As I move into month four with Tom not here, I have to say it is not what I expected or dreamed life would be like at all. You know how you have expectations based on other people's experiences, but I'm reminded no two journeys are the same. We are all unique. I try and listen, if anyone needs an ear, without expectation, judgment or advice. Many times I remind myself, participate, don't anticipate.

Yesterday I came across Mark from Casting Crowns talking about the story behind his songs. Especially meaningful since that is one of the last concerts Tom and I went to. It was powerful watching Tom claim healing in Jesus. And, as I remember his last words ... I'll be with you, thank you Jesus. It prompted me to write you all here and share a bit more. 

I spend a lot of time remembering Tom, sharing how he made me laugh on Facebook, praying for our kids and grandkids, and wondering what God has for me in the future. I don't spend a lot of time, just a little, thinking about what Tom is missing out on. And then I remember exactly what Mark talks about in this video: https://youtu.be/_6mZxkFSW2A, at the 2:22 point if you want to skip through, and focus on where Tom is now and what a wonderful homecoming it was for him. 

I want to thank each and every one of you for reaching out, praying, or just being there for me, the family and friends. I'd love a call (260-499-0406), visit or remembrance.  As Tom said, spend each day with no regrets. Live, Love, Laugh!