Hi y'all,
It's been a long minute since I posted. I've been dealing with life I guess.
So the out come after seeing the oncologist 3 more times since my surgery. 
I have Ovarian Low Malignant Potential Tumors Stage 1A. 
Which is probably one of the best outcomes. 
The tumor has the potential to grow back. She said it most likely will. We just don't know when. Since I have no ovaries, fallopian tubes, uterus, cervix, appendix or omentum the cancer would most likely go to another organ the spine, colon, etc. But if I can make it past the 5 year mark that would be great! I'll go in every 6 months to be checked with exams and a blood test. So my next appointment with the oncologist is in May. 
I do worry about it. I can't lie. I still get weird like shocking pain through out my stomach. I have back pain which I never had before. Im tired 😴. I can do things, go out, move around, and drive finally (woohoo). I just get wore out easily. But so much better then the past couple of months.
I'm looking to go back to work. I'll always be in health care it's my thing my calling. 
I sure do miss Regent Court that was my home away from home. My 2nd family. It will always be a part of me! 
If all goes well. I'll be attending the CNA course in March. I can move up from there. Im excited kinda, sorta, idk. 
I'm still a little lost. They say you find a new normal. You do, you do change. It's hard allot of times I cry without no one knowing. Even though I look the same. I don't feel the same. I don't feel like a hole person. I don't have the self confidence I once did. I don't feel pretty y'all. Now I'm crying. I've shut out the world per say. I go out to run errands or go visit Chaylia. It feels so good though when I do get out. It's hard to talk about. Cause you all probably like what is going on. No reason to feel like that. Unless you've been there you won't fully understand. And I pray none of you will ever have too.
I get all dolled up and go no where. But it makes me feel better. I miss all my friends. Some call and check on me. Others don't. It feels like I got the plague and no one wants to be around. I know I'm thought of often. That means the would to me. Im just in a low place right now. I'll come out of it. I always do! I have too! Im the postive one. Im the go getter. Im the one that makes everything better. 
I get to vent and express myself when I write. I write allot. Maybe I should share it here. 
I go to the doctor March 10th. For my legs. They were so swollen before I had surgery. Then it went away after. I had legs. I was so happy. They are swollen again. I absolutely hate it. So say a prayer 🙏🏻 that they figure it out. I can't wear my cute summer dresses with deformed legs lol. 
But all in all im good. Just alot has happened and I'm still trying to catch up to all of it. 
But nothing will or can stop me. I have a mission to accomplish. I make a difference in peoples lifes. But most of all I have 3 beautiful amazing children and 7 grandchildren too live for. And I'm sure I'll have more grandbabies ❤️
They are my heart and soul and they always make me smile. 
Until next time. 🦋