Monday, December 25, 2006 4:26 PM CST

Merry Christmas Dad.I sure do miss you.Hope you got the balloons the kids sent up to you 3 special Angels.Jason went with his Dad again this year for Christmas for he is skiing and having an awesome time.Tristan and Felicity were so excited they were up at 6am ready to start opening gifts.So I think they will be in bed early tonight.I will update more later.Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas.
















MY FATHER

My Father was my hero, he was the wind beneath my wings.
He still is, I miss him every single day and think of him every day,
The day he died they took a big part of my heart away.

After all this years I still miss him and I always will,
My Father was to me a very special man, my hero, the
wind beneath my wings.

He is still on my mind, still in my life, I can feel him,
I can’t see him, but I can feel him still in my life.
He was always there, And he is still always there,
when I need him, even when I can’t see him.

I believe that he is the one who’s watches over me,
he is the one that protects me.
He is my guardian-angel, my Dad, the wind beneath my wings

Saturday, December 23, 2006 8:36 PM

I can't believe Dad has been an Angel for Two years on Christmas day.It seems like forever but then it seems like yesterday.I can still remember it so clearly.I miss you so much Dad Christmas isn't the same without you and the kids miss having you here to watch them open there gifts.You always enjoyed that.This year you have Auntie Diane and Uncle Marty with you in Heaven with the rest of our family who bacame Angels.I know that you will make Aunite Diane's and Uncle Marty's first Christmas in heaven a special one for them Dad.I love you so much.I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!


Wednesday, December 20, 2006 1:43 PM So sad,a little girl in Tristan's school passed away on Wednesday of leukemia.She was diagnosed in October of 2002.Seemeen Dhanani was in Grade four.The whole school was in tears yesterday as they had there advent celebration.The school was raising money for the family with raffles and so on and we raised a total of 4224.37 dollars for Seemeen's family.Her funeral is on Saturday the 23rd.I'm planning on attending.Please keep Seemeen's family in your prayer's.


I can't believe Dad has been an Angel for Two years on Christmas day.It seems like forever but then it seems like yesterday.I can still remember it so clearly.I miss you so much Dad Christmas isn't the same without you and the kids miss having you here to watch them open there gifts.You always enjoyed that.This year you have Auntie Diane and Uncle Marty with you in Heaven with the rest of our family who bacame Angels.I know that you will make Aunite Diane's and Uncle Marty's first Christmas in heaven a special one for them Dad.I love you so much.I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!

The week before Christmas was one of the worse nights of my life.That is when the doctor came to me and said that there was nothing more for them to do for Dad.The Hiv meds were not working and Dad was having a really hard time breathing at this point.My Cousin Suzette came down to stay with me at the hospital that night and I remember Dad wanting a nurse for some meds but he never wanted just any nurse he wanted the blonde nurse.Dad was funny even then.He said the other nurse was a cow.I told him not to talk like that for they were all being very good to him.But that was the nurse who sucked out the crap out of his lungs and he was crying and gagging so he thought she was a cow now in his eyes for putting him through that.My poor Dad.I'm so thankful that Suzette was with me when I got the news.For I just lost it.They were asking me to stop all meds and if I thought it was the best decision.Well all I could think of was by doing that it was like I was killing my Dad to me.I wish he never left that up to me.But that is what Dad wanted.I'm so glad that Suzette was with me.So around 9 pm I told the Doctor and they stopped treating Dad and were just going to keep him comfortable.I could not get ahold of my Brother or Sister for they were in the bar somewhere when I had to let the Doctors know what I was going to do.Brent finally got the hospital around 12am and my sister around 1:30am after my cousin Kim went to the bar that she always went to and got her.I was so mad at her for drinking and for bringing her drunk boyfriend to the hospital with her.Around midnight the nurses asked me if I wanted a priest to come and bless Dad,of course I said yes.When the priest got there I held Dad so tight and just cried.After that was done Dad started moving his hand in a circle and was saying something.Well my brother and sister thought he wanted us to all hold hands and thought that was then end for my Dad.Well Dad was tallking to me .He wanted me to turn arouond.It took us a few minutes to figure out what he was saying.SO I turned all the way around.Well Dad got mad you should of seen the look on his face it was priceless.So I turned around again and I will never forget what happened next.I sit here crying just remembering what happened.When I turned around for Dad so my back was facing him he took his hand and patted my back then rubbed it for a few minutes.I just stood there and cried.I know that was Dad letting me know how thankful he was that I was always there at the hospital taking care of him and being there for him.For I was the only one he did it too.It made me feel special.Everyone left the hospital around 3 am but Suzette and I.In the morning around 8am I ran home to get Mike and the kids to bring them to see there Grandpa one last time.Suzette stayed with Dad while I was gone.When I got back Dad's two sister's were there and some friends from the home he was in saying good bye.Poor Dad was in tears for now he could not speak at all he so much wanted to saying something it was heartbreaking to see.Suzette then told me that while I was gone Dad was asking were I was and Suzette told him that I went to get the kids and I would be right back.She asked my Dad if she would do and he said no he wanted me.I just started crying.When Dad seen Mike he reached out to take his hand and tell him something but couldn't speak just tears in his eyes.When Dad seen the kids he smiled and touched them all.I think Dad knew it would be the last time he would have to be with his grandchildren and touch them.He rubbed Felicity's face and till this day she still remember's what Grandpa did.Later during the day the moved Dad back down to the fourth floor to be in his own room.SO I told the nurse to get me a bed for I would be staying there all the time.Suzette had to leave but she came back a couple days later with her daughter Amanda and they both slept at the hospital with me for a couple of nights.But they slept on the floor since there was no other place for them to lay down.I'm so glad they were there with me.There was even a nurse that worked there I can't remember he name that used to go to school with Dad in nursing school.She told me so many stories how Dad was always playing pranks on his friends and on the nurse's and the doctors.She said he was always smiling and was so fun to hang around with .This was so nice to hear for I have so many picture's of Dad fooling around in nursing school. On the Wednesday morning they left and I was so worried for there was no one there to stay with Dad during the day I hated him being there alone incase he passed away.Of course my brother and sister had better things to da than be there.That also made me mad for they were both not working but could stay and be with Dad.I remember when Suzette stayed with dad during the Day on Monday the nurses said that we could feed Dad if we wanted but I said no way for he wasn't even awake and would choke on water with the sponge so there was no way I was going to feed him,they also said that if we wanted we could meve Dad to his home but he probably wouldn't make the move so I thought it would be best for Dad to stay in the hospital.I know he wanted to pass at the home but I never wanted to put him through the move.And it would of took a few days to get everything set up there for hospice.Anyways during the last week of Dad's life here on earth they kept Dad comfortable.I remember on Wednesday Dads kidneys had shut down.That night dad was looking a stubbly again so I gave Dad one last shave,by this time Dad could not speak and was not responding anymore.So I shaved him up all nice and then put on his favorite aftershave.He looked so good.The nurses said he looked good and smelled really nice.On Thursday night Dad was starting to get so cold.I tried everything to hot blankets to warm him up but nothing would work.That is when is whole body started shutting down.On Christmas Eve morning when I left Dad at 6:30am to go home and watch the kids while Mike was at work I was so glad that Reggie a friend of ours was here for back to the hospital I went to be with Dad.I told Mike that I would leave early in the morning on Christmas Day to put the gifts under the tree and watch the kids open them and then get back to the hospital.I remember telling my family that I had a feeling that Dad was going to go to Heaven on Christmas Day.Well Christmas eve my brother and sister finally came to see Dad after not being there all week.They stayed till about 9:30pm.Then it was just me and my Dad again.I just sat with Dad and held his hand.Then at midnight I went and crawled into bed with Dad and just held him as much as I could.

Dad was so stiff already by then I couldn't really move him at all.So as I laid there with Dad I talked to him.I told him how much I loved him.I also told him that it was okay that he could go home to Heaven and be with our baby brother Jason.At 4:30 the nurses came in and gave Dad some more meds at this time I was sitting in the chair with my head on the bed holding Dad's hand.I asked them if Dad was okay and they said yes.So I sat there and just held Dads hand and I dosed off with Dad.Then when they came back to check on him at 5:30 I knew Dad was gone.Dad had went to be with the Angels in Heaven.I would not of know about Dad's last breath for with that Oxygen on you can't tell for that is so loud.At this time I was not holding Dad's hand.I think Dad wanted me to sleep by him for he never wanted me to see him take his last breath.I was a wreck.I called Mike and told him I wouldn't be home for awhile and for him to get those gifts under the tree.I called my cousin Suzette and tried calling my brother and sister but no answer.I finally got a hold of them around 8 and told them Dad was gone and for them to come to the hospital to see Dad before they took him.By this time I was beside myself in tears so I went outside while the nurses changed Dad and fixed him up for his eyes were open and I tried to close them but couldn't.They dressed Dad and closed his eyes and by this time my Brother and Sister showed up to see Dad.Christmas was a nightmare for me for I never got home till 11;30 or so and my kids were sitting there waiting to open there gifts cause I asked Mike to wait until I got there.They open there gifts then my Brother ,and my Sister went to Dad's home to clean out his room that afternoon.That was so hard to do.But Dad wanted all his clothes left at the home for other people.I just took some for myself.That was so hard to do.Then we had to make funeral arrangements so we went down to the funeral home.We picked out the cremation casket for Dad wanted to be cremated so I told Belinda and Brent that I wanted Dad to be in his favorite suite.He looked so at peace.That was my favorite suite on Dad.When ever he went to a dance or some special event he would wear that suite.We had a viewing of the body on Boxing Day then again on the 27th for family who wanted to say good=bye to Dad.Let me tell you having to leave my Dad there was so hard if I could I would of stayed the last night with Dad just to be by his side.I left picture's of me and the kids in there for Dad along with a white teddy bear and some angels.I also pulled out a little of my hair so Dad would always have a peice of me with him.SO my Christmas wasnt' the best.We had Dad's funeral on Jan 11th which I will tell you all about then.I miss you so much Dad with all my heart and soul.Merry Christmas in Heaven Dad.I can't believe that a year has gone by already it seems like a lifetime.

Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:41 AM CST

Sunday, December 17th, 2006

Wow,today marks 39 years since my brother Jason passed away.I always think about you Jason and what a wonderful big brother you would of been.I know you are happy having Dad with you in Heaven.I will update more tomorrow.

I lost all my caringbridge links I'm so mad.I thought I had them on my other hard drive but there not there.


GOING TO CAMROSE THIS WEEKEND TO HELP DEAN WITH AUNTIE DIANE'S THINGS.I'M GOING TO HELP WITH HER CLOTHES FOR WE ARE GOING TO GIVE THEM TO THE WOMEN'S SHELTER,AND PACK THE OTHER THINGS AWAY.DEAN ALSO FOUND OUT HE HAS TO MOVE OUT OF THE HOUSE FOR THEY ARE PUTTING IT UP FOR SALE IN THE NEW YEAR.

PRAYER'S REQUEST NEEDED!

MY STEP DAD HEINZ IS NOT DOING GOOD AT ALL.HE SEEMS TO BE GETTING WORSE EACH DAY.I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM.NOW HE HAS PHEUMONIA AND IS SO WEEK.I'M SO SCARED AND WORRIED FOR HEINZ I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM TOO.

HE IS NOT IMPROVING WITH HIS MEMORY EITHER IT'S JUST GETTING WORSE HE GETS PRETTY NASTY IN THE HOSPITAL AT TIMES.THEY STRAP HIM TO THE BED AND HE STILL GETS OUT OF THERE HE JUST WANTS TO GO HOME BUT BY THE LOOKS OF THINGS HE WILL NOT BE.TOMORROW MY MOM IS HAVING A MEETING WITH THE DOCTOR'S ABOUT MOVING HIM TO A EXTENDED HOME CARE BUT IT HE STILL COUNTINUE'S TO LOSE CONTROL IT MIGHT EVEN BE A MENTAL HOSPITAL.POOR HEINZ HE HAS NEVER BEEN NASTY OR OUT OF CONTROL UNTILL HE HAD THE SURGERY HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A BIG TEDDY BEAR AND FULL OF LAUGHTER.I WISH HE WOULD OF NEVER OF HAD THE SURGERY BUT THEN HE PROBABLY WOULD OF DIED.

PLEASE PRAY FOR HEINZ THAT HE CAN FIGHT THE PHEUMONIA.

I just received the write up about my Auntie.



Diane Rurka of Camrose passed away suddenly on December 5, 2006, at the age of 65 years.
She is survived by one son Dean of Camrose; four brothers Steve (Mabel) of Langley, BC, Emil (Lorraine) of Armstrong, BC, Roy (Marg) of Vegreville, AB, and Victor of Langley, BC; two sisters Joyce (Gerald ) Woycheshyn of Vegreville and Susan (Dale) Odegard of Camrose; numerous relatives, friends and co-workers. She was predeceased by her parents William and Annie; brothers Mike, twin brother David and Martin.

Memorial donations may be made to the Alberta Cancer Foundation.

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Monday, December 11, 2006 11:40 PM CST

Well my Sweet Angel Dad in Heaven,I know that you and Auntie Diane and Uncle Marty are happy being together again.And that Auntie wasn't afraid for she knew that her family was there with open arms welcoming her to Heaven.

The gathering on Sunday went so well and was so nice.So many people showed.Auntie you were very much loved.And we all miss you something aweful.We has some of your awesome borsh soup that you had in the freezer on Saturday.You were a great cook and everyone that you cooked for is going to miss your cooking.I know Dean is going to.Dean is holding himself together really well Auntie.We are all here for him for support.And I know you are so proud of him.

Dean and I stayed up pretty late on Saturday talking about the good times we used to have when we were altogether it was nice and it helped for we needed that.And we could both here you yelling at us to get to bed like you used to do when we were little.Dean already misses you yelling at him to take out the garbage and get the dishes done lol.SO many happy memories.You were a true survivour Auntie you beat Cancer twice.I wish you could of beatin your heart failing but God had other plans for you.I can see you smiling in Heaven Auntie as you cook for all the Angels.You left us doing something you loved to do and now you will continue doing it in Heaven.I Love You!

Then on Wednesday we found out that Dad's sister Auntie Joyce has lung Cancer.She is going to need Chemo.Auntie Diane and my Auntie Susie beat it by getting part of there lung removed but Auntie Joyce doesn't have that option.I pray she can beat it.

A quick update on Heinz my stepdad he is still in the hospital and not doing good at all.He is having heart problems.He was put back in the ICU.We think it's because of the medication they have him for he never had to be on any before he had the surgery.His memory is alot worse since the removed the tumor back in September.

And for those of you who don't know how to say something nice stay away from my Dad's site.My Dad is gone but this is where I feel close to him.Nothing is going to make me close it down by what you may think or say.

I have new picture's of Dad to share once I get my computer back which should be the beginning of next week sometime.I can't do anything with this old tower.They also told me my picture's will still be on my other hard drive but I won't believe it till I get it back and see for myself.

Thank-You for all you love and prayer's.I will be by your pages when I get my tower back for I had all my CB links over there also.

Just know that I'm thinking of you all and keeping you all in my prayer's.

Love Brenda

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Thursday, December 7, 2006 1:45 PM CST

Hi Brenda here.I finally got a key board for this old tower of mine so now I can update.

I'm at a loss for words.

My Auntie Diane passed away on Tuesday morning at work.She had a massive heart attack.This was my Dad's twin sister.I'm a wreck.I can't believe it no one can for it was such a shock to everyone.The first thing I wanted to do was call Dad but I know that Dad was there with open arms welcoming his twin in heaven.The video on the page is of Dad and Dean Diane's only child.I'm really starting to hate December for our family always seems to pass then.My Grandpa passed Dec 23,Jason Dec 17th and Dad Dec 25th and now Auntie on Dec 5th.It will be 8 months since Uncle Marty passed away on Monday and now I have to greive for another.Tuesday morning Auntie Diane went to work for she was a cook she had a coffee with the regulars there then went to cook.Then she got dizzy and collasped.And she was gone there was nothing the parametic's could do.One thing though Auntie Diane said that if she was ever going to go she wanted to go fast so she got her wish.The doctor's said she was in no pain at all for it was so quick.Which is a good thing for she never had to suffer.I was just at her place a little over two weeks ago picking up the money for the kids left over from my Dad's will so I'm glad I got to see her.I have so many wonderful memories of Auntie which I will cherish forever.Diane beat so many illnesses which I will update at another time.We are having a gathering on Sunday for her so I'm going up to Camrose on Saturday.She will be cremated on Friday. I have a nice picture of my Dad and Diane but it's on my other computer and the motherboard went on that one.I have it on cd but can't get in on here with this tower.

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Tuesday, December 5, 2006 12:30 AM CST

Hi this Tammy Brenda's friend updating for her,


She has recieved some devastating news this morning, Her auntie Diane passed away suddenley from heart failure at work, this auntie was brendas dad's twin sister and her favorite auntie.

please send her some prayers today if possible and kind words.


hopefully she will be back herself to give good updates.

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Thursday, November 30, 2006 12:20 AM CST

From Susan Ott:
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Brenda's computer crashed and she will try to be back here in the next week or so when she get's her computer back from the shop. In the meantime I am doing her dad's page. I know it doesn't look as good as her work but she is teaching me slowly..LOL
Anyway to all the Caringbridge Pages she signs and to the Caringbridge children who's page she was supposed to do, She told me she will get to your page as soon as she can but she will keep praying for you as she always does... In her heart. She told me to tell you that she loves you all and will be back online as soon a possiable.
Many hugs and much love to all
Susan Ott mother to Angel Stephanie Ott
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Well right now I can't do anything.I was signing some of my caringbridge page and My computer CRASHED on me last night. I was going to put up the new Christmas page.I'm just praying that my other hard drive will be okay for that is where all my picture's are and I have over 3000 picture's on there that I never put on CD's yet.I'm so upset about that.I really don't care about anything else but my picture's.And our summer holiday picture's are on there,kids birthday and so on.Everything might be gone.All my caringbridge links gone it that side was effective.I'm hoping my friend Susan who add animation to Dad's new page still has all the picture's I sent her otherwise I have to start from scratch.I still don't know about all my email addy's either if there going to be gone or not.

I am using my old tower which is slower than snails but I still can't do anything for I have no software on this tower.

Kids are doing good.Tristan still has a nasty cough and now he has a ear infection.There are so many kids sick.On Tuesday out of 400 kids at Tristan's school 95 of them were away.What a nasty bug that is going around here.

Well that is all for now.I hope I can Dad's new page up soon.Should get my tower back next week sometime.

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Wednesday, November 22, 2006 11:53 PM CST

I just found this song and boy it's perfect for Dad's page.It's a sad one.

Sorry it's taken me so long to update Dad's page again.I can't believe it's been almost two years and I miss Dad even more now.I put up lights outside this year for the first time just for Dad.He always loved Christmas and the tons of lights.We would always drive around and look at the decorated house's.

Hard to believe that this time last year Dad was in the hospital fighting for his life,were did the last two years go when it still feels like yesterday.

I just finished doing QUEENMADDY'S page and did another page for Angel Stephanie for her main page for her Birthday and her guestbook.Stephanie's Mom Susan is such a great friend.She put the kids picture's in the sparkle frames for me.Please stop by her page for it would of been
STEPHANIE'S Sweet 16th Birthday on Sunday and they are missing her so much.I found this write up called The Gap about losing a child so I thought I would share it with you.For all the parents who have lost a child.It's at the end of the update.Dad never stopped hurting for Jason and to me I don't think it ever gets easier I think it just gets harder.When my Dad lost Jason he cried for him always.Even when he was in the hospital he kept saying soon I will be with Jason and would smile.

I was going to do a fish page for Dad but thought no I can't yet for I have to get it ready for Christmas so soon that is what it's going to be I think it will be in the middle of January sometime.For January 11th is when we had his funeral service's so have to do the page up for that first.Dad i know your up there in Heaven saying my the Grandkids are sure growing with a smile on your face.We will be sending up your balloon soon with there picture's on them.



TRISTAN AGE 6 GRADE 1

Tristan has finally gotten rid of the fever's now we just have to get rid of the nasty cough that he has.His voice is so raspy but he sounds so cute.He went skating the other day with his class and had fun.I never got any picture's but I'm going on the next one so I will take some picture's.They go skating 4 more times.He sure loves school now which is good.He gets his first report card on Friday so he is excited about that.



JASON AGE 12 GRADE 7

Jason has another Volleyball tournament this weekend so I will be busy with that so I guess I will be putting up the tree next weekend.And hopefully start my Christmas shopping also.I just don't feel in the mood at all to do it.I know it's because it's just not the same anymore.



FELICITY AGE 4 PRE-SCHOOL

Felicity well what a little backpack she is.She is getting so big.I can't believe she is going to be 5 in 3 months.She talks like she is 15 but is as big as a 3 year old my tiny little girl.Anyways last week she kept say that her toe hurt and everytime I looked at it it always looked fine.Well on Friday she was in the tub for about an hour and when she got out man oh man there was puss all around it and it was red and blue.But yet in the morning it looked fine so thank goodness for her bath.She had an ingrown toenail. It looked much worse than this for this was the next day.So I took her to the medicenter and the doctor froze it then cut it.Well she is so brave for she never really cried just made a little noise.And she wanted to watch what they were doing but I told her no for then she would of really freaked out.So the bandaged her all up and she was good to go.She has to take medicine for the infection that she had.And after they cut it she never complained that it hurt her at all.

	THE GAP The gap between those who have lost children and those who have not is profoundly difficult to bridge. No one, whose children are well and intact can be expected to understand what parents who have lost children have absorbed and what they bear. Our children come to us through every blade of grass, every crack in the sidewalk, every bowl of breakfast cereal. We seek contact with their atoms, their hairbrush, their toothbrush, their clothing. We reach for what was integrally woven into the fabric of our lives, now torn and shredded. A black hole has been blown through our souls and, indeed, it often does not allow the light to escape. It is a difficult place. For us to enter there is to be cut deeply, and torn anew, each time we go there, by the jagged edges of our loss. Yet we return, again and again, for that is where our children now reside. This will be so for years to come and it will change us profoundly. At some point in the distant future, the edges of that hole will have tempered and softened but the empty space will remain - a life sentence. Our friends will change through this. There is no avoiding it. We grieve for our children, in part, through talking about them and our feelings for having lost them. Some go there with us, others cannot and through their denial and a further measure, however unwittingly, to an already heavy burden. Assuming that we may be feeling "better" six months later is simply "to not get it." The excruciating and isolating reality that bereaved parents feel is hermetically sealed from the nature of any other human experience. Thus it is a trap - those whose compassion and insight we most need are those for whom we abhor the experience that would allow them that sensitivity and capacity. And yet, somehow there are those, each in their own fashion, who have found a way to reach us and stay, to our comfort. They have understood, again each in their own way, that our children remain our children through our memory of them. Their memory is sustained through speaking about them and our feelings about their death. Deny this and you deny their life. Deny their life and you no longer have a place in ours. We recognize that we have moved to an emotional place where it is often very difficult to reach us. Our attempts to be normal are painful and the day to day carries a silent, screaming anguish that accompanies us, sometimes from moment to moment. Were we to give it its own voice we fear we would become truly unreachable, and so we remain "strong" for a host of reasons even as the strength saps our energy and drains our will. Were we to act out our true feelings we would be impossible to be with. We resent having to act normal, yet we dare not do otherwise. People who understand this dynamic are our gold standard. Working our way through this over the years will change us as does every experience - and extreme experience changes one extremely. We know we will have recovered when, as we have read, it is no longer so painful to be normal. We do not know who we will be at that point or who will still be with us. We have read that the gap is so difficult that, often, bereaved parents must attempt to reach out to friends and relatives or risk losing them. This is our attempt. For those untarnished by such events, who wish to know in some way what they, thankfully, do not know, read this. It may provide a window that is helpful for both sides of the gap.

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Sunday, November 19, 2006 7:20 PM CST

MY UPDATE WILL BE UP TODAY SOMETIME.



Well today marks two year's when Dad first went into the hospital and I still remember it like it was yesterday.He has been on my mind all day today.I miss him so much.I was going to add picture's today but just don't feel up to it so hopefully tomorrow I can get on here and do that and give a better update.Tristan is still sick poor thing starting coughing so hard that he threw up and he still had a slight fever today.Man I hope those go away soon.Wow I still can't believe it's been two years Dad.And to think we still have a lifetime to wait till we see you again.

Dad I will put kids school picture's up tomorrow.I know that your going to love them.

Tristan's fever was 103.6 on Friday.I'm sure glad the medicine brought it down or else he was going to the hospital.He has had them for a week now and so did Fissy when she had them but never that high.Her's lasted a week so hopefully this is then end of fever's for Tristan too.

And poor Felicity wait till I tell you what happened to her.

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Friday, November 17, 2006 11:55 PM CST

I will have the new update up here on Sunday.

With the kids school picture's Dad.I know that your going to love them.

Tristan is still sick my poor baby,his fever was 103.6 today.I'm sure glad the medicine brought it down or else he was going to the hospital.He has had them for a week now and so did Fissy when she had them but never that high.Her's lasted a week so hopefully this is then end of fever's for Tristan too.

And poor Felicity wait till I tell you what happened to her.

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Sunday, November 12, 2006 7:29 PM CST

Well now Jason and Tristan are both sick with high fever's.I can't wait till there all better.I'm sure glad I never get sick like that.This will probably last a week like it did with Felicity.Both boys have been sleeping most of the weekend.

The kids had fun with Halloween this year.Jason was scream/freddy with the hand.I never got any picture's of him though.He never lets me take picture's anymore.Kids I tell you.Tristan was a ninja again this year with a different costume. Well little miss Felicity was going to be a bride and she looked so cute but the sleeve's were bugging her for they were too tight on her armsso she cried the whole time she had it on so we took it back that night and she got a disco dancing outfit which she loved and looked so adorable in it. Felicity had her Halloween party in pre-school and there were lots of princess there. She had lots of fun though.

Jason had his volleyball tournament 2 weeks ago He wasn't too happy about that for the couch never let him play that much so he was mad.Alot of the grade 7's never got to play alot which I don't think is fair.How will they get better if they can't play.She just let the 8's play most of the games.Jason did really well when he got to play for he got his team like 8 points. They won 3 games though.I hope when he plays in two weeks he will play alittle more then he did the last time. Now he is starting with basketball try-outs so it's always busy with him with sports.Now he wants to join Cadets so I have to call on Tuesday about that.

Last weekend both Tristan and Felicity cried most of the weekend for they were missing Grandpa.They wanted to go see him in the hospital and when I told them that he wasn't there anymore they both wanted to go to heaven to visit him.It was so sad.I picked up the money finally today that they got from my Dad from my Auntie.So on Tuesday I have to go put them in bank accounts for them.Something nice for them to have when they get older this ways they can get themselves something nice from Grandpa.

WE LOVE YOU GRANDPA AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.

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Wednesday, November 8, 2006 4:54 PM CST

I know it's been like forever since I last updated.Been so busy here with the kids.I working on my update now with picture's of Halloween and Jason's Volleyball game that he had.Got Jason's School picture's back now just waiting for Felicity's so I can share them with you.I know that Dad would love them.The kids want to put 3 on the end of a balloon so Grandpa can have them up in heaven so when I get Fissy's we are going to do that.They miss him so much.


My Dad's Auntie passed away.Keeping her family in my thoughts and in my prayer's.Now in the arms of Jesus with the angels.

Mary Rurka

On November 6, 2006 Mary Rurka of Edmonton passed away unexpectedly at the age of 92 years. She is survived by her son David Kenneth (Lucille); three granddaughters Michelle (David), Denise (Trevor) and Karen (Stuart); six great-grandchildren Constance, Steven, Christopher, Samantha, Ian and Evan. Mary is also survived by her brother Jack (Violet) Powley of Denver, Colorado and her sister Olga Winslow of New Hampshire. Mary was predeceased by her husband John H. Rurka; five brothers Peter, Emil, Joe, Stanley and Sydor; parents Mike and Katherine Powley.

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Monday, November 6, 2006 10:23 AM CST

Felicity is feeling much better.She had the fever's because of the cold she had.The doctor told me that she doesn't need medicine if she has a fever that is won't hurt her but a fever of 102.7 she could go into convolutions if it got any higher,I gave her children's moltrin anyways.I don't know why she would say that.

I will update with there Halloween picture's tonight.

I miss you Dad and so do the kids big time.They cried alot this weekend over you.It was so sad.I will tell you about it when I update.

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Wednesday, November 1, 2006 11:01 PM CST

Headache is finally gone.

The kids had a good time trick or treating.I will update tomorrow or Friday sometimes.Felicity has been sick since Sunday with fever's of 102.Poor little thing.One day she is fine the next day it's fever's again.She also has a really bad cough.

I'm taking her in today at 2:20 hopefully it's nothing serious.

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Tuesday, October 31, 2006 10:26 AM CST

Working on my update again for I just lost it all.I hate when that happens.I will be up soon.

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Friday, October 27, 2006 8:38 AM CDT

Hope you all had a great week.I have had a headache for a week now and I'm starting to go crazy,lol I hate them.

Kids are ready for Halloween and they all have there parties in school also.Felicity's is on Monday and Tristan's is on Tuesday.I don't think Jason has one in Grade 7 not even sure if he wears his costume or not.I guess I will find out soon enough.

Felicity is getting her picture's done today so I have to go and get her ready for that.

Have a great weekend and I will update on Tuesday night sometime with picture's of the kids.

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Thursday, October 19, 2006 9:50 PM CDT

I feel so bad that I haven't had time to sign the guestbooks like I used to.I don't know why for I only have Felicity home with me and three days a week she is in Pre-School.Just been busy here around the house and starting to get ready for Christmas and Halloween.I can't believe that it's going to be Christmas again in two months.Where does the time go?

It will be two years since Dad has been an angel and it seems like forever since I last seen him.I'm glad I have alot of loving memories with him.

The kids are really missing him.Tristan was laying in bed the other day and said he wished that Grandpa wouldn't of died and that he misses him so much.I told the kids that Grandpa is like Santa now that he can always see and hear us we just can't see him or hear him.He thought that was pretty neat and told Grandpa that he loved him and so did Felicity.

Jason said he loved it when he was in Kindergarten how Grandpa would go on most of his feild trips.And that is was so much fun when Grandpa went.Dad always loved doing things like that.He loved spending time with his grandkids for they were always making him laugh.

I remember when Dad was here in the summer and even though he was weak he still tried and played with the kids the best he could.They played soccer Dad never ran but he would kick the ball back and forth to them but just little kicks for he had to use his cane but the kids loved that.They always talk about Grandpa.

Heinz is doing alot better.He is still in the Hospital and still wants to get out of bed and tries to alot.But most of all he just wants to go home.3 weeks is long enough he said.Plus he never had to stay in one before so he is hating it and I don't blame him.

Jason got his picture's taken on Monday and Felicity is getting her's next Friday.I should be getting Tristan's back soon.His turned out so good this year for he smiled and never looked scared in them.I want to show you all his picture but want to wait till I get Jason's and Felicity's back.The only thing is with Jason' and Felicity's picture's they don't get proofs first so hopefully they have a nice smile and turn out good.Felicity's did last year so I know her's will but sometimes Jason like's to make a silly face so who knows with him ,he is such a clown at times that boy.

Well I hope you all have a great weekend and I will get to your pages really soon.

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Friday, October 13, 2006 3:20 PM CDT

NEW PICTURE'S IN THE ALBUM



Finally have Tristan's party update It's just down the page alittle.Sorry it took me so long.

Uncle Marty and Grandma






Uncle Marty you are so missed.I think about you all the time.I hope your first Birthday in Heaven is wonderful for you.I know that you and Dad are having a great time in heaven watching down on all of us.

Happy Heavenly Birthday Uncle Marty.





Here is a video of Uncle Marty last year blowing out his candles.

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Grandma making her famous Bread.

And can't forget about my Loving Grandma who turned 86.I love you Grandma.You are so full of energy and I know that you are going to have many more wonderful Birthdays.



Happy Birthday Gramdma.

	TRISTAN'S BIRTHDAY PARTY I wrote the party update here with some picture's.Sorry it took me so long. Tristan had an awesome party.I did the table the night before so I would have so much to do in the morning so he was excited to that when he woke up. Then Felicity and I went and picked up the other balloons.All his friends showed up and he was so excited.All the kids really enjoyed sending the balloons up to heaven.Tristan got alot of cool gifts and took about 3 times to blow out his candles.When the party was over he said it was the best party he ever had.Here are some picture's. This is Tristan and his little girlfriend Maddy. The boys decide to tackle Jason.What a good sport he was.Jason kept the kids pretty entertained. The boys all played playstation While the girls played with Felicity and cuddles. Tristan had fun opening all his presents. His best gift was the telescope that I got him.He loved it. Then trying to blow out his candles was so cute. It was an awesome time.And I know that Dad was here with us through it all with a smile on his face.

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Sunday, October 8, 2006 8:48 PM CDT

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving weekend.This time of year makes me miss dad.Everyday does but holiday are always worse.I remember a few days before Thanksgiving I went to Dad's and asked him if he was going to come over for Dinner and he said he wanted to stay at the house for they were making a big meal.Then I said well don't you want to spend it with me and he laughed and said yes.He always would bug me about staying at the home but would always come to my house anyways.I would never let him stay there when he's always welcome at my house.My Dad could be so silly sometimes I miss that about him.Two years ago for Thanksgiving Mikes Dad was here and I went to pick up Dad.I remember how excited he was to see Mikes Dad and too have Turkey.He was so weak then.Mike had to help him up the stairs and out of the van.He would of fell down stairs if Mike wasn't there to help him. .He always came over so now it's hard not having him here.He had such a good time we sat outside for most of the day for it was beautiful outside that day just like it is today .When dinner was done and ready to eat Dad made me laugh.He had a big heaping plate then wanted seconds.Well we were all shocked for Dad was never a big eater since he got sick but when it came to Turkey or Lobster he was always eating lots.He was full after and could barely move and wanted to take a nap .It was nice and I'm so glad he was with me for that was the last Thanksgiving I had with him not know that two months later he would be gone.I miss him so much.With Christmas just around the corner makes it even harder for it brings back all the memories.Dad was always happy even when he was sick and in the hospital.He always had a smile on his face or busting a few funnies along the way.I miss that and always will.Dad I hope your having lots of Turkey in Heaven and having lots of seconds up there.I just wish you could be here with me and the kids but I know you are in spirit and always will me,but it's just not the same and my heart will always be aching for you.

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Tuesday, October 3, 2006 6:50 PM CDT

Saturday, October 7, 2006

Well Dad it starts again.People just don't get it at all.I will never close your site.This is were I come to tell you how we and your grandchildren are doing.If people don't get that then that is there problem I guess.I also let them know how other family member's are doing if they need prayer's.Your memory will live on forever and always.I don't care who thinks I'm weird this site is about me and my family and will awlays be about my Dad.I'm apart of him and always will be,and so are my kids.If you don't like my site then don't come to it.Just stay away from all the site's and leave CB alone.We don't need people like you trying to bring people down.You know it just makes us stronger and makes you weaker.Keeping you in my prayer's.



Wednesday,October 4,2006 8:00 PM

Well I just talked to my Mom and I guess last night Heinz pulled all his tubes out and got out of bed.Poor Heinz they have him so high on Morphine he doesn't know what he is doing.So now they have to strap him to the bed and give him something to sleep at night so he can't pull the tubes out.That is all I know for today I will update when I hear more on how he is doing.

I have a splitting headache so I haven't gotten Tristan's party update all done yet.Or the picture's for the album yet.Soon hopefully.



Well we had our walk for Breast Cancer on the weekend here in Edmonton and over 10,000 people participated in the walk and we raised over 1.4 million dollars for research which is awesome.I'm glad we have those.
Heinz is doing pretty good.His mind is still all mixed up right now due to swelling but that is common I guess.He was asking the doctor's when they were going skiing.Then he asked my Mom if she was going to Kamloops and she told him that we live in Kamloops and he said OH OH.So I think in time everything will be fine.That is a big surgery so it's going to take some time.Hopefully everything will be okay once he is more healed.

Thanks for keeping Heinz in your prayer's.

I will put the update of the party on here tonight.I'm just getting it ready now.

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Friday, September 29, 2006 9:52 AM CDT

Just talked to my Mom and Heinz is doing well and surgery went well.It was 9 hours long.He is still in the ICU and is fighting the tubes in his mouth.When they were getting him ready Heinz told the doctor not to use his head as target practice.LOL That's Heinz for you still being the comedian.I will update tomorrow when I hear more.Not sure how long he will be in the ICU probably 3 days,all depends on how he is when he wakes up.




Heinz is in for surgery today.Please keep him in your thoughts and in your prayer's.This is a 10 hour surgery.I think I will be on pins and needles all day wondering how it's going.My Mom said she wasn't calling anyone till tomorrow so I'm going to be a wreck here in worry.

The party was awesome I will update soon.First want to let you all know how Heinz is.This is the first surgery he has ever had which is a good thing and he has never been really that sick either.He is tough for being 69.I love my step (DAD).


Kids sending balloons to Grandpa.

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Thursday, September 28, 2006 10:16 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Tristan.I know your going to have loads of fun today with all your friends.And know that Grandpa is here with us and watching us today and always.



I will update with picture's later tonight hopefully.This is Tristan's cake without the men on it yet.

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Thursday, September 21, 2006 11:43 PM CDT

Wednesday,September 27, 2006

This is not good,Tristan has an ear ache.My poor baby just woke up crying with a sore ear.Gave him some tylenol,I hope he will be okay for his party.I find that they do not bug him during the day just at night time for they keep him up crying half the night.



TRISTAN'S BIRTHDAY IS ON SEPT 28TH.MY BOY IS GOING TO BE 6 YEARS OLD ALREADY .MAN DO THEY GROW FAST.WE ARE HAVING HIS PARTY ON THURSDAY RIGHT AFTER SCHOOL FOR THEY GET OUT AT NOON.HE IS PRETTY EXCITED.HE HAS INVIED 10 KIDS 5 GIRLS AND 5 BOYS AND AS FAR AS I KNOW THEY ARE ALL COMING,SO IT'S GOING TO BE FUN.

WHAT A BUSY WEEK I HAVE HAD.NO TIME TO SIT DOWN THESE DAYS.KIDS GOING HERE KIDS GOING THERE LOL.KEEP ME HOPPING THAT IS FOR SURE.THE KIDS ARE DOING GOOD.TRISTAN LOVES SCHOOL NOW.IF I WOULD TAKE HIM HE WOULD GO THERE FOR 7:30 THE LITTLE STINKER.HE SAYS HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND NOW HER NAME IS MADDY.WELL YOU SHOULD OF SEEN HIM THE OTHER DAY WHEN I WENT TO PICK HIM UP IT WAS ADORABLE.HE WANTED ME TO GO ONE WAY AND HIM THE WAY THAT MADDY WAS GOING .IT TOOK ME 15 MINUTES TO GET OUT OF THERE LOL.

ALL THIS WEEK JASON HAD TO BE AT SCHOOL FOR 7AM FOR VOLLEYBALL TRY-OUTS.AND HE MADE THE JUNIOR TEAM.I SO HAPPY FOR HIM AND HE IS SO EXCITED HE MADE THE TEAM SO NOW HE IS TRYING OUT FOR THE SENIOR TEAM.

FELICITY WELL THE LITTLE BACKPACK IS DOING WELL .SHE LOVES PRE-SCHOOL.WE GOT HER THE NEW BABY BRATZ ON THE WEEKEND AND SHE WATCHES IT ALL DAY LONG.SHE KNOWS THE WHOLE THING BY HEART ALMOST ESPECIALLY THE SONGS.SHE ALSO GOT THE NEW MY LITTLE PONY WHICH SHE HAS WATCHED ONLY 4 TIMES.THEN ON THE 26TH THE NEW BRATZ ANOTHER ONE COMES OUT SO I KNOW SHE IS GOING TO BE WATCHING THAT ONE ALL WEEKEND FOR SURE.SHE ALSO LOVE'S PLAYING HOUSE WITH THE CAT THE LITTLE STINKER.

NOW THAT LITTLE KITTEN IS GETTING BIG NOW.SHE IS SO CUTE.SHE HAS TO BE WERE EVER THE KIDS ARE OR WHERE I AM.SHE IS OUR SPUNKY LITTLE BABY. I JUST WISH THEY WOULD STAY KITTENS.THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS PUTTING FELICITY TO BED AND SHUT HER DOOR AND CUDDLES WAS CRYING AT THE DOOR WANTING IN.THE KIDS LOVE HER BUT THEY STILL CALL HER MAX BY MISTAKE THEY MISS MAX SO MUCH.I MISS HIM TOO.

I WILL UPDATE AFTER TRISTAN'S PARTY.

I DID LEARN THAT MY COUSIN KIM HAS TO GO FOR A MRI ON THE 7TH OF NOVEMBER FOR THE DOCTOR'S THINK IT MIGHT BE A TUMOR.

KIM WAS ANOTHER GREAT COUSIN WHO WAS ALWAYS IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN DAD WAS IN THERE.SHE IS ALSO THE ONE WITH THE TWINS SKYLAR AND ASHTON.PLEASE KEEP HER IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND IN YOUR PRAYER'S.I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE.

HEINZ GOES FOR SURGERY ON HIS TUMOR ON THE 29TH OF SEPT TO BE REMOVED.THIS IS GOING TO BE A 8 TO 10 HOUR SURGERY.PLEASE PRAY FOR HEINZ

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006 8:14 PM CDT

CHRISTI EARNED HER ANGELS WINGS THIS MORNING.MY HEART IS BROKEN FOR HER FAMILY.CHRISTI FOUGHT HARD THESE PAST FOUR YEARS.SHE IS NOW IN HEAVEN DANCING PAIN AND CANCER FREE.PLEASE STOP BY HERE PAGE AND SEND HER FAMILY YOUR LOVE AND PRAYER'S.

SORRY I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY UPDATE UP HERE YET.JUST HAD NO TIME YESTERDAY OR TODAY.

I DID LEARN THAT MY COUSIN KIM HAS TO GO FOR A MRI ON THE 7TH OF NOVEMBER FOR THE DOCTOR'S THINK IT MIGHT BE A TUMOR.

KIM WAS ANOTHER GREAT COUSIN WHO WAS ALWAYS IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN DAD WAS IN THERE.SHE IS ALSO THE ONE WITH THE TWINS SKYLAR AND ASHTON.PLEASE KEEP HER IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND IN YOUR PRAYER'S.I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE.

HEINZ GOES FOR SURGERY ON HIS TUMOR ON THE 29TH OF SEPT TO BE REMOVED.THIS IS GOING TO BE A 8 TO 10 HOUR SURGERY.PLEASE PRAY FOR HEINZ.

I WILL TRY AND UPDATE THE REST OF MY PAGE TOMORROW.

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Monday, September 18, 2006 10:37 AM CDT

I will be updating my page today sometime hopefully.I have lots to share with you all.Some tears and some Tristan news and news on Heinz.

Talk to you all very soon.Please Keep CHRISTI in your thoughts and in your prayer's .She is going to be earning her Angel wings very soon.

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006 10:52 PM CDT

Got some sad news to share.On Sept 7th God gained to more Angels.A Co-Worker of Mike's son was in a car accident and was killed.Levi Dorn age 16 and his girlfriend Melissa age 15.My heart is broken for these two families.Blair Levi's Dad is a mess.He would always talk about his son to Mike and the boys at work.Blair has 3 daughter's and Levi was the only son.He was an happy teenager and always involed in sports.He is going to be deeply missed by all that knew him.I am posting the write up in the paper below.

Please send his family your thoughts and prayer's for I will forward them all to them.



Rest in Peace Levi

Oct 3/89 to Sept 7/06

On September 7, 2006, Levi Dorn of Fort Saskatchewan passed away at the age of 16 years. He will be sadly missed and forever remembered by his loving parents: Blair and Angela; three sisters: Rhiannon, Harley and Destiny as well as many relatives and dear friends. Memorial Service will take place on Thursday, September 14, 2006 at 2:00 p.m. at the Dow Centennial Centre, 8700 - 84 Street, Fort Saskatchewan, AB.





EDMONTON -- Students and staff at two high schools were struggling to cope with the shocking deaths of a pair of popular and promising students.

Melissa Melan, 15, of Sherwood Park, and Levi Dorn, 16, of Fort Saskatchewan, were killed Thursday in a collision near Sherwood Park.

"She (Melissa) was always laughing, always smiling. She could make anyone laugh. Everyone that knew her loved her," said tearful friend Lyndsey, 16.

"When I saw her two days ago, she jumped on me and gave me a big hug. She was an amazing person."

Grieving friends, who consoled each other at the crash site and at Vimy Ridge Academy in Edmonton where Melan was just starting Grade 11, described the well-liked teen as pretty, smart and extremely athletic.

"She's a very good athlete," classmate Jacob Nash, 15, said yesterday afternoon, explaining Melan enjoyed soccer, rugby and volleyball, as well as shopping for clothes and listening to music.

Matt Nixon, 16, said Melan seemed happy with everything going on in her life, including her job at a snowboarding store.


"She had lots of energy and enthusiasm," added Vimy Ridge principal Don Blackwell.

Meanwhile, Dorn was described as an extremely popular student who was active in a variety of pursuits, including football.

"His ready smile, sense of humour and caring, outgoing nature will be greatly missed by everyone," Fort Saskatchewan high school principal Dennis Dykau said.

Melan and Dorn were passengers in a Pontiac Grand Am driven by a 16-year-old boy, identified only as another Fort Saskatchewan high school student.

RCMP said the Grand Am was northbound on Hwy. 21 at what they believe was high speed about 5:35 p.m. Thursday.

As the car approached a northbound truck on the double highway, the driver of the pickup tried to change lanes, forcing the Grand Am to swerve and lose control. As the car hit the ditch, Dorn, a passenger, was ejected.

He was pronounced dead in hospital.

Melan, who was sitting in the backseat, died at the scene.

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Monday, September 11, 2006 1:27 AM CDT

I'M IN TOTAL SHOCK TODAY.I WENT TO CHECK ON MY LITTLE FRIEND BAILEE AND FOUND OUT THAT SHE BECAME AN ANGEL ON SEPT 6TH.BAILEE HAS BEEN FIGHTING FOR SO LONG NOW HER FIGHT IS OVER AND IS PAIN FREE.PLEASE STOP BY HER PAGE AND SEND YOUR LOVE AND PRAYER'S TO HER FAMILY I KNOW THEY COULD USE ALL THE PRAYER'S AND SUPPORT.MY HEART GOES OUT TO BAILEE'S FAMILY.I'M HEART BROKEN
.PRECIOUS ANGEL BAILEE

MY PAGE IS ACTING UP SO I TOOK OFF SOME THINGS FOR NOW SO I CAN FIX IT.



It was a tragic day.Remembering all those who lost there live's on 9/11.



My thoughts and prayer's go to all the family's who lost a loved one.



Mike was in the states for work at the time.He was in Oklahoma at the time.He was there for an extra 3 days after the twin towers went down because of security at the airports.Mike said they almost never let him leave for the alarms would keep going off when he walked through because he had medal in his foot.They made him take off his shoes and his socks.And I don't blame them.I only wish security would of been higher then for this may of not of happened then.

GOD BLESS AMERICA!



Tristan did cry on Friday so I took him to the office for I had to leave.The secretary had a talk with hime then took him to his classroom.I hope that today will be a better day and the beginning of a new week without any tears.



I may be Canadian but my heart goes out to all you Americans who have to deal with so much terror in America.Why can't we all be on happy loving world with no violence in it.

My heart goes out to all the troops fighting terror.May they all come home safely.

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Thursday, September 7, 2006 11:57 PM CDT

Well where should I begin.First off I finally got a new kitten for the kids.Her name is cuddles and she is so cute.And what a spunky little thing she is. She always sits behind the kids when there on the computer it's so cute like she doesn't want to be alone.

Tuesday was Jason and Tristan's first day of school. Tristan was nervous he told me.This was his first day being at school all day.Well at 1:30 I got a phone call from the school say that Tristan had an acident and to bring him a change of clothes.I had a feeling he never had no acident but brought him some clothes.Well I get to the school and he wasn't even wet.I went into the bathroom with him to change him anyways cause he wanted to then my poor boy looked me straight in the faace and said "Mom I have been here for more then to hours and I'm tired."Poor kid he is just not used to being there all day.And of course it doesn't help that Carson or Tyler are not in his class so he is not happy about that. Jason loved school.And of course there was no way he was letting me come into his school with him now that he is in grade 7. Well his school bag broke as soon as we walked out the door,he has no luck with his bags.I was just to heavy with all his school supplies in there.But I went and got him a new one.

Wednesday took Tristan to school and he started crying for he never wanted me to leave.Poor little Tristan the teacher had to take him so I could leave.

Then this morning (Thursday) I woke him up and told me that Dad told him he never had to go to school so I phoned Mike and asked him he never said that but Tristan said he was going to sleep in so he never had to go back to that place.Well at 7:30 he was crying for he never wanted to go.We left the house after 8 and he was still crying so Jason and I took him to his classroom doors outside to wait for the bell and he was just freaking out not wanted me to leave for he never wanted to go to school.Well I had to get going for I had to get Jason to school for 8:30 so I had to get the Teacher on supervision to take Tristan.Well she had to pry him off me for one and as I was walking away I could here him screaming Mommy.It broke my heart so of couse I was crying.So I wiped my tears and took Jason to school.When I picked the boys up after school Tristan's teacher said he was fine about 2 minutes after I left.What a kid so I asked him if he was going to cry tomorrow and he said he was goign to try not too.I hope he doesnt' I don't think I can take that again.So Dad please help with him tomorrow so he is happy and doesn't cry.I'm going to let him know that you will be there with him all day.

Felicity's first day of pre-school is on Friday which is today and she is pretty excited about that.I'm sure glad she doesn't cry when I leave her there.Well tonight she fell on the stairs so now she has a fat lip for school but I hope it will go down some while she is sleeping. I will post some picture's of Felicity when I get home from taking her to school.

Jason and Tristan are going to the Edmonton Eskimo's football game in the evening there playing Calgary with there Dad so it will just be me and little backpack here.Felicity doesn't like football anyways.Then on Saturday Tristan has a Birthday party to go to so he is happy about that because it's Tyler's Birthday.Then at the end of the month it will be Tristan's Birthday.I can't believe my baby is going to be six.I will update more about that when it gets closer.Hope you all have a great weekend.Talk to you soon.

Love Brenda

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Wednesday, September 6, 2006 2:02 AM CDT

"STEVE IRWIN"
1962 - 2006

I was devastated when I saw that Steve was killed by a Stingray.He is going to be greatly missed by all.He was wonderful with animals.Now enjoying them in Heaven.Please keep Terri and Bindi and little Robert (Bob) in your thoughts and in your prayer's.




I will update tomorrow on the kids first day of school.

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Friday, September 1, 2006 2:32 PM CDT

PLEASE KEEP VICKI'S FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYER'S.VICKI PASSED AUGUST 30TH.

And remember to stop by Angel Maddy's page.It has been a year today since precious Maddy became an Angel on August 31 I haven't got her new page up yet but I will have it up on Tuesday hopefully.Just waiting for her Mom to send me some more picture's.



I can't believe it 4 more days and the kids are back in school.I'm on the count down now lol.

I remember when Dad and I live beside each other he would always come with me and take Jason to his first day of school.I miss that.I wish he could be there for Tristan and Felicity but I know that he is in spirit and is always by our sides every step of the way.

Went and got Tristan's school clothes yesterday and ouch that hurt the pocket book.Man are they expensive.I got him about 14 outfits,but he needed them.Jason got about the same maybe more .And next year it will be for all 3 so I will have to start saving now for that lol.Now all I have to pay for is there registration for school.There goes another 350,then 70 a month for fissy's precshool.But it's all worth it.I could put them in a public school then there is no registration fees well I don't think there is anyways.

This computer has been acting up on me for some reason it's going really slow at times.I finally got all my guestbooks signed.It's been too long since I signed them but I'm back on track now and will have more time now that the kids are going back to school.Felicity goes back to pre-school on the 8th then 3 days a week the following week.I have her going in the mornings this time from 9 to 11 so that gives me 2 hours of free time if I have running around to do or to just sit and relax.

Got fissy the new Bratz's DVD Livin it up.Well that is all she has been watching since yeasterday.And she informed me of the Bratz baby DVD coming out in 2 weeks.What a kid she is.

I am going away this weekend till Monday.So there Dad gets to get them to bed and everything.I need a break.Right now there downstairs with the music just cranked.No wonder I have headaches lol.I'm taking about 12 of my tapes with me to watch there.I want to get caught up before the end of the month and all my shows begin again.I still have about 60 tapes to go I don't think I will ever catch up I'm still trying from when Dad was in the hospital.I figure when the kids are in school all day I will beable to then during the day when I tape and in the evening when there in bed I will watch and hopefully never get behind again.That is wishful thinking I think though.

I will update again on Tuesday with picture's of there first day of school.

Dad I just want you to know that not a day goes by that I don't think of you.I miss you so much.It's hard to believe that is it going to be 2 years since you have been gone.And almost 5 months since Uncle Marty went to be with you in Heaven.I know that you are having a blast up there with Uncle Marty,Uncle Mike and your Mom and Dad and Jayson.I know there is alot of card playing going on up there now.Say hi to everyone for me Dad and give them all big hugs and lots of kisses for me and let them know how much I miss them and love them.I love you Dad.

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Thursday, August 31, 2006 3:49 AM CDT

PLEASE KEEP VICKI'S FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYER'S.VICKI PASSED AWAY THIS MORNING.AUGUST 30TH.

And remember to stop by Angel Maddy's page.It has been a year today since precious Maddy became an Angel on August 31

I'm working on a new page for Maddy.I can't wait to get it up.Hopefully sometime today it will be done.Something very special.It brings tears to my eyes while doing it.


August 13th a boy named Robert went missing here in Edmonton on the South side and the search to find him began. Robert was 20 years old and was a Math genius.Well on August 22nd they found Robert in the River here.Please keep his family in your thoughts and in your prayer's.Robert was going to be attending his fouth year of College in the fall.He is going to be greatly missed by all that knew him.If you would like to send his family your prayer's please go here.Robert



Tristan and Felicity are so cute.I took this picture from my van after I told then to get under the tree so I could take a picture.

I can't believe that in one more week the kids will be back in school.Jason is now starting to get scared about going into grade 7 poor kid.He will not know anyone at this junior high only four kids from his old school are going there.But I know it won't take him long to make new friends.

Tristan is hoping that he will be in the same class as his friend Carson for grade 1.I'm going to ask the school if they can be.Just so it will be easier on Tristan since Jason is not going to be there this year.

Felicity can't wait to go back to pre-school.She went to Hanna's on Saturday for her Birthday party.She had fun.They had a princess there and a big dora castle in the backyard that you can jump in.Now I know that she is going to want that for her Birthday but it's in the winter so we will see what happens.Maybe there wont' be any snow in Feb.Ya right wishful thinking.

Jason is finally home from his Dad's.Tristan was really starting to miss him.So they never fought that much since he got back.LOL

It's been so nice here this past week.It makes me wish that the pool was still up.Starting signing my guestbooks again finally.They should all be signed now by wednesday I'm hoping.If the kids give me a chance to get on here during the day they will be.It's eaiser on the weekends to have a little time on here for they are with there Dad more.And now that Jason is home they play outside alittle more not too much but some.My friend Kim still never got all the results back yet about the baby but I know that everything is going to be fine.I just can't wait she will know sometime this week.Then in a few more weeks I will know how Heinz's test came out for he gets those results on the 13th.I hate waiting for things like that.Oh well what can you do.That's is about all for now.I will update again when this week is over.Thanks for stopping by I always love hearing from you all.Take Care.

Love Brenda

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Sunday, August 20, 2006 3:53 AM CDT

Heinz went for his MRI and will not here anything till Sept 13th.Thanks for all your prayer's it means alot.

What a busy week.Starting to get the kids school supplies and school clothes shopping done here.I can't believe that the summer is almost over there is only 2 weeks left till school starts again.Tristan is getting some excited and so is Jason.I think that 2 months off is just way too long.The kids are getting bored and they want to get back to school to see there friends.

We spent most of the week at the park so Tristan could play with Carson and Felicity could play with Hanna.They really enjoyed that.Jason is at his Dad's till the end of the month.Tristan wants Jason to come home now for he misses him but he will be back for 5 minutes and they will be fighting.LOL Kids what can you do.

I'm missing Dad so much right now.I just wish I could give him a kiss and let him know how much I love him.Dad has been on my mind so much lately.He loved summer and with being in BC really made me think of him even more.Dad loved it there.I don't think this pain in my heart longing for Dad is ever going to go away.I Love you so much Dad.Please visit my dreams again soon.It would be so nice to see you and to hear your voice see your smile and feel your arms around me giving me a hug.I miss you like crazy Dad so please don't take to long coming to my dreams for I will be waiting .

I will update this week again for it's already 3am here so I'm going to get to bed.I have picture's to share with you of Dad for I scanned a bunch more.Talk to you all soon.



Love Brenda

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Sunday, August 13, 2006 7:31 PM CDT

Here is my holiday update finally.Sorry it's taken me so long.

First I have to let you all know that Heinz in going for his MRI on Tuesday,which never took long at all thankfully.Then hopefully it won't be long to get those results to see what can be done.

These are some of the picture's I took on the way to our desination.Plus there are more in the photo album of the trip.



Holidays were awesome.We went to Christiana lake for 4 days and what a blast.We met our friends there Tammy and Jerry and there two girls.The kids loved it.We went and saw the waterfalls.That was scary for I was so scared for the kids.Tristan always wanted to go near the edge.It was so beautiful there.The lake was so warm and were we were camping there was a pool so the kids were in there always when we weren't at the beach.It was also very hot there in the high 90's.We met a wonderful family there with there 3 kids so all the kids had such a great time.Lance and Shauneen who are from Surrey BC.We spent the day at the beach the second day we were there.Then we all pitched in and rented a boat.Well that was the highlight of our trip.The boat was awesome.We got a tube for the back of it so all the kids went for a ride,and the adults too.It was so funny for when Mike and I went on I was trying to push him off the tube.Well I got him off and along with him going off was his shorts.Man we all were cracking up.Thankfully he had underwear on and that Lance had an extra pair of shorts that he could wear.It was a blast.It is so beautiful.Lance and Shauneen left on Monday which was a bummer for the kids were all bored then.We stayed at the campground till Wednesday then Tammy and Jerry and the kids and us all decided to go somewhere else.

We went to Kelowna BC for a few days were we rented a house .It had an indoor pool and outdoor pool.It was so nice there.Very hot in the 100's there.The kids had a good time.We took them to the waterpark for a day.They all had fun.Tristan and Felicity loved it.Kelowna is so beautiful.The place we stayed at had such good thing for kids.The yard had a playground,pool,badminton and a golf putt and basketball.There was always something for the kids to do.We spent a day at the beach.That was a nice beach.It even had a huge waterpark there.The little kids loved it. We left Kelowna on Saturday to head for Vancouver Island to see Suzette and Tammy and Jerry left on Sunday.

Vancouver Island all I can say is BEAUTiFUL.We had to take a ferry to get there.Mike was so paranoid that the kids were going to go over the side to the ferry.The ferry was great and beautiful.Tristan got scared when it blew the horn poor kids just started crying.It scared me too for I jumped.Being in the middle of the ocean with nothing to see but water and Mountains.I took so many picture's.There was even a little Island in the middle of the ocean that had a house and everything.It was amazing.The only way to get to there house was by boat. It was so nice to see Suzette,Dan and Jeremy.We got there around 7 since we missed the last ferry by one vehicle so we had to wait there for 2 hours for the next one.It wasn't too bad for atleast they had a playground for the kids to waste some time.



When we got there Suzette and all of us went to the fireworks.They were great nothing like they have here that is for sure.The next day we went to the beach for the whole day.The kids loved the ocean.They found lots of crabs and starfish.Felicity went on a shell hunt and we brought a big container full back home.We all got sunburned that day.When we got back from the beach that is when my camera died on me.Monday we just drove down to Victoria to see the sights and then back to Suzette's for we were leaving in the morning.I never wanted to leave there.It is so nice and peacefull there.The ferry ride on the way back was nice,the kids stayed in the Van for the most of it.They never like the wind.



When we got off the ferry we went to see Lance and Shauneen and the kids in Surrey BC.They sure have a beautiful house.We enden up staying the night there for we were out voted 6 to two.The kids all 6 of them were on there knee's begging for us to stay.So we stayed there for the night and went to Deny's for supper.The kids all enjoyed that.The next morning no one wanted to leave for the kids were having fun playing in the pool and on the trampoline.We left about 9:30 then headed to Kamloops to visit my Mom and Heinz.

When we got to my Mom's we stayed for about 2 hours.This was the first time I have been to my Mom's house in Kamloops and she has such a nice house with lots of flower's.She has her own bed and breakfast .They took us out for lunch to Pizza Hut then we headed on our way home.They kids were not happy for we drove the straight 12 hours home.We got home and it seemed like we never left.I can't wait till we do it again next year.Only this time we will be staying on the Island for a week instead of 2 days.



Love Brenda

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Monday, August 7, 2006 10:04 PM CDT

SOrry it's taking me so long to update.Been so busy around here.Things will be back to normal in September when the kids are back in school.Then I can get back to signing the guestbooks again.I feel so bad.I do stop in and read them just no time to sign them all right now.


Heinz seen the specialist and the has to go for a MRI sometimes next month hopefully.The Doctor said it doesn't seem that bad so that is a good sign.Will no much more when all the testing is done.

I'm still going to tell you all about my vacation when I have more time.Hopefully this week the kids will let me have an hour on my computer to get it done.That is were I messed up.I have games on here they like to play so with three of them there on it all the time and still fight on who's been on the longest.

Keep my good friend Kim in your prayer's.She is 3 months pregnant after trying for 6 years and the baby tested postive for down snydrome.She is going for an amneo this thursday and will find out in two weeks if it's postive or negative for sure.I don't know what she will do if it's positive.She has been going such a hard time right now.I know that everything is going to be fine with the baby but all the prayer's help.Kim is Jason's Godparents along with her husband Patrick.There such great friends.

That is all for now .Talk to you all really soon.And I will try and get the picture's on here this week of the vacation.

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Wednesday, August 2, 2006 0:45 AM CDT

I guess the best place to start is with Heinz.He is going to see the specialist today.I pray everything goes well there.His appointment is at 2pm so I will let you all know how it went tomorrow.

The upsetting news I have is that while on holidays My Uncle Marty's ashes were put on the farm and on Grandma and Grandpa's grave.Darren my Uncle Marty's son was not even there my cousin Mark came down to do it and no one either bothered to let me know.I'm so hurt.I found out yesterday about this and Suzette never even knew.This really bother's me for I was so close to my Uncle.And my Auntie Marilyn never knew either.She spent the last 17 years caring for my Uncle and Darren never even let her know.I'm so choked.I talked to my Aunte yesterday for about an hour.She is so hurt as am I.I dont' know how my other family member's can treat her like this.She felt so bad for me and Suzette for she knew how close we were to Uncle Marty.

You are never going to believe what happened while on holidays.My camera died on me.I was so upset.I went and got a new one the next day.I can't be without my camera.

I'm still working on my holiday update with picture's.Sorry it's taking me so long.It's half done so hopefully it will be up soon.It always takes me longer when I'm adding picture's with it.Plus the kids have been on here lots the last few days.They found a new games they love playing.And for some reason by midnight I'm ready to get to bed.I will not keep you waiting for much longer.

I think when I change my Dad's page it's going to be of picture's of when we were on the Island for he loved it there.I know he was there with me.On his Birthday I sent him up balloons from there.I had a nice picture of Suzette and Dan and the kids holding the balloons but lost all the picture's I took.I was so mad.I'm waiting for Jeremy to send the ones he took of them going in the sky.Hopefully that will be soon.

Please remember to stop by Chris (clownfish) page for on the 6th is will be a year since she became an Angel.I miss her so much.For me Caringbridge has not been the same without her posts.And her sincere thoughts she had for everyone.She was such an inspiration to everyone who knew her. I miss you so much Chris.You will never be forgotten.

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Tuesday, August 1, 2006 2:54 AM CDT

Sorry for taking a few days to update.I will update my page tomorrow I promise.Things have been hectic around here since we got back.I have so much to share with you.

Lots of picture's too.I took 3000 while on holidays and they all turned out so beautiful.I'm going to show you the best ones.I love them all.

I have some upsetting news to share with you all.I will update tomorrow about everything.

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Saturday, July 29, 2006 1:52 AM CDT

I missed you all so much.Just got home,really tierd but have lots to tell you all.I will try and update soon.

Dad I know you had a wonderful Birthday in Heaven.Did you get the balloons I sent to you from Vancouver Island?

What a beautiful place the Island is Dad no wonder you always loved it there.

I thought of you the whole time I was there wishing you were with me.

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Friday, July 14, 2006 2:31 AM CDT

I still haven't heard when Heinz can get in to see a specialist hopefully it will be soon.I still can't believe he has a brain tumor.Thanks for keeping him in your prayer's it means alot.

Jason's birthday party was awesome.We went to West Edmonton Mall Waterpark for the day then everyone came over to our house for cake.It was great Jason's Dad Steffan and Tanya threw Jason in our pool then he threw Tanya in .So Tanya and I were chasing Steffan all over the yard to throw him in then finally he was standing by the pool and I gave him a good shove and in he went,clothes,wallet keys and all. It was so funny.I'm surpised I never got thrown in lol.Jason had the Oiler's goalie for a cake.Rollie the goalie we call him.I still can't believe my baby is now 12.He is growing up too fast.

We are leaving for holidays today.We are going to Kelowna BC camping for a week.It's going to be fun.The lake we are going to is supposed to be really nice and there is also a pool there also.Then the following week I convinced Mike to take me to Vancouver Island so I can see Suzette,who just moved there and I want to go stop at My Uncle Marty's place and see Auntie Marilyn.I wish Uncle Marty was going to be there but I know that he is going to be there in spirit.I'm not sure if I will be back here on the 25th for Dad's Birthday but I can't think of a better place to let balloons go other than the mountains or my Uncle Marty's.Dad always loved going out there to his house in the mountains.We have to take a ferry to get there.I'm all excited to go to the Island then camping.I can't wait to see Suzette I miss her.I got a new memory card for my camera now I can take 6000 picture's on the big size or 9000 on the small size .I'm going to take on the big for the picture's look better when I use them for my desktop background.I know I'm going to take thousands.Everyone that knows me calls me a picture holic.I love taking picture's though.I think I will take about 3000.How many do you think I will take? Let me know in the guestbook and I will let you all know how many I took when I get back.We are also going to stop in Kamloops BC and see my Mom and Heinz.It's going to go by so fast the two weeks but all worth it.Well I have to go now and start packing our stuff.I'm so behind I should of started 3 days ago but I bad for doing it all for the last day.

I'm going to miss all of you.But you will all be in my thoughts and prayer's while I'm gone.When I get to Suzette's I will update from her computer if I have time.

Hope you all have a wonderful day and I will talk to you all in two weeks time.

Dad please remember that I will be thinking of you on your Birthday.Watch for those balloons on the 25th for more than likely they will becoming from somewhere in BC.Hope your Heavenly Birthday is the best ever.I miss you Dad and Love you more then words can say.I Love You Dad.

Take Care

Love Always Brenda

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Thursday, July 13, 2006 0:07 AM CDT

I will be updating my page tomorrow before I leave.


I got some sad news today.I'm a wreck again.I dont' think I can take much more.I can't bear to lose another part of my family.

Today my Mom called me and told me that Heinz my step Dad has a tumor on the brain.I have been crying all day long.I'm so scared for Heinz I love him so much.This is why he is forgetting things.I don't know exactly how bad it is for he just found out yesterday so he will be going for more test.Please keep Heinz in your thoughts and in your prayer's.I will keep you updated as soon as I learn more.



Taken June 16th,2006

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Wednesday, July 5, 2006 11:51 PM CDT

Saturday,July 8,2006

I got some sad news today.I'm a wreck again.I dont' think I can take much more.I can't bear to lose another part of my family.

Today my Mom called me and told me that Heinz my step Dad has a tumor on the brain.I have been crying all day long.I'm so scared for Heinz I love him so much.This is why he is forgetting things.I don't know exactly how bad it is for he just found out yesterday so he will be going for more test.Please keep Heinz in your thoughts and in your prayer's.I will keep you updated as soon as I learn more.



Taken June 16th,2006



Wow the last two weeks I have been trying to update Dad's page but it's been so hot here lately.My house is like an oven that is on high heat.All week it's been about 98 or higher here it's just crazy hot.I'm still waiting for rain but doesn't look like it's ever going to get here.

Jason had an awesome time on his field trip last week.The did an obstacle coarse and the zip line.I even did it.They had to walk across a swing bridge which was so high off the ground.I was a little freaked out at first.Then they did some Archery and then some canoeing.All in all it was a fun but hot day.I put the picture's in flip animation for you all to see.There are about 5 picture's there.



It was so hot I got burnt to a crisp but had lots of fun.

It's hard to believe that Jason



is going to grade 7 already and Tristan in grade one.Jason loved his grade 6 teacher and he got great marks.



Tristan had a good last day of Kindergarten.They all sang songs and got there presents from the teacher's.They had graduation hats for all the students.They looked so cute.



My proud boy!



Tristan and Miss Mcauley



Some of his classmates.

Tristan is not very happy about school being over for 2 months he wants to go back now.He was even upset about Jason not being there next year at the same school.Poor little guy.

I hope that Tristan and his bestfriend Carson are in the same grade one class.I think Tristan would be lost without him.



Buddy's for life.



Felicity thought it was fun when she got to go outside with them at recess and play with Jason.All of Jason's school friends fell in love with Felicity.



Felicity had her pre-school graduation also.



I have also pulled her Kindergarten file from school and decided to put her in next year.I dont' want my baby only being 16 in grade 12 that is too young if you ask me.



Well they said it was going to rain tonight and I'm still waiting for it.Today it got to 104 and it's still hot outside tonight and it's almost 11 pm.I sure hope it does to cool down my house.We are going on vacation here next week for almost three weeks but I will tell you about that before I go in my next update.

Dad's Heavenly Birthday is on the 25th.Wow he has had two in Heaven now and it seems like a lifetime ago.I miss him so much some days more than other's.I think the summer and Christmas are the hardest because he loved them so much.Going to be doing a special page for Dad's Birthday.I already know what I'm going to do and I can't wait for you all to see it.It brings tears to my eyes getting it ready.

I love you Dad and miss you like crazy.

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Wednesday, July 5, 2006 1:26 AM CDT

IT'S TOO HOT HERE.IT'S LIKE 1PM HERE AND IT'S 104 OUTSIDE AND ABOUT 115 IN MY HOUSE.



I am working on my new update and I promise it will be up tomorrow.Have so much to tell you.Sorry it's been so long it's been so hot here in the high 90's almost 100 if not more.Thank goodness for my pool.

Sorry I havent' been around to your pages lately havent' been on the computer much at all.It's hard now that the kids are home from school for we are always outside or doing someting.Just know that I'm always thinking and praying for you all.And I will get back to signing your guestbooks soon.But just know it might not be till when they go back to school or if it finally rains here.LOL

Hope you all had a

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Saturday, July 1, 2006 2:56 PM CDT

It's cooking again outside.Hope all my Canadian friends have a good Canada Day.

Happy Birthday Jason.Hope your having fun with your Dad this weekend.

I will try and update tonight if I can.Have company right now.

Tristan had a cute Kindergarten Grad.I will put some picture's up of that and of Jason's feild trip.

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006 11:20 PM CDT

Wow it's so crazy hot here.And the worse thing is that it's twice as hot in my house.I really need an air conditioner in this house.

Jason's feild trip was really good.I will update about that on the weekend sometime for it's too hot to sit at the computer and it's not supposed to be that hot.

Thursday which is tomorrow is Jason's and Tristan's last day of school until Sept 5th.I can't believe how fast the year went.Tristan was crying for he wants to stay in Kindergarten poor little thing.

I pulled Felicity's file from the school and she won't be starting till next year.4 is too young and I don't want her to be 16 in grade 12.She is not really ready anyways I don't think and either does her pre-school teacher so she is going back to pre-school in the fall.

I have to run before I get a heat stroke in this house.I'm going outside to cool off.

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Friday, June 23, 2006 11:03 AM CDT

I can't believe in another week it will be July.So many fond memories I have of Dad in July.Memories that I will cherish forever.

July 1st is Jason's 12th birthday and I remember the day he was born and how Dad was right there.How happy he was that I named him Jason and when he cut the cord.Then everyday he was at my house or I was at his for we only lived downstairs at the time from each other.I wish I could go back in time just so you could be with me again Dad.

July 25th will be Dad's Heavenly Birthday.He would of been 65 years old.

I will update more later.Have to get ready to go to the school to watch Jason's talent show.He is going to be singing.It should be pretty good.

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Sunday, June 18, 2006 4:24 PM CDT

Thank You Dad, Today

Thoughts of you come drifting back
Within this heart of mine
I take a trip to yesterday
Another day in time.

A time when I was growing up
And you were always there
Put to the test, you did your best
You handled things with care.

For holding out, not giving in
When others got their way
For saying no, my strength did grow
I thank you dad, today.

To you, I owe so many thanks
For teaching right from wrong
For many lectures you bestowed
I sing a different song.

I thank you for the sacrifice
Of working everyday
For all you’ve given in this life
I’m thanking you today.

I thank you for your faith so strong
For many days in church
For leading me to Jesus Christ
I did not have to search.

For all I am, I owe to you
You surely led the way
So many lessons learned in life
I thank you dad, today.

WAY TO GO CAROLINA.GOOD JOB ON WINNING THE CUP!IT WAS A GOOD GAME RIGHT TO THE END.OILER'S I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR WE WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO MAKE IT THIS FAR.OILER'S ROCK.


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.WATCH FOR YOUR BALLOONS TODAY DAD WITH LOBSTER TAILS.



I hope all you Father's out there Have a Wonderful Father's Day.

What a week!

Last weekend I stopped by my brother Jason's grave.I was scared to go for I wanted to see if any of my Dad's ashes were still there.Everyone told me no so I was nervous going there.And to my surprise they were all still there.Well I just started crying,I must of sat there and cried for about 30 minutes.The wreath I placed there last year was behind the stone.So I put it back over Dad.All Dad's life since Jason passed away in Dec 17,1967 he said he wanted to be with Jason.Even in the hospital he would say that with tears in his eyes.Well Dad I know that is were you wanted to be and your ashes are always going to be with Jason.I remember when I spread them there that it was windy and I thought there were going to be gone.Well we had rain and snow and the lawn has been cut at the gravesite and Dad is still there.His ashes are like cement there all hard.I was so happy.So after I collected myself I fixed it up and headed out to see Suzette.I cried most of the way there.I made a stop at my Grandma's to drop off picture's of the kids and took her to Grandpa's grave.I havent' been to my Grandpa's grave since he passed away in "92".It was nice going there.Then I took Grandma back home and told her I would be back on Sunday to spend sometime with her.Got to Suzette's and we looked at all the photo album of Dad I brought with me then went to bed.Saturday we were busy packing her house and cleaning the school kitchen were she worked.I love Suzette and man am I going to miss her.Saturday night we had a nice supper with her Mom my Auntie Donna and watched the hockey game.Then we just relaxed.On Sunday we did some more packing and cleaning.Then we stopped by the nursing home to see my Grandma's Wedding dress for they were asking everyone if they could guess the price of it back when Grandma bought it in 1939 when she got married.Can any of you guess how much her dress cost back then.I will post the amount in my next update. Then it was time for me to go.Gave hugs to everyone and tried not to cry.Then off to Grandma's I went.She made me supper and we talked for about 2 hours.It was nice. Grandma made me 10 dozen perogg'ys to take home (yummy).I love you Grandma.Then we sat outside and we talked about her Garden.Grandma is so proud of her Garden. Here is my Grandma at 85 and planting her Garden and all her flower's.So around 8 I told her I had to get going for it was a two hour drive home and I wanted to stop by Jason's grave again before I went home.

Monday morning I took Felicity to Carson's place for the day and I went on Tristan's feild trip to the Rainbow's End Farm.



The kids had so much fun.They had a scavenger hunt and then playes while the teacher's and some parents cooked the hotdogs and marshmellow's for lunch.Then up the hillwe go to see the farm animals.The kids got to see the goats which they fed the goatsand even tried to walk those goats..They got to take the pigs out of there pens and then try to get them back in.that was so much fun for them.We could of did it with the goats but the kids wanted to move on to the next station. They held the baby chicks tried to pet the african goosethen it was on to the sheep to be fed and more goats..I think the best part for the kids was the lamma.At this station they were able to feed the lammaand then take it for a short little walk. then the lamma kiss .Tristan's teacher took picture's of all the kids getting a kiss from the lamma and then I told her I wanted a picture of her with the lamma.She was kissed once but she did it again for me. It was pretty funny.The day was coming to an end to the kids all waited by the fence for the bus. to get back to the school to go home.I know Dad would of loved to go on this feild trip with Tristan.He loved animals.But we know he was there with us throughout the day enjoying the fun the kids were having with all the animals.

Thursday was Felicity's feild trip day with the preschool.The kids all rode the bus Felicity thought this was pretty exciting for this was her first time on a school bus.We went to the Museum were the children got to see some animals and all the pretty butterflies. . Then we went and looked at the Native culture. They learned about this in pre-school and about the dinasoars.Felicity and her bestfriend Hanna like all the other kids had fun.They had to look in a hole so they could see the stuffed bear in there..They had so many animals and the birds of Alberta and the eggs too.That was pretty cool.They enjoyed putting on the headphones to hear a book and play with the doll board for awhile. We all met at 11:00 for snack Felicity and Hanna are so cute for they eat so slow and we the last to get out of the lunch room so we could get on the bus and head back home. They all had a good time. Then this weekend my Mom and Heinz came from Kamloops BC for a visit.This will be there last time here for Heinz is getting Alzheimer's which is pretty sad.He forgets things he did early and he is even forgetting when he ate last.It's sad he is such a great Step Dad and so funny.I love him to peices.I will update more on there visit in my next update.Jason went to his Dad's for the weekend.I'm so glad that he is going there again.I know they missed him and he missed them.It's been 6 months since he has seen them.Jason is all excited for game 7 of the hockey game on Monday wish us luck for we want the cup.

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Sunday, June 18, 2006 1:14 AM CDT

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.WATCH FOR YOUR BALLOONS TODAY DAD WITH LOBSTER TAILS.



SORRY IT'S TAKING ME FOREVER TO UPDATE DAD'S PAGE.I'M WORKING ON IT JUST BEEN SO BUSY HERE.AND I HAVE LOTS TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL.IT SHOULD BE ALL HERE FOR TONIGHT OR FIRST THING MONDAY MORNING.

MY MOM AND HEINZ ARE IN TOWN FROM BC FOR THE WEEKEND AND I HAVE FELICITY'S SWIMMING PARTY WITH HER PRESCHOOL IN THE AFTERNOON AT 4:30 TILL 7:30.THEN HAVE TO GET JASON FROM HIS DAD'S(YES HE IS SEEING HIM FINALLY AGAIN AFTER 6 MONTHS).THEN HAVE TO GO SEE MY MOM AND HEINZ BEFORE THEY LEAVE MONDAY MORNING SO THEY CAN SEE JASON BEFORE THEY GO SO IT'S GOING TO BE A LONG DAY TODAY.

WHAT A GAME OILER'S KICKED BUTT WITH A 4 TO 0 WIN FOR GAME SIX.GAME SEVEN IS FOR THE STANLEY CUP.IT'S GOING TO BE A GOOD GAME.I HOPE THEY PLAY LIKE THEY DID TODAY ON MONDAY.IT'S BEEN 16 YEARS SINCE WE LAST WON THE CUP!

GO OILER'S GO!!!!

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