I have had some very difficult days with depression and anxiety. Yesterday my sister asked me whether I was continuing my devotions and I said, "No." Other than saying memory verses before I fall asleep I was either too tired, depressed, vision challenged, or simply unmotivated. Today I got back to reading and I turned to one of my favorite passages from the book Praying Through Cancer. The message is that no matter how far we feel from God, he is holding us fast and will help us. Isaiah 41:13. I know this but I had to read it again. Waves of depression and anxiety can steer us away but God is never away from us.
As I was meditating, another thought came to me. I have been thinking of my previous 3 treatments as failures but they are not. They have gotten me this far:17 months since my diagnosis. I have already beaten the odds and I intend to keep doing so.
If you don't hear from me soon, it is probably due to side effects and I'll see if Sarah or Gayle can pop in for an update.
Off we go tomorrow with positive thoughts on this next weekly treatment.
Rejoice, always, as he holds us all fast in his hand.
17 Month Ovarian Cancer Survivor