Even as I am experiencing anger and sadness knowing the journey you are on right now, you are inspiring my faith in a god I'm not sure I name anymore and reminding me to stay hopeful. You are more than an inspiration.

thank you for this, Tallu. This is the best description of prayer I have ever read. So real. Thank you for continuing to teach us, move us, fill us...as we try desperately to pray as you do. Love to you, my friend.

Thank you for beautiful writing Tallu and for sharing your story.
There is a wonderful podcast/interview with Mary Oliver you may enjoy...
https://onbeing.org/programs/mary-oliver-listening-to-the-world/

Just today, had a chance to read your wonderful post from Tuesday. So meaningful, honest and strong. Write on, our little Earth Angel! Sending hugs, love and healing prayers!

You embarrass me as a writer with feeling! Wishing you the best and would love to come by and cook with you...You tell me what to do and I'll do it!

Oh, my sweet woman. I am sitting here sobbing. You are such a comfort to me. I can't explain it. I hear your sweet voice in my head with every word I read of yours. Living life at half-mast can be so lonesome, and FOMO can be way too real. To say you resonate in my heart would be an understatement. I give thanks for you and love you.

In my humble understanding, the sacred presence you experience, Tallu, inside with God, with others, is a not a solitary place but a place of union. As you say, the presence is felt most easily in the ‘emptier, slowed down, painful times’, when the wise and courageous ‘swim inward’. You’re right; you’ve never been all alone. You know this place. It is transcendent. You can relax here and find refuge communion, and union. I remember when in one of your journals you said that you wanted to have a space where your children could meet with you. I think this is it. Wise advice from Mary Oliver. ‘Swim inward.’ Sending so much love.

Tallu, You are so deeply loved by so many. Your words and whole being are a blessing to us. Thank you for sharing your heart.

Me too, Darden. " there's no crying in baseball" Tom Hanks 1992

Tallu, You have moved from feeding countless stomachs to feeding countless souls. Your thoughts and words are so inspiring all of us, blessedly , beyond our expectations. Pray on, Angel!

I have to stop reading these at work. Sending lots of love and prayers to you and your family.