He gives strength to the weary,and to him who lacks might he increases power. Though youths grow weary, and tired, and vigorous young men stumble badly, those who hope (wait) for the Lord will gain new Strength ;they will Sprout (Mount up)/with wings/ pinions like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary. Isaiah 40:30-31. Just like your photo of you running with the Rockies behind you sure you've seen a magnificent bird or eagle soar and take flight. Just think of yourself soaring above on our wonderful Windstream totally relaxed and calm while you fly above all the turmoil below. Sleep tight.

Leslie said that you can't read anymore and not to email you which is why I made the statement about listening to things audio if you can't read anymore. From what I now understand about ALS the eyesight muscles aren't affected as quickly.How is your eyesight doing?

Will do what I can to hook up with people from the funeral I mentioned to you of the person that started the Ice Bucket Challenge and raised couple hundred million for ALS.

P.s.s.my sister has created a fictitious story about me and has kept me from my nephews and my brother-in-law to maintain her fictitious story. Please have your parents communicate with me and not my sister about me. Also what I mentioned about expenses for growing my dog might have sounded odd .I don't have a bathtub where I live or a sink to fit her in. I can only imagine what you're going through with those needs and you are in my prayers obviously. My shower is so small I can't clean myself properly, no room to bend the knee to clean the bottom of your feet for example and have to use the one at the gym where the temperature is controlled for teenagers on the swim team and is really too cold.

P.S. pls inform your parents this email site is a fictitious name. I cannot use my personal email account on other people's devices. Any information they have that is not from me is erroneous distorted& their distress unless it's about my economic loss and the need to have my electronics appliances clothing Furniture replaced books music stereo... is unwarranted. they should immediately NOT communicate about me with anyone except me.tkuvm. hope they are doing well. I've always been so proud of them keeping their marriage together. Obviously they have been in my prayers for Comfort finances strength Etc.

Stephen thought explain to you adequately reason I have to use this email is because I lost everything I owned in 2012 .smart phone use for email has been needed to replace for almost a yr now .Besides all of my clothing all of my furniture all my appliances & all my electronics were stolen. Also all of my dogs clothing, food,food bowl,water bowl , her leash toys, her bed.My dog has hair not fur it was below 0° here so she needs clothes and Boots to go outside. Etc. Even now 8 years later I don't have any kitchen appliances cheap ones from Walmart broke years ago. Obviously $150 TOTAL Bed Bath & Beyond gift card over last 8 years has not done anything to replace kitchen basic necessities. all the things you know of when you donated & moved. includes my electronics. Bec had a home office ( I was Pres &CEO of nonprofit for 2 decades ) also lost my computers printers ink cartridges stationary on & on. had 6 gold cross pens now I have to ask for them whenever I'm someplace that has a stack of pens. My immediate family gave me one $100 Staples gift card about half a decade ago lol .That's supposed to replace everything. is quite an issue to try to send an email. Sometimes it can take up to 3 hours to be able to send an email. Pls explain this to Bill & Ann as informed they are distressed. My sister has an issue w/ facts & distorts them, what few she knows since she was 15when I left home and we have not had a relationship in the decades since which has been so painful for me I don't want to trouble you with it. nothing I can do to fix the relationship problem she causes in my life so far with my doctor and after apologizing for that a decade later did the same thing with my private pro bono attorneys I won't trouble you with the millions of tort damages she has cost me.. please do have your parents not communicate with my sister about me and communicate with me directly. It may take me a while to get back to them because of the inability to replace a quarter of a million dollars worth of personal property in addition to paying for the regular expenses of life.. amount of time she spent finding out that ur parents were distress & and telling me instead of having them communicate w/ me she could have ordered on Amazon phone I need to be replaced instead of fraudulently applying for state benefits with my ssn# to get a cheap State phone which does is not a smartphone and wouldn't solve the email problem anyway. she's not supposed to have my ssn#, let alone use it & this problem wouldn't be there. but she gets more enjoyment making me look bad then just solving the problem. Why would your parents be distressed that I lost everything and I can't afford to replace it all even I need $7,000 for my gums & teeth? I have done my best to inform my immediate family that I needed the smart phone replaced Samsung Galaxy J-3 almost a year ago it's our only $100 I think my sister's phone is probably over a thousand. and I haven't asked your parents for a thing so while I'm trying to get by in a vacant apartment without even a table to eat on... I'm just going to leave it to prayer as the Book of James in the New Testament says that if we love the world were enemies of God so I do the best I can .certainly shouldn't stress your parents my lack of basic needs necessities.. and I'm sure there are quite a lot of expenses That they have so certainly economic stress should be something they commiserate with not get distressed by. have been using a cheap Samsung Galaxy J-3 and ask for it to be replaced for about a year now it doesn't work properly but my immediate family has lost what little interest they had in the first place in the expenses of helping me replace my over 1/4 of a million dollars worth of Lost personal property most emotionally expensive were my Bibles pictures of my father my small but excellent stereo and my praise music and economically damaging loss the over $10,000 of text & tax books & notes from my Harvard graduate school education that are irreplaceable. had 5 fur coats./shawls,boa.Why this is distressing your parents I don't understand I guess I didn't explain clearly that it is difficult for me to communicate w/ broken phone which is what I use for emails. I do not want my emails on other people's devices. Not to mention phone calls. Someone sent me a government phone but it is not a smartphone .it's also so cheap it was broken right from the box so I believe it's the person that told me your parents are distressed that has my SS# and is fraudulently using it which distresses me. this is distressing your parents otherwise I wouldn't trouble you. But I don't know their email as if I did I would have sent this email to them. I also don't have basic things like undergarments shoes clothing so it's not just Electronics & Appliances. In fact less than 48 hours ago in my toilet clogged & I didn't even have a plunger. It was quite a disaster. I live under a tremendous amount of stress and with all these basic needs my sister tried to send me on a $3,000 Cruise $5000 total which I said was absurd that I need dental care and so does my dog so she took the cruise herself!! I just can't wrap my brain around her taking that cruise and not even apologizing for it. But God understands trampling on the poor &I know it outrages him even more than I can comprehend. that fit and shoes that fit My immediate family will send me things like shoes that are 4 sizes small Etc. Or they will buy new shoes without me being in the store to see whether or not they fit and not give me the receipt so I can return or exchange them when they're not the right size. the list goes on. Hopefully we'll all just be able to laugh at this 1 day. I am convinced that she's faking expenses & she still has trustees but she denies it in 2016 the only thing she got me to replace a vacant apartment was a multi-pronged outlet and a swimsuit with top & bottom cover. This past year she has given me zero to replace my personal property. I have repeatedly told her my dog needs to be groomed every six weeks she's paid for one grooming not even on dog's B'Day several weeks ago. I haven't had a haircut in almost half a decade. She all for me one for my birthday But they are supposed to help me with car expenses which they haven't paid for the taxes the needed repairs to get an inspection sticker which was due back in May or oil change I've had tires vandalized so how am I supposed to get to the hair salon in the first place? Just meditating on the Book of James where it says to consider all joy when You Face Trials of all types because they test our faith which is of Greater worth than gold so that's what I've been thinking about for the last 40 minutes or so. I remember in Bible school 1 class we went around room each of us said our problems .then we pick somebody in the room to pray for. It was such a relief knowing that the problem that I was praying for the other person had wasn't the problems that I had!!! Out of all my years at bible college that's about the only class I remember! So hopefully this list of life challenges will encourage you that God knows each of our burdens but His mercies are new every morning Bible tells us in Lamentations 3:22-23.book of James help me this morning nasb is translation I like. If you have internet you can listen to it audio if you're having trouble reading. Just say "nasb James audio" then choices will come up including a box with YouTube Arrow and then you just press it.

This may sound weird and obviously years before you need to know it but I'm staring at some apples now and I remember hearing a story about a woman who I don't even know how to explain the whole thing but they found her diary while she was trying to survive and I'm staring at Apples I have that were donated to me so I have food and that's all she lived on and she looked at them and knew that she didn't have whatever time anyway those of us who know our time is limited have a different perspective on things but at least you're in a place right now she was in an empty house no running water no heat no electric, cold place and she just lived until the apples ran out but that won't happen to you. Somewhat different but Joni Tada Erickson has a website and she really deals with making sure that people with disabilities survive and live. I think it's called Joni & Friends. She's help people in other countries that were crawling on the floor have some sort of crutches she had a diving accident when she was 17 and if she hadn't just dyed her hair blonde her sister never would have seen her drowning and she would have been dead but she's a Quadra paraplegic for life. Anyway not your condition but it's or seeing if her organization has any input into your situation. I can't think of any more research is public radio nonprofit organizations I'm stretching my mind in between my tears myself. You're in my prayers. Pls Keep me in yours if you have the energy.

Didn't get the proof read that last message anyway PBS had a Thursday thing they do on economics 2 people run a company called r i p medical debt. They do not do it for individual people!!! So please have your family loved ones look into how these people aggregate the medical bills. It was part of PBS show called "making sense "by Paul solman. They get 10000 requests over for people who are dying so they can't do anything for individual people. They did not explain how they aggregate the bills that they do end up paying individual people's bills. Furthermore what I was trying to say is Peter frates was buried or had a service today he raised two hundred million !!!dollars for ALS doing the Ice Bucket Challenge .brought a lot of media attention to it and is being brought to again today because they had services for him today. So hang in there National media at least in New England and the area I'm in had this on every 5-6 o clockwhatever news even though it was Boston and I'm in Rhode Island. Don't lose hope. And the most hope is just having a right heart with God and knowing you'll be in the right place when you step over to the other side forever. It happens to all of us. You just happened to know a little bit sooner than the rest of mankind who mistakenly think they have the obituary tables of the insurance company's lifespan. Be encouraged God loves you.& more importantly 2nd Corinthians which I cried out to the Lord and my pain this morning he's the God of All Comfort. And I know in my time right now I need comfort.

Most important thing you can do right now is read and memorize and meditate on Bible verses. God has not left you he loves you he will strengthen you but you must know the bible verses to hang on to. The devil is an adversary Ephesians chapter 6 that will try to destroy you. All you have to do is ask God and His angels to stand up and protect you. It's much easier if you can quote Bible verses. Just start anywhere start in the middle and Psalms. Then read anything Matthew Mark Luke or John. I have lost everything and gone through hell and back so I know what it's like to be in the abyss. I'm talking to you from someone that has gone through hell and back.

It breaks my heart that you are having to go through this. It seems so ridiculously unfair. We think of you often and I hope you are at least finding little joys in the time with your parents. My love to you and the family - Sam P.