I have had an emotion couple of days. My poor husband has had to deal with more tears these last few days, than when we first found out we were experiencing this ectopic pregnancy. I have had to hold back more tears than I have in a long time.

When the article was published yesterday, it brought on a wave of emotions that I didn’t expect. It made me so thankful to be sharing the message of cesarean scar ectopic pregnancies, but it was so hard to see it in writing. I didn’t think that I would cry just reading it, but the feelings of just how deadly this can be resurfaced. I then experienced an outpouring of love and support from people I have never met, and from those that I have. This child is so loved and prayed for already, and I can’t thank everyone enough.

I have also gotten into contact with another woman who has already experienced this same pregnancy a couple of months ago, and safely delivered in the same hospital that I will be going to for my delivery. In fact, we are both from Northern Michigan. I never want another mother to go through this same condition, but it is so nice to know someone else who has, and has not only had a successful outcome, but was even seen in the same hospital as I will be! I have a renewed sense of wellbeing.

At the same time, having to go over my condition has brought about those terrifying feelings of impending disaster. Now, I don’t want anyone to think that I am not still believing and trusting that this pregnancy will in fact make it through with a viable, living, breathing perfect baby and momma, but sometimes a girl just worries. There are so many women, not just with scar pregnancies but with placenta accreta and placenta previa, that often feel the same way. These conditions can be so incredibly life threatening, that it feels like you are always waiting for something to go wrong. We have been so incredibly blessed so far in this pregnancy, we have honestly not experienced any big complications, other than my own anxiety. I just can’t wait to get to the point where I can finally hold my little boy. At that point this will all have been worth it.

If there are any mommas on here that would like to share their own personal stories on my page to encourage other mommas possibly going through the same, I encourage you to do so. Not just mommas going through scar pregnancies, though that is what this page is about, any momma that has had a hard pregnancy. Just knowing that another mother has been through something similar has been enough to calm my nerves more than a few times, and I hope to help other mommas feel that same sense of relief.

Stay strong and God bless,

-Mikki