Oh My Dear Sweet, Loving Big Brother. Reading YOUR words just made ME cry. I don't know why, but I NEEDED to talk to her today. REALLY needed to. And this was a place I thought she might "look". And even if she doesn't, or can't, I felt by putting down these words that I was speaking to her and that she was somehow, some essence of her, was receiving all of this emotion. It felt good to get it out of my head and my heart into a digital form that I can revisit in a couple of days to see if the emotions are still the same or if they've changed. It's a process right? Life. Such a process.