My hope is such that using this journal will help close some gaps and open other doors. I am not feeling as well as I think I should. General muscle weakness, fatigue and nausea. I do count my blessings. With extensive small cell lung cancer,  I have beat alot of the odds already. Been 7 months since diagnosis. But I can honestly say that I do think about what the end will be like. I am scared sometimes. Dont feel like I have anyone to talk with. Family shuts down and I will shut up.