Journal entry by Jen Adams —
Day + 209
I never would’ve thought when this cancer journey began, that less than a year we would enter hospice care.
Reality, it is becoming overwhelming for my wife alone to simply take care of me. There are moments, and I have seized them to do the radio show, but buy and large most of my days are filled with extreme fatigue and weakness. Now I’m having reaction to a new medication they’re giving me and I have been vomiting quite a bit over the last week. I share this information because so many of you hear me on the radio and thought there’s no way this guy is exiting this earth. He sounds normal. Well, on Friday while I did not say, I’m done, and there is not a finality to the possibility of me doing one more or two shows it’s becoming such an overwhelming challenge.
I want to say thank you to all of you for your continued prayers, your thoughts, your well wishes. And I may be greedy, I asked that you continue those for my wife and daughter. My moments on this earth are now being evaluated in days. But let me just say once more, what a great life I’ve had! I’ve been blessed with so many gifts, the most amazing wife and partner, I could’ve ever had in this world and honor… And true pleasure of being a dad.
We went to the bone marrow clinic this morning to probably get my final round of platelets. My entire team at the University of Kansas health system has been not only amazing, but compassionate and if you have a loved one or family member that is looking at a journey like ours I highly recommend them.
I hope to post another one or two more times before I’m called home. But please keep in your heart those who are just finding out about a journey in cancer or terminal disease. So many people whose outcome will be better than mine there’s always hope. I’ve never given up, I’ve simply accepted God‘s will.
I am strongly reminded of the sacrifice that was made for me to be able to have such acceptance.
We love you all,
Brian, Jen & Brianna
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