Today at 1 pm I will meet my surgeon and oncology team. We will talk about the results of my final biopsy and a treatment plan. I have more emotions than I expected to have right now. Anger, sadness, fear, etc.. My faith is weak. I'm going through most of this physically alone or surrounded by negativity and coldness. My question lately has been, "Why this way, God?" Why always the valley and the lowest of lows? If the plan is to prosper and not to harm, I'm not walking in it right now, nor have I been for my entire life. I keep flash backing to all of the painful circumstances and praying that it doesn't end in more tragedy when I've never even known true joy. Just some thoughts. So that you all know how to best pray for me and my family. Today is just tough ❤