Journal entry by Nicole Stoutenborough —
A moment...
As you wake up this morning, I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for your support. And share a little bit of what's going on in my brain...
I have not been told how many shirts have sold, I have not been given a dollar amount, I haven't even tried to imagine.
What I want to thank you for is sticking by me. Not giving up on ME.
I know that I am not the same person I was at this point last year. I have changed drastically, physically and emotionally.
Most of the time, I am still smiling and laughing.(this is shown in my typical FB selfies)
And then there's the side that doesnt get "caught" in a picture. The side of me that is snappy and quick to "go off".
This is someone I don't even know or like.
For those closest to me, you know this isn't me and you still help me get through my days and help me to remember who I am. THANK YOU.
There's a line, in this stupid cancer battle.
A line that I never would want any of my friends and loved ones to EVER experience. A simple comment can push you over this line and into what I am now learning is depression. And once you cross that line, it's so hard to crawl back.
I'm still trying. I'm still fighting. I just ask that you continue to be by my side and fight with me!
Thank you. Stick with me. It can only get better.
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