise to myself that I would not come to your page, read, cry and then leave without saying something - well I actually get a little prodding from our mutual friend Tom. I just wanted to wish you and your family the very best Christmas that life can offer you - it is so sad I know to not have that special someone there to share it with you. This is my first Christmas without my husband and the children without their father, although they are grown they still miss their Daddy. We will try and spend the day remembering all the good times and rejoice in the knowledge we had Glenn around as long as we did. My prayer is that you are comforted in the knowledge that you will one day be re-united with Robert.
Peace and Love.....
Lynne - moving FORWARD w/angel Glenn <LynneNCfan@earthlink.net~~~ www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel>
somewhere between here and heaven, - Wednesday, December 24, 2003 3:43 PM CST

Thinking of Robert today and all of you ~ wishing you a peaceful and blessed Christmas ~
Love,
Jean

Jean - Quilts of Love <quiltsoflove@quiltsoflove.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 2:15 PM CST

WISHING YOU AND YOUR FAMILY A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY AND A HAPPY HEALTHY NEW YEAR FROM OUR HOUSE TO YOURS.LOVE , PRAYERS AND PEACE TO ALL OF YOU.
THE D'UVA'S
BARBARA D'UVA <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH, FLORIDA USA - Wednesday, December 24, 2003 12:26 AM CST

Hey Kath....I'll be back later, but for now.....I just got this in email.....

CHRISTMAS SUNSET: Dont forget, when Christmas Day comes to an end, step
outside and look west. Among the pink rays of the setting sun you can see
a lovely close encounter between Venus and the slender crescent moon.

Peace
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 24, 2003 10:48 AM CST

Hi thinking of ya today and always.. prayers too.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 23, 2003 5:26 PM CST

Kathy, although we have kept in touch on and off, your card caught me off guard, because I still feel like I avoid(ed) the moms of angels, tried to be polite and offer condolences initially, but then dodged you all like the black plaque. I don�t know what to say or how to say it, and in reality know there are no words to say to lessen the pain and grief. Then I feel it�s like adding salt to the wound, that my child is doing well. That�s most certainly not meant to you personally, but I used to look at healthy kids when Ron was first diagnosed and wonder what was so great about them, why not one of them instead?, and I have no doubt in your shoes I would really need a break from seeing everyone else's healthy kids, or kids doing well. I know you parents who have faced the unthinkable loss all revel in another child making it and doing well, but it still has to hurt. I look at the kids who dont make it and try to find the defining line, the one thing to comfort me into thinking "okay, well it wont happen to us because"... and too often there is no dividing line, especially in Roberts case. It scared the heck out of me to be honest. I don�t really know what the point of this is, but I do wish you well and a peaceful holiday season, and most of all an uneventful (unless its good events) 2004, filled with good memories of your loved ones.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Tuesday, December 23, 2003 8:43 AM CST
Kathy,
The pictures are smaller!!!I feel the same way about Christmas. I am Jewish and my dh is Catholic so we do both-only Christmas is much more celebrated here. I love the hustle and bustle of shopping and wrapping and preparing but then, when it is over, it is such a letdown. I am glad you are all better. We seem to be feeling better, too. yesterday I was in Kohls and a salesperson was obviously very sick with a cold or flu. She called next and I said I would wait for the next person to help me. She thought I was crazy!!!!
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 23, 2003 7:18 AM CST
Kathy, Once again thank you for your entries. I tell my husband all the time who would ever have thought 18 years ago when we got married this is where we would have ended up. When you get married you have no clue as to what lies ahead. Likewise when we have children who knows what lies ahead, maybe its better we dont know. Just wanted to write before Christmas and wish you a merry one. Holidays will never be the same.
God Bless
PS. How is the Oprah thing going. We really need to do it.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Tuesday, December 23, 2003 6:56 AM CST
Hello,
I wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayer I hope everyone is feeling better.
love martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., fl Palm Beach - Monday, December 22, 2003 2:54 PM CST
good morning Kathy. I hope you and the kids have a good day.
Sharon
- Monday, December 22, 2003 6:23 AM CST
Just thinking of you guys- and wanted to wish you a happy season... Love, Laura
www.caringbridgre.org/ca/coltonmeyer <foryoucolton@aol.com >
- Sunday, December 21, 2003 10:17 AM CST
Kathy,
I found your site tonight while checking up the kids I have "adopted" in prayer. I loved your pictures - you have four beautiful children. My niece lost her battle 6 months ago, and I have found some comfort in reading about others who are still fighting - it gives me something to hope for, knowing that her fight, and the fight of so many other precious children, was not in vain. Now that I know of your Robert, please know that I will never forget about him. You and your family will remain in my prayers. Thank you so much for sharing your lives with us; I will continue to check on you. God bless!
Kellie
Portsmouth, VA - Sunday, December 21, 2003 2:24 AM CST
Hi Kathy. I hope ya'll are having a good weekend. and are keeping busy so you don't have time to think. Thats what I am trying to do even if its not much of anything. Today I went to my son in laws place and played with his month old beagle puppies they are sooooo cute. and no I dont want one or I could have one. you know your all in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 5:13 PM CST
Kathy,
Hi again. Want to hear something positive from my neck of the woods on Long Island? I got up early today because my 3 yr old has been sick all week. I dragged myself to the mall by 8am. Lines were still manageable and people were still in a good mood. A woman in front of me even let me use her all day shopping pass 20 percent off!!!! I went to the Disney store and got some great deals and then off to the book store I went. I did pretty well and managed to get home by 1pm. I still have to go to BJ's but i am not stressed. My house is still clean and the kids are not fighting. I promised myself that I would get in the spirit this weekend and you have helped me do that. You are great!!!!
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Saturday, December 20, 2003 12:35 AM CST
Here's one for ya...picture my little pixie 3 year old, Tate. Kathy, you know what she looks like...blonde hair, chubby cheeks and the biggest blue eyes you have ever seen. Everyone tells me she looks like an angel. (What an oxymoron.) I LOVE the child, but she's challenging, to say the least.

Well, yesterday was everyone's last day of school before the Christmas break. Shea was loaded down with teacher gifts, cans of frosting for cookie decorating, gifts for her friends, etc. All the while, trying to climb into my friend's Suburban. So, I walked out front with her, (in my pj's). I walked back to the front door, only to find it locked. Peering out the window was my "cherub".

I calmly asked her to unlock the door but for some reason it's harder to unlock than lock. She simply couldn't turn the dead bolt. So, I kept my cool for almost 5 minutes, (a personal best) as I tried to talk her through it. No go.

So, I did what all good mom's do and I started screaming at her.

SIDEBAR: You know how crazed morning are...trying to get everyone out of the house, dressed, with lunches, backpacks, plus all the Christmas stuff...I was losing valuable time.

So, I told her to go to the kitchen sliding glass door and unlock it. She did. The problem is, she's not strong enough to open the door. (The NEW, super great, easy slide, whiz bang screen was locked.) So, I weighed ripping the screen against Matt's wrath and opted out.

At this point I'm sure all my neighbors heard me screaming at Tate. I also think she learned a few, new, four letter words. She kept telling me to come through the garage. I was acting like a rat, but can't quite squeeze down small enough to fit under the garage door.

No phone, no key, Jacey (20 months) wandering freely in the house...I could see her on the stairs with a bottle of the girls' shampoo. (closest person with a key was about 10 minutes away, if I had gone to a neighbor's and used their phone--wasn't thinking that clearly)

About the time I kicked the front door, (true, embarrassing confessions), barefoot (sore toes today), something clicked in Tate. She peeped out the window (face convered in tears and snot) and said she would try turning the lock the other way. DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I thought she had been doing that. BINGO! I was in. It all took about 15 precious minutes out of my morning routine. Her butt was a little sore, (yes, we do spank, don't go calling Child Protective Services), but no one was hurt. I had keys cut for two neighbors yesterday and all is well.

I gave her the "never lock the door, don't go out front alone, danger, danger, danger" lecture. When I was done talking to her I asked if she'd ever do that again. She looked at me, smiled her precious smile, and said, "Only if you're in your 'jammies and act crazy again."

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...motherhood. Isn't it the best??!!

Happy Saturday.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 9:54 AM CST
Checking in and hoping for a "gloomies"-free day! :) Love, Eileen

P.S. - you are so not alone - I do not have all my Christmas cards sent - heck, they can become Happy New Year cards. No plans for the Xmas dinner either--just a day of lounging w/ my son, playing with his Christmas gifts and just enjoying our time together - will get together w/ the family in January for a SIMPLE meal and no gift exchanges - making it easy on us ALL this year. So, just relax and do what you can - don't expect to do it ALL and just enjoy the day w/ the kids. Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Saturday, December 20, 2003 1:03 AM CST
A story from my neck of the woods....

My son Ryan, who is 2 years and 5 months old, has started this thing about monsters. He checks for them in his room and under the furniture, and says funny things like "Monsters not ride the bus." The other night he said the monsters were going home. When I asked why, he said the monsters were going to eat dinner. When I asked what the monsters eat for dinner, Ryan looked at me funny and said "Macaroni and Cheese!!" Like I should KNOW that, LOL!

It's been pretty cold here, with a lot of rain and fog. And I mean the quintessential THICK London fog, except we live in northern England, about 5 hours north of London. This weekend some parts of the UK are supposed to get snow, but I don't think much, if any, is headed our way. Which is a bummer, because Ryan has never seen snow and I can't wait to see his face the first time he plays in it.

Kathy, you talk about being so far behind on everything. We haven't even boxed up and mailed any presents to our families in the States, yet! Looks like they'll all be getting their Christmas presents sometime in January. I hate to be so unorganized, but that's the way the chips fell this year, and I can't do much about it.

I hope you and all your loved ones have a peaceful Christmas. Best wishes,

Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Friday, December 19, 2003 6:59 PM CST
Kathy - The sun is shining BRIGHT in Birmingham today! The kids are out of school and we even have a babysitter coming tonight!! The only problem is we're moving in 10 days - I haven't packed a box -- and our new house will not be ready until mid-January. Holiday Inn here we come!! :) Amanda will have to fill me in, because I will not have a computer for about a month. I will miss your stories, but I'll continue to pray for your sweet family. You have every reason to be blue -- it's been a tough year -- but instead of us lifting you up, you always inspire us! I hope your weekend is filled w/reasons to smile. By the way, I've been craving banana pudding ever since your last entry..........
Tammy Holston <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Friday, December 19, 2003 1:19 PM CST
Happy Friday Kathy.

I'm so sorry you're feeling down. I was talking to my mother-in-law this morning about how it's such a blessed, sweet time of year and how it always gets nutty, often gets depressing, and how the real meaning gets lost in the commercialism.

We've tried, very hard, to keep the girls focused on the reason for Christmas (We save all our insanity for after they go to bed). Shea made a present for Jesus, and one for Mamaw, and she's going to leave a note for Santa, asking him to deliver them to heaven.

I will continue to pray for you...health and happiness...there is not a person who deserves it more. Thanks for the e-card. I have a new picture of the girls to send you--sadly, these days, procrastination is my middle name. I'll probably mail it off after Christmas.

Take a deep breath, find the beautiful part of every moment, and remember how loved you are.

Merry Christmas my sweet, sweet friend.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Friday, December 19, 2003 10:58 AM CST
My two cents worth, even though we only get a penny for our thoughts....

So you gloomed, and groaned, and griped away some time. And you got mad and angry. My take is, if the good Lord didn't want us to do that at times, he wouldn't have given us those emotions to use when we needed them. And if I remember my Our Lady of Lourdes education, even HIS son did all of that on occasion. (I hope Sr. Emma is looking down) ;)

Life in this neck of the woods? Well, the woods are on the other side of the island ;) But on this spit of sand, the weathermen lied! They said snow today....Promised snow today! But guess what? It's gonna take a real effort for it to snow when it's sunny and 45 (and rising) out this early in the morning. Of course, last year, the week after Christmas, we did get our usual 8 year heavy snow....so there's still hope....and Winter is just around the corner.

On the cooking front, well, I'm running WAY behind on the cookies. Like, I haven't even started, other than buying the stuff for them. And yeah----they use REAL butter!!! And well Christmas cards? Some friends might get them for St. Patrick's Day... OR later... ;) And I have a friend I'm clueless on what to buy for. I'm not a shopper, when it comes to gifts. So I don't. Whatever I get would be wrong, or useless, anyways ;) I do know of a dog in Michigan that needs a warmer kennel, though. Maybe I'll go the 'from an annonymous friend' route, and send Brutus an electric heating pad, since Eva refuses to bring him in Sub-arctic temps. Clueless on what Holiday leftover recipies I'll be looking for in the next 2 weeks. Leaning towards .... well----undecided still.

Kathy, my friend, I posted a while back that for you, and others, this is really the 'first' holiday season you've been without Robert. And, other things have changed for you as well, that add to this 'funk'. I do know this.... that early morning 'just before sunrise' fading crescent moon is out there right now. Go take a walk with it. Maybe you won't find any answers, but maybe you'll fine some 'peace'�

Hope all of you can remain flu-free in the next couple weeks during the holidays.

On a brighter note.... Starting Monday---the days start getting longer (at least the daylight hours). I wouldn't be surprised if these shorter daytimes add to your 'moody'.

Hugs to the kids, and if there's any left over, you can have 'em ;)

Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Kill Devil Hills, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Friday, December 19, 2003 9:24 AM CST
Kathy
Gloom seems to be in around here, too. I never felt the commercialization of the holiday like I do this year. Can you imagine that I have bought 9 teacher gifts for 3 kids? Insane. I am thinking of you and your family during this stressful time of year. Peace and health to you all
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Friday, December 19, 2003 5:58 AM CST
Dear Kathy: So sorry to hear you are feeling quite down w/ the "gloomies" - but, you know - you have every right to your "moments" of anger, frustration, etc........you have had a rough road to walk. And you have always shown your faith - even in the most recent entry through your anger you still show your faith. The holidays have to be contributing to the "gloomies" - how awful to have to go through life without Robert. I cannot imagine your pain. I wish there was something I could say here to actually help. I know that no words can change things, but I hope just knowing I am out here, keeping you in my prayers, will help to lift your spirits even just for a moment. Yes, those "gloomies" will subside and come and go again---just stay strong to your faith as you always have and the tides will turn. God bless you, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Friday, December 19, 2003 0:41 AM CST
Dear Kathy,
I was cleaning up after puppies today myself and grumbling beneath my breath. But, then I had a wonderful experience. I was allowed to drive my fourth-grader and several friends to a local Nursing Home for the children to sing Christmas carols. There were plastic poinsettias around and greenery along with wonderful smells of bacon and coffee. The residents shuffled to their seats eager for the program. About 30 students in 3rd and 4th grade took the stage. The piano came to life at the touch of the music teacher. The mouths opened and music filled the room. The audience smiled and nodded, some drifted off to sleep while others whispered loudly how good they sounded and how beautiful their faces were. They clapped after every song and reached out to touch the children as they left. What a day! The elderly residents were very glad we had come. Such a simple gift, smiles, songs, visitors. It did my heart good. I made myself put-off buying any gifts for the rest of the day. I simply hummed the carols, remembered the angelic faces and savored every moment of my health and youth.
Sneezing and sniffling just north of you and thinking about you often--
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Thursday, December 18, 2003 10:58 PM CST
I was gonna say good morning but by the time I get this typed and sent it will be afternoon there. I hope you are feeling a lot better by today. take caree, eat chicken soup... drink some warm tea with honey nd see if al lthat helps...
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 18, 2003 10:55 AM CST
I wanted to wish each of you...
A Very Merry Christmas....
I am always thinking of you...
Take Care...
Love
Beck <rbeckys@yahoo.com>
WPB, FL - Thursday, December 18, 2003 8:09 AM CST
During this season of hope,
may every heart
make a wish for peace,
and may all the world
be given reason
To believe in love's miracle.
~~~Flavia~~~

Hope you feel better. Love,
Eileen www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Wednesday, December 17, 2003 11:17 PM CST
Hi Kathy,

As I head to bed, I wanted to check in with you. I hope you are feeling much better! This stuff is really taking it's toll on everyone. I will head back to work tomorrow. I took one more day off from my day job today, but did go to the night job. Now I'm just tired!

I'll check in tomorrow!

Sending love and ((((HUGS)))) to all of you,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
Marcellus, Michigan - Wednesday, December 17, 2003 9:47 PM CST
what a joyous color the red is this morning! I am glad you are feeling a little better. I find that I make do with so much less at Christmas than I used to, and its ok. when I get to it an email is on the way this morning.. have to have a cup of tea first so I can think.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 17, 2003 9:11 AM CST
Hope each day finds you feeling better and better. I loved your entry. Bless you all.
Eileen www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Wednesday, December 17, 2003 9:08 AM CST
I hope this morning finds you feeling a lot lot better, take care now
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 17, 2003 7:09 AM CST
Hello Hello Hello! How long it's been since I last wrote, too long I suppose. I am so sorry that you are sick, and I am sending karma your way so hopefully you'll get to feeling better. The flu has also been going around here latey...it's deadly, literally! Kind of scary, but I assume we'll make it. I hope you have a blessed Christmas and you get done shopping in time. I haven't gotten all mine done yet and reading this entry has made me feel a little bit better about that! :o) May God bless you each day with new memories, laughs, and smiles...He sure blessed me with you!

All my love,
Meg <Megster733@AOL.com>
KY - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 10:41 PM CST
GET WELL SOON, Kathy

How dare you get sick!! (j/k) I know Mom's are NOT allowed to get sick! Don't you know that the whole household comes to a complete hault when Mom gets sick?? It's like, no matter how old everyone is, they just can't function without Mom! I'm so sorry that you got hit, and so hard! The stuff that's going around is really knocking people for a loop! I hope you get to feeling better soon!
I've been fighting the "crud" for a while now, still functionable, until this morning. This time around, both Sammie and I got it, so she is right down in bed, not giving me any grief!

Way to go, Jessica! You keep at it, show them your determination and what a fighter you are!

Don't feel bad, Kathy, about being way behind on Christmas. I am too. I don't even have a tree up yet, nor a bush! I've not done any baking, or candy making either! So out of the ordinary for me!

Jessica, Christina, and Matthew.....I know that you are busy with school and all, but when you get the chance,could you please help Mom out a little so she can get some rest and get back on her feet!

Kathy, you take care...get some rest. Fee better soon!!

Happy birthday to Terry!!

Sending love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 16, 2003 8:45 PM CST
So sorry to hear you were hit w/ a bug too, but I am glad the kids are doing well. I love the new pics. Thanks for sharing!
Eileen www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Tuesday, December 16, 2003 8:04 PM CST
Shhhhhh! I'm still holding onto the dream that moms don't get sick. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Take care of yourself.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, December 16, 2003 5:40 PM CST
Hey Kathy,
Sorry your sick if you need anything please call, If the kids need rides or what ever. love martha
Martha <maloywayne@msn.com>
wpb, fl palmbeach - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 3:00 PM CST
i'm sorry you are sick.. that old strep is not a fun thing. Get better soon. I know you will make it threw Christmas at least for the kids. It is hard I know that too take care rest as much as ya can. Hey Jessica. GOOD for you!!!! keep trying
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 16, 2003 2:22 PM CST
Hi Kathy,
I am praying that this "strep bug" is short lived!! Yes, moms do get sick, but they don't get "to be" sick!!! There is a difference, just ask me!! I'm glad everyone is still hangin in......please tell Jess I am so proud of her perseverance. There is alot to be said for a 13 year old that is that willing to keep climbing that mountain. I need to run, but please know that I am ALWAYS thinking and praying for you all.

And, my dear Robert, I know you will be enjoying the "real" Christmas. Please look over your mom, dad and siblings and let them "feel" you with them during this blessed season. And buddy, remember......I WILL NEVER FORGET!!!

Love and big hugs to you all,
Krista <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 1:21 PM CST
Wow - Terry's 40!!! I guess we do continually get older. It's hard to believe isn't it. Weren't we just little munchkins running around 102nd Avenue???

Kathy - hopefully this bug thing will just last a couple of days. We are fighting it constantly - the kids bring everything home. The tree sounds wonderful. I tried to get my kids to pick the little fat ones but to no avail.

Love to all & miss you guys
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 1:18 PM CST
ok Kathy its been since Friday. where are you? I hope out doing good things and not being sick or something of the sort. hope the kids are ok too.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 16, 2003 9:39 AM CST
Hi Kathy: Just thinking of you and checking in for an update. My thoughts and prayers are with you this holiday season and always. When you have a moment, I would like it if you would check out the ****FREE**** contest I have going on my page. All it requires is a submission of how caringbridge has touched your life. You are SUCH and inspirational writer in these journals - thought you might be interested. Thanks. Eileen :)
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej - All are welcome to visit
- Monday, December 15, 2003 9:13 PM CST
thinking of ya'll this morning...hope everyone is ok
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 14, 2003 7:44 AM CST
Stopping by to say hello... I hope you have a joyous holiday season. Love, Laura
www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer <foryoucolton@aol.com >
- Saturday, December 13, 2003 8:49 PM CST
Dearest Family

I gently wrap warm thoughts of you
in my christmas prayers
For Heaven to smile on you
For Angels to watch over you
and the love of Jesus to fill your heart
Have A Merry Christmas
God Bless You And Your Family This Holiday

Chris Ullrich - Grand daughter dx with AML M5 <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma >
Hemingford, Ne USA - Saturday, December 13, 2003 10:48 AM CST
Hiya Jess, Kath, and the rest of the Band ;) Jess, glad to hear you're doing better and made it back to school just in time for the weekend. Maybe it'll all be gone by the time Monday gets here, and you can start the new week all refreshed.
Sounds like the Christmas Pageant ws beautiful. Aren't they that way all the time, when kids get involved? I used to work with the kids down at church, and of course, being their music director was double the challenge... so many things for them to remember, so little time to practice, so much fun, and the final reward, they were always 'perfect' ;)
Kath, you speak so well, so often. Sometimes, it seems like you start out with a question you want to write about, and by the time you're done, you've solved the riddle yourself ;) And like others have said, the pain and the questions will always be there, hon. The good thing that happens with time is, that while you don't find the answers, you DO find more in the memories. Somehow, the memories of the past help lead and light the way to the future, which is just as unknown. And, as you're finding out, the memories bring smiles more often. In time, the pain WILL lessen, the smiles WILL become more frequent, and as you've observed, we'll find the answers later, rather than sooner. I guess that's what sort of defines 'faith'. John 20:29... "Blest are they who have not seen, but believe." Me, I think you are 'blest' �

Jess, hope you're feeling better... Matthew and Christina----hope you 2 are helping out mom, and not getting whatever 'cootie' it was that Jess had.

Have a great Saturday!
Tom-DaDuck----Brutus' Friend <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Birthplace of aviation, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Saturday, December 13, 2003 9:37 AM CST
Hi Kathy, I was so glad to hear that Jessica felt good enough to go to school today,I hope that she can get the school work made up and get to the magnet school she ants. and I want to thank you again for sharing these wonderful pictures of your kids that Christmas.... they are all so good looking? Does Matthew still have those curls? I never thought it fair..my brother has curly hair and I have straight.
I am so sorry that the Christmas music program made you so sad, but it would have me too. Its just so hard to know why these thing happen the way they do... why does GOD heal some and not others and why the ones HE does? I have a lot of faith in GOD and I know these things all happen for a reason...I have always been told that GOD always hears our prayers and answers them in His own way. Sometimes yes sometimes no and sometimes wait and see why My way was best.... I know thats true, but it sure don't make us MAMA's hurt any less does it. You know your in my thoughts and prayers all of you.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 12, 2003 4:34 PM CST
Hello Friend... I also have struggled with 'WHY' my Andy was not healed. But, in a very quiet time, it was almost as if The Lord spoke to me and said "He WAS healed... in MY way." Our boys were and are healed; healthy, happy, painfree and gazing into the eyes of Jesus. It's just hard for our human minds to comprehend something soooooo awesome! Now if only our hearts could/would heal...... God bless
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever) www.caringbridge.org/il/legoman <jagl@htc.net>
- Friday, December 12, 2003 3:18 PM CST
Your entry had me tearful. I will keep your friend in my prayers. God Bless,
Eileen www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
- Thursday, December 11, 2003 10:39 AM CST
Kathy,

Your entry today touched my heart. I'm struggling with Kristy's death...you've tried to explain to me how painful it is to lose a child. I can't begin to imagine how deeply it hurt when Robert died, and how it will continue to hurt, until you meet him again in heaven. I shudder to think of enduring what you've endured. On the flip side, I've been asking God why he would take a young mother away from her 5 year old daughter. Kristy often told me how scared she was of dying before Sarah stopped needing her. I only hope the glory of being in God's presence assured her that not only Chris, (Sarah's dad), but God, will continue to care for Sarah. It all makes me physically sick.

I've heard many people comment on how awful it is that Kristy died during the holidays...but I've come to this conclusion:

It is never easy. There is never a good time--holiday or not. The pain never fully goes away. It's all very wrong.

My only hope lies in an omniscient, omnipotent, loving God. And that even though I don't understand, and sometimes get angry at Him...He knows the master plan. (Much easier to type than to actually believe these days!)

I'm very thankful for your insight and that you're still sharing it all...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Thursday, December 11, 2003 10:06 AM CST
Kathy,
your words today really touched my heart. My mom lost a valiant 20 plus year battle with Breast Cancer. Although she was in remission for so long, this monster hung over her head daily!!! I fear cancer every day and it is such a burden to carry. i pray for peace for maria and her family. I wish I could do something for this family. I will pray for her today.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY USA - Thursday, December 11, 2003 10:04 AM CST
Goodness Kathy -- Will I ever read your page without my eyes filling with tears? You have such a gift. You make us stop each day and look at life a little differently. I will pray for Maria and thank God for her life. I look at my Christmas "to do" list today and know that the perfect wrapping and present are not all important. I think you show us all what "Christmas is". Our favorite Christmas tradition happens tonight. A local church has a live nativity scene (show!). They put a recorder in your car and you drive through as you hear the Christmas story. My girls unbuckle and we all cuddle in the front seat. You stop your car at each station and watch the actors act out the Christmas story. It is incredible -- the costumes, the animals, the feeling you get. It's a LONG wait in the car for a 15 minute show but it's so worth it! Have a great day! We're all pulling for Jess -- glad she's feeling better.
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, - Thursday, December 11, 2003 7:51 AM CST
Hi, Kathy, Have not signed on in awhile, purely out of time being not on my side lately. I think of all of you very often and you and yours continue to be in my prayers through everything you and the family have gone through lately. Hope Jess is on the mend and school will straighten itself out for her. Matthew seems to be fairing well and Christina, well Christina is Christina and she keeps on plugging away as you do. I know the holidays are tough for all of you, but just think how many people are thinking of all of you now, especially during the holidays. I am so sorry to hear of your friend Maria and her fight. What a terrible disease that cancer is, striking the good people we all love and know. My prayers are with her also and her beautiful family. Do not know them personally, but have seen her around school and know who she is and of course her son is in 5th grade with Sammi. Hope this season coming up brings you a wonderful job that you will be pleased with, without the firing episodes from the past. I know you are well qualified and will find something soon.
Barbara D'Uva <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
West Plam Beach, fl USA - Thursday, December 11, 2003 7:36 AM CST
Hope Jess gets feeling better soon. I can understand her frustration with being behind in school. You can catch up though, I am sure. Take care of each other, and Kathy, I hope the job interview turns out to be what you are looking for!!
Love,
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, December 10, 2003 11:48 PM CST
Hi Kathy and Charlton fam,
I wanted to respond to a previous entry, where you were saying how you want Robert's memory to live on. I check this website almost every day...I have not forgotten...and I know so many others that come here haven't forgotten about him either. I look at the pictures, check out the guestbook, and of course read your wonderful entries about your family. I am sure I am one of very many people who visit here often but dont always have chance to sign in...I think you have done a wonderful job of keeping your son's memory alive, and using his life and yours to impact the people who read this and want to have your faith and determination. You are in my prayers this week...I hope that you all stay healthy!
Lindsay Scott www.caringbridge.org/tx/leannescott
College Station, TX 77801 - Wednesday, December 10, 2003 11:12 PM CST
Hi Jessica.

I hope your sinus infection gets cleared up--it's amazing how horribly sinus problems can make your entire body feel! Hang in there in school--you are such a beautiful girl, and according to your mom, a very bright and talented girl. I know you have it in you!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Wednesday, December 10, 2003 9:14 AM CST
Jessica and kathy,
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you feel much better soon.
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Wednesday, December 10, 2003 5:36 AM CST
Hi Jess,

I sure hope you feel better soon. Reading how long you have been feeling unwell, it reminds me of how I felt lke crap for months, before I finally went to the doc and he checked my thyroid function. BINGO! My thyroid was on the fritz, and that had been why I felt like 'Death-eatin'-a-ham-sandwich', as my Mom would say. What a huge difference my thyroid meds made! Anyway, I'm sure your doc will check that too, if he does a blood test.

Feel better soon, and hug your worried Mama for me.
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Wednesday, December 10, 2003 2:45 AM CST
Hello Kathy - Eileen here, one of your many followers! :) I truly visit every day, what wonderful journals you write. You always make one think and reflect. You have a God-given talent to write from the heart. I will keep Jessica in my prayers. I hope you got the answers that will calm your heart. You, Robert, your entire family - always in my heart and prayers. God bless you this holiday season and always.
Eileen www.caringbridge.org/il/ej - PLEASE, EVERYONE - STOP BY FOR A VISIT. THANKS.
- Wednesday, December 10, 2003 1:40 AM CST
Kathy, I hope by now Jessica is feeling better and the Dr was able to calm your fears... You have both been on my mind all day and in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 8:41 PM CST
Hi Kathy.

I hope everyone is feeling better--nasty flu bug has been knocking everyone off their feet. Hopefully Jess is on the road to recovery!

I read Tom's post below and I second his motion. It's a very tough time of year for anyone who has lost a loved one. My friend, Kristy, just died on Sunday. She left behind a loving husband and a very sweet 5 year old daughter. She was tired of fighting the cancer that has been after her for 4 years. I spent all of Sunday in shock and all of yesterday in tears. This disease is ruthless.

Ugh...how to transition from that...I guess I'll just jump to the next subject.

Tom, I have a great pork loin recipe for you--it sounds strange, but it is truly awesome. I do this in the crock pot, but I guess you can do it in the oven too....

Slice an onion and lay the slices on and around the pork loin. Then, mix (well) one can of whole berry cranberry sauce with 1/3 cup of French dressing and pour it over the pork. I cook it to about 140 degrees...around 6 hours in my crock pot. It is SO good that the three little Hamilton princesses each had two big helpings. (which is a miracle at our house!) There ya go...let me know if you try it!

Kathy, sorry to use your site as a recipe exchange. We saw "fish" bedding yesterday and the girls think that's what Robert has in his room in heaven. I ramble...

Love to all, and prayers to everyone touched by this awful disease.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 7:45 PM CST
Kathy, of course you're freaked out, how could you not be?!?! I've talked to so many Mom's (like us) that are so easily spooked, for a very long time, with every illness that comes along! I would have loved to have been there, when they decided that Jess 'just' has a virus...sorry Jess, don't mean to make light of you not feeling well. If I had been in your place, even the 'good' news would have pushed me over the edge. Even the simple things in life become a challenge for 'us', and life is never as it was. The rest of the world may never understand that, but those of us walking in the same shoes you are, DO! Hey do me a favor will ya? Keep that Florida sunshine shining. We'll be in Miami on the 19th (for 24 hours) prior to boarding that cruise ship. :) Keep us posted on Jess's illness. God bless you all
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 4:06 PM CST
Hey Guys,
You are in my prayers
love Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
Lake Clark Shores , fl Palm Beach - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 12:11 AM CST
Hi Kat & Jess,
I am praying that you will both be feeling better and more relieved after your visit with the Doc. I am glad you are taking her in right away. I am sure it is just this nasty bug going around, but better to catch it quick. Talk to the doctor about getting her on a vitamin too. Sometimes Jessica doesn't eat well, at least a multi might help. Also, exercise will help build strong muscles and bones!!!Okay so I sound like a milk commercial, but it is true.
I love you,
Aunt Bam <mary@forristall.com>
- Tuesday, December 9, 2003 11:13 AM CST
I have not disappeared......nor have I forgotten about my very special family. I will explain another time, but what is important right now is to let both you and Jess know that I will be praying for you all day!!!
Love to you all,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 9:25 AM CST
Hiya Kathy and the Sunshine Band!!! Well, I think the winter season finally arrived! And I really think I told Kathy the truth yesterday .... at least the sun LOOKS warm. I went out last evening about 6:30, and there was FROST on the car. And this morning, everything was all white and bright!!! sure didn't look very 'beachy'. But it sure was pretty. For those of you in Florida-----frost is frozen dew.... it happens when... oh nevermind!

I was going to come here and ask Jess for some recipes for left-over turkey soup, knowing that Juliet and Christi would add their 2 cents worth, but I decided not to... I froze it, instead ;) Jess, Mom says you aren't feeling well :( I hear the flu that's going around this year is a really nasty one, so I hope you're just 'sick' and not getting the flu.

You know, I've been thinking a lot lately (yes, ducks have brains, so hush). I've been coming to these Caringbridge pages for over 2 years now, and have many wonderful friends because of that. But last night, it just sort of dawned on me how many of these special friends lost their children so close to the Holiday Season. I know there's several more, but the ones that come to mind are Robert, Seth, and Becca, from up this way (Virginia). Having lost both my parents in different Decembers, I also realized that if these families are anything like me or mine, that THIS Christmas is really the first one without that special loved one. I remember the first years without my parents, and in each one of them, the holidays were just a blur that happened, and it was the 2nd go-round with the holidays that hit me hardest. Still, 11 and 8 years later, it's not easy, this time of year. Then I go to a page, and read that a family's got tests coming up. I'm sure they'd rather be worrying about what to get child A or child B for under the tree, instead of lab results. Or, the family who's doctor saw fit to schedule a procedure on the 2nd anniversary of the car accident that paralyzed him, thus needing this procedure. When? Dec 22----Yeah Team! Good planning, doc! That family also spent Thanksgiving at the doctors, getting their son fitted with a back brace. And then, I think of ALL these families... and the siblings. Everyone hears of the struggles of the patient, but the brothers or sisters give up SO much time, or change plans, or have to babysit, or cook because Mom, or Dad or both, can't be home. And yanno, this doesn't just apply to the kids. My cancer hit me when I was 26... but I still remember the sacrifices my sisters and brothers and parents made for me. They found babysitters for their kids to visit me. I got to thinking, and I know y'all agree.... this Cancer....ANY life altering disease....sucks. The trickle down affect is like a snowball. I read on a page ... a sister posting that Mom can't make my game tonight, because my brother's in the hospital. I read that tonight is Dad's turn to visit, because Mom's gotta work. I read that A birthday party gets put on hold, because sis had to be rushed back in...

I think I read a while back that in your lifetime, 1 out of 4 people you know will have cancer. That's an awful high statistic. I wonder, however, if anyone has done a study on just how many people have to alter their lives, because of that 1 out of 4? I bet that number changes so that for everyone you know with cancer, at least 40 lives have been altered in some way.

OK----off the box---I'm starting to sound like our good friend Scott ;) ... thanks for the space to rant, Kathy.

Next installment..... What does DaDuck do with the 3 foot long pork loin roast he bought over the weekend...

Jess---I hope you're feeling a lot better today. Hope you don't pass it on to the rest of the family. Kathy----hope the re-sized pics work for you. Was great to chat with you last night.

Have a great week, everyone!!

Tom-DaFrostyDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 7:58 AM CST
My prayers are with both of you today.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 7:57 AM CST
Kath: I hope everything w/Jess is just a 'bug' but I totally understand your concerns & now w/this new 'Flu' going around. I'll keep her & you in my thoughts today. Just keep us posted on what her Doctor says.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 7:45 AM CST
Dear Kathy-
I will be praying for you and your Jessica today. I can only imagine your anxiety......this has happened to us several times, and it is the WORST !!!!!!!! To worry that another one of our children may be sick....ugh !!!

Strength for you today-
God Bless-Alison
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
alisonhaddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
Saint Louis, MO - Tuesday, December 9, 2003 6:45 AM CST
Kathy,

I hope you know, in your heart of hearts, that neither Robert, nor any of the Charltons will be forgotten. You are such a beautiful family and you are in our prayers daily. I wish we lived closer...I'd throw you and the kids the biggest Christmas party. It would be a good time to intro Matthew to his future wife :)

The pictures are great! Funny, our girls always get jammies on Christmas Eve...I always got them, my mom always got them...and her mom before her. I guess that's another tradition.

I hope you are well. Drop me a line when you get a minute. We're still planning on being in Florida in '04. I'm looking forward to our "girls day". Much love and many hugs...
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Monday, December 8, 2003 11:29 AM CST
Kathy, Thank you for sharing your beautiful children with us. Robert's smile says it all. TERRI
Terri Daringer <tdaringer@shco.org>
Persia, - Monday, December 8, 2003 11:18 AM CST
Kathy,
What beautiful children you have. You should include a picture of yourself one of these days. I'd love to put a face with the wonderful words you write.
Lynn
St. Peters, MO - Monday, December 8, 2003 11:10 AM CST
Kathy -- I love the new pictures! I think Matthew has the best head of hair I have ever seen -- What a cutie!! Robert looks so happy in all of the pictures. They are precious and priceless. Thank you for sharing! :) I will continue to remember your family this holiday season (and each day). How hard it must be to keep going - yet you do it AND encourage others that they can too. Peace to you Kathy.............
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
Birmingham, AL - Monday, December 8, 2003 9:22 AM CST
Kathy, Oh how I so feel the same. Actually Adams clinic holds a remembrance service right before Christmas. Is is this coming Thurs. It is a very nice service. Lots of tears but all with people that understand. We are very fortunate we have two sets of friends that we still are very close with us and have not left our sides. We still get together every Friday. Adam loved to get together every Friday and so in alot of ways it is to honor him. We always speak of him on Friday nights.
Take care and I think about you often. Tell the kids that I also think about them.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Monday, December 8, 2003 7:20 AM CST
Kathy,
I couldnt see the new pictures. Boo hoo. Anyway, I know how you feel. When my mom was dying, we had so much support. My mom's best friend was always around to help out. When mom passed away, a few people told us that it was too painful to keep in touch. Now, I get the yearly Christmas card with the "lets get together" note at the bottom of the card. I so understand your pain!!!!
Hugs haley <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY - Monday, December 8, 2003 5:59 AM CST
First of all... what beautiful children you have..... all of them. thanks so much for sharing the photos. I can sure understand your feelings about the parties and where you are coming from. We never want our children to be forgotten, and I know Robert will never be. Don't ever forget that you and your family are in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, December 8, 2003 5:11 AM CST
Kathy,
Very well said, and very profound. You certainly opened my eyes as to what it is like to be "left behind" as a cancer family. I am so sorry for any pain that it causes you, but especially Jess and the younger children. I certainly can see where it would hurt to be left out after your child dies. Praying for you and the kids. As you know, God is in control, and He will lead you on.
Love,
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Monday, December 8, 2003 0:17 AM CST

Love Angel Toto <pat_totoofoz@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 7, 2003 10:58 PM CST
Hey Charltons! I always check in on you guys to see how you are doing and wanted to say that I hope Jessica had a fun time at Busch Gardens. My school went too! We had a blast! Did she ride Montu??? I hope you all have a great holiday season!
Erin <boltsfan19@hotmail.com>
Clearwater, FL - Sunday, December 7, 2003 1:54 PM CST
Hello, Charltons~

I hope this Sunday finds you all doing well. Ummmm....can you blow some of that warm air up here? It's too cold, only 24 degrees this morning!!!!

Kathy, I had to chuckle when I read that Jessica was up and out of the house at 5:40 am!! Being the mom of a teenage daughter, I can most certainly relate to that! Sammie thinks that she needs 14 hours of sleep a night, and getting her moving in the mornings for school can sometimes become a war zone, but if she has something "important" to do that day...or a special place to go, she's up and getting after me for not moving fast enough!! Teenagers...I'll never understand them! We have our days, where we are at odds, so much so, that I've actually called my mom and apologized to her for ever being a teenager! Of course, she got a chuckle out of that! She used to tell me, as a teenager, that I'll have a daughter and it will come back to me in full force! Guess I should've listened more! But you are right, at the end of the day, you are and will always be FAMILY! I do believe that it's a stage she's going through,
Jessica....I hope you had a blast at Busch Gardens and did well on your science exam!!! How did the art project go? I hope Mom can get a picture of it on here for us to see!

I guess being a single mom, I can relate to many of the things you have going on. I too, have recieved the infamous phone calls from Dad........."come get the sick kid". I'm not knocking Jeff at all, I think he's a great dad. I was always the one that had to take off work for the sick child. Oh well...I hope that Matthew is feeling much better. I know the flus that are going around are not good. When Sammie got sick last week, I took off work and took her to the doctor, just to be on the safe side. I know that a lot of employers don't like the idea of taking off for a sick kid, but kids come first!! My principal is a single mom, so she can relate to some of my feelings.

I hope Christina has a blast at Disney World! I was there for the first time ever, in April. That place is HUGE!!! I don't think we saw even half of it!!

You are so right, Kathy, "life is moving on, so are we." No matter how hard the situations are, moving FORWARD is what we need to continue to do! With the love and support of our wonderful friends, it's getting easier to do!

Please know that even though I don't post here everyday, I do stop to read each night after work. I think about you all a lot!

Have a good Sunday!!! Feel better, Matthew!!!!

Sending love and (((((((((HUGS)))))))) from ice cold Michigan!!!!
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 7, 2003 10:47 AM CST
Good Morning!
I am from Iowa and found your website through an entry in Sam Kiener's website. What a gift you have for expressing your thoughts and feelings! I am lifted by your strength and clear thoughts often. Robert was truly blessed to have you as his mother.
Take care and know that my prayers are sent your way.
*(What is the name of the group that sings the "shine" song on your homepage? Incredible!!!)
Teresa Kuhlman <kuhlmanfamily@mchsi.com>
West Des Moines, IA - Sunday, December 7, 2003 8:41 AM CST
Hi Kathy and the rest of the Charlton gang!

I hope Matthew is feeling better. Why do all the flu bugs come crawling out during the holidays? It sounds like you guys are keeping busy. I'm glad all the kids are doing so well.

You were asking about Christmas traditions...we have a handful that we all look forward to, every year. But there is something we do, all year, that allows us to trip down memory lane every Christmas. Wherever we travel, visit, go, etc., we buy an ornament. That way, when we're putting the ornaments on the tree we tell stories from the trips from that year, and every year prior. It's alot of fun and a way to remember our special times as a family.

We got our tree last night and it's sitting here (all 11 feet of it) waiting for lights. Matt thinks we live in a bank lobby and always buys trees that dwarf our living room. I think he's the biggest of kids at Christmas.

I have a new recipe for Tom, if he's interested...

You guys are always in my prayers.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, December 5, 2003 3:49 PM CST
Kathy,
I come here faithfully to read every word you write and it makes me feel as though I have known you forever. A few weeks ago, you got me through a rough spot and you didnt even have a clue, did you? You are such an inspiration to so many. I wish you would write a book so more people can share in your wisdom. I am blessed to have found your site and I hope for you and your family only continued health and happiness from now on. I do have a request. i would love to see more picture of your precious son, Robert. Have a great holiday season. PS. we are expecting a foot of snow here!!!!!!
Haley Albertario <haleymo@aol.com>
Oceanside, NY USa - Friday, December 5, 2003 3:44 PM CST
Well send some of that heat toward the Carolina's & keep the tropical storm in the caribbean. It's been miserably cold up here but at least no ice like last year. Although the kids were hoping for a snow day.

I hope Matthew gets to feeling better, but keep a close eye on him as that flu going around is real nasty.

Tell Jess good luck tomorrow & Christina to have a ball at Disney. We just went the Monday before T-giving - what a zoo!

Love to all,

Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Friday, December 5, 2003 2:03 PM CST
hi Kathy, my tree is up.. and coming down, the stand broke so I have to undecorate it and go get a different tree this evening.... well, at least thats something more to do and keep my mind off depressing thoughts. I hope you are having a good day and gonna have a good weekend too. IT is hard making new memories and keeping the old. It can be done and I know you and your family will manage to do it too. you have such wonderful children that are moving forward the best they can. Jessica, if you read this I know being a teen is rough, you think your folks are soooooooooooo DUMB. I remember when my daughter was in her very early 20's and had two small kids and finally said, well, mom I always thought you were so dumb and out of it... but you know, I see now you only wanted the best for me. I know your folks only want the best for you too. once she even told me "you're so old you don't even know what love is all about" (guess what... I may be a grandma... but I' not that old) ;) take care, all of you and know that you are in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle, AR - Friday, December 5, 2003 10:46 AM CST
Kathy, we are also learning how to survive; set new traditions. When you lose your only child, the grief is the same; life is different. We have 'the luxury' of pretending these family holidays aren't happening. We have opted to skip out on our first Christmas without our Andy...we're taking a cruise. Something new; something different; no memories. Escaping midwestern winter weather wasn't a bad idea either! Hopefully the warm 80s of Mexico will go a long way to lift those holiday blues?!?!?! I continue to pray for you. God bless
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever) www.caringbridge.org/il/legoman
- Thursday, December 4, 2003 11:03 AM CST
You know Robert was there with Matthew and so proud of him too..he can blaze his own trail as he is secure in the knowledge he has of life and love and his full support from a special Heaven. You have done a good job, Kathy. We go for scans Thurs, please keep us in your prayers, I am very nervous. Much love,
Mary alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, December 2, 2003 9:05 PM CST
Kathy - We were about to send out a search party for you! You were missed! I worry so about us moving to a new town. I mainly worry about new schools!!! Look at the hope Matthew gives me. We will all blaze our new trail too. I hope we can do it as fearless as Matthew!
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Tuesday, December 2, 2003 1:36 PM CST
Hey Charlton family,
Just wanted to say a quick hello....hope today finds everyone well. Congrats Matthew on your award. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving and I am glad that yours was lovely as well. Take care and talk to ya soon.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, December 2, 2003 11:05 AM CST
hi Just checking in with ya and telling you that I am here praying for ya
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, December 1, 2003 11:25 AM CST
Kathy ,
Just wanted you to know that we are always thinking about you. I admire your strength amd honesty . Its horrible to admit ..but some days i come here to read your words of faith and wisdome and to find strength and acceptance of this horrible thief who has robbed so many children and parents of there life,hopes and dreams.. You have a great way of keeping everything in proper prospective. Thank you for the courage you share with us.
Audra Malone-Schmidt <grlwndr68@hotmail.com>
Hobe Sound , Florida www.caringbridge.org/fl/tymichaelschmidt - Sunday, November 30, 2003 9:03 AM CST
hi I hope your having a good weekend... I am.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, November 29, 2003 2:07 PM CST
Hi I hope your having a good thanksgiving day what ever everyone is doing
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 27, 2003 11:51 AM CST
Hello! It's been so long since I've written I don't even know if you remember me. Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours! Everytime I try to check the website on my own computer, it always freezes up. My sister is here for Thanksgiving so I'm on her laptop. I continually pray and think about your family even if I'm not checking in. Again, everytime I check this website I find so much courage within you. I completely understand what you write about and I'm truly thankful that I found this website. May you have the best Thanksgiving yet and may God bless you each day with new smiles, laughs, and memories.
All my love,
Meg <Megster733@AOL.com>
- Thursday, November 27, 2003 11:50 AM CST
Hi Kathy. Happy Thanksgiving. I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you guys. You are always in my prayers.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Thursday, November 27, 2003 11:29 AM CST
HAPPY THANKSGIVING - with love from above - ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE AND CREW. (forever missing our precious angels)
jack - colby's daddy forever and ever
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby, UNIONTOWN PA - Thursday, November 27, 2003 10:13 AM CST
I fully agree with you. We need the garden here on earth to be bountiful as well.
Wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving.

Hugs and Hope, Love and Prayers to you from us.
Cheryl <carpathienblue@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 27, 2003 9:35 AM CST

Kathy and the KC Sunshine Band... Here's a little sunSHINE you can borrow this Thanksgiving... I took this the morning Eva left from her visit a few weeks ago. I'm sure "The Shadow" was out there in those dunes somewhere, hiding. Wishing all of you a very special Thanksgiving, full of laughter and memories.

Kath, I totally agree with the comments I've seen from you lately... I think the Good Lord has plenty of Angels, Flowers, Butterflies and Rainbows for now. I think the ongoing Stress Test has been sucessful, we've all passed it (to a degree), and I hate to keep taking it over and over.

On a lighter note... Juliet, That's a LOT of stuffing dumplings I'd be making. OR... a lot of soup. ;) I appreciate your concern (sorta) *snicker*.

Have a Wonderful Thanksgiving, Kath, Jess, Matthew, and Christina. God Bless, and Peace �

Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, November 27, 2003 9:21 AM CST
Thinking of you this Thanksgiving morning. It is POURING here!!! I hope the sun is shining in Florida this morning.
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Thursday, November 27, 2003 7:41 AM CST
Seriously, though....I found some recipes for you, Tom:

Leftover Stuffing Dumplings, For Soup

2 cups leftover stuffing
3 whole eggs, lightly beaten
2 teaspoons fresh sage, chopped - (amount depends on how much sage you have already used in the stuffing itself. Too much sage will make it bitter.)
1 teaspoon garlic, minced

Combine the stuffing, eggs, sage and garlic in a mixing bowl. Using a heaping tablespoon, scoop spoonfuls of the mixture into some warm soup and cook for 10 minutes over low heat.

Leftover Stuffing Quiche (and yes, real men DO eat quiche!)

Press leftover stuffing into a 9 inch pie plate or quiche dish to form crust. Bake at 400 degrees for 10 minutes. Make your quiche filling, whatever flavor you choose. Pour into pre-baked stuffing crust and then bake the whole thing for 30 to 35 minutes in 350 degree oven, until center is set. Let stand for 10 minutes.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!

Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 3:55 PM CST
(snicker snicker snicker - she says, as she tosses a pressed stuffing and cranberry sauce frisbee at Tom)
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 3:35 PM CST
Sorry I missed your birthday Matthew, Happy Birthday!
Kathy, hope you are doing okay....
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Wednesday, November 26, 2003 10:41 AM CST
Just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for all of you this Thanksgiving season. God bless
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
- Wednesday, November 26, 2003 8:54 AM CST
Greetings Chartlons! How's my nomination for the Key Lime Pie Family doing this Wednesday? It's cloudy and cool up on this stretch of sand...Sunrise has obviously been delayed by several hours...

Jess----you were so helpful with my Ham dilema last Easter, I need your advice again. I am in dire need of turkey stuffing recipies... see, I got a small turkey, filled it full of home-made stuffing, and have like 5 quart bags of stuffing left over!!!! This time, I don't think the leftovers would make good coasters or Frisbees... OR pillows ;) *Stop snickering, Juilet-UK*!!!

HELP~~~~~~!

Have a great day

Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 8:51 AM CST
good morning I just wanted to be first to greet you today. I dont know that song will have to find it and listen ... sounds like a very good one

Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 26, 2003 5:05 AM CST
One of my favorite Christmas songs...thinking of you.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Tuesday, November 25, 2003 6:17 PM CST
Happy Birthday Matthew! I hope that your day was very special!

Sending you extra birthday wishes.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Tuesday, November 25, 2003 8:18 AM CST
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MATTHEW!!!!

Sorry it's so late in the night posting it, but after I got home from job #2 tonight, I had to make deviled eggs for job #1 in the morning. We are having a Thanksgiving feast at school for many community members and our students!! So needless to say, I had to do three dozen deviled eggs. I have to do baked beans too, but I cheated, I got a big can of them and will throw them in the oven when I get up in the morning. Although, they will be nice and cold by the time I get to school!!

I hope your birthday was a very nice one!! Have a great rest of the week!!

Love and (((((HUGS)))))
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 24, 2003 10:53 PM CST
Happy Birthday, Matthew!!!!! Sounds like you had a really fun weekend, that got extended another day! Lucky you... and poor mom ---all that cooking.... are Jess and Christina helping her? (refraining from the "woman's place is in the kitchen comment) *snicker*

Matthew, I saw something over the weekend I know Robert would have loved..I snuck up on a blue heron the other day....sure wish I had my camera.... he was so pretty, and had just gotten himself a fresh fish for lunch. The fish was HUGE... looked like a racoon perch. But the bird did better fishing than I have lately!

Hope everyone is having a good week!
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, November 24, 2003 10:42 PM CST
Happy Birthday Matthew and Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Monday, November 24, 2003 4:37 PM CST
Happy Birthday Matthew....it is soooo cool to be 7. I hope you have a wonderful birthday today.
I wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving. Please be safe in your travels and be kind to one another on this day of Thanks.
I probably won't be able to check in for the rest of the week, we will be travelling to Atlanta to be with my husband's family for the holiday. I would like to ask you all to please say special prayer for our family, my mother-in-law is in the advanced stages of melanoma and we are not sure how much longer we have with her. She is in and out of the hospital alot these days and we just hope she is able to be with us on Thursday.

Happy Thanksgiving Charlton Family.....Matthew I hope your birthday dinner is great..I am sure mom is making lots of mac n' cheese for you. I remember it being your favorite. Have a great week. We love you and miss you.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Monday, November 24, 2003 9:18 AM CST
Happy Birthday! to Matthew. The funerals are terrible, and I will be thinking of you. I know that feelings make you know you are alive but really, these overwhelm it seems. This is sharing our brothers burden, and I would rather do it than be unaware I guess. There is just so much further to go with cancer knowledge. Much love to you during these holidays, and all that come with them.
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, November 24, 2003 6:55 AM CST
Happy birthday to Matthew Happy Birthday to Matthew
Happy birthday to Matthew happy seventh birthday to you... just be glad you can only hear my wishes and not my off key singing. :) I hope you have a good birthday day.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 24, 2003 6:21 AM CST
Happy Birthday Matthew! Hope you have tons of fun on your special day.
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Saturday, November 22, 2003 10:59 PM CST
Happy Birthday Weekend to Matthew!!!! I hope this thanksgiving feast goes ok for you... yea for mac and cheese for the birthday! have a good weekend see ya Mon if not before
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 21, 2003 3:50 PM CST
Kathy its Melissa, I just want to let you know that I also heard a song that made me think about you...Im not sure of the name but is says "somebody's praying me through". If you have felt that extra push lately then thats what it is.
Melissa Ferguson <mfullersc@hotmail.com>
Easley, SC USA - Friday, November 21, 2003 9:57 AM CST
good morning Kathy, I need to get up earlier I guess, I did not see the moon today. I hope things are going along there smoothly today. Its almost unbeleiveable what amounts of laundry there are for just two of us, I try not to remember the amound for a family. the dollar thing sounds like a good idea. hugs and prayers for all of you.
Sharon (the old mopgal) <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 20, 2003 10:02 AM CST
Funny you mentioned the moon once again, Kathy. I was out and about this morning at work... had to do SOMETHING to keep from falling asleep ;) --- 3 pots of java wasn't doing the trick... and I looked up... It was still dark, no pre-dawn color yet, but I remember you mentioning that same moon, rising over the ocean on one of your morning walks. Isn't it strange when we notice it, and the thoughts we think when we see it? I wonder if 'city people' ever get a chance to see such things?

Jessica---I'm gonna maybe try something different for this Thanksgiving... I'm thinking about getting one of those Turkey fryers...Wonder, if I do, what other concoctions I could come up with? Scary thought, huh?
How's Matthew adjusting to the new school? I bet he has all sorts of new friends now. And how about Christina? Besides the usual, is she keeping you and Mom straight?

Well----time for me to go play... not outside today, yet... it's a little blustery after that rain event of the last 24 hours, and the ocean is looking uninviting,... I think I'll go try to make our Driver Ed a birthday card... he's 40-something today... Stop on by over at Diane's page and wish him well as he approaches AARP ;)

Kath---glad I made you smile over at Crazyman's page ;)

DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, November 20, 2003 8:27 AM CST
Ditto to Toms note below. prayers for you lots of prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 19, 2003 6:54 PM CST
Simply said.... I understand
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ka/dianekeel - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 10:34 AM CST
Kathy and all,
I hope today the sun shone for you. You deserve a day of sunshine after yesterday. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
I recently read the book Blessings of a Skinned Knee in which the author tries to describe the gift of children. She says they are all gifts on loan from God. She suggests that we think of them as seeds in an unlabeled packet. Our job is to plant, water, weed, put them in the sun, and protect them from harm. With this encouraging environment God's gift can grow. We are allowed no claim on the type of plant that will grow or the rate at which it will grow. We just faithfully tend it and watch. I believe that is what you have done. You nurtured a very special plant, obviously one of God's special varieties. He bloomed early and now beautifies the Heavenlies! The rest of you are still here beautifying the Earth.
Peace--
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 9:00 PM CST
Dear Kathy,
I can't believe the strength you have. I admire your faith. I can't even bear to think how it would feel to go what you and your family have been through. I cried all through your jounal entry and still cry now. Robert touched so many lives. He was such a wonderful boy and a true warrior. I am happy for you all that life goes on and that you all continue to live that life. Matthew is such a sweetheart. Love to all the family, remain strong. Love from Dolores, Joe, Ryon, Jarrod and Joey Rommel
The Rommel's <rommelj@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, Fl. 33458 - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 8:30 PM CST
Kathy,
I just had to see how yesterday went for you. I love Matthew's response at the cemetary about his birthday. I know Robert would have smiled at his little brother. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers in the days ahead, because I am sure the holidays will have some difficult times with missing Robert.
Love,
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 8:10 PM CST
Kathy- I just wanted to let you know that your journal entries give me strength. I lost my son, Joe, to ALL in Sept. after a four year battle. When I read your entries I feel less alone in my grief. Thank you.

Cathy Rossini <trossini@comcast.net>
IGH, MN - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 6:24 PM CST
hi Kathy, I read your entry this morning For once I just have nothing to say I guess. I know it was a hard day for you, I am so glad you have so many friends and family to help you along the way. your know your in my prayers. I can tell you are a strong person by all your entries and you and the kids will get through this... but it is hard.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 18, 2003 6:21 PM CST
Hey Charltons,
I just wanted to let you know that I didn't forget about you all yesterday. I had limited access to the internet. I wanted to let ya'll know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. It is hard to beleive that we are still here a year later. I thought back to this time last year and how hard it was to get on a plane(for the first time ever might I add) to come down to Florida (another first) for Robert's memorial service. I then think about how lucky I was to be able to be there for those special times. We all love and miss Robert and know that he is still fishing in the big ocean in the sky. Keep up the good work Kathy. You are definately an inspiration to so many.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 12:36 AM CST
Kathy, We did not forget yesterday, we talked to Jeff yesterday morning, sorry I did not get to call you, please forgive me. I have been running around trying to get a good lawyer for my brother, it is a mess. I have not talked to you in a while, please call me so we can talk. I love you and the kids very much. Wish we could see you all. Please call.

Love you and miss you all, Janice
Janice Charlton <jcharl8197@aol.com>
Senatobia, Ms usa - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 10:13 AM CST
Kathy: I did not forget your day yesterday but was unable to write as I was in bed w/the flu. You all were & are still in my thoughts.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 7:53 AM CST
Dear Kathy,
I thought of you a number of times today and said a special prayer for you knowing that this would be a difficult day for you. I can understand how you would want to stand up in church and share Robert, want people to remember Robert, and even say "this is the day he left us last year to go home to the Lord". Off and on this evening in my busy life I have said I need to go write Kathy a message. Kathy, I know we have never met, but I have grown to love you through your sweet Robert's site. It's amazing how some dates that had no meaning before now have meaning in my life, a complete stranger to so many Caringbridge people. It is now etched in my mind that this day is shared by Robert Charlton, as his going home day, and Gabbie Pacquette's birthday, she would have turned 4 today. Both two beautiful precious gifts that God took back much too soon. I will continue to pray for you and your family and may you continue to bless us as you do each day.
In His love,
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Monday, November 17, 2003 9:46 PM CST
Kathy, the loss of your job sucks, but the WAY it happened!!!! How can people be so cold like that?? I will never understand humankind, I guess.

I'm sorry, I haven't read your journal for a few days, and then saw that entry. Oh that makes me so angry, but as others have said...your calling is out there, I truly believe that. Perhaps you should talk to a publisher about a book? Maybe call it "Tight Lines, Robert....a story about a remarkable boy, and his remarkable family".

I know this is a rough time of year for you. Here's wishing you and your family all the best. BIG HUGS!
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Monday, November 17, 2003 9:17 PM CST
My thoughts were with you all day today even though we haven't met. Stay strong, you and your family are an inspiration to us all.
Erin <boltsfan19@hotmail.com>
Clearwater, FL - Monday, November 17, 2003 8:54 PM CST
Been thinking about all of you all day. You are in our prayers! Love you guys!!
Carla <cartrash@bellsouth.net>
Cleveland, TN - Monday, November 17, 2003 6:51 PM CST
May God bless your family always...as you continue to praise God through what must be the most difficult experience any human could have, He is obviously listening and giving you peace. I pray for you often and await the day in heaven when you will all be reuinted. Until then, let your light shine...He is glorified through you and your words.
Korrie and Sean Stevenson PBA Alumni
Oviedo, FL - Monday, November 17, 2003 6:05 PM CST
Dear Kathy,
It is hard to believe that a year has gone by already. A year since your little one left our world� since he left your world. Although it has been a long time since I last wrote you, please know that you and your family continue to be in my prayers, and the memory of Robert will always be engraved in my heart.

He touched and inspired many lives, including mine. He became a teacher and a warrior without ever asking. He taught us about love and faith in his short eleven years, and showed us the meaning of true courage and hope.

A year ago today so many hearts were broken�
Tears fell like rain, and lives forever changed.

I believe with all my heart of a love that is greater than ours, a love that forgives, comforts, and restores, a love so powerful that it even conquers death.

May this Perfect Love continue to comfort, and strengthen you.

In Loving Memory of Robert Charlton

"To Where You Are"

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Lyrics by Linda Thompson
Sung by Josh Groban

Love and Peace,

Maria <Bubbadetiroks@bellsouth.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 5:29 PM CST
Dear Charlton Family....Just wanted you all to know that you have been on my heart and mind over the past week. Hang in there. We love you all.
Brundi Crawford <brundi@earthlink.net>
Mobile, Al USA - Monday, November 17, 2003 3:54 PM CST
Hello Kathy,
What do I say, I can never find the words, Just that your son ROBERT will never be forgotten ever, It's amazing how many times we talk about him in are home we have so many memories to go back on so many fun times, I was walking passed your house this morning and your yard always looks so nice and I remember telling the boys one day as we passed this house how beautiful the yard was and Robert said Mrs Maloy not as pretty as mine and when I took him home that day he said see isn't my yard the best, he loved his life he was such a happy boy and he always saw the good in people and he brought out the best in all, he will never be forgotten, Its because of him that I beleive I have found a wonderful church, he always tried to get Ryan to vist his Church and now I'm the one that going to his Church and learning and enjoy it so much he has brought me closer to God and for that I will always be greatfull, I guess we will never understand why, but I can just imagine him in heaven where we will see him again and I can just hear him now telling everyone stories and making them feel awesome and hear his wonderful laugh He loved you and Jeff so much, he was very comfortable in his own skin he knew he was special and that because thats the way you all made him feel. He will always be in my heart and I'm so greatful to have had him be a part of my family.
Love you guys my prayers are with you always
Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B, Fl Palm Beach - Monday, November 17, 2003 3:40 PM CST
Kathy I just wanted to stop in and let you know that I am thinking and praying for you guys today a bit more than I usually do. Thanks, as always, for sharing your heart in your journal. Blessings and love to you in Christ. You are a blessing to me.
Khalita <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Monday, November 17, 2003 3:22 PM CST
Kathy -

I wanted to let you know I have thought of you and Robert throughout the day. I can't imagine what a difficult time this is - please know I am here for you if you need anything. With everthing else going on in your life, your boss turns out to be the biggest jerk in the world. You will find a better job soon - I am sure of it. Take care of yourself and give the kids a hug for me.
Diane Mathis <Stubby3620@aol.com>
Boynton Beach, FL - Monday, November 17, 2003 3:14 PM CST
Dear Charlton family-
May each of you somehow, somehow find some peace apart from the pain today. I cannot even imagine what you are feeling, but I want you all to know how much I have thought of each of you today. No one that ever knew Robert or even those who have just followed this page has ever forgotten him. What a special soul he is. Robert, I love you and I will never forget you and that sling shot with my little Cam and Dr. Gowda. Peace to all of you.
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 2:55 PM CST
Dear Charlton's: I am thinking of all of you on this day. It is so hard to believe a year has gone by. I am so thankful for you Kathy for letting us in to your life. All of us out here in cyberspace who feel a deep connection with your family applaud you all for continuing to keep us informed of your everyday life. We laugh with you and we cry with you. We know that God is bigger than our fears and doubts. I pray your family today will sense the presence of the Holy Spirit as He continues to fill all of your hearts with his love. Shalom, Liz Norcross and family
Liz Norcross <athomewithliz@yahoo.com>
Lake Worth, FL Palm Beach - Monday, November 17, 2003 2:40 PM CST
To all the Charlton clan and their extended families.
Just wanted you to know we are thinking of you today. Many prayers have been said and sent to you and yours from all of us. Today more than ever, we wish you peace and love and know that many are wishing that as well.,
The D'Uva family

Barbara D'Uva <duva-a@bellsouth.net>
WEST PALM BEACH, FL US - Monday, November 17, 2003 12:25 AM CST
Dear Kathy, Kathy Kathy Kathy, I love you so much. I'm having trouble putting into words my feelings.You know I've felt a certain quilt that you've had to endure this,and that I have my son. I believe the reason I struggle with this is because how clearly and deeply I have empatized in the deepest sense of the word.I can so put myself in your position and know it could of been me losing Mark.Please know that for that year there was nothing more important to me going on than you guys and every day I was with you. Then after Robert died, I felt I needed a break from the sadness I felt for you and the guilt I felt for surviving and that it is that and only that as to why I don't visit the page more often or keep more in touch, not because I have forgotten Robert. Perhaps because not only do I think of him and you alot, but being at the page everyday I think of you guys too much for it to be healty for me or Mark.I want you to know that I will never, ever, ever forget Robert or you and the other children.About the job, apparently that is not the job you should be at, easy for me to say right! I want to SHARE WITH YOU what my mother always tells me.(KATHY, THIS TOO SHALL PASS),and she's so right, every time.
DELORES KERN <dmpro@bellsouth.net>
MIAMI, FL usa - Monday, November 17, 2003 12:19 AM CST
Kathy, Thinking about you and Robert today and everyday. I dont write very often but do check your site daily and it helps me get through my days. Sometimes I just dont have the energy to share my thoughts with you. I so feel like we are forgotten and Adam is forgotten. We had so much help through our 4 year journey and now where is everyone. We were helped in so many ways and I am thankful for that, but I just wish someone would bring a meal now once in a while, just so we knew they were still thinking about us.
God bless you today and everyday.

RuthTrombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 11:35 AM CST
Kathy, I'm thinking of you and the children today and always. You are all in my thoughts and prayers!
Laure C.
B'ham, AL USA - Monday, November 17, 2003 11:02 AM CST
Dearest Family:
I had the opportunity to share a few memories of Robert to a dear choir member yesterday. Our choir sang from the balcony without sound equipment as a part of our worship service was an interactive one with the Lord's Supper. My memories of Robert that I shared were:
Making tea on a cool day while staying with them back about three or four years ago. Robert saw that I was making Rasperry Hot tea, he tried it and loved it (at least he said he did, maybe just because Mimi was having it, he wanted me to hear that) another was an instance where I had on one of Gigi's sweater outfits and he came up to me and hugged me with one of those famous "everlasting" hugs of his, he said; you smell just like your house, I love the smell of your house, and I replied - yeah, i guess i'm an antique, too. Another time was the day before he left to go to Memphis, he and I went to Hamburger Heaven on Palm Beach, he loved those burgers. He was always quick to be appreciative of everything you did or anything you gave him. Most children have to be reminded of saying please and thank you, but not Robert. I also remember some of the times when you lived on North Palm Way in Lake Worth, the early years when it was just the "Irish Twins" and mom and dad. How he would sit on the counter watching you wash dishes or fix macaroni and cheese, sometimes you had both of them up on the counter. Kathy, do you remember his birthday celebration with Jonathan L, Jessica, you, and I, Jeff and my mom (one of the few times she was there in late april, because Mother's day that year came early. OH, the wonders of it all. He can now visit with your Dad, grandmother, Jeff's grandfather, my Mom and Dad, my brother Robert, and all those who have gone on before. I am so thankful for this family of faith we have. We must live faithfully, and abundantly as God provides so as to Glorify HIM until our time for parting this life. Our purpose is to teach others THE WAY so that Christ sacrifice covers all that come to him. Robert is saying to us... YOU GO CHARLTONS! YOU GO WALDRONS!, Think about it... Love Mimi Jane
Jane C PIke <jcpike@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL USA - Monday, November 17, 2003 10:32 AM CST
Hi Kat,
Thank you all for spending time with us this weekend. It was a beautiful testament to the love, honor, strength and trust that has become the standard for our family. I feel that this is the most perfect testimony to the memory of Robert that we can offer to him and to one another.
In the words of a great country song, "It's not what you take when you leave this world behind, it's what you leave behind when you go". Robert has made us all better people.
Aunt Bambi <mary@forristall.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 10:10 AM CST
HI CHARLTON FAMILY,

I HAVE NOT SIGNED ON IN AWHILE. BUT, YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY THOUGHTS & PRAYERS. ALL OF YOU! ESPECIALLY SINCE SCHOOL IS IN. MY SON SITS ACROSS FROM CHRISTINA. I OFTEN LOOK AT THE KIDS AND JUST WONDER WHAT THEY COULD BE THINKING OF. I STILL HAVE THE PICTURE OF ROBERT ON MY DESK. AND I ALWAYS KNOW WHAT THE 17TH IS ON EACH MONTH. AND PEOPLE WHO DO NOT KNOW HIM HERE ASK ME WHO HE IS. I SAY "A NEAT LIL GUY". I ADMIRE THE STRENGTH ALL OF YOU HAVE. IF POSSIBLE, PASS IT ON..........

SUNSHINE FROM MY HOUSE TO YOURS.

XOXOXO,

DANA SPA

DA NA SPA
WEST PALM BEACH, FL USA - Monday, November 17, 2003 9:27 AM CST
Thinking of Robert and your family on this day. Our continued thoughts and prayers remain with all of you.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Monday, November 17, 2003 9:01 AM CST
On this day a year has passed since your Robert left for his heavenly home. I know its been a really tough year for you and for your whole family. It should never have to be that a child goes before his parents. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers today and always. Robert will not be forgotten. It sounds like he was a wonderful big brother and a wonderful son and grandson.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 9:01 AM CST
How is it possible that your words are more beautiful and more comforting with each passing day?

We found a mylar balloon, shaped like a fish, and Shea wanted to buy it for Robert. She always looks at the picture of him with his fishing pole. She had me write a note to Mamaw and said that Robert would know who to give it to...So, we'll let it fly to heaven this morning.

We PROMISE, we will NEVER forget your boy. Love to each of you.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Monday, November 17, 2003 8:59 AM CST
Kathy and kids,

Robert won't be forgotten. He can't be. He affected us all way too much. I hope this day brings you joyful memories of Robert's life!
Jim <jimharwood@aol.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 8:52 AM CST
Kathy, I will never, ever forget your son. Hugs from Iowa. TERRI
Terri Daringer <tdaringer@shco.org>
Persia, Ia - Monday, November 17, 2003 8:37 AM CST
Ode to Robert

Hello Robert
Boy of mine
who we mourn, glorify and
study all the days of your life.
Your effect on all of us:
your memories made so sweet, so sad, so poignant
within your passing.
We lift your life up in praise
and your spirit soars above us,
above all the clouds, above all our tears.
Never, never, forget us.
We will remember you always
in the spaces of our tears.
You remain forever here within us
inside our aching hearts.
We will meet again,
soon.

My love,
Mimi Bunny
Barbara waldron <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
west palm beach, fl us of a - Monday, November 17, 2003 7:33 AM CST
Kathy - I woke up thinking of your sweet family this morning. Please know prayers are being said for you today and always. Robert is on my heart and mind.
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, - Monday, November 17, 2003 7:09 AM CST
Good morning, sweet Kathy and Charltons... Thinking very special thoughts today for all of you, and all of Robert's friends and buddies today. Days and Dates will always have a special place, with today being among the most important and most difficult. Kathy, I just wanted to say while you may be alone in yout thoughts today, you are definitely not alone. Peace to you, Jessica, Matthew, Christina, and Jeff today, and always. God Bless �
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
Kill Devil Hills, NC - Monday, November 17, 2003 7:04 AM CST
Thinking of all of you today.

Much Peace
The Bunkelmann Family www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Monday, November 17, 2003 6:12 AM CST
I was never lucky enough to know your Robert here on earth, but I feel as if I miss him. I am thinking of you, on these hardest of days, and lifting you in prayer for comfort and peace. Our boys sounds so very much alike, and I'm sure they're keeping things hoppin' in Heaven! It truly gives me peace; knowing my Andy has such awesome company! God bless you!
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever) www.caringbridge.org/il/legoman
- Sunday, November 16, 2003 8:16 PM CST
Kathy Im getting ready to get off work But before I leave I wanted to share with you something that I read today...
"I am a very strong, determined woman, and Mom and I am greatful that I know Robert is in the right hand of God for him to take care of and love" This was written by you on 9/23/02. Kathy, you are also in Gods right hand and he will take care of you as well. This strength is still in you. Remember... sometimes your problems may be a part of his purpose
Melissa Ferguson <mfullersc@hotmail.com>
Easley, SC USA - Sunday, November 16, 2003 5:33 PM CST
just checking in. will be thinking of you tomorrow all day, and knowing that all is right in Heaven...Good to see the word as-h--- in your journal, did give me a chuckle!! I am sure a better job will come and you should be where you are loved. Sending much love this week, and know you are hanging on. Thanks for checking in on Lizzie and yes you are right, I am "" out there"" for sure!
Mary Alice D. caringbridge.org/va/lizzie <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Sunday, November 16, 2003 5:06 PM CST
Hey momma . . .
Your journal left me in tears and shock. You are the last woman on this Earth who should have to endure one more smidgen of pain in any sense. I was quite angered by your boss, can I say asshole on this page? Guess so. Completely his loss and another door will open for you. I know you know this.
I remember this time of year all too well. I know it must be so unbearable for you and for that I am sorry. I know you miss your Robert. We all do. There are a lot of things I don't understand in this world. I look at my little Cam and my heart swells and breaks all at once. . .
I just want you to know that I am thinking of you and wishing you well. I hope that you have settled a bit from last week. You are going to make it, Kathy. You have always proved yourself to be a survivor. You are a truly beautiful person! Take care and love to those children!
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen <largo142@aol.com>
- Sunday, November 16, 2003 1:34 PM CST
I know that Robert's heavenly birthday is actually tomorrow, but I was remembering back to Sunday morning, last year...I rarely fire up the computer on weekends, but I was drawn to your page...Your journal about Robert leaving was so peaceful. My heart broke, but I still felt encouraged by you. You have such a gift. How does a grieving mother manage to encourage a friend who is 3000 miles away?

You are in my prayers--today, tomorrow, and always.

Robert, I know the fish are biting, the breeze is light, and you are watching your mom, dad, Jessica, Christina, and Matthew, with great pride. We all miss you!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Still touched by an angel, - Sunday, November 16, 2003 12:23 AM CST
Kathy
Hello !! How are you doing ? Us here in Kansas in are doing pretty good ....Diane is also holding her own ...I have her on the cell phone so I am going to write what she is saying and add what I feel as I go along (on the weekends I read the Journals to Diane over the cell phone they are free ) so here it goes ....
Frist off Diane wants you to know that it is your Bosses loss that you will no longer be there !!! A Pompass that didnt realize what a strong capable woman that you are !!! Diane says that she feels sorry for him ( I do too) ...and as far as him watching you ...Diane says that he should of been looking in the mirror !!! Both Diane and I think you are a remarkable woman !!! Diane says that he didnt deserve your tears ...I tend to agree with her ...somthimes Kathy people dont know how to deal with PURE and REAL ...I will tell you that Yours & Roberts Team Stnad 150% behind you no matter what ...you have all of Roberts and your friends as well as other CB Pals ...you Kathy have alot in your cornor just as I Diane dose !!! I dont know how somtimes Diane and I would of made it with out You and everyone else ...YOU ROCK !!!!
Diane also just said to tell you that WE Pita and Diane got snail mail out to you ...heehee so be watching your snail mail box Ok ???
Diane says that she wants to give you a big hug ....I wish we all lived closer so we could be there for our friends when stuff like this comes up ...that would be awsome ...we think we can move mountions with one anthor help imange where what we could move if we all lived in the same city :) thats a thought that makes me smile !!!
Kathy I know I dont write all the time in your guestbook ...I have to tell you somtimes I find it hard and not know what to say ....Us here in Kansas miss Robert and all our angels ...Diane is working on me with this ...through her I have been to some angels sights and Posted in the guestbooks ...Diane helps me so much sometimes you know ....but I will be back and I will write again ....I always read your journals your writing and out look on life has also taught me a few things ....
Know that Dianes P.I.T.A will be here alot more and also know that Roberts and Your Team will always be with here for you ....
May God Bless You And Give You The Streanth That You Need To Cotinue Your Walk In Your Life
All Of Kansas Love Hugs & Kisses Are Sent Your Way
Always Moving FORWARD With You
Diane ,Ed & The P.I.T.A

Racquell (www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel) <PPrincess2424@aol.com>
Kansas City , Ks Gearing Up For Anthor Year Of Racing - Sunday, November 16, 2003 7:38 AM CST
Good morning Kathy, its Melissa again. I just arrived at work and I am reading more of your story. There are several of the nurses that are reading as well. If you see this then GOD HAS GIVEN YOU ANOTHER DAY!!!! Rejoice in that!! I know the next few days will be hard for you and your family..but just remember that Robert is in a place that we are hoping to get to. God didnt put us here to gather up all of the riches we can get, we are here to prepare for eternity in Heaven with Christ! I never met Robert but I know that in his 11 years he had more of an impact on people that some will have in a lifetime. His job was done and he was called home. Tomorrow will be his birthday in Heaven...maybe he will go fishing with Jesus...What an AWESOME birthday present!!!!! I wish you could see us right now at my job. Im on one computer writing you and Kristi, an RN, is one the other computer reading your story. (We came across Roberts site when we were visiting one of our childrens sites. Weve been reading since Friday.) Just know that we are with you everyday in spirit and you and your family are in our prayers.
Melissa Ferguson <mfullersc@hotmail.com>
Easley, SC USA - Sunday, November 16, 2003 6:18 AM CST
Hello Kathy.......you are so loved and admired for your strength especially by me....you have always been there for me more than I could possibly be for you. But know I think of you always and I am truly sorry about the job thing. But if I know you...you are already kicking butt by now....Maybe God wanted you to have the ability to do what you want at this time of year when our wonderful Robert went to heaven. I do believe that was his mission. This time is so sacred to you and your family and I am sure no boss would ever understand. So here's to your time with your family and to our Robert who probably had the upperhand in the whole decision with God. Robert knew you the best!!! God Bless and again I am always thinking about you!! I love ya buddy, Tricia Doyle
Tricia <supportjess@aol.com>
- Saturday, November 15, 2003 3:21 PM CST
Kathy, My name is Melissa and I am a unit secretary at a childrens oncology hospital in Greenville SC. For the past 5 hours I have been reading your story. It is so sad to say, but your story is so familiar. These families here go through so much. I know that you will get through this because you have an amazing strength inside you. I could see your strength as I was reading your story. As I read how you sat in St Jude day after day with Robert and how you would be strong for him. I know that your strength made Robert feel very secure, and you other children know -that as long as mommie is around, everything will be alright. I have battled some personal issues and I was at my end, and one day I realized that my problems were a part of Gods purpose. I honestly felt like God had to tear me down to build me back up. Now, having went through what I did, I have the strength, faith and the comfort of knowing that I am not alone in anything. God is by my side and I will be ok. When I wake up I thank God for the wonderful day that I am going to have. I have learned to stop telling God about my problems......and start telling my problems about my God!!!!!! Ive felt your strength and faith, now you have to pull it back out and let go of your fears and worries and let God take care of it. Everything will be ok. I am praying for you. You are a real inspiration to me. Love , Melissa Ferguson
Melissa Ferguson <mfullersc@hotmail.com>
Easley, SC USA - Saturday, November 15, 2003 1:12 PM CST
Hi Kathy---please know better things are in store for you. You WILL find your calling and God will lead you to where you are suppose to be. I wish you the best.
Eileen
- Saturday, November 15, 2003 0:22 AM CST
Kathy, I know how you feel about the job. When they closed Ron's down after 19 years in, we were shocked and in a financial rut thats going to take us a while to get out of. Everyone thinks federal jobs are safe.. ha! Nothing in life is safe anymore. It has nothing to do with you, he even told you that, its the economy, its politics, its whatever, but its not you. You will find another one. And as long as you were working for pompous windbag you wouldnt have been looking for it, so he did you a favor. What did he think you were going to do, steal a stapler after he fired you!??
I know you could use a hug sooooo bad right now, pleae dont let this get the best of you!
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, November 14, 2003 10:50 PM CST
I know you're mad and hurt, but this won't defeat you! It's Mr. "Pompous windbags" loss and your gain! You're too good for him anyway! God has much better plans in store for you...keep reminding yourself of that. I'm incredible impressed that you were even able to return to the work force; I haven't been able to in the 10 months my Andy has been gone. Keep on pluggin' on girl, we're all praying for you. In Christ,
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever)
- Friday, November 14, 2003 5:29 PM CST
I recently was laid off from a job (in May) and you know what - one door closes and another opens. I found something better (for my family life) and we are surviving. You will find something else too. Robert will help you from above. Don't let it get you down. The guy sounds like a jerk - it's their loss. Keeping you and your family in my thought.
Cathy Rusyniak <Garbmike@optonline.net>
Rockaway, ny - Friday, November 14, 2003 3:31 PM CST
Oh Kathy. That whole job thing is just what you DIDN'T need right now! As far as I'm concerned, it's their loss. The "boss" sounds like an idiot and someone you wouldn't want to work for, long term, anyway! I think he saw your potential, your sparkle, your charisma, and was afraid you would take his job!!!!!!! Onward and upward, my friend.

You guys are in my prayers. I hope today is more peaceful and provides you with laughter and many happy memories of Robert. Happy Birthday to Mimi Bunny! God bless.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Friday, November 14, 2003 12:28 AM CST
Kathy,
I have been reading your journal for a long time now and may have signed your guestbook one other time. I just want to tell you how much your faith in God has inspired me this past year. You have a gift girlfriend. Don't let some idiot boss bring you down. I follow your life's journey daily and honey you are made of something stronger and deeper than some asshole boss. To survive loosing your son is something I can't begin to comprehend. But to also loose your husband and become a single mom is unbelieveable. Hang in there girl and know that there are hundreds of stangers in your corner cheering you on.
Carla Adams <cadams@sedev.org>
TN - Friday, November 14, 2003 11:22 AM CST
Hey Kathy,
I'm so sorry, Life is so hard to understand, I know with your faith it will be okay. Any thing I can do please call love martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
wpb, fl 33406 - Friday, November 14, 2003 11:04 AM CST
Kathy: Hang in there. You know it's supposed to be that things happen for a reason and perhaps that perfect job is just around the corner and it couldn't have happened if you were still in this one. I do know, however, that it isn't fun to get let go or "fired". It only happened to me once when I was hired to typeset and he wanted me to do layouts which I just had no idea how to do and he couldn't afford two people so he very gently told me he had to find someone else, but I was devastated and my livelihood wasn't dependent on that. I think the perfect place for you would be with the team at St. Mary's who helps patients find the necessities when their children have devastating illnesses. Have you thought of that? You'd be the perfect go-getter for that!

Enjoy the weekend and start anew on Monday.

Nancy McDaniel <nmcdan1@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, November 14, 2003 9:11 AM CST
Hang in there. I know that you are going through a very difficult time right now but it will all be ok.

We are here for you.

Jennifer Miles www.caringbridge.org/mn/deemartinson <jennifer.miles@thomson.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Friday, November 14, 2003 8:49 AM CST
Kathy,
I am so sorry to hear about the job. I am sure that he does not know just whom he fired. What a jerk. I am confident that something alot better will come along soon. If anyone deserves a break you do. It will happen. Meanwhile just keep your chin up and keep doing all the wonderful things you do. Please tell Mimi Bunny that all of us from Mississippi wish her the best birthday. Tell the children that we love and miss them. Please have a good weekend. I will keep you in my prayers.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Friday, November 14, 2003 8:25 AM CST
I just dont know what to say to you today, my heart is breaking for you.... Hang in there ... hug the kids.... and cry it all out........
If they were gonna let you go why did they have to do it that way>? I will never in my life understand bosses.... I think I would have had to tell people as I walked passed them, ((if I could do with with out crying (which if you know me I couldnt)) just what this guy had done..... and how!!!! Hugs and prayers for all of you .... your aunt is right.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 8:20 AM CST
Hi Kathy,
I'm so sorry about the job - what a terrible way to let you go. I know you must be so totally overwhelmed with Robert's Angel Date coming up and now this. I just wanted to say hang in there - there are so many of us out here praying for you and the kids and thinking of Robert.
Love,
Jean

Jean - Quilts of Love <jean@quiltsoflove.com>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 7:52 AM CST
Oh Kathy, hang on. Something better for work is bound to come. God will not leave you hanging. However, it is time for Life to get easier on some level, really. I feel like driving down, just to comfort you and also, tell that man off....what a total jerk. Grab your kids hard, and know you will get through this one additional rotten time, and that absolutely something better and suited to you is in the works. Prayers are with you this week, and for all your loved ones. Your aunt is right, this will not beat you,, however, sometimes the little things just send us when we are on the edge anyway.....so hang on tight.
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, November 14, 2003 6:53 AM CST

My prayers are with you as you near the 1 year anniversary of your sweet son earning his angel wings - may the Lord keep you and comfort you.
Love Angel Toto~Quilts of Love
- Friday, November 14, 2003 3:27 AM CST
I'm so sorry every thing is crashing in on you now..I'll be praying for you...remember that saying "the Lord never closes a door without opening a window"...I believe this so much...He always knows what we need, even when we don't understand it at all...Hugs to you and many prayers...
Carolyn

Carolyn <carolynj52@ilovejesus.net>
- Friday, November 14, 2003 2:41 AM CST

HI

Stopped by to let you know that you are in
our hearts thoughts and prayers..

Hugs and Blessings to you and your family

Angel Chris
Quilts Of Love
Chris <wardsweb@earthlink.net>
Los Angeles, CA USA - Friday, November 14, 2003 0:17 AM CST
Of course I read back, and it struck me that you and Neena lost your children both on Sundays....as if God waited until the perfect time of rest. Both of such faithful parents and both leukemia, and on Gods most perfect day. Of course the day is very clear. Kathy, I think of you all often, and know that Robert is close to you all. His love from Heaven has only grown to surround you all. Neena did tell me that your journal has been a true help to her, giving her faith that there is life down the road that is bearable. Always,
Mary Alice <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Thursday, November 13, 2003 7:33 PM CST
Kathy,
I did go back and read......and remember.
Right now there is nothing more I can say....
Robert, I will NEVER forget!!!
Sent with all my love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Thursday, November 13, 2003 2:41 PM CST
Kathy,
You are so on my mind, Praying and thinking about you all.
Love martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
wpb, fl 33406 - Thursday, November 13, 2003 11:58 AM CST
Kathy -- I'm once again moved by your entry. I have no words to add tonight... I just want you to know I continue to check in each day and pray for your precious family.
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Wednesday, November 12, 2003 9:52 PM CST
Hi Kath.

All is quiet in the Hamilton household...although I think someone left "Finding Nemo" playing when they went to bed. Matt is off watching the Mighty Ducks play Toronto and all three girls are tucked in.

People get all nutty when it rains here-- throw in some hail, thunder, and lightening, and suddenly the news is plastered with "STORM WATCH" graphics. Freeways all over LA are shut down from flooding. I'm sure it's heading south. Should be an interesting night...

I read your post today...I, too, was thinking of this time last year. I remember "reading between the lines" of your entries, and being so worried for you. Your amazing boy touched, and continues to touch, so many lives. I miss our "chats". I hope the job is going well, life is treating you kindly, and that the kids are as amazing as ever. You are often on my mind...I'm just not good at finding the time to let you know.

Here comes the rain...off to close the windows. Much love,
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Wednesday, November 12, 2003 9:27 PM CST
Hey Kathy,
I am remembering this week from last year too. It is hard to beleive it is already a year. It is almost as time has stood still this past year. We all miss him so badly it is hard to beleive that just one year ago we lost him. It is so great to be able to relive these moments with you. Thank you. Take care of yourselves.
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, November 12, 2003 9:34 AM CST
Oh Kathy, my thoughts are really with you this week. when I still lived in Ga I drove by the cemetary where my son was every day as I went to work to..and oh the thoughts we think then....My thoughts are prayers are with you all every day but especially this week.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 12, 2003 9:15 AM CST
Good morning, I hope the weekend went well. I have you in my thoughts and prayers especially this week. I have a sad anniversary coming up in a few weeks too I know you will find just the right thing to do to remember a wonderful little boys life.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 10, 2003 8:25 AM CST
"I am sure that I will find time to write this weekend"

HAHAHA----best laid plans, huh Kathy? Sounds like it was going to be an interesting weekend for you, at least. Indian Summer abruptly left here on Thursday... unfortunately, unlike you guys, another day in the 80's will be a rare thing until next spring... but we did manage a few days of nice weather while Eva was here. Since then, the temp has been boring----high of 56, low of 49...sand blowing around everywhere, ocean too rough to beach fish, bait going bad in the fridge...*sigh*. Hey----that's a great report on the kids--especially Jessica's test results and report card. and imagine...Matthew having 'too much fun'... Here's hoping a good week for y'all!
Tom-DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Monday, November 10, 2003 6:46 AM CST
lurk lurk lurk....just checking in again!! Let us hear how the reunion went, you are brave to go!! Much love ma
Mary Alice Doschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Sunday, November 9, 2003 1:07 PM CST
Kathy, I just stopped in here to let you know that the Lord put you on my heart specifically tonight---or I guess you could say, this morning since it's after midnight. I am thinking about you and praying for you even though I do not always sign in. Please know that you are cared for, prayed for and loved along with the rest of your beautiful family. I will continue to check in on you. Blessings as I know the days ahead are very hard with the 17th rolling around soon.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Saturday, November 8, 2003 11:36 PM CST
Hey Kathy,
I'm so glad everyone is doing well, Jessica is amazing we went by on halloween and she was all dressed up she looked so beautiful she is an amazing girl all your children are very special and I know you are so proud.
love martha
martha maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
wpb, fl palm bech - Friday, November 7, 2003 12:40 AM CST
Way to go Jessica! and Christina and Matthew too.. It sounds like you are all great kids. Kathy I hope you have a good time at the homecoming... I'm sure your ujp to answering all the questions and talking with everyone. I sure have been thinking about you as this anniversary day you never wanted comes closer. you know your in my prayers.
Sharon (the old mopgal) <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 7, 2003 11:16 AM CST
Hiya Kath... of course I don't have any answers to your question...but I had a shadow with me yesterday. Eva and I were out on the beach, enjoying a very late Indian summer, and I managed to reel in 2 black drum and a puffer, and had this silly little grin on my face... she knew why ... and Tyler's porposises were all over the place-----Eva got some excellent pics & videos of them dancing in the waves.

Eva's brother had a serious heart attack yesterday, as she prepared to end her vacation..she's back in Michigan now :( ... their family could use some good thoughts/prayers, since Rodger isn't expected to make it through this crisis...
I do have some thoughts passing through this crazy mind---I'll be in touch with ya email...

Hugs to you and the kids...
DaDuck---aka Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, November 6, 2003 6:15 PM CST
Hi Kathy,

I just wanted to tell you that I'm thinking of you. My time is less and less my own these days. Have you ever noticed how our parents become like our children? Sheesh...between my parents and Matt's, plus our kids, I run, non-stop from about 6:00 a.m. to about 9:00 p.m. Oh well...it's all good!

Sending you big hugs!!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Thursday, November 6, 2003 10:12 AM CST
Wow Kathy,
Your description of God's handiwork left me with chills. I am so grateful you were not afraid or anxious. How like God to turn your fears into blessings. Read Nahum 1:3 when you can. I will never think of the clouds in the same way.
Smile--
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
- Wednesday, November 5, 2003 10:09 AM CST
Kathy, you constantly amaze me with your insight.!! I felt like that when I flew one evening..... I know some folks fly all the time and probably never would notice that, or maybe they just don't open themselves to it. Then flying into the sunrise one morning I felt almost like we were flying into the brightness of heaven.. I know that GOD is using you and your words to help so many of us along the way.....May HE give you peace..... your in my prayers
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle, AR - Wednesday, November 5, 2003 8:32 AM CST
Hello Kathy-Another awesome insight into the life of a Mom who has lost. We are all amazed at your strength and courage and of course, we know your source. You are constantly reminding us that God loves us all. Robert is very proud. Love,Mom
imb4ubunny@aol.com <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
WPB, fl us of a - Wednesday, November 5, 2003 6:31 AM CST
Hello Kathy and all her faithful followers-We are approaching a time that will forever burn in our hearts. The days are counting down. We have the memories of our Robert close and his image is always warming. Our child, favorite fisherman, loving friend and caring (crazy) brother. Let us stay close to you. We love you so and miss you. God bless us all, Mimi Bunny
PS-Robert-I will be seeing a movie tomorrow and thinking of you--I will save you the seat beside me. I will hear your laughter in the theatre above everyone elses. Kisses, Mimi
Barbara Waldron <imb4ubunny@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, Fl. Us of A - Tuesday, November 4, 2003 9:11 PM CST
Welcome back and I am so glad you had a wonderful trip. Take care.
Eileen
- Tuesday, November 4, 2003 12:26 AM CST
Kathy - I hope you had a great weekend - I'm sure the kids had fun also w/Jeff & Mimi Bunny. I remember how Mimi Bunny used to love Halloween in the old neighborhood.

Love to all,

Jenny
Jenny Edmunds <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Monday, November 3, 2003 2:28 PM CST
just checking to see if you are back safely. Hope you had a deserved, great time. much love,
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Monday, November 3, 2003 12:56 AM CST
I dont know what day your coming back from your mini trip. I hope you got to see a lot of pretty fall color, I want to run up the mt and see if there is any here but havent yet.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle , ar - Monday, November 3, 2003 11:12 AM CST
I am praying, too.
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Saturday, November 1, 2003 9:18 AM CST
Hello and Happy Halloween to you all. Have a safe trip and I hope you get to see those leaves - it is an awesome sight our Mother Nature. I am glad today is not as difficult as anticipated and I am so happy you are finally beginning to find a peace in your heart. You are in my prayers and I simply LOVE your journals - I visit everyday - a faithful follower! Have fun on your trip - enjoy!
Eileen
- Friday, October 31, 2003 11:34 PM CST
Kathy, this being kind of a children's fun kind of day, I thought of Robert and wanted to drop by and leave prayers for you and a wish for a fun and safe day...I see you will be leaving or have already left for a trip ..Have some fun relaxation and know that your Quilts of Love family cares and sends their love...Hugs Carolyn

Carolyn <carolynj52@ilovejesus.net>
- Friday, October 31, 2003 3:38 PM CST
Praying for a safe flight today and that you feel "at peace" on the plane. I hate to fly! I've even left Amanda messages on her machine telling her what time my flight leaves so she can pray for me! :) I said a prayer for you just now! Have a great trip! Enjoy the cold weather. We can't wait to hear about it.
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Friday, October 31, 2003 3:09 PM CST
Good to see you here on your page once again, and have a great trip for some R and R...do we get details?? Kathy, thank you for being there for my friend, it is helping already. What a gift you have. Have some much needed and deserved rest, and add some fun too, get away and no goblins allowed. Much love
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Thursday, October 30, 2003 9:58 PM CST
Hey Kathy,
Hello I am still a faithfull follower, but its been so hard to know what to say your entry the other day about halloween just made me cry, it was such a sad time, I will never forget that night as long as I live, but I will concentrate on all the good memories and about Robert I have so many, you have a wonderful weekend enjoy. I love you and you are always on my mind.
love Martha
Martha Maloy <maloywayne@msn.com>
W.P.B., fl 33406 - Thursday, October 30, 2003 3:55 PM CST
Have a good time on your R & R you deserve it. the kids will be well taken care of so you have no worries on that part.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 30, 2003 2:16 PM CST
Hi Kathy.

I was reading Scott Finestone's entry today...thinking of you and how many memories have been bombarding you lately. It's strange how deeply memories can rip into our psyche. You know the whole story of my pregnancy with Tate, what she went through, and how she is today...still, I can think back on those days and have an instant pit in my stomach. Pictures of her first months of life bring me to tears. But, I can look at her today and thank God for her health. It could have been so different...

You are so much on my mind and in my heart...AND in my prayers. I hope today is full of smiles and peace. No one deserves it more.

Missing Robert right along with you!

~much love
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Thursday, October 30, 2003 8:55 AM CST
Sweet Kathy,
Your applecart sure has been dumped upside down, and the view looks so different where you all have landed. But you have succeeded in a most important area of parenthood. In all these trials, you have managed, often very creatively, to provide security to your loved ones. They have dealt with excruciating pain and unbelievable changes in their lives, but they go on because they have the courage to do so. I believe they identify themselves as "dearly loved" and so they can go on, just as you have.
Praying for some rest for you all--
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Thursday, October 30, 2003 8:49 AM CST
good morning down FLA way. I hope you all have a good day
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 30, 2003 8:12 AM CST
Hi Kathy
I have come to your site many times but have never left a message. I think you are a wonderful mom!!!!
Heather <mcmurray@interlynx.net, www.caringbridge.org/canada/memorialformom>
- Wednesday, October 29, 2003 4:41 PM CST
Kathy,
Normal is what we make of it (at least that is how I feel these days). I am so proud of Matthew and Christina for doing the new things they have had to do this week. I can only imagine how hard it must be to have your world turned completely upside down and then try to go to into a new environment and make new friends. Ya'll are definately a family to be admired.
All that craziness you explained to us yesterday is just a day in the life of the Charlton's we have come to know and love. Honestly we can't get enough of it. It makes the rest of us realize that we are not crazy that the rest of the world lives crazy lives just like we do. Hope you all have a great Halloween.....Love ya'll
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Wednesday, October 29, 2003 1:06 PM CST
Normal what is that? YOu do not want it to come to soon cause that will mean your old old old and nothing is going on in your life. I am glad to hear that Matthew loves the new school. and I am also glad to hear that your kids can voice their choices, we dont always get our choice but its good to be able to say what it is.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 28, 2003 3:08 PM CST
Kathy - isn't that rat-race of a morning you had just 'day-to-day' stuff. I thought that is what everyday is like in the life of a family w/young kids. If there is anyway different out there I'd sure love to know also.

Love to all,
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durahm, NC - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 2:46 PM CST
Boy...that yellow sure is easy on the eyes *giggle* Good morning Charlton gang! Checking in after a fun weekend spent fishing with family....well a few hours of it, at least... Sis was down, with her son, and his 2 kids... Mikey and Rhiannon (Nana) had a blast. We didn't catch anything keepable while I was with them, but a kid, a rod, a fish----I couldn't help but know the shadow was there goofing off with us. "Uncle Tom, you got a bite" as he grabs my rod off the pier railing....

Thanks for stopping by Diane's, Kathy.
DaDuck <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 7:45 AM CST
Kathy, Hope your job is helping you along and I hope Matthew enjoyed his first day at his new school. Think of you often
Much love, peace and prayers to all of you and your extended families.
Barbara D'Uva <duva_a@bellsouth.net>
WPB, FLA USA - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 6:50 AM CST
Hi Kathy.

I wanted to let you know that we put a mission bell up in memory of Robert at the Cattle Baron's Ball on Saturday night. I was wishing you could be there with us. We had record attendance this year (maxed out at 1000 people).

Take care of yourself.
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
Dove Canyon, CA - Monday, October 27, 2003 3:46 PM CST
Love the sunny yellow page... you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.. you have written so many great thoughts down. maybe you should write a book you already have a part of it done...
sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 27, 2003 1:57 PM CST
Kathy, you write beautifully. Yes, this web site has touched many...your latest entry moved me to tears. May God's love fill your heart each and every day.
In Him,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Sunday, October 26, 2003 3:15 PM CST
Hope things are going okay for you Kathy.
I'm going to need your address for the ribbon to be mailed back to you

Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Sunday, October 26, 2003 1:06 AM CDT
Kathy and Family...I just wanted to stop in and let you know we are thinking about you..:) and what a very lovely entry u have written here!..May God continue to wrap his loving arms around you all.
Leaving you with Lots of Love n Snuggles!

Angel Moo <moomoo@citlink.net>
WV - Saturday, October 25, 2003 7:36 AM CDT
What a beautiful journal entry, and Kathy, you have always done a good job of glorifying God in your words, actions, thoughts and life. You have always lived a Godly life, and in his name you have raised such beautiful children. All of them. I love you and continue to pray...
Bambi Forristall <mary@forristall.com>
- Friday, October 24, 2003 4:02 PM CDT
Welcome back to the "front page". Please know that you continue to remain very much in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, October 24, 2003 10:33 AM CDT
Kathy,
Glad you're back!! I'll check back in later.

Debbie Nagy
- Thursday, October 23, 2003 4:29 PM CDT
Kathy, I know I just signed but I see your update and I want to say that I think its great you have found your job is good. Sometimes we needa job like that so we can have what we need left over at the end of the day for the family. been there, You know your in my prayers, I know things are gonna be rough the next few weeks, but you will get through it and be able to go on. you arre a strong woman.....(my kids always said they were glad we did not live when the west was being settled or I'd have had them in a covered wagon their whole lives and never settled any where)
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle, AR , - Thursday, October 23, 2003 10:07 AM CDT
Haappy Thursday I hope it is a good day for all of you
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 23, 2003 7:27 AM CDT
"Ditto" to everything Tammy said. I love the combination of Robert's face, your words and the music "Shine"! Welcome back!!!
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, Al - Wednesday, October 22, 2003 9:25 PM CDT
So happy to see Robert's sweet face, hear "Shine", and see your words all at the same time! So glad your back Kathy! I'll say a prayer for Matthew that Monday is a wonderful day with new friends and an incredible teacher! How brave he is to start at a new place. Thinking of you.........
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Wednesday, October 22, 2003 4:19 PM CDT
KATHY,
WELCOME BACK WE ALL MISSED YOU SO, I'VE BEEN WANTING TO CALL AND WRITE, BUT I'M AT SUCH A LOSS FOR WORDS ITS SO HARD TO KNOW WHAT TO SAY ITS SO AMAZING TO ME THAT YOU ALWAYS KNOW JUST WHAT TO SAY, YOU ARE DOING SO WELL AND I KNOW THAT ROBERT IS IN A MUCH BETTER PLACE LOOKING DOWN ON YOU AND FEELING SO PROUD, BUT IT DOSEN'T HELP HOW MUCH WE MISS HIM AND HOW WE WISH HE WAS HERE WITH US, I'M SO HAPPY FOR JESSICA I'V ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO NY, ONE DAY, PLEASE CALL IF YOU NEED ANY THING AT ALL.
MUCH LOVE MARTHA
MARTHA MALOY <MALOYWAYNE@MSN.COM>
LAKE CLARK SHORES FL, FL PALM BEACH - Wednesday, October 22, 2003 11:56 AM CDT
YEAH!!!!!
I cannot believe you are actually writing your page. That is great. I am so happy that Jess, Bunny and Terry are having a great time in NY. It is really hard to have a bad time (or a bad meal) there. I am so relieved that the boy that was bothering Matthew is no longer near him. I commend you for finding sympathy in your heart for him and his family. I know that my first reaction would be to clobber the kid then his family, but I know that you are right to sympathize with their situation. As for Matthew, he is very brave to go to school everyday and overcome that fear. He is such a little Man. Tell Christina that I miss her. I miss all of you. Love and Hugs.
Bambi <mary@forristall.com>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 8:15 AM CDT
You're back! (Officially) I was about to take a cue from all the striking grocery workers and start picketing CaringBridge. Sending many hugs your way!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 8:12 AM CDT
so good to see you back again on the front page. I'm glad things seem to be going good for the kids so far this week. I hope they are tollerable for you too. there is not geting over the grief of losing your child, you just learn to go on day by day the best you can for everyone else. take care and know that you are in my prayers.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 21, 2003 8:39 PM CDT
Kathy,
Congratulations on your new job. Robert must be so proud of you!
Lynn
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 6:35 PM CDT
Hello Charltons,
I have not posted in quite a while. I have missed the updates and just now figured out that you have been posting in the guestbook. I am so jealous of Jess, I just know that she is having a wonderful time. I took some time the other day to read through all the entries from this time last year. It took me back to that place a year ago. I was so sad to read how the events took place and how now it is just words. We are so fortunate that we were able to live through it with him through these words. Kathy, Thank you for letting us in.
I try to think of what it would be if he were here now and then I think of the better place he is now. That makes me even sadder. I wish we could all be there with him.
I know the time is getting closer and I am filled with admiration and wonder at how you have been so strong. I really do wish that I could be that strong in my everyday life. Thanks for the inspiration.
Tell the kids that we miss them and love them......
Dawn <dehol25@aol.com>
Horn Lake, MS - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 2:03 PM CDT
WOOOOO HOOOOO.....welcome back Kathy!! So glad you can access Robert's page now! Good to read your update, and I just wanted to reiterate that we're all here for you, physically or virtually. We're willing to offer a shoulder to cry on, arms to lean into, ears to listen. Vent all you want, there's NO time limit on loss and grieving. It's good to know, however, that you're finding moments of joy in each day. That makes this heart glad. :)

Big hugs,
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 12:57 AM CDT
Kathy - I check in on you often and have missed you on the front page. Keeping you and yours in my thoughts and prayers
Linda
Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 11:01 AM CDT
you did it again, the tears. Kathy, you know we all cry with you, and for all the chnges in your life that come whether wanted or not, still they are traumatic and add to the difficulties of life. Knowing you, you will always fight for the good changes, and the ones that have to be made, but there would never be any reconciling the loss, and final loss, of my child either...though it is a thought all cancer parents have in the middle of the night. So, we watch you and learn and are here for distant support though I know we can still really do nothing. --on a new note, my good friend Neena is also following your site now. Wish you could get back on the front page! Much love to you from far,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, October 21, 2003 7:22 AM CDT

Just dropped by to tell you my heart and prayers are with you Kathy and family...Hugs
Carolyn <carolynj52@ilovejesus.net>
- Monday, October 20, 2003 8:43 PM CDT
Hi Kathy,

I'm so glad to see you update, although, I'd love to see Caringbridge let you get back on the front page. I know you are probably chomping at the bit, but at least you are able to stay in touch via the guestbook!

I hope Jessica has a super time in New York!! I'm glad she got to go! Although, I can just imagine how much you will miss her. You and the "young 'uns" will have lots of fun while she is gone!

It infuriates me to no end that Matthew was treated so poorly. There is NO excuse for the way the school has handled things. Why they never notified you is beyond me. It's standard practice in my school, to notify the parents, BOTH sides, if there is a situation! Of course, I work at a different type of school(alternative), but, the principal, or at the very least, the teacher should have called you! Poor Matthew! What he must have been going through! GO GET 'EM, Jeff!!
Matthew, you remember to hold your head up high, be proud!! He's the bully, not you. You will grow up knowing that you are a good person! Bullies like that, often have other serious "issues" that go unnoticed and sadly, he may grow up to be a bigger bully! You just keep playing soccer, a sport in which you enjoy!
I'm sorry that you feel the want/need to move to a different school. I hope that if you do, things will get easier for you!! Hang in there, little buddy!

(((((((Kathy))))))) I'll keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!!

Love and (((((((HUGS))))))) to all of you,
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 20, 2003 6:06 PM CDT
Kathy, it sounds as though you really need a hug. All I can do from way over here is send you a huge virtual one, but hopefully someone closer can give you a real honest to goodness hug.

I think about you and your family all the time. Once again, you have reminded me that some things in life are WAY more important than other things we might give our attention to. It's so easy to get sidetracked in the human rat race each day. Thanks for the wake-up call.

HUGS,
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Monday, October 20, 2003 5:26 PM CDT
Good morning I am glad to see aaaaan update. I am so sorry about all that is going on with Matthew.. he does not need this and his family does not need this.I hope it can get straightened out soon. WHY didnt the school tell you? I think you needed to know. I am glad that Jesica is getting to have a trip to New York, I want to go too. someday. Hi to Christina, I hope things are gong ok for you too. I hope you can find a job that is more challenging one of these days. I hear its easier to find a job if you already have a job so keep your eyes and ears open. As usual your message leaves me knowing I should listen moree. I think I don't hav choices in my life but maybe I do more than I think.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 20, 2003 10:02 AM CDT
****Update--Monday, October 20, 2003****

In my hast to post SOMETHING, ANYTHING, I realized I never noted the date on the journal page. That would make me crazy if I were looking for new updates on something, that is for sure.

Life with the Charltons is as interesting, crazy and wonderful all at the same time. The wonderful part to me is of course the children. They continue to astonish me at every turn. As I sat at work the other day making file folders (yawn) for another assistant in the office, I thought fondly of my days with the kids. I began to realize how in being a Mom I found my "purpose". I may not be the best Mom, or the most organized, cleanest, but I do have the BEST kids! They make me being a Mom, easy and delightful.

It is Monday morning. Another week. The weather has been so lovely around here. It is the kind of weather that leaves me feeling very melancholy. It is probably a good thing that I do not live where the seasons change, apparently such things really affect an individual like myself.

Jessica is off to New York this morning. She is going for a bit of a vacation with my Mom and older brother, Terry. It is especially nice because she had hoped to go on the New York trip with school, but missed signing up by a couple of hours. So, this will be alot of fun for her I am sure. Jess has wanted to visit New York for some time. The "little ones" and I will stay home and do the work, school thing. Matthew has been fairing much better at school. They relocated a child into anther class. Turns out the child is much happier and so far not causing any problems. The situation with Matthew came to a "head" so to speak about a week ago. Apparently on a certain Friday a boy in his class began to chase him and was spitting on him. This apparently left Matthew quite hysterical and cowering and afraid. I was told that it was quite traumatic for him, it left him worried he would get sick or a disease like his brother had from the boy spitting on him. I say the words "apparently" and sound a bit vague about the facts surrounding the incident, because I did not know about the incident until Monday morning when Matthew would not go to school.

Here I am trying to force my son to school. Egging him on, encouraging him, trying to get to the bottom of his anxiety. Meanwhile, at school he is being tormented and chased and spit on! I was not too pleased when I realized that Matthew's teacher, the School Guidance Counselor and several other administrators at the school were aware of the incident, but NONE of them called me, or Jeff! They would not even let Matthew call us! I was told that Matthew was the main one that this boy liked to harass, and that this incident was a very bad one! OH MY GOSH! Needless to say, this time they had to deal with Jeff. He hit the roof, I tried very hard to stay calm...by the time we heard about all of this, Matthew was calm and brave again, so I needed to be. I really do not know what else to say about all of this. To say that is a bit infuriating is understating it. Matthew is holding fast to his wanting to be moved to another school, it will probably happen this week. Then the children will all be at separate schools, separate places after school...and seemingly together even less. This is not easy for me to face.

So, here it is I came to a conclusion Saturday at Matthew's soccer game. Turns out-just in case you were wondering-Matthew is a bit of a natural at soccer! Big surprise! So, as I sat there I figured something out. Death is really the only thing that is totally FINAL in life. I sat there watching Matthew thinking about how everything in life can be changed. Changed in one way or another. I can change anything by simply changing my attitude. I can change jobs, leave a marriage, move away, change my mind...ANYTHING can be CHANGED...except DEATH. The thought of that finality really pissed me off. I sat there with tears streaming down my cheeks under my sunglasses. Not one person around me even knew I was crying. I decided I did not like this finality. I hate it. I want it over and I want Robert back. There, I said it...I do not like it, I did not want it, choose it and cannot change it! How can this be? How can a mother not get a say in her child's fate? Who chose this? I realized that all of this facing the finality of death has been brought about by the publicity surrounding a case where a husband wants to not have to sustain his wife's life. A woman in Florida has been considered "brain" dead for 2 yrs. Her parents have fought to keep her alive with feeding tubes and such...at first when I heard this, I thought how sad that those parents cannot let go. How hard for that man to not have closure and be able to move on with his life. Then it hit me the other day, why those parents are fighting...it is because she is still here-she is still warm, they can touch her, look upon her, feel her and see her. I would fight too! Believe me. Death is final. There is no other choice, chance, or opportunity in this lifetime for another hug, kiss, song, word, smile...no other opportunity ever to know a person once death has taken them. So, I would fight too. I wish I could have fought harder for my Robert. I would have loved more time. Wouldn't we all?

There you have it. My revelation. I finally get it after a year. Robert will not be back--ever. It is so sad. He was a wonderful boy. Hold tighter than ever to those you love, never miss a kiss or a smile or a song...never miss a chance to say I love you, or even a chance to change your mind. We are blessed--we are alive and must cherish our time together.

It is raining outside now I have the same pain in my right temple I used to get every time another bit of stress and hardship was heaped upon us when Robert was sick. It is a pain that just pierces and makes me want to squint. It is a reminder of life.

Off to work, more filing I suppose. I will wake my little ones in a few minutes--I will wake them with kisses and hugs and the promise of a new day.

God bless you all--Peace to you as well.
Kathy
KATHY CHARLTON <ckcharlton@aol.com>
- Monday, October 20, 2003 5:24 AM CDT
Hi Kathy!
I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about and praying for you. I hope that everything is going well. I certainly miss your journal enteries - your incredible words were a part of my day. Have a good week!
With love,
Haley Hastings <haleyhastings@yahoo.com>
Athens, GA - Sunday, October 19, 2003 10:39 PM CDT
Doing my CaringBridge voodoo dance.....c'mon, let Kathy post again!! Thanks for the updates, it's nice to get them one way or another. Hope the kids, and you, are doing well.
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Sunday, October 19, 2003 8:28 PM CDT
Hello Kathy, sorry we haven't connected. I am working now with Charlie at his office. Christina comes with me. It's a challenge but he needs us there. Been thinking about you. Liz
Liz Norcross <athomewithliz@yahoo.com>
lake worth, fl palm beach - Saturday, October 18, 2003 7:49 PM CDT
What strength to keep this page going for as long as you have. Thanks for sharing, it is an affirmation for some of us who have struggled through some of the same things.
Mary Kiener <caringbridge.org/ia/sam>
- Saturday, October 18, 2003 3:32 PM CDT
Kathy,
You are resourceful now, aren't you? CaringBridge computer trouble can't keep you from your eager readers! I am glad YOU didn't give up on US! How easy would it be for you to turn the computer off and say, "Ah, that is just so much trouble." Thank you for remembering us, I was honored to be among your stranger friends, or was that strange friends? Oh, well, either works for me!!! :)
Thinking about you working and living the hustle-bustle life, I too am familiar with, I thought of something I heard once. Some people have so much to give. You are such a person. Staying at home is the best!!!! I know you loved it. But, working puts you in touch with other people that will be blessed by you. You certainly have much to give. Like the bread and the fish, God will multiply you and give you to many.
Thanks for being one of my dear friends.
Amanda Adams <bafive@knology.net>
Montgomery, AL - Saturday, October 18, 2003 2:12 PM CDT
God Bless you. Your in my thoughts. ))HUGS((
Kasey Gunde <kasey.gunde@delta.com>
Mount Holly, NC US - Saturday, October 18, 2003 10:24 AM CDT
Thinking of all of you today.
Much Peace
Ruthie and from heaven Seth (www.caringbridge.org/fl/sethlovestrains) <Rbunkmann@msn.com>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, October 17, 2003 7:29 PM CDT
Hey Kathy! Hope Caringbridge gets this straightened out soon!! Good luck with your new job.
Laure
B'ham, AL USA - Friday, October 17, 2003 3:16 PM CDT
Just stopping by with some Angel Hugs....
Sincerely,
Angel Island Princess
(Quilts Of Love)

Islnad Princess <islandprincess@quiltsoflove.com>
- Friday, October 17, 2003 3:08 PM CDT
Hi kathy,
thinking about you guys miss your enties.
Martha
marta maloy
Lake Clark Shores, fl 33406 - Friday, October 17, 2003 10:21 AM CDT
good morning I just want you to know your on my mind this morning. I hope shool goes ok for the kids and that work goe along for you. Have a good weekend together.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 17, 2003 8:17 AM CDT
Morning Kath!
Don't they realize what they are doing to all of us out here......we're having withdrawals!!! Glad to at least know that you are all alive and well. I'm hoping that the job will get a little more interesting. There is nothing worse than a day at work that drags!! I know there will be adjustments to make for all of you, but you seem to be the "Queen" of that, so I am confident you will be able to pull this off. Things have been a little out of the ordinary around here, but I'll fill you in on that another time. Needless to say we are all still kicking though, just a few bumps in the road. I hope your weekend is fulled with lots of fun and love. Give all the kids a big squeeze for me and have them all squeeze you for me too!

Always thinking and remembering "our" boy....

Sent with big hugs and love,

Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Friday, October 17, 2003 7:32 AM CDT
Not giving up on you at all Kathy, but I bet you are just about ready to give up on Caringbridge. Thanks for keeping those of us that love you updated in the guest book. As I opened the page to the web site today, I just couldn't stop looking at the picture of Robert. He was such a strong, confident, handsome young man. Oh, how you must miss him...you are an inspiration to so many with your positive attitude and outlook. Continuing to lift you and your family up in prayer. God bless always.
Love,
Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Thursday, October 16, 2003 9:06 PM CDT
Kathy - I checked in just hoping they had you back up and running! I saw a verse today and immediatly thought of you! "Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones." Proverbs 16:24 We miss your words!!!
Tammy <tsholston@aol.com>
B'ham, AL - Thursday, October 16, 2003 5:07 PM CDT
Hi Kathy, Just wanted to let you know that you & your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I'll say it again, you are my HERO and we all can hardly wait for your next update!!
Much love,
Tammy (Lacie's Mom) <www.caringbridge.org/ga/lacielove>
Brunswick, GA - Thursday, October 16, 2003 8:05 AM CDT
Kathy,
I had the strangest dream last weekend and woke up thinking of you. It seemed no matter what I did, I could not get you off my mind. I know it has been many years! I was searching the PBAC website and came across this site. My heart breaks for you. You always were a source of motivation, inspiration, back on track, kick in the rear for me. Thanks! I believe you will find comfort and strength fom the Lord when you least expect it. I can tell you are still a rock and here I am wanting to be just like you. I will keep you, Jeff, and your family in my prayers.
Faith (Tredwell)
Faith Brake <fbrake@kc.rr.com>
Kansas City, MO USA - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 11:27 PM CDT
Kathy,

One thing...I don't think any one of us is ready to give up on you. In fact, I KNOW that we are not going to give up on you, so you are stuck with us forever!! We all really do love you all very much. Yes, we are pretty much strangers to each other, yet though this wonderful CaringBridge world, we've all become one big family! You've chosen to open your world, your family, and your lives to all of us! For that, I thank you!
We are here, pulling together....for each other, for you, for your children....for Robert!
You can vent on me, or probably any other one of us, anytime you want!

I know the hardships of having to leave the house and go out into the work force. I am single mom to a teenage girl...YIKES!! In fact, I'm now working two jobs. But it's O.K., I really don't mind it(too much). I know that no matter how hard it is on you and the kids, in the long run, they are very proud of you! Just as you are VERY proud of them. They've come a long way in the last year! Many hurdles to jump, yet, they did it. Jessica has come a very long way , she's going to school! HORRAY! Matthew is getting stronger as each day goes by, and Christina..well...she IS a very happy-go-lucky child! Kathy, you have been blessed! The Heavens have been blessed with an angel named Robert!

Have a wonderful day, and I hope that your job gets a little more exciting. I don't think you really want to count the dots in the ceiling panels! Do you think Tom does that at his job?

Love and ((((((HUGS)))))) to each and every one of you~
Eva <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 11:02 PM CDT
I had to laugh, as I was reading this entry I was listening to the radio, and guess what song came on? Sheryl Crow!! Well... anyways, I'm sure everything will start to get easier for you soon.
Michelle VonSpreckelsen <mj_moe_6@hotmail.com>
Clay Center, NE USA - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 4:15 PM CDT
Hey Kathy! I was getting a little worried about you. I sent you a couple of emails over the last week and I haven't heard back from you. I was about to send out search and rescue. I'm glad to see you updated in the guest book.

I, too, have done the working mom thing. It is crazy, sometimes very tiring, but you do what you have to do! It does get easier--I PROMISE!

You are continually in my thoughts and prayers. Let me know if my emails are taking a wrong turn on the information highway...I'd love to hear from ya. Lots going on with us...I'll fill you in on a more personal media! Miss you!
Christi <hamilton.fam@cox.net>
- Wednesday, October 15, 2003 2:07 PM CDT
Howintheworld could anyone give up on you? Or Jess, or Christina, or Matthew, or ROBERT? Thanks for including me among so many people you call friends ;) Little things like that are what these pages are all about, anyways..."A free nonprofit service to keep friends and family in touch during important life events" I might sound like Mr. ROberts, but "Won't you be my friend, too?" (Sheeeeeeeeeesh----I think I've lost it)...or maybe it's just getting off work, listening to the wind howl, knowing that the sound is flooding today, not the ocean, picturing the Shadow looking out and saying "Kewl"! Kath, that soundside sunset I sent you, well it's definitely not so tranquil this morning, after a night of 30-50 mile winds pushing it all this way. Living at, and watching the ocean and sound reminds me a lot of life...how one peaceful, serene setting can so quickly change into something so unpredictable. And the cycle continues on, day after day. As turbulant as the sound is this morning, the same winds have flattened out the mighty ocean to a near mirror surface. At least, unlike an ocean flood, the sound will quickly recede, and quickly become tranquil, and the ocean will assume it's normalcy of 2-3 foot waves...

I'm sure all your female friends are wondering what shade of Martha Stewart paint you daydream about peeling is... Now Kathy, if you're REALLY that bored, tomorrow, instead of looking at the walls, look up at the ceiling tiles, and pick just one. Then, while staring intently, count how many holes are in that tile. That should help pass a little time ;) HAve a great day!
Tom <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
on the water, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 7:46 AM CDT
OF course we are not giving up on you!!! Been there done that, with the working mom thing. I don't know how it's done either, ya just do it and the days go by. The house is not as clean as it should be, the kids don't get all the attention they need, but there is food on the table. I keep you in my prayers....
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 15, 2003 7:35 AM CDT
HELLO OUT THERE...CAN YOU ALL LET OUT A COLLECTIVE SIGH! OR MAYBE AN AAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHH! YOU KNOW THE SORT OF AAAAAAGGGGHHHHH THAT CHARLIE BROWN USED TO LET OUT WHEN LUCY CONTINUALLY TORTURED HIM!

Can you tell I am tired? Working day and night and all that jazz is tough work. I have long since wondered how and why Mom's worked outside of the home...well, the "why" is obvious, FOOD! But, the "how"--AAAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHH!

Today at work, as I watched the paint peel in my office-that is a sarcastic commentary on how bored I was-I thought of all the dirt in my home, the laundry, you know the stuff that piles up while we work to make a buck to buy more stuff! Anyway, than I thought of several other things, or rather, several other people...people like you. You know the perfect strangers in my life that I have grown so attached to, and need to vent to...people that were kind enough to come here to this little place that we created--this lovely caringbridge site; I thought of Sharon, Amanda, Tammy, Krista, Christy, Meg...Eva, Tom...to name a few---in some unbelievable, unbearable way we have become connected. Connected because we were all pulling for our boy, Robert. Pulling for this entire family to keep their son. Pulling for Jess to make it through 7th grade, Matthew to find the courage to be strong without his big brother, for Christina to continue to be full of love and joy...we came here, pulling for each other.

Pulling together in some way to stand strong against the very harsh reality that is called life.

As I drove from one job to soccer practice than to my other job tonight...I thought of how the most feeling that I sense of purpose was found in the last year of my life. Being a Mom the last year of Robert's life changed me. Then after he left us I learned all over again how to be a Mom to my other amazing children--in my ability to mother them I have found a purpose. Now life has demanded that purpose become somewhat limited and be changed again. I am adjusting. The kids are adjusting. I liked being here as much as I could for my children. I liked being able to get my house clean, and having some semblance of order in my little corner of the world...but than again, I really liked--LOVED--having my Robert here as well.

Man, we really do have only one choice after all--the choice comes down to our attitudes and how we choose to live and love and survive with what we are handed. It is really like it Sheryl Crow sings in one of her songs..."it is not in having what you want, but wanting what you have!"

So there you have it. I want to be able to have my quiet mornings to write and contemplate life...I want my caringbridge page to work right! AAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHH! BUT--what I have is a job, and an entry into the guestbook! Okay, I'll take it, make it work, live, love, and laugh...

I hope you haven't given up on us yet--it may get interesting at any moment!

So, can you tell that I am tired? ZZZZZzzzzz....

Peace, Kathy
Kathy Charlton
- Tuesday, October 14, 2003 9:40 PM CDT
Just stopping by to let you know you are thought of at this time. Hope all goes well with your new job and the children are all doing ok in their prospective schools. Take care. Love, peace and many prayers to all of you and your extended families.
Barbara D'Uva <duva-a@bellsouth.net>
West Plam Beach , Fl. USA - Sunday, October 12, 2003 7:11 PM CDT
Congrats on your new job, Kathy!!! And one that lets you look out over the water, wow. I think of you all often.

Hugs,
Juliet <ukbrowneyes@hotmail.com>
UK - Sunday, October 12, 2003 9:09 AM CDT
Just a little note to let u know im thinking of and praying for all of u at this time of your loss...im sorry.....

Carla Sellers <minx1975@comcast.net>
Arlington, Tx U.S.A. - Saturday, October 11, 2003 12:24 AM CDT
just checking in on you. we went to Ft Meyers for the anniv,and my daughter called from the airport, wondering where we were to pick her up, only she was in ft Lauderdale! USAir then paid a taxi to bring her to us....what a trip. I think of you so often and can feel your spirit is a bit lighter lately. I have read Job a million times, however, I wonder why God did all that??? I would just prefer to think He allows this world to spin and is there to pick us up when the ills of Mankind overwhelm....and our time is something Heaven does not have, to the angels time is just forever, and we will be there soon with the spirits we miss. The changes in your life lately are difficult, but maybe good, as it sets a new course, and less memories on that road. My friend Neena is just beginning all this, what helped you a year ago? I call often, but what else??? Thank you for sharing with us, and much love. We do need to get together, and just girl talk! Love
Mary Alice D <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Friday, October 10, 2003 8:55 PM CDT
Have a great weekend with the kids! thinking of you and praying for ya'll
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 10, 2003 11:03 AM CDT
Kathy, once again you spoke to my heart... to my soul. Your decriptions of Robert sound so very much like my Andy.I want you to know that you've been such an inspiration to me. My Andy left us on Jan. 13, 2003 at the age of 12 years, 7 months and 28 days. I too knew on the day I heard 'relapse', that our days were numbered. We only had about 6 weeks after that, but what a gift that time was. Andy had been thru 8 years of treatment, and his heart was NOT in it for a transplant. He was such a fighter, but was just so tired of cancer. He was ready to know something besides all that; he was ready for Heaven. I take great comfort in knowing that our boys are together, healthy and happy... and we'll be with them one day. Please know that I pray for you daily & after reading your journal, feel as if we're friends. Thanks so very much.
jan livingstone (Andy's Mom forever) <www.caringbridge.org/il/legoman>
- Thursday, October 9, 2003 1:17 PM CDT
Kathy I'd like to purchase an awareness ribbon in Roberts memory but would need your address if you want it mailed to you in Jan when the tree comes down
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Thursday, October 9, 2003 11:01 AM CDT
Congrats on the new job - we'll hope it becomes permanent.

Love to all
Jenny <edmun006@mc.duke.edu>
Durham, NC - Thursday, October 9, 2003 8:47 AM CDT
Hi I know this is a hard time for you. I also know that you know that this is not GODs pesonal thing against you, but it sure is hard some times isn't it.? IT's good to remember Job and his trials. I am glad to hear you found a job, and I can't imagine looking out over the water. that part is real neat. I hope the kids are doing great, and that you are too. good to see a post ---hope they get ya going soon. I dont understand computers and web sites at all. emailing us all every day sounds good... :)
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle , ar - Thursday, October 9, 2003 8:01 AM CDT
I have just started viewing Robert's page. My own son died after complications of transplant in April. He was 15. I would like to know how you were able to insert the music on Robert's page. I have some audio I would like to insert. You have been through a lot and the end of a marriage on top of it all cannot be easy. Stay strong and "Believe".
Mary Kiener caringbridge.org/ia/sam
- Wednesday, October 8, 2003 8:52 PM CDT
HELLO OUT THERE! CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS! :) COULD THIS BE A CONSPIRACY? I THINK NOT! Actually, I must tell you all that CaringBridge has contacted me personally at home on the phone and they figure the problem must be within my computer--computers--and AOL. Well, I have tried to access my page from three different computers, and from an internet provider...no luck for me! I have not given up.

I guess I need to go visit my Mom more often and just use her computer;maybe she created this conspiracy to get me over her house more!

We are doing well. The past week and a half have been very transitional and difficult in my mind and heart. My mind and heart have been lost in time and memories of last year at this time. Today is the very day Robert came home from Memphis. This was the very day that his best friend Ryon and Robert's other Mom-Martha. Today as I drove into the driveway I imagined how Robert must have felt pulling into his home last year. I thought of how strange it must have been for him...so very bittersweet. I doubt he even thought for a moment the reason he was blessed to be home...we all knew it.

After I thought of these moments and this day, I decided the worst moment in all of that time for me was the moment they told me Robert's cancer was back. I knew in my heart at that moment it meant my son would die. I prayed, hoped, trusted, begged, and cried my heart out for a miracle...but, that moment was the moment that killed me in my heart. That was the moment I knew my Robert was leaving us...so, his coming home meant that he would be making a stop over for us--for all of us to have some time to come to grips with the ultimate timing of his life--it was a sort of layover on his way to his final home, heaven.

Last Sunday I went to church. Alone. It was crucial for me. I have not been in months. As I walked in the door and saw that place I realized why I had not been there...I realized it was there that I saw Robert so alive. I sat in my seat, heard the music, sang the songs...prayed. I saw Robert standing before the church, bald, beautiful, brave...I saw him standing there as he was annointed with oil, and prayed over-prayed believing he would live. I saw it all and realized that if I was not careful I would take it personally that our Lord did not "answer" our prayers. I said to my Lord, "was this personal?" I knew it was not. I knew Robert's death had nothing to do with anything in my life--I thought of Job. I thought of how people tried to make his suffering and losses personal. He did not take it personally, I realized neither could I. It still hurt like the dickens!

Life is so different these days. It is so full and wonderful. I miss Robert so much I cry almost daily with thoughts of him...

As I left church that morning, my heart and mind begged to know of our Lord..."what am I to do; what do you want me to do now, Lord?" I had not asked Him that in some time. have been too busy trying to remember to breathe! So, I asked--he said, "Kathy, just keep going. Just keep moving forward as you are, and keep going..." I felt such a peace. I think my Heavenly Father knows I am doing all I can right now. That is truly all we can do.

I have a job. I am happy. It is in a lovely office that overlooks the ocean. I look out over the horizon all day long...I know my life is moving forward, I kiss and hug and love my children more and more every day. I am happy, and sad all at the same time...I work in a bank. It is a temporary position, hopefully if it is meant to be, it will become permanant. Time will tell.

My friends, I hope you find this here...I am here, we are well--all is well.

Peace to you, stay close.
Kathy
KATHY CHARLTON
- Wednesday, October 8, 2003 8:01 PM CDT
Kathy Carlton - We miss you! If they don't fix your site soon, you're going to have to personally email us ALL each day. :) I hope all is well! We'll be in Florida this weekend - Disney here we come! Thinking of you...Mimi Bunny's words were beautiful, but then again Robert sounds like such a beautiful person. I hope school is going better for Matthew. We miss you!
Tammy Holston
B'ham, Al - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 4:51 PM CDT
Hi Kathy,

I haven't look at this site in a while. I can't beleive it has been almost a year! I noticed that you were looking for a job and took over a sheet on a program that might be applicable to your situtation. I don't know what the program entails, but check it out, it might be something good for you. My love to the kids and Jeff. Take care.

Daimy <daimyh@peoplepc.com>
WPB, FL USA - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 4:35 PM CDT
Hello Kathy,

I just wanted to say that my heart goes out to you and your family. Just thinking of you and letting you know that someone in wisconsin cares for you...
Dale Durham
Wi - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 0:05 AM CDT
great job, mimi bunny! Wish someone would do our page! and I can get on it.....love to Kathy and all in Fla....we were there last weekend, my daughter took the wrong plane, not sure how, and ended up in Ft Lauderdale instead of Ft Myers...said, well it is all Florida! So, thanks for keeping us all in touch. Love
Mary Alice Dorschel <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 9:18 PM CDT
Good Morning,
Thank you Bunny for the journal entry. It was beautiful and soooo true. I wonder what is taking caringbridge so long to get this fixed? Give my love to all of the kids and Kat,
Love Bam
Bambi
- Tuesday, October 7, 2003 7:30 AM CDT
Hi Kathy,

I'm sorry that your page is still giving you problems. It was very nice of Mimi Bunny to step up to the plate for you. Thank you Mimi Bunny!

I just wanted you all to know that you are in my thoughts.

I wish a very nice week for you all.

Love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva
- Monday, October 6, 2003 9:12 PM CDT
I was hoping they had it fixed by today. hope things are ok there.
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 6, 2003 9:36 AM CDT
Mimi Bunny,
You did a fabulous job. I would hate to have to substitute for Kathy on her CaringBridge site. The expectations are soooo high. You were uplifting and enlightening. Thank you from all of Kathy's loyal followers--
Amanda Adams
Montgomery, AL - Saturday, October 4, 2003 4:00 PM CDT
thanks to mimi bunny for the update. This hi tec age can sure get to ya some times. I know you have some rough times coming as you near the date you will never forget. I have learned to just keep real busy that day, so I don't have a lot of time to think. (but somehow I still do) you know your family is always in mt thoughts and prayers. I feel I know you even when I don't
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
Dardanelle, AR , - Saturday, October 4, 2003 6:34 AM CDT
Kathy, So missing your entries. I have been following them in the guestbook though. Well we did it, we got through the first year without Adam. It was one year ago today he left us. Wow what a hard year. I hope it now gets easier,but who am I kidding. Life will never be the same and I hate it. We go on, but never the same.
Take care and God bless
You too will get through.
Ruth Trombino <alandruth@myexcel.com>
Westerly, RI - Friday, October 3, 2003 10:03 PM CDT
Hi Kat,
Well, I knew something must be up, it just took a little sleuth work to find out that it is a technical blip in our lives. I was getting worried. I sign on everyday and when I don't see your updates I just go on hoping that you were too busy, or something. But, after a week of no updates, I really got concerned. I am hoping that Caringbridge can get it together. Don't you just hate it when some computer tells you that you don't exist? What nerve! Unfortunately we are all too vulnerable to this in our lives, more than we realize. I am so glad that the kids are doing well. Tell Jessica that Tina's IM has not been working either. I reported it a few days ago, but my computer is saying that the server for AIM is unavailable. Another malfunction. Tina usually communicates with Jess on IM on a regular basis, so tell Jess to call if she needs Tin.
I love you all,
Bam
- Friday, October 3, 2003 7:40 AM CDT
Hello Kathy, my sweet friend. I just caught up with you through your entries in the guestbook. I remember the entry when Robert wouldn't take his meds...He was a great kid, wasn't he??? His antics always made me smile.

I'm privileged to have been touched by your family. I think of you everyday!
Christi
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 12:36 AM CDT
Morning Kathy,
So glad you are at least able to give us "mini" updates on this page. You know I HAVE to have my morning "fix"!!! Things are ok here, terribly busy both at work and home, but I just need to remember.....one foot in front of the other!! I'll send an e-mail soon when I get a quick minute. Love you and the kids lots.....and always remembering "our" boy!
Sent with big hugs and love,
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Thursday, October 2, 2003 7:46 AM CDT
I have been thinking about you and missing you. ( come on caring bridge. there must be an answer that the tecs can figure out.......) I hope things are going ok with the family
Sharon <sholweger5@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 6:44 AM CDT
Hello friends. I HOPE YOU FIND THIS! CARINGBRIDGE HAS NOT BEEN ABLE TO FIX THE PAGE-SO SAD.

WE ARE WELL AND CHUGGING ALONG. THE CHILDREN ARE DOING GREAT IN SCHOOL, JESSICA AMAZES ME EVERYDAY WITH THE WAY SHE IS THRIVING IN SCHOOL. IT IS A BLESSING INDEED--OF COURSE I DRIVE HER CRAZY JUST BY SAYING HELLO TO HER, BUT AT WE ARE STILL TALKING AND SUCH...

MATTHEW CONTINUES TO STRUGGLE. AT LEAST HE IS MAKING THROUGH THE DAY AND BY THE END OF IT HE SEEMS TO BE HAPPY. WE WILL DECIDE NEXT WEEK IF HE WILL BE TRANSFERRED INTO A "GIFTED" PROGRAM AT ANOTHER SCHOOL. HE HAS EXPRESSED A DESIRE TO DO SO, SO WE SHALL SEE.

I HAVE HAD A FEW LITTLE "ODD" JOBS COME MY WAY. THAT WOULD BE PERFECT FOR ME...A FEW LITTLE ODD JOBS ADD UP TO A MONTH OF BILL PAYING-I DO NOT CARE HOW I GET THE BILLS PAID. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT! I KNOW IT, IT ALWAYS DOES.

I HAVE NOTICED THAT THIS TIME OF YEAR IS NOT LOST ON ANY OF THOSE AROUND ME. I HAVE NOTICED THAT MANY OF YOU WERE BEYOND STUNNED AT HOW ROBERT RELAPSED AND THEN DIED. FOR THOSE STRUGGLING IN THE MIDST OF THIS DISEASE I KNOW ALL TO WELL THE FEELING OF WATCHING ANOTHER CHILD SUFFER AND FADE AWAY-I REMEMBER WATCHING IT HAPPEN BEFORE MY EYES BEFORE WE KNEW ROBERT'S FATE. IT IS SCARY. I PRAY FOR CONTINUED REMISSION FOR SO MANY! I PRAY FOR COMPLETE HEALING AS WELL. THAT IS NOT TO MUCH TO ASK FOR-EVEN IF A MIRACULOUS COMPLETE HEALING CAME ALONG, IT IS NOT LIKE ANY OF THESE FAMILIES HASN'T SUFFERED ENOUGH, AND BEEN CHANGED FOREVER--SO YOU SEE, A COMPLETE HEALING SHOULD COME. THESE FAMILIES AND THE CHILDREN MOSTLY SHOULD BE HEALED. IT IS NOT LIKE THEY CAN JUST WALK AWAY FROM ALL THE MEMORIES AND SUCH...NO MATTER HOW THEY ARE "CURED" THEY WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS AND YEARS OF BATTLING SUCH AN AWFUL UNKNOWN. THEY WILL NEVER FORGET HOW THEY FOUGHT TO SIMPLY LIVE!

MY FRIENDS...I FEEL A LONG WINDED RAMBLING COMING ON, AND I MUST GO--MY 3 CHILDREN ARE BECKONING ME! TAKE GOOD CARE,
AND REMEMBER TO SMILE.

PEACE, KATHY
KATHY CHARLTON
- Thursday, October 2, 2003 6:23 AM CDT
Hey Kathy. I think of you often. The things I cling to as a means of proving to myself he wont relapse just dont work anymore when faced with the stark reality that they didnt work in Roberts favor. I hope you and the kids are doing as well as can be expected.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Wednesday, October 1, 2003 7:49 PM CDT
Kathy,
Hello! thank you for updating, really missed you, Its amazing what Robert handled and how well he did it, He is so special, and so are you.
Love Martha
Martha Maloy
Lake Clark Shores , fl Palm Beach - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 12:49 AM CDT
just checking again. Lots going on your way, and much I did not know about..I think of you often and your joy you find in life, with all that has gone by. Your openness is a gift, one that I do not share, and it helps others by being right there to see. How do you keep from closing up, from keeping it all inside?? Anyway, thanks for your thoughts, and this time of year, I think of you often and well remember last year. There is much Robert taught me, about Heaven, and someday I may be able to share that as well...am getting there slowly !! Much love
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:52 PM CDT
HELLO FRIENDS...FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE FOUND MY NOTES IN THE GUESTBOOK I THOUGHT I WOULD ATTEMPT TO WRITE HERE...WE ARE FINE. THE FOLKS AT CARINGBRIDGE ARE STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY I CANNOT ACCESS THE PAGE. IT MAKES ME A BIT SAD TO KNOW THAT I CANNOT PUT MY THOUGHTS HERE IN THIS PAGE. SO MANY THINGS HAVE BEEN SWIRLING THROUGH MY HEAD. MAYBE IT IS FOR A REASON, MAYBE THESE THOUGHTS SHOULD NOT BE PUT ON A PAGE, MAYBE THEY ARE FOR ME ALONE TO SORT THROUGH. MUCH OF MY THOUGHTS ARE OF DAYS GONE BY, AND THIS TIME LAST YEAR. I HAVE SPENT SOME TIME GOING BACK READING MY OLD ENTRIES. IT IS AMAZING TO ME HOW ROBERT IS BROUGHT TO LIFE THROUGH THE PAGE. I CAN FEEL HIM LAUGHING AND KNOW HIS PAIN ALL OVER AGAIN. I AM GOING TO INCLUDE TO EXCERPTS FROM TWO PAGES FROM THIS TIME OF THE YEAR LAST YEAR...
"Last night, Robert was giving Jeff one of his attitudes about taking his meds...Jeff told Robert, that was enough, and that he was leaving! Jeff told Robert that he was tired and worn out from having to fight with him about his meds, and simply could not go that round at that time...and he left the room. Well, Jeff was gone only about 10 minutes, and he marched back in there, and put his foot down and told Robert enough is enough...take your medicine kid!! Jeff said Robert sort of looked at him with this odd, but familiar grin, and said, "I'm sorry Dad, but it's my job to give you a hard time!" Jeff said, "I know you are an 11 year old boy, and it is your job to give your parents a hard time..." As Jeff and I talked about this, we figured Robert has to find something to keep us on our toes, to make it seem somewhat normal to be a kid...After all, that is what our goal is, to bring home a normal, healthy kid!
November 7 2002
Tonight as I was lying down with him listening to him breathe...very aware of his weakened condition, I could not help but feel the determination and courage that just ebbs from his very heart. I could not imagine that such determination and courage could exist in one that seems to have so much stacked against him. I thought and prayed of how much I want for Robert to know that he can curl up in the lap of the Lord and find comfort. I want him to hear us pray for his comfort and know that he can find comfort and strength from our Lord. Truly Robert is a very strong and courageous young man, and I believe that such courage and strength can only come from God. All day I felt so blessed to have seen glimpses of my Robert shining through. His demeanor comes through, even though his throat is so sore he cannot hardly speak. The way he uses his hand signals to let us know how he feels and what he wants. He is drinking lots of fluids, even though he has no desire to eat right now. We are grateful for this. The coughing seems to have gone for now. This is a real blessing, as the coughing hurts his abdomen which is very swollen...I tell you the truth, Robert must be miserable. I cannot imagine how sore he must be, and when I watch him move, it brings to mind how I felt after I had a baby. That pain in my gut that made me think I had muscles to do the things I could before...yet not once does he complain. He tells us when the pain is too much, but he does not get angry and such...he talks himself through and concentrates until it passes. "

THE CHILDREN ARE DOING SO WELL THIS WEEK. WE ARE SO BLESSED INDEED. ME, WELL, TODAY I AM BLUE--BUT I CARRY WITH ME THE STRANGEST SENSE OF WELL-BEING AND PEACE, I FEEL LIKE THE CALM AFTER A STORM THESE DAYS. I WORRY FOR NOTHING; MAYBE WHEN A PERSON LOSES THE MOST PRECIOUS OF THINGS IN THIS WORLD, THEY REALIZE THEY CAN ENDURE ANYTHING. I THOUGHT OF JOB FROM THE OLD TESTAMENT. I THOUGHT OF HOW GOD KNEW AND SAW HIS HEART OF HEARTS, HOW JOB HELD FAST TO HIS FAITH IN HIS GOD, IN HIS HEART OF HEARTS A PEACE REIGNED--THAT IS THE EVIDENCE OF OUR LORD. I MAY NOT HAVE THE RICHES OF THE WORLD, MAY NOT HAVE THE EASIEST OF LIVES...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, BUT SOMEHOW WE ENDURE THESE DAYS AND MANAGE TO LAUGH AND LOVE AND CONTINUE ON...I TRUST YOU ARE WELL.

PEACE MY FRIENDS. KATHY
Kathy Charlton
- Tuesday, September 30, 2003 6:32 PM CDT
Missing you.........

Sent with big hugs and love
Krista Iverson <krista.iverson@gepex.ge.com>
Ottawa, IL - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 11:51 AM CDT
Hey there crazy momma!
How I do remember this time of year as well . . .

I can still see that apartment that Cam and I lived in for so long. I would sit at the dining room table there with my laptop and check on Robert every day. Many days I would smile at some of the things he would say or a visual of you describing him as he watched some show he liked and laughed. Many times I cried if things were rocky . . . what a strange and lonely time it was for us last year. I can imagine that this year is also very strange for you as well.

Kathy, you have just done so well and I am still so amazed by your love of life, vitality, and inner reserve to keep going and take great care of those beautiful children. I really miss you -- we need some time to sit down and catch up. It has been too long.

Hang in there, friend. Tomorrow night is Bachelor Night at my house this week -- and of course, you are invited. I am just around the corner and guess what? We have central air so we won't be sweating our buns off! Let me know. Erik said he would read in the bedroom so we could be silly girls!
Much love, Michelle, Erik, and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy)
- Tuesday, September 30, 2003 7:28 AM CDT
Hi Kathy,
Was just thinking about you and Robert tonight and wanted to drop by - I'm so sorry to see that Caringbridge hasn't been able to help you access your site yet... will keep checking as I always love to read your writings. Sending you warm hugs ~

Jean - Quilts of Love <jean@quiltsoflove.com>
- Tuesday, September 30, 2003 3:29 AM CDT
I was worried cause you had not updated in days while I was gone but read the guest book and now I know why. I see I spelled Robert wrong in my last post... I am so sorry. But since you get email from me too you know I an not type but I can spell if I go back and proof it... LOL
Sharon
Dardanelle, AR , - Monday, September 29, 2003 7:13 PM CDT
Hello my friend. Just dropped in to check on the Charltons! Hope you had a nice weekend and a very peaceful beginning to your week.
Christi
- Monday, September 29, 2003 5:56 PM CDT
Just stopping by to let you know you're on my heart and in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings and much love to you.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC, - Monday, September 29, 2003 12:40 AM CDT
CARINGBRIDGE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! FIX THIS SITE! I NEED MY DAILY FIX OF KATHY............I'M COMPLETELY IN NEED OF SOME POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT.
Meg
- Monday, September 29, 2003 9:57 AM CDT
you could always just do your update here in the guestbook!! :)
just a suggestion
- Monday, September 29, 2003 9:49 AM CDT
Don't worry Kathy, we'll find you anywhere.....
A Friend
- Monday, September 29, 2003 9:46 AM CDT
Kathy -- I've been out of town, and I'm glad to see I haven't missed anything! :) We're looking forward to you being back on line soon!
Tammy Holston
B'ham, - Monday, September 29, 2003 9:16 AM CDT
FRIENDS...SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES AND SUCH...I CANNOT ACCESS THE AUTHOR ACTIVITIES PAGE TO DO ANY JOURNALING! BELIEVE ME I AM BUMMED TOO! YOU KNOW ME, NEVER HAVE ANYTHING ON MY MIND...:) THE FOLKS AT CARINGBRIDGE ARE TRYING TO "FIX" IT! AAAAAAAGGGGHHHHH! BE BACK AS SOON AS I CAN; PLEASE HANG WITH US! PEACE, KATHY
KATHY CHARLTON
- Monday, September 29, 2003 8:55 AM CDT
HI Kathy,

Well, that just stinks that CB is saying that you don't have an account. They need to wake up!! I hope they get this figured out real soon!

In the meantime, have a very nice week!!!

Love and ((((HUGS))))
Eva
- Sunday, September 28, 2003 7:09 PM CDT
DEAR FRIENDS...I HOPE THOSE OF YOU WHO REGULARLY CHECK THIS PAGE READ THIS...I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO UPDATE THE PAGE FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS BECAUSE IT WILL NOT LET ME ACCESS IT. THE SITE IS SAYING THE ACCOUNT DOES NOT EXIST! WELL, WE KNOW IT EXISTS! I HAVE CONTACTED THEIR CUSTOMER SERVICE DEPT. AND AM WAITING A REPLY. BE BACK ASAP! TAKE GOOD CARE--PEACE, KATHY
KATHY CHARLTON
- Saturday, September 27, 2003 12:28 AM CDT
just checking on you, and I know what time of year this is. think of you often. We are still out of power thanks to Isabel, really got slammed, but our home is fine. just tired of the dark! keeping in touch, and sending positive thoughts your way. Love,
Mary Alice D. <jay.dorschel@verizon.net>
suffolk, va - Saturday, September 27, 2003 7:55 AM CDT
Kathy
I just want to say that i am in awe of you!!!! I read your entries every day and, although I dont know you, I feel as though I have known you and Robert forever. You are truly an inspiring woman.
Haley <Haleymo@aol.com>
- Thursday, September 25, 2003 10:21 PM CDT
Kathy,

You don't know me, as i am sure that is the case with others that read your posts. I have posted here a few times before, in hopes of encouraging you. But now I feel the need to post, just to thank you! You are the bravest woman I know. I read your journals daily, and almost always feel inspired and encouraged. You touch the lives of so many people, by sharing your life and your Robert with us. I only stumbled upon this page by accident, or maybe it wasn't. I was led here to pray for you and others that are in similiar situations. Only now, I feel like God has led me here for another purpose. He has showed me, through you, about so much that I needed to know about life. My faith has increased immeasurably. I hope that brings a joy to your heart. I will continue to pray for you and your family daily. May God always be with you and yours.

Heather Clegg
Heather Clegg <Kattin0116@aol.com>
Baxley, GA USA - Thursday, September 25, 2003 8:48 PM CDT
Hey you...Hiya Kathy. People don't believe me when I go back and tell them what they said in an email back in--------(shhhh) It's very interesting how things change over time, however relative time becomes. You've known of my own ups and down in this same time frame I've known you. (happy/sad smiles)... Hang in there, Kathy...

Jess...Miss you posting your nonsense, although mom shares some if it with me. :-)

Post Isabel is very interesting.... we were under cerfew last night, yet they let tourists in today at noon to certain areas....I have mixed feelings...anyone who's been through a storm can relate....but the communities pull together...and life goes on.... and as you often say, Kath... at the end of the day, there's PEACE. The Shadow would understand ..... ;-)
Tom....waiting for food in the store (we do have milk) <WerbeRacing@aol.com>
KDH, NC www.caringbridge.org/ks/dianekeel - Thursday, September 25, 2003 9:16 AM CDT

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