Today is Sunday, it was always a hard day for Terry. He was always in a sad mood, so now Sundaysare like every other day for me sad!
I haven’t written since Terry passed thinking that was the end but really it was just the beginning of my next journey alone! I am so blessed with a loving family around me and wonderful friends, but yet never have I felt so alone. I know it’s self pity but my new normal is crying everyday and feeling this deep pain I can’t put into words.
I am proud of the beautiful send off we were able to put together so fast as to have our two sailor grandsons home to be a part of his celebration of life. I hope you have watched it on YouTube under : First Lutheran Church of Aitkin it is still up and we would love for you to see it if you haven’t.
Everyone of you that have reached out should know that Terry felt your love and asked me “ How do I deserve so many people who care, I am so blessed” I replied honey we were all blessed to have had you touch our lives. 
Because off his aggressive cancer he didn’t have time to prepare me to take over all of his jobs and there were many!! I never gave him credit for all he did around our home,I am trying but this will take time.
 Thank you for putting up with this crazy post from a broken heart!
 Barb