Journal entry by Mark Hofman —
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dls4YOM9n1g
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A couple of Psalms that I have enjoyed listening to that have brought/bring me comfort, and I just like them. They are by a couple who goes by the name Poor Bishop Hooper.
Last year at this time we rejoiced over the news of my bone marrow biopsy. This year has been a year of rejoicing and giving thanks for clean blood, having more time to watch my children grow, and to watch my husband and myself age. I imagine that when I am in my 70's I will laugh at this comment and say, "You're so young in your 40's." It is wonderful to grow old.
It is wonderful to enjoy the everyday moments. Last year when I was finally strong enough to do laundry I thought, "This is amazing! I'm doing laundry!" I try to remember that...I don't think it is so amazing now. It's back to being kind of ordinary. Life is a matter of perspective. Being diagnosed with leukemia was a lot of things: filled with fear at all turns. It pointed me to focus on my faith and what I find comfort in. The presence, and care, of a personal, loving God. This isn't to say that I don't still have fear. I pray about this everyday. I usually do at bedtime, when I pray with my children. If I don't mention it, my oldest always does. We live with it just like everybody has something they live with. Yet we know that those who live in the shelter will find rest. We are covered and take refuge in the knowledge that there is someone who has a plan. This brings peace through the fear.
You have all helped me find this peace. You have prayed, you have supported us, you have done so much. Thank you. Please continue to pray for health and healing.
Many Blessings,
Stephanie
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dls4YOM9n1g
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVy6M1gWNmo
A couple of Psalms that I have enjoyed listening to that have brought/bring me comfort, and I just like them. They are by a couple who goes by the name Poor Bishop Hooper.
Last year at this time we rejoiced over the news of my bone marrow biopsy. This year has been a year of rejoicing and giving thanks for clean blood, having more time to watch my children grow, and to watch my husband and myself age. I imagine that when I am in my 70's I will laugh at this comment and say, "You're so young in your 40's." It is wonderful to grow old.
It is wonderful to enjoy the everyday moments. Last year when I was finally strong enough to do laundry I thought, "This is amazing! I'm doing laundry!" I try to remember that...I don't think it is so amazing now. It's back to being kind of ordinary. Life is a matter of perspective. Being diagnosed with leukemia was a lot of things: filled with fear at all turns. It pointed me to focus on my faith and what I find comfort in. The presence, and care, of a personal, loving God. This isn't to say that I don't still have fear. I pray about this everyday. I usually do at bedtime, when I pray with my children. If I don't mention it, my oldest always does. We live with it just like everybody has something they live with. Yet we know that those who live in the shelter will find rest. We are covered and take refuge in the knowledge that there is someone who has a plan. This brings peace through the fear.
You have all helped me find this peace. You have prayed, you have supported us, you have done so much. Thank you. Please continue to pray for health and healing.
Many Blessings,
Stephanie
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