"Ponder" is probably the best word for thinking back on the whole experience, but the memories of good fortune despite the one thing that went very wrong, and the love and support around you radite a glow that we attach to the word "reminisce." As the Advent readings remind us of Mary, you ponder the extraordinary things in your heart and stay open to the path ahead.
As for the gear, you'll know what's right when it's right.
Your willingness to be vulnerable with your posts is a strength that touches everyone who reads them.