Hi my dear, when i read this the first time, i didn't take time to respond but i so desperately want you to know your journal entries are such an inspiration and give me and the rest of us such truth in your journey. Thank you Lisa. Thank you for doing the both/and. Walking the pain and the presence of God is not done easily with balance and I appreciate how you express that and give me perspective in the journey God has me on as well. Love you friend. I love Jesus even more as I see His faithfulness in your life. Amen

Lisa,

I'm way behind the times here. I read this message and for the first time heard of Ron's death. I'm so very sorry!! I totally understand when you say that you HATE cancer. It was never a part of God's good creation. It was never supposed to be there and fortunately it will NOT be there in eternity. Man's sin has cause incalculable suffering in this world and it touches us all far too often. Ang's Mom died from cancer years ago. It was a terrible experience to go through, but losing a spouse must be the worst thing of all. I'm glad you are making progress and I trust the pain will continue to lessen over time, even though I'm sure that hole will never completely heal. May God's grace and presence sustain you and carry you each day.

I love reading your posts about your memories of Ron. I can just picture the two of you passing each other in your vehicles waving like bad men, blowing kisses, and yes Ron turning the steering wheel towards you. Haha I'm so glad you have so many great memories.

So I started reading your post with a smile on my face then I read the later part about Kati and with eyes welled up with tears your words "it's with the Sword of the Spirit in one hand and a white flag of surrender in the other." that reality hit. I pictured everyone who loves Kati so dearly doing that very thing. WOW! What a picture...

Thank you Lisa for loving well! May the Lord continue to grace you moment by moment!

Soo good to hear from you on this Memorial Day week end. Thank you for the update. Soo glad we have our God in our lives! Continue to remember. Have a great and Memorable Memorial Day. Prayers continue. Stat safe and well.-Kathryn

Well said, awe so true.

Think of you so often, Lisa...and am praying for you. Thanks for another great post. I can only imagine Ron's truck and how it was if you passed each other on the road! :) There was only one "Ron Hosler"! He was so special that we could never forget the one-of -a kind that he was. Thanks again for sharing your journey and updates, and your road through grief, loss, pain, adjustments and healing in the "New Normal" days that we are living. You are still standing, and God is taking you through....one day at a time as you continue to worship and seek Him through it all. You are an inspiration and blessing to many . It seems He is taking us all deeper these days. SO sorry to hear about Katie and her cancer. I had not heard ...and began praying for her....and Todd as soon as I read this. There seems to always be another situation to take to the Father. I will be praying. Love you dearly! <3

Such a heartfelt post, Lisa. Of the many things that struck me in it - your words about the very short list of things that really matter on this earth- so wise and so true. Thank you so much for writing this on your Saturday night. In solidarity with you for Kati & Todd, and prayers for you as you continue to heal from the loss of Ron. 💕

Lisa,
Your update is a tribute to Ron, an insightful observation(?) of grief, worship of God, and comPASSION for others.

In the fellowship of suffering, Jesus invites you to share your pain with Him and to identify (feel) a measure of the grieving pain He experienced. While He does so for multitudes seeking His Presence, there is still room for you in the Garden of Gethsemane to meet with Him there for this exchange.

You inspire us your pursuit of God.

Lovingly surrounding you in prayer❤. You deserve a PURPLE HEART for extraordinary courage and bravery!

I love you both so much.