You’re cruising the streets of heaven and I’m in the carline crying. I made it til 2:50 today before the big tears came. Oh God, my heart hurts. Am i okay, yes because my savior has my brother and I have his promise that I will see him again. But the pain is so real. Nothing can prepare someone for loss. Even when you see the worst, you still miss the best. I miss his smile, his visits, my kids miss it too. Nothing on earth is the same. I thought about life without you before and the sting that it would bring. Even though you were sick this past year, I miss the time we had. I wish I could hold your hand. I wish you would smirk at me for cleaning you up. I’m so happy for you, you are with Jesus. Tell me what does it look like in heaven. I love you -sissy