Pat, so sorry things are going south, always enjoyed our camaraderie together.. you’re a nut. I get it, I just lost my wife, best buddy, lover, grandmother to my grandkids. To Her 2 positive cancer, in her chest, ( not in her breasts ) but as I reviewed it tends to move around. -11 brain tumors later. I’m a widow of 45 years. So a note to your best buddy. You’re not a survivor. You have just entered purgatory. It’s hell. Hold close to those how love you, feed off their love till you can stand on your own. It will never end. I’m so so so sorry the pain you will endure. I pray for you, your family, this what I can offer. It’s not fair !!
Rich.