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Journal entry by tim winters

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the 
LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

As I look backward, I stand amazed at our Savior and His loving kindness to us. I write this on October 31, 2019, two months after my brain tumor was discovered. I kept a simple recording of events, not quite a diary as the days went on. 

It started as far as I knew then on the floor of Panera Springhurst on Friday, August 30, 2019. After a normal Bible study, I was awakened to a new reality that morning. It was new for me, but the Lord had planned this day from before time began. Midday that day, the doctors at Baptist Hospital determined that I had a good sized brain tumor. They told Melissa and I that we would not leave the hospital until I had brain surgery. That was quite a wake up call for us. 

There are too many stories to tell here of God's guiding hand thru it all. We have witnessed the most amazing love from our Savior and so many others. As I sit here reflecting on the last two months, I realize that there is not enough time or space to record all we would like to thank. We are extremely greatful for all we have been taught in these months. 

We are also aware that so many have been greatly influenced by God's sovereign power in ways that we have little knowledge of. Our Almighty God has revealed Himself in great power, but also in such compassion and tenderness. We have come to know His great strength through our utter weakness. 

As of Monday, October 28, 2019, I have completed 5 radiation treatments and no more are planned. At this time, I am not expected to be tested for any regrowth of cancer cells for 6 months. I am able to work now as much as I choose. We are returning back into some of the same patterns that we had before cancer. Today though, we we are wiser and can attest to how the Lord has led us with great power. We are so pleased that our Lord has started us on this journey and assume He has much more for us to learn of His ways. Thank you for walking this path with us. We want to continue to be used up in service to Him and bring great glory to Him!

"Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
    his understanding is unsearchable.
29 He gives power to the faint,
    and to him who has no might he increases strength"
Isaiah 40:28,29
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Journal entry by Melissa Winters

“I am not skilled to understand what God hath willed, what God hath planned. I only know at His right hand sits One Who is my Savior.”

Yesterday, we met Dr. V., Tim’s neurosurgeon. The pathology reports confirmed his belief that the tumor he removed from Tim’s brain was a hemangio pericytoma. This is the much less aggressive and much less invasive tumor than it was first thought. The tumor is still cancerous, a level 2. It can come back where it was or in another part of the body, but may not. 

Today, we met with the Radiologist who has ordered an MRI for her use and CT scans to see if the cancer had already spread to other parts of the body which she said is unlikely. 
Her plan is that only 3-5 radiation treatments will be required for now, much fewer than first mentioned, and no Chemo will be done. 
Then, there will be, most likely, 3-4 times a year tests to check for any changes.  

We are so grateful for all of the health care workers. All have been so kind, helpful and patient with us because we knew nothing of these things until a few weeks ago. 

We are so blessed by the love, prayers and concerns of so many and mostly we are so blessed to have our Heavenly Father, Who is with us every step of the way, no matter what happens. 

“Our Hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness.”

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.”
Romans 8:18

Journal entry by tim winters

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These are very precious days! We are ending a two week space since the tumor was removed and before cancer treatment begins. Our Lord is so very faithful and true. We have enjoyed His daily presence and leading with great joy. He has opened new doors in His kindness to many that need comfort and solace. We are greatly encouraged as we are allowed so serve our King in new ways He designed just for us!

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do your friends despise, forsake you? Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He'll take and shield you; you will find a solace there.

Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised Thou wilt all our burdens bear
May we ever, Lord, be bringing all to Thee in earnest prayer.
Soon in glory bright unclouded there will be no need for prayer
Rapture, praise and endless worship will be our sweet portion there.

Journal entry by Melissa Winters

“Great and marvelous are your deeds,
Lord God Almighty!
Just and true are your ways,
King of the nations!
Who will not fear, O Lord,
And glorify Your name?
For you alone are holy,
All nations will come
And worship before You,
For Your righteous acts have been revealed.”
Revelation 15:3-4

Yesterday evening, as we were just heading out the door to our Gospel Community Group, we got a call from Tim’s neurosurgeon, Dr. Villanueva. Each time we’ve met with Dr. V. he has had a reserved demeanor and controlled voice. This time, in talking with him, we immediately sensed a controlled excitement in his voice. He repeated the phrase twice during our conversation that it was “unusual to make this kind of call”. 

Before, the doctor had given us a pretty bleak outlook on the cancerous tumor. He believed it to be a very aggressive and invasive tumor type. But, when he called yesterday he said he had a “surprise”. 

After the surgery - post surgery MRI and initial
pathology reports he believes the tumor is “far less aggressive, a much more treatable type”. There will be more lab tests to confirm the tumor type but the doctor is pretty secure in his diagnosis. 

The doctor said there is a good chance he got 100% of the tumor out!  It can still grow back but he feels chemo will not be needed and that only radiation will be needed. He felt Tim should be able to return to work.

We stand amazed at all the Lord has done in these past nearly two weeks!  We won’t understand God’s whole purpose in all this but we see glimpses already. His ways are certainly beyond our tracing out but one thing we have learned - He has a good plan for us and we can trust Him with everything,   no matter what!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! for your prayers!  And please continue to pray that we will honor the Lord with all the life He gives us. “ They who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true.” - Havergal

“O Love, that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in Thee;
I give Thee back the life I owe,
That in Thine ocean depths it’s flow may 
richer, fuller be.” -G. Mathewson




Journal entry by Melissa Winters

“Oh, how great Thy loving kindness, vaster, broader than the sea: oh how marvelous Thy goodness, Lavished all on me!  Yes, I rest  in Thee, Beloved, know Thy certainty of promise, and have made it mine.” 
JS Pigott

Resting in the joy of what Thou art. 
So blessed to be home and enjoying God’s presence as never before. We have a post op appointment Sept 23 and will talk about the treatment plan then. But for right now Tim can do whatever he feels up to. We are going to the office today just to touch base and answer questions the guys have. Enjoying the simple things so much and enjoying the Depth of His love for us. 

Praying, “He May grant (us) to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in (our) inner being , so that Christ may dwell in (our) hearts through faith - that (we), being rooted and grounded in love, may have the strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that (we) may be filled with all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:24-29




Journal entry by Melissa Winters

“God holds the key to all unknown, and I am glad; if other hands should hold the key, or if He trusted it to me, I might be sad.”
“ I cannot read His future plans; but this I know: I have the smiling of His face, and all the refuge of His grace while here below.”
J.Parker

We had a good nights sleep. Tim is taking lots of walks around the unit. Eating well. Jesus did His greatest work when His body was the weakest. We look forward to what God will do through Tim. 
 Thankful for all the prayer and acts of kindness and service!!!

“For He was crucified in weakness, but lives by the power of God. For we also are weak in Him, but in dealing with you we will live with Him by the power of God.” 2 Corinthians 13:4

Journal entry by Melissa Winters

“Fear not, I am with thee, O be not dismayed, 
For I am thy God, and will still give thee aid; I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand, Upheld by My righteous, omnipotent hand.” 

We are in a regular room now much more conducive to rest. Grateful. Tim is very tired. 

Leaning on the everlasting arms!

Journal entry by Melissa Winters

A friend (Matt) reminded me that we did not share on here that Tim’s vision seems to be unaffected by the surgery, Praise the Lord!  And, as far as I can tell, with him not being able to get out of bed, his right arm, leg and hands seem to be working fine!  God hears us and He cares!

Journal entry by Melissa Winters

"Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?  I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert."  Isaiah 43:19

Friday morning Tim had just finished bible study with his friends at Panera and was sitting talking to one.  He had, what we now know was, a seizure and was lying on the floor.  EMS took him to the hospital not seeming to concerning, saying it looked like a panic attack.  Some tests were run for good measure and it was quickly determined he has a good sized brain tumor on the left side of his brain.

The Neurosurgeon, Dr. Villanueva, will do surgery Thursday morning to remove all the tumor he safely can.  The tumor is most likely cancerous and will require followup radiation and chemo.  We don't yet know the time of the surgery.

Of course, we are shaken but we stand on Jesus Christ the Solid Rock, which can not be shaken.  We are at home now until we must check back into the hospital Wednesday to prepare for Thursday's surgery.  We were so grateful to be able to attend church yesterday.  The songs, the message, the prayers were all so encouraging and strengthening. 

We feel so surrounded by the loving arms of the Lord and by his saints and by our family.  We feel a closeness with each other that we have never felt before.
We are so very, very, thankful for all the ways the Lord has been preparing us for this trial and know He has a good plan and a purpose.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities.  For when I am weak, then I am strong." (Paul 2 Corintians 12:9-10)
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